REACTING TO A CHIKARA TRANSFORMATIONS REACTION VIDEO | Tammy reacts [tw: ed]
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- My name is Tammy. I struggle with too many mental issues, lol, but don't we all? On this channel I document most of my struggles. TH-cam helps me to be able to vent and talk about what's going on and how I feel. I consider my channel to be a mental health recovery channel. I'm also trying to lose weight in the process. Come along and let's strive to be the best versions of ourselves!
I'm not promoting any kind of (eating) disorder, I'm just documenting my life and my struggles.
I'm very hapy to have you Little Lemons accompany me. Thank you SO much for watching my video!
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anyone else check back every couple months and get sad she is still MIA?
Yes! I keep checking in...I really miss her videos. I hope she is okay ❤
I hope she's okay
Yes same. I really hope she is okay....
Yes and I'm hoping she's ok
Yep
She posted on her IG, January 23rd 2024, her kitties are ok and she is still struggling, she says she's sorry for going MIA and not being back yet. I'm hoping for that YET to be a sign she might be ready to come back soon! I love her content, love her rawness and it helped me so much as well.
thanks for sharing the update
Thank You. I check back to see an update, so this is much appreciated.❤
Sweetheart… from a 39 year old woman whos suffered from exactly what u have since 4 years old… im tellin you no matter where ur at now and how ur doing… most of your subscribers love your openness and love u at any stage. I can respect when ur doing well and be understanding when its a phase of selfdestruction or working through things. I want you to know you are good the way you are. Accept and decide what u want and be ok with it. Thats the way to live… i hope you do come back you are one tough beautiful human being
Tammy I hope you are okay and just letting you know that your YT family misses you and your kitties ❤❤❤❤❤ come back soon
Hi Tammy, I just wanted to let you know that so many people love you and miss you terribly, please don’t be afraid to come back, we’ll all welcome your return with open arms.
I have been thinking about her a great deal. I hope she is well.
Oh, how very kind you are ❤
Hey Tammy, Miss your videos. You’re such a genuine kind hearted, funny likeable person. Please remember that. Come back whenever you’re ready, or not if that’s what you truly want to do. Happy New Year from the UK 😊x
Here checking to see if shes uploaded or anything. I miss her videos!
Hi Tammy, hope you are ok. Think it would be great if you could do another community tab post just to let everyone know youre still here, people are getting very worried about you. Your community really cares about you, and just want to know if you are ok. ❤
I am worried about Tammy, too. It seemed like she was doing pretty well and I fear things have taken a turn. 😕
@@claudiao4001 hopefully she's just stopped posting because maybe her content is in conflict with the recently updated terms of service, I really hope its nothing more serious than that, but I suppose if that's the case she could have posted videos that didn't touch on her BED. Maybe she's just enjoying playing the new Zelda too much to do anything else, but now that it's been such a long time since her last video, it is getting quite concerning. Wishing her all the best anyhow
What happened to Tammy?
Tammy, I hope you know that for many of us, it’s your sweetness, realness and openness that make us come back over and over to watch your videos. If you are struggling, if you are feeling successful and even if you think you aren’t feeling creative, what draws us, I believe, is that you are a good person that is sharing. We appreciate you so much just for that. Hoping to hear back. Hoping you are truly ok. Mel❤
These are really warm, Kind and thoughtfull words. Sadly it feels like they fall on deaf ears... Let's hope for the best
Where has she been? I'm not a sub but I just came by to check and I see it's been over 3 months. Idk anyone who covers her so I don't hear anything elsewhere.. were there any clues from her as to why she left TH-cam?
@@GypsyRock nobody knows
She said she'd not be able to vlog much because she was having a roomate. It was supposed to just be for a few weeks tho... hope everything's ok :/
@@laurasalvador1593 omg yes!! Now that you say that I remember that! But I didn't think that that would mean she's not active anywhere. But thank you for bringing that back!
I came across Tammy's page after SO LONG! We miss you Tammy!!!
Just passing by to say that I miss Tammy...her vids were so relatable and comforting.
I've been struggling with my mental health and sorting out life and haven't made any content myself for a while, so I fully understand. I just hope she's doing ok, and if it is what serves her, that she finds her way back to making videos and I'll happily watch them and support her.
I guess Tammy quit TH-cam, I’m going to miss her, all I can do is wish her the best and her little fur babies, hope you have a happy, healthy future, best of luck in your weight loss journey, take care!
It's good that you are aware of how certain things make you feel and you create boundaries. That is a great sign that you are working on bettering your mental health!
Hi Jamie!!
@@Jen-Chapin hey girlie 💜
Hi Tammy. I miss your face. Do you think you could do a quick update video ?
Would someone please provide an update on how Tammy and her kitties are doing? I think I can say most of us would really appreciate it. I for one really miss her and the cats.
she is not active on any of her social media..:(
She posted on IG on January 23rd 2024, her kitties are ok and she is still struggling, she says she's sorry for going MIA and not being back yet. I'm hoping for that YET to be a sign she might be ready to come back soon! I love her content it helped me so much as well.
