Portal Complete Soundtrack [PC Rip]
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 3 พ.ย. 2012
- Please note that I own none of this music and rights belong to Valve, not me.
Ripped from the PC version's .mp3 music files.
0:00 Procedural Jiggle Bone
4:34 Self-Esteem Fund
8:05 Subject Name Here
9:49 Party Escort
14:11 Taste of Blood
17:17 Android Hell
21:03 4000 Degrees Kelvin
22:04 Stop What You Are Doing
26:04 No Cake for You
30:09 You're Not a Good Person
31:34 You Can't Escape
37:57 Still Alive
40:53 Still Alive (Radio Mix) - เพลง
Ost means cheese in danish
Player One I know. I just thought I'd let you know.
how do you say danish in danish?
Humpsterlicious dansk
Drage danish*
Humpsterlicious ???
Self-Esteem Fund is one of those songs that I can't believe humans created.
Agreed..it's chilling
Honestly I find it very relaxing and calm.
eerily depressing and creepy...
I agree, but I feel the same way about the majority of the tracks in this video, not just self esteem fund
Holy fucking chilling. Gives me the weirdest vibe I've ever had off a song. Not the strongest, just the weirdest.
I kinda like it...
The music is creepy and it reflects perfectly what's going on. Imagine if you were suddenly placed into Aperture Science doing the tests for GLaDOS, in a facility deep underground, lonely with no one around but a companion cube. It's very bleak.
I'd wonder why human trafficking had been legalized.
😯
that hit me so hard
@@xlixmacintosh7917 Also Portal 1 ending had the start of the 7 hour war . . .. . . portal 1 ost is fr the calm before the storm vibe .
@@MajinMist603 im not sure if it takes place during the 7 hour war
Who else thinks that Portal is part horror game?
Nah. This game don't have any rotten body of a apeture science team.
exactly.. albeit a really subtle kind of sci-fi horror game that relies on the isolating atmosphere rather than cheap monsters or jumpscares.
hands down
Maximum Casualties “the cake is a lie” is written in blood
Portal is more a thriller really, with the way it draws you into your progress throughout the test chambers and being congratulated and then slowly finding out how much your work wasn’t cared for and that you are seen as completely worthless and expendable to a company that’s main goal is to out do another one. The feeling you get of how alone and isolated you are in an industrial building mostly just seeing white and blue feels incredibly cold and artificial. The game mostly just tries to toy with your thoughts and expectations than actually scare you.
The music in this game is so haunting but relaxing.
Relaxing, you think?
i love how the whole soundtrack has no organic instruments or noises, just creepy electric synth noises. it reflects just how devoid of life aperture is after glados's massacre.
Except for the Radio song, which I am pretty sure has bongos and trumpets, but it comes from a radio, and was probably recorded before the fall of Aperture by GLaDOS. Just like the empty halls and observational rooms, it is a remnant of what used to be, proof that life other than yourself once existed here, but is now gone.
@@alu2901 one of the moments when it actually IS that deep. Great job with the analysis
@@pitnorman Thanks!
My feelings:
Prodecural Jiggle Bone - kinda scary and disturbing, sounds like good theme for advanced, modern place. Fits perfectly with sounds of elevator and fluorescent lamps.
Self Esteem Fund - makes you feel lonely. When I heard it for the first I thought about massive, modern, calm place with a lot of people, machines and SCIENCE. But that's wrong. There is no people. All rooms behind windows are empty. Everything seems abandoned but doesn't seem old. You feel lonely, there is a big world in front of you but you are trapped in this place with emotionless computer voice. Then you realize SOMETHING IS NOT RIGHT.
Self Esteem Fund feels like good, old, nostalgic years that passed away (2000s - 2019)
Self-Esteem Fund gives me a feeling of isolation and the complete absence of hope
the hope that this isolation may be broken at some point
Well fuck, this comment DID NOT AGE WELL.
@@seanbdrums Top 10 comments that didn't age well at all.
Coronavirus quarantine in nutshell.
@@seanbdrums I was about to say, I thought this comment was written like a month ago
Man, have I got a May/June/July 2020 for you.
Self-Esteem Fund is a composition of spectacular bottom, makes him feel to the player the loneliness in which the personage of the game lives. A masterpiece!
wow exactly my thoughts :)
oh god the nostalgia from when i first played this game..
