I don’t think I’ll like/reply to all the comments on this one (right away at least) cause the vent ones are just going to make me more upset than I already am and I don’t feel like doing that rn 🧍🏻 sorry sorry
Somehow your playlists enter my feed at either the best or worst times💀 but in a good way. Keep up the awesome playlists! (What I mean for worst times is when I'm reading a sad novel or sad comic and youtube suggests your playlists which make whatever media 10x sadder😭😭.)
this is for the people who fall in love with literally everyone they make an emotional connection with. one-sided love stories, with the other side only using you to their own advantage. i'm too pretty to be used by toxic men.
Immediately clicked to this as soon as I saw the title, haha! sorry for venting but uh, i couldn't talk to anyone. the girl who i actually fell inlove with, well- she actually just broke up with me. what a wonderful introduction to 2022. i gave her so many appreciation, motivation, i would always spend time to her, praying that she'll always be alright, not get sick and stuff. she never acted like she loved me, she just said words to me blankly. i only wanted someone to love, someone that'll be right beside me. but now that "someone" is gone. now we barely talk. now, i'm always scared to interact with them, cause it hurts me alot whenever i talk to them, remembering that memory when they said they fell inlove with another person. i was promised that 2022 will be a good time, but nevermind.
Am sorry you had go through that everyone has someone who breaks up with them even in virtual or in games am sorry that 2022 didn't start as how you wanted and you only wanted to be loved i hope your doing okay and having a great day i love you don't change you are perfect how you are you just needed someone better then them you just needed someone that really loved you have a nice day stay healthy virtual hugs being sent~!♡ '♡~♡`Loading'♡~♡` `♡~Virtual hugs has been sent ~♡`
Damn I’m early to one of these for once lmaooo All jokes aside this hit close to home ngl- (Slight vent + story bc I can) I had this girlfriend, we got together in 6th grade and she said she had had a huge crush on me since year 4 At first I didn’t like her back but I said yes to dating her, I accidentally fell in love with her. She was my everything, everything I did was related to her. We were a closest lesbian couple in a catholic school. Not fun. We never even got to kiss once, there was just awkward hugs, lovey dovey text messages, and drawings we did for each other that we snuck to each other at lunch. We went into year 7, new school. New year, we celebrated Valentine’s Day together. The more I fell in love the more it seemed she fell out. In may I think it was? She sent me an email saying I treated her more like a friend then a partner and that we should try other people. She said she still liked me just not as much as before. I told her we could try again in year 8 if she wanted, she agreed. It’s been 3 years, we never tried again. And I’m still not over her. I can’t bring myself to get into a romantic relationship because I can’t mentally handle it and I feel like I’m cheating even tho she’s moved on and had other relationships, and has had other crushes. I don’t ‘love’ her anymore I just. Miss her. So much. We’re still friends by the way. She doesn’t bring it up and neither do I. She’s changed so much and I still haven’t moved on. It’s stupid.
Dang, that hit close to home. I'm so sorry for you, though that seems like an empty phrase because I don't even know you, it hurts. It feels like you've been brushed off after putting so much into something. And you'll get through it.
This couldn't have come at a better time, I love all your playlists- dumb little vent incoming When the person you wanted to spend your life with, who gave you a reason to carry on, leaves to be with their childhood friend because you're not strong enough for the long distance and you're incapable of controlling your emotions- am I unfixable? I can't make it alone •́ ‿ ,•̀
I completely relate to you. I had the same with someone else, but they are too emotionally and mentally burnt out for a long term relationship. It's not that your fixable but rather expressing emotions, I do that too. If you want to control your emotions better, from my experience, I suggest having a one on one conversation with yourself. See what bothered you to feel that way, how to handle it better next time maybe! If you feel it's too much alone, friends you trust enough can help you! Hyping you up, reminding you you're special to this world and can make it. In the end all this hard work will have a reward in the end. I believe you can accomplish it ^w^💕
TW: vent, sewer slide mentions, self hsrm mentions, eating disorder mentions. :) Edit: I'm okay now! my significant other and I live in different countries, and it sucks, we have an 8hr difference, it's really hard to talk to them. sometimes, when I'm alone with my thoughts, sat in the floor in the middle of the night, I just think about being with them, cuddling, watching films, walks, random bursts of energy, kissing them. it's hard really hard, I feel so bad about feeling like this, I'm so lucky to have them, yet I'm complaining about it? I feel so shit about it. they were the one who helped me during my hardest times, when I wanted to kill myself, they were the only one there, they've helped me to stop self harming, they helped me when I was starving myself, they've helped me with coming out to my friends, I love them so much. thank you for being there for me.
VENTTT😍😍😍🙏 I swore that I wouldn’t come back to playlists that reminded me of them but here I am. It hurts so damn much that we can’t talk anymore. I wish I could’ve explained it to them and be on good terms but I abandoned them without explanation and it really hurts. I don’t know how they’ve been and what hurts most is that they’re blaming themselves for all the mess I did. I don’t deserve them. I wish I could genuinely wish from the bottom of my heart that they find happiness and comfort in other person but that thought simply destroys me. I want to be that person so bad. I can’t let go of them. Sometime I check up on them and they seem to be moving on but what if it’s all a lie?? Should I let go for their sake or keep hoping their love for me is still there.... intact ;-; (this is making me feel worse but whatever ig😸)
Oh my god, this represents me so much a few months ago and I think that feeling of loving someone who doesn't love you is coming back you know? this bad feeling of unrequited love. oh god....
I broke up with him because i was scared to hurt him because of my mental unstibility that makes me behave toxic. im scared he will find someone better. i dont want him to find someone new. im sorry.
/ vent so if you are not in the right headspace to read it or to comfort (comforting is optional no pressure) / I'm so triggered by everything now. LIterally everything, and no one can help me - and I'm social so when I isolate myself I just feel even worse and everyone is moving away, and I just don't like it anymore :(
Oof, I relate to that unfortunately- they say the worst thing to do when you're depressed is to isolate yourself, but sometimes there's just no one there (┬┬﹏┬┬) I'm only echoing the words of an old friend but hopefully they can help you- you have to stick around for the moments where you will be happier, you never really know what the future has in store for you, who you'll meet etc.
Total isolation helped me with that. Just for a bit. Obviously had to do things that involved people during that time but just kept it to a minimum. No social media or any social events after that. Eventually I sorted my thoughts and atp I was missing a good human interaction so I was ready to go back.
I love your playlists. Vent incoming!! You were the best thing that ever happened to me. You made me happy when I felt like giving up. You helped my through sleepless nights of crying and hurt. You filled in the space in my heart and I took advantage of that. I'm so sorry. I want you back and to get one more chance but I know that I have no right to be back in your life, so please enjoy yourself my love.
