Omg what nostalgia. I’ve been there since you’re very beginning and was with you through your hardships. Makes me so happy to see you doing so well and overcoming grief and everything thrown your way so young. You’re still beautiful as ever and this made my day seeing you!
Out of all you videos over the years this might be the one I relate to the most ! This year I have decided to start showing up for myself. Stop the bullshit. Stop the whining. Show up. Live your freaking life. Thank you Sara ❤ you are a good friend ❤ and you got this !!
dont be so hard on yourself! even through the darkest times of your life you managed to shed light and radiate joy to many of us! here to support you however version of yourself you present
Found a lot of cobwebs on my plant the day before and I instantly thought of some random video of yours from forever ago when you found the biggest colony of tiny spiders/ mites in your plant and had a meltdown but then took care of it! Anyone else remember that haha So, it was very random to see you upload the next day, as it's been sooo long since I watched your stuff! You're looking great hunnn, can't wait to catch up!
I'm feeling like a kid that just returned to a place where she calls "home" for 10 years now. After spending struggling years of academics, masters, phd, etc. Finally found an older shoulder to lean a little while. Both in happiness and hardship. Hello again my beloved beautiful friend Sara. Nice to see you again. I feel so welcomed. 💞 and to add - H.G. Wells' Time Machine is my fav, also really love the movie
im so glad this video was recommended to me, i used to watch your videos years ago when i was probably 14/15 and i remember wanting to be just like you because of how confident you were and how secure you were in yourself. im also in a dark place right now but youre right - you dont have to stay there forever. im excited to watch your videos again! i hope you feel better soon and can see yourself how we see you!
I have been silently watching for years. I don't think I have ever commented. I have always been drawn to your videos because you are so authentic. I appreciate your openness and vulnerability now and over the years. Your channel reminds me so much of the older style of YT creators, and not the fake overproduced content that is common now. I truly hope you find joy in everything you do and find a way to sustain yourself financially in a healthy way.
Love the title! I am also trying to change the way I have been thinking lately, plant some new seeds, undo some programming. I feel like I have been going backwards in the last few years, lol. However, I really can’t stress enough how much your advice has helped me. Thank you for being real, as always. I am looking forward to whatever you post.
Been thinking of you. So happy you seen family and you look more present in the now. You've reached a higher perspective of yourself and that is a beautiful thing ❤️🩷 we love you so so much.
So proud of your self reflection journey! I think we’re around the same age and it’s cool to also hear your own realisations. I am also at a stage of realising all my excuses. Can’t wait for more evolution. On or off camera!
"I'm a grief jerky stick" *smirk* 😭😂 Crazy how in a matter of minutes it feels like no time has passed, yet also like a lot has passed. Your true influence hasn't faded through absence, the real ones are happy that you now see your life as yours and not an audience's. Much lovee Sara❤❤
Girl, I’ve been watching you since forever!!! Like OMG I can’t believe you grew up and I grew up. It’s a good reminder tho, being sad and in limbo, I literally in sabbatical and feeling so so “stuck”, what the hell im gonna do, I live in this beautiful island, and i need to do something, but im so tried and sad and I don’t want to do what everybody doing!!!! Ughhh you just say it all. Being vulnerable like REAL vulnerable is so rare right now, talking about failure and stuckness.
Radical acceptance and self parenting myself has been the most healing experience. You don’t need to evolve or grow and constantly check yourself. It’s unbecoming of all the stuff’. Any negative emotion is usually rooted in shame 🥺 and we need to nurture and affirm ourselves when no one else does.
I really needed this video. I feel the exact same way!! My father passed away in a very traumatic way and I haven’t moved on from that pain. I was a bubbly happy person and then became a sad pessimistic person. I’m still learning to fight it. But I definitely felt every word you said 🤍🤍
You taught me how to do makeup when I was a little girl form your channel. I’d rewatch it almost every morning. All of a sudden you popped up on my feed again and I’m 24 now. I love the universe.
Soooo good to see you again…and good friends can always just pick up from where they left off…so about that book you were reading…the Time Machine…tell me more☀️🌻🦋
Saraaaaaa!! I’m sooooo happy to see you’re back! And I’m excited for this new phase you’re entering/entered in and what’s to come for the future. I completely relate to needing to evolve and move past sadness/negativity and the narratives that we continuously tell ourselves that keep us in this state of being and feeling stuck, unable to move forward. I’m working towards changing this, very slowly tho, I have my good days and my not so good days. So glad you’re back ! I hope you have a wonderful day and week. Take care Sara✨🌷💖
Wow. I haven’t seen one of your videos pop up in so long. Have been subscribed for years, & Throughout the years I’ve always checked or tuned in randomly just to see how things were going. It’s always nice to see youre still around
I remember your video where there's mites on the plants and you don't want to deal with it and I just sometimes go back to that and watch it to know, its okay to feel and be scared as long as you keep trying and persevere.
