quitting my first nursing job
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Why can’t we normalize quitting where you don’t feel comfortable. there are so many jobs out there for nursing it’s actually a blessing.
I’m still in my first nursing job in the NICU. I’m going on 4 years and it’s so tough. Nursing sometimes feels like an abusive relationship and it’s so hard to leave. I applaud you and your decision!
Yes nursing is very tough! It takes a strong person to be a NICU nurse! I’m proud of you! My sister and I were in the NICU and my parents still to this day talk about how incredible the NICU nurses were ❤️
Old nurse here. Lawn mowing in the hot sun sounds better than floor nursing. Too many Karen’s Kevin’s bean counters
@@Itme Honestly yes and its so sad because we go into this field wanting to help people and do good and instead we just get shoved around and treated like shit. It sucks so much getting home daily to basically breakdown because of how were treated by patients and their familys and even sometimes our own managers. I dont know why i put up with it anymore.
@Mellie hi, I can relate to families being unkind. I'm in nicu & I swear idk if having a prem baby makes you crazy or the craziness was already there. One mother got mad at me b/c I wasn't in the room when they arrived to visit. I had taken another baby for a test & was gone 1.5 hrs & when I returned I was getting the baby settled & these other people got mad b/c I didn't attend to them fast enough.
That's why I'm so grateful to the appreciative families & for going out of their way to tell us. Sometimes it makes up for the mean ones.
@@Lazylifestyle266 I was starting an iv on a baby when another family came at 11 pm for their baby who I had just fed and did cares on already. I guess their baby spit up a lil but was ok other wise. The family was so concerned even though the baby was fine. The vitals were normal and I was right there starting an iv on another kid. I told them he’s ok. They can clean it up or I will once I am done with the Iv. I guess they told the charge nurse this that I neglected their baby? Like how? I am one person. I am not ur babies dedicated nurse. I have three other babies. It’s so hard. I left nicu bedside and went to grad school. I did nicu for over five years and med surg for over a year. Nursing is so beautiful but horrible at the same time. I been nightshift forever and I swear day shift thinks we do nothing.
Madi, I quit inpatient nursing after 6 months because I was so depressed, anxious, and miserable. I have now been at an outpatient OBGYN office for a year and I have never been happier. Don’t ever stay somewhere that makes you unhappy. Wishing you all the luck in the world!
Same here!! I am a new nurse and I left two hospital jobs. The hospital is just not the right place for me. Hospitals are understaffed all over and the nurses are overworked. I work in same-day surgery now and it is soooooo much better!! Even home care isn't so bad but the pay is crappy. It's a good side gig to have though.
@@NurseNick420I’m so happy you mentioned the truth about hospitals. So many people want to work in hospitals not realizing they’re in for a rude awakening. Yes, you can gain lots of experience but the workload make it not worth it… and yes, home care pay is extremely crappy, especially for the amount of driving & work you will be doing. Having it as a side gig is the way to go!
I found it extremely challenging to find an 8 hour day clinic or day surgery job , these types of shifts are very competitive in Canada 🇨🇦 and also seniority plays a factor in who gets those jobs.
@@NurseNick420long term care is really hard to if you have to give all those pills
was it easy to find a job as a New Grad with less than a year experience?
I’ve been a nurse for 30 years and have been a preceptor for many new nurses. When someone on my team decides to move on I always say “as long as you make decisions that are best for you and your family you can’t go wrong.” Take care of yourself and don’t beat yourself up!! Best of luck!
A role model doesn't have to be perfect. The fact that you can share your highs and low moments with us proves how much of a role model you are. We all have seen you worked your way up to where you are now, and that could not have been more motivating. Girl you got this and we support you all the way!
Thank you so so much normalee❤️ you are so kind and I appreciate your support more than you will ever know🥹🫶🏼
Don’t Don’t feel bad I have worked in The Operatingroom for 28 years I am now the OR team in LND it is but far the hardest Nursing Job. You will go out there and find what you love but please don’t be down on yourself if I was your mom I would be so proud of you and I totally agree working with such a good team is everything you should try the Operatingroom it’s by far the best Job ever and if you can get into out Patient surgery center no weekends no holidays no call I think you will love it good luck you got this ❤
Your mental health matters. We started around the same time and honestly I left L&D as well. My anxiety got so bad I had chest pains. It's not okay to feel that way. We matter. Good for you for leaving! We love our field, we worked hard for this. We deserve to be in a position that actually makes us happy. I went to assisted living and absolutely love it. There's a place for all of us gorgeous. You will find yours ❤
Thank you so much ❤️ I’m so sorry you went through the same thing but am so happy you found a job that you like so much better 🥹🫶🏼
I haven’t finished this yet but please, please, please know, that you doing this, is you being an awesome “role model”. People need to know it’s ok to to leave things/places/jobs that are draining you. I can guarantee you that someone will be watching this after a hard few months, crying, debating whether or not to leave and they will find comfort in knowing that someone else is going through the exact same thing. Please never feel like you are letting anybody down let alone your viewers. I am praying for you to find a great new position that better suits your needs and what you are able to give right now.
Thank you so much Emily for such a sweet comment🥹❤️ I truly appreciate your kindness so so much
You are doing what is best for you. At the end of the day it’s your life you
Only get one so you need to enjoy it.
Great advice Emily! I completely agree! Madi, stepping away from something that is not healthy is very important. Cheering you on girl. 🩵
I applaud your bravery in making this video. I am a Psych nurse who worked nights for 16 years. At the end of my last night shift job, almost 4 years ago, I used to sit in my car and cry after every shift knowing I had to go back again. You made the right and brave choice. Life is short. Don’t waste precious time being miserable. It takes a toll. I’m so proud of you!!!!!
