*all on Spotify* open.spotify.com/playlist/59Ewya0Ye6BjoVhhB0HsrB?si=7e276f6a64ed439a next ongoing playlist started in march 2024 - see u maybe :) th-cam.com/video/Q02wMvloAcw/w-d-xo.htmlfeature=shared seems like I am not alone, thank you for giving me a glance into the diary of your life -- none of the content on this channel is monetized everything goes to the artists in case of ads being displayed (which I can't always influence) due to copyright claims which they highly deserve If you want to support me with a kebab or sth www.paypal.com/paypalme/sinnersgarden love you, arici
@@infinitelogicmachine8587you gotta make this bad dream a nightmare before a happy ending suffer for a good reason so your future self can thank you. only thing we can do in this world is control our own destiny
Everyone is back to being a child. Playing on the hill, resting together under that one tree, in the shadow it provides. They watch the clouds go by, see the birds fly and a breeze dances past. Suffering doesn't exist, just not being able to be outside a bit longer is only what hurts, scraped knees and all of that. They're happy, they're free.
you are the only one remaining when nobody is watching treat yourself like someone you care about - sounds like you had to be your own back.. but the good thing is that no one can let you down, it's all in your hands even though it's tough sometimes
I had her, she was my happiness. It all got messed up when I confessed my feelings to her. I became dramatic, I did the worst decisions ever. Now suddenly we're strangers again, It's been 3 weeks since she last talked to me. It's all my fault but what can I do? She already did cut me out of her life anyways. I'm just here hoping maybe one day she will come back... Update: its been 1 month and I've finally moved on but she and her friends still hate me, but what can I do? I just wanna make the best memories of my life and I just realized that I've been too unhapy with myself that's why I kept dreaming and looking for someone that can fill the void in my heart. I got out of my comfort zone and joined some sports in our school, Though it's a bit akward standing there cause I don't know anyone, even my other friends ignore me and they just talk to me when they need something. Honestly it's just tiring to be a people pleaser like I can't even say no to any request or even have this sad face on. But I'm working on not giving a f#ck about anyone and just be in the zone where I'm comfortable being me.
I hope you finally understand that it wasn't your fault; that this happens to us all, and that you will waste your life if you wait for someone to come back. Please, as hard as it is, get up and carve your destiny
you gotta move on brother. You can do it!. I've been through that hell, no one was there for me. But here I am and I want you to know that it's really not worth it waiting for someone like this and wasting your precious precious life. Work hard, Train Hard, Study Hard, Think Different, and you'll reach the heights of success & happiness soon like I did albeit it took like a year. Don't give up brother, we're here for you and with you!💯
You got to move on man. And you should never give yourself to someone. People don't forgive in the way you want them to. They will still hold a grudge, or no longer look at you the same. Only give yourself to God. God isn't like that. He will forgive us and love us no matter what.
@@_Arici Maybe this time she will stay longer beside me in our bed. Long enough before the moonlight is gone and another day begins with me on my own. Isolated under the sun as I’m waiting for the moon to return, a moon who is the shepherd leading the stars to something more amongst the foreground of a dark sky. All my sorrow, All my longing, All the days feeling as if I don’t exist in anyone’s life but my own. I continue just so that I could be under the moon, so that I may see her clearly and look inside those hazel blue eyes.
@@maclainholland4236 Tonight I can write the saddest lines. Write, for example, “The night is starry and the blue stars shiver in the distance.” The night wind revolves in the sky and sings. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too. Through nights like this one I held her in my arms. I kissed her again and again under the endless sky. She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too. How could one not have loved her great still eyes. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her. To hear the immense night, still more immense without her. And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture. What does it matter that my love could not keep her. The night is starry and she is not with me. This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance. My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her. My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer. My heart looks for her, and she is not with me. The same night whitening the same trees. We, of that time, are no longer the same. I no longer love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her. My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing. Another’s. She will be another’s. As she was before my kisses. Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes. I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her. Love is so short, forgetting is so long. Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her. Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer and these the last verses that I write for her. Pablo Neruda
these always send me to a dream, a dream of a childhood summer, when the sun was warm and me and my brothers play on the PlayStation, a summer so warm that i can still feel it in my memories. summer now has grown cold and lonely, so very lonely.
i have trouble sleeping and it gets really bad. i like how these songs feel like ripples in a calm pond or like a diffused ball of light orbiting around in a dull sky or a soft wave crashing onto a beach or something it calms me down. usually playlists I find seem a bit eerie but this one is just calm and light and perfect. I can't get freaked out by a note that sounds a bit too weird or something. It also a sad, which is something I prefer to feel rather than fear. They sound sad but also peaceful so it can be used for multiple things. it's really cool how a mix of sounds together can sound like an emotion and calm me, and can be adapted to what I need when I listen to it. This playlist is perfect for what it is named for. Having a bad dream would be fixed if I could put these songs in my veins forever to calm me
fellows are like stars gifting you light in dark nights, you have found this on your way even though it came from a dark place of mine - as I put them together listening to my inner voice, I unfortunately have to say that the landscape they create reflects what I was going through who knew it would touch so many people wish I could gift you more than momentary peace and I thank you for leaving words with much weight and value on this place :) hopefully this will be a time capsule for you, memories to look back to in a few years from an angle with more balance and harmony
Not sure why this playlist reminded me of when I was 4. I did not understand what life was about, nor did I stop to think about it. I lived in the moment and enjoyed the simple times of going out to the beach, sitting in my care bears themed bedroom playing on my gameboy, and sitting in front of the TV watching samurai jack my favourite cartoon at the time. How did I grow up so fast and why can't I enjoy life like I used to?
