god this is so relatable. i just want to escape this stupid reality and go to the fantasy world i dream of or go to that one perfect anime world that i have always loved. the kind people, the beautiful world and how you can be yourself without worrying.. but i know it will never become true because the reality still and will always exist
everyone hates it when kids act annoying but want to be a kid themselves, probably because as a kid you don't think it's annoying, you think of it as fun and happiness
@@the-monk821 then that's great for you!! everyone is different and experience thing differently. i'm glad you sleep good at night, wish i could say the same.
Well, I suppose I'm a boomer. It's just that I remember when I used to say this kinda stuff and now I really miss them. All the things they told me bout people n world where just so damn right and now I'm here standing watching the world burn all alone. My own negative feelings made me so numb bout others' pain. I should've take their advices
@@iconbabyxox Wh- I didn't say anything about black people, I was talking about my parents. Edit: Do all American people are obsessed with black people? Bc here in Mexico we're not so crazy bout that topic. Weirdos
no worries, school was fun, all my friends would just talk, play tag, run around the playground, no stress over work, i loved how i looked and wasn’t at all insecure, life was just joy, all i thought about was when Christmas was coming, halloween, now its just sitting at home praying that school ends soon and just wanting to see friends again, being cramped inside my room all day, life was so simple...what happened?
U always know why ure said and u can always do something about it. Mostly u decide to be sad thats probably the reason u dont know why u are sad. I dont say i am never sad. I say i try not to make myself sad. Thats how u get stronger. After the sadness is overcome there are more challenges in life u will have to complete. That's why most people want to stay sad. They just don't want to do the hard stuff. That's the reason there are more emo people around the globe. They wanna stay weak and sad so they don't have to any other hard challenges in life. Because if something goes wrong I can just kill myself right? U need failure to get stronger.
Bro tbh, I just need a friend. I feel like my friends are too busy and they were the only people I could talk to. I know they're there, but there all asleep at 3am when I genuinely need someone :/, my life is falling apart
@@sallyface7842 I understand how lonely it feels when you cant talk to anyone when you need to most, but there will be that someone one day to stay up with you when you cant sleep, also if you need someone to talk to I'm really never busy
I make story's in my head, different realities where I'm cool or things are working out, then I snap back to reality and instantly get depressed with how much is going wrong..
Hey guys this happens to me too so I just wanted to show you my story. Basically I've been doing this since I was a kid and a year ago I foud out this is called maladaptive daydreaming, it's some sort of dissociative disorder when you create different realities or stories in your head and you basically live there and you forget about the real world. Usually this is caused by trauma or just by having a hard life and wanting to "escape" from your reality. Many people experience it, I just want you all to know that you are not alone!❤
Too old for innocence. Too young to do anything to change my situation. Too impure to enjoy life. Too pure to make decisions. Too capable to be treated like a child. Too immature to be treated like an adult. Why’re we still here?
People say the orchestra gets them, but for more it's the "old enough to understand" it is because of the part where he says "stay forever" you see the part where you grew up and got a sense of reality because you were abandoned but you didn't realize until you were older. You felt abandoned, neglected, invalid, irrelevant, and you just need someone to hug because you have nobody to hug.
To my younger self : The road will be long and tough but in the end you'll realize that you made it through. You're so close and you're doing a great job.
hi! i know this kinda seems off but try making a journal where you write all you favorite memories that you think of. so you get to keep them there forever (unless you lose the journal)
nobody will probably see this but listening to this song makes me feel a huge amount of regret. regret for purposefully trying to find out about things i shouldn’t know, regret for acting a certain way towards certain people, regret towards not trying as hard as i can in some situations, regret for making myself mature faster so i seemed cooler. i have so many regrets i wish i didn’t and ignorant really is bliss. i miss my childhood where i didn’t know anything and didn’t have to worry about anything except being happy.
I know exactly how you feel. But regret is the first step to being a better person, after regret you have to forgive yourself in order to move on. If the past is holding you back how will you ever grow? Even though you feel this way, and it feels like shit, just know that you’re one step closer to being a better you. And you deserve it. Because no one in this world deserves any less.
@@greensaucies7705The person above you described my struggles perfectly, and you answered beautifully with the right words. Thank you, stranger on the internet
Anyone else remember when they were younger and they wanted to be older so bad but now that your older you wish you could be young again? Enjoy life in the moment because one day you’ll look back and wish you could relive today again. Edit: ty so much for the likes wth😳
Notice how that girl is crying, but smiling. If you relate, then you are old enough to understand. You can take a break and stop, but you must neven give up!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!! Sending virtual hugs and so much love to everyone💕
Thanks so much. You seriously have no idea how much reading these words meant to me. I really need a hug right now. It’s currently 22:19 and I think I might go wake my mom up and ask for a hug. I hope she doesn’t get mad..
thats why this part of the song is my favorite, the whole song is mellow and kinda upbeat for a little bit until it gets to this part at the end and it just hits you and ufoskdjskjsodk
When I have children I want them to live their child lives as much as they can and I’m going to make sure they don’t regret. I want to be my children’s shield in the future 😊 well that’s if I’m good enough to have a partner that loves me haha.
@@isabelf9015 shut up and go eat a popsicle and make friends. you have zero idea what it's like to be a mature adult or even teen who has to provide for themselves in some way or another. you're not grown at all.
This quote genuinely gave me a proper flashback to when I was six in a new country and a new house sitting on my skateboard going down the side path to the backyard. Everything was so simple back then, so easy to be happy. Thanks you
@@slicky3397 just say you either are a self-absorbed mommas child who never got to experience neglect or you have some unresolved trauma going on that you reflect. actually don't even bother answering, i think you have better stuff to do than discourage ppl venting in their only safespace
I swear when parents say "when you're older ill tell you" they end up never telling you and you have to find out about the bad side of the world without them
And not overthink to the point where you're convinced that they're forced to listen to you so you don't feel like your thoughts and emotions go unheard. Yeah
Its so sad to know that most of us here are just a few kids, trying our best to keep our life as bright as possible before our childhoods are over, trying our best to do good in school, trying or best to not disappoint our family and friends, trying our best to keep others happy, yet never trying to keep ourselves happy. Trying. Trying. Trying.
I don't wanna try it any more. Sometimes in life, you'll relize that most of things you've done and you're doing are just meaningless. It's painful, but it's also a relief to not have to work so hard, with no good results anymore.
A lot of times, I imagine being the best parent to my children or child, not hurting them for making mistakes, teaching them how to be a good person, loving them unconditionally, being a parent that I wanted, a parent I needed, a family I never got... To all the people who relate or having a bad day or just life being shitty to you, I hope your day gets better and I hope u find your own happiness and not let anybody else take it from you
“Old enough to understand” can mean so much. Cus as a child you think, life is awesome, and you hated when family like mom dad or auntie were upset. You didn’t know why they didn’t look at the glass half full. But then that moment hits you, when you realize the world ain’t such a pretty place becouse of ugly people. I don’t mean look wise, but dried, sad, and heartless people. You gradually start learning about things about the world, your family, and even yourself.. I barely talk to people so I’m going to say this here. I wanted to die when I was in middle school. I didn’t want the suffering and pain, just wanted to disappear. Where nothing bothered me anymore. But, the case is different, it just takes a while for you to find that kid in you again. Sorry bout the rant but this audio just gets you. But if anyone feels the same way know your not alone.💕
you are not alone either! i really needed this, thank you so much. i think that if we find that kid, that innocent and happy one, we can reach the peace. i´m really glad that you find yours, and iI just wish happy things to your life. Even if we are not kids anymore, we have to live the world like that kids, because they just don´t disappear, you know? life waits for us, even with it´s difficult moments! wish you luck!
