I wonder what it's like... To wake up and love yourself To look in the mirror and not want to cry To waight yourself and not want to puke when u see the number To be with friends and not feel ugly To go into public and not feel insecure To not want to try and hide your shape with specific clothes To not want to hurt yourself I just wonder what it's like to love yourself and life...
I want to know how it feels to be proud of myself my body but it's as if it's a hard task I want to stop harming myself for others I want to be on my own and from toxic friendships but I keep going and staying in the past I hate having anxiety attacks being claustrophobic vomiting myself to stay thin having flashbacks at random moments and just feeling the odd one out I hate being suicidal for a short time I just want to live in peace
Young Savage1091, I may not know you, and this might mean nothing to you. But your worth it every one in your life is lucky to know you The saddest people smile the brightest The people in more pain are the kindest Remember you matter, you matter to me.❤️
Emotionally: I'm done Mentally: I'm drained Spiritually: I'm dead Physically: I smile it's sad really that the only reason I haven't done anything bad to myself yet is because I don't want to hurt anyone but the reason I wanna do something bad to myself is because everyone is hurting me.
It’s hard when your parents don’t know what you’re going through because you don’t want them to know that the child they raised doesn’t want to be here anymore. It’s hard when you don’t have a shoulder to cry on so you have to hold it all in, leaving your heart shredding into 10000 pieces. It’s hard when you want to keep everyone around you happy and not drag them into your messed up life so whenever they ask if you’re okay, you’re always good 👍🏼 Everything is hard but remember you’re here for a reason and you’re born to die anyway so enjoy life while you have it because as you’re reading this the number of death rates are increasing! Be happy that you’re still breathing and still have a life that you can improve over time. PAIN IS TEMPORARY, a glow stick has to break before it glows!!! Keep fighting 💪🏼
I just hold onto the thought that there is a light at the end of tunnel. I literally have one goal in life in that is to be a father. I wanna raise a son/daughter that wouldn’t be scared to come out and ask for help when they are hurting. Sounds corny but I feel like the sadness I feel would finally subside once I have another part of me to love.
@@everydaybro142 That’s so cute, and yes it’s like being there for someone you love, having them rely on you too. ( a shoulder to cry on) 🤭🥺 I rlly hope you reach your goal bro!👍🏼
Have you ever just woke up and then just couldn’t find the energy to get yourself out of bed? Have you ever found yourself heartbroken and nobody cared? Heh, I know I have...
I just feel like a failure. My mom left me and dad with the words "child you're 20 you don't need a mom anymore" and just 6 months after my dad just leaves me alone with my thoughts to go for a weekend with a woman he only met online. The only thing really keeping me alive is my cat and my horse wich I just don't want to leave alone. I just can't anymore. Ps: sorry for the bad spelling I'm liturally typing with tears in my eyes....
Hey you dont know me but I bet your an amazing person and you parents shouldn't have left you but just remember there is people out there that love you like I love you hope you are safe and didn't hurt yourself♥️♥️♥️
There are lots of kids just like you! Lots of kids who’ve been left to fend for themselves when they were only 5 years old! I see them all over the place where I am on the streets. It’s so sad seeing them without a home a mom a dad, begging for money. There are also lots of kids who work as trash men when they’re only 10 years old. I’m so sorry your parents left you like that! I can understand exactly how you feel because I see it every single day outside. Life goes on though sometimes you can’t go backwards or you can’t get anywhere in life. 🤷♀️ a wise thing someone once told me, you have to except the things that happens no matter how severe it was. These things that happen are just lessons. Please understand there’s someone watching you everyday. His name is Jesus. ❤️ Keep your head up and stay strong hunny!
All my friends are like, "You should stop crying all the time. It's werid." It's funny how they think it's that easy to stop. I can control my depression, but explaining that just isn't worth it...
It’s not even like you want to die, you just want the pain the stop, the frustration, broken, anger and negative feelings to stop so you think dying would help that
Okay, if this is the last thing that you ever see; I can handle that. I'm done. Do you undestand I let this person in- I don't let people in. You knew this, you've taken her from me. I needed her and you've broken me. What er- what happened? Please don't ask. Because then I'm going to have to try to come up with an answer and I'll start crying I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to stop. That what I need I just need, for the pain to be gone. It hurts so bad I can't breath- I can't- I can't do worse. I can't, ok? I shouldn't have to! You told me once that you weren't the hero. I was so alone and I owe you so much. One more thing, one more miracle for me; don't be dead. Just for me. Just stop it. Stop this. I saved your life time and time again. I chose you, I sacrificed everyone and everything for you. Your just gonna turn your back on me? Stay. If you take one more step were done, ok? No more surprises, no more excuses, no more chances. We're done. I hate him. This isn't goodbye this is until we find a way.
