This is one of the most candid interviews I’ve seen with a junkie, no self-denial, doesn’t blame his situation on anyone or anything. Props to him, I hope he can get clean and get off the streets. The streets of Baltimore are as mean as they come.
@@piercehubbard4086 The streets of Baltimore are definitely as mean as they come. I'm really rooting for him and praying he can make it out of there. Thanks so much for supporting the channel. It's truly appreciated. 🙏
@@JeffDavis-hg2to. Yeah, it was like night and day, going to a treatment that did medical detox, vs. one that did not, for me. Some people who are detoxing from tranq still have a rough time, even with the meds treatment centers use, currently. I’ve seen it. Hopefully, they will find more ways to help with that soon.
Staying sober is less work and stress yet it’s seems so hard to achieve. Got to find something useful to do and loose the company you keep. 12 years clean here and very grateful.
We try not to engage with addicts not because we look down on them, but because we know that drugs makes people do crazy things when they dope sick. My good friend stole from me when he was sick, but after quitting came back to apologise and make things right, its just how it is.
This interview was fire!!!! Mark, you're a super intelligent dude. And I agree, getting sober is scary! It was pretty fucking scary for me when I took that first step... But I was honestly ready for it, so I stopped thinking too far ahead and just started drawing my focus in on one day at a time! Sometimes it was more like hour by hour. I can see that you got what it takes. You know exactly what to do & how to do it... And when you're ready, you're gonna fucking kill it my bro! And btw, you're still hella handsome too, so don't wait til you lose that lol! All my best to you and big big prayers!
I definitely appreciate the support, bro!! Mark is definitely intelligent and can definitely turn this around. I know what you mean about taking that first step. It's definitely scary. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. Congratulations on overcoming it, bro!! That's what's up!
What a HANDSOME man. So handsome. Had a life ahead of him and is wasting his precious one. When he says he’s afraid of being sober, and that getting sober is easy but staying is hard cuz he’s used to the chaos and all that… my heart broke. I could marry this guy, if he wasn’t addicted. I think he’s one of the most charming and handsome man I’ve ever seen. I know this sounds futile, but it touched my heart somehow. He says he’s nobody who cares about him 😢 and obviously he doesn’t care about himself either. Mom and dad, don’t do that to your children. 😢
I appreciate all the love and support he's getting. I hope he sees all these comments and decides to give himself the chance he deserves. I'm rooting for him. 🙏
I was just thinking about that! If he can get it together he would be a stallion! I’m from Baltimore and am in recovery and always will be is like I tell people bc it only takes one very good or one very bad day to change it all! I’ve seen so many beautiful people inside and out loose their lives and themselves to this life! Baltimore has become such a sad place! I Love my city but we can’t wait to leave!
I thought I'd never be able quit using heroin and crack. I used for over 25 years. I went through more than 13 detox's and rehab's. Ive been clean and sober since October 23rd 2006, almost exactly 17 years and 9 months. Ive never been happier or more successful.
@@ArtistNRecovery That's amazing, bro! I love it. Congratulations on getting clean. I just hit 10 years clean myself back in April. I totally get where you're coming from.
Always so hard to watch. I know there are success stories too. I wish you could occasionally interview a social worker or shelter volunteer who has beat there habit. You are a saint for putting yourself out there and trying to highlight a dire situation this great country finds itself in. Thank you Sir
Absolutely, Tim. I agree about the social worker or shelter volunteer. Those interviews will definitely be coming. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I've been homeless, in and out of treatment centers, etc. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. These interviews also give me a chance to get in front of people struggling and share my story with them so they can see what change actually looks like. Thanks so much for supporting the channel. It's definitely appreciated. 🙏
Man you are half way to a better life in your head Your clever Your young Your beautiful You just got to find another playground to satisfy your soul I did it and 12 years sober I save animals now and fight the bad *****s You will have a purpose in your heart waiting to make you feel alive All the best dude
That's what's up, Alex. Congratulations on getting clean. I just hit 10 years clean myself back in April. I love that you save animals. I'm a huge animal lover, so I can certainly appreciate that. Thanks so much for supporting the channel. Much appreciated. 🙏
I’m in recovery. I love helping homeless cats, too, and a few lost dogs. I don’t turn them down…I just find more cats. I keep, only, ones who are considered unadoptable. I know healthy cats get put down, so it’s OK to adopt them, but I don’t prefer them to cats with disabilities. I have chronic illness & disabilities, and these two help me a lot, because they “get it,” in ways my other cats didn’t. I loved those cats, and as they grew older, they learned, but these I can keep up with, now, and they’re exceptional. The brain disordered one doesn’t run when I have bipolar symptoms…he stays extra close and engages me, walks me to my bed and the bathroom, when I don’t remember to sleep, or take a warm bath. My physically ill female “holds hands” when I’m sick, and pats or scratches me, if I pass out, with asthma. I, once, saw her do what looked just like chest compressions on a cat without a pulse (my old senior, who has passed, but she gave him extra time). She pushed him on his back, and kneaded his chest hard & he came back around. I couldn’t have done that for a 6 pound cat. I got 2 that stay with me…one cat with severe allergies, inflammatory bowel, & hyperesthesia syndrome, and one with FIV. She fought infections for 6 months, as an abandoned kitten, but she’s stable, now. Cool to hear from another animal rescuer! You’re so right! We do find things that more than fill the void left by drugs, and they actually mean something to us. I also love helping people get through hard times, and seek recovery, but I like that you didn’t emphasize that, in your comment. Some of us need to do something completely unrelated to addiction/recovery, or need to at certain points in our lives. I definitely had to find out who I am, before I could help other people without feeling fragile. Some of us contribute, in other ways, or would rather do it by being an understanding person than as a job, or haven’t found an opportunity in that area. Either way, our lives and experiences are valuable. Sometimes well-intentioned encouragement to “get out and help others, like you” feels like pressure. People can also help SA survivors, kids at risk of Special Ed placement, people in poverty, animals, or themselves, and be doing what they’re happy to be doing, and helping others, like themselves. Doing what keeps you going is the important thing! Glad you hear you’re thriving, in recovery! Sometimes we’re struggling, in recovery, but as long as we keep on keeping on, it’s good!
@@sciencenotsrigma Very well said. Thanks for sharing all of that, and congratulations on your recovery. I'm a huge animal lover, so I love that you help save animals. I hope you continue to be a beacon of light to all those (people & animals) you cross paths with. 🙏
@@unheardvoices_official Thank you so much. That means a lot to me. I’m struggling to finish my degree program, with my health issues, so your vote of confidence in my ability to to help others is more motivating than I can say!
@@MrLeonightis one day, let's pray for him to receive the Abba Father love he longs for so deep to do a work in him so he can truly work on himself. God Speed young wounded child, He is here for you.
To me, sober does not just mean getting off drugs, it means rooting out and ridding ourselves of all addictive unhealthy compulsive behaviour, that's hard. Best wishes Mark.
He is a very astute and eloquent speaker. He speaks the truth. I hope he gets the help he needs to live a better life. It's heartbreaking hearing how these poor people have to live. The man is most definitely a survivor. Mark, if you read this, you can create a better life for yourself, mate. Stay strong and never give up on yourself.
You have everything within your power to take small steps in the right direction man. You're obviously very bright. I know when you look at the big picture it can seem overwhelming and daunting, but it is the easier softer way. Only concentrate on what you can control that's in your own huluhoop. Stay present and only in the first 30 minutes, then try another 30 minutes. You have more going for yourself than even you know. Your upbringing was toxic and unstable but there are ways to get the help you need to create a happier life for yourself. You're NOT ALONE in your struggles!! We're here for you and I'll be praying for you to get the support you need. You can't do this alone. You need to align yourself with people who can encourage and lift you up. You got this brother!!
