I’m lying down next to a girl that I think I’m falling in love with. She’s asleep and I’m listening on my headphones. Life is good and also weird and also confusing and I’m also unsure. What a trip
I love this, brother. Those days pass so quickly, but they shape who you are forever. Enjoy the utter bewilderment of it all, and how utterly insignificant it makes you feel. As we say here in Scotland... 'Lang may yer lum reek'.
@@merlindogs9703 and that's okay brother. Love just like life is fleeting, enjoy the times that were (even if they were only 3 weeks ago) because the most beautiful moments in life are often followed by the hardest.
To me this struggle just makes things worse. When I‘m at peace and have accepted the world, I know that in just a few minutes or hours I will feel pain until I think I’ll break for good now. A neverending cycle.
I’m 41. Been married for 15 years, have two daughters, own a home, decent paying job. And it’s all happened in the blink of an eye. Seems like just yesterday I was a jackass 23 year old without a responsibility in the world. This song sums up how I feel when I look back at everything, how it’s all unfolded, and how it all had to happen (even the bad stuff) the way it did for me to have the life I do today. Life’s a trip, what might seem like something small today is leading you down your path to where you’ll be, and you can’t even realize it (yet). If you’re young and reading this, live it up and enjoy it, you’re in “the good old days”. You never know where today’s decision or minor detail is taking you. And you’re gonna be 41 too before you know it.
Im so scared of the future. I don't know where I will go after I finish school, and I can't even think about having my own family. But reading your comment made me realize that adults are also just a bunch of grown up kids and we should enjoy our lives. We only live once!!
listened to this chilling out after full on Goa partys in the 90s....good memories, those were the times, they won't come back but as long you remember it , it is not gone. I am 51, btw, but would go back any time if I had a Tardis....
Thank you, just thank you soo much to remembering that to us, im gonna turn 20 in next mounth and i was needing to remember that again. Because the things just makes me tired most of the time. I live in Turkey as a average Turkish young and i feel in void. i gotta ask you, no matter which standart i live, is things gonna be bearable at least?
@@beareleaseYes. The universe, god, nature, whatever it is - won’t throw anything your way that you can’t handle. Be good and life, even when challenged, will be good too.
Today I was found not guilty for a crime I didn't commit, it's been a brutal 6 months and this song came in my feed. With that and reading the comments, it made me tear up and value my life more
I am currently fighting a case of robbery, aggravated assault as a juvenile, a crime I did commit, I have court coming up in June, any advice? I'm currently on house arrest.
@@ahmedaudi5050 The chances of it happening again and again in the future are high, but think if you knew it would even happen once more. Know one day at some point it's going to happen and you'll feel as good as you felt.
Just discovered this gem today, October 28, 2023. I'm at a point of my life where I am still unsure about what next steps I should take. Hearing this, atleast for a couple of minutes was pure bliss. I guess I needed the break. Hopefully in the next time I check into this song, I have life figured out- or maybe at least have a sense of direction. Best regards to you future self!
I like to imagine that, here, at the comment section, we just gather around this music and share bits of ourselves. Total strangers, who happened to cross each other's ways by bumping into this random, yet special, piece of art.
The internet turned out to be so messy but comment sections like these take me back to the early days of the internet. Just a bunch of totally unrelated people doing their thing and connecting without a hidden agenda. This is what I love so much about the internet.
My mom has cancer. Since everyone is sharing. I’m 22. About to open my first office and have my first employee. Just recovered from a seizure. I’m not stopping. I’ll make my mom proud. I wish you the very fucking best.
Sigue así, quisiera que la barrera del idioma no nos distanciara y quisiera poder expresar lo que siento hacia ti con algo más complejo y específico que el lenguaje; pero es la herramienta que tengo para llegar a ti, y, desde lo más profundo de mi corazón , te lo juro por mi madre, quiero lo mejor para ti, quiero que sepas que eres fuerte y nunca te olvides de ser feliz. Desconozco como haya sido tu relación con emociones como la felicidad, la tristeza, el enojo, etc. en tu vida, pero espero que, en todas las felicidades, tristezas y enojos que pasaron y que pasaran, al final de el día , encuentres plenitud. Pero más que nada, te encuentres a ti. Ama, llora, ríe, sueña y siente sin descanso, Por qué nunca sabrás lo fuerte que eres, hasta que ser fuerte sea la única opción.
Currently recovering from two emergency brain surgery's. Sitting in my garden with a coffee on a beautiful sunny morning, sun on my face, breeze gentle blowing the trees, birds chirping and singing, the distant sound of cars going by all add more beauty to this track. Happy to still be here 🙏🏻
I've read through a lot of what this comment section has to say and this is very accurate. There's beauty, sadness, love, loss, confusion, pain, and everything in between. Hundreds of different stories in here about every deep human emotion all brought up by this one song, amazing.
This is so well put. I think that most good art whether a piece of music or a painting has this quality where it gives us a means of reflection and can bring stuff out of us that gets buried.
I’m a 22 year old single father. I lost my job a couple days before thanksgiving and have just finally gotten a new one. I’m falling in love for the first time since the mother of child left us for alcohol over a year ago. I’m healthier than I’ve ever been. I’ve regained my love for reading. I have picked up new hobbies. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been even though I’m in the most stressful position I’ve ever been in. Things get better. Life has a billion small joys that must be sought out. Keep going and you can find them.
This is my first comment ever. I'm one of those people that are too ashamed of sharing their feelings and feel that everything about them is embarassing. I'm 15 and struggling with life, alone, well, I'm just too different from others. Family problems and had a very hard childhood, worried for my 2 brothers and 4 sisters. Mother hates me now because of father, and father expects too much of me. There's just so much I wan't to share with people but they never understand, they just...never do. Most of the time I feel like I'm not living and just exist. Thank you Aphex twin for all the emptiness and I swear it, I will never forget this song.
I'm the same, always feel like its never right the right time to share what I'm feeling or it's the wrong person. I still haven't found a solution so let me know if you do bud :)
TH-cam comments are so beautiful when you think about it. Especially on videos like this. Here we are, all of us strangers, sitting together with this gentle song as we leave little pieces of ourselves for others to discover. Here I am part of something much bigger than myself. Here I see others out from under the guise of an introduction or a first impression. We can simply leave things of ours such as our thoughts, our wisdom, or stories for anyone else at all who might appreciate and just now I find that so beautiful. Thank you for reading this little piece of me.
Thank you for this. I find certain Aphex Twin tracks (this being one) gently pushes us to be self-reflective and philosophical. This is a go-to for me when I need inner peace. Headphones on, lights off: peace.
i think most of us don’t realize how technology has changed us and how intertwined and connected we became. the total opposite is being said, we are being told that we are losing connections bonds with people but here we are millions of total strangers gathering in a comment section offering a look from a small window to our lives. we come together to tell our story, share our pain and cherish our good memories. we are human and we are connected. it is incredibly hard for me to live a life where i dont stop and think about the others who walked on the same streets as me or drank from the same cafe as me. it is exhausting at most times but sometimes it can be comforting. i go through the comments read bits and pieces of you guys’s lives and i smile, i get sad with you or i relate to your struggles. then when its time i like your comments and wish you the best. to all the strangers out there reading mine comment, have a wonderful day❤
not an realistic view brother, local communities are being destructed by social media, for example in the west no stranger ever talks to each other with good virtue like we used to do before the internet
Came home from uni today. Took a walk through the woods, past the spot I had my first kiss, the place I used to smoke at, and the spot I tried to take my own life. Just watching the water move at it’s own pace and my breath in the cold was true peace life can be beautiful bros
hey take care dude hopefully youre doing alot better now and if you arent doing well keep pushin dont give up Youll get there! and the fact that you got this far is already pretty dang impressive so keep going mate
Hey brother I hope and pray you are feeling better and stronger mentally . This life everyday bring me down but you gotta keep pumping keep thriving it’s time to Focus .
@@LordHaveMercy Kinda crazy I was listening to this and tought this you should dono, some real actually good music to share. Then I look comments see you here.. Small world.
She’s my first thought in the morning when I open my eyes, and my last thought when I close them. I hope one day our paths converge again, for good this time. Forever and always.
I am 26 years old. I have been a carer for my unwell parents for the last 3 years. I don't see my friends, I don't have any love in my life, I am isolated from the world and very alone. I am a deeply sad man. Every day I feel further from myself than the last. This song, this comments section, allows me to both pity myself and maintain a glimmer of hope that things will get better, that my life will improve. That one day I can again feel like the man I was who now seems a stranger. I hope all of you here now, who will be in the future, find happiness and peace, whatever form that takes for you.
May Allah heal your parents and heal your heart >> brother this life is cruel , I pray your parents get health and you also become joyful adventurous man again. Inshallah, I am 21 an immature tbh.
I’m also about to be 26 yo. From experience I can say that i have felt that feeling, sometimes it’s exhausting, other times it feels warm and a place comfortable. 6 months ago i decided to change my life, there are always ups and downs in this path to do what YOU want, and not what others want from you. It’s a long way, nothing you wouldn’t know by now. Don’t settle for what is happening right now. Make a change my man. You got it
Sometime earlier this year, me and my twin brother, when we couldn't sleep, would get dressed and go on a walk, usually starting at some time just before 5 AM. Everything was calm and still, like him and me were the only living souls on the planet. We would walk and chat bullshit until roughly 6 AM, when we would head down to the local corner shop and buy a drink, then head home. Every day me and him did this was cloudy and foggy, and I would have this repeating either in my head, or through my trusty wireless earphones. I will stand by my word that those few days I'd did that with him is a very brief period in my life to remember forever.
This song makes me appreciate what it is to be human. In a world full of deception and false glory, going through core emotions with yourself is still so real. Especially while listening to this song… take care.
I’m currently 17, I just finished my first trimester of junior year. Hopefully i’ll come back to this song later on in my life and realize how good my life was during this time. To the future me, thank you for sticking around, be yourself. Enjoy the people you have around you. I know it’ll get hard. You need to help yourself before you help others.
we are in this together man. its hell but i can tell this is the last time i have before i lose the child in me, which is probably already gone. 17 feels so young yet so grown, why do i feel this way at such a young age 😭
My friend lost his battle against cancer this morning. He was the most amazing person i have ever met. I'm currently just not even sure what to do with my life, he has brought so much joy into my world. And now he's gone. Rest in peace, Matthew, you will be immensely missed.
Sounds like Matthew was a great guy, and I'm really sorry for your loss, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I hope things can get better for you, for his friends, and for his family. I'll be praying for ya and sending love your way. Blessings to you and yours, and may Matthew rest in peace ❤🙏
I have so much fear of playing this, because if whenever i do, hours pass away, emotions flow like gushing river, cant focus on work to be done. I've always wanted to have some music that i have reserve for rare moments (good or bad) and this is the only one till now. Its a masterpiece. Thank you Aphex Twin
“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.” -Lao Tzu.
@@westarrr you are correct, I tried to research where this quote came from but i wasn’t able to find anything. I did find that a lot of very old quotes are often credited incorrectly though. Very surprising because this has been one of my favorite quotes for years. Much love man
two days ago i had one of the worst days of my life and cried for more than an hour straight while watching videos of my dad who comitted suicide a few months ago and now im sitting at my dining table studying classical mythology with the sun shining off and on through my window thinking 'oh what a wonderful world we live in. it is going to be okay' and it is. it will. i am speaking to you, someone who is also having a tough time, you will find moments where you'll think this exact same thing, you will find peace and light and safety again. and i believe in you and i love you and i still miss my dad and wish he was here but i also still love him very much. and time will heal all wounds i promise
I doubt anyone will read this but I wanna journal this moment of my life here. I’m currently laying down on a bench at my college, staring at the empty blue sky and thinking about how I’m both in an incredible, but equally lonely point in life. I feel so happy with how much I’ve powered through just to be going back to college and doing something I love. It feels lonely being here, all my friends have graduated, I’m 23 now. I feel like I’m not able to relate to anyone on campus as I’m not young, but I’m certainly not old. I feel alone in my accomplishments.
Hey man idk you but I just want to say keep up the good work. To do things in life alone can be agonizing; however, you should appreciate how beautiful it is to be with yourself. I think everyone goes through points in their life where they have to be lonely so they can learn to be with themselves comfortably. You are the person who you will spend the rest of your life with so you might as well love every moment with yourself. I do understand how you feel, but just know you're going to be okay, always:) good luck my friend
Join a local community that values you and can celebrate your accomplishments as you celebrate theirs! They are out there, and you can carve your own niche in any community. There are thousands more just like you, creating and accomplishing alone, hoping for unique and powerful connections like they had when school cohorts made it impossible not to make them. You will find them, and they will find you, if you look.
