Hey Tammy, I've only just recently discovered your channel, I love your honesty and down to earth approach. I'm sorry for the struggles you are having...I relate sooo much to the way you talk about your experiences so honestly...especially in terms of how your depression affects you. I go through so much of the same. I've never really felt like I have a true ED but I definitely do not have an OFF switch when it comes to sugary foods... I can never just stop at one serving of it. So maybe I have elements of BED..I don't know. I don't tend to struggle with my weight but I certainly do with bipolar disorder...which is mainly depressive... And also a chronic illness which seriously affects the types of foods I can actually eat. I love your sense of humour, your positive messages even when you are feeling so down, and I love your beautiful cats!! Please don't be so hard on yourself...you are a great content creator and so relatable to so many people....unlike many other so called weight loss or diet channels. Keep being yourself and I know you will reach your goals, whatever they happen to be. Just please please please do not go down the mukbang route like so many others have done in order to simply garner views. You are way more entertaining and truthful and genuine than that. I really appreciate hearing someone else talk about how depression can make it soooo hard to even get out of bed and make it to the shower some days...makes me thankful to think I'm not alone in that, and its refreshing to come across someone as self aware as yourself. Keep up the good work. Love from NZ 😘😘
I really appreciate your honesty. I think other popular TH-camrs who binge and struggle to lose weight get a lot of hate, but people don’t understand that binge eating is legitimately a disorder for many people. Your honestly helps show that. Thank you and good luck ❤️
I hate wasting food too….but I have found that throwing away foods when I feel like I won’t be able to control myself, has led to me not buying them in the first place. In the grocery store when I am considering buying a trigger food, I now think “I am just going to throw it away”, rather than finding reasons to buy it or telling myself it will be different this time. Because for me, the only thing I hate worse than wasting food, is wasting money! Sending you good thoughts!
I feel you so hard. Just at the beginning of the video and I already wanna hug you. I've been there too. Tried so hard for months, took my metformin, my mini pill to help with testosterone - in hopes it also helps with weight loss. And yet I only lost 6,5 kilos. It went up and down all through the months, bc of water weight and constipation. I was sticking to my healthy diet change until my chronic illness was acting up and let me crash. I wasn't able to cook anymore. And frustrated to no end about my health, that I snapped and just had a cheat day after another. And I've been eating bad ever since. And yet I fluctuate between 0-3 kilo weight gain. It's ridiculous. Like, I eat healthy (I know slow metabolism after multiple Ed's, and pcos and hashimoto, it takes time, but come on!) and it feels like nothing comes off. But when I eat crap, I fluctuate the same 3 kilos up and down like nothing. It's stupid. I'm so close to giving up again. But then I found your channel yesterday. And here I am. Complaining to you about my shitty diet. But it also makes me wanna start again. So yeah. I hope we both gonna manage it this time. ❤️❤️❤️
Sweets (especially pastries and cakes) are my biggest binge triggers. I ended up cutting them completely and now I eat pudding or ice cream for dessert... as long as it is somewhat liquid and not doughy, it doesn’t trigger me ^^ .. it’s been about 2 months since I last ate pastries.
I think you are so brave to share your journey with us, keep strong, maybe try force yourself to eat 3 meals and 2 snacks so the temptation to binge is slightly less, although I'm sure it's a lot more complicated than that. You will get through this ! Lots of love from South Africa ❤
I love how honest you are and how relatable you are. I have struggled with binging for so many years and 2022 is the year im determined to overcome this. Thanks for the uploads, it helps so much to relate to someone else out there. I also love the fresh start too. Keep doing your thing, you're awesome xox
I have struggled with binging and restricting too. (I used to walk until I got a headache and I sometimes trained with on a 'total gym' machine thing until I could no longer feel my bladder). One time I think I had three or four oliebollen in a row. I also used to binge on very weird stuff afterwards to try and make myself sick (rice crackers with peanut butter coleslaw like stuff and pepper for example). Or just on things that were there like "afbakbroodjes" but I would just eat them as is, so not "baked" (''rauw'"/niet afgebakken). Now I am actually at a point where I am at a healthy weight after being almost underweight at one point. Seeing you struggle is heartbreaking on one hand but it also helps to know that other people struggle with food. Sorry for the rant, I usually don't leave comments, but you seem like a really nice person so I wanted to say something :). I'm rooting for you! On a side note, I can also relate to tulband cake not tasting as good as I remembered it to be the last time I had it :P.
I thought I heard you say something about not really liking chicken wings or maybe they were harder for you to finish or something like that. One pattern that I am struck by is you don't eat very much protein in your regular meals. In fact they are quite carbohydrate rich. I wonder if you made your meals more protein dense if that would change something. I've had the experience of eating an apple only to feel hungry later and that's reflective of something I try to keep in mind: If I eat a meal, I should not be hungry again for many hours. If I eat something and I'm hungry up to 2 or 3 hours later, then I know there is something problematic with that food. Anyway, just some thoughts inspired by what you've been showing us. I'm glad that you have a team that you're working with. Also I am just reminded of a thought I had when watching some of your other videos: don't be so hard on yourself!
this is something i noticed as well! I didnt see much protein in her meals and that might be one of the reasons why shes so hungry. Educating ourselves on proper nutrition can go a long way.