I will be praying and sending this guy some positive healing energy. Seems like a good guy. Getting clean and sober with a good support system is tough. He reminds me of my brother, rip. So handsome, like my brother. He had so many talents. He was an amazingly sweet and a gentle soul. I miss him terribly. My brother OD’ed many times. He died from the long term effects after using for years even though he hadn’t used street drugs for years.
Love yourself enough to get clean. Right now you’re just breathing air. You get one life. Don’t waste it. Face your fears and get clean. I promise you, you’ll never regret it. -From a former addict.
I agree wholeheartedly, Jan. I was an addict myself for 18 years. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. You're right. He will never regret getting clean. I hope he manages to take those steps and get the help he needs. I'm rooting for him. 🙏
@@User-34895. 💯! The struggle is real! There are some employers out there who would value her experience. If she’s into helping others with addictions and/or mental illness, she could look up Certified Peer Recovery Specialist training, if she’s interested. There are, often, need based scholarships, the training is largely on the job, and they specifically hire people who HAVE experienced Substance Use Disorders and/or mental illness. Not everyone wants to do that, or is able to, but a lot of people are, so I just thought I’d mention it. I know an NA sponsor and people with one year in recovery, who are in paid positions, now. Americorps, now, has a Recovery Corps, too, in some states. ❤.
We who don't take drugs don't understand how hard it is to get off drugs once you're hooked. I can't even manage to get off cigs ! God bless these poor people , they're innocent really.
I like him a lot. I can relate 💯. I’m living in Virginia came out here 4 years ago after living in Philly on the streets. Getting sober is scary and I’m still scared of failing and I’m clean. Reach out and lean on sober people. And I’ll keep him in my prayers. He seems like a great guy
Welcome to the DMV, and congratulations on getting clean. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. I totally get where you're coming from. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. You got this! Don't hesitate to reach out to me if you need to. Thanks so much for supporting the channel. Much appreciated. 🙏
Keep fighting, brother. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I've been homeless, in and out of treatment centers, etc. I felt so hopeless during that time. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. You got this! I promise it gets better. Don't hesitate to reach out to me if you need to.
He’s right about needing to care enough about yourself to stay sober. Most sober addicts could benefit from psychotherapy support, because it strengthens your ability to care for yourself. 🌲
He’s totally right getting clean is the easier part. My problem is staying sober. I started abusing opioids because I didn’t like how I felt naturally and when I first snorted some OxyContin I remember saying “this is it man! This is how I want to feel until the day I die!” Sadly I tried hard to make that happen with a quick transition to heroin. Whenever I’d get clean either by my own volition, by going to jail, rehab, whatever it was I still didn’t like how I felt sober. Going to meetings all the time and getting caught up in the drama from all the addicts still emotionally in high school. I’d want to die I’d get so bored. It’s like they say though, one day at a time.
I totally feel you, man. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. I've definitely been there and know exactly what you mean and what you're going through. It really is one day at a time. It definitely gets easier over time.
@@unheardvoices_official - Thanks man, I like your channel. It’s real, that’s what I like. I used to like Intervention back when it first came out around 2005 (I was only 20 at the time), but then I found out they try to make things more dramatic…a lot of it’s fake. I only know this because my ex gf was on the first season of Intervention. I actually think that show helped me become an addict. I was already leaning in that direction, but I learned A LOT of crap I’d never have known if I didn’t watch that show. I was living in Colorado when I first tried heroin, I only knew how to find it because there was an episode of a guy from Denver doing his hustles. I used it as a resource to score. Not every city is like SF where there’s just this certain area you go to any hour of the day and will find 100 dealers, most places you need to know someone.
Up here in Philly it was the same, in a section called Kensington, I used to get 10 bags of dope for just $30, as where it used to cost a lot more and the crap they cut it with used to have me sleeping standing all the way up, bless this man, hope to see him win.
Yea, Kensington is wild, too. I've done a few interviews out there. I was completely shocked my first time there. I hope to see this guy win as well. 🙏
@@unheardvoices_official good on you for giving them a platform to speak on, I know I would’ve loved to share my story when I was out there. Keep going 💯
Some people judge the homeless and affiliated but there are many nice people who have fell on hard times and I pray for every single person they find a better life and help 🙏
Looks like they are down the inner harbor…..I been Mark. I actually stomped that exact block where they are at, I was out there shooting d/c…..I was 20 yrs old in 1996 when my mom who was already a heroin addict, found out I was sniffing dope and had a habit. One thing lead to another and I ended up dopesick one time and she put that syringe in my arm for the first time. I don’t blame her tho. At one point, me, my mom and dad was all shooting up together out committing crimes to get high together. Let me add, I been off for 23 years, mom and dad also have clean for more then half that…..recovery is possible for us go hards. Mark keep that head up. You’ll get there. Listen. We all end up where we choose to Be in life for the most parts. Stay prayed up is the #1 piece of advice. I pray you get tired young brother
That's what's up, bro! I'm sorry you went through all that, but so glad to hear you were able to overcome it. I was also addicted to drugs for 18 years. I've been homeless, in and out of prison, etc. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. Life is definitely much better on this side of things. Congratulations on getting clean, bro! Congratulations on your mom and dad getting clean as well.
@@unheardvoices_official man!!!! Salute!! Same to you family!!! Congrats on that!!!! Man everyday is a gift, my worst day sober is better then an amazing day using!!! Bless yall family
@@friendorfoe5761 it was no walk in the park in between tho, there was times where one of us was out there or a few of us, then others was locked up or in rehab, it was a big mess man, coming and going, but thru that whole process man we all found a new way of life and tho we walked our own paths out, we all ended up meeting back up and we hold eachother accountable. We all are members of the same church over in east Baltimore, it’s been a wild ride and at one point I didn’t see no other way but being out there on that concrete chasing. It’s a hard process man. Getting clean starting with zero. Looking at your own self and to realize you burned every bridge every relationship to the ground. We do recover. Just hold on!!!!
I just need to say this as I was addicted since I'm 12 years old, and all I can say from my experience is that, we used to deal with our problems and then you get so deep you believe that you can't even change your life but you can you just have to face your problems sober and that why we are reluctant to change but i did and so can you, you either get clean or die
Its a horrible feeling to be judged and put down just because of the situation one may be in. Hes right about not every person down on their luck being a thief or a criminal. Unfortunately, especially when it comes to addiction, even those who are good people will cross the line when desperate enough. Addiction is insidious. Its difficult to find the proper care and treatment. Especially if one is on the fence and struggling with wether they want to change or not. The " treatment " industry is a very lucrative business. There are so many things that can be done differently to give people the best chance to stop and never go back. Unfortunately the ones that successfully get out, want it so bad, theyll find a way no matter what. Program or not. Majority of people in these places are struggling with that decision and it doesn't take much for them to slip. Relapse rate is very high. The odds of being successful are very low. So many are suffering out there...
I don’t think I would have got and stayed off drugs, without a really good treatment counselor. I did have one who was above and beyond the others I’ve had. That’s what motivates me to help others now, because I see how important that was to me, to have. There are some good people in the treatment field, but I definitely know what you mean. There are many, who go to programs that are desperately in need of new methods. I don’t mean new, because there are effective, existing methods, but some centers continue to employ ineffective, cheaper ones. I’ve been to more of those places. and only one helpful one…and that’s all it took!