@@swayor I actually gained this exact mindset after I posted the original comment, I’m currently in the process of starting a club on my college campus related to music and music discussion
Last October I left France for England, after 2 years of hard work and saving money I finally afforded me a music production school based in Manchester. On 17th October, after saying goodbye to my dad I jumped in my car, and started a very long journey to England. On 20 th October I finally arrived in Manchester. After few days of room research, finally found a place to stay. a lovely room in the suburbs of Manchester (Salford/ walkden). There was a lake next to my place that I used to walk almost every day even though it was raining and cold lol. There was this bunch at the lake where I used to sat and listening to this track with a good view on the lake. Damn it felt so good. Then I discovered that pub 5 min walking from my home, a pub full of very good lads, they all accepted me. Had very great times there My class was perfect, good student, good teacher. My times there was Epic. On Monday morning 12th December I made a song, I posted it on SoundCloud then send it to my dad, he responded me " son you getting better and better " On Monday evening, my step mom send me a text saying " your dad was admitted to the emergency cause he was feeling very bad and kept puking. The next day doctor found a pancreatitis to my dad. My step mom went to see him at hospital she told me he's very tired. On Wednesday 14th I woke up at 9am check my phone, I had a text from my step mom saying that he still tired but he's doing fine he's on his way to recovering Here's come 12pm I got a phone call from my step mom saying " your dad passed away ". I was there alone in my room sitting on my bed, couldn't realised what was going on. I bought myself a ticket flight the next day to go back to France, I had to quit my school and everything I started in Manchester. 7 months later I'm here in his house taking care of his dogs, and still listening to this music, watching stars in the sky at the same times and thinking about him. He was a very good man, always here for me. I can say I'm very proud to be his son ! All this made me realized that life is too short, and you have to enjoy every moment you spending on this planet. Thank you England for this very good experiences. Rest in peace dad, we will meet again. I love you forever dad ♥️
Thanks for sharing this❤️ too bad you had to leave school. Some day, a new oppertunity will appear. But it will only appear id you are open to it. Good luck and may your father rest in peace.
Hey man, I didn't know ur father but I can 100% tell u honestly that he was so so proud of u man. Going after ur dreams, building a career, and then also making the most of an unfortunate situation. I'm proud of u too bro, u keep going n just know that ur an inspiration to many strangers from all across the world (including myself) bless up brother, hope you and ur fam are doing well, and give ur father's dogs a pet for me bro🙏🙏
Im sorry for you man. Im glad you had such an great father figure in your life. Every time you feel sad about your loss, remember those amazing experiences you had with your dad, as simple as they may be, always remember them and look back on them. Good luck to you 🫶
leaving for the military today, this song helped me calm my mind and ease the thought of entering the unknown. i hope i can come back and listen to it when i make it through and have my life together.
I'm currently 17 , i had best friend he was like a brother to me when we were in highschool he was always sharing his headphones with me when i tell him abt things that are going low & he always gave me it with this song on & always told me to fight & he knows that i struggle & how does it feel even though he never even cried or showed negative emotions to everyone besides he was always the therapist friend . One night him & i & bunch of our friends met & had fun & laughed & he laughed most and made us all laugh by his silly funny jokes that we used too . The day after that we heard that he took his life on his way home. Everytime i hear this song it reminds me of you dear Jacob 💗.
I'm listening to this knowing it is time for me to take action and chase my goals because nobody is going to save me, to all of you out there i wish you the best guys we can do it. I Belive in you🙌
My 8 year relationship fell apart last January, it’s transitioning from fall to winter now, for the entirety of 2023 I was stuck in limbo, not knowing what to do with myself everyday felt like a repeat. Listening to this while waiting to clock into work, I can feel 2024 will start a completely new and foreign chapter in my life. I am at peace now.
Hey, keep going, i totally got that, i think im falling down the same path with my gf and feel i cant do anything about it… 2024 will be a better year hopefully.
i’m 22 years old and i just stumbled across this song. i love the fact that everyone is sharing their stories as they come across this song, so i figured i’d add my own. the path i’m on feels so uncertain. i know i’m still young, but i feel like life is rushing by me faster than i can keep up with. i’m at a point in my life where i feel as though i’ll never find happiness, but these comments gave me hope and reminded me i need to slow down. the song feels a lot like me coming to this realization. instead of worrying and overthinking everything all the time, i need to let go and just go with the flow of life and let it take me wherever it’s gonna take me. i feel a lot lighter with the decision that i’m going to just live life and let it do it’s thing rather than me trying to control every aspect and keep up with my peers who i am often jealous of. i always seem to think they have better things than me and a brighter future, and maybe that’s true, but i need to just let my life run its course. i don’t need to have everything figured out… i’m only 22 after all. sometimes i just get so caught up in being alive itself that i forget to actually live. thank you to everyone who left a comment on this video, you all helped me realize things will get better eventually and everything will fall into it’s right place, whatever it may be. i just have to be patient and wait on it.
dude i'm just tired of feeling so lost. i don't even know where life is taking me, it's just like i'm always on autopilot waiting for something to happen
make sure you make the best of these moments. i totally understand man, its torture. you want your life to be yours. but it still can, even if thats on a smaller scale. you can pursue passions and creative hobbies. attempt to make fun out of the mundane. uproot routine and do something completely spontaneous. be consumed by time as you meander somewhere on a walk or in your mind. take control from the bottom up. that isn't professional advice or anything, but it's what I've picked up in my experience from feeling very disconnected and not understanding what im meant to be doing or where im going in life. much love.
for you who are reading this message, I want you to swear that you will never give up, no matter what happens in life, always believe that something beautiful will happen.
@@candycouldntbesosweet it's bad to lose someone that you have strong feelings towards them, like you mentioned. but please remember that sad happenings can lead out into better opportunities. so even if you lose someone like her, please do remember that someday you'll find someone that can be just like her, or even better, just trust me.
It’s a Monday night/ Tuesday morning, it’s 2am and I was just about to head to bed and went to the kitchen to grab a drink then seen light shining through the window and went outside and seen it was a full moon. I don’t know why but I decided to get my headphones and listen to this song while watching the moon and stars. It’s a warm night and the sky is clear and for the first time in years I feel as if I’m at peace. I never really sit down to enjoy the little things in life cause life has been passing through so fast recently and it feels as if everything has sorta stopped and it’s just me and only me in this moment but while I was reading through the comments I was touched by the amount of people in here sharing a story so thought I’d add my own little one in here. The world is so beautiful but also so cruel at the same time, I need to appreciate things more in the sense as nothing lasts forever. I see why sunsets are so pretty, they may happen most days but only for a certain amount of time. It’s very quiet as i sit here at night time just looking up at the sky. The air feels clear, my mind feels free and the universe seems to stop for a minutes while I just lay here watching the stars in the distance and the full moon shining down. Appreciate little things like this.
When I was in utero my dad would play aphex twin and place headphones on my mums stomach. He used to wake me at dawn and bundle me in his arms as we strolled to the crisp Cornish beach to catch the sunrise listening to ambient works. When I was older he’d wake me up on nights where his insomnia was particularly bad and we’d stroll to the beach arm in arm watching the stars. I came across this as I’m sat in a daze alone in my bedroom. I’m 24 now, just under four years ago I woke to find my dads body after he took his own life. He requested #3 Ambient works as one of the songs for his funeral. I can’t listen to that album anymore without feeling deep turmoil, but this song gives me some will to fight. I feel as if my silhouette is a lightbulb and I could shatter at any moment but even still, there’s something in me willing to find the light.
You had an amazing dad.. treat your future child with similar childhood without negatives. I find your story beautiful. Its very sad but you wrote it beautifully
After my sister died, my dad gave up. I was twenty at the time. He didn’t end his life in one tragic event, but after he died we learned he was having heart problems and instead of seeking treatment that would have absolutely prolonged his life for decades, he chose to embrace death. He even asked days before he died if I would be able to take care of myself if something were to happen to him. It’s crazy to think I knew he needed peace in that moment, without knowing the consequences, and I told him I would be ok. My younger sister held onto anger for him for a long time, but I never did. I knew his soul was in pain and thus couldn’t see how much pain he would leave behind. My sister always runs through her head why we weren’t enough to keep him going, even ten years later. Would he have been able to hold onto his will to live if it was one of us and not the sister who died before him? I never thought that way, though. I know he couldn’t see the burden he would place on our shoulders or all the things that took place in the wake of his death. He didn’t know. And I’ve never felt a thing but forgiveness for that, for we are all human.
Reading all these comments really helped me feel like i wasn’t alone with my problems. Its one thing for a parent or guardian figure in your life to say to you “you’re not alone”, but really seeing it with your own eyes is something else man. I appreciate all of you and am glad that you were all able to share your stories and experiences. Thank you, cheers 🍻
It's 6:22 am (EST), 15th January 2024, third week of the year. Our shops have just been looted and burnt down in the last few days. It all happened in a blink of an eye. I thought I was gon loose my job. My partner is pregnant with our first child, the thought of losing a job and the responsibilities of being a father. Thank God, I'm still here. I hope I can revisit this video when I have everything I always dreamed about.
You can do it my friend! You are strong hearted, face the hardships of the world and win for those you love, for their true happiness. Look for role models out of good people, let their way guide you to forge a good life
Ive instructed my friends and family for years that this song is to be played at my funeral. There should be no eulogy, no talking, just this song and silence. Played one time, and then its over. Everyone is to go home, and get on with their lives. Over the years much has changed, but not this. Never this.
This is how it feels when you no longer know whether you should continue pursuing your dream or give it up in your 30s. Born in '94, it's 4 AM and I'm wondering where the years went so fast.
I've been a lonely person in my whole life. I had no purpose. But Today was the first day that I felt Power. First time I felt like an adult. My father got invited to a dinner party and I went with him. For the first time in my life I talked with people who I always wanted to become. Free. Happy. Ambitious. I talked with them like a man. Had amazing conversations.. I found what I want in life. My path. My goal. I will succeed
Last winter i was extremely depressed and listened to this song alot, i cried to it alot. I used to feel so incredibly empty but recently im feeling way better and hope this winter will be better. I hope everyone who is struggling sees through their struggles.
Last winter was the lowest ive ever been in my life. I remember queueing this song three times in a row while taking the metro to work, and just listened to this for 30 minutes straight. I learned from what happened last year and things got better in the summer, but its getting tough again. I hope things will be different this year.
Last winter and the start of 2023 was really bad for me. It's so easy to slip into a depression, and once you are there its so hard to see any way out. This winter will be much better. We will do great :)
I feel you man, currently just clawing my way out of a rut right now. This kind of music is quite therapeutic and I think is necessary to start healing. If you are into foo fighters I can suggest their earliest albums "Exhuasted" hits you right in the feels
@@jackassir6060yeah I miss my cat. Had him for 15 years as I grew up and had such a bond with him unlike any other. This music makes me reflect on past times good and bad. As much as we want them back, it’s apart of life to live, love, grieve and appreciate the family, friends or companions we lost. Thankfully we had the memories and that never goes away.
I was with the love of my life for almost three years, and for two of those I was her carer. It was the hardest part of my life so far, and I put every fibre of my being into helping her to live a meaningful life, despite her disability.After multiple suicide attempts, endless trips to hospitals, and constant pressure to hold together our world while everything tried to tear it apart, I was exhausted. In the end I broke it off because I'd lost myself in the process and couldn't give anything more. I was done. But she was doing better - she finally had a network of support around her and was on a path that gave her hope for the future. For a long time I was in a deep depression, oscillating between being angry and bitter, and sadness - in mourning for the life I should have had. I hated myself for not being a strong enough man to resist the abuse and fit the masculine profile society tells me I should be. And I hated her for what she made me become. But then I started running again, spending time in nature, quitting alcohol and confronting who I really was; relearning the things I loved, revisiting old relationships and reminiscing about the people we were and the things we did. And I forgave her, because none of us are perfect, and navigating this world and the people in it is a challenging endeavour, not least when you're ill. Things aren't perfect, and life hasn't followed the trajectory I expected, but, a year later, I think I've finally found peace. I've realised that you can only do what you can do, and that every experience happens for a reason, and teaches you to be a stronger, more resilient person. Life isn't fair, but that's what life is. A beautiful collision of circumstance and helplessness, of love and anger, of reconciliation and acceptance. As I try to put my life back together now, I still think about her everyday, and the life I could be living. I don't think I will ever love anyone like I loved her, but I know we can never be together. And that's OK. I hope she's doing well.
Im still alive, these past months have been hard, i broke up with the girl i thought i would marry, no job, and other things, but i believe that one day i will be happy, this feeling of sadness is temporary
Not even halfway through this video and I’ve shed the first tears I’ve had in years. I miss my family but they’ve all accepted that I’m different from them and moved on. I just want to feel loved by my parents again, I want my father to be proud of me without denying me affection.
Clayton, we don’t know each other aside from sharing this piece of music. I think and believe that a person who can really express himself, is someone who I can look up to, who I can be proud of. Focus on building up your self confidence . How? By having fun being with yourself, doing things by yourself, exercise, play, distract from bad augury. Don’t carry yourself around, enjoy yourself while being yourself.
Listening to this while I‘m zoned out in my bed and suffer because I lost my Dad who was my hero, my idol and my best friend through all these times. I still can’t get over it and have to think about him everyday. Today would‘ve been his birthday… Happy Birthday Dad, I love you and I always will
I wish the best for you in life mate, rest in peace to your father. I lost mine at 6 months old, I am now nearly 24 and not a day goes by that I do not think about him. Push yourself and be the best person you can be.