there’s no need for you to apologize, as much as you may feel like you do. i’ve been watching you since i was like 14 and ive always loved how real you are. you show your humanity in such an authentic way, which is unfortunately rare. the world needs more people like you to see that it’s ok to show your authentic self. but it’s really hard to embody that when you’re suffering. you need to put YOU first. we all need breaks sometimes, or lots of times if that’s what your mind body and soul needs. i can really relate to a lot of what you’re saying, especially with deciding to not allow depression to consume you. it’s a hard fucking pill to swallow, but it’s true depression can become so comfortable and the only way to stop it is to decide to get in the drivers seat of your life again, instead of just being a passenger. i’m so glad you’re making these shifts within yourself because it’s not easy to do, to say the least. anybody who has the right intentions wouldn’t at all be disappointed in you for taking breaks. i’m just glad you’re ok.
My dear, sweet friend ☕️ it’s wild as women, we try so hard to teach and tell our secrets to our daughters but, just like explaining God… it’s personal We must seek to find. Finding what someone else found doesn’t feel good. Best part, when we do blow our own mind… it can’t be shared as ez as we think!! I feel like I’ve found all the secrets of life… but “telling others” just doesn’t work like we want it to. I’d love to “speak freely” on my channel 🙄 but I don’t either, really 🤷🏼♀️ bcz The Light shines with or without me 🙌🏽 and the internet isn’t really real, so I am happy to be a vessel that allows the Light to shine through. If someone catches a ray, I am happy. Just continue to be true to yourself and free. You are young, gorgeous and brilliant inside and out ✨ I’ve watched you grow from afar and always wish you Love and Light, beautiful Sara 💜🦋💜🫶🏼
I remember you from years ago, and tbh girl I needed you. I needed someone who was crying and talking about feelings! You made me feel like I wasn’t alone and I thank you for that hunni! And looking at you now! Wooo! Looking amazing hun ! X you got this
I think we’re just happy you’re safe and happy. I’m still so blessed to follow your journey through all these years and will always continue to. You are incredibly inspiring. Take your time, you will always have us ❤️
I just missed you Sara. Your such a special human being. You should find ways to find more solitude and come back stronger than ever and be more creative and share it with us. A lot of times it is all a mind game we have in our mind. I love who you are and you are so beautiful , inside and out. Keep healing and being yourself.
I’m so happy to see you’re back and doing well! I have always been drawn to you and your videos over the last 5-6 years because you just seem so real and that is very uncommon nowadays. You owe no one nothing. We love you!!
Hi, I just wanted to tell you that you impacted my life indirectly in ways you don't even know. I found your your TH-cam channel in 2017, but in 2018 I checked your Soundcloud and found an artist on one of your playlists who is now one of my best friends and a collaborator of mine. 2 years later, I reached out and we made my favorite song which is now the standout song of my debut album which will be coming out this year. If you hadn't posted, the friendship and the song would not exist. Thank you for everything.
Dear Sara it’s only normal to go through all the ups n downs in life over n over again 😂We all go through what u go through too, just keep sharing your true story that’s more than - enough❤️ you don’t need to prove anything or to anyone always remember that👍
I’m so happy to see you, I was getting worried! Please don’t think that sharing your grief is burdening us in any way. You’re one of (if not my favorite) TH-camrs because you share the good, bad and ugly experiences which makes you relatable (at least to me)! Your channel is like a digital time capsule of your personality and I just think that’s so cool and makes your channel unique. Blessings and good vibes to you!
Oh Sara. You never have to feel obliged towards us. Never post a video if you feel like you have to. Post one when you genuinely want to. We don't mind when or how often you post. We just like seeing your face and hearing you speak. But there needs to be a separation between your own life and your online life. But we'll always be here bestie even if you take time off ❤
MISS SARA IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH 🥹😭 glad to see you upload a video and know that you’re doing well 🫶🏼♥️thank you so much for always venting to us, it is such a special bond that i don't feel with any other youtuber except you 🥲❤
literally had aphids on my plants and freaked out and remembered you from 2017!!!!!! i had to google “youtube girl aphids make up tutorials” and somehow it worked lmaooo. so happy to have found you and learned that you’re still posting! ☺️
Sara don't put so much pressure on yourself. The goofy fun loving Sara is still there but we can't feel like that all the time as humans we have ups and downs and we just have to feel it to heal it as they say doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you. I've recently lost my beautiful pet and my god is the grief killing me but then I came across the quote grief is only love persisting with it no where to go.
