I was like:"she is so sweet, I like it when people still can get happy like a child"... 2 seconds later: this adhd brain is sensoring overload by all her unessecairly noises and body movements....... Ugh I went from happy to annoyed within 2 seconds. I am very sorry everyone
@@JunaidWolf3 I think it's white noise that's more intense. Like, white noise is subtle and soothing to most. Brown noise is louder and less subtle to listen too.
My only autism flex is that my special interest is dog training so to most neurotypical people I just look like a dog trainer so they ask for advice which means I can info dump on them heheheh 😈
Wait I never realized it but for a while I was hyperfixated on dog training, but it kinda ended when my dog passed because now I don't have my smart little baby to work with anymore :( now I info dump on my mom so she can train her beagle who's 5 and was a menace until I started telling my mom how to train her
LUCKY- LMAO Whenever I’m Finally Able to Talk about My Special Interest ( All Types of Reptiles And Some Animals ) They Get Aggravated or Ignore me ( I Haven’t Been Diagnosed With autism But I’m Almost Fully Sure I Have it )
I talked to my therapist a couple weeks ago (after a highly enlightening conversation with my partner) about possibly getting a diagnosis for Autism, especially since it's prevalent in my family. I got screwed over by the eye contact bit.
It can. And its stupid on the drs part. Its probably the most masked thing because society makes such a huge deal of how important it is, you learn to at least fake it somehow. It is difficult to try to completely unmask for evaluation, but is almost necessary with a lot of these drs. If you don't have obvious overt symptoms its like they can't tell.
Both people in my family that have been diagnosed will have entire conversations while maintaining eye contact. Eye contact makes me physically uncomfortable but I've been scolded for it so much; plus I took speech for 3 years and now it's just a reflex even though I hate it.
@@natestuthman4999 eye contact doesn't actually make me uncomfortable (i'm autistic, duh) but it does make it harder for me to focus. like i'll start a conversation with eye contact but then at som point i just drift off until boom i realize i'm staring at a wall.
5:31 Helped me to a massive breakthrough about my bio mom and I's relationship. I've always felt like she never loved the real me, felt like she never really knew me and who I was, only the perfect temperate "girl" she conditioned me to be. Most of all I never really understood how she told me (around the age of 15 too), I was changing into something she didn't like, when at the time I felt like I was discovering myself. I've been masking my entire life, and it started unmasking all the way back then, before I even knew the word for it. My bio mom didn't love "me", she loved the mask that I formed to conform to her standards of "normal". And as soon as I started to unmask, she wanted to change me. It's heart breaking and cathartic because I can finally describe what happened in my own terms, without the hateful rejection she gave me for growing into my own person. I wasn't turning into a monster, I wasn't "turning bad", I was just becoming myself, a person she doesn't love. I'm 20 years old and I finally understand and I finally feel free. I can't thank these creators enough, they've given me the tools to get to this breakthrough and it has changed how I veiw myself and my relationship with my bio mom.
@@Lillyluvsanime It's more bittersweet for me. I've long since accepted the fact my bio mom and I won't have a healthy relationship, but now I know that I'm not really a bad person for not being "perfect". I'm an imperfect, and specifically in this context, an autistic person and I'm finally coming to terms with this and learning to love myself as I am.
@@YourPenguinFriendMilo yeah. I've been, over the last 4.5 years, discovering my own autism and getting my mom to understand has been difficult but in a different way. I think the part that makes me sad about your story is that everyone deserves the unconditional love of their parent(s). Sad for you and sad for your mom that she can't see past who she wanted/expected you to be and now has to miss out on who I'm sure is an incredible person. With my mom, it's mostly just been trying to convince her that I'm not being a hypochondriac or letting my imagination get away from me. She's slowly warmed to the idea that the person she's always known me to be (who has always been pretty openly a weirdo) is an autistic person, and not just "hashtag-quirky, lol".
I had that, I have trouble processing things at the exact time and my mom is bipolar and hated when I struggled with things, she told me she missed when I wasn’t a horrible person, lazy, ignoring her, hurting my brother (my brother had behaviour problems ((he might also be autistic)) he would scream when he was annoyed and my mom would take that to mean I was hitting him. My mom has lost custody of me, my brother, and my sister, she was very abusive. She always said she supported my autism, but I found out later a few things, she told my dad he shouldn’t be allowed to see me because he was autistic, she didn’t vaccinate me incase I got autism, and she even stopped me going to primary school when I was 5 because they said I might be autistic. She got so angry, and I think she also was worried about social workers finding things out (I never went to school, and I also wasn’t allowed outside by myself. I rarely saw anyone. I was 14 when she lost custody, and she wasn’t gonna let me out till I was 16) when I got diagnosed, she’d say things like “my Facebook autism research didn’t say anything about kids doing that, you have no exuse.”
@@LeafBlade1016 Thank you for sharing your story, I'm so sorry for what she did to you. I hope you can heal from what happened, and start looking for help with your autism and your brothers. My heart goes out to you
I’m not autistic as far as I know, even thought I’m maybe 85% sure I am. This community is so heartwarming and I can relate to some of them so much I wish I had friends who understood me like this.
I mentioned autism to my therapist one time and she was like “you definitely don’t have autism” and when I asked why she said “first of all, you’re good at making eye contact” and then I didn’t hear anything else she said because I was overthinking my eye contact😀 Also she does not know the full me. We do our sessions over a video call and the second that camera turns on I change completely.
I have been diagnosed autistic by suprise last year.. and my eyecontact is basicly non existing and when I try to keep eyecontact my friends always do this thing where they make their eyes big by rising their eyebrows and stare into my soul. Thats how I will look when I keep eyecontact most of the time :D Also I was 15 when I got the diagnosis but mine isnt as bad as my brothers so thats why nobody noticed even tho it affects me all the time..
RIGHT! But my therapist does suspect it, i hate eye contact but through screens its different- like u said but i change when im at home and i become bouncy etc, at school, overwhelmed qiute etc
Yikes. I’m diagnosed autistic and I don’t have much trouble making eye contact (or… looking like I am? Honestly I’m a little confused as to what eye contact actually is), most autistic people don’t have every single autistic trait. Sounds like your therapist doesn’t know much about autism.
My stepmom and dad sat me down several weeks ago and went through a list of stuff thats associated with Autism and that I might’ve been misdiagnosed with ADHD instead…it was quite spot on and I’ve been doing a lot of research since then.
The one where she started to scratch the face of that toy phone, I absolutely HATE that sound. It makes my skin crawl... I haven't been diagnosed with autism or adhd, but clearly I'm neurodivergent. Thank you for these videos. They help me make sense of myself and I don't feel so alone.
OMG THE TIKTOK ABOUT AUTISM DIAGNOSIS IS SO TRUE. Okay so long story short, my little brother is diagnosed with autism and I’m diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder (i’m afab and that’s important to know that). My mother sometimes says that she feels like i may be autistic and that we should maybe do a diagnosis (and i start to feel like maybe i am) BUT my therapist (who is specialized in neurodivergences) said that she only see G.A.D. at some point. But the thing is that researches about autism was mainly made on amab people and so it’s hard for an afab person to get a diagnosis because of that and since i’ll get diagnosed for another disorder (that has nothing to do with a neurodivergent disorder) i can’t ask for an autism diagnosis. Anyways, the « short » was useless because i made it long.
my mom tried to get me a diagnosis around a year and a half ago, and most of my family has ADHD, the doctors didnt exactly say i have autism, but they also didnt say i didnt have autism, my mom told me not long ago the doctors said its "not autism, but on the autism spectrum" take into note im also AFAB (they/it pronouns), and almost always mask whenever near new people, which then i was.