they do - even if they strenghten or wake up many emotions which I didn't listen to recently hopefully it will also connect you more - to yourself and what is hidden
This comment section + part 1’s comment section is like another dimension to me. Where everyone exposes their pain and vulnerabilities without judgement. Where we’re allowed to feel. Life is so painful. It’s so hard. I’ve had more abuse and trauma by 15 than I’m supposed to have by 80. I wish to be freed.
i feel like I'm falling down, my marks start getting worse i lost all of my friends they went with another girl it was my exbestfriend. my classmates started bullying me and my parents always yell at me my head always hurt me so much, sometimes i had heart attack but this Playlist is so good it make me feel safe thank u
To, Isabella I have never felt such an emotion as I have with you. You taught me how to love. And I was learned to take, I am sorry. Never again should I feel this sorrow without such an inexperience, thank you for teaching me how to love, cry and to grieve. Everything happens to you in life just as you have to me. Your deep compassion truly made me fixated on the future we would share together. A future never to be lived. May we meet again in another lifetime. With quilt, Bryson I wish I had the strength to send this to her, unfortunately it’s to late. We’re both on different paths in life and I’m not arrogant enough to believe that we could get back together.
I had a friend who I cherished with my heart we laughed and joked together I thought our friendship would never end but after a week not talking to him he began avoiding me and I tried to figure out why so I could fix things or at least fix myself but he never looked or spoke to me afterwards my other friends tried talking to him about me but they told me that he wouldn't even listen when he heard my name and of course it hurt but the reason I cared was he was there when nobody was there for me as a friend to talk to but now he cut me out of his life and I cut him him out too so now we rarely see each other and now I don't give a care about anymore
I listened to part 1 of this in the last weeks at home when I was crying often and it was hard. Now I moved out and I'm much happier, free and fullfilled and listening to this I can believe that it really was just a bad dream (:
what you say is coming very close to me might be that we've experienced similar circumstances, or that we're able to relate to what the other one has felt
you are your own hope now, I can feel your relief perhaphs, when the wounds fade away, everyone involved will be able to forgive each other and themselves
there will be a plenty moments in life where we have to ask ourselves whether we want to pass healing or if we want to pass pain will we transmute what we have stored and kept inside into dust or will we be able to turn it into soil when you stand up in the morning and go to bed in the evening it's you who will either gift himself a place where he finds rest or where you will carry conflict inside you are your own destiny now - may your inner child find peace in what you are able to give yourself now, I wish you nothing but love
it's all I can give back - I have high respect for people who directly confess and share sensitive emotions; therefore, I am answering by heart as it's the only proper response
Nothing really resonates online until this one found me. The words were the exact sentences in my head. Truth is, I don't know how to process my grief.
I'm also having a demanding time at work - finally got a good position almost 2 months ago and it's so much information, many corners and topics to notice and remember.. Had endless rejections before that; therefore, I am very thankful for the opportunity - perhaps it will be too demanding, perhaps it won't be the right path but for now it will help me grow :)
Sometimes I don’t feel im in charge of myself and my emotions take over. All I’ve been ever told is “it’s a phase, you’ll wake up and you’ll be back to normal and back to a normal human being.” My question is what is a normal person, what IS a normal person how different is a “normal” person to someone who battles a silent subconscious war that they struggle to win? And that person is doubled to people, then multiplies into thousands of others who are fighting a battle that not even seeing the sight of a fallen leaf could drown the silence to a naked eye. Thousands dream of a happy ending, the majority of them people don’t live to see it. To all you people, not only win the silent war, not only live to see your dreams come true, live loud & proud and express yourself where others couldn’t because of corrupt society that implants restriction rather than freedom. My kings & queens, may all of you only grow old in the face but let your spirit outshine brighter than the naked star ⭐️❤️
We often think being lonely and feeling lost is a bad thing. It's not. See it as your sign to step up - find out who you really are. What do YOU want to achieve? Imagine you're laying dead on bed and family friends are surrounding you. What are they going to say? Are they going to say you gave up on life and lived an useless life? Nobody wants that. Find your why and you'll find a way. And yes, it's going to suck. Who the hell said it's going to be full of joy and happiness? Delusional people. Yes it does suck to chase your dreams, but if you don't - who are you really? Oh and, if you think "I follow happiness" you're lost too. Happiness is where pride is. Sometimes you can't feel nor see it, but it's there. Happiness is just a dopamine distraction. Focus. YOU MUST FOCUS!!
I appreciate you for even leaving your acknowledging words under October apparently these collections were able to help you dive deeper, to float and find comfort in your own inner ocean all I can do is to return the blessings and greetings to the Netherlands, thank you wishing to gift you more moments of stillness and of course for your being to remain it's good energy after living through what you're living through love, Arici
Haha it's just a terminology for people who are staying around, who enjoy to come back and are part of the road :) I'm getting a little impressed when listeners write sentences like you do - thank you for making my day better, it can be easy as that 💙 Imagining right now how it would be to hold a show, to book a venue and have people like us gather around and listen to playlists like this one together, of course played live with smooth transitions etc. At an evening, open roof, with night sky above us - if one day I'm a DJ I will do so
It hurts to be somebody that was never good enough. Would you love me in another world? Would I say all the right words? Would you hug me and never let go? I let you go because I wanted you to be happy, If it makes you smile without me, So be it.
I feel sad when I see this even though I never watched the anime I don't plan to because I don't think I can handle the emotions when I come back here.
Liver disease. I've always had idealazations of death since i was 20, and now i have a definitive timeline as i turned 30 with the diagnosis. I won't stop drinking unless I start becoming a commonly beligerent drunk. But considering i usually drink alone or on d&d nights i think I'll go out slowly. I tell everyone i plan to stop, but between not wanting to be here anymore except for petty reasons like a new show i fell in love with, wanting to see a series end, and my magnum opus campaign im 2/3 done with, i dont really see myself stopping. I didnt kms in a dramatic way like i thought I would, but i think this way is actually better.
