Harriet yes I thought that she was like the best person to talk to Dodie at the time because if Dodie is like me, then she also needs someone to be a bit straight forward with her.
Iris Blake Any one else scream "DIGITIZE IT ALL FIRST! NOOOO!" As she dumped it on the fire? 😢 That way it becomes and awesome portable collection of memories for yrs to come!
Yeah, I don't judge her but I could never do that. For me, that's kinda insane. What if you wanna look at that stuff again in 20 years when you've changed your mind? I dunno, I could never do that.
When she showed the box I thought, "Oh that's so sweet, at least she can take that box of memories with her, it's quite small and it means so much." Then she threw it in the fire and I freaked :(
Michelle Province I can only talk to my mom. when it comes to talking I have just been locked up so long I can't open up to my friends or family except my mom.
This just made me appreciate TH-cam generally because we can experience those things even if its not necessarily with our own family but with our TH-cam family, ya know? It was really nice to watch this and feel apart of something so life changing in Dodie's life. :)
tasminemma same. i lived in ireland for 7 (from when i was born up until the age of seven) and ever since have been moving to different countries every 3 or so years. sigh
i have derealisation and depersonalization. I've been home from school for a year and i still cannot go outside. I can't ever imagine leaving my last happy memory like you just did. This was the most brave thing i've seen in a long time. I salute you.
This morning I was sitting in class working on a chemistry test and all of the sudden my brain started thinking about my childhood and I was just like "oh fuck. My childhood is over. All of the things I did as a kid will never happen again. There are people I will probably never see again. I can't even remember what my elementary school best friend looks like anymore. Even my memory is flaking out on me. There are so many things that I will never ever ever be able to experience or recreate in any way. Fuck." And so I just sat there, staring at my computer screen, having a minor crisis is my head, all while I'm supposed to be completing a test.
haha i actually did that during a bio quiz once. i thought, "wow. i have one life. im one person. and once im gone, im gone and thats it. what happens when i die? will i know im dead? or will it just be like im sleeping? i will be forgotten a few years after anyway. and im wasting this valuable time on a bio quiz". so. yeah.
I went through a similar situation and I totally get you. It's very very sad to leave a home and all of the memories you've build up in it, but time passes and although you might always be a bit nostalgic and sad you will eventually move on... Love you dodie
my parents offered me to move my room to the basement when i get older so i have somewhere to stay before i move out and i can't even do that i have too many memories of my room now i can't bear to think of moving out gosh
I completely understand how you feel. I went through this when I moved out of my parents house when I was 18. Losing your home is such a unique kind of pain. I remember there was a 2 month time period where I had to go into numb mode. I couldn't think, or feel, or I knew I'd have a mental breakdown. While I knew I was fine, I'd visit a couple times a year, I let myself over think and make it so much worse. I'm going to let you know, the months after are the hardest. You'll feel sadness, and grief, and be so overcome with emotions you'll feel like you could die. Let me tell you, you won't. This sounds cliche but it will get better. It's been a year, and I am completely happy again. That year was the hardest of my life, I felt like I was sleep walking, not really living. You learn that you have multiple homes, which are not necessary buildings. My mom for example, is my home. My first apartment, that I decorated all by myself and sheltered me during the hardest part of my life, is my home. The coffee shop I work at, is my home. The track field, where I spent hours running, is my home. The house, my boyfriend and I rent is our home, where we want to start out lives. Home isn't a single place, its the feelings, and memories associated with something. Home is a feeling of love, and you can feel that anywhere. The feeling isn't buried under the house you left, It follows you, and sometimes falls a little behind, but don't worry, it'll catch up soon.
Oh God. It would absolutely tear me apart to burn all of my old stuff. I'm such a memory hoarder. I have so many notebooks from my 3-8 grade stuff. (it's mostly like old art and journals). Even old notes from my old friends who I don't talk to anymore. I just could never see myself throwing it away because it's such a big part of me.
This video felt like it gave me a big family hug in a way. You can literally picture so easily the joy that happened in that house years ago. When she was talking about Alice come ing around and music in the summer. And the convos you're having is JUST SO WARMING I LOVE THE CLARKS
i actually started crying a bit when you put that box on the fire. that was so strong of you. i honestly don't think i could have done that. i'm really fuckin sentimental too, stemming from a breakdown i had in high school where i buried all of my journals from age 6-15. biggest regret of my life. i feel like those memories are gone forever - even though i know the ones that really are important will always stick around in my head, it's hard to let go of the little things. letting go and moving on is a legitimate skill, and it gives me hope and makes me proud to see you getting better at it.
You are so much stronger than you think my friend. I honestly can't believe you threw that box on the fire, I'm not sure if I could have. But you know what, at the end of the day .. it's just stuff. You will forever have the memories. You don't need to physically have something in your hands to be able to think about the way it made you feel or the place where it was from. Home to me isn't 4 walls and a roof, it's the place where the people you love are that make you feel safe and warm xx
ofstarsandplanets you just need to open all the windows and doors in your house so the smell goes away... and why did you do it and is it safe cause I want to try it so bad :D
ofstarsandplanets - just fart a lot and hope they are all really smelly - should do for a cover up job :-) Blame the dog afterwards. Wot you have no dog - there's a floor in this plan - I've just fallen through it. Hahahaha
I feel like losing your childhood home is similar to kicking out all of the stable support out from under you. Like, you spend years learning and growing off of memories and experiences in that one house, and suddenly that place is gone.
i went through this last year. lived in the same house for twelve years, since i was three. it was all i knew and then i moved across the country leaving behind all these memories and friends, a city i loved and a house i literally grew up in and it was the most painful thing i've ever had to do.
The emotions you get are mostly based around what your childhood was like. I had a shit childhood. I was getting bullied all the time and stuff like that so when I moved I was actually happy because that house and that town were filled with unhappy memories. To be honest my only good memories there were the birth of my sister, every time I was getting a good grade (I loved getting good grades) and the times me and my family were visiting monuments and stuff outside my town. The reason I was (a bit) sad when I moved was because I didn't just move to another town, I moved to another country so me and my family had to adapt to a diffrent lifestyle, diffrent culture, diffrent people and a diffrent language.
