Remembering when I was taking the online pre assessment things and every time it would say "your friends and family would describe you as" I'd send out like 6 different texts literally just asking people if they would describe me that way and in retrospect. an allistic person would not have needed to do that
I keep saying weird things in my head, and when people are not around, like when I'm completely alone I say them out loud, and I sometimes don't notice things that are right in front of me, only read things half way...idk I haven't gotten an official diagnosis but idk...
About ten minutes in. People always say, "No, you aren't autistic, you're way too good at social stuff." Then they proceed to get livid when I badly mess up a novel situation where I can't find a sufficiently similar set of social data to draw from. My social interactions are like a series of coding scripts running in the back of my head until I hit a glitch or don't have the energy to keep it up. No one likes me when I can't keep it going. It is so draining and no one neurotypical is even willing to acknowledge it. I'll stop here before this is a novel sized rant of run-on sentences.
“Oh my god, they were bullying me” I’m disgusted and sad to say that this is literally what my last 4 years have been. Random flashbacks of all of my failed social interactions and realizing that I was a joke and a source of amusement to others and that they’ve all decided I’m not fun anymore to torture after my brother killed himself.
i hope you have since been feeling better after commenting this because the last line hit like a truck. i've been there myself both with the coping-with-bereavement and the oh-my-god-they-were-mocking-me part and the one thing that i can say is that it gets easier
The "you can unmask around us!" comment infuriates me every time. Like they really think its so harmless and I should be able to switch it off without any worry of what could go wrong. "What's the worst that could happen?" Well I once lost HOUSING as a direct result of unmasking. I unmasked around my landlord (rented a room in a house, not a private apartment at the time) and literally had to sleep outside for a full week because they saw my true self as hateful and unfeeling. I would literally sob to their faces how much I cared about them & would be accused of emotionally manipulating them & used my mask as "proof" that I was only pretending to be a good person until I got what I wanted. They were entirely blind to how I expressed my emotions naturally and sometimes even mistook some things I did to show my love as signs I did not care about them. Unmasking can literally cause lifelong trauma if they dont respond well. Please stop asking us to unmask
I feel this. Everytime I have to contribute to a discussion or give my opinion I have to heavily consider the opinion or contribution that will be most acceptable with a pinch of my own perspective. Because if I say what I’m actually thinking .. I’m a horrible person. I don’t get this back when talking with autistic friends, just they disagree with me and we move on.
the ukelele i died, i tried so hard to be like her and now im like ohhhh shit nvm lol who am i now? the one where they look around and see all their autistic friends around them literally brought tears to my eyes
At 55, I've just realized I am autistic. I'm in the "I'm not doing a single thing I don't like" era and it's so much fun! I never knew "no" was instant dopamine! And, oddly enough, when I'm being ME and not masking, I can actually sustain eye contact longer! I think it's because I want you to know the words coming out of my mouth will either help you or haunt you. Your choice. Now, they are impactful. I feel complete. Autism makes so much more sense than bipolar disorder and fills the space between my ADHD and bipolar disorder. I'm learning about the real me and it's intriguing. I'm recognizing my stims and aversions and I'm telling myself that they're OK. My mother beat and shamed me for biting my nails and bouncing my leg...and rocking. Now, I've given myself permission to do these things because they HELP me. I feel freer. Maybe someday I'll actually be happy.
I remember when I first started researching the things that I'd feel,that where also signs of autism and ADHD. I related to a lot of things and experiences from other people with either ADHD, autism or both, but then I thought I was faking it bc I never actually acted like that around other people and when I found out what masking was it explained a lot. I could say with a little confidence that I'm Autistic and have ADHD but I dont feel like I could ever tell my parents. I appreciate your videos ❤
When I first suspected I'm autistic, I often wondered if what I was seeing on TikTok or Reels or reading somewhere was actually a thing, or if I was making it up to force the belief on myself. But then I started paying attention to myself which I have never done. I recognized certain behaviors and traits that were knee-jerk reactions and there was no way I could think about what to do in the time between the thing and reacting to the thing. I realized that my outgoing, funny personality was a mask that endeared me to others so I went with it. In retrospect, leaving those activities was a relief and as soon as I turned away from the people, my REAL face happened. I always thought I was just unhappy when I wasn't masking. All the drugs I've taken for depression that was just likely overstimulation and decompression! I feel like I've wasted so much of my life masking and not knowing a single true thing about myself. Now, about telling your parents... ask yourself why you don't feel you can tell them. And then tell yourself they accept it or they don't. But you need to be you and you need to be honest to yourself and about yourself while you're young and you can adapt to society on YOUR terms - or they can damn well adapt to YOU! Masking burned a lot of bridges in relationships. I often feel like if I could just explain to these people what was really happening, they would understand. On the other hand, I'm so excited about finding out who I am that I don't care about those relationships and it was probably for the best they ended. Maybe not as they did, but that they were done. All I can do now is present myself as I'm discovering myself and let the chips fall where they may. You owe it to yourself to be the best representation of yourself you can be as you go on this journey. Maybe tell your parents in front of a therapist so you all can discuss what your epiphany means to the family unit and to yourself? I just hate to think that you have to mask in your own home where you should be safe to be you. I hope you can work this out and I hope you continue to be curious and learn who you are while your brain is still developing (I'm assuming you're under 25). Supportive hugs!
3:50 my heart breaks for that poor little girl. Imagine growing up in a household where your own mother, one of the people that’s supposed to look after and care for you, nearly committed a murder-suicide all because of your disability. And on top of that, the only reason she DIDN’T go through with wasn’t because that’s an effed up thing to do, but because she has another child. Meaning if that little girl was an only child, she most likely would’ve been screwed
Anyone ever have that thing where you do something, be it pick a food, outfit, or media to enjoy…and someone goes, “Oh that’s so you!” But you have no idea what they mean, how they see you, what makes you you, and ya just…have a mini self identity crisis?