I do not wish to be inappropriate or indelicate but please read "Atomic Habits" with the focus on applying or transfering it to your sleep, nutrition, sport and media consumption habits. when you do not have hope, you have no choice but to fight - man, DM me on IG and I will recommend you a recipe which may help you. When you can't swim anymore, you need to cut off parts which make you drown I wish you to succeed, simply by living and enjoying those D&D Nights, finding new shows and interacting with whatever your character finds leisure in but for that you need to treat yourself with more respect because there will be a time when you cant enjoy what you enjoy right now, so as long as you can please dont drown yourself because as you can see you did not give up on things which make you _breathe_
Every day when i go to bed, I hope that this will be my last day and I won’t wake up again. I'm very tired of life's problems. Nothing brings me joy. and I don’t know what to do to make me feel better. I stop perceiving this reality and hope that this is just a bad dream
Why does time pass so quickly? iam still... so lonely, but iam fine i think... night december 2022, so lonely, but she was doing my smile... now i so lonely again... iam fine but empty...
you can only _find_ things which are _lost_ you will reunite with yourself, seems like you are searching perhaps you've _hidden_ for too long, it will be warm once you love yourself again
It was more than 2 years ago when we first met. He was my first love and he cheated on me. I forgave him and the one breaking up was not me, it was him. There is not a single day where I don’t think about him and the times where I was truly happy. I cried just looking at him because it seemed so weird to love somebody that much. A few months ago he kissed me and told me right afterwards that he could have me when he wants. He is living his best life out there while I’m thinking about what could’ve been. I’m ashamed of myself for still missing him.
it will sound harsh and will be hurtful what I have to say but I have to you are forgiving and accepting because your love is genuine and without conditions *but* you have a responsibility towards yourself to sleep good at night - you have a responsiblity towards yourself to be treated respectfully and to be valued for what you bring at the table to be ashamed for missing him is in my opinion ok but you should be more ashamed to lower yourself so much for someone who tramples on your generous heart so, stop that poisoned relationship with him and with yourself this is not meant in a degrading manner, I just wish you to be good and felt like I had to say it in that tone :) love
"A few months ago he kissed me and told me right afterwards that he could have me when he wants" I don't mean to be judgemental or dramatic, but this should make you angry. He doesn't respect you. He's arrogant, he knows he has you wrapped around his finger, and he decided to use that information to openly demean you by telling you this right after kissing you. Trust me, if you give it some time and see things objectively, you'll resent him more than you love him (and that's good). Please don't be ashamed. The best thing you can do for yourself is never to contact him again and move on. His mistakes aren't your fault
found this video just as I found a pure filling love for the second time ever. It was kind of special, because it does now looking back seem like all the pain was only a dream. "You'll have bad times, but they'll always wake you up to the good stuff that you weren't paying attention to." -Robin Williams, Goodwill Hunting
I pray thatt all of this is just a bad dream and not my reality im just so paranoid by everything and now days anxiety is like hitting me back idk what do to im getting kinda scared idk from what i think from reality im so f paranoid like im not showing my emotions and stuff just keeping it all hidden inside me and not letting it all out because i don't wanna hurt the people around me idk what is gonna happen to me idk the future but im hoping that its all good and i be safe and happy and comfortable
If you can't channel your emotions directly, try to channel them indirectly through an activitiy Does not matter, if it's painting, writing, sport - just find a way to express :)
how we are all connected through this - people from everywhere looking at the same sky with different views from the bottom of my heart, thank you too for letting me know :)
2 years…that’s when I stopped talking with you…our break up….i had to stop it…it wasn’t healthy…..it wasn’t meant to be…….so why can’t I stop thinking about you…did I make the right choice…..I’ll never know, and I have to live with that…I hope you’re happy though, I’m not, but as long as to our happy, I’m happy for you….
Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.
sometimes I do not know what to say - I don't have an answer all I can say is that I am sorry man he is your guardian angel now, it's all I can wish for you
wish I could influence where TH-cam decides to place the Ads Of course, I would place them only once in the beginning or at the end but unfortunately I am not able to change/impact it so far.. hope you and your cat will have many more good naps to this
By the way- I love how you have “what if you fly?” On your about me section. I have the exact same words, taken from the exact same quote, on one of my accounts. I love how we both shortened the same quote to the same words. It’s the first time I’ve seen someone else do this; usually, people are different. I know it may be a small thing but it means so much to me. It makes me feel connected and understood. May I ask, do you write? There is freedom waiting for you, On the breezes of the sky, And you ask "What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, What if you fly?
of course you may ask :) yes, I occasionally did in the past - even though I wrote it in German, I will translate one of my favorites into English 💙 perhaps upload it as written lyrics on screen for one of the songs in the playlist, as single upload 💭 you're the first person to mention it, I will remember many of you, many of you who asked simple questions for the first time _connected_ and _understood_
I will upload one of it as a video, see you there when it's up - perhaps we will resonate with each other it will be on the background for one of the songs on here :)
i promised myself that i’ll never text her again. i can’t tell that i love her or have feelings, it was my first time talking and spend so much time with girl ever. i hurt her and can’t stop thinking about her
I don't think I will find good man anymore even I found one probably not for me. I'm not independent it's kinda of sad i depend on people to much.i have no one to talk with now it's embarrassing to talk about me
i fell i want to go to br right now so i can see the sky in the night in saudi Arabia the stars so beautiful also i can free may self and thinking about may future i dont want think about bad things like every time i be in home🙁 oh yeah br is the desert we saudi people love to go in the night butt i want to be alone on it
When you get the chance to experience it by yourself make sure to put this mix on and maybe send me pictures on IG Sounds incredible to be able to experience that
imagine yourself like a fountain, if too much water is taken out, you will run out of it and also, remind yourself that each person has their own right amount of water they need even if you do it out of love and care, the receiving person might "drown" in it when it's too much and you're not lost, thank you for sharing it :)
yeah - I am sorry Unfortunately I do not have an impact on the Ads being displayed, if I had the chance, I would of course tell them to place them at the beginning only..
