Pieces of a Dream: A Story of Gambling

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  • เผยแพร่เมื่อ 9 ก.ค. 2019
  • When Phillip Wong died by suicide, his family thought that silence would end their pain. But his sister, filmmaker Michelle Wong, needed to make sense of her brother's death. What drove him to end his life at age 36?
    Weaving together intimate conversations with those closest to Phillip, as well as her own candid reflections, Wong embarks on a personal journey. Gently peeling away layers of silence, she uncovers her brother's story of gambling addiction and his lonely spiral into desperation, isolation and depression.
    Directed by Michelle Wong - 2003 | 49 min
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  • @berealreal4764
    @berealreal4764 2 ปีที่แล้ว +205

    This documentary opened my eyes that I should stop gambling. Gambling made me an angry person. I will start my recovery journey today.

    • @leviniahill454
      @leviniahill454 2 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      I hope you are still not gambling. Even if you fall off the wagon keep the journey in sight :-)

    • @babyzorilla
      @babyzorilla 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      You won’t regret it. Matter of fact you might kick yourself for not quitting sooner.

    • @dmmd6144
      @dmmd6144 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      How’s your journey going?

    • @lillolf3758
      @lillolf3758 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Bless you and pray your journey is successful!

    • @scrapiron
      @scrapiron ปีที่แล้ว +6

      My story, a relative killed her sister due to gambling, almost unbelievable. Stop gambling before you hurt yourself or someone else.

  • @MountainsArePretty1234
    @MountainsArePretty1234 2 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    Such a horrible feeling to blow your paycheck within 2 - 3 hours of getting it. Driving home with tears in your eyes and wondering how in the hell am I gonna pay for gas/groceries the next 13 days? Loans? Credit cards? Pawn shop? All terrible choices 😢

  • @FlorMaputo
    @FlorMaputo ปีที่แล้ว +30

    Thanks for sharing. Iam addicted, lose my family, my kids, friends, my house. Im trying to rebuild my life now. Not gambling for 4 months.

    • @CRJR94
      @CRJR94 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Stay strong, proud of you!

    • @darrensinnott2197
      @darrensinnott2197 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      You need to find something else to give you a rush. Take up boxing or a martial art. You don't have to do it to become a world champion just do it to release all your stress and before you know it you'll be in great shape you'll be healthy and that will give you a good base to start rebuilding. It saved me from the brink many many times. It's never too late to turn things around. I wish you all the best and whatever you do keep fighting and never NEVER give up!!! X

    • @darrensinnott2197
      @darrensinnott2197 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

      Ps....trust me you feel a million times better for beating the shit out of the pads or a bag....you CAN do it!!!

    • @N-xi2zh
      @N-xi2zh 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Yes... WEIGHTS got me aesthetic years and years. and depression after leverage trading, I am barely lifting. Weights or kick boxing or whatever sport someone is into will help a ton. Dopamine and oxytocin. Dopamine rush of feeling and looking good, and oxytocin is released I guess during or after workouts. Plus the NE, and Serotonin, and adrenaline, and all. It is ok to start slow.. really slow in case... We all have base too probably from working out/ playing sports pre addiction. Or many of us do I mean. @@darrensinnott2197

  • @terrellsilver3903
    @terrellsilver3903 2 ปีที่แล้ว +88

    Heart wrenching! Kudos to the sister for telling her brothers story. Gambling is very addictive! I’m struggling to give it up! For me it’s not about the money but trying to fill a void. I would honestly warn anyone who’s contemplating gambling. It starts Subtly and then it grows into a serious problem.

    • @KerryLeighBrett
      @KerryLeighBrett ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I worked at a sportsbook they dont care they just want your money

    • @joannajohnson2669
      @joannajohnson2669 ปีที่แล้ว

      Thank you

    • @TobiramaSenju212
      @TobiramaSenju212 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@KerryLeighBrett exactly man. I learned this the hard way.

    • @tv-21
      @tv-21 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@KerryLeighBrett ya'll have blood on your hands. All employees of casinos have blood on their hands! Ya'll choose to work for an industry that indirectly murders people

  • @636Swiss
    @636Swiss ปีที่แล้ว +49

    This has brought tears to my eyes. My gambling addiction is slowly deteriorating my mind and soul. I've began isolating myself away from friends and family, not wanting to hang out or do anything involving them in fear of being judged. Simply because playing slot machines is all I ever really want to do anymore. This is still the case to this day.. Seeking help may be what's best (along with pushing my ego aside believing I don't need help hoping someday it will magically get better). This documentary has truly inspired me. I pray that everyone going through gambling addiction can and will gain control back over their lives and have another inspiring story to tell. ( R.I.P Philip.. you are never alone ) Bless You All

    • @johndonaldson8989
      @johndonaldson8989 ปีที่แล้ว

      how's it going these days for you?