Cassidy Meow I lived in my old home for just about 70% of my life. We moved out when I was about 10 and I honestly didn't care? Idk i didn't have many friends. But it was a huge house that was in the middle of nowhere and it had a huge forest behind it and I loved it. It was full of deer and animal shit but I loved it. I miss the smell of the summer nights when I could see the stars clearly. It was amazing and I would love to live there again but I love living in the city more than nowhere.
i've been thinking about stuff like this for quite a while, i'm a super nostalgic person as well and i'm almost 19 years old and have grown up in the same house for 18 of those. i'm a trans kid and my dad is SUPER not accepting of the lgbt community and im about to transition medically, and i have no idea how he's going to react to that, so my mum and i are worried we'll have to move out? it's making me a real mess LOL but yeah, i really relate to this video, even though the circumstances aren't the same. i'm sorry you have to say goodbye but glad you have such a supportive and wonderful family to talk with about it!!
Winslow Baril hey! I'm also trans and a painfully nostalgic person too. ❤️ I've had to throw the majority of my childhood things away or give them to charity because we're moving soon, it's honestly devastating :( I've lived here my whole life (nearly 21 years) and the thought of leaving is crushing me. I'm sorry about your dad :( my dad is supportive, but before he found out I was convinced he'd disown me because he is very bigoted and had said horrible things about trans people in the past. Maybe your dad will surprise you like mine did? Sometimes, when it's your kid it opens your eyes. Fingers crossed for you my friend.
TJACWatch aw man!! throwing stuff out from childhood is the worst ): but kudos to you for being strong through it even if its hard af and unfortunately ive come out to my dad already and he has just sort of... denied that im trans? its really strange tbh, he probably thinks its a phase, but medically transitioning will change that !! thank u for ur kind words 💖 im glad you have a supportive family!!
This reminded me of "Thank You little room you served me well." I didn't think you were over dramatic, I would be a wreck as well , because there are so many memories in a home . ❤️
I understand this to a point and I understand getting rid of things but I don't think I could ever get rid of certain pictures and notebooks from my childhood and from school like she did in the fire. That just is a little crazy. I want to look back to my notebooks and see what I was like in the future... She's strong for doing this. I bet a weight was definitely lifted.
Jacketeer : idk i have moved around 12 times in my life and really do not care anymore...all my memories lost...all my kid toys...idk i feel empty just no emotions
It's weird that this video came out because I have phases where I think of my old home, and I'm in that phase again. I already made my peace with what happened there, and I'm definitely better off where I am now but I can't help but think about it. Sometimes I look it up on Realtor websites and go through the pictures. It's so empty and full of natural sunlight, when I moved it was the complete opposite. My wall paper is still in what used to be my bedroom, a lining of pink paper with flowers. I look around my surroundings now and I always remember how bleak my last few months were over there, over 10 years ago.
your scooter is the cutest thing ever, but dodie i feel like you think you have to defend yourself for feeling nostalgic and sad about saying goodbye when you don't even owe anyone an explanation. it's okay to be sad. it's normal. you associate that house with childhood so obviously it will be hard to part with. keep your head up love!!
hi dodie, hydrate yourself and take all the time you need and remember self care is always important. And it's also okay to be emotional sometimes, you are not in any way dramatic. This goes out to everyone as well, be sure to always remember this💙💫
I honestly dread the day my home won't belong to me & my family anymore so So many amazing memories & moments just gone no evidence of it at all. What will hurt the most is there's stuff that was put in the loft when I was a child & onwards that I will just break down with nostalgia when I see it again
I remember having to move away from my childhood home and it was the hardest thing ever. I cried for days knowing I would never be able to go back. I remember I wrote a little note to the people who was going to live their next in my old closet.
i really wish i could understand this kind of attachment. I literally kept nothing for more than a few months, and all my childhood books and stories and drawings and school things I binned as soon as I could. I'm really proud you went through this experience and you'll come out a better person on the other side of saying goodbye to all this stuff.
I get what you mean, Dodie. Having a certain place that your mind regards as a fixed point in time can be a very comforting mental tether to reality; something you can physically go back to when you just need something to be sure of. It can leave you feeling so lost when it's yanked out from under you. Here's to the future
I understand you, but from a different way (?) I'm a hoarder with memories, the good ones and the ones I want to keep. Mainly with pictures, videos, tickets from movies and random events I go to. I have some pictures and movie and event tickets taped on the side of my shelf, and plan to fill it all up, along with some parts of my wall. I constantly get notifications saying my storage is almost full, and I'm sure it's from all the random photos and videos of my friends and family. Also in my snapchat memories, I save pretty much everything. I take most of my videos and pictures on snapchat so I save them there and it doesn't use up my storage. I have no where else to put the things in my camera roll, and I'm afraid I'm going to use up all my storage, or worse, lose every photo and video I have.
jess ophelia ikr same. I feel like if I delete something I'll lose the memory, especially since I think I have a bad memory on some things. I always feel like I need to record all the fun and funny things that happen in a moment when I'm out doing something.
I recommend that if you're scared of losing them because your storage is full, transfer them onto a memory stick so that you can make more memories. You could even have several copies of the photos and videos on different memory sticks so that if you lose one, you still have them
You can also get google photos!! Unlimited storage if you don't mind that it's not super top quality (basically if it's just jpgs/phone photos they'll be the same quality anyway) and if you download the app it'll auto-update and save everything. Only problem is that first bit where you gotta upload everything you've already got bc it takes ages :)
+Parigi and +abadoodle those are great ideas omg thanks! I'll look into google photos. Thanks it means a lot :) especially since I'm going to a few concerts soon and I wanna record practically the whole thing XD
em :P I kind of understand what you mean I'm constantly trying to get pictures and videos so I remember the memories but then I just end up living through the phone because I'm too worried about trying to save the memories so I'm not actually living in the memory (it's kinda hard to explain)
I was depressed and I started crying while listening to your cover of four five seconds, and listened to all the other sad songs then finally sick of losing soulmates on repeat many times and this went on for an hour. I'm finally done, and I just wanted to say thank you for singing and making me happy, and thanks for being with me throughout my darkest times. I love you. Thank you.
This made me realize how lucky/unlucky I was to move around a lot. I never had a "childhood best friend" or a "childhood home". But then I get really jealous of people who've known each other since they were little, and have that one house to look back at old memories. Then again, I think it's good that I don't cling on to material as I do actual experiences, and I also love how easy it is to take a picture and have it in your phone forever. Idk. I have mixed feelings about it all. At least I get to say I've lived in 3 countries!