A few years ago I had the thought pop into my head that a friend was on the spectrum. Then I went through the test and.... well.... I guess that explains why many, many things in my life. PS echolaliea is freaking scary for me. Often when I get hung up on a word or short phrase there's a reason. For example "stairs" ran through my head daily for over a week and then my sister told me she fell down stairs and got pretty hurt. Then recently "bricks" qnd and my mom told me she tripped and fell on uneven bricks. She's 70 with osteoporosis, so extremely lucky she didn't break anything. She spent 3years recovering from a broken femur when she was 65...
I have wondered if people on the spectrum have high sensitivity that includes an intuitive and psychic quality. And if that were addressed, some struggles could turn into skills. I hear other peoples’ thoughts and feel their sort of “flavor” of being in my own experience. It’s really unhelpful. But it allows me to know when/if someone is anxious (even if they’re on meds and not consciously feeling it themselves), mad at me, or other stuff in a fair amount of detail. Thought it was me, but a significant percent of the time it’s not mine!!
Are they sticky thoughts that you associate with anxiety? Do they feel intrusive? Because it kinda sounds a little like the obsession part of OCD. (I have sticky intrusive thoughts that cause anxiety that I often feel compelled to do rituals to ease the anxiety, and I also have delayed interactive and non-interactive echolalia, the anxiety is a big part of how I tell them apart. )
@@minksrule2196you don't need your blood pressure to change. I have to constantly advocate for myself because even medical professionals don't know this.
Tbh, screenwriting in my head is based. I am never in the situation, where I can use them, because I freeze of just straight up forget everything. But it's like I'm socialising without having to interact with other people. Lol 😂😂😂
Wait.... tf..... pots?.... that explains so fucking much. Side note, i love this community cus its like "heres some info! Now do your own research because im just some person on the internet and not you!"
Is this weird. Do you just start writing something and go on and on without going sentence by sentence and then when I'm finally done I realise that I kept going and it's a whole long ass sentence. I just keep adding and, and, and, and I keep going
@@quesophobia ikr so what do you think are you autistic (idk if that's appropriate to ask someone, sort if I offended you) I also constantly eat my skin off my fingers, touch my hair a lot, mumble things to myself, can't stop saying certain words. Like I've always felt different and like a weirdo.
I call my Internal echolalia my "brainradio." I don't get to pick how many channels are on or what's playing. And there are no knobs or buttons for me to have any control over anything. Sometimes I'm like, do you mind? I'm trying to read right now, and it has nothing to do with any of that. On the flip side, it's really handy that it practices a bunch of foreign language phrases that I was learning. Do you know how many years after high school that my brain repeated the German sentence for "I'm 16 years old?" At least a decade, probably longer. But, since I don't choose which words are playing, sometimes I have forgotten what they mean, so I have to go look them up.
Thank you for the tik tok compliations; they are informative and lighthearted and I have binged them in one sitting. Delightful stuff,, Also thank you for your original noise videos, they were very good as well.
Idk if its echoalia but I can relate to some parts of it but maybe it has to do with my autism but I do tend to repeat a word over and over pretty much every damn day from 6 or 7 years and the words would either be me saying ollo to people instead of hello because I ingrained it into my mind from one of my favorite movies megamind and one of other favorite sayings that I currently still do to this day is say "I play robin, tim who Is also robin" it makes no sense but i just straight up say that out of nowhere which is the line from one of my favorite actors/celebrity crushes eli marienthal has said in a batman the mystery of batwoman behind the scenes video, I'll just straight up say I play robin out of nowhere and it cracks me up
Haha it definitely could be! I often find myself imitating my friends and what they say when I think it's funny/cool/weird (in a non rude way) sounding, and sort of sticks as a musical thought in my head, and anytime I hear that associated sound I can't help but make that sound. So maybe since your brain loved that little interaction you thought of it everytime you said hello to someone. It feels like its sort of an inside little pun/ joke I have with myself. and like when people don't get it I still do and and they're like wtf but anyway I relate hard hahaha
@@noiseforautism yeah definitely agree with that, even one of my exes I was with at the time got so used to the I play robin thing so whenever I said I play robin they said tim who is also robin, still so funny how I remember that
4:16 I know it's literally only One (1) part/clip/video but I am so so so so So happy that there's an ODD tiktok, I can't seem to find them Anywhere so when I do see them (it's Very rare I see anything about it :[ ) it's very nice because I have been diagnosed with Adhd and ODD for as long as I can remember but i hardly know Anything about odd cuz i don't ever see stuff; whereas I frequently see things about adhd and have since learned a lot about it I legit paused and cried a little ngl (though I am pretty sure I'm extra emotional rn due to it being That time of month albeit usually I'm not (or not as noticeably))
I used to bake and bring goodies to share with fellow students and various staff at our school. Especially around the holidays and like, the finals and stuff when people were getting maybe stressed out or things were getting serious and I’m not sure if I was only trying to just be a nice person or if I was also maybe trying to placate people with baked goods so they’d be less likely to yell and get mad for literally no reason. :’(
I have autism and pots, its was so bad that i was constantly fainting, now i've gotten to managed to get it to the presyncope. I'm not a doctor but the cardiologist i saw said that electrolytes and salt would help, so drinks with electrolytes and salty snacks are the best combo for me! sea salt veggie straws might be good if you don't like lots of flavor.
Me taking all the online assessments and hitting 75 or above for definite autistic spectrum then talking to my friends and them going " we thought you knew"😅
I scored 191 on the raads-r today and the questions were vague and frustrating. Also, my new therapist who's agreed to give me an evaluation after three sessions, has told me that before we even begin the evaluation, she thinks its just ADHD + anxiety. However, the source she sent me on living with adhd had a symptom checker that said i should get evaluated for autism as well. 🤔 I sure hope she isn't so sire of herself she doesnt honestly consider it. I also suspect she may try to discourage an official diagmosis
*"Mr. Clean will come restrain you."* I know where this is heading with me, and I can just feel the social situations my echolalia will get me into trouble in with this one f***ing phrase.
