Anxiety After My Mission
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 2 ต.ค. 2024
- When Cole experienced crippling anxiety for the first time he was nearly 20 years old and didn't know how to cope. With the help of loved ones and professionals, he found peace.
Cole grew up as a leader in school and sports. After high school, he left for his full-time missionary service in Argentina with enthusiasm. Soon, however, migraines, sleeplessness, and depression plagued his every day. His local mission leader counseled with him and encouraged him to return home and seek help.
It was the second psychologist Cole visited who offered a perspective that changed Cole's life.
"Over a series of months, he helped me realize that it's okay to accept what God gives you and to be humble enough to learn what He's trying to teach you," Cole recalls.
Through sessions of guided meditation, Cole learned to calm his mind and reconnect with his knowledge of God's love and support.
"I learned that sometimes the feeling of God or Jesus Christ in your life is just calm," he says. "It's that type of calmness that can help us see the reality of God's hand in our life. I think God's grace lies in the fact that sometimes he'll break you down to build you up into a person that you've never been before."
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I was released early due to depression with anxiety and OCD 7 weeks in. But I know that Heavenly Father has put me in the right place according to His plan, and the only way to go from here is up as long as I never leave Him behind. Because I know that He will always be here for me. The Church is true.
God bless you man
Wow, I never knew you were a member of the Church! Thank you for your testimony, and thank you for the awesome content you make!
Thank you for such a beautiful testimony sir.
Yooo it's CG5, let's go! Thank you for your wonderful testimony!
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So glad the church is actively addressing those who come home early from their missions in these last few years. This is the true church of Jesus Christ on the earth.
Jesse Porter yep I just got baptized and I'm only 10 and I just got baptized this is the true church and I'm thinking about being a missionery.
Frances Garcia Who told you it's the true church?
This video was ment for me.... You see, I was mistakenly diagnosed in the Mission Accute Psychotic episode, because I had a different type of reaction towards anxiety. I was sent home; wrote to an apostle to be brought back to the mission and finishing one of my goals in life. It never happened.
I might not have had his oportunity to have a blissfull youth since my father went through 2 divorces after I was born, plus the first one he had before I was born and my mother's divorce before she met my dad. (Me=Trial guy)
Later on got treatment for my disease with a psychiatrist and strated feeling how those pills were killing me (literally) and quit them after quarreling a lot with my family members.
I found the cure and it is to have a great diet based on brain boosting foods (since what I actually have is hyperactivity and acetylcholine deficiency- the basic neurotransmitter responsible for dementia if it is too low for years)
No doctors would have ever diagnosed that, I created my own diet and kept it for a while to see if it was true or not and I started making changes!!!! Not as good as I wanted them but I achieved them.
Looking at his experience, the only difference is that he accepted that God wanted him broken from meditating, and I am struggling to accept that his will for me is the same...
I wish I could talk to him, the person in this video or meet that psychologist specifically.
@@DaisukidaioNihon I'm glad you were able to get to the bottom of your health issues. I'm sure you were inspired to find those answers which have made such a difference for youR health. I can imagine how disappointing it's been to not return to your mission, but I can promise that God will turn all things for the good of those who love Him. God's solutions to life's disappointments and sorrows are sometimes unexpected blessings. Please know that God loves you whether or not you completed your mission. If you have a willing heart and a desire to serve Him, God will open the way for new opportunities.
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There should be some support offered and counceling for returned missionaries, if needed
"It's okay to be broken enough to realize that I needed to change."
God bless you
I'm 20 and I was baptized at age 19. I have the chance to go on a mission which I am. I thought my depression and anxiety would have kept me from it but with Gods help and prayer I know going on a mission will be the best experience
"Sometimes it's okay to accept what God gives you, and to be humble enough to learn from it."
Amen! Amen! And amen!