After my mum died suddenly i totally lost myself for a few years, but getting into gardening in 2020 was the miracle that dragged me out of that hole!! I was then able to retrain in a new field of work in 2022, and thankfully now i'm thriving and more excited for life's possibilities then ever 💞
The first ever video I watched of Sara's was the one about dealing with acne. That was years ago when I was in the lowest point of my life. I then watched almost all her vids, especially her long talking videos, I'd watch them all intently. I watched her go through tragedies and still kept going. It felt like watching a friend through her highs and lows. Life for me changed (fortunately for the bettee) and I also no longer had time to watch videos, but I'd still come back now and then to Sara's channel, just to make sure she's okay. I'm across the world from you Sara and we may never meet, but you have a well-wisher in me.
hey sara, I just wanted to say that when you said you felt like a walking piece of grief.. I relate really hard. I was also one of those people that based their art and creativity purely on negative and heartbreaking moments that occurred to me. It's actually crazy, because so much time has passed but that loss of creativity and trying to find that motivation to purse something that genuinely used to improve and give life meaning won't return to me in the way(s) that it once did. Removing yourself from something after its long expired is tough, but you're doing great sara. you don't even realize it. through those moments of disruption and uncomfortable emotions, i pray you remember that spark and authenticity is still within you. don't give up on you ♥
I just want to say thank you for being aware and calling yourself out! I’ve been watching you for the past 8 years and you’re the only person that truly gotten me through some dark times. What I’m trying to say is it’s okay to take a break and reset and come back! We all have our days/months but the fact that you can call yourself out and actually do something about it truly makes a difference. I’ve been here for the past 8 years and honestly I don’t plan to go anywhere even if you go months without posting. I’m glad that you’re back and you’re doing it because you enjoy it and not because of money because a lot of times this is what happens with TH-cam. I’m so happy you’re coming back and talking about real things. I’ll always be here watching!💗
Oh myyyy.. Missed u soooo much sara. Please stay safe and positive, take care of your soul&body and ur beautiful plants and pets❤️ love u so much kiss kiss
It sounds like you might've been depressed, you were hurting and grieving - don't beat yourself up. I feel like I'm just becoming myself after almost 10 years! the cycle of up and downs (mostly down tbh) after a loss, taking antidepressants etc, I'm in therapy now and I'm so much better. I haven't seen your videos in few years... and now It just popped on my wall and I feel like I had to say it. I'm glad you have a new mindset, keep it up girl, you're awesome
hey. So, i've been subbed to you for like 7-8 years now. We're pretty much the same age, too. In a lot of your videos i feel like there's some sort of experience you've had that i could relate to. In this one you said that you've felt like a walking grief jerky stick and I honestly relate to that so hard. About 5 years ago now my best friend passed really tragically and suddenly and i genuinely began feeling like my entire identity was about that. I was no longer "jessica. "and i was just carrying death and sadness on my shoulders. Heavily. I started to forget about myself and be really hard on myself, too. I was so cruel to myself i couldn't imagine saying the shit i said to myself to another human being. Tbh, I think i was scared to heal from that and everything else that hurt me in life because I've known darkness for so long and i guess there was a comfort in its familiarity. If i was happy at any point i'd start to panic that something bad was going to happen or someone else was going to die. So, i allowed misery to be my identity because i knew it sooo well and it was easier to accept than to fear. But i missed who i was. I loved to draw, and sing, and write and dance. I lost so much of myself and missing it hurt just as much as the grief did. And when i realized how much time had passed, i realized i was grieving myself, too. I also realized how much social media and scrolling took over my life. Especially doom scrolling on tiktok, holy shit man. Downloading that right at the peak of my grief nerfed me so hard. I didn't realize how hard i was chasing those dopamine blasts till they weren't as blinding. That comfort zone of misery started to choke me out and there was nowhere to go but out. And then i learned about radical forgiveness. Of myself and others. Funny enough it was easier to forgive myself than it was to forgive others. I ended up reconnecting with who i was before death showed me such grief. Back when i was a carefree teenager with no smothering expectations that were placed on me by myself or others. I had to go back to who i was before i was prescribing a life to myself based on standards of "success" and "money." It was remembering her, a version of myself that was truest to her heart and soul that set something inside me on fire. I could combine her passion with my wisdom, and security. It took such determination, trust and confidence in myself to not succumb to darkness or superficial numbers/success it started to overwhelm me. If i wasn't pulling teeth to stay focused then i'd slip. I wondered if it was going to be that hard forever. But still, I was carrying the pressure of 'healing' and 'doing right by myself' so heavily. i had to lighten the way I carried myself. I had to start saying "It's okay, girl. It's not that deep. Relax. "Any time i'd mess up and feel that failure. I had to be my own friend again. Just like my actual best friend would be with me. That part takes consistency, but it's a lot easier to be kind to myself than it is to carry the world on my shoulders. Every day isn't as easy as breathing, but i feel lighter. I feel like each day i walk towards life and who i want to be in this little life. I'm glad to see you're also doing what you are to be true to yourself. Love u always
Just finished your video. You have inspired me in so many ways every year since your channel started. You're the best friend i wish i had. I know you will keep on inspiring me. You are amazing ❤
somatic therapy helps me and nervous system work. dont put yourself down for all the feels. they need to be released. but exactly what you are saying too changing the narrative and the words we use and the thinking we have.
