My father is dying of cancer. I don’t think he’ll survive the battle. It’s spread to most of his body and major organs. I’ve spent 28 years on this earth not knowing who he is. Not listening to the advice. Not hearing what he has to say. Just not hearing him. I live 8 hours away and have to frequently take time off from work to visit him and my family. Now I listen. Now I hear him. Now, every moment is significant no matter how insignificant. And when I tell him I love him, I mean it.
keep telling him that and enjoy the time you have with him, even if its not likely pray that everything will be okay, life is a elevator, it can go down and up you just have to wait and keep pressing the button to the floor you want it to go
I can't imagine how difficult this must be. you are incredibly strong, and I know he is so grateful and proud of who you've become. praying for a miracle🤍
You really don’t realise how empathetic you are until you jump into these comments. I come back around this time every year (october) to see whats new, and i spend about an hour crying at the beauty/honesty/sadness/longing/introspection. We’re just a bundle of strangers on a big old rock truly *feeling* when we click on this video. I love you all, thank you for continuing to restore my affirmations that life is good, even when it sometimes feels like it isn’t. I hope you all truly live your lives and leave this earth with a smile on your face, whenever that may be. Again, i love you all. I wish every single one of you the best possible life.
I was literally thinking the same thing. I was totally focused on my work listening to this and started reading the comments and it really makes you think how incredible it is to read all of these comments of people lives and what they are going through. Incredible.
We met and were together for two years. She was a beautiful, lovely person. I've never forgotten her face or her voice. I'd constantly infodump about Aphex Twin whenever I'd have the chance. And she would always listen. It's been 7 years since she died. And I'm still alive. I carry on her memory. RIP Katy you absolute legend, will see you in the next life x
hey man, congratulations, happy for you, raise him well, he has a bright future ahead of him, and he'll need all the love and support you can give him! goodluck :)
My youngest is 8 years old... can't hardly pick him up anymore... There will be a last time that your child sleeps in your arms. Strange to think that you won't know it when it's the last time. I try my hardest to remember that last time but can't ever find the memory. Enjoy your little piece of heaven :)
I’m lying down next to a girl that I think I’m falling in love with. She’s asleep and I’m listening on my headphones. Life is good and also weird and also confusing and I’m also unsure. What a trip
I love this, brother. Those days pass so quickly, but they shape who you are forever. Enjoy the utter bewilderment of it all, and how utterly insignificant it makes you feel. As we say here in Scotland... 'Lang may yer lum reek'.
@@merlindogs9703 and that's okay brother. Love just like life is fleeting, enjoy the times that were (even if they were only 3 weeks ago) because the most beautiful moments in life are often followed by the hardest.
I'm about to leave for a 9 month solo backpacking trip around Asia and Australia, spending the last half year of my teenage life on a completely alien side of the planet. I've never done anything like this before, my flight leaves in 4 hours. I'm still in bed, unable to sleep, my mind is too busy thinking about all the wonderful possibilities that the uncertainty of the future has to offer.
Enjoy it every minute of it , be safe , be sensible , be careful ,be prepared but most importantly be ready to pay the consequences that may or may not arise if you so choose not to be or do any of those things aforementioned. Enjoy it 😊
To me this struggle just makes things worse. When I‘m at peace and have accepted the world, I know that in just a few minutes or hours I will feel pain until I think I’ll break for good now. A neverending cycle.
This is incredible to me. All of us listening to the same song, reading each other’s comments. Learning about each other and knowing we will never meet. Never know what each other look like in person.
@@ahmedaudi5050 The chances of it happening again and again in the future are high, but think if you knew it would even happen once more. Know one day at some point it's going to happen and you'll feel as good as you felt.
Life is crazy man. Me and my partner of almost 6 years are having our first child in May. Our journey has been tough; I've been jobless, I've been on the verge of taking my life, we've had bumps, but she's stuck by my side the whole time. There's no love purer than that. And now we're starting our family.
My homie committed suicide 7 yrs ago, his mom passed 4 yrs ago, and I’m starting to forget what his voice sounded like. The girl I was hopelessly jn love with passed away 5 yrs ago, and I’m starting to forget what her voice sounded like. Feels like I’m stuck in a loop. But, I will fight…I will fight to keep their memories alive. I won’t give up.
I'm going through a rough period of life. My memory is always bad but now I'm really struggling to recall anything. Every memory feels so distant and hazy. Can't remember the last time I experienced joy. We're all gonna make it. Some way. Some how
Not sure if anyone will see this, but since everyone else is sharing i guess i will too. My father passed a few months ago before he even turned 40. Im 19. Saw this song on an ig post and figured id check it out. For some reason as soon as i heard the sound it flashed me back to memories with him, and i love that and hate it. I’ve been doing my best to “block it out” bc it just makes me so sad but it’s nice seeing how everyone is kinda the same but in different ways. We are all humans in the end.
Im sorry to hear that your father passed away and I cant imagine that happening to me. I stumbled to this song the same way and i also love and hate it. As for your blocking it out its not healthy in the long run since the bubble will burst and then all of the sadness will fall onto your head shoulders and your back at the same time. Id say dont think about that hes gone but think about that he was there. When he played with you when you went shopping and even the bad times. He was there and im certain he´d do the same. But I also think blocking it out might be disrespectful because it is the best way for a short time to forget about him but think to yourself. If he was a good person you loved and cherished would you think he deserved being blocked out. I think that he deserves that you think about him from time to time the good and the bad memories. Cry or laugh but dont forget about him (obvious Ik). Scars heal but never fade away. I wish you the best
@@itk2mch512 you’re right i know. I don’t mean block out like i never think about him because that’s inevitable. I always think about him i just hate being sad lol. A lot of my life I’m around people so i don’t got time to be sad all day but at night by myself it hits different you know. I love thinking about our memories it just makes me cry so bad and i don’t rlly like that but i also like thinking about us. So hella mixed emotions idek what to do really. I guess “blocked out” was the wrong way to describe it bc i think about him alllll the time but id say more of avoid my feelings. But thanks man for the kind words it really means a lot to me thank you
damn i think we came from the same post. i’m sorry to hear your dad passed away dawg, my girlfriend’s just did not even a day ago from a heart attack. we’re 15. i wanted to show her this song but i don’t wanna regret making her cry 😭 i really hope you’re doing good right now bro stay safe
My friend lost his battle against cancer this morning. He was the most amazing person i have ever met. I'm currently just not even sure what to do with my life, he has brought so much joy into my world. And now he's gone. Rest in peace, Matthew, you will be immensely missed.
Sounds like Matthew was a great guy, and I'm really sorry for your loss, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I hope things can get better for you, for his friends, and for his family. I'll be praying for ya and sending love your way. Blessings to you and yours, and may Matthew rest in peace ❤🙏
My mom has cancer. Since everyone is sharing. I’m 22. About to open my first office and have my first employee. Just recovered from a seizure. I’m not stopping. I’ll make my mom proud. I wish you the very fucking best.
Sigue así, quisiera que la barrera del idioma no nos distanciara y quisiera poder expresar lo que siento hacia ti con algo más complejo y específico que el lenguaje; pero es la herramienta que tengo para llegar a ti, y, desde lo más profundo de mi corazón , te lo juro por mi madre, quiero lo mejor para ti, quiero que sepas que eres fuerte y nunca te olvides de ser feliz. Desconozco como haya sido tu relación con emociones como la felicidad, la tristeza, el enojo, etc. en tu vida, pero espero que, en todas las felicidades, tristezas y enojos que pasaron y que pasaran, al final de el día , encuentres plenitud. Pero más que nada, te encuentres a ti. Ama, llora, ríe, sueña y siente sin descanso, Por qué nunca sabrás lo fuerte que eres, hasta que ser fuerte sea la única opción.
I remember a blizzard in CO in 2007. I was driving home from work in my dad's truck, the sun was dipping, the wipers going. I had this track playing on a CD I'd burned, and it hit perfectly in that moment. It was just a flash of time in the grand scheme of things, but this song can always pull me back right to it: I can see the purple-gray sky through the frame of snow on the windshield; I can hear the wipers going back and forth; I can feel the heater warming my face even as my feet are cold; but most of all, I can feel how happy I was to go home and have dinner, to watch a show with mom, to hear dad buzzing around in the background doing whatever. Life is very different now, halfway across the country in a place with no snow. Dad passed away in January. Mom seems much older, tired, worn out. I'm no longer the kid driving home under a blizzard after 8 hours of a job he doesn't like. But for 10 minutes tonight I could be that kid again, and I was happy to be home.
She’s my first thought in the morning when I open my eyes, and my last thought when I close them. I hope one day our paths converge again, for good this time. Forever and always.
Currently recovering from two emergency brain surgery's. Sitting in my garden with a coffee on a beautiful sunny morning, sun on my face, breeze gentle blowing the trees, birds chirping and singing, the distant sound of cars going by all add more beauty to this track. Happy to still be here 🙏🏻
@@LordHaveMercy Kinda crazy I was listening to this and tought this you should dono, some real actually good music to share. Then I look comments see you here.. Small world.
I discovered this track 30 years ago during the happiest time of my life, and now I'm sitting here in despair listening to it during the saddest time in my life. My honest feeling is putting a bullet in my head right now just to end the agony I'm in, but that will only cause agony for my loved ones. Seeing this beautiful stream of comments with people sharing their souls with each other and uplifting one another is a testament to RDJ's ability to unlock space, time, and spirit with sound. This track is the sound of life itself I feel, and there's a somber hope buried deep within it. I hope to return to my comment in a much better state of mind and truly happy with my life. #19 has gotten me through brain surgery, my mother's death, graduate school, divorce, work, great relationships, and bad ones. I hope I get through this period alive, and I pray that whoever reads this can gain the energy to fight for peace another day. With heartfelt love to all of you - stay strong. ❤✊🏾
hey man, I just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for your best. Keep living man life is priceless. bad times just happened and that's why you gotta be patient for when the good ones arrive.
Hope you’re doing okay. Life is worth living. Whether you believe in Him or not, God has a plan for you, and I’m praying the good times roll in soon. Stay strong brother, we all love you, and we’re all praying for you. You’re an inspiration.
Currently 12:05am , 24th September 2024, hey I’m Kris and i hope i’ll have a fulfilling life. I’m 18 years old and want to be a psychologist when I’m older. Next week i’ll be going to my first day of University. All I ever want is to be of importance in other’s people’s life, not just a side character. Hopefully I’ll be lucky enough to reply to this comment when I’m older as this will be my little capsule to catch up with myself. Life is fast and I intend to find peace and as I die think to myself that it was worth living. Wish me luck.
Hi Kris. Don't let the search for importance in other people's lives turn you into a side character of your own life, okay? One has to live in order to be a positive part of someone's life, and to live is to experience and enjoy your life, not just merely survive and tick all the boxes you're supposed to tick every day. Easier said than done, and heavily dependent on one's circumstances, but trying to do it is what matters most. So try to always make some time for yourself and take care of yourself - those who love you truly will support you doing this, and those who don't will demand you give that time to them instead. Once or twice, maybe it's a mistake; regularly, it's a red flag. Even if you know this already, take this as a reminder that there's nothing wrong with giving yourself that time. Stuff like sitting here and listening to this, time of your own and on your own. Hobbies, relaxation, personal projects, artistic expression, meditation, introspection, a walk outside. Whatever clicks for you. It'll do you more good than you know, and certainly much more than putting that time into the 'grind' of exploitation, ladder-climbing and over-exertion most of us are stuck in. Best of luck with uni. Psychology is incredibly interesting - one of my partners is studying it as well, and I've done my fair share of diving into it but purely of my own interest rather than guided by a curriculum. If you have time, look not just at the works that serve as key points of reference for psychology, but also the works that surround them & their cultural moment. Or the works and ideas they study or borrow from, like pagan customs, religious practices of all kinds, Tarot & other "divinatory" introspection tools, tribal/shamanic healing practices, etc. The theory we're used to always feels so detached, like it popped out of thin air, but it's rooted in our interactions as a species over thousands of years and a myriad of different cultures. Taking notice of those elements and starting to examine them through a new lens is what led us here - and we still got plenty of work left. Anyways, sorry for the impromptu wall of unsolicited advice, I see familiar patterns in what you express and I offer what I think may be helpful or interesting to you based on that. Cheers, and have a good week.
“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.” -Lao Tzu.
@@westarrr you are correct, I tried to research where this quote came from but i wasn’t able to find anything. I did find that a lot of very old quotes are often credited incorrectly though. Very surprising because this has been one of my favorite quotes for years. Much love man
TH-cam comments are so beautiful when you think about it. Especially on videos like this. Here we are, all of us strangers, sitting together with this gentle song as we leave little pieces of ourselves for others to discover. Here I am part of something much bigger than myself. Here I see others out from under the guise of an introduction or a first impression. We can simply leave things of ours such as our thoughts, our wisdom, or stories for anyone else at all who might appreciate and just now I find that so beautiful. Thank you for reading this little piece of me.
Thank you for this. I find certain Aphex Twin tracks (this being one) gently pushes us to be self-reflective and philosophical. This is a go-to for me when I need inner peace. Headphones on, lights off: peace.
I'm slowly learning to open up and be vulnerable. Whatever happened in my childhood left me constantly putting up walls of lies to protect myself. Maybe one day I'll be able to forgive myself, but for now I am learning that it's okay to breathe. I constantly distract myself from the moment because I'm scared. Maybe in a year I'll come back to this and update the three people that liked this comment on how I did. Good afternoon, good evening, and good night.
I've read through a lot of what this comment section has to say and this is very accurate. There's beauty, sadness, love, loss, confusion, pain, and everything in between. Hundreds of different stories in here about every deep human emotion all brought up by this one song, amazing.
This is so well put. I think that most good art whether a piece of music or a painting has this quality where it gives us a means of reflection and can bring stuff out of us that gets buried.
Just discovered this gem today, October 28, 2023. I'm at a point of my life where I am still unsure about what next steps I should take. Hearing this, atleast for a couple of minutes was pure bliss. I guess I needed the break. Hopefully in the next time I check into this song, I have life figured out- or maybe at least have a sense of direction. Best regards to you future self!
My bestfriend of six years who was my first friend ever in highschool, was someone I hung out with all the time every summer and anytime we could. He was the one friend of mine who was always fine with just us hanging out. Friends of ours would call us an old married couple because we were ALWAYS arguing everytime we were with other people. We have made eachother laugh so hard thousands of times. He would always let me stay at his house, and I would always choose him over any other friend, especially his brother which meant a lot to hum. The last two weeks I spent with him were the last two weeks of his life. Those 4 times in that two week period were probably some of our best experiences together as we have ever had as friends. He called me his brother. He even fought someone for me once. He passed away when he was hit by a car August 11th, 2023. He was just 20 years old. Since then, something switched in my brain. I constantly have this sorrow on my heart. It hurts bad, even after a year of his passing:( Rest easy Braden🕊️
I am so sorry for your loss, but what a blessing to have loved someone so much, and been loved in return. I hope you see him again, in whatever comes after.
@@dustinthomasii4399 i've been through something similar, I can honestly say I feel for you. I know God's love is immeasurable for all His children, I'm choosing to believe we'll see them again.