@@derekdempsey8506why are you being so mean, what’s wrong with you
Sometimes we realize that we are not cut out for it. The stress is incredible.
I’ve been a nurse for 15 years.. working in the nursing home and hospital. How many jobs I had? Floor nurse, charge nurse, supervisor, nurse educator, fill in nurse manager, and wound and ostomy. Working all hours every shift. That’s the beauty of it all, you can do whatever and where ever you want to go and if it’s not working, it’s time for a change. Not everyone can be a nurse. I know that anxiety going to a job all too well. That means it’s not the right one. So wherever your heart takes you, you can give your 100 % and feel good about what you do. I wanted to do mom and baby at the beginning. I worked as a secretary at one … nope 👎🏽. Too stressful. I love the nursing home and I’m a certified wound and ostomy nurse at the hospital. I also found out I thrive with PRN and not full time. You’re doing great!
I agree. Nurse of 30+ years. The ability to change is the BEAUTY of nursing. You’ll find your niche’!
Well said 👏
U worked at a nursing home? Was it a RN position? How many patients did u get?
@@jakebrake7417 you can get up to 44 patients in nursing home
@@jakebrake7417depends… I was a unit supervisor so I had 2 LPN and they had 60 residents total so I filled in wherever. I would take a cart if needed or work as an aid if they weren’t able to find coverage. I was also house supervisor too. I had a great team of folks under me. Rarely worked the floor.
As an aspiring nurse, these videos are SO IMPORTANT! It is completely okay to be transparent with us about these things, they are real situations! You’ve always been so positive and it’s been such an inspiration, and showing us this side doesn’t diminish that! We love you and are so proud that you are advocating for your mental health. ❤
girl I quit my first nursing job after 6 months bc of how badly it ruined my mental health. I needed therapy afterwards. it was so bad. don’t feel bad for doing what you need to do for yourself. nursing or any job for any matter should not push your boundaries like that. it should not make you that stressed out. sure there are horrible days in every job but you need to do what’s best for your mental health. praying for you. I know what this feels like. im now two years in as a nurse and am so happy I chose myself :D
I am so so happy you chose yourself too❤️ and I started going to therapy again and it has been helping a lot ❤️
New grad ICU nurse here. I needed this video. I am in the same position of trying to figure out if I need another job for my health. I have lost 15 lbs in 8 weeks. My body doesn’t know when to sleep. When to eat. I’m usually positive and bubble but I feel like my light is being dimmed. The things I’ve seen in the last 6 months have taken something from me that I can’t get back. I feel like I’m disappointing everyone around me because I’m not operating at my full capacity. My doctor won’t give me a note to move to days or medication to help me eat on nights. I feel so blessed to be in an amazing ICU but I also don’t know how much longer I can sustain this. I thought I was just weak. Your video made me feel seen. Made me feel validated. And made me feel like I was not alone. And I thought I was. Thank you for this ❤ sending love to you in this trying time.
Edit: I’m literally crying through this whole video.
Hey you. So I’m currently an ICU GN and I’ve been an ICU tech for many years. One of my coworkers was a beautiful young icu grad and took her own life a few weeks ago after only a year of the new job. She struggled with mental health before the job but night shift and the pressure just took the ultimate toll on her. Please be gentle and kind with yourself. Handle your soul with grace and know that with time it will work out. You will get there, please just keep touching base with yourself and keeping tabs. Even if you leave this job that does NOT define who you are as a nurse. Please take care and I wish you all the best in your journey ♥️
Chelsea❤️ I give you so much credit! I could never work in the ICU and I can’t even begin to imagine what you have been through. It sounds like we are in similar positions and I encourage you to focus on YOU. I was not operating at my full capacity either and it was affecting me in every single aspect of my life. Maybe consider take a medical leave or looking for another job❤️ no job is worth losing our true selves over☹️ I am sending you so much love, and so many prayers. You are not alone. I see you, I hear you, and I feel for you❤️ please take care of yourself 🫶🏼
I’m in the same position. Night ICU nurse (new grad) and my body just doesn’t know what’s going on. I feel like I sleep all the time and so my days off are so not productive. I feel like I have no life outside of work now.
Working nights does this to you, you need to find a day shift position.
As a retired RN I have to say it takes a while to really become proficient as a RN. I quit my first job as they were making us work two different shift's at that time. I had a small son and needed to work 7-3 shift. Once I started the second job, found it much better. It took me at least seven year's to feel proficient. Also the RN who talked about saving and investing. That is something I did and now since I'm retired glad I did. Take your time follow your intuition and do what is best for you. Never let anyone who is external to you dictate your future. You can also take a less stressful job and then go back. Please do not burn yourself out and learn to say "NO". Once I did that and was in control of my own power loved nursing.