DAMN I haven’t seen you in YEARS! Im talking like 6-7 years ago?? Wishing you the best. Are you where I got “don’t harsh my mellow” from? Cuz I still use that to this day. Wishing you the best!
Don’t ever think anything you have to say is unoriginal and has been said a million times before, we love hearing you speak your mind. You could teach us how to put socks on and make it interesting just because its you. Speak your mind and be creative and have fun on here, you shine when you do!
I’m in a crossroad currently , when I get like this I embrace change, new furniture new hair , new skills, new locations, new media, altering my being to see who I am fundamentally without the labels society and me put on the I… on the surface we are the behaviors we repeat, now on the inside I don’t have the words yet
we've missed you! but taking time to reset/recharge is one of the most important things you could possibly do for yourself. just want to make sure you are still alive and well. ❤️
So proud of you and your journey of self reflection! Putting yourself first and actually finding joy in what you do is so important. You truly don’t need to apologize for anything. We’ll always be here wishing you the best no matter how often or not-so-often you post. Sending you love, my friend ❤️ (p.s. “grief jerky stick” just about kiIIed me 🤣🤣🤣)
Sara idk if you’ll see this but like a lot of ppl in these comments I’ve been following you YEARS and instantly was gravitated to your words and talent. I needed this today feeling sorry for myself, hating we’re im at in life, feeling like you’re in the hot seat all the time. My point is , is yes we all go through hardships in life , it’s how we deal with them tho that we get out of it and not stay stagnant. I needed your kind words especially what you said at the end of the video. 🥹so thank you. You’ll always have my support and I can’t wait til we both get out of this gloomy cloud in our head making us not see the sun shine and rainbows on the other side. But thank you again you came back just at the right time. Looking forward to more videos ❤️🩹
I remember subscribing to you when I was in high school simply because you were the first person I knew to spell their name Sara like me, (plus you're absolutely gorgeous) And I kept coming back to your channel whenever I felt I needed to recharge. I am in the same boat, feeling like I need to reignite my originality and re-spark my passions again after being so 'swayed with the wind'. I am happy to see you evolve and doing well :) Please remember that we like to watch your videos because we like your mind and whatever it comes up with, never really about the content... Never feel pressured to talk about trendy stuff. We've been here for YOU
I’m a graphic designer and i feel the same and i feel stuck in the same place and it got me really depressed and couldnt get put of that mindset. And now that I’m struggling to get jobs It’s dificult but we are more than just what we do for living i guess that is the point
Been a whileeeee, been watching for 7 years and every time you reappear its still exciting lmao. Glad to hear you're doing well! ❤
Same here lol
Omg what nostalgia. I’ve been there since you’re very beginning and was with you through your hardships. Makes me so happy to see you doing so well and overcoming grief and everything thrown your way so young. You’re still beautiful as ever and this made my day seeing you!
Out of all you videos over the years this might be the one I relate to the most ! This year I have decided to start showing up for myself. Stop the bullshit. Stop the whining. Show up. Live your freaking life.
Thank you Sara ❤ you are a good friend ❤ and you got this !!
dont be so hard on yourself! even through the darkest times of your life you managed to shed light and radiate joy to many of us! here to support you however version of yourself you present
Found a lot of cobwebs on my plant the day before and I instantly thought of some random video of yours from forever ago when you found the biggest colony of tiny spiders/ mites in your plant and had a meltdown but then took care of it! Anyone else remember that haha
So, it was very random to see you upload the next day, as it's been sooo long since I watched your stuff! You're looking great hunnn, can't wait to catch up!
YES!!!! thats so funny you mentioned that because it really stuck with me too
The level of self awareness you have…..i wish someone i knew had this level.
I'm feeling like a kid that just returned to a place where she calls "home" for 10 years now. After spending struggling years of academics, masters, phd, etc. Finally found an older shoulder to lean a little while. Both in happiness and hardship. Hello again my beloved beautiful friend Sara. Nice to see you again. I feel so welcomed. 💞
and to add - H.G. Wells' Time Machine is my fav, also really love the movie
im so glad this video was recommended to me, i used to watch your videos years ago when i was probably 14/15 and i remember wanting to be just like you because of how confident you were and how secure you were in yourself. im also in a dark place right now but youre right - you dont have to stay there forever. im excited to watch your videos again! i hope you feel better soon and can see yourself how we see you!