    • @636Swiss
      @636Swiss ปีที่แล้ว

      @@johndonaldson8989 ehh.. still in a limbo unfortunately

    • @KimJilene
      @KimJilene 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I am right there with you, struggling with the same gambling demons. Watching docs like these inspire me too to not go back to the gambling - cause it really is life or death. I hope you have found some control and peace in your life

    • @DonnaRn
      @DonnaRn 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@636Swisshow often did you gamble? Everyday?

    • @jetclntn
      @jetclntn 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I don’t even enjoy gambling anymore but I have quit working because I thought I can make more money in a few minutes than working all day
      However I just ended up losing it all

  • @josephgreen2008
    @josephgreen2008 3 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    I was a compulsive gambler from 15 years old to 30 years old.I would gamble all my money that I worked hard for.Although I was never in debt from it I still missed much through my late teens and 20s.
    I was luck enough to stop through self control by 30 and When I got married I knew I could never go back to my old ways. It is possible to stop is my message.I am now 59 and retiring. Gambling is def a disease I was saddened by this video as I know my life could have ended up going in the same direction.Thank you Jesus for saving me.

    • @dalkhal
      @dalkhal 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Wow Joseph my story is about the exact same but I went until 40. Isn’t the worst part of it all is the time we missed and not just the money. I missed my whole 20’s to gambling

    • @josephgreen2008
      @josephgreen2008 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@dalkhal I look back at the actual time I spent in the Bookies(its the name of the place where you can gamble in the UK) It was so much time inside a small gambling shop. I look back and feel sad for the time I lost

    • @dalkhal
      @dalkhal 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@josephgreen2008 it’s very sad because we don’t realize how precious time is until we get older. When we’re young we think we have endless time

    • @pb2602
      @pb2602 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      How did you stop? Please advise. Thank you.

    • @josephgreen2008
      @josephgreen2008 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@pb2602 I gave the answer...Jesus helped me. Just ask and you will get the same help. Hope you stop. Have a good weekend

  • @genessis43
    @genessis43 3 ปีที่แล้ว +69

    Michelle is such a smart, compassionate, loving & understanding sister. She has shown so much strength keeping her family together during this tragedy.

    • @freddy-ip1pq
      @freddy-ip1pq 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      😑🙏

    • @lillolf3758
      @lillolf3758 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      Bless you! Be strong & don't give up on yourself! Get help!

  • @ExitGamble
    @ExitGamble หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    Anyone here in 2024 ??

  • @elkhaos514
    @elkhaos514 4 ปีที่แล้ว +43

    It doesn't stop until you stop. I am sorry for your brother. Thank you Michelle Wong

    • @tv-21
      @tv-21 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Or until you die 😢😢😢

  • @zaneletruelovengcemu6149
    @zaneletruelovengcemu6149 2 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    I'm so blessed I no longer go to the casino I remember one Christmas I lost all of my money we had nothing that Christmas especially since I'm the bread winner but now I don't go to the casino and I'm now able to provide for my family

    • @nqabisaplatyi1224
      @nqabisaplatyi1224 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @Zanele,I'm goin through the same at this moment, I feel so horrible and helpless

    • @martinisgreatadventure720
      @martinisgreatadventure720 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      You pick up and move on . Go to G.A. And avoid going by any casinos.

    • @KimJilene
      @KimJilene 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      What helped you to stop?

  • @chowfurnowmeow
    @chowfurnowmeow 3 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    I cried when they cried. Sadly this story also mirrors my family's. I am thankful I found this story on YT. Hopefully, millions of ppl sees this bc compulsive gambling is a hidden mental disease that are often misunderstood and judged harshly from others. I hope the family is doing well and thriving today so Phillip didn't go in vain.

  • @1lawnmowerfan362
    @1lawnmowerfan362 2 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    One of the best documentaries I’ve seen on TH-cam. So we’ll made. Rip Phillip

  • @dmmd6144
    @dmmd6144 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    When his friend broke down crying, my heart shattered. So much raw feelings, it’s hard for me to watch, so much pain.

  • @Christizm
    @Christizm 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +11

    You never think you will become a compulsive gambler I have been doing it for over 20 years and I can tell you it does get much worse you cross the line you say you wouldn’t time and time again the best option you have is walking away forget the venues you went to or how much you lost betting online
    Focus on yourself and becoming a better person you will realise how much better life truly is without it I have had time up and believe me when I did have time up my mind was clear I haven’t had a bet for almost two months now and hopefully I don’t relapse as everytime a relapse happens I feel very depressed and sad it’s a really depressing way to live your life enjoy life its short and we don’t know when our time will end.

    • @martinisgreatadventure720
      @martinisgreatadventure720 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      I still hope you have not made another bet.

    • @Christizm
      @Christizm 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Doing better now due to having financial hardship my story is a sad one will be in debt for years due to gambling

    • @istoppain62
      @istoppain62 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      This is what I did and you’re right. It’s more peaceful not to gamble. Chasing the high. I have not gambled since 2009. I was a high roller. I was a pretty good gambler but that’s beside the point. Learn to meditate for those who need help

  • @franco7928
    @franco7928 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    When the mother said 'Phillip is my favorite son okay' I burst into tears. Still I'm tears as I'm typing.