You know that feeling... Where u have no energy. Where... U wake up but u don't want to get out of ur bed bc u have no motivation. Where u cry day and night begging the pain to leave u alone. But no matter how far u run it always caches up. Where it always comes back to u, Where u sit and stair at a wall or something. When all u feel is numb, Where, u don't even care anymore, u walk across a road, and u don't even look both ways, bc u could care less. That deep down u want a car to hit u. When all u feel is agonizing pain, physical and mental. Where u sit in ur room and cry until u can't cry no more. When u hurt urself and think " I deserve this pain " that u just want to sleep ur hole life bc the truth is, sleep is ur heaven. Where u try and try to be good enough. Where u always put on a smile even when u don't want to but u do it anyways, so people don't worry Abt u. Where u just want to die. To take the pain away. Bc I do. But somehow u still manage to get back up and try it again. Love Isabella,
“tell your mom” they say i have the all the courageous do it, tell her i tell her ima long ass note “ok we will get help after cheer ends” she says cheer ends “why can’t you do the kitchen” she says i burst out into tears i do it but not how she wants it i’m crying i send a pic to my friend saying she made me cry again she goes through my phone gets mad at me “i’m sorry but why haven’t you taken me to therapy” i say “you haven’t come and asked yet” she says “i don’t think that’s something you forget” i say i get grounded i get my phone back i fall asleep on ft with my friend wakes me up and slaps me at least 15 times i get grounded again when does it end i dont want help i want her to love me im done with this i can’t take it my life is living hell no matter what she is mad i “smile” i can’t do it any more
My mom acts like she cares and says that she knows everything to do for me with my depression and anxiety and hit but then she yells at me basically telling me I’m useless and just I’m so fucking done because she’ll also being up the topic of my depression and she knows that it fucking upsets me to talk about it because it makes be uncomfortable and to top it all off I have did and nobody knows and my system hates my parents but most of all my mom cause she’s a complete and utter self Righteous bitch who only thinks and hears what she wants to fucking hear and I’m just so fucking done cause before I came to visit her I was in a mental state that I was decently happy with and then the first night I’m here she sees the cuts on my leg, brings up my depression, gets me to idiotically trust her, and then stabs me in my ass like I think the next day and now I want to kill myself more than I did before because she is emotionally damaging me more than I need to be and it’s all just complete shit Sorry I really just needed to get that off my chest
My mother thought I was suicidal when she found out I was cutting, and I just laughed in my head and thought "I couldn't do that. I'm trying to stop hurting others" and now I realize how effed up my way of thinking was. That not hurting others meant I had to hurt myself. I'm not sure if other people feel this either, but I've been "clean" for about a year now, but I still feel the urge for it, like an addiction. Sometimes, I'll absentmindedly trace the scars and pull my hand away, because I realize that they don't ache when you touch them, at least, not physically, and for a moment, I had never wanted anything more than for those marks to ache
I dont let people in because I'm too afraid to love,to hurt to fall for someone just to have them leave me again. No matter how happy I look I haven't even let my best friend in all the way yet and I've known her for 3 years
When someone asks if you're okay you gave them the same answer "I'm fine" but really your dying in the inside and your anxiety is getting the better of you
*This is from me to you!* We've all felt pain before. No ones actually happy. Wanna know a secret? The people YOU see smiling everyday? They are HURTING on the inside. I wish this pain didn't exist but, it does. I know I'm late to this, but, you know the people acting happy? I know that's you. YOU are not fine. Just remember, be yourself, everybody else is taken so you have to be YOU. I've felt this overwhelming pain and I still do! We can get through this, together. from: - Actual Trash -
Some days my depression hits so hard that I can hardly breath. It's like there is a darkness inside me and and no matter what I do I cant seem to stop it from spreading. And as it spreads it takes away all my joy and will to live until all that is left is pain.. It's the worst feeling in the world. But as always I will put up my mask so no one notices.
and i’m tired of being called dramatic. i’ve lost myself. and it’s because he walked out. so easily. he’s all i’ve ever had and now i’m back in this lonely place. filled with nothing but nothingness.
I love this song with all my heart, and now that I’ve listened to this audio so many times, I’ve fallen in love with both. I’m glad that this song and this audio were put in the same video.
No matter how much time I put into myself.. I still feel like I’m not enough even though I should.. even though we should feel beautiful of our body..It takes me awhile to finally feel beautiful and confident and yet.. I fell back down to where I started
Once I told my grandma that I had depression and she said “ oh know that’s awful.” While giving me the look of “yeah yeah yeah just get over it it’s only a mood swing.” To this day my depression has been going on for 5 years.... but it’s “ just a mood swing....” Right
Depression is definitely not a mood swing it a serious thing and more people need to speak about it I personally don't have it but I know people that have depression and some days they are very happy living their best lives but other days they unhappy and feeling like the world is against them your a strong person so please don't give up keep fighting and I hope you are safe and your family♥️♥️lots of love
ml its not a mood swing. i heard this quote one time: "Depression is like being trapped in a thunderstorm. You don't know when it's going to hit, you never know how long it's going to last, and when it finally passes, you're left to survey the damage and pick up the pieces"
I have depression and anxiety. I’ve had 2 suicide attempts in the past 3 weeks. Honestly, it kills me. I try to die and I wake up feeling worse than before. I miss my dog, my healthy dad before he got cancer from drinking, my friends, me before I changed, me being able to smile, my family being normal, me to be pretty, to look into the mirror and find something I actually like, and not live in such a shitty world. I can’t handle it anymore, because no one understands that just because you think I’m all these good things doesn’t mean I actually am.
This is life not everybody will understand what you feel they may say that you're being dramatic but the truth is you're on the time that you just want to be gone.
I cry every night.. It sucks. Sometimes I dont even get to breath I watch depression videos to see if they relate.. alot of them do.. this one is right. I did sacrifice everything for 1 person, I dont trust anybody even my friends that are 3 years (As friends) they know everything but i still dont trust them... You feel empty and lost you dont know what do you, you start to cut yourself but it doesnt work... You feel like everybody is judging you i have a friend which is more depressed then I am but Im starting to rethink about that.. Im sorry if i made your day bad...
Here I am again, watching the same video.. because I got my heart broken again.. and I can't take it anymore.. I feel broken and sad and depressed. It hurts. And I'm tired of feeling like this. 😢
Me too...she..I loved her. She was my crush. She loved me back...or did she? She gaslighted me. Anytime I vent to her she just says ‘go to sleep’. I want someone to love me. I want my ex back.
I just got my heart broken, I lost the love of my life and I will spending the rest of my life just wishing to take it back... the worst part of life is losing someone who meant so much to you...😢 good bye...
Isabel flores i know how you feel, the love of my life broke up with me and the next day went to another girl and he threw everything we had like it was nothing
I losty love because of ego I committed sin.. Ever since I'm just apologizing for what I did to her... I pray to God one day she forgive and forgot what I done..