I don't know, if this helps, but my brother has been in a similar situation. I have the autism diagnosis, and when we talked about how/why I got it, we realized he has the exact same problems and hypersensitivities - he just copes in a different way than I do. So he went to a psychiatrist himself to be evaluated in the hope that once he's diagnosed he'd be able to claim some protection at work. Things like changing his work place to where it's not as busy and loud as where he currently was. Inexplicably, they concluded he has gad. Once he had this in his medical record, no other doc / therapist would consider submitting him to autism testing. One time he asked why, and they explained that autism is not a causative diagnosis, but a label diagnosis. Basically this means, you get the autism diagnosis when you have no other diagnosis that fits the majority of your symptoms. But the good part is: just because you're not diagnosed, doesn't mean you can't get good therapy. Like, if you have specific problems you want to address in therapy, then a good therapist, autism or not, will try to figure out solutions with you. My brother tried iirc 3 different therapists (one session each, just to see if the chemistry fits), and once he found one who he could communicate well with, he got a lot of the same therapy steps as I did. For example, social competence training and exposure training, he got a doctor's note that gave him the protection at work he was looking for etc. Long story short: if you have the option, try a different therapist or psychiatrist. You may not get the diagnosis, but eventually you will find someone who can help you with whatever problem(s) you have.
Fellow afab here, diagnosed with GAD as a late-teen, but convinced that I'm probably autistic as well. I was briefly tested and medicated for add/adhd (don't remember which or if they even said), but because I had so many other issues with depression and anxiety, they didn't think the medicine was helping and took me off it. So while right now I can't actually afford a diagnosis anyway, I probably would experience the same thing (which is one reason I don't want to even bother trying)
I'm an adult and was only diagnosed with ASD recently, and these videos are helping me make sense of a lot of mannerisms I've had my whole life. Like the song thing at 3:06, I've always done that and I knew most people don't listen to music that way but I had no idea it could be an autism thing. There's so many odd things I remember doing as a child that I look back on now like "ohhhh I did that because I'm autistic"
Also I'm 100% sure that if I had the exact same personality and mannerisms but was a guy, I would've been diagnosed when I was like 4. There were SO MANY signs. I was diagnosed with tourettes when I was 7, and I don't know why the neuro-pediatrician didn't also recognize obvious autism.
I mean when I was 3 I was obsessed with the screensavers on the family computer (the old windows ones from 1998-2000). Whenever my dad was using the computer I'd ask to see all the screensavers. Because it was a visual stim.
Became an expert at fixing cassette tapes because I would listen to the same song over and over again. Also, omg, did you ever see a Screensaver called Razzle Dazzle? I've been unable to find anything like it. I would "preview" that bad boy on my desktop computer in the early aughts and just stare at my screen for hours while complex colorful geometric lines would weave into being on a plain black background.
Yes i relate to so many sympthoms of autism and especially some things of that vid but i would prever a diagnosis but its kinda hard rn if i ever get to someone that can get me a diagnosis i would like to talk about the masking/eye contact things ughh
RIGHT?? (I mean mine was more skipping past in a panic and then stuck chanting “bad” while shaking it out for a good minute there, but yeah, surprised me how sudden and awful that was. I admit I’m glad it’s not just me who hated it 😅)
This is very important and I have had no one to share this with, so here. Did you know that in the first Jurassic park the acid spitting dinosaurs are called Dilophosaurus. Also in real life they can not spit acid and it is just something to make the plot more interesting. But the frills have not been proven to have folded up and down or even exist in general. Some scientists say if the dilophosaurus did have frills it would be to scare predators.
I am autistic... And the only one I felt.. Was the girl talking about her mask changing her into a shell of who she really is. I don't have any special interests, probably bullied out of me by my own father who didn't want my autism to show.
Autism is a spectrum, just because something is a common trait doesnt mean its a trait everyone has. Youre autistic regardless of whether your brain needs special interests or not
I spent quite a few years masking to the point of totally losing myself too. I just want to say I’m sorry that you’ve had to do that, and that it is possible to rebuild the parts of yourself you have lost once you are safe. However you choose to live, I hope you’re able to find happiness in it :)
@@anonymousaardvark1788 no problem you expressed yourself very clear (to me atleast) I have a few hobbies now. Anime Cosplay Gaming Sewing Cooking I cut contact with my father 25 th December 2018. After he and the Disney-level-evil-stepmother had first mentally abused my older brother; who is closer to the stereotypical autistic person; for him being too autistic of Christmas Eve and for being overweight, they also commented on him not having any friends; he actually hangs out with friends more often than I do; so I defended him, telling then that we aren't like "normal" people because our brain is constructed in a different way; biology has proven this many times for both autism and adhd; the stepmonster interrupted me saying // there is no such study!// Me //wow, and I thought you were a biologist with multiple PHD's. // While rolling my eyes.. And yeah they went full offence on my mental health. Multiple hours later when o was finally able to get the fuck outta there I decided to never meet, see or hear them again. And ever since I have slowly been working on my mental health... There's been ups and downs, but it mainly gets better slowly.
i didnt know that scratching those holographic crads (for the funny noise) was a neurodivergent thing to do, but it explains why everyone in my family yelled at me to stop when i did it
i am the complete opposite when it comes to that i literaly hate it so much it sends chills down my spine from the noise alone, dont even get me started on the texture
My folks were pissed at me because I sought that stimulation from the edges of encyclopedia pages, you know, the ones you ordered whole sets of with the pretty gold edging? Yeah, I scratched those bad boys good. It was soooo satisfying, hearing the sounds, feeling the sensations, making patterns in the pretty gold stuff on the edges. Sooooo pissed. 😂🙃
As someone who isn't diagnosed with anything but has most if not all of autism symptoms, I like scratching my notebook protectors that have patterns of hexagons with lines on them using my ruler because it makes a funny sound.
yeah everyone in this comments says they hate it but i remember keeping a sticker like that in a box under my bed and i would get a pointed object and pretend to play it like a guitar at night.
THE ANXIETY DIAGNOSIS IS SO TRUE!! Unfortunately but is true, my neurologist in my first appointment said I have ADHD but said that she discarded austism because I was talking to her. In my next appointment she said I can have autism after she let me talk about my concerns
I believe in self-diagnosis too...im autistic. Before I found out I suspected it but my dr at the time said I was a hypochondriac...even tho I never got sick or said I was sick or anything weird & she had been my dr for 10 years. Idk why she said that but it stopped me. So it took 10 more years til I found out. I'm really grateful there's info & tests online. Maybe some ppl think it doesn't matter if you know or not. But it's really made a difference in how I treat myself.
Have you read the DSM-5TM? I would suggest seeking out a *different* psychiatrist or psychologist to test you for various disorders, or just autism I guess. Dont trust those online tests.
4:58 hit way too dang hard I was diagnosed with ADD but seriously there's no way I'm not autistic. Just because I'm fine with eye contact does not mean I'm not autistic shdksndbsk
Same. Eye contact was presented to me (when I was a child) as a societal necessity. I watched a lot of CSI/NCIS type shows and they said frequently that looking away while talking to someone could mean they're lying, or nervous about what they're saying. I've got massive anxiety so im always nervous about everything i say, but I also have a huge amount of pressure from this idea of "don't draw attention to yourself, be as 'normal' as possible" that plays on loop in my brain. For me, I make eye contact to seem like everyone else. To draw less attention to myself, to mimic others and to present proper social cues when they become necessary.
In my case they diagnosed my with anxiety as a child. Despite me being bad an eye contact and not being able to focus. Now after researching and reflecting I realized I had pretty bad symptoms of both autism and ADHD throughout my life. I got none of those two even though occupational therapists suspected autism. Autism and ADHD seem to be the black sheep among diagnoses. They'd rather diagnose anything else and don't don't realize that anxiety is very common for ND people.