    • @7550375503
      @7550375503 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      What mother could claim a favourite amongst her children?

    • @elkhaos514
      @elkhaos514 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@7550375503 That's a way to say that she helped him alot and Phillip was probably a good son to her. She have 2 daughters...

    • @MsShelly32
      @MsShelly32 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I felt it too, because I am my dad's favorite, and I gamble too,

    • @goddesst
      @goddesst 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I don't see how, he threatened to kill his own kids and other family.

    • @MountainsArePretty1234
      @MountainsArePretty1234 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@goddesst You got that right. I felt sorry for this dude at first but then I heard where he beat the crap out of his wife and threatened to murder her, his mom, and kids. INEXCUSABLE. Absolutely reprehensible. I have been to hell and back with this addiction but I never laid a finger on anybody! Let alone threaten to kill my child. Absolutely disgusting.

  • @souldreamer9056
    @souldreamer9056 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I do feel sadness and compassion for everyone involved. But I can’t help also feeling a LOT of anger towards the gambler.

  • @cindyfitzgerald250
    @cindyfitzgerald250 3 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Prayers for the Wong family still. I was becoming a gambling addict and I can understand not being able to quit and the devastation Phillip was probably feeling . However, Thank God for the Covid disease in a way........ Our casinos were all closed and I could not go play slot machines anywhere and it tore me up inside not to go but after the few months they were closed I started to realize I actually had money in my bank account again. Yay. ( I never got into online betting thank God). I have gone back a couple times since they opened a couple months ago and I found I had broken the addiction .... well at least so far............. I have not gotten that feeling that I just have to go. Thank you for this video it has helped strengthen my resolve not to start gambling again. God bless you and your strength and your beautiful family.

  • @musiqformysoul
    @musiqformysoul 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    😢 R.I.P. Phillip. May God continually comfort and provide for his siblings and family.

  • @servferda2663
    @servferda2663 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I have gotten myself into $17000 debt with lines of credit and credit card. I’m not sure why I chose this road but here I am. Say a prayer for me if any prayer warriors are reading this. God bless you all whoever is struggling.

  • @networkggable
    @networkggable 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I never thought of the connection between Domestic Violence and gambling addiction. the wife and kids are lucky to be alive.

  • @jordanlee4196
    @jordanlee4196 3 ปีที่แล้ว +47

    Don't matter what nationality or colour skin you are.. gambling is probably worst addiction of all..even to this day I gamble even though I not only lost money but friends girlfriends family respect etc.1st of my condolences to his family and loved 1s and thank you for sharing this video.kinda of a wake up reality call

    • @JackIsNotInTheBox
      @JackIsNotInTheBox 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Please don't commit suicide. There is always hope.

    • @paulrichards6894
      @paulrichards6894 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      i suffer from anxiety more than depression and i am a winning punter.....often think how i would cope if i was a losing punter......but the fact i as a winning punter still suffer anxiety shows gambling is not a good way to try make money

    • @stefanosprokopis6974
      @stefanosprokopis6974 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I've lost the family home I inherited worth over 1.5 million, Rare comic books worth over 100 grand, friends, plus 27 years of cash from my job earnings. I live with 4 other grown men in a shared house that I'm always cleaning up after. At 47 I'm still gambling, it's gotten to the point where I'd rather just keep gambling cos I've already lost everything. I work 7 days a week driving a cab. Because of government covid grants a few months ago I had almost 20 grand in the bank now i got a few hundred dollars. At least I bought some rare comic books back before I lost everything.

    • @terramex9333
      @terramex9333 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@stefanosprokopis6974 I feel your pain ……I am 55 years old and I toó lost everything house cars all my life savings (Including my wife’s who only speaks to me because we have a 17 year old daughter that’s about to go to college that I lost the money for…….I don’t know why I do this…My daughter ask me for $300 for her driving school and I say for her to wait but just yesterday I went to the casino and lost my entire paycheck $1280 dollars ….I can’t take it anymore…….I can’t sleep I get anxiety or panic attacks…….I let everyone down…..I know I can end this with a one click away but I can’t do it because then I think of my daughter (What a hypocrite I am)……I really hope you find peace….For me is over.

    • @stefanosprokopis6974
      @stefanosprokopis6974 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@terramex9333 why do we do this? That's the biggest question. We ccause ourselves tremendous pain and misery yet we still do it.

  • @kingsfamoushorseslifeguard473
    @kingsfamoushorseslifeguard473 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    good i found this video just lost nearly thousand pounds in roulette few hours ago gambling really is a curse!!!! last two weeks I am winning 7 k pounds but just this week everything is gone !!! the big problem is trying to win back what you lose !!!! thank you so much for sharing the story it enlightened me to stop gambling for good

  • @natural9743
    @natural9743 3 ปีที่แล้ว +21

    Addiction comes in all forms and everyone reacts differently to how their addiction affects them.
    Suicide also happens for different reasons for each person but unless one is suicidal themself how can we ever understand.
    What I do understand is that life is extremely precious .