@@unheardvoices_official I still see mine, for individual counseling, and I to the fact that she also is in recovery from “hard” drugs and has a meaningful life and work was really important for me to see! I didn’t think I could come back from that, but here we all are, still recovering 😊 !
I completely understand him I got also no family and is very difficult own your own! But I wish him all the best with the bottom of my heart 💓!he seems very nice kind guy and he looks very clean Iyou can t see that he is homeless.i.I hope really he gets of Drugs and of streets❤
@@unheardvoices_official. I’ve got family, but the relative I’ve got needs more support than they can give. It’s always been like that. That’s why I left home young, not because I was in a hurry to grow up! I, often, see people tell interviewees on these channels to go home. If a lot of us had a home, with supportive family, we wouldn’t be out there, to begin with! Life gets real. I hope this man finds the resources and support to make it out! ❤
Man I wish you asked him why he fears getting sober so much. It’s a fascinating answer. Great interview. I love how you reassured him he’s capable of getting clean.
A sober bloke once said that a strong side roast cherry would always be a great ambition forecast in his new pops. He mentioned that a wine bloomer would try and escape his trench rug before a rime and instead of tow berry he always clinched to a notion.
Being sober and having a clean life is possible. You just have to take the leap. You have all the qualities to be a decent human being and productive member of society. You can do this. You say it’s scary but some of the best things in the world have come from people that were scared of what if at 1st. Take the leap. It’s worth it. ❤❤
So glad I never really liked opiates. Lean is tight but after beiber ruined everything it all has fentanyl now. So glad I don't live in a place like this. Good luck to this man.
The restless legs and alligator 🐊 skin is hell on earth. Alligator skin is the best way I can explain it. It’s like someone skinned and alligator and you had to wear the wet raw skin. That’s they way your own skin feels
@@humboldtharry1289 yes. On top of that the opiates cause itching. The best way to get rid of it for good is to medically ween yourself off slowly over time. Slowly your brain heals and you can get back to normal again. The problem is the stronger the opiate the stronger the withdrawal and the longer it takes to ween. It’s just hard to find the right doctors and rehabs to properly do it
@@humboldtharry1289 people scratch when they're really high. Some dope makes you itch more than others. I hate when non-users say it's like bugs are crawling , etc. You just get itchy. Depends what they cut it with? I've never scratched/itched/whatever when I was in withdrawal. Most of these fallacies are made up by people who've never used, or experienced the joys of withdrawal.
It takes balls to get sober and you can’t do it alone this disease thrives in isolation- 12 years clean and sober I speak from bitter incomprehensible demoralizations in active addiction!
So are a lot of people’s, in active addiction. That can and does change, in recovery! It’s impossible to look at people and know who will make it out, or not. I’ve seen people surprise everyone!
@@MrLeonightis I got my information in a formal graduate neuroscience program, as well as my own life and field experience. That’s a myth. Addiction makes brain changes that are easily visualized on brain scans. So is the process of addiction. Active addiction is interpreted as a survival emergency by the midbrain, so the brain starts destroying pathways to the prefrontal cortex, because higher order thinking (rational decision making, moral reasoning), is considered a luxury the human organism can’t afford, in a survival emergency. This renders these functions offline, so people can use their survival instincts, which legit signal them to use drugs. This glitch occurs because things that produce the highest level of dopamine in nature are, actually, good for us. The midbrain can’t think so. The midbrain doesn’t know that we can now synthesize substances that cause dopamine release. Therefore, it labels drug use as extremely important for survival, because it ranks survival activities in order of importance, according to amount of dopamine release they achieve. This isn’t hedonism. Dopamine is essential for human motivation. The emergency comes in, when people have low dopamine, which happens when we crash. This triggers the emergency mode that shuts down our better thinking. Addiction is just a glitch in the human survival system, because the midbrain did not keep pace with the evolution of the prefrontal cortex. The only way to end the emergency situation is to abstain from drugs for a significant period of time. It takes an average of one to three years for the brain to recover and build new pathways to the PFC, which restore its functioning. The PFC can be pictured as the angel on one shoulder. When the “angel” is disabled, the “devil” (our ancient midbrain, also known as the Lizard brain, though it’s properly the common mammalian brain we have in common with other mammals) takes control. This is not a moral condition. It’s a physiological condition, and that’s just a common metaphor people use, but it is actually a good comparison, so it’s useful here. Abstaining for 1-3 years is not as easy as it sounds, because the midbrain continues to signal the person to use substances, though the signals become less frequent, over time. The trick is to “convince” the midbrain that the substance is no longer available in the human habitat. This only happens if people abstain from using it. 18 month treatments or longer are most effective, and aftercare and support are important. Professionals must understand the problem is neurological, not moral or psychological. Trauma does put people at higher risk for addiction, as well as mental illness and despair, because when chemical imbalance exists, the brain records the initial substance use as even more significant. People do recover, and when they do, they are as moral as they were before addiction. Addiction is not statistically linked with ASPD, or other disorders of lack of empathy or moral behavior. It is linked with disorders affecting judgment and impulse control, as well as with trauma.
It sucks too hear him say I have no one in my corner probably another reason why he doesn’t care too get sober , he needs support and a game plan it’s a beautiful thing too be sober life gets better after you bet your addiction. People have other addictions like po”n gambling- eating - shopping not just drugs. No one’s perfect , you really gotta love your self today might not seem perfect but you never know what brings tomorrow I hope who ever going thru dark times remember every one has a story but you can change your story and make it have a great ending
I want to save this guy. He seems like a good guy. I know it doesn’t work that way, unfortunately. I’m a recovering addict myself, so I know. But damn I wish I could help!
@carpballet I'm not sure. That's a good question. I guess it would be based on an individual perspective, and everyone's thoughts on it would probably be different.
Once you hoestly want to get clean, you will face the music and do it. Ive battled the same demons and have 5 months clean this time. Keep getting back up before your chances run out.
Thats crazy. The word dope means H out east. Where i live in wyoming, if i were to use the word dope around my friends they would automatically think i was talking about meth.
Had a friend back in the day, his family was pretty wealthy. We were all experimenting with different stuff and he barely even smoked weed or drank, just cigarettes. 15 years later we're all settle down with families and whatnot and this dude outta nowhere starts doing every drug under the sun. Stopped taking care of his kid, tried getting us to do shxt with him, got kicked out of his house, and sold all his belongings for dope. Another few years past and i run into the dude, this guy is a almost unrecognizable, asking me where i stay at. Na bro...
I get high off chaos too, I find the best solution for that (once u get on your own feet) is to volunteer with people or animals who really need it. Trust me, it's chaotic lol. Go on nextdoor and see who needs food, start collecting from other neighbors and drop it off. Start volunteering in animal rescue or do it on your own, no shortage of animals needing help in Baltimore. try to find meds and donations and help for the animals. Trust me it can keep you hopping 24/7 if you help those humans and animals really in need. Re being scared of being sober, I'm a nighttime only toker and it works great. Keep busy in the daytime and ganja every night like after 6pm or so when it's wind down time
Baltimore is one of if not the best city in the US to be a opiate addict it. I know, I’ve lived all over the county and Baltimore was the best and easiest place to score dope. I went there a few years ago cause I remember watching the wire and then saying it was really that easy to cop over there so I drove 3 hours from where I was living in Virginia at that time and the first gas station I stopped at in Baltimore (in the sketchy area) I had 3 different guys waive me down to offer me dope to buy and one gave me a free T (testers) and they pass out free samples one day every week. The capsules were as cheap as $3 for probably a .2-.3 so that’s a good price compared to other cities. And the capsules go all the way up to $10 a pc. So between the price, availability, and quality you can’t ask for a better place to be a addic. I just hope that xylazine tranq hasn’t taken over the Baltimore drug supply yet like it had in Kenzo. That stuff is all that’s around in K&A
@@unheardvoices_official With opiates, especially pharmaceuticals, I have found that the only thing that slows people down is money, jail time, or a fatal OD...Those who have been affected by someone with addiction, you can't pay them to take a pharmaceutical. The real sad part is my generation (24yr old) doesn't even know what a real Roxi 30 looks like. Its all Mallinkrodt 30 presses for like $7. I don't know anything about the fent game so $3 for a "bag" is so sad. The dealers know what they are doing. Insane that they would hustle that and see any kind of profit.