Been in med surg almost 3 years and I am going through this right now (again) and it is so scary and painful to dread going to work when I used to love going to work and I’ve gone from bubbly to disgruntled (on the inside) because I am expected to handle progressive level acuity alone (6-7 to 1) with shitty equipment and combative patients I feel so abused and unappreciated even after working 14 hours to make sure I leave nothing behind for the next shift which is my fault but that’s how I am….there’s all new people I don’t even recognize and I miss my old friends that left to travel and I don’t blame them. No job is worth burning out over my fellow nurses so speak up!!!! Thank you for being brave enough to share such a raw moment. Keep it up girl. I just applied for my transfer today so I hope I get it so I can be back to my old self too girl!!❤❤❤❤
I just passed my one year anni of being an RN. I was salutatorian of my class and started in the ICU. Everything you’ve been saying is exactly how I felt when I was there. I am on an oncology med surg floor now and it’s been an absolute blessing. But my ego was so hurt when I left because I felt all these expectations on me because I did well in school I thought I should be the best I should be getting the hang of things but I just wasn’t when I was in ICU I came home everyday crying and upset and it really messed with me. Take all the space and time you need and don’t let anyone make you feel differently about choosing yourself. Nursing is an amazing job but the job won’t take care of you, only you can take care of you. God bless baby girl you’re doing the right thing
I’m a resident but everything you’ve said resonates so much. I felt everything you’re feeling and ended up having a mental breakdown. Unfortunately I can’t quit but I was able to take some time off which was so helpful. If finances aren’t an issue please take as much time as you need to truly heal and find yourself again. Working in healthcare, especially after graduating, is so overwhelming. I’m proud of you for prioritizing your health!
You can quit, you are not trapped, where there is a will there is a way
Changing jobs, bankruptcy there are options even though not pleasant you are never trapped don’t ever think that, because these thoughts could end your life, don’t ever believe that ❤
Nursing is really hard right now. I worked in PCU for 2 years and recently got a job as a public health research nurse and my quality of life has improved immensely. Be kind to yourself for making it this far.
Omg I’m in PCU right now and I’ve been looking at public health jobs too!
My parents have been in & out of hospitals in the last 10yrs. I always admire nurses & assistants. They not only deal with the sick but are the one's who take the brunt of everyone's ego. Doctors can be rough & patients can be so demanding. Their job is hard enough without the extra dose of drama. I remind my parents to thank them & smile. Being overworked physically & mentally is overwhelming. God bless you young lady🙏🙏💜 keep your head up.
Sending positive vibes your way Maddie. Your mental health is most important, stay positive and it will get better in time, you're a great nurse!
Thank you so much Sanchez❤️ I appreciate you!
I worked nights on the ambulance for three years, it’s very tough and not for everyone and that’s okay! Do what works for you and your schedule! We’re all rooting for you!
Thank you so much lauren🥹❤️
Well, I've taken the exams for the 6th time now and still didn't succeed, i wonder how those who succeeded did it. 😥💔
@@mattpeter5902 Just say "I haven't passed yet." Don't take it as a failure but see it as a learning opportunity. There is a lot of power in "Yet"; you are telling yourself that you will get there and that your eyes and heart are still fixed on your goal.
@@lorientheresa4844 Believe me , what ever you do never give up, finally l've become a licensed Registered nurse on my 3rd attempt , I can't believe I almost gave up after not making it for the 2nd time, fortunately for me I was recommended to a tutor by my friend's
Wow!!!! congrats and thanks for the encouragement words for all the people who have not take the NCLEX yet. yes, it is a crazy test for sure. I also used Mrs ELISABETH HELEN review material's. - I studied for 1 week and my test shut off at question 85. I cried too when I got my results. PASS
I left my first nursing job in a magnet Hospital, within 6 weeks of having started. The year was 2010 and finding a nursing job in an acute care setting without prior experience, was next to impossible. I had the same feelings you are having today, in fact, I felt like a failure. But you know what? I made the best decision I could have done. No, I did not quit from nursing, I simply took time to think what I truly wanted to do with my career. I am a very happy nurse today, continuing to learn from this amazing profession. My advice for you: Go pray deeply and dearly, put your mental and physical health at the top of your priority list, surround yourself by your loved ones, and take time to heal and think about what you want to do, and go for it…
Madi, this is SO normal. You are not alone. I worked nights in the ER and felt the exact same way. It takes a massive toll on your mental and physical health and caused me so much anxiety while working and stuck with me when I was off… I now work M-F from home and loveeee my job! I promise it gets better ❤️
How can I find a RN position that works from home? 😭
This
Pls let us know🙏🏼 how can we find remote jobs?
As a former Paramedic, your burnout is so real! Taking a step back, and finding a new job is a good step! Medicine is so stressful. You will find your happy place as long as set your standards. Remember, your safety and health come first, and you can’t help anyone else if you aren’t okay.
@@cheybunni Well said 👏 but to add to what you said…If you truly have to contemplate everyday whether you wanna stay or leave, chances are, you don't love that job. I think leaving to pursue something that will actually make you happy is the wisest decision you could ever make. Hope you’re having a great day?
@@cheybunni Thanks dear! Hope you’re having a great night? And where are you texting from?
I realized you can not be everything to everyone and deplete ourselves
Burnout I’ve had for over 2 years keep trying different jobs but always same situation feeling massive anxiety and overwhelm depression etc finally getting out of this as hard as it is to give up everything I worked so hard for
It’s heartbreaking really but for my sanity no choice
Hey don't worry about disappointing your viewers! At least for me, I'm here to watch the ride no matter where it goes for you. I just graduated from nursing school in May and I'm going to start working soon. I appreciate your transparency about how it is impacting you!