@@_Arici Oh, I know it's not your fault. I manage another TH-cam channel, and we are not monetized, but TH-cam throws ads into our videos wherever they want. I appreciate your music and the accompanying visual. This is an excellent video. Thanks so much for sharing!
@@lendondain1 appreciate your positive and understanding response well, it's all I was wishing for - listeners to find joy/relief in this, it's a win for me if you were able to take a break on here 💙
*all on Spotify*
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next ongoing playlist started in march 2024 - see u maybe :)
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seems like I am not alone, thank you for giving me a glance into the diary of your life
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If you're reading this.. just know there's another being out there in the world that feels just as lost and hopeless as you.
we bond through it - making us feel less lost and a little more connected
Yes. Sometimes I hope this life is just a bad dream and I’ll wake up to something better
@@infinitelogicmachine8587you gotta make this bad dream a nightmare before a happy ending suffer for a good reason so your future self can thank you. only thing we can do in this world is control our own destiny
@@infinitelogicmachine8587 it's exactly the same for me.....sadly we both won't wake up because this is reality (although I hope it's not)
@@Fcking_Deadfuck that bruh, if you can't do anything else then make this life the best you can make it
Everyone is back to being a child. Playing on the hill, resting together under that one tree, in the shadow it provides. They watch the clouds go by, see the birds fly and a breeze dances past. Suffering doesn't exist, just not being able to be outside a bit longer is only what hurts, scraped knees and all of that. They're happy, they're free.
upon a hill I rest
sleep well, Eren
I feel this vszn in my soul man.
You can still feel like that, it’s a process but know it’s possible
Wow, you really hit the nail on the head!
my biggest accomplishment to this day has been keeping myself alive
you are the only one remaining when nobody is watching
treat yourself like someone you care about - sounds like you had to be your own back.. but the good thing is that no one can let you down, it's all in your hands even though it's tough sometimes
That’s beautiful man. I’m with you. Let’s keep pushin and continue to grow as individuals.
With love,
A guy you’ll probably never meet 🫱🏼🫲🏾🧡
im insanely proud of you stranger
I'm happy that you're here
I’m so glad you’re here.
I had her, she was my happiness. It all got messed up when I confessed my feelings to her. I became dramatic, I did the worst decisions ever. Now suddenly we're strangers again, It's been 3 weeks since she last talked to me. It's all my fault but what can I do? She already did cut me out of her life anyways. I'm just here hoping maybe one day she will come back...
Update: its been 1 month and I've finally moved on but she and her friends still hate me, but what can I do? I just wanna make the best memories of my life and I just realized that I've been too unhapy with myself that's why I kept dreaming and looking for someone that can fill the void in my heart. I got out of my comfort zone and joined some sports in our school, Though it's a bit akward standing there cause I don't know anyone, even my other friends ignore me and they just talk to me when they need something. Honestly it's just tiring to be a people pleaser like I can't even say no to any request or even have this sad face on. But I'm working on not giving a f#ck about anyone and just be in the zone where I'm comfortable being me.
I hope you finally understand that it wasn't your fault; that this happens to us all, and that you will waste your life if you wait for someone to come back.
Please, as hard as it is, get up and carve your destiny
It will be okay bro don't worry I get how you feel 😢
you gotta move on brother. You can do it!. I've been through that hell, no one was there for me. But here I am and I want you to know that it's really not worth it waiting for someone like this and wasting your precious precious life. Work hard, Train Hard, Study Hard, Think Different, and you'll reach the heights of success & happiness soon like I did albeit it took like a year. Don't give up brother, we're here for you and with you!💯
Ok look you might have to move on it will be hard but you can do it
You got to move on man. And you should never give yourself to someone. People don't forgive in the way you want them to. They will still hold a grudge, or no longer look at you the same. Only give yourself to God. God isn't like that. He will forgive us and love us no matter what.
Parttttt 2, no kidding I’ve been listening to part 1 ever night to calm down my mind and try to find peace so that I can relax and sleep.
under the moonlight
@@_Arici
Maybe this time she will stay longer beside me in our bed. Long enough before the moonlight is gone and another day begins with me on my own. Isolated under the sun as I’m waiting for the moon to return, a
moon who is the shepherd leading the stars to something more amongst the foreground of a dark sky.
All my sorrow,
All my longing,
All the days feeling as if I don’t exist in anyone’s life but my own.
I continue just so that I could be under the moon,
so that I may see her clearly and look inside those hazel blue eyes.
@@maclainholland4236
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
Write, for example, “The night is starry
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.”
The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.
Through nights like this one I held her in my arms.
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.
She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.
Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.
To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.
What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is starry and she is not with me.
This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
My sight tries to find her as though to bring her closer.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.
The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.
I no longer love her, that’s certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.
Another’s. She will be another’s. As she was before my kisses.
Her voice, her bright body. Her infinite eyes.
I no longer love her, that’s certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.
Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.
Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.
