We have a similar life story. We may never know why God made us special but living an honest authentic life is key to happiness. Thanks for sharing your story.
Thank you, Thank you, and God bless you. Old well, not old..but 67) Southern Baptist here. It's such a tragedy that the church can't figure this out. ❤
Thank you for your strength,, and for making this video. I think that your situation was quite common. I went through something similar in rural Alberta in the late 60s and early 70s. I ended up married for a very long time out of a sense of loyalty, and a feeling that I couldn't abandon a wife who was not well. The most liberating thing that happened to me was coming out finally, at 59.
When I was a child the word gay still meant happy. Homosexuality was not an option. Had I seen other people like me or positive examples of happy healthy queer people, the road to acceptance would have been a much easier path. Grateful for what I have been through in order to get to where I am today. ❤ Paul
So.... I'm in the shower this morning and thinking about today's gospel for the feast of Christ the King and a melody forms in my head and I quickly record it in my phone when I step out of the shower so I don't lose it. I come downstairs and start making breakfast and watch this! WTF!! This almost buckled me. Music, church, gay.... all me. Thanks so much for your story Jallen.
I can so relate. I was a Baptist Pastor and missionary in Indonesia. My wife and I married and we had two great kids. I came out to her and she was very accepting. I resigned from the ministry and worked for a mining company and completed my accounting qualifications. I went through 13 years of reparative therapy including electronic shock therapy here in Australia. So abusive. It didn't work. My wife developed MS and I cared for her for almost 26 years before she passed in 2022. My kids are very accepting. I have 4 grandsons. But I am now free to be the gay man I always was. SO good. I'm not looking for a husband. Too old now. I wrote a paper on What Does the Bible Actually Say About Homosexuality. It was published on a large website in the USA and in the first month 7700 replied back to the publisher and 7000 (90%) agreed with what I wrote. The gay accepting church I am affiliated with now is very accepting.
Thank you for your thoughts music and changing how it is part of your life. I was a professional puppeteer for over 40 years but had to give it up due to health issues in 2016. This has been very hard. It was my joy and identity from age 13 and my career. I'm still trying to find my "what's next." It is wonderful that you found yours. Best wishes!
It's a long story... Fortunately I have always had interests outside of being a puppeteer and still do. Most recently, knitting. I've met fiber friends through zooms, etc., from over the USA and the world. But it is not a "next." A career in the arts is hard work and challenging, but I always loved performing with puppets. I joked I would die with a puppet on my hand but my body had other plans. I'm a survivor of pancreatic cancer. That's pretty good! I enjoyed seeing your photos of you and your friends. Fantastic, fun costumes! Smiles! Best wishes for your work and 2024! @@lgbtqarchives
@@toomiepal You've been through a lot. I'm so happy to have you here my friend. Maybe one day when the right time comes, you'll share your story with the community. We have a lot to learn from you.
Thank you thank you for telling your story. I was captive in the church for far too long. Music ironically kept me there. Your story of letting go sooner is so cathartic. Hugs.
Unfortunately, he didn't have much time, so I wasn't able to record him playing after the interview. However, when I meet a guest who is musically inclined, I usually record a fresh piano arrangement that incorporates elements from their songs. That's exactly what I did for this video. I believe Jallen's songs are still available online. It would be nice to record the guest playing nonetheless.
You bring to the fore a question I've always wrestled with. Why didn't I have the same struggles you did? I grew up in if anything a more suppressively right-wing environment than you did, yet never suffered the kind of repression you did. I suppose one answer is I never came out as completely as you, while never suffering as you did. Thank yyou for your honest heartfelt story. You're a beautiful man. Wish I'd known you. Wish I could have been like you.
There's more footage to his story that will be published soon. It's the 'coming out' to his parents part. I believe he came out to them right after college. There was a meltdown, and he almost lost them. Obviously, if he hadn't come out and had let things be, none of that would have happened... at least not on that level. It would have been a matter of internal struggle, I guess. But by then, he had already moved out. Nonetheless, he was still heavily connected to the church, and that changes everything. Like he says in another video, we all live in tight bubbles.