Everyone who feels like this know you are so amazing beautiful wonderful. Don’t give up things will get better someone loves you. I know I do. You are so amazing... beautiful wonderful strong handsome smart worth it. you are not nothing you are something great. No matter what people say. It hurts me so bad when I see the pain in this world I wish there was no pain I just wish you all could see your beauty and worth because everyone is so amazingly made. Please don’t give it up! I love you all so much just let it get better not matter how bad it seems.
@@1pukegl1tter_ thanks that's why I love being here on internet & search for what am going through I can find many people who goes through this & know well about it but real life is too scary to live that haven't met anyone who is going through exactly what I am going through life. Even though I don't know you personally big hugs to you❤❤❤❤
You know what really hurts ? When you talk to someone for years and have the best conversations with them, Even if it’s just a small talk. Talking to them made your whole day. And one day, they just act like you don’t even exist. 😔😔😔 it has been 6 months now still I am in pain and wondering why she left me.
Dr Frank can make your ex come back to you begging you for a second chance. He helped me restore back my broken relationship of 5 years by bringing back my ex Also Dr Frank always keep up with his words I strongly Advise you to seek help from him....
I am trying so hard just to cry to release the pain within by listening to these videos but they remain there its like I'm screaming but cannot be heard
This hit me hard, it's hard pretending to be ok. It hurts when people ask me how I am, though they don't care they're just curious. I say I'm fine but can't you just look at my eyes you'll know I'm not I'm just a faker a pretender
it’s like i can feel someone pickvup my heart and everyday there slowly ripping itvinto pieces. the feeling is dreadful, when i cry it is like someone is chocking me i can’t breath being alive doesn’t make me happy
Tankyou gues not maked played comeing holeinding roomed photo gofer maked not good bad gues grouped maked and shering not good come mashed need an no no no pressure and pressing and need and viewing it into pieces maked auto mate alley come ganna but bad selfed matter ok this feel not good comeing tacked but some telling all tacked badbaf come come tacked ganna not good bad????????100%
You know what hurts.. Hating yourself for still loving someone you shouldn't.. Someone who just didn't care about you but yet you still stayed bc you thought you could Fix them but you couldn't it always ended the same way..
When you listened to all this just to feel something.. Just to break the walls you built in hopes of keeping pain out that now are keeping pain in.. You just want to feel..
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I feel so alone around everyone, that I cant breathe.
I keep on telling myself the truth but I don't want to believe it because I don't want to let go I don't want to lose the best thing that's ever happened to me and damn. It hurts like fuck man...
We’re all depressed here in this comments section. This is our family right here all the people depressed can only heal each other and that’s the most beautiful thing In the world 🌺🥺x♥️♥️
I let people in my life and then they left me for others, they just used me to come closer to others and now I’m scared of being with people so I just lay in my bed all day and do nothing I don’t even sleep at night because of all the thoughts in my head💔😞
I’m 12 my friends just think i’m sad over a little subject when i’m crying.I guess i’ve been crying about that one subject for 2 1/2 years.I don’t want to tell anyone how i feel because they won’t understand what i feel because apparently i’m to young to feel emotions or know how i’m feeling.I smile and laugh over the inside of the breathless emotions inside of me that i let out sometimes in my bedroom alone for hours.
I have lost everyone my depresson started when i was 9😭I cry my self to sleep every night I try to tell my dad everything that's going on but he won't listen I attempted 4times
I'm so proud of you all. You're worth it. I'm sorry if you feel any less, I'm sorry I can't be there to physically hug you. God loves you and care about you. Don't ever think you're feelings are any less or invalidated. Whether someone else is depressed due to a terminal illness and you think you shouldn't feel the way you should because yours "was just" a break up; of course they are different levels but that doesn't stop you or the other person from hurting. A heart break could be very devastating. If you're going through both, less or more, you're worth it. I love you and you're doing so well. If you're seeing this, imagine me hugging you, I'm here for you. I love you and I'm proud of you. Keep praying. Keep fighting. ❤❤
Every day i wanna die Everyday i try to aviod to go out Every day i cry over 2to3 hours Everday i can't even bare looking at food Everyday i lie about being okay Everyday i feel like i am falling deeper in this hole i am in Everyday i think how would i be if i was happy Everyday i wonder when is this pain gonna go Everyday i feel like i am nothing Everyday i fake a smile Everyday i think whats the point of me being here Everyday i wonder how long will i live before i end up dying
Trusting someone is hard , and when you’ve got to that point where the person you trusted most .. broke you into a million pieces you’ve had enough and just wanna end it all
Dr Frank can make your ex come back to you begging you for a second chance. He helped me restore back my broken relationship of 5 years by bringing back my ex Also Dr Frank always keep up with his words I strongly Advise you to seek help from him....
She left me, I know she won't come back. The worst type of pain is when you gave them the chance to change but they stab you in the back and don't care. It's when they act like nothing happened, like you weren't best friends for years. It's when they act like it's your fault, or when they act like they didn't promise to stay by your side. That is really the worst type of pain.
