The hardest sentence she said "I don't want people's sorrys, I don't want flowers I don't want food to make me feel better. I just want my dad." My heart broke so much.
I didn't watch all of this, because I'm not in Good place myself at the moment. I felt exactly the same when I lost my dad thirty years ago, and then I lost my mum five years ago. I feel exactly the same today. I feel silly as a 53 year old just wanting my mum and dad, but I guess we're always their children. I just want to put my arms around Cristine, and let her cry. I'm so sad for her.
My mom had cancer when I was in high school and I remember feeling the exact same way. Thankfully she survived, but I was always so upset when people sent us cards or flowers or food. I didn’t want any of that, I just wanted my mom to not be sick. I really relate to that feeling and it’s such a hard thing to go through.
I legit cried. Your dad is an inspiration on how dads should be like. I've never had a father figure in my life and seeing your interactions with him just made me fall in love with him. Wish I had a dad like yours. I'm so so sorry for your loss.
The way that Andy could tease and laugh at the girls, not in a harming way, he made them have thicker skin. The world is cruel and those girls were driven, intelligent, and loyal. He did a great job with them. Even giving Cristine the jobs at the shop to hone her perfection skills. Dad's can give the best love and protection, but they need to give u doses or realism. U will be swallowed up if they dote on u like a spoiled princess. Education is how u will feed yourself, and Andy taught them to strive for the top.
My partner does the exact same thing. She brought me our cat (who is adorable but absolutely NOT a therapy cat), she puts on TH-cam videos that make me happy, and she brought me tea and food.
I was not expecting to ugly cry today, and instead of sorry I feel the need to say thank you. Thank you for sharing your dad with your community, he was an absolute joy to get to know a little bit in the videos he was in over the years, and I know you have so many personal memories to look back on and cherish. Thank you for sharing your experience and talking openly about what happened. Know that you handled everything in the best way you possibly could. It was really good to hear the grief experience of someone whose brain works in a highly logical way like mine does. It was odd sometimes when I lost a grandparent suddenly during high school and then lost two in the same year after I graduated from college, and it felt weird getting all the sorries and condolences. I still went to work and did everything as normal even though I was sad but I prefer to grieve in private. I know this will help someone in the future too. My dad will turn 60 next year and you can bet I’ll be asking him when his last doctor appointment was to get everything checked out. 💕❤️💕
The “what ifs,” will eat you alive. Please always remember that death a day too early is kinder, more dignified, more humane, than death a day too late. You girls gave your daddy a great gift in letting him go kindly. Please be kind to yourselves, Cristine, Jen and Ben. We love y’all. 💜
That is beautifully said, I'll take your advice myself, really needed that and I hope others who could be helped with it, even if only a little, have read it too 💖
I'm taking this advice and sharing with my SIL. She also very recently lost her dad to kidney failure after a transplant failed. Soon after he passed she kept going into the what ifs. If she she brings up the what ifs, I'll tell her this.
What you and your sister decided was merciful. People who have seen the long drawn out thing never ever want to go through it again, personally or to see their loved ones go through it. DNRs are written into my parents wills if they get to a certain stage. You may always live with the what if, but for if the cancer was destined to take his soul from this life to the next, wrapping it up sooner is ultimately better. I am so sorry that you were unable to say or do everything you wanted to do. Death is unfair that way :(
Grief is the price we pay for love. The more we love, the higher our cost. Some days the grief will come like huge waves that leave you gasping for air, but eventually you will learn to surf the waves. It’s absolutely true that time heals all, but in the mean time it really fucking sucks. Please take care of yourself. We love you!
Ben running into the room every time Cristine started to cry was so sweet. Chris is so strong to come on screen and talk about this. It's good to see such a healthy example for helping people through grief.
When you were talking about Cristmas, I immediately thought of the video with this conversation: Simply: “Why *did* you name me Cristine with no h?” SimplyDadlogical: “‘cuz you have nothing to do with Christ!“ 😹🖤
In one of the videos with your dad, he came up with this gem: "I once sent out an e-mail. I got FIVE responses!" It had me laughing out loud and it gave a very nice picture of the kind of humour he had.
I was successfully holding back my tears up to around 26:30 Ben's passionate and compassionate looks at Cristine... Ladies and gentlemen, that's true love!
As a long time listener and a medical provider, my heart breaks for you. You did everything you needed to do, and I am grateful that you were able to be with your dad in the end. He had the brightest soul, we loved to see him, and will continue to see his light through you. ♥️
I know that none of us knew your dad, but the parts you shared were amazing. He was so kind and genuine and the videos with him are some of my absolute favorites. Thank you for being so candid in this stream, even though it had me bawling. As many people before me said, take care of yourself first, and we're all here for you. 💜
Watching this, my dog keeps carrying his toys next to me (and next to the screen). He always tries to comfort me the same way when I cry but now those toys are for you Cristine. We all hear the pain of loss in your voice and it is heartbreaking.
I'm not gonna lie, my heart is hurting for you so hard. I've watched your channel for years and loved watching the videos your dad made an appearance in- I see a lot of him in you and I understand having to deal with something like this so suddenly and so hard. The biggest part of your stream that got me bawling was Ben- the way he just comes in and genuinely is so soft and caring to you and with you is so special and so rare- I want to give Ben a ton of credit for being such a great emotional support system for you not just during these horrific times like this, but in every high and low you have
You’re seriously one of the strongest people on the internet. Someone else would just put the statement out there and leave internet for a while to heal. But you’re here doing 2 hour livestream and telling us the whole story even though you didn’t have to… I admire you for this Cristine 💜 just know that we always got your back no matter what happens 💜
The part where you talked about not wanting the attention/“sorry” resonated with me so deeply. Holy cow. I know it comes from a good place, but it just wasn’t comforting during that time. It gets a little easier every day.
I know you're not gonna see this Cristine, but I'm sorry for your loss. It's also frustrating to see people you loved die early and not living their life to the fullest like being in 90's of age. My dad died at 53, he was also my best friend, I'm also a daddy's girl. Lost him last year and I miss him everyday. I appreciate simplydadlogical being a guest in your videos because when you miss him there's something to turn to. I hope you allow yourself to grieve sometime because losing a parent is an emotional scar.
Awe! Sorry for your loss too. We lost my brother 20 years ago. We miss him dearly but grief goes into a different phase and different place. Grief has no end however you move through it. I still have my moments though. It just shows how deeply we love.