1 Oct 2024 1230am. Im 35 and have lived what feels like multiple lifetimes. I've been to war in the middle east and struggled through a rough mental illness while battling thoughts of suicide and ptsd. I lost my mom when i was 31 and went into a deep hole. In the next 4 years I've lost 100 lbs, been diagnosed with BPD, ptsd, and DID, gone through intense therapy, and strengthened my bond with my wife more than ever. I am currently the best version of myself that I've ever been and know that 15 year old me would be so proud. If you've made it this far know that you can succeed even if it feels like theres no hope left. I love you and i believe in you.
I believe in you too brother. the immense strength you must have to pull through war and suicidal thoughts and lose all that weight is inspiring. I pray that you succeed in everything you dream for a live a wonderful life. God bless from australia
Last October I left France for England, after 2 years of hard work and saving money I finally afforded me a music production school based in Manchester. On 17th October, after saying goodbye to my dad I jumped in my car, and started a very long journey to England. On 20 th October I finally arrived in Manchester. After few days of room research, finally found a place to stay. a lovely room in the suburbs of Manchester (Salford/ walkden). There was a lake next to my place that I used to walk almost every day even though it was raining and cold lol. There was this bunch at the lake where I used to sat and listening to this track with a good view on the lake. Damn it felt so good. Then I discovered that pub 5 min walking from my home, a pub full of very good lads, they all accepted me. Had very great times there My class was perfect, good student, good teacher. My times there was Epic. On Monday morning 12th December I made a song, I posted it on SoundCloud then send it to my dad, he responded me " son you getting better and better " On Monday evening, my step mom send me a text saying " your dad was admitted to the emergency cause he was feeling very bad and kept puking. The next day doctor found a pancreatitis to my dad. My step mom went to see him at hospital she told me he's very tired. On Wednesday 14th I woke up at 9am check my phone, I had a text from my step mom saying that he still tired but he's doing fine he's on his way to recovering Here's come 12pm I got a phone call from my step mom saying " your dad passed away ". I was there alone in my room sitting on my bed, couldn't realised what was going on. I bought myself a ticket flight the next day to go back to France, I had to quit my school and everything I started in Manchester. 7 months later I'm here in his house taking care of his dogs, and still listening to this music, watching stars in the sky at the same times and thinking about him. He was a very good man, always here for me. I can say I'm very proud to be his son ! All this made me realized that life is too short, and you have to enjoy every moment you spending on this planet. Thank you England for this very good experiences. Rest in peace dad, we will meet again. I love you forever dad ♥️
Thanks for sharing this❤️ too bad you had to leave school. Some day, a new oppertunity will appear. But it will only appear id you are open to it. Good luck and may your father rest in peace.
Hey man, I didn't know ur father but I can 100% tell u honestly that he was so so proud of u man. Going after ur dreams, building a career, and then also making the most of an unfortunate situation. I'm proud of u too bro, u keep going n just know that ur an inspiration to many strangers from all across the world (including myself) bless up brother, hope you and ur fam are doing well, and give ur father's dogs a pet for me bro🙏🙏
Im sorry for you man. Im glad you had such an great father figure in your life. Every time you feel sad about your loss, remember those amazing experiences you had with your dad, as simple as they may be, always remember them and look back on them. Good luck to you 🫶
I come by every now and then to read what people are leaving here. This place gives me a sense of strong connection with all of you sharing personal stories. I feel your energy, we're in this together.
Im writing this on november 3rd 2024 at 1:17 AM. I miss my mom. I miss her a lot, listening to this track makes my head play memories back like an old VHS tape, when some of the film was messed and it would chop to the next scene but i dont get mad when it cuts off. She passed february 26th 2021 at 11:10AM. And i miss her a lot. She passed on right before my first year as a teenager, so ill let yall do the math. But ever since then i was forced to grow so fast that i feel like im 23, but in reality im not even 18 yet. She was the best woman i ever knew and always was able to help when i was down, learning how to help myself was one of the most humbling adventures thats still on-going, but its starting to get easier while also kicking me in the butt. 30m before writing this i was considering taking a one-way trip to see her again but i wouldnt wanna ruin what she created. A human. Normally id never vent in comment sections but ive been wanting to write for a long time and i saw people typing here, so i figured id hop on. Reading these comments makes me feel hopeful that theres others struggling like me but then they pull through and its a good feeling. I check in here every month or so and honestly i wouldnt have it any other way than with my mom by my side again, but since thats impossible ill settle for second-best. Thank you for reading. - bloof
Her name was Olivia and she was honestly the sweetest, kindest and most incredible person you could ever know. I told her these things and how I felt to her and I will never forget the way she smiled to me, her eyes got huge and she nearly cried. We were together for 2 years until she passed away in a car accident. I love you so much Liv you never leave my mind and I work and try so hard everyday to make you proud. I hope you are in a better place and one day I will come there too and we will be together forever. RIP My angel ❤
I sometimes wonder If it's worse to lose the one you loved and know her form is gone, or losing her knowing she's moved on, still alive and you'll live as a Deadman unless you have your other half ,no matter how alive you become ,you gave your gift away and she's now someone else's blessing..
I’m currently 17, I just finished my first trimester of junior year. Hopefully i’ll come back to this song later on in my life and realize how good my life was during this time. To the future me, thank you for sticking around, be yourself. Enjoy the people you have around you. I know it’ll get hard. You need to help yourself before you help others.
we are in this together man. its hell but i can tell this is the last time i have before i lose the child in me, which is probably already gone. 17 feels so young yet so grown, why do i feel this way at such a young age 😭
My 8 year relationship fell apart last January, it’s transitioning from fall to winter now, for the entirety of 2023 I was stuck in limbo, not knowing what to do with myself everyday felt like a repeat. Listening to this while waiting to clock into work, I can feel 2024 will start a completely new and foreign chapter in my life. I am at peace now.
Hey, keep going, i totally got that, i think im falling down the same path with my gf and feel i cant do anything about it… 2024 will be a better year hopefully.
I’m 41. Been married for 15 years, have two daughters, own a home, decent paying job. And it’s all happened in the blink of an eye. Seems like just yesterday I was a jackass 23 year old without a responsibility in the world. This song sums up how I feel when I look back at everything, how it’s all unfolded, and how it all had to happen (even the bad stuff) the way it did for me to have the life I do today. Life’s a trip, what might seem like something small today is leading you down your path to where you’ll be, and you can’t even realize it (yet). If you’re young and reading this, live it up and enjoy it, you’re in “the good old days”. You never know where today’s decision or minor detail is taking you. And you’re gonna be 41 too before you know it.
Im so scared of the future. I don't know where I will go after I finish school, and I can't even think about having my own family. But reading your comment made me realize that adults are also just a bunch of grown up kids and we should enjoy our lives. We only live once!!
listened to this chilling out after full on Goa partys in the 90s....good memories, those were the times, they won't come back but as long you remember it , it is not gone. I am 51, btw, but would go back any time if I had a Tardis....
Thank you, just thank you soo much to remembering that to us, im gonna turn 20 in next mounth and i was needing to remember that again. Because the things just makes me tired most of the time. I live in Turkey as a average Turkish young and i feel in void. i gotta ask you, no matter which standart i live, is things gonna be bearable at least?
@@beareleaseYes. The universe, god, nature, whatever it is - won’t throw anything your way that you can’t handle. Be good and life, even when challenged, will be good too.
There’s this girl who changed everything for me. From the first moment I saw her, I knew she was special. She’s inspired me to become the best version of myself, even if she doesn’t know it yet. Every smile, every moment near her fills me with hope and reminds me of the life I want to build-with her by my side. I pray every day for the chance to tell her how much she means to me. True love, I’ve learned, isn’t just a feeling; it’s a commitment to grow, to have faith, and to never give up. I’m willing to wait as long as it takes for the right moment because, with patience and hope, I believe love will find a way. I hope that one day I’ll look back on this moment and see that everything I dreamed of came true. Knowing that all the patience, dedication, and love I put into this journey brought me exactly where I wanted to be. Holding onto that vision of the future keeps me moving forward, step by step, toward the life I’m building. 💜
Last winter i was extremely depressed and listened to this song alot, i cried to it alot. I used to feel so incredibly empty but recently im feeling way better and hope this winter will be better. I hope everyone who is struggling sees through their struggles.
Last winter was the lowest ive ever been in my life. I remember queueing this song three times in a row while taking the metro to work, and just listened to this for 30 minutes straight. I learned from what happened last year and things got better in the summer, but its getting tough again. I hope things will be different this year.
Last winter and the start of 2023 was really bad for me. It's so easy to slip into a depression, and once you are there its so hard to see any way out. This winter will be much better. We will do great :)
I feel you man, currently just clawing my way out of a rut right now. This kind of music is quite therapeutic and I think is necessary to start healing. If you are into foo fighters I can suggest their earliest albums "Exhuasted" hits you right in the feels
When I was in utero my dad would play aphex twin and place headphones on my mums stomach. He used to wake me at dawn and bundle me in his arms as we strolled to the crisp Cornish beach to catch the sunrise listening to ambient works. When I was older he’d wake me up on nights where his insomnia was particularly bad and we’d stroll to the beach arm in arm watching the stars. I came across this as I’m sat in a daze alone in my bedroom. I’m 24 now, just under four years ago I woke to find my dads body after he took his own life. He requested #3 Ambient works as one of the songs for his funeral. I can’t listen to that album anymore without feeling deep turmoil, but this song gives me some will to fight. I feel as if my silhouette is a lightbulb and I could shatter at any moment but even still, there’s something in me willing to find the light.
You had an amazing dad.. treat your future child with similar childhood without negatives. I find your story beautiful. Its very sad but you wrote it beautifully
After my sister died, my dad gave up. I was twenty at the time. He didn’t end his life in one tragic event, but after he died we learned he was having heart problems and instead of seeking treatment that would have absolutely prolonged his life for decades, he chose to embrace death. He even asked days before he died if I would be able to take care of myself if something were to happen to him. It’s crazy to think I knew he needed peace in that moment, without knowing the consequences, and I told him I would be ok. My younger sister held onto anger for him for a long time, but I never did. I knew his soul was in pain and thus couldn’t see how much pain he would leave behind. My sister always runs through her head why we weren’t enough to keep him going, even ten years later. Would he have been able to hold onto his will to live if it was one of us and not the sister who died before him? I never thought that way, though. I know he couldn’t see the burden he would place on our shoulders or all the things that took place in the wake of his death. He didn’t know. And I’ve never felt a thing but forgiveness for that, for we are all human.
I like to imagine that, here, at the comment section, we just gather around this music and share bits of ourselves. Total strangers, who happened to cross each other's ways by bumping into this random, yet special, piece of art.
The internet turned out to be so messy but comment sections like these take me back to the early days of the internet. Just a bunch of totally unrelated people doing their thing and connecting without a hidden agenda. This is what I love so much about the internet.
Looking back, everything feels blurry. I remember sitting next to my dying father, not knowing how many days, or even hours, he might have left. Realizing now that he passed away that same day, holding my hand, fills me with the wish I had spent more time with him. Driving back from the hospital at 7 a.m., the emptiness was overwhelming, knowing no hug will ever be shared again, knowing I will never see my father again. Half a year later, this song came back to me, unearthing the memory of that day, and the realization that I lost this beloved person forever. All my strength to everyone who has lost someone dear to them. You are not alone in this.
I’m a 36 year old orphan. I lost my Mom to lung cancer in April of 2020 and I lost Dad to lung cancer in March of 2022. In between that, I lost my younger brother to chronic alcoholism in 2021 when he was only 29. It’s depressing to think the people you spend the most time with throughout your life will eventually just disappear.
No one is given an immense pain like that without the possibility of being able to conquer it. I believe the strongest people get tested the most. I wish you the best man keep your head up❤️
two days ago i had one of the worst days of my life and cried for more than an hour straight while watching videos of my dad who comitted suicide a few months ago and now im sitting at my dining table studying classical mythology with the sun shining off and on through my window thinking 'oh what a wonderful world we live in. it is going to be okay' and it is. it will. i am speaking to you, someone who is also having a tough time, you will find moments where you'll think this exact same thing, you will find peace and light and safety again. and i believe in you and i love you and i still miss my dad and wish he was here but i also still love him very much. and time will heal all wounds i promise
You are the kind of person I look up to and aspire to be. I'm certain what you feel is more than you can ever put into words, and I hope the moments where you can think that come to you as often as they ever possibly can.
I’m currently alone in my room eating a slice of my mom’s homemade pizza. I’m not allowed to eat in my room because I’ll get in trouble, but this moment is worth it. This is the best pizza I’ve ever had.
I’m 23 years old. I was diagnosed with MDD a month ago after allowing myself to shatter into pieces over the course of 9 months. In December of 2023 I failed to take my own life and since then I have been drowning in a sea of anxiety and depression. I feel like my life has grinded to a halt, and I can’t forgive myself for the anguish I put not only myself but the people closest to me through. I truthfully don’t know why I’m still here. I don’t know what I can do for others in the time I have left, and I don’t think I’ll ever get better. But I’m still here to experience. What brings me joy right now is moments of solace, where that ocean of depression becomes still, and I don’t have to think anymore, I can just be. Even if I don’t have anything to look forward to, or I feel powerless to make any change in this rapidly spiraling world, I want to live for these moments where I can experience true serenity and know that if nothing else mattered, I can still feel and experience something greater than myself. But I’m 23 years old, why do I feel so lost? I wonder if other people feel the same, but I also wonder if that even matters. I hope it does. I hope I make it to 24.
hi pal, i’m sorry to hear that you diagnosed with mdd. Hope you’re doing better know. I just wanna say that sometimes as a humanity we forget to realize and praise little things. Like feeling the wind on your skin, seeing the sun come up with all his glory. That makes us realize we’re really alive, you know? ( im forgetting this a lot also.) You’re so right about being lost and cant find a meaning in life. I cant either. Sometimes i tell myself “ why am i living if there’s no purpose of this life?” But here’s the trick, nobody told us there is a purpose and meaning. Maybe there’s not, we can’t know so surely. So maybe we should just experience the life like you say and we can be grateful to universe that we’re alive? Little things you know, when you’re swimming feeling of the water, to feel cold! We can feel cold man, that’s so strange lol. Like songs like these makes us feel. Well, according to our knowledge now, you can live one life. So, i wanna experience the things that i’ve never experienced before! Think about it! If you were gone this day, you wouldn’t hear this song and writing this! And i think that There is always something we need to see in our life! Always!
Im 20, never experienced a depressive episode, but have had and still have massive problems with anxiety. Not being in control and feeling lost is as much a part of life as feelings of calm and peace. Keep on it, i believe in you, never give up hope. This all probably sounds like bullshit pep talks, there is really no way to reach across with words trough a thick depressive blanket. Its like telling a person with an anxiety attack to just calm down. But i believe truly believe in you.
Check this out my brother: The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing. 2 He makes me lie down in green pastures, he leads me beside quiet waters, 3 he refreshes my soul. He guides me along the right paths for his name’s sake. 4 Even though I walk through the darkest valley,[a] I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows. 6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life, and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever. Psalm 23, always brings me peace when I feel lost. You're not alone.
Listening to this while I‘m zoned out in my bed and suffer because I lost my Dad who was my hero, my idol and my best friend through all these times. I still can’t get over it and have to think about him everyday. Today would‘ve been his birthday… Happy Birthday Dad, I love you and I always will
I wish the best for you in life mate, rest in peace to your father. I lost mine at 6 months old, I am now nearly 24 and not a day goes by that I do not think about him. Push yourself and be the best person you can be.
