As a DID system it's really nice to see a comp of our disorder that isn't fakeclaiming us or something weird, so thank you :) this disorder is so tiring so it's nice to see tiktoks that are so relatable to us. makes us feel less alone Your channel is a big comfort for me so thank you sm, I hope you have a good day !
I’m pretty new to the fact I’m probably a system (OSDD 1b) and right now I haven’t experienced many negative symptoms and at the moment it is like having a support system in my head and got a really bad “oh am I faking it” till I remembered that I’m the host and right now most of my system mates are keeping me more in the dark for my mental safety till we get a therapist and actually talk about it. I’m really confused but I respect all my system mates and I just really wish I could help lighten their load cause I do love them like family. But yeah that’s my little system vent.
A therapist will likely think that, from what you've described, your system is healthy and won't need treatment. The systems that need treatment are those with treatable difficulties and harmful mechanisms. None of this is to say you aren't a system nor that things aren't difficult for you. I just wanted to let you know that (somewhat based off of personal experience) if the therapist doesn't see anything dysfunctional, they can't really treat it until they do see it. There is such a thing as healthy multiplicity, after all.
@@DragonsHaveAutismToo It is?!?! Bro, I wish we'd known that, I'd been going through a crisis for a while because everyone but two people were refusing to come to the headspace and only stayed in our innerworld, and we were seriously doubting that we were even a system to begin with. ;w;
I'm in denial that I have osdd or did, I don't think I do but a friend brought it up and it might make a lot of sense. But like, I feel like I would have noticed it by now or that someone would have done something sooner
It’s common for a lot of people with any system disorders to not notice or to figure that what they’re experiencing is normal, and I know that seems weird because most people online that are systems are under 18, but most actually find out that they’re a system over 18, they just don’t post about it because it may be personal to them
I'm fairly new to being a system, I've only figured out recently and I'm currently in denial because it feels like I'm faking it, currently I'm trying to remember if I had trauma as a child or something, my friends who are also a part of DID systems have been helping me with figuring it out and letting me take my time
same, i dont know if im faking it, because one of my two other alters besides me is too "far away" for me to feel if they're here, and they just shout stuff at me and my other alter. they do come closer every now and then, though. im also the only one that fronts, which is annoying, because it also makes me feel like im faking it. -raine
LOL, I hope you're being satirical. If not that's just sad, you want to have childhood trauma? You want to have a mental disorder? Did your parents not hug you enough and tell you, you were special? Your mental disorder is that you are addicted to attention in any way you can get it and you are literally causing your self to develop different mental disorders by convincing yourself you have mental disorders that you never had. The inclusion of DID in the DSM-5 was highly controversial and the way it's typically described in tiktoks does not match the description of what it is like in reality and is more akin to bipolar disorder, with rapid mood swings or "personalities". You probably just have bipolar disorder or an attention seeking disorder. I can tell you all these people are faking and it's being intentionally propagated by the CCP through tiktok to ruin American youths, if you want to be seen as special and get positive attention develop a talent/hobby like music, drawing, video production etc.
i feel so alone, being a system. i doubt everything all the time and i get scared to tell others what i even have DID. we dont know everything because we're fairly new and we tend to get backlash from it, not to mention the fact we're a fictive heavy sys. :/
I feel like something is wrong with me My gf, who is a system, told me that the symptoms I’ve been experiencing for YEARS could be DID. I have this character in my head that I talk to, I view him as another version of myself - like all the negative bits about me. His name is Brain. He’s a floating brain who has a superiority complex. He likes things I hate (like classical music), insults my gf (whom I’m literally wholeheartedly in love with and could absolutely never hate), is an atheist (I’m religiously Jewish), and that’s all I really know so far. Almost my entire life I had to deal with severe trauma, most of which I can’t say here without putting a trigger warning. Growing up, I’d sometime refer to myself with us/we instinctively and barely question why. I remember one time, I was alone (again) in my room, I heard a man’s voice in my head calling me my (then) name (I’m trans but this was before I even knew what being trans meant). I thought it was God. I don’t know what to do. I thought I was a singlet. I’ve always shown myself to be a singlet. I don’t have a headspace, but today I switched(?) for the first time?? Multiple times. It was so stressful. Like I was still conscious and there, but I wasn’t in control. I think that’s what co-fronting/co-con is??? Idk I have a lot of friends with DID, and my experience wasn’t like theirs so I just. Didn’t think anything of it. Am I wrong with this worry? Am I being paranoid? Is my mom right and I’m just a hypochondriac??? Is this just OCD and PTSD fucking me over??? Am I faking it??? I’ve had Brain for as long as I can remember, for multiple years at least. I also deal with daily memory gaps - some can be so severe that I immediately forget entire conversations and go into loops for minutes on end. I completely forgets what occurs the day or two before. My gf has even informed me that she has noticed my personality pretty much switch a bunch over the 6 years she’s known me, like one moment I’d be me and then another I’d act completely differently. I don’t have any memory of this. I don’t even remember most of my childhood. All my traumatic memories are in third person. When I’m paranoid, all my thoughts sound like a bunch of voices arguing and they get so loud it drowns out my own voice. I think in PICTURES. NOT WORDS. ESPECIALLY WITH MY INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS. My intrusive thoughts are made up pictures with very little thoughts, but these paranoid thoughts are ALL thoughts. And the voices sound different, too. It sounds like a bunch of people. I don’t know what’s going on and I’m scared.