Small vent incoming! If you don’t like them, keep scrolling please :) I missed my chance. Not that i really had one, as i was the one who screwed us up in the first place. We were doing great for so long, but my parents pressured me into breaking up with her because they are homophobic. We’ve moved on. Well, at least she has. I missed being with her and hugging her, but we still talked as we had classes together. That one day came when she emailed me and said she still had feelings for me and wanted to try again, and of course, being pressured by my friends this time, i declined and got in a relationship with this guy i didn’t like. After i broke up with him after about 2 or 3 weeks, that feeling of wanting to have her close to me got worse. I had turned down a chance because I was pressured. Just like my parents pressured me to mess us up in there first place. I ended up with this other girl that i thought i liked. I had weak feelings for her for the first month, then they completely went away. I can’t leave this relationship, as they are not in a good mental state, and even though i do not love them, they are amazing and i don’t want them to feel how i still feel. I’ve been trying to get closer to the first girl, as i miss her so much. But she’s completely moved on, while i’m still stuck on her. She has a boyfriend now, and i have a girlfriend. but no matter what i do, the feelings for her won’t go away, and i hate it but love it. I just wish we could be together again, but I know it’s not possible. Dear M, if you are reading this somehow, please ignore this :) I don’t want anything to be awkward, and you are happy right now. I hope- Also, sorry for the vent- It feels better to rant about stuff and get it out, even if it’s to random people on the internet. Have a great day/night everyone 💕
my vent. i went to the kitchen earlier and took a pack of peanuts. my dad sayd "you always take our food without telling anyone! stop!!". i startet crying and got angry, so i threw the pack on the floor and stormed to my room. my dad just forbid me to eat. later my mum came in to give me dinner. i wasnt hungry, so i tried bringing the plate to the kitchen, but my mum leaned against the door. i kicked the door, bc im scared of beeing trapped/locked. she fell down, and my dad yelled at me. "WHATS YOUR PROBLEM?! CANT YOU BE NORMAL!?" when i wantet to get my food a few mins ago, my parents ate it. they didnt even leave it for me to eat later. my dad blamed it on me. he said "you werent hungry earlier! ofc were gonna eat it! its not my fault that your faking an eating disorder for attention!" im sorry dad. i just wanna eat.
i'm sorry you have to go through that, that sounds horrible. i wish I could help physically, but I can't, so just know you're not alone. your parents are treating you poorly and you don't deserve it. stay strong, I believe in you. you can get through this, and again, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. stay safe :(
This playlist actually helps me really because when I'm in my room alone and I'm feeling down I play this while I cry in my sleep without self-harm to myself or I just drink my monsters while I cry outside Or just maybe take small vape time its really rare for me to vape so yeah
Hey read my message if you're sad or upset (and feel free to vent if you want ofc) I'm proud of you for waking up I'm proud of you for brushing your hair I'm proud of you for breathing I'm proud of you for making your bed I'm proud of you for eating I'm proud of you for trying to eat I'm proud of you for drinking water I'm proud of you for being here I'm proud of you for being you I'm proud of you for smiling I'm proud of you for continuing uneven when things get difficult for you I'm proud of you for standing up I'm proud of you for blinking I'm proud of you for getting out of your bed after spending the whole day in bed I'm proud of you for standing up I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth I'm proud of you for sitting down I'm proud of you for defending yourself I'm proud of you for believing in yourself I'm proud of you for simply trying I'm proud of you for being alive I'm proud of you for going to school or work I'm proud of you for not ending it all yet and having hope there will be a better day or a better tomorrow I'M PROUD OF YOU ♥️😊♥️ By: Father C./Me Hey if you got this far in the message I just wanted to let you know that I'm thankful and this made you smile ☺️
Great Playlist!! Even tho you decided to ghost me, I still love you, I just can't get myself to hate you. I'm sorry I was acting weird, but you've no idea about how I got scolded for being in contact with you. I just got controlled by anxiety and didn't know what to do. I know I should've been truthful but you were already going through some important stuff and some bs, I didn't wanna add to it. I'm not sure if the you I remember is the actual you or just an idealized picture of you that my obsession with you has drawn on my mind. You were the best. I made you my number one, but unfortunately I wasn't yours. There's a comfy place for you iny heart if you ever wanna come back tho..
thank you for this one, it's the perfect time for it (vent) i've been feeling myself drifting away from so many people in my life and i don't want to be doing that. but it's so hard not to, i do it when i am excessively anxious or depressed, so other don't have to deal with me. but in the end, it doesn't benefit anyone. i wish i could easily accept that people will stick with me through my hard times but to me that doesn't seem possible. why would anyone want to stick around for that side of me?
@@sokelu2h501 thank you. it's comforting to know others feel the same way and just really understand. I too hope we both can get better! you deserve it! I hope you too have a good day/night/life! much love
Oh damn...I started listening to this playlist a few days ago and my gf literally just broke up with me yesterday...this hit different now.. Ps: we're still on good terms, we were amazing friends before we started dating, and I don't want the breakup to ruin that, although I'm kinda distancing myself from her at the moment. We only broke up because she didn't love me romantically, she wanted to really bad, but couldn't.
im sorry if this turns to a vent (seriously, i just need to say a few things) but thank you for your playlists, it really helps . i just got dumped exactly last week and everyone at school found out , people swarming me and him, people hitting him and people hugging me after i said no , the akwardness against me and other people who confessed to me during the 7 months of the relationship . the people who had left where back to talk behind my back like it was my fault , "you should be glad other guys still want you, you have pretty privilege," other girls walking up to me letting me know that the people i had trusted had said things about me , claiming ive already started flirting with other kids because i had complimented somebodys shirt.
I'm really sorry for all the people in the comments venting about relationships/friendships/family bonds,etc.. I've never had a couple nor I had crushes, I also didn't think much about "friends" that left me but I bet it feels very bad to lose someone you really loved and cared about, just seeing my mother after my father's death made me realize that Just remember that everything's gonna change someday, and you'll find that special someone, it takes time and patience to build any kind of bond so don't lose hope !! :))
My crush and I plan on getting together once we're older, but I want them to know that I fall for a lot of people at once. I still love them with everything I have, but I also love other people. It's difficult. Feelings are difficult. Everything is just so hard when you're young. My thirteenth birthday is coming up, I shouldn't be feeling this way at such a young age but I am.
