You know people say you're 20s are your golden years. That this is the best time of your life. But honestly, I don't see what's so great about it. TBH I enjoyed my life more as a kid and/or teen than I do now at 22. I'm trying so hard to find my place in he world but I just feel lost. The only redeeming factor is that I'm not in any kind of outrageous debt or tied down by obligations like kids, debt, spouse, etc. To those in the same boat I hope you find your way. I'm still seeking mine. Good luck.
don’t delete!! you kept it so real which is something you don’t see with a lot of youtubers who only show the highlights of their life, and it’s so refreshing to see. totally can agree & relate to everything you said, and your vent was 100% valid. best of luck to you in the future, there is a light at the end of the tunnel 💜
Dude. Im lost like crazy. you arnt alone . I just turned 25 and I have no idea whats going on in my life.just In 2019 i got a job. Quit after 3 months because it was too stressful. Got another job in a small town across the country. Loved it. Stayed there for 3 months..came back to visit for a month and a half. Fell in love during that time. Went back to the small town for the remainder of the year. Moved back home with my parents mid January because i became depressed. Then 2020: i got my heartbroken. Got another job, then i got laid off after 3 weeks due to corona and basically spent the last 5 months unemployed, going to therepy and riding my bike arond town for hours everyday as a way to pass the time and clear my head. Now ive applied for university and have tentative plans to get an apartment with my friend even though i still cant find work? Wtf am i doing? No idea.
Wow, that is a lot! Man.. life can be such a rollercoaster sometimes, and I think it's especially that way for a lot of people in 2020. Hang in there, and we can get through it together!
Thank you for sharing. The worst part about these periods of self-doubt is that you feel alone while you're experiencing them. Seeing that others struggle with the feelings provides some community and encouragement. We're in this together!
You mentioned how you wanted to be an author like JK Rowling when you were younger, but Harry Potter wasn't published until she was 36. Before then, JK Rowling was depressed and living on welfare, thinking of herself as a failure. Now she's the world's richest author. I'm in film school because I know it's the only path that can leave me fulfilled. More than anything I wish I could toss aside my passion and settle for some normal 9-5 job in an industry that isn't as shitty and corrupt, but I have this burning desire to make a positive impact on the world and a regular job would prevent me from doing that. Following your dreams is awful, shitty, infuriating, depressing, but it's also the only path that can bring long-term fulfillment. No money can buy that. I can't offer any concrete advice, but I know it's very rare for people to find instant success right out of film school. Mostly everyone - creative or not - is in the same boat as you, although they don't want to admit it. You just have to keep doing what you love and one day success will find you. (And, for what it's worth, I love your channel and every time you post a new video it brightens my day)
I need my family to see this. They literally look down on me for not settling in a shitty full time ob where ill be underpaid. I'm 27 and wasted years doing as they said, thinking only about earning money because that's all they know how to do so that's what they taught me. Make my passion a hobby and do it around the shitty job but my creativity doesn't work like that, or at least it didn't. Suffered with writers block for years after that and had been working on bringing it back since. With the right people I could have been way ahead by now but no. I ran out of syeam to put up with or even trying to apply for shitty jobs that i dont have the right experience for. And it's funny cause they still resent me for trying to do better. I worked in childcare so it's not related to the creative field so I have to go back to education, but when they worked in childcare they lasted as long as a summer but still judge me for not retuning to it! I don't get them. Honestly because of it, over time I built up resentment towards them so when I'm doing well I will be leaving them behind.
I am in my 30’s and I still feel lost. When I feel defeated My mom always tells me “where there is life there is HOPE”. Chin up butter cup. Keep going and stay positive your doing a good job!
This looks exactly like me in my therapy consultations every week. A lot of thoughts at once, they're not really connected at all, the sighs....I feel the exact same way, not liking my job and my college, not having a car...Thanks for making such an authentic video, it really resonated with me and made me feel like I'm not alone in this situation.
I’m not liking college either! I transferred from a school out of town but went back home and started going to a university there. I’m really struggling and feel like I’m not really learning anything when I go to class. It’s so tough! I don’t drive as well don’t even know how to drive so I spend all my money on Lyfts to get to and from work. I feel like I have no purpose in life. I’m majoring in psychology and I honestly don’t know if I’m even well enough to help other people when I can’t even help myself. It’s sucks
@@Skyla_and_Adina24 wow, I didn’t even remember I have made this comment so long ago hahaha! Hey, things are gonna get better eventually….don’t worry! They did for me, I got a car and my job is way better, still not perfect. I just need to get into a nice college course and get a girlfriend. But hey, things are going to work out, don’t give up!