You just have to realize that the most important thing in your life is to focus on your self and focus on your family and on your friends. Life is a gift. You cant throw gifts easily as you think. My life has been changed a lot when i was kid but thats how life and time works. You can change things you can do what ever you want. And guys listen to me. When ever you feel alone or depressed just think about the good memories and you can still get some memories which you can remember.
To be honest. In some way, everyone feels this. There are moments where you're lost, scared, and depress. And it's hard to express this, we can talk about this to someone special but how will they respond and what advice will they give us. Positive or negative. If we want to express it in a drawing or other methods, how long will people notice the pain? It sometimes brings you into a state of insecurity and you don't have the minimal idea of handling it. Sometimes, in my opinion, it best to wait for something to happen and give an effort to see it through. Because there are things that will bring us joy and still there are to this day. Sure, sad moments are there, and they are difficult to handle but we could take it as a grain of salt or use it for experience for when a moment comes that someone is going through something that you been through, you know how to cheer someone on. Be a solution and if you're a problem, ask someone for help. Life is like a story, it has its moments, good or bad, but they're just moments, and they're worth it to see again. To enjoy, to cry, to be angered, to save. And if you're not satisfied with them, their still a lot to see later on.
@@junrilow5038 damn I'm so glad. Crying this way is totally worth it. Life is really hard but it's the little good moments that u need to hold on to. Hope u have a nice day Love u 💖
Just do what you love and don't care about what other people might think, you don't need some big mansion or stunning cars and things like that to find happiness, happiness comes in many forms and you just got to find the right one for you
This song makes me connect with my emotions that i hide away, all imprefections, all negative thoughts i have burried re-surfaced to make me realise how much i hide in "i don"t care", "it' fine", "i'm ok".
I'm sad, I don't know why but I just don't feel up to it anymore. I don't have the motivation to do things anymore it doesn't mean I'm lazy, it just means I don't have the energy. I'm not mad I just don't feel like smiling anymore. It's not that I'm avoiding you I just don't know what to say anymore...
Dont describ me, I don’t even know if I’m depressed or not because I don’t want to just say I am so that people can either judge me about how I’m faking it or if I’m just to scared to tell people why I’m so..... just done with life.. my life.. and everything
@@shyytiny hi idrk you but hey I love okay im so proud of you for being here!!!! Keep going :) you got this and I'm in no better place than you are but you got this I believe in you 🙃
I think the big issue is we're sad all the time, theres no fixing it there are distractions, people who make you forget your sad but then they leave and you realize you've been sad all along, your saddness wasn't fixed it was just hidden
yeah and me childhood ended quickly.. it ended when i was eleven. then i let social media get to me. now i’m insecure and obsessed with beauty standards.
Sounds like how I felt when I was laying on the operating table while they emergency delivered my daughter. All the pain and fear I felt that day just wasn't big enough to overshadow how fiercely I knew I loved her. There's nothing anyone could have said to me to prepare me for that emotional soup. I felt more human and capable than ever before in my LIFE, and I had a living reason to try my absolute hardest until death. I was finally old enough to understand how powerful a mothers love really is.
I agree that it's sad. It's sad because there isn't one person listening to this and commenting who hasn't been failed in a major way and subsequently failed someone else in an equally major way. We're old enough to understand something awful that's happening to us, but we could also be old enough to understand that something we're doing or have done is not okay. The many ways we can interpret one sentence forces us to meditate on whatever things the sentence means to us. Sadness isn't necessarily a bad thing. It's part of accepting loss and moving forward in life. It's part of growing into a better person. We bump into things for 80 years and call that a life. We're a species that's been granted sentience, but no purpose. We know who we are, but not why we're here. That's inherently frightening, and bad things happen when good people get scared. That's unavoidable, but by sitting with these memories, and relating to others and their art we understand ourselves just a little bit better.
Currently thinking about the fact that everyone who hears this will interpret the meaning differently and some of us are old enough to understand more than others... nobody can fully understand what another person is going through but we can all relate to one song in some way and let it connect us.
the fact that i started to cry while listening to this, i wish i could go back into the past and tell my younger self how much i love her, and prepare her for what’s going to come in the future. this song makes me feel nostalgia and sadness, every time i look at old photos of myself i feel sad. i wish i could’ve been there for her, for my younger self when she cried alone. :(
I still think it's exciting. I think sadness is necessary for really life altering happiness and contentedness. Nothing gave me peace when I was younger, now love of others gives me enough for an end forever. Listen to your inner child, he's wise now.
It’s weird to think about how we probably won’t tell children what they’ll go through as no adult told (most of) us the what we will, until we are already going through it, after, or never
I’m now old enough to understand how much of my childhood was true happiness and now it’s all fake it’s all just pretending I’m now 14, I remember when I used to say I was older but now I just wanna be my happy 7 year old self and not have to pretend anymore it’s mentally draining me
You still a child, live your life as a child while you can, when you became 18, start to understand how to be an adult, enjoy what you have until its to late
i remember being so young and wanting to grow up so fast, seemed so long ago, in terms of years. you never fully appreciate where you were, till you get somewhere else. truly old enough to understand.
all I can imagine is the summer of 2019. My 16th birthday in California, it’s 12 am and my aunt took me to get boba. We’re in the car and all I do is look out the window and observe every street light I try to memorize every detail of the buildings. This part of the song brings me back to the summer of 2019 , the year where things were too good to be true , before everything went wrong.
when i visited my mom in california and i went to so many places. took it for granted as the virus really started to hit while we were there. though ive lived and been to california before, this trip hit hard. i love it so much! 💕🥺
in summer of 2019, my mom was almost finished with cancer, she got put into the hospital in July and stayed there for two weeks before passing away aug, 4th, 2019, miss you mom
idk if it was your intention to invalidate relationship problems but as somebody who has experienced both, we should not compare them, both are equally as important :)
Yesterday I saw these 2 little kids running around being so happy and I cried while walking because yesterday I was already feeling down and when I saw that I realized I can’t go back to that. My happiness went away something I can’t get back, those little kids were having so much fun and I realized the light they have in there eyes is something I possibly can’t get back and it hurts to know that.
sadly sooner or later they will lose their happyness too and we wont be able to help them, but im here for you buddy ur amazing and a huge star i believe in you.
You’ve all come so far and I’m genuinely proud of everyone in this comment section. When we hit our lowest points we believe that it only gets harder. It doesn’t. When we are in the dark the only thing we can do is find the light. It might take longer for others but once you find that light you can mature and grow and flourish. You are all beautiful and so strong. I love you all. Here’s a little poem I wrote for everyone. darkness can seep into the cracks of our minds. It takes away our happiness. Hungry for our joy. But you will only regain what you’ve lost when you realize the darkness isn’t something to be afraid of. The light is always within you. And it’s up to you to realize it. I love you all forever and always. Don’t forget to eat and drink water. Thank you for the past 3 years. I appreciate all of you.