You got it right eating sugar causes quick rise as well as quick feeling of hunger after..if she consume 2-3 eggs in the morning she will feel satiated for at least til mid-afternoon
Hi Tammy! I appreciate your vulnerability in your videos 💚 you're really cool. I don't know if it's possible where you live but when I have extra junk food I don't want to eat or throw away, I put it in a bag by the dumpster outside my apartment and the homeless people always take it. That way they are fed and it doesn't go to waste
I really appreciate your videos. Very nice young lady, struggling with an addiction. I think an accountability partner is crucial. Youre already shredding the shame around earing disorders which is Amazing and will not only help you but so many people that watch. I am in Michigan USA 🇺🇸 and would love to be your accountability partner, by March you could have most of your life back without having deal with the aftermath of a binge addiction. You never have to feel this way again. Reach out if u want help. God Bless. And i LOVE those sweet cats! Too cute 😍
Thank you Tammy for your honesty in your videos. I’ve suffered from BED since 2009 when I was vegetarian then vegan for 3 yrs. But I didn’t connect the dots ( body needing nutrition) until 2015 when I reintroduced animal foods. Best decision ever for ME. The binges got less and less so in 2016 I started tracking the amount of days I binged each year. Every year they get less and less because it’s like I’m trying to beat my all time best from year before therefore in my mind I’m winning, I ended 2021 with only 66 binge days. Such progress for me since I used to binge at least twice a week (100-120 X a year). Please never give up trying! We are all trying day by day hour by hour sometimes. By the way I love your kitties! 😻😻😻😻
Hi Tammy, I came across your video and watched few of them and I can imagine how hard it is going through this, even though i dont have binge problem. However I wanted to say that you are so REAL, you are showing people what its really like and that its ok to struggle sometimes, you dont seem to hide anything and i love this ! I just want to say that I got Faith in you and I know that one day ( soon ) you will get over this, sending much love and hugs xxxx
Sweetheart, we should NOT keep fighting... When we learn to LET GO, the addiction will let go of us. There is a way out of this (I've been there where you are now!), but the solution is NOT to fight harder. Willpower is of no use what so ever.
Yes! Everybody would be depressed and with no energy or hope if you had to fight something ALL DAY LONG. put focus somewhere else, learn skills to cope with emotion so you dont have only this one that is not doing you any good. it wont go away if you wont have anything to replace it with - because it is probably very important to you psyche and serves some kind of purpose. you cant get rid of it by focusing and fixating on how bad it is because everybody needs a way to process emotions, but some of them are just healthier than others. this is just obsesive a behaviour not a root problem :( wish you good luck and please put your strength wn energy in things that you will actually benefit from like working things out with psychologist! not in punching yourself down and fighting with the behaviour that simply wont go away unless you find something else to serve the same purpose for example regulation emotions.
Also, i looked it up and seems like your lemon tree could be yellowing because of overwatering . If the topsoil is damp than the plant should be fine, it says online to only water once a week and when you do to make sure to really soak the dirt.. be sure that it’s soaking through to bottom!💕
I am sure that is so hard when you live alone dont have a job or anymotivating routine. Absolutely everybody would struggle in this situation. You spend all this time mostly alone and focus on the food all the time. itis not helping you;(
Hi Tammy, I really enjoy your channel and how open and honest you are. I’ve watched many of your videos and heard you talking about planning meals and counting calories and it seems to create some anxiety for you. But Ive also noticed you tend to binge when you miss a meal especially lunch. Just curious what resources you use to help support you with planning? I personally use some great cookbooks that have grocery list etc. And keep cooking to one day, that way when feeling hungry i just warm up a meal vs. grabbing an unhealthy option. I also do online grocery shopping that keeps me from going into the store limiting the chances of buying bad food...its too tempting sometimes. Keep up the good work, it is a mental battle and you are taking the right steps!
A thing i told myself is, i am allowed to eat. I am allowed to be hungry. I am SUPPOSED to be hungry, i am a human animal. My parents were very poor in the old country, i think that is why i have so much shame around being hungry. It is really hard to overcome that shame and really know that you are allowed to be hungry, you are allowed to eat.
Hi Tammy! I’ve been watching a lot of your content lately, I very much appreciate your honesty and you sharing the rawness of your journey. I’m rooting for you! I lived in the Netherlands (Maastricht) for 3 years during my bachelor studies and it the worst binge period of my life. I now live in Canada but somehow am less prone to binging here. These AH / Jumbo pre-made donuts, and the sugar waffles were my go-to, same with grilled cheese sandwiches and bread with peanut butter and the chocolate sprinkles 🤤. I look forward to seeing your progress! Keep going 🤜🌟🤛
Omg I have been searching for binge eating vlogs bc I have a huge problem with that too and I guess I just don't wanna feel alone. I found your channel today and I have been watching your videos the whole day, out of all the videos I have seen, the one I can relate the most to is this one! Thank you for sahring, I think it is super brave for you to do this! Your vlogs make me feel understood and I want you to know that.
Maybe focus on ONE thing? For example feeling satisfied. Or having more veggies. Or getting exercise. Rather than aiming for perfection (I do that too) you could build and focus on one promise to yourself?
I'm a recovering bulimic and binge eater. The Christmas/new year week is my major trigger. All my rules go out the window and if i'm staying with family i just gorge from Christmas day onwards. Every day this week ive said to myself that i'm going to go back to my healthy default, but i end up eating the leftover snacks. As soon as the crappy food is out of the house i will gain control again, but i hate that im so weak while it's right by me. We will get back on track, dont worry. Every healthy day under the belt is a success. And the unhealthy days are there to teach us about food and mental/physical health, as slowly as that may be. Just remember you are not alone, there are a lot of us out here! Take care lovely lady x
It might help to keep a food journal and see what type of foods you eat before a major binge. I find that if I don’t eat enough satiating food and allow myself to get too hungry, that is when the cravings really kick in. Try to fill up on more protein and it will help you stay fuller longer. Keeping all that junk food is just asking for a binge, I would trash it. Better in the bin, than in your body. Good luck to you!
right now the most important thing keeping me from a binge is the money it cost, besides health. when i think about it, junk food, let alone binging is an excess of food not needed, if its not needed its money wasted and that is what gets me the most! not the mention the physical pain afterwards as my body processes the excess of junky ingredients :”(
I have been in therapy for anxiety, depression and ED. I am curious if they are helping you explore ways to handle and process your emotions without food?