I'm in tears from watching this. I have never been a missionary, having joined the Church late in life, and circumstances now prevent me from serving as a Senior missionary. I relate totally to the anxiety and depression which I have suffered from since a teenager. What touched me most are these words '' God's grace lies in the fact that sometimes he'll break you down to build you up into a person that you've never been before." I know that I am broken, and may never be totally fixed whilst this side of the veil, but I just needed to hear that it's okay to be broken. Reminded me of Elder Holland's wonderful talk. I pray that we will all never cease from trying to be a better person. I have to keep strong for my family's sake. God bless all the precious children who have served the Lord on missions, and never think you have failed if you have to come home early. The Lord knows where you are needed in this vast vineyard. :)
Very well said! I am sure you are doing lots of wonderful things for those in your sphere of influence. 🙌
Hope life is going well for you after 3 years!
I feel like we kinda need to help the culture of the church become more like the teachings. I remember seeing a good friend of mine come home early and seeing all the judgements of the other members and ideas that they had of him. That totally needs to change.
Amen! The culture of the Church is completely opposite of the the teachings.
Agreed, but that stems from the greater social culture of the US. However, I can say that my best friend came home early and we all tried to support him. We never felt that he was any less for coming back early. My whole ward really tried to help him (this was over 20 years ago). However, he felt that he was being judged and felt less of a man for coming back early. There are times when the perception is stronger than reality. So, we have to be careful before we judge our perception of the culture of any group.
Indeed!! ❤️❤️
I can`t wait to go on a mission
Same! Nice picture!!!
God bless you
What’s the mission everyone is speaking about?
@@amoodyb Serving as an LDS missionary
Wow. Speechless. And thankful for his gut level courage by laying himself out there so that the rest of us can be helped by hearing his honesty and _insight._
I stopped working on a PhD for almost the exact same reasons this young man described. I needed to hear this. It was so hard to quit something I wanted so bad.
Human Being - Jesus Christ knows.
One of my favorite sayings, is "don't let school get in the way of your education". It's better to take care of your body and mind than to get a pay raise. We don't take our titles or money or houses or cars with us to the grave. We are here to learn and grow and be happy.
That happened to my best friend too. I've experienced similar struggles as well. ❤
at age 65, i lost my job. i was as broken as they come. i didn't go through depression or wanting to end it all. i did learn to stay with it. this is crazy you might think but it's one of the best times of my life. i've learned to pray hard and with faith. i've also learned to forgive others and move on. i know there is more for me to learn. just be patient and let go or let it go.
I've had battles with anxiety throughout my life. If anyone is battling this, get help now. Don't wait. The longer you wait, the worse it becomes. Don't be afraid to come out and take a stand, you are worth more than you realize.
My younger brother was sent home early for anxiety issues but he finished as a church service mission in the Record Operations Center in the Tri-Stake center in Mesa.
Thank you so much for this video! I believe God needed me to find it right now! I have a lot of mental disorders, one of which is Anxiety. This year has been SO hard, I'm a freshman, 18 years old and I was crushed when I couldn't stay at college when COVID hit and God told me that His plan is for me not to go on a mission, so I've kinda been feeling stuck, thinking "what should I do? What do you want me to do Lord? Is there still a place for me?" I've had a lot of blessings and felt like I'm doing what He wants me to be doing, I don't wear a tag on my shirt, I wear one on my heart!
Hi Kaitlyn, thank you for sharing your experience. Keep it up!
Praying is Talking to God. Meditation is Listening to God. The Best Prayer.."Lord Jesus..I Trust in You." We do Not always know what it is we Need.
I've had social anxiety disorder since I was little I don't feel broken I feel like a hero I have conquered things others have never had to face I served a mission its possible but it's ok to be yourself to I may not have made my life as big as someone else would have but I'm glad I am this way as it helps me help others
One of the best missionaries I had the pleasure of serving around! Thank you so much for your story, it means a lot to those of us who have experienced similar things. And boy do I believe in meditation! Thanks!
I kept waiting for the fact to be shared he then went ot serve in kansas with us after he went through that challenge, but I guess that wasn't necessary to get the message across. my bad. gotta check my pride lol.