A few years ago, in 2022 i had a big depression during the second semester of the first year of college (uni). I had gone through so much in life. losing both gransparents at age of 8. then at teenage years i ahd to deal with bullying, followed by isolation, followed by having a friend that didnt last because he chnaged schools, to isolation, to meeting someone i thought was my friend but all he was was a toxic friend that cyberbullied me and i still didnt listen to my colleagues back then when they tried warn me and i learned my lesson in the hard way. and to top all that, during my teenage years i had to deal with my father, who hated my mother ever since their divorce, blackmailed me with threats of making my younger brother (half brother) forget about me. It was too much. and the pressure of college just... made me break. i had depression, deep one. i burned my wrists with hot water during showers, and i had suicidal thoughts. all i wnated was to go back in time and be a kid again. I never asked help. i couldnt. i didnt want to burden. luckily i came out of it but.... sometimes i wonder if i could had change anything in life to avoid these outcomes.... sometimes i wish to go back. nostalgia hurts, amkes me sad. i feel pressure from college and songs like this and little things that make me super nsotalgic make me sad soemtimes to the point i wnat to cry or even cry
Or being the one who started high school with no friends, spent all of it with coming and going friends, and now it’s the end of senior year, and you’re walking out in your cap and gown, watching hundreds of others in theirs, but the thing telling you apart from the others is that while they are crying and hugging their friends, you trudge out with no one by your side. And it’s over. Your childhood is finally gone.
"The path isn't a straight line, it's a spiral, you continually come back to things you thought you understood and see deeper truths" -Barry H. Gillespie
I wish i could just tell my younger self "im sorry kid". I wish i had prepared myself for what was gonna happen. That bright eyed kid deserved a better future, and better people around him. All of those people just tore us down more and more everyday. I never thought everyone i knew wouldve turned on me that, let alone that fast. I just dont want to be broken anymore
it just makes me cry, imagining all of my old friends and how most have gone, two sadly killed themselves but the rest just kind of disappeared, and it's just how we've all gotten older and that all that is left is the memories that i guess makes me cry.
"Old enough to understand" I realize that life isn't as bright and joyful as I saw it in the first look of life I realize that I'm slowly drifting away from my parents I realize that my parents will never love each other again I realize that my dad isn't getting any better I realize that however hard I try I'm not good enough I realize that I treated my little brother like shit thinking it was all a joke but in reality I was hurting him I realize that a simple facial expression doesn't truly define how a person really feels I realize that I'm slowly losing the ones I cherish most I realize that I was never able to tell my uncle how much he really meant to me I realize that I was too ignorant to listen to when they said "enjoy the time as a kid while you can" I realize that dreams and reality are two separate things I realize that everybody suffers but low amounts of people actually get the help they need I realize that I wanted to grow up but I wish I never did I realize that you never know who really cares until It's too late I realize that I was given this life but sometimes I don't want it I realize that we are all speaking over a device because the majority of us are afraid to say the things we do online in real life I realize that maybe I'll never find true happiness..
Listen here. Life isn’t about regret. It’s about cherishing the happy moments and never taking anything for granted. You only have so much in this life. So look forward to the little things in life that make you happy. And that’s truly where you understand the value in the little things because they happen so rarely. And that’s okay. You’re parents are proud of you. Not because of how much you’ve accomplished, but because of how far you’ve made it in life with their guidance. They know you’re in a tough spot rn because they’ve been through it all right now too. So just being their kid and growing up and pulling through is something every parent is proud of. Trust me. And every siblings fight. It’s only normal. But in the end, it’s all love. Hug your parents when you see them. And your brother too. Spend more time with all your family and tell them you love them. Not because you’re afraid they might leave or because you could lose anyone anyday, but because they’re still here and now is the best time to tell them you love them. Anytime Is the best time to tell them you love them.
that's just how this world is but just be realizing this things can't lead you to death u have to accept what u are u have to accept the darkness u have to accept the way this world works u have bare the pain and suffering till death in the end everyone dies alone bareing lot of regrets
You should also realize that good comes to everyone in life, even you. Try looking for it in places you haven’t looked before. When you learn to appreciate small things, and embrace this feeling that you feel, life will become easier and happiness will follow. You have to be patient. Happiness comes to those who wait. Be brave, be kindhearted, have a good attitude on things. Even if you don’t have a glimmer of hope now, it will come. However many times you are thrown into despair, hope will come again just as many times. The fact that you are still alive proves you are worthy of being happy. And happiness, is not something you find. It’s something you realize. I hope you realize that you will realize happiness too. Never quit, it will be worth it
“old enough to understand” *im finally old enough to understand that my two best friends are becoming closer and leaving me behind, I’m happy for them but it hurts*
@@devina3465 a silent voice, violet evergarden, I want to eat your pancreas, anohana: the flower we saw that day, plastic memories and assassination classroom are pretty sad if you want to watch them
Omfg Ikr I'm sitting in the living with my headphones on and I'm trying to keep the tears in, good thing is I can't remember the last time I actually cried so :D
no matter what u are strong or sensitive every person cries when they lose something very important but in the end it this things makes you stronger then before
i understand it now. im 13 i didnt really realize i was old enough to understand but the trauma made me older. here i am now, crying realizing that my “childhood” wasnt really a childhood.
@@ywrtqq Honestly though, kids can get caught up in the moment and feel like it's the end but it really isn't. It's just things that they aren't used to since its new to them. Thing is, it only gets worse so you have to build a strong will
When you realise to love is to suffer...that love is not those romance books we read as children...there is no 'happily ever after'... it's all about accepting that sometimes...things don't go as we plan...to love someone so much hoping for a future...just to get it all crushed...old enough to understand that love is so beautiful yet so painful at the same time...
The worst type of sadness is when you know you did something wrong and everyone is yelling at you “ WHY ARENT YOU GOOD ENOUGH?” And you have that guilt deep in your heart for so long and then you can’t feel anything anymore and you’re just completely numb and can’t open up to anyone because your afraid of what people would react to it.
same. i used to wake up early to see what santa brought. now I try to sleep late to avoid the guilt for getting presents because its all worthless anyways and I don't deserve it
@@aniab2947 I feel so bad for “Santa wasting everything on me they would be so happy to see me happy and not know then I found out and looked like I crushed them bc they didn’t want there princess loosing childhood things I felt so bad and guilty and my sister wondering why I’m not excited anymore
the lyrics are literally only one sentence, but hit harder than anything else
Yes
exactly...
Yeh
they hits harder than my dad
I KNOW BRO
“old enough to understand”
*I crave the life that only exists in my head. When I look at what’s right in front of me, everything is a lie.*
god this is so relatable.
i just want to escape this stupid reality and go to the fantasy world i dream of or go to that one perfect anime world that i have always loved. the kind people, the beautiful world and how you can be yourself without worrying..
but i know it will never become true because the reality still and will always exist
@@taspiix :)
@@taspiix this is the most relatable thing i've ever read in my life, especially the anime part
Same and it sucks
this hit way too close to home
When you’re old enough to understand
when your not old enough to understand but you still do :(
@@graysonva3323 yeah, i feel you.
@@killedmyself47 yours better
@@graysonva3323 i shouldn’t be feeling like this at a young age
, right?
Yup
sometimes i imagine having kids and just saying that im so proud of them and just being a great parent in my mind.
Every day man 😖😖😖😖
All the time
Me too, be what my father wasn't
I've come to make your dream my reality. Bless you
Its never gonna happen though. Cuz I’ll never find that special someone
everyone hates it when kids act annoying but want to be a kid themselves, probably because as a kid you don't think it's annoying, you think of it as fun and happiness
People who are themselves and don't care if people think they're "cringe" are superior.