I can totally relate to you with feeling lost and confused about what to do next, I hate my job in construction right now but it pays the bills and I want to take a leap of faith and follow my dreams but I’m afraid, but watching your video and reading the comments made me feel so much better like I don’t feel alone in what I’m going through or feeling, thank you for expressing yourself and being honest
Girl, I hear you! I'm just discovering your channel and I really like your videos! You probably won't even read this, but I truly know how you feel. I went to college and got a degree in communication and film studies and now at 32 I'm beginning my 5th year as a theater teacher at a high needs school in the Bronx. I went to NYU grad school for teaching, but at the end of the day, I'm a filmmaker and a storyteller, so I know how it feels to feel lost and confused as to, "why haven't my dreams come true yet?" I spent mucho time on a youtube channel for a year that nobody watched and not to mention I'd been acting since I was 13 years old. Sometimes I feel like I failed at my dreams...but...I think what your doing with your channel and you employment choices will pay off! I truly think that and I hope it makes you feel better that having watched your videos for two days has filled me with hope that one day I will get my shot at writing, directing and acting! Seriously, you have great advice and experience. On the note of short films though, I used my Covid and summer time productively. I wrote two feature length first drafts and shot a short film with $0 budget with equipment that a friend from AA loaned to me for free! I'm really proud of the story and the footage and I like to think that my next thing is my best thing. I haven't given up hope and neither should you. I think it's like you said, just keep doing what you love. Keep making art. Keep telling your story. Lol, my film is about a guy who is stuck in his daily routine and when one thing changes, his life is turned upside down and starts questioning his reality. You can make an awesome story with literally nothing. Necessity is the mother of invention. Please, please, please don't give up! You'll probably never read this and I'm almost sure that you're in a better place right now, but stay on your path and you'll eventually get there. Maybe not when you want it, but you will. Side note, have you tried therapy? It's really helpful to me for guidance. anyways, would love to share my film with you when its ready. If you do read this, feel free to message me, maybe check out some of my content too. I'll probably be rebooting my channel soon. but serious homie, and listen well...The Force Will Be With YOU, Always : )
Hi Jordan! I'm a bit slow at reading comments, but I did read what you said! That's so great you used your time in quarantine wisely. You gotta keep working towards those goals no matter what! I didn't give up, and I actually have a new job now and I'm in a much better place than when I made this video a few months ago. Always have hope and go after it!!
@@nadiafedchin5715 Really great to hear that! Hope you do a video about the new job. Again, I really like your videos and I find them inspiring, honestly helped my mood in the last few days. I'll have to check if it's on your channel, but I'd like to see your thesis film/other shorts : )
Nadia, I love you! You were somebody that took a look at my short films and gave constructive advice and encouragement that has stayed with me since. NO STRANGER WOULD EVER DO THAT AND YOU DID❤️ That’s how I see the love u have for stories. It’s powerful and I wanna say just go at it. This bump in life is natural. It’s ok to be feeling this way. It’ll teach you a lot but you just have to keep on going. Maybe write a script that will happen in a no budget? Or send that scripts to film festivals. Or don’t listen to My advice at all because you know better than me and I haven’t even gone to film school yet (ill be going next year) and I don’t know what’ll help but I just want to say your desire to tell stories is strong and you have to keep going and keep that desire because it’ll make you loved and successful in the future❤️
7:30 this broke my heart. I see so much of myself in this. you sound so defeated and scared and i feel it through the screen. Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing this video.
Bookmarking under my folder "important" because this is one of the most important and touching youtube videos I've watched. Thank you for being real and helping all of us feel less alone and lost :) I really really really recommend the book Big Magic. The author talks about being a creative person, the conflict of the 9-5 job, and the struggles of being an artist. I think you'd love it!
