38 years ago my marriage ended. Before I physically left, I had this dream. In the dream, I was climbing along a cliff side and I came to a spot where there was no place to step to move forward. I moved forward anyway, stepping into space. and a red stool appeared to hold my foot...and I kept climbing. Trusting my own strength, and trusting the unknown to be benevolent , I chose myself and my life. With my two small children, I left the marriage. I have never regretted that choice. Soon after I left, I was on a day trip with my father. I found a hand painted card carrying the following quote: "Those who travel further that the obstacles will know a different kind of life from there on...." 💜
So right K3n. It's great to write down how we feel but do I want my hurts to go on through new generations. I've journalled since my husband died 29 yrs ago - just occasions - but before Christmas I got quite ill (now revovered) but it struck me that I didn't want my negativities to burden even those who caused pain ... so revisited journals and tore out relevant pages .... and I feel so much better... maybe not totally forgiving but certainly not vengeful enough to cause pain. From now .... think yes I'll write my hurt and anger but for my eyes only!!!! Thank you8
@TheFaybreda I am happy to hear you have recovered. Yes, getting the hurt out is often enough, and I think deliberately causing pain though an understandable instinct if we have been deeply hurt can hurt us as well. Often more than the target. Hugs to you ❤️
Thank you Kathryn for this wonderful idea about hiding the words. It was what I needed today, and it was good to write that feeling of grief out loud but to let it be gone straight away too.
You are a brave woman,, Kathryn. And I recognize your courage because, through various experiences, I became acquainted with my own courage. We are, all of us, whether we stumble or soar, wondrous beings.
Thank you Kate. I do believe that we often surprise ourselves with our courage when called upon. It's something of a shame that we have to be though. Hugs ♥️
Heartbreakingly beautiful, thank you isn’t enough really in speaking of how that resonates deeply. I’ve been with you since you began your channel and have joined you and everyone here for this years adventure. Painfully courageous and joyful in equal measure. Your poem ….thank you for the soulful words x
Your poem is brilliant! Thanks for being vulnerable and open, I think that must have been so hard for you but its cathartic to allow us to support you❤
Ironically, I found something from my former life last week and I decided to unmake it and transform it into something I can use in my new life and I have not been able to think of what to make it into. As usual, you inspired me because it’s very much “dark into light” and this quote “The dark does not destroy the light; it defines it” practically shouted at me and reframed every thought about my past for me. Which is saying a lot. Thank you for being. I’m grateful to the universe for you.
What a great way to “dish out” all the darkness of the soul ! Letting the “Light” come in, feeling refreshed and a new start for a new year. All the ugly anger, the hate, the HURT, the tears. It doesn’t go totally away, but it sure is a release! Many years ago, when my baby was 3 years old, we traveled a long distance to visit his mother for Thanksgiving. When it was time to leave the following day, I went to visit my mother with my baby, he took me there and was to pick us up the next morning . He NEVER CAME BACK! I was left with my baby and $20 dollars in my pocket! It was a very DARK time in my life! BUT, I must say, I did stepped into the LIGHT eventually! Thank You for this post! You are an amazing woman! Sending blessings,good wishes and health for a New Year! ❤
I absolutely love the idea of writing down your thoughts, all of them, swear words and all and then blurring them out with gesso. You know they are there on the page, out of your head and heart and no one else is the wiser ! ! Well done ! !
Thank you for this video Kathryn and for sharing your personal experiences..I’m sure people are comforted in different ways by your ideas for working through these challenges we all seem to face. 🙏💕xx
Thank you for sharing so much of yourself. I loved your poem and hope it and this journal activity has been cathartic for you and that every day brings more healing to you.
Thank You, I too wake up at stupid o clock in the morning, so many of us do. It's like a clan really. That feels nice. Your cold is very timely. Time to shed the negative dross. Head up, deep breaths, arms out stretched. Bring it on! Onwards, Onwards always with a capital O.