This video hit me hard. The things that she said are like my thoughts. I lost my mom to covid in June, and I couldn't be there for her. The feelings of anger are real. I have so many regrets. So many. But I believe that she is in a better place, and I know that we will be reunited eventually. I still miss my best friend.
@@elleem2381 me too. My brother being in California at the time with his wife 37 weeks pregnant with a 2 year old in tow. Getting these calls are heart wrenching. I was bawling I’m so so sorry! Sudden deaths or any deaths are traumatic when it’s close family or family friends. It’s so hard but I learned to trust the process and God to get me through it. In the end i know we will see him again. I don’t even get how my parents are still together cause it is very very traumatizing, to lose a child, So I get how when Cristine said he wouldn’t have survived if he wouldn’t been able to outlive his children. God is good all the time. Especially during these moments in life. You just have to trust in God, faith, and your own strength! First there was love, faith, and in the end just love!💔💔💔💔💔God is love. 😭😭😭
@@elleem2381 my uncle died during the pandemic too, and we hadn't seen him in ages. he passed suddenly at 64, we were not prepared at all, and it was literally because he was so heartbroken that he lost his job that he went to sleep and had a heart attack. it's just devastating and he was just my uncle, i don't know how my dad and my cousins can bear it.
I’m bawling my eyes out for you. Alongside you. The brief glimpses we got of your dad through your channel showed how much life he had. Gone so soon. Live on Cristine! Thank you for sharing him with us, continue his legacy by being his daughter, be yourself.
Cristine, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my dad suddenly this year and hearing your story is so heartbreaking. For charity donations, I strongly recommend the Motorcycle Ride for Dad. It's a Canadian charity that hosts an annual motorcycle ride that raises funds and awareness for men's prostate cancer specifically 🧡
my deepest condolences, cristine. your dad was such an amazing one, and he definitely made so many of my days. cancer is the absolute worst, i hope your dad rests in peace. thank you for staying so strong, love you xx.
I lost my grandmother a week ago so watching this I’m literally just crying with her and grieving too. Her dad was so amazing and we all loved him dearly. Im so sorry for your loss Cristine. Thank you for sharing with us ❤️💐
Cristine my heart breaks for you and Jen. Almost a year ago we had to make the same decision for my sister. I was holding her hand when she left us. I love how Ben is so loving and supportive.
My dad passed away at 60, when I was 16, 7 years ago due to cancer. It still shocks me that I wont be able to see him again. I am glad I met him though. I can completely understand what you mean when you say you don't want people to sat they are sorry and you just want your dad. I used to say something like that also and felt the same way. So, I will tell you nothing. Just send you a big ❤ Cristine
I think it's ok to comment condolences on this specific video, especially for people who only just heard about it through here... But it's a good reminder for people not to keep posting "sorry about your dad" from this point forward
Because it's hard for you with all the condolences, I will stay away from that and instead tell you this: Cristine, as a fairly recent subscriber/fan (only a few years), I appreciate how authentic you always are. Even when you and Ben are being goofy and silly, there is something so incredibly authentic about how you present yourself. I know it's a fine line because it's also difficult to know how much or how little of yourself to 'give', but you manage to be, always, a kind, thoughtful, smart, fun and nuanced presence in the online world. There are not many people like you that I have found who have the platform you have, and use it for so much good. I believe you have said you don't like to be a role model, but I do consider you one. Not in terms of what I want to do with my life, but rather, how to use one's privilege in a positive way. And this, I think, includes your honesty. Thank you for sharing with us, and for being who you are. Take whatever time you need, but also know that many of us will also understand if you need the distraction that it is to do things like streaming - grief does not conform to rules, and it is much more important that you go through the process however you need to.
Your dad had such a presence about him. You could see how much love he had for his family and how proud he was. Cristine you’re one of the strongest humans I’ve ever seen and I can’t even imagine how difficult this must have been. Solidarity to you and your family in this time ❤️
I’ve never cried more at a TH-cam video. One of my best friends lost her mom at an early age to breast cancer. This really hit home. Cristine has been an inspiration to me for years, I’ve watched every video. She seems like a genuinely kind, loving person. Someone you’d be friends with in real life and that makes it even harder to watch her cry. Cristine - you are so strong for sharing this with us and I hope you take all the time you need.
That was awesomely brave of you to put yourself out there like that. I'm going to go watch your video's with your Dad again. I love the way Ben loves you. ❤
This stream is important and fucking beautiful. This is how we should talk about death and loss. You’re dad has ignited a mass boiling over of love laughter and open conversation.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. Thank you for creating a safe space for grieving. Thank you for creating a space where I could cry with you and experience my own grieving. Thank you ❤❤❤
❤ I didn't like the 'sorry for your loss' messages either when my dad passed. You know the people just want you to feel better but it's just not possible. You just want your dad back. I feel your pain and really wish there was something to say that could ease your pain. ❤
Every emotion you feel is valid and any amount of time you need to take for yourself is okay. You are loved and cherished, and I hope with everything that you find peace and comfort again. You can keep your dad alive in your heart and celebrate the life he lived. My deepest condolences
Regarding not wanting the attention or to hear people say “I’m so sorry for your loss,” I feel you on that. My brother in law passed away a few years ago from cancer. It started in his tongue but eventually metastasized to his heart. When he passed, I texted a few people but asked them to not respond. I didn’t want to hear the condolences. When it’s so raw, the thought of those words made me angry. It took some time before I was ready to have that influx of attention.
When I went back to work after losing my dad thirty years ago I got in the lift with someone that worked in the same building, and she asked how I was doing 'now that my dad had died' (those were her exact words). My response? 'what is it to do with you? We have literally never spoken before, so why are you asking?'. I realise how that I was a little rude, but I just felt that it was such an invasive, personal question from someone who was effectively a stranger. If she'd just said 'I'm sorry for your loss' or even nothing at all, it would have been fine, but I was so angry.
So sorry to hear about your Dad, Cris. I am 30 and lost my dad 20 years ago suddenly to a major heart attack. It hurts so bad to see another great man and father leave this earth. ❤ My heart goes out to you and your family.
So nice to hear you’re trying to start streaming more and that a large portion of it will be for charity. It’s so lovely to see how your channel has grown the past few years and you can do things like this ❤️
Thank you for clearing everyone’s tear ducts and sinuses. In all seriousness, thank you for being so raw and honest about your feelings and trusting us that it is a safe space to do so. It’s important to remember that grief looks different for everyone. ❤️
i'm just a casual watcher, but i am so glad cristine feels comfortable in her community to share her thoughts and feelings and to find comfort with them by streaming and hanging out.