I'm so sorry for your lost. Just would like to remind you, you are not alone. You are strong enough to keep going. I lost mine last year, two months after I lost mine grandma, and he told me after that day, "the carrousel of life stop for a sec, she goes down, and the carrousel started again, life goes on" Wish u good luck
Been talking to this girl at work, at first it was just a friendship type of thing up until a couple weeks ago we started flirting and getting to know each other, really felt like I could make her mine, today she got fired and texted me saying it’s best we part ways… I tried to tell her we can talk and get to know each other more, told her I’ll be here for her if she needed anything but she was honest enough to tell me that her ex was trying to get back into her life, hopefully we can meet in another timeline, I wish her the best, it was rare to meet someone I had so much in common in and laugh with, time to focus on my self. Listening to this makes me feel like at ease, just a blank space no overthinking no stress just living in the moment, time to move on and live life, I’ll always appreciate the memories and good times, god is amazing and with his grace and blessing I will achieve anything I put my mind to, AMEN 🙏🏽 I Pray for everyone in this comment section I know what I’m going through isn’t close to anything some of you guys are going through, but i had to vent. Stay safe and god bless 🙏🏽
Ive instructed my friends and family for years that this song is to be played at my funeral. There should be no eulogy, no talking, just this song and silence. Played one time, and then its over. Everyone is to go home, and get on with their lives. Over the years much has changed, but not this. Never this.
This song makes me appreciate what it is to be human. In a world full of deception and false glory, going through core emotions with yourself is still so real. Especially while listening to this song… take care.
I’m a 22 year old single father. I lost my job a couple days before thanksgiving and have just finally gotten a new one. I’m falling in love for the first time since the mother of child left us for alcohol over a year ago. I’m healthier than I’ve ever been. I’ve regained my love for reading. I have picked up new hobbies. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been even though I’m in the most stressful position I’ve ever been in. Things get better. Life has a billion small joys that must be sought out. Keep going and you can find them.
I am in love with somebody who does not love himself. He tried to get sober again, and it stuck for a little, but I am watching him spiral back into his disease. I hear this song when I look at him. He is so beautiful. I don't know how much longer I can do this
@@jackassir6060yeah I miss my cat. Had him for 15 years as I grew up and had such a bond with him unlike any other. This music makes me reflect on past times good and bad. As much as we want them back, it’s apart of life to live, love, grieve and appreciate the family, friends or companions we lost. Thankfully we had the memories and that never goes away.
My grandma died in February, then a couple months later my girlfriend of two years left me, and then a couple weeks later my dog of ten years passed away. And, as hard as it’s been, and boy has it been fucking rough, it’s truly enlightened me. In the sense that, things come and go, and that’s ok. You can’t hold on to something forever, as we aren’t going to be around forever ourselves. But you can learn to embrace everyday and cherish the most beautiful moments that will come your way. Learn to love yourself, and to forgive yourself. Be kind and give. Be strong, and be vulnerable. Be human. You are beautiful and unique. I love you all ❤
to have gone through what you have and come out kind says so much about your character. you seem like a beautiful person and i hope life is kind to you
Not even halfway through this video and I’ve shed the first tears I’ve had in years. I miss my family but they’ve all accepted that I’m different from them and moved on. I just want to feel loved by my parents again, I want my father to be proud of me without denying me affection.
Clayton, we don’t know each other aside from sharing this piece of music. I think and believe that a person who can really express himself, is someone who I can look up to, who I can be proud of. Focus on building up your self confidence . How? By having fun being with yourself, doing things by yourself, exercise, play, distract from bad augury. Don’t carry yourself around, enjoy yourself while being yourself.
I sat and listened to this when i was 14 wondering where my life would take me....... I just turned 42 and it took me to a beautiful wife and 4 kids! Dont spend too much time wondering about life people, go and live it, it will pass in the blink of an eye believe me!
Thats insane this has been out for that long. Im 17 right now and im, honestly really afraid to grow up. I hope I can find my way and end up happy, as I hope you did.
Today I was found not guilty for a crime I didn't commit, it's been a brutal 6 months and this song came in my feed. With that and reading the comments, it made me tear up and value my life more
I am currently fighting a case of robbery, aggravated assault as a juvenile, a crime I did commit, I have court coming up in June, any advice? I'm currently on house arrest.
14 is when I started listening to Aphex Twin and now I’m 32. I’ve never had a close friend who also loved his music. Now I’m a year in with a girlfriend who I showed this and the other tranquil beautiful songs to. We listened to Stone In Focus for the moon rising over the ocean last year and I played Lichen for her the first time I wanted to open up more deeply with her....... and last night was the first time I told her I love her. Just wanted to share that
This is my first comment ever. I'm one of those people that are too ashamed of sharing their feelings and feel that everything about them is embarassing. I'm 15 and struggling with life, alone, well, I'm just too different from others. Family problems and had a very hard childhood, worried for my 2 brothers and 4 sisters. Mother hates me now because of father, and father expects too much of me. There's just so much I wan't to share with people but they never understand, they just...never do. Most of the time I feel like I'm not living and just exist. Thank you Aphex twin for all the emptiness and I swear it, I will never forget this song.
I'm the same, always feel like its never right the right time to share what I'm feeling or it's the wrong person. I still haven't found a solution so let me know if you do bud :)
@@ozujkaI think it's just too late for that now. I'm kind of used to it now...How life always gets the best of me. Thank you for reading and replying.
Reading all these comments really helped me feel like i wasn’t alone with my problems. Its one thing for a parent or guardian figure in your life to say to you “you’re not alone”, but really seeing it with your own eyes is something else man. I appreciate all of you and am glad that you were all able to share your stories and experiences. Thank you, cheers 🍻
If you're still listening to this in October 2024, you have a great taste in music, I wish you all the best in life and for you to overcome your challenges, and remember "Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall" 🙌
i think most of us don’t realize how technology has changed us and how intertwined and connected we became. the total opposite is being said, we are being told that we are losing connections bonds with people but here we are millions of total strangers gathering in a comment section offering a look from a small window to our lives. we come together to tell our story, share our pain and cherish our good memories. we are human and we are connected. it is incredibly hard for me to live a life where i dont stop and think about the others who walked on the same streets as me or drank from the same cafe as me. it is exhausting at most times but sometimes it can be comforting. i go through the comments read bits and pieces of you guys’s lives and i smile, i get sad with you or i relate to your struggles. then when its time i like your comments and wish you the best. to all the strangers out there reading mine comment, have a wonderful day❤
not an realistic view brother, local communities are being destructed by social media, for example in the west no stranger ever talks to each other with good virtue like we used to do before the internet
I'm 15. My dad died when i was 9. I think i got depression for a while. I didnt want to move at all. But i got over it. I want to live a long life with someone i love. I love my friends. I love you reading this.
I studied abroad in Scotland for 6 months after living in California all my life. Holy cow did my perspective change… I came into Scotland so caught up in the bubble of life and come out seeing the beauties of life. I was finally on my own and it was then I met a girl I will always remember. I felt more myself in this country than ever before, and meeting this girl only solidified that. She showed me that I am worthy of love and loved me for who I was. It was really a blessing and even though it didn’t last, her and the many other unique people I met there stay in my mind forever.
I'm listening to this knowing it is time for me to take action and chase my goals because nobody is going to save me, to all of you out there i wish you the best guys we can do it. I Belive in you🙌
Currently laying in bed, listening to this masterpiece, overthinking everything that’s happened, thinking about what I could’ve done better or changed in my life to get to where I am. I feel like every time I’m at my lowest point in life I notice everything that’s happening around me, who’s really there for you and who’s not, the pain and struggle just hanging from my shoulders, the thought of giving up, always fatigued, no motivation or drive to do anything fun anymore, distancing myself from my loved ones, just mentally drained at this point. Whenever I come back to this sound it just keeps me at peace, and for anyone going thru the struggles right now, just know that this shit is temporary, we’ll be out the gutter soon! The people who were there for you when you had nothing keep them close, I know it’s tough but you gotta thug it out for your loved ones, Stay strong Kings! don’t let the struggle tear you apart. ❤️👑
Its a nice thought...but I disagree on that...to me it sounds more like the final hug of a Person you wont see in a long time or maybe never again... Cause this song is soo bittersweet
This song gives me a feeling of acceptance in life. Sure, there tangible melancholy in it... But there's also something endearing to it too. A bizarre mix of good and bad together that make it Serene... Peaceful... And just... Clear. As though I've come to the end of my life, looking back at all the things I've done thinking... "Yeah, I don't regret this. This was a good life."
Hi, i am a Brazilian independent artist. I composed, mixed and made the cover of this album over a year, thinking about the sleep experience and the layers of consciousness. It is a 28 minute album with two songs. I wanna be heard by people who connect with ambient music. Aphex was a big inspiration. (I am discovering ways to spread my art and my work.) This is very special. It means a lot to me. Enjoy. th-cam.com/video/Tp2P5S-txVI/w-d-xo.html
I lost my brother in 2021, i miss him so much, i think he sees me now, he see what im doing. I don't enjoy my present, but i try everyday to feel good, im trying, im tired sometimes, i feel sad, lost and i don't kow what to do, have friends, have a girlfriend, a job, my mom, my dad and i love them, but i feel lost. I miss my brother, he was so good, a good friend, son, father. Lucas i love you forever and i miss you, hope you help me whrever you are. I'll try to continue with my life and i'll do the right things, hope to be okay, to go out of this hole. I hope you find the way, love from Argentina
😂 billions nor millions 👉 the stable firm earth doesn't rotate only the celestial as we are in the FIRMAMENT 😊 and the earth should be less than 20 thousands years old
jesus christ, these kind of comments make me want to unlearn empathy... just the mere imagination of having to attend my brother's funeral makes me feel sick. I'm so sorry for your loss, I really can't imagine what you have to go through.
@@cozymode70 You've spoke from the heart right there. I too sometimes wish i was born a psychopath. Human life, cognitive abilities, and the dark nature of the universe and nature is traumatizing and this stuff can be overwhelming the more conscious you are. I can envision you growing into a very strong person especially since you have the ability to reflect. And although it's extremely hard to imagine death, but i believe it's just an illusion. Before you were born you were in a state of nonexistence when you die you might end up in the state you were before you were even a sperm before you father existed. Time is not the same or if it's even there when we die. But i'm sure it will be like waking up again on a new planet maybe the same as a living thing. It's still too hard to accept too because there are many horrible ways you will die and you'll have the most blissful lives as well. The universe is torture and all this for why? What purpose if at all? And does it even need a reason?
Fascinating how he managed to make 3 chords remain interesting for over 10 minutes. I suppose minimalism is one of the driving factors in a good ambient track.
It's extremely subtle, but there are elements being added and taken away throughout the entirety of the track. The rhythmic length of the 3 chord sequence also changes and extends/contracts. So there is change, but it's incredibly subtle.
idk. it's okay when you're falling asleep but it's not intented for active listening imo. Autechre's Vletrmx which basically has just like 5 different notes over 4 bars repeated for seven minutes sounds much more interesting and alive than this.
November 12th 2024 - This is the epitome of living. I feel so grateful to have stumbled across this video. This is the purest form of life. Thank you to all you beautiful people that have shared your stories. My words are scrambled however the moment is clear. I have tears dripping out of my eyes cascading their way down to my smile. All I feel is the present. So often in my life I have said I would change, I said I would grow. And so often I fall into the same cycles, never breaking free. I truly believe this is my moment. I will see you again albeit a future version of myself. I wish every single one of you the best life possible. Never give up.
"I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me." It's one of my favorite quotes from a game. Last year, I honestly considered taking my own life. Life was becoming too hard on me, but that was mostly because of my bad decisions. Drugs, bad relationships, anger, and being overweight were all taking a toll on me. I decided to move away, cut all those people off, quit drugs, lose weight by fasting, dieting, and going to the gym every day, as well as controlling my anger with better sleep and meditation. I did everything I possibly could to feel better, and I can honestly say it worked. I still have issues with money, understanding people, especially myself, but at least I'm in a better spot than last year. I have hope that it'll get even better. Whoever reads this, don't give up, no matter how bad it gets; you have the potential. Take one day at a time. Breathe a bit; you can always make it better in some way.
I'm 63 and only recently found Aphex Twin, quite by accident. Life is really amazingly random. For me, the lack of real control, and the awareness of that, which intensifies as you age, lose loved ones, accumulate various health issues (which may or may not be things you have any control over re behavior), etc. is what I struggle with. I had to actually look up "ambient music" to be sure I understood what it was. I had listened to some of it over the years from minimalist composers like Philip Glass (who did the wonderful music for Koyaanisqatsi), not even realizing that was a thing. But the first time I say that film at about age 24 (more like the age of various commenters here) and sat just STUNNED in the theater when it was over as everyone else in that big packed theater got up and hurried to their car, made me more aware "I'm not like most other people". For me at that point, it really dawned on me how badly we are screwing up the planet, decades before climate change became such an obvious huge problem. Now, almost 40 years later, I realize that I'm on the autism spectrum, and that's why I have trouble understanding the emotional life of lots of people. Like for me, I was really surprised at how sad so many people in comments said this beautiful song makes them feel. To me it makes me feel quiet, safe, and comfortable emotionally, even as my mind roams over many topics. It's like a calming tonic for the normal whirlwind chaos that is much of life. I agree with another poster re the quality and the compassion and positivity re all the comments here. Sometimes I am very proud to be a human being (unlike the dismay human events causes at other times), so thank you so much for this community for providing that as an adjunct to this wonderful piece of musical artwork.
With this song as a witness, today will be the day I revert back to the good man I once was. I promise myself to no longer procrastinate. To not waste the life that millions would kill to have. I will realize my true potential. I was given a back to bear weights, not to turn it towards the people I love. I promise to be good, help others, and die great.
Discovered this song about a month ago, and coming to this comment section really made me think a lot about how I was raised and who I am. Hearing everyone's stories, their up comings and harsh days, it really puts life into perspective. I think I'll keep coming back here every once in a while. Life is beautiful.
I'm 23 and was told by doctors yesterday I have a tumour growing in my foot for the past 3 years and has eroded away a good chunk of my heel bone. Waiting to get a biopsy and listening to this really helps me ground myself and process what's ahead for me.
I played this for my father today who is 94 he can't see very well and couldn't see this beauty being in the water but he sat with his eyes closed listening meditating on it and every two or three minutes saying 'wow'.
I can't imagine what listening to this at age 94 would be like. All those years to reflect on while listening to this would be incredibly poignant yet comforting. like the ending credits to a powerful movie. thanks for sharing :)
I understand you is a feeling that has accompanied me all my life and I don't know if one day this will change, but in spite of that I live trying to find enjoyment in life, in the little things, in the fleeting moments, in astonishing myself, in making an effort, in looking for certain tranquillity and coherence, to be at peace above all with myself, those things for me are condensed in this song.
Reading these comments confirms to me what I've always deeply known. We are all one. Just having unique experiences. And certain frequencies, or songs like this, can bring us all together in a moment. Beautiful stuff. love you all.
Came home from uni today. Took a walk through the woods, past the spot I had my first kiss, the place I used to smoke at, and the spot I tried to take my own life. Just watching the water move at it’s own pace and my breath in the cold was true peace life can be beautiful bros
hey take care dude hopefully youre doing alot better now and if you arent doing well keep pushin dont give up Youll get there! and the fact that you got this far is already pretty dang impressive so keep going mate
Hey brother I hope and pray you are feeling better and stronger mentally . This life everyday bring me down but you gotta keep pumping keep thriving it’s time to Focus .