Beautiful work in your journal. We're all on a journey one way or another, wonderful to get it all out on paper. I do that stream of consciousness too and my hand just keeps moving as the thoughts pour out through my arm and into my fingers. Can't read a word of it! Sending hugs and love! 💛💛💛
I love what you did with the writing and covering the words up with gesso! Brilliant! I've burned my writings before to "let it go," but this was a lovely way to let go. And that's for sharing your beautiful poem. You're a writer too!
I love that your first page represents light into darkness, while the next page will be traveling from darkness back to light... Thanks for sharing the hard parts, even when it's scary and unpleasant. Being willing to make yourself vulnerable in this space is a tremendous gift and I hope it helps others along their journey.
Kathryn, you have the Women's Strength of a Thousand Suns. Thank you for you beautiful poem and the sharing you do with all your followers. It helps me stay on course. 💚💛💚 🤍🖤🤍
I've been following you for months now and am so amazed and you are such a pleasure to watch you and go through your year of transformation with you. I will definite3ly follow your journey and I love your Park Life videos, too.
It may very well be the hardest video you’ve nade, complex thoughts feelings and issues. And you distilled into a simple, striking, powerful layout. That’s beautiful inner work showing up on the outside. I’m proud of your heart.
Love your process for the pages writing your thoughts and washing them away. I have been a text collector for decades, a few images too. I recently decided to take those clippings and put them all together in a box rather than in various envelopes I tend to forget about.
Dear Kathryn, I love the idea of painting over the hard thoughts and feelings like a ritual. They remain but blurred and at least slightly softened. The cost of the pain so formidable. We do as we can. xo j 🕊
Thank you for sharing your heart felt poem. 💖 I begin my first spread in my journal today. I’ll be putting my fears down on paper….then collaging over. Then I think color is in order. 💖💖💖
Yes, colour is good. I worked on the spread for a couple more hours after editing and uploading the video this morning. A little colour crept in. I will show next week ♥️
Hello Kathryn, thank you for your video. Your poem is very moving and the page is inspirational. You talked of wanting to do more art. I learnt that I could draw through learning how to do Zentangles about 15 years ago. From that I have become quite good at drawing although I have spent a lot of time learning. I would recommend the art of Zentangle if you would like to learn to draw. It teaches so much. I hope you will get over your cold soon and will be feeling better. X
Glad to see you're on the mend from your cold. And I love this idea of writing out thoughts and feelings for transformation and healing. What a lovely and evocative journal spread. Hugs to you! 💖
Brave Kate. I can't imagine how hard this video and this page were for you to do. You express yourself so incredibly well and by example make me want to dig a bit deeper into my own soul. Thank you.💗
Thank you for sharing your story with us. We do need to work through those emotions and that quote of yours is lovely. I love quotes (and books) written by Brené Brown. You're a strong cookie dear Kathryn. Keep on keeping on and remember how enormously special you are to many. Hugs xox
Your poem certainly resonated with me. At a young age I became heavily, emotionally invested in what I though was a bright star which burned me so badly time and time again until I gathered enough strength to pull myself away. Due to a family Trust which also involves our two sons, it still periodically burns us all to this day and I am 75 now. I do still enjoy the good things in my life, there are many, I look towards the sunshine every day. Thank you, Kathryn.
@@k3n.clothtales I have bit by bit built a strong and independent life and can shrug it off now. You will too. I think you are helping so many people, with your channel, to heal along with you. ❤
I'm hoping to work along with you again. I've made journals but never managed to work in one for more than a few days. I've been following Kelly and have several ideas and you always inspire and encourage me with your videos. Many thanks for all you do. Clare in South Africa.
Wonderful Kathryn just wonderful!🎉 so brave and so eloquent in your writing ❤ I hadn't really considered the fact that this is a truly personal project and I confess I am really curious as to what I reveal to myself as it unfolds - if that makes sense. Thank you for sharing your poem. Beautifully done. ❤ I hope you are soon fully recovered from your cold/flu. Sending you big love as always from Scotland and a woof from Oscar ❤❤❤
Thank you so much for your willingness to be so brave and to take us on the journey with you. I've always been one who abandons a journal a few pages in. I'm hoping if I build it myself I'll be motivated to fill it all up. I need to get it bound so I can keep up!