I totally feel the struggle of what our purpose should be - I constantly feel like there must be something wrong with me because I don't want to settle for a 9-5 and "live for the weekends" like you said. Everything you said is so relatable and has given me some comfort today
Girl! I am right there with you . Especially with the industry aspect . Pursuing film/television is probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my life . I have no direction on what’s up,down, left or right . But I just keep going . Not only because I have a love for but because it’s the only thing I know how to do .so just keep going. I don’t believe in calling it quits when you feel like you haven’t accomplished something or haven exhausted all options
One of the best videos I’ve watched in a while. You perfectly worded exactly how I and I’m sure so many other 20 somethings trying to survive in the film industry. We all have to keep going and bring everyone with us! This is a marathon not a sprint. I stopped doing anything for myself for four months STRAIGHT. And just let myself cry and break all the way down but then looked at myself and got annoyed. I knew I needed to pick myself up and get BACK ON TRACK!! This is the first video of yours I’ve watched and I instantly subscribed! Can’t wait to see the awesome things you do coming up! :D
I feel you Nadia, My best friend & I were having the same conversation the other day and we apparently didn't find any solution. For the past few days I've really been feeling lost and I constantly find myself crying and having these outbursts. But at the end of the day I think we should just face it, go and grow through the motions & know we don't have to necessarily figure everything out in our 20s . Sending you my love , you're not alone.
Hi!! Such great words of wisdom! Yes, we just gotta accept that being lost is just a part of the journey. Thanks for watching!! Hope things get better for you and your friend. 💜
Hello Nadia 👋 Thank you for making this video. I’m currently in my 2nd year of community college and I am not even sure what I am going to major in. I like the arts such as music and drawing. My parents also allow me to choose my path in life, but when I tell my mother that I want to create my own animations, she becomes skeptical. I understand that majoring in animations will get me connections, but I don’t care about working with big name companies. I want to create my own work. As you said, once some TH-camrs have their “break” they start to change their thought process for their content. Don’t stop your dreams of creating your own films because I’d be willing to buy your DVDs. Take care :)
You can do it, Nadia! You have the passion to follow your dreams, and that is what is going to drive you towards where you want to be ❤️ I don’t think anyone is exactly where they want to be in their 20s, especially in our industry. It’s all about making everything you do guide your path in life. And especially as storytellers, it’s about what makes you unique and using it to tell authentic stories. But yeah definitely good of you to be honest and open about you feel, because many people feel the same way but they try to seem like they have everything together (no one really does! )
Most of my years in my 20’s was lots of experimenting what’s my strength, lots of failed trials with my career. I felt the same way you did like what you vented here in your video...like getting nowhere. But just do what you do best and get better at it. You’d be surprised how you’ll be an inspiration. It may not be to a great number of people, but at least to some. And you’ll be a great impact to them. The PhoLog video that you did just inspired me what to do with my travels with my wife and I wish I could do it how well you did it. Simple, fun and top! 💯 keep it up Nadi! You’re doing great already!
2019 was the WORST year of my life to date. I lost my aunt in march, I lost a storage space that had a ton of personal belongings. (Things of my mom's who passed in 2009). And having it be the 10th year since that september. To getting into a car accident in december. I've been kicked and kicked all while everyone else is getting married, having kids, buying homes. I don't know what the hell I'm missing? I'm 27 and lonely as ever. Barely making any money, and don't know what my next step is. I found this because I know we are not alone.
U speak directly & fearlessly in ur own intimate voice. Keep writing & don’t ever give up. U are strong funny & literary to the core. Success is never easy. Write in journals & see if ur observations of the industry & life per say teach u. It touches ur soul! I would love to see u do comedy!!!!!
This really resonated with me. Thank you for being so authentic and honest. I feel like you have a lot of people that follow your channel and love what you do, from the film advice to the painting with string videos :) I personally really love your channel and I really hope you continue to create and do what makes you happy.
I know my comment is late but I appreciated the video so much. You talked about how this video wasn’t meant to give us an answer but that is just what I was looking for. I get tired of these superficial videos that give you what you want to hear instead of the harsh, gritty reality that comes with these feelings of being lost. Thank you for showing me and others that were not alone and the only ones going crazy over these feelings.
Thank you!!!!! I really needed this video and you have helped me feel not so alone and have helped me feel not crazy I feel just like you did and I am just trying to figure it all out. I just left a high-demand religion and my whole world view is crumbling along with everything else and I am excited to see what is left once it all falls and what I have to work with. Thank you again and please don't take this video down.