Everything you ate looks delicious! If your binge is also triggered by hunger you get from skipping meals, maybe you could leave some boiled potatoes and eggs in your fridge for when you're not feeling like making yourself anything for lunch. Instead of an apple, you get a slice of potato with a boiled egg. My nutritionist told me to do this and it helps me a bit, maybe it could work for you?
Ultimately, binging is a CHOICE that you have to say "no" to. When you feel like binging DO SOMETHING ELSE! You must eat enough of the right foods at the right time otherwise your body will send out hunger signals - the more carbohydrates you eat, the more your body will want. If you binge, why have the binge food in your house? - never buy more than 1 packet/container at a time of food that you would binge on. Walk to buy your binge food. Make binging an effort, hard work and an inconvenience. Your gnocchi serve was enough for 2 serves. Make a decision to never order food for a binge (or just never order food). Never throw out food - always make your binge leftovers part of your balanced meals. Choose living life over food. Look forward, not backward - there are no issues in the future. (They become the past as soon as they happen)
@@taylorg7783 I remember standing in front of a cupboard full of food that was meant to last me a month - it lasted 2 days. I made a CHOICE not to have food freely available around me. Even today, 37 years later I do not keep much food in the house because I would eat it until it was gone. When I do eat a treat - chocolate, cake, fried chicken - I walk to and from the shop (2 hour trip) to get it. PS. I never mentioned junk food. I am still overweight eating "healthy" food. But I never gained after I made the decision not to have much food around me. To me, every day is a CHOICE, you NEVER overcome an eating disorder. You just manage it. To survive I don't keep much food around me because CHOICE is harder when food is freely available. I would not be alive today if I had not made this CHOICE before every mouthful. Congratulations on beating BED, that is more control around food that I ever have had or will have. PPS. I never said stop eating junk food.
I have this problem that when i binge eat it will go on for a few weeks. But after that i feel so guilty that i don’t dare to touch food anymore. Sometimes i can’t eat for 4 days or even longer. And this is a really bad circle that i am in. It never stops and i hate it. Currently i haven’t eaten in about 2 days. Normally i would crave a little bit of food because i get hungry but now i don’t notice those signs even tough i am kinda hungry. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I also will get an operation on my throat and i am afraid that if i can’t eat a week after my operation i will completely stop eating. Because i never stopped eating for that long. Ones i reach the top there is no way coming back
LOL why were you so giggly about that bottle by the bed? was it lube? OMG I love how funny and just straight up real you are!! my binges consist of having a having my thermos of water, binge foods, and vibrator by my bed 😂😂😂
ik zag dat je 4 zoetjes in je thee deed. Die extreme zoete smaak kan ook binges veroorzaken omdat je constant zoete dingen wil! Had ik altijd. Hielp enorm om te minderen/stoppen.
4:57 i think throwing out junk foods is one of the best things you can do to prevent overeating and another binge. i also hate wasting food and money, but these days, i don't even consider throwing junk food out to be a waste. i don't think it has anything to do with you not being strong enough to do it, it's just a different way of looking at food. honestly, it feels weird the first few times, throwing out food that's 'perfectly good'.
Ok, dus morgen gewoon weer verder gaan waar je was gebleven. Misschien een lange wandeling met een vriend of vriendin maken? Goed voor je hoofd en je lijf.
What was the difference between your 1st and 2nd week? Were there any triggers during your second week? Or is it typical to do well one week and then derail the next?
Hey Tammy, maybe try saving all the wrappers with written dates on it, so you can count and realize how much you've consumed over a certain period of time. It kinda works for me, makes me realize I shouldn't binge eat snacks that much.
I had to realize that if I bring it in The house I will eat it so dont buy the stuff and you won't eat it I have lost 30 lbs by not buying any snacks and only eat once a day and only water
I wish people wouldn't feel guilty for eating a small meal. That's naturally how your body balances itself out after a big meal. It's also completely natural to skip a meal few times a week. 3 meals a day is more a food industry thing. It's also how they trap you into eating more food. If you listen to your natural hunger cues you will find you are not always hungry. I guess this is the issue with food addiction or EDs - there is so much guilt & misinformation involved it ALL goes out the window.
During the christmas week that has been, i ate soo many gingerbread cookies and so much swedish rice pudding 😁 Calories dont matter during christmas time 😉 And a whole can of pringles too 😅😎 I enjoyed everything, and ive started tracking again 😋
this is coming from a recovery binge eater mind: have you thought about getting less food for the binge, at least what helped me is i got to pick 2-3 things i really really wanted, and then bought those and ate them completely. that way it was done and I didn't need to deal with leftovers.
Hey Tammy, do you think it would help to ask your psychiatrist to up/change your medication? I know you've been struggling for a lifetime and you probably have done that tens of times, but probably it might help with the meh feelings and the binge thoughts. Some weeks are so hard baby, but some day you'll stay on the healthy path enough to reach your goal weight!