I must admit that I have never really stuck to these personal journals in the past. I dabble about here and there with writing and drawing. The only kind I stick to are the stitch journals. So I wanted to do this for the year, I think (hope) it will be helpful and I thought if we shared the journey, maybe we could encourage each other. ❤️
Oh Kathryn, I do hope you get over your cold very soon. I loved your black and white page spread with its texts (though I must admit I've never feared the dark: I find it a comfort sometimes). Your poem is very powerful, and I felt it in my gut when you read it out. I'd like very much to see any sketching and/or painting. Have always wanted to try drawing, and began a daily practice on August 30th -- pencil only, so far, though I hope eventually to try pencil/pen and water colour washes. Am loving it, and am very excited to find that -- 4 months along -- I can draw certain things quite well, learning by copying, various mini-workshops online, a variety of books, and my imagination. I'm sure you'll have a similar experience once you begin. What I am finding now is the common thread of my fabric, paper, and drawing work, each inspired by and influencing the other. I know it's hard and painful to have your children far away. Am so glad you all had a chance to celebrate the holidays together, and that your son took care of you for a few extra days. May you all flourish in 2025 in good health. ❤
Thank you Jill, I am looking forward to doing more drawing and painting. I have done some on and off over the years but never kept at it enough to get to the point where it satisfies me. I have been watching Michelle at thecreativecove recently, she has some good sketch tutorials step by step and I have drawn a couple of not half bad things following her. Yes it's tough for the children to be in another country but luckily they live in a city with direct, cheap flights to my local airport so in the university holidays they will be able to visit. ♥️
I didn’t see your video before I texted you😎 So glad to know you’re dry, cosy AND feeling a bit better. You share your life with such elegance and consideration, i’m sure it’s soothing and helpful to anyone who’s been in a similar situation. You show possibilities of rediscovery, strength and courage.💖❤️🥰💐🍀
I usually can't stick to one video at a time due to my overactive brain but I decided to this time in honor of your experience. During my year of recovery [after my own separation] I walked every day for healing. Strangely, it was the worst and somehow best year of my life. Godspeed, k3n. You've got this.
Love the idea of collecting words in a tin! Looks very intriguing. I often think about who will find my rantings and ravings….. often poems come out of that stream of consciousness and I don’t want to remove it or conceal it. If God accepts me as I am whom should I fear. He is the light who nourishes me bringing healing. It is so healthy to get ‘it’ out into the open but it’s not always wise to go public and yet it can help others. Thank you for being ‘real’ about issues and sharing your wonderful methods.I always find this time of year is a challenge as all bleakness seems to accumulate now so creativity warms the soul.
I also often think what can I write in my journals in case something happens before I destroy them. (When ever I would do that, the scenarios could be quite sad.) BUT. NOW. The Light is our real CORE and everything else is just an illusion. ❤
Thank you, Kathryn. I'm so please your voice survived the video. I empathise with you and have some understanding of how you must be feeling. My husband wasn't home when I arrived after work. He had left during the day, no discussion, no information and no reason was forthcoming for ages after. He was a Vietnam Veteran and we were both coping and living with his PTSD. Now I have moved on however the way he left, the way his family treated me, and the embarrassment I felt for many years still sit just below the surface. My journal will not be as yours, and I expect you would not expect it to be. It is about my travels I have been able to do since my life changed. There is no way I could have done it still being married. Thank you for your insight and generosity.