Crying right along with you. Lost my dad almost three years ago and I probably haven't fully processed it. When you asked Ben for Menchie, I remembered how very soon after my dad died, I was sitting in a friend's house and I couldn't talk at all, just cry. But there were dogs in the house and I just managed to say: I would like to hold a dog. So someone handed me a puppy and I held it on my lap for a while and that helped a lot. Soft furry friends can help a lot so I'm happy you have Menchie and Zyler.
Sending love to you and your family, Cristine. Thank you for sharing Dad with us. Some of my favorite videos of yours were the ones you did with your dad. 💜
The first time I watched your videos years ago I binge watched them. You would say you were not an aesthetician or nail tech or nail professional whatsoever, so much, that I genuinely thought it was satire. I can't remember when it clicked that you were not being sarcastic but I still think you are as legit as the day I found you. And I'm so glad for that day. Your presence on stream and your vids always make my day better. Sending you lots of love ❤
Hi, Cristine. I’m not sure how I missed this, but I didn’t know until you mentioned it in yesterday’s podcast. My dad also passed away from cancer within just a couple months of his diagnosis in ‘09 when I was 18. I understand how you’re feeling and I also completely understand how funky all of “I’m sorry”s can feel. It never really hurts less to miss him, and it never gets less awkward to think of something to say back to the apologies, but I can guarantee-the frequency of the pain will lessen. The thing I hope you do know is how special it is that he got to see you become so astoundingly successful, and that from the banter and interaction we could see in your videos with him, it’s apparent to all of us that you are the way you are largely because of who he was and what he instilled in you-and thats a pretty special way to be as evidenced by all of us being here. I’m just some stranger, but after all this time, your perspective of the world and the positivity you put into it matters to me. I’m really grateful that you share it with us ❤️
This is just heartbreaking, it feels even doubly so because it feels like we've all met your dad. He was hilarious and wonderful and brought joy to so many others thanks to you. Please take all the time in the world to process your pain and grief, this is never easy. There's no moving on, there's only moving forward.
I lost my dad in february and now we're both crying. I wish I could say things get better, but it doesn't, really. You will keep missing him. I'm personally going through the "year of firsts" now. First time his birthday without him, first fathers day. The first christmas coming up soon and I'm dreading it. Those days are the hardest. For myself it's better when I can be busy and occupy my mind with other things but I still think of him every day. I really miss him. It comes and goes in waves it seems. The waves will get further apart the more time that passes but it never goes away entirely and it can hit you like a ton of bricks. Yet I'm grateful for the times we shared together and that he was my dad. No one can take that away from me. I wish things could be different for us, but it's a part of life I suppose. Even though it really hurts. I wish it didn't have to be this way. Keep your family close, keep Ben close, drink lots of tea and cuddling with the cats, really take care of yourself and surround yourself with some loved ones and you'll be ok.
I've been needing to do a fresh pedicure, and now I think I'm going to use Way Back Chrome to honor your dad. I know you said you don't want condolences, so none of that. But know that so many of us are thinking of you ❤️ Also, if you did do a Dad polish, you could donate a portion of the sales to a prostate cancer charity!
Your dad seemed like a great man it's unfortunate how the world can take someone away that was so loved ❤ he always made us laugh and he was always a bright presence. We are all here for you ❤ ♥
Cristine, I know this has been posted for a couple of weeks. But, I wanted thank you for openly talking about your dad's passing and for sharing him with us for all these years. I was in your shoes almost three years ago, having to make the decision with my sisters and mom to let my dad go. It was so hard, and I definitely thought about the "what ifs". Our instinct is to hold on because it is painful to let go. But, I firmly believe that my dad and your dad were men cut from the same cloth; they would not have wanted to be in that state. You are amazing, and I know that your dad was proud of the person you are. Much love to you, Ben, and the kitties! ❤
Cristine - I just wanna say that your vids over the years and painting my nails and enjoying the holo and laughing at youtube has definitely brought me comfort and happiness during some of my hardest times. Thanks for everything you do 💙💿
I am so sorry for your loss, Cristine. As someone who’s lost a parent to cancer and almost lost another, it is one of the hardest things to see a loved one experience. I am sending so much love your way. You did everything you could do and you were there for him until the end. Take your time recovering and take it easy on yourself. He was and still is so proud of you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing your dad with us Cristine. The parts that we saw inspired us, made us laugh, and showed us what a loving and supportive father he was. And thank you for sharing your grief, you didn't have to. Your community is here to support you❤
I'm so sorry Cristine. My family just this week has been going through a prostate cancer diagnoses. It was caught very early. I feel sharing your Father's story will help others make sure they catch this early as well.
I’m so, so very sorry for yours snd your family’s loss. I know how much he meant to you through the your videos so I can’t imagine how much pain you’re going through. He seemed like he was such a joyful man and an inspiration to loads of people. You’re so lucky to have had a dad such as him. Take care, Cristine. You have such a lovely heart. Your dad is so proud I just know it. ❤️
The “they’re in a better place thing” makes me mad. I totally get it, Cristine. I have had someone said that to me in the funeral of my aunt and I just wanted to cry even more. Here you have some more hearts ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ for you and everyone who loved the beautiful man who was and will always be your dad ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
I am so sad to have missed this news at the time. As soon as I learned of his passing I heard his voice in my head from the videos you did together, or the times he was called to chime in about whatever was happening. He was so funny and Cristine, you are the apple to his tree - so much of him is in you it's impossible to miss. Almost as impossible as this is to believe. How awful for this to happen and how much he will be missed. Love to you, and to Jen, and to your dad, and to everyone touched by his life.
I just recently lost my uncle to prostate cancer. I'm crying with you, Cristine. I am so sorry for your loss and I always enjoyed when you had your dad in your videos. You are so much like him!
Your dad was such a sweet, joyful soul. I always adored him. Sending you all the love Cristine and I’ll be keeping him in mind whenever I get chances to donate. 💛
I think you would like Evan & Katelyn's streams. They craft, game, and have an adorable black cat named Joob! They love Menchie and Zyler and I think they could easily venture into the nail world for a collab. They're a great complement to you and Ben.
I just lost my mom in such a similar way in October and felt so many of the same things you did. It was so hard to tell people we were not interested in hosting visitors or to be able to just sit in my own grief without having to also have people try and process their grief with/to me. It’s awful because as much as I knew other people would miss her and loved her, she was *my mom* - I just wanted to scream “It isn’t the same for you!!!” Anyway, I’m really sorry for your loss (and sorry I am saying sorry, I grew up too close to Canada, ha).