Tammy you remind me a lot of myself. Do you binge out of loneliness? Boredom and loneliness are my triggers. The binge urges creep up on me when I am alone with nothing to do......
I have BED, but I have been able to control it (mostly) by 1) cutting out most processed foods (no bread, no crackers, no cake, no cookies, no candy - I just don't buy them), 2) eating a lot of protein (meat - it keeps you full), 3) eating the same foods EVERY SINGLE DAY, and 4) taking myself away from the eating situation (staying around other people, going for a walk, going to library to read, ANYWHERE away from temptation). If you take away food variety, eating becomes simple. If I get decision fatigue, I make bad food choices. Every single day I drink coffee with cream and monkfruit sugar, for breakfast I eat lowfat greek yogurt with strawberries and sugar free maple syrup, for lunch I eat a salad with avocado and meat (leftover steak, chicken or shrimp), for dinner I eat steak, chicken or shrimp with a side of home made sweet potato fries (air fryer) or other vegetable. It's boring as hell, but I feel AMAZING when I don't eat sugar and processed foods. Once you kick the processed foods (it takes weeks or even months sometimes), your craving for them will diminish. Your cravings won't go away completely, but they will be manageable. Good luck, sweetie!
Hey love! I’m glad that worked for you but I would suggest not giving this as advice to others. Cutting out everything you love, eating the same food everyday, and distracting yourself from food are all byproducts of an eating disorder. It’s not sustainable nor a long term solution, therefore, *most* will fail after a couple of weeks or months. It could also develop into another disordered eating.
@@drippyess this lovely girl already has an eating disorder. BED, and an addiction to processed foods (which is horribly real and debilitating). If she can break that addiction she will be more likely to live a happy, healthy life. It's not a forever solution, but doing it for a few months can be life changing.
Christmas is so so hard. I'm glad the holiday is over I have dangerous food I normally don't have in my house. The problem with fanta is the sodium and fake sugar if its diet or real sugar if it's not. Both tell your brain to binge I'm serious. High carb foods do it too. The best thing for us all is to rid the house of this crap that is killing us. I know its easier said than done. But we all can do this. Eat fresh and whole foods. We all have a food addiction and your resistant to throw it out is not about $$$ or waste it's about ADDICTION. be ACCOUNTABLE hon and throw that garbage in the garbage!!!
That food looked divine. That’s all I can say. Don’t beat yourself up over binges, because I assure you, this is just a moment in your life (I wish I knew this much earlier in my life). Brush yourself off, say, “that was interesting” and get back on the path….
Hey Tammy! Have you considered having a roommate? Maybe company would help you with bingeing - it did help me when I had a binge eating problem, though not as big one as yours… it was not only the emberassement that kept me in control but the fact that i had a company to hve meals, it really helped me enjoying meals much more. I was also wondering if you mind sharing what is causing your binges - do you know? Hugs!
Depression goes away when weight is lost. Works every time. There's only one cure. No way around it. U eat cause u r depressed and u r depreessed cause u eat (i mean gain weigt) and so on and on.
Throwing out binge foods isn’t “wasting food “. Putting it in your body when it will make you feel bad is “wasting food.” You know if you kept it you (and nearly anyone else in that situation) would eat it
No pasta !!!! I'm Italian I know the struggle but that is no good . You wont have success with weightloss with it in your diet. Can you eat zucchini noodles or cauliflower rice?
You are so lucky to have an apartment for your own. In Switzerland is so damn expensive, most of ppl stay in shared flats... How do you make friends in the Netherlands?
Lol big mess..🍀❤️🍀🍀🍀❤️🍀 Wait this is not . Girl far from it.. *Your not a Hoarder* When you can treat yourself to some Comfy comforter Quilt... And matching rug and curtains... Make your room feel like a mini Luxury hotel room.. Just an idea Peace..
aw you seem so sweet and are so pretty. but girl, you will never be healthy or at a healthy weight if you consume animal products!! cows milk is made to grow calves into large cows!! which is exactly what its doing to you!! go vegan, binge on fruits!! its what your craving by binging on these sweet foods. fruit is naturally sweet and your body is craving it!!
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Hey Tammy, I've only just recently discovered your channel, I love your honesty and down to earth approach. I'm sorry for the struggles you are having...I relate sooo much to the way you talk about your experiences so honestly...especially in terms of how your depression affects you. I go through so much of the same. I've never really felt like I have a true ED but I definitely do not have an OFF switch when it comes to sugary foods... I can never just stop at one serving of it. So maybe I have elements of BED..I don't know. I don't tend to struggle with my weight but I certainly do with bipolar disorder...which is mainly depressive... And also a chronic illness which seriously affects the types of foods I can actually eat. I love your sense of humour, your positive messages even when you are feeling so down, and I love your beautiful cats!! Please don't be so hard on yourself...you are a great content creator and so relatable to so many people....unlike many other so called weight loss or diet channels. Keep being yourself and I know you will reach your goals, whatever they happen to be. Just please please please do not go down the mukbang route like so many others have done in order to simply garner views. You are way more entertaining and truthful and genuine than that. I really appreciate hearing someone else talk about how depression can make it soooo hard to even get out of bed and make it to the shower some days...makes me thankful to think I'm not alone in that, and its refreshing to come across someone as self aware as yourself. Keep up the good work. Love from NZ 😘😘
I really appreciate your honesty. I think other popular TH-camrs who binge and struggle to lose weight get a lot of hate, but people don’t understand that binge eating is legitimately a disorder for many people. Your honestly helps show that. Thank you and good luck ❤️
I hate wasting food too….but I have found that throwing away foods when I feel like I won’t be able to control myself, has led to me not buying them in the first place. In the grocery store when I am considering buying a trigger food, I now think “I am just going to throw it away”, rather than finding reasons to buy it or telling myself it will be different this time. Because for me, the only thing I hate worse than wasting food, is wasting money! Sending you good thoughts!