Oml I love ALL of your playlists you always choose the BEST SONGS! I can never get bored of them I keep returning back just to listen to your playlists over and over again, especially whenever I'm going through something I always enjoy listening to these, THANK YOU AND I HOPE FOR MORE IN THE FUTURE!!❤
Tw: vent coming, I'm sorry. What is love? I don't think I've ever truly felt it. People I value a lot, when I'm near them I get a warm feeling inside, but I mistake that for love. And then I get frustrated with myself. I love everyone I ever get close to, but it's never mutual. I don't like it. Because when I don't have anyone to speak to, the overbearing loneliness consumes me. I left a toxic friend group a while back. Even though I suffered constant abuse from them, I feel so lonely now. They told me to kill myself so much, it doesn't really impact me anymore. I loved them, so much. They meant so much to me, and I was weird to them. I was a disposable jester. Who was there when they needed comfort, but who was there for me? I'm crumbling. I still love you. I want to go back. I can't take it anymore. Why am I like this. I look back at old messages, you pushed me to the end of the line. Why did I continuously run right back? You made me feel ugly inside and out. Yet I thought you were the most beautiful thing.. You fucking shattered all of my soul, I hope you're happy. And you, we were best friends. When you got bored, you would shred my arms up with metal wires from masks, and I let you. Because I was so scared of being abandoned or lonely, that I couldn't ask you to stop. Also you covered me in so many dandelions, my mum nearly phoned up the school. I'm not even a teen yet, and you still made me experience all of this in a year. I'm not allowed to feel sorry for myself. Because you drilled so far into my skull the memo that I was pathetic. That even now, I can't think of everything you said to me without telling myself that I was stupid. Everything was my fault according to you. That was one of your flaws, you blamed me for all of your mistakes. Made me feel so useless. Now all I feel like is a burden, and I can't admit this to anyone without feeling awful. How fucking dare you waltz into my life, and make me pry myself off of you and make me feel like this. If by chance, either of you are reading this. I fucking hate you, and hope you burn. But, I still love you at the same time. I hate you for doing this to me. How dare you. How dare you..
I hate feeling this way. I can’t fall in love without being in constant fear that they will leave me. I know they didn’t mean to make me feel this way. But now I can’t see things the way I used to. I wish, that just for 5 minutes, they could love me like they did before. That maybe we could say I love you one last time. I would give anything for an alternate ending with them. It hurts to know that I will never hear from them again. That I’ll never hear them talk about the things they loved. I can’t help but think there was something I could’ve done to stop them. It’s too late now. I feel responsible and ik I shouldn’t. I’m sorry for venting I just really needed to;;
I don't have a way of coping, but when I write I accidently make my character spill things about them to people they want to spill it from, and afterwards they return back to normal. But that's how I want to be, I want to spill out everything without crying, because crying makes it harder for me to talk and focus on what I'm saying, so the best way for now is to type it out.
Thank you for making these it helps greatly. :) If your reading this don’t forget that your smile lights up a room and that your absolutely stunning. I love you. ❤️
I think about my life and how I wanted to end it before we got together. You made me so happy. You made me feel like I was a normal person. You made me feel like I could be my self around you. You made me feel like I was wanted. I felt safe enough to open up to you because you made it seem like you actually gave a fuck. It’s ok tho. I’ll be alright
thanks for the playlist i love it sm just a vent V okay so ive been friends with this girl since preschool, and now we’re both in 7th grade. I’ve enjoyed it until this year really, because whenever i’m trying to be myself and make the jokes that i think are funny, she gets mad and tells her parents, which tell MINE, and then my parents get mad at me. I don’t think i want to be her friend anymore but i feel so pressured by her and my parents because we have been friends for so long. I just can’t be myself around her anymore. it’s so frustrating and i just want to tell her. I tried to break it off awhile ago but her mom told mine and she got mad at me and made us keep being friends i hate it so much in this friendship.
Vent here: I recently lost a good friend of mine and we kinda had a thing for a bit, it didn't work out and I was ok with that as long as we were still in each other's lives. Cut to today where I haven't talked to her in almost an entire month now. Wish I could say that it was entirely on her, cause I'm a petty person, but that would be downplaying my part in it. She started to pull away from me for a reason I still don't know, and she would hardly respond, this went on for something like a month before I confronted her about it. I could've been nicer about it sure, but I was tired, tired of being pushed away, tired of her acting like I hardly existed. So I ended up acting like an asshole, and she blocked me on everything, which is fair. I miss her, not that my pride would let me admit it to her face. I don't know if I'll ever hear from her again, but honestly I don't know which would be better in the long run, her unblocking me and we go back to barely talking, or us continuing not talking at all.
my best friend recently cut me off, it was the best for them so im ok with it, it was my fault as i started dating their ex and someone who had made them feel afraid, i cant help but miss them, i tell myself "it was just an online friendship you can live without them" but the days we spent together, the time we sang on a voicechat late at night, the times we played games together, the spelling errors that made us laugh so much, they were like a sibling to me, we were similar in every way, and it went out the window just like that, so fast and ik it was my fault, i just want them to know im sorry and that i wish the best for them N if youre somehow reading this, ill always be glad that we were able to meet, thank you for how much you helped me and if we never talk again, i hope we meet eachother in the next ecosystem
i dont care about all manipulation, using me for my body, not caring about me and other stuff,, i just really miss you. I know i was angry but im not anymore so please answer my message and love me again. no one loved me like you and i miss it so much please pay attention to me again
tiny story basically vent god it hurts seeing him everyday at class. i cant move on at all i love him so damn much, its been 3 years and i still havent moved on goddammit. he is a rude person but had an soft spot for me. our relationship was going pretty good until a girl from my class ruined everything. i wasnt feeling well and didnt come to school without knowing he has prepared my fav snacks for me. the girl opene his bag secretly and saw the snacks and saw the paperflower i made for him and thats how she knew i was in a relationship with him cause im the only one in the class who is good at paper crafts. she took out the flower and took a selfie with it lying that her boyfriend gave it to her and annoyed him. he took the wrong idea and thought i told my friend that i was in a relationship with him then my friend told the girl who opened his bag. he didnt want anyone to know abt our relationship and i respected that. i woke up to a breakup message from him...'hey i told you i didnt want anyone to know our relaionship but your friend told the girl in our class?? so lets just break up ok? you started this, sorry.' wow. just wow. he left so easily like i was nothing and i told him that he misunderstood but he didnt seem to care at all. i wish that girl never opened his bag secretly.
Now, as a recovering "manipulative asshole" type, I should let you know, that guy was probably well, a manipulative asshole. Before i started trying to be a better person, and going to therapy, i would pretend to like everyone i dated, ALOT more than i actually liked them. SOoo, if he's pretty rude, and broke up THAT FAST, he was probably putting up an act. My advice is try to reflavor your love as hate, that way it wont bother you so much. - advice from someone with multiple mental illnesses, who has been very toxic and manipulative in the past, take with a mountain-sized grain of salt.
I honestly don’t feel like venting. Never mind. TW!: Stressed thoughts:) I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate school so much. Why are people here. Why are they invented. Why am I here. Why are my friends scary. Why do people hate me. Why do they hate furries. Why do they send me de@th thre@ts. Why are my parents so protective. Why does the one person I love do distant sometimes. Why does someone keep bullying me. I’m screaming for help.. But nobody can hear me in the forest.