Thank you so much Alison! Congrats on graduating nursing school! I am so happy and so very excited for you🫶🏼❤️
Our sweet Madi
Please take it from a 30 year seasoned nurse!! I am SO proud of you for listening to yourself and thinking of your mental status🥰🙏🏽🙌🏽You are an incredible nurse and you will always be that way sweetheart! Listen to yourself and decompressing is great ! Pray and move where God tells you to move sweetheart 💐💐🙌🏽🙏🏽Nursing is SO hard!! People don’t understand the things we see daily and it can be very hard for us physically and mentally 💁🏽♀️Kudos to you👏🏽👏🏽🙌🏽🙏🏽
MADDIE 🥺🥺🥺 I am not disappointed AT ALL girl! I am a so so proud of you for doing what is best for YOU and your wellbeing! As healthcare workers, we advocate for everyone’s health but our own. I am so glad you are taking care Maddie first and I am always ALWAYS rooting for you 🥳🥳👩🏻⚕️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you so so so much chyna❤️ your comments mean so much to me I love you!
I left my first nursing job as an CVICU nurse after 9 months. I struggled with the decision but being in the healthcare field as a CNA for 9 years I knew right away that my mental health was not ok and I put myself first ! I didn’t want to hate beginning a nurse especially when I worked so hard to get here. Proud of you for putting yourself first but please do not think you are disappointing your family or anyone else. Believe that they want what is best for you ❤
Madison! You are amazing! I am a 36 year old mom who started nursing school in 2019 and have watched your whole journey. Do not feel guilty. Nursing will always be there for you when you are ready to go back into it. Take care of yourself so that you can take care of your patients, which I know you want to do. Pray about it so you can find the peace in your decision. The Lord will help guide your path 🩶
3 minutes in and i must say though i’m not even a nurse, i’m a social worker in healthcare that works with nurses every day, but i just feel so seen and heard and understood by this video. im so sorry you’re feeling this way but i’m so glad to let you know you’re not alone. i hope you remember you’re amazing ❤️
What do you think is best to go into; Nursing or Social Work since you are around the two?
@@Pllm30neither obviously
I blew the whistle on Cambridgeshire c council /CcS and they punished me.
God is watching though 🙏🙏🙏
@@Pllm30NEITHER
Do law and then defend hcps from regulatory/disciplinary lawyers who lie about hcps. Imo
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My daughter endured the NICU being born. Every single nurse was a hero to me. The doctors - oh, five minutes a day at most. But the nurses. They were there for us all day and all night. I think nurses are the most underappreciated and amazing people on the planet. They are always professional, always focused and even when it is clear they are completely worn out, they keep on trucking.
Any nurse is a hero to me. Know that Madi and just found your channel so happy to join!
I have an extreme dislike of doctors. I refuse to have a family doctor. I have a NP. My NP isn't too good to look stuff up or say "I don't know."
Hi there! I'm not a nurse, but a clinical social worker for 25 years. Thank you for being open and honest. Compassion fatigue is real. I suffered from it when I left active duty service in the military. Take care of yourself first. Another opportunity will come. We have a very broken medical system where the profits come first and people, especially medical personnel come second. Take this time to regroup and rebuild.
Well said 👏 but to add to what you said…If you truly have to contemplate everyday whether you wanna stay or leave, chances are, you don't love that job. I think leaving to pursue something that will actually make you happy is the wisest decision you could ever make. Hope you’re having a great day?
Which career is best to go into nursing or social work?
Managers in Cambridgeshire UK don't get compassion fatigue as they don't care in the first place....
I blew the whistle to protect my Ptsd but the lawyers lie and the self-satisfied Aleet.
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You're tired and that's OKAY. I've graduated 3 colleges in the last 5yrs and while working 2-3 jobs at a time while homeschooling my children and I overwhelmed myself. I had to learn to say you can't do everything and listen to your body. They're currently checking to see if I have a condition called IIH because my eye sight gpt so bad in such a short period of time and honestly I feel like it was due to all the stress! I quit my last job and because I have money saved I've decided to just rest and get my health together for the rest of the yr. We're human and its okay to be tired you can be superwoman another time, promise 😊.
My anxiety got the best of me too during labor and delivery. Felt like I always had bad luck with my pt. To the point I didn’t want to go in. Gave my two week notice 8 month in and now do clinic nurse feel like I have a life now and a normal sleep schedule.
I hated nursing my first couple years. I felt the same way: spread thin, empathy gone. Everything has changed now. I realize the value of nursing. I have a lot more satisfaction in the career. It is okay to make lateral moves in the field. Part of growing in the field is trying new things. Part of your journey.
I just quit my first nursing job as an ER RN. Had a big identity crisis but it was making me miserable. I start my new job tomorrow. I get you completely. I just want to be my old self again
Madi,
Fellow nurse here in the Cleveland area! I’ve been following your journey for years now. Just wanted to get on and say first and foremost, thank you for your transparency! Though nursing is a rewarding job, it’s not an easy one. Secondly, please know that you are not alone in these feelings and we could never be disappointed or let down by you❤ You have definitely encouraged me to take a leap of faith to not only do what’s best for me, but to take better care of myself. Thank you!