I was actually sent home from a mission in the same country for similiar reasons. Glad to see you coping with the struggle. I'm still working on it myself, so thanks for having the courage to come forward and share your story
I have had some similar experiences. I didn't sleep most of the nights for the first 10 months of my mission. Then my physical health declined but I wasn't sent home. Fortunately I survived but to this day 12 years later the traumas and anxiety and the physical issues are still there .... Thank you for sharing your story, I would love to attend one of those groups shown in the video.
he shall give you peace, his love will never cease💛 [D&C19/23]
chls Amen thank yu
I also suffer from migraines, anxiety, & depression. They can be so crippling & devastating. God bless this young man! We can find hope & peace in the Savior. ❤❤❤
I served my mission with a lot of ambition. And stress. Daily headaches started up, depression and anxiety. It wasn't until after that I saw more clearly what I was dealing with. But thats okay, sometimes a broken rhythm makes the best dance.
I have seen missionaries come home "early" and even a few that did not finish going through the training center. It does not change the fact that they are all children of a loving heavenly father who knows them and cares about them.
Thank you for providing that sentiment for those who may doubt it
@rocky mountain lass sorry, i dont believe in predestination. that goes against the doctrine of free will. God cannot know who everything will play out. If he did our free will is a sham and the gospel is a sham.
@@clintonwatkins3718 God's not limited by time or space as we are. All things are present with God, and so He knows the end, and the beginning. His knowledge is not about predestination. Neither does it affect our free will. He's just that all knowing.
we may want to serve but that may not be our calling
My story is very similar, I served a long time ago and mental health wasn't considered a thing. I struggled through 24 months. It was immensely difficult, however the lessons I learned and the reliance on God i had to do helped me throughout my life.
Darryl Anderson I am not diagnosed yet so i dont know but im scared that i might get mental issues on my mission a few months from now. But if u were able to finish it, i hope i can to.
This is one of my most lovingly channels ever!
Hope you are doing well now may God Bless you from Tracy du Plessis from South Africa Durban Bluff
Could You translate the videos to spanish, because are so amazing and illustrate so well the things that members are going through and what they do to overcome the situations. in spanish speaker countries we went through fot the same situations
i love You God and Jesus! Amen
This is great that the Church puts this stuff out. When I was a missionary from 1997-1999, we were told to work so hard that we came home on a stretcher. My entire adult life has been a struggle as a result of not feeling like I was ever good enough or ever worked hard enough or had my mission president, the Church's or God's approval. I think there are generations that have had their lives profoundly influenced in negative ways because of expectations that are now being addressed healthfully. I'm sad these sort of videos are coming decades too late for me and many others. Glad they're here for others.
Thank you!
We needed to be broken so God can build us up again to a new person.
This video was meant for me, I to came home from my mission early due to an episode. It’s taken me years to get over the fact that I didn’t serve the full “two years”. But I’m getting the help I need thanks to medication and wonderful videos like these. Thanks to all who put this video together, it’s an inspiration.
Thanks for sharing your experience, Taylor. Your service is valued and appreciated, and you are needed and loved! We're glad you're here.
Amazing message his story. Most importantly how true it is that it is ok to be broken and be rebuilt again by our Heavenly Father into a better individual.
".. sometimes he'll break you down to build you up into a person that you've never been before."
I felt that.
Glad this video was made. I had my very first seizure and in the process fractured my ankle the day after my return.
I am really glad that cole finally accepted God and learnt to live a different life that saves many people and engage them with God.We never know as what could happen in our life when Jesus finds you.We should always ready to accept God's mission.He will always have a better plan for everyone.He will never play games or never let you down.I hope Cole is getting better.Amen!!!
Wow, I really needed to hear this. In my life I suffered with a bout of depression during my senior year of high school I hid my problems under a rug and went to college pretty much broken but of course I hid it under a veneer of being okay and not experiencing weakness. In my senior year of college its like everything hit again except worse, panic attacks, extreme stress, depression, anxiety, depersonalization. I was hospitalized three times with excrutiating headaches and pains. Since graduation I've lived with so much regret realizing that the situation could have been avoided had I gone to see a therapist sooner. However as the video says going through something like this has changed my entire outlook on life. During the horrible situation I kept praying and wondering why God wasn't answering me, it felt like he wasn't there or that He had left me. It has taken me on a journey to allowing God to heal the brokeness inside me. It still blows my mind that God wants a deep personal relationship with me, loves me, cares for me not just on church days or by listening to sermons but everyday feeling His love and knowing I am his daughter. It has allowed me to open up on platforms like this, slowly change my ways of seeing myself, comparing myself to others, and getting rid of perfectionism. All I can say is praise be to God. For anyone out there just know that God is for you not against you, He wants a personal relationship with you too, and can heal the brokenhearted. God bless
Thanks for sharing your experience, Nyoka.