    • @marthagonzalez5528
      @marthagonzalez5528 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      At Harrah's a man jumped of the top floor
      But they covered everything so no one would know

  • @deliafredericks7578
    @deliafredericks7578 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Destruction -- that's the word
    Self -- you can't blame anyone but yourself
    Hit rock bottom---
    Thank you for sharing this video
    Realizes how sad and bad I became

  • @darrensinnott2197
    @darrensinnott2197 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    Never understood gambling. A friend of mine her partner lost everything due to his gambling. They have 2 children together and it got so bad he'd sell their christmas presents and thats just one of many things he did. Weirdly enough his name was Philip. Gambling especially when somebody is a compulsive gambler never never ends well in the end, the house eventually always wins!!

  • @patrickgoessens2104
    @patrickgoessens2104 4 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    That you Michelle Wong for making and sharing the story of your brother. At this very moment I am writing a book about pathological gambling. My own gambling problem is the starting point in my book; I also worked about 8 years in the gambling business. This documentary really touched me...

    • @prodigypopoff2264
      @prodigypopoff2264 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Hi, did you ever get your book wrote?

    • @binbindu6159
      @binbindu6159 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      get the message out there... govs are the addicts of all

  • @lillolf3758
    @lillolf3758 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Thank you for sharing your very personal story! I, too, lost my big brother (not to gambling)! I am a problem gambling therapist & have lost clients to this dreaded disease! I share your story with clients in the hope that it will help emphasize the horror of the disease of gamnling & encourage them to seek professional help before it's too late.

    • @KimJilene
      @KimJilene 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Other than stopping cold turkey (which I did a week ago), what is the best way for a problem gambler to manager this addiction and prevent relapse?

  • @boris2342
    @boris2342 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Addiction tears families apart

  • @joannajohnson2669
    @joannajohnson2669 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I went To The casino earlier today and lost whole lot of money i have never been that irresponsible I am so sick to my stomach. I use gambling to fill a huge huge void A Traumatic event but now i have to make it through December miraculously.

    • @istoppain62
      @istoppain62 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Stop gambling. Let go of whatever. Find something fun to do. Hobbies, exercise, meditate

  • @AuntieMoMo05
    @AuntieMoMo05 3 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    WOW! I just watched this. A bit speechless really. Such an honest and incredibly well told story. Blessings to you and your family Michelle Wong. So many families have secrets ...probably all. I’m sure you’ve made a difference in a lot of peoples lives. All the best.

  • @Clearbluesky101
    @Clearbluesky101 2 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I went through the same, I missed my brother so much. Memories are the hardest things to forget ! 😪

    • @lillolf3758
      @lillolf3758 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      May you find the strength to go on thru your grief!

  • @902telesky7
    @902telesky7 4 ปีที่แล้ว +51

    Thank you for this moving story. I struggle with gambling as well.

    • @billyjohnson9166
      @billyjohnson9166 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Stop one day at a time. Your life will get better I promise. Good luck. I know I was in your shoes before.

    • @evabrown2035
      @evabrown2035 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @keith garrison do you still gamble?

    • @Fetchem1222
      @Fetchem1222 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@billyjohnson9166 yes. Put that hope in that bet into believing in yourself. That’s valuable!

    • @miamoore9431
      @miamoore9431 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Fetchem1222 do you have gambling addiction

    • @Fetchem1222
      @Fetchem1222 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@miamoore9431 I moved away from gambling before it over took my life. It was problematic. I used it to escape.

  • @CRJR94
    @CRJR94 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Grief never ends, you don’t get through it, you learn to carry it.
    Also, suicide does not end your pain…….it passes it on to someone else😔

  • @Honey_Creeper
    @Honey_Creeper 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    This came out in 2003, 20 years ago. I have to wonder how his children are at this point, if they feel different looking back on their father's death from the perspective of adults who are nearing closer and closer to the age that he passed at.

  • @triple_gem_shining
    @triple_gem_shining 4 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    what a great documentary that gives love and respect to the departed. Phil would be proud. I'm sure people who pass by taking their own lives wish deeply to be loved and understood and you are doing that by this documentary. THank you

  • @nuckieplus
    @nuckieplus 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    it is really sad to lose a best friend.. I felt you bro and I'm sorry for your loss

  • @zizizen3431
    @zizizen3431 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Your story will help to remind those who are still blinded by the thoughts that gambling is a way to make easy money and encourage them to stop now. This story will open up the eyes of gambling addicts who may not stop until they see the destruction that has befall on to others.

  • @B1TKZH47
    @B1TKZH47 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Such a moving, compassionate and heart-wrenching account of a real life tragedy. Thanks you Michelle!