I can't wait to come back to this video in some years and see all of your success stories about how you all managed to push through and find peace in the end. I look forward to it :)
Sitting here on my balcony, I’ve been observing about 200 or so people in a park. As I’m watching, I am in awe of the beauty of humanity. Whether you’re laughing with your friends or alone, cherish those moments, for they make life.
This comment section is the most beautiful, hopeful, saddening, depressing, explorative and inspiring piece of art that exists on earth. You hear the grief of those who’ve lost their love ones. The achievements of those who escaped fate. Those struggling to see hope, and those whose story shows you that everything will indeed be ok. Just shows you the uniqueness of life on this planet. Every one of us is special and will have our own stories - it shows we all have something worth fighting for.
Right now its 3:58 am Im a 16 year old from south africa. I really hope i live a good and fulfilling life. I wanna travel, see and experience new things i started talking to a girl named alexandra and shes the sweetest person ive ever met. Her smile lights me up inside, im gonna come back to this comment in 10 years
I'm at the lowest point in my life while listening to this. I have a tumor in my knee and am unable to jump, run, or stand properly without pain. About a month ago I was driving home when someone turned out in front of me, resulting in a tbone wreck that totaled my car and injured me mentally and physically. Although I have recovered from the physical injuries, the wreck has caused me to become depressed again and demotivated to push toward my goals or even do the things I usually enjoy. I've spent the last couple years alone and in pain, wishing for at the very least a friend who can understand me. I turn 17 soon and I am in the same place I was years ago, but now I discovered this music. I hope that sometime in the future I can look back at this comment and see how my life has improved and changed for me.
You got this bro, the dark times will pass you, ik it feels like it won't but take it day by day, and in no time you will be where you wanna be. I believe in you
Hey, you are not alone mate! We hear you, i feel you! Everything happens for a reason, there is only upside from here ! When times are good be grateful, when times are bad be graceful. NEVER GIVE UP!
My dad died when i was a teenager and I’m slowly forgetting what his face looked like and what his voice sounded like and how his perfume smelled. It feels like every trace of him is slowly fading and i cling onto my happy memories and tell myself as long as i remember those he won’t be really gone. This song sounds exactly how it feels. May he rest in peace
Holding your newborn son on your arms, while listening to this music is truly a wonderful gift of life. All these paths i've taken leading me to these moments, makes me realize how beautiful life can be in all the absurdities. God bless you all
Not a big fan of God, but i can sure feel a fraction of what you might have gone through, emotionally ((-_-)) wish i could've been a parent, you're privileged and i hope, up to this huge task of raising a conscious being
I turned 21 a few days ago, my teenage years are over and now i am on the road towards working on my life. Hopes, dreams, family, friends, sadness, doubt, uncertainty, i am engulfed by all these thoughts and emotions. My dad used to say “what you do in your 20’s matter alot because these years shape the pathway of your future” as a young man who’s learning about life bit by bit, i wanna make the most out of it. I don’t know what future holds for me, but going through the comments that are here as time capsules surely made me believe that we are all on the same voyage, rowing through the infinite stream of time. To every one who reads this, I LOVE YOU ALL and WE EXIST! and that’s the most amazing thing about us all!
Sometime earlier this year, me and my twin brother, when we couldn't sleep, would get dressed and go on a walk, usually starting at some time just before 5 AM. Everything was calm and still, like him and me were the only living souls on the planet. We would walk and chat bullshit until roughly 6 AM, when we would head down to the local corner shop and buy a drink, then head home. Every day me and him did this was cloudy and foggy, and I would have this repeating either in my head, or through my trusty wireless earphones. I will stand by my word that those few days I'd did that with him is a very brief period in my life to remember forever.
I met a girl about a year ago. She was different than anybody I had ever met before. When she entered the room, it really felt like everything got more colours. I remember one night we would walk through the city after watching a movie together. She decided to hold my hand and I felt, I did not want this moment to ever end. We made a stop at a lake to look at the beautiful boats. I looked over to her and realised how pretty she is. I often got lost in the beauty of her eyes. I never wanted this night to end. Her personality was like a fire with big flames, I never met anybody who could ever come close to her. I absolutely loved her. I never got to tell her these things, we went different paths but she changed the way I look at people and I still think about her often.
woah..same fate mate.same feelings.I know I have to let her go, but deep in my heart, I trust that one day the universe will bring us together again when we are both ready, especially from my side.
As a kid i looked at a pretty girl, but i don't remember anything afterwards between us after i've told her a phrase i will later learn meant a very terrible thing that used a slang word (it meant let's do bed dancing). Now i have a different interest and i feel like something could actually blossom if i break out of my own tar and show that i am capable of love and socializing. Lately i've convinced myself i AM depressed, because my default emotion is silent sadness and i was demotivated for a *long time.* But i can't find a way to express it best than to hope a friend or more, would notice, and give me the hand i needed (the amagi made a video based around if Sakura became Naruto's childhood friend, she helped him with grades, and as it hit a note and i burst into tears). When somebody crafts a form of media that encapsulates pure happiness in a form of relationship or socializing, i kind of burst into tears, at first it was a movie about a soldier whose soul got sent into the afterlife to be reborn. But he was reckless while waiting in the line, and smoked dirt with the soul of a kid, even made friends who he may be fated to meet in life. However lady fate gave him a disability which he reacted very harshly to, and almost missed the bus to life, he ended up succeeding as a physicist, even though his mother closely supported him and had to help him do mundane activities such as dressing up, and his dad left because he couldn't bear the table tapping because of his disability. I suspect it's related to autism. Point being, im not bad physically, not too bad intelligence wise, but i am in a heck of a cement mix and i just feel like i need somebody other than my parents to help me relearn the value of life. I think i had a dream about doors and in on of them i see my father's grave, which i think shows i hated his punishments more than i let on. I pray i don't let the things i legitimately hate consume me. It kind of feels like i see everything as dark shades of grey to black, imagine living with those colors visible to your eyes without feeling like a sack of shit. TH-cam says i might want to edit the comment, don't worry, i don't have any bad thoughts, i just acknowledge the fact that i had them and i know well i never intended and never will intend to act up on them, they are intrusive in nature. Im voicing out that i hope for a good future but that i don't have the strength to will it into truth without a very strong motivation. When i think of people, i think the times that i exercise, i can put just a little bit more strength in that moment, but i'd want more. I might regret sending this one hell of a reply because i took a little discord distraction and now i think this is very cringe.
Woah I’m in the same situation. I fell in love with a girl who honestly she’s the best recent thing to appear in my life. She brings out the best in me, I still cherish the memories I have of her. But I learned she already has a boyfriend. I have to accept that she won’t be in my life much longer…
This girl reminds me of my crush. She used to be in my school from 5th to 7th grade. Now we're in different schools because I live at the end of my hometown, and I had no other choise but to go to the nearest school to my block.
You're not alone. There's so manyf people who are going through the exact same thing you are, and we're all in this fight. This life will throw you mental curveballs everyday. Pray about it, give it to God and trust Him. You are going to win. One day at a time.
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My father is dying of cancer. I don’t think he’ll survive the battle. It’s spread to most of his body and major organs. I’ve spent 28 years on this earth not knowing who he is. Not listening to the advice. Not hearing what he has to say. Just not hearing him. I live 8 hours away and have to frequently take time off from work to visit him and my family. Now I listen. Now I hear him. Now, every moment is significant no matter how insignificant. And when I tell him I love him, I mean it.
:(
keep telling him that and enjoy the time you have with him, even if its not likely pray that everything will be okay, life is a elevator, it can go down and up you just have to wait and keep pressing the button to the floor you want it to go
I can't imagine how difficult this must be. you are incredibly strong, and I know he is so grateful and proud of who you've become. praying for a miracle🤍
Hang in there sweetheart 😢. You’re an amazing person for your family. Don’t blame yourself for any past wrongs. That’s how life is 🥺❤️
This made me teary 🥲
You really don’t realise how empathetic you are until you jump into these comments. I come back around this time every year (october) to see whats new, and i spend about an hour crying at the beauty/honesty/sadness/longing/introspection. We’re just a bundle of strangers on a big old rock truly *feeling* when we click on this video. I love you all, thank you for continuing to restore my affirmations that life is good, even when it sometimes feels like it isn’t. I hope you all truly live your lives and leave this earth with a smile on your face, whenever that may be. Again, i love you all. I wish every single one of you the best possible life.
I was literally thinking the same thing. I was totally focused on my work listening to this and started reading the comments and it really makes you think how incredible it is to read all of these comments of people lives and what they are going through. Incredible.
love you too man and same
Love you 2 brother, thanks for the insight 🙌
love u bro, hope everybody finds the best of live
Que lindo comentario. Ojala tengas una hermosa vida al igual que le deseo esto al resto.
We met and were together for two years. She was a beautiful, lovely person. I've never forgotten her face or her voice. I'd constantly infodump about Aphex Twin whenever I'd have the chance. And she would always listen. It's been 7 years since she died. And I'm still alive. I carry on her memory. RIP Katy you absolute legend, will see you in the next life x
sorry for your loss 😢. hope you are doing better man❤
Really sorry to hear that mate
Really, I'm sorry
Hope you get through bud 😢x
Im Sorry For Your Loss
I Promise You, Youll Find Her Again In The Afterlife And Be With Her Forever.
I‘m so sorry to hear that, wish you all the strengh in the world you need to recover❤
Put your faith in Christ :)
Holding my sleeping son, 8 weeks old, listening to this Friday night after a long week. Comments carved in stone.
hey man, congratulations, happy for you, raise him well, he has a bright future ahead of him, and he'll need all the love and support you can give him! goodluck :)
My youngest is 8 years old... can't hardly pick him up anymore... There will be a last time that your child sleeps in your arms. Strange to think that you won't know it when it's the last time. I try my hardest to remember that last time but can't ever find the memory. Enjoy your little piece of heaven :)
Embrace that feeling it's amazing, my wife and I broke up and I don't see my kids nearly as much anymore I miss them terribly and my whole family unit
I hope you can raise a happy family
I’m lying down next to a girl that I think I’m falling in love with. She’s asleep and I’m listening on my headphones. Life is good and also weird and also confusing and I’m also unsure. What a trip
Enjoy life, brother. That's what makes it something to write about.
I love this, brother. Those days pass so quickly, but they shape who you are forever. Enjoy the utter bewilderment of it all, and how utterly insignificant it makes you feel.
As we say here in Scotland...
'Lang may yer lum reek'.
Well, Merlin Dogs? 3 weeks has passed? How do you feel now about this girl now?
Wolf Child❤
@@wolfchild9755 if the truth be told mate I think we’re about to break up, life goes on hey 🤷♂️
@@merlindogs9703 and that's okay brother. Love just like life is fleeting, enjoy the times that were (even if they were only 3 weeks ago) because the most beautiful moments in life are often followed by the hardest.
I'm about to leave for a 9 month solo backpacking trip around Asia and Australia, spending the last half year of my teenage life on a completely alien side of the planet. I've never done anything like this before, my flight leaves in 4 hours. I'm still in bed, unable to sleep, my mind is too busy thinking about all the wonderful possibilities that the uncertainty of the future has to offer.
Embrace it
it’s a beautiful opportunity man. i’m so happy for you.
how do you manage to get enough resources to do something like this man
Enjoy it every minute of it , be safe , be sensible , be careful ,be prepared but most importantly be ready to pay the consequences that may or may not arise if you so choose not to be or do any of those things aforementioned. Enjoy it 😊
Enjoy yourself you deserve it man
This is how it feels to not know if you’re getting better or worse and you’re stuck between wanting to keep fighting or just let go
Never give up! Never surrender!
although as obvious as the answer may seem looking back in the moment you can never find the right one.
To me this struggle just makes things worse. When I‘m at peace and have accepted the world, I know that in just a few minutes or hours I will feel pain until I think I’ll break for good now. A neverending cycle.
❤
Real
This is incredible to me. All of us listening to the same song, reading each other’s comments. Learning about each other and knowing we will never meet. Never know what each other look like in person.
You could be wrong - you might walk past one of these commenters on the street tomorrow, and maybe you did yesterday
@@lukaski-91still proves his point we really wont ever meet, we might walk past each other but we would never know it
Love that... we just let our feelings out... stay safe everyone
We may not experience each other in person but we still are experiencing each other someway. 🥺🌹❤️
Glad to be able to share this moment and hopefully many more with this many like-minded people. Thank you
This is how it feels when a good day ends and you know you will remember this day often in the future.
Real
And you'd be kinda sad cause it's maybe not gonna happen again
Fr
yea man, yea
@@ahmedaudi5050 The chances of it happening again and again in the future are high, but think if you knew it would even happen once more. Know one day at some point it's going to happen and you'll feel as good as you felt.
Life is crazy man. Me and my partner of almost 6 years are having our first child in May. Our journey has been tough; I've been jobless, I've been on the verge of taking my life, we've had bumps, but she's stuck by my side the whole time. There's no love purer than that. And now we're starting our family.
That's the one, blessings for all of your family
lots of love to you guys❤
@@Dahcs you both are warriors. Now make another warrior on that child ♡ much love for you guys
Good luck! Remember to still to a routine and stay healthy!
Beautiful❤
My homie committed suicide 7 yrs ago, his mom passed 4 yrs ago, and I’m starting to forget what his voice sounded like. The girl I was hopelessly jn love with passed away 5 yrs ago, and I’m starting to forget what her voice sounded like. Feels like I’m stuck in a loop. But, I will fight…I will fight to keep their memories alive. I won’t give up.
Hell yeah, man.
they would be proud of you, keep going and finding new joys in life.
I’m sorry for your loss. I hope you remember, and may you have peace. Stay strong. Hold fast to the center.
I'm going through a rough period of life. My memory is always bad but now I'm really struggling to recall anything. Every memory feels so distant and hazy. Can't remember the last time I experienced joy.
We're all gonna make it. Some way. Some how
That really sounds rough though man :( . Hang in there ❤
Not sure if anyone will see this, but since everyone else is sharing i guess i will too. My father passed a few months ago before he even turned 40. Im 19. Saw this song on an ig post and figured id check it out. For some reason as soon as i heard the sound it flashed me back to memories with him, and i love that and hate it. I’ve been doing my best to “block it out” bc it just makes me so sad but it’s nice seeing how everyone is kinda the same but in different ways. We are all humans in the end.