@@ninajimenez2286oh ok this is what i wanted to know!!! Thank you you❤
Thanks for the update. 😊
I hope you're doing okay. I think it is time for you to update your audience, even if just briefly in a community post. Don't even need to go into details, but some sort of update would be much appreciated. ☮& 💜
Checking in every now and then in the hopes that you've come back...so far nothing. :( I hope you're doing well, if you've decided to leave TH-cam for good then please at least tell us so we dont have to worry.
Same.
I think it is a common misperception that binge eating is about food. It's not. It's about using food as a coping mechanism to self-soothe when triggered by something that causes stress. Some people exercise, some people use drugs, and some people use food to numb. I hope that you are able to work through and resolve the feelings surrounding the cause in therapy so that you will not feel the need to self-soothe.
Exactly I'm never hungry I just eat when stressed out instead of drinking or other substances I eat when stressed not for hunger.... you nailed it 💯👍🏻
I know Chikara sees BED as a food addiction and that neglects the trauma response and all the torment and pain that the food is masking and why it is so hard to change that without working through the trauma and finding support systems and other ways to self soothe 💙💙
Yes, Chikara simplifies this often. She seems to think that people just have to learn not to eat every time they are hungry. And that that is totaly doable because she can do it too when she is prepping for a show. But that totally misses the point that eating is not about being hungry for most people with a BED.
Also for Autistic people, their self soothing and self harm behaviours can present differently to how they do in neurotypical people. They seem much more controlled and ritualised than in neurotypical people.
@@justine8387 yes, there is a need for “maintenance of sameness” in people with neurodivergence.
What’s wild to see is how many folks here are insulting Chikara’s appearance when Tammy’s most critical commenters still only critique her behaviors and not her looks. For such “sensitive” people, a lot of you are taking shallow digs at someone else’s appearance and it just screams triggered that a sensible person is calling out your addiction. That’s not a valid reason not to like someone and neither is the fact she gets lip fillers. So do many many many women. Get over it lol
Yea so many insulted Chikara's looks wtf! Or they claim she never had an ED when she clearly had bulimia/BED....Someone has an opinion "lemons" : attack, insult, you know nothing about BED lol.
@@mariapriest4106 Exactly. these lemons can’t take behavioral feedback but they’re ok with ridiculing how someone looks? Some lemon here mentioned bullying…Yeah I see quite a bit of bullying here too 🤔
@Barta sparta The only comment section on YT where comments like “let ppl be themselves!” are left by the same ppl that say “this person looks so judgmental + too much lip filler & steroids”. 💀
@Barta sparta it’s odd that Tammy’s followers care more about Chikara reacting than Tammy does herself. It’s like the lemons don’t even listen to Tammy anymore lol
@@sophiestanza Well, if Chikara is critiquing someone else’s health decisions, it is valid to critique Chikara for using performance-enhancing drugs. Taking PEDs & building excess muscle can both be detrimental to the heart. Bodybuilders will criticize obese people for not caring about their health. Yet, these same bodybuilders will take PEDs, cycle in & out of cutting diets, & gain too much muscle for their heart to handle. Chikara admits to losing her period, FFS.
Why don't you go inpatient??? Surely the Netherlands must have the option to like we have here in Germany. And the cats are not an excuse tbh, your health is more important.
She is trying to access more services and inpatient has not been offered to her at this stage. No one can just "go" to inpatient (and I am saying this as someone who has been to inpatient). Unless you are a danger to yourself or others the process of seeking inpatient help is difficult.
@@justine8387 I know that there are waitlists, I worked literally on the psychosomatic ward. But here in Germany, it is only a matter of months and if you want it, you do get the help. Maybe it's different in the Netherlands.
Hope she is doing okay, she seems like such a sweet soul.
Does anyone know if Tammy is ok? I hope she is
Omg just thought of you,i hope ur ok gal,we miss u
I was thinking of her too, we do miss you Tammy 💗
Tammy I hope that you and your family are doing well So many people miss you so very much please come back God bless you and yours
Just checking in Tammy. I hope you’re okay, lots of us are thinking of you and hope you’re taking care of yourself ❤
i agree 1000% with change being super slow and boring, ppl don't understand that impatience can be super toxic and unhealthy esp when dealing with physical and mental illnesses
So true! My impatience never works with my partner and I have to step back and check my behavior.
Physical illness? I don't recall Tammy ever saying anything about a physical illness other than low vitamin D and obesity which she finally said in this video is a symptom of binging (not of over consumption of highly processed "foods".)
Tammy needs to take steps.. not just talk about them.. steps towards gradual and increased change in her eating, fasting, and sleeping habits as well as continue to work on the emotional/psychological components of her problems.