  • @slotselectagamblingchannel7452
    @slotselectagamblingchannel7452 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    The saddest part about this story is the price the children are having to pay without their father. The problem with taking your own life is the mess that's caused through problem gambling. It just doesn't go away. Everyone else has to pick up all the peices then suffer them selves. Like i say every action has an affect on the future for everyone. If i lose all my money due to gambling. If some one robs you then everyone in your family suffers. You can not win gambling long term so dont start.

  • @Clintsessentials
    @Clintsessentials 4 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    This is a wonderful documentary, thank you! Gambling addiction has ruined many lives...sad.

  • @MountainsArePretty1234
    @MountainsArePretty1234 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I felt sorry for this dude at first but then I heard where he beat the crap out of his wife and threatened to murder her, his mom, and kids. INEXCUSABLE. Absolutely reprehensible. I have been to hell and back with this addiction but I never laid a finger on anybody! Let alone threaten to kill my own child. Absolutely disgusting.

  • @john9951
    @john9951 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Thanks for sharing your story.
    I pray that your brothers soul rest in eternal peace.
    May you find comfort and happiness in your life.

  • @rhondafulcher3535
    @rhondafulcher3535 4 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I am so sorry for your Loss. Thank you for sharing your story. It helps spread the word of the seriousness of a gambling addiction.

  • @Fatma-mx6cc
    @Fatma-mx6cc 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you so much for sharing this story of your brother. Your honesty is so brave, showing your pain is brave and healing for yourself, and all of us watching this documentary. Peace be with you.

  • @lindalincoln1652
    @lindalincoln1652 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Such a powerful message. Thank you for sharing this painful journey with us all. I hope for all of you that there is peace in your lives.

  • @bonniekesic8040
    @bonniekesic8040 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    My ex husband did drugs before I met him and was in rehab a few times. He told me that if he didnt stop that he would die or go to prison. Eight months ago, he died of a drug overdose. A counselor told me that people who gamble will commit suicide. I am very sorry for you and your family.

  • @patriciamarty5341
    @patriciamarty5341 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Omg thank you so much.. I have struggled with this disease most of my life..I was born in bonnyville and curently I live in Calgary.. this is an eye opener

  • @sostinamapanzure8189
    @sostinamapanzure8189 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    This story made me see that if I don't stop gambling I will end up being like him

  • @leahbeenz2537
    @leahbeenz2537 3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Thank you Michelle for your strength to share a very intimate family tragedy with the world. Phillips gambling addiction and ultimate suicide even if it helps just one person who is suffering from the same addiction, his passing will not have been in vain. I believe it was no accident that God put you and Phillip together so that you as a film maker, and your brothers gambling addictions, and ultimate suicide can help millions of people today who are experiencing the same gambling addictions. I pray you, Phillip and your families heart heals.

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  • @lenny7514
    @lenny7514 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Incredibly moving & courageous documentary Michelle. Gambling addiction is a terrible affliction. Blessings to all of Phillip's family.

  • @SevenEllen
    @SevenEllen 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I'm so glad how clear and smart Michelle is with what happened to Philip. I love how self-reflective and that she recognised how much everyone in her family had to talk, had to feel, to mourn, to get closure of some kind.

  • @briank8482
    @briank8482 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Thanks for sharing.

  • @adamwuksta3255
    @adamwuksta3255 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You are a very strong and brave woman, so sorry for your loss and wishing you a peaceful and prosperous future.

  • @pattivant7787
    @pattivant7787 2 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    Thank you for your time, energy and love that you so honestly put into this story. I am so very sorry for you and your families heartbreak and loss of Phillip. Gambling addiction is insidious and dangerous for sure, it should be banned! My prayers to you and your family.

  • @michaelsvr6
    @michaelsvr6 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    For him to leave his kids. He must been really depressed and troubled. Addiction is a sickness

  • @joetrinidadsongs8481
    @joetrinidadsongs8481 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    please be assured that i prayed for you and your family. i felt the pain because i was once a compulsive gambler. you are a great sister. GB.

  • @oliviawatchesyou5157
    @oliviawatchesyou5157 5 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    Very well made! Thank you for sharing this story

  • @roccosims
    @roccosims 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Very heartfelt video. Thank you sharing.

  • @cristoviene4516
    @cristoviene4516 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Good bless Michelle for this moving story in honor of your brother rest in peace!

  • @patriciaduncanjimenez6019
    @patriciaduncanjimenez6019 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Your family's and Phillip's story will help others in ways you'll never know. Thank you for sharing!

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  • @martinisgreatadventure720
    @martinisgreatadventure720 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This is the truth about gambling. Never closure always pain.

  • @mikestout9588
    @mikestout9588 4 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Ah man, I wish I had seen this years ago, before it was too late. It's really a wonderful tribute, very kind and compassionate.

    • @lillolf3758
      @lillolf3758 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      If you have a gambling problem, it is never too late as long as you use your breath to ask for help!