You're so open with your Mum, it's lovely to see! Like you just...talk, about the stuff that's bothering you. Please don't underestimate how helpful that can be!
I cried right when the box hit the fire. I struggle with derealization and letting go of the past, etc aswell. I know similarly to how you feel and I would have reacted the same way you did. Let yourself feel Dodie. Love you
next week I'm moving out of the house I've lived in since birth (I'm 18 now) and I'm feeling reeeeeeally shit about it. I remembered this video and came back to watch it and feel a little sense of comfort, or at least that I'm not alone in this situation
WHy am I crying this isn't even my house?? I went and listened to "When" after this as well and it just made me love the song even more (if that's possible). I'm glad you're processing and moving on. Nostalgia can be amazing but it can also be dangerous. Love you Dodie 💕
this was a bloody dreadful video to watch right now, im in my first year of uni and my parents just sold my childhood home so i have to move out of there in the next few weeks. it's happened very quickly and i struggle with change, im a nostalgic person and also was a happy kid. i understand how you feel :-(
Feel you, I just had to move out from the house I lived during 19 years and parents during 30 years last saturday, it feels like losing a part of your life, like if those years just vanished.
i keep coming back to this video and honestly? i could NEVER. my fam and i did move house about two years ago, but i kept my things. and when i move out of here in september, i'll put the things i can't take to london with me. the idea of literally putting these things in a box and burning them and walking away is UNBEARABLE. that takes a lot of strength. the couple who bought our old house broke up and moved out, and since then, it's been empty. so now i can't shake the thought of buying it one day. maybe not even to live in it - although, why not. just to have it. just so it's mine again. because it is! it's my home! i miss it! damnit! - jessie
I totally understand the whole "home base" thing. My family want's to move right when I go off to college but then I feel like I won't have anything familiar to come back to and it is so scary. I've lived here for 8 years and it still feels like we JUST moved in and I haven't made enough memories here
You probably aren't reading the comments because they make you upset, but if you're scrolling, please stop. It's important you read this. Literally this past year I've been going through the same thing as well. My parents were getting divorced and we moved out of my dads/childhood house around February 2016. You going through the same thing has eased my pain inexplicably. You talking about this has eased it as well. Yes, it is incredibly difficult saying goodbye to your childhood home, especially if you romanticize the past, but everything will be okay. You'll eventually be romanizing the present (key word: eventually). Anyways, just thank you so much for talking so openly about your nostalgia. It helps a shit ton :)
3:50 YES Dodie. I resonated sooooooo much with that statement! My family moved out of the place I'd called home for the past 10 years of my life back in October, and I was absolutely devastated and terrified. I'd just moved away to college, and already being away from home is hard enough, and then I realized the one place I felt I would ALWAYS have to go back to wasn't mine to go back to anymore. I felt like someone had just pulled a rug out from under me. I felt homeless. I still feel a little homeless. I recorded a ton of video of that house before we sold it to try and keep it with me forever, even though I knew it would never compare to the real thing. I remember crying through it all. I was so lost and upset. The hardest part was leaving my bedroom behind, because it held bookshelves my dad had built for me 10 years ago, but we couldn't take them with us. Horrible feeling to leave those shelves for someone else to use. Change isn't always easy. I'm also very sentimental and I love nostalgia, so I can relate to what you're going through. But, things will get better and easier ❤️ Sorry for the rant!
This makes me so sad, I'm a really emotional person as well and I literally keep eVERYTHING just for the memories, I'm only 16 at the time but I really feel like if I throw them away I just won't be able to remember the happy times I had when those letters, drawings, etc. were done and it scares me, change scares me a lot and I know I'll have to throw them away at some point, I can't keep collecting every single thing and as time goes by it will be harder and harder to let them go but I'm not ready, not yet. Also, I lived at an apartment for the first 15 years of my life but idk, it stopped feeling like home since I was like 12 which kinda sucks because I haven't felt like I've had a home for the past 4 years of my life and stuff but also, I guess that if my dad who still lives in that apartment I grew up in ever moves out, at least it won't be as hurtful, at this point I think I'll cry more when I leave my amazing highschool than when I leave any current house
I am incredibly proud of you Dodie. I watched this , you burning the notebooks, getting rid of lanyards and stuff and I realised how much stuff I have. I find it so hard. I crave a minimalist bedroom that has space to breathe but I can't bring myself to do it. I can barely throw out pens that I've had for years let alone get rid of old toys I don't use or old mementos. It's hard and I'm proud of you as a fellow sentimentalist to be able to do this. Tears are allowed. I recently listened to "little room" again and I cried. I don't know why as I'm not moving out or anything and I know when it happens it won't be as bad because I've moved a lot throughout my life. However it's the idea of your heart being attached to objects , and I hate my reliance on objects to remember and find joy. Dodie you bring me joy. Love you x
I love Dan and Phil my two beautiful fathers lol if I'm correct, it was about a video that Pewds uploaded to make people moderators and he jokingly said if you don't have that picture then you're not worthy enough
haha np, it was a weird thing PewDiePie was doing, where you had to change your pfp to this :P I think it's a sort of anime thing, can't say I'm very knowledgeable of it though :)
You say a home is a place that makes you feel comfortable, loved and calm but I believe that it is you family that do all of those things so home is wherever your family is, don't be afraid dodie it will all work out 😘😘💛
watching this made me think of the condo i lived in as a toddler to about 5. watching the original toy story and just being with my mom on rainy days were amazing. i know i'll have to throw out all my old childhood stuff i've actually kept one day. i can't keep everything, it makes me cry a lot, but i can't hoard everything i love.