Im sorry to hear that your father passed away and I cant imagine that happening to me. I stumbled to this song the same way and i also love and hate it. As for your blocking it out its not healthy in the long run since the bubble will burst and then all of the sadness will fall onto your head shoulders and your back at the same time. Id say dont think about that hes gone but think about that he was there. When he played with you when you went shopping and even the bad times. He was there and im certain he´d do the same. But I also think blocking it out might be disrespectful because it is the best way for a short time to forget about him but think to yourself. If he was a good person you loved and cherished would you think he deserved being blocked out. I think that he deserves that you think about him from time to time the good and the bad memories. Cry or laugh but dont forget about him (obvious Ik). Scars heal but never fade away. I wish you the best
@@itk2mch512 you’re right i know. I don’t mean block out like i never think about him because that’s inevitable. I always think about him i just hate being sad lol. A lot of my life I’m around people so i don’t got time to be sad all day but at night by myself it hits different you know. I love thinking about our memories it just makes me cry so bad and i don’t rlly like that but i also like thinking about us. So hella mixed emotions idek what to do really. I guess “blocked out” was the wrong way to describe it bc i think about him alllll the time but id say more of avoid my feelings. But thanks man for the kind words it really means a lot to me thank you
i am so sorry for your loss. i know your dad is proud of you, and i promise it gets easier🤍
Sending love sweetheart 🫂🥺❤️🩹 Keep up your fathers;s legacy 🌹
damn i think we came from the same post. i’m sorry to hear your dad passed away dawg, my girlfriend’s just did not even a day ago from a heart attack. we’re 15. i wanted to show her this song but i don’t wanna regret making her cry 😭 i really hope you’re doing good right now bro stay safe
My friend lost his battle against cancer this morning. He was the most amazing person i have ever met. I'm currently just not even sure what to do with my life, he has brought so much joy into my world. And now he's gone.
Rest in peace, Matthew, you will be immensely missed.
Sounds like Matthew was a great guy, and I'm really sorry for your loss, I can't imagine how you must be feeling. I hope things can get better for you, for his friends, and for his family. I'll be praying for ya and sending love your way. Blessings to you and yours, and may Matthew rest in peace ❤🙏
Matthew would want you to Live and Laugh!
Sorry for your loss, man. Enjoy every day. Spend every moment with those you love. Thank you for sharing Matthew ❤
My condolences to you, I hope you get through this, sending you love.
Im sorry for your loss man i cant imagine the pain. You a king for taking it on, keep doing well in life and value all the little things
My mom has cancer. Since everyone is sharing. I’m 22. About to open my first office and have my first employee. Just recovered from a seizure. I’m not stopping. I’ll make my mom proud. I wish you the very fucking best.
Keep going on boss!! You're doing great!
Your mom should be proud of you , best wishes to yours mom ! don’t stop ! wish you health and good luck .
Sigue así, quisiera que la barrera del idioma no nos distanciara y quisiera poder expresar lo que siento hacia ti con algo más complejo y específico que el lenguaje; pero es la herramienta que tengo para llegar a ti, y, desde lo más profundo de mi corazón , te lo juro por mi madre, quiero lo mejor para ti, quiero que sepas que eres fuerte y nunca te olvides de ser feliz.
Desconozco como haya sido tu relación con emociones como la felicidad, la tristeza, el enojo, etc. en tu vida, pero espero que, en todas las felicidades, tristezas y enojos que pasaron y que pasaran, al final de el día , encuentres plenitud.
Pero más que nada, te encuentres a ti.
Ama, llora, ríe, sueña y siente sin descanso,
Por qué nunca sabrás lo fuerte que eres, hasta que ser fuerte sea la única opción.
Never give up on your dreams. You’re doing great. My thoughts and prayers go out to you and your mom. ❤
Hey man. My mum died from brain cancer 3 months ago. I’m 19. I share your pain. Love is such a special thing
I remember a blizzard in CO in 2007. I was driving home from work in my dad's truck, the sun was dipping, the wipers going. I had this track playing on a CD I'd burned, and it hit perfectly in that moment. It was just a flash of time in the grand scheme of things, but this song can always pull me back right to it: I can see the purple-gray sky through the frame of snow on the windshield; I can hear the wipers going back and forth; I can feel the heater warming my face even as my feet are cold; but most of all, I can feel how happy I was to go home and have dinner, to watch a show with mom, to hear dad buzzing around in the background doing whatever.
Life is very different now, halfway across the country in a place with no snow. Dad passed away in January. Mom seems much older, tired, worn out. I'm no longer the kid driving home under a blizzard after 8 hours of a job he doesn't like.
But for 10 minutes tonight I could be that kid again, and I was happy to be home.
bro that made me tear up, I'm glad you had those good times
Hope u still feeling home these next days... Love your words, thx for what u've wrote here ❤
beautiful
just want you to know that reading this with the song in the background drove me to tears. thank you for sharing your story
Man, your words are pure solid gold. You should be a writer.
She’s my first thought in the morning when I open my eyes, and my last thought when I close them. I hope one day our paths converge again, for good this time. Forever and always.
Man this is accurate
I hope so too...
Man that's real
Thank you
dude tell her not us this is beautiful
Currently recovering from two emergency brain surgery's. Sitting in my garden with a coffee on a beautiful sunny morning, sun on my face, breeze gentle blowing the trees, birds chirping and singing, the distant sound of cars going by all add more beauty to this track. Happy to still be here 🙏🏻
Good!
💙💙💙💙
wish you all the best for your recovery
Good job!
I hope that is the last of your medical problems for a very long time!
“When a man is in despair, it means that he still believes in something.” - Dmitri Shostakovich
True
@@LordHaveMercy Skååål
@@Monkeyclubreal Skåååååål
@@LordHaveMercy Kinda crazy I was listening to this and tought this you should dono, some real actually good music to share. Then I look comments see you here.. Small world.
@@Monkeyclubreal wtf dude, that's so weird. And I thought I'd put it on IP2 saying goodnight before going to bed last night.
I discovered this track 30 years ago during the happiest time of my life, and now I'm sitting here in despair listening to it during the saddest time in my life. My honest feeling is putting a bullet in my head right now just to end the agony I'm in, but that will only cause agony for my loved ones.
Seeing this beautiful stream of comments with people sharing their souls with each other and uplifting one another is a testament to RDJ's ability to unlock space, time, and spirit with sound. This track is the sound of life itself I feel, and there's a somber hope buried deep within it.
I hope to return to my comment in a much better state of mind and truly happy with my life. #19 has gotten me through brain surgery, my mother's death, graduate school, divorce, work, great relationships, and bad ones. I hope I get through this period alive, and I pray that whoever reads this can gain the energy to fight for peace another day. With heartfelt love to all of you - stay strong. ❤✊🏾
hey man, I just wanted to let you know that I'm praying for your best. Keep living man life is priceless. bad times just happened and that's why you gotta be patient for when the good ones arrive.
Hope you’re doing okay. Life is worth living. Whether you believe in Him or not, God has a plan for you, and I’m praying the good times roll in soon. Stay strong brother, we all love you, and we’re all praying for you. You’re an inspiration.
@@MrDskillz13 man you are a fucking warrior. The sun will shine again, trust me. Big hug from my place to yours.
Please don't do it man. Please reply.
i hope you stay. the world is a better place with you in it.
Currently 12:05am , 24th September 2024, hey I’m Kris and i hope i’ll have a fulfilling life. I’m 18 years old and want to be a psychologist when I’m older. Next week i’ll be going to my first day of University. All I ever want is to be of importance in other’s people’s life, not just a side character. Hopefully I’ll be lucky enough to reply to this comment when I’m older as this will be my little capsule to catch up with myself. Life is fast and I intend to find peace and as I die think to myself that it was worth living. Wish me luck.
Hi Kris.
Don't let the search for importance in other people's lives turn you into a side character of your own life, okay? One has to live in order to be a positive part of someone's life, and to live is to experience and enjoy your life, not just merely survive and tick all the boxes you're supposed to tick every day. Easier said than done, and heavily dependent on one's circumstances, but trying to do it is what matters most. So try to always make some time for yourself and take care of yourself - those who love you truly will support you doing this, and those who don't will demand you give that time to them instead. Once or twice, maybe it's a mistake; regularly, it's a red flag.
Even if you know this already, take this as a reminder that there's nothing wrong with giving yourself that time. Stuff like sitting here and listening to this, time of your own and on your own. Hobbies, relaxation, personal projects, artistic expression, meditation, introspection, a walk outside. Whatever clicks for you. It'll do you more good than you know, and certainly much more than putting that time into the 'grind' of exploitation, ladder-climbing and over-exertion most of us are stuck in.
Best of luck with uni. Psychology is incredibly interesting - one of my partners is studying it as well, and I've done my fair share of diving into it but purely of my own interest rather than guided by a curriculum. If you have time, look not just at the works that serve as key points of reference for psychology, but also the works that surround them & their cultural moment. Or the works and ideas they study or borrow from, like pagan customs, religious practices of all kinds, Tarot & other "divinatory" introspection tools, tribal/shamanic healing practices, etc. The theory we're used to always feels so detached, like it popped out of thin air, but it's rooted in our interactions as a species over thousands of years and a myriad of different cultures. Taking notice of those elements and starting to examine them through a new lens is what led us here - and we still got plenty of work left.
Anyways, sorry for the impromptu wall of unsolicited advice, I see familiar patterns in what you express and I offer what I think may be helpful or interesting to you based on that.
Cheers, and have a good week.
@@BalthorYTyou are a good guy
Good luck Kris.
Also 18, last year of HS. I hope we all can achieve this.
God speed kris.
“If you are depressed, you are living in the past. If you are anxious, you are living in the future. If you are at peace, you are living in the present.”
-Lao Tzu.
👏
2023 version ending: If you are at peace, you should check your pulse, you are probably dead.
"I didn't say that" - Laozi
Still a nice phrase though, but.. Not written down in the Daodejing
thank you,this reminded me to not sorrow over lost past
@@westarrr you are correct, I tried to research where this quote came from but i wasn’t able to find anything. I did find that a lot of very old quotes are often credited incorrectly though. Very surprising because this has been one of my favorite quotes for years. Much love man
TH-cam comments are so beautiful when you think about it. Especially on videos like this. Here we are, all of us strangers, sitting together with this gentle song as we leave little pieces of ourselves for others to discover. Here I am part of something much bigger than myself. Here I see others out from under the guise of an introduction or a first impression. We can simply leave things of ours such as our thoughts, our wisdom, or stories for anyone else at all who might appreciate and just now I find that so beautiful. Thank you for reading this little piece of me.
Thank you for this. I find certain Aphex Twin tracks (this being one) gently pushes us to be self-reflective and philosophical. This is a go-to for me when I need inner peace. Headphones on, lights off: peace.
we need more of this kind of thing!
I love you, your comment and this video
@@_l__86indeed we do
it's really something isn't it. these are the best parts of the internet.
I'm slowly learning to open up and be vulnerable. Whatever happened in my childhood left me constantly putting up walls of lies to protect myself. Maybe one day I'll be able to forgive myself, but for now I am learning that it's okay to breathe. I constantly distract myself from the moment because I'm scared. Maybe in a year I'll come back to this and update the three people that liked this comment on how I did. Good afternoon, good evening, and good night.
I'll be waiting for your update ❤🤞
This comment section is gold. I love how everyone talks about life, feelings, meanings etc. This shows how much music affects us people.
Hm, I'd argue that it's especcially this particular song, if you ask me, I'd probably the best song I've ever heard, for a few reasons
Only me, I talk about the monkey
@@Hoggex About the monkey, too, I guess
TRUE
olis
This is not just music. It’s like a blank canvas, upon which we can paint our emotions, thoughts and stories.
Beautiful
I've read through a lot of what this comment section has to say and this is very accurate. There's beauty, sadness, love, loss, confusion, pain, and everything in between. Hundreds of different stories in here about every deep human emotion all brought up by this one song, amazing.
You are so right
Well said
This is so well put. I think that most good art whether a piece of music or a painting has this quality where it gives us a means of reflection and can bring stuff out of us that gets buried.
Just discovered this gem today, October 28, 2023.
I'm at a point of my life where I am still unsure about what next steps I should take. Hearing this, atleast for a couple of minutes was pure bliss. I guess I needed the break. Hopefully in the next time I check into this song, I have life figured out- or maybe at least have a sense of direction. Best regards to you future self!
Same.
From Tiktok 😂
Same, from tik tok as well
same
Hey brother found this song at the exact same date ❤
My bestfriend of six years who was my first friend ever in highschool, was someone I hung out with all the time every summer and anytime we could. He was the one friend of mine who was always fine with just us hanging out. Friends of ours would call us an old married couple because we were ALWAYS arguing everytime we were with other people. We have made eachother laugh so hard thousands of times. He would always let me stay at his house, and I would always choose him over any other friend, especially
his brother which meant a lot to hum. The last two weeks I spent with him were the last two weeks of his life. Those 4 times in that two week period were probably some of our best experiences together as we have ever had as friends. He called me his brother. He even fought someone for me once. He passed away when he was hit by a car August 11th, 2023. He was just 20 years old. Since then, something switched in my brain. I constantly have this sorrow on my heart. It hurts bad, even after a year of his passing:(
Rest easy Braden🕊️
Rest in peace, Braden 🕊️
Rest in peace, Braden!... and take care, Dustin. I am sorry for your loss.
I am so sorry for your loss, but what a blessing to have loved someone so much, and been loved in return. I hope you see him again, in whatever comes after.
@@viviann_augi Im a Christian, but he wasnt and it was obvious the last two weeks of his life as well. Thats another reason Im heartbroken
@@dustinthomasii4399 i've been through something similar, I can honestly say I feel for you. I know God's love is immeasurable for all His children, I'm choosing to believe we'll see them again.
1 Oct 2024 1230am. Im 35 and have lived what feels like multiple lifetimes. I've been to war in the middle east and struggled through a rough mental illness while battling thoughts of suicide and ptsd. I lost my mom when i was 31 and went into a deep hole. In the next 4 years I've lost 100 lbs, been diagnosed with BPD, ptsd, and DID, gone through intense therapy, and strengthened my bond with my wife more than ever. I am currently the best version of myself that I've ever been and know that 15 year old me would be so proud. If you've made it this far know that you can succeed even if it feels like theres no hope left. I love you and i believe in you.
I believe in you too brother. the immense strength you must have to pull through war and suicidal thoughts and lose all that weight is inspiring.
I pray that you succeed in everything you dream for a live a wonderful life.
God bless from australia
Glad to hear you’re better now, you’re strong for going through all the surprises of life.
Hugs from brazil
Good for you! I love you too ❤
thanks man , still going through hardships rightnow.
Thanks I felt like needed to hear this
Last October I left France for England, after 2 years of hard work and saving money I finally afforded me a music production school based in Manchester.
On 17th October, after saying goodbye to my dad I jumped in my car, and started a very long journey to England.
On 20 th October I finally arrived in Manchester. After few days of room research, finally found a place to stay.
a lovely room in the suburbs of Manchester (Salford/ walkden).
There was a lake next to my place that I used to walk almost every day even though it was raining and cold lol.
There was this bunch at the lake where I used to sat and listening to this track with a good view on the lake. Damn it felt so good.
Then I discovered that pub 5 min walking from my home, a pub full of very good lads, they all accepted me. Had very great times there
My class was perfect, good student, good teacher.
My times there was Epic.
On Monday morning 12th December I made a song, I posted it on SoundCloud then send it to my dad, he responded me " son you getting better and better "
On Monday evening, my step mom send me a text saying " your dad was admitted to the emergency cause he was feeling very bad and kept puking. The next day doctor found a pancreatitis to my dad. My step mom went to see him at hospital she told me he's very tired.
On Wednesday 14th I woke up at 9am check my phone, I had a text from my step mom saying that he still tired but he's doing fine he's on his way to recovering
Here's come 12pm I got a phone call from my step mom saying " your dad passed away ".
I was there alone in my room sitting on my bed, couldn't realised what was going on. I bought myself a ticket flight the next day to go back to France, I had to quit my school and everything I started in Manchester.
7 months later I'm here in his house taking care of his dogs, and still listening to this music, watching stars in the sky at the same times and thinking about him.