I am so sorry you had to live through that. It hurts to be left (or made to leave) with no discussion or opportunity for any kind of closure. Then we have to find the resources within ourselves and, if we are lucky from our friends. I am glad your journal will celebrate your new life. Much love ❤️
I too have come down with a grotty cold, and woke at silly o”clock 🫤 Having a quiet day and so grateful to find this film from you, I thought that you may be sofa-bound. So admiring of both your bravery and your care for the feelings of others. Warm hugs 💚
Happy New Year, Katherine, and I hope it’s a kinder one to you. I also hope you get over your cold soon. What a wonderful idea to write down your thoughts in all their colourful splendour and then erase them so that only you know what they were. Very cathartic. It was brave of you to share your beautiful poem with us and I hope that it hasn’t invaded your privacy too much. ❤️
Kathryn - I'm so happy to hear that you let yourself freely write in a stream-of consciousness way. After my marriage of 22 years broke apart and post-divorce, it was a daily practice of letting all of my feelings pour out on to the page by writing freely and without stopping..... just letting it flow out of me.... all of it.... that really helped me to get back on my feet. I did stream-of consciousness writing almost every day for a few years post-divorce. Best thing I did for myself.... that and going for long walks with my dog !!! I love how this week's spread turned out and thank you for sharing your poem with all of us. It certainly resonated with me and my memories...... Please continue to take good care of yourself, even though Joey is no longer there to make sure that you do. Self-care is the watch word of the year.......
Thank you Susan, more creative writing is definitely an intention for the year. I was inspired after the video to work a couple more hours on the spread. And I still think there will be more before next week. ♥️
When did you learn that, Good enough is good enough"? Have you learned it? Are you continuously learning it? It's BEGINNING to sink in with me after 59 years on the planet! Thanks for sharing this - even though it was hard. Jxxx
We have been around the sun the same number of times. And I think feeling good enough is really hard to learn for many of us. We need to discover it within ourselves rather than seeking it from others I think. Hugs to you too ❤️
Hello Kathryn! We're crockie as well over here in the US. The longest cold I've ever had. I love that you gave your warning as I am a ESP but I feel like I know you as I've been following for a while. That was very kind of you...but I have a huge feeling that kindness is your aura. It seems like the kindest of people have the most challenges in life. I love the writing over sentences as it gets it all out, but nobody would read it. Lovely process. Your poem is truly deep and I can relate to it so much. Thank you for wonderful You. Sharing and expressing in various ways has always been where I draw strength from. x's lj
Thank you LJ, I would hate to upset anyone so I tried to be sensitive. I am sorry you are poorly (crockie) is a new word to me. I hope you feel better soon ♥️
@@k3n.clothtales My ESP is awful in public places as I pick up on others' feelings. Sometimes it is hard to regroup my brain and concentrate on whatever it was I was doing. Very distracting, but I am working on it and my boundaries.
I'm on delay. I'd like to follow you on this journey. Hope I'd find time to create my own journal and join you! I think it would be helpful and also enjoyable. So deep and clear your poem. Thanks for sharing with us. Your art is so important. To you and to us. It's so connected to your beautiful soul. It will never let you alone. Nor us. Hope to have written correctly. Ciao 🌿🐾
Sorry to hear your news. I think most of us can understand. Don't apologise for telling us stuff - we are all here for you. Hope your cold gets better soon 💙💙
Kathryn you are a beautiful woman and we all love you. I can feel your pain from when my husband left me, but you know we are strong women we always make it through the hardest times…stay strong I love you ❤
Hello Kathryn, this is such a really good way to off load some of the thoughts in your mind, I would not have thought about doing it so thank you for sharing it with us and knowing how hard it was for you to do. I am starting my cancer journal tomorrow and this will be my first page. Take care and sending lots of love to you 😘♥️xx
I found this helpful when starting to fill a new journal: Craftmanship and Emptiness I’ve said before that every craftsman searches for what’s not there to practice his craft. A builder looks for the rotten hole where the roof caved in. A water carrier picks up the empty pot. A carpenter stops at the house with no door. Workers rush towards some hint of emptiness, which they then start to fill. Their hope, though, is for emptiness, so don’t think you must avoid it. It contains what you need. The Essential Rumi trans. Coleman Barks Harper Collins, 1995
Lovely poem ❤ Yes, writing about your troubles and emotions (and swearing them into ink) is one good way of getting it out of your head, sometimes it can take many years of writing to get it all out or it can become an ongoing process as in my case as I like to jot my worries down and keep track of me forgiving myself and those around me. Do hope you recover soon from your cold. Take care❤
In response to your comment about "pushing those private thoughts into the background", for me the thought came that I would rather burn the paper because I really want those hurtful thoughts to be destroyed. It's not realistic and we do have to deal with those thoughts from time to time so your idea of pushing them into the background makes sense. Forgive my babbling but thank you for making me think.😊
Good idea about writing illegibly and then gesso over it bc yes my sister and I were the recent recipient of hurtful words in a legal document by someone close. It felt like a stab to the gut but in death we had no rebuttal. A grief class helped process it. I did type out a response and it helped and I passworded it and don’t recall the word 😂. But it’s why I don’t journal personal thoughts bc I wouldn’t want that to happen to anyone else. So the gesso thing is good bc it is therapeutic to get it out and move on. Quotes and such I love and art and stitching ti express feelings bc of that. Sorry to “witter” and I’m sorry for the pain you have endured but I think that’s why I’ve loved this group this past year. If I can remember my password I will likely delete the document. But good to know for future journaling when I “need to get it out”. Big hugs and thanks for being true and honest. 99% of social media only showcases the happy smiling photos of life which brings me joy but alas we know it’s not the whole story.