I could totally understand your sadness. I had to move house about 3 to 4 years ago. Until now I still find it hard to stop calling it home . Luckily my parents didnt sell it so I still come back home whenever I feel lonely and need someone to back me up. Remember my words. no matter what, our home is always our haven. at least it is for me.
isn't it weird, just to see a house like that, just empty without the furniture and decor and photos, all the memories. I have recently been helping my family move stuff out of my grandpas house (he passed recently) and it's just so weird because the house was always so full and warm but now seeing it empty with everything gone it's so weird it's so open and dark, at first I was very sad ( I still am) I'm saying goodbye to a huge part of my childhood, but now as I write this in this moment I realize, it's just a house, a shell, it's what's inside that matters, and we're whats inside, my family marked that place forever. we made it a home. so it's just a house, but all the marks, dents, scratches, stickers, that's what made it a home. and now we get to do it again, find another house and turn it into a home.
this video is partly relatable to me bc i am so attached to possessions because they ground me when i dissociate (or i pretend they do so I have a reason to keep them) but also.. people in the comments are talking about childhood homes and I can't even imagine how difficult it must be to leave that behind because ive moved around once every 3 years if you average out my life lmao
I too left my childhood home.... this video hurt to watch because it brought back the memories of leaving the home i thought would never leave. No matter how long i live in this new house it'll never be my h o m e
i actually cried while watching this because it reminded me when my nan had to move out from her beautiful cottage. i had the best childhood there. the cottage was so pretty, there was sheep in the field next to it, an outstanding forest with horses in the field next to a old fashioned mansion. when she had to leave (they wanted to knock her cottage into the one which backed onto it and make it into a house, and because she rented she has no choice). but that was my second home. it's so sad and all but these things happen ❤️
this video made me realize in a few years i'm going to have to leave the house i grew up in. unless something drastic happens, i'll have lived here for a total of 18 years. all my life. i love it so much. worst part is when i move out so are my parents as they'll be moving as well (we already own the house they'll live in) not only that but this video made me motivated to go through "the box." the box is a shoebox full of memories of my grandparents who are gone now, but i loved them. so many memories of them. thank you, dodie.
I totally know how you feel Dodie. The first time I moved houses, from the place I'd lived my whole life to somewhere completely new with new members of my family (step-mother and brother) it felt like a loss, but since moving out of that house and into my own place it feels so much like this amazing gift of freedom. I'm glad I said goodbye to that place so long ago, but I also look forward to my home that I have now, and the homes I'm going to create for myself in the future.
Your mum is so hilariously unsympathetic but sympathetic at the same time. It just reminds me of my own and makes me so happy!
Haha she was a bit more sentimental when I needed her to be. She knows it's good for me :)
My mum is exactly the same! They always know what's best :)
Harriet yes I thought that she was like the best person to talk to Dodie at the time because if Dodie is like me, then she also needs someone to be a bit straight forward with her.
same haha ffs I find it so funny
her mom sounds so young??? i was confused bc i knew her sister couldnt drive??? she sounds dodie's age
Did anyone else cry when she threw her stuff in the fire
Iris Blake Any one else scream "DIGITIZE IT ALL FIRST! NOOOO!" As she dumped it on the fire? 😢 That way it becomes and awesome portable collection of memories for yrs to come!
Iris Blake same here 😬😢
Yeah, I don't judge her but I could never do that. For me, that's kinda insane. What if you wanna look at that stuff again in 20 years when you've changed your mind? I dunno, I could never do that.
Iris Blake YES
When she showed the box I thought, "Oh that's so sweet, at least she can take that box of memories with her, it's quite small and it means so much." Then she threw it in the fire and I freaked :(
Mums always know the right thing to say, your mum seems so sweet! 💗
I also have a beauty channel and I'd love if you guys could check it out! ♡
she does and is :D
its so cool that in your family you can just talk about your feelings, and they'll listen and help you. I've never had that experience with my family.
Michelle Province I can only talk to my mom. when it comes to talking I have just been locked up so long I can't open up to my friends or family except my mom.
Michelle Province same, it was strange to watch
Juliette Myers ikr?
This just made me appreciate TH-cam generally because we can experience those things even if its not necessarily with our own family but with our TH-cam family, ya know? It was really nice to watch this and feel apart of something so life changing in Dodie's life. :)
Just Michaelea same!! I love that our generation has the internet because it's so much help for family crap
Wow there was some incredible wisdom being said in the car. "It is a shit home" was a personal favourite.
Also Hedy's a good interviewer
GeaiHerbe i
She's a smart kid
your mum is so funny i love her
musicalbethan ily xx :)
I loved hearing Heddy in this video, she is so wise for her age. I hope she will be in another VEDIF.
this video has a tint of pink in it and it's aesthetic and soft
Saff x I think you could use the dawn filter in the editor on TH-cam :)
Saff x ive always wanted to know what the filter was AHHH ITS IN ALL OF HER VIDOES THAT SOFT PURPLE PINKISH FILTER I REALLY WANNA NOW WHAT IT IS
Is it dodie yellow tho? o_0
Saff x It's quite fitting/ironic if you think of the phrase "rose tinted glasses"
It reminds of a song she covered "La Vie En Rose", literally "life in pink".
i'll never know how this feels seeing as i've never lived somewhere for longer than 4 years but hell am i still sad for you
tasminemma yes me too... but for me it is still horrible to leave a house where you have been living for 4 years
tasminemma me toooooo
aye same.
yo I lived in a house for 17 years (well I wasn't there for the whole 17 though)
tasminemma same. i lived in ireland for 7 (from when i was born up until the age of seven) and ever since have been moving to different countries every 3 or so years. sigh
i have derealisation and depersonalization. I've been home from school for a year and i still cannot go outside. I can't ever imagine leaving my last happy memory like you just did.
This was the most brave thing i've seen in a long time. I salute you.
While I don't always have the ability to express how I feel, I will always have a heart emoji to give. Have three 💜💜💜 also cake 🍰
kindaoddmilla my thoughts are with you. idk why this comment is making me cry so much right now
Bryony The Overthinking Pigeon here I have come to supply more cake 🍰🍰🍰🍰
sofiaisodd Ah, we needed more cake. Come, eat cake with us 🍰
This morning I was sitting in class working on a chemistry test and all of the sudden my brain started thinking about my childhood and I was just like "oh fuck. My childhood is over. All of the things I did as a kid will never happen again. There are people I will probably never see again. I can't even remember what my elementary school best friend looks like anymore. Even my memory is flaking out on me. There are so many things that I will never ever ever be able to experience or recreate in any way. Fuck." And so I just sat there, staring at my computer screen, having a minor crisis is my head, all while I'm supposed to be completing a test.
haha i actually did that during a bio quiz once. i thought, "wow. i have one life. im one person. and once im gone, im gone and thats it. what happens when i die? will i know im dead? or will it just be like im sleeping? i will be forgotten a few years after anyway. and im wasting this valuable time on a bio quiz". so. yeah.