    • @BriaBarrows
      @BriaBarrows ปีที่แล้ว

      You can get therapy. It’s not too late

  • @geoman9324
    @geoman9324 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This is a story that millions of families can relate to . Very sad what addictions can do not only to the affected person but everyone around them. Unfortunately the ending is often tragic as the demons of the addiction suffocates the person whereby they can see no way out. The documentary is poignant but also presented in a way that shows dignity and poise to her brother and surrounding family and friends. Rest in peace Phillip and to the many people that succumbed to these addictions.

  • @investwithnat
    @investwithnat 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I’m so sorry for the family’s loss. I came across this video because my parents both go to the casino everyday and I’m trying to learn more about this addiction and help my parents recognize they need help.

  • @chancefitzgerald7740
    @chancefitzgerald7740 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you for the story, it was told well. It made me sad as I know your brother was a good man. Life can be so difficult, I pray for you and your family.

  • @shaunaklimchuk
    @shaunaklimchuk ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you for sharing your story, gambling addiction is a terrible disease.

  • @anthonyp2506
    @anthonyp2506 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    this was very well done.. thank you for sharing your story.. May your Brother Rest in Paradise and Bless you and your Family.. as Gambler myself I came across this story while searching for ways to stop Gambling and I always known that it just doesn't affect me but everyone around me.. I've contemplated suicide many times because of my Gambling.. I'm really trying to stop

    • @hajraalli8038
      @hajraalli8038 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I am a gambler.. Also trying to stop gamblin

  • @BriaBarrows
    @BriaBarrows ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Las Vegas has such a dark vibe to me. Just seems like an evil place. Lots of temptation

  • @mikestroud9969
    @mikestroud9969 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thanks for sharing this story. We all need to see this stuff. Amen ❤️🙏💯

  • @davidasseo2699
    @davidasseo2699 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    So inspirational Michelle. This moved me so much that I stopped gambling here in NY. It moved me like no other video I’ve seen. Thanks for sharing. It might have saved my life. Thank you

  • @kingofball8967
    @kingofball8967 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    This has really got to me, not long ago I tried ending my own life cos of gambling. I'm 32 years old and been gambling since 18 19 years old and I have just had enough. Gambling ain't fun one bit and whoever says different then they are a ass. I have lost lot of people in my life including my family, I am now getting help by professionals but so far it's not helped me but I'll give it some time. I am aware taking your own life aaint the way but sometimes u just have enough of the same circumstances your in. I totally understand this story and I am sorry. Rip sir

    • @jacobh5659
      @jacobh5659 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      32 is still young. Imagine if you are in your 40s and still gambling and wasted another 10-15 years of your life gambling. The time to stop is now

    • @veganandlovingit
      @veganandlovingit 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Good luck, I'm trying to quit, I've given all my cards, bank passwords etc. To my son to hold

    • @KerryLeighBrett
      @KerryLeighBrett ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I worked at an online sportsbook. They out enjoying your money getting fat and greedy and they dont care if you die. They dont care they just want your money, dont do it, its just a losing game.

    • @KimJilene
      @KimJilene 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      How are you doing today? Hoping you were able to take control and beat this nasty addiction

    • @kingofball8967
      @kingofball8967 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@KimJilene hi thanks for reaching out means a lot but I am still trying my best to get rid of this addiction.

  • @paulbrenner174
    @paulbrenner174 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I'm sorry for your loss. May you and your family find peace!

  • @NaomiHazlett
    @NaomiHazlett 4 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    A wonderful documentary. It's a shame it hasn't gotten more views!

  • @Chargers420
    @Chargers420 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I thank god I got over my gambling addiction. I hit rock bottom when I had 5 loans and needed more money and went for another loan and could get it. My mom loaned me the money and thank god I paid her back and after changing my mindset I learned that money is not to spend but to grow and invest

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  • @sunflower-im7lo
    @sunflower-im7lo 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Sad when you hit rock bottom, and the tremendous guilt. I felt Phillip why he had done that. Feels like no way out or up. And you just want to stop being scared and stop hurting people you love not realizing that it will hurt them more with you gone. Addiction in any form is evil and destructive, yet we will only know we are in one when we're in too deep.

  • @popselias
    @popselias 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Thanks for sharing your family's story... sorry for your loss.. he heard your love

  • @LayLoow
    @LayLoow 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    With every hardship comes ease
    Sorry for your loss brought such a great insight of what this horrendous addiction can do to family’s av got my own gambling addiction but always brushed it under the bed, this video has inspired me to change
    Wish you the best in life 😊

  • @valeriewatson6356
    @valeriewatson6356 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Thank you for this a lot of families are going or gone through the same thing. God mess the family.

  • @sallieharer9407
    @sallieharer9407 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    So sad!! I'm so sorry for your loss!