Well humans must blame smth or someone fr their probs don't they? So what better option than to choose a person with imagination and love for their craft. Also we bare rats don't like furry things. U might already be outta school if yr reading this. Hope yr doing gd my furry frnd. (Also I have no respect fr this soup of a Lang so ignore the grammer)
hey! really love the playlist! (slight vent dbckjdbcjerbvcuec) so even though everyone is so nice to me i feel like people hate me. its gotten to the point where i do sh (dont worry im like 1 month clean) but then im so skinny yet i starve my self. it doesnt make sense. im at the that bridge where i cross it or not. if i do i can fix my life. yet the option in my head is to jump instead. but i know i shouldnt. then when i try to keep a realationship it doesnt work. it sucks. life sucks.
Dear mauli, I don't know how many more comments I'll write just for them to get lost in the sea of others, All I know is that it's three am and am thinking about you once again The soft toy you gave me on valentines hugged loosely in my arms but too scared to fully let go. I miss you, a part of me wishes a miracle would bestowed upon me and you so we could fall in love once again. And not fall out of it I don't understand whether you care or not I see you staring I see you being loud on purpose I see you seeing me Making sure that I see you I see you I wish I could do more than that But that's just futile thinking I don't think we'll ever be together again after the pain you have caused You were someone else at the start And you slowly drifted apart from me Sometimes I make excuses for you like before like maybe I was overreacting But I did not It's my second time going through a heart break And you've been the worst Giving me mix signals Telling me sweet words All bark, just as much as you love dogs I should've realised you were one, You never knew me neither did I knew you We just knew each other's presence Touch and smell I still remember how your lips feel like How it feels to pinch your ears, Your soft jaw line and how it feels to wrap my arms around you, how it feels to run my fingers through that curly hair of yours. I miss being held by you You blowing air in my face Covering my mouth preventing me from kissing you just for the sake of teasing me.
Sneaking in your floor quietly knocking on your door before Waking up in the early morning sneaking back down after stealing kisses. I remember when it was nice. But I also remember when it was bad and I don't have the heart to write them down let alone speak of them. I still see you looking at me We made eye contact by accident And I hope you find love once more in the way you prefer Bye mauli you're probably sleeping right now, you're a deep slumber probably tossing around and snooring It makes me smile thinking about it Now after a while I'll put your gift in a carton box and bring it around just to hide it away But will never throw it I hope you're happy, Please take care of yourself have a good day tomorrow love you always to the moon and back I forgive you
light ranting // I really like not allowed, it's a pretty cool song, but it makes me sad as well. someone I really cared about liked this song a lot, but after I told them I also liked the song they told me I ruined it for them. they said it straight out and they apologized right after, but the fact that it was a sign we wouldn't stay together makes me feel sick inside. either way, I can't help but listen to it anyways
last night my friend went into their depression phase on phone. i hang up. i’m a bad friend i know. i already know everything about it. but i was just- too for me. for once, for the first time i had a fine day. like you know a real fine day. i never tell them my life because they will always talk about their and don’t care about what i was saying. so yeah they was depressed and i hang up on the phone because i was tired. tired of being the person you will go for venting when i have no one. it’s not that i don’t like them, i consider them as my family. i was just tired… nothing more. i’m sorry again. i just need a day, i’ll be here after this day i promise
I feel bad for you, and I hope your alright. I just want to say vent playlist make me feel better, and I want to thank you for that. :), sometimes it hard when you can't let go and your stuck with these feelings of love, loving someone you can't reach. Thats me, but whatever your going through i hope it gets better :D
he found someone else. he's only with me for my body. but to be honest, i dont mind it. as long as he uses me and only me. i hate the fact that i know what im doing and im ruining myself in the process.
I have a partner I loved since I was pretty young and they liked me back so we started dating a couple years after, and at first it was the best relationship I ever had and I loved them dearly and they loved me back. Now it feels like I’m starving for their affection and I have to fight to feel loved and they hurt me so much leaving me on read all the time and barely talking to me. I feel uncomfortable saying I love you to anyone now. I love them still but sometimes I resent them. I asked them if they still loved me recently and they said yes but it doesn’t feel like that. I’ve mentioned this 4 times now. I want to be let go. I don’t know what I did wrong.
(Vent) It was last year when we meet , it was fun and I developed feeling for him but he likes another girl and now their together meanwhile I'm here still loving him for a year now
I don’t think I’ll like/reply to all the comments on this one (right away at least) cause the vent ones are just going to make me more upset than I already am and I don’t feel like doing that rn 🧍🏻 sorry sorry
Hey it’s fine no need to apologize do what ever makes u feel comfortable!!
Np. Hope you feel better soon!
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these songs>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
Hope ur feeling great! =)
Somehow your playlists enter my feed at either the best or worst times💀 but in a good way. Keep up the awesome playlists! (What I mean for worst times is when I'm reading a sad novel or sad comic and youtube suggests your playlists which make whatever media 10x sadder😭😭.)
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that moment when all these songs remind you of them. they moved on but you never felt secured in how it all ended.
hit close
hit home
this is for the people who fall in love with literally everyone they make an emotional connection with.
one-sided love stories, with the other side only using you to their own advantage.
i'm too pretty to be used by toxic men.
not being rude but, i think my parents are the reason i can never know if im in a toxic relationship or not
Realll
this has happend to me before and its realy hard when i get attatched to ppl easyly
Immediately clicked to this as soon as I saw the title, haha!
sorry for venting but uh, i couldn't talk to anyone.
the girl who i actually fell inlove with, well- she actually just broke up with me. what a wonderful introduction to 2022.
i gave her so many appreciation, motivation, i would always spend time to her, praying that she'll always be alright, not get sick and stuff. she never acted like she loved me, she just said words to me blankly.
i only wanted someone to love, someone that'll be right beside me.
but now that "someone" is gone.
now we barely talk.
now, i'm always scared to interact with them, cause it hurts me alot whenever i talk to them, remembering that memory when they said they fell inlove with another person.
i was promised that 2022 will be a good time, but nevermind.
youll find someone who loves and cherishes you a lot dont worry! the right person will find you or youll find them
Am sorry you had go through that everyone has someone who breaks up with them even in virtual or in games am sorry that 2022 didn't start as how you wanted and you only wanted to be loved i hope your doing okay and having a great day i love you don't change you are perfect how you are you just needed someone better then them you just needed someone that really loved you have a nice day stay healthy virtual hugs being sent~!♡
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isnt it funny how we're both in the same situation
So... Did 2022 get any worst or did it get better?