I've never been diagnosed autistic, but either my anxiety disorder presents similarly, including self stimming(i pick at my fingers, and fidget a lot), sensory issues(bright light can border on physical pain, certain noises make me want to stab my ears out with pencils because they feel like nails on a chalkboard to me, and certain foods and food textures make me nauseous), and a distinct ability and subconscious urge to copy someone's tone of voice and, if I can see them, copy their posture, or I am high-functioning autistic, which my therapist did say was possible. The irony? Either way the diagnosis goes, I grew up the child of special education teachers. If I am in fact autistic, they should have been the first to catch it. But my mother, the one who only let her certification lapse a few years ago, is the one the most resistant to the possibility. Despite the fact that she has seen me mid anxiety attack/meltdown, when I am curled in a ball with my hands over my ears and eyes clenched shut because my senses are overwhelmed. Simply because I don't show some of the symptoms. Namely the eye contact one. But given the world we live in, I don't generally have to look people in the eye for long. I don't like to for long periods. I tend to start to blush and get anxious. Unless it's with kids. Them I can look in the eye.
I had two main focuses, and still do, though neither of them have anything to do with my current job- mythology, particularly Egyptian, but other mythologies as well, and.medicine.
You definitely don’t have to struggle a lot with eye contact to be autistic! It’s a common trait, but not every autistic has it. I’m a diagnosed autistic and I don’t struggle much with eye contact, at least not in the way many autistic people describe :)
The brown noise person - the only way I can go to sleep at night is if I play pink noise! Brown noise seems very lush too. I might try that one tonight.
0:19 This was such a hilarious episode of Breaking News, but Brennan's desperate "PLEASE!!!!" was adorable and also a whole mood when it comes to wanting to talk about special interests 5:20 NONONO BAD SOUND BAD SOUND
HEY! This is the special interest/hyperfixation comment. If you have anything you want to talk about but can't find anyone to talk to about it, I'm here to listen! I'll do my best to respond too. Don't forget to eat, drink water, and get some rest. Love y'all!
Hi! Thanks for making this comment~ I used to love Star Wars and then the LOTR and then Harry Potter and then anime and then Survivor and then ASL and then The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, and now I don't have one and feel kinda off balance
aaaah thanks ! my special interests right now is The Three Caballeros, Disney, FNAF and the story of the queens that married henry the 8th ( thanks Six the musical ! ) !
MANTIS INFODUMP!!!! my favorite species is the spiked flower mantis. From their first to third molt, they are black, resembling ants, and they move their arms to look like antennae. Once they get to around their fourth molt, they start to have more extreme changes aside from getting bigger. They start to turn shades of purples and pinks, and the spikes become more visible. When they get to their 6th(ish) molt, they begin to lose the spines. Once they are fully grown (7th most for males and 9th for females) they are usually a light shade of pink with multicolored patterns on their wings. Some of them can have purple eyes, and they dance with the wind to mimic flowers drifting in the wind. From what I've seen, theyre a bigger mantis species. fun fact: they have a special ear on their abdomen almost especially for hearing bats. To avoid getting eaten while they fly, if they hear one they'll spiral downwards until reaching the ground. Also, I think its dumb that people don't think I'm autistic because i can rattle on and on and on and on about reasons why I'm autistic and then they go "nuh uh!! Youre not a little white boy who hyperfixates on trains and has frequent meltdowns!!" And its SO. INFURIATING.
FNAF, THE OUTSIDERS, SILLY BILLY, FNF, HORROR, MURDER, GARDEN OF BANBAN, POPPY PLAYTIME, THE AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS, THE AMAZING WORLD OF GUMBALL, (Please help me-)
Wait..... 3:17, I used to always tell my friends to give me a "squeeze" to squeeze out the sadness or the bad things. And she just hugs me to the tightest possible then I feel much better. Or I stuff myself behind my grandpa's back and let him lean on me bc that's also a really good deep pressure squeeze..... the realisation?
5:54 I relate to this so much! I'm autistic and I also feel that I'm boring (probably due to me masking, but it's really hard to take it off bc I don't want ppl to think I'm being annoying or weird)
Oh yea! The joys of being so stressed or anxious you can’t eat or drink despite you knowing, logically it’s been ten hours you’re probably hungry but the stress doesn’t let the signal get through. So even if you force yourself to eat, it feels like you’re already full and putting more food on top. It suuuuuucks
meanwhile I was watching and suddenly, I remembered a time when I was younger, when I just took a jar of glitter that I had and spread it all over the house...my mom made me clean the whole house lol. well I've had "signs" of autism since I was very young, I don't know how my mom hasn't looked for a specialist for me yet.
5:32 I relate to this one so much I’m crying. I used to be so energetic and bouncy and there’s even a video of me somewhere in a restaurant deciding I liked the song playing so much I was just gonna get up and dance in the middle of the aisle. But the world told me that was wrong. The world tells all of us that we can’t be excited and we can’t express our happiness the way we want to. I’m still learning how to take that mask off and just be comfortable showing myself to people because I’ve spent so many years masking in fear of rejection
1:09 i love videos of people excitedly showing off their interests or showing how to do/make something they love so much 💙 6:52 is there anybody that can _PLEASE_ tell me how i can find this version of the song playing in the background!
The song playing in the background during the 7-minute mark one is called Record Player by Daisy The Great and AJR, it can be found on any media AJR uses for their music like youtube and spotify I dont know much about Daisy The Great, but I certainly know and love Record Player mainly because of my extreme hyperfixation on AJR's music lmao
@@randomgalaxyyy aaaah thank you!! I'd only ever heard the original song (which is just called "the record player song") and didn't know they did an official collab version with AJR! I'd been wondering if it was a cover/version only found on tiktok since there's a lot of artists on there that'll do short or unofficial covers or remixes that are only posted as a tiktok sound
Since childhood, I’ve had a Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer sensory bottle, but I didn’t know what it was called until I saw this video, so I just called it a Christmas Wand.
7:47 bro i swear I was obsessed with dinosaurs for ages when I was like 9 or 10 and had tons of t- shirts, brings back memories of my old obsessions :]
I can’t relate to the ones about losing myself behind a mask. If anything, I mask too _little._ That’s why I’ve been bullied regularly for as long as I can remember. I’m on my 18th year of life, but I still feel like an alien experiencing culture shock. For example, I have a waifu. I have a body pillow of said waifu. I posted selfies of me with said body pillow on social media. Unfortunately, that led to people being disgusted by me and calling me “The Next Chris Chan”. So, the solution would be to mask _more,_ right? But how???
2:28 As soon as I heard that, I remember what show it was from, *wonder over yonder* A show I rewatched as a kid so much that I knew the theme song by heart
that remind me of the head master of the elementary school I wad going to ! she handed to the class papers for middle school and she choosed the special aid class for me without asking me or my mom. ( jokes on her, I ended up in general and I did great ! even got the final exams ! :) )
i used to have a shirt that had a heart emblem of the same texture shown at 5:23 and I would do that all the time until my family said "it's annoying, please stop". that's one of my few memories of before I started masking legitimately anything. most of my memories of what I liked are either because I was masking or no longer existent. and then there's a small handful of memories of things that my family said/hinted was annoying or incorrect one (1) time and I never did it again.
