I will admit that I haven't watched any of your videos in the past years and I was quite shocked to come on here and see you with your hair gone. I just wanted to say a little bit of my story. I don't have an eating disorder or anything, I do have bipolar disorder and I do at times have the trichotillomania, not as extreme as some other people who will actually eat their hair. Last October I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital. And I was only in for 5 days, but I really have never felt more heartbroken in my short life (I'm 18, I was 17 when I went to the hospital). But it was a positive experience though because I have had my steps back where I still get mad and wanna pull my hair out because I'm so angry and I guess you can say manic, but that has happened so much less now. And I am proud of myself to say that.
Courtney, your ability to confront these struggles with such a positive attitude and a sense of humor is truly admirable. You're a very strong person, and I'm certain you'll get through this!
You have honestly been my savior for the past year. You've helped me so much when I have no one to talk to. You make me feel less alone. Thank you so much:)
Courtney you can get through your eating disorder if you transition to the right lifestyle/diet. Check out Freelee the banana girl on TH-cam, she encourages a high cab low fat vegan diet and many many girls have overcome their eating disorders and you should see how fit they are! Please just check it out and you will see what I'm talking about. This must be so tiring for you! You can heal yourself, trust me! Xxxxxx
Freelee the Banana Girl suggests that eating disorders come from poor nutrition. They don't. It's a completely psychological issue. It's a coping mechanism. It's a way to try to forget something that has happened to you that hurts you so much so your mind turns to food or turns away from food for comfort. I can control that if I continue to starve myself I'll be thinner someday and I'll finally be attractive, but I can't control that my entire life I was scared to death that my parents were going to force me out of my house because I am gay. It's less painful to obsess over my pants size than it does to remember how horrified I am that everyone in my life will hate me and shun me because of my sexuality. That's why eating disorders happen.
Hi Anthony, I can see what your saying but you need to understand that one cannot think rationally or feel good when starving. I understand there's difficulties for people in life but if one's mind is foggy because they are eating nutrition deficient foods or starving themselves then that person will find it difficult to escape the cycle they are in. Under eating causes emotional instability. Serotonin does not get released so you won't feel good until you eat something. Most of the time people eat and feel gross because it was most probs something high fat and unhealthy, that's why eating vegan removes that element of guilt because its all clean cruelty-free food. We need to realise that there are problems all around us but its your choice to let it effect you and ruin and life. Take responsibility of your mind, dont let anyone or anything choose what mood your going to be in today- thats when your truly in control. choose to live in the moment. We are all going to die one day so you can either enjoy life or not, it's your choice.
@Shinkajo learn some manners keyboard warrior. Your saying starving yourself is better than veganism LMAO what kind of scientist are you?! Get the fuck out of here with your bullshit and reduce some of the animal secretions your consuming, you sounds like you have parasites in your brain.
Courtney, please continue making videos on your eating disorder and how you had to deal with it. I just found your channel 3 days ago and I cant stop watching your videos, I can relate so much to what you're going through and its helped me so much dealing with an eating disorder myself. You are so strong and so entertaining to watch!
Courtney you are a true inspiration. I actually admire people on TH-cam that admit to their problems. And like you said we are all going through shit. I think your an amazing person with the way you help people and there should be more people like you in this crazy world we live in, because your videos honestly make my day. Your always so positive and optimistic and the fact that you can make someone (myself) feel better about themselves is honestly amazing and I hope you are proud of yourself.
Thank you for being so honest with us, Courtney. I've struggled with depression/anxiety for so long so I know how difficult it is to be honest about such a serious topic. Be proud of yourself! We love you SO much. Don't pay attention to the monsters that try to bring people down, they don't matter. What matters is your health and your happiness. I truly believe in you and I know you can achieve anything you want. You're such an amazing person, inside and out.
you are a huge inspiration to me and i'm sure a lot of other people. you are such a positive, beautiful person that nobody would guess you've had so many struggles without you sharing them. it really shows that you can still live a full life despite the hardships. your personality shines through your problems
I have followed you for a really long time now and have also struggled with an eating disorder for years. You're really strong for making this video and I want to thank you for posting it....contantly struggling between trying/wanting to recover vs listening to the ED talking in my head so watching this has helped push me to want to contact an old therapist and try this again. Thank you, court
I don't have an eating disorder but I do have anxiety issues. I really admire your bravery. And your Unicourt videos always brought a smile to my face. I'm so glad Peter gave you a shoutout. It's been REAL knowing you so far. I hope we all get to the other side of the road.
the ups and downs, the overcontrolling tendencies, the isolation.... everything you said reverberates. thank you so much for sharing :) i just watched a ted talk "lesson from a mental hospital" and found it sooo inspiring. hope it helps a little bit for you too.
You're a very brave person to be willing to tell so many people about your disorder. I've been dealing with depression/anxiety/ADHD for the past six years and one of the hardest things about dealing with those things is telling people you have them, especially strangers. I know you of all people are strong enough to beat this!
Love you, Courtney! This took a lot of courage and strength. You're amazing and so wonderful! You will have a family one day and will make an incredible mom!
Courtney, you are truly amazing. I have never seen anyone quite as inspirational as you, I was here since the beginning too! One my my favourite vids is of you scraping/breaking your elbow. Off topic, but still. Actually, no. That's not off topic. I want you to remember moments like those, and have fun with them! I know it's hard, but that's how I got over my eating disorder. I thought of the positive things, and I tried hard to fight it. You are too, and I feel proud to be a subscriber.
You are a very, very brave woman. When you said "I want to do it for my mom, since she never got to" I cried. You're stronger than you may think and I have no doubt that you will soon overcome this. You're GREAT! Thank you for sharing.
Your personality has always been how I identify you--I so admire how you handle difficult circumstances like this with a smile, but you know how to handle and discuss it. We're all behind you Courtney! Love ya.
I've watched your videos since your sailme90 days and I've always loved how open you are in your videos. You are such a fantastic person and you give a lot of people joy!
You are ridiculously awesome, like seriously, you are incredible. Posting the videos that you do, and talking about the serious things in your life like you did in this video, you are so brave, and DEFINITELY a great role model for everyone who follows your channel. Keep it up Courtneypants and do what you have to do to be healthy!!
