NOT BROKEN! Build RESILIENCE To Heal Wounds of the Past
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This might be TMI but my action is just committing to showering daily. Ahem…
A very good action.
for all of us that struggle with inertia and self-doubt, even in the little things, l know your commitment to self-care, even if it's just a shower, isn't just about a shower, and it's really important
You gotta start somewhere, Sis. Best wishes to you.
Thats how I started. Today I am thriving living my dream (going to graduate school to get my doctorate)… you have no idea of the power of each little step.
Good ! That’s how I started ! Keep going
This brought tears to my eyes just thinking about it.
It happened yesterday on my trip back from California to Idaho in the tiny mining town of Beatty, Nevada just east of Death Valley.
Early in the morning, I drove into a gas station to fill up for the trip home. It was bitter cold. Slowly, but intentionally, I was surrounded by burros while sitting in my vehicle. They looked cold, lonely, and hungry. I rolled down my windows and they stuck their huge heads inside. I was nose to nose with beautiful animals that yearned for my attention, and some edibles, which I gave them. Their warm, brown eyes looked so sad.
In the convience store I asked the girl about the donkeys. She said that the local miners use them for packing supplies in and out, then abandon them, hence they wander the streets of town, usually single file, looking for hope, shelter, food and love. She even said you can adopt them and take one or more home for free.
It's a good metaphor for us neglected and emotionally abandoned by our families of origin: wandering aimlessly, looking for something--anything, to fill the huge voids.
If I had the means, I would have taken all six of those amazing beasts, one being a momma and her baby.
Thank you for sharing that. Very heartbreaking but a perfect metaphor. We just have to build our own families 🕊️
Really?!
Broke my heart💔. I can't handle anything sad - from anyone that might be ill, neglected, hurt (physically, emotionally, mentally)- or worse! I can't manage death of loved ones, etc. It's constant sadness. Craizey how “life” sneaks up & kicks butt😢
@@sandracedar368 my post about the abandoned donkeys made you sad?
I didn't mean to make anyone feel sad.
The animals just reminded me of neglected people out in the cold, both physically, and emotionally.
But, we C-PTSD sufferers have hope now.
Anna Runkle is one of the first through that "wall of pain", with a powerful story to tell, and the insights that only a fellow sojourner could relate.
I get academic advice all the time, but it takes someone who has lived it out in "the dirty" streets to bring the "truth bombs" home to the heart.
Sandra, you are in a community that can support you to find more joy than sadness. "Reverse the curse".
One thing I look forward to Heaven is that it will be absent of all sadness, tears, regret, and death of any kind.
I think I speak for a lot more people than myself when I say we are so thankful for the time and energy you put into these videos.
Thank you.
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy 🥰😇
Absolutely
Amen to that! I’m new and these are literally keeping me alive.
I've felt so tired and worn out ever since I was a teenager. Sometimes I feel so hopeless because I feel like I don't have the energy and tenacity left required to live a happy life. Reading the comments in this video makes me feel less alone, thanks for sharing this video with us! I'll take the time to digest the messages in this video ❤️
Me too! 27 yrs with struggling thru Daily life with Chronic Fatigue Immune Deficiency Syndrome/ ME then realizing I have all these issues as well. I'm WEARY!! 💔 😭
How to find the energy to start from scratch at 61.... to build a whole new life. Yikes
I also think being winter exacerbates these feelings and makes us more aware of them
💚💚💚 yesssss
Within the past year, I've made some big changes: gradually reduced and stopped all medications, started lifting weights 5 days a week and started walking for at least 45 minutes outdoors daily.
I weighed 235lbs at my highest, now at 153.
I also completely changed my diet (zero processed foods, sugar, alcohol, wheat).
It's actually been easier than I thought, but it takes persistence and consistency!
I can't overstate how important these changes have been for my health -- mental and physical.
I wish I would have made these changes 20 years ago, but better late than never.
I want to do this ❤
Thats awesome , ive been self medicating with food , weed , alcohol since the 80s , working on letting go of vices …
Like its not COOL to eat well and take care of myself !!!
@@annelbeab8124 Thank you and the same to you ❤️
@debrawynne5735 I know how hard it can be to let go of vices, and I self medicated for many, many years as well. We all have our own unique paths and challenges, and although I've had my ups and downs over the past year, I'm trying to stay positive and keep growing and learning. I wish you the very best on your journey!