You’re honestly such an inspiration and so was your dad. I honestly love you and your family so much. Please take care of yourself, I wish you all the love and wellness ❤️❤️❤️
This had me in tears. Your dad always brought such light when he was in your videos. I’ve lost more people to cancer this past year than people to COVID. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ f cancer
Cristine, you're bringing so much joy and strength to the world via nail polish and your charities. You are such an amazing woman! 💜 Thanks for all you do!
Oh sweetheart… I just love her so much she’s the strongest person I’ve ever seen. Dear Cristine, I hope you know you’ve made me the strongest I’ve ever been. You’ve raised me since I was 12. All the things you say and do have so much impact on me. I hope you know that you’re the best. And I feel a bit silly writing this but here I am :) I love you sm mom
My dad passed a few years ago, really similar situation, you and your family made the right decision, and the what ifs are part of the grieving process, it's how we move through the grief. Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us, we love you Cristine
I wasn’t expecting such a heavy theme on a simply stream but u did really well, he was such a great person, he always made me laugh wen he was on camera. I think you made the right choice, I hope you and all your family will get through this
I admire you for being so open and vulnerable when you in no way we’re obligated to. Your dad is awesome. Glad he got to shine so bright through your platform. I know his energy will always be around 💛💛💛
thank you for sharing and introducing your dad to us. he was such a wonderful father and brought us so much joy. i’m so sorry for your loss cristine ❤️
i lost my grandfather about a month ago and it has been so hard. i was away at university the whole time while it all suddenly happened and i’m still trying to process it all amidst how busy my life has become. i loved seeing your dad on your channel and he will be missed 💖 sending you and jen so much love ❤️
I don't normally comment, but I feel so strongly compelled to on this. Cristine, you are such a strong and positive influence/role model to your audience, and I wanted to express my most sincere gratitude for your candidness. It's never easy to talk about the loss of a loved one, and I know many of us appreciate that you let us into this part of your life, and that you shared your dad's light with us. I won't say sorry, but I will say you are wonderful, and you are supported in any way you need. We're going through a similar journey with my grandpa currently, he was told he might have prostate cancer in December 2019, and due to covid he wasn't able to be diagnosed or treated until a month ago (they live on a small island in Alaska where they don't have the facilities available to diagnose or treat) so now we're trying to provide quality while we have him with us still. While I can't say I know exactly how you feel, I can relate to what you're going through, and I hope you know that your openness is helping me cope. I've donated to prostate cancer research in your dad's name, may he continue to watch over your family.
I lost my dad suddenly as well- I know how "I'm sorry for your loss" can feel totally meaningless so I'll just say I hope you find solace in family and cat cuddles and happy memories. One day it'll feel okay and less heart-breaking to remember him and the happiness he brought to your life.
I came back to this because it hits a little closer to home now, but I share the same mindset as you Cristine when it comes to these things, and I don’t think it’s irrational. I have a very hard time accepting help and support especially when there’s nothing anyone can do/say to change the situation. And I’ll admit for me, it makes me very angry to have constant thank yous to say, or the offers to go grab a coffee or something to get my mind off it. Everyone means so well, it almost makes me feel worse because my people pleasing side feels like I’m a bad person for just wanting to be in my feelings for however long I want. I hope you were able to find some peace with the frustration at the time. Just remember you’re allowed to grieve however you do❤️
Omg my heart is broken for you, we all love you simply 💜 I can’t even imagine what you and your sister are going through. He was so amazing and the funniest dad I’ve ever seen. My husband and I would rewatch all your videos with your dad all the time saying to eachother how awesome he is and how lucky you are to have such an amazing dad. I love you, stay strong and hold your memories close to your heart 💙
I’m not going to say sorry and I’m not going to offer condolences because as you said, it doesn’t bring your dad back. Nothing anyone says will fix it or make the emotions any easier. But I do want to say thank you. Thank you for being so open and raw about all of this. I cried and I’m sure I’m not the only person who did. It sucks to see someone you care about hurting and you’ve inspired me so much and I really do care about you. However it’s also good to see that someone who’s an inspiration to so many people feels these things, and that it’s okay to feel them. Because it is. So thank you for this, thank you for being willing to speak so honestly about these things and thank you for being such an amazing and inspiring role model for us all. Your dad raised an amazing person ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
The hardest sentence she said "I don't want people's sorrys, I don't want flowers I don't want food to make me feel better. I just want my dad." My heart broke so much.
It broke my heart
I didn't watch all of this, because I'm not in Good place myself at the moment. I felt exactly the same when I lost my dad thirty years ago, and then I lost my mum five years ago.
I feel exactly the same today. I feel silly as a 53 year old just wanting my mum and dad, but I guess we're always their children.
I just want to put my arms around Cristine, and let her cry. I'm so sad for her.
i ugly cried a bit
@@itsacarolbthing5221 this makes me want to cry 😭 you are my parents age and sometimes i just need a good cry
My mom had cancer when I was in high school and I remember feeling the exact same way. Thankfully she survived, but I was always so upset when people sent us cards or flowers or food. I didn’t want any of that, I just wanted my mom to not be sick. I really relate to that feeling and it’s such a hard thing to go through.
I legit cried. Your dad is an inspiration on how dads should be like. I've never had a father figure in my life and seeing your interactions with him just made me fall in love with him. Wish I had a dad like yours. I'm so so sorry for your loss.
I felt that way too :(.
Same. He is the picture of a perfect dad I think. Lots of love and laughter for his girls.
The way that Andy could tease and laugh at the girls, not in a harming way, he made them have thicker skin. The world is cruel and those girls were driven, intelligent, and loyal. He did a great job with them. Even giving Cristine the jobs at the shop to hone her perfection skills. Dad's can give the best love and protection, but they need to give u doses or realism. U will be swallowed up if they dote on u like a spoiled princess. Education is how u will feed yourself, and Andy taught them to strive for the top.
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Ben bringing you things you like was the cutest thing I’ve ever seen.
So sweet! That's true love and support right there ❤️
The oats 😂
I cried when he brought her the oats he is such a great guy
My partner does the exact same thing. She brought me our cat (who is adorable but absolutely NOT a therapy cat), she puts on TH-cam videos that make me happy, and she brought me tea and food.