@@lgbtqarchives What a roller coaster of emotions and personal alliances he had to endure! My heart goes out to him, and thank you so much for highlighting and clarifying. So dear and gifted a person should never have to suffer such pain. How wonderfully heroic he should come though it with his gleaming joy undimmed.
This was an incredible story to listen to. I’m a little confused about that piano music towards the end. So that song came from Jallen’s album? I really appreciate these stories.
Thanks a lot. Ok, so years ago when Jallen was an active musician/singer/songwriter, he produced a number of albums. I wanted to end his video with a music that was inspired by one of his melodies. So I recorded this fresh new arrangement that loosely uses a theme/melody from one of his songs called "I Would Choose You". So this exact piano piece did not come from his album, but the general idea or melody did. Not sure if I was able to answer your question.
My best friend killed himself 40 years ago. We were fourteen. We never had sex but he was my first love. This event alone messed me up bad. To rub salt in the wound, my stepmother said he was in hell. Southern Baptists were like that. No sympathy at all. David was the son of a Baptist minister and ran a suicide help line (just not for gays). I walked away from religion and God for a very long time, blaming Him for the bad actions of religious people.
What an EVIL EVIL EVIL religion! Shame on everybody who contributed to his death. They're all guilty. I'm so sorry that you had to go through this experience. I would've loved to do an episode and honor your best friend's legacy. I feel terrible for both of you.
@@tvmastercinstitutional religion has a lot to answer for. We are wonderfully made, and if God is responsible for that, then God is pleased with their work!
@@joecaprani5772 Then this message came to me from the LORD: “Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds, the leaders of Israel. Give them this message from the Sovereign LORD: What sorrow awaits you shepherds who feed yourselves instead of your flocks. Shouldn’t shepherds feed their sheep? You drink the milk, wear the wool, and butcher the best animals, but you let your flocks starve. You have not taken care of the weak. You have not tended the sick or bound up the injured. You have not gone looking for those who have wandered away and are lost. Instead, you have ruled them with harshness and cruelty. So my sheep have been scattered without a shepherd, and they are easy prey for any wild animal. They have wandered through all the mountains and all the hills, across the face of the earth, yet no one has gone to search for them. “Therefore, you shepherds, hear the word of the LORD: As surely as I live, says the Sovereign LORD, you abandoned my flock and left them to be attacked by every wild animal. And though you were my shepherds, you didn’t search for my sheep when they were lost. You took care of yourselves and left the sheep to starve. Therefore, you shepherds, hear the word of the LORD. This is what the Sovereign LORD says: I now consider these shepherds my enemies, and I will hold them responsible for what has happened to my flock. I will take away their right to feed the flock, and I will stop them from feeding themselves. I will rescue my flock from their mouths; the sheep will no longer be their prey. “For this is what the Sovereign LORD says: I myself will search and find my sheep. I will be like a shepherd looking for his scattered flock. I will find my sheep and rescue them from all the places where they were scattered on that dark and cloudy day. I will bring them back home to their own land of Israel from among the peoples and nations. I will feed them on the mountains of Israel and by the rivers and in all the places where people live. Yes, I will give them good pastureland on the high hills of Israel. There they will lie down in pleasant places and feed in the lush pastures of the hills. I myself will tend my sheep and give them a place to lie down in peace, says the Sovereign LORD. I will search for my lost ones who strayed away, and I will bring them safely home again. I will bandage the injured and strengthen the weak. But I will destroy those who are fat and powerful. I will feed them, yes-feed them justice! “And as for you, my flock, this is what the Sovereign LORD says to his people: I will judge between one animal of the flock and another, separating the sheep from the goats. Isn’t it enough for you to keep the best of the pastures for yourselves? Must you also trample down the rest? Isn’t it enough for you to drink clear water for yourselves? Must you also muddy the rest with your feet? Why must my flock eat what you have trampled down and drink water you have fouled? “Therefore, this is what the Sovereign LORD says: I will surely judge between the fat sheep and the scrawny sheep. For you fat sheep pushed and butted and crowded my sick and hungry flock until you scattered them to distant lands. So I will rescue my flock, and they will no longer be abused. I will judge between one animal of the flock and another. And I will set over them one shepherd, my servant David. He will feed them and be a shepherd to them. And I, the LORD, will be their God, and my servant David will be a prince among my people. I, the LORD, have spoken!" Ezekiel 34:1-24 NLT
Yeah, that was a weird comment! Telling stories is what humans do! Even Cavemen did it through paintings like 50000 years ago, and this guy is throwing a tantrum because people are sharing their stories! lol
I'm sure guys would be interested if you told yours. Give it a try. Write it on paper first, though, so you can review it before it's read. You just might find you have more understanding with guys who have been through the gantlet of social pressures and emerged stronger, and the victor. I always remembered someone telling me that I had to love myself before I could expect anyone else to.