It's cheaper to spend about 1,000$ and order the pre curser chemicals from China online to make pure fent. 1k can make you about a half kilo or more if mixed right.
@MaximillianJ I'm not 100% sure how much is in a bag. It's sold in pill capsules a lot in Baltimore. I would imagine it's a similar amount to a capsule.
$3 thst i could live with im min $300 Australian for 1.7 or $550 3.5 last about a day and thats trying real hard not to just use till its gone. I try to save for mornings but struggle to sleep while its there and can sleep when it not there ffs
It’s hard, but you can do it. I did it. I have 5 years clean . My little brother has three years hackean he used sublicade shots. I used methadone. I’d go with the shot if I were you. Seems easier to get off of then methadone. Good luck mark you can do it
@@ZoloftPaxil-qx8jo Congratulations on getting clean. That's what's up. I have 10 years clean myself, so I totally get it. I'm glad your little brother was able to get clean as well. Mark can definitely do it. I'm rooting for him.
The most brutal part is the twelve months after your last dose.. the wholesale inability to sleep, the feeling of hopeless despair, not knowing if your brain chemistry will ever repair to the extent required for you to experience joy, peace, happiness. It's fucking horrible. It was so painfully drawn-out an experience though, that I would never inflict it upon myself again. I had my last dose of opioid replacement therapy in 2020, and thank fuck for that.
Thats sad he grew up with a father on drugs who got locked up amd left him to femd for himself. Very handsome man. He may be able to do modeling and get off of the drugs.
This is one of the most candid interviews I’ve seen with a junkie, no self-denial, doesn’t blame his situation on anyone or anything. Props to him, I hope he can get clean and get off the streets. The streets of Baltimore are as mean as they come.
@@piercehubbard4086 The streets of Baltimore are definitely as mean as they come. I'm really rooting for him and praying he can make it out of there. Thanks so much for supporting the channel. It's truly appreciated. 🙏
"Life sober, thats scary to me" those words are so true. It takes work to be good😮
Biggest fear: “gettin sober…”
Thats brutal. The place your trying to get to is the very place you fear the most.
I felt that.
Me too. Getting sober was the easy part but living with feelings is the hard part.
Please get the help you need. You have so much potential. 🙏😇💯
The fear of withdrawals is greater than the withdrawals itself.
I was a fenty addict 15 pills a day but clean for 8 months you can do it medical detox isn’t as bad .. lean on Jesus he will get u thru
If you take a cocktail of "comfort" meds, it isn't bad at all.
@@JeffDavis-hg2to. Yeah, it was like night and day, going to a treatment that did medical detox, vs. one that did not, for me. Some people who are detoxing from tranq still have a rough time, even with the meds treatment centers use, currently. I’ve seen it. Hopefully, they will find more ways to help with that soon.
Congratulations on getting clean. That's amazing. Keep going. You got this!
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Why can't you give yourself credit? You're the one who fought through your addiction...not god. You're the amazing one!!
Staying sober is less work and stress yet it’s seems so hard to achieve. Got to find something useful to do and loose the company you keep. 12 years clean here and very grateful.
That's awesome. Congratulations on getting clean. I just hit 10 years clean myself back in April. I totally get it.
Having a job is definitely easier then being a homeless drug addict as dim as it may seem sometimes
@chrisburruel3019 Absolutely, Chris! I agree 100%.
Congratulations ❤
Staying sober is less work and stress?
We try not to engage with addicts not because we look down on them, but because we know that drugs makes people do crazy things when they dope sick. My good friend stole from me when he was sick, but after quitting came back to apologise and make things right, its just how it is.
@@laimismalp5049 Yea, drugs can definitely make people do some crazy things.
Their energy doesn't make me feel safe either like I gotta be too vigilant
@nathanfreeman7362 It can definitely be like that sometimes. Mental illness plays a huge part in it as well.
Such insight. Mark, there are ways to be high without the dope. One day you will experience your life in a completely different way. ❤
Great words. I hope he sees these comments. 🙏
If he make so far sadly...
If you wake up everyday with absolutely no sense of purpose, it's EXTREMELY difficult to come back to sobriety.
@@natethan2204 Agreed. There's also a ton of mental illness that doesn't get addressed nearly as much as it should.
@@unheardvoices_official im glad i dnt live in that dump with all diffrent drugs
He seems like such a good guy, he is better than the life he is currently living ❤
He definitely is. 🙏
This interview was fire!!!! Mark, you're a super intelligent dude. And I agree, getting sober is scary! It was pretty fucking scary for me when I took that first step... But I was honestly ready for it, so I stopped thinking too far ahead and just started drawing my focus in on one day at a time! Sometimes it was more like hour by hour. I can see that you got what it takes. You know exactly what to do & how to do it... And when you're ready, you're gonna fucking kill it my bro! And btw, you're still hella handsome too, so don't wait til you lose that lol! All my best to you and big big prayers!
I definitely appreciate the support, bro!! Mark is definitely intelligent and can definitely turn this around. I know what you mean about taking that first step. It's definitely scary. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. Congratulations on overcoming it, bro!! That's what's up!
Getting comfortable with being uncomfortable. That is half the life of an addict.
Praying for you bro.
@@clutchhaze1036 Absolutely! 🙏
God, Bless You Young Man Great interview My Friend♥️🙏
As always, thanks so much, Jackie. 🙏
@@unheardvoices_official Youre, Welcome🙏♥️
What a HANDSOME man. So handsome. Had a life ahead of him and is wasting his precious one. When he says he’s afraid of being sober, and that getting sober is easy but staying is hard cuz he’s used to the chaos and all that… my heart broke. I could marry this guy, if he wasn’t addicted. I think he’s one of the most charming and handsome man I’ve ever seen. I know this sounds futile, but it touched my heart somehow. He says he’s nobody who cares about him 😢 and obviously he doesn’t care about himself either. Mom and dad, don’t do that to your children. 😢
I appreciate all the love and support he's getting. I hope he sees all these comments and decides to give himself the chance he deserves. I'm rooting for him. 🙏
I was just thinking about that! If he can get it together he would be a stallion! I’m from Baltimore and am in recovery and always will be is like I tell people bc it only takes one very good or one very bad day to change it all! I’ve seen so many beautiful people inside and out loose their lives and themselves to this life! Baltimore has become such a sad place! I Love my city but we can’t wait to leave!
Depends how bad u want it I'm in recovery myself it does get easier but it's hard at start
I thought I'd never be able quit using heroin and crack. I used for over 25 years. I went through more than 13 detox's and rehab's.
Ive been clean and sober since October 23rd 2006, almost exactly 17 years and 9 months.
Ive never been happier or more successful.
@@ArtistNRecovery That's amazing, bro! I love it. Congratulations on getting clean. I just hit 10 years clean myself back in April. I totally get where you're coming from.