@@laurac86 same. totally lost it then
I was not expecting to ugly cry today, and instead of sorry I feel the need to say thank you. Thank you for sharing your dad with your community, he was an absolute joy to get to know a little bit in the videos he was in over the years, and I know you have so many personal memories to look back on and cherish. Thank you for sharing your experience and talking openly about what happened. Know that you handled everything in the best way you possibly could. It was really good to hear the grief experience of someone whose brain works in a highly logical way like mine does. It was odd sometimes when I lost a grandparent suddenly during high school and then lost two in the same year after I graduated from college, and it felt weird getting all the sorries and condolences. I still went to work and did everything as normal even though I was sad but I prefer to grieve in private. I know this will help someone in the future too. My dad will turn 60 next year and you can bet I’ll be asking him when his last doctor appointment was to get everything checked out. 💕❤️💕
The “what ifs,” will eat you alive. Please always remember that death a day too early is kinder, more dignified, more humane, than death a day too late. You girls gave your daddy a great gift in letting him go kindly. Please be kind to yourselves, Cristine, Jen and Ben. We love y’all. 💜
That is beautifully said, I'll take your advice myself, really needed that and I hope others who could be helped with it, even if only a little, have read it too 💖
Thank you for sharing that. I'm sure those are words a lot people need to hear
I'm taking this advice and sharing with my SIL. She also very recently lost her dad to kidney failure after a transplant failed. Soon after he passed she kept going into the what ifs. If she she brings up the what ifs, I'll tell her this.
Thank you for this. I’ll remember.
Wow. Well said!
What you and your sister decided was merciful. People who have seen the long drawn out thing never ever want to go through it again, personally or to see their loved ones go through it. DNRs are written into my parents wills if they get to a certain stage. You may always live with the what if, but for if the cancer was destined to take his soul from this life to the next, wrapping it up sooner is ultimately better. I am so sorry that you were unable to say or do everything you wanted to do. Death is unfair that way :(
I cried the same way with her. ❤️
Anger is an important part of the grief process.
Grief is the price we pay for love. The more we love, the higher our cost. Some days the grief will come like huge waves that leave you gasping for air, but eventually you will learn to surf the waves. It’s absolutely true that time heals all, but in the mean time it really fucking sucks. Please take care of yourself. We love you!
That's a really beautiful comment ❤️
😿 so very true
Well said
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Ben running into the room every time Cristine started to cry was so sweet. Chris is so strong to come on screen and talk about this. It's good to see such a healthy example for helping people through grief.
When you were talking about Cristmas, I immediately thought of the video with this conversation:
Simply: “Why *did* you name me Cristine with no h?”
SimplyDadlogical: “‘cuz you have nothing to do with Christ!“
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that was which video btw?
@@elinmagg Simply Mailogical #16! Her dad was helping her open mail and it was around the 3 minute mark! 😹🖤
Oh my god that’s golden!!! Lol loved his sense of humor. Which clearly cristine has too… 🖤🖤🖤 RIP simplydadlogical
I forgot about that! 😆💕
In one of the videos with your dad, he came up with this gem: "I once sent out an e-mail. I got FIVE responses!" It had me laughing out loud and it gave a very nice picture of the kind of humour he had.
Simply: “Do you know how many views polish mountain got?!”
SimplyDadLogical: “At least ✨four✨!” 😹
I was successfully holding back my tears up to around 26:30
Ben's passionate and compassionate looks at Cristine... Ladies and gentlemen, that's true love!
I remember the podcast where Ben said the times he only cries is when he sees her in pain and ugh I am so so glad she has him.
Seeing Ben take care of Cristine got me all choked up.
that's just what made me cry
Every time she said, “my dad” I could hear her heart break in her voice she wanted to break down so badly I love her so much ❤️
As a long time listener and a medical provider, my heart breaks for you. You did everything you needed to do, and I am grateful that you were able to be with your dad in the end. He had the brightest soul, we loved to see him, and will continue to see his light through you. ♥️
her dad was so full of enthusiasm and life in her videos that it shocked me when she suddenly announced this. i couldn't believe it.
Ikr.. I found out today. He was so funny. 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
I know that none of us knew your dad, but the parts you shared were amazing. He was so kind and genuine and the videos with him are some of my absolute favorites. Thank you for being so candid in this stream, even though it had me bawling. As many people before me said, take care of yourself first, and we're all here for you. 💜
Your dad was a very cool man. Thank you for letting us know him♥️
Watching this, my dog keeps carrying his toys next to me (and next to the screen). He always tries to comfort me the same way when I cry but now those toys are for you Cristine. We all hear the pain of loss in your voice and it is heartbreaking.
That's so cute! Ur dog is Ben, absolutely adorable
I'm not gonna lie, my heart is hurting for you so hard. I've watched your channel for years and loved watching the videos your dad made an appearance in- I see a lot of him in you and I understand having to deal with something like this so suddenly and so hard.
The biggest part of your stream that got me bawling was Ben- the way he just comes in and genuinely is so soft and caring to you and with you is so special and so rare- I want to give Ben a ton of credit for being such a great emotional support system for you not just during these horrific times like this, but in every high and low you have
You’re seriously one of the strongest people on the internet. Someone else would just put the statement out there and leave internet for a while to heal. But you’re here doing 2 hour livestream and telling us the whole story even though you didn’t have to… I admire you for this Cristine 💜 just know that we always got your back no matter what happens 💜
The part where you talked about not wanting the attention/“sorry” resonated with me so deeply. Holy cow. I know it comes from a good place, but it just wasn’t comforting during that time. It gets a little easier every day.
I know you're not gonna see this Cristine, but I'm sorry for your loss. It's also frustrating to see people you loved die early and not living their life to the fullest like being in 90's of age. My dad died at 53, he was also my best friend, I'm also a daddy's girl. Lost him last year and I miss him everyday. I appreciate simplydadlogical being a guest in your videos because when you miss him there's something to turn to. I hope you allow yourself to grieve sometime because losing a parent is an emotional scar.
Awe! Sorry for your loss too. We lost my brother 20 years ago. We miss him dearly but grief goes into a different phase and different place. Grief has no end however you move through it. I still have my moments though. It just shows how deeply we love.
This video hit me hard. The things that she said are like my thoughts. I lost my mom to covid in June, and I couldn't be there for her. The feelings of anger are real. I have so many regrets. So many. But I believe that she is in a better place, and I know that we will be reunited eventually. I still miss my best friend.