I'm so sorry for your lost. Just would like to remind you, you are not alone. You are strong enough to keep going. I lost mine last year, two months after I lost mine grandma, and he told me after that day, "the carrousel of life stop for a sec, she goes down, and the carrousel started again, life goes on" Wish u good luck
I listen to this song every night to help me sleep but it usually ends up keeping me up, thinking about life, where I want to be, where I am, if I’m doing it right. Half the time it’s that or the other half is thinking about this girl that I’ve only been on one date with recently but she is just, well, different. Makes me smile, makes me happy. This music is the core of music
I will never understand what kind of emotions I am feeling when I am listening to this masterpiece. I can’t tell if I am happy sad nostalgic or just lost. When I first heard it I started crying like I just needed to get it if my system but I don’t know why I was crying or why I had this strange sensation on my stomach. I think it was the first time I felt at peace
My wife is on the other side of the room studying for school. My kids play with their toys just before bed time. I just got done doing dished by hand after a long day at work. This will be my day tomorrow and I am totally okay with that.
I understand you is a feeling that has accompanied me all my life and I don't know if one day this will change, but in spite of that I live trying to find enjoyment in life, in the little things, in the fleeting moments, in astonishing myself, in making an effort, in looking for certain tranquillity and coherence, to be at peace above all with myself, those things for me are condensed in this song.
It’s 6:48 in the morning I’ve been lost in my own thoughts and couldn’t sleep, I listen to this amazing song and can’t help but feeling some kind of peace, im going to sleep now, stay safe out there and have a nice life to whoever reads it.
here i am, i was just laying in my bed, looking at the moon with this track playing next to my ears. i’ve gone through heartbreak recently, which ended the toughest year i’ve had so far. i feel deeply sad, frustrated, exhausted, but also hopeful. it is frustrating to be used to this shitty feeling that is heartbreak, although this time i turn to music and relaxation and crafts for relief, instead of substances like i’ve always had. what a strange year it’s been, i let myself get too comfortable, i was not responsible for myself, i spent my days in a high haze still hopeful, yet unwilling to do anything and detesting the environment and sometimes myself. i’ve always thought i need to break myself fully to start healing, only recently i have shed myself of that belief and i am slowly moving back to a healthy lifestyle and mindset. as i let myself go, anxiety caught me. i was supposed to go and have a half year of studying abroad instead of staying in the country that i hated, yet i gave in to the fear and anxiety and stayed back in my home country, which i adore. i now spend my days working a regular 9-5 office job, taking care of myself, feeling at ease with myself after all this time. mundane but fulfilling. life is beautiful, and this sonic masterpiece proves it. i get to feel my emotions to this wondrous track, and they may be unpleasant now, but i feel them instead of numbing myself again. which is beautiful and makes me feel alive and i remain hopeful, deeply hopeful, i wish for everybody to remain hopeful and curious, as that’s the youthful spirit to keep us going. i loved entering this touching space of your intimate personal comments, thank you and bless you
😂 billions nor millions 👉 the stable firm earth doesn't rotate only the celestial as we are in the FIRMAMENT 😊 and the earth should be less than 20 thousands years old
I can't wait to come back to this video in some years and see all of your success stories about how you all managed to push through and find peace in the end. I look forward to it :)
Me and my ex just broke up. She loved to listen to apex twin. Somehow I found myself stumbling upon this video reminiscing. Not a bad but thankful reminiscence. Thankful we met. Thankful for how she changed me as a person. Thankful that we still share the same sun. Even though we couldn’t see eye to eye on our differences I still wish her the best. I’ll always remember the times we spent in room 450
Life is beautiful. It’s painful, scary, treacherous, but damn is it beautiful. I’m listening to this while getting ready to leave my childhood home. I’ve lived here for 20 years and it’s all I know. I’m reminiscing on all the memories that I’ve experienced here. The ups and the downs, the laughter and the tears. I’ve lived many lives here, had so many friends, so many parties, had love and heartbreak, had all my firsts here. Damn this is the last place that I ever saw my dad alive. This place has been my solace and has been the vessel to allow me to grow into the man I am today. I am afraid to leave, I don’t know what is to come, but change is so important and it is inevitable. We can’t just hold onto the past because we are afraid of letting it go. The more we strip the house of its furniture and Knick knacks the more I realize it was never the house that was my home, but the life I lived within it with my family and friends. I don’t know what the future has to offer, but I know it will bring more life, more friends, more love, more ups and downs. All I can do now is be grateful for the time and experiences I was able to have here, and be excited for what’s to come. Time to find my next home.
Currently laying in bed, listening to this masterpiece, overthinking everything that’s happened, thinking about what I could’ve done better or changed in my life to get to where I am. I feel like every time I’m at my lowest point in life I notice everything that’s happening around me, who’s really there for you and who’s not, the pain and struggle just hanging from my shoulders, the thought of giving up, always fatigued, no motivation or drive to do anything fun anymore, distancing myself from my loved ones, just mentally drained at this point. Whenever I come back to this sound it just keeps me at peace, and for anyone going thru the struggles right now, just know that this shit is temporary, we’ll be out the gutter soon! The people who were there for you when you had nothing keep them close, I know it’s tough but you gotta thug it out for your loved ones, Stay strong Kings! don’t let the struggle tear you apart. ❤️👑
Fascinating how he managed to make 3 chords remain interesting for over 10 minutes. I suppose minimalism is one of the driving factors in a good ambient track.
It's extremely subtle, but there are elements being added and taken away throughout the entirety of the track. The rhythmic length of the 3 chord sequence also changes and extends/contracts. So there is change, but it's incredibly subtle.
idk. it's okay when you're falling asleep but it's not intented for active listening imo. Autechre's Vletrmx which basically has just like 5 different notes over 4 bars repeated for seven minutes sounds much more interesting and alive than this.
I feel like that because of the insane speed that the world is moving, we often get caught in the routine of the daily life and get used to think only in ways that would make us more effective and successful. Tracks like this remind me of a distant place and time, before 18 when everything had a special vibe and I had a lot of moments just to stop, listen to music while watching the sunset, and think. Those times feel long gone and forgotten, but every now and then I come around a track like this and remember to stop, and think
nah man, i feel you brother, back then we would just sit, listen to some chill songs and just stare at a sunset. we all need some time with ourselves, and even if we don t notice, that s a very important requirement for our sanity, we just need to release all the build up tension
When I listen to this, I'm imagining myself walking barefoot on the grass in an unknown distant land full of mysterious little creatures that walk around me and talk to me about life. This is the background music of this place, it's just flying in the air, undisturbed and eternal.
14 is when I started listening to Aphex Twin and now I’m 32. I’ve never had a close friend who also loved his music. Now I’m a year in with a girlfriend who I showed this and the other tranquil beautiful songs to. We listened to Stone In Focus for the moon rising over the ocean last year and I played Lichen for her the first time I wanted to open up more deeply with her....... and last night was the first time I told her I love her. Just wanted to share that
Divorced, broke, and adult living back at home. Lonely no friends but I’ve finally accepted it. I see my son once a fortnight and it makes it all okay. Life has its downs and I live mostly in those downs. It is the small moments that make it all worth it. Small smiles, small wins, small brief senses of joys override the seemingly endless pain, sadness and loneliness. I am alive. I am healthy. I have a roof over my head. That’s all that matters at the end of the day. Anything else is a bonus…. So I tell myself.I have to believe thats this is all that matters...
just recently got into aphex twin, it helps me keep my head up even after all the unfortunate events that happened in my life. last month felt like a true rollercoaster, college, work, my grandfather passing away, everything, just gone by so quickly. yesterday my girlfriend decided she couldn't take it anymore and we broke up, i feel like everything i had have been taken away from me, i feel paralyzed ever since the person i thought was the love of my life just turned cold and dont even want to talk to me anymore. but i do know that at some point these will all be memories i'll laugh at, realizing i've become a stronger and better person. all i need is to live one more day. 01/09/2024
Keep going… please don’t stop. Someday when I meet you, I will give you a hug. I promise. I know it hurts, and that the comfort in knowing they will be “future memories” isn’t enough sometimes. Please reach out if you need a person, even just to game with. I got you.
Sitting here on my balcony, I’ve been observing about 200 or so people in a park. As I’m watching, I am in awe of the beauty of humanity. Whether you’re laughing with your friends or alone, cherish those moments, for they make life.
Day after Christmas and I’m crying again listening to this song thinking abt my dead mom. I got her chain as a gift and wearing it makes me feel protected yet guilty because im not the person I want to be yet. But im still alive so I’ll just keep going. It’s so hard knowing she isn’t and will never be there to hug or congratulate me. The holidays have never hurt me this much. I love you and hope you’re safe.
I'm 63 and only recently found Aphex Twin, quite by accident. Life is really amazingly random. For me, the lack of real control, and the awareness of that, which intensifies as you age, lose loved ones, accumulate various health issues (which may or may not be things you have any control over re behavior), etc. is what I struggle with. I had to actually look up "ambient music" to be sure I understood what it was. I had listened to some of it over the years from minimalist composers like Philip Glass (who did the wonderful music for Koyaanisqatsi), not even realizing that was a thing. But the first time I say that film at about age 24 (more like the age of various commenters here) and sat just STUNNED in the theater when it was over as everyone else in that big packed theater got up and hurried to their car, made me more aware "I'm not like most other people". For me at that point, it really dawned on me how badly we are screwing up the planet, decades before climate change became such an obvious huge problem. Now, almost 40 years later, I realize that I'm on the autism spectrum, and that's why I have trouble understanding the emotional life of lots of people. Like for me, I was really surprised at how sad so many people in comments said this beautiful song makes them feel. To me it makes me feel quiet, safe, and comfortable emotionally, even as my mind roams over many topics. It's like a calming tonic for the normal whirlwind chaos that is much of life. I agree with another poster re the quality and the compassion and positivity re all the comments here. Sometimes I am very proud to be a human being (unlike the dismay human events causes at other times), so thank you so much for this community for providing that as an adjunct to this wonderful piece of musical artwork.
I met a girl, fell in love with her and we rlly clicked, everything was perfect and I was at the happiest peak I’ll ever be at. Two cheating accusations occured in two months back to back and my friends forced me to leave her. I like my friends. I miss my home (her) and I have just found out both cheating accusations were not true. I still love her and we’re snapping, but I’m not sure if we can ever be the same again. It’s been 3 months now.
08/05/2024 today was my last day of school and tomorrow i start my exams. i havent cried yet, and its strange because it feels like the end even though tomorrow i will see all the same people again. i'll never have a physics or chemistry lesson again and im noww free to study history! i hope it all turns out well and aphex twin has been helping me get through this weird time xx
Its a nice thought...but I disagree on that...to me it sounds more like the final hug of a Person you wont see in a long time or maybe never again... Cause this song is soo bittersweet
This song gives me a feeling of acceptance in life. Sure, there tangible melancholy in it... But there's also something endearing to it too. A bizarre mix of good and bad together that make it Serene... Peaceful... And just... Clear. As though I've come to the end of my life, looking back at all the things I've done thinking... "Yeah, I don't regret this. This was a good life."
Hi, i am a Brazilian independent artist. I composed, mixed and made the cover of this album over a year, thinking about the sleep experience and the layers of consciousness. It is a 28 minute album with two songs. I wanna be heard by people who connect with ambient music. Aphex was a big inspiration. (I am discovering ways to spread my art and my work.) This is very special. It means a lot to me. Enjoy. th-cam.com/video/Tp2P5S-txVI/w-d-xo.html
I'm turning 32 this year, but my mind is shackled with old memories, things I can't change, minds I can't bend.. yet my sweet heart and soul can't deny the fact that I can't ignore all the bad things that people have done to me and still do.. I've been a prisoner of my mind since 2010, I'm a prisoner to my thoughts, I'm a prisoner to the past and I'm absent to my present and blurry to the future..
A few days ago my grandpa was diagnosed with cancer. Today we discovered it was stage 3 and it could have spread to his brain. Im going to get my drivers license soon. Ive been in love with someone for a long time and recently it feels like they love me back. I feel like I’m entering a new phase of my life. I miss being a little kid but i also know i have so much ahead of me. I miss playing checkers with my grandpa. Thank you aphex twin, i love this song.
I feel you brother, my uncle got diagnosed stage 4 cancer almost 2 years ago now, thankfully he beat the shit out of this fucking disease. But shortly after another member of my family shot himself. But life goes on, there's some good times and some awful times. Although I feel like horrible things tend to affect and impact me a lot more.
hi bro, my grandma recently got stage 4 stomach cancer that might not be curable as she is in her mid 80s and on a slight decline, so I understand your pain. I also just got my drivers license in october, so I hope you were able to pass and get it! I am wanting someone to love in my life very bad, so I hope that person works out for you fr. I know I need to just be patient and trust. I too feel like i’m entering a new phase in my life, and am excited yet I also miss being a kid. I wish all the best for you in all aspects
jesus christ, these kind of comments make me want to unlearn empathy... just the mere imagination of having to attend my brother's funeral makes me feel sick. I'm so sorry for your loss, I really can't imagine what you have to go through.
@@cozymode70 You've spoke from the heart right there. I too sometimes wish i was born a psychopath. Human life, cognitive abilities, and the dark nature of the universe and nature is traumatizing and this stuff can be overwhelming the more conscious you are. I can envision you growing into a very strong person especially since you have the ability to reflect. And although it's extremely hard to imagine death, but i believe it's just an illusion. Before you were born you were in a state of nonexistence when you die you might end up in the state you were before you were even a sperm before you father existed. Time is not the same or if it's even there when we die. But i'm sure it will be like waking up again on a new planet maybe the same as a living thing. It's still too hard to accept too because there are many horrible ways you will die and you'll have the most blissful lives as well. The universe is torture and all this for why? What purpose if at all? And does it even need a reason?