Strong & powerful...
Beautiful. Thank you for sharing. I myself have had a similar experience with how meditation has helped me experience more peace and inner acceptance than I have ever experienced before. =) It has helped me to more fully feel and accept God's love.
I have anxiety issues. It makes me nervous to go to places I don't know. Literally. I go to a psychologist and I really can't control my anger feelings, too.
I Love Cole Myers!!! One of the greatest inspirations for me to follow Christ!:)
i had tears while watching this video
Learning mindfulness skills has been the best I've felt since the narcissistic abuse I experienced as a missionary. I still carry some pain, but it's getting better and I'm to the point of being grateful for all that I have had to open up and learn in the last ten years. Heavenly Father knows what he's doing, especially in times like this. It's an invitation to healing and improvement.
It's hard to come home from a mission, especially when you work hard and love the people you serve. When I returned I struggled and eventually fell away, not from anything doctrinal but finding my feet! It's hard!
Thanks for sharing your experience and empathy. And thank you for your missionary service! If you are not attending with us now, we hope you know you are loved and missed. You are always welcome to join us. www.churchofjesuschrist.org/general-conference/2018/10/believe-love-do?lang=eng
Wow!!! I really needed this. Great video. Very open and honest.
Thank you for bringing that to my attention. I loved the message
I'd love to tell my story on one of these videos. They are so inspirational, and make you realize we are all human! Thank you so much for posting these❤️
For many years I was broken. The mistake I made was, I thought or I believed in order to return to Father I must be fixed. So I struggled with this, trying to fix my brokenness.I was stubborn. I finally asked the Lord, what am I doing wrong. He said, you are trying to do my job, only I can fix you. He than said, place your yoke upon me, for my burden is light. You don't have to do it alone, I am here. I have not looked back, He blesses me every day. My life is successful now. I will now strive to do the right thing, look for the positive in life. I will always remember I am a child of Heavenly Father.
I find all of these videos about early returned missionaries struggling with coming home, but I just can't relate to them.
I served my full 2 years, and I came home almost 6 years ago and I'm struggling. Where are the videos and resources for me? I killed it on my mission. I taught with confidence and the spirit, and then I get pulled into this crappy life full of college, career and stupid decisions. Where's my resource? My life fell apart because I couldn't cope with not being a missionary anymore. An environment I thrived on stripped away from me in a matter of moments! Where's my help?!?!
Two years after the video and you are still serving your mission. You are a special man.
Really, thank you
So powerful!
D&C 121:7-8
This was given to the prophet Joseph Smith when he was in jail on faults charges. Christ knows you,he has felt your pain, he loves you, and he will always pick you up don't give up hope. Their is always a rainbow after the storm.
I was diagnosed with hyperthyroidism 2 months ago and I think I've developed health anxiety already. I'm glad you've overcome yours. I don't wanna consult a psychologist because I don't want Heavenly Father to feel that He can't heal me.
Hi, we encourage anyone struggling with mental health challenges to seek the help of our Father in Heaven through prayer, and also seek help from someone you trust, such as a family member, friend, mental health professional, or faith leader. Learn more here: www.churchofjesuschrist.org/mentalhealth
You are very brave! Thanks for sharing Elder!
I highly recommend Dr. Joe Dispenza meditations, it has helped me a lot, even to strengthen my faith in God.
I started to have bad anxiety on my mission as well. I tried medication and everything, I toughened it out and finished. I still wonder until this day why God would have me suffer and not enjoy it as much as I should have. My perspective has changed since watching this video, thanks.
Cayden Thompson did you finish your mission? Thats inspiring I hope I can too.