Ngl I find them annoying it’s just that I’m jealous that they didn’t have to grow up really fast at a young age
I'm sorry, wtf is your profile picture 😭😭✋🏻
Umm yes but what I'm about to say if off topic but WTF IS YOUR PFP😭😭
i’d like to give jojo siwa a hug.
The fact that this could mean a thousand things, but we keep it to ourselves
Ok
@@xsirius9117 Ok
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"when sleeping becomes an escape rather than a punishment- that is when you realize you've lost your youth."
oh my god why does that make such depressing sense
But what if sleep becomes your prison from something you can never wake up?
i fucking love sleeping, you get recharged, you repair you muscles, you remember and you become emotionally refreshed.
@@the-monk821 then that's great for you!! everyone is different and experience thing differently. i'm glad you sleep good at night, wish i could say the same.
@@kanchanrajkumar826 that only means either death or sleep paralysis to which i say: "either get up or get up."
you'll get it.
“Behind every sweet smile, there is a bitter sadness that no one can ever see or feel.” - Tupac Shakur.
☺️ Yeah
The quote hits even harder when you see your profile picture ._.
“Why are you depressed? I’ve give you everything, clothes, shoes, food, a roof under your head, so ungrateful.”
Ok but roof under your head sent me to mars
The bare minimum is never enough
Yeah as if that’s not their responsibility
Bruhh parents are just too much
Well, I suppose I'm a boomer. It's just that I remember when I used to say this kinda stuff and now I really miss them. All the things they told me bout people n world where just so damn right and now I'm here standing watching the world burn all alone.
My own negative feelings made me so numb bout others' pain. I should've take their advices
@@iconbabyxox Wh-
I didn't say anything about black people, I was talking about my parents.
Edit: Do all American people are obsessed with black people? Bc here in Mexico we're not so crazy bout that topic. Weirdos
*listening to this at 1:33 AM half asleep with earbuds on hits different.*
Lemme try dis 😭🖐
Yasssssss frl
Your speaking the truth
ME every night😞
currently 1:39 AM and i am indeed half asleep with ear buds in
those teenagers who cry themselves to sleep at night were once kids with light in their eyes and hope in their hearts.
im too scared to face the reality. it's sad how i once wanted to grow up, but now i want to go back.
stop :(
Why did you have to write this?😭
its me, teenagers
no worries, school was fun, all my friends would just talk, play tag, run around the playground, no stress over work, i loved how i looked and wasn’t at all insecure, life was just joy, all i thought about was when Christmas was coming, halloween, now its just sitting at home praying that school ends soon and just wanting to see friends again, being cramped inside my room all day, life was so simple...what happened?
The worst kind of sad is when you don't really know why you're sad...
U always know why ure said and u can always do something about it. Mostly u decide to be sad thats probably the reason u dont know why u are sad. I dont say i am never sad. I say i try not to make myself sad. Thats how u get stronger. After the sadness is overcome there are more challenges in life u will have to complete. That's why most people want to stay sad. They just don't want to do the hard stuff. That's the reason there are more emo people around the globe. They wanna stay weak and sad so they don't have to any other hard challenges in life. Because if something goes wrong I can just kill myself right? U need failure to get stronger.
Reality💯
Literally me rn
Hmm, Its become a neutral feeling already.
the sadness and depression is real.
This hits hard when you realize you never kept the promises you made to yourself as a child and now you regret what you’ve become.
I felt this one
Bro tbh, I just need a friend. I feel like my friends are too busy and they were the only people I could talk to. I know they're there, but there all asleep at 3am when I genuinely need someone :/, my life is falling apart
@@sallyface7842 I understand how lonely it feels when you cant talk to anyone when you need to most, but there will be that someone one day to stay up with you when you cant sleep, also if you need someone to talk to I'm really never busy
no no no stop it no stop now no no no
Are you all okay? Be fr with me
i’m in love with the version of the world inside my head, yet the reality is i hate the world infront of me
I make story's in my head, different realities where I'm cool or things are working out, then I snap back to reality and instantly get depressed with how much is going wrong..
@@f.j.s8345 damn bro... Same tho
@@f.j.s8345 same and I know I should stop but it seems way better than my real life
Hey guys this happens to me too so I just wanted to show you my story. Basically I've been doing this since I was a kid and a year ago I foud out this is called maladaptive daydreaming, it's some sort of dissociative disorder when you create different realities or stories in your head and you basically live there and you forget about the real world. Usually this is caused by trauma or just by having a hard life and wanting to "escape" from your reality. Many people experience it, I just want you all to know that you are not alone!❤
Yeah same, I even make characters that are like my friends, so everytime I make a scenario in my head, it reminds me of them.
the one person who disliked wasn't old enough to understand
aha good one
was probably too young to know reality :
sometimes i dont like being old enough to understand
idk y i find this funny
Well no yt has bots that dislike idk why but they do
Too old for innocence.
Too young to do anything to change my situation.
Too impure to enjoy life.
Too pure to make decisions.
Too capable to be treated like a child.
Too immature to be treated like an adult.
Why’re we still here?
Just... to suffer
😭😭 to live up to others expectations
God loves y’all ❤❤❤
@@sain3ty358 every day and every night
@@Shrenish_Raplsktrue, I felt that.
i’m now realizing my childhood wasn’t actually a childhood at all
same
I don't even remember 88% of it
this one hits hard1
@@iwasneverakid7478 do you remember a 12% of it? wow I'm gelaous
Same
People say the orchestra gets them, but for more it's the "old enough to understand" it is because of the part where he says "stay forever" you see the part where you grew up and got a sense of reality because you were abandoned but you didn't realize until you were older. You felt abandoned, neglected, invalid, irrelevant, and you just need someone to hug because you have nobody to hug.
Omg stop ima cry
:)
( T_T)
How? do you know ive cried to this song on end?
@@graysonva3323 I’ve cried because the whole paragraph I made is what I’ve gone through 😀
POV: you go through the comments while listening to this only to get more depressed from how relatable it is
No cuz like I’m literally crying😭
yes lolz
Am not crying just sweating from my eye s
Why are you exposing me-
so relatable
To my younger self :
The road will be long and tough but in the end you'll realize that you made it through. You're so close and you're doing a great job.
Go little rockstar❤
:)
thank you
Hey. You don’t know me but, I love you and I’m very proud of you.🙂❤️
I hate growing up, but at the same time I wanna be independent
Same :(
I love ur pfp of rat!
same dude
You just summarized my whole life
I just wanna leave this house but my siblings are here
this hits hard when u realize that you're getting older and your childhood memories is slowly disappears...
hi! i know this kinda seems off but try making a journal where you write all you favorite memories that you think of. so you get to keep them there forever (unless you lose the journal)
Fr..
It's pretty cool that almost everyone will interpret this song differently
Yeah :) 😭💀
It’s also very sad
I just think about Larry Stylinson
So many things go through my head at the same time I just end up crying for no reason
yeah ik
nobody will probably see this but listening to this song makes me feel a huge amount of regret. regret for purposefully trying to find out about things i shouldn’t know, regret for acting a certain way towards certain people, regret towards not trying as hard as i can in some situations, regret for making myself mature faster so i seemed cooler. i have so many regrets i wish i didn’t and ignorant really is bliss. i miss my childhood where i didn’t know anything and didn’t have to worry about anything except being happy.