the other night i got really drunk and i called my friend and i don’t know what made me start crying but i did and i just poured my heart out. i told her everything, i told her i wanted to die. a couple weeks ago she slept with my brother and i was in the bed asleep right next to her but i knew and i forgave her but the other day she snuck into his room and they cuddled or whatever and she said she liked him and it hurt. like it almost hurt worse. she is the only constant in my life and the only person i’ve ever really trusted. i love her so much it hurts and i don’t want her to leave me so i tell myself i’m not mad but i am. i know she feels guilty about it but i’m still so mad bc this isn’t even the first time it’s happened. i’m already struggling so much with my home life and that just pushed me over the edge i guess. idk usually i push things away and don’t think about them. pretend they aren’t there but that night it just all came rushing back to me and i felt everything and it tore me up so bad. i was crying so loud and i knew the whole house could hear me but nobody came to check on me. lydia just listened to me and started crying too. we hung up and i threw up on the floor and passed out (i was beyond fucked up) that was a couple days ago and she hasn’t even asked me if i was okay. i mean she came to my house and ate sushi with me while my mom was gone and we smoked and stuff but she didn’t ask me how i was. it’s not that i wanted her to like i didn’t rlly wanna talk about it but at the same time i kinda did want her to ask how i was. i wanted her to tell me she was worried and that she didn’t want me to die. i needed to know she cared, that someone cared bc i had told her everything but she didn’t. to be honest idk if i’m even gonna post this, sometimes i just write everything down here and i don’t even post it i just delete it all but idk what to do anymore. i need to get out of this house, away from my mom and my brother. i need someone to listen to me and actually care. i need help
Dr Frank can make your ex come back to you begging you for a second chance. He helped me restore back my broken relationship of 5 years by bringing back my ex Also Dr Frank always keep up with his words I strongly Advise you to seek help from him....
I miss him like crazy and I don't know what to do cause i just cry and watch videos of me and him having fun and i realize i lost him for good...i miss him so much but i bet he doesn't care and he won't come back...
They have taken her away.... how can I ever accept that she is gone for ever, I need het so much at this moment. When I met het I never thoughr she would end up so special. Thank you dear sindy for everything you have done for me... I would give up everything to give you a least hug and to say that I love you, because I do love you, and I also know you don't know how special and unique you are.... I love you
How easy it is to fake being okay and pretend to be happy when deep down you can't feel a thing.Feeling so numb and empty not knowing what day it is because you feel like it's just a never ending cycle.I wake up and i think again really?I have to deal with all of this again.
I just.. just wish I could stop fighting you. Stop fighting who you are. I get better and then I hurt..I hurt you again. I im sorry. I look at you and say you aren't good enough, I starve you, I hurt you. I'm sorry I can't look in the mirror and tell you, you're beautiful, truthfully. I'm sorry I blame you for everything.
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I wonder what it's like...
To wake up and love yourself
To look in the mirror and not want to cry
To waight yourself and not want to puke when u see the number
To be with friends and not feel ugly
To go into public and not feel insecure
To not want to try and hide your shape with specific clothes
To not want to hurt yourself
I just wonder what it's like to love yourself and life...
I'm skinny yet again I still think I'm fat....
I wonder....
I want to know how it feels to be proud of myself my body but it's as if it's a hard task I want to stop harming myself for others I want to be on my own and from toxic friendships but I keep going and staying in the past I hate having anxiety attacks being claustrophobic vomiting myself to stay thin having flashbacks at random moments and just feeling the odd one out I hate being suicidal for a short time I just want to live in peace
A fellow depressed Nctzen.
í αlwαчѕ wσndєr, αnхíєtч íѕ αffєctíng mч ѕtudíєѕ í dσn't whαt tσ dσ....
reading comments in these type of videos are...sad..
Yeah
life is sad
And feeling empty
Everyday I wanna overdose
Everyday feels like I’m losing
Everyday I’m tired of trying
Everyday I wanna give up on myself
Am I worth it?.
Yes baby I promise you , you are worth it
Young Savage1091 yes, honey. Good people hurt. We are all in the same boat of life and some time yes, I feel I rather be death hurts so much.
yes ♡
Don't let the bullcrap apply to you, you are strong and fuck everything else hmu if you need to talk😘🖤
Young Savage1091, I may not know you, and this might mean nothing to you. But your worth it every one in your life is lucky to know you
The saddest people smile the brightest
The people in more pain are the kindest
Remember you matter, you matter to me.❤️
Emotionally: I'm done
Mentally: I'm drained
Spiritually: I'm dead
Physically: I smile
it's sad really
that the only reason
I haven't done anything bad to myself yet
is because
I don't want to hurt anyone
but the reason
I wanna do something bad to myself
is because
everyone is hurting me.
🙂💔
If you ever need someone give me a message i can feel the pain in that way too
@@sophiejudd9388 ok 😪😩❤😥 your instagram?
@@mugheeskhan4673 i have a email but no instagram.
@@mugheeskhan4673 i also have fb if thats any help x
It’s hard when your parents don’t know what you’re going through because you don’t want them to know that the child they raised doesn’t want to be here anymore.
It’s hard when you don’t have a shoulder to cry on so you have to hold it all in, leaving your heart shredding into 10000 pieces.
It’s hard when you want to keep everyone around you happy and not drag them into your messed up life so whenever they ask if you’re okay, you’re always good 👍🏼
Everything is hard but remember you’re here for a reason and you’re born to die anyway so enjoy life while you have it because as you’re reading this the number of death rates are increasing! Be happy that you’re still breathing and still have a life that you can improve over time. PAIN IS TEMPORARY, a glow stick has to break before it glows!!!
Keep fighting 💪🏼
I just hold onto the thought that there is a light at the end of tunnel. I literally have one goal in life in that is to be a father. I wanna raise a son/daughter that wouldn’t be scared to come out and ask for help when they are hurting. Sounds corny but I feel like the sadness I feel would finally subside once I have another part of me to love.
@@everydaybro142 That’s so cute, and yes it’s like being there for someone you love, having them rely on you too. ( a shoulder to cry on) 🤭🥺
I rlly hope you reach your goal bro!👍🏼
Have you ever just woke up and then just couldn’t find the energy to get yourself out of bed? Have you ever found yourself heartbroken and nobody cared? Heh, I know I have...
Me too
Finally someone who understands and I thought maybe I was the only one
AHAHAHAHHAHAH YEAHHH! It happens every morning! Sometimes I start crying when I wake up!