Oh crap, I’m physically ill too. I’ve got ms. That didn’t stop me from
Losing weight and go from 74 kgs to 62. What’s stopping her? Constant excuses?
Hope you and your fur babies are all okay. You are missed.
Where has she been? I'm not a sub but I just came by to check and I see it's been over 3 months. Idk anyone who covers her so I don't hear anything elsewhere.. were there any clues from her as to why she left TH-cam?
Hey I hope all is well with you. Waiting patiently for the next video!
I have bipolar/depression, PCOS and hypothyroidism and the best thing that worked for me is a personal trainer that pushed me to get comfortable with being UNcomfortable and stop making excuses for why I don't feel like working hard certain days. He really helped me with self-discipline. Therapists coddled me too much and I wasn't making progress the way I wanted. I personally needed a kick in the butt. Just my personal experience
Your personal trainer sounds like the best thing for you!
I am a calls em as I sees em type and do best with a similar type.
Keep fighting Tammy ❤ I hope you're doing well.
I think the Video of chikara is the reason why she is not showing up on TH-cam anymore... Even when she is defending herself from Chikaras words here, but she also knows it's true had been said.
you think?
@@magdalenakuffel3213 💯
Ilona isn’t mean she’s just blunt. As someone who struggles with binging, disorder or not, you have to realize you’re accountable for your actions.
Are you trying to say Tammy isn’t? Because that is not true.
Right. She's absolutely has no filter 🥴
I like Ilona and her channel, she is not vindictive in any way but can be blunt and I also like how she doesn’t promote her own lifestyle as healthy and warns against it. Having said that she has never been obese as far as I know and doesn’t know the complexities of food addiction and binge eating disorders, I think if she is going to do these random reaction videos she needs to do more research on the subjects background and watch more of their videos before commenting and not just take a random video to react to.
@@dels83336 oh ok I didn’t know that I’m new to her channel. I do like her though and think she has some good advice in her videos.
@@AdeliaAlessandra she has reacted to tammy many times. it wasn't a one-off
Tammy,
You should be so proud of yourself for the amount of hard work you have put in to heal yourself.
I understand the struggle & it is a very strong thing to wake up one day and say enough is enough and put in the work to become a better you. I commend you for that. Going to therapists, dieticians, working hard every single day to make sure you stay on track is not an easy thing to do. So you should be very proud of yourself. Hearing you speak about your parents made me upset but I can see it has made you who you are, you’re a humble incredible, strong intelligent person
I grew up with 4 brothers and I know exactly what you are saying!
They called me Pig!
They were treated like Princes and I was not treated well by anyone in my family!
And Yes! I see the little girl that I was and try to show her all of the love and kindness she deserved😢
I have had that happen to me, all the bullying made me stronger I had family tell me on way to a birthday party I look like a cow in dress especially my cousins who were very skinny, I learned to clap back eventually these people say the wrong thing to people and wonder why someone cusses them out and they feel stupid 😒😒😒
Vickiemouse23 I'm sending you and that little girl big hugs! I have CPTSD and I know what its like to have a hard childhood that can impact adulthood. 🤗
.... then you grew up and made your own way in life and became a better person for it
I’m 63 now and sometimes things pop into my head and take me back.
I’m sorry to others that have been treated similarly!
Yes, growing up and maturing has distanced me from that trauma, but I guess you could say I have PTSD.
My mom went to work when I was 7 and all of the household chores became my responsibility.
I’d clean the entire house, laundry, bedding, dusting, vacuuming…all of it, while my brothers laid around the house.
Most Saturdays my mom would come home from work and go straight to her bedroom. When my dad got home she’d say to my dad…and I quote, “ God damn Vic! I work hard all week and have to come home to a filthy house”! Spurring my dad to come after me with the belt!
Oh hell yes, that still hurts so bad!
That’s just one example of how badly I was treated and how my mom did everything she could to get my dad pissed off at me.
I know her childhood was hard and I do forgive her…
As I’ve aged I am Thankful that I can do all sorts of things that most don’t know how to do.
I coddle that little girl with all I have🌸♥️
I know I’m not alone and I’m holding all the little children that we’re similarity mistreated with all of my love and Prayers 🙏🏻🕊✝️🌸♥️
❤❤❤
Hey Tammy it’s been a really long time, we are really starting too worry🥺
I hope you are safe and ok Tammy💔😭
I literally just thought of her and thought hey I miss seeing notifications for her videos. I hope she is safe and happy and healing🙏 food addiction sucks😢
Tammy is so brave, seriously - especially here, but even with the whole channel. Being this open with a journey this difficult takes some real strength. I'm so sorry to hear about everything her parents inflicted upon her
I miss you, hope you're doing well !
Yes, for me the binges are primarily about numbing, not pleasure. I do eat pleasurable foods when I binge, but I can binge on muesli if I have to. I can become so numb with a binge that I literally cannot get emotional or cry, and that is the point.