Love,
A fellow nurse
GIRL! LET ME JUST SAY!! I have not even finished this video yet but you got me tearing up. YOU DONT GOTTA WORRY ONE BIT ABOUT LETTING US DOWN!! The reason why you have this following is because of who YOU are. Not the fact that u specifically do L&D nursing. Maybe some people related to that but many us, including myself, connected to you for who you are. You’re truly kind and compassionate, you’re patient with others, you enjoy sharing, teaching, learning with us. You’re beautiful and intelligent! I subscribed to you when I found the “what’s in my college bag” vid. I was in my LPN program at that time, debating to stay or go. I’m glad to say I stayed and bridging for RN now. U had a part in that!! Your videos have been motivating at my most difficult times in school. I graduated last august and girl I’ve left 2 jobs! I started in the ED 3 weeks after my NCLEX. It was too much for me to start with.. I went to a nursing home. And finally landed In Medsurg in January. Love it so far but I know it won’t be my last stop. The beauty of nursing is finding your niche, your special place. ❤just want to tell you that deep down, u know what’s best for U in this moment! No regrets, and don’t worry about us, we got you!! 🫶🏼
You’re not letting us down! You’ve inspired me so much as a nursing student ❤
You doing the right thing. Step away when you feel you getting burn out. Take a year out to heal yourself then you will come back 120% ready to continue your journey. I did it last year & it work well , now I went back to bedside nursing at Step down unit. God bless you & good luck 🙏🏼❤️
GIRL I AM SO PROUD OF YOU! I also work LDRP and I am a year and a half in. I still feel anxious and scared every time I go in for a shift. I am so glad you are taking care of yourself and prioritizing your health! The amazing thing about nursing is that there are so many different opportunities! It will all work out 💓
Thank you so so much! Your kind words mean so much to me❤️ being an LDRP nurse is way more than just “holding babies” that’s for sure!!!
Thank you so much for taking the time to reply with your busy schedule. It was appreciate that you pay attention to what people are saying and really take it to heart. Your videos are so inspirational and your warmth and kindness always shine through. I just commented on your most recent video. I hate to see you cry it makes me sad. Just remember you’re amazing. Don’t let the world or anyone get you down. Sending you peace love and happiness.😇🙂😉
I lost 16 lbs my first year. Spent three years bedside and now I work a mid shift 14:00-02:30 and it’s ideal. I also left the hospital for a correctional facility. 100% recommend!!!
Just came across your video. I’m a nurse in Australia and I’ve just changed the area of nursing I work in. I was in aged care, palliative and end of life. I then lost my mum last July and I just couldn’t do it anymore. The job just drained me, it killed my soul. I’m now working in a cardiologist clinic, no shift work just Monday to Thursday 0800 - 1600 hours. The difference I feel is amazing. I left my friends but I needed to do it for myself. Nurses give so much and don’t often think of our own physical and mental health. You need to do what is best for yourself
you're mental well being is important. I'm in nursing school and your videos have helped me through first year. Role models don't have to be perfect, being real and speaking up about the importance of mental health shows that you a role model. You got this girl and all of us and you're family are in your corner!!
You are AMAZING! I love watching your older videos on your journey throughout nursing school it has encouraged me so much! (I’m starting nursing school soon!) im just so grateful that you continued making videos as a working nurse, it is not only encouraging but it gives us a real look on the career. Putting yourself first and taking care of yourself is always the right decision ❤
So proud of you madi ! And can’t wait to see what you do in the future you got this girl 🥹💗💗
I've been thinking about leaving my first nursing job recently, and I'm just a few weeks past my first year. Saw this video pop up, and I'm so glad I watched! I feel like I was meant to watch this video! Feeling this too, girl. Thanks for expressing what a lot of us nurses are feeling and taking care of yourself first! Wishing you the best!
You are an amazing nurse, content creator and a great inspiration to all of us nurses! That is the beauty of nursing - being able to switch from nights to days and completely changing your specialty. Your team was lucky to have a dedicated and hardworking nurse on their unit. It sounds like you had a very supportive group of nurses which makes learning so much easier. Hang in there, Madison! You are a GREAT role model and inspiration! Learning is not linear. There will be good and bad days, like with any job, but I hear you. There are so many factors to consider when coming on shift. Good for you for thinking of yourself and your physical and mental health. It's very important for you to put yourself first. You are definitely not letting anyone down. Thank you for being real with us and sharing your journey as I am sure a lot of us are dealing with the same feelings. You have come so far and will only grow more from this point on! Hang in there and don't be too hard on yourself (I know, easier said than done). Take care and congratulations again on taking care of you! :)
I went through the same exact thing this year, I’m so sorry you felt this way! You are so lucky to have great coworkers that supported you. I unfortunately didn’t have that, maybe one or two that actually supported me and made me feel like I was important/ needed. You seem like a great nurse with a big heart ♥️ make decisions for you and don’t let anyone, even yourself, make you feel less than!
Omg I’m in the medical field and I felt this video so much. We’re on the same boat. Mental health comes first. But so so hard. You’re brave!
I know my situation doesn’t quite compare, but I just finished up an accelerated BSN program after being in school for 3 and a half years for my first undergrad. I’ve felt so much pressure to rush through this post grad process despite how burnt out I am, and this video reminded me to take care of myself. I am proud of you for doing what’s best for you- we can only do right by our patients if we do right by ourselves. Hang in there! Even if you never work another day in nursing, you’ve still accomplished so much by establishing this community and inspiring new nurses like me to keep going. ❤
i’ve been watching your videos for years throughout nursing school & my nursing career. i admire you sooooo much. you’re very inspirational, compassionate, and hard working. nursing is not easy. you’re a great role model ! you have to put yourself & your mental health first. you’re making the right decision, you’re not letting anyone down. you have to do what’s right for you. i hope every things gets better for you Madi ❤❤
You are such a role model and you literally couldn’t disappoint us! I’m proud of you for listening to your body and doing what is best for you. Been here since your pre-nursing days! ❤
I’ve been watching you since I was a CNA in nursing school! Now I’m a new grad LDRP nurse. Love your content and character! Hope everything works out for you because you deserve it! 💕
I’m about to start nursing school in the fall and your videos have been so inspirational. Seeing you do what’s best for you is better than anything you’ve shown us so far because it shows your strength and sense of self-worth. You will find a job that suits you and you will get back to being who you really are. Keep focusing on your mental health and happiness. We are all so proud of you. ❤
We are proud of you, Madi! Take your time and we are just here waiting for you to get better ❤️ good luck on your next plans ❤️
Madi I’m so proud of you for doing what’s best for you!😊
You are not alone!!!!! Currently going through the exact same struggles as you. New grad on nights, on LDR, 1.5 years experience. Night Shift is killing me. I’ve said the exact same things you’ve said to my family, coworkers, fiance. I’ve dropped down 1 day from my FTE to 0.75 and so far it’s helped a little, but my next step will be dropping more days or quitting if I have to. Here for you girl! You’re never alone!!!