I feel you so hard. Just at the beginning of the video and I already wanna hug you.
I've been there too. Tried so hard for months, took my metformin, my mini pill to help with testosterone - in hopes it also helps with weight loss. And yet I only lost 6,5 kilos. It went up and down all through the months, bc of water weight and constipation.
I was sticking to my healthy diet change until my chronic illness was acting up and let me crash. I wasn't able to cook anymore. And frustrated to no end about my health, that I snapped and just had a cheat day after another. And I've been eating bad ever since. And yet I fluctuate between 0-3 kilo weight gain. It's ridiculous. Like, I eat healthy (I know slow metabolism after multiple Ed's, and pcos and hashimoto, it takes time, but come on!) and it feels like nothing comes off. But when I eat crap, I fluctuate the same 3 kilos up and down like nothing. It's stupid.
I'm so close to giving up again.
But then I found your channel yesterday. And here I am. Complaining to you about my shitty diet. But it also makes me wanna start again. So yeah. I hope we both gonna manage it this time. ❤️❤️❤️
Literally binged all of your content over the last week. I love your honesty. I’m rooting for you Tammy. Love, a NY lemon ☺️
Sweets (especially pastries and cakes) are my biggest binge triggers. I ended up cutting them completely and now I eat pudding or ice cream for dessert... as long as it is somewhat liquid and not doughy, it doesn’t trigger me ^^
.. it’s been about 2 months since I last ate pastries.
Mines cookies and porridge
I think you are so brave to share your journey with us, keep strong,
maybe try force yourself to eat 3 meals and 2 snacks so the temptation to binge is slightly less, although I'm sure it's a lot more complicated than that.
You will get through this !
Lots of love from South Africa ❤
I love how honest you are and how relatable you are. I have struggled with binging for so many years and 2022 is the year im determined to overcome this. Thanks for the uploads, it helps so much to relate to someone else out there. I also love the fresh start too. Keep doing your thing, you're awesome xox
I have struggled with binging and restricting too. (I used to walk until I got a headache and I sometimes trained with on a 'total gym' machine thing until I could no longer feel my bladder). One time I think I had three or four oliebollen in a row. I also used to binge on very weird stuff afterwards to try and make myself sick (rice crackers with peanut butter coleslaw like stuff and pepper for example). Or just on things that were there like "afbakbroodjes" but I would just eat them as is, so not "baked" (''rauw'"/niet afgebakken). Now I am actually at a point where I am at a healthy weight after being almost underweight at one point. Seeing you struggle is heartbreaking on one hand but it also helps to know that other people struggle with food. Sorry for the rant, I usually don't leave comments, but you seem like a really nice person so I wanted to say something :). I'm rooting for you! On a side note, I can also relate to tulband cake not tasting as good as I remembered it to be the last time I had it :P.
I thought I heard you say something about not really liking chicken wings or maybe they were harder for you to finish or something like that. One pattern that I am struck by is you don't eat very much protein in your regular meals. In fact they are quite carbohydrate rich. I wonder if you made your meals more protein dense if that would change something. I've had the experience of eating an apple only to feel hungry later and that's reflective of something I try to keep in mind: If I eat a meal, I should not be hungry again for many hours. If I eat something and I'm hungry up to 2 or 3 hours later, then I know there is something problematic with that food. Anyway, just some thoughts inspired by what you've been showing us. I'm glad that you have a team that you're working with.
Also I am just reminded of a thought I had when watching some of your other videos: don't be so hard on yourself!
this is something i noticed as well! I didnt see much protein in her meals and that might be one of the reasons why shes so hungry. Educating ourselves on proper nutrition can go a long way.
You got it right eating sugar causes quick rise as well as quick feeling of hunger after..if she consume 2-3 eggs in the morning she will feel satiated for at least til mid-afternoon
Hi Tammy! I appreciate your vulnerability in your videos 💚 you're really cool. I don't know if it's possible where you live but when I have extra junk food I don't want to eat or throw away, I put it in a bag by the dumpster outside my apartment and the homeless people always take it. That way they are fed and it doesn't go to waste
I really appreciate your videos. Very nice young lady, struggling with an addiction. I think an accountability partner is crucial. Youre already shredding the shame around earing disorders which is Amazing and will not only help you but so many people that watch. I am in Michigan USA 🇺🇸 and would love to be your accountability partner, by March you could have most of your life back without having deal with the aftermath of a binge addiction. You never have to feel this way again. Reach out if u want help. God Bless. And i LOVE those sweet cats! Too cute 😍
Amy that is so amazing. You are awesome 👏
Thank you Tammy for your honesty in your videos. I’ve suffered from BED since 2009 when I was vegetarian then vegan for 3 yrs. But I didn’t connect the dots ( body needing nutrition) until 2015 when I reintroduced animal foods. Best decision ever for ME. The binges got less and less so in 2016 I started tracking the amount of days I binged each year. Every year they get less and less because it’s like I’m trying to beat my all time best from year before therefore in my mind I’m winning, I ended 2021 with only 66 binge days. Such progress for me since I used to binge at least twice a week (100-120 X a year). Please never give up trying! We are all trying day by day hour by hour sometimes. By the way I love your kitties! 😻😻😻😻
Hi Tammy, I came across your video and watched few of them and I can imagine how hard it is going through this, even though i dont have binge problem. However I wanted to say that you are so REAL, you are showing people what its really like and that its ok to struggle sometimes, you dont seem to hide anything and i love this ! I just want to say that I got Faith in you and I know that one day ( soon ) you will get over this, sending much love and hugs xxxx
Sweetheart, we should NOT keep fighting... When we learn to LET GO, the addiction will let go of us. There is a way out of this (I've been there where you are now!), but the solution is NOT to fight harder. Willpower is of no use what so ever.