Yes, darkness and light. ♥️ I am happy to pass on the gesso idea. I know some people write letters and burn them which is a similar thing. But it didn't feel right for me in this instance. There was something very cathartic about watching the gesso 'suck up' all the words and turn them into a lovely background to be creative on. ♥️
I am so sad to know your relationship broke down, but I do love the journal spread you created here. I would like to use the background for my own use as a statement for 2025.
You know I tend to have the practical Bible quotes. I think it's how my higher power bonks me on the head from time to time. When I was in misery over a relationship before my current husband, it happened to be Easter tide. I read the passage where the 2 Marys go to the tomb, and the angel in there asks, "Why do you seek the living amongst the dead?" It was a bonk on the head to realize I was hanging out, pursuing and trying to fix a walking dead person and I wanted to live. That small question was a pivot point for me. I really related to your "black hole" that was once a sun. I knew exactly what you meant. Glad you chose life, Kathryn!
Dearest Kathryn, listening to you has made my eyes leak... 11 years ago my husband left me. I thought my life was ending. Its been a difficult journey, one i never want to repeat again or wish no one to go through that pain..Everything is still so raw!.It takes much courage to over come and be ok, still i wish i had your courage and strength to just "LET GO" I will try this and write down as if i were "talking to him" then ERASE like pushing the "DELETE" button. THANK YOU FOR YOUR WISDOM, sorry for your pain... you have given me much reassurance that i can gain peace.........MUCH LOVE TO YOU, FROM ME IN IDAHO, Julie
When my 19 marriage broke up I was doing a foundation course in art. I made a butterfly out of wire and textiles and also a chrysalis. The inside of the chrysalis was lined with a copy of the marriage certificate. When the divorce was finalised I took the chrysalis outside and stamped on it and put it in the bin. I kept the butterfly because that is how I felt. Free.
Just a thought for those who might still be reluctant to be completely open and honest with themselves while doing their stream of consciousness writing. I have done it off and on since 1995 (Julia Cameron's Morning Pages) and what I do now and have always done to be 100% absolutely sure that NO ONE will ever read what I wrote is: I write on loose sheets of lined paper and when I have written the last word on the last page, I stand up..... papers in hand ...... and head to my shredder and shred the pages immediately. There. No one can ever read my words, so I am completely safe to write whatever I want to write .... Works for me...
When my marriage ended I felt sadness, anger, fear, failure, along with a lot of other negative feelings. But there was also a feeling of relief. I remember reading a saying that said the best revenge is living well. That gave me pause, made me smile and became my mantra as I moved forward.