You are not your disease. You are an inspiration to me and lots of other girls. You and other youtubers have made me the way I am, and have taught me how to deal with my anxiety and panic attacks. Thank you
I'm one of the handful of people who have followed you from the start. And I wanted to thank you for having the courage to talk about your problems. We all have challenges in our lives, and you're right, we can't do it alone. We are all here for you Courtney. And you will always be the funny, quirky, bat shit crazy unicorn girl to me :)
i am so so so so proud of you courtney. not only is it brave of you to say this but it's responsible, so many women and men look up to you and its so great that you're able to tell them the truth. As someone who has been through/is going through all the things you are going through, please stay strong and therapists and nutritionists are your friends!! always remember why you're doing this and why you're getting better! it will help you to keep going when you think you shouldn't!!!
dude you always make me cry courtney! i respect you so much for your bravery...i know you can do it. i feel like i get what youre saying, my mom had an eating disorder and people in my family did/do...i feel like sometimes i might just because i constantly feel unhappy with my body and have a weird relationship with food...but anyway thanks for being brave enough to get this out there and help people who are struggling. shows a lot about what type of person you are. we know you can do it too!
i really respect you for being so open about this, cause it might make viewers and you feel like youre not standing alone, that youve been dealing with it for basically your whole life must have been a huge struggle daily. i hope eventually those voices change to 'do what makes you happy' and 'im proud of you court' and 'reward yourself with an overload of caramel popcorn'
I stumbled upon this video by chance tonight almost immediately after acting on my eating disorder and I know this is an old video and I don't know if you'll see this but you helped I don't know if you comforted me or have given me something to relate to because I'm not good with my feelings but you helped me in a way and you made it feel better and I'm grateful I saw this ❤️
Courtney, it's amazing to finally hear someone else speaking out what I've always thought. I have severe depression problems I'm just finally getting over after having a very bad past year. I gained over 30 pounds in a few months through stress eating and I'm getting back on track thanks to a lot of hard work on my part. A lot of people I talk with never quite understand how hard depression, or any sort of personality disorder, is to overcome, and I really appreciate you sharing your story.
You are a huge inspiration! You literally aren't afraid to be yourself, and are so nice and unique! I think everybody could learn a lot from you. Keep going strong!
you are so brave! this has helped me so much i was recently beginning to slip back into my restrictive, bring/purge habits and this just pulled me out of that mind set! you are such a beautiful person
What you said about loss, and bottling up your emotions totally resounded with me. I lost my mother when I was 9, and there were little monsters inside my head too.
Thank you so much for this, I've struggled with a binge eating disorder for a really long time & I just recently told my family. Thank you for being so strong:)
Love you Courtney Pants. At one time I struggled with a running/eating disorder. We're all here for you in one way or another. Thanks for sharing your life with us in such a personal way. *HUG!*
I have been watching your videos for the past 2 years. I am not 100% sure how to word this but your videos have been inspirational to me and they have helped me through some hard times which I thank you for and the youtube community will be there through your time of need.
Courtney, I occasionally watch your channel & your latest post is such a breath of fresh air. I was worried about you, such a talented bright person, seeming a little tortured the last year. you are a superstar, and it's ok to be vulnerable rather than scared of all the "what ifs". So funny, I appreciate your direct honesty here. your courageous willingness to share your stuff, is helping many others. you rock...
You are an inspiration. Period. And let me tell ya, you ARE known as "that girl who was BRAVE as heck to tell her story on youtube". That is what you are known as! I never knew your mom but I just know, just somehow know, that she is looking down on you and is incredibly proud of you! She will be rooting you on during this whole journey and so will WE. Your so frickin' awesome. Thanks for sharing your life and being SUCH a role model! Love you girl!
I have been in therapy for about 8 years with the same issue. Every day is a struggle. Its hard to explain it to people that dont struggle with it! I can relate to everything you said :( Thank you for making this video its brave to admit it to people and its even harder to admit it to yourself, it is so hard on many levels. I wrote you a letter awhile back where I told you about mine.I hope you continue to do more videos like this-or maybe even start a blog or support group! Love u courtney!
I subscribed to your channel when I saw you dancing in one of Cecily's videos wearing your unicorn costume and I was like "I bet that girl is super cool" and I was right! This was before you even posted a video! I waited around patiently for you to post one and I'm so glad that I did because you're such a hilarious, great, strong person and I hope that you get better! Much love ~
I love how open you are. You my love are my inner voice that goes round and round . I am so very sorry for the loss of your mom :-(. Please continue on with Katie I love her and wish she could be my therapist. You have so much love that's obvious to me. You are so brave and truthful I truly thank you for being you!! All of my inner voices that fight with me about my eating disorder are all here supporting you!! Ps. I love that you say anything you want from poop to cat butt holes !! YOU GO GIRL ! Sending you lots of love💞😘😘😘😙😘😘
Courtney your a real inspiration for so many people. And i believe telling your story will have a major impact on people who are going through the same disease. keep strong and keep on inspiring people xx
Eating Recovery Center in Denver, Colorado really helped me with me eating disorder. I have struggled with anorexia and one of the MANY things I agree with you about is that you cannot beat this disease alone. I'm thinking about you Courtney!!! I know this video is old but I just got out of inpatient care and this video really struck a chord with me. You are so inspirational and beautiful!!!
CourtneyPants, I just discovered your videos a few days ago, so the only videos I've watched so far are the most recent ones, and I don't think of you as the girl with trichotillomania or the girl with an eating disorder, etc. I think of you as that really personable, sweet, funny, quirky girl who has an amazing spirit and a striking presence. Thank you for sharing with us. I think you're a really strong person. Looking forward to more videos!
Courtney pants, my four-year-old daughter loves NerdyNummies, and I found your channel through that. Thank you so much for sharing your struggle. My eight-year-old is incredibly skinny, and is obsessed with staying that way. Your video was the first time I'd ever heard of eating disorders manifesting that young--I'm now going to be watching my kiddos like a mama hawk.
You're such a trooper. I've been watching your vids for a couple months now. And honestly from your old vids to you're recent vids. You look so amazing now (not that you didnt before) But you look healthy. And i love your hair short, it suites you a lot more than your long hair. And i believe in you! you can do this, i can already tell you're making progress.