Pablo Neruda
longing for love..
these always send me to a dream, a dream of a childhood summer, when the sun was warm and me and my brothers play on the PlayStation, a summer so warm that i can still feel it in my memories. summer now has grown cold and lonely, so very lonely.
reminiscing - this will be a time capsule for many people
same for me with Nintendo and Pokemon
realllll
i have trouble sleeping and it gets really bad. i like how these songs feel like ripples in a calm pond or like a diffused ball of light orbiting around in a dull sky or a soft wave crashing onto a beach or something it calms me down. usually playlists I find seem a bit eerie but this one is just calm and light and perfect. I can't get freaked out by a note that sounds a bit too weird or something. It also a sad, which is something I prefer to feel rather than fear. They sound sad but also peaceful so it can be used for multiple things.
it's really cool how a mix of sounds together can sound like an emotion and calm me, and can be adapted to what I need when I listen to it. This playlist is perfect for what it is named for. Having a bad dream would be fixed if I could put these songs in my veins forever to calm me
fellows are like stars gifting you light in dark nights, you have found this on your way even though it came from a dark place of mine - as I put them together listening to my inner voice, I unfortunately have to say that the landscape they create reflects what I was going through
who knew it would touch so many people
wish I could gift you more than momentary peace and I thank you for leaving words with much weight and value on this place :)
hopefully this will be a time capsule for you, memories to look back to in a few years from an angle with more balance and harmony
calling it perfect, y'all are making me blush haha 😊
Stay positive!
To whoever listening, god empower your soul. God bless you with love and hapiness.
Same to you
Cringe comments, ai chat gpt generated comments better delete,you are doing it for likes
Thank you 😇 May god bless you as well. ✝️🤍
@@Kevcx_ Man are u also stupid he is using you to get like
God is fairy tale
wish it was but i just watched AOT final episode. TAKE ME BACK TO 6 Years ago please😭😭😭😭
I remember watching the first episode when I was 13 on my iPod Touch 4
How time flies, I guess it's time for Eren to sleep - he is free now..
Not sure why this playlist reminded me of when I was 4. I did not understand what life was about, nor did I stop to think about it. I lived in the moment and enjoyed the simple times of going out to the beach, sitting in my care bears themed bedroom playing on my gameboy, and sitting in front of the TV watching samurai jack my favourite cartoon at the time. How did I grow up so fast and why can't I enjoy life like I used to?
it passed too quickly, I feel what you're saying
that description first few lines- beautiful. i never thought that, but yeah, that.
Who knew it would reach and resonate with so many people
Thank you, Emma
What a wonderful group of song.
They feel like ones to help cope with a depressive episode, very much a mood, and obliged.
they do - even if they strenghten or wake up many emotions which I didn't listen to recently
hopefully it will also connect you more - to yourself and what is hidden
appreciate your words
This comment section + part 1’s comment section is like another dimension to me. Where everyone exposes their pain and vulnerabilities without judgement. Where we’re allowed to feel.
Life is so painful. It’s so hard. I’ve had more abuse and trauma by 15 than I’m supposed to have by 80. I wish to be freed.
Seeing this playlist and kaori reminds me of a time when i used to watch this series and i was in the best time of my life, wish i could come back...
and we didn't even comprehend that we were living it, now it's nostalgia
Kaori in the background suits this so well
seems like you share my vision :)
I found part one a few weeks ago. Absolutely loved the music and the imagery... they helped me through a lot. Part two is a pleasant surprise
hope this one will come close giving you the same peace - flattered that so many viewers came back already
thank you so much
The background is your lie in april a very sad anime
I’ve literally been looping part 1 to sleep, listening to this one tonight!
I didn´t expect to see a part 2 when I opened my TH-cam, but here it is. What a pleasant surprise
more to come 💙
I'm feeling like the Weeknd right now man
i feel like I'm falling down, my marks start getting worse i lost all of my friends they went with another girl it was my exbestfriend. my classmates started bullying me and my parents always yell at me my head always hurt me so much, sometimes i had heart attack but this Playlist is so good it make me feel safe thank u
wish I could gift you more than just temporary peace
I love how the colors are blue this time. Very satisfying
as this one is "darker" from the tone of the music, I thought it would be a great fit
feels good when you were able to see it as satisfying :)
@_Arici amazing, thank you for explaining. I couldn't pinpoint exactly what I was picking up on, I just knew it felt right, haha.
@@supernova777.77 your heart speaks clearer than your mind, I got you :)
To, Isabella
I have never felt such an emotion as I have with you. You taught me how to love. And I was learned to take, I am sorry. Never again should I feel this sorrow without such an inexperience, thank you for teaching me how to love, cry and to grieve. Everything happens to you in life just as you have to me. Your deep compassion truly made me fixated on the future we would share together. A future never to be lived. May we meet again in another lifetime.
With quilt, Bryson
I wish I had the strength to send this to her, unfortunately it’s to late. We’re both on different paths in life and I’m not arrogant enough to believe that we could get back together.
sometimes your heart has to break in order to open up
even though it sounds like it left a hole in you, there might grow something good out of it
I had a friend who I cherished with my heart we laughed and joked together I thought our friendship would never end but after a week not talking to him he began avoiding me and I tried to figure out why so I could fix things or at least fix myself but he never looked or spoke to me afterwards my other friends tried talking to him about me but they told me that he wouldn't even listen when he heard my name and of course it hurt but the reason I cared was he was there when nobody was there for me as a friend to talk to but now he cut me out of his life and I cut him him out too so now we rarely see each other and now I don't give a care about anymore
your lie in april hits haaaard
I listened to part 1 of this in the last weeks at home when I was crying often and it was hard. Now I moved out and I'm much happier, free and fullfilled and listening to this I can believe that it really was just a bad dream (:
what you say is coming very close to me
might be that we've experienced similar circumstances, or that we're able to relate to what the other one has felt
you are your own hope now, I can feel your relief
perhaphs, when the wounds fade away, everyone involved will be able to forgive each other and themselves
Thank you for your kind words. I hope you found a better life for you too💜@@_Arici
im so happy to finally getting older. childhood is not the best place, and the farther im from it, the safer it gets. happy late birthday to me!