I feel portal 1 was much more creepy than portal 2, to be honest. The music is so.. haunting. It's perfect for the atmosphere. Just, you know, waking up in this place (god knows how long it's been since everyone there died) with nobody but that homocidal AI that actually has intentions of killing you.
+- Navi - Portal 2 didnt have a soul the first game had. Complete lack of atmosphere.
MINTOR94 Also it replaced one of the scariest and greatest video game villians of all time with an AI designed to be an idiot
- Navi - I couldn't have said it better myself, I enjoy Portal much more in that sense.
9-10 years.
GLaDOS lock down and mass homicide (basically the original incident); 2001
chell wakes up; 2010
The objective of Portal 2 is not to be creepy, that's why it is not.
This soundtrack makes me feel lonely.
+Catherine Tansley That's the objective.
and you are.
Self-Esteem Fund.
Self-Estem fund is sad lonely and deep
It supposed to
there's just something about this soundtrack that just strikes a certain primal chord with people.. with it fitting the theme of waking up, dazed and confused, in a cold sterile laboratory environment, no one else around, no way out, completely alone, with nothing by a synthesized voice telling you to perform a series of "tests" and guiding you through the series of rooms, all you have to get you through it all is an untested and dangerous wormhole gun, your wit, and your drive to get through to the end to have some delicious cake...
portal has long sense buried itself deep within my soul and you could say it changed all who played it in a profound way, everything a video game should mean to the gamer and more. unique, surreal, avant-garde, and amazingly satisfying when you solve a puzzle.
5/5 for the game and soundtrack.
People say self esteem fund is creepy, I find it somewhat comforting. It's always felt like a mysterious yet soothing like you're home but your also in a dream state.
"No cake for you" is probably the saddest song i've heard in my life.
probably because it is played in those "hidden" rooms where someone used to live.
shit this game touched the emotions. At first i thought it was just a game for the lulz. But the backstory is very rich.
Yeah
hey listen to my rips of the song I made it looked like a joke
To me its the creepiest song
Like imagine being a worker or intern there and you discovered something that the big guys of a company is hiding from you to see, like seeing the horror behind said-company
This comment section in a nutshell
50% Self Esteem Fund
49% No Cake For You
1% Other things
You could almost imagine the steady and subtle progression of the soundtrack as the gradual state of the outside world and what's going on out there. If we go by the time frame, Portal takes place just after the Combine have taken over, thanks to Breen surrendering Humanity to them, and the tone starts off as a false sense of sincerity and security, slowly breaks into a comforting dissonance, then isolation, calamity and a consuming existential void, but eventually it starts to get serious, darker and tense, to match the crisis going on outside the facility which GLaDOS is trying to prevent from breaching while trying to keep you away from her, along the way we slowly discover the facility is completely empty, all personnel absent, sentries are deployed to kill you as you reach deeper into the complex, going where you're not supposed to be, unaware that the world outside is being picked to the bone by aliens, Humanity is being enslaved, processed and controlled, brainwashed, the former administrator of Black Mesa is now the administrator of Earth, it's just a complete and utter hell for all, and the final moments are just complete and utter chaos, the impending sense of doom that hits when you realize GLaDOS was keeping the Combine out of the Enrichment Center, and you just destroyed her, giving them the chance to break in. And you glimpse the outside as you return to consciousness for a moment, the ultimate systems have crashed for good, but inevitably you are dragged back inside the facility and forced into cryogenic stasis, the quest for freedom is futile after all, but you could suppose that you're better off inside than outside.
Yeah didn’t GLaDOS say something along the lines of “alright have your freedom, you won’t live to old out there anyway”
mhm yep i read that
No Cake for You still gives me chills, the first time I found one of those hidden areas I just sat there and listened...
Agreed, No cake for you has that sort of dying turret sound as well.
Shanack The overuse of the 'the cake is a lie' message as a meme can't overshadow just how creepy that whole segment was.
i think the overuse of the cake is a lie overshadows how dark the writing is. it's not a message for the Chell.
9seed Wut?
@@abcdefzhij the message "The Cake Is a Lie" is not a message left by the Ratman for Chell, it's a message he scawled for HIMSELF, so that he wouldn't do GLaDoS's bidding. he was starving, roasting rat parts on makeshift ovens from overclocked CPUs, and those messages were a reminder to him that any promise of the food after the tests was a lie and that he would be murdered.