I can relate 100% !! I’m not a nurse lol I’m a hairstylist BUT we all have to go through a few places to find what works best for us. We change and grow and sometimes we just outgrow our environment & that’s okay !! I think watching you transition through this job and into the next is exactly what we need to see and is the best way you can be a role model. Showing the truth of what it’s like and being open and vulnerable and showing that it’s okay to quit a job and find another one !! It’s all part of the process & watching you go through this will definitely make someone not feel so alone !!! & don’t feel like you’re letting yourself down either !! Take pride in the fact that you were able to listen to your body and you made a confident decision & you’re doing what’s best for you & your mental health & your lifestyle !! This is your nursing journey, it doesn’t stop after you graduate & get your license !! It’s ongoing & we’re all here rooting you on 💗 I’m praying for you through this season of life !!
Also, idk if you’ve thought about this or if it would even be possible, but how FUN would it be if you were the nurse at the school your twin sister works !! Or where your little bro goes !! That would just be so sweet and nice haha maybe a door will open up for you there !! No matter what, God has a plan for you and He is in control ! No matter what choices you make in life, God will meet you where you’re at and guide you down every path you take !! You’re doing great 🫶🏼
I have watched your videos since before you graduated nursing school and the amount of growth I have seen in you is exponential. You should be so proud of how far you come! More importantly, I am more proud of you for knowing your limits and taking the unfortunately hard steps to better yourself. You are and always will be an amazing role model for future and current nurses. I hope you experience the peace and happiness you're looking for and I'm sending prayers and good vibes your way.
Wow I want to commend you for taking care of yourself and finding another job. I resonate with your experience so much not as a nurse but in healthcare. Can’t wait to see the new chapter🦋
I’m a new NICU nurse and I rotate days and nights and I 1000% relate to it taking forever to get something done and to feel no motivation!! I think all of us nurses can relate to all your highs and lows you mentions!! So proud of you for putting yourself first!!
As a new grad ED nurse, I related to this video so much. I’ve worked in this ED for almost two years, one year as a tech and one year as a nurse. I’ve worked nights for 4 years since I started years ago inpatient. It worked great for my schedule then, but now as an RN with days off and no school, it is so hard. So so hard working nights, and being able to show up for yourself after shifts, for your family and friends. I asked my management team to switch from a mid shift to a day mid shift (3p-3A to 11a-11p) so I can be on a more normal sleep schedule. Thank you for sharing how you feel. It makes me feel less a lone knowing that I’m not the only one feeling the same feelings. It doesn’t make you weak, it makes you so so strong for being able to recognize that this schedule is not for you. I feel like my light has been dimmed and I’m fighting so hard to get a piece of me back that’s been taken away from my job.
We're all so proud of you and your decision to take care of yourself! You're going to look back at this moment and realize it was the best thing you could've ever done and someone watching this might take your example and leave a job/situation that is putting them in a similar mindset. You're doing great! 💜
Your videos honestly helped me get thru nursing school! I graduated last month and just started my first big girl RN job and I truly know wherever you go from here will be where you’re supposed to be! Don’t let anyone hold you back or down in one place/area
Thank you for sharing your nursing journey with us. I’ve been watching you before I got into nursing school I’ve since graduated and started working night shift in the hospital. At the end of the day you have to HAVE TO do what’s best with you. I understand how you’re feeling completely. Night shift , nursing in general is so hard and so draining and it can totally consume your life. You will get through this and find your way in the world of nursing. We all will!
You’re a brave soul for sticking to it for a whole year! I’m a NICU RN as well and have been doing my job for two years. Night Shift is not for the weak and you miss out on a lot! This isn’t you giving up. This is you CHOOSING YOU. That is a tough schedule! My bestfriend also works for a facility where they pick up on call hours and It looks absolutely exhausting. You’ve got this girl💜 something new and better will come around!
You are amazing, Madi! You have inspired me to begin my own nursing journey and I love watching your journey - the highs, lows, and everything in between. This is just a part of your journey and there are wonderful things waiting ahead for you. 🤍🤍🤍 praying for you to get plenty of rest, feel all the love and appreciation that you deserve.
You are amazing Madi! I am a rn and I've been following your journey. It's so important to take care of yourself. Good luck on your interview!
i’m starting nursing school in the fall and i’m absolutely terrified. i have bad anxiety and i don’t know if i will be able to make it through clinical and labs and all that but i have been watching you since you were in nursing school and it’s so amazing to see how far you’ve come. you do what’s best for you and your health!
Former new grad NICU nurse here! I graduated in May of 22 and i just left my first nursing position (nicu) in April. I totally know where you’re coming from and i feel like i had the exact same feelings as you. My mental health got extremely bad and i was also on nights. I lost a ton of weight and was not taking care of myself. I switched to an outpatient position in April and i couldn’t be happier! The work life balance has been amazing and i am finally starting to feel like myself again! Leaving the job was the best thing i could have done for myself. Praying for better days 🤍
I’ve been watching your videos since you were a nurse extern; you and I had the same journey (except I’m in Peds). It was so refreshing to see someone on the same path, and I too have been having thoughts of what else is out there. You are great!! Thank you for your transparency
Thank you for sharing both the highs and lows:) Coming from a nursing student, this perspective is a refreshing reminder that sometimes jobs can make us feel incredibly drained, and one of the best things we can do for our patients is care for ourselves!