The woman who went to couple's therapy after realising she was autistic and her partner nuerotypical is very good to be acknowledging when she was in the wrong and her partner was being patient. Tbh I'm very much the same, and even though I am stubborn and struggle to understand things/verbally acknowledge the efforts of others to an acceptable degree, I know I would be disgusted in myself if I did not apologise whenever I am wrong. There's something bizarrely powerful in the rigidity of the autistic mind that clings to an idea of justice and morals, to the point of using them even against ourselves when we realise we have been unfair or incorrect in any way, shape or form.
I stopped meeting people , listening to music , watching movies , being updated with any news . The monologue disappears , the moment I get back to any of it , it starts again.
The one about being tested for autism finally made me remember being tested as a child. I was diagnosed, but it was kept secret from me. I remember being asked infuriating questions like that and not even understanding why. It pissed me off so much. I had a meltdown, and that's probably why I was diagnosed.
That thing about the internal monologues thing is absolutely nuts. What do people listen to if they don’t have an entire stream of information going on in their head? Is it just quiet? That sounds terrible. The analogy I’ve come up with to describe what my brain feels like on a day to day basis is a huge cavernous room completely full of filing cabinets (complete with information) constantly experiencing a Category 4 hurricane, and I’m in the middle grabbing random bits of paper as they fly past.
6:23 I was told, that it's rude to tell people, when I think that they're autistic. Or generally that you're not supposed to tell people stuff about themselves, they hadn't had the chance to discover on their own. But I am very glad that a person once asked, if I'm autistic, because otherwise I probably wouldn't have researched it. What do you think? Would you want to be told, or not?/genq
I think it really depends on the person and your relationship to them. I can see some people taking offense because of the stigma that's attached, but others may have always wondered why they've been called weird their whole lives, but would have never thought they could be autistic. Maybe a good way to investigate it would be if the person in question brings up stories from their life in which something happened and they didn't understand why they were treated a certain way. And maybe still don't, but it's something a neurotypical person would. You could then give them insight or provide an example of something similar to what happened to you (if you're autistic) or someone you know who is. Basically, I think if they're repeatedly bringing this stuff up, then you might say something like "Have you ever considered you could have autism or something along those lines?" I had a stranger once ask if I had OCD because I was adjusting products to face correctly as I walked along with her as we were talking. It wasn't something I had to necessarily do and while I have many of those traits, it was really so I would have something to do when there were gaps in the conversation because I am awkward. I wasn't upset to be asked because I used to wonder if I did have it and did some research. She also knew someone that had it. But I low-key wish now that she had asked if I had ADHD or autism because I could've gone down that rabbit hole a lot sooner. XDDD
You won't believe how many times i'm just sitting there with a friend eating and I'm like "i hate spicy food, but you know what's worse, having a supersonic molten stream copper going through your body, that's a HEAT shell, it has other variants, use cases...."
8:21 . . . Well, now I need to look up information on POTS, wtf. I always thought fainting was one of the big symptoms of that condition, but only 15% of people with the condition faint? I get dizzy spells all the time, but never considered something like POTS because I’ve never fainted. I even went to the doctors about it a few years ago, they just took my blood pressure and did some blood tests and said I was fine 🤷♀️
This Echolailia thing sounds like something that I go through. Although I suspect that I have OCD & ADHD, rather than Autism. THAT LAST ONE ABOUT MONOLOGUES HIT SO HARD- Although my Monologues are way more messy. And involve other topics, rather than just... Me.
5:36 If it’s just anxiety, why does it always return but worse? Like even if goes away (in holidays), why does it always, without exception, come back when I started going to school again? When I start going to work again. It’s as if society INEVITABLY causes anxiety in me while it is only something that happens a few times in the lifetime of most other people (if at all). It’s as if there’s something else besides just anxiety but I can’t think of anything 🤔
Its kinda ironic these videos are about autistic people, but they put text and voice and music simultaneously in videos that may sometimes last less than 30 seconds. I have to pause every single one 😅 But yeah, can relate to some.
As an undiagnosed AuDHDer I'd like to thank you for this compilation but also have a very big request. Could you even out loudness levels between the clips? It's really irritating my ears when in one meme someone speaks very quietly and the next starts with a very loud song. Thank you! ^^
With the questions that involve othet people as part of it, I've learned to not include my fiance as other people because he gets to be an exception to everything cause he's a comfort person. It is extremely rare that I need isolation from him.
Im not diagnosed, and im highly just interested in psychology and sorts. I've just been looking more into things like people on the spectrum, and I've noticed *many* of them had resonated with me, and ive been questioning myself, and have been more self aware about my behavior ever since then, and I've been looking more into it out of curiosity, closure, a yearning for knowledge, and to understand people on the spectrum more, yanno? Out of respect. And, looking more into it, it genuinely feels nice to be known, or well- i feel very uncomfortable with saying i am autistic cause i really think i should seek a professional, and in time i will, but for now, i just know im potentially (high evidence of it) on the spectrum. I just wanted to say that this video honestly made me really happy cause of how much these tiktoks are relateble, i feel tons of closure that the things i go through are worded and expressed in these videos. With lots of love! ❤ have a nice day❤❤ 🩷💗❤💓💖❤💋
10:55 Holy crap... There will be times when this specific line from Megamind replays over and over and over again in my head for several minutes at a time and I can't get it to stop. Is that what what is???
I have actually looked into pots before, my friend with a pots diagnosis told me and I do have most symptoms. I just haven’t had a doctor appointment so I can’t ask about it.
The POTS one...whelp, I'm going to have to look into that. Then the video immediately after that, the "I don't unmask because I get in trouble. Every time." Yup. As for the surrounded by autistic friends portion. That looks so nice. I would settle for having one friend. I'm the friend who suddenly just gets ghosted by the others with no explanation and has found it easier and less confusing over the years to have no friends.