Agreed
Exactly
Yes! Everybody would be depressed and with no energy or hope if you had to fight something ALL DAY LONG. put focus somewhere else, learn skills to cope with emotion so you dont have only this one that is not doing you any good. it wont go away if you wont have anything to replace it with - because it is probably very important to you psyche and serves some kind of purpose. you cant get rid of it by focusing and fixating on how bad it is because everybody needs a way to process emotions, but some of them are just healthier than others. this is just obsesive a behaviour not a root problem :( wish you good luck and please put your strength wn energy in things that you will actually benefit from like working things out with psychologist! not in punching yourself down and fighting with the behaviour that simply wont go away unless you find something else to serve the same purpose for example regulation emotions.
Also, i looked it up and seems like your lemon tree could be yellowing because of overwatering . If the topsoil is damp than the plant should be fine, it says online to only water once a week and when you do to make sure to really soak the dirt.. be sure that it’s soaking through to bottom!💕
I am sure that is so hard when you live alone dont have a job or anymotivating routine. Absolutely everybody would struggle in this situation. You spend all this time mostly alone and focus on the food all the time. itis not helping you;(
Hi Tammy, I really enjoy your channel and how open and honest you are. I’ve watched many of your videos and heard you talking about planning meals and counting calories and it seems to create some anxiety for you. But Ive also noticed you tend to binge when you miss a meal especially lunch. Just curious what resources you use to help support you with planning? I personally use some great cookbooks that have grocery list etc. And keep cooking to one day, that way when feeling hungry i just warm up a meal vs. grabbing an unhealthy option. I also do online grocery shopping that keeps me from going into the store limiting the chances of buying bad food...its too tempting sometimes.
Keep up the good work, it is a mental battle and you are taking the right steps!
A thing i told myself is, i am allowed to eat. I am allowed to be hungry. I am SUPPOSED to be hungry, i am a human animal.
My parents were very poor in the old country, i think that is why i have so much shame around being hungry. It is really hard to overcome that shame and really know that you are allowed to be hungry, you are allowed to eat.
Hi Tammy! I’ve been watching a lot of your content lately, I very much appreciate your honesty and you sharing the rawness of your journey. I’m rooting for you!
I lived in the Netherlands (Maastricht) for 3 years during my bachelor studies and it the worst binge period of my life. I now live in Canada but somehow am less prone to binging here. These AH / Jumbo pre-made donuts, and the sugar waffles were my go-to, same with grilled cheese sandwiches and bread with peanut butter and the chocolate sprinkles 🤤.
I look forward to seeing your progress! Keep going 🤜🌟🤛
Omg I have been searching for binge eating vlogs bc I have a huge problem with that too and I guess I just don't wanna feel alone. I found your channel today and I have been watching your videos the whole day, out of all the videos I have seen, the one I can relate the most to is this one! Thank you for sahring, I think it is super brave for you to do this!
Your vlogs make me feel understood and I want you to know that.
Keep pushing 💪
You will get there.....
If you never failed, then you never tried anything new.
Maybe focus on ONE thing?
For example feeling satisfied. Or having more veggies. Or getting exercise. Rather than aiming for perfection (I do that too) you could build and focus on one promise to yourself?
I'm a recovering bulimic and binge eater. The Christmas/new year week is my major trigger. All my rules go out the window and if i'm staying with family i just gorge from Christmas day onwards. Every day this week ive said to myself that i'm going to go back to my healthy default, but i end up eating the leftover snacks. As soon as the crappy food is out of the house i will gain control again, but i hate that im so weak while it's right by me.
We will get back on track, dont worry. Every healthy day under the belt is a success. And the unhealthy days are there to teach us about food and mental/physical health, as slowly as that may be. Just remember you are not alone, there are a lot of us out here!
Take care lovely lady x
Thank you for sharing with us. And ur honesty. 😊
It might help to keep a food journal and see what type of foods you eat before a major binge. I find that if I don’t eat enough satiating food and allow myself to get too hungry, that is when the cravings really kick in. Try to fill up on more protein and it will help you stay fuller longer. Keeping all that junk food is just asking for a binge, I would trash it. Better in the bin, than in your body. Good luck to you!
I love the honesty of your channel
right now the most important thing keeping me from a binge is the money it cost, besides health. when i think about it, junk food, let alone binging is an excess of food not needed, if its not needed its money wasted and that is what gets me the most! not the mention the physical pain afterwards as my body processes the excess of junky ingredients :”(
I have been in therapy for anxiety, depression and ED. I am curious if they are helping you explore ways to handle and process your emotions without food?
Just came by your video and your channel. I really wanted to thank you for sharing. You are such an inspiration!
Everything you ate looks delicious!
If your binge is also triggered by hunger you get from skipping meals, maybe you could leave some boiled potatoes and eggs in your fridge for when you're not feeling like making yourself anything for lunch. Instead of an apple, you get a slice of potato with a boiled egg. My nutritionist told me to do this and it helps me a bit, maybe it could work for you?