I have been silently watching for years. I don't think I have ever commented. I have always been drawn to your videos because you are so authentic. I appreciate your openness and vulnerability now and over the years. Your channel reminds me so much of the older style of YT creators, and not the fake overproduced content that is common now. I truly hope you find joy in everything you do and find a way to sustain yourself financially in a healthy way.
Love the title! I am also trying to change the way I have been thinking lately, plant some new seeds, undo some programming. I feel like I have been going backwards in the last few years, lol. However, I really can’t stress enough how much your advice has helped me. Thank you for being real, as always. I am looking forward to whatever you post.
Been thinking of you. So happy you seen family and you look more present in the now. You've reached a higher perspective of yourself and that is a beautiful thing ❤️🩷 we love you so so much.
So proud of your self reflection journey! I think we’re around the same age and it’s cool to also hear your own realisations.
I am also at a stage of realising all my excuses. Can’t wait for more evolution. On or off camera!
"I'm a grief jerky stick" *smirk* 😭😂
Crazy how in a matter of minutes it feels like no time has passed, yet also like a lot has passed. Your true influence hasn't faded through absence, the real ones are happy that you now see your life as yours and not an audience's. Much lovee Sara❤❤
Girl, I’ve been watching you since forever!!! Like OMG I can’t believe you grew up and I grew up. It’s a good reminder tho, being sad and in limbo, I literally in sabbatical and feeling so so “stuck”, what the hell im gonna do, I live in this beautiful island, and i need to do something, but im so tried and sad and I don’t want to do what everybody doing!!!! Ughhh you just say it all. Being vulnerable like REAL vulnerable is so rare right now, talking about failure and stuckness.
Nothing can harsh your mellow Sara! Especially if you smile at a butterfly 😊🦋 ~ loved that! 🥰~~~~Sending much love from Washington State 🌲❤️
Radical acceptance and self parenting myself has been the most healing experience. You don’t need to evolve or grow and constantly check yourself. It’s unbecoming of all the stuff’. Any negative emotion is usually rooted in shame 🥺 and we need to nurture and affirm ourselves when no one else does.
“I was playing victim, I was making victims “ I love that 😂❤
I love you so much 💖 You are always analyzing yourself to evolve, I admire you a lot Sara
I really needed this video. I feel the exact same way!! My father passed away in a very traumatic way and I haven’t moved on from that pain. I was a bubbly happy person and then became a sad pessimistic person. I’m still learning to fight it. But I definitely felt every word you said 🤍🤍
You taught me how to do makeup when I was a little girl form your channel. I’d rewatch it almost every morning. All of a sudden you popped up on my feed again and I’m 24 now. I love the universe.
Soooo good to see you again…and good friends can always just pick up from where they left off…so about that book you were reading…the Time Machine…tell me more☀️🌻🦋
Saraaaaaa!! I’m sooooo happy to see you’re back! And I’m excited for this new phase you’re entering/entered in and what’s to come for the future. I completely relate to needing to evolve and move past sadness/negativity and the narratives that we continuously tell ourselves that keep us in this state of being and feeling stuck, unable to move forward. I’m working towards changing this, very slowly tho, I have my good days and my not so good days.
So glad you’re back ! I hope you have a wonderful day and week. Take care Sara✨🌷💖
Thank you for this gift Sara. I love you so much. I missed you and your vibrations. - Lennie
I'm so happy to see you Sara, I hope you feel better and continue being our soul mother, because I missed you.
Wow. I haven’t seen one of your videos pop up in so long. Have been subscribed for years, & Throughout the years I’ve always checked or tuned in randomly just to see how things were going. It’s always nice to see youre still around
I remember your video where there's mites on the plants and you don't want to deal with it and I just sometimes go back to that and watch it to know, its okay to feel and be scared as long as you keep trying and persevere.
Perfect divine synchronicity!! Im sooooooo happy to see yo face!!!!!!! Much love from Montreal, Canada!
there’s no need for you to apologize, as much as you may feel like you do. i’ve been watching you since i was like 14 and ive always loved how real you are. you show your humanity in such an authentic way, which is unfortunately rare. the world needs more people like you to see that it’s ok to show your authentic self. but it’s really hard to embody that when you’re suffering. you need to put YOU first. we all need breaks sometimes, or lots of times if that’s what your mind body and soul needs. i can really relate to a lot of what you’re saying, especially with deciding to not allow depression to consume you. it’s a hard fucking pill to swallow, but it’s true depression can become so comfortable and the only way to stop it is to decide to get in the drivers seat of your life again, instead of just being a passenger. i’m so glad you’re making these shifts within yourself because it’s not easy to do, to say the least. anybody who has the right intentions wouldn’t at all be disappointed in you for taking breaks. i’m just glad you’re ok.