Your videos really do help me during my bad days... they use to be quite frequent, then they settled, but now they are sadly coming back... anytime I saw "CourtneyPants" it always put a smile to my face(sometimes that smile does not physically show, but it is there!). I think of how cute and silly the name is and the wonderful motivating person behind it. You've got an amazing spirit and an awesome personality that help me think, "F it, I'm not going to let it bring me down!" and move on. Thanku
I'm so happy you uploaded this. I had a feeling something was going on since I've seen all your videos, but the fact that you are sharing this with us is really strong of you. I know I couldn't do it if I were in your shoes.. You're awesome Court.
Hey Pants of Cortney, I rarely and I mean RARELY ever comment on anything but I thought what are the odds: The very Moment you said "Shut up, Helicopter." A freggin loud helicopter flew over my house! But I really do want you to know how much I appreciate your complete honesty and candor. Your vulnerability is something I genuinely respect. And can't tell you how much it touches me and how it inspires me to be more honest and open with those closest to me. Thank you. You're a True Doll. -Chris
I love you Courtneypants! Just wanted you to know that you never fail to put a smile on my face! You're so strong and can make it through anything! The simple fact that you've made it through all you have makes you someone I definitely look up to. You're so awesome!
haha I love this response comment! After I wrote it, I dusted off the old BWitched cd and listened to it over and over...I then posted cest la vie to my facebook and got all my friends re-obsessed with the song!! haha you're awesome girl! Been thinking about you a lot since you posted this video. Hope all is well! You have so many people rooting for you! :)
You're being very brave. As a mental health nurse I've nursed many young people with eating disorders. It's important to remember that a real battle is raging within, I've heard every thing that can be said to and about a person with a eating disorder. Counselling and therapy can help prop the door open to recovery. You have to want to walk through it, to heal, to live. Believing that you can succeed, and never give up, and you're loved.
I just want to say that I'm so glad I found your channel and saw these videos bc in less than an hour you inspired me to get help and get better. I'm crying so bad rn. I'm ashamed of having an eating disorder (first time I talk ab this with someone i dont know and also anyone can read this but oh well) I'm ashamed bc I wasted so many time trying to prove wrong to the people that called me fat and all I really did was destroy myself. Like I literally destroyed not only my body but also all the relationships I've had in my life and that suck. Anyway you probably won't read this but in case you do: I wanna say thank you sooo so so so much. I wish you the best and I hope you are doing great! P.S. I really hope have an amazing family one day!!!
Baby, I love you and your beautiful unicorn soul! I'm so happy and proud of you for finally feeling comfortable enough to share this with us. It'll be tough, but you'll beat this some day. Just know that we're here for you through all of the ups and downs and recovery and relapses and all of that lovely life stuff. Thank you for being you and stay awesome, my beautiful unicorn!
You can get through this! I had a short bout with self injury. It's difficult, but you can totally pull through and beat this. And this definitely doesn't define you, because to me, a person's sum is greater than their individual parts and you as a whole person seems amazing. This eating disorder is just an individual part. You'll come out on top, I know it!
when life sucks your show is my copping mechanism....thanks for being there for all of us who just need a little more joy in our lives ....you kick azzzz
Courtney, oh man. You are probably one of the strongest youtubers on this site because you not only made this video, but also told all of us that you were HERE FOR US even when your walls were so broken down. That is a truly incredibly humble and such an amazing trait to have; you are really a wonderful human being. We love you so much here, and will be here for you no matter what. Please please please stay strong, you will get through this. Love love love love love xoxoxo
Thank you so much Courtney for confessing this. I had also struggled with an eating disorder myself for about 3 years. I'm proud to say that I was able to recover. It wasn't easy, but I feel SO much better about myself, more confident, & proud of who I am. I now know that I need to treat my body with respect & that being healthy is more important than being __lbs. Thank you for being so brave to share this with your subscribers. Stay strong and you WILL get through this! We love you Courtney!
Honestly I have been watching for a while, and never knew that you were struggling with anything. I do think of you as the unicorn happy quirky crazy girl! You are an inspiration and I believe in you!
Long story short, I found you because of shane dawson. You were dressed up as a unicorn and you were riding on his back XD. You are the first person I've found that has trichitillomania or however you spell it c: I have it too, and it's so good to know that someone is going through what I'm going through. Subscribed! Xx
You are an inspiration, Courtney. You will get through this because you are so strong. You've inspired me to eat better and get in shape and to make TH-cam videos. You are amazing. Don't let anyone get you down or tell you any different.
Thank you so much for sharing this and putting it out there for other people to learn from and relate to. I'm not sure how I missed this in my sub box in May! But really, I am a new social worker and there are times when I have no idea what I'm doing. Hearing your side of things helps me to understand the kids I work with better and will hopefully make me better able to help them in the future. Thank you, Courtney :)
You are my favorite unicorn! It's takes a lot to talk about very personal things over the internet and you are so brave. I would never think of you as someone who has an eating disorder or trichotillomania. I think of you as this hilarious woman who is beautiful inside and out. You are strong and I believe in you. I wish you only the best! xoxo
I've had an eating disosrder for years! It's true...people don't like to talk about it. But that's why it goes untreated for so long. I have depression and anxiety and my eating ranges on how well they are going. I have faith in you and just know that you are not alone!
Courtney I just love you so much! I have been following your videos for at least two years and I just can't express how much I appreciate your honesty. You help me know that I am not alone with my problems. Keep it up girl! I love you :)
Wow I found your channel from Kati's video and I'm so glad i did. Your a huge inspiration for opening up about such a personal topic. I've struggled from ana i can relate so much. You don't have to elaborate but i want to let you know that this helped me so much. Your amazing Courtney
RIDING IN OUR ROLLERCOASTER OF LOVE! You deserve a rollercoaster of love run by unicorns! You should always be proud of personal struggles because they make us a better person in the end and the beautiful person you are at the moment is testament to your personal struggles. And it is true, everyone needs a therapist. Get it girl, get it!
I have to say, I respect you so much for coming out and speaking about ab issue you're dealing with. It can be extremely difficult to speak to an issue, but you took it to this platform and that is amazing. Best of luck to you.
first, I love the unicorn hair, it is so magical! Proud of you Courtney this is a hard thing to say out loud. Much love to you and you will beat this :)
Courtney, I really appreciate this video. I lost my mother a week ago, because she had similar problems that I don't really want to say. I am only 27 and she turned 60 this year. You made me feel good about my future.