I know exactly how you feel. But regret is the first step to being a better person, after regret you have to forgive yourself in order to move on. If the past is holding you back how will you ever grow? Even though you feel this way, and it feels like shit, just know that you’re one step closer to being a better you. And you deserve it. Because no one in this world deserves any less.
If anything, you didn’t dig deeper
@@greensaucies7705The person above you described my struggles perfectly, and you answered beautifully with the right words. Thank you, stranger on the internet
“We didn’t realize we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun.”
why am I crying because of this comment
Correct me if I’m wrong but Im pretty sure this is a Winnie the Pooh quote
And those hit hard
Pls I’ve cried enough
This ...hits ...deep (ＴｪＴ)
Anyone else remember when they were younger and they wanted to be older so bad but now that your older you wish you could be young again? Enjoy life in the moment because one day you’ll look back and wish you could relive today again.
Edit: ty so much for the likes wth😳
Yes and then you find things
now I regret it I could’ve done everything but now nothing I was so blind
Yes and I am young myself yet I want to go back 😢
i only wanted to be older so i could escape from my abusive household so there wasnt much to enjoy when i was younger lol
Wish someone told me this before😔
Hits different when your eyes are all puffy from crying and you can’t really open them all the way and than your room is cold and you’re forever alone
...
(I believe that you managed to understand what I meant. we are almost certain that we will never meet in life, but... glad to meet you.)
@@rafzlol believe it or not I kind of look like dababy
damn
And you try not to sniffle to loud because you don’t want anyone to hear. Yea
grow up lil bitch
Notice how that girl is crying, but smiling.
If you relate, then you are old enough to understand.
You can take a break and stop, but you must neven give up!! YOU CAN DO THIS!!! Sending virtual hugs and so much love to everyone💕
I understand then
Thanks so much. You seriously have no idea how much reading these words meant to me. I really need a hug right now. It’s currently 22:19 and I think I might go wake my mom up and ask for a hug. I hope she doesn’t get mad..
“Running away is easy, it’s the leaving that’s hard.”
Que adult swim logo
[AS]
wrong song my guy
@@Yeats-wh2uh no shit Sherlock
@@pierregrey7768 :/
This is what being hugged when you didnt have affection as a child feels like
for real
true
Fr.
The orchestra sounds like realization, like your realizing something years after it happened, like now you're "old enough to understand."
thats why this part of the song is my favorite, the whole song is mellow and kinda upbeat for a little bit until it gets to this part at the end and it just hits you and ufoskdjskjsodk
@@doodoo240 YESS OMGGG
Sitting here and just sinking in the words in the darkness is the most lonely yet peaceful that I’ve ever been all at once.
This song makes me wanna say sorry to my younger self for some reason
we were all forced to grow up way to young, to everyone here im so sorry :(
When I have children I want them to live their child lives as much as they can and I’m going to make sure they don’t regret. I want to be my children’s shield in the future 😊 well that’s if I’m good enough to have a partner that loves me haha.
@@shyytiny i do aswell 😊 i want to be the best mother they can Ask for
Literally I hate it
apparently not fast enough to learn proper grammar though :)
@@isabelf9015 shut up and go eat a popsicle and make friends. you have zero idea what it's like to be a mature adult or even teen who has to provide for themselves in some way or another. you're not grown at all.
To younger me:
Thanks for the memories kid - until happiness brings us again.
This quote genuinely gave me a proper flashback to when I was six in a new country and a new house sitting on my skateboard going down the side path to the backyard. Everything was so simple back then, so easy to be happy. Thanks you
Just enjoy what you have now and who you are with. Not that deep. You make your own happiness. If you aren’t happy then it’s prob your fault
@@slicky3397 ah yes, let me just take full control over my life even though people are forcing me to be unhappy. thank's for the tip man
@@crystalmetheny583 forcing you to be unhappy🤣
@@slicky3397 just say you either are a self-absorbed mommas child who never got to experience neglect or you have some unresolved trauma going on that you reflect. actually don't even bother answering, i think you have better stuff to do than discourage ppl venting in their only safespace
When you're young but understand anyway.
We grow up hearing "you'll understand when you're older" Understanding when you're older sucks.
It gets a bit exciting since you wanna know what something is just to find out the disgusting truth
totally agree
I mean they warned us
Everything sucks until I stops but it doesn't mean it can't change
At that point rn..
I swear when parents say "when you're older ill tell you" they end up never telling you and you have to find out about the bad side of the world without them
and they forget their promises too
That’s because they would want your happiness as a kid without understanding the bad side of the world yet
I never ask my parents about things anymore because I know they will never tell me and because I would already know before I’m older
It’s not that deep bruh💀
My feelings 😁😐
do you ever just wish someone would just listen to you just for a few mins or just a few seconds and listen to what you want to let out, yeah same.
all the time, but i'll listen to you first if you wanna talk :)
yea all the time
@ero gal yea..
yess honestly but it least i have the love of my life to vent out my problems too. let’s hope he doesn’t leave either...
And not overthink to the point where you're convinced that they're forced to listen to you so you don't feel like your thoughts and emotions go unheard. Yeah
The worst kind of sad is losing something vital in your life, knowing you’ll never get it back
This really hits different when you realize you’re getting older and your childhood is fading away slowly all the memories are now gone...
the memories will never be gone, they gonna stay with me forever, remembered as amazing good times
That's true, but you can always make new ones with the people you love. Besides the people you made those memories with you can always make more.
yes, the memories will be gone but the emotions still remain
It has a different meaning for everyone
,,Old enough to understand’’
Im not as interesting intelligent and beautiful child as they said, i never was. It hurts when you realize
Some of them were
Some of there were ugly
TANJIRO >:’( WHY YOU MAKING ME CRY
U are
You're right, you're not as interesting, intelligent and beautiful as they told you, you're 10 times better than that
this hit me bro..
i don’t wanna grow up. i wanna be 7 and clueless again.
Same 😭
Me too
It is what it is. Just enjoy what you have now and who you are with. Not that deep
haha i dont wanna go back-
i was bullied when I was 7
Y'all be so lucky being clueless at 7 😶
when u want to be sad but you dont know why but still get sad for some reason, even when theres no reason...
now that i'm old enough to understand i realized that everything was a lie and now reality is hitting me
it really makes me wanna go back and apoligize
Same
same lol hate it here🧍♂️
It hurts when you have know it since 9 years old
I’m not old enough but I still understand.
i regret thinking I wanted to become older and more mature. growing up just made me realize how bad the world really is.
Its so sad to know that most of us here are just a few kids, trying our best to keep our life as bright as possible before our childhoods are over, trying our best to do good in school, trying or best to not disappoint our family and friends, trying our best to keep others happy, yet never trying to keep ourselves happy. Trying. Trying. Trying.
Yeah and i guess my mom doesn't get it :(
It’s so hard sometimes 😪
But it’s never enough
But we never try our best to make ourselves happy 🥺
I don't wanna try it any more. Sometimes in life, you'll relize that most of things you've done and you're doing are just meaningless. It's painful, but it's also a relief to not have to work so hard, with no good results anymore.
A lot of times, I imagine being the best parent to my children or child, not hurting them for making mistakes, teaching them how to be a good person, loving them unconditionally, being a parent that I wanted, a parent I needed, a family I never got...