This is exactly how I felt when I realized we were a system. I'd suggest doing more research, maybe, but from what it sounds like, you probably have DID or OSDD-1B like me. My boyfriend has fragmented alters and he's the one who pointed out that I might be a system, similarly with you. Honesty, our experiences are very close. I'd say there is a good chance you have it, yeah.
So I’m new I can’t tell if I was born with osdd or straight up trauma kicking my butt non-stop but I don’t have grey outs a lot of emotional amnesia, amnesia when others front ummm alot of alters can remember things and some tend to front and co-front but I don’t feel valid as a system let alone I need tips to try to understand it better? Can someone provide me answers?
if it makes you feel any better, im the same way, i (the host) am almost always co fronting by accident when somebody else is fronting, and i can remember almost everything, because im there idk if this helps, but i hope it helps
So I don’t want to appal or upset anyone but lately I’m thinking I might have D.I.D because I can’t really remember my childhood well and I tend to black out a lot but when I do my friends say I act different but I don’t remember what I do and it’s starting to freak me out because then I hear multiple voices and see people in my head but I’m not sure and I don’t want to say I have it then it turns out I don’t . I watched this for maybe slightly more information but I’m also talking to medical professionals about it but I would like some feed back from D.I.D systems but I’m extremely confused on if I have it or not .
I'm not did I'm OSDD but it does sound like you have it. Glad you are pursuing more knowledge on it. Reminder that you only have a fear of claiming you are then not because of fake claimers and pressure from society.
Hey person here who is questioning a little if I have osdd-1b and also just want to get to understand DID /OSDD correctly. I wonder sometimes if it's rude to want to know what it's like to be a system, not in a "wow being a system sounds so cool !!! I'd lOvE to have friends in my head !!!" more in a way of "I want to know what it feels like so I can understand the stress and pain you go through, so I can support you right" and in so I know that "wow yeah nobody should wish to be a system" but I really do respect and hope all systems out there will be okay, you all got this! but I feel like a jerk for wanting to know all this stuff
Curiosity isn't rude. Im part of an osdd1b system. For us it's mostly just confusing and a little unstable. No one really knows we have it so there's a lot of pressure to not only consistently act the same but also act the same as we did before discovery. It's hard on littles and alters with higher support needs because they don't receive support from anyone outside the system. We don't get memory gaps but being thrown into front is confusing and jarring and our memory is usually pretty fuzzy with emotional amnesia. But being part of a system is also amazing. It feels like I get to be so much more than I would be as a singlet because every person navigating the outer world faces judgement or criticism and has expectations placed upon them. Inside the system there is close to none of that. I can be myself while interacting with other alters and I'm never alone. If you have any questions you are welcome to ask. If there is anything grammatically incorrect or inconsistent, it might help to know that I'm a little, age 10. -oliver
I'm not officially diagnosed, but here is a list of my experiences for your edification (If you're still interested). We're trying to use "I" language for relatability. 1. My ex and I got into fights over me saying I don't like spicy food immediately after I must have said I loved it and wanted it for dinner (I don't remember saying I liked spicy food. I don't. But, I trusted my ex. I'm vaguely aware that another part of myself loves spicy food, so I just chalk it up to not being the right self at the right time). 2. Several times, now, I will forget who and where I am while riding the bus, so I've had to make sure I have maps open with tracking and destination. Though, it doesn't always help with losing time and missing stops. 3. I've noticed that my innate gender identity, my sexuality, my thinking, likes and dislikes, and skills (like cooking) experience coordinated and consistent shifts. Sometimes, I'm Agender Aplaroace, hostile and protective, hate sweets, love spicy things, and have zero social skills while having intense steet-awareness. Other times, I've noticed I'm consistently femme, multisexual, loving and kind to the point of self-rejection for others, and can't cook but can socialize better. *It's debateable if we're fully distinct. It seems others both notice it and justify it as a part of our host's whole self and ignore the contradictions for the most part. What caused us to notice was that we caught ourself in a contradiction. Since paying attention, it's become easier to see each other and remember things. 4. I've noticed an aspect of myself take over, speak, and do things for me a few times. It's a bit out-of-body. I'd watch them function in a way that I couldn't have in extremely triggering situations. I won't detail them here. I can't talk about them. 5. I sometimes forget my birthdate, my age and age category, people I'm supposed to know like family and friends, and etc. 6. Importantly, I probably don't notice most of my memory-lapses, personality shifts, self-contradictions, etc. It's fairly invisible and seems hyper-reluctant to even show itself to therapists. There are always explanations, excuses, and etc. to assure aspects of my self that we aren't being noticed and that makes us feel safe, I guess.