Same. I’ve binged on dry cereal when I’ve had nothing else. I have learned not to keep trigger foods in the house, but when I’m at my worst, I will walk or drive to the store to buy my binge food. The positive side of doing that is it sometimes thwarts the binge before I start because I have to think about what I’m doing instead of just being on autopilot.
TAMMY, COME BACK PLEASE!
The reality is Tammy doesn't owe anyone health or weight loss. She is sharing a part of her life.
Exactly. Thank you for saying that.
She only owes it to herself.
the reality is you can't share your life publicly and expect people to mind their business
She profits off TH-cam. It’s her only income. Don’t act like she’s doing it for the simple reason of purely sharing her struggles to “help” others…
@@rosysjr6599 I believe Tammy's original goal with this channel was to lose weight while helping others. She has stated as much and it is evident in your early videos.. But I wonder how it is possible to truly help others by giving advice when one has not found the path yet themselves. Case in point some of her videos that tell people how to stop binging... yet she continues to binge.
Getting this her physique is a hard work. And judging from where I am. She might be replaced one obsceion with another. Just more socially acceptable
Hey Tammy, I noticed you didn’t post lately and I really hope that after this review video you’re doing okey I know it must be really hard watching those
I just hope your feeling good and that’s all
Have the best weekend honey 💞
Don’t forget she just got the new Zelda game and dealing with a new roommate. Might be why she’s not posting much 🤞
🙏 PLEASE come back.....WE miss you!
Miss you Tammy! Hope you are taking good care of yourself and that we will see you again soon 🤗💜
If you don't have money for your vitamin D tablets, you shouldn't be buying a Zelda game
Steal the goddamn tablets it's not that hard.
@@jasthephysicist This comment is extremely funny. 😂
This should be a PINNED comment.
I friggin adore you. You are so self aware, accountable, and just super sweet. I have so much respect for you sharing your journey and being so vulnerable in such a public way. You are very clearly trying to better yourself and it shows. Love this glow up from the inside out. I am here for it and on a similar journey. ❤ So much love and support from Australia!
These people in the comments are leading Tammy right to that 6 ft deep ditch in the church yard.
They really are! It’s sad
I'm an optimist. Despite Tammy's bubble, 2023 will be a year of hard work and positive change.
Hello Tammy. We all hope you’re ok and we miss you & the cats. Praying for your safety / and health ❤
Missing your videos, girl. I hope ur good.❤
It's just refreshing that you can watch a critique like this and own everything, and absorb what she's saying, without being reactionary and defensive. I think it's human to want to defend and deflect, and I appreciate that you took such a measured approach.
She's not a troll of the internet and I think that people have to stop comparing her to amberlynn or foddiebeauty
Tammy's ability to self-reflect and see things as they are is honestly awe-inspiring. The fact that she is able to react so calmly and explains herself so well... This video was very cathartic even for me as a completely different person who struggled a lot with BED and still struggles with BED
thats exactly what amberlynn reid does, like it shows her emotional instability and she now focuses on comments that solidifies her delusion that any call out on her behavior is the same as these trolls. so she stays a victim
@@irebernardi Self-awareness is not the same as self-restraint or self-discipline. All three of them are missing some combination of these.
This creators complete lack of respect for her subscribers is shown in hee choosing to ignore hee channel people should unsubscribe give their attention to someone more deserving of a platform
I kinda agree with you and kinda don’t.. But here I am…She must know people miss her😮 I feel like she got her feelings her hurt, understandably, and now her audience is suffering as well. But I get that she doesn’t necessarily owe anyone anything.. but her absence is felt and I get how it could be off-putting.. also I like chikara too sort of…. But chikara is being honest and is not easy to hear… Just hoping for the best🎉
Yep, truth hurts and Tammy could not handle it. I wish her the best and hope she's finally taking care of herself instead of uselessly ruminating about what she "should do/could do" whatever, and then not following thru with it.
And this is why you should never support a youtube fat girl. It feeds their narc supply and thats about it.
Ilona is awesome. For the most part shes fair and at time gives of good advice and tips.
Agree. Great channel.
Awesome? She’s okay. She gives okay advice alongside a whole lot of negative judgement without watching all the person’s videos and speeding through what she does see.
I think she is exploitive of others for content and viewership. And like as not, her viewers go to the person Ilona is criticizing and deliver more of the same negativity and narrow mindset to someone who is already dealing with a lot.
Tammy shouldn’t have to spend time and emotional and mental energy responding to Ilona’s public criticisms and Ilona fans like yourself in her comments. It would be far better if she spends that energy in other parts of her life and keeps on progressing as she has done and will continue to do, I’m sure!
But because of Chikara, Tammy has to waste her time on this instead of happier pursuits. She has not uploaded in a while and you might wonder why. Chikara and her fans should ask themselves that. I hope Tammy is doing well and having fun. I do not blame her at all for needing space.