You are so much more than your physical self. You are a fantastic human being. I've been watching your videos for a while now and this might not mean much, but I am super proud of the person you are. You will gain control of this and you have our support.
Found you through Dodger! You have a great support group around you it appears. I have many great buds from elementary years and junior high, so long ago! They are my best support group over the years. Keep your friends close and you will always be supported more than you can ever imaging.
you are so brave,I admire you for that. I know not all the people having the same situation easily admits what they are going thru, it needs more understanding than judgement... acceptance and the reality that someone needs help are required. so go girl, life is beautiful, I personally support you on your battle. just keep the faith... God heals.
Courtney I found you two years ago and you are one the most inspiring people I know, you're hilarious, you're amazing and I wish I could meet you because you're so incredible, I love you!
The amount of bravery that this took I cannot even comprehend. I'm in the same boat but I'm heavier set right now. And I'm back on the way to my slimmer self but I wish it didn't mean so much to me. Keep going, keep trying and be as happy as you can be. x
You are absolutely beautiful, inspiring, and amazing. Thank you so much for being completely honest and having a thirst for helping others. You have helped me and I'm sure so many other people. Thank you so much for being you and for everything you do! Much unicorn love and sparkles to you.
I love your Courtney and I'm always behind you! You were really brave to post this and share it with us, thank you. You are an extremely supportive person and deserve nothing but support in return! Thank you for being you!
this made me cry some manly tears because im in thearpy for different reasons but my sister goes to therapy for this and i've watched her struggle since she was a little kid you're such a strong person you beautiful little unicorn you
Your such a strong person to be able to talk about something that's so touchy that others that don't understand can be so hard to explain I applaud you this honestly takes a lot of courage to tell someone. Its such a burden for anyone who has to deal with this on a day to day bases. God bless you Courtney! Much love and best wishes on your journey.
Thank you so much for opening up to us. I also feel that I have struggled with my eating disorder from the day that I was born. I know how you feel and am so proud of you for sharing with us. I know you are stronger then this and you can beat this and I hope some day I can also. Sending you so much love and positive vibes.
You are so awesome and brave Courtney! You will totally get through it, and when you do have a family they will be so lucky to have you. GOOD FOR YOU!!!
I am so happy for you! I was truly scared about your denying you had an eating disorder. We all saw it get increasingly worse. But you've made the first step to a healthier you. Remember you are LOVED. And we mean well even if it doesn't always sound like it in comment form. You've got that unicorn shit on your side and we all know how powerful that can be ;-) I'll be praying for strength to get you through the tough times. One day at a time. If you fail, you can always start again. Good luck!!!
Oh Courtney, I'm sorry to hear that! I've been following your videos for a few years now and I've always thought of you as someone very positive. I feel your pain, trust me. I too have an eating disorder. I lost a loved one in an accident and not eating was my way to deal with the grief... Sharing helps, it's a relief to know, you're not alone. Be strong, question the ED voices, and be kind to yourself! It's a struggle but you can do it!
Ooooh Courtney. Hugs hugs hugs! I'm going through some personal SHIT right now, stumbled back upon to your channel for some reason and saw this. I LOVE YOUR FACE. And I wish you a lot of strength. I know this is a video of two years ago... but I really hope you're feeling better :)
I'm glad you made this video, I can tell it was very difficult but it's a massive step that you have made and it can get better with time. You are a very strong person to just do this step and I believe in you to make the other steps. I connect with you on a lot of levels and this has really touched me and helped me with my own issues. Lots of love and hugs Xxx
Court you are such a strong person, and you make me smile everytime i watch your videos, always remember that we will be here for you as long as you are on youtube and on the interwebz :) i wish you all the best and i hope you will recover soon! ;) looking forward to seeing your next videos :)
Hey Courtney. I just saw you on Shay's birthday video and honestly thought I'd come see what the hell you're up to these days - NEW HAIR (looks good!). I was shocked to see all that you've been struggling with. You have such an amazing amazing personality and I've thought this from when I watched your videos probably years ago now. You will fight this and overcome all of these asshole monsters that are taking over your shit. Your sense of humor is admirable.You give people the courage to be themselves whether that's quirky as hell or maybe the complete opposite. Thanks for posting everything you do. You are making a difference, and I know you will fight this off. Take care.
Youre amazing Courtney! You mentioned being identified as certain stereotypical titles, but honestly when you're just going about your day in your vlogs and in your videos all I see is a really cool, fun, hilarious, regular young women going about life in what looks to be a great way :) Yeah we all have our struggles and watch the ones that we love struggle but you're such an amazing role model and you're so honest. Thats the most important thing. Keep on keeping on Courtney :) inspiration! xo
You are a strong, beautiful, and amazing individual. Thanks for opening your life to us. There are so many people out there who can learn from you. We love you, Court!
Wow I really didn't expect this from you. For me, everytime I wanted to binge/restrict/whatever, I would watch your youtube videos to remind myself that there is a healthy way to deal with those things. Thanks for sharing, that's a very brave thing to do!
wow courtney thank you so much for sharing. i am in awe at how brave you are! i wish you all the luck in the world with getting through this, i know you will. and i love your videos! dont ever stop making them! thanks for inspiring me :) love and hugs!
Courtney I always refer to you as the hilarious unicorn girl when I recommend your TH-cam to anybody! You have such a beautiful personality and you're so so strong, I think it is impossible to be unhappy while watching one of your videos, I can't even put into words how important you are to me and so many people, you are so much more powerful than these disease, I believe you can kick it's ass and have the coolest family of unicorns ever :)
I will admit that I haven't watched any of your videos in the past years and I was quite shocked to come on here and see you with your hair gone. I just wanted to say a little bit of my story. I don't have an eating disorder or anything, I do have bipolar disorder and I do at times have the trichotillomania, not as extreme as some other people who will actually eat their hair. Last October I was admitted to a psychiatric hospital. And I was only in for 5 days, but I really have never felt more heartbroken in my short life (I'm 18, I was 17 when I went to the hospital). But it was a positive experience though because I have had my steps back where I still get mad and wanna pull my hair out because I'm so angry and I guess you can say manic, but that has happened so much less now. And I am proud of myself to say that.
