Weightlifting saved my life. Truly. I was severely underweight and sick. I thought I'd eventually die from malnutrition or a heart attack. For me, it was a silent sickness. Because I've always been petite, not many people even noticed I was wasting away. Plus I basically isolated myself from everyone and always wore baggy stuff. At the peak of my anorexia I truly felt like I was losing all control and like I was an empty shell and this fucking disgusting disorder replaced me fully. I also binged a lot when I started 'recovery' and failed many times, relapsed etc. Tbh I don't even know how I did it but somehow I managed to go to the gym and start weight training and to actually make progress I NEEDED calories. I also completely deleted all of my ED accounts and unfollowed/blocked anyone/anything which would trigger me, includes some irl friends who were constantly commenting on their/my weight. And now I am proud to say I'm on the journey to health. 🌺 I feel like many people talk about their anorexia with nostalgia.. and I love how you differentiate between a beautiful and a sick body. My sick body could never be beautiful to me now, and it's so refreshing to hear someone else look at their journey the same way. Lots of love to you!
so so proud of you! that's amazing that you found the strength to unfollow those triggering accounts and still kept fighting despite the relapsing. sending love to you too girly xx
i recently found your channel and i can’t believe you don’t have more subscribers! i relate to so much of what you say and it’s so refreshing
This mean so much, thank you! sending you so much love! xx
Weightlifting saved my life. Truly. I was severely underweight and sick. I thought I'd eventually die from malnutrition or a heart attack. For me, it was a silent sickness. Because I've always been petite, not many people even noticed I was wasting away. Plus I basically isolated myself from everyone and always wore baggy stuff. At the peak of my anorexia I truly felt like I was losing all control and like I was an empty shell and this fucking disgusting disorder replaced me fully. I also binged a lot when I started 'recovery' and failed many times, relapsed etc. Tbh I don't even know how I did it but somehow I managed to go to the gym and start weight training and to actually make progress I NEEDED calories. I also completely deleted all of my ED accounts and unfollowed/blocked anyone/anything which would trigger me, includes some irl friends who were constantly commenting on their/my weight. And now I am proud to say I'm on the journey to health. 🌺 I feel like many people talk about their anorexia with nostalgia.. and I love how you differentiate between a beautiful and a sick body. My sick body could never be beautiful to me now, and it's so refreshing to hear someone else look at their journey the same way. Lots of love to you!
so so proud of you! that's amazing that you found the strength to unfollow those triggering accounts and still kept fighting despite the relapsing. sending love to you too girly xx