  • @Lmilue
    @Lmilue ปีที่แล้ว +7

    This is so sad and I get it. It’s hard and as an Asian ethnicity. I completely understand the shame and secrecy. I hate myself for having this addiction as well. It all began due to a failing relationship, loss, abuse, and grief. The casino became my outlet when nobody was there to help me through it. I’ve always been the selfless one to see and relieve others from their hurdles or stress in life. When it came to me, no one saw my suffering. I dealt with it in the best way possible. My friends would slowly invite me to the casino to help me forget all my worries, but over time it created more worries beyond repair. Till this day, I’m still struggling to recover. It doesn’t help when I beg or try to explain to my family about this illness and I’m trying so hard to help myself. A few of my family members would make my life hell by forcing me to take them to a place I do not wish to see because they don’t have a reliable vehicle. How do you stand up to your family when it’s 10 against 1? My family calls me names, degrade me, yell/argue with me, and takes me as crying wolf. There is so much more toxicity that I don’t even want to go there. It’s mental abuse. There is no hope when I turn for help from family. I nearly succeeded at one point in taking my life one year. My doctor had to send me to a Psychiatric Institute for help. Even so, till this day, I’ve lost trust in my family. I slowly got treatment through my Psychiatrist. My family degrades me as a lunatic in trusting white doctors to treat me and I’m a drama queen. If I can turn back time, I’d tell my younger self to never allow these people come into my life or allow them to spiral me down. There are still days that light switch is about to turn off. The battle is exhausting.

    • @kentmalone8539
      @kentmalone8539 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I hope you are in a better place.

    • @darrensinnott2197
      @darrensinnott2197 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Screw them, you need to get yourself well for you and all the negative people in your life family or not, need to cut them out of your life for now until you're back strong. Good luck to you x

    • @KimJilene
      @KimJilene 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Getting away from my toxic family was the best thing I could do for myself to start regaining my peace and sanity. Being taken advantage of by the people that are supposed to love and support you is so frigging traumatic and hurtful and makes me not want to be here. Moving away and staying away from them has given me space to find myself and start the healing journey. I hope you can find peace as well.

  • @anslemarinze4552
    @anslemarinze4552 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you so much Michelle..... I've been addicted to gambling for years now......at times when I lose so Much next is thinking about suicide...real one
    There was a time I couldn't help myself but now I've learnt to stop keeping in touch to people with gambling mentality.

    • @anslemarinze4552
      @anslemarinze4552 ปีที่แล้ว

      I got 1 friend.....I helped myself and block access to different betting platform, the guy was tryna introduce me to another..I was like get away you devil.

  • @virg0_lem0nade
    @virg0_lem0nade 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Really touching and heartbreaking film. 💗💗💗💗

  • @MountainsArePretty1234
    @MountainsArePretty1234 2 ปีที่แล้ว +13

    When I was a child, my dad ( gambling addict ) took me and my brothers to casinos, bingo halls, etc. We had to stand outside of the rope, where the gambling machines were. At bingo, he even let me dob the cards as a 10 - 11 year old. It was a different time back then and I think he knew the owner. So they let me do that. Anyway, putting a naive, impressionable, easily manipulated child in that environment is hideous. Two of us three brothers became massive gambling addicts, as soon as we were of age. Not a coincidence obviously. I have a ton of debt right now and it makes me sick. Wish he had waited for mom to come home from work, then go gamble by himself. Leave us kids out of it. What a horrible addiction. Absolutely financial obliterating, stressful, depressing, life destroying illness 😭

    • @joannajohnson2669
      @joannajohnson2669 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thank you for sharing this I needed it! 💜

    • @MountainsArePretty1234
      @MountainsArePretty1234 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@joannajohnson2669 You're welcome. Hope you are doing ok.

    • @Jack-it6pg
      @Jack-it6pg ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Thank you for sharing your story. I had identical childhood.God bless you and your brother Josh.

    • @MountainsArePretty1234
      @MountainsArePretty1234 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@Jack-it6pg Thank you. Sorry to hear that you experienced the same childhood. Are you doing alright now?

    • @KimJilene
      @KimJilene 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      I went to a casino with a friend, and she brought her kids cause she got comped a free room for the night. We gambled most of the night and the kids just stayed in the room and watched tv or played on their devices In the morning at check out, she left the kids out front while we went back in and gambled. I tried to tell her her it isn't safe to leave your kids alone, all under the age of 12, unattended in the hotel lobby (mind you it was a huge hotel and they sat by a big fountain). She said they were fine and won't even notice cause they are playing their games on thier iPads. We must have stayed in the casino for at least another hour. I kept reminding her we have to get back to the kids and leave this place. She kept refusing. I think we walked by the entrance once to check on the kids, after I kept insisting. She couldn't have cared less. I have never felt so guilty for leaving those young kids unattended. That memory will haunt me for years. Gambling turns you into a monster and I am sure those kids are scarred.

  • @dancurioso1815
    @dancurioso1815 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I’ve been contemplating to commit suicide as well but then I thought of my kids and my family members. I’ll fight for it so they won’t suffer.