Way to go!! ra7ph_w
Life is passing me by. Let's do this!
You got this! -Calista@TeamFairy
I have preferred being alone since I was a small girl. Easier…but not healthy. I’m an introvert that can be an extrovert when the need arises, but it’s not a smooth transition and it drains me. Also, anger is new to me. I think I realize now how much I put up with and let break me when I was younger. You would be hard pressed to find me intimidated now, lol.
Healing work is never easy but it’s worth it. I’m on my way but not in huge strides. I take it day by day. I’m feeling more peace now.
One thing I make sure to never, ever do is claim victimhood. I’m a survivor. We don’t give up. Ever.
Thanks for sharing this. It means a lot to me, as I am also an introvert.
I started taking Cold Showers daily.
Resilience is Building!!! Really !!!😲
Cold shower (or rather 2 or 3 x 30 second spells during my usual shower) to reregulate are my main go to each and every day.
These are initially quite difficult at first, but after about 2 yrs it can be quite exhilarating.
Oh my gosh!
That one line is me through and through!
"Don't mistake paralysis for self-care"
That is what I was doing!
That was me all of last week!!!
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Yup. New years... "All Dressed Up, But Not Gonna Go."... and most other semi-inimate social gatherings where I might have to adapt, act, pretend, compromise, engage, approach... it's becoming harder and harder to do 'socialise" these days... but no problem jumping into the freezing ocean, New Years Day, with over 100 total strangers. Crazy. :))
I'm going to listen to this over and over again and take notes. You have described so much that I'm familiar with and I'm in the process of healing and always will be. I just realized I may not be as happy because I am harboring bitterness. Thank you for all the videos and every time I listen to you it really helps me.
This video is so precise and one the best you've done. Never underestimate your input into this world, many thanks.
So nice of you
I blamed myself for my trauma coping mechanism which is to shut down so all I can do is listen to you while at work (I'm a laundry attendant) and the moving around being around strangers and I'm safe it regulates my nervous system you are like a calming presence and I just take it all in! Thank you for your videos!! I don't have health insurance so it's the only therapy I can afford at the moment but I share my healing with everyone that will listen❤ pass on the lessons you've taught me !!
I'm so glad you're here! If you haven't already, try Anna's free course 'The Daily Practice', here's a link: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice -Calista@TeamFairy
Thank you for this excellent explanation. I needed to hear this. I did grow up in "normal family" but now I understand I was neglected, and I never understand why. My parents are still together 67 years in happy marriage and don't think they did anything bad to me and my brother and my sister. All of us children have difficulty in our marriage, wrong partners and did not achieve some better quality of life. Thank you so much for sharing all this information, because every time I am learning something and it help me to move on in my life. Thank you so much.
Time stamps would be an incredibly helpful addition to your videos especially videos where you go over lists like this
32:10 This is what I commented on another lady's comment. She was stating how she left her husband because "It just wasn't working out." I mentioned how us dealing with CPTSD can distort our view of situations and our emotions tend to run high. Hopefully it wasn't the case, but it saddens me to think how many marriages end because of untreated CPTSD 😢 Then the cycle continues with the children.
47:39 Beautiful 😢❤
You are too amazing 🥺😭❤️
(blushes)
I'm so exhausted from fighting and masking all my life 😪
That must be difficult. You might want to check out Anna's free course for CPTSD. Jack@TeamFairy bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice
Thank you for putting in the work to create CCF. You have such compassion and provide such clarity, especially in our post-lockdown world.
I appreciate your wisdom.
Alright I've lost two important relationships this week, I am ready for this video 🤙
Ana I’m so grateful with God for you life. I don’t have a doubt that God is using your life to help us heal from traumas ❤
Your channel motivates me to keep moving forward. Thank you for providing guidance for those of us who becomes dysregulated with therapy.
This goes so well with the verse of the day: "Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen." Hebrews 11:1
I've been having a _feeling left behind and late bloomer_ these past few days. But I need to be more resilient and have faith because the vision I have for myself are much better than what my childhood trauma has to offer. ✨
Stay strong friends.
We must like her videos as much as possible because more real and authentic like this is nowhere to be found!
You're very kind!
This just makes me want to cry because it makes so much sense and I've spent my whole life in a state of fear and confusion. BUT I've been using these videos and slowly moving forward .