Jeez. It came out almost 10 years ago. What a masterpiece.
Now it's been almost 13 years and it's still a masterpiece
almost 15 years
16 now... someone update at 20
Going to go with the popular opinion on this one - Self-Esteem Fund is terrifying. Love this game's music, secretly wish the sequel had the same direction to it.
Quality over quantity :)
Naah... No cake for you and Stop what you're doing are worse.
Never heard this OST until now, holy shit this is probably what will get me to ambient music. It's so chilling yet haunting.
Joshua Carrizo Not to be a grammar nazi, but chilling and haunting mean NEARLY, the same thing.
+Lance Rouvas Perhaps relaxing would be a suitable synonym.
TonneofAsh True. Sorta. Not really. But sorta.
Doesn't matter though, i'm not fluent and English is not my first language, have been studying it for years, so complicated.
Josh C It sucks. I wish i could un-learn it.
I guess C418 had been inspired in some of this tracks to compose Minecraft ambient music. Both games has beautiful tracks.
No Cake for You is just something else, incredible 0_o
Yeah. I don’t know how but it’s just wonderful. The little beeps and boops fit the laboratory atmosphere perfectly and the synth is impressive with how immersive it is.
Rest assured that all Aperture Science technology is operable up to 4000 degrees Kelvin.
Remains safely operational*
Andrew Ricklefs Sorry lol. Haven't played in months. Did you go play the game to check on me though???
+Emmanuel Gapud No haha. It's just that this is one of my favorite video games ever and i remember/know almost everything about it and remember many of her quotes (espevially this one, which happens at a very memorable part of the game)
Does it ever! It's one of my favorites too.
the one thing that bothers me about this line is that the term "degrees Kelvin" is wrong. Unlike celsius, or fahrenheit, there is no "degrees" in kelvin. Man, I thought GLaDOS would know that!
0:00 Procedural Jiggle Bone
4:34 Self-Esteem Fund
8:05 Subject Name Here
9:49 Party Escort
14:11 Taste of Blood
17:17 Android Hell
21:03 4000 Degrees Kelvin
22:04 Stop What You Are Doing
26:04 No Cake for You
30:09 You're Not a Good Person
31:34 You Can't Escape
37:57 Still Alive
40:53 Still Alive (Radio Mix)
ahh thank you
@@ziv7614 thank you!
np 👍
Thanks!
thank you
4000 Degrees Kelvin- The end of level 19 is my FAVORITE part of the whole game because of the music. It reappears at the end of the game too. So intense!
No it doesn't reappear at the end of the game, lol.
3 years later, you finally respond.
Lol.
@Cloudify Some legends say I'm always here, until the end of time...
@@abcdefzhijyou took another 5 years to respond lmao, i guess you really will be around forever
I think OST is very underrated element of Portal, especially dark ambient tracks
Kelly Bailey is a genius.
This was also done by Mike Morasky.
Thanks, only now I realize Morasky's a genius too :)
+Hyrtsi Yeah. Hans Zimmer has nothing on these 2 guys.
@@abcdefzhij also take notice to how all of kelly's tracks play in the proper test chambers, while all of mike's tracks play in the maintenance areas (and in rattman's den), giving the two sides of aperture - the clean and pristine chambers versus its dark, dilapidated underbelly - a distinctly different compositional feel.
@@nikki-lx3yf That's a fantastic point! I definitely think Kelly's tracks are more ambient and thoughtful while Mike's are more atmospheric and mood-setting.
Would you happen to know the exact breakdown of who made which tracks? I think I already know who did which for at least most of them but I'm not entirely sure. I'd be curious to know, if you do.
Procedural Jiggle Bone also plays in Chambers 08 and 19, which I think is a great place to put them.
Most notably at 0:45, this soundtrack gives off an eerie sense of apprehension and buildup.
Chamber 08 introduces the acid floor, marking the change-up between tutorials and the real deal.
With this soundtrack playing at Chamber 19 as you ride along that scaffold, you can just feel that something isn't right. What is there at the end of the test?
It's the perfect buildup to 4000 Degrees Kelvin, when plays at the end of the chamber, and GLaDOS reveals her true intentions.