I totally resonate with where your at the time of filming this. Itsna beautiful and courageous thing to share.your raw feelings. I pray you are having better days since hun. Hold tight and have faith 🙏🏻
You have impacted and inspired me a lot. I even sent an Instagram message about a film industry question. I know you will make it and it's going to be cool to say I saw your videos when you win an Oscar for your film. You have given me hope and I'm sure many others. Don't give up remember J.K. Rowling story. Don't be discouraged.
as someone who's constantly riddled with existential crisis - this video speaks to me lol. thanks for being so honest!! I also work in the film industry as an assistant so I totally understand the struggle...
moving to California was the hardest thing I've done. I've watched my bank account drop dramatically and watch my life crumble as I'm nearing 30. I havent cried in years but last night I was on the verge. I dont know what to do at this point.
Those TED talks sometimes get to us all :) Il write you on instagram. Just remember, stories can be told in any medium, youtube, movies, books, anything, even a post on the internet. Sending you a big hug from Canada (getting a little cold) :)
Some youtubers get peak on one video because youtube is their life, it's their main 24/7 job of life, they have strong schedule and consistency of uploading new episode for one type of content. Their all focus is on their video making on youtube. You should open your mind, understand the industry wherever you want to go. and focus on your main job. If its youtube, go for it, understand how youtube works, what they ask, check positive and negative side for you. Think if is it going to be good or bad for your future. Then have more time for youtube than your real job. Always Remember : wherever the focus goes energy flows, and positive changes happen.
Hey! All very true! You gotta be consistent and go after what you want. This channel is about documenting my journey as a filmmaker which includes the real, raw emotions that come with this industry and that it's ok to not have your entire life figured out. It's normal for people to feel lost, and I wanted to show that you're not alone in feeling this way. I actually have a new job now, and I'm feeling much better, but I'm all about showing the struggle that it takes to get to where you want to be. It's never a straight line. There will always be highs and lows! Thanks so much for your comment and for watching. Wishing you all the best.
hey Nadia, this video is very beautiful in the most rawest way. and i really appreciate you putting all those emotions and feelings out there, I bet it was pretty hard. now that it has been a year since you uploaded and shared these thoughts, how has the past year been? did you find that you have grown a little since this video? im in my twenties and feeling very behind and lost.
Hi Cheyenne! Thanks so much for your comment. 💜 Things have gotten exponentially better since this video, so there's a light at the end of the tunnel! The main shift for me was switching jobs. I'm now working with a team I want to grow with in a part of the industry that is a much better fit for me. 😊
Have you ever thought of moving back to NY? Also, I’m willing to bet you’re the child of immigrants. Maybe. I can totally relate to having that immigrant parent mindset surrounding you. Btw I just came across your videos tonight and I’ve watched a bunch of them. So youre definitely engaging to watch and being yourself is the best way to present yourself I always feel. Instead of trying to feel like you need to be a certain “personality.” I also agree with what that lady said below about being in her 30s and still feeling lost. I’m 31 and I’m still right there in that feeling.
LA is definitely a better fit for me when it comes to my career; plus I love the weather here! lol I'm not a child of immigrants (parents both born in the US) but I totally feel you. Thanks for watching!! 😊
I'm lost and confused with my life i'm 21 work a dishwashing job i'm single and going to vocational school where i feel like i'm constantly put down because i don't have a factory job. I have tried but they are all full time and i can't do that because of school. I feel like i can't pay attention because all i can think about is money drinking smoking weed and finding a girlfriend i don't know what i want to do with my life. I feel like i'm average but in this stupid greedy rasist war mongering world being average isn't good enough. Maybe i should do what's best for me.
Feeling lost as well and I’m 23 in March. Been in college since 2018 and took two years off due to mental issues. Now at a university at home after transferring and moving back home. Hate it here. Can’t focus and I feel like I’m learning nothing when I go to class. I don’t know what to do!
I really know what you feel cause I also still in my quarter life-not so-but-still crisis :( Anyway i tho we live nearby in LA! Maybe we can be friend? But yeah i like your youtube video, Nadia! Keep make video!
You know people say you're 20s are your golden years. That this is the best time of your life. But honestly, I don't see what's so great about it. TBH I enjoyed my life more as a kid and/or teen than I do now at 22. I'm trying so hard to find my place in he world but I just feel lost. The only redeeming factor is that I'm not in any kind of outrageous debt or tied down by obligations like kids, debt, spouse, etc. To those in the same boat I hope you find your way. I'm still seeking mine. Good luck.
don’t delete!! you kept it so real which is something you don’t see with a lot of youtubers who only show the highlights of their life, and it’s so refreshing to see. totally can agree & relate to everything you said, and your vent was 100% valid. best of luck to you in the future, there is a light at the end of the tunnel 💜
Dude. Im lost like crazy. you arnt alone . I just turned 25 and I have no idea whats going on in my life.just In 2019 i got a job. Quit after 3 months because it was too stressful. Got another job in a small town across the country. Loved it. Stayed there for 3 months..came back to visit for a month and a half. Fell in love during that time. Went back to the small town for the remainder of the year. Moved back home with my parents mid January because i became depressed.