..I'm halvid montiel. Pretty sure I have OSDD. Had a fight with an unknown entity in our headspace recently. When the fog cleared and the angry voice began to sound like a little girl, who identified herself as my dead name, it broke my heart. I'm still trying to calm down about it and figure out why I can't see her anymore.
Hey if it helps, if you hear from them again, maybe try to talk to them. Start with simple questions such as “what’s your favorite color” or “what’s your favorite food”, then move to more personal things like names and pronouns and such. Do not try to pry trauma. Only work on uncovering trauma with a professional
TW: Meds Hi everyone, we're a system of 9, and we started take a ADHD med (bc of our Therapist) called Methylphenidate Hydrochloride Extended Release Tablets, or Concerta, and we were wondering if it's normal that we can't "hear" eachother anymore. Like, we basically can't comunicate anymore. We feel eachother, we front, con front and everything; but we can't "hear" each other voices when we front. Is that normal? (notice that it is brand new, we started Concerta 4days ago) Also, our innervoices are lower than before also: D thsmmm
Does anyone know any good resources for did and osdd? ive been trying to figure out if im a system or if its my brain playing tricks on me. Im not entirely sure but ive done my research but i dont want to talk to anyone about it because i know they are gonna call me crazy for it. its kind of hard to explain. Its like sometimes ill hear voices as clear as day in my head. It sounds like its coming from outside, when its clearly inside. It even happens when i am alone and there isnt anyone else near me. But i dont have any "switching" happening because ive only known of two people/alters. But they made communication only a few times over the course of almost a year at this point. Its so confusing and disorienting. Does anyone know any way to get resources? This can be youtube channels, blogs, websites, or anything that you can find. Thank you so much in advance./Genuine.
Little vent cuz yes: We are a system. We've known this for about 2 years now and we've had no clue how to bring it up to anyone except our closest friends. We've had a lot of betrayal and been gr00med in the past which makes it very hard for us to talk to people about our problems. Especially adults. And it's been rough trying to mask all the time and pretend to be one person when we aren't but we have a therapy session coming up and were gonna try and talk about it. Except it's been stressing us out.
Who else is watching this because you recently found out that the person in your head that you talk to is able to take control of your body and actions and now you don't know what qualifies as DID or not? Edit: no? Just me? Aight
oh my god i sent a photo of something to my friend group and the search bar still said 'did compilation' i might've just outed us and im freaking out i feel really bad; luckily it was just a small group and if i wanted anyone to know it'd be them, but we weren't ready to talk about it ☹
Hi, I’m Kat. I’m 13 turning 14 and I have a bunch of diagnoses, some being but not all of them, PTSD, Autism, anxiety, ADHD, Tourette’s and Depression. (Yes, all medically diagnosed, several times actually) For years, my memory has been quite blurry and I can only remember things that happened like a few seconds ago or really important events very vaguely. I go through moments of extreme spacing out, where I can hardly move, and my body feels empty, like my soul is being sucked out my body, and usually after this, it results in me feeling not there anymore, like I’m aware of what’s happening, but my surroundings aren’t something I can properly interact with. Sometimes I even start crying from how terrifying the experience is. I don’t know if those are signs that I am a system, but I’ve been experiencing that for almost all my life, to the point of where I can’t remember a time where I didn’t go through that.
My gf recently found out I have DID and wanted to learn more about it so she could be there for me. And then I found out she was doing research on TikTok and I was like, "Nooooooo!" So I've been deep diving into what she's been watching and trying to find things that actually explain it. She's found some...not so great ones. But yours are beautifully represented and I feel heard- I'm sending her your way.
Hi! I suspect I might have multiple personalities but I can’t access what people call the headspace yet, like I can’t communicate with what I suspect to be alters from inside, could I get some advice please? Is this normal? Is it something else?
Thank you for the compilation! There were some really good ones! 👍👍 But the last part with the emoji and the music? Nah... Uncomfortable. Is it just me? 😕
0:49 Rewatching this comp because Matthew keeps watching them and we dont remember sh*t THIS IS THE SAME WITH US!!! I was frontstuck for the LONGEST. FREAKING. TIME. And that happened to be when we discovered the possibility of being a system. Then Matthew came into existence, and he suddenly took front, and then we knew. We're not faking being a system. xDDD
… that’s not a good therapist. Real and good therapists should validate your concerns and if possible take you through a diagnostic to see if that could be a serious concern and diagnose you. You need to stop seeing them and find a different therapist
@@acethepacifist1041it’s a bad therapist, for sure, but. You have to take account the sheer amount of new DID systems that seem to be coming into thin air. People who say “I might have had trauma. I could be a system” when they’re just thinking themselves a horrible condition. DID is inherently a bad thing to have. A diagnosis should be something to help the system be more understandable and helped.
Hey 🙋♀️ Things happen. 🤷♀️ Do you know DIDhatchery here on YT? They have an alter who is a big building (with eyes? Don't remember fully...). Our brains are so creative! 🌈
Oh God, you do know want to know what the whole ass fucking cat in my brain called himself before he settled on (gave in to) Francis. It was so cursed, and entirely my friends fault for suggesting it.