You still clean?
Yes. I thought I would never stop alcohol & Crack. Thirteen rehabs 20+ detox Admissions. Now 3 1/2yrs. clean and sober. Life is good.
This guy is smart . Such potential. Great advice..❤
He definitely has the potential, Shelly. I'm rooting for him. 🙏
Always so hard to watch. I know there are success stories too. I wish you could occasionally interview a social worker or shelter volunteer who has beat there habit. You are a saint for putting yourself out there and trying to highlight a dire situation this great country finds itself in. Thank you Sir
Absolutely, Tim. I agree about the social worker or shelter volunteer. Those interviews will definitely be coming. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I've been homeless, in and out of treatment centers, etc. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. These interviews also give me a chance to get in front of people struggling and share my story with them so they can see what change actually looks like.
Thanks so much for supporting the channel. It's definitely appreciated. 🙏
Man you are half way to a better life in your head
Your clever
Your young
Your beautiful
You just got to find another playground to satisfy your soul
I did it and 12 years sober
I save animals now and fight the bad *****s
You will have a purpose in your heart waiting to make you feel alive
All the best dude
That's what's up, Alex. Congratulations on getting clean. I just hit 10 years clean myself back in April. I love that you save animals. I'm a huge animal lover, so I can certainly appreciate that. Thanks so much for supporting the channel. Much appreciated. 🙏
I’m in recovery. I love helping homeless cats, too, and a few lost dogs. I don’t turn them down…I just find more cats. I keep, only, ones who are considered unadoptable. I know healthy cats get put down, so it’s OK to adopt them, but I don’t prefer them to cats with disabilities. I have chronic illness & disabilities, and these two help me a lot, because they “get it,” in ways my other cats didn’t. I loved those cats, and as they grew older, they learned, but these I can keep up with, now, and they’re exceptional. The brain disordered one doesn’t run when I have bipolar symptoms…he stays extra close and engages me, walks me to my bed and the bathroom, when I don’t remember to sleep, or take a warm bath. My physically ill female “holds hands” when I’m sick, and pats or scratches me, if I pass out, with asthma. I, once, saw her do what looked just like chest compressions on a cat without a pulse (my old senior, who has passed, but she gave him extra time). She pushed him on his back, and kneaded his chest hard & he came back around. I couldn’t have done that for a 6 pound cat. I got 2 that stay with me…one cat with severe allergies, inflammatory bowel, & hyperesthesia syndrome, and one with FIV. She fought infections for 6 months, as an abandoned kitten, but she’s stable, now. Cool to hear from another animal rescuer! You’re so right! We do find things that more than fill the void left by drugs, and they actually mean something to us. I also love helping people get through hard times, and seek recovery, but I like that you didn’t emphasize that, in your comment. Some of us need to do something completely unrelated to addiction/recovery, or need to at certain points in our lives. I definitely had to find out who I am, before I could help other people without feeling fragile. Some of us contribute, in other ways, or would rather do it by being an understanding person than as a job, or haven’t found an opportunity in that area. Either way, our lives and experiences are valuable. Sometimes well-intentioned encouragement to “get out and help others, like you” feels like pressure. People can also help SA survivors, kids at risk of Special Ed placement, people in poverty, animals, or themselves, and be doing what they’re happy to be doing, and helping others, like themselves. Doing what keeps you going is the important thing! Glad you hear you’re thriving, in recovery! Sometimes we’re struggling, in recovery, but as long as we keep on keeping on, it’s good!
@@sciencenotsrigma Very well said. Thanks for sharing all of that, and congratulations on your recovery. I'm a huge animal lover, so I love that you help save animals. I hope you continue to be a beacon of light to all those (people & animals) you cross paths with. 🙏
@@unheardvoices_official Thank you so much. That means a lot to me. I’m struggling to finish my degree program, with my health issues, so your vote of confidence in my ability to to help others is more motivating than I can say!
this is sad , hes scared to be sober , nice looking guy with his whole life in front of him, praying for him ❤
I'm praying for him, too, Louise. I hope he manages to get up out of there. 🙏
his entire persona is wrapped into this way of life , he has no intention of ever changing his behavior
@@MrLeonightis I've seen people way worse off than him turn it all around.
@@MrLeonightis one day, let's pray for him to receive the Abba Father love he longs for so deep to do a work in him so he can truly work on himself. God Speed young wounded child, He is here for you.
His honesty is sobering.... Thanks!
Absolutely, Annie. 🙏
This guy has insight and intellect going for him. He could have any life he wants without those drugs. Such a shame man.
Insight and intellect? 😂
This is my first look at your channel. Russell, you are a skilled interviewer and presenter. I'll be watching more content.
@johnnyamerica44 Thanks so much, Johnny. I truly appreciate the support. 🙏
I got comfortable being uncomfortable that shit hits different
To me, sober does not just mean getting off drugs, it means rooting out and ridding ourselves of all addictive unhealthy compulsive behaviour, that's hard. Best wishes Mark.
I agree. It definitely can be hard. Thanks so much for supporting the channel. Much appreciated. 🙏
@@unheardvoices_official You're welcome, I am battling addiction myself.
Thank you for this, Definitely a new sub, I wish you all the best Mark.
Thanks so much for the support. It's definitely appreciated. 🙏
He is a very astute and eloquent speaker. He speaks the truth. I hope he gets the help he needs to live a better life. It's heartbreaking hearing how these poor people have to live. The man is most definitely a survivor. Mark, if you read this, you can create a better life for yourself, mate. Stay strong and never give up on yourself.
You have everything within your power to take small steps in the right direction man. You're obviously very bright. I know when you look at the big picture it can seem overwhelming and daunting, but it is the easier softer way. Only concentrate on what you can control that's in your own huluhoop. Stay present and only in the first 30 minutes, then try another 30 minutes. You have more going for yourself than even you know. Your upbringing was toxic and unstable but there are ways to get the help you need to create a happier life for yourself. You're NOT ALONE in your struggles!! We're here for you and I'll be praying for you to get the support you need. You can't do this alone. You need to align yourself with people who can encourage and lift you up. You got this brother!!
I will be praying and sending this guy some positive healing energy. Seems like a good guy. Getting clean and sober with a good support system is tough. He reminds me of my brother, rip. So handsome, like my brother. He had so many talents. He was an amazingly sweet and a gentle soul. I miss him terribly. My brother OD’ed many times. He died from the long term effects after using for years even though he hadn’t used street drugs for years.
Love yourself enough to get clean. Right now you’re just breathing air. You get one life. Don’t waste it. Face your fears and get clean. I promise you, you’ll never regret it. -From a former addict.
I agree wholeheartedly, Jan. I was an addict myself for 18 years. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. You're right. He will never regret getting clean. I hope he manages to take those steps and get the help he needs. I'm rooting for him. 🙏
My sister can't work cause her arms show tracks! 💉
@@User-34895. 💯! The struggle is real! There are some employers out there who would value her experience. If she’s into helping others with addictions and/or mental illness, she could look up Certified Peer Recovery Specialist training, if she’s interested. There are, often, need based scholarships, the training is largely on the job, and they specifically hire people who HAVE experienced Substance Use Disorders and/or mental illness. Not everyone wants to do that, or is able to, but a lot of people are, so I just thought I’d mention it. I know an NA sponsor and people with one year in recovery, who are in paid positions, now. Americorps, now, has a Recovery Corps, too, in some states. ❤.
@@User-34895 I'm sorry to hear that. Can she wear long sleeve shirts to cover them up?