This soundtrack actually scared me while I was playing Portal. It felt like I was more alone than I'd ever be.
It's so chilling, and it works perfectly for the atmosphere the game's going for.
I like how it's calming and uncalming at the same time.
14 years and this soundtrack is still a masterpiece
I think 4000 Degrees Kelvin ist the most memorable one for me. The moment when the casual testing goes to literal hell and you have to get off of that lift asap.
Feels like yesterday even though it's been actually 12 years.. makes me feel old.
My worst and most depressing thoughts in high school came from Self-Esteem Fund. I've had music bring tears to my eyes, but that composition unleashes pure despair. It's an anomaly, just how potent it is.
huh.
I actually remember listening to this soundtrack a lot whilst alone with no friends in year 10 (high school freshman year for americans), this soundtrack really brings me back to that time.
Taste of Blood is a sleeper and most underrated track in this album.
Quite a lot of comments here about "Self-esteem fund" and "No cake for you" - but the one that got me first was "Subject name here".
40:55 *jumpscare*
...
It was my freakin ringtone for years ...
I got excited when i'm listening to 4000 Degrees Kelvin.
theres a lot of stuff on the internet that humans just wouldnt take the time to make
Hmm...yes. This takes me back about 11 years ago, when I first played Portal. It's a soundtrack that I've only now, in the past year, have learned to appreciate. Portal 2's OST is great, but this...this is true art in the fullest sense of the word.
I think this stands alongside Quake as one of the scariest (at times) OSTs out there.
Android Hell, No cake for you, Stop What You Are Doing and Self_Esteem Fund are the most "Lonely" Music i have ever heard
thank you, I was searching this for so long
Much better than Portal 2.... i wish P2 OST was as deep, profound and melancholic as this.
+Christian Lorentz Perez I also dislike the change of tone. While there were some interesting, "thoughtful" segments in Portal 2 (mainly old aperture and some of those beautiful overgrown sections), there was this overall disney-ish tone and and the music is a lot more generic than P1's.
It's kinda sad that the first game is widely considered an experimental "sketch" for the second one.
Roentgen
I totaly agree with you, i'm reinstalling Portal 1 now after i heard the P1 OST again, songs like "No Cake for You" found in one of the Ratman dens is just awesome, so atmospherical and melancholical, and yeah, the fact P1 is considered a "short-test-game" it's a shame, its dialogs are incredible while Portal 2 never shuts Wheatley's mouth which is so annoying, comedian and boring. I wish i could have P1 soundtrack into Portal 2.
+Roentgen Imagine Portal 2... With Portal 1 tracks, it wo-*STATIC* *Announcer* Warning. Core corruption at 80% *STATIC* SPAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
+Christian Lorentz Perez I don't have a personal preference. It's comparing apples to oranges, especially in the difference of genre. This one is somewhat eerie and gives me an odd sort of feeling, though I'm not sure what. The Portal 2 soundtrack, especially in the beginning, is also eerie in a different way, like, _lonely_ eerie, if you catch my drift.
+Christian Lorentz Perez My favourite track from this one is Stop What you Are Doing, and my favourite from the P2 OST is Technical Difficulties.
There aren't enough comments talking about "Taste of Blood". It's my favorite track in the soundtrack and it just feels so cold and haunting yet relaxing at the same time
I honnestly prefered the style of the first portal over portal 2
It's a much more powerful game. Every emotion you experience in this game is more powerful than at any point in Portal 2.
both are kinda diferent, in portal, you feel alone, like a slave commanded by GLaDOS, but in portal 2, wheatley is like a friend helping you, but i'm sure that portal is one of the best sagas i've played
Portal 2 is a comedy game, its tone is completely different from the first one, I do admit, I prefer Portal over Portal 2.
Portal 1 makes you think more about aperture than Portal 2. In Portal 1, you think about what the scientist were doing here, what the 7 hour war did to the place, and a lot of other things since a lot of Aperture's nature is left unknown. Whereas in Portal 2 they do to much explaining
Portal's original ost is more ambient- created with the sole purpose of expressing isolation. Portal 2 is more narrative. Its soundtrack is more expressive and includes things like character themes. I'm a huge fan of the leitmotifs in Portal 2. There's also the fact that they're both very different games story-wise. You can't really critically compare their soundtracks since they were created with different purposes. It's just up to taste, I guess.