My dear, sweet friend ☕️ it’s wild as women, we try so hard to teach and tell our secrets to our daughters but, just like explaining God… it’s personal We must seek to find. Finding what someone else found doesn’t feel good. Best part, when we do blow our own mind… it can’t be shared as ez as we think!! I feel like I’ve found all the secrets of life… but “telling others” just doesn’t work like we want it to. I’d love to “speak freely” on my channel 🙄 but I don’t either, really 🤷🏼♀️ bcz The Light shines with or without me 🙌🏽 and the internet isn’t really real, so I am happy to be a vessel that allows the Light to shine through. If someone catches a ray, I am happy. Just continue to be true to yourself and free. You are young, gorgeous and brilliant inside and out ✨ I’ve watched you grow from afar and always wish you Love and Light, beautiful Sara 💜🦋💜🫶🏼
You dont owe us anything! Take your time!!
I remember you from years ago, and tbh girl I needed you. I needed someone who was crying and talking about feelings! You made me feel like I wasn’t alone and I thank you for that hunni! And looking at you now! Wooo! Looking amazing hun ! X you got this
I think we’re just happy you’re safe and happy. I’m still so blessed to follow your journey through all these years and will always continue to. You are incredibly inspiring. Take your time, you will always have us ❤️
I love your humor so much. You're hilarious you made me laugh in this a lot
You’re amazing, beautiful Sara! Always rooting for you ❤❤❤ Sending you love and many warm wishes 😊
I just missed you Sara. Your such a special human being. You should find ways to find more solitude and come back stronger than ever and be more creative and share it with us. A lot of times it is all a mind game we have in our mind. I love who you are and you are so beautiful , inside and out. Keep healing and being yourself.
I’m so happy to see you’re back and doing well! I have always been drawn to you and your videos over the last 5-6 years because you just seem so real and that is very uncommon nowadays. You owe no one nothing. We love you!!
Thank you for staying strong. Heart is full ❤
Hi, I just wanted to tell you that you impacted my life indirectly in ways you don't even know. I found your your TH-cam channel in 2017, but in 2018 I checked your Soundcloud and found an artist on one of your playlists who is now one of my best friends and a collaborator of mine. 2 years later, I reached out and we made my favorite song which is now the standout song of my debut album which will be coming out this year. If you hadn't posted, the friendship and the song would not exist. Thank you for everything.
Wow that’s amazing!
@@shelbys3657 Appreciate that :)
Dear Sara it’s only normal to go through all the ups n downs in life over n over again 😂We all go through what u go through too, just keep sharing your true story that’s more than - enough❤️ you don’t need to prove anything or to anyone always remember that👍
I’m so happy to see you, I was getting worried! Please don’t think that sharing your grief is burdening us in any way.
You’re one of (if not my favorite) TH-camrs because you share the good, bad and ugly experiences which makes you relatable (at least to me)!
Your channel is like a digital time capsule of your personality and I just think that’s so cool and makes your channel unique.
Blessings and good vibes to you!
Bella as always, clear and sincere, you are the best !!!
Have always loved your content Sara! Sorry to hear things have been so difficult.
welcome back queen, you are glowing.
Oh Sara. You never have to feel obliged towards us. Never post a video if you feel like you have to. Post one when you genuinely want to. We don't mind when or how often you post. We just like seeing your face and hearing you speak. But there needs to be a separation between your own life and your online life. But we'll always be here bestie even if you take time off ❤
MISS SARA IVE MISSED YOU SO MUCH 🥹😭 glad to see you upload a video and know that you’re doing well 🫶🏼♥️thank you so much for always venting to us, it is such a special bond that i don't feel with any other youtuber except you 🥲❤
I rememberer when i start watching you i was 15 now im 25 so happy to see you upload again🥹
Not a Big Ole Grief Jerkey Stick!!!? Danggggg😂😂😂
Change takes time. Don't worry we'll be here to support you through it
literally had aphids on my plants and freaked out and remembered you from 2017!!!!!! i had to google “youtube girl aphids make up tutorials” and somehow it worked lmaooo. so happy to have found you and learned that you’re still posting! ☺️
Next phase 💪time to get out of comfort zone and be the best version of urself! Just do it girlie u can do it🫵🏽
Sara don't put so much pressure on yourself. The goofy fun loving Sara is still there but we can't feel like that all the time as humans we have ups and downs and we just have to feel it to heal it as they say doesn't mean there is anything wrong with you. I've recently lost my beautiful pet and my god is the grief killing me but then I came across the quote grief is only love persisting with it no where to go.
After my mum died suddenly i totally lost myself for a few years, but getting into gardening in 2020 was the miracle that dragged me out of that hole!! I was then able to retrain in a new field of work in 2022, and thankfully now i'm thriving and more excited for life's possibilities then ever 💞
The first ever video I watched of Sara's was the one about dealing with acne. That was years ago when I was in the lowest point of my life. I then watched almost all her vids, especially her long talking videos, I'd watch them all intently. I watched her go through tragedies and still kept going. It felt like watching a friend through her highs and lows. Life for me changed (fortunately for the bettee) and I also no longer had time to watch videos, but I'd still come back now and then to Sara's channel, just to make sure she's okay. I'm across the world from you Sara and we may never meet, but you have a well-wisher in me.