Then 2020: i got my heartbroken. Got another job, then i got laid off after 3 weeks due to corona and basically spent the last 5 months unemployed, going to therepy and riding my bike arond town for hours everyday as a way to pass the time and clear my head.
Now ive applied for university and have tentative plans to get an apartment with my friend even though i still cant find work? Wtf am i doing? No idea.
Wow, that is a lot! Man.. life can be such a rollercoaster sometimes, and I think it's especially that way for a lot of people in 2020. Hang in there, and we can get through it together!
Thank you for sharing. The worst part about these periods of self-doubt is that you feel alone while you're experiencing them. Seeing that others struggle with the feelings provides some community and encouragement. We're in this together!
You mentioned how you wanted to be an author like JK Rowling when you were younger, but Harry Potter wasn't published until she was 36. Before then, JK Rowling was depressed and living on welfare, thinking of herself as a failure. Now she's the world's richest author.
I'm in film school because I know it's the only path that can leave me fulfilled. More than anything I wish I could toss aside my passion and settle for some normal 9-5 job in an industry that isn't as shitty and corrupt, but I have this burning desire to make a positive impact on the world and a regular job would prevent me from doing that.
Following your dreams is awful, shitty, infuriating, depressing, but it's also the only path that can bring long-term fulfillment. No money can buy that.
I can't offer any concrete advice, but I know it's very rare for people to find instant success right out of film school. Mostly everyone - creative or not - is in the same boat as you, although they don't want to admit it. You just have to keep doing what you love and one day success will find you.
(And, for what it's worth, I love your channel and every time you post a new video it brightens my day)
I need my family to see this. They literally look down on me for not settling in a shitty full time ob where ill be underpaid. I'm 27 and wasted years doing as they said, thinking only about earning money because that's all they know how to do so that's what they taught me. Make my passion a hobby and do it around the shitty job but my creativity doesn't work like that, or at least it didn't. Suffered with writers block for years after that and had been working on bringing it back since. With the right people I could have been way ahead by now but no. I ran out of syeam to put up with or even trying to apply for shitty jobs that i dont have the right experience for. And it's funny cause they still resent me for trying to do better. I worked in childcare so it's not related to the creative field so I have to go back to education, but when they worked in childcare they lasted as long as a summer but still judge me for not retuning to it! I don't get them. Honestly because of it, over time I built up resentment towards them so when I'm doing well I will be leaving them behind.
I am in my 30’s and I still feel lost. When I feel defeated My mom always tells me “where there is life there is HOPE”. Chin up butter cup. Keep going and stay positive your doing a good job!
This looks exactly like me in my therapy consultations every week. A lot of thoughts at once, they're not really connected at all, the sighs....I feel the exact same way, not liking my job and my college, not having a car...Thanks for making such an authentic video, it really resonated with me and made me feel like I'm not alone in this situation.
I’m not liking college either! I transferred from a school out of town but went back home and started going to a university there. I’m really struggling and feel like I’m not really learning anything when I go to class. It’s so tough! I don’t drive as well don’t even know how to drive so I spend all my money on Lyfts to get to and from work. I feel like I have no purpose in life. I’m majoring in psychology and I honestly don’t know if I’m even well enough to help other people when I can’t even help myself. It’s sucks
@@Skyla_and_Adina24 wow, I didn’t even remember I have made this comment so long ago hahaha! Hey, things are gonna get better eventually….don’t worry! They did for me, I got a car and my job is way better, still not perfect. I just need to get into a nice college course and get a girlfriend. But hey, things are going to work out, don’t give up!