He was a very good man, always here for me. I can say I'm very proud to be his son !
All this made me realized that life is too short, and you have to enjoy every moment you spending on this planet.
Thank you England for this very good experiences.
Rest in peace dad, we will meet again.
I love you forever dad ♥️
Je te respecte infiniment, ton père devait être une belle personne, merci pour ce commentaire ❤
Thanks for sharing this❤️ too bad you had to leave school. Some day, a new oppertunity will appear. But it will only appear id you are open to it. Good luck and may your father rest in peace.
Hey man, I didn't know ur father but I can 100% tell u honestly that he was so so proud of u man. Going after ur dreams, building a career, and then also making the most of an unfortunate situation.
I'm proud of u too bro, u keep going n just know that ur an inspiration to many strangers from all across the world (including myself) bless up brother, hope you and ur fam are doing well, and give ur father's dogs a pet for me bro🙏🙏
Im sorry for you man. Im glad you had such an great father figure in your life. Every time you feel sad about your loss, remember those amazing experiences you had with your dad, as simple as they may be, always remember them and look back on them. Good luck to you 🫶
RIP ❤
I come by every now and then to read what people are leaving here. This place gives me a sense of strong connection with all of you sharing personal stories. I feel your energy, we're in this together.
We're in this together 🙏🧡
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yeah, i'm doing the same. Its wonderful too see
Im writing this on november 3rd 2024 at 1:17 AM.
I miss my mom. I miss her a lot, listening to this track makes my head play memories back like an old VHS tape, when some of the film was messed and it would chop to the next scene but i dont get mad when it cuts off. She passed february 26th 2021 at 11:10AM. And i miss her a lot. She passed on right before my first year as a teenager, so ill let yall do the math. But ever since then i was forced to grow so fast that i feel like im 23, but in reality im not even 18 yet. She was the best woman i ever knew and always was able to help when i was down, learning how to help myself was one of the most humbling adventures thats still on-going, but its starting to get easier while also kicking me in the butt. 30m before writing this i was considering taking a one-way trip to see her again but i wouldnt wanna ruin what she created. A human. Normally id never vent in comment sections but ive been wanting to write for a long time and i saw people typing here, so i figured id hop on. Reading these comments makes me feel hopeful that theres others struggling like me but then they pull through and its a good feeling. I check in here every month or so and honestly i wouldnt have it any other way than with my mom by my side again, but since thats impossible ill settle for second-best. Thank you for reading.
- bloof
That's beautiful man, keep going strong, you've got this.
Keep going g
Keep going friend, you will make her proud oneday. You will get to see beautiful things coming your way soon.
hang in there bud we'll all make it
Im so proud of you
Her name was Olivia and she was honestly the sweetest, kindest and most incredible person you could ever know. I told her these things and how I felt to her and I will never forget the way she smiled to me, her eyes got huge and she nearly cried. We were together for 2 years until she passed away in a car accident. I love you so much Liv you never leave my mind and I work and try so hard everyday to make you proud. I hope you are in a better place and one day I will come there too and we will be together forever. RIP My angel ❤
I am sorry for your loss.
Sorry for your loss, hope you recover, she will proud of you and of how hard you’re trying, keep pushing man ❤
I sometimes wonder If it's worse to lose the one you loved and know her form is gone, or losing her knowing she's moved on, still alive and you'll live as a Deadman unless you have your other half ,no matter how alive you become ,you gave your gift away and she's now someone else's blessing..
Big huge for you
I’m currently 17, I just finished my first trimester of junior year. Hopefully i’ll come back to this song later on in my life and realize how good my life was during this time. To the future me, thank you for sticking around, be yourself. Enjoy the people you have around you. I know it’ll get hard. You need to help yourself before you help others.
Damn bro i hope your doing good so far. Hows live been?
we are in this together man. its hell but i can tell this is the last time i have before i lose the child in me, which is probably already gone. 17 feels so young yet so grown, why do i feel this way at such a young age 😭
@@type2406 i’m also 17 and i feel the same way man. i felt like a little kid last year and i’m gonna be an adult in 3 months. wtf 😭
You will look back and realize, trust me.
Enjoy every moment you have left as a child. You’ll look back eventually and you need to make it worth your while
My 8 year relationship fell apart last January, it’s transitioning from fall to winter now, for the entirety of 2023 I was stuck in limbo, not knowing what to do with myself everyday felt like a repeat. Listening to this while waiting to clock into work, I can feel 2024 will start a completely new and foreign chapter in my life. I am at peace now.
glad to hear how you're dealing with that, you got this bro
Congrats man! On to better things
Never Trust women they let you fall if your not enough for them anymore
Hey bro, I can’t imagine what that would have felt like but I’m glad you have found peace, I wish you all the luck with moving on with your life ❤
Hey, keep going, i totally got that, i think im falling down the same path with my gf and feel i cant do anything about it… 2024 will be a better year hopefully.
I’m 41. Been married for 15 years, have two daughters, own a home, decent paying job. And it’s all happened in the blink of an eye. Seems like just yesterday I was a jackass 23 year old without a responsibility in the world. This song sums up how I feel when I look back at everything, how it’s all unfolded, and how it all had to happen (even the bad stuff) the way it did for me to have the life I do today. Life’s a trip, what might seem like something small today is leading you down your path to where you’ll be, and you can’t even realize it (yet). If you’re young and reading this, live it up and enjoy it, you’re in “the good old days”. You never know where today’s decision or minor detail is taking you. And you’re gonna be 41 too before you know it.
Im so scared of the future. I don't know where I will go after I finish school, and I can't even think about having my own family. But reading your comment made me realize that adults are also just a bunch of grown up kids and we should enjoy our lives. We only live once!!
listened to this chilling out after full on Goa partys in the 90s....good memories, those were the times, they won't come back but as long you remember it , it is not gone. I am 51, btw, but would go back any time if I had a Tardis....
Thank you
Thank you, just thank you soo much to remembering that to us, im gonna turn 20 in next mounth and i was needing to remember that again. Because the things just makes me tired most of the time. I live in Turkey as a average Turkish young and i feel in void. i gotta ask you, no matter which standart i live, is things gonna be bearable at least?
@@beareleaseYes. The universe, god, nature, whatever it is - won’t throw anything your way that you can’t handle. Be good and life, even when challenged, will be good too.
There’s this girl who changed everything for me. From the first moment I saw her, I knew she was special. She’s inspired me to become the best version of myself, even if she doesn’t know it yet. Every smile, every moment near her fills me with hope and reminds me of the life I want to build-with her by my side. I pray every day for the chance to tell her how much she means to me. True love, I’ve learned, isn’t just a feeling; it’s a commitment to grow, to have faith, and to never give up. I’m willing to wait as long as it takes for the right moment because, with patience and hope, I believe love will find a way.
I hope that one day I’ll look back on this moment and see that everything I dreamed of came true. Knowing that all the patience, dedication, and love I put into this journey brought me exactly where I wanted to be. Holding onto that vision of the future keeps me moving forward, step by step, toward the life I’m building. 💜
Last winter i was extremely depressed and listened to this song alot, i cried to it alot. I used to feel so incredibly empty but recently im feeling way better and hope this winter will be better. I hope everyone who is struggling sees through their struggles.
This winter will be great I'm sure of it
Last winter was the lowest ive ever been in my life. I remember queueing this song three times in a row while taking the metro to work, and just listened to this for 30 minutes straight. I learned from what happened last year and things got better in the summer, but its getting tough again. I hope things will be different this year.
Last winter and the start of 2023 was really bad for me. It's so easy to slip into a depression, and once you are there its so hard to see any way out. This winter will be much better. We will do great :)
I feel you man, currently just clawing my way out of a rut right now. This kind of music is quite therapeutic and I think is necessary to start healing. If you are into foo fighters I can suggest their earliest albums "Exhuasted" hits you right in the feels
Whatever you do don't listen to William basinkis degraded loops or whatever that track is called
When I was in utero my dad would play aphex twin and place headphones on my mums stomach. He used to wake me at dawn and bundle me in his arms as we strolled to the crisp Cornish beach to catch the sunrise listening to ambient works. When I was older he’d wake me up on nights where his insomnia was particularly bad and we’d stroll to the beach arm in arm watching the stars. I came across this as I’m sat in a daze alone in my bedroom. I’m 24 now, just under four years ago I woke to find my dads body after he took his own life. He requested #3 Ambient works as one of the songs for his funeral. I can’t listen to that album anymore without feeling deep turmoil, but this song gives me some will to fight. I feel as if my silhouette is a lightbulb and I could shatter at any moment but even still, there’s something in me willing to find the light.
💔
You had an amazing dad.. treat your future child with similar childhood without negatives. I find your story beautiful. Its very sad but you wrote it beautifully
I am so sorry for your loss. I did the same for my children when they were in utero and since. Your dad sounds like a good man.
After my sister died, my dad gave up. I was twenty at the time. He didn’t end his life in one tragic event, but after he died we learned he was having heart problems and instead of seeking treatment that would have absolutely prolonged his life for decades, he chose to embrace death. He even asked days before he died if I would be able to take care of myself if something were to happen to him. It’s crazy to think I knew he needed peace in that moment, without knowing the consequences, and I told him I would be ok.
My younger sister held onto anger for him for a long time, but I never did. I knew his soul was in pain and thus couldn’t see how much pain he would leave behind. My sister always runs through her head why we weren’t enough to keep him going, even ten years later. Would he have been able to hold onto his will to live if it was one of us and not the sister who died before him? I never thought that way, though. I know he couldn’t see the burden he would place on our shoulders or all the things that took place in the wake of his death. He didn’t know. And I’ve never felt a thing but forgiveness for that, for we are all human.
Your father was a great man. An angel in a cruel world. You're an angel too. Be strong king!!!
I like to imagine that, here, at the comment section, we just gather around this music and share bits of ourselves. Total strangers, who happened to cross each other's ways by bumping into this random, yet special, piece of art.
stories are how we connect. even if its only the briefest glimpse.
This comment section is like bros round a camp fire telling stories and thinking about the past
Yeah TH-cam comments on music centric videos is always this basically
Telling and sharing stories is a very special and human thing, like ancient peoples gathering around a fire…
The internet turned out to be so messy but comment sections like these take me back to the early days of the internet. Just a bunch of totally unrelated people doing their thing and connecting without a hidden agenda. This is what I love so much about the internet.
Looking back, everything feels blurry. I remember sitting next to my dying father, not knowing how many days, or even hours, he might have left. Realizing now that he passed away that same day, holding my hand, fills me with the wish I had spent more time with him. Driving back from the hospital at 7 a.m., the emptiness was overwhelming, knowing no hug will ever be shared again, knowing I will never see my father again. Half a year later, this song came back to me, unearthing the memory of that day, and the realization that I lost this beloved person forever. All my strength to everyone who has lost someone dear to them. You are not alone in this.
I swear Aphex Twin songs have the best comment sections. It‘s incredible how music makes you feel and can change your life.
It’s because aphex twin has the best fans. Love you guys!
I’m a 36 year old orphan. I lost my Mom to lung cancer in April of 2020 and I lost Dad to lung cancer in March of 2022. In between that, I lost my younger brother to chronic alcoholism in 2021 when he was only 29. It’s depressing to think the people you spend the most time with throughout your life will eventually just disappear.
I hope you are fine man
No one is given an immense pain like that without the possibility of being able to conquer it. I believe the strongest people get tested the most. I wish you the best man keep your head up❤️
im sorry
RIP to your fam i cried reading this, stay strong for your self and for people who loves you now.
i’m so sorry to hear this. i am grateful you got to experience their light even if it was not for as long as you had hoped. ❤️
two days ago i had one of the worst days of my life and cried for more than an hour straight while watching videos of my dad who comitted suicide a few months ago and now im sitting at my dining table studying classical mythology with the sun shining off and on through my window thinking 'oh what a wonderful world we live in. it is going to be okay' and it is. it will. i am speaking to you, someone who is also having a tough time, you will find moments where you'll think this exact same thing, you will find peace and light and safety again. and i believe in you and i love you and i still miss my dad and wish he was here but i also still love him very much. and time will heal all wounds i promise
I’m so proud of you
you're so strong. Bless you
You are the kind of person I look up to and aspire to be. I'm certain what you feel is more than you can ever put into words, and I hope the moments where you can think that come to you as often as they ever possibly can.
than you man 😔
I love you too
I’m currently alone in my room eating a slice of my mom’s homemade pizza. I’m not allowed to eat in my room because I’ll get in trouble, but this moment is worth it. This is the best pizza I’ve ever had.
Savour life 🙏🙏
I’m 23 years old.
I was diagnosed with MDD a month ago after allowing myself to shatter into pieces over the course of 9 months. In December of 2023 I failed to take my own life and since then I have been drowning in a sea of anxiety and depression. I feel like my life has grinded to a halt, and I can’t forgive myself for the anguish I put not only myself but the people closest to me through.
I truthfully don’t know why I’m still here. I don’t know what I can do for others in the time I have left, and I don’t think I’ll ever get better.
But I’m still here to experience. What brings me joy right now is moments of solace, where that ocean of depression becomes still, and I don’t have to think anymore, I can just be.
Even if I don’t have anything to look forward to, or I feel powerless to make any change in this rapidly spiraling world, I want to live for these moments where I can experience true serenity and know that if nothing else mattered, I can still feel and experience something greater than myself.
But I’m 23 years old, why do I feel so lost? I wonder if other people feel the same, but I also wonder if that even matters. I hope it does.
I hope I make it to 24.
hi pal, i’m sorry to hear that you diagnosed with mdd. Hope you’re doing better know. I just wanna say that sometimes as a humanity we forget to realize and praise little things. Like feeling the wind on your skin, seeing the sun come up with all his glory. That makes us realize we’re really alive, you know? ( im forgetting this a lot also.)
You’re so right about being lost and cant find a meaning in life. I cant either. Sometimes i tell myself “ why am i living if there’s no purpose of this life?” But here’s the trick, nobody told us there is a purpose and meaning. Maybe there’s not, we can’t know so surely. So maybe we should just experience the life like you say and we can be grateful to universe that we’re alive? Little things you know, when you’re swimming feeling of the water, to feel cold! We can feel cold man, that’s so strange lol. Like songs like these makes us feel. Well, according to our knowledge now, you can live one life. So, i wanna experience the things that i’ve never experienced before! Think about it! If you were gone this day, you wouldn’t hear this song and writing this! And i think that There is always something we need to see in our life! Always!
Im 20, never experienced a depressive episode, but have had and still have massive problems with anxiety. Not being in control and feeling lost is as much a part of life as feelings of calm and peace. Keep on it, i believe in you, never give up hope. This all probably sounds like bullshit pep talks, there is really no way to reach across with words trough a thick depressive blanket. Its like telling a person with an anxiety attack to just calm down. But i believe truly believe in you.
I will be here waiting and celebrating your 24th birthday. Everything will work out
You are strong brother you will make it trust me
Check this out my brother:
The Lord is my shepherd, I lack nothing.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
3 he refreshes my soul.
He guides me along the right paths
for his name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk
through the darkest valley,[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
6 Surely your goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord
forever.
Psalm 23, always brings me peace when I feel lost. You're not alone.
Hopefully, someday, I come back again to this song, and feel better than I feel right now.
same
Sending Love and good wishes my friend
One Earth
One Family 💙
How are you doing today
@@AMH793 I second this. Hope you're doing well and are at peace.
you will man.