Damn I’m early to one of these for once lmaooo
All jokes aside this hit close to home ngl-
(Slight vent + story bc I can)
I had this girlfriend, we got together in 6th grade and she said she had had a huge crush on me since year 4
At first I didn’t like her back but I said yes to dating her, I accidentally fell in love with her. She was my everything, everything I did was related to her. We were a closest lesbian couple in a catholic school. Not fun. We never even got to kiss once, there was just awkward hugs, lovey dovey text messages, and drawings we did for each other that we snuck to each other at lunch. We went into year 7, new school. New year, we celebrated Valentine’s Day together. The more I fell in love the more it seemed she fell out. In may I think it was? She sent me an email saying I treated her more like a friend then a partner and that we should try other people. She said she still liked me just not as much as before. I told her we could try again in year 8 if she wanted, she agreed. It’s been 3 years, we never tried again. And I’m still not over her. I can’t bring myself to get into a romantic relationship because I can’t mentally handle it and I feel like I’m cheating even tho she’s moved on and had other relationships, and has had other crushes. I don’t ‘love’ her anymore I just. Miss her. So much. We’re still friends by the way. She doesn’t bring it up and neither do I. She’s changed so much and I still haven’t moved on. It’s stupid.
Dang, that hit close to home. I'm so sorry for you, though that seems like an empty phrase because I don't even know you, it hurts. It feels like you've been brushed off after putting so much into something. And you'll get through it.
This couldn't have come at a better time, I love all your playlists- dumb little vent incoming
When the person you wanted to spend your life with, who gave you a reason to carry on, leaves to be with their childhood friend because you're not strong enough for the long distance and you're incapable of controlling your emotions- am I unfixable? I can't make it alone •́ ‿ ,•̀
I completely relate to you.
I had the same with someone else, but they are too emotionally and mentally burnt out for a long term relationship.
It's not that your fixable but rather expressing emotions, I do that too.
If you want to control your emotions better, from my experience, I suggest having a one on one conversation with yourself. See what bothered you to feel that way, how to handle it better next time maybe!
If you feel it's too much alone, friends you trust enough can help you!
Hyping you up, reminding you you're special to this world and can make it. In the end all this hard work will have a reward in the end. I believe you can accomplish it ^w^💕
What if I don't have friends
i miss him so bad, he said he would wait for me. but then he found..yet another star.
TW: vent, sewer slide mentions, self hsrm mentions, eating disorder mentions. :)
Edit: I'm okay now!
my significant other and I live in different countries, and it sucks, we have an 8hr difference, it's really hard to talk to them. sometimes, when I'm alone with my thoughts, sat in the floor in the middle of the night, I just think about being with them, cuddling, watching films, walks, random bursts of energy, kissing them. it's hard really hard, I feel so bad about feeling like this, I'm so lucky to have them, yet I'm complaining about it? I feel so shit about it. they were the one who helped me during my hardest times, when I wanted to kill myself, they were the only one there, they've helped me to stop self harming, they helped me when I was starving myself, they've helped me with coming out to my friends, I love them so much. thank you for being there for me.
I don't feel like venting, so I just want to wish all of you well, even if times are hard, keep trying to hold on
i have a lot of friends and people i can talk to but i feel lonely anyway. i feel like im making a problem out of nothing but the feeling wont stop
VENTTT😍😍😍🙏
I swore that I wouldn’t come back to playlists that reminded me of them but here I am. It hurts so damn much that we can’t talk anymore. I wish I could’ve explained it to them and be on good terms but I abandoned them without explanation and it really hurts. I don’t know how they’ve been and what hurts most is that they’re blaming themselves for all the mess I did. I don’t deserve them. I wish I could genuinely wish from the bottom of my heart that they find happiness and comfort in other person but that thought simply destroys me. I want to be that person so bad. I can’t let go of them. Sometime I check up on them and they seem to be moving on but what if it’s all a lie?? Should I let go for their sake or keep hoping their love for me is still there.... intact ;-; (this is making me feel worse but whatever ig😸)
seeing Wilbur in these playlist videos makes me so happy
I love his music
fr ❤❤ As a former DSMP fan who still checks in on the old cc’s, I love him the most and I’m so glad his music is becoming a huge hit.
@@WolfyloverAlyssa same, his small dream is a huge hit and I just feel so happy for him
i'mma be honest- this playlist for some reason helped me draw- also it made me feel way better
Idk why but every time I'm on my lowest I listen to playlist like this and it somehow helps
Oh my god, this represents me so much a few months ago and I think that feeling of loving someone who doesn't love you is coming back you know? this bad feeling of unrequited love. oh god....
I love your playlists! Please don't stop.
I broke up with him because i was scared to hurt him because of my mental unstibility that makes me behave toxic. im scared he will find someone better. i dont want him to find someone new. im sorry.
I do miss them. But they became toxic and manipulative. I lost myself. But I found who I really was all because of someone I didn’t even know. :D
Real
these songs make me feel safe, but unwanted at the same time. 💔
/ vent so if you are not in the right headspace to read it or to comfort (comforting is optional no pressure) /
I'm so triggered by everything now. LIterally everything, and no one can help me - and I'm social so when I isolate myself I just feel even worse and everyone is moving away, and I just don't like it anymore :(
Oof, I relate to that unfortunately- they say the worst thing to do when you're depressed is to isolate yourself, but sometimes there's just no one there (┬┬﹏┬┬)
I'm only echoing the words of an old friend but hopefully they can help you- you have to stick around for the moments where you will be happier, you never really know what the future has in store for you, who you'll meet etc.
Total isolation helped me with that. Just for a bit. Obviously had to do things that involved people during that time but just kept it to a minimum. No social media or any social events after that. Eventually I sorted my thoughts and atp I was missing a good human interaction so I was ready to go back.
I love your playlists. Vent incoming!!
You were the best thing that ever happened to me. You made me happy when I felt like giving up. You helped my through sleepless nights of crying and hurt. You filled in the space in my heart and I took advantage of that. I'm so sorry. I want you back and to get one more chance but I know that I have no right to be back in your life, so please enjoy yourself my love.
Small vent incoming! If you don’t like them, keep scrolling please :)
I missed my chance. Not that i really had one, as i was the one who screwed us up in the first place. We were doing great for so long, but my parents pressured me into breaking up with her because they are homophobic. We’ve moved on. Well, at least she has. I missed being with her and hugging her, but we still talked as we had classes together. That one day came when she emailed me and said she still had feelings for me and wanted to try again, and of course, being pressured by my friends this time, i declined and got in a relationship with this guy i didn’t like. After i broke up with him after about 2 or 3 weeks, that feeling of wanting to have her close to me got worse. I had turned down a chance because I was pressured. Just like my parents pressured me to mess us up in there first place. I ended up with this other girl that i thought i liked. I had weak feelings for her for the first month, then they completely went away. I can’t leave this relationship, as they are not in a good mental state, and even though i do not love them, they are amazing and i don’t want them to feel how i still feel. I’ve been trying to get closer to the first girl, as i miss her so much. But she’s completely moved on, while i’m still stuck on her. She has a boyfriend now, and i have a girlfriend. but no matter what i do, the feelings for her won’t go away, and i hate it but love it. I just wish we could be together again, but I know it’s not possible.