So glad you're here. Sending you encouragement! -Calista@TeamFairy
Eight things!!? What a wonder to have a real fairy godmother! They step in at just the right time, always with their magic wand to make everything better!
Anna, I have stopped the video to take the moment to comment for you. YOU have been a 'gift' for ME. Your ideas, your passion, your efforts, the time you've committed to 'Crappy Childhood Fairy'. . . . I am sending this message RIGHT NOW to you so YOU hear it. THANK YOU. May YOUR RESILIENCE continue. . . May you continue to share your gift
I’m sure Anna will want to read this. Thanks for taking the time to comment.
-Cara@TeamFairy
This made me cry. It’s good to hear the truth and reality about behaving broken and there being hope that this brokenness doesn’t have to define me and can be healed. Thank you !
Thanks for watching!
-Cara@TeamFairy
Paralysis; Being unable to leave an abusive situationship with a malignant-covert narcissist. He's exactly like my childhood abuser. Exactly. In therapy, hoping to get thee strength, soon.
This whole video is such a CALL OUT but in a good way. I feel seen and held accountable in a compassionate way. 😆💝Also I hope it's okay for me to say but your skin looks amazing and glowing in this video! Whatever you're doing looks fabulous!
It's not what happens to you, but rather what you happen to do about it!
Action in the face of fear is courage!
Thank you Anna for giving all of us hope!!
So many great little nuggets of truth in this one. Thank you Anna and all on the CCF crew who make these videos happen.
Thanks for listening! -Calista@TeamFairy
Anna, I am so grateful for the work you do. I don't feel so alone in my healing journey 🙏
I need to listen to this everyday.
Thank you for this service 😭❤️
@romanzanoni is good too.
Actually i feel really grateful that you explain these things in every video it really helps a lot in accepting myself and moving forward so big thank you love you
I wanted to let you know this helped me today . Thank you .
Wonderful! Thanks for sharing. -Calista@TeamFairy
This is like the best video ever. This lady already has her angel wings - beautiful, stunning. Thank You Anna, what an adorable name too
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For me, this is one of your best videos so far!! Also, love the shorter haircut.
Long hair is good on Anna too, to me.
Thanks, you are incredible ❤
Thank you for all you do 🤍
Just from this title I know I need to listen.
Listening now!
✋🏼 breast cancer at 35 years old. I am a freeze type who was unable to take steps to move my life forward until I was diagnosed with cancer. At the time, I was still in the mire of people who were very wrong for me. I didn’t understand CPTSD at that time, but I knew that all the therapy and self-healing I had done up to that point had gotten me through college, but I was completely clueless about what came next.
I got out of my comfort zone, made terrible mistakes and missed golden opportunities. Cancer gave me permission- and I was waiting for permission from outside myself- to take the reins of my life. 23:00 I never felt I was part of my own family- coming from a “broken home” and an “illegitimate child “ I saw that other people HS families, but the people I was related to never treated me like I was loved and belonged there.
25:20 I worry I’m self centered to the point where I still haven’t made my own friendships here in my adopted state (14 years later).
Thank you for addressing the fear. It’s true, the past is the past and everything else is the fear I have carried since then. I quit a horribly toxic job a few months ago with no new job to go to. I have been scared and dysregulated ever since, and terrified of looking for work even thought I need a job. But I can get through this as long as I’m mindful and gentle with myself. Thanks for your podcast!
Glad you are here!
Nika@TeamFairy
Last time I've pushed myself it resulted in complete burnout (from freelance software engineering enterpreneurship) and I could not work for 2.5 years, burned through almost all of my savings and used the little left to start a new "career" in a different area - chemistry, I've set up a new lab, learned basics myself, started making product and everything was great until I started feeling overwhelmed again. All I want now is just few weeks of vacation (I've never had one for years - cannot afford to not work even for couple days - everything I make covers just the living expenses, materials etc.) - so it's hamster wheel except I get more and more tired every month and there is no escape. I don't want to borrow money from anyone except my GF to which I return it whenever I can. I am almost at the end of my big project that took over 4 years and now it should start making serious money, but the problem is the exhausting due to inability to take break. Every single day of life cost me something over 100 USD so every day off just increases height of the wall I will have to climb over...
Omg Anna, i didnt watch the video yet but you look gorgeous in the thumbnail!