I can totally relate to you with feeling lost and confused about what to do next, I hate my job in construction right now but it pays the bills and I want to take a leap of faith and follow my dreams but I’m afraid, but watching your video and reading the comments made me feel so much better like I don’t feel alone in what I’m going through or feeling, thank you for expressing yourself and being honest
Girl, I hear you! I'm just discovering your channel and I really like your videos! You probably won't even read this, but I truly know how you feel. I went to college and got a degree in communication and film studies and now at 32 I'm beginning my 5th year as a theater teacher at a high needs school in the Bronx. I went to NYU grad school for teaching, but at the end of the day, I'm a filmmaker and a storyteller, so I know how it feels to feel lost and confused as to, "why haven't my dreams come true yet?" I spent mucho time on a youtube channel for a year that nobody watched and not to mention I'd been acting since I was 13 years old. Sometimes I feel like I failed at my dreams...but...I think what your doing with your channel and you employment choices will pay off! I truly think that and I hope it makes you feel better that having watched your videos for two days has filled me with hope that one day I will get my shot at writing, directing and acting! Seriously, you have great advice and experience. On the note of short films though, I used my Covid and summer time productively. I wrote two feature length first drafts and shot a short film with $0 budget with equipment that a friend from AA loaned to me for free! I'm really proud of the story and the footage and I like to think that my next thing is my best thing. I haven't given up hope and neither should you. I think it's like you said, just keep doing what you love. Keep making art. Keep telling your story. Lol, my film is about a guy who is stuck in his daily routine and when one thing changes, his life is turned upside down and starts questioning his reality. You can make an awesome story with literally nothing. Necessity is the mother of invention. Please, please, please don't give up! You'll probably never read this and I'm almost sure that you're in a better place right now, but stay on your path and you'll eventually get there. Maybe not when you want it, but you will. Side note, have you tried therapy? It's really helpful to me for guidance. anyways, would love to share my film with you when its ready. If you do read this, feel free to message me, maybe check out some of my content too. I'll probably be rebooting my channel soon. but serious homie, and listen well...The Force Will Be With YOU, Always : )
Hi Jordan! I'm a bit slow at reading comments, but I did read what you said! That's so great you used your time in quarantine wisely. You gotta keep working towards those goals no matter what! I didn't give up, and I actually have a new job now and I'm in a much better place than when I made this video a few months ago. Always have hope and go after it!!
@@nadiafedchin5715 Really great to hear that! Hope you do a video about the new job. Again, I really like your videos and I find them inspiring, honestly helped my mood in the last few days. I'll have to check if it's on your channel, but I'd like to see your thesis film/other shorts : )
My thesis film is on my Vimeo page actually! vimeo.com/180114107
Nadia, I love you! You were somebody that took a look at my short films and gave constructive advice and encouragement that has stayed with me since. NO STRANGER WOULD EVER DO THAT AND YOU DID❤️ That’s how I see the love u have for stories. It’s powerful and I wanna say just go at it. This bump in life is natural. It’s ok to be feeling this way. It’ll teach you a lot but you just have to keep on going. Maybe write a script that will happen in a no budget? Or send that scripts to film festivals. Or don’t listen to My advice at all because you know better than me and I haven’t even gone to film school yet (ill be going next year) and I don’t know what’ll help but I just want to say your desire to tell stories is strong and you have to keep going and keep that desire because it’ll make you loved and successful in the future❤️
7:30 this broke my heart. I see so much of myself in this. you sound so defeated and scared and i feel it through the screen.
Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing this video.
Bookmarking under my folder "important" because this is one of the most important and touching youtube videos I've watched. Thank you for being real and helping all of us feel less alone and lost :) I really really really recommend the book Big Magic. The author talks about being a creative person, the conflict of the 9-5 job, and the struggles of being an artist. I think you'd love it!
I totally feel the struggle of what our purpose should be - I constantly feel like there must be something wrong with me because I don't want to settle for a 9-5 and "live for the weekends" like you said. Everything you said is so relatable and has given me some comfort today
Girl! I am right there with you . Especially with the industry aspect . Pursuing film/television is probably the hardest thing I have ever done in my life . I have no direction on what’s up,down, left or right . But I just keep going . Not only because I have a love for but because it’s the only thing I know how to do .so just keep going. I don’t believe in calling it quits when you feel like you haven’t accomplished something or haven exhausted all options
Let’s do it!
Great! How are you doing now?
One of the best videos I’ve watched in a while. You perfectly worded exactly how I and I’m sure so many other 20 somethings trying to survive in the film industry. We all have to keep going and bring everyone with us! This is a marathon not a sprint. I stopped doing anything for myself for four months STRAIGHT. And just let myself cry and break all the way down but then looked at myself and got annoyed. I knew I needed to pick myself up and get BACK ON TRACK!! This is the first video of yours I’ve watched and I instantly subscribed! Can’t wait to see the awesome things you do coming up! :D
I feel you Nadia,
My best friend & I were having the same conversation the other day and we apparently didn't find any solution. For the past few days I've really been feeling lost and I constantly find myself crying and having these outbursts. But at the end of the day I think we should just face it, go and grow through the motions & know we don't have to necessarily figure everything out in our 20s . Sending you my love , you're not alone.