Listening to this while I‘m zoned out in my bed and suffer because I lost my Dad who was my hero, my idol and my best friend through all these times. I still can’t get over it and have to think about him everyday.
Today would‘ve been his birthday… Happy Birthday Dad, I love you and I always will
Im sorry your dad has passed on, rest in peace to him and a happy continuous life journey to you stranger
@@Natetive Thank you man, means alot to me. Best of luck for you too
He will always be by your side. Stay positive and make him proud. But I am sure he already is. 😊
I wish the best for you in life mate, rest in peace to your father. I lost mine at 6 months old, I am now nearly 24 and not a day goes by that I do not think about him. Push yourself and be the best person you can be.
I'm so sorry for your lost. Just would like to remind you, you are not alone. You are strong enough to keep going.
I lost mine last year, two months after I lost mine grandma, and he told me after that day, "the carrousel of life stop for a sec, she goes down, and the carrousel started again, life goes on"
Wish u good luck
Been talking to this girl at work, at first it was just a friendship type of thing up until a couple weeks ago we started flirting and getting to know each other, really felt like I could make her mine, today she got fired and texted me saying it’s best we part ways… I tried to tell her we can talk and get to know each other more, told her I’ll be here for her if she needed anything but she was honest enough to tell me that her ex was trying to get back into her life, hopefully we can meet in another timeline, I wish her the best, it was rare to meet someone I had so much in common in and laugh with, time to focus on my self. Listening to this makes me feel like at ease, just a blank space no overthinking no stress just living in the moment, time to move on and live life, I’ll always appreciate the memories and good times, god is amazing and with his grace and blessing I will achieve anything I put my mind to, AMEN 🙏🏽 I Pray for everyone in this comment section I know what I’m going through isn’t close to anything some of you guys are going through, but i had to vent. Stay safe and god bless 🙏🏽
Ive instructed my friends and family for years that this song is to be played at my funeral. There should be no eulogy, no talking, just this song and silence. Played one time, and then its over. Everyone is to go home, and get on with their lives.
Over the years much has changed, but not this. Never this.
damn thats cool
Nice writing sir, endurance is key to life. In all aspects
They mean it when they say funerals are for the living
I'm still going with girls just wanna have fun, but this is a close second
This song makes me appreciate what it is to be human. In a world full of deception and false glory, going through core emotions with yourself is still so real. Especially while listening to this song… take care.
I’m a 22 year old single father. I lost my job a couple days before thanksgiving and have just finally gotten a new one. I’m falling in love for the first time since the mother of child left us for alcohol over a year ago. I’m healthier than I’ve ever been. I’ve regained my love for reading. I have picked up new hobbies. I’m the happiest I’ve ever been even though I’m in the most stressful position I’ve ever been in. Things get better. Life has a billion small joys that must be sought out. Keep going and you can find them.
god bless you man.
Real!
22 and a father? I bet you'll have a great connection with your child when they grow up a bit..that's awesome.
Don’t ever give up ❤️🩹
That’s so good to hear keep at it king 👑
I am in love with somebody who does not love himself. He tried to get sober again, and it stuck for a little, but I am watching him spiral back into his disease. I hear this song when I look at him. He is so beautiful. I don't know how much longer I can do this
Take care of yourself, the rest will follow.
If life was a videogame, this would be its main menu theme.
Life is a video game
*Afraid of Monsters*
а главное меню - это земной шар крутящийся такой, как в spore каком-нибудь
@@guerrace3210 no te entiendo
@@OJIO3000 in the main menu there would be our planet, slowly spinning, something like in Spore
To all of you lovely people, Aphex Twin has officially released this on streaming platforms. What a time to be alive.
Currently listening on Spotify and going through these beautiful comments again
Finally
Yes! And he is releasing this alongside an Expanded Edition of SAW II, but the full album’s release is on October
currently playing it on spotify and on youtube at the same time, but slightly out of synch. Try it! it works to layer beautifully.
tiktok pls leave this one alone
11 seconds it took for 10 minutes of tears.
Rewind, swollen eyes, endless gaze, soul empty, mind paralyzed.
Rest in piece my best friend.
I miss my cat, my rabbit, my cockatiel and my parrot.
@@jackassir6060 I truly trust with all my heart you’ll see your friends again. They flourish now with you in their heart.
@@jackassir6060yeah I miss my cat. Had him for 15 years as I grew up and had such a bond with him unlike any other. This music makes me reflect on past times good and bad. As much as we want them back, it’s apart of life to live, love, grieve and appreciate the family, friends or companions we lost. Thankfully we had the memories and that never goes away.
My grandma died in February, then a couple months later my girlfriend of two years left me, and then a couple weeks later my dog of ten years passed away. And, as hard as it’s been, and boy has it been fucking rough, it’s truly enlightened me. In the sense that, things come and go, and that’s ok. You can’t hold on to something forever, as we aren’t going to be around forever ourselves. But you can learn to embrace everyday and cherish the most beautiful moments that will come your way. Learn to love yourself, and to forgive yourself. Be kind and give. Be strong, and be vulnerable. Be human. You are beautiful and unique. I love you all ❤
Love this
to have gone through what you have and come out kind says so much about your character. you seem like a beautiful person and i hope life is kind to you
Not even halfway through this video and I’ve shed the first tears I’ve had in years. I miss my family but they’ve all accepted that I’m different from them and moved on. I just want to feel loved by my parents again, I want my father to be proud of me without denying me affection.
While you await your dad's love, have some from the boys. You are here with us :)
Hey Clayton, if you feel like a black sheep in your family, just know that it’s for a purpose. You aren’t made to fit in, you’re made to stand out
Hey Clayton I personally don’t know you but I know you are loved by so many.
@@benrand1388 you too Ben. I can see you’re going through it but you still are there for others. That’s a wonderful thing ❤️
Clayton, we don’t know each other aside from sharing this piece of music. I think and believe that a person who can really express himself, is someone who I can look up to, who I can be proud of. Focus on building up your self confidence . How? By having fun being with yourself, doing things by yourself, exercise, play, distract from bad augury.
Don’t carry yourself around, enjoy yourself while being yourself.
I sat and listened to this when i was 14 wondering where my life would take me....... I just turned 42 and it took me to a beautiful wife and 4 kids!
Dont spend too much time wondering about life people, go and live it, it will pass in the blink of an eye believe me!
I hope you live a beautiful and prosperous life with your family
Thats insane this has been out for that long. Im 17 right now and im, honestly really afraid to grow up. I hope I can find my way and end up happy, as I hope you did.
@@learntoswim515 great advice man
I'm 18 years old and insecure as fuck but trying to get through this feeling. I'll take your advice
Damn I love this. Cheers man!
Today I was found not guilty for a crime I didn't commit, it's been a brutal 6 months and this song came in my feed. With that and reading the comments, it made me tear up and value my life more
Gang I'm here for you, don't you forget that. One is all you get charish and nurture the moment of which you have.
@@User-_-Invalid thanks 😊
You got this brother, stay strong and enjoy every day of your life because as you may know, you never know when things might change
I am currently fighting a case of robbery, aggravated assault as a juvenile, a crime I did commit, I have court coming up in June, any advice? I'm currently on house arrest.
@@initial2593 no advice but you’re not alone..
This…a cup of tea, headphones, the comfort of my bed, with a cold breeze through my window. Nothing like the stillness of the night.
14 is when I started listening to Aphex Twin and now I’m 32. I’ve never had a close friend who also loved his music. Now I’m a year in with a girlfriend who I showed this and the other tranquil beautiful songs to. We listened to Stone In Focus for the moon rising over the ocean last year and I played Lichen for her the first time I wanted to open up more deeply with her....... and last night was the first time I told her I love her. Just wanted to share that
congrats man wish you two the best
I was 16 at the time. Just a safespsce to come bsck to
Man, I'm glad for you! Hope you have a great relationship!
Happy days my friend.
I'm so happy for you bro
This is my first comment ever. I'm one of those people that are too ashamed of sharing their feelings and feel that everything about them is embarassing. I'm 15 and struggling with life, alone, well, I'm just too different from others. Family problems and had a very hard childhood, worried for my 2 brothers and 4 sisters. Mother hates me now because of father, and father expects too much of me.
There's just so much I wan't to share with people but they never understand, they just...never do. Most of the time I feel like I'm not living and just exist.
Thank you Aphex twin for all the emptiness and I swear it, I will never forget this song.
Things can and do get better. Never give up on yourself!
I'm the same, always feel like its never right the right time to share what I'm feeling or it's the wrong person. I still haven't found a solution so let me know if you do bud :)
If you wanna talk I'm here. For real.
@@karamellkungend2444thanks friend!
@@ozujkaI think it's just too late for that now. I'm kind of used to it now...How life always gets the best of me.
Thank you for reading and replying.
Reading all these comments really helped me feel like i wasn’t alone with my problems. Its one thing for a parent or guardian figure in your life to say to you “you’re not alone”, but really seeing it with your own eyes is something else man. I appreciate all of you and am glad that you were all able to share your stories and experiences. Thank you, cheers 🍻
Your never alone bro🙏
@@ComplexnotINC preciate you man 🤝
growing up is realizing that we really aren't so different with the issues we have and struggles, almost comforting to know that.
@@Coopyi it is comforting to know that for sure.
If you're still listening to this in October 2024, you have a great taste in music, I wish you all the best in life and for you to overcome your challenges, and remember "Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall" 🙌
i think most of us don’t realize how technology has changed us and how intertwined and connected we became. the total opposite is being said, we are being told that we are losing connections bonds with people but here we are millions of total strangers gathering in a comment section offering a look from a small window to our lives. we come together to tell our story, share our pain and cherish our good memories. we are human and we are connected. it is incredibly hard for me to live a life where i dont stop and think about the others who walked on the same streets as me or drank from the same cafe as me. it is exhausting at most times but sometimes it can be comforting. i go through the comments read bits and pieces of you guys’s lives and i smile, i get sad with you or i relate to your struggles. then when its time i like your comments and wish you the best. to all the strangers out there reading mine comment, have a wonderful day❤
♥♥♥♥♥
I hope u have a great week man
have a wonderful day too
not an realistic view brother, local communities are being destructed by social media, for example in the west no stranger ever talks to each other with good virtue like we used to do before the internet
Intertwined sure... connected? No
I'm 15. My dad died when i was 9. I think i got depression for a while. I didnt want to move at all. But i got over it. I want to live a long life with someone i love. I love my friends. I love you reading this.
we love you
I love you too my brother, we are blessed to share this earth
we love you, and we're proud of you!! hope you'll have a great life, enjoy it as much as you can
Im 15 too, wish you all the best for your upcoming life! Greetings from Germany
Hey tom! I hope you got people who are helping you?
Consciousness is a hell of a drug.
@Alex Maybe life is it’s own creation
I want to be sober :(
@@143jcm What hinders you?
Very intriguing initial statement, BTW...
@@kaptainkrampus2856 from the looks of things it wasnt their initial statement, it was their only one.
Based
I studied abroad in Scotland for 6 months after living in California all my life. Holy cow did my perspective change… I came into Scotland so caught up in the bubble of life and come out seeing the beauties of life. I was finally on my own and it was then I met a girl I will always remember. I felt more myself in this country than ever before, and meeting this girl only solidified that. She showed me that I am worthy of love and loved me for who I was. It was really a blessing and even though it didn’t last, her and the many other unique people I met there stay in my mind forever.
I'm listening to this knowing it is time for me to take action and chase my goals because nobody is going to save me, to all of you out there i wish you the best guys we can do it. I Belive in you🙌
I've been struggling alot lately and thinking of giving up. Thank you stranger, I needed this
I'm so glad I see these kinds of comments from time to time.
Everyone, let us not lose hope. One day, the sun will shine for us.
Currently laying in bed, listening to this masterpiece, overthinking everything that’s happened, thinking about what I could’ve done better or changed in my life to get to where I am. I feel like every time I’m at my lowest point in life I notice everything that’s happening around me, who’s really there for you and who’s not, the pain and struggle just hanging from my shoulders, the thought of giving up, always fatigued, no motivation or drive to do anything fun anymore, distancing myself from my loved ones, just mentally drained at this point. Whenever I come back to this sound it just keeps me at peace, and for anyone going thru the struggles right now, just know that this shit is temporary, we’ll be out the gutter soon! The people who were there for you when you had nothing keep them close, I know it’s tough but you gotta thug it out for your loved ones, Stay strong Kings! don’t let the struggle tear you apart. ❤️👑
yo we ain’t perfect, but we’ll all make it
Thank you for this.
Thank you
Thank you for this. Needed that! 🩵
Same brother
This song feels like a long, drawn-out hug from an old friend.
Its a nice thought...but I disagree on that...to me it sounds more like the final hug of a Person you wont see in a long time or maybe never again...
Cause this song is soo bittersweet
This song gives me a feeling of acceptance in life.
Sure, there tangible melancholy in it... But there's also something endearing to it too.
A bizarre mix of good and bad together that make it Serene... Peaceful... And just... Clear.
As though I've come to the end of my life, looking back at all the things I've done thinking...
"Yeah, I don't regret this. This was a good life."
To all of you: No.
Hi, i am a Brazilian independent artist.
I composed, mixed and made the cover of
this album over a year, thinking about
the sleep experience and the layers of consciousness.
It is a 28 minute album with two songs.
I wanna be heard by people who connect
with ambient music. Aphex was a big inspiration.
(I am discovering ways to spread my art and my work.)
This is very special. It means a lot to me.
Enjoy.
th-cam.com/video/Tp2P5S-txVI/w-d-xo.html
I keep coming back to the song, and I'm happy to find this comment after 1 year.
I lost my brother in 2021, i miss him so much, i think he sees me now, he see what im doing. I don't enjoy my present, but i try everyday to feel good, im trying, im tired sometimes, i feel sad, lost and i don't kow what to do, have friends, have a girlfriend, a job, my mom, my dad and i love them, but i feel lost. I miss my brother, he was so good, a good friend, son, father.
Lucas i love you forever and i miss you, hope you help me whrever you are. I'll try to continue with my life and i'll do the right things, hope to be okay, to go out of this hole.
I hope you find the way, love from Argentina
This piece was carved out of rock a billion years ago. This is what the universe sounds like when you can't die from time.
Masterfully expressed.
In the fabric of space where time becomes a loop
😂 billions nor millions 👉 the stable firm earth doesn't rotate only the celestial as we are in the FIRMAMENT 😊 and the earth should be less than 20 thousands years old
yea
@@AngelLuisEspada1970lol
We played this during my brother's funeral. So thankful for Aphex.
It still hurts
D:
I'm sorry for your loss. I hope in some way he was able to enjoy the music a final time.
my deepest condolences..
jesus christ, these kind of comments make me want to unlearn empathy... just the mere imagination of having to attend my brother's funeral makes me feel sick. I'm so sorry for your loss, I really can't imagine what you have to go through.
@@cozymode70 You've spoke from the heart right there. I too sometimes wish i was born a psychopath. Human life, cognitive abilities, and the dark nature of the universe and nature is traumatizing and this stuff can be overwhelming the more conscious you are. I can envision you growing into a very strong person especially since you have the ability to reflect.