Courtney, your ability to confront these struggles with such a positive attitude and a sense of humor is truly admirable. You're a very strong person, and I'm certain you'll get through this!
you have amazingly beautiful eyes... and a totally killer smile!
You have honestly been my savior for the past year. You've helped me so much when I have no one to talk to. You make me feel less alone. Thank you so much:)
Courtney you can get through your eating disorder if you transition to the right lifestyle/diet. Check out Freelee the banana girl on TH-cam, she encourages a high cab low fat vegan diet and many many girls have overcome their eating disorders and you should see how fit they are! Please just check it out and you will see what I'm talking about. This must be so tiring for you! You can heal yourself, trust me! Xxxxxx
Freelee the Banana Girl suggests that eating disorders come from poor nutrition. They don't. It's a completely psychological issue. It's a coping mechanism. It's a way to try to forget something that has happened to you that hurts you so much so your mind turns to food or turns away from food for comfort. I can control that if I continue to starve myself I'll be thinner someday and I'll finally be attractive, but I can't control that my entire life I was scared to death that my parents were going to force me out of my house because I am gay. It's less painful to obsess over my pants size than it does to remember how horrified I am that everyone in my life will hate me and shun me because of my sexuality. That's why eating disorders happen.
Hi Anthony, I can see what your saying but you need to understand that one cannot think rationally or feel good when starving. I understand there's difficulties for people in life but if one's mind is foggy because they are eating nutrition deficient foods or starving themselves then that person will find it difficult to escape the cycle they are in. Under eating causes emotional instability. Serotonin does not get released so you won't feel good until you eat something. Most of the time people eat and feel gross because it was most probs something high fat and unhealthy, that's why eating vegan removes that element of guilt because its all clean cruelty-free food. We need to realise that there are problems all around us but its your choice to let it effect you and ruin and life. Take responsibility of your mind, dont let anyone or anything choose what mood your going to be in today- thats when your truly in control. choose to live in the moment. We are all going to die one day so you can either enjoy life or not, it's your choice.
fuck off with the vegan bullshit, that's the last thing they need.
@shinkajo you should go learn some English and science so you can actually argue your point. Learn some manners while your there.
@Shinkajo learn some manners keyboard warrior. Your saying starving yourself is better than veganism LMAO what kind of scientist are you?! Get the fuck out of here with your bullshit and reduce some of the animal secretions your consuming, you sounds like you have parasites in your brain.
Courtney, please continue making videos on your eating disorder and how you had to deal with it. I just found your channel 3 days ago and I cant stop watching your videos, I can relate so much to what you're going through and its helped me so much dealing with an eating disorder myself. You are so strong and so entertaining to watch!
Courtney you are a true inspiration. I actually admire people on TH-cam that admit to their problems. And like you said we are all going through shit. I think your an amazing person with the way you help people and there should be more people like you in this crazy world we live in, because your videos honestly make my day. Your always so positive and optimistic and the fact that you can make someone (myself) feel better about themselves is honestly amazing and I hope you are proud of yourself.
Thank you for being so honest with us, Courtney. I've struggled with depression/anxiety for so long so I know how difficult it is to be honest about such a serious topic. Be proud of yourself! We love you SO much. Don't pay attention to the monsters that try to bring people down, they don't matter. What matters is your health and your happiness. I truly believe in you and I know you can achieve anything you want. You're such an amazing person, inside and out.
you are a huge inspiration to me and i'm sure a lot of other people. you are such a positive, beautiful person that nobody would guess you've had so many struggles without you sharing them. it really shows that you can still live a full life despite the hardships. your personality shines through your problems
I have followed you for a really long time now and have also struggled with an eating disorder for years. You're really strong for making this video and I want to thank you for posting it....contantly struggling between trying/wanting to recover vs listening to the ED talking in my head so watching this has helped push me to want to contact an old therapist and try this again. Thank you, court
I don't have an eating disorder but I do have anxiety issues. I really admire your bravery. And your Unicourt videos always brought a smile to my face. I'm so glad Peter gave you a shoutout. It's been REAL knowing you so far. I hope we all get to the other side of the road.
the ups and downs, the overcontrolling tendencies, the isolation.... everything you said reverberates. thank you so much for sharing :) i just watched a ted talk "lesson from a mental hospital" and found it sooo inspiring. hope it helps a little bit for you too.
You're a very brave person to be willing to tell so many people about your disorder. I've been dealing with depression/anxiety/ADHD for the past six years and one of the hardest things about dealing with those things is telling people you have them, especially strangers. I know you of all people are strong enough to beat this!
Love you, Courtney! This took a lot of courage and strength. You're amazing and so wonderful! You will have a family one day and will make an incredible mom!
Courtney, you are truly amazing. I have never seen anyone quite as inspirational as you, I was here since the beginning too! One my my favourite vids is of you scraping/breaking your elbow. Off topic, but still. Actually, no. That's not off topic. I want you to remember moments like those, and have fun with them! I know it's hard, but that's how I got over my eating disorder. I thought of the positive things, and I tried hard to fight it. You are too, and I feel proud to be a subscriber.
You are a very, very brave woman. When you said "I want to do it for my mom, since she never got to" I cried. You're stronger than you may think and I have no doubt that you will soon overcome this. You're GREAT! Thank you for sharing.
Your personality has always been how I identify you--I so admire how you handle difficult circumstances like this with a smile, but you know how to handle and discuss it. We're all behind you Courtney! Love ya.
I've watched your videos since your sailme90 days and I've always loved how open you are in your videos. You are such a fantastic person and you give a lot of people joy!
You are ridiculously awesome, like seriously, you are incredible. Posting the videos that you do, and talking about the serious things in your life like you did in this video, you are so brave, and DEFINITELY a great role model for everyone who follows your channel. Keep it up Courtneypants and do what you have to do to be healthy!!