Hi!! Such great words of wisdom! Yes, we just gotta accept that being lost is just a part of the journey. Thanks for watching!! Hope things get better for you and your friend. 💜
Hello Nadia 👋
Thank you for making this video. I’m currently in my 2nd year of community college and I am not even sure what I am going to major in. I like the arts such as music and drawing. My parents also allow me to choose my path in life, but when I tell my mother that I want to create my own animations, she becomes skeptical. I understand that majoring in animations will get me connections, but I don’t care about working with big name companies. I want to create my own work. As you said, once some TH-camrs have their “break” they start to change their thought process for their content. Don’t stop your dreams of creating your own films because I’d be willing to buy your DVDs. Take care :)
Same here. How are you doing now?
You can do it, Nadia! You have the passion to follow your dreams, and that is what is going to drive you towards where you want to be ❤️ I don’t think anyone is exactly where they want to be in their 20s, especially in our industry. It’s all about making everything you do guide your path in life. And especially as storytellers, it’s about what makes you unique and using it to tell authentic stories. But yeah definitely good of you to be honest and open about you feel, because many people feel the same way but they try to seem like they have everything together (no one really does! )
This is so relatable, but in a good way- keep doing your thing, it’s awesome!
Most of my years in my 20’s was lots of experimenting what’s my strength, lots of failed trials with my career. I felt the same way you did like what you vented here in your video...like getting nowhere. But just do what you do best and get better at it. You’d be surprised how you’ll be an inspiration. It may not be to a great number of people, but at least to some. And you’ll be a great impact to them. The PhoLog video that you did just inspired me what to do with my travels with my wife and I wish I could do it how well you did it. Simple, fun and top! 💯 keep it up Nadi! You’re doing great already!
Thank you so much for the kind words!! I'm glad you enjoyed and got some inspiration from the Photo Vlog :)
2019 was the WORST year of my life to date. I lost my aunt in march, I lost a storage space that had a ton of personal belongings. (Things of my mom's who passed in 2009). And having it be the 10th year since that september. To getting into a car accident in december. I've been kicked and kicked all while everyone else is getting married, having kids, buying homes. I don't know what the hell I'm missing? I'm 27 and lonely as ever. Barely making any money, and don't know what my next step is. I found this because I know we are not alone.
Aww I'm so sorry and I hope you're doing a little better now! Yes, you are not alone!! 💜Stay strong!
U speak directly & fearlessly in ur own intimate voice. Keep writing & don’t ever give up. U are strong funny & literary to the core. Success is never easy. Write in journals & see if ur observations of the industry & life per say teach u. It touches ur soul! I would love to see u do comedy!!!!!
This really resonated with me. Thank you for being so authentic and honest. I feel like you have a lot of people that follow your channel and love what you do, from the film advice to the painting with string videos :) I personally really love your channel and I really hope you continue to create and do what makes you happy.
I know my comment is late but I appreciated the video so much. You talked about how this video wasn’t meant to give us an answer but that is just what I was looking for. I get tired of these superficial videos that give you what you want to hear instead of the harsh, gritty reality that comes with these feelings of being lost. Thank you for showing me and others that were not alone and the only ones going crazy over these feelings.
So happy you got something out of the video. We're definitely not alone!! 💜
This woman deserves so much more subscribers 🙏🏽🙏🏽 this is why I love this platform, so I can find relatable people like you
awww thank youuu!
damn this video is so real. I understand what you were going through and hope you're doing well today.
Are you a failed artist, too?
I stumbled on this. I feel your passion. Keep reaching. We all work until we don’t have to. Keep your head up young lady!
Thank you!!!!! I really needed this video and you have helped me feel not so alone and have helped me feel not crazy I feel just like you did and I am just trying to figure it all out. I just left a high-demand religion and my whole world view is crumbling along with everything else and I am excited to see what is left once it all falls and what I have to work with. Thank you again and please don't take this video down.