And although it's extremely hard to imagine death, but i believe it's just an illusion. Before you were born you were in a state of nonexistence when you die you might end up in the state you were before you were even a sperm before you father existed. Time is not the same or if it's even there when we die. But i'm sure it will be like waking up again on a new planet maybe the same as a living thing. It's still too hard to accept too because there are many horrible ways you will die and you'll have the most blissful lives as well. The universe is torture and all this for why? What purpose if at all? And does it even need a reason?
Fascinating how he managed to make 3 chords remain interesting for over 10 minutes. I suppose minimalism is one of the driving factors in a good ambient track.
Richard or the monkey ?? Lol
It's extremely subtle, but there are elements being added and taken away throughout the entirety of the track. The rhythmic length of the 3 chord sequence also changes and extends/contracts. So there is change, but it's incredibly subtle.
Excuse me, this is Aphex Twin we're talking about. That level of quality is to be expected.
Nairam Diam yeah but it is just three chords tho
idk. it's okay when you're falling asleep but it's not intented for active listening imo.
Autechre's Vletrmx which basically has just like 5 different notes over 4 bars repeated for seven minutes sounds much more interesting and alive than this.
November 12th 2024 - This is the epitome of living. I feel so grateful to have stumbled across this video. This is the purest form of life. Thank you to all you beautiful people that have shared your stories. My words are scrambled however the moment is clear. I have tears dripping out of my eyes cascading their way down to my smile. All I feel is the present. So often in my life I have said I would change, I said I would grow. And so often I fall into the same cycles, never breaking free. I truly believe this is my moment. I will see you again albeit a future version of myself. I wish every single one of you the best life possible. Never give up.
"I survived because the fire inside me burned brighter than the fire around me." It's one of my favorite quotes from a game. Last year, I honestly considered taking my own life. Life was becoming too hard on me, but that was mostly because of my bad decisions. Drugs, bad relationships, anger, and being overweight were all taking a toll on me. I decided to move away, cut all those people off, quit drugs, lose weight by fasting, dieting, and going to the gym every day, as well as controlling my anger with better sleep and meditation. I did everything I possibly could to feel better, and I can honestly say it worked. I still have issues with money, understanding people, especially myself, but at least I'm in a better spot than last year. I have hope that it'll get even better. Whoever reads this, don't give up, no matter how bad it gets; you have the potential. Take one day at a time. Breathe a bit; you can always make it better in some way.
God bless you. Your drive has rubbed off on me a little and reminded me to get to bed. ❤
You’ve come a long way man. I’m proud of you❤️
I'm 63 and only recently found Aphex Twin, quite by accident.
Life is really amazingly random. For me, the lack of real control, and the awareness of that, which intensifies as you age, lose loved ones, accumulate various health issues (which may or may not be things you have any control over re behavior), etc. is what I struggle with.
I had to actually look up "ambient music" to be sure I understood what it was. I had listened to some of it over the years from minimalist composers like Philip Glass (who did the wonderful music for Koyaanisqatsi), not even realizing that was a thing.
But the first time I say that film at about age 24 (more like the age of various commenters here) and sat just STUNNED in the theater when it was over as everyone else in that big packed theater got up and hurried to their car, made me more aware "I'm not like most other people". For me at that point, it really dawned on me how badly we are screwing up the planet, decades before climate change became such an obvious huge problem.
Now, almost 40 years later, I realize that I'm on the autism spectrum, and that's why I have trouble understanding the emotional life of lots of people. Like for me, I was really surprised at how sad so many people in comments said this beautiful song makes them feel. To me it makes me feel quiet, safe, and comfortable emotionally, even as my mind roams over many topics. It's like a calming tonic for the normal whirlwind chaos that is much of life.
I agree with another poster re the quality and the compassion and positivity re all the comments here. Sometimes I am very proud to be a human being (unlike the dismay human events causes at other times), so thank you so much for this community for providing that as an adjunct to this wonderful piece of musical artwork.
This is the most heartfelt comment I think I have ever read, Thank you.
took the word out of my mouth
what a wonderful chance to read this meanwhile listen to this existentialist song.
We on the same boat captain!
I was obsessed with listening to Philip glass after watching the first season of the Terror
With this song as a witness, today will be the day I revert back to the good man I once was. I promise myself to no longer procrastinate. To not waste the life that millions would kill to have. I will realize my true potential. I was given a back to bear weights, not to turn it towards the people I love. I promise to be good, help others, and die great.
i love you for this you will make it ❤
you don’t wish to be anything, you are a good man, a great one.
We are your witness brother do it for him her and us
this is such a 3am lifeshaping comment😹
Amen
Discovered this song about a month ago, and coming to this comment section really made me think a lot about how I was raised and who I am. Hearing everyone's stories, their up comings and harsh days, it really puts life into perspective. I think I'll keep coming back here every once in a while. Life is beautiful.
I'm 23 and was told by doctors yesterday I have a tumour growing in my foot for the past 3 years and has eroded away a good chunk of my heel bone. Waiting to get a biopsy and listening to this really helps me ground myself and process what's ahead for me.
Sorry to hear that. I hope you make the best of this rough situation.
I hope the world wouldn't lose a person with such a cool human . I dony know you but I hope I do
How’s it going man?
I played this for my father today who is 94 he can't see very well and couldn't see this beauty being in the water but he sat with his eyes closed listening meditating on it and every two or three minutes saying 'wow'.
Wow
Amazing !
Bless your dads heart ♥️ I don’t even know him and I love him, and you.
I can't imagine what listening to this at age 94 would be like. All those years to reflect on while listening to this would be incredibly poignant yet comforting. like the ending credits to a powerful movie. thanks for sharing :)
Honey Mayhem I love you too
Life has been feeling like an endless cycle of nothing and loneliness. This song is an accurate description of these thoughts.
Humanity is an experience, people will always be there for you :]
I understand you is a feeling that has accompanied me all my life and I don't know if one day this will change, but in spite of that I live trying to find enjoyment in life, in the little things, in the fleeting moments, in astonishing myself, in making an effort, in looking for certain tranquillity and coherence, to be at peace above all with myself, those things for me are condensed in this song.
Reading these comments confirms to me what I've always deeply known. We are all one. Just having unique experiences. And certain frequencies, or songs like this, can bring us all together in a moment.
Beautiful stuff. love you all.
Came home from uni today. Took a walk through the woods, past the spot I had my first kiss, the place I used to smoke at, and the spot I tried to take my own life. Just watching the water move at it’s own pace and my breath in the cold was true peace life can be beautiful bros
hey take care dude hopefully youre doing alot better now and if you arent doing well keep pushin dont give up Youll get there! and the fact that you got this far is already pretty dang impressive so keep going mate
Hey brother I hope and pray you are feeling better and stronger mentally . This life everyday bring me down but you gotta keep pumping keep thriving it’s time to
Focus .
ily. please never forget that. please.
Thank you for your moment and memories.
Good work man you pulled yourself out of that hole. Not many can do that. Keep using your mental strength and keep working hard for what you want
I can't wait to come back to this video in some years and see all of your success stories about how you all managed to push through and find peace in the end. I look forward to it :)
man i wish so
@@l.z.6553you will bro. Just trust the process
Only thing I hope for.
damn,hopefully gang.
Sitting here on my balcony, I’ve been observing about 200 or so people in a park. As I’m watching, I am in awe of the beauty of humanity. Whether you’re laughing with your friends or alone, cherish those moments, for they make life.
This comment section is the most beautiful, hopeful, saddening, depressing, explorative and inspiring piece of art that exists on earth.
You hear the grief of those who’ve lost their love ones. The achievements of those who escaped fate. Those struggling to see hope, and those whose story shows you that everything will indeed be ok.
Just shows you the uniqueness of life on this planet. Every one of us is special and will have our own stories - it shows we all have something worth fighting for.
Aphex Twin : plays 3 chords repeatedly for 10 minutes straight
Us: this song literally saved my life
EDIT:
thanks guys for the likes
Truly shows his musical genius
Fr 😅
Sounds different every time though
definitely one of the songs ever made
dont forget the clicking thing
Right now its 3:58 am
Im a 16 year old from south africa. I really hope i live a good and fulfilling life. I wanna travel, see and experience new things i started talking to a girl named alexandra and shes the sweetest person ive ever met. Her smile lights me up inside, im gonna come back to this comment in 10 years
I pray your smile and your light never fade away amen have a blessed life
bless you
i hope u will get anything u want, peace
I wish you all the best man and good luck
Your the man my bro. Youre makin it
I'm at the lowest point in my life while listening to this. I have a tumor in my knee and am unable to jump, run, or stand properly without pain. About a month ago I was driving home when someone turned out in front of me, resulting in a tbone wreck that totaled my car and injured me mentally and physically. Although I have recovered from the physical injuries, the wreck has caused me to become depressed again and demotivated to push toward my goals or even do the things I usually enjoy. I've spent the last couple years alone and in pain, wishing for at the very least a friend who can understand me. I turn 17 soon and I am in the same place I was years ago, but now I discovered this music. I hope that sometime in the future I can look back at this comment and see how my life has improved and changed for me.
Didn't I just see u in a meme asylum post comment section
Yeah, I also hope that after some years you will be able to proudly say that your life is improved. Rooting for you, bro, so never give up
Mucha fuerza para ti
You got this bro, the dark times will pass you, ik it feels like it won't but take it day by day, and in no time you will be where you wanna be. I believe in you
Hey, you are not alone mate! We hear you, i feel you! Everything happens for a reason, there is only upside from here ! When times are good be grateful, when times are bad be graceful. NEVER GIVE UP!
My dad died when i was a teenager and I’m slowly forgetting what his face looked like and what his voice sounded like and how his perfume smelled. It feels like every trace of him is slowly fading and i cling onto my happy memories and tell myself as long as i remember those he won’t be really gone. This song sounds exactly how it feels. May he rest in peace
Aphex twin finally released this gem across platforms today, what a day!
I can't find it in spotify...
Its called #19
@@ifeelwholeagain2904 cool thx
The monkey footage is from a movie called “Baraka”. The entire film is an audio and visual spectacle that is unmatched. Was filmed in 70 millimeter.
And with no commenter
@@القناةالشاملة-ث5غ i mean it would be kind of great if i started the movie and it began with "what's up guys its scarce here"
Samsara is awesome too
all Ron Fricke's work is amazing... Chronos is my fave!
You guys are cool AF✌✊🔥👍
Holding your newborn son on your arms, while listening to this music is truly a wonderful gift of life.
All these paths i've taken leading me to these moments, makes me realize how beautiful life can be in all the absurdities.
God bless you all
Not a big fan of God, but i can sure feel a fraction of what you might have gone through, emotionally ((-_-)) wish i could've been a parent, you're privileged and i hope, up to this huge task of raising a conscious being
I turned 21 a few days ago, my teenage years are over and now i am on the road towards working on my life. Hopes, dreams, family, friends, sadness, doubt, uncertainty, i am engulfed by all these thoughts and emotions. My dad used to say “what you do in your 20’s matter alot because these years shape the pathway of your future” as a young man who’s learning about life bit by bit, i wanna make the most out of it. I don’t know what future holds for me, but going through the comments that are here as time capsules surely made me believe that we are all on the same voyage, rowing through the infinite stream of time.
To every one who reads this, I LOVE YOU ALL and WE EXIST! and that’s the most amazing thing about us all!
Sometime earlier this year, me and my twin brother, when we couldn't sleep, would get dressed and go on a walk, usually starting at some time just before 5 AM. Everything was calm and still, like him and me were the only living souls on the planet. We would walk and chat bullshit until roughly 6 AM, when we would head down to the local corner shop and buy a drink, then head home. Every day me and him did this was cloudy and foggy, and I would have this repeating either in my head, or through my trusty wireless earphones. I will stand by my word that those few days I'd did that with him is a very brief period in my life to remember forever.
Favourite comment here.
In my opinion, this is the greatest song ever made, it feels like the finale to all music, the ending of everything, a good ending
The true ending.
Yeah now i suggest "windowlicker" and "come to daddy" from the same artist 😳
@@P.G.ABD99 I’ve heard both, I’m a huge aphex twin fan but this is definitely his best song imo
@@EthanG2214 i was just suggesting man.... my favorite is actually alberto balsalm
agreed
I met a girl about a year ago. She was different than anybody I had ever met before. When she entered the room, it really felt like everything got more colours. I remember one night we would walk through the city after watching a movie together. She decided to hold my hand and I felt, I did not want this moment to ever end. We made a stop at a lake to look at the beautiful boats. I looked over to her and realised how pretty she is. I often got lost in the beauty of her eyes. I never wanted this night to end. Her personality was like a fire with big flames, I never met anybody who could ever come close to her. I absolutely loved her. I never got to tell her these things, we went different paths but she changed the way I look at people and I still think about her often.
woah..same fate mate.same feelings.I know I have to let her go, but deep in my heart, I trust that one day the universe will bring us together again when we are both ready, especially from my side.
As a kid i looked at a pretty girl, but i don't remember anything afterwards between us after i've told her a phrase i will later learn meant a very terrible thing that used a slang word (it meant let's do bed dancing). Now i have a different interest and i feel like something could actually blossom if i break out of my own tar and show that i am capable of love and socializing.
Lately i've convinced myself i AM depressed, because my default emotion is silent sadness and i was demotivated for a *long time.* But i can't find a way to express it best than to hope a friend or more, would notice, and give me the hand i needed (the amagi made a video based around if Sakura became Naruto's childhood friend, she helped him with grades, and as it hit a note and i burst into tears).
When somebody crafts a form of media that encapsulates pure happiness in a form of relationship or socializing, i kind of burst into tears, at first it was a movie about a soldier whose soul got sent into the afterlife to be reborn. But he was reckless while waiting in the line, and smoked dirt with the soul of a kid, even made friends who he may be fated to meet in life. However lady fate gave him a disability which he reacted very harshly to, and almost missed the bus to life, he ended up succeeding as a physicist, even though his mother closely supported him and had to help him do mundane activities such as dressing up, and his dad left because he couldn't bear the table tapping because of his disability. I suspect it's related to autism.
Point being, im not bad physically, not too bad intelligence wise, but i am in a heck of a cement mix and i just feel like i need somebody other than my parents to help me relearn the value of life. I think i had a dream about doors and in on of them i see my father's grave, which i think shows i hated his punishments more than i let on. I pray i don't let the things i legitimately hate consume me. It kind of feels like i see everything as dark shades of grey to black, imagine living with those colors visible to your eyes without feeling like a sack of shit.
TH-cam says i might want to edit the comment, don't worry, i don't have any bad thoughts, i just acknowledge the fact that i had them and i know well i never intended and never will intend to act up on them, they are intrusive in nature. Im voicing out that i hope for a good future but that i don't have the strength to will it into truth without a very strong motivation. When i think of people, i think the times that i exercise, i can put just a little bit more strength in that moment, but i'd want more. I might regret sending this one hell of a reply because i took a little discord distraction and now i think this is very cringe.
Woah I’m in the same situation. I fell in love with a girl who honestly she’s the best recent thing to appear in my life. She brings out the best in me, I still cherish the memories I have of her. But I learned she already has a boyfriend. I have to accept that she won’t be in my life much longer…
I feel you
This girl reminds me of my crush. She used to be in my school from 5th to 7th grade. Now we're in different schools because I live at the end of my hometown, and I had no other choise but to go to the nearest school to my block.
You're not alone.
There's so manyf people who are going through the exact same thing you are, and we're all in this fight. This life will throw you mental curveballs everyday. Pray about it, give it to God and trust Him. You are going to win.
One day at a time.