@@elleem2381 me too. My brother being in California at the time with his wife 37 weeks pregnant with a 2 year old in tow. Getting these calls are heart wrenching. I was bawling I’m so so sorry! Sudden deaths or any deaths are traumatic when it’s close family or family friends. It’s so hard but I learned to trust the process and God to get me through it. In the end i know we will see him again. I don’t even get how my parents are still together cause it is very very traumatizing, to lose a child, So I get how when Cristine said he wouldn’t have survived if he wouldn’t been able to outlive his children. God is good all the time. Especially during these moments in life. You just have to trust in God, faith, and your own strength! First there was love, faith, and in the end just love!💔💔💔💔💔God is love. 😭😭😭
@@elleem2381 my uncle died during the pandemic too, and we hadn't seen him in ages. he passed suddenly at 64, we were not prepared at all, and it was literally because he was so heartbroken that he lost his job that he went to sleep and had a heart attack. it's just devastating and he was just my uncle, i don't know how my dad and my cousins can bear it.
I’m bawling my eyes out for you. Alongside you. The brief glimpses we got of your dad through your channel showed how much life he had. Gone so soon.
Live on Cristine! Thank you for sharing him with us, continue his legacy by being his daughter, be yourself.
Cristine, I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I lost my dad suddenly this year and hearing your story is so heartbreaking. For charity donations, I strongly recommend the Motorcycle Ride for Dad. It's a Canadian charity that hosts an annual motorcycle ride that raises funds and awareness for men's prostate cancer specifically 🧡
my deepest condolences, cristine. your dad was such an amazing one, and he definitely made so many of my days. cancer is the absolute worst, i hope your dad rests in peace. thank you for staying so strong, love you xx.
Cristine it was unexpected to see you today so I hope that being with us helped a little. Take care and you do you. We loves ya.
I lost my grandmother a week ago so watching this I’m literally just crying with her and grieving too. Her dad was so amazing and we all loved him dearly. Im so sorry for your loss Cristine. Thank you for sharing with us ❤️💐
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Cristine my heart breaks for you and Jen. Almost a year ago we had to make the same decision for my sister. I was holding her hand when she left us.
I love how Ben is so loving and supportive.
My dad passed away at 60, when I was 16, 7 years ago due to cancer.
It still shocks me that I wont be able to see him again. I am glad I met him though.
I can completely understand what you mean when you say you don't want people to sat they are sorry and you just want your dad. I used to say something like that also and felt the same way. So, I will tell you nothing. Just send you a big ❤ Cristine
He got to share the best advice for all of us. He lives in everyone laughing before they die.
Holo comunity:
Please consider to comment after you listen to the explanation of Cristine!
I hope more people read this. I read it and waited to comment after, and now I know not to just say sorry or offer condolences. ❤
I think it's ok to comment condolences on this specific video, especially for people who only just heard about it through here... But it's a good reminder for people not to keep posting "sorry about your dad" from this point forward
@@glittery_cucumber totaly agree
I think it would be a good idea for this comment to be pinned
Because it's hard for you with all the condolences, I will stay away from that and instead tell you this:
Cristine, as a fairly recent subscriber/fan (only a few years), I appreciate how authentic you always are. Even when you and Ben are being goofy and silly, there is something so incredibly authentic about how you present yourself. I know it's a fine line because it's also difficult to know how much or how little of yourself to 'give', but you manage to be, always, a kind, thoughtful, smart, fun and nuanced presence in the online world. There are not many people like you that I have found who have the platform you have, and use it for so much good.
I believe you have said you don't like to be a role model, but I do consider you one. Not in terms of what I want to do with my life, but rather, how to use one's privilege in a positive way. And this, I think, includes your honesty.
Thank you for sharing with us, and for being who you are.
Take whatever time you need, but also know that many of us will also understand if you need the distraction that it is to do things like streaming - grief does not conform to rules, and it is much more important that you go through the process however you need to.
Your Dad was a light ❤️
Your dad had such a presence about him. You could see how much love he had for his family and how proud he was. Cristine you’re one of the strongest humans I’ve ever seen and I can’t even imagine how difficult this must have been. Solidarity to you and your family in this time ❤️
Ben bringing her things that make her happy, like the dry oats 🥺❤️ I also hate getting flowers Cristine!!!
I’ve never cried more at a TH-cam video. One of my best friends lost her mom at an early age to breast cancer. This really hit home.
Cristine has been an inspiration to me for years, I’ve watched every video. She seems like a genuinely kind, loving person. Someone you’d be friends with in real life and that makes it even harder to watch her cry.
Cristine - you are so strong for sharing this with us and I hope you take all the time you need.
That was awesomely brave of you to put yourself out there like that. I'm going to go watch your video's with your Dad again. I love the way Ben loves you. ❤
This stream is important and fucking beautiful. This is how we should talk about death and loss. You’re dad has ignited a mass boiling over of love laughter and open conversation.
Thank you for sharing your experience with us. Thank you for creating a safe space for grieving. Thank you for creating a space where I could cry with you and experience my own grieving. Thank you ❤❤❤
❤ I didn't like the 'sorry for your loss' messages either when my dad passed. You know the people just want you to feel better but it's just not possible. You just want your dad back. I feel your pain and really wish there was something to say that could ease your pain. ❤
Every emotion you feel is valid and any amount of time you need to take for yourself is okay. You are loved and cherished, and I hope with everything that you find peace and comfort again. You can keep your dad alive in your heart and celebrate the life he lived. My deepest condolences
The way ben massaged ur shoulders and was all comforting about you crying :( he's so sweet
Regarding not wanting the attention or to hear people say “I’m so sorry for your loss,” I feel you on that. My brother in law passed away a few years ago from cancer. It started in his tongue but eventually metastasized to his heart. When he passed, I texted a few people but asked them to not respond. I didn’t want to hear the condolences. When it’s so raw, the thought of those words made me angry. It took some time before I was ready to have that influx of attention.
When I went back to work after losing my dad thirty years ago I got in the lift with someone that worked in the same building, and she asked how I was doing 'now that my dad had died' (those were her exact words). My response? 'what is it to do with you? We have literally never spoken before, so why are you asking?'. I realise how that I was a little rude, but I just felt that it was such an invasive, personal question from someone who was effectively a stranger. If she'd just said 'I'm sorry for your loss' or even nothing at all, it would have been fine, but I was so angry.
So sorry to hear about your Dad, Cris. I am 30 and lost my dad 20 years ago suddenly to a major heart attack. It hurts so bad to see another great man and father leave this earth. ❤ My heart goes out to you and your family.