I was told this is a type of tinnitus but one of these made me think is this a weird type of echolalia… I have something called musical ear/musical hallucination where when I hear certain frequencies my brain fills in the blanks and creates music to go along with it lol. So I think I hear music all the time until I realize it’s been going forever. Anyone else have this?
i think it is a mixture of repetition and filling in blanks, like, there is a brain phanomen where you hear some one talking, but cant hear the words, and your brain will make up words.
3:37 Is me now. My friend has been calling me autistic so I decided to take the RAADS and was way over the line. Currently reading through the book. I want to apologize to everyone I've ever interacted with now.
I was kidnapped when I was a teen and had to get away myself and have basically been on my own since navigating life on my own. So I am very high functioning I had to be. I didn't know that I was autistic because nobody ever told me about it. But now I understand a whole lot like why I need fans all through my house. Why I listen to multiple things at once while doing something else all at the same time. Why I am smarter than most the population lol😂 sorry to offend. The constant songs in my head out of nowhere. And just me basically not fitting in ever anywhere. People really treat us bad and I really can't understand why. It doesn't make us bad people infact I think some of us are far better people than most people who do not have it. They just can't believe that because they think they are somehow superior to us because we are different than them. But since when does being different make you lessor? 🤔 I have always seen that it actually makes you more. In my opinion the world would suck without us.
Well a whole lot of this resonates but I kinda expected that. Now if I could understand why people are treating me soo badly that would help. Because it's like the entire population hates me.
it's really difficult to navigate! the world is very ableist and many people have internalized that. they don't make space for people who don't fit the norm, but I hope that one day for all of us that changes!
@@noiseforautism I really hope that too because my children are also autistic. So seeing how I am treated as well as how they are already does nor make me feel very good about how much worse it will get the older they get. For me it seems it only gets worse. And I am judged as a parent of a different child but the fact I am also different is not taken into consideration. I honestly feel like people want us to die. Just not exist at all. And it breaks my heart that so many people in this world are so full of hate and the belief that they are somehow better than others because they fit the norm of neurotypical.
1:03 idk I'm a firm believer that leonardo di caprio did a good job in what's eating gilbert grape, maybe the way he held his face was a little over dramatic but other then that I think it's accurate
Arnie wasn't even meant to be autistic. They never say what his disability was but at one point Gilbert says the doctors told them they don't expect Arnie to live to the age of 10 when he was born, which isn't something they'd say if he was diagnosed with autism, also you can't be diagnosed with autism at birth.
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Remembering when I was taking the online pre assessment things and every time it would say "your friends and family would describe you as" I'd send out like 6 different texts literally just asking people if they would describe me that way and in retrospect. an allistic person would not have needed to do that
I keep saying weird things in my head, and when people are not around, like when I'm completely alone I say them out loud, and I sometimes don't notice things that are right in front of me, only read things half way...idk I haven't gotten an official diagnosis but idk...
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That's so crazy you say that haha! I've done that same thing for sure when I was a lot younger and more deeply masked.
My first thought was to do that, but then I thought, "they won't just answer & then leave me alone". So, I didn't. 🤷
@@lauraneuhold92same I just picked what I hoped they’d say.
About ten minutes in. People always say, "No, you aren't autistic, you're way too good at social stuff." Then they proceed to get livid when I badly mess up a novel situation where I can't find a sufficiently similar set of social data to draw from. My social interactions are like a series of coding scripts running in the back of my head until I hit a glitch or don't have the energy to keep it up. No one likes me when I can't keep it going. It is so draining and no one neurotypical is even willing to acknowledge it. I'll stop here before this is a novel sized rant of run-on sentences.
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“Oh my god, they were bullying me”
I’m disgusted and sad to say that this is literally what my last 4 years have been. Random flashbacks of all of my failed social interactions and realizing that I was a joke and a source of amusement to others and that they’ve all decided I’m not fun anymore to torture after my brother killed himself.
i am so sorry, you don't deserve this! may your brother rest in peace ❤ you are worthy and enough!
@@sunnydaysarecoming it’s very kind of you to say such things - I’m not often on the receiving end of such support so thank you I appreciate it.
I’m sorry about your brother and how people treat you, hope you are doing well.
i hope you have since been feeling better after commenting this because the last line hit like a truck. i've been there myself both with the coping-with-bereavement and the oh-my-god-they-were-mocking-me part and the one thing that i can say is that it gets easier
The "you can unmask around us!" comment infuriates me every time. Like they really think its so harmless and I should be able to switch it off without any worry of what could go wrong.
"What's the worst that could happen?" Well I once lost HOUSING as a direct result of unmasking. I unmasked around my landlord (rented a room in a house, not a private apartment at the time) and literally had to sleep outside for a full week because they saw my true self as hateful and unfeeling. I would literally sob to their faces how much I cared about them & would be accused of emotionally manipulating them & used my mask as "proof" that I was only pretending to be a good person until I got what I wanted. They were entirely blind to how I expressed my emotions naturally and sometimes even mistook some things I did to show my love as signs I did not care about them.
Unmasking can literally cause lifelong trauma if they dont respond well. Please stop asking us to unmask
Wtf did you do or tell?
I feel this. Everytime I have to contribute to a discussion or give my opinion I have to heavily consider the opinion or contribution that will be most acceptable with a pinch of my own perspective.
Because if I say what I’m actually thinking .. I’m a horrible person. I don’t get this back when talking with autistic friends, just they disagree with me and we move on.
THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO DON'T HAVE A CONSTANT STREAM OF WORDS IN THEIR HEAD???
Some people only have words?!?!