I get knocked back a lot, so as I'm getting older, I try less to be included.
Sometimes I think I'm ok, other times...not so much..
Have bit struggling with so much fear for several days now because of something that happened in my professional life. I literally saw myself publicly humiliated and stripped of dignity and reputation. These have been such rough. And although I have been healing for over a decade now, also using your techniques dear Anna, when I get thrown out of balance by life events I get submerged in my PTSD symptoms. I came to this video today and when you say "this fear about something horrible in your life that will happen" (I paraphrase) "is just a fantasy" it really hit me. I was driving with my dog, tears falling down my face in relief and gratitude. Thank you for all you do, it makes such difference to all of us. Blessings to you ❤
So glad you are here! Thank you for sharing your thoughts and remember, healing is possible!
Nika@TeamFairy
Very beautifully said and explained! Love that metaphor of resilience = muscle!
These longer video compilations are so awesome!!! Thank you Anna
I'm so glad they're helpful! -Calista@TeamFairy
Small actions, taken consistently empowers hope and healing… just get up again and again. ❤
YOUR STRENGTH IS ACTION!!! No matter how small … pebble by pebble…
Thanks for this. I am going through all this heaviness and healing 2.5 years now
Anna you gave me goosebumps again I'm so grateful that after being diagnosed 2 years and 2 days ago my strong determine Warrior woman came back because I spent the last 2 years struggling harder than I've ever struggled in my life and feeling pretty hopeless I related to everything that you said in that video I started I love people I love helping people I haven't been to a meeting in 2 years I grew up in 12 step meetings since I was 14 I love that realm but and I just I bought like a baby in Walmart's parking lot because I knew I had this I will get and continue to learn the tools that I need so that I can be free and live my best life and I love what you said about purpose cuz you know working in in the addiction pill was my passion and then I became disabled long story anyway and I do home health care part-time and I've done that for 5 years but I think that I'm leaving that as well that's part of this choice but thank you for talking about that because I'm so grateful that I just gave myself Goosebumps I will continue to watch and learn and grow from you and thank you all for making this possible
I love isolating. Quarantine 2020 was the best thing that ever happened for me, I loved it. Was sad to have to give it up and I can’t wait for the next pandemic. Pretty sick. 😢
I felt very much at peace then also. For me , that's because I didn't feel guilty for being inside and not mixing with others. Huge relief for me.
Thanks so much 😢
A video like this needs chapters
Thank you so much for this video Anna. Full of wonderful truths. ❤
I'm so glad the video was helpful :) -Calista@TeamFairy
I have a special needs son that keeps me going. I am commited to daily practice past few weeks and feeling a surge of something freeing within me. Thank you Anna for sharing and uplifting 🙏❤️
Your videos have helped me so much. Thank you.
Thank you. It's so healing to hear you describing my reality, my life, everyday struggles and gifts 🙏
This might have saved my life, today. 🙏🏽 thank you.
I love you Fairy 🧚♂️. It is like you know what I need to hear and then there you are!
I'm trying my best to self care while suffering from really bad backache, that ironically was caused by my parents neglect 😅 it's really tough for me to be on top of house stuff but I'm taking one thing at time.
My heart echos so hard with each of your videos... Thank you Mrs. Anna so much for your channel and your persistent effort on educating self-healing🙏
You are a great example of a person with a gift...you have an amazing teaching gift❤
Thank you so much 😊
Thanks for doing these videos and being here for us.
Thank you Anna. Perfect timing. This one is hitting home. That you truly understand and can explain it is such a gift.
Thank you for your kind words! So glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Such a great message... I will play it many times Anna
Thank you for this video! You made me cry because I felt finally somebody seeing into my soul😇💞
Anna, I was flabbergasted and delighted to hear you mention Fr. Michael Sweeney and the Siena Institute in the middle of this video! I know him - when he lived in Seattle some 20 years ago I met with him for life guidance, as did several of my friends. I am also a huge fan of the Siena Institute, their gifts discernment has been a powerful tool for me over the years.
You are SO blessed to have Fr. Michael as a mentor! (Talk about the gift of pastoring)… You’re doing amazing work with this channel, and I can truly see the effects of his counsel in your videos. So grounded, and so much wisdom.
I just live the way you present ideas and connect things. It all flows so perfectly💕
Thank You !!