Maybe Chikara should send her a nice present to her mailbox for all this trouble? Maybe with a supportive card or apology? That would be nice!
@@AmyWhoLovesFlowers because of Chikara..? you do realize that no one can make you do anything and Tammy has the choice not to spend her time on Chikara.. she has free will and isn’t forced to do anything. It’s an odd way of seeing it, blaming Chikara like that as if Tammy has no responsibility in what she spends her time doing
@@sophiestanza Easier on oneself to treat Tammy as if she is an infant than to address the truth in uncomfortable facts?
Tammy "progressing as she has done and will continue to do"? Just which channel/ Tammy are you referring to? Certainly not 2+ years of Tammy Lemon who has no problem talking about what she should do.
How are you feeling Tammy?? I sincerely hope you’re doing ok. Even if that’s just waking up, and ‘breathing’. Remember……. There are so many people who love you, no one can replace you. You are perfect exactly as you are. You are ‘enough’. You are irreplaceable. Your are wonderful and kind. You bring a joy to the world, even if you don’t feel that joy yourself. I am a complete stranger. But a stranger who has sat quietly across the ocean worried about you. I hope you are able to cocoon yourself with the warm love and light that I send to you daily. In my thoughts ……… xxxxxx
yeah, kinda weird
Lol
Miss you Tammy , I struggle with a eating disorder and I found u so relatable , I hope u come back 🍋
Hope all you're doing well .
Miss your videos..😊
Peace 🙏🕊️🙏
7.23.2024
Anyone knows what's going on with Tammy? Why she isn't uploading anymore?
On Instagram she said one of her cats died and it caused her to go into a downward spiral, but she is planning on coming back some day.
Oh so sad! I really miss her videos. Hope she will be ok.
Hope you are doing ok Tammy, so many people are worried about you. A quick update on you community tab would put so manyy people's minds at rest if you're not feeling like doing a video right now. TH-cam is hard on anyone, maybe putting your journey on here is not for you after all, noone would blame you if you wanted to stop doing it, it certainly doesnt work for everyone. Very best wishes to you sweetheart xx
Agreed!
Please do this Tammy. We are concerned about you.
You are having binges because food is your comfort and sense of security, but it's also a habit. Yes, you need to deal with the root cause, but you also need to act and break the habit. Instead of planning how you act after your binge, plan ahead how you act when you need the urge to binge (instead of binging). You are filming the foods you PLAN to binge on, so it's not something that happens before you even notice. You analyse this behaviour and why this happens, but do nothing to stop it.
People are feeling bad for you and supporting you, but I think you rather need tough love. You need to take responsibility if you want to change this behaviour and stop this. No one else can help, only you can stop this.
Create a note for yourself with simple steps to follow, for example some questions to ask yourself (Do I really want this? How will I feel after eating all that food? How would I feel If I do not do this this time? Imagine how powerful I feel when I really step out od this). Next time when you need the urge to binge, step out of this, take out your notes and ask yourself these questions.
Hope you’re ok, Tammy. Thinking of you. ❤🍋🍄
Thinking of you
Worried about you Tammy, hope you're OK....it's been so long since you last updated. Sending you love. ❤
I am on the fence. I do feel Ilona is being harsh and she really has no place critiquing your ED when she is in a period of over exercising and restricting in order to look a certain way. However, I am starting to notice some of your more emotionally manipulative or victim mentality traits. I feel as though you are looking at us for validation that you are trying your best, no matter how many times you fail in the same way. The purchasing the Ben and Jerry’s when you know you can’t control yourself over them for example.
Victim mentality? Maybe she is just honest.
Selecting, purchasing, and consuming the Ben and Jerry's it itself is a good example. That Tammy does it often and in large quantities makes it even more applicable.
Honestly having watched Tammy longer than Ilona has, I can relate to Ilona and everyone else who used to enjoy watching Tammy as she used to be refreshing to watch her just be honest about her BED; but she never seems to be willing to change her ways no matter how much she talks about it (and when she does, it does not last long as she goes back to her usual habits). It's like a neverending cycle and it gets exhausting watching her do this to herself over and over.
@@nigellasartre "What do you expect exactly?" Well, as Tammy is clearly addicted to junk "food", and binges regularly on said "food", I expect that she will continue to binge until she actually starts avoiding highly processed "food". The impulse/desire to eat this way is driven by many factors. It's not about lack of willpower to stop eating them. It's about not taking steps that will lead to sustained change and finally break away from the addiction or at least the effects of active addiction. Is that "exact" enough for you?
@@nigellasartre No one was asking me? No one was asking me what? Your comment (which is not visible now.. is it deleted said "What do you expect exactly?" As I recall the comment was a generalization about Tammy's "progress". But the tone of your last comment "You must be seeing things because no one was asking you." makes me think that you don't care to elaborate nor comment on Tammy's obvious addiction to "food". And to clarify, I put 'food' in quotation marks when I am referring to substances that human's ingest that are not helpful to our growth and energy needs. Of course, in Tammy's case this appiies to all the highly processed "food" that she consumes and binges on regularly.