November of 2022, I met this girl, she was everything I was not but everything I’ve ever wanted. Was the most beautiful and amazing and silliest girl I’ve ever met. Met her in the the bay where I live while she was visiting here. Met her on a Thursday night, she was supposed leave the next day, Friday, but she extended her stay. I saw her Friday, Saturday, and dropped her off the airport Sunday. When I was dropping her off she started to cry but I remained strong in front of her and reassured her everything will be fine for her. She had to go back to San Diego. When I started leaving the airport I immediately broke down, almost like if part of my soul was being taken away. When you hold something so precious being taken away. She had opened up to me and I to her. I was enamored with this girl. 2 weeks later I flew out to her, I couldn’t stand being away from her. She picked me up at the San Diego airport, from there we went to our hotel. I went into the shower because she was insisting that I should shower, at the time I found it odd, like i was being setup. When I came out she surprised with one of the nicest gestures someone has ever done. She celebrated my birthday after I had told her I didn’t like to celebrate it. I wanted to cry but I held back. We hung out for the next couple days. 3 weeks into knowing this girl and I wanted to spend the rest of eternity with her. Due to unfortunate circumstances and my 20 year old undeveloped brain and understanding, things did not play out how I wanted things to go. I flew back and things started to turn for worse. At the end we did not understand each other and bitterness and pride took over both of us and we both left each other with our back turned as we rode away on our high horses. To this day I still think about her, I cannot escape her in my dreams. Moon Rangel from San Diego, I still think about you. I would’ve moved mountains and parted oceans to be together. It was the best month of my life.
Isn’t it crazy how songs like this can bring together people from all over the world and make them wanna share little pieces of their lives with complete strangers? Truly fascinating…
Currently 02:05 in the cold night of oktober, my window slightly opend. This song feels like the cold breeze blowing to the side of my face, thinking about if i said something at that exact moment, that she would not left me. That if i did not said those few words, it would have changed the whole thing. Love yourself, before giving love to another
Damn bro i hope u will find the right one. Just imagine : this song, outside its like cold but not to cold just u and her at a beautuful quiet place and your just there and talking and having a good time. Damn i wish i can expirience something like that one day and i hope that for you too buddy. Keep it up.
"I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me." It's one of my favorite quotes from a game. Last year, I honestly considered taking my own life. Life was becoming too hard on me, but that was mostly because of my bad decisions. Drugs, bad relationships, anger, and being overweight were all taking a toll on me. I decided to move away, cut all those people off, quit drugs, lose weight by fasting, dieting, and going to the gym every day, as well as controlling my anger with better sleep and meditation. I did everything I possibly could to feel better, and I can honestly say it worked. I still have issues with money, understanding people, especially myself, but at least I'm in a better spot than last year. I have hope that it'll get even better. Whoever reads this, don't give up, no matter how bad it gets; you have the potential. Take one day at a time. Breathe a bit; you can always make it better in some way.
I'm sitting here randomly scrolling through youtube while on the phone with my girlfriend. She's sound asleep but I'm fully awake. She is the first person that feels like home, not just a young love but truly like home, warm, calm. Like coming home on a cold day after playing in the snow all day, and just feeling the warmth of home, sitting infront of the furnace with hot chocolate in your hands. Still I'm wondering what to do with my life, i have no idea where i am heading or where life takes me. I dont even know if i want to continue with uni . I'm 19 and dont know what to do or how to do it. It's a never ending cycle of questioning i cannot find the answers to, but everytime i scroll, hopelessly thinking and never finding an answer I remember her, and somehow I get calm and think to myself that all of this is part of life, its okay to feel lost, to feel alone, to feel you're at a place you dont belong to, being somehow with one foot in your own life and with the other you still cling to the peaceful life as a child. I have no Idea where I am going and thats okay, i think its part of becoming an adult. Although sometimes i wish i am still that kid running around in the snow, but i guess this is the bitter sweet part of adulthood, sometimes it frightens me. It's weird and idk if it will ever stop being weird, all i know that it's going to be okay somehow. This song sums up all of my thoughts and somehows makes me feel that life and adulthood will be okay.
You will achieve my friend, what may help is to find a role model, someone who achieves and is a good person, maybe a few, female and male, and listen to what they say. People say you are influenced by those you listen to, so listen to those who are loving and their ways, and you will have a very strong path ahead of you, lots of love mate
I’m lying in bed listening to this and all I can think of is how happy I am. I’m 22 and recently started my first job out of school. Took me 8 months to find something after graduating and it was probably the lowest point of my life. I watched all my friends get jobs and move out and I just felt so worthless. Now I’m in a great environment, working with people that have become friends outside of work, in the middle of an amazing city. I couldn’t be happier. It’s scary to think of how many more of those dips I’ll have to go through in my life, but knowing it can feel like this afterwards brings me some comfort. Life is funny :,)
Congrats! Yes, you will get through though times again, we all do, but you'll keep pushing on because you have strenght in you and eventually you'll find out it's never too bad. Remember what Louis Aragon said: "when it’s time to close the book, I’ll have no regrets. I’ve seen so many people live so badly, and so many die so well".
I'm in a small 10€ Hostel room in Milan with 4 middle aged man and a dirty bathroom. But my bunk bed is next to the open window, warm summer night air is blowing inside, I can see trees and an appartment block under a milky orange night sky and listen to this with ventilators in the background.
I sat and listened to this when i was 14 wondering where my life would take me....... I just turned 42 and it took me to a beautiful wife and 4 kids! Dont spend too much time wondering about life people, go and live it, it will pass in the blink of an eye believe me!
Thats insane this has been out for that long. Im 17 right now and im, honestly really afraid to grow up. I hope I can find my way and end up happy, as I hope you did.
Picture this: It’s 2014 and u just got back from school and hop on the game with all your friends doing your first heist on gta to getting your first victory Royale on Fortnite having the best time of your life not needing to worry about anything,to comming home from work and everyone has went on their own path and not playing games anymore. I remember my parents telling me when I was a kid “time goes by super fast” I never understood what that all meant till now I’m 19 and just sit on the home screen on PlayStation thinking about all the fun we had and took for granted saying I can’t wait to grow up to saying now I wish I was a kid again .
at 15 all i’ve felt was the regret of my own actions. one small decision led me to my lowest point and ruined everything down the road. i hope i’ll look back at this and remind myself how far i’ve come in the future. i wish everyone a blessed life🙏
Damn fr you just gave me a existential crisis at 12:32 am .. bruh I shouldn’t have ate that Burger King liek I shoulda just stayed home ya know :/ hungry
I’m lying down next to a girl that I think I’m falling in love with. She’s asleep and I’m listening on my headphones. Life is good and also weird and also confusing and I’m also unsure. What a trip
Enjoy life, brother. That's what makes it something to write about.
I love this, brother. Those days pass so quickly, but they shape who you are forever. Enjoy the utter bewilderment of it all, and how utterly insignificant it makes you feel.
As we say here in Scotland...
'Lang may yer lum reek'.
Well, Merlin Dogs? 3 weeks has passed? How do you feel now about this girl now?
Wolf Child❤
@@wolfchild9755 if the truth be told mate I think we’re about to break up, life goes on hey 🤷♂️
@@merlindogs9703 and that's okay brother. Love just like life is fleeting, enjoy the times that were (even if they were only 3 weeks ago) because the most beautiful moments in life are often followed by the hardest.
This is how it feels to not know if you’re getting better or worse and you’re stuck between wanting to keep fighting or just let go
Never give up! Never surrender!
although as obvious as the answer may seem looking back in the moment you can never find the right one.
To me this struggle just makes things worse. When I‘m at peace and have accepted the world, I know that in just a few minutes or hours I will feel pain until I think I’ll break for good now. A neverending cycle.
❤
Real
I’m 41. Been married for 15 years, have two daughters, own a home, decent paying job. And it’s all happened in the blink of an eye. Seems like just yesterday I was a jackass 23 year old without a responsibility in the world. This song sums up how I feel when I look back at everything, how it’s all unfolded, and how it all had to happen (even the bad stuff) the way it did for me to have the life I do today. Life’s a trip, what might seem like something small today is leading you down your path to where you’ll be, and you can’t even realize it (yet). If you’re young and reading this, live it up and enjoy it, you’re in “the good old days”. You never know where today’s decision or minor detail is taking you. And you’re gonna be 41 too before you know it.
Im so scared of the future. I don't know where I will go after I finish school, and I can't even think about having my own family. But reading your comment made me realize that adults are also just a bunch of grown up kids and we should enjoy our lives. We only live once!!
listened to this chilling out after full on Goa partys in the 90s....good memories, those were the times, they won't come back but as long you remember it , it is not gone. I am 51, btw, but would go back any time if I had a Tardis....
Thank you
Thank you, just thank you soo much to remembering that to us, im gonna turn 20 in next mounth and i was needing to remember that again. Because the things just makes me tired most of the time. I live in Turkey as a average Turkish young and i feel in void. i gotta ask you, no matter which standart i live, is things gonna be bearable at least?
@@beareleaseYes. The universe, god, nature, whatever it is - won’t throw anything your way that you can’t handle. Be good and life, even when challenged, will be good too.
Today I was found not guilty for a crime I didn't commit, it's been a brutal 6 months and this song came in my feed. With that and reading the comments, it made me tear up and value my life more
Gang I'm here for you, don't you forget that. One is all you get charish and nurture the moment of which you have.
@@User-_-Invalid thanks 😊
You got this brother, stay strong and enjoy every day of your life because as you may know, you never know when things might change
I am currently fighting a case of robbery, aggravated assault as a juvenile, a crime I did commit, I have court coming up in June, any advice? I'm currently on house arrest.
@@initial2593 no advice but you’re not alone..
This is how it feels when a good day ends and you know you will remember this day often in the future.
Real
And you'd be kinda sad cause it's maybe not gonna happen again
Fr
yea man, yea
@@ahmedaudi5050 The chances of it happening again and again in the future are high, but think if you knew it would even happen once more. Know one day at some point it's going to happen and you'll feel as good as you felt.
Just discovered this gem today, October 28, 2023.
I'm at a point of my life where I am still unsure about what next steps I should take. Hearing this, atleast for a couple of minutes was pure bliss. I guess I needed the break. Hopefully in the next time I check into this song, I have life figured out- or maybe at least have a sense of direction. Best regards to you future self!
Same.
From Tiktok 😂
Same, from tik tok as well
same
Hey brother found this song at the exact same date ❤
I like to imagine that, here, at the comment section, we just gather around this music and share bits of ourselves. Total strangers, who happened to cross each other's ways by bumping into this random, yet special, piece of art.
stories are how we connect. even if its only the briefest glimpse.
This comment section is like bros round a camp fire telling stories and thinking about the past
Yeah TH-cam comments on music centric videos is always this basically
Telling and sharing stories is a very special and human thing, like ancient peoples gathering around a fire…
The internet turned out to be so messy but comment sections like these take me back to the early days of the internet. Just a bunch of totally unrelated people doing their thing and connecting without a hidden agenda. This is what I love so much about the internet.
My mom has cancer. Since everyone is sharing. I’m 22. About to open my first office and have my first employee. Just recovered from a seizure. I’m not stopping. I’ll make my mom proud. I wish you the very fucking best.
Keep going on boss!! You're doing great!
Your mom should be proud of you , best wishes to yours mom ! don’t stop ! wish you health and good luck .
Sigue así, quisiera que la barrera del idioma no nos distanciara y quisiera poder expresar lo que siento hacia ti con algo más complejo y específico que el lenguaje; pero es la herramienta que tengo para llegar a ti, y, desde lo más profundo de mi corazón , te lo juro por mi madre, quiero lo mejor para ti, quiero que sepas que eres fuerte y nunca te olvides de ser feliz.
Desconozco como haya sido tu relación con emociones como la felicidad, la tristeza, el enojo, etc. en tu vida, pero espero que, en todas las felicidades, tristezas y enojos que pasaron y que pasaran, al final de el día , encuentres plenitud.
Pero más que nada, te encuentres a ti.
Ama, llora, ríe, sueña y siente sin descanso,
Por qué nunca sabrás lo fuerte que eres, hasta que ser fuerte sea la única opción.
Never give up on your dreams. You’re doing great. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your mom. ❤
Hey man. My mum died from brain cancer 3 months ago. I’m 19. I share your pain. Love is such a special thing
Currently recovering from two emergency brain surgery's. Sitting in my garden with a coffee on a beautiful sunny morning, sun on my face, breeze gentle blowing the trees, birds chirping and singing, the distant sound of cars going by all add more beauty to this track. Happy to still be here 🙏🏻
Good!
💙💙💙💙
wish you all the best for your recovery
Good job!
I hope that is the last of your medical problems for a very long time!
This is not just music. It’s like a blank canvas, upon which we can paint our emotions, thoughts and stories.
Beautiful
I've read through a lot of what this comment section has to say and this is very accurate. There's beauty, sadness, love, loss, confusion, pain, and everything in between. Hundreds of different stories in here about every deep human emotion all brought up by this one song, amazing.
You are so right
Well said
This is so well put. I think that most good art whether a piece of music or a painting has this quality where it gives us a means of reflection and can bring stuff out of us that gets buried.