Hi I’m the host! And uhhhh wELL, WE FELT CALLED OUT ON SOOOO MANY LEVELS I SCREAMED AT SOME OF THESE Kenma (our co-host and a fictive) thought it was hilarious that I reacted by screaming ‘GOD HELP’ but I don’t think Eevie took kindly to it, I felt her move to co-front 😂
Oh I just think it's kind of cute and funny. Like I call my best mate my singlet friend and he calls me his system friend, you know? Same way cis or straight isn't an insult. Singlet is just a more specific and clear word than 'normal' in comparison to someone who's multiple. And 'single' doesn't work because it's already about relationships. So singlet it is. Nothing wrong with being a singlet, obviously! I've just always thought it was a cute and easy way to say 'integrated person'.
this is really nice as we constantly get fake claimed so its nice to see that were not they only ones who understand if that makes sense and its just nice as are host is still in slight denial (their getting their) but its jsut nice to see othwer people understand if that makes sense -Faye
I'm Tyrone! I'm a 45 year old alter in a teenagers body... i find it hard to live day to day life, but this really makes me feel seen! All my alters make fun of me because i'm the only personality that likes watermelon and fried chicken, but at least it's cheap! Heheh... I really love being in such a welcoming community! Although it's annoying being accused of racism when i blast n words at my friends at school. Being an african american alter is difficult in a white boys body so i've been pushed to the back during school hours 😕 but it's okay because i get all the gaming time!
a few questions, idk if i/we are a system or not since I/we weren’t diagnosed. 1: do you need trauma to be a system? 2: what does switching feel like? 3: what are "fronting" and "co-fronting"?
i dont have DID or anything along those lines, but i can answer a few of these. 1. from the web, you dont have to have trauma to be a system. 2. again, from the web, "feeling "spacey", depersonalized, or derealized; blurred vision; feeling distanced or slowed down; feeling an alter's presence; or feeling like time is beginning to jump." 3. "When an alter is fronting, they are controlling the body, and their emotions and thoughts are the strongest in the forefront of the mind's awareness." co-fronting is when two alters front at the same time. Hope this clears some things up!!
@Beetlejuices_cowboyhat7 it is always caused by trauma, endogenic systems and tulpa systems and everything like that pretend to be systems because they think its fun and quirky. it is a disorder caused by trauma, not "manifestation" or "the want for alters".
@Beetlejuices_cowboyhat7There are _systems_ not cause d by trauma who call themselves tulpas or other. But there is quite a discussion about it. Seems shady sometimes. And sometimes, a so called "tulpa" just has not discovered their trauma yet, so is in fact DID. _DID_ on the other hand _is_ caused by severe repeated childhood trauma during the ages of 0 to 6 (some sources also say to 9) and is a condition you can find in both the DSM and ICD.
hello, we enjoyed watching this. also we are thinking of telling our parents about our did. they are doing better and well we dont trust them with the littles, it would be nice if they knew we were a we. if anyone has any suggestions pls tell us them
As a DID system it's really nice to see a comp of our disorder that isn't fakeclaiming us or something weird, so thank you :) this disorder is so tiring so it's nice to see tiktoks that are so relatable to us. makes us feel less alone
Your channel is a big comfort for me so thank you sm, I hope you have a good day !
UR SO SWEET, here's our discord server if u wanna join, it has pluralkit in it too
discord.gg/YsQkDKNZ
I completely agree. -Scara
Im sorry but as a system with seizures, the epilepsy "can you seize for me" took me out. I was not expecting that i love it
Can confirm, we are all magical girls and switching does in fact look like a transformation.
This is even funnier when you have 4 magical girl fictives
As someone with osdd, these are ironically funny and terrifying at the same time
I would LOVE to have a magical girl transformation whenever we switch!
Maybe then I would know who's fronting!
That would be great lol
The best realization for us was that we dont actually assign roles to each other
We already do those things
im literally exausthed from being frontstuck
im literally going more and more insane as every second passes
Hope you're not still front stuck. I know that can be stressful. ❤
@@DragonsHaveAutismToo yo im still stuck and dissociated af, i dont even know who am i or who am i supposed to be☠️☠️
thanks tho
@@w1steri4 I wish I could help, but I've never been stuck for that long
@@DragonsHaveAutismToo its ok, thanks for your concern
@@w1steri4 :)
I’m pretty new to the fact I’m probably a system (OSDD 1b) and right now I haven’t experienced many negative symptoms and at the moment it is like having a support system in my head and got a really bad “oh am I faking it” till I remembered that I’m the host and right now most of my system mates are keeping me more in the dark for my mental safety till we get a therapist and actually talk about it. I’m really confused but I respect all my system mates and I just really wish I could help lighten their load cause I do love them like family. But yeah that’s my little system vent.
:)
A therapist will likely think that, from what you've described, your system is healthy and won't need treatment. The systems that need treatment are those with treatable difficulties and harmful mechanisms.
None of this is to say you aren't a system nor that things aren't difficult for you. I just wanted to let you know that (somewhat based off of personal experience) if the therapist doesn't see anything dysfunctional, they can't really treat it until they do see it.