''The Enrichment Center is committed to the well being of all participants. Cake and grief counselling will be available at the conclusion of the test. Thank you for helping us help you help us all.''
It’s hilarious how GLaDOS glitches a lot and shorts out at times in the first Portal game. I think that’s because of the intelligence dampening sphere, which got removed. That’s why she sounds more human in the second game.
Timeless classic. Portal has everything going for it, humor, gameplay, atmosphere, ideas, puzzle design. Brilliant in every way.
yes
This soundtrack is the main inspiration for a soundtrack I'm developing for a video game me and my friend are currently working on, which excites me even more.
Interesting. Any progress on that game?
@@jokubasverbickas8576 sadly the game got cancelled :/
@@appledrawss1353 can you release anything you managed to write for the soundtrack? i absolutely love portal's soundtrack and i want to see if it scratches that itch i have to hear more ambient, eerie, maybe creepy tracks
was any part of the soundtrack produced?
My friend says he hates Portal. When I asked "Why on earth would you hate such a great game," he responded with "I don't like puzzle games." Puzzle game? Is that all he thinks this is?
What’s wrong with puzzle games?
saying Portal is a puzzle game is like saying The Great Gatsby is a book about partying.
@@hb-robo wow, great comparison
@Octavio Marín Not the best example! Let's just say that puzzle is as much a puzzle game only as Silent Hill 2 is a horror game only.
@@hb-robo It's like saying Casablanca is a romance movie.
Just discovered this game today. Sick stuff
I'm a huge fan of Steve Roach so much of this OST makes me feel right at home...~ God this game was good.
All other tracks: scary ambience that makes you feel uneasy.
Still alive and radio: Happy motives go weeeeeee!
14 minutes in and it feels like 4 have passed. This is one beautiful ost.
glados: thank you for the apeture science music soundtrack i will enjoy this for a very.. very long time.
My favorites are 0:00 - 21:03. They really help me when I am working, mainly because they inspire me.
There is a stark contrast between 0:00-21:03 and 21:03 to the rest of the video, because the state of the story takes a sharp turn right in there. Except No Cake For You should be in the first part
Andrew Ricklefs oh. no cake for you is good, too. rip
leddy I personally like the entire soundtrack. it's just that the first half generally is more ambient and better for doing something else at the same time.
Andrew Ricklefs i enjoy the ambient soundtracks more. i'm guilty of sleeping to one.
Still Alive is a great cherry on top this depressing cake.
I still can't believe how good this is
oh my god the good times of going through this game i want more its kind of like a bitter sweet thing
Imagine playing this game at 1am and you hear your bed move, you live alone.
Doug Rattmann probably does
Every song gave me chills like 8 times.
...
Party Escort makes me feel like I am in the future and that I am deep underground lonely not knowing what is out there and also gives me feel like the future was like 2001 or something.
*This* is how I get through AP physics homework.
i just wanna go back to this stage in my life, where i could just play countless video games for hours upon hours! when i didn't have a single care in the world! skipping school, sleeping in to play video games, getting online to play games with my "friends", watching youtube on more games, all the lets plays i watched on my grandma's computer! those were truly the good ol' days!
Taste of blood, in my opinion, gives the most feeling of the effects of imprisonment and isolation, both mixed the the sense of danger that lurks the farther you go.
Happy 15 years Portal. You game with great a great ambient soundtrack you.
This is the perfect soundtrack for doing homework at night.
21:03 is for when you realize that it's half past midnight and the assignment is due first thing the next day.
This is amazing
4000 Degrees Kelvin was one of the few tracks I liked as soon as I heard it.
I love all these but for some reason party escort is one of my faves idk why it relaxes me but also scares me and makes me sad at the same time
the song "self esteem fund" brings back so many memories... :,(
i remember when i first played portal that i thought the Ratman writtings were from test subjects that went crazy or escaped GLaDOS and lived in the test chambers
Selected Ambient Works Vol 3
Ghosts V-VIII
My favourite song is taste of blood. Its the one with the most atmoshphere to me and is the one that always creeped me out and gives me the most nostalgia
Yep ^_^ it doesn’t give nostalgia because I only recently have played Portal but the atmosphere is perfect.
Party Escort sounds beatiful and very relaxing.