@@laurarenee6157 lol
Ok
You know it’s getting bad again when you start coming back to these audios……it’s getting worse……
this is perfect.... I cried again when I listened to it
ahw that's so sweet! Please don't cry tho
It feels so good that i still can cry :)
It's good that I'm able to cry again. I keep gaslighting against my will, that's good that I can cry through those videos
I just feel like a failure.
My mom left me and dad with the words "child you're 20 you don't need a mom anymore" and just 6 months after my dad just leaves me alone with my thoughts to go for a weekend with a woman he only met online.
The only thing really keeping me alive is my cat and my horse wich I just don't want to leave alone.
I just can't anymore.
Ps: sorry for the bad spelling I'm liturally typing with tears in my eyes....
Hey you dont know me but I bet your an amazing person and you parents shouldn't have left you but just remember there is people out there that love you like I love you hope you are safe and didn't hurt yourself♥️♥️♥️
There are lots of kids just like you! Lots of kids who’ve been left to fend for themselves when they were only 5 years old! I see them all over the place where I am on the streets. It’s so sad seeing them without a home a mom a dad, begging for money. There are also lots of kids who work as trash men when they’re only 10 years old. I’m so sorry your parents left you like that! I can understand exactly how you feel because I see it every single day outside. Life goes on though sometimes you can’t go backwards or you can’t get anywhere in life. 🤷♀️ a wise thing someone once told me, you have to except the things that happens no matter how severe it was. These things that happen are just lessons. Please understand there’s someone watching you everyday. His name is Jesus. ❤️ Keep your head up and stay strong hunny!
You're worth it. I'm so proud of you for being here
it's scary to think how much depressing things can be hidden with just a simple smile.
Once I start crying it feels like it will never stop. I just need the pain to be gone 💔
Chelle Baby same
I have learned to cry without making a sound.
All my friends are like, "You should stop crying all the time. It's werid." It's funny how they think it's that easy to stop. I can control my depression, but explaining that just isn't worth it...
Yeah😞
It’s been 2 years
Are you okay now?
It’s not even like you want to die, you just want the pain the stop, the frustration, broken, anger and negative feelings to stop so you think dying would help that
Okay, if this is the last thing that you ever see; I can handle that.
I'm done.
Do you undestand I let this person in- I don't let people in. You knew this, you've taken her from me.
I needed her and you've broken me.
What er- what happened?
Please don't ask.
Because then I'm going to have to try to come up with an answer and I'll start crying I'm afraid I'm not going to be able to stop.
That what I need I just need, for the pain to be gone.
It hurts so bad I can't breath- I can't- I can't do worse. I can't, ok? I shouldn't have to!
You told me once that you weren't the hero. I was so alone and I owe you so much.
One more thing, one more miracle for me; don't be dead.
Just for me.
Just stop it.
Stop this.
I saved your life time and time again. I chose you, I sacrificed everyone and everything for you.
Your just gonna turn your back on me?
Stay.
If you take one more step were done, ok? No more surprises, no more excuses, no more chances. We're done.
I hate him.
This isn't goodbye this is until we find a way.
thank you so much
You are an amazing person you need to understand that people are amazing that's all you need to know to accomplish life
em baz this explains me perfectly thank you so much for putting how I feel into words
The don’t be dead part got me 😢
You know that feeling... Where u have no energy. Where... U wake up but u don't want to get out of ur bed bc u have no motivation. Where u cry day and night begging the pain to leave u alone. But no matter how far u run it always caches up. Where it always comes back to u,
Where u sit and stair at a wall or something. When all u feel is numb,
Where, u don't even care anymore, u walk across a road, and u don't even look both ways, bc u could care less. That deep down u want a car to hit u.
When all u feel is agonizing pain, physical and mental. Where u sit in ur room and cry until u can't cry no more.
When u hurt urself and think " I deserve this pain " that u just want to sleep ur hole life bc the truth is, sleep is ur heaven.
Where u try and try to be good enough. Where u always put on a smile even when u don't want to but u do it anyways, so people don't worry Abt u.
Where u just want to die. To take the pain away.
Bc I do. But somehow u still manage to get back up and try it again.
Love Isabella,
“tell your mom” they say
i have the all the courageous do it, tell her
i tell her ima long ass note
“ok we will get help after cheer ends” she says
cheer ends
“why can’t you do the kitchen” she says
i burst out into tears
i do it but not how she wants it
i’m crying
i send a pic to my friend saying she made me cry again
she goes through my phone
gets mad at me
“i’m sorry but why haven’t you taken me to therapy” i say
“you haven’t come and asked yet” she says
“i don’t think that’s something you forget” i say
i get grounded
i get my phone back
i fall asleep on ft with my friend
wakes me up and slaps me at least 15 times
i get grounded again
when does it end
i dont want help i want her to love me
im done with this
i can’t take it
my life is living hell
no matter what she is mad
i “smile”
i
can’t
do
it
any
more
are you okay? im here for you❤️
My mom acts like she cares and says that she knows everything to do for me with my depression and anxiety and hit but then she yells at me basically telling me I’m useless and just I’m so fucking done because she’ll also being up the topic of my depression and she knows that it fucking upsets me to talk about it because it makes be uncomfortable and to top it all off I have did and nobody knows and my system hates my parents but most of all my mom cause she’s a complete and utter self Righteous bitch who only thinks and hears what she wants to fucking hear and I’m just so fucking done cause before I came to visit her I was in a mental state that I was decently happy with and then the first night I’m here she sees the cuts on my leg, brings up my depression, gets me to idiotically trust her, and then stabs me in my ass like I think the next day and now I want to kill myself more than I did before because she is emotionally damaging me more than I need to be and it’s all just complete shit
Sorry I really just needed to get that off my chest
Ava Hummer i'm so sorry to hear that. i cannot imagine what this must feel like for you. you can always contact me to talk about it. i'm here for you
A B thanks
I know how you feel... but u need to know that you’re loved! Ur mom may not show it... but she loves you with all her heart!