I have very little in my head most of the time. I have moments of constant streaming thoughts but most of the time it’s just static 😂😂😂
I kinda want that 😭
@@Fallinghorizons_Eweni have both, but when i try to visualise something, a bunch of other things pop up.
the ukelele i died, i tried so hard to be like her and now im like ohhhh shit nvm lol who am i now?
the one where they look around and see all their autistic friends around them literally brought tears to my eyes
At 55, I've just realized I am autistic. I'm in the "I'm not doing a single thing I don't like" era and it's so much fun! I never knew "no" was instant dopamine! And, oddly enough, when I'm being ME and not masking, I can actually sustain eye contact longer! I think it's because I want you to know the words coming out of my mouth will either help you or haunt you. Your choice. Now, they are impactful. I feel complete. Autism makes so much more sense than bipolar disorder and fills the space between my ADHD and bipolar disorder. I'm learning about the real me and it's intriguing. I'm recognizing my stims and aversions and I'm telling myself that they're OK. My mother beat and shamed me for biting my nails and bouncing my leg...and rocking. Now, I've given myself permission to do these things because they HELP me. I feel freer. Maybe someday I'll actually be happy.
I remember when I first started researching the things that I'd feel,that where also signs of autism and ADHD. I related to a lot of things and experiences from other people with either ADHD, autism or both, but then I thought I was faking it bc I never actually acted like that around other people and when I found out what masking was it explained a lot. I could say with a little confidence that I'm Autistic and have ADHD but I dont feel like I could ever tell my parents.
I appreciate your videos ❤
When I first suspected I'm autistic, I often wondered if what I was seeing on TikTok or Reels or reading somewhere was actually a thing, or if I was making it up to force the belief on myself. But then I started paying attention to myself which I have never done. I recognized certain behaviors and traits that were knee-jerk reactions and there was no way I could think about what to do in the time between the thing and reacting to the thing. I realized that my outgoing, funny personality was a mask that endeared me to others so I went with it. In retrospect, leaving those activities was a relief and as soon as I turned away from the people, my REAL face happened. I always thought I was just unhappy when I wasn't masking. All the drugs I've taken for depression that was just likely overstimulation and decompression! I feel like I've wasted so much of my life masking and not knowing a single true thing about myself.
Now, about telling your parents... ask yourself why you don't feel you can tell them. And then tell yourself they accept it or they don't. But you need to be you and you need to be honest to yourself and about yourself while you're young and you can adapt to society on YOUR terms - or they can damn well adapt to YOU! Masking burned a lot of bridges in relationships. I often feel like if I could just explain to these people what was really happening, they would understand. On the other hand, I'm so excited about finding out who I am that I don't care about those relationships and it was probably for the best they ended. Maybe not as they did, but that they were done. All I can do now is present myself as I'm discovering myself and let the chips fall where they may. You owe it to yourself to be the best representation of yourself you can be as you go on this journey. Maybe tell your parents in front of a therapist so you all can discuss what your epiphany means to the family unit and to yourself? I just hate to think that you have to mask in your own home where you should be safe to be you. I hope you can work this out and I hope you continue to be curious and learn who you are while your brain is still developing (I'm assuming you're under 25). Supportive hugs!
youre not alone.
3:50 my heart breaks for that poor little girl. Imagine growing up in a household where your own mother, one of the people that’s supposed to look after and care for you, nearly committed a murder-suicide all because of your disability. And on top of that, the only reason she DIDN’T go through with wasn’t because that’s an effed up thing to do, but because she has another child. Meaning if that little girl was an only child, she most likely would’ve been screwed
Anyone ever have that thing where you do something, be it pick a food, outfit, or media to enjoy…and someone goes, “Oh that’s so you!” But you have no idea what they mean, how they see you, what makes you you, and ya just…have a mini self identity crisis?
The AuDHD anxiety thing. I’m gonna throw a table, forget chairs.
A few years ago I had the thought pop into my head that a friend was on the spectrum. Then I went through the test and.... well.... I guess that explains why many, many things in my life.
PS echolaliea is freaking scary for me. Often when I get hung up on a word or short phrase there's a reason. For example "stairs" ran through my head daily for over a week and then my sister told me she fell down stairs and got pretty hurt. Then recently "bricks" qnd and my mom told me she tripped and fell on uneven bricks. She's 70 with osteoporosis, so extremely lucky she didn't break anything. She spent 3years recovering from a broken femur when she was 65...
I have wondered if people on the spectrum have high sensitivity that includes an intuitive and psychic quality. And if that were addressed, some struggles could turn into skills. I hear other peoples’ thoughts and feel their sort of “flavor” of being in my own experience. It’s really unhelpful. But it allows me to know when/if someone is anxious (even if they’re on meds and not consciously feeling it themselves), mad at me, or other stuff in a fair amount of detail. Thought it was me, but a significant percent of the time it’s not mine!!
Are they sticky thoughts that you associate with anxiety? Do they feel intrusive? Because it kinda sounds a little like the obsession part of OCD. (I have sticky intrusive thoughts that cause anxiety that I often feel compelled to do rituals to ease the anxiety, and I also have delayed interactive and non-interactive echolalia, the anxiety is a big part of how I tell them apart. )
yeah I’ve felt drunk when around drunk people, having not had a drop myself. And shared other people’s headaches or stress or anxiety. It sucks.
The title 💀💀💀💀
8:15 wait you mean every time I've convinced myself POTS wasn't worth looking into because I don't pass out is a complete misconception???
SAME. I already Know I have EDS so-
I don't know if I should look into pots because my blood pressure is always normal when I check it, even when I'm dizzy
that's what the internet is for!
@@minksrule2196you don't need your blood pressure to change. I have to constantly advocate for myself because even medical professionals don't know this.
As someone with POTS, yes. I have passed out a few times, but I know that not everyone does. I recommend looking into it!
Écholalia is when our unconscious wanna tell us something ohhhhhhh ghost
Idk I just make a lot of weird facial expressions and can't stop, Idk if I'm autistic or not though...
I'm pretty sure that's ectolalia
@@CSpottsGaming I think this is the funniest thing I have read this year. This is some of the highest use of language I have ever seen, in my opunion.