To all the people who relate or having a bad day or just life being shitty to you, I hope your day gets better and I hope u find your own happiness and not let anybody else take it from you
“Old enough to understand” can mean so much. Cus as a child you think, life is awesome, and you hated when family like mom dad or auntie were upset. You didn’t know why they didn’t look at the glass half full. But then that moment hits you, when you realize the world ain’t such a pretty place becouse of ugly people. I don’t mean look wise, but dried, sad, and heartless people. You gradually start learning about things about the world, your family, and even yourself.. I barely talk to people so I’m going to say this here. I wanted to die when I was in middle school. I didn’t want the suffering and pain, just wanted to disappear. Where nothing bothered me anymore. But, the case is different, it just takes a while for you to find that kid in you again. Sorry bout the rant but this audio just gets you. But if anyone feels the same way know your not alone.💕
I needed this.
you are not alone either! i really needed this, thank you so much.
i think that if we find that kid, that innocent and happy one, we can reach the peace. i´m really glad that you find yours, and iI just wish happy things to your life. Even if we are not kids anymore, we have to live the world like that kids, because they just don´t disappear, you know? life waits for us, even with it´s difficult moments! wish you luck!
You just have to realize that the most important thing in your life is to focus on your self and focus on your family and on your friends. Life is a gift. You cant throw gifts easily as you think. My life has been changed a lot when i was kid but thats how life and time works. You can change things you can do what ever you want. And guys listen to me. When ever you feel alone or depressed just think about the good memories and you can still get some memories which you can remember.
To be honest. In some way, everyone feels this. There are moments where you're lost, scared, and depress. And it's hard to express this, we can talk about this to someone special but how will they respond and what advice will they give us. Positive or negative. If we want to express it in a drawing or other methods, how long will people notice the pain? It sometimes brings you into a state of insecurity and you don't have the minimal idea of handling it. Sometimes, in my opinion, it best to wait for something to happen and give an effort to see it through. Because there are things that will bring us joy and still there are to this day. Sure, sad moments are there, and they are difficult to handle but we could take it as a grain of salt or use it for experience for when a moment comes that someone is going through something that you been through, you know how to cheer someone on. Be a solution and if you're a problem, ask someone for help. Life is like a story, it has its moments, good or bad, but they're just moments, and they're worth it to see again. To enjoy, to cry, to be angered, to save. And if you're not satisfied with them, their still a lot to see later on.
"Don't trust strangers online."
but the strangers online give me more support then you.
Thats literally what i think about every day
this comment hit hard
Absolutely
the strangers online are the only people who go through the same thing than me, understand me and still helps me.
Me not wanting to like because it's at 365 all the days of the year and the strangers support me 365 days of the year
The amount of emotion I feel when I listen to this is unexplainable.
Exactlyyyy my dearrrr EXACTLYYYYYYYYY
I just wanted to say, for every person that has come this far. You guys have done great. Keep it strong !
remmember those times when your friends actually cared about you and you were filled with love every single day. and now you are just gone..
( ◜‿◝ )♡
@@aaidahnaveed1924 I don’t know why, but this little smiling face is making me uncontrollably sob
@@aaidahnaveed1924 In a good way though, so thank you, I really needed that
@@junrilow5038 damn I'm so glad. Crying this way is totally worth it. Life is really hard but it's the little good moments that u need to hold on to. Hope u have a nice day
Love u 💖
@@aaidahnaveed1924 Thank you love, you deserve the world 💗💖
I’ve grown to become the person I never understood as a kid. I don’t know what to do with myself
Improve yourself, that’s what you do. There’s always room to grow and learn.
Just do what you love and don't care about what other people might think, you don't need some big mansion or stunning cars and things like that to find happiness, happiness comes in many forms and you just got to find the right one for you
@@AerithRimuru8888 Wise words!
@@spidermansuperfan Not mine, from an old friend, just changed it a bit to fit the situation
@@spidermansuperfan but thanks!
This hits hard when you realize life will only go downhill from here
life started going downhill as soon as we turned 10
@@acmx72 Middle schook 🎒📚
Mine starting hoing down hill when i was 7 and it hasnt stopped since 😍
No man,don't give up now. I know it's hard,but after all that you've been through in life,I know you will prevail. Keep on hoping even if it's dark
@@Huhzym thanks g
This song makes me connect with my emotions that i hide away, all imprefections, all negative thoughts i have burried re-surfaced to make me realise how much i hide in "i don"t care", "it' fine", "i'm ok".
I'm sad, I don't know why but I just don't feel up to it anymore. I don't have the motivation to do things anymore it doesn't mean I'm lazy, it just means I don't have the energy. I'm not mad I just don't feel like smiling anymore. It's not that I'm avoiding you I just don't know what to say anymore...
Dont describ me, I don’t even know if I’m depressed or not because I don’t want to just say I am so that people can either judge me about how I’m faking it or if I’m just to scared to tell people why I’m so..... just done with life.. my life.. and everything
:(
@@shyytiny hi idrk you but hey I love okay im so proud of you for being here!!!! Keep going :) you got this and I'm in no better place than you are but you got this I believe in you 🙃
c.r.y.i.n.g
Sometimes i have that to, and then im just sad and crying. But my mom thinks that she can fix it but she can't.
I can't believe how you're
All just strangers but I felt like I was finally understood, not by a family or a friend but by a stranger online
:)
Ik it’s crazy I feel like it’s just a club of everyone
yeh
everyone in here is so nice and relatable lets cry yall 😭🤝
to that one person that disliked i just know your playlist is trash lol
i have to agree
i think they were crying so hard they confused the like/dislike button
@@IDGAG no one said that? Huh?
@@IDGAG excuse me miss girl what did u just say?
Imma need you to log out for me❤️
What’s the song name
I think the big issue is we're sad all the time, theres no fixing it there are distractions, people who make you forget your sad but then they leave and you realize you've been sad all along, your saddness wasn't fixed it was just hidden
"old enough to understand" me realizing my childhood never rlly was a childhood :/
Edit: I'm so sorry for anyone who feels the same way. Stay strong
yeah me too
fr
yeah and me childhood ended quickly.. it ended when i was eleven. then i let social media get to me.
now i’m insecure and obsessed with beauty standards.
truth hurts :(
@@krysanne746 Mine ended at 9 or younger, I don’t really remember anymore
The song is called Pluto projector by Rex Orange County if y’all are wondering
Thanks
rex is so good ;-;
i knew it half way through i was like: this is looped aint it
I think the biggest part of growing up is looking back and realizing how messed up ones childhood is (at least for me)
And even through that, here you are. You should be proud of yourself, you seem like a strong person. I hope you continue to grow and learn
In 4th grade i bash my freind head with a padlock
Same
I grew up experiencing domestic violence in front of my eyes and having abusive parents
@@Equal-b9m bruh
@@speedyspeed8178 it was an accident
Sounds like how I felt when I was laying on the operating table while they emergency delivered my daughter. All the pain and fear I felt that day just wasn't big enough to overshadow how fiercely I knew I loved her. There's nothing anyone could have said to me to prepare me for that emotional soup. I felt more human and capable than ever before in my LIFE, and I had a living reason to try my absolute hardest until death. I was finally old enough to understand how powerful a mothers love really is.
The way that people could relate to this song in many different ways is kinda sad.
Welcome to our fucked up and broken generation.
I agree that it's sad. It's sad because there isn't one person listening to this and commenting who hasn't been failed in a major way and subsequently failed someone else in an equally major way. We're old enough to understand something awful that's happening to us, but we could also be old enough to understand that something we're doing or have done is not okay. The many ways we can interpret one sentence forces us to meditate on whatever things the sentence means to us.