My mother thought I was suicidal when she found out I was cutting, and I just laughed in my head and thought "I couldn't do that. I'm trying to stop hurting others" and now I realize how effed up my way of thinking was. That not hurting others meant I had to hurt myself. I'm not sure if other people feel this either, but I've been "clean" for about a year now, but I still feel the urge for it, like an addiction. Sometimes, I'll absentmindedly trace the scars and pull my hand away, because I realize that they don't ache when you touch them, at least, not physically, and for a moment, I had never wanted anything more than for those marks to ache
Its funny how keeping everyoune else happy means that we have to eat ourselves up inside
And that the urges became a way to cope
I dont let people in because I'm too afraid to love,to hurt to fall for someone just to have them leave me again. No matter how happy I look I haven't even let my best friend in all the way yet and I've known her for 3 years
i gave him everything, every drop of happiness and love i had left in me. Little did i know, he was only giving me half of his.
You’re not alone 😔
Don't waste your feelings on people who dont value them
I can't breathe at all, Is this the time? Where am I going? Please not hell again, I want to go heaven but I don't deserve it. I'm nothing at all
Depression Sucks you are someone
You're not alone i am with you ♡
I know the feeling. Ur not alone
You’re not alone
@@kittystxr I am alone
When someone asks if you're okay you gave them the same answer "I'm fine" but really your dying in the inside and your anxiety is getting the better of you
No no bad go home nt shering bad selfed gues ok
Spencer Hastings for the win.
*This is from me to you!*
We've all felt pain before.
No ones actually happy.
Wanna know a secret?
The people YOU see smiling everyday? They are HURTING on the inside.
I wish this pain didn't exist but, it does.
I know I'm late to this, but, you know the people acting happy?
I know that's you.
YOU are not fine.
Just remember, be yourself, everybody else is taken so you have to be YOU.
I've felt this overwhelming pain and I still do!
We can get through this, together.
from: - Actual Trash -
How do you be yourself when you don't know who you are?
i want to let go...this battle in my head is killing me...i’ve been holding on for too long and i’m loosing my grip 😭
Some days my depression hits so hard that I can hardly breath. It's like there is a darkness inside me and and no matter what I do I cant seem to stop it from spreading. And as it spreads it takes away all my joy and will to live until all that is left is pain.. It's the worst feeling in the world. But as always I will put up my mask so no one notices.
it’s crazy how we are listening to the same thing but we are all going through different things
and i’m tired of being called dramatic. i’ve lost myself. and it’s because he walked out. so easily. he’s all i’ve ever had and now i’m back in this lonely place. filled with nothing but nothingness.
I know how it feels. He was and still is my whole world to me even though i lost him. It feels like i lost the whole reason to live.
Never really knew these channels existed until I lost my best friend. RIP my biggest pillar of self confidence
I love this song with all my heart, and now that I’ve listened to this audio so many times, I’ve fallen in love with both. I’m glad that this song and this audio were put in the same video.
The Vampire Diaries lines bring tears into my eyes
No matter how much time I put into myself.. I still feel like I’m not enough even though I should.. even though we should feel beautiful of our body..It takes me awhile to finally feel beautiful and confident and yet.. I fell back down to where I started
Once I told my grandma that I had depression and she said “ oh know that’s awful.” While giving me the look of “yeah yeah yeah just get over it it’s only a mood swing.” To this day my depression has been going on for 5 years.... but it’s “ just a mood swing....”
Right
Depression is definitely not a mood swing it a serious thing and more people need to speak about it I personally don't have it but I know people that have depression and some days they are very happy living their best lives but other days they unhappy and feeling like the world is against them your a strong person so please don't give up keep fighting and I hope you are safe and your family♥️♥️lots of love
ml its not a mood swing. i heard this quote one time:
"Depression is like being trapped in a thunderstorm. You don't know when it's going to hit, you never know how long it's going to last, and when it finally passes, you're left to survey the damage and pick up the pieces"
I have depression and anxiety. I’ve had 2 suicide attempts in the past 3 weeks. Honestly, it kills me. I try to die and I wake up feeling worse than before. I miss my dog, my healthy dad before he got cancer from drinking, my friends, me before I changed, me being able to smile, my family being normal, me to be pretty, to look into the mirror and find something I actually like, and not live in such a shitty world. I can’t handle it anymore, because no one understands that just because you think I’m all these good things doesn’t mean I actually am.
wow you’ve gone through a lot and i’m sorry you’ve had to. how are you holding up?
This is life not everybody will understand what you feel they may say that you're being dramatic but the truth is you're on the time that you just want to be gone.
I cry every night..
It sucks. Sometimes I dont even get to breath I watch depression videos to see if they relate.. alot of them do.. this one is right. I did sacrifice everything for 1 person, I dont trust anybody even my friends that are 3 years (As friends) they know everything but i still dont trust them... You feel empty and lost you dont know what do you, you start to cut yourself but it doesnt work... You feel like everybody is judging you i have a friend which is more depressed then I am but Im starting to rethink about that..
Im sorry if i made your day bad...
""I just want someone to tell me with a smile that I've done a good job""
"But all I hear is that you are useless"
Here I am again, watching the same video.. because I got my heart broken again.. and I can't take it anymore.. I feel broken and sad and depressed. It hurts. And I'm tired of feeling like this. 😢
Maybe we should make heartbreak group 😭😭💔💔💔💔
Everything will be ok❤️
Me too...she..I loved her. She was my crush. She loved me back...or did she? She gaslighted me. Anytime I vent to her she just says ‘go to sleep’. I want someone to love me. I want my ex back.
I just got my heart broken, I lost the love of my life and I will spending the rest of my life just wishing to take it back... the worst part of life is losing someone who meant so much to you...😢 good bye...
Isabel flores i know how you feel, the love of my life broke up with me and the next day went to another girl and he threw everything we had like it was nothing
I just lost my son...