@@kuibeiguahua lmao thank you, I'm glad you enjoyed it.
This was a really lovely message to wake up to and I hope you have/are having a great day!
WOW, that AS ad is giving serious 80's (UK) public information vibes. Reminds me of the spirit of dark water
I wonder what the AS ad announcer is up to. Does he know of the atrocities he committed? Does he feel shame?
Institutionalized hatred in the guise of wisdom is taking its toll.
Absolutely not
the one with the rainbow strap towards the end on their hike, oh my god I felt that one so hard
I want to be Autism from the "autismshutthef*vkup" fearmonger commercial.
Tbh, screenwriting in my head is based. I am never in the situation, where I can use them, because I freeze of just straight up forget everything. But it's like I'm socialising without having to interact with other people. Lol 😂😂😂
Wait.... tf..... pots?.... that explains so fucking much.
Side note, i love this community cus its like "heres some info! Now do your own research because im just some person on the internet and not you!"
Is this weird. Do you just start writing something and go on and on without going sentence by sentence and then when I'm finally done I realise that I kept going and it's a whole long ass sentence. I just keep adding and, and, and, and I keep going
@@JF59122 commas are my favorite friend, period? We dont know her
And dont even start on semicolons!
@@quesophobia ikr so what do you think are you autistic (idk if that's appropriate to ask someone, sort if I offended you) I also constantly eat my skin off my fingers, touch my hair a lot, mumble things to myself, can't stop saying certain words. Like I've always felt different and like a weirdo.
"I ain't doing a single thing I don't like." is the most empowering phrase I've ever heard.
I love the guy in the starting ♥️🤣🤣
The next to last video what that lady walking I can relate to personally.
As a newly diagnosed autistic these were to relatable. Lol
I call my Internal echolalia my "brainradio." I don't get to pick how many channels are on or what's playing. And there are no knobs or buttons for me to have any control over anything.
Sometimes I'm like, do you mind? I'm trying to read right now, and it has nothing to do with any of that.
On the flip side, it's really handy that it practices a bunch of foreign language phrases that I was learning. Do you know how many years after high school that my brain repeated the German sentence for "I'm 16 years old?" At least a decade, probably longer. But, since I don't choose which words are playing, sometimes I have forgotten what they mean, so I have to go look them up.
Thank you for the tik tok compliations; they are informative and lighthearted and I have binged them in one sitting. Delightful stuff,, Also thank you for your original noise videos, they were very good as well.
Idk if its echoalia but I can relate to some parts of it but maybe it has to do with my autism but I do tend to repeat a word over and over pretty much every damn day from 6 or 7 years and the words would either be me saying ollo to people instead of hello because I ingrained it into my mind from one of my favorite movies megamind and one of other favorite sayings that I currently still do to this day is say "I play robin, tim who Is also robin" it makes no sense but i just straight up say that out of nowhere which is the line from one of my favorite actors/celebrity crushes eli marienthal has said in a batman the mystery of batwoman behind the scenes video, I'll just straight up say I play robin out of nowhere and it cracks me up
Haha it definitely could be! I often find myself imitating my friends and what they say when I think it's funny/cool/weird (in a non rude way) sounding, and sort of sticks as a musical thought in my head, and anytime I hear that associated sound I can't help but make that sound. So maybe since your brain loved that little interaction you thought of it everytime you said hello to someone. It feels like its sort of an inside little pun/ joke I have with myself. and like when people don't get it I still do and and they're like wtf but anyway I relate hard hahaha
@@noiseforautism yeah definitely agree with that, even one of my exes I was with at the time got so used to the I play robin thing so whenever I said I play robin they said tim who is also robin, still so funny how I remember that
that is 110% echolalia and i want you to know i also say "hollo/ollo" from mega mind from time to time :)
@@Star_Rattler that's so awesome to know I'm not the only one 😂
4:16 I know it's literally only One (1) part/clip/video but I am so so so so So happy that there's an ODD tiktok, I can't seem to find them Anywhere so when I do see them (it's Very rare I see anything about it :[ ) it's very nice because I have been diagnosed with Adhd and ODD for as long as I can remember but i hardly know Anything about odd cuz i don't ever see stuff; whereas I frequently see things about adhd and have since learned a lot about it
I legit paused and cried a little ngl (though I am pretty sure I'm extra emotional rn due to it being That time of month albeit usually I'm not (or not as noticeably))
I used to bake and bring goodies to share with fellow students and various staff at our school. Especially around the holidays and like, the finals and stuff when people were getting maybe stressed out or things were getting serious and I’m not sure if I was only trying to just be a nice person or if I was also maybe trying to placate people with baked goods so they’d be less likely to yell and get mad for literally no reason. :’(
I have autism and pots, its was so bad that i was constantly fainting, now i've gotten to managed to get it to the presyncope. I'm not a doctor but the cardiologist i saw said that electrolytes and salt would help, so drinks with electrolytes and salty snacks are the best combo for me! sea salt veggie straws might be good if you don't like lots of flavor.
Dude what, these resonate with me so much wth
3:08 That...That is terrifyingly accurate
i dont think its pots but i have a big feeling getting lightheaded or shaky or both every now and then is not a normal thing
Me taking all the online assessments and hitting 75 or above for definite autistic spectrum then talking to my friends and them going " we thought you knew"😅
I scored 191 on the raads-r today and the questions were vague and frustrating. Also, my new therapist who's agreed to give me an evaluation after three sessions, has told me that before we even begin the evaluation, she thinks its just ADHD + anxiety. However, the source she sent me on living with adhd had a symptom checker that said i should get evaluated for autism as well. 🤔 I sure hope she isn't so sire of herself she doesnt honestly consider it. I also suspect she may try to discourage an official diagmosis
“Please ask me to clarify” is so funny to me for some reason
*"Mr. Clean will come restrain you."*
I know where this is heading with me, and I can just feel the social situations my echolalia will get me into trouble in with this one f***ing phrase.