I’m a 22 year old single father. I lost my job a couple days before thanksgiving and have just finally gotten a new one. I’m falling in love for the first time since the mother of child left us for alcohol over a year ago. I’m healthier than I’ve ever been. I’ve regained my love for reading. I have picked up new hobbies. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been even though I’m in the most stressful position I’ve ever been in. Things get better. Life has a billion small joys that must be sought out. Keep going and you can find them.
god bless you man.
Real!
22 and a father? I bet you'll have a great connection with your child when they grow up a bit..that's awesome.
This is my first comment ever. I'm one of those people that are too ashamed of sharing their feelings and feel that everything about them is embarassing. I'm 15 and struggling with life, alone, well, I'm just too different from others. Family problems and had a very hard childhood, worried for my 2 brothers and 4 sisters. Mother hates me now because of father, and father expects too much of me.
There's just so much I wan't to share with people but they never understand, they just...never do. Most of the time I feel like I'm not living and just exist.
Thank you Aphex twin for all the emptiness and I swear it, I will never forget this song.
Things can and do get better. Never give up on yourself!
I'm the same, always feel like its never right the right time to share what I'm feeling or it's the wrong person. I still haven't found a solution so let me know if you do bud :)
TH-cam comments are so beautiful when you think about it. Especially on videos like this. Here we are, all of us strangers, sitting together with this gentle song as we leave little pieces of ourselves for others to discover. Here I am part of something much bigger than myself. Here I see others out from under the guise of an introduction or a first impression. We can simply leave things of ours such as our thoughts, our wisdom, or stories for anyone else at all who might appreciate and just now I find that so beautiful. Thank you for reading this little piece of me.
Thank you for this. I find certain Aphex Twin tracks (this being one) gently pushes us to be self-reflective and philosophical. This is a go-to for me when I need inner peace. Headphones on, lights off: peace.
we need more of this kind of thing!
I love you, your comment and this video
@@_l__86indeed we do
it's really something isn't it. these are the best parts of the internet.
Consciousness is a hell of a drug.
@Alex Maybe life is it’s own creation
I want to be sober :(
@@143jcm What hinders you?
Very intriguing initial statement, BTW...
@@kaptainkrampus2856 from the looks of things it wasnt their initial statement, it was their only one.
Based
i think most of us don’t realize how technology has changed us and how intertwined and connected we became. the total opposite is being said, we are being told that we are losing connections bonds with people but here we are millions of total strangers gathering in a comment section offering a look from a small window to our lives. we come together to tell our story, share our pain and cherish our good memories. we are human and we are connected. it is incredibly hard for me to live a life where i dont stop and think about the others who walked on the same streets as me or drank from the same cafe as me. it is exhausting at most times but sometimes it can be comforting. i go through the comments read bits and pieces of you guys’s lives and i smile, i get sad with you or i relate to your struggles. then when its time i like your comments and wish you the best. to all the strangers out there reading mine comment, have a wonderful day❤
♥♥♥♥♥
I hope u have a great week man
have a wonderful day too
not an realistic view brother, local communities are being destructed by social media, for example in the west no stranger ever talks to each other with good virtue like we used to do before the internet
Intertwined sure... connected? No
Came home from uni today. Took a walk through the woods, past the spot I had my first kiss, the place I used to smoke at, and the spot I tried to take my own life. Just watching the water move at it’s own pace and my breath in the cold was true peace life can be beautiful bros
hey take care dude hopefully youre doing alot better now and if you arent doing well keep pushin dont give up Youll get there! and the fact that you got this far is already pretty dang impressive so keep going mate
Hey brother I hope and pray you are feeling better and stronger mentally . This life everyday bring me down but you gotta keep pumping keep thriving it’s time to
Focus .
ily. please never forget that. please.
Thank you for your moment and memories.
Good work man you pulled yourself out of that hole. Not many can do that. Keep using your mental strength and keep working hard for what you want
“When a man is in despair, it means that he still believes in something.” - Dmitri Shostakovich
True
@@LordHaveMercy Skååål
@@Norden1 Skåååååål
@@LordHaveMercy Kinda crazy I was listening to this and tought this you should dono, some real actually good music to share. Then I look comments see you here.. Small world.
@@Norden1 wtf dude, that's so weird. And I thought I'd put it on IP2 saying goodnight before going to bed last night.
She’s my first thought in the morning when I open my eyes, and my last thought when I close them. I hope one day our paths converge again, for good this time. Forever and always.
Man this is accurate
I hope so too...
This was me, and we are now married with 3 beautiful children. Love finds a way
I am 26 years old. I have been a carer for my unwell parents for the last 3 years. I don't see my friends, I don't have any love in my life, I am isolated from the world and very alone. I am a deeply sad man. Every day I feel further from myself than the last. This song, this comments section, allows me to both pity myself and maintain a glimmer of hope that things will get better, that my life will improve. That one day I can again feel like the man I was who now seems a stranger. I hope all of you here now, who will be in the future, find happiness and peace, whatever form that takes for you.
Bro Thank U❤
I promise it will get better, you just have to keep taking the hits
May Allah heal your parents and heal your heart >> brother this life is cruel , I pray your parents get health and you also become joyful adventurous man again. Inshallah, I am 21 an immature tbh.
I’m also about to be 26 yo. From experience I can say that i have felt that feeling, sometimes it’s exhausting, other times it feels warm and a place comfortable.
6 months ago i decided to change my life, there are always ups and downs in this path to do what YOU want, and not what others want from you.
It’s a long way, nothing you wouldn’t know by now. Don’t settle for what is happening right now. Make a change my man. You got it
Keep that strength close to your heart.
Sometime earlier this year, me and my twin brother, when we couldn't sleep, would get dressed and go on a walk, usually starting at some time just before 5 AM. Everything was calm and still, like him and me were the only living souls on the planet. We would walk and chat bullshit until roughly 6 AM, when we would head down to the local corner shop and buy a drink, then head home. Every day me and him did this was cloudy and foggy, and I would have this repeating either in my head, or through my trusty wireless earphones. I will stand by my word that those few days I'd did that with him is a very brief period in my life to remember forever.
Favourite comment here.
This song makes me appreciate what it is to be human. In a world full of deception and false glory, going through core emotions with yourself is still so real. Especially while listening to this song… take care.
I’m currently 17, I just finished my first trimester of junior year. Hopefully i’ll come back to this song later on in my life and realize how good my life was during this time. To the future me, thank you for sticking around, be yourself. Enjoy the people you have around you. I know it’ll get hard. You need to help yourself before you help others.
Damn bro i hope your doing good so far. Hows live been?
we are in this together man. its hell but i can tell this is the last time i have before i lose the child in me, which is probably already gone. 17 feels so young yet so grown, why do i feel this way at such a young age 😭
@@type2406 i’m also 17 and i feel the same way man. i felt like a little kid last year and i’m gonna be an adult in 3 months. wtf 😭
You will look back and realize, trust me.
Enjoy every moment you have left as a child. You’ll look back eventually and you need to make it worth your while
My friend lost his battle against cancer this morning. He was the most amazing person i have ever met. I'm currently just not even sure what to do with my life, he has brought so much joy into my world. And now he's gone.
Rest in peace, Matthew, you will be immensely missed.
Sounds like Matthew was a great guy, and I'm really sorry for your loss, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I hope things can get better for you, for his friends, and for his family. I'll be praying for ya and sending love your way. Blessings to you and yours, and may Matthew rest in peace ❤🙏
Matthew would want you to Live and Laugh!
Sorry for your loss, man. Enjoy every day. Spend every moment with those you love. Thank you for sharing Matthew ❤
I have so much fear of playing this, because if whenever i do, hours pass away, emotions flow like gushing river, cant focus on work to be done.
I've always wanted to have some music that i have reserve for rare moments (good or bad) and this is the only one till now.
Its a masterpiece.
Thank you Aphex Twin
If life was a videogame, this would be its main menu theme.
Life is a video game
*Afraid of Monsters*
а главное меню - это земной шар крутящийся такой, как в spore каком-нибудь
@@guerrace3210 no te entiendo
@@OJIO3000 in the main menu there would be our planet, slowly spinning, something like in Spore
“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.”
-Lao Tzu.
👏
2023 version ending: If you are at peace, you should check your pulse, you are probably dead.
"I didn't say that" - Laozi
Still a nice phrase though, but.. Not written down in the Daodejing
thank you,this reminded me to not sorrow over lost past
@@westarrr you are correct, I tried to research where this quote came from but i wasn’t able to find anything. I did find that a lot of very old quotes are often credited incorrectly though. Very surprising because this has been one of my favorite quotes for years. Much love man
two days ago i had one of the worst days of my life and cried for more than an hour straight while watching videos of my dad who comitted suicide a few months ago and now im sitting at my dining table studying classical mythology with the sun shining off and on through my window thinking 'oh what a wonderful world we live in. it is going to be okay' and it is. it will. i am speaking to you, someone who is also having a tough time, you will find moments where you'll think this exact same thing, you will find peace and light and safety again. and i believe in you and i love you and i still miss my dad and wish he was here but i also still love him very much. and time will heal all wounds i promise
I’m so proud of you
I doubt anyone will read this but I wanna journal this moment of my life here. I’m currently laying down on a bench at my college, staring at the empty blue sky and thinking about how I’m both in an incredible, but equally lonely point in life. I feel so happy with how much I’ve powered through just to be going back to college and doing something I love. It feels lonely being here, all my friends have graduated, I’m 23 now. I feel like I’m not able to relate to anyone on campus as I’m not young, but I’m certainly not old. I feel alone in my accomplishments.
Hey man idk you but I just want to say keep up the good work. To do things in life alone can be agonizing; however, you should appreciate how beautiful it is to be with yourself. I think everyone goes through points in their life where they have to be lonely so they can learn to be with themselves comfortably. You are the person who you will spend the rest of your life with so you might as well love every moment with yourself. I do understand how you feel, but just know you're going to be okay, always:) good luck my friend
Wait till u hit 62
Do sum bout it
Join a local community that values you and can celebrate your accomplishments as you celebrate theirs! They are out there, and you can carve your own niche in any community. There are thousands more just like you, creating and accomplishing alone, hoping for unique and powerful connections like they had when school cohorts made it impossible not to make them. You will find them, and they will find you, if you look.
@@swayor I actually gained this exact mindset after I posted the original comment, I’m currently in the process of starting a club on my college campus related to music and music discussion
This comment section is gold. I love how everyone talks about life, feelings, meanings etc. This shows how much music affects us people.
Hm, I'd argue that it's especcially this particular song, if you ask me, I'd probably the best song I've ever heard, for a few reasons
Only me, I talk about the monkey
@@DESIGNLIKEART About the monkey, too, I guess
TRUE
olis
Last October I left France for England, after 2 years of hard work and saving money I finally afforded me a music production school based in Manchester.
On 17th October, after saying goodbye to my dad I jumped in my car, and started a very long journey to England.
On 20 th October I finally arrived in Manchester. After few days of room research, finally found a place to stay.
a lovely room in the suburbs of Manchester (Salford/ walkden).
There was a lake next to my place that I used to walk almost every day even though it was raining and cold lol.
There was this bunch at the lake where I used to sat and listening to this track with a good view on the lake. Damn it felt so good.
Then I discovered that pub 5 min walking from my home, a pub full of very good lads, they all accepted me. Had very great times there
My class was perfect, good student, good teacher.
My times there was Epic.
On Monday morning 12th December I made a song, I posted it on SoundCloud then send it to my dad, he responded me " son you getting better and better "
On Monday evening, my step mom send me a text saying " your dad was admitted to the emergency cause he was feeling very bad and kept puking. The next day doctor found a pancreatitis to my dad. My step mom went to see him at hospital she told me he's very tired.
On Wednesday 14th I woke up at 9am check my phone, I had a text from my step mom saying that he still tired but he's doing fine he's on his way to recovering
Here's come 12pm I got a phone call from my step mom saying " your dad passed away ".
I was there alone in my room sitting on my bed, couldn't realised what was going on. I bought myself a ticket flight the next day to go back to France, I had to quit my school and everything I started in Manchester.
7 months later I'm here in his house taking care of his dogs, and still listening to this music, watching stars in the sky at the same times and thinking about him.
He was a very good man, always here for me. I can say I'm very proud to be his son !
All this made me realized that life is too short, and you have to enjoy every moment you spending on this planet.
Thank you England for this very good experiences.
Rest in peace dad, we will meet again.
I love you forever dad ♥️
Je te respecte infiniment, ton père devait être une belle personne, merci pour ce commentaire ❤
Thanks for sharing this❤️ too bad you had to leave school. Some day, a new oppertunity will appear. But it will only appear id you are open to it. Good luck and may your father rest in peace.
Hey man, I didn't know ur father but I can 100% tell u honestly that he was so so proud of u man. Going after ur dreams, building a career, and then also making the most of an unfortunate situation.
I'm proud of u too bro, u keep going n just know that ur an inspiration to many strangers from all across the world (including myself) bless up brother, hope you and ur fam are doing well, and give ur father's dogs a pet for me bro🙏🙏
Im sorry for you man. Im glad you had such an great father figure in your life. Every time you feel sad about your loss, remember those amazing experiences you had with your dad, as simple as they may be, always remember them and look back on them. Good luck to you 🫶
RIP ❤
leaving for the military today, this song helped me calm my mind and ease the thought of entering the unknown. i hope i can come back and listen to it when i make it through and have my life together.