Dear M, if you are reading this somehow, please ignore this :) I don’t want anything to be awkward, and you are happy right now. I hope-
Also, sorry for the vent- It feels better to rant about stuff and get it out, even if it’s to random people on the internet. Have a great day/night everyone 💕
my vent.
i went to the kitchen earlier and took a pack of peanuts. my dad sayd "you always take our food without telling anyone! stop!!". i startet crying and got angry, so i threw the pack on the floor and stormed to my room. my dad just forbid me to eat.
later my mum came in to give me dinner. i wasnt hungry, so i tried bringing the plate to the kitchen, but my mum leaned against the door. i kicked the door, bc im scared of beeing trapped/locked. she fell down, and my dad yelled at me. "WHATS YOUR PROBLEM?! CANT YOU BE NORMAL!?"
when i wantet to get my food a few mins ago, my parents ate it. they didnt even leave it for me to eat later. my dad blamed it on me. he said "you werent hungry earlier! ofc were gonna eat it! its not my fault that your faking an eating disorder for attention!"
im sorry dad. i just wanna eat.
"you gotta tell us if you take something" SO I GOTTA TELL YOU WHEN I WANNA EAT?! FOR WHAT!!
ITS ALWAYS MY FAULT! ITS NEVER THEYRE FAULT!
i'm sorry you have to go through that, that sounds horrible. i wish I could help physically, but I can't, so just know you're not alone. your parents are treating you poorly and you don't deserve it. stay strong, I believe in you. you can get through this, and again, YOU ARE NOT ALONE. stay safe :(
I am so sorry
Damn I’m so sorry I kinda know what that’s like
I just broke up with my girlfriend and I just wanted to lay on the floor and cry to music 🎶
And I love the Playlist!
All the playlists you make keep calling me out I love them
This playlist actually helps me really because when I'm in my room alone and I'm feeling down I play this while I cry in my sleep without self-harm to myself or I just drink my monsters while I cry outside Or just maybe take small vape time its really rare for me to vape so yeah
alright lets keep this short- they made it clear they dont like me, its been 2 years now and i still like them :'o
I miss worshipping someone who loves me back
Hey read my message if you're sad or upset (and feel free to vent if you want ofc)
I'm proud of you for waking up
I'm proud of you for brushing your hair
I'm proud of you for breathing
I'm proud of you for making your bed
I'm proud of you for eating
I'm proud of you for trying to eat
I'm proud of you for drinking water
I'm proud of you for being here
I'm proud of you for being you
I'm proud of you for smiling
I'm proud of you for continuing uneven when things get difficult for you
I'm proud of you for standing up
I'm proud of you for blinking
I'm proud of you for getting out of your bed after spending the whole day in bed
I'm proud of you for standing up
I'm proud of you for brushing your teeth
I'm proud of you for sitting down
I'm proud of you for defending yourself
I'm proud of you for believing in yourself
I'm proud of you for simply trying
I'm proud of you for being alive
I'm proud of you for going to school or work
I'm proud of you for not ending it all yet and having hope there will be a better day or a better tomorrow
I'M PROUD OF YOU ♥️😊♥️
By: Father C./Me
Hey if you got this far in the message I just wanted to let you know that I'm thankful and this made you smile ☺️
Спасибо за подборку♡.
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It hurts when you both agree its just not the right time to fall in love together. It hurts.
this playlist > anything else rn
Great Playlist!!
Even tho you decided to ghost me, I still love you, I just can't get myself to hate you. I'm sorry I was acting weird, but you've no idea about how I got scolded for being in contact with you. I just got controlled by anxiety and didn't know what to do. I know I should've been truthful but you were already going through some important stuff and some bs, I didn't wanna add to it. I'm not sure if the you I remember is the actual you or just an idealized picture of you that my obsession with you has drawn on my mind. You were the best. I made you my number one, but unfortunately I wasn't yours. There's a comfy place for you iny heart if you ever wanna come back tho..
спасибо большое вам за подборку
I don't love her anymore but she broke me so bad I can't stop thinking about her
thank you for this one, it's the perfect time for it
(vent) i've been feeling myself drifting away from so many people in my life and i don't want to be doing that. but it's so hard not to, i do it when i am excessively anxious or depressed, so other don't have to deal with me. but in the end, it doesn't benefit anyone. i wish i could easily accept that people will stick with me through my hard times but to me that doesn't seem possible. why would anyone want to stick around for that side of me?
@@sokelu2h501 thank you. it's comforting to know others feel the same way and just really understand. I too hope we both can get better! you deserve it! I hope you too have a good day/night/life! much love
my vibes rn r so off but ur playlists have been helping a lot :3 ty
This first song is so much better with me because I can zone out from all the stuff that is overwhelming. so thank you!
Oh damn...I started listening to this playlist a few days ago and my gf literally just broke up with me yesterday...this hit different now..
Ps: we're still on good terms, we were amazing friends before we started dating, and I don't want the breakup to ruin that, although I'm kinda distancing myself from her at the moment. We only broke up because she didn't love me romantically, she wanted to really bad, but couldn't.
im sorry if this turns to a vent (seriously, i just need to say a few things)
but thank you for your playlists, it really helps . i just got dumped exactly last week and everyone at school found out , people swarming me and him, people hitting him and people hugging me after i said no , the akwardness against me and other people who confessed to me during the 7 months of the relationship . the people who had left where back to talk behind my back like it was my fault , "you should be glad other guys still want you, you have pretty privilege," other girls walking up to me letting me know that the people i had trusted had said things about me , claiming ive already started flirting with other kids because i had complimented somebodys shirt.
I am so sorry you have to go through that.
this playlist was my first introduction to tv girl, and now im seeing them live in december. thanks for uploading this :)
omg ! :0
im glad i was the one who introduced you to tv girl !! i love their music so much ^^
i hope you have a good time !! (stay safe !)
I love your playlists
You know ur into that person hard when you think about them while listening to sad love music
I'm really sorry for all the people in the comments venting about relationships/friendships/family bonds,etc..
I've never had a couple nor I had crushes, I also didn't think much about "friends" that left me but I bet it feels very bad to lose someone you really loved and cared about, just seeing my mother after my father's death made me realize that
Just remember that everything's gonna change someday, and you'll find that special someone, it takes time and patience to build any kind of bond so don't lose hope !! :))
*short vent* no big deal if u cant read it rn, take care of urself u deserve it
i'd give anything to be with my friends from my past day treatment. i love them so much and i hope they are doing better than they were before.
TV girl, Wilbur Soot and Teen sucide all in one playlist is the best
My crush and I plan on getting together once we're older, but I want them to know that I fall for a lot of people at once. I still love them with everything I have, but I also love other people. It's difficult. Feelings are difficult. Everything is just so hard when you're young. My thirteenth birthday is coming up, I shouldn't be feeling this way at such a young age but I am.
Oml I love ALL of your playlists you always choose the BEST SONGS! I can never get bored of them I keep returning back just to listen to your playlists over and over again, especially whenever I'm going through something I always enjoy listening to these, THANK YOU AND I HOPE FOR MORE IN THE FUTURE!!❤
:D
Drift away omnichord- mars bars gives pink diamonds and spinel
This playlist gives me hope for the world
Such a great playlist. Now I don't have to listen to my thoughts but get to enjoy good music instead.