Sadness isn't necessarily a bad thing. It's part of accepting loss and moving forward in life. It's part of growing into a better person. We bump into things for 80 years and call that a life. We're a species that's been granted sentience, but no purpose. We know who we are, but not why we're here. That's inherently frightening, and bad things happen when good people get scared. That's unavoidable, but by sitting with these memories, and relating to others and their art we understand ourselves just a little bit better.
yeah
anybody else hate getting close to people but also gets lonely
Me
All the time that’s why I can’t communicate with people. Jeez trust issues kill me.
me
and also hate getting to know people or letting people know you,,
You like being alone but hate feeling lonely
Can we take a second to appreciate how this creator liked every comment..
I’m still going... pray for me ✌🏽🥲
Indeed such kind hearted person
Its almost finished :)
When you look at pictures of you as a kid and remember how happy you were as a kid and now you're just empty
Currently thinking about the fact that everyone who hears this will interpret the meaning differently and some of us are old enough to understand more than others... nobody can fully understand what another person is going through but we can all relate to one song in some way and let it connect us.
the fact that i started to cry while listening to this, i wish i could go back into the past and tell my younger self how much i love her, and prepare her for what’s going to come in the future. this song makes me feel nostalgia and sadness, every time i look at old photos of myself i feel sad. i wish i could’ve been there for her, for my younger self when she cried alone. :(
Me too…
Man this entire c9mment section real depressing tf is going on
Damn...nvm this hits different 😔
XBOX YA GANO LA GENERACIÓN
COPIA Y PEGA ESTA VERDAD
*"You will know once you grow up"*
So every night I kept praying that I'll grow up as fast as I could.
*fuck I messed up.*
ONGREGFU SAME BRO SAE R#FIHVEUF
I miss my grandma everything was better when she was here.
It’s funny to think as kids how exciting it would be to grow up and get out in the world yet here we are.
It is
it depends on how you see the world
@@felimarwansyah8211 technically
I still think it's exciting. I think sadness is necessary for really life altering happiness and contentedness. Nothing gave me peace when I was younger, now love of others gives me enough for an end forever.
Listen to your inner child, he's wise now.
It’s weird to think about how we probably won’t tell children what they’ll go through as no adult told (most of) us the what we will, until we are already going through it, after, or never
Is there anyone here that wants their parents to just say “I’m so proud of you”
I’m proud of every single one of the people in this comment section
im not your parents, but im proud of you dude
At least why don't they say it once
For them it might be just words
But for us it might mean the world
yash lol
My parents can’t say that now
I’m now old enough to understand how much of my childhood was true happiness and now it’s all fake it’s all just pretending I’m now 14, I remember when I used to say I was older but now I just wanna be my happy 7 year old self and not have to pretend anymore it’s mentally draining me
You still a child, live your life as a child while you can, when you became 18, start to understand how to be an adult, enjoy what you have until its to late
Plz you aren’t even 19 yet chill
@@heehee7125 please you don’t even know what happened to them, chill
Hee hee this sounds kinda rude. kids still have feeling you know? you dont know what theyve been going thru just shut up
@@nathaliealvarezz that can be hard to do, according to their family/setting
i remember being so young and wanting to grow up so fast, seemed so long ago, in terms of years. you never fully appreciate where you were, till you get somewhere else. truly old enough to understand.
all I can imagine is the summer of 2019. My 16th birthday in California, it’s 12 am and my aunt took me to get boba. We’re in the car and all I do is look out the window and observe every street light I try to memorize every detail of the buildings. This part of the song brings me back to the summer of 2019 , the year where things were too good to be true , before everything went wrong.
Pain
when i visited my mom in california and i went to so many places. took it for granted as the virus really started to hit while we were there. though ive lived and been to california before, this trip hit hard. i love it so much! 💕🥺
I tend to look back at summer 2019 a lot, as well as summer 2016, though in summer '19 I was 15.
in summer of 2019, my mom was almost finished with cancer, she got put into the hospital in July and stayed there for two weeks before passing away
aug, 4th, 2019, miss you mom
@@jill... may she rest in peace and watch over you, love. 💕
while other people be worrying bout their relationship with their partner,im out here tryna keep my family together...
im trying to fix them both , its so exhausting
@@lucyburden7814 bad day huh 😔😞
@@DZ-bj3yx really bad day
together but happy
idk if it was your intention to invalidate relationship problems but as somebody who has experienced both, we should not compare them, both are equally as important :)
Yesterday I saw these 2 little kids running around being so happy and I cried while walking because yesterday I was already feeling down and when I saw that I realized I can’t go back to that. My happiness went away something I can’t get back, those little kids were having so much fun and I realized the light they have in there eyes is something I possibly can’t get back and it hurts to know that.
Stay strong
sadly sooner or later they will lose their happyness too and we wont be able to help them, but im here for you buddy ur amazing and a huge star i believe in you.
i was scrolling through the comments and none of them made me cry but this hit hard
i feel the same too..
Y'know I did the same thing while walking home from my job. I'm 20 and it still hits me like a truck.
You’ve all come so far and I’m genuinely proud of everyone in this comment section. When we hit our lowest points we believe that it only gets harder. It doesn’t. When we are in the dark the only thing we can do is find the light. It might take longer for others but once you find that light you can mature and grow and flourish. You are all beautiful and so strong. I love you all. Here’s a little poem I wrote for everyone.
darkness can seep into the cracks of our minds. It takes away our happiness. Hungry for our joy. But you will only regain what you’ve lost when you realize the darkness isn’t something to be afraid of. The light is always within you. And it’s up to you to realize it.
I love you all forever and always. Don’t forget to eat and drink water. Thank you for the past 3 years. I appreciate all of you.
thanks
A few years ago, in 2022 i had a big depression during the second semester of the first year of college (uni). I had gone through so much in life. losing both gransparents at age of 8. then at teenage years i ahd to deal with bullying, followed by isolation, followed by having a friend that didnt last because he chnaged schools, to isolation, to meeting someone i thought was my friend but all he was was a toxic friend that cyberbullied me and i still didnt listen to my colleagues back then when they tried warn me and i learned my lesson in the hard way. and to top all that, during my teenage years i had to deal with my father, who hated my mother ever since their divorce, blackmailed me with threats of making my younger brother (half brother) forget about me. It was too much. and the pressure of college just... made me break. i had depression, deep one. i burned my wrists with hot water during showers, and i had suicidal thoughts. all i wnated was to go back in time and be a kid again. I never asked help. i couldnt. i didnt want to burden. luckily i came out of it but.... sometimes i wonder if i could had change anything in life to avoid these outcomes.... sometimes i wish to go back. nostalgia hurts, amkes me sad. i feel pressure from college and songs like this and little things that make me super nsotalgic make me sad soemtimes to the point i wnat to cry or even cry
This reminds me of the last ever day of school and when you all go your separate ways. This is what this song feels like
That hits hard 😔
Was it necessary to make me cry?
Or being the one who started high school with no friends, spent all of it with coming and going friends, and now it’s the end of senior year, and you’re walking out in your cap and gown, watching hundreds of others in theirs, but the thing telling you apart from the others is that while they are crying and hugging their friends, you trudge out with no one by your side. And it’s over. Your childhood is finally gone.
even though school is the source of my greatest dread, i see myself crying so hard when i graduate. i don’t want to grow up.