You are not your disease. You are an inspiration to me and lots of other girls. You and other youtubers have made me the way I am, and have taught me how to deal with my anxiety and panic attacks. Thank you
I'm one of the handful of people who have followed you from the start. And I wanted to thank you for having the courage to talk about your problems. We all have challenges in our lives, and you're right, we can't do it alone. We are all here for you Courtney. And you will always be the funny, quirky, bat shit crazy unicorn girl to me :)
i am so so so so proud of you courtney. not only is it brave of you to say this but it's responsible, so many women and men look up to you and its so great that you're able to tell them the truth. As someone who has been through/is going through all the things you are going through, please stay strong and therapists and nutritionists are your friends!! always remember why you're doing this and why you're getting better! it will help you to keep going when you think you shouldn't!!!
dude you always make me cry courtney! i respect you so much for your bravery...i know you can do it. i feel like i get what youre saying, my mom had an eating disorder and people in my family did/do...i feel like sometimes i might just because i constantly feel unhappy with my body and have a weird relationship with food...but anyway thanks for being brave enough to get this out there and help people who are struggling. shows a lot about what type of person you are. we know you can do it too!
I honestly want to give you the biggest hug, cause with everything you've done and been through you deserve all the hugs that you want!
i really respect you for being so open about this, cause it might make viewers and you feel like youre not standing alone, that youve been dealing with it for basically your whole life must have been a huge struggle daily. i hope eventually those voices change to 'do what makes you happy' and 'im proud of you court' and 'reward yourself with an overload of caramel popcorn'
I stumbled upon this video by chance tonight almost immediately after acting on my eating disorder and I know this is an old video and I don't know if you'll see this but you helped I don't know if you comforted me or have given me something to relate to because I'm not good with my feelings but you helped me in a way and you made it feel better and I'm grateful I saw this ❤️
Courtney, it's amazing to finally hear someone else speaking out what I've always thought. I have severe depression problems I'm just finally getting over after having a very bad past year. I gained over 30 pounds in a few months through stress eating and I'm getting back on track thanks to a lot of hard work on my part. A lot of people I talk with never quite understand how hard depression, or any sort of personality disorder, is to overcome, and I really appreciate you sharing your story.
You are a huge inspiration! You literally aren't afraid to be yourself, and are so nice and unique! I think everybody could learn a lot from you. Keep going strong!
you are so brave! this has helped me so much i was recently beginning to slip back into my restrictive, bring/purge habits and this just pulled me out of that mind set! you are such a beautiful person
What you said about loss, and bottling up your emotions totally resounded with me. I lost my mother when I was 9, and there were little monsters inside my head too.
Thank you so much for this, I've struggled with a binge eating disorder for a really long time & I just recently told my family. Thank you for being so strong:)
Love you Courtney Pants. At one time I struggled with a running/eating disorder. We're all here for you in one way or another. Thanks for sharing your life with us in such a personal way. *HUG!*
I have been watching your videos for the past 2 years. I am not 100% sure how to word this but your videos have been inspirational to me and they have helped me through some hard times which I thank you for and the youtube community will be there through your time of need.
Courtney, I occasionally watch your channel & your latest post is such a breath of fresh air. I was worried about you, such a talented bright person, seeming a little tortured the last year. you are a superstar, and it's ok to be vulnerable rather than scared of all the "what ifs". So funny, I appreciate your direct honesty here. your courageous willingness to share your stuff, is helping many others. you rock...
You are an inspiration. Period. And let me tell ya, you ARE known as "that girl who was BRAVE as heck to tell her story on youtube". That is what you are known as! I never knew your mom but I just know, just somehow know, that she is looking down on you and is incredibly proud of you! She will be rooting you on during this whole journey and so will WE. Your so frickin' awesome. Thanks for sharing your life and being SUCH a role model! Love you girl!
I have been in therapy for about 8 years with the same issue. Every day is a struggle. Its hard to explain it to people that dont struggle with it! I can relate to everything you said :( Thank you for making this video its brave to admit it to people and its even harder to admit it to yourself, it is so hard on many levels. I wrote you a letter awhile back where I told you about mine.I hope you continue to do more videos like this-or maybe even start a blog or support group! Love u courtney!
I subscribed to your channel when I saw you dancing in one of Cecily's videos wearing your unicorn costume and I was like "I bet that girl is super cool" and I was right! This was before you even posted a video! I waited around patiently for you to post one and I'm so glad that I did because you're such a hilarious, great, strong person and I hope that you get better! Much love ~
You truly are an inspiration just because you have the confidence to do this and to address the disorder for yourself not just for somebody else.
I love how open you are. You my love are my inner voice that goes round and round . I am so very sorry for the loss of your mom :-(. Please continue on with Katie I love her and wish she could be my therapist. You have so much love that's obvious to me. You are so brave and truthful I truly thank you for being you!! All of my inner voices that fight with me about my eating disorder are all here supporting you!!
Ps. I love that you say anything you want from poop to cat butt holes !!
YOU GO GIRL ! Sending you lots of love💞😘😘😘😙😘😘
Courtney your a real inspiration for so many people. And i believe telling your story will have a major impact on people who are going through the same disease. keep strong and keep on inspiring people xx
Eating Recovery Center in Denver, Colorado really helped me with me eating disorder. I have struggled with anorexia and one of the MANY things I agree with you about is that you cannot beat this disease alone. I'm thinking about you Courtney!!! I know this video is old but I just got out of inpatient care and this video really struck a chord with me. You are so inspirational and beautiful!!!
CourtneyPants, I just discovered your videos a few days ago, so the only videos I've watched so far are the most recent ones, and I don't think of you as the girl with trichotillomania or the girl with an eating disorder, etc. I think of you as that really personable, sweet, funny, quirky girl who has an amazing spirit and a striking presence. Thank you for sharing with us. I think you're a really strong person. Looking forward to more videos!
Courtney pants, my four-year-old daughter loves NerdyNummies, and I found your channel through that. Thank you so much for sharing your struggle. My eight-year-old is incredibly skinny, and is obsessed with staying that way. Your video was the first time I'd ever heard of eating disorders manifesting that young--I'm now going to be watching my kiddos like a mama hawk.
You're such a trooper.
I've been watching your vids for a couple months now. And honestly from your old vids to you're recent vids. You look so amazing now (not that you didnt before) But you look healthy.
And i love your hair short, it suites you a lot more than your long hair.
And i believe in you! you can do this, i can already tell you're making progress.
Your videos really do help me during my bad days... they use to be quite frequent, then they settled, but now they are sadly coming back... anytime I saw "CourtneyPants" it always put a smile to my face(sometimes that smile does not physically show, but it is there!). I think of how cute and silly the name is and the wonderful motivating person behind it. You've got an amazing spirit and an awesome personality that help me think, "F it, I'm not going to let it bring me down!" and move on. Thanku
I'm so happy you uploaded this. I had a feeling something was going on since I've seen all your videos, but the fact that you are sharing this with us is really strong of you. I know I couldn't do it if I were in your shoes.. You're awesome Court.