The woman who went to couple's therapy after realising she was autistic and her partner nuerotypical is very good to be acknowledging when she was in the wrong and her partner was being patient. Tbh I'm very much the same, and even though I am stubborn and struggle to understand things/verbally acknowledge the efforts of others to an acceptable degree, I know I would be disgusted in myself if I did not apologise whenever I am wrong. There's something bizarrely powerful in the rigidity of the autistic mind that clings to an idea of justice and morals, to the point of using them even against ourselves when we realise we have been unfair or incorrect in any way, shape or form.
I stopped meeting people , listening to music , watching movies , being updated with any news . The monologue disappears , the moment I get back to any of it , it starts again.
There are people with no internal monologue 😳🤯 my inner voices literally talk over eachother and compete
The one about being tested for autism finally made me remember being tested as a child. I was diagnosed, but it was kept secret from me. I remember being asked infuriating questions like that and not even understanding why. It pissed me off so much. I had a meltdown, and that's probably why I was diagnosed.
That thing about the internal monologues thing is absolutely nuts. What do people listen to if they don’t have an entire stream of information going on in their head? Is it just quiet? That sounds terrible.
The analogy I’ve come up with to describe what my brain feels like on a day to day basis is a huge cavernous room completely full of filing cabinets (complete with information) constantly experiencing a Category 4 hurricane, and I’m in the middle grabbing random bits of paper as they fly past.
Congrats on the 968 subs. Only 2 weeks ago you were at 500. 🎉 It's almost at 1k!
6:23 I was told, that it's rude to tell people, when I think that they're autistic. Or generally that you're not supposed to tell people stuff about themselves, they hadn't had the chance to discover on their own. But I am very glad that a person once asked, if I'm autistic, because otherwise I probably wouldn't have researched it. What do you think? Would you want to be told, or not?/genq
I think it really depends on the person and your relationship to them. I can see some people taking offense because of the stigma that's attached, but others may have always wondered why they've been called weird their whole lives, but would have never thought they could be autistic. Maybe a good way to investigate it would be if the person in question brings up stories from their life in which something happened and they didn't understand why they were treated a certain way. And maybe still don't, but it's something a neurotypical person would. You could then give them insight or provide an example of something similar to what happened to you (if you're autistic) or someone you know who is. Basically, I think if they're repeatedly bringing this stuff up, then you might say something like "Have you ever considered you could have autism or something along those lines?"
I had a stranger once ask if I had OCD because I was adjusting products to face correctly as I walked along with her as we were talking. It wasn't something I had to necessarily do and while I have many of those traits, it was really so I would have something to do when there were gaps in the conversation because I am awkward. I wasn't upset to be asked because I used to wonder if I did have it and did some research. She also knew someone that had it. But I low-key wish now that she had asked if I had ADHD or autism because I could've gone down that rabbit hole a lot sooner. XDDD
The Settings button. YEEEEEEEEEES. Excuse me, requires my immediate attention!
I have never related to anything so hard in my entire life. Can't stop laugh-crying. And over-sharing.
2:58 Is SO real. We just love blurting out random facts and information. I don’t even know why it’s just good 😭
You won't believe how many times i'm just sitting there with a friend eating and I'm like "i hate spicy food, but you know what's worse, having a supersonic molten stream copper going through your body, that's a HEAT shell, it has other variants, use cases...."
When I was a teenager I got diagnosed with Postural Hypertension which is a category of POTS. How does everything in my life lead back to autism?!
8:21 . . . Well, now I need to look up information on POTS, wtf. I always thought fainting was one of the big symptoms of that condition, but only 15% of people with the condition faint? I get dizzy spells all the time, but never considered something like POTS because I’ve never fainted. I even went to the doctors about it a few years ago, they just took my blood pressure and did some blood tests and said I was fine 🤷♀️
We are everywhere ❤ practice self compassion 😎
This Echolailia thing sounds like something that I go through.
Although I suspect that I have OCD & ADHD, rather than Autism.
THAT LAST ONE ABOUT MONOLOGUES HIT SO HARD-
Although my Monologues are way more messy.
And involve other topics, rather than just... Me.
5:36 If it’s just anxiety, why does it always return but worse? Like even if goes away (in holidays), why does it always, without exception, come back when I started going to school again? When I start going to work again. It’s as if society INEVITABLY causes anxiety in me while it is only something that happens a few times in the lifetime of most other people (if at all). It’s as if there’s something else besides just anxiety but I can’t think of anything 🤔
I need my parents to watch this so they can actually understand me better
The only reason I know is my boyfriend who took psych classes told me. Now that I know, the signs are everywhere. He was right.
This channel has become my new obsession. Subbed!
Its kinda ironic these videos are about autistic people, but they put text and voice and music simultaneously in videos that may sometimes last less than 30 seconds. I have to pause every single one 😅
But yeah, can relate to some.
Lol u couldn't stop laughing on the world class supervillains one 😂😂😂
1:08 TOO TRUE THE “Anyways” IS SOOOO TRUE
As an undiagnosed AuDHDer I'd like to thank you for this compilation but also have a very big request.
Could you even out loudness levels between the clips? It's really irritating my ears when in one meme someone speaks very quietly and the next starts with a very loud song. Thank you! ^^
omg no Leo was amazing in that movie! like the ONLY representation that didn’t bother me
I still remember that one time that my doctor recommended autism speaks for me to my mom 💀💀💀
3:30 THIS SPEAKS TO MY SOUL!!!!!
THE TITLE BESTIE
Me everytime autism speaks shows up👁👄👁😟
Fr, especially that second one where the mom just openly admitted to wanting to kill herself and her child because her daughter had autism
With the questions that involve othet people as part of it, I've learned to not include my fiance as other people because he gets to be an exception to everything cause he's a comfort person. It is extremely rare that I need isolation from him.
3:45 that is just sad 😢. The girl was also right behind her,all children deserve parents but not all parents deserve children.