@@User-34895 tell her to wear long sleeve tops
We who don't take drugs don't understand how hard it is to get off drugs once you're hooked. I can't even manage to get off cigs ! God bless these poor people , they're innocent really.
Well said. 🙏
It’s not your final destination mark just like you said. I hope you’ll want to get clean soon
He is such a handsome man, I hope things will get better for him.
I like him a lot. I can relate 💯. I’m living in Virginia came out here 4 years ago after living in Philly on the streets. Getting sober is scary and I’m still scared of failing and I’m clean.
Reach out and lean on sober people. And I’ll keep him in my prayers. He seems like a great guy
Philly's trash, hope Virginia is treating you well.
Welcome to the DMV, and congratulations on getting clean. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. I totally get where you're coming from. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other. You got this! Don't hesitate to reach out to me if you need to.
Thanks so much for supporting the channel. Much appreciated. 🙏
Lost more friends then i have wow that hit hard god bless this man hes got good head on him needs to be bit more stronger i belive he stands a chance
He’s awsome. Insightful and intelligent. If he gets clean, he’ll do well. Still has teeth too
So handsome. Could be a model. Prayers he gets clean and conquers being scared of being sober.
I totally relate to this guy. Life sober is scary. I'm in recovery. Barely holding on.
Keep fighting, brother. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I've been homeless, in and out of treatment centers, etc. I felt so hopeless during that time. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. You got this! I promise it gets better. Don't hesitate to reach out to me if you need to.
He’s right about needing to care enough about yourself to stay sober. Most sober addicts could benefit from psychotherapy support, because it strengthens your ability to care for yourself. 🌲
“Don’t nobody care about me”
I care about you, man. I care about you.
@@RedRabbleRouser 🙏
I care. If you could get clean he could see people care. I live in Baltimore. I got clean in Baltimore. The help is out there. I know it is
@@CATs24-m3u That's what's up. Congratulations on getting clean. 🙏
Staying clean is the hardest thing for sure❤
Help him Lord Jesus
Absolutely! 🙏
He’s totally right getting clean is the easier part. My problem is staying sober. I started abusing opioids because I didn’t like how I felt naturally and when I first snorted some OxyContin I remember saying “this is it man! This is how I want to feel until the day I die!” Sadly I tried hard to make that happen with a quick transition to heroin. Whenever I’d get clean either by my own volition, by going to jail, rehab, whatever it was I still didn’t like how I felt sober. Going to meetings all the time and getting caught up in the drama from all the addicts still emotionally in high school. I’d want to die I’d get so bored. It’s like they say though, one day at a time.
I totally feel you, man. I was addicted to drugs myself for 18 years. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. I've definitely been there and know exactly what you mean and what you're going through. It really is one day at a time. It definitely gets easier over time.
@@unheardvoices_official - Thanks man, I like your channel. It’s real, that’s what I like. I used to like Intervention back when it first came out around 2005 (I was only 20 at the time), but then I found out they try to make things more dramatic…a lot of it’s fake. I only know this because my ex gf was on the first season of Intervention. I actually think that show helped me become an addict. I was already leaning in that direction, but I learned A LOT of crap I’d never have known if I didn’t watch that show. I was living in Colorado when I first tried heroin, I only knew how to find it because there was an episode of a guy from Denver doing his hustles. I used it as a resource to score. Not every city is like SF where there’s just this certain area you go to any hour of the day and will find 100 dealers, most places you need to know someone.
I wonder how many feel that way - afraid to get sober.
The best high I’ve ever experienced was from working out, & eating healthy. Nothing like that feeling..
@@KCNYC Working out and eating healthy can definitely be a great high. It really is a great feeling.
Jesus, please help this young man and guide him to your love so he can heal.
Amen.
Absolutely! 🙏
Up here in Philly it was the same, in a section called Kensington, I used to get 10 bags of dope for just $30, as where it used to cost a lot more and the crap they cut it with used to have me sleeping standing all the way up, bless this man, hope to see him win.
Yea, Kensington is wild, too. I've done a few interviews out there. I was completely shocked my first time there. I hope to see this guy win as well. 🙏
@@unheardvoices_official good on you for giving them a platform to speak on, I know I would’ve loved to share my story when I was out there. Keep going 💯
@@GrandMagus_N.O.X I definitely appreciate the support.
Damn me too. Northern parkway and harford road. Pray for you broman
Some people judge the homeless and affiliated but there are many nice people who have fell on hard times and I pray for every single person they find a better life and help 🙏
@@messymaria72 Absolutely, Charlie. I feel the same. 🙏
Baltimore City… Be Mo Careful City is more like it. Rough, tough city. I hope Mark is able to get clean. Really appreciate the interview.
@@mitchsgoodiepark9812 Thanks so much for supporting the channel. It's definitely appreciated. 🙏
Looks like they are down the inner harbor…..I been Mark. I actually stomped that exact block where they are at, I was out there shooting d/c…..I was 20 yrs old in 1996 when my mom who was already a heroin addict, found out I was sniffing dope and had a habit. One thing lead to another and I ended up dopesick one time and she put that syringe in my arm for the first time. I don’t blame her tho. At one point, me, my mom and dad was all shooting up together out committing crimes to get high together. Let me add, I been off for 23 years, mom and dad also have clean for more then half that…..recovery is possible for us go hards. Mark keep that head up. You’ll get there. Listen. We all end up where we choose to Be in life for the most parts. Stay prayed up is the #1 piece of advice. I pray you get tired young brother
That's what's up, bro! I'm sorry you went through all that, but so glad to hear you were able to overcome it. I was also addicted to drugs for 18 years. I've been homeless, in and out of prison, etc. I just hit 10 years clean back in April. Life is definitely much better on this side of things. Congratulations on getting clean, bro! Congratulations on your mom and dad getting clean as well.
Do you have a relationship with your parents anymore.
@@friendorfoe5761 yes I do. We are a unique family to have used hardcore together and now all 4 of us are sober together. Miracle.
@@unheardvoices_official man!!!! Salute!! Same to you family!!! Congrats on that!!!! Man everyday is a gift, my worst day sober is better then an amazing day using!!! Bless yall family
@@friendorfoe5761 it was no walk in the park in between tho, there was times where one of us was out there or a few of us, then others was locked up or in rehab, it was a big mess man, coming and going, but thru that whole process man we all found a new way of life and tho we walked our own paths out, we all ended up meeting back up and we hold eachother accountable. We all are members of the same church over in east Baltimore, it’s been a wild ride and at one point I didn’t see no other way but being out there on that concrete chasing. It’s a hard process man. Getting clean starting with zero. Looking at your own self and to realize you burned every bridge every relationship to the ground. We do recover. Just hold on!!!!
I just need to say this as I was addicted since I'm 12 years old, and all I can say from my experience is that, we used to deal with our problems and then you get so deep you believe that you can't even change your life but you can you just have to face your problems sober and that why we are reluctant to change but i did and so can you, you either get clean or die
GOD BLESS YOU ❤
Its a horrible feeling to be judged and put down just because of the situation one may be in. Hes right about not every person down on their luck being a thief or a criminal. Unfortunately, especially when it comes to addiction, even those who are good people will cross the line when desperate enough. Addiction is insidious. Its difficult to find the proper care and treatment. Especially if one is on the fence and struggling with wether they want to change or not. The " treatment " industry is a very lucrative business. There are so many things that can be done differently to give people the best chance to stop and never go back. Unfortunately the ones that successfully get out, want it so bad, theyll find a way no matter what. Program or not. Majority of people in these places are struggling with that decision and it doesn't take much for them to slip. Relapse rate is very high. The odds of being successful are very low. So many are suffering out there...