I've been exactly where you are Madi! You are not disappointing anyone. You are a role model for knowing your boundaries and taking care of yourself. I worked in the OR my first job out of nursing school and I too had a ton of oncall hours in addition to 40+ hours of scheduled work. I also had to get to the hospital in 30 minutes and lived 28 minutes away. So stressful and draining. You are a great nurse and taking this time to rejuvinate yourself and find the person you used to be when you started this nursing journey is the best thing you can do for your patients because when you are happy, confident, and energized that is when you're going to provide the BEST care. I quit my 1st job after 1 year and went to a position with a normal schedule. It helped me SO much and after a year in that position I moved states and am now working PRN at a clinic and doing some non-nursing related jobs on the side. It is amazing. Trust that you put in all the hard work already and there are so many options out there for you in the future that you will be able to ENJOY and flourish in. Your'e doing an awesome job.
You have no idea how bad I needed to see this video. I am in the same exact boat - just hit my 1 year mark in the PICU and I’ve been on nights. I love my job and my patients so much and my coworkers have become family - but my mental health and physical health has been put to the side for my job and I am trying to make the best decision for myself and get on a normal schedule at a new job. My heart is broken because this was my dream - but You are so right - you have to take care of yourself FIRST!!
I’ve been following you from the beginning and seeing your growth is so inspiring. I genuinely wish you all of the best, you deserve it!! Thank you for being so vulnerable and know, you are not alone. 💗
I’ve been watching your videos since you were in nursing school, you are so amazing and I have loved seeing you come so far! Please don’t be so hard on yourself and do what’s best for you 🤍
I recently started watching your videos about a month ago and you’ve helped me tremendously. I found out I got accepted into nursing school yesterday and went straight to your channel for more tips. You definitely did not disappoint your subscribers we love you. Take care of your mental health and come back when you’re 100% ❤
I started out nights in the ED and when I tell you I understand everything you feel. You’re not alone. I had to leave after a year. It was changing me as a person and I couldn’t ever relax because of the stress. You need to do what’s best for yourself. I’m doing outpatient and have a regular schedule now. It has changed my life! It was so hard to leave bc I felt like I worked so hard for my education and I was wasting it or wasn’t strong enough. But no one knows what we go through unless they’ve been through it themselves. You have to take care of yourself first or you will have nothing to give
as a new grad LDRP nurse myself, I just wanted to say you are not alone in your feelings & thoughts. hearing you talk about your experience I can relate to a lot of your struggles ❤ your feelings are real, valid and totally normal!! working night shift is tough, especially trying to figure out how to balance a somewhat normal schedule on those off days. hang in there girl, you should be proud of everything you have accomplished thus far in your nursing journey 🤗
So proud of you for recognising that you were not able to be your best self on night shift! I've definitely been in the same position recently (also a nurse) and can empathise so much with how you feel! Can't wait to see you start to feel more like yourself soon
You are special and so strong. Being this self-aware is an incredible asset. I am an experienced nurse and sometimes it just takes some time to just sit back ...think about what areas you love in nursing and why ...and where you can get that fulfillment AND a schedule that works for your health.
You'll get there. ❤
I’ve been watching you since the beginning. You have grown to be such a role model for me. I’m going to college for medical assisting this august, then I’m going back for nursing, then I plan on going for a np. You have shown me that it’s possible. Yes it’s sad right now but God has a plan for you beautiful. He knows exactly where you need to be and where your going. I’m praying for you and your next steps. Thank you for posting this and showing all of us that it’s okay not to be okay. So many TH-camrs, influencers etc don’t show us this side. So thank you for making us feel normal. Sending you all the love 🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷🩷
You are not alone. Ive been a nurse 3.5 years, started in med surg then went to observation (like a subsection of the ER) and when I say I am right there with you, I mean it. I have physical pain and health problems, and this job is entirely making my mental health suffer. I had to get FMLA to be able to take time off to take care of my physical health needs and see docs out of state, because my manager wouldnt give me time off or change my schedule. I have been absolutely suffering and looking to quit my job in the next couple months. It is a very hard thing to do, but we got this. Look at all the success stories in these comments. It gives me hope. Know that your channel and hard work is providing that support and positivity and love and community for all of us. Thank you for being you, being authentic, and taking care of yourself. It scares me so much that you have lost that much weight because I have an eating disorder and that concerns me. That is exactly what happened to me on nights. Early on I was doing ok surprisingly (even during covid) but now I am a mess. I am in so much physical pain all the time and so depressed. The moment where it really clicked that this job is toxic was when I no longer wanted to be around on this planet. That is when I knew, when I was thinking about it all the time at work.
i just wanted to say that i have been watching you for the past few years and i have definitely learned a lot from you! i am also struggling deciding on a career path and am also feeling very out of loop with life. but i want to thank you for putting out videos that truly make me happy at some of my worst moments ❤️
I WISH I COULD HUG YOU!!! You’re amazing! And you’re totally making the right decision we are here for you!!!!!! 💕 you have worked so hard for this! Own it!!!!