Ultimately, binging is a CHOICE that you have to say "no" to. When you feel like binging DO SOMETHING ELSE! You must eat enough of the right foods at the right time otherwise your body will send out hunger signals - the more carbohydrates you eat, the more your body will want.
If you binge, why have the binge food in your house? - never buy more than 1 packet/container at a time of food that you would binge on. Walk to buy your binge food. Make binging an effort, hard work and an inconvenience.
Your gnocchi serve was enough for 2 serves.
Make a decision to never order food for a binge (or just never order food).
Never throw out food - always make your binge leftovers part of your balanced meals.
Choose living life over food. Look forward, not backward - there are no issues in the future. (They become the past as soon as they happen)
@@taylorg7783 I remember standing in front of a cupboard full of food that was meant to last me a month - it lasted 2 days. I made a CHOICE not to have food freely available around me. Even today, 37 years later I do not keep much food in the house because I would eat it until it was gone. When I do eat a treat - chocolate, cake, fried chicken - I walk to and from the shop (2 hour trip) to get it.
PS. I never mentioned junk food.
I am still overweight eating "healthy" food. But I never gained after I made the decision not to have much food around me.
To me, every day is a CHOICE, you NEVER overcome an eating disorder. You just manage it. To survive I don't keep much food around me because CHOICE is harder when food is freely available.
I would not be alive today if I had not made this CHOICE before every mouthful.
Congratulations on beating BED, that is more control around food that I ever have had or will have.
PPS. I never said stop eating junk food.
Sorry your having a hard time. Here if you ever want to talk. Your not alone. Hugs 🫂
Stay strong 🍋 u got this 🙏❤️ u r stronger than u think u r 🍋❤️
VSG finally cured my binge disorder. Best thing I ever did.
I have this problem that when i binge eat it will go on for a few weeks. But after that i feel so guilty that i don’t dare to touch food anymore. Sometimes i can’t eat for 4 days or even longer. And this is a really bad circle that i am in. It never stops and i hate it. Currently i haven’t eaten in about 2 days. Normally i would crave a little bit of food because i get hungry but now i don’t notice those signs even tough i am kinda hungry. I don’t know what’s wrong with me. I also will get an operation on my throat and i am afraid that if i can’t eat a week after my operation i will completely stop eating. Because i never stopped eating for that long. Ones i reach the top there is no way coming back
LOL why were you so giggly about that bottle by the bed? was it lube? OMG I love how funny and just straight up real you are!! my binges consist of having a having my thermos of water, binge foods, and vibrator by my bed 😂😂😂
ik zag dat je 4 zoetjes in je thee deed. Die extreme zoete smaak kan ook binges veroorzaken omdat je constant zoete dingen wil! Had ik altijd. Hielp enorm om te minderen/stoppen.
Support you girl hope you can make it through
4:57 i think throwing out junk foods is one of the best things you can do to prevent overeating and another binge. i also hate wasting food and money, but these days, i don't even consider throwing junk food out to be a waste. i don't think it has anything to do with you not being strong enough to do it, it's just a different way of looking at food. honestly, it feels weird the first few times, throwing out food that's 'perfectly good'.
Ok, dus morgen gewoon weer verder gaan waar je was gebleven. Misschien een lange wandeling met een vriend of vriendin maken? Goed voor je hoofd en je lijf.
What was the difference between your 1st and 2nd week? Were there any triggers during your second week? Or is it typical to do well one week and then derail the next?
Hey Tammy, maybe try saving all the wrappers with written dates on it, so you can count and realize how much you've consumed over a certain period of time. It kinda works for me, makes me realize I shouldn't binge eat snacks that much.
I had to realize that if I bring it in The house I will eat it so dont buy the stuff and you won't eat it I have lost 30 lbs by not buying any snacks and only eat once a day and only water
I wish people wouldn't feel guilty for eating a small meal. That's naturally how your body balances itself out after a big meal. It's also completely natural to skip a meal few times a week. 3 meals a day is more a food industry thing. It's also how they trap you into eating more food. If you listen to your natural hunger cues you will find you are not always hungry. I guess this is the issue with food addiction or EDs - there is so much guilt & misinformation involved it ALL goes out the window.
Oh wow this is so eye opening.
During the christmas week that has been, i ate soo many gingerbread cookies and so much swedish rice pudding 😁 Calories dont matter during christmas time 😉 And a whole can of pringles too 😅😎 I enjoyed everything, and ive started tracking again 😋
Lol Adam McIntyre calls his viewers muckers! Love it ❤️
You’re so awesome tho!
Your cats are gorgeous ❤️❤️❤️love the design on them 😊😊😊 glad I found your channel. Love from Cyprus ❤️
this is coming from a recovery binge eater mind: have you thought about getting less food for the binge, at least what helped me is i got to pick 2-3 things i really really wanted, and then bought those and ate them completely. that way it was done and I didn't need to deal with leftovers.
It is a good suggestion but she said in the video that she ordered more food during the binge as the leftover candies she had at home weren't enough.
Hey Tammy, do you think it would help to ask your psychiatrist to up/change your medication? I know you've been struggling for a lifetime and you probably have done that tens of times, but probably it might help with the meh feelings and the binge thoughts.
Some weeks are so hard baby, but some day you'll stay on the healthy path enough to reach your goal weight!
حقا أنت چميلة جداً و أعتقد ان عليك أتباع نظام مع مدرب خاص او مدربه خاصه وأتمني لكي حظا موفق
Tammy you remind me a lot of myself. Do you binge out of loneliness? Boredom and loneliness are my triggers. The binge urges creep up on me when I am alone with nothing to do......