there will be a plenty moments in life where we have to ask ourselves whether we want to pass healing or if we want to pass pain
will we transmute what we have stored and kept inside into dust or will we be able to turn it into soil
when you stand up in the morning and go to bed in the evening it's you who will either gift himself a place where he finds rest or where you will carry conflict inside
you are your own destiny now - may your inner child find peace in what you are able to give yourself now, I wish you nothing but love
@_Arici tysm it's actually so sweet!! 😭
it's all I can give back - I have high respect for people who directly confess and share sensitive emotions; therefore, I am answering by heart as it's the only proper response
Life just pain people you love are the first to sell you when you need them but why my heart still loving her
because your heart is _genuine_
let go of what is not meant for you
Nothing really resonates online until this one found me. The words were the exact sentences in my head. Truth is, I don't know how to process my grief.
it came from the bottom of my heart - you are not alone
A really rough day at work today. This morning s exactly what I needed. Thank you for the awesome content and amazing videos!!!
I'm also having a demanding time at work - finally got a good position almost 2 months ago and it's so much information, many corners and topics to notice and remember..
Had endless rejections before that; therefore, I am very thankful for the opportunity - perhaps it will be too demanding, perhaps it won't be the right path but for now it will help me grow :)
Sometimes I don’t feel im in charge of myself and my emotions take over. All I’ve been ever told is “it’s a phase, you’ll wake up and you’ll be back to normal and back to a normal human being.”
My question is what is a normal person, what IS a normal person how different is a “normal” person to someone who battles a silent subconscious war that they struggle to win?
And that person is doubled to people, then multiplies into thousands of others who are fighting a battle that not even seeing the sight of a fallen leaf could drown the silence to a naked eye.
Thousands dream of a happy ending, the majority of them people don’t live to see it.
To all you people, not only win the silent war, not only live to see your dreams come true, live loud & proud and express yourself where others couldn’t because of corrupt society that implants restriction rather than freedom.
My kings & queens, may all of you only grow old in the face but let your spirit outshine brighter than the naked star ⭐️❤️
We often think being lonely and feeling lost is a bad thing. It's not. See it as your sign to step up - find out who you really are. What do YOU want to achieve? Imagine you're laying dead on bed and family friends are surrounding you. What are they going to say? Are they going to say you gave up on life and lived an useless life? Nobody wants that. Find your why and you'll find a way. And yes, it's going to suck. Who the hell said it's going to be full of joy and happiness? Delusional people. Yes it does suck to chase your dreams, but if you don't - who are you really?
Oh and, if you think "I follow happiness" you're lost too. Happiness is where pride is. Sometimes you can't feel nor see it, but it's there. Happiness is just a dopamine distraction. Focus. YOU MUST FOCUS!!
I appreciate you for even leaving your acknowledging words under October
apparently these collections were able to help you dive deeper, to float and find comfort in your own inner ocean
all I can do is to return the blessings and greetings to the Netherlands, thank you
wishing to gift you more moments of stillness and of course for your being to remain it's good energy after living through what you're living through
love, Arici
Poor Kaori i feel so bad for her
Is she the girl in the video?
@@happinessesss yess
_Blue Soul_ - what a fitting name for the aesthetic haha :)
@@bluesoul1375 anime name please. I am kinda in the mood to cry
@@happinessesss "Your Lie In April." Be prepared to cry alot, it's a doozy.
I’m so happy you made a part 2. The first one made me feel so happy and relaxed. Thank you so much for making my day better!!
members only
@@_Arici ?
Haha it's just a terminology for people who are staying around, who enjoy to come back and are part of the road :)
I'm getting a little impressed when listeners write sentences like you do - thank you for making my day better, it can be easy as that 💙
Imagining right now how it would be to hold a show, to book a venue and have people like us gather around and listen to playlists like this one together, of course played live with smooth transitions etc.
At an evening, open roof, with night sky above us - if one day I'm a DJ I will do so
I really like that idea💙 maybe one day we can make it come true :) @@_Arici
Being with people just hurts me.
ty, for second part. ily bro. i hope u get better
so simple yet so soothing
to receive those words from someone far away, reaching so close to me
the thumbnail desribes me so well tho, tysm for this playlist ❤
who knew I could make you feel understood through this
@@_Arici ikr, ty
i loved the first part so much. i appreciate it.
was the second part coming close to it for you? :)
appreciate all of you for coming back
@@_Arici yes definetely. Thats why I subscrribed to you in the first place. Looking forward for more content.
thank you so much
Man, I watched this show once and cannot watch it again. It just destroyed me. Kaori's death still fucks me up. What an amazing, underrated show.
if I may recommend you two more shows perhaps you will like "Erased" and "Death Parade" :)
What's the show called?
@@tht1blackguy209 "Your Lie In April."
Also spoiler, oops.
What a masterpiece. Thank you!! 💜
@@_Ariciwhere from this picture?
Oh man so good. Describes everything I'm feeling right now in music.
it seems that we share that with many people
So beautiful playlist🖤
already noticed you of course, appreciate you :)
curious how your journey will go
@@_Arici We'll see😉
Hermosa y triste la imagen de acuerdo a la musica asi me siento hoy solo quisieras estar asi como ella absorta viendo el cielo en la noche en soledad
no estás solo
@@_Arici soy diana jejeje muchas gracias .....adoro tu música tan mistica
espero poder tocar tus sentimientos muchas veces más :)
thank you, Diana
Loved the 1st part. First thing i noticed tho is that the girl in the water is much crispier now 👌
have to grow with you 💙
It hurts to be somebody that was never good enough.
Would you love me in another world?
Would I say all the right words?
Would you hug me and never let go?
I let you go because I wanted you to be happy,
If it makes you smile without me,
So be it.