I wish you the best, take care of yourself (as much as you can in the military). Remember you are loved :)
Hope you have a good future man, it’s gonna be uncertain but I hope it goes well. Stay safe 🤘
You are awesome man, good luck
thanks for your service absolute legend hope you stay okay out there
Goodluck in the military, i hope to join when im older myself!! Thanks for serving :)
I'm currently 17 , i had best friend he was like a brother to me when we were in highschool he was always sharing his headphones with me when i tell him abt things that are going low & he always gave me it with this song on & always told me to fight & he knows that i struggle & how does it feel even though he never even cried or showed negative emotions to everyone besides he was always the therapist friend . One night him & i & bunch of our friends met & had fun & laughed & he laughed most and made us all laugh by his silly funny jokes that we used too . The day after that we heard that he took his life on his way home.
Everytime i hear this song it reminds me of you dear Jacob 💗.
I'm listening to this knowing it is time for me to take action and chase my goals because nobody is going to save me, to all of you out there i wish you the best guys we can do it. I Belive in you🙌
I've been struggling alot lately and thinking of giving up. Thank you stranger, I needed this
I'm so glad I see these kinds of comments from time to time.
Everyone, let us not lose hope. One day, the sun will shine for us.
My 8 year relationship fell apart last January, it’s transitioning from fall to winter now, for the entirety of 2023 I was stuck in limbo, not knowing what to do with myself everyday felt like a repeat. Listening to this while waiting to clock into work, I can feel 2024 will start a completely new and foreign chapter in my life. I am at peace now.
glad to hear how you're dealing with that, you got this bro
Congrats man! On to better things
Never Trust women they let you fall if your not enough for them anymore
Hey bro, I can’t imagine what that would have felt like but I’m glad you have found peace, I wish you all the luck with moving on with your life ❤
Hey, keep going, i totally got that, i think im falling down the same path with my gf and feel i cant do anything about it… 2024 will be a better year hopefully.
i’m 22 years old and i just stumbled across this song. i love the fact that everyone is sharing their stories as they come across this song, so i figured i’d add my own. the path i’m on feels so uncertain. i know i’m still young, but i feel like life is rushing by me faster than i can keep up with. i’m at a point in my life where i feel as though i’ll never find happiness, but these comments gave me hope and reminded me i need to slow down. the song feels a lot like me coming to this realization. instead of worrying and overthinking everything all the time, i need to let go and just go with the flow of life and let it take me wherever it’s gonna take me. i feel a lot lighter with the decision that i’m going to just live life and let it do it’s thing rather than me trying to control every aspect and keep up with my peers who i am often jealous of. i always seem to think they have better things than me and a brighter future, and maybe that’s true, but i need to just let my life run its course. i don’t need to have everything figured out… i’m only 22 after all. sometimes i just get so caught up in being alive itself that i forget to actually live. thank you to everyone who left a comment on this video, you all helped me realize things will get better eventually and everything will fall into it’s right place, whatever it may be. i just have to be patient and wait on it.
don't worry about life, try to live it instead. At times, things will not be alright, at times things will. That's all there is
I swear Aphex Twin songs have the best comment sections. It‘s incredible how music makes you feel and can change your life.
It’s because aphex twin has the best fans. Love you guys!
dude i'm just tired of feeling so lost. i don't even know where life is taking me, it's just like i'm always on autopilot waiting for something to happen
make sure you make the best of these moments. i totally understand man, its torture. you want your life to be yours. but it still can, even if thats on a smaller scale. you can pursue passions and creative hobbies. attempt to make fun out of the mundane. uproot routine and do something completely spontaneous. be consumed by time as you meander somewhere on a walk or in your mind. take control from the bottom up.
that isn't professional advice or anything, but it's what I've picked up in my experience from feeling very disconnected and not understanding what im meant to be doing or where im going in life.
much love.
you’ll look back on these days and realize you were stressing for nothing, enjoy it now
for you who are reading this message, I want you to swear that you will never give up, no matter what happens in life, always believe that something beautiful will happen.
I swear bro I'll never give up
@@kys_003 take care :))
thank you
thank you, I just lost the girl of my dreams ❤️🩹
@@candycouldntbesosweet it's bad to lose someone that you have strong feelings towards them, like you mentioned.
but please remember that sad happenings can lead out into better opportunities.
so even if you lose someone like her, please do remember that someday you'll find someone that can be just like her, or even better, just trust me.
It’s a Monday night/ Tuesday morning, it’s 2am and I was just about to head to bed and went to the kitchen to grab a drink then seen light shining through the window and went outside and seen it was a full moon. I don’t know why but I decided to get my headphones and listen to this song while watching the moon and stars. It’s a warm night and the sky is clear and for the first time in years I feel as if I’m at peace. I never really sit down to enjoy the little things in life cause life has been passing through so fast recently and it feels as if everything has sorta stopped and it’s just me and only me in this moment but while I was reading through the comments I was touched by the amount of people in here sharing a story so thought I’d add my own little one in here. The world is so beautiful but also so cruel at the same time, I need to appreciate things more in the sense as nothing lasts forever. I see why sunsets are so pretty, they may happen most days but only for a certain amount of time. It’s very quiet as i sit here at night time just looking up at the sky. The air feels clear, my mind feels free and the universe seems to stop for a minutes while I just lay here watching the stars in the distance and the full moon shining down. Appreciate little things like this.
When I was in utero my dad would play aphex twin and place headphones on my mums stomach. He used to wake me at dawn and bundle me in his arms as we strolled to the crisp Cornish beach to catch the sunrise listening to ambient works. When I was older he’d wake me up on nights where his insomnia was particularly bad and we’d stroll to the beach arm in arm watching the stars. I came across this as I’m sat in a daze alone in my bedroom. I’m 24 now, just under four years ago I woke to find my dads body after he took his own life. He requested #3 Ambient works as one of the songs for his funeral. I can’t listen to that album anymore without feeling deep turmoil, but this song gives me some will to fight. I feel as if my silhouette is a lightbulb and I could shatter at any moment but even still, there’s something in me willing to find the light.
💔
You had an amazing dad.. treat your future child with similar childhood without negatives. I find your story beautiful. Its very sad but you wrote it beautifully
I am so sorry for your loss. I did the same for my children when they were in utero and since. Your dad sounds like a good man.
After my sister died, my dad gave up. I was twenty at the time. He didn’t end his life in one tragic event, but after he died we learned he was having heart problems and instead of seeking treatment that would have absolutely prolonged his life for decades, he chose to embrace death. He even asked days before he died if I would be able to take care of myself if something were to happen to him. It’s crazy to think I knew he needed peace in that moment, without knowing the consequences, and I told him I would be ok.
My younger sister held onto anger for him for a long time, but I never did. I knew his soul was in pain and thus couldn’t see how much pain he would leave behind. My sister always runs through her head why we weren’t enough to keep him going, even ten years later. Would he have been able to hold onto his will to live if it was one of us and not the sister who died before him? I never thought that way, though. I know he couldn’t see the burden he would place on our shoulders or all the things that took place in the wake of his death. He didn’t know. And I’ve never felt a thing but forgiveness for that, for we are all human.
Your father was a great man. An angel in a cruel world. You're an angel too. Be strong king!!!
Reading all these comments really helped me feel like i wasn’t alone with my problems. Its one thing for a parent or guardian figure in your life to say to you “you’re not alone”, but really seeing it with your own eyes is something else man. I appreciate all of you and am glad that you were all able to share your stories and experiences. Thank you, cheers 🍻
Your never alone bro🙏
@@Complex_inc preciate you man 🤝
growing up is realizing that we really aren't so different with the issues we have and struggles, almost comforting to know that.
@@CoopyIIII it is comforting to know that for sure.
im 3, been struggling with constipation all my life, this song help me feel better when i shit my pant. Love yuo
Thanks for the giggle 🤭
It's 6:22 am (EST), 15th January 2024, third week of the year. Our shops have just been looted and burnt down in the last few days. It all happened in a blink of an eye. I thought I was gon loose my job. My partner is pregnant with our first child, the thought of losing a job and the responsibilities of being a father. Thank God, I'm still here. I hope I can revisit this video when I have everything I always dreamed about.
You can do it my friend! You are strong hearted, face the hardships of the world and win for those you love, for their true happiness. Look for role models out of good people, let their way guide you to forge a good life
Hopefully, someday, I come back again to this song, and feel better than I feel right now.
same
Sending Love and good wishes my friend
One Earth
One Family 💙
How are you doing today
@@AMH793 I second this. Hope you're doing well and are at peace.
you will man.
Ive instructed my friends and family for years that this song is to be played at my funeral. There should be no eulogy, no talking, just this song and silence. Played one time, and then its over. Everyone is to go home, and get on with their lives.
Over the years much has changed, but not this. Never this.
damn thats cool
Nice writing sir, endurance is key to life. In all aspects
They mean it when they say funerals are for the living
This is how it feels when you no longer know whether you should continue pursuing your dream or give it up in your 30s. Born in '94, it's 4 AM and I'm wondering where the years went so fast.
"Do not dwell in the past. Do not dream of the future. Concentrate the mind on the present moment."
I've been a lonely person in my whole life. I had no purpose. But Today was the first day that I felt Power. First time I felt like an adult. My father got invited to a dinner party and I went with him. For the first time in my life I talked with people who I always wanted to become. Free. Happy. Ambitious. I talked with them like a man. Had amazing conversations.. I found what I want in life. My path. My goal. I will succeed
Last winter i was extremely depressed and listened to this song alot, i cried to it alot. I used to feel so incredibly empty but recently im feeling way better and hope this winter will be better. I hope everyone who is struggling sees through their struggles.
This winter will be great I'm sure of it
Last winter was the lowest ive ever been in my life. I remember queueing this song three times in a row while taking the metro to work, and just listened to this for 30 minutes straight. I learned from what happened last year and things got better in the summer, but its getting tough again. I hope things will be different this year.
Last winter and the start of 2023 was really bad for me. It's so easy to slip into a depression, and once you are there its so hard to see any way out. This winter will be much better. We will do great :)
I feel you man, currently just clawing my way out of a rut right now. This kind of music is quite therapeutic and I think is necessary to start healing. If you are into foo fighters I can suggest their earliest albums "Exhuasted" hits you right in the feels
Whatever you do don't listen to William basinkis degraded loops or whatever that track is called
11 seconds it took for 10 minutes of tears.
Rewind, swollen eyes, endless gaze, soul empty, mind paralyzed.
Rest in piece my best friend.
I miss my cat, my rabbit, my cockatiel and my parrot.
@@jackassir6060 I truly trust with all my heart you’ll see your friends again. They flourish now with you in their heart.
@@jackassir6060yeah I miss my cat. Had him for 15 years as I grew up and had such a bond with him unlike any other. This music makes me reflect on past times good and bad. As much as we want them back, it’s apart of life to live, love, grieve and appreciate the family, friends or companions we lost. Thankfully we had the memories and that never goes away.
I was with the love of my life for almost three years, and for two of those I was her carer. It was the hardest part of my life so far, and I put every fibre of my being into helping her to live a meaningful life, despite her disability.After multiple suicide attempts, endless trips to hospitals, and constant pressure to hold together our world while everything tried to tear it apart, I was exhausted. In the end I broke it off because I'd lost myself in the process and couldn't give anything more. I was done. But she was doing better - she finally had a network of support around her and was on a path that gave her hope for the future. For a long time I was in a deep depression, oscillating between being angry and bitter, and sadness - in mourning for the life I should have had. I hated myself for not being a strong enough man to resist the abuse and fit the masculine profile society tells me I should be. And I hated her for what she made me become. But then I started running again, spending time in nature, quitting alcohol and confronting who I really was; relearning the things I loved, revisiting old relationships and reminiscing about the people we were and the things we did. And I forgave her, because none of us are perfect, and navigating this world and the people in it is a challenging endeavour, not least when you're ill. Things aren't perfect, and life hasn't followed the trajectory I expected, but, a year later, I think I've finally found peace. I've realised that you can only do what you can do, and that every experience happens for a reason, and teaches you to be a stronger, more resilient person. Life isn't fair, but that's what life is. A beautiful collision of circumstance and helplessness, of love and anger, of reconciliation and acceptance. As I try to put my life back together now, I still think about her everyday, and the life I could be living. I don't think I will ever love anyone like I loved her, but I know we can never be together. And that's OK. I hope she's doing well.
wow man...
Im still alive, these past months have been hard, i broke up with the girl i thought i would marry, no job, and other things, but i believe that one day i will be happy, this feeling of sadness is temporary
maybe sometimes it’s not always about finding happiness but just enjoy how’s life going, I hope it’s okey
Bro I hope you get job and the life you want to live, peace ✌🏻
Not even halfway through this video and I’ve shed the first tears I’ve had in years. I miss my family but they’ve all accepted that I’m different from them and moved on. I just want to feel loved by my parents again, I want my father to be proud of me without denying me affection.
While you await your dad's love, have some from the boys. You are here with us :)
Hey Clayton, if you feel like a black sheep in your family, just know that it’s for a purpose. You aren’t made to fit in, you’re made to stand out
Hey Clayton I personally don’t know you but I know you are loved by so many.