I have BED, but I have been able to control it (mostly) by 1) cutting out most processed foods (no bread, no crackers, no cake, no cookies, no candy - I just don't buy them), 2) eating a lot of protein (meat - it keeps you full), 3) eating the same foods EVERY SINGLE DAY, and 4) taking myself away from the eating situation (staying around other people, going for a walk, going to library to read, ANYWHERE away from temptation). If you take away food variety, eating becomes simple. If I get decision fatigue, I make bad food choices. Every single day I drink coffee with cream and monkfruit sugar, for breakfast I eat lowfat greek yogurt with strawberries and sugar free maple syrup, for lunch I eat a salad with avocado and meat (leftover steak, chicken or shrimp), for dinner I eat steak, chicken or shrimp with a side of home made sweet potato fries (air fryer) or other vegetable. It's boring as hell, but I feel AMAZING when I don't eat sugar and processed foods. Once you kick the processed foods (it takes weeks or even months sometimes), your craving for them will diminish. Your cravings won't go away completely, but they will be manageable. Good luck, sweetie!
How do you do it I think I would end up starving myself if I ate the same thing everyday
Hey love! I’m glad that worked for you but I would suggest not giving this as advice to others. Cutting out everything you love, eating the same food everyday, and distracting yourself from food are all byproducts of an eating disorder. It’s not sustainable nor a long term solution, therefore, *most* will fail after a couple of weeks or months. It could also develop into another disordered eating.
@@drippyess this lovely girl already has an eating disorder. BED, and an addiction to processed foods (which is horribly real and debilitating). If she can break that addiction she will be more likely to live a happy, healthy life. It's not a forever solution, but doing it for a few months can be life changing.
Christmas is so so hard. I'm glad the holiday is over I have dangerous food I normally don't have in my house. The problem with fanta is the sodium and fake sugar if its diet or real sugar if it's not. Both tell your brain to binge I'm serious. High carb foods do it too. The best thing for us all is to rid the house of this crap that is killing us. I know its easier said than done. But we all can do this. Eat fresh and whole foods. We all have a food addiction and your resistant to throw it out is not about $$$ or waste it's about ADDICTION. be ACCOUNTABLE hon and throw that garbage in the garbage!!!
That food looked divine. That’s all I can say. Don’t beat yourself up over binges, because I assure you, this is just a moment in your life (I wish I knew this much earlier in my life). Brush yourself off, say, “that was interesting” and get back on the path….
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أحبك حقا لا أعلم لماذا لاكن أحبك جداً♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️ انا من مصر 🇪🇬 من أين أنت
I have the same bottle next to my bed haha. Love your video's! I'm from Belgium by the way :)
You might think bad things happen to good people but if bad happens know they created the karma
Yeah children did something horrible and receive their karma in the form of abuse and assault 🙄 stfu
You can do this you can do this for sure
Hey Tammy! Have you considered having a roommate? Maybe company would help you with bingeing - it did help me when I had a binge eating problem, though not as big one as yours… it was not only the emberassement that kept me in control but the fact that i had a company to hve meals, it really helped me enjoying meals much more.
I was also wondering if you mind sharing what is causing your binges - do you know?
Hugs!
We are all connected
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I love your sloth stuff animal..
*Sweet*
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Cat hands are a fact lol the scratches..🥺
Depression goes away when weight is lost. Works every time. There's only one cure. No way around it. U eat cause u r depressed and u r depreessed cause u eat (i mean gain weigt) and so on and on.
Throwing out binge foods isn’t “wasting food “. Putting it in your body when it will make you feel bad is “wasting food.” You know if you kept it you (and nearly anyone else in that situation) would eat it
Maybe radiator is hurting lemon tree.
oh dear donut looks good...
Hi tammy yes karma truly exists
i wish i had a weightloss buddy
No pasta !!!! I'm Italian I know the struggle but that is no good . You wont have success with weightloss with it in your diet. Can you eat zucchini noodles or cauliflower rice?
Get all that candy and sweets out of your house !!!! If it’s not there you can’t eat it
I saw the bottle in the beginning lol , you need to buy a new one 😂
What’s in the bottle. I feel really stupid, but that bottle doesn’t look familiar to me 🤷🏻♀️
@@daniella1111 probably lube jdnjfgfdg
@@goobus3570 yeah, figured as much. Thanks for your reply
You are so lucky to have an apartment for your own. In Switzerland is so damn expensive, most of ppl stay in shared flats...
How do you make friends in the Netherlands?
chicken bones are so dangerous be careful w that :(
I think it was lube
Nothing wrong with that!
Binging again? Take, tsk.
The law of attraction exists in universe
I eat way too much Kinder.
The fat you eat is the fat you wear
No way I don't believe you're failing! I never saw this coming!
Are you still here?
Lol big mess..🍀❤️🍀🍀🍀❤️🍀
Wait this is not .
Girl far from it..
*Your not a Hoarder*
When you can treat yourself to some
Comfy comforter Quilt...
And matching rug and curtains...
Make your room feel like a mini
Luxury hotel room..
Just an idea
Peace..
aw you seem so sweet and are so pretty. but girl, you will never be healthy or at a healthy weight if you consume animal products!! cows milk is made to grow calves into large cows!! which is exactly what its doing to you!! go vegan, binge on fruits!! its what your craving by binging on these sweet foods. fruit is naturally sweet and your body is craving it!!