@autistic.mama's clip at 5:30 made me ugly cry. I'm finally beginning to realize just how long I've been masking and just how much of myself I stuff down every day just for a "seat at the grown up table". I'm 41 years old.
okay ive been binging these comps bces ive been feeling bad and ive been feeling bad because i recently had a couple fights with my younger sister now that ive seen a few videos and had a few examples everything lines up and i believe i had a few sensory meltdowns and reacted aggressively both times, making the situation worse. ive tried putting up boundaries for years and stating what i do and dont like to her numerous times but every time it seems to go right in one ear and out the other and she triggers another meltdown. commenting this because i want comfort and some “youll be okay”s
Hi! I've been having sensory meltdowns my whole life and didn't know what it was. As a baby I tried to stop nursing, because my mom would talk non-stop while feeding me and I hated it. Just finding these things out now and it's going to get better. You'll be ok too! Sending good wishes~
WAIT JUST UNKNOWINGLY SAYING WORDS COUNTS AS STIMMING? BRO I JUST KEEP REPEATING THIS ONE PART OF A SONG I LIKE AND START GOING “oyasumii oyasumii” OR HUMMING A ND I DIDNT REALIZE IT WAS A STIM! I ALSO SOMETIMES DO 👉 WHEN I ASK A QUESTION
Clicked the video instantly punched in the gut with feels. Fireflies has been my favorite song literally since I can remember. The beep boops have always been my favorite musical stim. And you're telling me the creator made it that way, because of the same reasons I love it?? God do I love that song so much more now. (3:00) Didn't realize I did this too. I started doing it as soon as I read that lmao. And rubbing my fingers together is my primary stim, so it's funny that was immediately after.
I think my first special interest was fiction books. I never thought about it that way. But I was very obsessive about it. When I read on tests that autistic people don’t like fiction I thought well that’s definitely not me. Buttt I mean I would dress up as the characters and go to midnight book release parties, read the book again and again, find out about the author and track them. I finally got to see Anne Rices house. Also nature, but especially gardening/houseplants, and especially propagation. I still have a couple propagation methods to try (like layering!) but I can’t wait to get into hybridization. My third one is trauma. Once I realized I had PTSD I researched everything about it. The thing is, I just thought every body did that. It’s weird to me that people don’t.
You know, every time I tell someone that I think I have adhd and autism (I got assessed last month and I’m waiting on results) the first thing they say is “but you’re always so still!” And I’m like “dude, first of all, my leg has been going a million miles an hour this whole time, it’s just small enough movements that you don’t notice it, my fingers have been rubbing against each other and I’ve been picking at the skin around my nails, my teeth have been grinding and chomping, I’ve popped all my fingers at least 3 times in 1 hour, and I haven’t looked at the same thing for more than 5 seconds my gaze has been moving around so much. What do you mean I’m so still???”
Heck the scratching phone thinking just reminded me of when I'd get those hologram card things like that, when I was growing up there were spiderman ones that came with cereal and some point, and I'd just love scratching it like that ahah autistic memory unlocked
I feel like my hyper fixations/special interest are so stereotypical 1. Dinosaurs 2. Cats 3. Greek mythology 4. music 5. Stuffed fucking animals😔 6 MOTHS OMG I LOVE THEM (this is my main hyperfixation) And 7. Fucking, Anarchy Yes I study a whole lot on these instead of school😢
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That’s fine!
That’s okay take as long as you need:) we’ll still be here! I hope you get better soon!:)💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️💕❤️
Oh no! I hope you will be okay :(
Health is important and mental health is just as important.
Take as much time as you need, I hope u feel better soon! ♥
The sensory bottle one made me so freaking happy! I love it when I can see people visibly happy
shes fake
SAME!!!!!!! It was so fun to watch it made me do happy
right !? her hapiness is so contagious ! :D
I was like:"she is so sweet, I like it when people still can get happy like a child"... 2 seconds later: this adhd brain is sensoring overload by all her unessecairly noises and body movements....... Ugh I went from happy to annoyed within 2 seconds. I am very sorry everyone
Fake attention seeking
So glad someone else gets the brown noise thing, it’s so soothing
What’s the brown noise thing
It’s the opposite for me lol it feels like it’s taking over my brain :p
@@JunaidWolf3 I think it's white noise that's more intense. Like, white noise is subtle and soothing to most. Brown noise is louder and less subtle to listen too.
It just gave me goosebumps🤢
I was talking to my counselor and we started to talk about white noise and I said I hated it. He was questioning my existence.
I... I am autistic and my special interest is Star Trek. That... That isn't FAIR:( I don't like being CALLED OUT
SAME 😭
@@thatfandomnerd4651 i feel like you're more into it than me, you're literally Bones💀
YES UES YES HES YES YES YES SYAR TREK.
HELLO FELLOW STAR TREJ LOVER I LOVE YOU!!!!
@@jackjackiscool LLAP🖖
@@edwardallenpoe7764 Live long and prosper 🖖
My only autism flex is that my special interest is dog training so to most neurotypical people I just look like a dog trainer so they ask for advice which means I can info dump on them heheheh 😈
Wait I never realized it but for a while I was hyperfixated on dog training, but it kinda ended when my dog passed because now I don't have my smart little baby to work with anymore :( now I info dump on my mom so she can train her beagle who's 5 and was a menace until I started telling my mom how to train her
LUCKY- LMAO
Whenever I’m Finally Able to Talk about My Special Interest ( All Types of Reptiles And Some Animals ) They Get Aggravated or Ignore me ( I Haven’t Been Diagnosed With autism But I’m Almost Fully Sure I Have it )
God this comment is amazing!
LMAO
My autism flex is my insane amount of knowledge on mythology and video game lore
I talked to my therapist a couple weeks ago (after a highly enlightening conversation with my partner) about possibly getting a diagnosis for Autism, especially since it's prevalent in my family.
I got screwed over by the eye contact bit.
Hm... I fake eye contact, I wonder if that might get misconstrued too...
It can. And its stupid on the drs part. Its probably the most masked thing because society makes such a huge deal of how important it is, you learn to at least fake it somehow. It is difficult to try to completely unmask for evaluation, but is almost necessary with a lot of these drs. If you don't have obvious overt symptoms its like they can't tell.
Both people in my family that have been diagnosed will have entire conversations while maintaining eye contact. Eye contact makes me physically uncomfortable but I've been scolded for it so much; plus I took speech for 3 years and now it's just a reflex even though I hate it.
@@natestuthman4999 eye contact doesn't actually make me uncomfortable (i'm autistic, duh) but it does make it harder for me to focus. like i'll start a conversation with eye contact but then at som point i just drift off until boom i realize i'm staring at a wall.
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5:31 Helped me to a massive breakthrough about my bio mom and I's relationship. I've always felt like she never loved the real me, felt like she never really knew me and who I was, only the perfect temperate "girl" she conditioned me to be. Most of all I never really understood how she told me (around the age of 15 too), I was changing into something she didn't like, when at the time I felt like I was discovering myself. I've been masking my entire life, and it started unmasking all the way back then, before I even knew the word for it. My bio mom didn't love "me", she loved the mask that I formed to conform to her standards of "normal". And as soon as I started to unmask, she wanted to change me. It's heart breaking and cathartic because I can finally describe what happened in my own terms, without the hateful rejection she gave me for growing into my own person. I wasn't turning into a monster, I wasn't "turning bad", I was just becoming myself, a person she doesn't love. I'm 20 years old and I finally understand and I finally feel free. I can't thank these creators enough, they've given me the tools to get to this breakthrough and it has changed how I veiw myself and my relationship with my bio mom.
That's sad, friend. I'm sorry.
@@Lillyluvsanime It's more bittersweet for me. I've long since accepted the fact my bio mom and I won't have a healthy relationship, but now I know that I'm not really a bad person for not being "perfect". I'm an imperfect, and specifically in this context, an autistic person and I'm finally coming to terms with this and learning to love myself as I am.
@@YourPenguinFriendMilo yeah. I've been, over the last 4.5 years, discovering my own autism and getting my mom to understand has been difficult but in a different way.
I think the part that makes me sad about your story is that everyone deserves the unconditional love of their parent(s). Sad for you and sad for your mom that she can't see past who she wanted/expected you to be and now has to miss out on who I'm sure is an incredible person.
With my mom, it's mostly just been trying to convince her that I'm not being a hypochondriac or letting my imagination get away from me. She's slowly warmed to the idea that the person she's always known me to be (who has always been pretty openly a weirdo) is an autistic person, and not just "hashtag-quirky, lol".