Did this video upset you too much ? You disappeared afterwards
One of my therapist said to me that the cycle is not actually a circle but more like a spiral. You feel like you’re at the same point over and over again but if you look back you see that you actually moved outwards and one day you will see hoe far you’ve come.
This was insanely helpful for me to read, thank you
You know truth was spoken when supporters out here taking cheap shots at Ilona's appearance yet not her words. Coddling isn't helpful. The truth only hurts deniers.
Just saw a comment calling Ilona an annoying European Bimbo 😂 Honestly what a slay I'd be giddy af if someone called me that. But yeah the cheap appearance insults are all people can attack since her words are not wrong.
Right. She wasn’t commenting on Tammy’s body or anything so why do they do it to her?
@@BalticRat OMG LOL i love that. European Bimbo is actually iconic and im stealing that lmao
miss you tammy
I really, really like this video Tammy. Because Chikara is posing the questions/thoughts that I too have been having. You see, I began watching your weight loss journey videos a few months ago and was encouraged by them and even learned a few good tips which I am still using now. But several weeks ago, I had to stop watching because they changed and became more about ways to try and eat more and more junk food for some reason, trying to control the binging but yet triggering it instead, or something. So I stopped watching. And during this time, I have continued on with the weight loss journey and have dropped a lot of weight so far and am feeling so much better and in control. I thought of you again and wished this same thing for you, for your happiness, and I decided to check your new videos. And I am glad to see this one because it is so honest and direct (both of you) and it makes me feel hopeful for you to get inspired again to take control of your eating because you can. You're a great person Tammy, everyone out here loves you, that is clear to see. And so I am wishing you the best in your weight loss journey, and I'm actually on it with you and even a little bit because of you. So it is excellent you have made this honest video, and I hope it is a help to you because I'm greatly encouraged to see it, and I will be checking in again for your next video now as well because this is a positive direction to go in. Looking forward to your continuing progress and good health and happiness.
Good for you! Watching Tammy is not a solution for recovery because she is not in recovery herself and it's the blind leading the blind . She is aware of her community that most are suffering from ED and she continues to show binge eating and it's more than triggering . So imo it's not helpful to watch someone plan a binge or other bad behavior
I really like you both, Tammy & Ilona. You should maybe make a live video together, discussing your points.
Hi Tammy! I hope and pray you and your kitties are doing well. ❤️🙏
You are missed! Just hope that you are well.
Ich vermisse deine Videos.
Und du kannst so gut singen.
Ich auch.
Everyone is mentioning how binge eating is not about food, it’s about the mental health issue. Why not answer the question Ilona asks about why not keep veggies, good proteins and healthy whole foods in the house at all times, not ordering food online or limiting access to unhealthy food at all time?If it wasn’t about the food at all, weight loss would occur because it is very hard to binge on broccoli and baked chicken. I believe it’s both, and it’s okay to admit that.
"Unhealthy food" is not food. It's "food", just as alcohol is "food". This is one of modern society's biggest diet problem.
@@AzaleaBee 100%. There are inherent good and bad foods, fast food being the most obvious one. They are literally designed by scientists to be addictive to make money so there are definitely inherent good and bad foods that people just don't get or don't want to get
@@justakathings Absolutely. It's important to see a lot of the inherently "bad foods" as not food from the start. I really doubt our great-grandmothers would see a lot of what is eaten today as food.
@@AzaleaBee oh ye definitely. I’ve eaten healthily only for a month and cut out all the processed carbs and I can’t eat them anymore since it makes me feel sick. They aren’t food, they’re poison tbh
Tammy, are you okay?
I hope you come back Tammy, I come to check up on your channel every now and again to see if you uploaded:) you made me really have an admiration for the Netherlands! I’m visiting in a few months with my bf and have been practicing Dutch. We’re so excited! Hope you’re well! ❤
I really hope you use that minimum $60 your fans gave you through super thanks "for Vitamin D" for the prescription Vitamin D you need. There is no excuse not to get it now. It's very important to get Vitamin D for your health. It can help with the mental part of the battle as well. Getting healthier should be a priority.
Chikara/Ilona has been positively supporting you since the end of 2021. I've been watching you on and off since then as well. She mostly told you to increase protein (not through bread) and eat decent amount of calories of wholefoods (not processed foods). Her past few reactions of you she mentions more of your possible self sabotaging issues. Like you wanting to stop eating healthy and to stop walking for a period. Should be a lifestyle change. Stopping the healthier habits could throw you back into a bad routine all over again. I feel like some of the negative comments towards her in your comment section didn't even watch your video yet. You even mention how it could be frustrating to watch because you get frustrated watching others like that.