I miss uuuu😢😢🫂 I'm glad ur fine ❤️❤️
always glad to see you girl ❤️ I also love that your room never changes
❤❤❤ love and light Sara.
hey sara, I just wanted to say that when you said you felt like a walking piece of grief.. I relate really hard. I was also one of those people that based their art and creativity purely on negative and heartbreaking moments that occurred to me. It's actually crazy, because so much time has passed but that loss of creativity and trying to find that motivation to purse something that genuinely used to improve and give life meaning won't return to me in the way(s) that it once did. Removing yourself from something after its long expired is tough, but you're doing great sara. you don't even realize it. through those moments of disruption and uncomfortable emotions, i pray you remember that spark and authenticity is still within you. don't give up on you ♥
I love the fact that you are so aware and willing to change your behavior
No way sara!!! I was just rewatching your videos earlier today hoping you’d post again soon cause I’ve been missing ya!!!
Gurlie ive been here from the start and have to say, im just glad you’re doing well. We care about you as a person. Im glad you set ur boundaries ❤️
God bless you. I love youu.😊😊❤Please, you could be make more vlogs, cooking, cares of plants.😊
Wow I can’t believe I’ve been watching your videos for 8 years!!!! And just keep on comin back😘😘love ya. Bless you
I remember when i wanted to write a poem for you. ❤😘
Wishing you prosperity.
Omg I still remember my first time watching you in 2017 ❤
I just want to say thank you for being aware and calling yourself out! I’ve been watching you for the past 8 years and you’re the only person that truly gotten me through some dark times. What I’m trying to say is it’s okay to take a break and reset and come back! We all have our days/months but the fact that you can call yourself out and actually do something about it truly makes a difference. I’ve been here for the past 8 years and honestly I don’t plan to go anywhere even if you go months without posting. I’m glad that you’re back and you’re doing it because you enjoy it and not because of money because a lot of times this is what happens with TH-cam. I’m so happy you’re coming back and talking about real things. I’ll always be here watching!💗
I was just thinking about you a few days ago and I wanted to rewatch your old videos, I'm so glad you are back!
I've missed you!! I love how you always keep it real ❤️
Oh myyyy.. Missed u soooo much sara.
Please stay safe and positive, take care of your soul&body and ur beautiful plants and pets❤️ love u so much kiss kiss
Oh Sara I’ve missed you so much🥺I wish I could give you a big hug!!
It sounds like you might've been depressed, you were hurting and grieving - don't beat yourself up. I feel like I'm just becoming myself after almost 10 years! the cycle of up and downs (mostly down tbh) after a loss, taking antidepressants etc, I'm in therapy now and I'm so much better. I haven't seen your videos in few years... and now It just popped on my wall and I feel like I had to say it. I'm glad you have a new mindset, keep it up girl, you're awesome
well be always with u sara u r really intimate with us everytime
hey. So, i've been subbed to you for like 7-8 years now. We're pretty much the same age, too. In a lot of your videos i feel like there's some sort of experience you've had that i could relate to. In this one you said that you've felt like a walking grief jerky stick and I honestly relate to that so hard. About 5 years ago now my best friend passed really tragically and suddenly and i genuinely began feeling like my entire identity was about that. I was no longer "jessica. "and i was just carrying death and sadness on my shoulders. Heavily. I started to forget about myself and be really hard on myself, too. I was so cruel to myself i couldn't imagine saying the shit i said to myself to another human being. Tbh, I think i was scared to heal from that and everything else that hurt me in life because I've known darkness for so long and i guess there was a comfort in its familiarity. If i was happy at any point i'd start to panic that something bad was going to happen or someone else was going to die. So, i allowed misery to be my identity because i knew it sooo well and it was easier to accept than to fear. But i missed who i was. I loved to draw, and sing, and write and dance. I lost so much of myself and missing it hurt just as much as the grief did. And when i realized how much time had passed, i realized i was grieving myself, too. I also realized how much social media and scrolling took over my life. Especially doom scrolling on tiktok, holy shit man. Downloading that right at the peak of my grief nerfed me so hard. I didn't realize how hard i was chasing those dopamine blasts till they weren't as blinding. That comfort zone of misery started to choke me out and there was nowhere to go but out.