This video came at a perfect time. I really needed to see/hear this
So glad! -Calista@TeamFairy
“And that is what it feels like to have life pass you by.” 🎯🎯🎯🎯🎯
This is such a helpful video. Thank you for all your hard work!
Anna you have helped me so much!! You tell my story and i finally feel hopeful!!
You got this!
-Cara@TeamFairy
❤I love how much you put into your videos to really help people vs trying sell things and yourself (like many other TH-camrs)
Thank you so much! So much of it is exactly what I struggle with. And you are wonderful teacher and communicator! God bless you!
So glad you're here! -Calista@TeamFairy
Thank you, Crappy Childhood Fairy Team! Lots of Love, Jaden XXXOOO
Thanks for watching! Glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Thank you so much for your videos! You have helped me so much! I really appreciate your work! Thank you!
I just want to add that the past couple of years were a different kind of abuse.
I feel like 2 years of my life were wasted just being scared of dying and no human contact and trying to get my degree online. I feel abused because of that now that it's over, I feel cheated out of time and like everything was a sick joke someone was playing.
I don't even know if I'm grateful for being alive after all these economic and health crises, I know I'm here but I feel like the danger of existing has multiplied and it can all be taken away from me at any moment.
that's why I feel really frustrated every time I'm not slightly in control of the small details in life. these notes you make help a lot in calming me down, I also try to paint whenever I get the chance to cause that's calming too,
but mostly I have a little sense of what's going on around me..
You're not alone in this. It's not childhood trauma, but these last two years will have created a new divergent form of PTSD for people who lived in Fear, accepted Isolation and ingested a toxic amount of Media overload ~ Information of the most negative kind. Best to your Recovery. Not accepting Abusive Policies, saying NO, is a great way to start Living again. :)
I struggle with taking action. I’m looking forward to this video. I am currently in a state of paralysis and want out ASAP and want better tools for dealing with it in the future😊
You got this! We're rooting for you :) -Calista@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy Thank you 🙏
You are amazing
ThnkU, you are appreciated so much in my life right now❤️ 🙏
Thank you for being a part of our community here. We appreciate you too!
Nika@TeamFairy
I listened to it twice since yesterday. Great content Anna. Thank you. ❤
I did the same 😊
You make so much sense of my experience of life, thank you.
Thanks for watching! Glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
As many of your helpful videos, this is a really good one. I learned so much.
Glad you enjoyed it!
-Cara@TeamFairy
@@CrappyChildhoodFairy
I can’t believe this secret disability was going on in my life and it took me so long to discover it. You helped me discover this so I can finally stop suffering and heal these issues. Your story gives me so much hope. 🤍🕊️
Thank you Anna ❤
Thanks for listening! -Calista@TeamFairy
Thank you so much, you make me feel so much better. You give me hope! We can try a little bit every day to be who we really are
YES!
You are literally saving my life. Thank you so much for everything ❤️
So glad you're here. We're all sending you encouragement :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Your vids are terrific! I just joined your membership.
Welcome!
thanks for those videos, you helped me so much
You're so welcome! Glad you're here :) -Calista@TeamFairy
Thank you Soooo much. You are a special ❤️ blessing and Big help to Us.
I’m so grateful, I could say it a million times. I have such love for you(sisterhood lol 😂) thank you from the bottom of my heart, I can start my healing I can thrive because of you
I'm so glad! Thank you for sharing, I'm sure Anna will appreciate this :) -Calista@TeamFairy
You are such a blessing to me. Thank you for your videos, and the daily practice. My Jesus bless you a hundred fold.
Thank u luv 🌸
ACTION!!
Love the topic. I'm always late for jobs. I've always told people I might be late but I'll be there. I've lost many jobs let's say
Thanks for this powerful information. It brought tears but revelations, too. The book link seems to be missing.
Hi all, this is my first time commenting here, I’ve listened to Ana for few months and understood a lot of how I feel and of course am healing rapidly; I also have been participating in alanon for 15 consecutive years in couple months; I still sometimes don’t understand why I feel guilty for feeling good
Thank you for being a part of our community here! If you haven't already, try Daily Practice (a free course). It can help process unwanted feelings: bit.ly/CCF_DailyPractice If you want to go deeper, Anna has a whole course on Healing Childhood PTSD: bit.ly/CCF_HCPTSD
Nika@TeamFairy