I had that, I have trouble processing things at the exact time and my mom is bipolar and hated when I struggled with things, she told me she missed when I wasn’t a horrible person, lazy, ignoring her, hurting my brother (my brother had behaviour problems ((he might also be autistic)) he would scream when he was annoyed and my mom would take that to mean I was hitting him. My mom has lost custody of me, my brother, and my sister, she was very abusive. She always said she supported my autism, but I found out later a few things, she told my dad he shouldn’t be allowed to see me because he was autistic, she didn’t vaccinate me incase I got autism, and she even stopped me going to primary school when I was 5 because they said I might be autistic. She got so angry, and I think she also was worried about social workers finding things out (I never went to school, and I also wasn’t allowed outside by myself. I rarely saw anyone. I was 14 when she lost custody, and she wasn’t gonna let me out till I was 16) when I got diagnosed, she’d say things like “my Facebook autism research didn’t say anything about kids doing that, you have no exuse.”
@@LeafBlade1016 Thank you for sharing your story, I'm so sorry for what she did to you. I hope you can heal from what happened, and start looking for help with your autism and your brothers. My heart goes out to you
I’m not autistic as far as I know, even thought I’m maybe 85% sure I am. This community is so heartwarming and I can relate to some of them so much
I wish I had friends who understood me like this.
they aren’t part of the autism community… they are disgusting people who want attention. they self diagnosed themselves
The neurodivergent sound one I love. My sister hates that noise
@@potatorobot literally same, I had to skip past so fast and shake it out while chanting “bad sound” for a good minute there 😅😆
I hate it too, but I hate the feeling of that texture on my skin or nails even more. It makes me shiver and cringe so hard
Am I the only autistic person that loves that noise/texture???
@@andreah9587 LOL definitely not, dw! I've seen more people who like it than not
I feel like I was gonna throw up, but I’m probably not autistic
I love being bouncy and childlike. I love who I am. I make myself happy
That’s so wholesome!😍🥹😄
My dirty mind couldn’t handle that comment💀
I mentioned autism to my therapist one time and she was like “you definitely don’t have autism” and when I asked why she said “first of all, you’re good at making eye contact” and then I didn’t hear anything else she said because I was overthinking my eye contact😀 Also she does not know the full me. We do our sessions over a video call and the second that camera turns on I change completely.
Sheesh, you're not making eye contact, you're making camera contact. Idk how she doesn't realize the very real difference.
I have been diagnosed autistic by suprise last year.. and my eyecontact is basicly non existing and when I try to keep eyecontact my friends always do this thing where they make their eyes big by rising their eyebrows and stare into my soul. Thats how I will look when I keep eyecontact most of the time :D Also I was 15 when I got the diagnosis but mine isnt as bad as my brothers so thats why nobody noticed even tho it affects me all the time..
RIGHT! But my therapist does suspect it, i hate eye contact but through screens its different- like u said but i change when im at home and i become bouncy etc, at school, overwhelmed qiute etc
Yikes. I’m diagnosed autistic and I don’t have much trouble making eye contact (or… looking like I am? Honestly I’m a little confused as to what eye contact actually is), most autistic people don’t have every single autistic trait. Sounds like your therapist doesn’t know much about autism.
WAIT THAT HAPPENED TO ME AS WELL! Goofy ahh therapists
My stepmom and dad sat me down several weeks ago and went through a list of stuff thats associated with Autism and that I might’ve been misdiagnosed with ADHD instead…it was quite spot on and I’ve been doing a lot of research since then.
I, as an autistic teen with ADHD, can tell you that the two are often mixed up/diagnosed together.
@@nathanmahoney6346 Theyre way more similar than a lot of people think!:)
The one where she started to scratch the face of that toy phone, I absolutely HATE that sound. It makes my skin crawl... I haven't been diagnosed with autism or adhd, but clearly I'm neurodivergent. Thank you for these videos. They help me make sense of myself and I don't feel so alone.
omg me too. and just to let you know, add is now an outdated term, add is just adhd inattentive type! :))
@@aaa-pi7ir I edited. Add is still so widely used for being an outdated term from the late 80s...
@@sketchyhealing ig bc it's not really spoken about unless you have adhd (at least where im from, it's not really a thing ive heard people talk about)
@@aaa-pi7ir fair enough 😊
Same with the phone scratching. I immediately muted my volume
OMG THE TIKTOK ABOUT AUTISM DIAGNOSIS IS SO TRUE.
Okay so long story short, my little brother is diagnosed with autism and I’m diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder (i’m afab and that’s important to know that). My mother sometimes says that she feels like i may be autistic and that we should maybe do a diagnosis (and i start to feel like maybe i am) BUT my therapist (who is specialized in neurodivergences) said that she only see G.A.D. at some point.
But the thing is that researches about autism was mainly made on amab people and so it’s hard for an afab person to get a diagnosis because of that and since i’ll get diagnosed for another disorder (that has nothing to do with a neurodivergent disorder) i can’t ask for an autism diagnosis. Anyways, the « short » was useless because i made it long.
my mom tried to get me a diagnosis around a year and a half ago, and most of my family has ADHD, the doctors didnt exactly say i have autism, but they also didnt say i didnt have autism, my mom told me not long ago the doctors said its "not autism, but on the autism spectrum"
take into note im also AFAB (they/it pronouns), and almost always mask whenever near new people, which then i was.
@@swaggydylan thanks for your comment!
I don't know, if this helps, but my brother has been in a similar situation. I have the autism diagnosis, and when we talked about how/why I got it, we realized he has the exact same problems and hypersensitivities - he just copes in a different way than I do. So he went to a psychiatrist himself to be evaluated in the hope that once he's diagnosed he'd be able to claim some protection at work. Things like changing his work place to where it's not as busy and loud as where he currently was. Inexplicably, they concluded he has gad. Once he had this in his medical record, no other doc / therapist would consider submitting him to autism testing.
One time he asked why, and they explained that autism is not a causative diagnosis, but a label diagnosis. Basically this means, you get the autism diagnosis when you have no other diagnosis that fits the majority of your symptoms.
But the good part is: just because you're not diagnosed, doesn't mean you can't get good therapy. Like, if you have specific problems you want to address in therapy, then a good therapist, autism or not, will try to figure out solutions with you.
My brother tried iirc 3 different therapists (one session each, just to see if the chemistry fits), and once he found one who he could communicate well with, he got a lot of the same therapy steps as I did.
For example, social competence training and exposure training, he got a doctor's note that gave him the protection at work he was looking for etc.
Long story short: if you have the option, try a different therapist or psychiatrist. You may not get the diagnosis, but eventually you will find someone who can help you with whatever problem(s) you have.
@@augustaseptemberova5664 thank you so much!!! This helps a lot !
Fellow afab here, diagnosed with GAD as a late-teen, but convinced that I'm probably autistic as well. I was briefly tested and medicated for add/adhd (don't remember which or if they even said), but because I had so many other issues with depression and anxiety, they didn't think the medicine was helping and took me off it. So while right now I can't actually afford a diagnosis anyway, I probably would experience the same thing (which is one reason I don't want to even bother trying)
I'm an adult and was only diagnosed with ASD recently, and these videos are helping me make sense of a lot of mannerisms I've had my whole life. Like the song thing at 3:06, I've always done that and I knew most people don't listen to music that way but I had no idea it could be an autism thing. There's so many odd things I remember doing as a child that I look back on now like "ohhhh I did that because I'm autistic"
Also I'm 100% sure that if I had the exact same personality and mannerisms but was a guy, I would've been diagnosed when I was like 4. There were SO MANY signs. I was diagnosed with tourettes when I was 7, and I don't know why the neuro-pediatrician didn't also recognize obvious autism.
I mean when I was 3 I was obsessed with the screensavers on the family computer (the old windows ones from 1998-2000). Whenever my dad was using the computer I'd ask to see all the screensavers. Because it was a visual stim.