More videos from Dr. 𝐉𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐞𝐧 𝐑𝐢𝐱: (doctorrix.com/)
𝐓𝐡𝐞 𝐓𝐫𝐮𝐭𝐡 𝐁𝐞𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐝 𝐆𝐚𝐲 𝐂𝐨𝐧𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐲: th-cam.com/video/2LFDnFNzc0g/w-d-xo.html
𝐆𝐚𝐲 𝐋𝐢𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐢𝐧 𝐒𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 𝐌𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐠𝐞𝐬: th-cam.com/video/c4xt-EuPpz4/w-d-xo.html
We have a similar life story. We may never know why God made us special but living an honest authentic life is key to happiness. Thanks for sharing your story.
Thank you, Thank you, and God bless you. Old well, not old..but 67) Southern Baptist here. It's such a tragedy that the church can't figure this out. ❤
Thank you for your strength,, and for making this video. I think that your situation was quite common. I went through something similar in rural Alberta in the late 60s and early 70s. I ended up married for a very long time out of a sense of loyalty, and a feeling that I couldn't abandon a wife who was not well. The most liberating thing that happened to me was coming out finally, at 59.
When I was a child the word gay still meant happy. Homosexuality was not an option. Had I seen other people like me or positive examples of happy healthy queer people, the road to acceptance would have been a much easier path. Grateful for what I have been through in order to get to where I am today. ❤ Paul
Beautiful story. So glad you finally found your truth❤
So.... I'm in the shower this morning and thinking about today's gospel for the feast of Christ the King and a melody forms in my head and I quickly record it in my phone when I step out of the shower so I don't lose it. I come downstairs and start making breakfast and watch this! WTF!! This almost buckled me. Music, church, gay.... all me. Thanks so much for your story Jallen.
I can so relate. I was a Baptist Pastor and missionary in Indonesia. My wife and I married and we had two great kids. I came out to her and she was very accepting. I resigned from the ministry and worked for a mining company and completed my accounting qualifications. I went through 13 years of reparative therapy including electronic shock therapy here in Australia. So abusive. It didn't work.
My wife developed MS and I cared for her for almost 26 years before she passed in 2022. My kids are very accepting. I have 4 grandsons. But I am now free to be the gay man I always was. SO good. I'm not looking for a husband. Too old now. I wrote a paper on What Does the Bible Actually Say About Homosexuality. It was published on a large website in the USA and in the first month 7700 replied back to the publisher and 7000 (90%) agreed with what I wrote. The gay accepting church I am affiliated with now is very accepting.
Ron, how do I look up your work?
@@lgbtqarchivesif it's the same article I managed to find, go to Google Scholar. It was a great read.
Thank you for your thoughts music and changing how it is part of your life. I was a professional puppeteer for over 40 years but had to give it up due to health issues in 2016. This has been very hard. It was my joy and identity from age 13 and my career. I'm still trying to find my "what's next." It is wonderful that you found yours. Best wishes!
That's a pretty massive change after doing a job you love for 40 years. How did you even cope with that?
It's a long story...