Living with grief is so exhausting. We can have a calm and gentle stream with you 💜
So nice to hear you’re trying to start streaming more and that a large portion of it will be for charity. It’s so lovely to see how your channel has grown the past few years and you can do things like this ❤️
Thank you for clearing everyone’s tear ducts and sinuses. In all seriousness, thank you for being so raw and honest about your feelings and trusting us that it is a safe space to do so. It’s important to remember that grief looks different for everyone. ❤️
Your dad is and will forever be with you Cristine. He lives through you. He took everything like a champ from what I have collected.
i'm just a casual watcher, but i am so glad cristine feels comfortable in her community to share her thoughts and feelings and to find comfort with them by streaming and hanging out.
Crying right along with you. Lost my dad almost three years ago and I probably haven't fully processed it. When you asked Ben for Menchie, I remembered how very soon after my dad died, I was sitting in a friend's house and I couldn't talk at all, just cry. But there were dogs in the house and I just managed to say: I would like to hold a dog. So someone handed me a puppy and I held it on my lap for a while and that helped a lot. Soft furry friends can help a lot so I'm happy you have Menchie and Zyler.
Sending love to you and your family, Cristine. Thank you for sharing Dad with us. Some of my favorite videos of yours were the ones you did with your dad. 💜
The first time I watched your videos years ago I binge watched them. You would say you were not an aesthetician or nail tech or nail professional whatsoever, so much, that I genuinely thought it was satire. I can't remember when it clicked that you were not being sarcastic but I still think you are as legit as the day I found you. And I'm so glad for that day.
Your presence on stream and your vids always make my day better. Sending you lots of love ❤
Hi, Cristine. I’m not sure how I missed this, but I didn’t know until you mentioned it in yesterday’s podcast. My dad also passed away from cancer within just a couple months of his diagnosis in ‘09 when I was 18. I understand how you’re feeling and I also completely understand how funky all of “I’m sorry”s can feel. It never really hurts less to miss him, and it never gets less awkward to think of something to say back to the apologies, but I can guarantee-the frequency of the pain will lessen. The thing I hope you do know is how special it is that he got to see you become so astoundingly successful, and that from the banter and interaction we could see in your videos with him, it’s apparent to all of us that you are the way you are largely because of who he was and what he instilled in you-and thats a pretty special way to be as evidenced by all of us being here. I’m just some stranger, but after all this time, your perspective of the world and the positivity you put into it matters to me. I’m really grateful that you share it with us ❤️
This is just heartbreaking, it feels even doubly so because it feels like we've all met your dad. He was hilarious and wonderful and brought joy to so many others thanks to you.
Please take all the time in the world to process your pain and grief, this is never easy. There's no moving on, there's only moving forward.
found this vod today not knowing it was ever even made. cristine, you have a heart of gold. i love you endlessly.
Your dad was a pure delight to watch in your videos. He was so funny and I see the same qualities in you. Love from Finland. ❤️
Cristine, I'm so sorry. I'm so glad Ben and your cats have been there for you, I'm sorry for your loss. I'm so sorry you're going through this.
Your dad seemed like the sweetest man. He was obviously very proud of both you and Jen. My thoughts are with you and your family. ❤️❤️❤️
I lost my dad in february and now we're both crying. I wish I could say things get better, but it doesn't, really. You will keep missing him. I'm personally going through the "year of firsts" now. First time his birthday without him, first fathers day. The first christmas coming up soon and I'm dreading it. Those days are the hardest. For myself it's better when I can be busy and occupy my mind with other things but I still think of him every day. I really miss him. It comes and goes in waves it seems. The waves will get further apart the more time that passes but it never goes away entirely and it can hit you like a ton of bricks. Yet I'm grateful for the times we shared together and that he was my dad. No one can take that away from me. I wish things could be different for us, but it's a part of life I suppose. Even though it really hurts. I wish it didn't have to be this way.
Keep your family close, keep Ben close, drink lots of tea and cuddling with the cats, really take care of yourself and surround yourself with some loved ones and you'll be ok.
I've been needing to do a fresh pedicure, and now I think I'm going to use Way Back Chrome to honor your dad. I know you said you don't want condolences, so none of that. But know that so many of us are thinking of you ❤️
Also, if you did do a Dad polish, you could donate a portion of the sales to a prostate cancer charity!
From this entire stream I can tell that simply really misses her dad. I am once again so sorry for your loss.
Your dad seemed like a great man it's unfortunate how the world can take someone away that was so loved ❤ he always made us laugh and he was always a bright presence. We are all here for you ❤ ♥
Cristine, I know this has been posted for a couple of weeks. But, I wanted thank you for openly talking about your dad's passing and for sharing him with us for all these years. I was in your shoes almost three years ago, having to make the decision with my sisters and mom to let my dad go. It was so hard, and I definitely thought about the "what ifs". Our instinct is to hold on because it is painful to let go. But, I firmly believe that my dad and your dad were men cut from the same cloth; they would not have wanted to be in that state.
You are amazing, and I know that your dad was proud of the person you are. Much love to you, Ben, and the kitties! ❤
Cristine - I just wanna say that your vids over the years and painting my nails and enjoying the holo and laughing at youtube has definitely brought me comfort and happiness during some of my hardest times. Thanks for everything you do 💙💿
I’m sorry for your loss, it’s never easy to lose someone you care so much about. Take care
I am so sorry for your loss, Cristine. As someone who’s lost a parent to cancer and almost lost another, it is one of the hardest things to see a loved one experience. I am sending so much love your way. You did everything you could do and you were there for him until the end. Take your time recovering and take it easy on yourself. He was and still is so proud of you. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Thank you for sharing your dad with us Cristine. The parts that we saw inspired us, made us laugh, and showed us what a loving and supportive father he was. And thank you for sharing your grief, you didn't have to. Your community is here to support you❤
I love it when you talk about your dad, and I hope you continue to do so. It warms my heart and makes me happy. ❤
I'm so sorry Cristine. My family just this week has been going through a prostate cancer diagnoses. It was caught very early. I feel sharing your Father's story will help others make sure they catch this early as well.
I’m so, so very sorry for yours snd your family’s loss. I know how much he meant to you through the your videos so I can’t imagine how much pain you’re going through. He seemed like he was such a joyful man and an inspiration to loads of people. You’re so lucky to have had a dad such as him. Take care, Cristine. You have such a lovely heart. Your dad is so proud I just know it. ❤️
The “they’re in a better place thing” makes me mad. I totally get it, Cristine. I have had someone said that to me in the funeral of my aunt and I just wanted to cry even more. Here you have some more hearts ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ for you and everyone who loved the beautiful man who was and will always be your dad ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
There wasn’t a dry eye watching this. We all love you, Cristine ❤️
I am so sad to have missed this news at the time. As soon as I learned of his passing I heard his voice in my head from the videos you did together, or the times he was called to chime in about whatever was happening. He was so funny and Cristine, you are the apple to his tree - so much of him is in you it's impossible to miss. Almost as impossible as this is to believe. How awful for this to happen and how much he will be missed. Love to you, and to Jen, and to your dad, and to everyone touched by his life.