Well said, Krystian.
I don’t think I would have got and stayed off drugs, without a really good treatment counselor. I did have one who was above and beyond the others I’ve had. That’s what motivates me to help others now, because I see how important that was to me, to have. There are some good people in the treatment field, but I definitely know what you mean. There are many, who go to programs that are desperately in need of new methods. I don’t mean new, because there are effective, existing methods, but some centers continue to employ ineffective, cheaper ones. I’ve been to more of those places. and only one helpful one…and that’s all it took!
@@sciencenotsrigma A really good counselor is definitely important. A had a few help me along in my journey, and it meant the world.
@@unheardvoices_official I still see mine, for individual counseling, and I to the fact that she also is in recovery from “hard” drugs and has a meaningful life and work was really important for me to see! I didn’t think I could come back from that, but here we all are, still recovering 😊 !
@@sciencenotsrigma Absolutely! 🙏
I completely understand him I got also no family and is very difficult own your own! But I wish him all the best with the bottom of my heart 💓!he seems very nice kind guy and he looks very clean Iyou can t see that he is homeless.i.I hope really he gets of Drugs and of streets❤
It can definitely be hard to make it with no family or no support system. I hope he's able to get out of that life as well. 🙏
@@unheardvoices_official. I’ve got family, but the relative I’ve got needs more support than they can give. It’s always been like that. That’s why I left home young, not because I was in a hurry to grow up! I, often, see people tell interviewees on these channels to go home. If a lot of us had a home, with supportive family, we wouldn’t be out there, to begin with! Life gets real. I hope this man finds the resources and support to make it out! ❤
@@sciencenotsrigma Life definitely gets real, and I understand completely. I hope he finds the resources he needs as well. 🙏
@@unheardvoices_official I guess YT deleted my reply, or something. 🤷♀️
Man I wish you asked him why he fears getting sober so much. It’s a fascinating answer. Great interview. I love how you reassured him he’s capable of getting clean.
@@olig7336 It's definitely a fascinating answer. Thanks so much for supporting the channel. It's truly appreciated. 🙏
This was so insightful. I live in a country that is riddled with crystal meth. It destroy good people.
@@henrykirk4457 Thanks so much for supporting the channel, Henry. Where are you from?
I live in New Zealand
A sober bloke once said that a strong side roast cherry would always be a great ambition forecast in his new pops. He mentioned that a wine bloomer would try and escape his trench rug before a rime and instead of tow berry he always clinched to a notion.
Being sober and having a clean life is possible. You just have to take the leap. You have all the qualities to be a decent human being and productive member of society. You can do this. You say it’s scary but some of the best things in the world have come from people that were scared of what if at 1st. Take the leap. It’s worth it. ❤❤
Very well said.
So glad I never really liked opiates. Lean is tight but after beiber ruined everything it all has fentanyl now. So glad I don't live in a place like this. Good luck to this man.
Get out now while you still can,there is no happy ever after on the streets.
You're right. There's definitely no happy ever after in the streets.
The restless legs and alligator 🐊 skin is hell on earth. Alligator skin is the best way I can explain it. It’s like someone skinned and alligator and you had to wear the wet raw skin. That’s they way your own skin feels
Is that why there’s always so much scratching? I often wondered what they’re feeling.
@@humboldtharry1289 yes. On top of that the opiates cause itching. The best way to get rid of it for good is to medically ween yourself off slowly over time. Slowly your brain heals and you can get back to normal again. The problem is the stronger the opiate the stronger the withdrawal and the longer it takes to ween. It’s just hard to find the right doctors and rehabs to properly do it
Yea, I hear it's terrible, Jon. It sounds bad the way you describe it.
@@humboldtharry1289 I'm assuming that's why.
@@humboldtharry1289 people scratch when they're really high. Some dope makes you itch more than others. I hate when non-users say it's like bugs are crawling , etc. You just get itchy. Depends what they cut it with? I've never scratched/itched/whatever when I was in withdrawal. Most of these fallacies are made up by people who've never used, or experienced the joys of withdrawal.
Lord please help this man 🙏
God bless you
@@Real2k25 🙏
It takes balls to get sober and you can’t do it alone this disease thrives in isolation- 12 years clean and sober I speak from bitter incomprehensible demoralizations in active addiction!
@@AnnLeal-r9y I agree wholeheartedly, Ann. I just hit 10 years clean myself back in April. I totally feel you.
Congratulations 🎉 staying clean and sober one day at a time no matter is the solution !
@@AnnLeal-r9y Absolutely! 🙏
his entire persona is wrapped into this way of life , he has no intention of ever changing his behavior
So are a lot of people’s, in active addiction. That can and does change, in recovery! It’s impossible to look at people and know who will make it out, or not. I’ve seen people surprise everyone!
@@sciencenotsrigma I've seen people surprise everyone, too.
@@sciencenotsrigma a leopard don't change its spots ,his brain is hardwired to live this life
@@MrLeonightis I got my information in a formal graduate neuroscience program, as well as my own life and field experience. That’s a myth. Addiction makes brain changes that are easily visualized on brain scans. So is the process of addiction. Active addiction is interpreted as a survival emergency by the midbrain, so the brain starts destroying pathways to the prefrontal cortex, because higher order thinking (rational decision making, moral reasoning), is considered a luxury the human organism can’t afford, in a survival emergency. This renders these functions offline, so people can use their survival instincts, which legit signal them to use drugs. This glitch occurs because things that produce the highest level of dopamine in nature are, actually, good for us. The midbrain can’t think so. The midbrain doesn’t know that we can now synthesize substances that cause dopamine release. Therefore, it labels drug use as extremely important for survival, because it ranks survival activities in order of importance, according to amount of dopamine release they achieve. This isn’t hedonism. Dopamine is essential for human motivation. The emergency comes in, when people have low dopamine, which happens when we crash. This triggers the emergency mode that shuts down our better thinking. Addiction is just a glitch in the human survival system, because the midbrain did not keep pace with the evolution of the prefrontal cortex. The only way to end the emergency situation is to abstain from drugs for a significant period of time. It takes an average of one to three years for the brain to recover and build new pathways to the PFC, which restore its functioning. The PFC can be pictured as the angel on one shoulder. When the “angel” is disabled, the “devil” (our ancient midbrain, also known as the Lizard brain, though it’s properly the common mammalian brain we have in common with other mammals) takes control. This is not a moral condition. It’s a physiological condition, and that’s just a common metaphor people use, but it is actually a good comparison, so it’s useful here. Abstaining for 1-3 years is not as easy as it sounds, because the midbrain continues to signal the person to use substances, though the signals become less frequent, over time. The trick is to “convince” the midbrain that the substance is no longer available in the human habitat. This only happens if people abstain from using it. 18 month treatments or longer are most effective, and aftercare and support are important. Professionals must understand the problem is neurological, not moral or psychological. Trauma does put people at higher risk for addiction, as well as mental illness and despair, because when chemical imbalance exists, the brain records the initial substance use as even more significant. People do recover, and when they do, they are as moral as they were before addiction. Addiction is not statistically linked with ASPD, or other disorders of lack of empathy or moral behavior. It is linked with disorders affecting judgment and impulse control, as well as with trauma.
@@MrLeonightis For more information on the neurobiology of addiction, Marc Lewis, PhD has videos on YT.