When you were talking about therapy and mentioned "You have to change yourself" YES! You have to practice and find other HEALTHY coping mechanism that is NOT food. That's why I was happy you were walking again but now want to stop :/ . You don't have to walk a far distance or for a long time. Just getting out to move for a couple of minutes for help with a routine. NOT to use it as punishment. It's as if you're grieving the junk food when you don't have it for a period of time.
Being scared of eating 2,400 calories of wholefood and being afraid to gain weight but then doing 12k calorie binge is something to work on. Accepting eating the wholefoods at higher amount is healthier. Eating lower calories of processed food could trigger a binge. Eating the healthy low calorie dense food at bigger volumes can give you that stuffed feeling you mentioned you crave. Just not the sugar rush part.
Keeping a photo album of old binges is not healthy. I would want to delete that album. It's like you guilt yourself looking at old binges. Which can trigger another binge. Or it could make your crave those items again looking at it.
Spot on.
I'd only like to add that Tammy should work towards her goal of eating no more than 3 times a day. Period. She seemed to be so on track when she was working towards that. Whole foods as you said, of course.
@Barta sparta 48:58 she mentions taking photos of binges before TH-cam. She has a photo album on her phone of binge photos for "exposure therapy". She remembers how she felt in that moment. It's not healthy to dwell on it all over again. It's a form of self torture and can lead to even more self hatred/negative talk.
Few minutes before that she mention how she's not in the right mindset during a binge. The videos doesn't have real time sound because she wants to eat (she mentioned it again later). From 45mins (maybe close to 41mins on wards actually) on I feel like she's more open about her binges. Mentioned how binges are not through out the day but that 12k binge was maybe within 2 hours. How in the past it made her sick and vomit. She doesn't feel good during them.
@Barta sparta I remember Tammy mentioning such a photo album and it's just as TonicBlade described. At the time I thought to myself, "so TH-cam will become your new photo album." I only half believed it. But here we are. 😔
@Barta sparta a big myth about BED is that you are frantic and out of control. Binges can present differently for different people.
@@justine8387 While I agree that binges can be different to different people, the idea that someone can plan, go out to shop, photograph, and then proceed to binge as planned shows MANY missed opportunities to NOT binge this time. It is hard. Damn hard I know. But each moment of positive change makes one stronger. Tammy is in control. Obviously.
Hope you're doing okay Tammy, you are missed 🩷
Does anyone know what happened to Tammy? I miss her!
@@cramdenle1924 what do u mean?
She at least should let us know she isn't sick or injured
That he she thing is mean to Tammy. Don't let her get you done. Tammy is loved by us all. If Chikir is a biologic woman, she is on anabolic steroids cause she looks like a man. She thinks she is healthy? Wait till the steroids catch up with her. She has no room to put Tammy down.
@@susanbeckham7236She did not put Tammy down.Your remark is beyond bigoted.A disgrace on Pride week. Do better.
TH-cam will be Gorlworld's downfall. Most of these people aren't going to be around in the next twenty years unless major changes occur. Good luck to you all.
Lol she will absolutely be here in 29 years. You speak as if Tammy is bed bound, she is not. She is independent & active, & much taller than any of the other nasty, toxic morons you seem to be comparing her to. The fact you think every overweight person will be d3ad in a matter of so many years is rather disturbing, & completely unfounded & uneducated.
@@LauraBidingCitizen They rarely live past 50. Not that they all d!e but it increases the risk like smoking does etc.
Freeze frame 25:10
The look of love and kindness between women. One woman complimenting the other, where both are kind and beautiful women and neither is catty to the other.
Wish there was more of this in this world.
Just pause and look.
Sometimes I compliment strangers in passing. Like a woman with pretty hair "yes girl! You're killing it today with that hair!"
It's little things like This that can change everything.
It's the horribly rude and disrespectful people like ALR that I have a hard time with
True. I still think Ilona is interesting to listen to tho
How can you make weight loss vlogs and then be upset when someone watches them and is honest about your efforts
I don't think it was the reaction videos themselves that were problematic to Tammy. She has indicated (even in this very video) that such reaction channels help her build her channel.
Tammy actually reacting to an honest and quite down to earth video about her seemed to be the difficulty. Watch as she sometimes struggles to comment.. notice her facial expression and how many cuts are in the video. At times she is really quick to comment but any listening to herself again via editing would be right in her face and ears.
I am just going to take your name and picture, make a billboard criticizing your comment and post it above a freeway for all to see,
because I can.
But nooo, because that would be rude, exploitive, bullying.
Thanks for acknowledging that Ilona’s videos taking Tammy’s content and then blasting it to Chikara’s unempathetic fanbase could be upsetting for Tammy, though!
On a basic level it is copyright infringement, exploitive, abusive.