I losty love because of ego I committed sin.. Ever since I'm just apologizing for what I did to her... I pray to God one day she forgive and forgot what I done..
Isabel Flores i feel this so much! i just lost mine... 💔
This is what im going through right now. And it damn hurts and dont know how to stand up again. 😭
Everything hurts for me, this hurts bad😭
I feel your pain
& stefan salvatore from vampire diaries too 😭
Why do all these videos I click on there is a part from TVD I just wanna cry damn it
Everyone who feels like this know you are so amazing beautiful wonderful. Don’t give up things will get better someone loves you. I know I do. You are so amazing... beautiful wonderful strong handsome smart worth it. you are not nothing you are something great. No matter what people say. It hurts me so bad when I see the pain in this world I wish there was no pain I just wish you all could see your beauty and worth because everyone is so amazingly made. Please don’t give it up! I love you all so much just let it get better not matter how bad it seems.
Thanks really needed this
@@kabiin3190 of course I’m glad I could help you in some way 😁 I’m always here for you
@@1pukegl1tter_ thanks that's why I love being here on internet & search for what am going through I can find many people who goes through this & know well about it but real life is too scary to live that haven't met anyone who is going through exactly what I am going through life. Even though I don't know you personally big hugs to you❤❤❤❤
You know what really hurts ?
When you talk to someone for years and have the best conversations with them,
Even if it’s just a small talk.
Talking to them made your whole day.
And one day, they just act like you don’t even exist. 😔😔😔 it has been 6 months now still I am in pain and wondering why she left me.
Yeah it hurts i lost my boyfriend (he left me) just because of who i am. To be honest im loosing all hopes and feel ampty.
I wish I could fall asleep and never wake up instead of hurting my self.... everything I do to make me happy makes everyone else feel bad..
I feel every word of this song. I can't breathe anymore
I appreciate you allowing me to listen to every word
Dr Frank can make your ex come back to you begging you for a second chance. He helped me restore back my broken relationship of 5 years by bringing back my ex Also Dr Frank always keep up with his words I strongly Advise you to seek help from him....
Text him on WhatsApp.....
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The Sherlock part got me cause I was crying so much in that scene
wooow perfectiee hieroww!! echt heel mooi gemaakt maren!
1:20 hits home 😓
When your just crying but then you hear footsteps coming upstairs and you just wipe youre tears of your face beacause no one knows how you feel
I am trying so hard just to cry to release the pain within by listening to these videos but they remain there its like I'm screaming but cannot be heard
This hit me hard, it's hard pretending to be ok. It hurts when people ask me how I am, though they don't care they're just curious. I say I'm fine but can't you just look at my eyes you'll know I'm not I'm just a faker a pretender
Depression is keeping me hostage in my mind , in my own bedroom . 😪😭
it’s like i can feel someone pickvup my heart and everyday there slowly ripping itvinto pieces. the feeling is dreadful, when i cry it is like someone is chocking me i can’t breath being alive doesn’t make me happy
Tankyou gues not maked played comeing holeinding roomed photo gofer maked not good bad gues grouped maked and shering not good come mashed need an no no no pressure and pressing and need and viewing it into pieces maked auto mate alley come ganna but bad selfed matter ok this feel not good comeing tacked but some telling all tacked badbaf come come tacked ganna not good bad????????100%
You know what hurts..
Hating yourself for still loving someone you shouldn't.. Someone who just didn't care about you but yet you still stayed bc you thought you could Fix them but you couldn't it always ended the same way..
these kind of videos have saved my life. X
Just when I thought everything was getting better, here I am back at the beginning
When you listened to all this just to feel something.. Just to break the walls you built in hopes of keeping pain out that now are keeping pain in.. You just want to feel..
I feel so alone around everyone, that I cant breathe.
Promised he wouldn't disappear again..but did. Im still shattered.
I am giving life a one last try one last try i just can't handle it anymore it hurts so bad i can't breathe
i got the chills, definitely using this at some point :) , love it ! :D
I keep on telling myself the truth but I don't want to believe it because I don't want to let go I don't want to lose the best thing that's ever happened to me and damn. It hurts like fuck man...
caroline and elena 💔
Why am I here, 20 minutes ago I was listening to pop songs and now I'm here. Why am I so sad all of a sudden? Why?
I'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR SOMETHING LIKE THIS FOR MY BOOKTRAILER OMG I LOVE YOU SO MUCH THIS IS PERFECTTTTTTT
We’re all depressed here in this comments section. This is our family right here all the people depressed can only heal each other and that’s the most beautiful thing In the world 🌺🥺x♥️♥️
😔😔
I let people in my life and then they left me for others, they just used me to come closer to others and now I’m scared of being with people so I just lay in my bed all day and do nothing I don’t even sleep at night because of all the thoughts in my head💔😞
I cn relate too
The first bit was Elijah to Klaus from The Originals. When I watched the episode I nearly cried!!
OMG this is awesome!! Sooo beautiful...❤️
I’m 12 my friends just think i’m sad over a little subject when i’m crying.I guess i’ve been crying about that one subject for 2 1/2 years.I don’t want to tell anyone how i feel because they won’t understand what i feel because apparently i’m to young to feel emotions or know how i’m feeling.I smile and laugh over the inside of the breathless emotions inside of me that i let out sometimes in my bedroom alone for hours.
Im so sorry 😔
....I START CRYING IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS TOOOOO 😭😭😭😭😭
I hate this!!!!
I NEEED THIS FOR MY GOODBYE VIDEOOO... How do I use it
+Elaine Shadowdawn ahw please don't cryy! You can download it with a youtube to mp3 downloader and then make a vid with the audio
Please be safe, I’m surely you are beautiful and loved, i love you.