There is such a thing as healthy multiplicity, after all.
Yes definitely, *every* time we switch we have a ✨transformation✨
Could you make more of these??? :o
We need some more validation, we've been struggling.
What helps us is the fact that doubting the fact that you are a system is a symptom of being one
@@DragonsHaveAutismToo
It is?!?! Bro, I wish we'd known that, I'd been going through a crisis for a while because everyone but two people were refusing to come to the headspace and only stayed in our innerworld, and we were seriously doubting that we were even a system to begin with. ;w;
I'm in denial that I have osdd or did, I don't think I do but a friend brought it up and it might make a lot of sense. But like, I feel like I would have noticed it by now or that someone would have done something sooner
It’s common for a lot of people with any system disorders to not notice or to figure that what they’re experiencing is normal, and I know that seems weird because most people online that are systems are under 18, but most actually find out that they’re a system over 18, they just don’t post about it because it may be personal to them
I'm fairly new to being a system, I've only figured out recently and I'm currently in denial because it feels like I'm faking it, currently I'm trying to remember if I had trauma as a child or something, my friends who are also a part of DID systems have been helping me with figuring it out and letting me take my time
No cuz literally same- I'm aware of my trauma sadly but we just can't accept it and reach out - EG
Same bro. I’m really positive I’m an Osdd system though. I hope you and your alters feel better though.
I had the same experience last year. You've got this, okay?
same, i dont know if im faking it, because one of my two other alters besides me is too "far away" for me to feel if they're here, and they just shout stuff at me and my other alter. they do come closer every now and then, though. im also the only one that fronts, which is annoying, because it also makes me feel like im faking it. -raine
LOL, I hope you're being satirical. If not that's just sad, you want to have childhood trauma? You want to have a mental disorder? Did your parents not hug you enough and tell you, you were special? Your mental disorder is that you are addicted to attention in any way you can get it and you are literally causing your self to develop different mental disorders by convincing yourself you have mental disorders that you never had. The inclusion of DID in the DSM-5 was highly controversial and the way it's typically described in tiktoks does not match the description of what it is like in reality and is more akin to bipolar disorder, with rapid mood swings or "personalities". You probably just have bipolar disorder or an attention seeking disorder. I can tell you all these people are faking and it's being intentionally propagated by the CCP through tiktok to ruin American youths, if you want to be seen as special and get positive attention develop a talent/hobby like music, drawing, video production etc.
i feel so alone, being a system. i doubt everything all the time and i get scared to tell others what i even have DID. we dont know everything because we're fairly new and we tend to get backlash from it, not to mention the fact we're a fictive heavy sys. :/
I feel like something is wrong with me
My gf, who is a system, told me that the symptoms I’ve been experiencing for YEARS could be DID.
I have this character in my head that I talk to, I view him as another version of myself - like all the negative bits about me. His name is Brain. He’s a floating brain who has a superiority complex. He likes things I hate (like classical music), insults my gf (whom I’m literally wholeheartedly in love with and could absolutely never hate), is an atheist (I’m religiously Jewish), and that’s all I really know so far.
Almost my entire life I had to deal with severe trauma, most of which I can’t say here without putting a trigger warning. Growing up, I’d sometime refer to myself with us/we instinctively and barely question why. I remember one time, I was alone (again) in my room, I heard a man’s voice in my head calling me my (then) name (I’m trans but this was before I even knew what being trans meant). I thought it was God.
I don’t know what to do. I thought I was a singlet. I’ve always shown myself to be a singlet. I don’t have a headspace, but today I switched(?) for the first time?? Multiple times. It was so stressful. Like I was still conscious and there, but I wasn’t in control. I think that’s what co-fronting/co-con is??? Idk
I have a lot of friends with DID, and my experience wasn’t like theirs so I just. Didn’t think anything of it. Am I wrong with this worry? Am I being paranoid? Is my mom right and I’m just a hypochondriac??? Is this just OCD and PTSD fucking me over??? Am I faking it???
I’ve had Brain for as long as I can remember, for multiple years at least. I also deal with daily memory gaps - some can be so severe that I immediately forget entire conversations and go into loops for minutes on end. I completely forgets what occurs the day or two before.
My gf has even informed me that she has noticed my personality pretty much switch a bunch over the 6 years she’s known me, like one moment I’d be me and then another I’d act completely differently. I don’t have any memory of this. I don’t even remember most of my childhood. All my traumatic memories are in third person.
When I’m paranoid, all my thoughts sound like a bunch of voices arguing and they get so loud it drowns out my own voice. I think in PICTURES. NOT WORDS. ESPECIALLY WITH MY INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS. My intrusive thoughts are made up pictures with very little thoughts, but these paranoid thoughts are ALL thoughts. And the voices sound different, too. It sounds like a bunch of people. I don’t know what’s going on and I’m scared.
This is exactly how I felt when I realized we were a system. I'd suggest doing more research, maybe, but from what it sounds like, you probably have DID or OSDD-1B like me. My boyfriend has fragmented alters and he's the one who pointed out that I might be a system, similarly with you. Honesty, our experiences are very close. I'd say there is a good chance you have it, yeah.