Tw: vent coming, I'm sorry.
What is love? I don't think I've ever truly felt it. People I value a lot, when I'm near them I get a warm feeling inside, but I mistake that for love. And then I get frustrated with myself. I love everyone I ever get close to, but it's never mutual. I don't like it. Because when I don't have anyone to speak to, the overbearing loneliness consumes me. I left a toxic friend group a while back. Even though I suffered constant abuse from them, I feel so lonely now. They told me to kill myself so much, it doesn't really impact me anymore. I loved them, so much. They meant so much to me, and I was weird to them. I was a disposable jester. Who was there when they needed comfort, but who was there for me? I'm crumbling. I still love you. I want to go back. I can't take it anymore. Why am I like this. I look back at old messages, you pushed me to the end of the line. Why did I continuously run right back? You made me feel ugly inside and out. Yet I thought you were the most beautiful thing.. You fucking shattered all of my soul, I hope you're happy.
And you, we were best friends. When you got bored, you would shred my arms up with metal wires from masks, and I let you. Because I was so scared of being abandoned or lonely, that I couldn't ask you to stop. Also you covered me in so many dandelions, my mum nearly phoned up the school. I'm not even a teen yet, and you still made me experience all of this in a year. I'm not allowed to feel sorry for myself. Because you drilled so far into my skull the memo that I was pathetic. That even now, I can't think of everything you said to me without telling myself that I was stupid. Everything was my fault according to you. That was one of your flaws, you blamed me for all of your mistakes. Made me feel so useless. Now all I feel like is a burden, and I can't admit this to anyone without feeling awful. How fucking dare you waltz into my life, and make me pry myself off of you and make me feel like this. If by chance, either of you are reading this. I fucking hate you, and hope you burn. But, I still love you at the same time. I hate you for doing this to me. How dare you. How dare you..
This playist litertally just what i feel and think
currently crying😊 not allowed by tv girl is such a sad song- especially when you blast it on a speaker or earphones..
I hate feeling this way. I can’t fall in love without being in constant fear that they will leave me. I know they didn’t mean to make me feel this way. But now I can’t see things the way I used to. I wish, that just for 5 minutes, they could love me like they did before. That maybe we could say I love you one last time. I would give anything for an alternate ending with them. It hurts to know that I will never hear from them again. That I’ll never hear them talk about the things they loved. I can’t help but think there was something I could’ve done to stop them. It’s too late now. I feel responsible and ik I shouldn’t. I’m sorry for venting I just really needed to;;
YOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! I COULD HAVE USED A PLAYLIST LIKE THIS YESTERDAY HEBEHEHEHEHE THANK YOU!
I don't have a way of coping, but when I write I accidently make my character spill things about them to people they want to spill it from, and afterwards they return back to normal.
But that's how I want to be, I want to spill out everything without crying, because crying makes it harder for me to talk and focus on what I'm saying, so the best way for now is to type it out.
THIS PLAYLIST MAKE ME FLY AAAA. New subscriber.
Man i'm obsessed with this playlist😂
hope you're okay ♡
Thanks for adding a wilbur soot song, i think he so under rated also this is a really good playlist!!
Thank you for making these it helps greatly. :)
If your reading this don’t forget that your smile lights up a room and that your absolutely stunning. I love you. ❤️
Thought I'd listen to something nice before it all ends for me, goodbye guys
Please don’t do anything you’ll regret please talk to someone please
I think about my life and how I wanted to end it before we got together. You made me so happy. You made me feel like I was a normal person. You made me feel like I could be my self around you. You made me feel like I was wanted. I felt safe enough to open up to you because you made it seem like you actually gave a fuck. It’s ok tho. I’ll be alright
OMGGGG EARLY, CONGRATS ON 3K BTW!!! KEEP UP THE GOOD WORKKRK I LOVE UR PLAYLISTS SM
tyty, i try to
i just want to say ur playlists have helped me in general with my mental health
im glad theyve helped
11:52 milks gone bad.
This is a reference to r/agedlikemilk as wilbur aint good and many hate him now for good reason and him being in playlist sucks now.
this was a really good playlist, please keep doing this it helps me and so many other people so much
FINALLY A PLAYLIST THAT HAS WILBUR
Your playlists help me relax, so thank you very much :)
im glad you find them relaxing:)
This is a really good playlist I love it it helps me lay on the floor and try not to scream
thanks for the playlist i love it sm
just a vent V
okay so ive been friends with this girl since preschool, and now we’re both in 7th grade. I’ve enjoyed it until this year really, because whenever i’m trying to be myself and make the jokes that i think are funny, she gets mad and tells her parents, which tell MINE, and then my parents get mad at me. I don’t think i want to be her friend anymore but i feel so pressured by her and my parents because we have been friends for so long. I just can’t be myself around her anymore. it’s so frustrating and i just want to tell her. I tried to break it off awhile ago but her mom told mine and she got mad at me and made us keep being friends i hate it so much in this friendship.
ah yes, this was really needed
Vent here:
I recently lost a good friend of mine and we kinda had a thing for a bit, it didn't work out and I was ok with that as long as we were still in each other's lives. Cut to today where I haven't talked to her in almost an entire month now. Wish I could say that it was entirely on her, cause I'm a petty person, but that would be downplaying my part in it. She started to pull away from me for a reason I still don't know, and she would hardly respond, this went on for something like a month before I confronted her about it. I could've been nicer about it sure, but I was tired, tired of being pushed away, tired of her acting like I hardly existed. So I ended up acting like an asshole, and she blocked me on everything, which is fair. I miss her, not that my pride would let me admit it to her face. I don't know if I'll ever hear from her again, but honestly I don't know which would be better in the long run, her unblocking me and we go back to barely talking, or us continuing not talking at all.
Sometimes your pride gets in the way of doing the right things.
my best friend recently cut me off, it was the best for them so im ok with it, it was my fault as i started dating their ex and someone who had made them feel afraid, i cant help but miss them, i tell myself "it was just an online friendship you can live without them" but the days we spent together, the time we sang on a voicechat late at night, the times we played games together, the spelling errors that made us laugh so much, they were like a sibling to me, we were similar in every way, and it went out the window just like that, so fast and ik it was my fault, i just want them to know im sorry and that i wish the best for them
N if youre somehow reading this, ill always be glad that we were able to meet, thank you for how much you helped me and if we never talk again, i hope we meet eachother in the next ecosystem
i dont care about all manipulation, using me for my body, not caring about me and other stuff,, i just really miss you. I know i was angry but im not anymore so please answer my message and love me again. no one loved me like you and i miss it so much please pay attention to me again
your playlists are the best listening to them makes me a lot better
tiny story basically vent
god it hurts seeing him everyday at class. i cant move on at all i love him so damn much, its been 3 years and i still havent moved on goddammit. he is a rude person but had an soft spot for me. our relationship was going pretty good until a girl from my class ruined everything. i wasnt feeling well and didnt come to school without knowing he has prepared my fav snacks for me. the girl opene his bag secretly and saw the snacks and saw the paperflower i made for him and thats how she knew i was in a relationship with him cause im the only one in the class who is good at paper crafts. she took out the flower and took a selfie with it lying that her boyfriend gave it to her and annoyed him. he took the wrong idea and thought i told my friend that i was in a relationship with him then my friend told the girl who opened his bag. he didnt want anyone to know abt our relationship and i respected that. i woke up to a breakup message from him...'hey i told you i didnt want anyone to know our relaionship but your friend told the girl in our class?? so lets just break up ok? you started this, sorry.' wow. just wow. he left so easily like i was nothing and i told him that he misunderstood but he didnt seem to care at all. i wish that girl never opened his bag secretly.