I totally resonate with where your at the time of filming this. Itsna beautiful and courageous thing to share.your raw feelings. I pray you are having better days since hun. Hold tight and have faith 🙏🏻
You have impacted and inspired me a lot. I even sent an Instagram message about a film industry question. I know you will make it and it's going to be cool to say I saw your videos when you win an Oscar for your film. You have given me hope and I'm sure many others. Don't give up remember J.K. Rowling story. Don't be discouraged.
Keep going - you'll unlock power, purpose and your dreams will coalesce into a clearer picture...Don't give up
as someone who's constantly riddled with existential crisis - this video speaks to me lol. thanks for being so honest!! I also work in the film industry as an assistant so I totally understand the struggle...
The struggle is real!! Thanks for watching!
moving to California was the hardest thing I've done. I've watched my bank account drop dramatically and watch my life crumble as I'm nearing 30. I havent cried in years but last night I was on the verge. I dont know what to do at this point.
Those TED talks sometimes get to us all :)
Il write you on instagram. Just remember, stories can be told in any medium, youtube, movies, books, anything, even a post on the internet. Sending you a big hug from Canada (getting a little cold) :)
I needed to hear this, thank you so much!
You must have something of an artist in you sweetie!
Some youtubers get peak on one video because youtube is their life, it's their main 24/7 job of life, they have strong schedule and consistency of uploading new episode for one type of content. Their all focus is on their video making on youtube. You should open your mind, understand the industry wherever you want to go. and focus on your main job. If its youtube, go for it, understand how youtube works, what they ask, check positive and negative side for you. Think if is it going to be good or bad for your future. Then have more time for youtube than your real job.
Always Remember : wherever the focus goes energy flows, and positive changes happen.
Hey! All very true! You gotta be consistent and go after what you want. This channel is about documenting my journey as a filmmaker which includes the real, raw emotions that come with this industry and that it's ok to not have your entire life figured out. It's normal for people to feel lost, and I wanted to show that you're not alone in feeling this way. I actually have a new job now, and I'm feeling much better, but I'm all about showing the struggle that it takes to get to where you want to be. It's never a straight line. There will always be highs and lows! Thanks so much for your comment and for watching. Wishing you all the best.
hey Nadia, this video is very beautiful in the most rawest way. and i really appreciate you putting all those emotions and feelings out there, I bet it was pretty hard. now that it has been a year since you uploaded and shared these thoughts, how has the past year been? did you find that you have grown a little since this video? im in my twenties and feeling very behind and lost.
Hi Cheyenne! Thanks so much for your comment. 💜 Things have gotten exponentially better since this video, so there's a light at the end of the tunnel! The main shift for me was switching jobs. I'm now working with a team I want to grow with in a part of the industry that is a much better fit for me. 😊
we are in the same boat keep rowing
Thank you! Same to you 💜
Have you ever thought of moving back to NY? Also, I’m willing to bet you’re the child of immigrants. Maybe. I can totally relate to having that immigrant parent mindset surrounding you.
Btw I just came across your videos tonight and I’ve watched a bunch of them. So youre definitely engaging to watch and being yourself is the best way to present yourself I always feel. Instead of trying to feel like you need to be a certain “personality.” I also agree with what that lady said below about being in her 30s and still feeling lost. I’m 31 and I’m still right there in that feeling.
LA is definitely a better fit for me when it comes to my career; plus I love the weather here! lol I'm not a child of immigrants (parents both born in the US) but I totally feel you. Thanks for watching!! 😊
I'm lost and confused with my life i'm 21 work a dishwashing job i'm single and going to vocational school where i feel like i'm constantly put down because i don't have a factory job.
I have tried but they are all full time and i can't do that because of school.
I feel like i can't pay attention because all i can think about is money drinking smoking weed and finding a girlfriend i don't know what i want to do with my life.
I feel like i'm average but in this stupid greedy rasist war mongering world being average isn't good enough.
Maybe i should do what's best for me.
Feeling lost as well and I’m 23 in March. Been in college since 2018 and took two years off due to mental issues. Now at a university at home after transferring and moving back home. Hate it here. Can’t focus and I feel like I’m learning nothing when I go to class. I don’t know what to do!
I don't think You should cry for this subject after teaching everybody "will you be successful?"
Discover what your true needs are.
I really know what you feel cause I also still in my quarter life-not so-but-still crisis :(
Anyway i tho we live nearby in LA!
Maybe we can be friend?
But yeah i like your youtube video, Nadia! Keep make video!
Love the video. I thought about creating a travel channel and allow the homeless tell their story
That's a great idea! You should go for it!