Bridget Teahl brains are fucking weird, man. One second I'm perfectly fine and the next I start question everything that's ever happened to me 😂😂
+Hannah Elizabeth its dangerous for me i started internally freaking out, but as far as anyone else was concerned, i was just stuck on a question
Hannah Elizabeth actually me.
Your Mum is me when I have someone else in the car for Pokemon Go
yall. really still playing pokemongo
hahahahahha
BridgieBearr cause I'm fly as fuck
michael jackson lol tru
I though it was DEAD
I went through a similar situation and I totally get you. It's very very sad to leave a home and all of the memories you've build up in it, but time passes and although you might always be a bit nostalgic and sad you will eventually move on... Love you dodie
So very true! Love your channel about a movie! Very creative!
Exactly! It's not just the place but the memories and the people you associate it with. It's hard.
Doris Monroe Thanks! x
my parents offered me to move my room to the basement when i get older so i have somewhere to stay before i move out and i can't even do that i have too many memories of my room now i can't bear to think of moving out gosh
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"there's a pokestop" i respect these priorities
I completely understand how you feel. I went through this when I moved out of my parents house when I was 18. Losing your home is such a unique kind of pain. I remember there was a 2 month time period where I had to go into numb mode. I couldn't think, or feel, or I knew I'd have a mental breakdown. While I knew I was fine, I'd visit a couple times a year, I let myself over think and make it so much worse. I'm going to let you know, the months after are the hardest. You'll feel sadness, and grief, and be so overcome with emotions you'll feel like you could die. Let me tell you, you won't. This sounds cliche but it will get better. It's been a year, and I am completely happy again. That year was the hardest of my life, I felt like I was sleep walking, not really living. You learn that you have multiple homes, which are not necessary buildings. My mom for example, is my home. My first apartment, that I decorated all by myself and sheltered me during the hardest part of my life, is my home. The coffee shop I work at, is my home. The track field, where I spent hours running, is my home. The house, my boyfriend and I rent is our home, where we want to start out lives. Home isn't a single place, its the feelings, and memories associated with something. Home is a feeling of love, and you can feel that anywhere. The feeling isn't buried under the house you left, It follows you, and sometimes falls a little behind, but don't worry, it'll catch up soon.
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Julia Edwards You write beautifully, this was such a great comment!
Oh God. It would absolutely tear me apart to burn all of my old stuff. I'm such a memory hoarder. I have so many notebooks from my 3-8 grade stuff. (it's mostly like old art and journals). Even old notes from my old friends who I don't talk to anymore.
I just could never see myself throwing it away because it's such a big part of me.
This video felt like it gave me a big family hug in a way. You can literally picture so easily the joy that happened in that house years ago. When she was talking about Alice come ing around and music in the summer. And the convos you're having is JUST SO WARMING I LOVE THE CLARKS
i actually started crying a bit when you put that box on the fire. that was so strong of you. i honestly don't think i could have done that.
i'm really fuckin sentimental too, stemming from a breakdown i had in high school where i buried all of my journals from age 6-15. biggest regret of my life. i feel like those memories are gone forever - even though i know the ones that really are important will always stick around in my head, it's hard to let go of the little things. letting go and moving on is a legitimate skill, and it gives me hope and makes me proud to see you getting better at it.
You are so much stronger than you think my friend. I honestly can't believe you threw that box on the fire, I'm not sure if I could have. But you know what, at the end of the day .. it's just stuff. You will forever have the memories. You don't need to physically have something in your hands to be able to think about the way it made you feel or the place where it was from. Home to me isn't 4 walls and a roof, it's the place where the people you love are that make you feel safe and warm xx
im sorry doddle. we all know how sentimental you are
samantha esther yes, yet we love our oddle
Hedy is so intelligent and aware and just so good at wording things?? You must be such a proud big sister lol
I absolutely am!
well done for getting this vedif up, I thought you wouldn't, and I'm proud of you❤
erin damn right
I just microwaved some toothpaste and my whole house smells like mint and my dad is coming back soon heLP
ofstarsandplanets omg
ofstarsandplanets why
ofstarsandplanets you just need to open all the windows and doors in your house so the smell goes away... and why did you do it and is it safe cause I want to try it so bad :D
How are you stupid enough to microwave toothpaste,,,why would you do that,,,I feel bad for your dad.
ofstarsandplanets - just fart a lot and hope they are all really smelly - should do for a cover up job :-) Blame the dog afterwards. Wot you have no dog - there's a floor in this plan - I've just fallen through it. Hahahaha
I feel like losing your childhood home is similar to kicking out all of the stable support out from under you. Like, you spend years learning and growing off of memories and experiences in that one house, and suddenly that place is gone.
yea even if you don't live there anymore so it's no longer your primary physical support the memories emotions just smash you
Cassidy Meow its like throwing away everything you've known and all that you've become familiar with
i went through this last year. lived in the same house for twelve years, since i was three. it was all i knew and then i moved across the country leaving behind all these memories and friends, a city i loved and a house i literally grew up in and it was the most painful thing i've ever had to do.
The emotions you get are mostly based around what your childhood was like. I had a shit childhood. I was getting bullied all the time and stuff like that so when I moved I was actually happy because that house and that town were filled with unhappy memories. To be honest my only good memories there were the birth of my sister, every time I was getting a good grade (I loved getting good grades) and the times me and my family were visiting monuments and stuff outside my town. The reason I was (a bit) sad when I moved was because I didn't just move to another town, I moved to another country so me and my family had to adapt to a diffrent lifestyle, diffrent culture, diffrent people and a diffrent language.