@@benrand1388 you too Ben. I can see you’re going through it but you still are there for others. That’s a wonderful thing ❤️
Clayton, we don’t know each other aside from sharing this piece of music. I think and believe that a person who can really express himself, is someone who I can look up to, who I can be proud of. Focus on building up your self confidence . How? By having fun being with yourself, doing things by yourself, exercise, play, distract from bad augury.
Don’t carry yourself around, enjoy yourself while being yourself.
Listening to this while I‘m zoned out in my bed and suffer because I lost my Dad who was my hero, my idol and my best friend through all these times. I still can’t get over it and have to think about him everyday.
Today would‘ve been his birthday… Happy Birthday Dad, I love you and I always will
Im sorry your dad has passed on, rest in peace to him and a happy continuous life journey to you stranger
@@bumblerbee6309 Thank you man, means alot to me. Best of luck for you too
He will always be by your side. Stay positive and make him proud. But I am sure he already is. 😊
I wish the best for you in life mate, rest in peace to your father. I lost mine at 6 months old, I am now nearly 24 and not a day goes by that I do not think about him. Push yourself and be the best person you can be.
I'm so sorry for your lost. Just would like to remind you, you are not alone. You are strong enough to keep going.
I lost mine last year, two months after I lost mine grandma, and he told me after that day, "the carrousel of life stop for a sec, she goes down, and the carrousel started again, life goes on"
Wish u good luck
Looks like I found an internet checkpoint
Maybe?
I listen to this song every night to help me sleep but it usually ends up keeping me up, thinking about life, where I want to be, where I am, if I’m doing it right. Half the time it’s that or the other half is thinking about this girl that I’ve only been on one date with recently but she is just, well, different. Makes me smile, makes me happy. This music is the core of music
this is a certified hood classic
Damn son
I read that in that dudes voice
dog with headphones
@@-thesignpainter9486 YES.
@Андрей Славиков This guy has to be the most enjoyable person to pass the time
"It's gonna be f***ing cold when I stand up outta this water. I'll just sit here a little longer....."
Like me in my bath until the bath gets cold too..
Same with humans clinging on to life.
Me every morning under the shower
Hahaha
@@ruthking5994 Dumb person.
I will never understand what kind of emotions I am feeling when I am listening to this masterpiece. I can’t tell if I am happy sad nostalgic or just lost. When I first heard it I started crying like I just needed to get it if my system but I don’t know why I was crying or why I had this strange sensation on my stomach. I think it was the first time I felt at peace
Same it’s really something about this song that makes u feel in a way you can’t really explain…
My wife is on the other side of the room studying for school. My kids play with their toys just before bed time. I just got done doing dished by hand after a long day at work. This will be my day tomorrow and I am totally okay with that.
Life has been feeling like an endless cycle of nothing and loneliness. This song is an accurate description of these thoughts.
Humanity is an experience, people will always be there for you :]
I understand you is a feeling that has accompanied me all my life and I don't know if one day this will change, but in spite of that I live trying to find enjoyment in life, in the little things, in the fleeting moments, in astonishing myself, in making an effort, in looking for certain tranquillity and coherence, to be at peace above all with myself, those things for me are condensed in this song.
It’s 6:48 in the morning I’ve been lost in my own thoughts and couldn’t sleep, I listen to this amazing song and can’t help but feeling some kind of peace, im going to sleep now, stay safe out there and have a nice life to whoever reads it.
6.29 here enjoy what time u have left bro
3:22 rn here bro, just happened something bad and i wish u the best
This song is the only song I can listen to right now, going through really hard times
here i am, i was just laying in my bed, looking at the moon with this track playing next to my ears. i’ve gone through heartbreak recently, which ended the toughest year i’ve had so far. i feel deeply sad, frustrated, exhausted, but also hopeful. it is frustrating to be used to this shitty feeling that is heartbreak, although this time i turn to music and relaxation and crafts for relief, instead of substances like i’ve always had.
what a strange year it’s been, i let myself get too comfortable, i was not responsible for myself, i spent my days in a high haze still hopeful, yet unwilling to do anything and detesting the environment and sometimes myself. i’ve always thought i need to break myself fully to start healing, only recently i have shed myself of that belief and i am slowly moving back to a healthy lifestyle and mindset.
as i let myself go, anxiety caught me. i was supposed to go and have a half year of studying abroad instead of staying in the country that i hated, yet i gave in to the fear and anxiety and stayed back in my home country, which i adore. i now spend my days working a regular 9-5 office job, taking care of myself, feeling at ease with myself after all this time. mundane but fulfilling.
life is beautiful, and this sonic masterpiece proves it. i get to feel my emotions to this wondrous track, and they may be unpleasant now, but i feel them instead of numbing myself again. which is beautiful and makes me feel alive and i remain hopeful, deeply hopeful, i wish for everybody to remain hopeful and curious, as that’s the youthful spirit to keep us going. i loved entering this touching space of your intimate personal comments, thank you and bless you
I wish the best for you❤
This piece was carved out of rock a billion years ago. This is what the universe sounds like when you can't die from time.
Masterfully expressed.
In the fabric of space where time becomes a loop
😂 billions nor millions 👉 the stable firm earth doesn't rotate only the celestial as we are in the FIRMAMENT 😊 and the earth should be less than 20 thousands years old
yea
@@AngelLuisEspada1970lol
I can't wait to come back to this video in some years and see all of your success stories about how you all managed to push through and find peace in the end. I look forward to it :)
man i wish so
@@l.z.6553you will bro. Just trust the process
Only thing I hope for.
damn,hopefully gang.
Me and my ex just broke up. She loved to listen to apex twin. Somehow I found myself stumbling upon this video reminiscing. Not a bad but thankful reminiscence. Thankful we met. Thankful for how she changed me as a person. Thankful that we still share the same sun. Even though we couldn’t see eye to eye on our differences I still wish her the best. I’ll always remember the times we spent in room 450
You’re going to find your person, don’t even sweat it ❤
Life is beautiful. It’s painful, scary, treacherous, but damn is it beautiful. I’m listening to this while getting ready to leave my childhood home. I’ve lived here for 20 years and it’s all I know. I’m reminiscing on all the memories that I’ve experienced here. The ups and the downs, the laughter and the tears. I’ve lived many lives here, had so many friends, so many parties, had love and heartbreak, had all my firsts here. Damn this is the last place that I ever saw my dad alive. This place has been my solace and has been the vessel to allow me to grow into the man I am today. I am afraid to leave, I don’t know what is to come, but change is so important and it is inevitable. We can’t just hold onto the past because we are afraid of letting it go. The more we strip the house of its furniture and Knick knacks the more I realize it was never the house that was my home, but the life I lived within it with my family and friends. I don’t know what the future has to offer, but I know it will bring more life, more friends, more love, more ups and downs. All I can do now is be grateful for the time and experiences I was able to have here, and be excited for what’s to come. Time to find my next home.
Currently laying in bed, listening to this masterpiece, overthinking everything that’s happened, thinking about what I could’ve done better or changed in my life to get to where I am. I feel like every time I’m at my lowest point in life I notice everything that’s happening around me, who’s really there for you and who’s not, the pain and struggle just hanging from my shoulders, the thought of giving up, always fatigued, no motivation or drive to do anything fun anymore, distancing myself from my loved ones, just mentally drained at this point. Whenever I come back to this sound it just keeps me at peace, and for anyone going thru the struggles right now, just know that this shit is temporary, we’ll be out the gutter soon! The people who were there for you when you had nothing keep them close, I know it’s tough but you gotta thug it out for your loved ones, Stay strong Kings! don’t let the struggle tear you apart. ❤️👑
yo we ain’t perfect, but we’ll all make it
Thank you for this.
Thank you
Thank you for this. Needed that! 🩵
Same brother
Fascinating how he managed to make 3 chords remain interesting for over 10 minutes. I suppose minimalism is one of the driving factors in a good ambient track.
Richard or the monkey ?? Lol
It's extremely subtle, but there are elements being added and taken away throughout the entirety of the track. The rhythmic length of the 3 chord sequence also changes and extends/contracts. So there is change, but it's incredibly subtle.
Excuse me, this is Aphex Twin we're talking about. That level of quality is to be expected.
Nairam Diam yeah but it is just three chords tho
idk. it's okay when you're falling asleep but it's not intented for active listening imo.
Autechre's Vletrmx which basically has just like 5 different notes over 4 bars repeated for seven minutes sounds much more interesting and alive than this.
I feel like that because of the insane speed that the world is moving, we often get caught in the routine of the daily life and get used to think only in ways that would make us more effective and successful.
Tracks like this remind me of a distant place and time, before 18 when everything had a special vibe and I had a lot of moments just to stop, listen to music while watching the sunset, and think.
Those times feel long gone and forgotten, but every now and then I come around a track like this and remember to stop, and think
this might be the dumbest thing ive read all year. and you've had 11 months.
nah man, i feel you brother, back then we would just sit, listen to some chill songs and just stare at a sunset. we all need some time with ourselves, and even if we don t notice, that s a very important requirement for our sanity, we just need to release all the build up tension
@@esala1817why?
When I listen to this, I'm imagining myself walking barefoot on the grass in an unknown distant land full of mysterious little creatures that walk around me and talk to me about life. This is the background music of this place, it's just flying in the air, undisturbed and eternal.
I don’t want to have to work. I just wanna travel the world with someone special, making music and expressing myself.
In my opinion, this is the greatest song ever made, it feels like the finale to all music, the ending of everything, a good ending
The true ending.
Yeah now i suggest "windowlicker" and "come to daddy" from the same artist 😳
@@P.G.ABD99 I’ve heard both, I’m a huge aphex twin fan but this is definitely his best song imo
@@EthanG2214 i was just suggesting man.... my favorite is actually alberto balsalm
agreed
14 is when I started listening to Aphex Twin and now I’m 32. I’ve never had a close friend who also loved his music. Now I’m a year in with a girlfriend who I showed this and the other tranquil beautiful songs to. We listened to Stone In Focus for the moon rising over the ocean last year and I played Lichen for her the first time I wanted to open up more deeply with her....... and last night was the first time I told her I love her. Just wanted to share that
congrats man wish you two the best
I was 16 at the time. Just a safespsce to come bsck to
Man, I'm glad for you! Hope you have a great relationship!
Happy days my friend.
I'm so happy for you bro
Divorced, broke, and adult living back at home. Lonely no friends but I’ve finally accepted it. I see my son once a fortnight and it makes it all okay. Life has its downs and I live mostly in those downs. It is the small moments that make it all worth it. Small smiles, small wins, small brief senses of joys override the seemingly endless pain, sadness and loneliness.
I am alive. I am healthy. I have a roof over my head. That’s all that matters at the end of the day. Anything else is a bonus…. So I tell myself.I have to believe thats this is all that matters...
This small things create a big and happy life
just recently got into aphex twin, it helps me keep my head up even after all the unfortunate events that happened in my life.
last month felt like a true rollercoaster, college, work, my grandfather passing away, everything, just gone by so quickly. yesterday my girlfriend decided she couldn't take it anymore and we broke up, i feel like everything i had have been taken away from me, i feel paralyzed ever since the person i thought was the love of my life just turned cold and dont even want to talk to me anymore. but i do know that at some point these will all be memories i'll laugh at, realizing i've become a stronger and better person. all i need is to live one more day. 01/09/2024
Keep going… please don’t stop. Someday when I meet you, I will give you a hug. I promise. I know it hurts, and that the comfort in knowing they will be “future memories” isn’t enough sometimes. Please reach out if you need a person, even just to game with. I got you.
The monkey footage is from a movie called “Baraka”. The entire film is an audio and visual spectacle that is unmatched. Was filmed in 70 millimeter.
And with no commenter
@@user-ri8ws8nv3i i mean it would be kind of great if i started the movie and it began with "what's up guys its scarce here"
Samsara is awesome too
all Ron Fricke's work is amazing... Chronos is my fave!
You guys are cool AF✌✊🔥👍
Sitting here on my balcony, I’ve been observing about 200 or so people in a park. As I’m watching, I am in awe of the beauty of humanity. Whether you’re laughing with your friends or alone, cherish those moments, for they make life.
Day after Christmas and I’m crying again listening to this song thinking abt my dead mom. I got her chain as a gift and wearing it makes me feel protected yet guilty because im not the person I want to be yet. But im still alive so I’ll just keep going. It’s so hard knowing she isn’t and will never be there to hug or congratulate me. The holidays have never hurt me this much. I love you and hope you’re safe.
Stay strong my friend, it's gonna be okay.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Stay strong my friend, it will get better. Sending you a hug
واقعا متاسفم...
Nobody will ever see this comment but I want you to know you are beautiful and loved.
I did, thank you and you too
Aphex Twin : plays 3 chords repeatedly for 10 minutes straight
Us: this song literally saved my life
EDIT:
thanks guys for the likes
Truly shows his musical genius
Fr 😅
Sounds different every time though
definitely one of the songs ever made
dont forget the clicking thing
I'm 63 and only recently found Aphex Twin, quite by accident.
Life is really amazingly random. For me, the lack of real control, and the awareness of that, which intensifies as you age, lose loved ones, accumulate various health issues (which may or may not be things you have any control over re behavior), etc. is what I struggle with.