This really hits home. Having come home early from 2 missions. I felt like I was Webster's Dictionary definition of a failure. It took years to know that it wasn't that way. Everytime I was at a home coming or farewell, I had so many emotions that made it hard to sit in that meeting and hear all the stories that I didn't get to experience. After all these years, I'm greatful for my trials. I wouldn't be who I am today. And I never would have been able to help close friends who went through the same thing. They say that God works in mysterious ways. I know for a fact that he does and it is always for the better.
Thanks for sharing your experience, Landon. And thank you for your service as a missionary!
Thank you Brother for sharing your journey. I’m so glad you trusted your Missionary Leader and listened to his message that he received about you to go home and get help. Your Sister in Christ Jesus
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I feel bad for our missioneries that come home feeling guilt and shame, it breaks my heart, I hope they feel the love and admiration for each of them, specially that God loves them.
I am an avid #MentalHealthAwareness advocate and performer, and I love this so much. I travel the country trying to bring that awareness on stages, in classrooms, hospitals, and on my TH-cam channel, so I get excited when I see other advocates. 💙❤
Good for you Cole! Way to be courageous and share your story. I am so glad that these diologues are happening now in the church. I have been dealing with GAD and panic disorder for the last year now. Not an easy road by any stretch but all part of our refinement here in mortality. Mindfulness and Meditation has help me further access the Saviours Atonement as well through my own journey God bless.
Great story, thank you so much for sharing. Heavenly Father is always with us.
Wonderful.
I chose to come home after 12 weeks in the field because of severe anxiety depression and OCD. This video was a turning point for me while i was in the field and now that im home. Ive been back a little over a week and the grace of God is abundant
I love this video, thank you ❤
I think people are pretty soft and grow up never facing hardships like they did a hundred years ago, working hard everyday, learning early to get the job done and quit thinking about yourself.
I have met wonderful missionaries!
Thanks so much for making this video!
Thank you.
This was good for me to see today!!
Anxiety before, during and after my mission. I can’t get rid of it 😔
Wow beautiful story. Thank you for sharing.
I suffer from the same, worries and constant depression and anxiety cycles ever since i came back from my mission 20 years ago.
I have no idea about meditation and would like to learn more
How do I begin?
@Cesar Guillen there is this channel on TH-cam called Positively Britt..she makes meditation videos with scripture verses and they have helped me deal with my crippling anxiety! Try sitting with you eyes closed and just focus on listening to the scriptures she's reading..it will help you focus and will enlighten you at the same time through the Bible verses! I hope this helps..I was prompted to send this message to you! God be with you!
i know this is months later, but i find 'thehonestguys' on youtube so helpful in my life. being able to pin my focus on affirmations, or picturing the place being described in guided meditation is very grounding and a huge distraction from my anxiety.
there's also a thing called mindfulness, that is a form of mindfulness you can do literally anywhere. basically, it's when you really focus in on a sense. this could be through focusing on things like:
taste when you're eating - how warm is it? is it sweet? sour? bitter? what is the texture? what shape does it feel like?
touch (i often carry around a soft toy, or focus in on the material of clothes i'm wearing) - what can i feel right now? is there a breeze? what is the texture of this object? is it soft?
focusing on things you can see - what colour is this? if are words, what do they say? what shape is it? what is the texture?
i often use mindfulness through hearing, as i carry my ipod with me pretty much wherever i go. i've made specific playlists for grounding, where i focus on the lyrics and their meaning, or the sound of the instrumental and thinking visually about the story and scenery portrayed by the sound.
in conclusion, guided meditation is great for when you have a space you can be alone in - with a fair amount of time to meditate in. but mindfulness exercises are especially great for when you are out amongst other people, as they don't have to take much time, you don't have to be in a quiet area, and you don't have to worry too much about looking silly c:
let go and let God. Thank you.
I loved this video
I truly, deeply believe that our life is custom-made to exact the most benefit possible from this earthly experience. Nothing is random, not your being, your parents, the place and time that you were born. All things have been calculated to help and lead you to the very best version of you possible. God is always there, Jesus is always prompting us forward . . . and encouraging us to continue and to never give up. Join with me in knowing that our lives are for our benefit and learning. Peace be unto you always! (Peace being a triumph of principles)
Si megusta mucio gravias
Thanks for a PR sales tool. I love my church and I'm a pastor. So I'm glad your better through God's grace.