@@RazzfurryTea uhm so funny story
I’m getting checked out by my psychiatrist for like system stuff lmaoooo
@@loveleedesigns well good! I'm proud of you lol. I still haven't been able to get a psychiatrist yet 🥲
@@RazzfurryTea my psychiatrist simply told me to write down all the conversations in my head so hopefully she’ll see what’s wrong with me lmaoo
@@loveleedesigns oh lol
So I’m new I can’t tell if I was born with osdd or straight up trauma kicking my butt non-stop but I don’t have grey outs a lot of emotional amnesia, amnesia when others front ummm alot of alters can remember things and some tend to front and co-front but I don’t feel valid as a system let alone I need tips to try to understand it better? Can someone provide me answers?
if it makes you feel any better, im the same way, i (the host) am almost always co fronting by accident when somebody else is fronting, and i can remember almost everything, because im there
idk if this helps, but i hope it helps
@@freakzoid__ i appreciate it this made me feel less alone
@@EverOphelia ofc
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Pretty sure if anyone were to hurt a little, especially if they knew who they were hurting, someone would die.
So I don’t want to appal or upset anyone but lately I’m thinking I might have D.I.D because I can’t really remember my childhood well and I tend to black out a lot but when I do my friends say I act different but I don’t remember what I do and it’s starting to freak me out because then I hear multiple voices and see people in my head but I’m not sure and I don’t want to say I have it then it turns out I don’t . I watched this for maybe slightly more information but I’m also talking to medical professionals about it but I would like some feed back from D.I.D systems but I’m extremely confused on if I have it or not .
I'm not did I'm OSDD but it does sound like you have it. Glad you are pursuing more knowledge on it. Reminder that you only have a fear of claiming you are then not because of fake claimers and pressure from society.
Hey person here who is questioning a little if I have osdd-1b and also just want to get to understand DID /OSDD correctly. I wonder sometimes if it's rude to want to know what it's like to be a system, not in a "wow being a system sounds so cool !!! I'd lOvE to have friends in my head !!!" more in a way of "I want to know what it feels like so I can understand the stress and pain you go through, so I can support you right" and in so I know that "wow yeah nobody should wish to be a system" but I really do respect and hope all systems out there will be okay, you all got this!
but I feel like a jerk for wanting to know all this stuff
Curiosity isn't rude. Im part of an osdd1b system. For us it's mostly just confusing and a little unstable. No one really knows we have it so there's a lot of pressure to not only consistently act the same but also act the same as we did before discovery. It's hard on littles and alters with higher support needs because they don't receive support from anyone outside the system. We don't get memory gaps but being thrown into front is confusing and jarring and our memory is usually pretty fuzzy with emotional amnesia. But being part of a system is also amazing. It feels like I get to be so much more than I would be as a singlet because every person navigating the outer world faces judgement or criticism and has expectations placed upon them. Inside the system there is close to none of that. I can be myself while interacting with other alters and I'm never alone. If you have any questions you are welcome to ask. If there is anything grammatically incorrect or inconsistent, it might help to know that I'm a little, age 10.
-oliver
I'm not officially diagnosed, but here is a list of my experiences for your edification (If you're still interested). We're trying to use "I" language for relatability.
1. My ex and I got into fights over me saying I don't like spicy food immediately after I must have said I loved it and wanted it for dinner (I don't remember saying I liked spicy food. I don't. But, I trusted my ex. I'm vaguely aware that another part of myself loves spicy food, so I just chalk it up to not being the right self at the right time).
2. Several times, now, I will forget who and where I am while riding the bus, so I've had to make sure I have maps open with tracking and destination. Though, it doesn't always help with losing time and missing stops.
3. I've noticed that my innate gender identity, my sexuality, my thinking, likes and dislikes, and skills (like cooking) experience coordinated and consistent shifts. Sometimes, I'm Agender Aplaroace, hostile and protective, hate sweets, love spicy things, and have zero social skills while having intense steet-awareness. Other times, I've noticed I'm consistently femme, multisexual, loving and kind to the point of self-rejection for others, and can't cook but can socialize better.
*It's debateable if we're fully distinct. It seems others both notice it and justify it as a part of our host's whole self and ignore the contradictions for the most part. What caused us to notice was that we caught ourself in a contradiction. Since paying attention, it's become easier to see each other and remember things.
4. I've noticed an aspect of myself take over, speak, and do things for me a few times. It's a bit out-of-body. I'd watch them function in a way that I couldn't have in extremely triggering situations. I won't detail them here. I can't talk about them.
5. I sometimes forget my birthdate, my age and age category, people I'm supposed to know like family and friends, and etc.
6. Importantly, I probably don't notice most of my memory-lapses, personality shifts, self-contradictions, etc. It's fairly invisible and seems hyper-reluctant to even show itself to therapists. There are always explanations, excuses, and etc. to assure aspects of my self that we aren't being noticed and that makes us feel safe, I guess.
..I'm halvid montiel. Pretty sure I have OSDD.
Had a fight with an unknown entity in our headspace recently.