Now, as a recovering "manipulative asshole" type, I should let you know, that guy was probably well, a manipulative asshole. Before i started trying to be a better person, and going to therapy, i would pretend to like everyone i dated, ALOT more than i actually liked them. SOoo, if he's pretty rude, and broke up THAT FAST, he was probably putting up an act. My advice is try to reflavor your love as hate, that way it wont bother you so much. - advice from someone with multiple mental illnesses, who has been very toxic and manipulative in the past, take with a mountain-sized grain of salt.
I blame my parents.
I blame myself
I blame myself and my parents…..
I blame my friends
I blame myself
I blame my ex…
I love u soo~ (please let me goo~), I love u soo~ (please let me goo~), *sobs*
I honestly don’t feel like venting. Never mind.
TW!: Stressed thoughts:)
I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate school so much. Why are people here. Why are they invented. Why am I here. Why are my friends scary. Why do people hate me. Why do they hate furries. Why do they send me de@th thre@ts. Why are my parents so protective. Why does the one person I love do distant sometimes. Why does someone keep bullying me.
I’m screaming for help..
But nobody can hear me in the forest.
Well humans must blame smth or someone fr their probs don't they? So what better option than to choose a person with imagination and love for their craft. Also we bare rats don't like furry things. U might already be outta school if yr reading this. Hope yr doing gd my furry frnd. (Also I have no respect fr this soup of a Lang so ignore the grammer)
hey! really love the playlist! (slight vent dbckjdbcjerbvcuec)
so even though everyone is so nice to me i feel like people hate me. its gotten to the point where i do sh (dont worry im like 1 month clean) but then im so skinny yet i starve my self. it doesnt make sense. im at the that bridge where i cross it or not. if i do i can fix my life. yet the option in my head is to jump instead. but i know i shouldnt. then when i try to keep a realationship it doesnt work. it sucks. life sucks.
Dear mauli,
I don't know how many more comments I'll write just for them to get lost in the sea of others,
All I know is that it's three am and am thinking about you once again
The soft toy you gave me on valentines hugged loosely in my arms but too scared to fully let go.
I miss you, a part of me wishes a miracle would bestowed upon me and you so we could fall in love once again.
And not fall out of it
I don't understand whether you care or not
I see you staring
I see you being loud on purpose
I see you seeing me
Making sure that I see you
I see you
I wish I could do more than that
But that's just futile thinking
I don't think we'll ever be together again after the pain you have caused
You were someone else at the start
And you slowly drifted apart from me
Sometimes I make excuses for you like before like maybe I was overreacting
But I did not
It's my second time going through a heart break
And you've been the worst
Giving me mix signals
Telling me sweet words
All bark, just as much as you love dogs I should've realised you were one,
You never knew me neither did I knew you
We just knew each other's presence
Touch and smell
I still remember how your lips feel like
How it feels to pinch your ears,
Your soft jaw line and how it feels to wrap my arms around you, how it feels to run my fingers through that curly hair of yours.
I miss being held by you
You blowing air in my face
Covering my mouth preventing me from kissing you just for the sake of teasing me.
Sneaking in your floor quietly knocking on your door before
Waking up in the early morning sneaking back down after stealing kisses.
I remember when it was nice.
But I also remember when it was bad and I don't have the heart to write them down let alone speak of them.
I still see you looking at me
We made eye contact by accident
And I hope you find love once more in the way you prefer
Bye mauli you're probably sleeping right now, you're a deep slumber probably tossing around and snooring
It makes me smile thinking about it
Now after a while I'll put your gift in a carton box and bring it around just to hide it away
But will never throw it
I hope you're happy,
Please take care of yourself have a good day tomorrow love you always to the moon and back
I forgive you
light ranting //
I really like not allowed, it's a pretty cool song, but it makes me sad as well. someone I really cared about liked this song a lot, but after I told them I also liked the song they told me I ruined it for them. they said it straight out and they apologized right after, but the fact that it was a sign we wouldn't stay together makes me feel sick inside. either way, I can't help but listen to it anyways
last night my friend went into their depression phase on phone. i hang up. i’m a bad friend i know. i already know everything about it. but i was just- too for me. for once, for the first time i had a fine day. like you know a real fine day. i never tell them my life because they will always talk about their and don’t care about what i was saying. so yeah they was depressed and i hang up on the phone because i was tired. tired of being the person you will go for venting when i have no one. it’s not that i don’t like them, i consider them as my family. i was just tired… nothing more. i’m sorry again. i just need a day, i’ll be here after this day i promise
listening to this reading choices ☹️
those playlists are sick! keep up the work ♡
Yessss Wilbur soot
your playlists are so good... i like them
I feel bad for you, and I hope your alright. I just want to say vent playlist make me feel better, and I want to thank you for that. :), sometimes it hard when you can't let go and your stuck with these feelings of love, loving someone you can't reach. Thats me, but whatever your going through i hope it gets better :D
he found someone else. he's only with me for my body. but to be honest, i dont mind it. as long as he uses me and only me. i hate the fact that i know what im doing and im ruining myself in the process.
oh wow
relatable title tbh.
I have a partner I loved since I was pretty young and they liked me back so we started dating a couple years after, and at first it was the best relationship I ever had and I loved them dearly and they loved me back. Now it feels like I’m starving for their affection and I have to fight to feel loved and they hurt me so much leaving me on read all the time and barely talking to me. I feel uncomfortable saying I love you to anyone now. I love them still but sometimes I resent them. I asked them if they still loved me recently and they said yes but it doesn’t feel like that. I’ve mentioned this 4 times now. I want to be let go. I don’t know what I did wrong.
i needed this playlist.
(Vent)
It was last year when we meet , it was fun and I developed feeling for him but he likes another girl and now their together meanwhile I'm here still loving him for a year now
happy hallwoen
:( this makes me sad bc it reminds me of my ex who broke up with me but i still love them :(
im 3 years of friendship just ended and i don't feel very great indeed.