Became an expert at fixing cassette tapes because I would listen to the same song over and over again.
Also, omg, did you ever see a Screensaver called Razzle Dazzle? I've been unable to find anything like it. I would "preview" that bad boy on my desktop computer in the early aughts and just stare at my screen for hours while complex colorful geometric lines would weave into being on a plain black background.
Yes i relate to so many sympthoms of autism and especially some things of that vid but i would prever a diagnosis but its kinda hard rn if i ever get to someone that can get me a diagnosis i would like to talk about the masking/eye contact things ughh
The looping song parts is the reason why i love edit audios comps, i just download that type of songs to listen everytimee
Owl City still is one of my favorite music artists and this makes me love him even more (I have autism too)
saaaame :3
I like my heart is a stereo and I'm also autistic
Saaaammmeee
the little sounds are so skrunkly in the background and I loved listening to them!
1:53 I couldn’t help but smile when this woman got so excited about that water bottle. Realy cute
So true i am just finding some comment about her.
I had convinced myself that I was makung up my sensory issues then I heard the sound at 5:20 and cried.... Wow...
That was like the worst noise ever
it’s like someone assaulted my eardrums 😭😭
RIGHT??
(I mean mine was more skipping past in a panic and then stuck chanting “bad” while shaking it out for a good minute there, but yeah, surprised me how sudden and awful that was. I admit I’m glad it’s not just me who hated it 😅)
My neck got all scrunched up, I could not deal
Theres other comments saying they absolutely loved it. Im in this camp. It makes me cringe so hard and so uncomfortably
This is very important and I have had no one to share this with, so here.
Did you know that in the first Jurassic park the acid spitting dinosaurs are called Dilophosaurus. Also in real life they can not spit acid and it is just something to make the plot more interesting. But the frills have not been proven to have folded up and down or even exist in general. Some scientists say if the dilophosaurus did have frills it would be to scare predators.
@@dayflower_music Ah! Same! No one ever is interested in hearing my facts though.
@@reptile-freak1922 same. what's your favorite dinosaur? mine is apatosaurus
@@dayflower_music I really like The Reaper of Death aka Thanatotheristes. Its basically the older cousin of the T Rex!
I also really like the spinosaurus though. It is one of the T Rexes main predator and I like how there spines like like a shark fin when they swim
@@reptile-freak1922 oo yeah! i love aquatic dinos
I am autistic... And the only one I felt.. Was the girl talking about her mask changing her into a shell of who she really is.
I don't have any special interests, probably bullied out of me by my own father who didn't want my autism to show.
Autism is a spectrum, just because something is a common trait doesnt mean its a trait everyone has. Youre autistic regardless of whether your brain needs special interests or not
I spent quite a few years masking to the point of totally losing myself too. I just want to say I’m sorry that you’ve had to do that, and that it is possible to rebuild the parts of yourself you have lost once you are safe. However you choose to live, I hope you’re able to find happiness in it :)
sorry that ended up sounding super formal haha, it wasn’t on purpose
@@anonymousaardvark1788 no problem you expressed yourself very clear (to me atleast)
I have a few hobbies now.
Anime
Cosplay
Gaming
Sewing
Cooking
I cut contact with my father 25 th December 2018. After he and the Disney-level-evil-stepmother had first mentally abused my older brother; who is closer to the stereotypical autistic person; for him being too autistic of Christmas Eve and for being overweight, they also commented on him not having any friends; he actually hangs out with friends more often than I do; so I defended him, telling then that we aren't like "normal" people because our brain is constructed in a different way; biology has proven this many times for both autism and adhd; the stepmonster interrupted me saying // there is no such study!//
Me //wow, and I thought you were a biologist with multiple PHD's. // While rolling my eyes.. And yeah they went full offence on my mental health.
Multiple hours later when o was finally able to get the fuck outta there I decided to never meet, see or hear them again.
And ever since I have slowly been working on my mental health... There's been ups and downs, but it mainly gets better slowly.
Same I have no sense of self cause yeah.
i didnt know that scratching those holographic crads (for the funny noise) was a neurodivergent thing to do, but it explains why everyone in my family yelled at me to stop when i did it
i am the complete opposite when it comes to that i literaly hate it so much it sends chills down my spine from the noise alone, dont even get me started on the texture
@@swaggydylan that's absolutely understandable, not everyone is the same /gen
My folks were pissed at me because I sought that stimulation from the edges of encyclopedia pages, you know, the ones you ordered whole sets of with the pretty gold edging? Yeah, I scratched those bad boys good. It was soooo satisfying, hearing the sounds, feeling the sensations, making patterns in the pretty gold stuff on the edges.
Sooooo pissed. 😂🙃
As someone who isn't diagnosed with anything but has most if not all of autism symptoms, I like scratching my notebook protectors that have patterns of hexagons with lines on them using my ruler because it makes a funny sound.
I had a little fake computer I've had since I was a kid, and I loved scratching the holographic cover. The texture was amazing. And the sound was 😍
5:20 I replayed this one so many times, how is this sound so fun and pleasant to the ear
For me it’s the opposite bc I hate that texture and the sound makes my skin crawl
yeah everyone in this comments says they hate it but i remember keeping a sticker like that in a box under my bed and i would get a pointed object and pretend to play it like a guitar at night.
fireflies was also my favourite song in middle school!! i'm always so happy when i see people appreciating it :]
It’s a great song!
THE ANXIETY DIAGNOSIS IS SO TRUE!! Unfortunately but is true, my neurologist in my first appointment said I have ADHD but said that she discarded austism because I was talking to her. In my next appointment she said I can have autism after she let me talk about my concerns
I believe in self-diagnosis too...im autistic.
Before I found out I suspected it but my dr at the time said I was a hypochondriac...even tho I never got sick or said I was sick or anything weird & she had been my dr for 10 years.
Idk why she said that but it stopped me.
So it took 10 more years til I found out.
I'm really grateful there's info & tests online.
Maybe some ppl think it doesn't matter if you know or not.
But it's really made a difference in how I treat myself.
Have you read the DSM-5TM? I would suggest seeking out a *different* psychiatrist or psychologist to test you for various disorders, or just autism I guess.
Dont trust those online tests.
4:58 hit way too dang hard
I was diagnosed with ADD but seriously there's no way I'm not autistic. Just because I'm fine with eye contact does not mean I'm not autistic shdksndbsk
Same. Eye contact was presented to me (when I was a child) as a societal necessity. I watched a lot of CSI/NCIS type shows and they said frequently that looking away while talking to someone could mean they're lying, or nervous about what they're saying.
I've got massive anxiety so im always nervous about everything i say, but I also have a huge amount of pressure from this idea of "don't draw attention to yourself, be as 'normal' as possible" that plays on loop in my brain.
For me, I make eye contact to seem like everyone else. To draw less attention to myself, to mimic others and to present proper social cues when they become necessary.
In my case they diagnosed my with anxiety as a child. Despite me being bad an eye contact and not being able to focus. Now after researching and reflecting I realized I had pretty bad symptoms of both autism and ADHD throughout my life. I got none of those two even though occupational therapists suspected autism.
Autism and ADHD seem to be the black sheep among diagnoses. They'd rather diagnose anything else and don't don't realize that anxiety is very common for ND people.
I've never been diagnosed autistic, but either my anxiety disorder presents similarly, including self stimming(i pick at my fingers, and fidget a lot), sensory issues(bright light can border on physical pain, certain noises make me want to stab my ears out with pencils because they feel like nails on a chalkboard to me, and certain foods and food textures make me nauseous), and a distinct ability and subconscious urge to copy someone's tone of voice and, if I can see them, copy their posture, or I am high-functioning autistic, which my therapist did say was possible. The irony? Either way the diagnosis goes, I grew up the child of special education teachers. If I am in fact autistic, they should have been the first to catch it. But my mother, the one who only let her certification lapse a few years ago, is the one the most resistant to the possibility. Despite the fact that she has seen me mid anxiety attack/meltdown, when I am curled in a ball with my hands over my ears and eyes clenched shut because my senses are overwhelmed. Simply because I don't show some of the symptoms. Namely the eye contact one. But given the world we live in, I don't generally have to look people in the eye for long. I don't like to for long periods. I tend to start to blush and get anxious. Unless it's with kids. Them I can look in the eye.