When the fog cleared and the angry voice began to sound like a little girl, who identified herself as my dead name, it broke my heart.
I'm still trying to calm down about it and figure out why I can't see her anymore.
Hey if it helps, if you hear from them again, maybe try to talk to them. Start with simple questions such as “what’s your favorite color” or “what’s your favorite food”, then move to more personal things like names and pronouns and such. Do not try to pry trauma. Only work on uncovering trauma with a professional
TW: Meds
Hi everyone, we're a system of 9, and we started take a ADHD med (bc of our Therapist) called Methylphenidate Hydrochloride Extended Release Tablets, or Concerta, and we were wondering if it's normal that we can't "hear" eachother anymore. Like, we basically can't comunicate anymore. We feel eachother, we front, con front and everything; but we can't "hear" each other voices when we front. Is that normal? (notice that it is brand new, we started Concerta 4days ago) Also, our innervoices are lower than before also: D thsmmm
Does anyone know any good resources for did and osdd? ive been trying to figure out if im a system or if its my brain playing tricks on me. Im not entirely sure but ive done my research but i dont want to talk to anyone about it because i know they are gonna call me crazy for it. its kind of hard to explain. Its like sometimes ill hear voices as clear as day in my head. It sounds like its coming from outside, when its clearly inside. It even happens when i am alone and there isnt anyone else near me. But i dont have any "switching" happening because ive only known of two people/alters. But they made communication only a few times over the course of almost a year at this point. Its so confusing and disorienting. Does anyone know any way to get resources? This can be youtube channels, blogs, websites, or anything that you can find. Thank you so much in advance./Genuine.
Me: *Doing actual research for my OCs* Nah-
Also me: *Watch TikTok comps as “research”* ye
Little vent cuz yes:
We are a system. We've known this for about 2 years now and we've had no clue how to bring it up to anyone except our closest friends. We've had a lot of betrayal and been gr00med in the past which makes it very hard for us to talk to people about our problems. Especially adults. And it's been rough trying to mask all the time and pretend to be one person when we aren't but we have a therapy session coming up and were gonna try and talk about it. Except it's been stressing us out.
Who else is watching this because you recently found out that the person in your head that you talk to is able to take control of your body and actions and now you don't know what qualifies as DID or not?
Edit: no? Just me? Aight
This was beautiful!
As a system whom is mostly endo, we are... Very... Very... Terrified.
Horrified in fact!
what.
Erm what the jupiter
Thank youuuu
Tysm for this
oh my god i sent a photo of something to my friend group and the search bar still said 'did compilation' i might've just outed us and im freaking out i feel really bad; luckily it was just a small group and if i wanted anyone to know it'd be them, but we weren't ready to talk about it ☹
Hi, I’m Kat. I’m 13 turning 14 and I have a bunch of diagnoses, some being but not all of them, PTSD, Autism, anxiety, ADHD, Tourette’s and Depression. (Yes, all medically diagnosed, several times actually)
For years, my memory has been quite blurry and I can only remember things that happened like a few seconds ago or really important events very vaguely. I go through moments of extreme spacing out, where I can hardly move, and my body feels empty, like my soul is being sucked out my body, and usually after this, it results in me feeling not there anymore, like I’m aware of what’s happening, but my surroundings aren’t something I can properly interact with. Sometimes I even start crying from how terrifying the experience is.
I don’t know if those are signs that I am a system, but I’ve been experiencing that for almost all my life, to the point of where I can’t remember a time where I didn’t go through that.
My gf recently found out I have DID and wanted to learn more about it so she could be there for me. And then I found out she was doing research on TikTok and I was like, "Nooooooo!"
So I've been deep diving into what she's been watching and trying to find things that actually explain it. She's found some...not so great ones. But yours are beautifully represented and I feel heard- I'm sending her your way.
Hi! I suspect I might have multiple personalities but I can’t access what people call the headspace yet, like I can’t communicate with what I suspect to be alters from inside, could I get some advice please? Is this normal? Is it something else?
Hi did ram kuv y'all smmmmmmm
-BEE🐝🐝🐝 (Liner system!!!!)
Thank you for the compilation! There were some really good ones! 👍👍
But the last part with the emoji and the music? Nah... Uncomfortable. Is it just me? 😕
OMG I JUST REWATCHED THE LAST PART EW THATS SO UNSETTLING WHY DID WE PUT THAT IN THERE 😭-Rain
@@littleinternetfreak 😌 Glad not the only one here. 😅
- These things do happen.
Thank you for replying!
Take care. 🍀
0:49
Rewatching this comp because Matthew keeps watching them and we dont remember sh*t
THIS IS THE SAME WITH US!!! I was frontstuck for the LONGEST. FREAKING. TIME. And that happened to be when we discovered the possibility of being a system. Then Matthew came into existence, and he suddenly took front, and then we knew. We're not faking being a system. xDDD
Lewis Scott Hall Daniel Young John
Thanks for that last one
The you are not multiple people part is so relatable-Simon
I’m still in denial whether I have OSDD-1b or not but my sister friend who is helping me is doing a great job
Our therapist told us we were faking it cuz it's 'not a real disorder.' We still don't know how to react to that.
