An honest update of life with me at the moment. I’m getting by but only just. Motivation is non existent but I’m putting on a brave face and soldiering on 😊
I was going to comment on your ‘Things are not good video’; but couldn’t comment on it. You’re very brave doing these videos. I’m glad I came across them here tonight as I was just writing in things about not being helped with mental illness etc. I can completely relate to what you’re going through. I’ve suffered with mental health issues my whole life. The CMHT recently have been terrible & now left me pretty much to where I was. I was so triggered today from reading their letter. A lot of undermining, wrong information & just a complete mess. It’s all very complicated to explain. I’ve tried a lot of things & I really need good professional help! I’ve been suicidal a lot & it returned today. I just want to give up. Having barely left my room all day & it’s been like that most days most of the bad times in my life & neatly most of this year. I’m so confused, anxious & extremely low. 😔
So pleased to see you. Thank you so much for updating us. I've not even watched yet, all I've seen is that your face is on video, so that is the start of an improvement, if only a little. Well done on you for getting out & also recording a video, hearing that "Hello my lovelies..." has made me smile. I've been doing a bit better, still awake till silly times, currently 3am, I'm taking my pregablin as soon as I wake up, usually 1pm & by 4pm I'm feeling much less anxious, the 2 days of nice weather helped a lot & I sat outside & had an ice cold Pepsi Max. Still anxious over lockdown restrictions easing, but I know the world can't stay as it is forever. Take care & hope to see you again soon. Sending you virtual hugs. x EDIT: I understand about losing an account like Tik Tok. I'm a grown man, but my hobby was playing FIFA (football) on Xbox. i became addicted, my account was worth £1,000s. It got hacked, made even worse by the game developer giving the hackers access. I lost everything & took calls to India, USA, etc. I had things refunded but none of my records were there, everything I had achieved had gone. At the time I was devasted. But I learnt my lesson, I never bought the game again, & will never again get into a game that hooks you into micro transactions. I then moved onto a (don't laugh) wrestling game. Spent months designing arenas, rings, wrestlers, etc. got it all ready & it got wiped, lost it all. Again gutted. I rebuilt it, it happened again & if it happens again I'm done with it. But when you are suffering with mental health, it's things like this that you latch onto, to keep your mind occupied, & when they are gone it's heart breaking. So I do understand about your Tik Tok account. Sorry for such a long comment!
🤣😂 loved the sneeze 🤣😂 .. but seriously I'm so happy your pushing yourself.. I no it is hard but keep going.. your looking great btw.. and I no that sometimes looking great doesn't mean you feel great as I always try keep myself clean and well dressed.. and people just assume that you're OK.. just so happy to see you out and about and looking gorgeous x.. take care princess ❤
So happy to see you,, I feel your pain I've been down for to long. I'm blaming it on winter. Winter is finally over hope to get some kind of motivation. Sorry to hear about your small business. Please don't apologize for complaning,, we all do it,, and that's why were here for each other. You look great, hope to see a update video soon.
So glad to see you again! Your accent is always so lovely to listen to, as I’m from the south US, and love British accents! Good on you for getting out of the house and helping with the dogs! I hope you’re continuing to feel better. Sending you lots of hugs and well wishes beauty!!
At least you've tried..........trying is all we can do........what else do they expect you to do...as long as you've tried then that's all that matters
Hey there! I basically binge watched your videos over the weekend, and now dying to know how you are doing. Lol Our lives are so similar, it's absolutely uncanny. I would love to send you an email, or get in touch with you some way, just not quite sure how. Really not interested in writing out my whole sorted story here in the comments. Lol Maybe send me a link? Messenger? Facebook, Instagram? Hope all is well... Tiina from Canada....😊❤🇨🇦
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Glad to see you back, stay strong, love the top/jacket combo also! X
I was going to comment on your ‘Things are not good video’; but couldn’t comment on it.
You’re very brave doing these videos.
I’m glad I came across them here tonight as I was just writing in things about not being helped with mental illness etc.