Im not diagnosed, and im highly just interested in psychology and sorts. I've just been looking more into things like people on the spectrum, and I've noticed *many* of them had resonated with me, and ive been questioning myself, and have been more self aware about my behavior ever since then, and I've been looking more into it out of curiosity, closure, a yearning for knowledge, and to understand people on the spectrum more, yanno? Out of respect.
And, looking more into it, it genuinely feels nice to be known, or well- i feel very uncomfortable with saying i am autistic cause i really think i should seek a professional, and in time i will, but for now, i just know im potentially (high evidence of it) on the spectrum.
I just wanted to say that this video honestly made me really happy cause of how much these tiktoks are relateble, i feel tons of closure that the things i go through are worded and expressed in these videos.
With lots of love! ❤ have a nice day❤❤ 🩷💗❤💓💖❤💋
Echola-li - whooo! 🎶
It's been a long day.
10:55 Holy crap... There will be times when this specific line from Megamind replays over and over and over again in my head for several minutes at a time and I can't get it to stop. Is that what what is???
*what that
Yes yes it is! I sometimes get a single phrase from a film stuck in my mind. Ot even a song
Omigosh I'm so glad I'm not the only one! 😭😭
I have actually looked into pots before, my friend with a pots diagnosis told me and I do have most symptoms. I just haven’t had a doctor appointment so I can’t ask about it.
The POTS one...whelp, I'm going to have to look into that. Then the video immediately after that, the "I don't unmask because I get in trouble. Every time." Yup.
As for the surrounded by autistic friends portion. That looks so nice. I would settle for having one friend. I'm the friend who suddenly just gets ghosted by the others with no explanation and has found it easier and less confusing over the years to have no friends.
if I unmask I'd be naked. Never liked the feeling of underwear - they're a necessary evil.
holy shit this was the best autism tiktok comp yet what the HELL /pos
16:20 i came to the conclusion that this is some sort of processing emotions and making sense of social interactions. i have the very same thing.
2:22 omg rofl
2:50 no, it was me. My insecurity about being underweight was by my mom tho but me hating my hair and how I look was me
As much as I’m normally very introverted and not social, I really want to know all of these people!
I was told this is a type of tinnitus but one of these made me think is this a weird type of echolalia… I have something called musical ear/musical hallucination where when I hear certain frequencies my brain fills in the blanks and creates music to go along with it lol. So I think I hear music all the time until I realize it’s been going forever. Anyone else have this?
i think it is a mixture of repetition and filling in blanks, like, there is a brain phanomen where you hear some one talking, but cant hear the words, and your brain will make up words.
3:37 Is me now. My friend has been calling me autistic so I decided to take the RAADS and was way over the line. Currently reading through the book. I want to apologize to everyone I've ever interacted with now.
i got diagnosed a year ago, and i found out i was bullied by my best friends in high school in the last six months (i'm 26 years old)
14:38 thx for reminding me to take my trazodone, i almost forgot. they pronounced it weird tho.
I was kidnapped when I was a teen and had to get away myself and have basically been on my own since navigating life on my own. So I am very high functioning I had to be. I didn't know that I was autistic because nobody ever told me about it. But now I understand a whole lot like why I need fans all through my house. Why I listen to multiple things at once while doing something else all at the same time. Why I am smarter than most the population lol😂 sorry to offend. The constant songs in my head out of nowhere. And just me basically not fitting in ever anywhere. People really treat us bad and I really can't understand why. It doesn't make us bad people infact I think some of us are far better people than most people who do not have it. They just can't believe that because they think they are somehow superior to us because we are different than them. But since when does being different make you lessor? 🤔 I have always seen that it actually makes you more. In my opinion the world would suck without us.
My echolalia is filled with memes and honey by Derivakat
Yes MF, I'm smarter than other people!! /s 😂
As a AuADHD, i don't have to really mask with my friends since we all neruodivergent and crazy as hell. So i think i got lucky with that 😂
14:46 I love my friends. ❤🎉😊
8:19 saving this for myself
3:34 babe, you never could ❤️ now you just notice it
1:55 how do I find these audio? 😂 like the original video where the sound came from. What do I search?
"i will make sure that your marriage fails" IM GIGGLING LMAOAOAO
That heavenly seat is called the Magis Spun Rotating Chair if im correct. the bad news is its £600 :(
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WHAT!? I think I may have pots, i thought it was normal or I was fucking insane so I didn't talk about it!
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SONIC SCREWDRIVER SONIC SCREWDRIVER SONIC SCREWDRIVER SONIC SCREWDRIVER
11:53 I need this chair… 😂
Well a whole lot of this resonates but I kinda expected that. Now if I could understand why people are treating me soo badly that would help. Because it's like the entire population hates me.
it's really difficult to navigate! the world is very ableist and many people have internalized that. they don't make space for people who don't fit the norm, but I hope that one day for all of us that changes!
@@noiseforautism I really hope that too because my children are also autistic. So seeing how I am treated as well as how they are already does nor make me feel very good about how much worse it will get the older they get. For me it seems it only gets worse. And I am judged as a parent of a different child but the fact I am also different is not taken into consideration. I honestly feel like people want us to die. Just not exist at all. And it breaks my heart that so many people in this world are so full of hate and the belief that they are somehow better than others because they fit the norm of neurotypical.
Now I remember why I cannot forgive autism speaks
1:03 idk I'm a firm believer that leonardo di caprio did a good job in what's eating gilbert grape, maybe the way he held his face was a little over dramatic but other then that I think it's accurate
Arnie wasn't even meant to be autistic. They never say what his disability was but at one point Gilbert says the doctors told them they don't expect Arnie to live to the age of 10 when he was born, which isn't something they'd say if he was diagnosed with autism, also you can't be diagnosed with autism at birth.
WAIT.
People can just...intuitively know how to navigate social stuff they haven't done before? Like...they don't...WHAT?