It sucks too hear him say I have no one in my corner probably another reason why he doesn’t care too get sober , he needs support and a game plan it’s a beautiful thing too be sober life gets better after you bet your addiction. People have other addictions like po”n gambling- eating - shopping not just drugs. No one’s perfect , you really gotta love your self today might not seem perfect but you never know what brings tomorrow I hope who ever going thru dark times remember every one has a story but you can change your story and make it have a great ending
Can we get a "you know what i mean?" count lol goddamn ive never heard someone say the same phrase so many times in such a short time 😂
I cannot believe it is that cheap. Thats cheaper than a 40 oz of malt liquor in a lot of places.
For sure. That's crazy.
Being from Baltimore this is such a familiar story.
*I would like to do an interview with you, i am also from Baltimore*
God bless you forever!
@@vincentparker8636 🙏
I want to save this guy. He seems like a good guy. I know it doesn’t work that way, unfortunately. I’m a recovering addict myself, so I know. But damn I wish I could help!
Is there an upward limit on how much to spend on a person to save them?
@carpballet I'm not sure. That's a good question. I guess it would be based on an individual perspective, and everyone's thoughts on it would probably be different.
That's near where my aunt used to live Clifton Park area Herring Run.
Yep. That's right there, James.
You gotta change people places and things to stay sober dude
Once you hoestly want to get clean, you will face the music and do it. Ive battled the same demons and have 5 months clean this time. Keep getting back up before your chances run out.
Thats crazy. The word dope means H out east. Where i live in wyoming, if i were to use the word dope around my friends they would automatically think i was talking about meth.
@@lonewolf87993 Oh wow, I didn't know that. I've always heard heroin referred to as dope. That's good to know, though.
Had a friend back in the day, his family was pretty wealthy. We were all experimenting with different stuff and he barely even smoked weed or drank, just cigarettes. 15 years later we're all settle down with families and whatnot and this dude outta nowhere starts doing every drug under the sun. Stopped taking care of his kid, tried getting us to do shxt with him, got kicked out of his house, and sold all his belongings for dope. Another few years past and i run into the dude, this guy is a almost unrecognizable, asking me where i stay at. Na bro...
He replies " Fentanyl obviously" !! Jesussssssssssssssssssssss
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The blues are $1 here in 🐦🔥 Phoenix. Central City. All you have to do is walk up to any homeless person and offer $2 a pill and they all got you
Damn. $1 a pill? That's wild. That's the cheapest I've heard about.
bro thats wild Im from right there behind the burger king now i live in jacksonville duuuuuuvaaalllll
Yep, that's right there, bro!
I get high off chaos too, I find the best solution for that (once u get on your own feet) is to volunteer with people or animals who really need it. Trust me, it's chaotic lol. Go on nextdoor and see who needs food, start collecting from other neighbors and drop it off. Start volunteering in animal rescue or do it on your own, no shortage of animals needing help in Baltimore. try to find meds and donations and help for the animals. Trust me it can keep you hopping 24/7 if you help those humans and animals really in need. Re being scared of being sober, I'm a nighttime only toker and it works great. Keep busy in the daytime and ganja every night like after 6pm or so when it's wind down time
Hope you can get off the drugs. ❤
The mom was the smart one, she didn't do drugs.
@@sj122s That would always be the smart decision. However, not everyone is fortunate enough to do the same.
..creation through destruction, to the other side, where the sun is shining, sun restore my shine...
Baltimore is one of if not the best city in the US to be a opiate addict it. I know, I’ve lived all over the county and Baltimore was the best and easiest place to score dope. I went there a few years ago cause I remember watching the wire and then saying it was really that easy to cop over there so I drove 3 hours from where I was living in Virginia at that time and the first gas station I stopped at in Baltimore (in the sketchy area) I had 3 different guys waive me down to offer me dope to buy and one gave me a free T (testers) and they pass out free samples one day every week. The capsules were as cheap as $3 for probably a .2-.3 so that’s a good price compared to other cities. And the capsules go all the way up to $10 a pc. So between the price, availability, and quality you can’t ask for a better place to be a addic. I just hope that xylazine tranq hasn’t taken over the Baltimore drug supply yet like it had in Kenzo. That stuff is all that’s around in K&A
Well said. And yes, Kensington is off the chain, too.
If it's 3$ for a .2-.3 that means a gram is 10$ which has to be super cut...Every other state a nice raw gram starts at 100$ sometimes 80$
@@KingTooleyFilms Definitely. It's all stepped on now from what I hear.
@@KingTooleyFilms my
And that was all she wrote.
Hard work. A full time job
Seriously, ain't no such thing as part time. Never saw anyone, rich or poor, who doesn't dive in head first.
@@Maximillian-00 For sure. I've met some people who may only party on the weekends, but very few. It's all or nothing with a lot of people.
Definitely.
@@unheardvoices_official With opiates, especially pharmaceuticals, I have found that the only thing that slows people down is money, jail time, or a fatal OD...Those who have been affected by someone with addiction, you can't pay them to take a pharmaceutical.
The real sad part is my generation (24yr old) doesn't even know what a real Roxi 30 looks like. Its all Mallinkrodt 30 presses for like $7.
I don't know anything about the fent game so $3 for a "bag" is so sad. The dealers know what they are doing. Insane that they would hustle that and see any kind of profit.
Kratom got me off dope❤
Im sober and my eyes are still pinned 😂😂😂😂😂🎉
It's cheaper to spend about 1,000$ and order the pre curser chemicals from China online to make pure fent. 1k can make you about a half kilo or more if mixed right.
@@KingTooleyFilms Damn. That's crazy.
$2 to get a bag of dope in NY.
Damn. That's crazy, Sarah.
what is a bag? a few mg of nitazenes or fent?
@MaximillianJ I'm not 100% sure how much is in a bag. It's sold in pill capsules a lot in Baltimore. I would imagine it's a similar amount to a capsule.
@@unheardvoices_official it’s like one dose. Don’t know how much it weighs
@@yankees29 Gotcha. Thanks for the info.
God has a plan for your life.💯
$3 thst i could live with im min $300 Australian for 1.7 or $550 3.5 last about a day and thats trying real hard not to just use till its gone. I try to save for mornings but struggle to sleep while its there and can sleep when it not there ffs
@@adxn7946 🙏
It’s hard, but you can do it. I did it. I have 5 years clean . My little brother has three years hackean he used sublicade shots. I used methadone. I’d go with the shot if I were you. Seems easier to get off of then methadone. Good luck mark you can do it
@@ZoloftPaxil-qx8jo Congratulations on getting clean. That's what's up. I have 10 years clean myself, so I totally get it. I'm glad your little brother was able to get clean as well. Mark can definitely do it. I'm rooting for him.
The most brutal part is the twelve months after your last dose.. the wholesale inability to sleep, the feeling of hopeless despair, not knowing if your brain chemistry will ever repair to the extent required for you to experience joy, peace, happiness. It's fucking horrible. It was so painfully drawn-out an experience though, that I would never inflict it upon myself again. I had my last dose of opioid replacement therapy in 2020, and thank fuck for that.
" A pill of dope" < very Shakespeare
@@plutoplatters 🙏
Thats sad he grew up with a father on drugs who got locked up amd left him to femd for himself. Very handsome man. He may be able to do modeling and get off of the drugs.
He is good looking, so sad
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Cool
My sister gots a black eye cause the dopeman hit her! 💢
come on bro you can do it i know you can .....fat love from NZ
@@martinmckeeman5139 For sure, Martin. He can definitely do it. I'm rooting for him.
May The Most High bless you, @UnheardVoices
Mark get you're shit together you have you're hole life ahead of you bro
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