I'm crying about that right now lol
"The path isn't a straight line, it's a spiral, you continually come back to things you thought you understood and see deeper truths" -Barry H. Gillespie
I wish i could just tell my younger self "im sorry kid". I wish i had prepared myself for what was gonna happen. That bright eyed kid deserved a better future, and better people around him. All of those people just tore us down more and more everyday. I never thought everyone i knew wouldve turned on me that, let alone that fast. I just dont want to be broken anymore
Damn this is so sad:') 😞
Bruh moment
Quandale Dingle moment :(
Same things happening to me rn, sucks
I'm feeling that way as well. Hope you're better now.
it just makes me cry, imagining all of my old friends and how most have gone, two sadly killed themselves but the rest just kind of disappeared, and it's just how we've all gotten older and that all that is left is the memories that i guess makes me cry.
"Old enough to understand"
I realize that life isn't as bright and joyful as I saw it in the first look of life
I realize that I'm slowly drifting away from my parents
I realize that my parents will never love each other again
I realize that my dad isn't getting any better
I realize that however hard I try I'm not good enough
I realize that I treated my little brother like shit thinking it was all a joke but in reality I was hurting him
I realize that a simple facial expression doesn't truly define how a person really feels
I realize that I'm slowly losing the ones I cherish most
I realize that I was never able to tell my uncle how much he really meant to me
I realize that I was too ignorant to listen to when they said "enjoy the time as a kid while you can"
I realize that dreams and reality are two separate things
I realize that everybody suffers but low amounts of people actually get the help they need
I realize that I wanted to grow up but I wish I never did
I realize that you never know who really cares until It's too late
I realize that I was given this life but sometimes I don't want it
I realize that we are all speaking over a device because the majority of us are afraid to say the things we do online in real life
I realize that maybe I'll never find true happiness..
Wow i dont why u decided come for my neck that personally
Listen here. Life isn’t about regret. It’s about cherishing the happy moments and never taking anything for granted. You only have so much in this life. So look forward to the little things in life that make you happy. And that’s truly where you understand the value in the little things because they happen so rarely. And that’s okay. You’re parents are proud of you. Not because of how much you’ve accomplished, but because of how far you’ve made it in life with their guidance. They know you’re in a tough spot rn because they’ve been through it all right now too. So just being their kid and growing up and pulling through is something every parent is proud of. Trust me. And every siblings fight. It’s only normal. But in the end, it’s all love. Hug your parents when you see them. And your brother too. Spend more time with all your family and tell them you love them. Not because you’re afraid they might leave or because you could lose anyone anyday, but because they’re still here and now is the best time to tell them you love them. Anytime Is the best time to tell them you love them.
that's just how this world is but just be realizing this things can't lead you to death u have to accept what u are u have to accept the darkness u have to accept the way this world works u have bare the pain and suffering till death in the end everyone dies alone bareing lot of regrets
You should also realize that good comes to everyone in life, even you. Try looking for it in places you haven’t looked before. When you learn to appreciate small things, and embrace this feeling that you feel, life will become easier and happiness will follow. You have to be patient. Happiness comes to those who wait. Be brave, be kindhearted, have a good attitude on things. Even if you don’t have a glimmer of hope now, it will come. However many times you are thrown into despair, hope will come again just as many times. The fact that you are still alive proves you are worthy of being happy. And happiness, is not something you find. It’s something you realize. I hope you realize that you will realize happiness too. Never quit, it will be worth it
I know I’m not the best at wording, but I hope you’re old enough to understand.
Why does this affect me so much? ?????
same.
same agh😔
Same, is strange...
Because you’re old enough to understand
me too :/
“old enough to understand”
*im finally old enough to understand that my two best friends are becoming closer and leaving me behind, I’m happy for them but it hurts*
Hi, this happened to me once and I know how terrible it feels. I am sorry :(
🙃 how can I have the same problem ..
I’m old enough to understand the 1 person who brought me happiness and hope and joy in the world has died and I’m now lonely
Love u🤍
felt that
we were so excited about growing up, so what now? As kids we rush to grow ,now we think of going back on our childhoods
This song makes me feel like im going to cry about Anime characters who don't exist or an anime that broke me into million pieces :"(
recommend me anime that hits deep pls🥺
@@devina3465 a silent voice, violet evergarden, I want to eat your pancreas, anohana: the flower we saw that day, plastic memories and assassination classroom are pretty sad if you want to watch them
@@devina3465 banana fish
@@devina3465 devil man crybaby
for me it reminds me of danganronpa most of them die and most of them are comfort characters
bro, i know im a sensitive person but this song makes me cry everytime.
Same 😭
same :(
Omfg Ikr I'm sitting in the living with my headphones on and I'm trying to keep the tears in, good thing is I can't remember the last time I actually cried so :D
no matter what u are strong or sensitive every person cries when they lose something very important but in the end it this things makes you stronger then before
“A person cries not because he is weak, but because he has been strong for too long”
i understand it now. im 13 i didnt really realize i was old enough to understand but the trauma made me older. here i am now, crying realizing that my “childhood” wasnt really a childhood.
trust me the feeling rn that you're feeling will be so much painful when you're 18. Even though you will think you understand, there's so much more
@@ywrtqq Honestly though, kids can get caught up in the moment and feel like it's the end but it really isn't. It's just things that they aren't used to since its new to them. Thing is, it only gets worse so you have to build a strong will
@@jollychurros6624 thats what im saying. Like the whole "you'll understand when you're older", you actually will understand when you're older
Who....cares
@@Metalicsailor 89 people care. How many cared for your opinion? None
When you realise to love is to suffer...that love is not those romance books we read as children...there is no 'happily ever after'... it's all about accepting that sometimes...things don't go as we plan...to love someone so much hoping for a future...just to get it all crushed...old enough to understand that love is so beautiful yet so painful at the same time...
When I die I would like to have this playing as I watching myself through my past memories good and bad. What a wild slideshow that would be.
"Don't cry because it's over
smile because it happened"
-Dr. Seuss
Dont cry because its over
Cry because it happened
~Zach Hadel
@@Ozeanic “Don’t cry because it’s over, smile because it happened ~ Dr Seuss” - Michael Scott
Dr Seuss cheated on his wife while she had cancer
Now I'm smiling and crying simultaneously
Wait that shit was from dr suess
this song doesn't even wanna make me cry its just a blank feeling. i feel nothing but more like simply things happen for a reason.
The worst type of sadness is when you know you did something wrong and everyone is yelling at you “ WHY ARENT YOU GOOD ENOUGH?” And you have that guilt deep in your heart for so long and then you can’t feel anything anymore and you’re just completely numb and can’t open up to anyone because your afraid of what people would react to it.
teaching myself this on the violin rn :)
Upload the video I need it rn
upload it when you learn 💃🏽
share the notes when you do 😭😭✋🏾 I wanna play it too
we need to see the video :o
good luck bestie 😩👍
i remember being excited on christmas morning for presents but all i feel now is empty
same. i used to wake up early to see what santa brought. now I try to sleep late to avoid the guilt for getting presents because its all worthless anyways and I don't deserve it
@@aniab2947 I feel so bad for “Santa wasting everything on me they would be so happy to see me happy and not know then I found out and looked like I crushed them bc they didn’t want there princess loosing childhood things I felt so bad and guilty and my sister wondering why I’m not excited anymore
That 1 dislike is from someone who is still too young to understand
i wish that was me