I had to actually look up "ambient music" to be sure I understood what it was. I had listened to some of it over the years from minimalist composers like Philip Glass (who did the wonderful music for Koyaanisqatsi), not even realizing that was a thing.
But the first time I say that film at about age 24 (more like the age of various commenters here) and sat just STUNNED in the theater when it was over as everyone else in that big packed theater got up and hurried to their car, made me more aware "I'm not like most other people". For me at that point, it really dawned on me how badly we are screwing up the planet, decades before climate change became such an obvious huge problem.
Now, almost 40 years later, I realize that I'm on the autism spectrum, and that's why I have trouble understanding the emotional life of lots of people. Like for me, I was really surprised at how sad so many people in comments said this beautiful song makes them feel. To me it makes me feel quiet, safe, and comfortable emotionally, even as my mind roams over many topics. It's like a calming tonic for the normal whirlwind chaos that is much of life.
I agree with another poster re the quality and the compassion and positivity re all the comments here. Sometimes I am very proud to be a human being (unlike the dismay human events causes at other times), so thank you so much for this community for providing that as an adjunct to this wonderful piece of musical artwork.
This is the most heartfelt comment I think I have ever read, Thank you.
took the word out of my mouth
what a wonderful chance to read this meanwhile listen to this existentialist song.
We on the same boat captain!
I was obsessed with listening to Philip glass after watching the first season of the Terror
I met a girl, fell in love with her and we rlly clicked, everything was perfect and I was at the happiest peak I’ll ever be at. Two cheating accusations occured in two months back to back and my friends forced me to leave her. I like my friends. I miss my home (her) and I have just found out both cheating accusations were not true. I still love her and we’re snapping, but I’m not sure if we can ever be the same again. It’s been 3 months now.
08/05/2024
today was my last day of school and tomorrow i start my exams. i havent cried yet, and its strange because it feels like the end even though tomorrow i will see all the same people again. i'll never have a physics or chemistry lesson again and im noww free to study history! i hope it all turns out well and aphex twin has been helping me get through this weird time xx
This makes me feel that everything is as it should be
"The world doesn't need saving. The world is perfect the way it is."
- Harry D'amour (Everville; Clive Barker, 1994) -
@@robertcanuti750 😊
Exactly what I think when I arrive home 5 o'clock in the morning. Everything is ok. I just need some sleep.
And you will be right because it is.
@@dpachannel2052 watch Matthew Walker's TED Talk on sleep 🙂
This song feels like a long, drawn-out hug from an old friend.
Its a nice thought...but I disagree on that...to me it sounds more like the final hug of a Person you wont see in a long time or maybe never again...
Cause this song is soo bittersweet
This song gives me a feeling of acceptance in life.
Sure, there tangible melancholy in it... But there's also something endearing to it too.
A bizarre mix of good and bad together that make it Serene... Peaceful... And just... Clear.
As though I've come to the end of my life, looking back at all the things I've done thinking...
"Yeah, I don't regret this. This was a good life."
To all of you: No.
Hi, i am a Brazilian independent artist.
I composed, mixed and made the cover of
this album over a year, thinking about
the sleep experience and the layers of consciousness.
It is a 28 minute album with two songs.
I wanna be heard by people who connect
with ambient music. Aphex was a big inspiration.
(I am discovering ways to spread my art and my work.)
This is very special. It means a lot to me.
Enjoy.
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I keep coming back to the song, and I'm happy to find this comment after 1 year.
Men used to poke each other with spears in a tight knit phalanx formation, now we’re computer programmers in quiet desperation
I'm turning 32 this year, but my mind is shackled with old memories, things I can't change, minds I can't bend.. yet my sweet heart and soul can't deny the fact that I can't ignore all the bad things that people have done to me and still do.. I've been a prisoner of my mind since 2010, I'm a prisoner to my thoughts, I'm a prisoner to the past and I'm absent to my present and blurry to the future..
A few days ago my grandpa was diagnosed with cancer. Today we discovered it was stage 3 and it could have spread to his brain. Im going to get my drivers license soon. Ive been in love with someone for a long time and recently it feels like they love me back. I feel like I’m entering a new phase of my life. I miss being a little kid but i also know i have so much ahead of me. I miss playing checkers with my grandpa. Thank you aphex twin, i love this song.
I feel you brother, my uncle got diagnosed stage 4 cancer almost 2 years ago now, thankfully he beat the shit out of this fucking disease. But shortly after another member of my family shot himself. But life goes on, there's some good times and some awful times. Although I feel like horrible things tend to affect and impact me a lot more.
@@irlnq_fndamn bro.
hi bro, my grandma recently got stage 4 stomach cancer that might not be curable as she is in her mid 80s and on a slight decline, so I understand your pain. I also just got my drivers license in october, so I hope you were able to pass and get it! I am wanting someone to love in my life very bad, so I hope that person works out for you fr. I know I need to just be patient and trust. I too feel like i’m entering a new phase in my life, and am excited yet I also miss being a kid. I wish all the best for you in all aspects
Good luck, man
dude, I feel so bad for you. my grandma got stage 2 cancer a year ago but she won against it with one thing, hope.
We played this during my brother's funeral. So thankful for Aphex.
It still hurts
D:
I'm sorry for your loss. I hope in some way he was able to enjoy the music a final time.
my deepest condolences..
jesus christ, these kind of comments make me want to unlearn empathy... just the mere imagination of having to attend my brother's funeral makes me feel sick. I'm so sorry for your loss, I really can't imagine what you have to go through.
@@cozymode70 You've spoke from the heart right there. I too sometimes wish i was born a psychopath. Human life, cognitive abilities, and the dark nature of the universe and nature is traumatizing and this stuff can be overwhelming the more conscious you are. I can envision you growing into a very strong person especially since you have the ability to reflect.
And although it's extremely hard to imagine death, but i believe it's just an illusion. Before you were born you were in a state of nonexistence when you die you might end up in the state you were before you were even a sperm before you father existed. Time is not the same or if it's even there when we die. But i'm sure it will be like waking up again on a new planet maybe the same as a living thing. It's still too hard to accept too because there are many horrible ways you will die and you'll have the most blissful lives as well. The universe is torture and all this for why? What purpose if at all? And does it even need a reason?
November of 2022, I met this girl, she was everything I was not but everything I’ve ever wanted. Was the most beautiful and amazing and silliest girl I’ve ever met. Met her in the the bay where I live while she was visiting here. Met her on a Thursday night, she was supposed leave the next day, Friday, but she extended her stay. I saw her Friday, Saturday, and dropped her off the airport Sunday. When I was dropping her off she started to cry but I remained strong in front of her and reassured her everything will be fine for her. She had to go back to San Diego. When I started leaving the airport I immediately broke down, almost like if part of my soul was being taken away. When you hold something so precious being taken away. She had opened up to me and I to her. I was enamored with this girl. 2 weeks later I flew out to her, I couldn’t stand being away from her. She picked me up at the San Diego airport, from there we went to our hotel. I went into the shower because she was insisting that I should shower, at the time I found it odd, like i was being setup. When I came out she surprised with one of the nicest gestures someone has ever done. She celebrated my birthday after I had told her I didn’t like to celebrate it. I wanted to cry but I held back. We hung out for the next couple days. 3 weeks into knowing this girl and I wanted to spend the rest of eternity with her. Due to unfortunate circumstances and my 20 year old undeveloped brain and understanding, things did not play out how I wanted things to go. I flew back and things started to turn for worse. At the end we did not understand each other and bitterness and pride took over both of us and we both left each other with our back turned as we rode away on our high horses. To this day I still think about her, I cannot escape her in my dreams. Moon Rangel from San Diego, I still think about you. I would’ve moved mountains and parted oceans to be together. It was the best month of my life.
Isn’t it crazy how songs like this can bring together people from all over the world and make them wanna share little pieces of their lives with complete strangers? Truly fascinating…
Currently 02:05 in the cold night of oktober, my window slightly opend. This song feels like the cold breeze blowing to the side of my face, thinking about if i said something at that exact moment, that she would not left me. That if i did not said those few words, it would have changed the whole thing. Love yourself, before giving love to another
Damn bro i hope u will find the right one.
Just imagine : this song, outside its like cold but not to cold just u and her at a beautuful quiet place and your just there and talking and having a good time.
Damn i wish i can expirience something like that one day and i hope that for you too buddy.
Keep it up.
@@mattis_1909 Bro much love man. I hope that you will have that experience too one day💪❤️
@@Faze_bearXD ty bro 😁❤️
"I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me." It's one of my favorite quotes from a game. Last year, I honestly considered taking my own life. Life was becoming too hard on me, but that was mostly because of my bad decisions. Drugs, bad relationships, anger, and being overweight were all taking a toll on me. I decided to move away, cut all those people off, quit drugs, lose weight by fasting, dieting, and going to the gym every day, as well as controlling my anger with better sleep and meditation. I did everything I possibly could to feel better, and I can honestly say it worked. I still have issues with money, understanding people, especially myself, but at least I'm in a better spot than last year. I have hope that it'll get even better. Whoever reads this, don't give up, no matter how bad it gets; you have the potential. Take one day at a time. Breathe a bit; you can always make it better in some way.
God bless you. Your drive has rubbed off on me a little and reminded me to get to bed. ❤
You’ve come a long way man. I’m proud of you❤️
I'm sitting here randomly scrolling through youtube while on the phone with my girlfriend. She's sound asleep but I'm fully awake. She is the first person that feels like home, not just a young love but truly like home, warm, calm. Like coming home on a cold day after playing in the snow all day, and just feeling the warmth of home, sitting infront of the furnace with hot chocolate in your hands. Still I'm wondering what to do with my life, i have no idea where i am heading or where life takes me. I dont even know if i want to continue with uni . I'm 19 and dont know what to do or how to do it. It's a never ending cycle of questioning i cannot find the answers to, but everytime i scroll, hopelessly thinking and never finding an answer I remember her, and somehow I get calm and think to myself that all of this is part of life, its okay to feel lost, to feel alone, to feel you're at a place you dont belong to, being somehow with one foot in your own life and with the other you still cling to the peaceful life as a child. I have no Idea where I am going and thats okay, i think its part of becoming an adult. Although sometimes i wish i am still that kid running around in the snow, but i guess this is the bitter sweet part of adulthood, sometimes it frightens me. It's weird and idk if it will ever stop being weird, all i know that it's going to be okay somehow. This song sums up all of my thoughts and somehows makes me feel that life and adulthood will be okay.
You will achieve my friend, what may help is to find a role model, someone who achieves and is a good person, maybe a few, female and male, and listen to what they say. People say you are influenced by those you listen to, so listen to those who are loving and their ways, and you will have a very strong path ahead of you, lots of love mate
I’m lying in bed listening to this and all I can think of is how happy I am. I’m 22 and recently started my first job out of school. Took me 8 months to find something after graduating and it was probably the lowest point of my life. I watched all my friends get jobs and move out and I just felt so worthless. Now I’m in a great environment, working with people that have become friends outside of work, in the middle of an amazing city. I couldn’t be happier. It’s scary to think of how many more of those dips I’ll have to go through in my life, but knowing it can feel like this afterwards brings me some comfort. Life is funny :,)
Congrats! Yes, you will get through though times again, we all do, but you'll keep pushing on because you have strenght in you and eventually you'll find out it's never too bad. Remember what Louis Aragon said: "when it’s time to close the book, I’ll have no regrets. I’ve seen so many people live so badly, and so many die so well".
I'm in a small 10€ Hostel room in Milan with 4 middle aged man and a dirty bathroom. But my bunk bed is next to the open window, warm summer night air is blowing inside, I can see trees and an appartment block under a milky orange night sky and listen to this with ventilators in the background.
where are u now
I'm curious - how did you end up in that situation? What's your story?
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@@steffeeH Sounds quite a nice situation.
I sat and listened to this when i was 14 wondering where my life would take me....... I just turned 42 and it took me to a beautiful wife and 4 kids!
Dont spend too much time wondering about life people, go and live it, it will pass in the blink of an eye believe me!
I hope you live a beautiful and prosperous life with your family
Thats insane this has been out for that long. Im 17 right now and im, honestly really afraid to grow up. I hope I can find my way and end up happy, as I hope you did.
@@learntoswim515 great advice man
I'm 18 years old and insecure as fuck but trying to get through this feeling. I'll take your advice
Damn I love this. Cheers man!
Picture this: It’s 2014 and u just got back from school and hop on the game with all your friends doing your first heist on gta to getting your first victory Royale on Fortnite having the best time of your life not needing to worry about anything,to comming home from work and everyone has went on their own path and not playing games anymore. I remember my parents telling me when I was a kid “time goes by super fast” I never understood what that all meant till now I’m 19 and just sit on the home screen on PlayStation thinking about all the fun we had and took for granted saying I can’t wait to grow up to saying now I wish I was a kid again .
at 15 all i’ve felt was the regret of my own actions. one small decision led me to my lowest point and ruined everything down the road. i hope i’ll look back at this and remind myself how far i’ve come in the future. i wish everyone a blessed life🙏
We must return to monke
Damn fr you just gave me a existential crisis at 12:32 am .. bruh I shouldn’t have ate that Burger King liek I shoulda just stayed home ya know :/ hungry
@@deafgordon2187 Reject fast food. Return to vegetables and meats
ape together stronk
You all may think it’s a joke but I fr changed since then lol
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