Cassidy Meow I lived in my old home for just about 70% of my life. We moved out when I was about 10 and I honestly didn't care? Idk i didn't have many friends. But it was a huge house that was in the middle of nowhere and it had a huge forest behind it and I loved it. It was full of deer and animal shit but I loved it. I miss the smell of the summer nights when I could see the stars clearly. It was amazing and I would love to live there again but I love living in the city more than nowhere.
i've been thinking about stuff like this for quite a while, i'm a super nostalgic person as well and i'm almost 19 years old and have grown up in the same house for 18 of those. i'm a trans kid and my dad is SUPER not accepting of the lgbt community and im about to transition medically, and i have no idea how he's going to react to that, so my mum and i are worried we'll have to move out? it's making me a real mess LOL
but yeah, i really relate to this video, even though the circumstances aren't the same. i'm sorry you have to say goodbye but glad you have such a supportive and wonderful family to talk with about it!!
I wish you the best of luck with your transition and your future!
Winslow Baril yes! all the best! it will be hard but you will get through it :)
Winslow Baril hey! I'm also trans and a painfully nostalgic person too. ❤️ I've had to throw the majority of my childhood things away or give them to charity because we're moving soon, it's honestly devastating :( I've lived here my whole life (nearly 21 years) and the thought of leaving is crushing me.
I'm sorry about your dad :( my dad is supportive, but before he found out I was convinced he'd disown me because he is very bigoted and had said horrible things about trans people in the past. Maybe your dad will surprise you like mine did? Sometimes, when it's your kid it opens your eyes. Fingers crossed for you my friend.
TJACWatch aw man!! throwing stuff out from childhood is the worst ): but kudos to you for being strong through it even if its hard af
and unfortunately ive come out to my dad already and he has just sort of... denied that im trans? its really strange tbh, he probably thinks its a phase, but medically transitioning will change that !! thank u for ur kind words 💖 im glad you have a supportive family!!
Winslow Baril Good luck with everything. Don't stop being yourself. I hope everything will go well. ❤
your mum is so cool!
she's also a savage
astrid and hedy are gold i hope they'll be in some videos in the future
gold? more like dodie yellow
This reminded me of "Thank You little room you served me well." I didn't think you were over dramatic, I would be a wreck as well , because there are so many memories in a home . ❤️
I understand this to a point and I understand getting rid of things but I don't think I could ever get rid of certain pictures and notebooks from my childhood and from school like she did in the fire. That just is a little crazy. I want to look back to my notebooks and see what I was like in the future... She's strong for doing this. I bet a weight was definitely lifted.
alright whimsical Hedy is back with great perspective and thoughtful thoughts
Having moved 5 times in 8 years to 4 differed states, I can relate
Jacketeer : idk i have moved around 12 times in my life and really do not care anymore...all my memories lost...all my kid toys...idk i feel empty just no emotions
Try moving country's then move 5 times in said country but stop going to school at 13 and work in labor 11 years n counting
ahhh this takes me back to old Doddleoddle vlogs and ved you dont know how much i love this
Just gonna say I LOVE STITCH SO MUCH. So I appreciate you reminding me of him. That movie makes my heart happy.
It's weird that this video came out because I have phases where I think of my old home, and I'm in that phase again. I already made my peace with what happened there, and I'm definitely better off where I am now but I can't help but think about it.
Sometimes I look it up on Realtor websites and go through the pictures. It's so empty and full of natural sunlight, when I moved it was the complete opposite. My wall paper is still in what used to be my bedroom, a lining of pink paper with flowers.
I look around my surroundings now and I always remember how bleak my last few months were over there, over 10 years ago.
I'm so proud that you actually uploaded today even though all this stuff happened to you today. So proud dodie, u da bomb.
your scooter is the cutest thing ever, but dodie i feel like you think you have to defend yourself for feeling nostalgic and sad about saying goodbye when you don't even owe anyone an explanation. it's okay to be sad. it's normal. you associate that house with childhood so obviously it will be hard to part with. keep your head up love!!
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hi dodie, hydrate yourself and take all the time you need and remember self care is always important. And it's also okay to be emotional sometimes, you are not in any way dramatic.
This goes out to everyone as well, be sure to always remember this💙💫
Lily N Rose I know this wasn't really for me but I really needed this, thank you x
this is even sadder now that tufty is gone :( i watch this everytime i need a good cry
I never realized how pretty Dodie's eyes are.
When you put the "box of joy" in the fire, my heart dropped as if the gravity of this act just hit me...
Well done for keeping up with VEDIF x
I honestly dread the day my home won't belong to me & my family anymore so So many amazing memories & moments just gone no evidence of it at all. What will hurt the most is there's stuff that was put in the loft when I was a child & onwards that I will just break down with nostalgia when I see it again
I remember having to move away from my childhood home and it was the hardest thing ever. I cried for days knowing I would never be able to go back. I remember I wrote a little note to the people who was going to live their next in my old closet.
That's really sweet. I'll do that if we ever sell our family home
your mum seems so lovely in that she always seems to know when to be straightforward or when to be sympathetic
"there's your childhood, in the skip" ASTRID SNDBJSBSHSB
i really wish i could understand this kind of attachment. I literally kept nothing for more than a few months, and all my childhood books and stories and drawings and school things I binned as soon as I could. I'm really proud you went through this experience and you'll come out a better person on the other side of saying goodbye to all this stuff.
Oh Dodie. I'm sat here crying with you. It's 100% okay to feel every way you're feeling. We're here for you.
I get what you mean, Dodie. Having a certain place that your mind regards as a fixed point in time can be a very comforting mental tether to reality; something you can physically go back to when you just need something to be sure of. It can leave you feeling so lost when it's yanked out from under you. Here's to the future
your mom seems like a great person to be with when you need to talk about something
I understand you, but from a different way (?) I'm a hoarder with memories, the good ones and the ones I want to keep. Mainly with pictures, videos, tickets from movies and random events I go to. I have some pictures and movie and event tickets taped on the side of my shelf, and plan to fill it all up, along with some parts of my wall. I constantly get notifications saying my storage is almost full, and I'm sure it's from all the random photos and videos of my friends and family. Also in my snapchat memories, I save pretty much everything. I take most of my videos and pictures on snapchat so I save them there and it doesn't use up my storage. I have no where else to put the things in my camera roll, and I'm afraid I'm going to use up all my storage, or worse, lose every photo and video I have.
jess ophelia ikr same. I feel like if I delete something I'll lose the memory, especially since I think I have a bad memory on some things. I always feel like I need to record all the fun and funny things that happen in a moment when I'm out doing something.