… that’s not a good therapist. Real and good therapists should validate your concerns and if possible take you through a diagnostic to see if that could be a serious concern and diagnose you. You need to stop seeing them and find a different therapist
@@acethepacifist1041it’s a bad therapist, for sure, but. You have to take account the sheer amount of new DID systems that seem to be coming into thin air. People who say “I might have had trauma. I could be a system” when they’re just thinking themselves a horrible condition. DID is inherently a bad thing to have. A diagnosis should be something to help the system be more understandable and helped.
0:48 THIS JUST HAPPENED TO ME YESTERDAY PLEASE 😭😭🙏
we have an alter named pizza rolls and hes a fucking dog what did we do to deserve this
Hey 🙋♀️
Things happen. 🤷♀️
Do you know DIDhatchery here on YT? They have an alter who is a big building (with eyes? Don't remember fully...).
Our brains are so creative! 🌈
Oh God, you do know want to know what the whole ass fucking cat in my brain called himself before he settled on (gave in to) Francis. It was so cursed, and entirely my friends fault for suggesting it.
Nooooo the second one just killed me 😂
Kshlerin Estates
Camren Mountain
Adah Islands
Christ Pines
To the last one (that we can chill here) cheers Man! - Eleven
Hi I’m the host! And uhhhh wELL, WE FELT CALLED OUT ON SOOOO MANY LEVELS I SCREAMED AT SOME OF THESE
Kenma (our co-host and a fictive) thought it was hilarious that I reacted by screaming ‘GOD HELP’ but I don’t think Eevie took kindly to it, I felt her move to co-front 😂
3:47 i hate it when ppl who don't actually have the disorder r called singlets :( 💔
right, people say it like its an insult
like-
without multiple personalities?
SIGN ME TF UP
Oh I just think it's kind of cute and funny. Like I call my best mate my singlet friend and he calls me his system friend, you know? Same way cis or straight isn't an insult. Singlet is just a more specific and clear word than 'normal' in comparison to someone who's multiple. And 'single' doesn't work because it's already about relationships. So singlet it is. Nothing wrong with being a singlet, obviously! I've just always thought it was a cute and easy way to say 'integrated person'.
It’s just a descriptive term, though as a singlet I don’t like when it’s used as an insult, not all of us are uneducated about plurality :(
this is really nice as we constantly get fake claimed so its nice to see that were not they only ones who understand if that makes sense and its just nice as are host is still in slight denial (their getting their) but its jsut nice to see othwer people understand if that makes sense -Faye
Touch grass
@@FunkyCatLololo why?- Dude why should we touch grass-
@@alexthrduckling-_- u need it
@@FunkyCatLololo why- cause we have a fucking disorder due to childhood trauma?
@@alexthrduckling-_- cause u don't have it most likely
Will Drive
I'm Tyrone! I'm a 45 year old alter in a teenagers body... i find it hard to live day to day life, but this really makes me feel seen! All my alters make fun of me because i'm the only personality that likes watermelon and fried chicken, but at least it's cheap! Heheh... I really love being in such a welcoming community! Although it's annoying being accused of racism when i blast n words at my friends at school. Being an african american alter is difficult in a white boys body so i've been pushed to the back during school hours 😕 but it's okay because i get all the gaming time!
Heyy! I'm Azrael and I'm African-American too! The body is also white so I understand how you feel!
0:52 me everyday be like:
a few questions, idk if i/we are a system or not since I/we weren’t diagnosed.
1: do you need trauma to be a system?
2: what does switching feel like?
3: what are "fronting" and "co-fronting"?
i dont have DID or anything along those lines, but i can answer a few of these.
1. from the web, you dont have to have trauma to be a system.
2. again, from the web, "feeling "spacey", depersonalized, or derealized; blurred vision; feeling distanced or slowed down; feeling an alter's presence; or feeling like time is beginning to jump."
3. "When an alter is fronting, they are controlling the body, and their emotions and thoughts are the strongest in the forefront of the mind's awareness." co-fronting is when two alters front at the same time.
Hope this clears some things up!!
@@zeniths.zx10r tysm! :3
you do need trauma to be a system, did/osdd and such are the result of childhood trauma.
@Beetlejuices_cowboyhat7 it is always caused by trauma, endogenic systems and tulpa systems and everything like that pretend to be systems because they think its fun and quirky. it is a disorder caused by trauma, not "manifestation" or "the want for alters".
@Beetlejuices_cowboyhat7There are _systems_ not cause d by trauma who call themselves tulpas or other. But there is quite a discussion about it. Seems shady sometimes. And sometimes, a so called "tulpa" just has not discovered their trauma yet, so is in fact DID.
_DID_ on the other hand _is_ caused by severe repeated childhood trauma during the ages of 0 to 6 (some sources also say to 9) and is a condition you can find in both the DSM and ICD.
hello, we enjoyed watching this. also we are thinking of telling our parents about our did. they are doing better and well we dont trust them with the littles, it would be nice if they knew we were a we. if anyone has any suggestions pls tell us them