Fortunately I have always had interests outside of being a puppeteer and still do. Most recently, knitting. I've met fiber friends through zooms, etc., from over the USA and the world. But it is not a "next."
A career in the arts is hard work and challenging, but I always loved performing with puppets. I joked I would die with a puppet on my hand but my body had other plans. I'm a survivor of pancreatic cancer. That's pretty good!
I enjoyed seeing your photos of you and your friends. Fantastic, fun costumes! Smiles!
Best wishes for your work and 2024! @@lgbtqarchives
@@toomiepal You've been through a lot. I'm so happy to have you here my friend. Maybe one day when the right time comes, you'll share your story with the community. We have a lot to learn from you.
Thank you thank you for telling your story. I was captive in the church for far too long. Music ironically kept me there. Your story of letting go sooner is so cathartic. Hugs.
I'd like to know more. If you're interested in contributing to these archives, please do let me know. Thanks
The piano had me in a trance. It was just beautiful.
Thank you very much ❤️🎹
@@lgbtqarchives and the keys aren't dusty!
@@billTO ha ha ha, no they’re not. I do play a lot 🎹
Ooooo, was hoping to hear him on the piano - beautiful..! Thanks for including that in the video.
Unfortunately, he didn't have much time, so I wasn't able to record him playing after the interview. However, when I meet a guest who is musically inclined, I usually record a fresh piano arrangement that incorporates elements from their songs. That's exactly what I did for this video. I believe Jallen's songs are still available online.
It would be nice to record the guest playing nonetheless.
You bring to the fore a question I've always wrestled with. Why didn't I have the same struggles you did? I grew up in if anything a more suppressively right-wing environment than you did, yet never suffered the kind of repression you did. I suppose one answer is I never came out as completely as you, while never suffering as you did. Thank yyou for your honest heartfelt story. You're a beautiful man. Wish I'd known you. Wish I could have been like you.
There's more footage to his story that will be published soon. It's the 'coming out' to his parents part. I believe he came out to them right after college. There was a meltdown, and he almost lost them. Obviously, if he hadn't come out and had let things be, none of that would have happened... at least not on that level. It would have been a matter of internal struggle, I guess. But by then, he had already moved out. Nonetheless, he was still heavily connected to the church, and that changes everything. Like he says in another video, we all live in tight bubbles.
@@lgbtqarchives What a roller coaster of emotions and personal alliances he had to endure! My heart goes out to him, and thank you so much for highlighting and clarifying. So dear and gifted a person should never have to suffer such pain. How wonderfully heroic he should come though it with his gleaming joy undimmed.
Excelente enfoque y, GRACIAS por ser tan claro con tus palabras.
This was an incredible story to listen to. I’m a little confused about that piano music towards the end. So that song came from Jallen’s album? I really appreciate these stories.
Thanks a lot. Ok, so years ago when Jallen was an active musician/singer/songwriter, he produced a number of albums. I wanted to end his video with a music that was inspired by one of his melodies. So I recorded this fresh new arrangement that loosely uses a theme/melody from one of his songs called "I Would Choose You". So this exact piano piece did not come from his album, but the general idea or melody did. Not sure if I was able to answer your question.
Beautiful! Thank you telling your story! ❤️🏳️🌈
I love these vids. Thank you.
Appreciate your support. ❤
I could add a chapter to this topic!!
You are invited my friend! My e-mail is in my TH-cam profile.
You are amazing.❤
Lovely personality ❤
👏👏👏👏👏👏❤️
My best friend killed himself 40 years ago. We were fourteen. We never had sex but he was my first love. This event alone messed me up bad. To rub salt in the wound, my stepmother said he was in hell. Southern Baptists were like that. No sympathy at all. David was the son of a Baptist minister and ran a suicide help line (just not for gays). I walked away from religion and God for a very long time, blaming Him for the bad actions of religious people.
What an EVIL EVIL EVIL religion! Shame on everybody who contributed to his death. They're all guilty. I'm so sorry that you had to go through this experience. I would've loved to do an episode and honor your best friend's legacy. I feel terrible for both of you.