@@AmyWhoLovesFlowersahahahaha
@@AmyWhoLovesFlowers please stop the 🧢
@@AmyWhoLovesFlowers Tammy made her own billboard, put it on a busy highway for everyone to see and then cries when people talk about it
My Christmas wish is that you feel well enough to upload 🥺❤️
Hi Tammy, how have you been doing? Hope you’re doing well!!
the reality is you were abused or neglected as a child by the two people you should have been loved by and protected, now that you are on ur own and should be taking care of your self.. you instead are continuing where ur parents left off, you are abusing and neglecting that child you were and the woman you now are. Instead protect her and take care of her like u do ur nieces and nephews
I am getting worried about you Tammy. Are you ok??
Take as long as you need to get better. Ignore the haters. If people don’t like four content, then they can just scroll on by xxxx
I've really considered making a youtube channel and vlogging my own journey but things like knowing that people are going to pick my life apart makes me extremely apprehensive. I just don't know if I want to deal with it.
Tammy will be here 20 years from now complaining and buying Ben & Jerry's she's a professional victim
everyone has an opinion on everything. If you leave your house outsiders will look real life or online. Its about honesty really. people will support the struggle but will troll a game player.
Yep.. that’s exactly why I also haven’t made one. Too many unhappy souls (like tiger above) who are too eager to rip you to shreds, not caring about the consequences. It’s really quite disturbing when you think about it.
@@gigglesandhugs5690 That’s exactly why I don’t leave the house. Humans are, for the most part, disgusting.
@@LauraBidingCitizen i never said it was right i said it happens. we all have a thought about someone else or something. might be nice or it might not be. i fully understand low self esteem and i understand not being secure.also saying youtube specific people who have support but also only have excuses will lose the support. people want to feel connected and like they are seen thats human nature.
What helped me was realizing if I have the power to restrict then I have the power to control the binging and over time remembering that gives you power and strength over binging! Stick w that mindset- you already have that ability! I’m actually a big fan of Chikara but if it doesn’t help to watch then it’s better for you not to! I think she supports you and only wants best for you. Good luck on your journey!
Absolutely. For me it was the power to be selective not restrictive... although at the time I didn't see it as a power. But I love your comment. It surely is!
I choose selective instead of restrictive because even if they were the same thing (for me step 1 avoiding highly processed "food") because selective felt like a positive choice.. And surrounded by a both a food environment and "food" environment 24/7 we are all selective unless we eat everything that's edible.
One of her cats passed and she’s just grieving to the point of going crazy. My heart just aches for her.😭😭😭😭 good news is she’s lost a lot of weight during all this trauma.😊
How do you know this?
how do you know ?
I miss you Tammy! Hope you’re okay… you’re not alone ❤️ we are all going through something
Is there any way we can check in with Stefan of her sister? Maibe one of them can post a quick message , even if it's just "Tammy might not post anymore/for a while.". Just, anything other than this prolonged concerning silence 😅
Big hug Tammy, hope you are well
Hi, Tammy! I just want to say I hope you are all right and that I miss you. I am sure many here miss you. Please, leave us a community post if you will. ❤ 🍋 ❤️🍋❤️
I hope all is well, The last few videos have been pretty overwhelming, im sure. I hope you are okay. And you take care of yourself. Give yourself the same kindness you give to others. You're helping a lot of people with your journey. Don't let people's opinions dictate your future. 💜💜💜
I too miss you, hope you are well ❤ God bless
you probably don't know chikara, who struggled with bulimia herself. honestly, she is on point, and she is not even mean but always well-intended. it's just that people don't like truth.
Exactly. I hope Tammy is doing the work to figure out her issues, and get healthy, because wallowing about it on the internet is a great way to never get better.
why did you stop posting??
I miss you Tammy, you have a sweet soul and watching your videos is a joy, so calming. I wish you the best and want to remind you how strong you are, you are extremely resilient and have overcome so much. Whatever youre going through right now will be the same, please never stop believing in yourself.
She is using exercise instead of food Tammy. As a scientist you know relapse is part of recovery . Fall off your bicycle but get back on it xxx
We all have coping mechanisms. Some are just more healthy than others.
Tammy could just at least post a message thats she’s taking break if she hasn’t done so already
The fact that she says that feeling comes and goes...that in itself helps me. Like for me "just sit it out" . Thoughts will pass. I think the outlet is keeping busy. Distract. But everyone's distractions is different.
Distraction certainly is a helpful strategy in combination with other changes. That feeling? You mean hunger, craving, or the feeling one might get at the onset of a binge? Ghrelin waves do come and go. Knowing that it is temporary and comes in waves helps to just let it pass.
Awww- I can totally relate about feeling like you never had someone to hug and share their pride with you. Hugs to you 💕
Hi Tammy! I hope that you're doing well! ❤️ I miss your videos! 🥺 Hugs and lots of love to you and your fur babies! ❤️🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
I miss her videos too and Im getting increasingly worried for her! I hope she is okay!
Does anyone know where she’s gone? :(