I recommend that if you're scared of losing them because your storage is full, transfer them onto a memory stick so that you can make more memories. You could even have several copies of the photos and videos on different memory sticks so that if you lose one, you still have them
You can also get google photos!! Unlimited storage if you don't mind that it's not super top quality (basically if it's just jpgs/phone photos they'll be the same quality anyway) and if you download the app it'll auto-update and save everything. Only problem is that first bit where you gotta upload everything you've already got bc it takes ages :)
+Parigi and +abadoodle those are great ideas omg thanks! I'll look into google photos. Thanks it means a lot :) especially since I'm going to a few concerts soon and I wanna record practically the whole thing XD
em :P I kind of understand what you mean I'm constantly trying to get pictures and videos so I remember the memories but then I just end up living through the phone because I'm too worried about trying to save the memories so I'm not actually living in the memory (it's kinda hard to explain)
This made me really sad but proud at how much you've grown *throws strawberry sweets and sachets of wispa hot chocolate*
That was oddly specific and I love it
I was depressed and I started crying while listening to your cover of four five seconds, and listened to all the other sad songs then finally sick of losing soulmates on repeat many times and this went on for an hour. I'm finally done, and I just wanted to say thank you for singing and making me happy, and thanks for being with me throughout my darkest times. I love you. Thank you.
This made me realize how lucky/unlucky I was to move around a lot. I never had a "childhood best friend" or a "childhood home". But then I get really jealous of people who've known each other since they were little, and have that one house to look back at old memories. Then again, I think it's good that I don't cling on to material as I do actual experiences, and I also love how easy it is to take a picture and have it in your phone forever. Idk. I have mixed feelings about it all. At least I get to say I've lived in 3 countries!
You're so open with your Mum, it's lovely to see! Like you just...talk, about the stuff that's bothering you. Please don't underestimate how helpful that can be!
I cried right when the box hit the fire. I struggle with derealization and letting go of the past, etc aswell. I know similarly to how you feel and I would have reacted the same way you did. Let yourself feel Dodie. Love you
next week I'm moving out of the house I've lived in since birth (I'm 18 now) and I'm feeling reeeeeeally shit about it. I remembered this video and came back to watch it and feel a little sense of comfort, or at least that I'm not alone in this situation
Heddy sounds so mature ❤
Dodie : Deep in nostalgia and tears about saying goodbye
Dodies mum: "There`s your childhood..... in the skip"
I LOVE THIS WOMEN ;P
Memories! I remember filming there arghhhhhh everything is changing
I do'nt know why this made me cry! 😭 and i never cry!
WHy am I crying this isn't even my house?? I went and listened to "When" after this as well and it just made me love the song even more (if that's possible). I'm glad you're processing and moving on. Nostalgia can be amazing but it can also be dangerous. Love you Dodie 💕
You should do a cover of "In My Life" by the Beatles. It helped me through similar situations.
I saw "In My Life" and I thought of the version from Les Mis. Lol
Wow, yeah, that song really does pertain to this situation
Bacchus Leto ahh one of my favourite beatles' tune
this was a bloody dreadful video to watch right now, im in my first year of uni and my parents just sold my childhood home so i have to move out of there in the next few weeks. it's happened very quickly and i struggle with change, im a nostalgic person and also was a happy kid. i understand how you feel :-(
thank u
Feel you, I just had to move out from the house I lived during 19 years and parents during 30 years last saturday, it feels like losing a part of your life, like if those years just vanished.
Samantha Karime exactly! we moved last thursday and it's so weird :( hope you feel okay about it soon
i keep coming back to this video and honestly? i could NEVER. my fam and i did move house about two years ago, but i kept my things. and when i move out of here in september, i'll put the things i can't take to london with me. the idea of literally putting these things in a box and burning them and walking away is UNBEARABLE. that takes a lot of strength. the couple who bought our old house broke up and moved out, and since then, it's been empty. so now i can't shake the thought of buying it one day. maybe not even to live in it - although, why not. just to have it. just so it's mine again. because it is! it's my home! i miss it! damnit! - jessie
When my parents divorced I had to say goodbye to so much stuff and no one has really done a genuine video on it so thank you
is her hair flower dodie yellow? strikes me as also also not dodie yellow
what a shouty cat! I relate.
I totally understand the whole "home base" thing. My family want's to move right when I go off to college but then I feel like I won't have anything familiar to come back to and it is so scary. I've lived here for 8 years and it still feels like we JUST moved in and I haven't made enough memories here
I am so actually proud of you for uploading dodie
I don't know why I keep coming back to this video... it's just so homey
You probably aren't reading the comments because they make you upset, but if you're scrolling, please stop. It's important you read this. Literally this past year I've been going through the same thing as well. My parents were getting divorced and we moved out of my dads/childhood house around February 2016. You going through the same thing has eased my pain inexplicably. You talking about this has eased it as well. Yes, it is incredibly difficult saying goodbye to your childhood home, especially if you romanticize the past, but everything will be okay. You'll eventually be romanizing the present (key word: eventually). Anyways, just thank you so much for talking so openly about your nostalgia. It helps a shit ton :)
(also seeing people in the comments section having the same thing to say warms my heart)
musical allison I'm so sorry for u
3:50 YES Dodie. I resonated sooooooo much with that statement! My family moved out of the place I'd called home for the past 10 years of my life back in October, and I was absolutely devastated and terrified. I'd just moved away to college, and already being away from home is hard enough, and then I realized the one place I felt I would ALWAYS have to go back to wasn't mine to go back to anymore. I felt like someone had just pulled a rug out from under me. I felt homeless. I still feel a little homeless. I recorded a ton of video of that house before we sold it to try and keep it with me forever, even though I knew it would never compare to the real thing. I remember crying through it all. I was so lost and upset. The hardest part was leaving my bedroom behind, because it held bookshelves my dad had built for me 10 years ago, but we couldn't take them with us. Horrible feeling to leave those shelves for someone else to use. Change isn't always easy. I'm also very sentimental and I love nostalgia, so I can relate to what you're going through. But, things will get better and easier ❤️ Sorry for the rant!
Dodes, is your Mum as lovely as she sounds?
Absolutely:)
DHE REPLIED UR THE CHOSEN ONE!
It's a shame the internet is such a distant place. Everyone should get to meet those they admire but sadly 'tis not always to be.