I can completely relate to what you’re going through.
I’ve suffered with mental health issues my whole life.
The CMHT recently have been terrible & now left me pretty much to where I was.
I was so triggered today from reading their letter. A lot of undermining, wrong information & just a complete mess.
It’s all very complicated to explain.
I’ve tried a lot of things & I really need good professional help!
I’ve been suicidal a lot & it returned today.
I just want to give up.
Having barely left my room all day & it’s been like that most days most of the bad times in my life & neatly most of this year.
I’m so confused, anxious & extremely low.
😔
Good to see you are back. You look amazing xx
So pleased to see you. Thank you so much for updating us. I've not even watched yet, all I've seen is that your face is on video, so that is the start of an improvement, if only a little. Well done on you for getting out & also recording a video, hearing that "Hello my lovelies..." has made me smile. I've been doing a bit better, still awake till silly times, currently 3am, I'm taking my pregablin as soon as I wake up, usually 1pm & by 4pm I'm feeling much less anxious, the 2 days of nice weather helped a lot & I sat outside & had an ice cold Pepsi Max. Still anxious over lockdown restrictions easing, but I know the world can't stay as it is forever. Take care & hope to see you again soon. Sending you virtual hugs. x EDIT: I understand about losing an account like Tik Tok. I'm a grown man, but my hobby was playing FIFA (football) on Xbox. i became addicted, my account was worth £1,000s. It got hacked, made even worse by the game developer giving the hackers access. I lost everything & took calls to India, USA, etc. I had things refunded but none of my records were there, everything I had achieved had gone. At the time I was devasted. But I learnt my lesson, I never bought the game again, & will never again get into a game that hooks you into micro transactions. I then moved onto a (don't laugh) wrestling game. Spent months designing arenas, rings, wrestlers, etc. got it all ready & it got wiped, lost it all. Again gutted. I rebuilt it, it happened again & if it happens again I'm done with it. But when you are suffering with mental health, it's things like this that you latch onto, to keep your mind occupied, & when they are gone it's heart breaking. So I do understand about your Tik Tok account. Sorry for such a long comment!
🤣😂 loved the sneeze 🤣😂 .. but seriously I'm so happy your pushing yourself.. I no it is hard but keep going.. your looking great btw.. and I no that sometimes looking great doesn't mean you feel great as I always try keep myself clean and well dressed.. and people just assume that you're OK.. just so happy to see you out and about and looking gorgeous x.. take care princess ❤
Glad your back. I love your yellow top 💛 wheres that from ? X
So happy to see you,, I feel your pain I've been down for to long. I'm blaming it on winter. Winter is finally over hope to get some kind of motivation. Sorry to hear about your small business. Please don't apologize for complaning,, we all do it,, and that's why were here for each other. You look great, hope to see a update video soon.
So good to see u🤗💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼💪🏼
Brilliant that you are back was was wondering how you were last week. Remember you’re not alone this year has been absolutely awful virus aside. Xx
Feel u girl, feel you...mojo gone here too...and the weight gain from being sedentary..😩
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pleased your back good for you keep going
So glad to see you again! Your accent is always so lovely to listen to, as I’m from the south US, and love British accents! Good on you for getting out of the house and helping with the dogs! I hope you’re continuing to feel better. Sending you lots of hugs and well wishes beauty!!
At least you've tried..........trying is all we can do........what else do they expect you to do...as long as you've tried then that's all that matters
Hey there!
I basically binge watched your videos over the weekend, and now dying to know how you are doing. Lol Our lives are so similar, it's absolutely uncanny. I would love to send you an email, or get in touch with you some way, just not quite sure how. Really not interested in writing out my whole sorted story here in the comments. Lol Maybe send me a link? Messenger? Facebook, Instagram?
Hope all is well...
Tiina from Canada....😊❤🇨🇦
Social media only rewards you if you’re a baddie these days...it’s very sad. And the trolls...ugh