@@lgbtqarchives th-cam.com/video/HX7gayzaODE/w-d-xo.html
@@lgbtqarchives I am down for it! I longer care who knows, because I have been through too much!
@@tvmastercinstitutional religion has a lot to answer for.
We are wonderfully made, and if God is responsible for that, then God is pleased with their work!
@@joecaprani5772 Then this message came to me from the LORD: “Son of man, prophesy against the shepherds, the leaders of Israel. Give them this message from the Sovereign LORD: What sorrow awaits you shepherds who feed yourselves instead of your flocks. Shouldn’t shepherds feed their sheep? You drink the milk, wear the wool, and butcher the best animals, but you let your flocks starve. You have not taken care of the weak. You have not tended the sick or bound up the injured. You have not gone looking for those who have wandered away and are lost. Instead, you have ruled them with harshness and cruelty. So my sheep have been scattered without a shepherd, and they are easy prey for any wild animal. They have wandered through all the mountains and all the hills, across the face of the earth, yet no one has gone to search for them.
“Therefore, you shepherds, hear the word of the LORD: As surely as I live, says the Sovereign LORD, you abandoned my flock and left them to be attacked by every wild animal. And though you were my shepherds, you didn’t search for my sheep when they were lost. You took care of yourselves and left the sheep to starve. Therefore, you shepherds, hear the word of the LORD. This is what the Sovereign LORD says: I now consider these shepherds my enemies, and I will hold them responsible for what has happened to my flock. I will take away their right to feed the flock, and I will stop them from feeding themselves. I will rescue my flock from their mouths; the sheep will no longer be their prey.
“For this is what the Sovereign LORD says: I myself will search and find my sheep. I will be like a shepherd looking for his scattered flock. I will find my sheep and rescue them from all the places where they were scattered on that dark and cloudy day. I will bring them back home to their own land of Israel from among the peoples and nations. I will feed them on the mountains of Israel and by the rivers and in all the places where people live. Yes, I will give them good pastureland on the high hills of Israel. There they will lie down in pleasant places and feed in the lush pastures of the hills. I myself will tend my sheep and give them a place to lie down in peace, says the Sovereign LORD. I will search for my lost ones who strayed away, and I will bring them safely home again. I will bandage the injured and strengthen the weak. But I will destroy those who are fat and powerful. I will feed them, yes-feed them justice!
“And as for you, my flock, this is what the Sovereign LORD says to his people: I will judge between one animal of the flock and another, separating the sheep from the goats. Isn’t it enough for you to keep the best of the pastures for yourselves? Must you also trample down the rest? Isn’t it enough for you to drink clear water for yourselves? Must you also muddy the rest with your feet? Why must my flock eat what you have trampled down and drink water you have fouled?
“Therefore, this is what the Sovereign LORD says: I will surely judge between the fat sheep and the scrawny sheep. For you fat sheep pushed and butted and crowded my sick and hungry flock until you scattered them to distant lands. So I will rescue my flock, and they will no longer be abused. I will judge between one animal of the flock and another. And I will set over them one shepherd, my servant David. He will feed them and be a shepherd to them. And I, the LORD, will be their God, and my servant David will be a prince among my people. I, the LORD, have spoken!"
Ezekiel 34:1-24 NLT
Where are your credentials???
Are you asking for medical credentials? For that you would have to contact Jallen Rix directly through his own website or social media.
sounds too familiar
Duh... we all have are own story of growing up gay... why should yours be any more important than anyone else's.
When did he exactly say his story was any more important that someone else's?
@tihgger7466 What a dumb Karen! Why would you even say something like that?
Yeah, that was a weird comment! Telling stories is what humans do! Even Cavemen did it through paintings like 50000 years ago, and this guy is throwing a tantrum because people are sharing their stories! lol
I'm sure guys would be interested if you told yours. Give it a try. Write it on paper first, though, so you can review it before it's read. You just might find you have more understanding with guys who have been through the gantlet of social pressures and emerged stronger, and the victor.
I always remembered someone telling me that I had to love myself before I could expect anyone else to.