And then i learned about radical forgiveness. Of myself and others. Funny enough it was easier to forgive myself than it was to forgive others. I ended up reconnecting with who i was before death showed me such grief. Back when i was a carefree teenager with no smothering expectations that were placed on me by myself or others. I had to go back to who i was before i was prescribing a life to myself based on standards of "success" and "money." It was remembering her, a version of myself that was truest to her heart and soul that set something inside me on fire. I could combine her passion with my wisdom, and security. It took such determination, trust and confidence in myself to not succumb to darkness or superficial numbers/success it started to overwhelm me. If i wasn't pulling teeth to stay focused then i'd slip. I wondered if it was going to be that hard forever. But still, I was carrying the pressure of 'healing' and 'doing right by myself' so heavily. i had to lighten the way I carried myself. I had to start saying "It's okay, girl. It's not that deep. Relax. "Any time i'd mess up and feel that failure. I had to be my own friend again. Just like my actual best friend would be with me. That part takes consistency, but it's a lot easier to be kind to myself than it is to carry the world on my shoulders. Every day isn't as easy as breathing, but i feel lighter. I feel like each day i walk towards life and who i want to be in this little life. I'm glad to see you're also doing what you are to be true to yourself. Love u always
Welcome back!!!!! Missed you
Just finished your video. You have inspired me in so many ways every year since your channel started. You're the best friend i wish i had. I know you will keep on inspiring me. You are amazing ❤
The TH-cam algorithm got it right with this one.
OMG I MISSED YOU. I was wondering where you were, all love
Sending you lots of love miss Sara xx
somatic therapy helps me and nervous system work. dont put yourself down for all the feels. they need to be released. but exactly what you are saying too changing the narrative and the words we use and the thinking we have.
I missed you, princess sara⚘💖
we watch cuz we wanna see you grow, linearity or consistency was never an artistic requirement, take care of urself first
DAMN I haven’t seen you in YEARS! Im talking like 6-7 years ago?? Wishing you the best. Are you where I got “don’t harsh my mellow” from? Cuz I still use that to this day. Wishing you the best!
Don’t ever think anything you have to say is unoriginal and has been said a million times before, we love hearing you speak your mind. You could teach us how to put socks on and make it interesting just because its you. Speak your mind and be creative and have fun on here, you shine when you do!
Misses you Queen 👸
Saraaaaaaaaa!! Omg finally!! We missed you girl!❤
Never clicked a notification so fast :) love u
Literally same 😅
I’m in a crossroad currently , when I get like this I embrace change, new furniture new hair , new skills, new locations, new media, altering my being to see who I am fundamentally without the labels society and me put on the I… on the surface we are the behaviors we repeat, now on the inside I don’t have the words yet
we've missed you! but taking time to reset/recharge is one of the most important things you could possibly do for yourself. just want to make sure you are still alive and well. ❤️
So proud of you and your journey of self reflection! Putting yourself first and actually finding joy in what you do is so important. You truly don’t need to apologize for anything. We’ll always be here wishing you the best no matter how often or not-so-often you post. Sending you love, my friend ❤️
(p.s. “grief jerky stick” just about kiIIed me 🤣🤣🤣)
Ive been having bad anxiety/panic attacks
But this video helps
Thanks
Omgggg welcome backkk 🩷🩷🩷
Love seeing your vids pop up. You look gorgeous sis ❤❤
You’re only a human Sara, don’t forget that. One step at a time, here to support you always
Hiiiiiiiiiiiii gorgeous!!! You wouldn’t believe how often you pop into my mind!!!!! Thanks for blessing my eyeballs. Missed ya!
Happy Birthday Sara 🎁🎈🎊🍫
Sara idk if you’ll see this but like a lot of ppl in these comments I’ve been following you YEARS and instantly was gravitated to your words and talent. I needed this today feeling sorry for myself, hating we’re im at in life, feeling like you’re in the hot seat all the time. My point is , is yes we all go through hardships in life , it’s how we deal with them tho that we get out of it and not stay stagnant. I needed your kind words especially what you said at the end of the video. 🥹so thank you. You’ll always have my support and I can’t wait til we both get out of this gloomy cloud in our head making us not see the sun shine and rainbows on the other side. But thank you again you came back just at the right time. Looking forward to more videos ❤️🩹
I remember subscribing to you when I was in high school simply because you were the first person I knew to spell their name Sara like me, (plus you're absolutely gorgeous) And I kept coming back to your channel whenever I felt I needed to recharge.
I am in the same boat, feeling like I need to reignite my originality and re-spark my passions again after being so 'swayed with the wind'. I am happy to see you evolve and doing well :) Please remember that we like to watch your videos because we like your mind and whatever it comes up with, never really about the content... Never feel pressured to talk about trendy stuff. We've been here for YOU
I’m a graphic designer and i feel the same and i feel stuck in the same place and it got me really depressed and couldnt get put of that mindset. And now that I’m struggling to get jobs It’s dificult but we are more than just what we do for living i guess that is the point
was literally JUST watching 7-8 year old videos of you the other day thinking “hope all is well!!”
I love you Sara habibti
Omg you are alive 🎉 happy to see a notification