I thought this ost added to the atmosphere and especially later in the game with how the atmosphere gets creepier... Well... I liked how there was not much music in a lot of parts of the game to add a certain intensity you can't get with music to the atmosphere. It was not the scarriest game I have played, but some parts of the game made me feel scared a little. The robots were not creepy to me, except that red eye sphere at the end which was voiced by Mike Patton who is the man of a million voices in my mind hahhh. The last ending song he last ending credits song but the rest of the soundtrack L0L.
why does this ost make me feel calmer. like, its meant to make you feel uneasy. tense, unsure. literally the opposite of calming
This sound track makes me feel lonely.
oh wait I am
I remember in high school before I got a car, I had to walk about 2 miles to get there. I used to jam to a lot of music, but this soundtrack was my favorite. Felt like a scene in movie or something, its so desolate and deep.
Self Esteem Fund is the best. Sounds like something you would hear in the original Terminator.
When many of us are working from home(alone in many cases) in these times, some of the tracks sums up the feeling of loneliness to the last letter. Its not all gloom and doom these have a calming effect.
Fun fact for a not so fun just sad and depressing soundtrack is that every song (if you can even call them that) are named after jokes and lines that GLADOS AKA Ellen McLain says during the game
Me while beating chambers in Portal: Something is not right. This is puzzle game but everything seems abandoned. Am I supposed to BE here? Where did everyone go? Why music is so disturbing?
Me when I go to fire: I KNEW SOMETHING IS WRONG I NEED TO ESCAPE!!!
Me while hiding in old, rusty rooms: Damn, what happened here? This computer makes something evil... Where are people? These messages on walls...
Me while final fight: COME HERE!!!
i think Portal 2 really should've had more creepy moments like this. at times P2 feels almost separate from the first game, just atmospherically; i think the thing is, P2 feels alive... this game feels dead (in a good way). like nobody's there, just this soulless voice telling you to risk your life in these tests... it's so disturbing. i think the second game could've done something similar with the part when you're in the backup testing track
Just getting around to playing this for the first time. I'm on the chamber where you get companion cube, forget which one it is. Love the music so far.
old comment but that's chamber 17
I return regularly to this soundtrack and after a couple years of listening to it, I can proudly say that the Portal OST is probably one of the most unique and best soundtracks I have ever heard. In context to the game it is even more special. This is a puzzle game where you traverse the environment with portals and yet this soundtrack sounds like it could be the score for a very tragic cyberpunk, maybe posst apocalyptic world. Even though this is true to some degree, it feels to deep for a game with such a simple premise. Portal is a strange but godly combination at all fromts. No puzzle game ever had such great writing, such world building, such a soundtrack. All things that elevate it above and beyond the status of a cult classic the moment it released. This soundtrack gives me eerie vibes of beauty and horror I have never heard and/or expected from such a game. As someone in the comments said "Self-Esteem Fund is one of those songs I can't believe humans created" and I couldn't agree more. This is truely a game you only get once in every blue moon and I cherish it to death
probably the best video game soundtrack ever made
Completely agree. I know I haven't heard every video game soundtrack out there, but this game's soundtrack is SO much better than every other video game I've ever played that it's hard to imagine there could be another game on Portal's level.
Self esteem fund and no cake for you...
I think i am the only one to comment about this one, but i kinda like Stop what you are doing. You went in this creepy atmosphere switch and you don’t know what you are doing and this thing SCREAMS you are not supposed to be here, mostly the notes at the start.
Kelly Bailey always knows how to make the most unsettling tracks
Stop what are you doing was very nostalgic and dramatic 10/10
This soundtrack is like unlocking a new type of fear
Good shit man
Self-Esteem Fund gives me chills
I love that until the plot twist it's all just ambient music which you hear in the background. Then it's this awesome fast-paced music to get you to start acting quickly.
I finished portal for the nth time this morning but it's the first time I properly listen to the soundtrack and it's so damn good...!
Self Esteem fund, gorgeous. Brian eno worthy
I love how lonely this is. It's the perfect atmosphere.
Большое спасибо за саундтрек.
4:34 My favorite song. So sad but gets me every time.
the start of one of most iconic games evet
ever*
Self-Esteem Fund has been and will always be the best.
This soundtrack tells the player that you are alone in this place I feel.