Hey Pants of Cortney, I rarely and I mean RARELY ever comment on anything but I thought what are the odds: The very Moment you said "Shut up, Helicopter." A freggin loud helicopter flew over my house! But I really do want you to know how much I appreciate your complete honesty and candor. Your vulnerability is something I genuinely respect. And can't tell you how much it touches me and how it inspires me to be more honest and open with those closest to me. Thank you. You're a True Doll. -Chris
I love you Courtneypants! Just wanted you to know that you never fail to put a smile on my face! You're so strong and can make it through anything! The simple fact that you've made it through all you have makes you someone I definitely look up to. You're so awesome!
Man, i love you Courtney. everything about your realness is just awesome. thank you for existing
haha I love this response comment! After I wrote it, I dusted off the old BWitched cd and listened to it over and over...I then posted cest la vie to my facebook and got all my friends re-obsessed with the song!! haha you're awesome girl! Been thinking about you a lot since you posted this video. Hope all is well! You have so many people rooting for you! :)
You're being very brave. As a mental health nurse I've nursed many young people with eating disorders. It's important to remember that a real battle is raging within, I've heard every thing that can be said to and about a person with a eating disorder. Counselling and therapy can help prop the door open to recovery. You have to want to walk through it, to heal, to live. Believing that you can succeed, and never give up, and you're loved.
I just want to say that I'm so glad I found your channel and saw these videos bc in less than an hour you inspired me to get help and get better. I'm crying so bad rn. I'm ashamed of having an eating disorder (first time I talk ab this with someone i dont know and also anyone can read this but oh well) I'm ashamed bc I wasted so many time trying to prove wrong to the people that called me fat and all I really did was destroy myself. Like I literally destroyed not only my body but also all the relationships I've had in my life and that suck. Anyway you probably won't read this but in case you do: I wanna say thank you sooo so so so much. I wish you the best and I hope you are doing great! P.S. I really hope have an amazing family one day!!!
So much respect for you hun! Talking about it is one of the hardest things to do. But being honest shows great courage and strength.
Baby, I love you and your beautiful unicorn soul! I'm so happy and proud of you for finally feeling comfortable enough to share this with us. It'll be tough, but you'll beat this some day. Just know that we're here for you through all of the ups and downs and recovery and relapses and all of that lovely life stuff. Thank you for being you and stay awesome, my beautiful unicorn!
You can get through this! I had a short bout with self injury. It's difficult, but you can totally pull through and beat this. And this definitely doesn't define you, because to me, a person's sum is greater than their individual parts and you as a whole person seems amazing. This eating disorder is just an individual part. You'll come out on top, I know it!
when life sucks your show is my copping mechanism....thanks for being there for all of us who just need a little more joy in our lives ....you kick azzzz
Ok so I know I’m like 6 years late but but I’m cryin in the club rn!! If u still have notifs in for videos I love u and I’m proud of you 💗
i always knew, i did.
and i am so proud of you for opening up. you are an inspiration!
Courtney, oh man. You are probably one of the strongest youtubers on this site because you not only made this video, but also told all of us that you were HERE FOR US even when your walls were so broken down. That is a truly incredibly humble and such an amazing trait to have; you are really a wonderful human being. We love you so much here, and will be here for you no matter what. Please please please stay strong, you will get through this. Love love love love love xoxoxo
Thank you so much Courtney for confessing this. I had also struggled with an eating disorder myself for about 3 years. I'm proud to say that I was able to recover. It wasn't easy, but I feel SO much better about myself, more confident, & proud of who I am. I now know that I need to treat my body with respect & that being healthy is more important than being __lbs. Thank you for being so brave to share this with your subscribers. Stay strong and you WILL get through this! We love you Courtney!
Honestly I have been watching for a while, and never knew that you were struggling with anything. I do think of you as the unicorn happy quirky crazy girl! You are an inspiration and I believe in you!
Long story short,
I found you because of shane dawson. You were dressed up as a unicorn and you were riding on his back XD. You are the first person I've found that has trichitillomania or however you spell it c: I have it too, and it's so good to know that someone is going through what I'm going through. Subscribed! Xx
You are an inspiration, Courtney. You will get through this because you are so strong. You've inspired me to eat better and get in shape and to make TH-cam videos. You are amazing. Don't let anyone get you down or tell you any different.
You are so brave and I love that your personality shows through all of your videos. Your videos make me laugh and smile.
Thank you so much for sharing this and putting it out there for other people to learn from and relate to. I'm not sure how I missed this in my sub box in May! But really, I am a new social worker and there are times when I have no idea what I'm doing. Hearing your side of things helps me to understand the kids I work with better and will hopefully make me better able to help them in the future. Thank you, Courtney :)
You are my favorite unicorn! It's takes a lot to talk about very personal things over the internet and you are so brave. I would never think of you as someone who has an eating disorder or trichotillomania. I think of you as this hilarious woman who is beautiful inside and out. You are strong and I believe in you. I wish you only the best! xoxo
I've had an eating disosrder for years! It's true...people don't like to talk about it. But that's why it goes untreated for so long. I have depression and anxiety and my eating ranges on how well they are going. I have faith in you and just know that you are not alone!
You're so genuine. You put your life out their...it would be so easy not to, but you did and have and will help so many people
Courtney I just love you so much! I have been following your videos for at least two years and I just can't express how much I appreciate your honesty. You help me know that I am not alone with my problems. Keep it up girl! I love you :)
Wow I found your channel from Kati's video and I'm so glad i did. Your a huge inspiration for opening up about such a personal topic. I've struggled from ana i can relate so much. You don't have to elaborate but i want to let you know that this helped me so much. Your amazing Courtney
RIDING IN OUR ROLLERCOASTER OF LOVE!
You deserve a rollercoaster of love run by unicorns! You should always be proud of personal struggles because they make us a better person in the end and the beautiful person you are at the moment is testament to your personal struggles. And it is true, everyone needs a therapist. Get it girl, get it!