I feel sad when I see this even though I never watched the anime I don't plan to because I don't think I can handle the emotions when I come back here.
It's worth a watch - even though it's an emotional piece, I'd recommend it :)
Liver disease.
I've always had idealazations of death since i was 20, and now i have a definitive timeline as i turned 30 with the diagnosis.
I won't stop drinking unless I start becoming a commonly beligerent drunk. But considering i usually drink alone or on d&d nights i think I'll go out slowly.
I tell everyone i plan to stop, but between not wanting to be here anymore except for petty reasons like a new show i fell in love with, wanting to see a series end, and my magnum opus campaign im 2/3 done with, i dont really see myself stopping.
I didnt kms in a dramatic way like i thought I would, but i think this way is actually better.
have fun
@@ledybuzna8608 Am currently doing so.
I do not wish to be inappropriate or indelicate but please read "Atomic Habits" with the focus on applying or transfering it to your sleep, nutrition, sport and media consumption habits.
when you do not have hope, you have no choice but to fight - man, DM me on IG and I will recommend you a recipe which may help you. When you can't swim anymore, you need to cut off parts which make you drown
I wish you to succeed, simply by living and enjoying those D&D Nights, finding new shows and interacting with whatever your character finds leisure in but for that you need to treat yourself with more respect
because there will be a time when you cant enjoy what you enjoy right now, so as long as you can please dont drown yourself because as you can see you did not give up on things which make you _breathe_
My first anime so nostalgic
discovered Anime when I was younger, has been an amazing road haha
perhaps tell me your three favorites and I can recommend what you might enjoy :)
@@_Arici hmm hell’s paradise, tower of god, and Erased. :)
Watched Erased two times
maybe try Death Parade :)
curious to know whether you will like it
@@_Arici Alr i will respond back when im done
Every day when i go to bed, I hope that this will be my last day and I won’t wake up again. I'm very tired of life's problems. Nothing brings me joy. and I don’t know what to do to make me feel better. I stop perceiving this reality and hope that this is just a bad dream
Why does time pass so quickly? iam still... so lonely, but iam fine i think... night december 2022, so lonely, but she was doing my smile... now i so lonely again... iam fine but empty...
Finding myself again was just a dream😢
you can only _find_ things which are _lost_
you will reunite with yourself, seems like you are searching
perhaps you've _hidden_ for too long, it will be warm once you love yourself again
me in the paths after finishing AOT
sacrifice your heart, one last time
I wish it was
imagine we could rewrite circumstances and experiences
may the dust turn into soil
26 years of nightmare, I wonder when it will end
keep struggling, its the only thing we can do.
thank you for adding this to your playlist, hope it will accompany you many study nights :)
@@_Arici you're welcome, the music really makes me think.
It was supposed to end but people like nightmares
Following from the first part
thank you, Art
It was more than 2 years ago when we first met. He was my first love and he cheated on me. I forgave him and the one breaking up was not me, it was him. There is not a single day where I don’t think about him and the times where I was truly happy. I cried just looking at him because it seemed so weird to love somebody that much. A few months ago he kissed me and told me right afterwards that he could have me when he wants. He is living his best life out there while I’m thinking about what could’ve been. I’m ashamed of myself for still missing him.
it will sound harsh and will be hurtful what I have to say but I have to
you are forgiving and accepting because your love is genuine and without conditions
*but* you have a responsibility towards yourself to sleep good at night - you have a responsiblity towards yourself to be treated respectfully and to be valued for what you bring at the table
to be ashamed for missing him is in my opinion ok but you should be more ashamed to lower yourself so much for someone who tramples on your generous heart
so, stop that poisoned relationship with him and with yourself
this is not meant in a degrading manner, I just wish you to be good and felt like I had to say it in that tone :)
love
"A few months ago he kissed me and told me right afterwards that he could have me when he wants"
I don't mean to be judgemental or dramatic, but this should make you angry. He doesn't respect you. He's arrogant, he knows he has you wrapped around his finger, and he decided to use that information to openly demean you by telling you this right after kissing you. Trust me, if you give it some time and see things objectively, you'll resent him more than you love him (and that's good).
Please don't be ashamed. The best thing you can do for yourself is never to contact him again and move on. His mistakes aren't your fault
found this video just as I found a pure filling love for the second time ever. It was kind of special, because it does now looking back seem like all the pain was only a dream.
"You'll have bad times, but they'll always wake you up to the good stuff that you weren't paying attention to." -Robin Williams, Goodwill Hunting
love can be so healing - wishing you to prosper even more
@@_Arici You as well, friend. stay safe out there
amazing
appreciate you
لَم تَعُد الحياة كَما كانت في السابِق لَقد تَغيرَ كُل شَيء لَم يَعد هُناك امانٌ في هَذا العَالم اصبحَ كُل شيء وَهميٌ ومُزيفاً لَم يَعد هُناك مكانٌ للذهابِ إليه جَميعها تَبدو شائِبة أأملُ ان يتغيرَ كُل شَيء رُبما يوماً ما ...
"Mr. Robot" by Sam Esmail might be a show which will be a great recommondation for you
Woah the blue dream now
let's see where part 3 will take us 💭💙
Thanks you.
of course - it's all I could offer so far
more to come :)
I pray thatt all of this is just a bad dream and not my reality im just so paranoid by everything and now days anxiety is like hitting me back idk what do to im getting kinda scared idk from what i think from reality im so f paranoid like im not showing my emotions and stuff just keeping it all hidden inside me and not letting it all out because i don't wanna hurt the people around me idk what is gonna happen to me idk the future but im hoping that its all good and i be safe and happy and comfortable
If you can't channel your emotions directly, try to channel them indirectly through an activitiy
Does not matter, if it's painting, writing, sport - just find a way to express :)
Im a having a phobia right now, cause of that deep blue ocean
It will be ok in the end, if it's not ok then it's not the end.