I had two main focuses, and still do, though neither of them have anything to do with my current job- mythology, particularly Egyptian, but other mythologies as well, and.medicine.
You definitely don’t have to struggle a lot with eye contact to be autistic! It’s a common trait, but not every autistic has it. I’m a diagnosed autistic and I don’t struggle much with eye contact, at least not in the way many autistic people describe :)
1:09 I love the happy vibes in this tiktok ^-^
They're so sweet and full of joy 🥰🥰
5:27 AAUUGH THATS MY BAD SOUND MY SKIN IS CRAWLING WHY DID THSI AAAAAA
THAT IS MY BAD SOUND TOO I FEEL ATTACKED
i feel like my skin is melting
I kinda like it, but also, it sounds like a duck
@@SunniLemon i have pet ducks it does not lol
Also, as a kid my hyper fixation was dinosaurs. Like an obsession with dinosaurs. What is it now? STAR TREK. Stop calling me out.
The brown noise person - the only way I can go to sleep at night is if I play pink noise! Brown noise seems very lush too. I might try that one tonight.
i love how happy the person making the spring sensory bottle was :)
0:19 This was such a hilarious episode of Breaking News, but Brennan's desperate "PLEASE!!!!" was adorable and also a whole mood when it comes to wanting to talk about special interests
5:20 NONONO BAD SOUND BAD SOUND
4:29 just bookmarking this in case I ever need to prove a point to my therapist lol
The t-rex arms!! I did that for sooo long and did not know that was autism. I use to get yelled at to put my arms down all the time.
HEY! This is the special interest/hyperfixation comment. If you have anything you want to talk about but can't find anyone to talk to about it, I'm here to listen! I'll do my best to respond too. Don't forget to eat, drink water, and get some rest. Love y'all!
Hi! Thanks for making this comment~
I used to love Star Wars and then the LOTR and then Harry Potter and then anime and then Survivor and then ASL and then The Girl With the Dragon Tattoo, and now I don't have one and feel kinda off balance
aaaah thanks ! my special interests right now is The Three Caballeros, Disney, FNAF and the story of the queens that married henry the 8th ( thanks Six the musical ! ) !
I hyperfixate on dinosaurs and other animals
MANTIS INFODUMP!!!!
my favorite species is the spiked flower mantis. From their first to third molt, they are black, resembling ants, and they move their arms to look like antennae. Once they get to around their fourth molt, they start to have more extreme changes aside from getting bigger. They start to turn shades of purples and pinks, and the spikes become more visible. When they get to their 6th(ish) molt, they begin to lose the spines. Once they are fully grown (7th most for males and 9th for females) they are usually a light shade of pink with multicolored patterns on their wings. Some of them can have purple eyes, and they dance with the wind to mimic flowers drifting in the wind. From what I've seen, theyre a bigger mantis species.
fun fact: they have a special ear on their abdomen almost especially for hearing bats. To avoid getting eaten while they fly, if they hear one they'll spiral downwards until reaching the ground.
Also, I think its dumb that people don't think I'm autistic because i can rattle on and on and on and on about reasons why I'm autistic and then they go "nuh uh!! Youre not a little white boy who hyperfixates on trains and has frequent meltdowns!!" And its SO. INFURIATING.
FNAF, THE OUTSIDERS, SILLY BILLY, FNF, HORROR, MURDER, GARDEN OF BANBAN, POPPY PLAYTIME, THE AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS, THE AMAZING WORLD OF GUMBALL,
(Please help me-)
5:21 I literally did this to a _classmate’s_ shirt in preschool. I’ve also done it with 3D bookmarks.
that fake phone scratching thing was LIFE CHANGING i could not stop rewindinf to rewatch it
Wait..... 3:17, I used to always tell my friends to give me a "squeeze" to squeeze out the sadness or the bad things. And she just hugs me to the tightest possible then I feel much better. Or I stuff myself behind my grandpa's back and let him lean on me bc that's also a really good deep pressure squeeze..... the realisation?
1:45 I LOVE HER VOICE AND HAPPY AUTISM NOISES IVE ALWAYS WANTED TO MAKE
5:21 this one and the brown noise one are so cool. Brown noise is used a lot in ASMR videos which tend to put me to sleep pretty fast.
the way that baby sensory videos have a CHOKEHOLD ON ME THEYRE SO COLORFUL AND BRIGHT AND THE SOUNDS ARE SO HAPPY AASKSJÆ
I literally did the stupid cricket feet thing right as 2:54 played…
5:31… I’ve never been called out in such a beautiful way😭🥺
2:30 Oof imagine your special interest being something that doesn’t work and has killed millions 🤣🤣
The spring sensory bottle tiktok is one of the most wholesome things ever
5:01 this is exactly what happened for me with adhd, just switch out "eye contact" for "good grades"
5:21 , if I could feel that object I would love to use that 24/7 the noise is amazing 🤩
5:54 I relate to this so much! I'm autistic and I also feel that I'm boring (probably due to me masking, but it's really hard to take it off bc I don't want ppl to think I'm being annoying or weird)
Oh yea! The joys of being so stressed or anxious you can’t eat or drink despite you knowing, logically it’s been ten hours you’re probably hungry but the stress doesn’t let the signal get through. So even if you force yourself to eat, it feels like you’re already full and putting more food on top. It suuuuuucks
meanwhile I was watching and suddenly, I remembered a time when I was younger, when I just took a jar of glitter that I had and spread it all over the house...my mom made me clean the whole house lol. well I've had "signs" of autism since I was very young, I don't know how my mom hasn't looked for a specialist for me yet.
5:26 aaaAAAAA I LOVE THAT SOUND I LOVE IT SO MUCH
Idek how to describe my response to the noise but like I'm sitting and I sorta... Wiggled forward?
I rewound it like a dozen times. That was my favorite one.
I literally hate that sound. I can just feel the material under my fingers and I freak the flip out. I feel brutally attacked.
@@Ahahahahstayingalive IKR??
YES I TRIED BROWN NOISES
i got diagnosed today and the fact that i watched these before my diagnosis means a lot ig. happy watching fellow neuro-bees!!
Congrats!!
The one where she scratched the toy and it made the zippy sound made me so happy!
Also, I want that last girls triceratops shirt!
0:44 I feel called out with the T-rex arms! I do that so much and don't even realize it most of the time! 🤣
5:32 I relate to this one so much I’m crying. I used to be so energetic and bouncy and there’s even a video of me somewhere in a restaurant deciding I liked the song playing so much I was just gonna get up and dance in the middle of the aisle. But the world told me that was wrong. The world tells all of us that we can’t be excited and we can’t express our happiness the way we want to. I’m still learning how to take that mask off and just be comfortable showing myself to people because I’ve spent so many years masking in fear of rejection
1:09 i love videos of people excitedly showing off their interests or showing how to do/make something they love so much 💙
6:52 is there anybody that can _PLEASE_ tell me how i can find this version of the song playing in the background!
The song playing in the background during the 7-minute mark one is called Record Player by Daisy The Great and AJR, it can be found on any media AJR uses for their music like youtube and spotify
I dont know much about Daisy The Great, but I certainly know and love Record Player mainly because of my extreme hyperfixation on AJR's music lmao
@@randomgalaxyyy aaaah thank you!! I'd only ever heard the original song (which is just called "the record player song") and didn't know they did an official collab version with AJR! I'd been wondering if it was a cover/version only found on tiktok since there's a lot of artists on there that'll do short or unofficial covers or remixes that are only posted as a tiktok sound
@@Ari_C yeah when a song is used for tiktok so much it can get confused as a variety of things lol but im glad i was able to help :D
@@randomgalaxyyy do you by any chance also know the titlw of the last song playing lmao
1:33 they look so happy!!!!!