This makes me so sad, I'm a really emotional person as well and I literally keep eVERYTHING just for the memories, I'm only 16 at the time but I really feel like if I throw them away I just won't be able to remember the happy times I had when those letters, drawings, etc. were done and it scares me, change scares me a lot and I know I'll have to throw them away at some point, I can't keep collecting every single thing and as time goes by it will be harder and harder to let them go but I'm not ready, not yet.
Also, I lived at an apartment for the first 15 years of my life but idk, it stopped feeling like home since I was like 12 which kinda sucks because I haven't felt like I've had a home for the past 4 years of my life and stuff but also, I guess that if my dad who still lives in that apartment I grew up in ever moves out, at least it won't be as hurtful, at this point I think I'll cry more when I leave my amazing highschool than when I leave any current house
I just want to hug her so badly
I am incredibly proud of you Dodie. I watched this , you burning the notebooks, getting rid of lanyards and stuff and I realised how much stuff I have. I find it so hard. I crave a minimalist bedroom that has space to breathe but I can't bring myself to do it. I can barely throw out pens that I've had for years let alone get rid of old toys I don't use or old mementos. It's hard and I'm proud of you as a fellow sentimentalist to be able to do this. Tears are allowed.
I recently listened to "little room" again and I cried. I don't know why as I'm not moving out or anything and I know when it happens it won't be as bad because I've moved a lot throughout my life. However it's the idea of your heart being attached to objects , and I hate my reliance on objects to remember and find joy.
Dodie you bring me joy. Love you x
2:30 OMG DODIE WOT R U DOING I FELT UR PAIN I'M SORRY UR SO BRAVE
Sophie Stedman sorry this is irrelevant but what's your pfp from? I've seen so many people with the same one
I love Dan and Phil my two beautiful fathers lol if I'm correct, it was about a video that Pewds uploaded to make people moderators and he jokingly said if you don't have that picture then you're not worthy enough
I love Dan and Phil my two beautiful fathers if you're asking about the girl doing the muscle thing, it's Mugi from the anime K-ON!
haha np, it was a weird thing PewDiePie was doing, where you had to change your pfp to this :P I think it's a sort of anime thing, can't say I'm very knowledgeable of it though :)
Oh okay thanks guys haha
aww dodie you were so brave doing this! well done for actually facing it all. xx
thank you little room, you've served me well.
Solar NO I LITERALLY JUST STOPPED CRYING AND NOW I'M THINKING OF THAT SONG AND I STARTED CRYING AGAIN
You say a home is a place that makes you feel comfortable, loved and calm but I believe that it is you family that do all of those things so home is wherever your family is, don't be afraid dodie it will all work out 😘😘💛
I feel like dodie's mum in the car is all of her audience rn
watching this made me think of the condo i lived in as a toddler to about 5. watching the original toy story and just being with my mom on rainy days were amazing. i know i'll have to throw out all my old childhood stuff i've actually kept one day. i can't keep everything, it makes me cry a lot, but i can't hoard everything i love.
Memories are fun but the prospect of creating memories is so much more fun.
I feel pretty much the same way about saying goodbye to the past. You are so strong for doing this, Dodie xx
Holy shit that entire box!! oh my god
I could totally understand your sadness. I had to move house about 3 to 4 years ago. Until now I still find it hard to stop calling it home . Luckily my parents didnt sell it so I still come back home whenever I feel lonely and need someone to back me up. Remember my words. no matter what, our home is always our haven. at least it is for me.
well done for staying strong!
isn't it weird, just to see a house like that, just empty without the furniture and decor and photos, all the memories. I have recently been helping my family move stuff out of my grandpas house (he passed recently) and it's just so weird because the house was always so full and warm but now seeing it empty with everything gone it's so weird it's so open and dark, at first I was very sad ( I still am) I'm saying goodbye to a huge part of my childhood, but now as I write this in this moment I realize, it's just a house, a shell, it's what's inside that matters, and we're whats inside, my family marked that place forever. we made it a home. so it's just a house, but all the marks, dents, scratches, stickers, that's what made it a home. and now we get to do it again, find another house and turn it into a home.
Dodes I'm having a bad day 😕💕
FairylightsandUkulele 💖💖💖 hope tomorrows better
FairylightsandUkelele same, I was good, but now...
+*fairly local* same I hope it gets better for you fren
+whatisgoingonwithdodieandjontellmethanks thank you 💕
+JoJo Moose I hope it gets better
I need more videos with older Hedy!! I love her so much oml!
Heddy is so insightful
this video is partly relatable to me bc i am so attached to possessions because they ground me when i dissociate (or i pretend they do so I have a reason to keep them) but also.. people in the comments are talking about childhood homes and I can't even imagine how difficult it must be to leave that behind because ive moved around once every 3 years if you average out my life lmao
you are so strong to do this.
I too left my childhood home.... this video hurt to watch because it brought back the memories of leaving the home i thought would never leave. No matter how long i live in this new house it'll never be my h o m e
Dear Dodie, everything is going to be tickettyboo :)
i actually cried while watching this because it reminded me when my nan had to move out from her beautiful cottage. i had the best childhood there. the cottage was so pretty, there was sheep in the field next to it, an outstanding forest with horses in the field next to a old fashioned mansion. when she had to leave (they wanted to knock her cottage into the one which backed onto it and make it into a house, and because she rented she has no choice). but that was my second home. it's so sad and all but these things happen ❤️
Fucking well done, Dodie. Honestly, good on you. That's all I can say.
this video made me realize in a few years i'm going to have to leave the house i grew up in. unless something drastic happens, i'll have lived here for a total of 18 years. all my life. i love it so much. worst part is when i move out so are my parents as they'll be moving as well (we already own the house they'll live in)
not only that but this video made me motivated to go through "the box." the box is a shoebox full of memories of my grandparents who are gone now, but i loved them. so many memories of them.
thank you, dodie.
I feel her so much. the fire tho'.. I just wouldn't be able to do it.
I totally know how you feel Dodie. The first time I moved houses, from the place I'd lived my whole life to somewhere completely new with new members of my family (step-mother and brother) it felt like a loss, but since moving out of that house and into my own place it feels so much like this amazing gift of freedom.
I'm glad I said goodbye to that place so long ago, but I also look forward to my home that I have now, and the homes I'm going to create for myself in the future.