I just recently lost my uncle to prostate cancer. I'm crying with you, Cristine. I am so sorry for your loss and I always enjoyed when you had your dad in your videos. You are so much like him!
Your dad was such a sweet, joyful soul. I always adored him. Sending you all the love Cristine and I’ll be keeping him in mind whenever I get chances to donate. 💛
I think you would like Evan & Katelyn's streams. They craft, game, and have an adorable black cat named Joob! They love Menchie and Zyler and I think they could easily venture into the nail world for a collab. They're a great complement to you and Ben.
Yes! I love their main channel.
I just lost my mom in such a similar way in October and felt so many of the same things you did. It was so hard to tell people we were not interested in hosting visitors or to be able to just sit in my own grief without having to also have people try and process their grief with/to me. It’s awful because as much as I knew other people would miss her and loved her, she was *my mom* - I just wanted to scream “It isn’t the same for you!!!” Anyway, I’m really sorry for your loss (and sorry I am saying sorry, I grew up too close to Canada, ha).
You’re honestly such an inspiration and so was your dad. I honestly love you and your family so much. Please take care of yourself, I wish you all the love and wellness ❤️❤️❤️
I cried my little eyes out for you Cristine. I hope you find emotional healing or at least some sense of peace and acceptance. You deserve the world.
The sweetness of Ben is unmatched
Your Dad was an absolute gem. Such a wonderful man and father. Thank you for sharing him with us. ❤️
This had me in tears. Your dad always brought such light when he was in your videos. I’ve lost more people to cancer this past year than people to COVID. ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ f cancer
Cristine, you're bringing so much joy and strength to the world via nail polish and your charities. You are such an amazing woman! 💜 Thanks for all you do!
Oh sweetheart… I just love her so much she’s the strongest person I’ve ever seen. Dear Cristine, I hope you know you’ve made me the strongest I’ve ever been. You’ve raised me since I was 12. All the things you say and do have so much impact on me. I hope you know that you’re the best.
And I feel a bit silly writing this but here I am :)
I love you sm mom
My dad passed a few years ago, really similar situation, you and your family made the right decision, and the what ifs are part of the grieving process, it's how we move through the grief. Thank you for sharing your heart with all of us, we love you Cristine
you saying "I just want my dad" is so real and so true, thank you, you're not alone in that and I'm grateful to know I'm not alone in it either
Love you Simply
I wasn’t expecting such a heavy theme on a simply stream but u did really well, he was such a great person, he always made me laugh wen he was on camera. I think you made the right choice, I hope you and all your family will get through this
I admire you for being so open and vulnerable when you in no way we’re obligated to. Your dad is awesome. Glad he got to shine so bright through your platform. I know his energy will always be around 💛💛💛
thank you for sharing and introducing your dad to us. he was such a wonderful father and brought us so much joy. i’m so sorry for your loss cristine ❤️
We love you Cristine and your emotions about not wanting condolences makes literally all the sense in the world. Also, eff flowers!
Thank you for sharing your dad with us Cristine, he was such a funny person and he will be missed.
i lost my grandfather about a month ago and it has been so hard. i was away at university the whole time while it all suddenly happened and i’m still trying to process it all amidst how busy my life has become. i loved seeing your dad on your channel and he will be missed 💖 sending you and jen so much love ❤️
I'm sorry for your loss.
I don't normally comment, but I feel so strongly compelled to on this. Cristine, you are such a strong and positive influence/role model to your audience, and I wanted to express my most sincere gratitude for your candidness. It's never easy to talk about the loss of a loved one, and I know many of us appreciate that you let us into this part of your life, and that you shared your dad's light with us. I won't say sorry, but I will say you are wonderful, and you are supported in any way you need.
We're going through a similar journey with my grandpa currently, he was told he might have prostate cancer in December 2019, and due to covid he wasn't able to be diagnosed or treated until a month ago (they live on a small island in Alaska where they don't have the facilities available to diagnose or treat) so now we're trying to provide quality while we have him with us still. While I can't say I know exactly how you feel, I can relate to what you're going through, and I hope you know that your openness is helping me cope.
I've donated to prostate cancer research in your dad's name, may he continue to watch over your family.
I loved seeing your dad in your channel. Loved his Sense of humor. He was a joy to watch!
I lost my dad suddenly as well- I know how "I'm sorry for your loss" can feel totally meaningless so I'll just say I hope you find solace in family and cat cuddles and happy memories. One day it'll feel okay and less heart-breaking to remember him and the happiness he brought to your life.
I came back to this because it hits a little closer to home now, but I share the same mindset as you Cristine when it comes to these things, and I don’t think it’s irrational. I have a very hard time accepting help and support especially when there’s nothing anyone can do/say to change the situation. And I’ll admit for me, it makes me very angry to have constant thank yous to say, or the offers to go grab a coffee or something to get my mind off it. Everyone means so well, it almost makes me feel worse because my people pleasing side feels like I’m a bad person for just wanting to be in my feelings for however long I want.
I hope you were able to find some peace with the frustration at the time. Just remember you’re allowed to grieve however you do❤️
Omg my heart is broken for you, we all love you simply 💜 I can’t even imagine what you and your sister are going through. He was so amazing and the funniest dad I’ve ever seen. My husband and I would rewatch all your videos with your dad all the time saying to eachother how awesome he is and how lucky you are to have such an amazing dad. I love you, stay strong and hold your memories close to your heart 💙
I’m not going to say sorry and I’m not going to offer condolences because as you said, it doesn’t bring your dad back. Nothing anyone says will fix it or make the emotions any easier. But I do want to say thank you. Thank you for being so open and raw about all of this. I cried and I’m sure I’m not the only person who did. It sucks to see someone you care about hurting and you’ve inspired me so much and I really do care about you. However it’s also good to see that someone who’s an inspiration to so many people feels these things, and that it’s okay to feel them. Because it is. So thank you for this, thank you for being willing to speak so honestly about these things and thank you for being such an amazing and inspiring role model for us all. Your dad raised an amazing person ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