I have lost everyone my depresson started when i was 9😭I cry my self to sleep every night I try to tell my dad everything that's going on but he won't listen I attempted 4times
Plz dont hurt ur self
I'm so proud of you all.
You're worth it.
I'm sorry if you feel any less,
I'm sorry I can't be there to physically hug you.
God loves you and care about you.
Don't ever think you're feelings are any less or invalidated.
Whether someone else is depressed due to a terminal illness and you think you shouldn't feel the way you should because yours "was just" a break up; of course they are different levels but that doesn't stop you or the other person from hurting. A heart break could be very devastating.
If you're going through both, less or more, you're worth it. I love you and you're doing so well.
If you're seeing this, imagine me hugging you, I'm here for you. I love you and I'm proud of you.
Keep praying. Keep fighting.
❤❤
this omg this hit me so hard I'm using this thank you aaa hit me with a brick
this is amazing! I will use it in future! :D
caroline forbes from vampire diaries 😭
her voice in the beginning looks like spencer from pll❤
Every day i wanna die
Everyday i try to aviod to go out
Every day i cry over 2to3 hours
Everday i can't even bare looking at food
Everyday i lie about being okay
Everyday i feel like i am falling deeper in this hole i am in
Everyday i think how would i be if i was happy
Everyday i wonder when is this pain gonna go
Everyday i feel like i am nothing
Everyday i fake a smile
Everyday i think whats the point of me being here
Everyday i wonder how long will i live before i end up dying
Trusting someone is hard , and when you’ve got to that point where the person you trusted most .. broke you into a million pieces you’ve had enough and just wanna end it all
Dr Frank can make your ex come back to you begging you for a second chance. He helped me restore back my broken relationship of 5 years by bringing back my ex Also Dr Frank always keep up with his words I strongly Advise you to seek help from him....
Text him on WhatsApp.....
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deze audio is echt gaaf Maren!
I'm not sure how to feel about this feeling nostalgic to me..
She left me, I know she won't come back. The worst type of pain is when you gave them the chance to change but they stab you in the back and don't care. It's when they act like nothing happened, like you weren't best friends for years. It's when they act like it's your fault, or when they act like they didn't promise to stay by your side. That is really the worst type of pain.
Elijah❤️
Beautiful audio ❤️💋❣
I download this and I listen to it every time I'm sad and that's all the time
the other night i got really drunk and i called my friend and i don’t know what made me start crying but i did and i just poured my heart out. i told her everything, i told her i wanted to die. a couple weeks ago she slept with my brother and i was in the bed asleep right next to her but i knew and i forgave her but the other day she snuck into his room and they cuddled or whatever and she said she liked him and it hurt. like it almost hurt worse. she is the only constant in my life and the only person i’ve ever really trusted. i love her so much it hurts and i don’t want her to leave me so i tell myself i’m not mad but i am. i know she feels guilty about it but i’m still so mad bc this isn’t even the first time it’s happened. i’m already struggling so much with my home life and that just pushed me over the edge i guess. idk usually i push things away and don’t think about them. pretend they aren’t there but that night it just all came rushing back to me and i felt everything and it tore me up so bad. i was crying so loud and i knew the whole house could hear me but nobody came to check on me. lydia just listened to me and started crying too. we hung up and i threw up on the floor and passed out (i was beyond fucked up) that was a couple days ago and she hasn’t even asked me if i was okay. i mean she came to my house and ate sushi with me while my mom was gone and we smoked and stuff but she didn’t ask me how i was. it’s not that i wanted her to like i didn’t rlly wanna talk about it but at the same time i kinda did want her to ask how i was. i wanted her to tell me she was worried and that she didn’t want me to die. i needed to know she cared, that someone cared bc i had told her everything but she didn’t.
to be honest idk if i’m even gonna post this, sometimes i just write everything down here and i don’t even post it i just delete it all but idk what to do anymore. i need to get out of this house, away from my mom and my brother. i need someone to listen to me and actually care. i need help
I’m so sorry. I’m here for you.
I love the vampire diaries audios
it’s amazing to me that people wake up every morning and say, “yeah another day, let’s do it.” how do people do it? i don’t know how.
Dr Frank can make your ex come back to you begging you for a second chance. He helped me restore back my broken relationship of 5 years by bringing back my ex Also Dr Frank always keep up with his words I strongly Advise you to seek help from him....
Text him on WhatsApp.....
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Wow 0:24
I miss him like crazy and I don't know what to do cause i just cry and watch videos of me and him having fun and i realize i lost him for good...i miss him so much but i bet he doesn't care and he won't come back...
Bet??
I’m concentrating on the song over the audio
I have non stoped loved him for 2 years an d still do ..
They have taken her away.... how can I ever accept that she is gone for ever, I need het so much at this moment. When I met het I never thoughr she would end up so special. Thank you dear sindy for everything you have done for me... I would give up everything to give you a least hug and to say that I love you, because I do love you, and I also know you don't know how special and unique you are.... I love you
i can’t anymore
How easy it is to fake being okay and pretend to be happy when deep down you can't feel a thing.Feeling so numb and empty not knowing what day it is because you feel like it's just a never ending cycle.I wake up and i think again really?I have to deal with all of this again.
I’m done I can’t do it anymore I try so hard but the pain won’t go away i just want it all to stop
Hey I will be here for you. Plz dont give up I will be here for u. You can talk to me
This is so perfect!
I just.. just wish I could stop fighting you. Stop fighting who you are. I get better and then I hurt..I hurt you again. I im sorry. I look at you and say you aren't good enough, I starve you, I hurt you. I'm sorry I can't look in the mirror and tell you, you're beautiful, truthfully. I'm sorry I blame you for everything.
my mom passed away almost five years ago. i watched her take her last breath from an asthma attack.. i don’t know how to make anyone happy
I try my best to be alright but its so hard im done praying for my life now it don’t matter I don’t matter anymore i miss her sm
i felt this 💔😪