    • @KimJilene
      @KimJilene 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

      How are you doing now? Glad you have your kids and family to keep you going

  • @billygiamou7435
    @billygiamou7435 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    So sorry for your loss. This must have been a difficult story to tell.

  • @DC-hh5uq
    @DC-hh5uq 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    My condolences to you and your family for your loss. Maybe when others see this video it can help them and their loved ones. 🙏

  • @chomski1985
    @chomski1985 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    This documentary broke my heart…im really sorry for your lost❤❤❤

  • @Pulkit164
    @Pulkit164 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Great work, this is sad this story has got very few views.

  • @bernardtan8984
    @bernardtan8984 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This is a very good documentary, it touched my life in an instant and woke me up from reality. Thanks a lot for this!

  • @patricepickett8388
    @patricepickett8388 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Just self excluded today ❤️🙏🏾 Thank you for this video

  • @arionel81
    @arionel81 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    Gambling is a big lie and I would say is a cancer of society it does nothing good

  • @brironmanbtl1162
    @brironmanbtl1162 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you Michelle. Peace and love to you. B

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  • @jenniferblanchette873
    @jenniferblanchette873 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    To answer the question how do you help a gambler..you can't. They have to hit rock bottom. Once they surrender they need to enroll in 12 step meetings called GA. They will need to go to meetings for the rest of their life. There is no cure!

    • @billhicks2509
      @billhicks2509 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Medication might help.

  • @triple_gem_shining
    @triple_gem_shining 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    wow i cried a lot during this...some how very relatable

  • @babyzorilla
    @babyzorilla 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Wow you put me on an emotional roller coaster. You are a good person. I too could have been Phillip but I was lucky. I saw the light The end of the tunnel. Screw Vegas.

  • @rich1968ful
    @rich1968ful 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    A beautiful, inspiring story I feel it. I myself am healing Thank you for sharing.

    • @miamoore9431
      @miamoore9431 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Do you have gambling addiction too

    • @rich1968ful
      @rich1968ful 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@miamoore9431 yes Mia

    • @miamoore9431
      @miamoore9431 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@rich1968ful Trading is a better substitute to gambling, I used to be a terrible gambler but since I started trading with an expert trader I have been making good profits

  • @hha8171
    @hha8171 4 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I’m sorry for your loss! I’m struggling with gambling addiction too

    • @Carfeng
      @Carfeng 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      HSK K I’m just over it I’m so happy it’s been a month. How are you

    • @bergbman
      @bergbman 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Carfeng My brother is gambling addict it has destroyed our relationship I don't know what to do

    • @Carfeng
      @Carfeng 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Brian just find him something else maybe a hobby to spend time with. I know it’s not easy but better for him to not see any kind of gambling ads or anything that might encourage him to play. Go outside have fun with your brother, keeping the mind busy will lead him out of gambling

    • @miamoore9431
      @miamoore9431 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Trading is a better substitute to gambling, I used to be a terrible gambler but since I started trading with an expert trader I have been making good profits

    • @miamoore9431
      @miamoore9431 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Trading is a better substitute to gambling, I used to be a terrible gambler but since I started trading with an expert trader I have been making good profits

  • @radj8576
    @radj8576 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You are such a beautiful soul, we would be best friends! God bless your heart!

  • @plamba92
    @plamba92 4 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    Don't gamble people! It ruins your life and destroy it! Yesterday I felt it for the last time!!! I promised to myself never again!!! Otherwise my fate will be the same as the person in the video! Oh God!!! Unfortunately the pity thing is that after such a tragedy the people who has been involved then become more closer and united.... So the lesson is to value the people when they are sill here and alive and to help them when they are struggling with something! Be better people between each other before everything is too late!!!

    • @justvideos5170
      @justvideos5170 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I tried to quit but my hubby keeps reminding how much I lost. I wish he would stop reminding me, it just makes me want to gamble more. It stresses me out. I wish he would support rather than put me down. I'm trying to stop. Sometimes the ones you want support, can lead you to destruction.

    • @PaperBagMan884
      @PaperBagMan884 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      So what slot machine you play these days?

    • @loridontcaretotellu6497
      @loridontcaretotellu6497 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Please keep reaching out! I've known despair myself so if I can be a listening ear for someone struggling, I am here. God bless!

    • @goddesst
      @goddesst 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      My sister's friend hit a huge jackpot at the casino on monday, she was found dead in her apartment from overdose 2 days ago. I'm so scared now and I don't want to gamble ever again. I been addicted for the last 8 years, I don't want something bad to have to happen for me to stop.

  • @kristymaesurratt
    @kristymaesurratt 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I learned a lot from this going through this horrible addiction myself I can feel the same struggles he was going through. I pray your family finds peace

    • @miamoore9431
      @miamoore9431 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      Do you have gambling addiction too?

    • @narenderkaler1794
      @narenderkaler1794 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Same here, bro. Every day, think about suicide. Tried many times but could succeed