I have to say, I respect you so much for coming out and speaking about ab issue you're dealing with. It can be extremely difficult to speak to an issue, but you took it to this platform and that is amazing. Best of luck to you.
first, I love the unicorn hair, it is so magical! Proud of you Courtney this is a hard thing to say out loud. Much love to you and you will beat this :)
Courtney, I really appreciate this video. I lost my mother a week ago, because she had similar problems that I don't really want to say. I am only 27 and she turned 60 this year. You made me feel good about my future.
You are so much more than your physical self. You are a fantastic human being. I've been watching your videos for a while now and this might not mean much, but I am super proud of the person you are. You will gain control of this and you have our support.
Found you through Dodger! You have a great support group around you it appears. I have many great buds from elementary years and junior high, so long ago! They are my best support group over the years. Keep your friends close and you will always be supported more than you can ever imaging.
you are so brave,I admire you for that. I know not all the people having the same situation easily admits what they are going thru, it needs more understanding than judgement... acceptance and the reality that someone needs help are required. so go girl, life is beautiful, I personally support you on your battle. just keep the faith... God heals.
You've always been the adorable, funny, bubbly, quirky unicorn girl. And now we're adding brave to that list. Thank you so much for everything.
Courtney I found you two years ago and you are one the most inspiring people I know, you're hilarious, you're amazing and I wish I could meet you because you're so incredible, I love you!
The amount of bravery that this took I cannot even comprehend. I'm in the same boat but I'm heavier set right now. And I'm back on the way to my slimmer self but I wish it didn't mean so much to me. Keep going, keep trying and be as happy as you can be. x
You are absolutely beautiful, inspiring, and amazing. Thank you so much for being completely honest and having a thirst for helping others. You have helped me and I'm sure so many other people. Thank you so much for being you and for everything you do! Much unicorn love and sparkles to you.
I love your Courtney and I'm always behind you! You were really brave to post this and share it with us, thank you. You are an extremely supportive person and deserve nothing but support in return! Thank you for being you!
Thank you for sharing your story. For years I have loved watching your videos, you make me happy. I know you can beat this.
this made me cry some manly tears because im in thearpy for different reasons but my sister goes to therapy for this and i've watched her struggle since she was a little kid you're such a strong person you beautiful little unicorn you
Your such a strong person to be able to talk about something that's so touchy that others that don't understand can be so hard to explain I applaud you this honestly takes a lot of courage to tell someone. Its such a burden for anyone who has to deal with this on a day to day bases.
God bless you Courtney! Much love and best wishes on your journey.
Thank you so much for opening up to us. I also feel that I have struggled with my eating disorder from the day that I was born. I know how you feel and am so proud of you for sharing with us. I know you are stronger then this and you can beat this and I hope some day I can also. Sending you so much love and positive vibes.
You are so awesome and brave Courtney! You will totally get through it, and when you do have a family they will be so lucky to have you. GOOD FOR YOU!!!
I am so happy for you! I was truly scared about your denying you had an eating disorder. We all saw it get increasingly worse. But you've made the first step to a healthier you. Remember you are LOVED. And we mean well even if it doesn't always sound like it in comment form. You've got that unicorn shit on your side and we all know how powerful that can be ;-) I'll be praying for strength to get you through the tough times. One day at a time. If you fail, you can always start again. Good luck!!!
Oh Courtney, I'm sorry to hear that! I've been following your videos for a few years now and I've always thought of you as someone very positive. I feel your pain, trust me. I too have an eating disorder. I lost a loved one in an accident and not eating was my way to deal with the grief... Sharing helps, it's a relief to know, you're not alone. Be strong, question the ED voices, and be kind to yourself! It's a struggle but you can do it!
Ooooh Courtney. Hugs hugs hugs! I'm going through some personal SHIT right now, stumbled back upon to your channel for some reason and saw this. I LOVE YOUR FACE. And I wish you a lot of strength. I know this is a video of two years ago... but I really hope you're feeling better :)
I'm glad you made this video, I can tell it was very difficult but it's a massive step that you have made and it can get better with time. You are a very strong person to just do this step and I believe in you to make the other steps. I connect with you on a lot of levels and this has really touched me and helped me with my own issues. Lots of love and hugs Xxx
You're really inspirational to so many people and you're not a failure at all, you've made me laugh on my worst days and I thank you for that.
So proud of you! You're seriously so brave! ALL THE SUPPORT EVER!
Court you are such a strong person, and you make me smile everytime i watch your videos, always remember that we will be here for you as long as you are on youtube and on the interwebz :) i wish you all the best and i hope you will recover soon! ;) looking forward to seeing your next videos :)
Hey Courtney. I just saw you on Shay's birthday video and honestly thought I'd come see what the hell you're up to these days - NEW HAIR (looks good!). I was shocked to see all that you've been struggling with. You have such an amazing amazing personality and I've thought this from when I watched your videos probably years ago now. You will fight this and overcome all of these asshole monsters that are taking over your shit. Your sense of humor is admirable.You give people the courage to be themselves whether that's quirky as hell or maybe the complete opposite. Thanks for posting everything you do. You are making a difference, and I know you will fight this off. Take care.
Youre amazing Courtney! You mentioned being identified as certain stereotypical titles,
but honestly when you're just going about your day in your vlogs and in your videos all I see is a really cool, fun, hilarious, regular young women going about life in what looks to be a great way :) Yeah we all have our struggles and watch the ones that we love struggle but you're such an amazing role model and you're so honest. Thats the most important thing. Keep on keeping on Courtney :) inspiration! xo
You are a strong, beautiful, and amazing individual. Thanks for opening your life to us. There are so many people out there who can learn from you. We love you, Court!
Wow I really didn't expect this from you. For me, everytime I wanted to binge/restrict/whatever, I would watch your youtube videos to remind myself that there is a healthy way to deal with those things. Thanks for sharing, that's a very brave thing to do!
wow courtney thank you so much for sharing. i am in awe at how brave you are! i wish you all the luck in the world with getting through this, i know you will. and i love your videos! dont ever stop making them! thanks for inspiring me :) love and hugs!
Courtney I always refer to you as the hilarious unicorn girl when I recommend your TH-cam to anybody! You have such a beautiful personality and you're so so strong, I think it is impossible to be unhappy while watching one of your videos, I can't even put into words how important you are to me and so many people, you are so much more powerful than these disease, I believe you can kick it's ass and have the coolest family of unicorns ever :)