I've been there.
I'm there now.
Thanks for sharing your story brother. I pray you continue to do as well as you seem to be doing now =)
Gray Griffon - "Sometimes you have to give a little - to get a lot." - Diamond & Silk
Don't give up. Keep your head up, and keep trying, and slowly but surely, the small victories in your struggles will keep adding up. It probably won't happen as quickly as you would like. But they will add up over time.
"Two thumbs up!"
When I first saw this video I thought his doctor wrote "Medication", but saw it was "Meditation."
Cool video
Iam still now i believe GOD will see me
Thank you for being so real, open and genuine. This was so powerful.
Thank you
This young man is truly an inspiration to me. I've never met him but I already feel so close and so much love for him. I was sent home from my mission in Louisiana for a lot of the same reasons he was, and I really have felt what he felt. The feeling of hopelessness and not knowing what to do because what you planned for all of your life might not be a possibility anymore. And it is really hard. But through Christ that comfort, peace and love comes back to you and He truly does help you move on and grow as a person and as a disciple for him. Thanks, Cole, for sharing your story. This really helped me a lot and I can't wait to share it with other.
Tanner Deal - Two years can seem like a long time for a young adult. When you arrive to your forties and beyond, two years is like the wink of an eye and all of those dreams are waiting for you when you complete your mission. Time is rather elastic.
I love you Tanner, Cousin Susan Holt
I tried to get help for my severe depression and anxiety from my mission president on my mission. I never got the help I needed. I've been home for 12 years now, and I don't know if I'll ever be the happy person I was before my mission. It absolutely broke something inside of me. I was suicidal for years after finishing my mission and was ostracized for telling my leaders and parents about my genuine experience. It took me a good decade to get my life back on track, but I did it. PS. I'm still an active member of the church.
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The evil one attacks us when we embrace the will of God. The evil one squeezes our head, and its in prayer we find relief. Try the Jesus prayer. Simply repeat the prayer for 20 minute intervals. "Lord Jesus Christ, have mercy on me a sinner"
When I hear his story I wonder first - did they ever check his thyroid? This is hyperthyroidism to a T. It is very dangerous but overlooked. I teach other medical providers that "men have hormones too!!!" LOW thyroid gets all the discussion, mostly because women hate getting fat and its brought up a lot. But high thyroid is a killer and far too often ignored or labeled a psych disease
I cannot help but think that God the Father and Jesus want the Church to flower. As such the people that do Gods work would have to be tooled to do so. I have gotten many headaches and it HAS to change the way you think, because that is what your consciousness is and brain does. Even if your intellect flowers in a way that does not allow you to do missionary work yourself, you would be smart enough :) to give the dollars to the next missionary or person doing gods work.
I think the first psychologist taught him something important. He didn't know what was wrong with him and sent him to someone who could help better.
Having the humility to admit we cannot succeed without outside help. Getting help from places that can provide it.
There is a time after some missions that are very rough and not alot is talk about those feelings. After being on a spiritual high for so long then to be released and no longer having a constant companion can be a shock there needs to be a sort of debriefing time after to readjust back into society, missionaries are still very in tune with the spirit and can sense things other take for granted, upon returning I found some members to be much colder in spirit than I remember them.
This is what's stopping me. What if a mission will break me and i can't be fixed? :(
I also experienced the same: migraines, anxiety, depression (and even suicidal tendencies). This is a human weakness, and I'm grateful I have this bcoz I always have a reason to come closer to the Lord. I may not be healed in this life, but I will continue holding on. 😊😊😇
I WOULD LIKE TO SAY AMEN....HALLELUJAH 🙏
I would hate to leave a mission but this,this was important for him to leave.
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Another Manifestation of godliness
I PRAY FOR TANNER AND, the dude in the video who was sent to a psy. sometimes we need to know it is "ok" when HEV" Father sends us to a dark place- I KNOW, I HAVE BEEN THERE MANY TIMES AND, HE. has always seen me through it
You are commanded by someone like myself, you are an outstanding person! With great qualities attached you we're you are and will forever be a missionary Elder!!!