Since childhood, I’ve had a Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer sensory bottle, but I didn’t know what it was called until I saw this video, so I just called it a Christmas Wand.
0:20 considering one of my special interests is actually birds, this felt like a direct callout
Brown noise reminds me of heavy wind while camping in the forest, specifically further away from a town or something :)
Very soothing
Holy moly, I never realized how amazing the wonderful world of sensory bottles is until I saw 1:08 and I wanna make one so badly now
7:47 bro i swear I was obsessed with dinosaurs for ages when I was like 9 or 10 and had tons of t- shirts, brings back memories of my old obsessions :]
I love the sensory bottle one, she seems so sweet and delightful to be around, so happy! (Also the bottle thing was really cool i dig it)
I can’t relate to the ones about losing myself behind a mask. If anything, I mask too _little._ That’s why I’ve been bullied regularly for as long as I can remember. I’m on my 18th year of life, but I still feel like an alien experiencing culture shock.
For example, I have a waifu. I have a body pillow of said waifu. I posted selfies of me with said body pillow on social media. Unfortunately, that led to people being disgusted by me and calling me “The Next Chris Chan”. So, the solution would be to mask _more,_ right? But how???
"The world taught me I was too much."
That is a revelation I needed to know about myself.
2:28
As soon as I heard that, I remember what show it was from, *wonder over yonder*
A show I rewatched as a kid so much that I knew the theme song by heart
brown noise makes me so happy, it is both a stim and a soother when overstimulated
Adding baby oil to the sensory bottle would make it like a lava lamp if you don’t like the sound of it shaking :)
2:52 BAHAHA I LITERALLY WAS DOING THE CRICKET FEET AS SHE SAID IT
The sensory bottle was fun because of how happy the person looked I hate glitter because it makes a mess but I love glitter glue
1:57
She/They/He was so happy so it made me happy and now I’m so very happy for the first time in forever:D
Omg these videos are always way too relatable
Adam Young’s music (lead singer of owl city) was ALL I listened to as a little kid and his music made me so so happy :)
5:21 i think nd ppl either despise this sound and it makes them want to keel over or they’ll absolutely love it and likes making that sound
i think the difference is whether or not they have misophonia. i cannot stand that sound it makes me feel assaulted lmfao
I am autistic and there is people who tell me "WHO WHEN YOU ARENT JN SPECIAL ED CLASSES" like excuse me? 😃
@heartsches. Right?!? Like bro we aren't all the same. That's why it's called a spectrum.
that remind me of the head master of the elementary school I wad going to ! she handed to the class papers for middle school and she choosed the special aid class for me without asking me or my mom. ( jokes on her, I ended up in general and I did great ! even got the final exams ! :) )
5:24 omg I LOVED to do this with any 3D affect stuff and it made my brain feel good. Some people don't like it, but I LOVE IT
i used to have a shirt that had a heart emblem of the same texture shown at 5:23 and I would do that all the time until my family said "it's annoying, please stop". that's one of my few memories of before I started masking legitimately anything. most of my memories of what I liked are either because I was masking or no longer existent. and then there's a small handful of memories of things that my family said/hinted was annoying or incorrect one (1) time and I never did it again.
5:15 THATS WHY MY IEP JUST SAYS ANXIETY?!”!?!
(ps i am diagnosed with autism)
5:25 I ABSOLUTELY LOVE THAT SOUND
@autistic.mama's clip at 5:30 made me ugly cry. I'm finally beginning to realize just how long I've been masking and just how much of myself I stuff down every day just for a "seat at the grown up table". I'm 41 years old.
the first tiktok makes me so very happy bcuz Owl City is my special interest!!!!
5:24
I used to have a lunchbox that made that noise and I would make it make that sound every day
2:40 girl be dropping bars 🔥
5:19 I'm autistic myself and I call that my fav ASMR trigger 🤣
5:21
I immediately smiled and happy stimed bc I love this sound
wibble wobble sounds are the best
My hyperfixation is nuclear reactors and the fnaf lore-
same for the fnaf lore ! :D
okay ive been binging these comps bces ive been feeling bad and ive been feeling bad because i recently had a couple fights with my younger sister
now that ive seen a few videos and had a few examples everything lines up and i believe i had a few sensory meltdowns and reacted aggressively both times, making the situation worse. ive tried putting up boundaries for years and stating what i do and dont like to her numerous times but every time it seems to go right in one ear and out the other and she triggers another meltdown.
commenting this because i want comfort and some “youll be okay”s
You’ll get it figured out. Boundaries can be tough.
Hi! I've been having sensory meltdowns my whole life and didn't know what it was. As a baby I tried to stop nursing, because my mom would talk non-stop while feeding me and I hated it. Just finding these things out now and it's going to get better.
You'll be ok too!
Sending good wishes~
5:21
*i am now the happyest little thing out there*
WAIT JUST UNKNOWINGLY SAYING WORDS COUNTS AS STIMMING? BRO I JUST KEEP REPEATING THIS ONE PART OF A SONG I LIKE AND START GOING “oyasumii oyasumii” OR HUMMING A ND I DIDNT REALIZE IT WAS A STIM! I ALSO SOMETIMES DO 👉 WHEN I ASK A QUESTION
Yep, that’s vocal/verbal stimming!
Clicked the video instantly punched in the gut with feels. Fireflies has been my favorite song literally since I can remember. The beep boops have always been my favorite musical stim. And you're telling me the creator made it that way, because of the same reasons I love it?? God do I love that song so much more now.
(3:00) Didn't realize I did this too. I started doing it as soon as I read that lmao. And rubbing my fingers together is my primary stim, so it's funny that was immediately after.
I think my first special interest was fiction books. I never thought about it that way. But I was very obsessive about it. When I read on tests that autistic people don’t like fiction I thought well that’s definitely not me. Buttt I mean I would dress up as the characters and go to midnight book release parties, read the book again and again, find out about the author and track them. I finally got to see Anne Rices house. Also nature, but especially gardening/houseplants, and especially propagation. I still have a couple propagation methods to try (like layering!) but I can’t wait to get into hybridization. My third one is trauma. Once I realized I had PTSD I researched everything about it.
The thing is, I just thought every body did that. It’s weird to me that people don’t.
That special tik tok with the lumineers song made me cry 😭
3:01 YES AHHAH I DIDNT KNOW OTHER PEOPLE DID THIS
You know, every time I tell someone that I think I have adhd and autism (I got assessed last month and I’m waiting on results) the first thing they say is “but you’re always so still!” And I’m like “dude, first of all, my leg has been going a million miles an hour this whole time, it’s just small enough movements that you don’t notice it, my fingers have been rubbing against each other and I’ve been picking at the skin around my nails, my teeth have been grinding and chomping, I’ve popped all my fingers at least 3 times in 1 hour, and I haven’t looked at the same thing for more than 5 seconds my gaze has been moving around so much. What do you mean I’m so still???”
Heck the scratching phone thinking just reminded me of when I'd get those hologram card things like that, when I was growing up there were spiderman ones that came with cereal and some point, and I'd just love scratching it like that ahah autistic memory unlocked
I feel like my hyper fixations/special interest are so stereotypical
1. Dinosaurs
2. Cats
3. Greek mythology
4. music
5. Stuffed fucking animals😔
6 MOTHS OMG I LOVE THEM (this is my main hyperfixation)
And 7. Fucking, Anarchy
Yes I study a whole lot on these instead of school😢
I’m autistic! My special interest is like- the whole animal kingdom 😌
The sound in the second one is _terrifying!_