When you were talking about feeling like you’re letting people down or making them feel disappointed I almost cried. I made it two semesters into my nursing program and decided to step back because I realized it wasn’t the right fit for me and that’s exactly how I felt/am still feeling. I loved nursing school but I just couldn’t handle the pressure. It’s okay to take a step back and change directions. Find a day shift job and keep on being amazing. You’re not letting anyone down and if you are then heck to them you have to HAVE TO take care of yourself and your well-being in order to be the nurse you want to be. I wish you nothing but the best of luck moving forward and will be praying for you ❤️
Thank you so so much ali❤️ I am sending you so much love and prayers! It’s a hard position to be in when you feel like you are disappointing others! I am so happy you made the right decision for yourself ❤️🫶🏼 wishing you nothing but the absolute best!
I’m a pediatric nurse who’s burnt out on my unirt and I found your channel because I’m thinking about switching to L&D. Everything you said resonated with me SO much. I feel like we’re literally in the same boat except the irony is I want to switch to L&D! But I’m also about a year and 3 months into my nursing career and have been feeling all of the same things as you and think it’s time for a change. You made me feel so much better about my own situation and journey, so thank you! ❤ We have so many options, it’s worth exploring them! We got this!
I'm sure you will start to feel so much better now. So proud of you! ❤ your viewers all just want you to be happy 😊 you've helped in so many ways you don't even realize! We all love and support you always ❤️
Maddi. I've literally been subscribed to your channel for years. You were a great inspiration for when I was going through nursing school . I could say you were one of the reasons for the motivation I had during school. You always took every challenge with a brave face . But it's always important to take care of yourself first. Thank you for being so real with us throughout all these years. ✨️
Hey Madi! Been following your journey for the past few years - I graduated at the same time as you in Cle. I worked nights in a critical care environment during my practicum & soon realized that the stress of this schedule/unit ruined my mental health, although I LOVED this patient population. Because of this, I started as a new grad in outpatient while all my peers started in the hospital. I was fearful at first about doing something different and “not being resilient enough” - however, I could not fathom staying in such a dark mental space for any longer. Now, one year later, I’m making double what I would have made inpatient with less than half the stress. My free time is finally my own time, and not just recovery time. It can be daunting to make such a huge change, but your mental and physical health will thank you! Your ultimate obligation is to take care of YOURSELF - you are not letting anyone down by leaving the hospital, but rather promoting your own health and well-being, which is an admirable quality of a good nurse. ❤ sending love for where your journey takes you!
girl! we are so proud of you!! never think you would disappoint us. your mental health matters more than anything. ❤ praying for you.
Thank you so much Jessica that means so much to me🫶🏼🥰
I'm so proud of you. It's hard to put yourself first when working in the field that you do. I admire and appreciate the realness. Can't wait to see your journey. You got this ❤❤
We love & support you always. Even though you have such a big crowd watching you, it’s still your journey & authenticity that made us want to watch you so wherever you chose to go in YOUR career/life, will attract & maintain the right support and connections for you. I’ve watched a your videos since the beginning of your pre-nursing videos & you have always been so helpful and inspiring. I am sure that the patients you were assigned to felt blessed to have you in person as their nurse & your future patients will to. If a break is what you need rn to feel like your best self again, then trust that & be proud of it bc it takes guts. I resigned a couple of months ago from my PCT job at the hospital & believe me, I felt the same way. I only told 1 coworker about it and the word got out and I felt so watched and pressured but I’ve been feeling much better & know that I’ll come back 10x better & I have no doubt you will to. This is your life, your body. Take good care of it so you can take good care of others 🦋💗
I'm a LDRP nurse as well and when I say I relate to this so much, it was so hard to watch this video without tears coming down my face. This is so hard and I completely am in your shoes as well. God has a plan for us all and we have to just feel OK with being uncomfortable for a moment. I too have been applying elsewhere but it has been so hard to leave.. There is a light at the end of each tunnel. We got this.
I had to leave my first nursing job 10 months in. All the deaths during Covid, feeling like it was up to me to make sure the patients survived. I went home for “Christmas” ( not actually Christmas because I had to work then ) and bawled my eyes out to my parents. Even when Covid got better I knew I couldn’t stay. I’ve since started a new job in a new area and I feel so much better. It is still a challenging place but the extra training from a second orientation process really made me feel better. And I agree nights is so tough because you aren’t off for your whole “off days.” Hang in there, you got this, and good for you taking the action to move on and take care of yourself. ❤
Thanks for being real. I feel the same way as you at times being a new nurse and I really had to make changes for my own well being. You’re definitely not alone ! 💕
Loved this video. I had a breakdown yesterday because of my hectic schedule. I work at an ultrasound clinic, just front desk, but it’s 12 hour shifts. Your videos have given me such an insight into the real nursing world & I love that you’ve shown the bad parts! With social media it doesn’t feel real sometimes like doesn’t feel human. Loved this vid & proud of you for making the best decision for you in this stage of your life 🌸
I’m not even a nurse nor am I interested in being a nurse but I LOVE watching your videos and supporting you. It’s your bubbly personality and positivity that I enjoy seeing. I DEFINITELY think you’re making the right decision by focusing on yourself and getting your mental and physical health straight and back on track. One of my associates is a nurse and she took a while off after being a hospice oncology nurse she’s now a nurse at a dermatologist office and seems so much more happier and healthier. When a job makes you feel the way you are it’s not worth it ! YOU GOT THIS ! WE ARE ALL HERE TO SUPPORT YOU. IM SO EXCITED TO SEE YOU ON YOUR NEW JOURNEY . I CAN SENSE A GLOW UP AND A NEW BEGINNING APPROACHING 💕