I loved your part 1. Thanks man
how we are all connected through this - people from everywhere looking at the same sky with different views
from the bottom of my heart, thank you too for letting me know :)
It is, It was, It won’t.
2 years…that’s when I stopped talking with you…our break up….i had to stop it…it wasn’t healthy…..it wasn’t meant to be…….so why can’t I stop thinking about you…did I make the right choice…..I’ll never know, and I have to live with that…I hope you’re happy though, I’m not, but as long as to our happy, I’m happy for you….
My soul, lost but I will find it, wanders around here. :)
_hayata dönmeyi bekler_
sadece kaybolanı bulabilirsin :)
Seeing Kaori here breaks me into tears
coming across memories..
i miss my childhood, my purity, that innocent girl…
hope all will get better for us.. 🤍
Revelation 21:4 And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.
Wow I love these songs that you picked! You have an awesome taste. Can you make more?
working on it, more to come - hopefully it will _help_ to give you even more peace :)
thank you for gifting me those acknowleding words 💙
you made this? for what it's worth, if i was making a movie, i'd hire you for ost, your killing it and thank you brotha
thank you so much - for now it's the most if people like you value it, who knows what the future holds
@@_Arici i will be there bro.
what you said inspired and accompanied me, you sparked an idea :)
nice video man, thanks for this xD
of course, calming dark blue oceans for the brother blue penguin
the girl looks like as if Lumin in the ocean near the Mondstatt
Lets gooo
please make more playlists
throwing back the peace sign in the meanwhile, Ava 💙
the first song man, october 19,2017. fuck it reminds me of 2022. On that day i lost my eldest brother and it felt like everything just stopped.
sometimes I do not know what to say - I don't have an answer
all I can say is that I am sorry man
he is your guardian angel now, it's all I can wish for you
@@_Arici hes definitely watching over me, and i understand you dont have anything to say,not many people know how it feels to lose someone to close.
i wish it was all a bad dream
nice music but the adds woke me and my cat up 3 times
nvm i will listen to it on spotify inbthe future thx ❤
wish I could influence where TH-cam decides to place the Ads
Of course, I would place them only once in the beginning or at the end but unfortunately I am not able to change/impact it so far..
hope you and your cat will have many more good naps to this
By the way- I love how you have “what if you fly?” On your about me section. I have the exact same words, taken from the exact same quote, on one of my accounts.
I love how we both shortened the same quote to the same words. It’s the first time I’ve seen someone else do this; usually, people are different. I know it may be a small thing but it means so much to me. It makes me feel connected and understood.
May I ask, do you write?
There is freedom waiting for you, On the breezes of the sky, And you ask "What if I fall?" Oh but my darling, What if you fly?
of course you may ask :)
yes, I occasionally did in the past - even though I wrote it in German, I will translate one of my favorites into English 💙
perhaps upload it as written lyrics on screen for one of the songs in the playlist, as single upload 💭
you're the first person to mention it, I will remember many of you, many of you who asked simple questions for the first time
_connected_ and _understood_
@@_Arici
That's cool, I write as well. Maybe we could connect over writing (:
I will upload one of it as a video, see you there when it's up - perhaps we will resonate with each other
it will be on the background for one of the songs on here :)
i promised myself that i’ll never text her again. i can’t tell that i love her or have feelings, it was my first time talking and spend so much time with girl ever. i hurt her and can’t stop thinking about her
pls, I need this background
i hope someday i will be okay
all that's left to say sometimes
january 8th, 2:53am ----
glad you found this on your way
my little brother died 1 month ago, it all feels like a dream..
I don't think I will find good man anymore even I found one probably not for me. I'm not independent it's kinda of sad i depend on people to much.i have no one to talk with now it's embarrassing to talk about me
TH-cam: I’llbehonest The Few
I hope this is a bad dream and I wake up soon
i fell i want to go to br right now so i can see the sky in the night in saudi Arabia the stars so beautiful also i can free may self and thinking about may future i dont want think about bad things like every time i be in home🙁
oh yeah br is the desert we saudi people love to go in the night butt i want to be alone on it
When you get the chance to experience it by yourself make sure to put this mix on and maybe send me pictures on IG
Sounds incredible to be able to experience that
Of course i well
I hope so much that I will wake up from this nightmare. It is 1913. I am a subject of the German Kaiser. The world is at peace.
Can you put this in wallpaper engine? i'd like it very much..
Will I ever be able get over the pain of not being able to save my son’s life?
I hope it’s just a bad dream
hihihi me likes existencial musics
hi same bestie
I just wanted to feel appreciated and loved all I get in return is hate and criticism
imagine yourself like a fountain, if too much water is taken out, you will run out of it
and also, remind yourself that each person has their own right amount of water they need
even if you do it out of love and care, the receiving person might "drown" in it when it's too much
and you're not lost, thank you for sharing it :)
What is on the background of this video? Can you link it please?
I tried to calm down and enjoy this, but I kept being interrupted by too many ads. Thanks, TH-cam.
yeah - I am sorry
Unfortunately I do not have an impact on the Ads being displayed, if I had the chance, I would of course tell them to place them at the beginning only..
@@_Arici Oh, I know it's not your fault. I manage another TH-cam channel, and we are not monetized, but TH-cam throws ads into our videos wherever they want. I appreciate your music and the accompanying visual. This is an excellent video. Thanks so much for sharing!
@@lendondain1 appreciate your positive and understanding response
well, it's all I was wishing for - listeners to find joy/relief in this, it's a win for me if you were able to take a break on here 💙
Eu so queria amor e acabei sozinho e sem nada
what is this type of music called?
What anime is that?