“I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars.” Og Mandino Thank you for sharing with us. It was beautiful and moving, and I hope brought at least a sliver of release for you. xo
38 years ago my marriage ended. Before I physically left, I had this dream. In the dream, I was climbing along a cliff side and I came to a spot where there was no place to step to move forward. I moved forward anyway, stepping into space. and a red stool appeared to hold my foot...and I kept climbing. Trusting my own strength, and trusting the unknown to be benevolent , I chose myself and my life. With my two small children, I left the marriage. I have never regretted that choice. Soon after I left, I was on a day trip with my father. I found a hand painted card carrying the following quote: "Those who travel further that the obstacles will know a different kind of life from there on...." 💜
That's a very striking dream Candace. I am glad you found the courage to step off the edge. ♥️
So right K3n. It's great to write down how we feel but do I want my hurts to go on through new generations. I've journalled since my husband died 29 yrs ago - just occasions - but before Christmas I got quite ill (now revovered) but it struck me that I didn't want my negativities to burden even those who caused pain ... so revisited journals and tore out relevant pages .... and I feel so much better... maybe not totally forgiving but certainly not vengeful enough to cause pain. From now .... think yes I'll write my hurt and anger but for my eyes only!!!! Thank you8
They are beautiful!
@TheFaybreda I am happy to hear you have recovered. Yes, getting the hurt out is often enough, and I think deliberately causing pain though an understandable instinct if we have been deeply hurt can hurt us as well. Often more than the target. Hugs to you ❤️
@@k3n.clothtales Step off the edge - your wings will appear!
“…… resorting to mime.” Your sense of humour is delightful even during more serious times. Bless you.
Thank you Kathryn for this wonderful idea about hiding the words. It was what I needed today, and it was good to write that feeling of grief out loud but to let it be gone straight away too.
REST ASSURED Kate by Your graceful way of sharing You are like a “balm” for so many of us……
Thank you for sharing your beautiful poem, oh, it so did speak to me! Bright blessings to you ❤
You are a brave woman,, Kathryn. And I recognize your courage because, through various experiences, I became acquainted with my own courage. We are, all of us, whether we stumble or soar, wondrous beings.
Thank you Kate. I do believe that we often surprise ourselves with our courage when called upon. It's something of a shame that we have to be though. Hugs ♥️
Kathryn!! Your poem is fulsome and rich. Soul Magic ✨✨
Heartbreakingly beautiful, thank you isn’t enough really in speaking of how that resonates deeply. I’ve been with you since you began your channel and have joined you and everyone here for this years adventure. Painfully courageous and joyful in equal measure. Your poem ….thank you for the soulful words x
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Your poem is brilliant! Thanks for being vulnerable and open, I think that must have been so hard for you but its cathartic to allow us to support you❤
Thank you ❤️
Ironically, I found something from my former life last week and I decided to unmake it and transform it into something I can use in my new life and I have not been able to think of what to make it into. As usual, you inspired me because it’s very much “dark into light” and this quote “The dark does not destroy the light; it defines it” practically shouted at me and reframed every thought about my past for me. Which is saying a lot. Thank you for being. I’m grateful to the universe for you.
I am so grateful you heard Kelly ♥️
Very hard, and incredibly brave, and you did it 💚💚💚💚💚
Thank you Nancy for your faith in me ♥️
What a great way to “dish out” all the darkness of the soul ! Letting the “Light” come in, feeling refreshed and a new start for a new year. All the ugly anger, the hate, the HURT, the tears. It doesn’t go totally away, but it sure is a release!
Many years ago, when my baby was 3 years old, we traveled a long distance to visit his mother for Thanksgiving. When it was time to leave the following day, I went to visit my mother with my baby, he took me there and was to pick us up the next morning . He NEVER CAME BACK! I was left with my baby and $20 dollars in my pocket! It was a very DARK time in my life!
BUT, I must say, I did stepped into the LIGHT eventually!
Thank You for this post! You are an amazing woman!
Sending blessings,good wishes and health for a New Year! ❤
I am so, so sorry that happened to you. Glad you found the light again. ♥️
I absolutely love the idea of writing down your thoughts, all of them, swear words and all and then blurring them out with gesso. You know they are there on the page, out of your head and heart and no one else is the wiser ! ! Well done ! !
Thank you, it was a brain wave. Sometimes I have good ones 😉♥️
Beautiful words from a beautiful person. Thank you for making this video although it was difficult for you. ❤❤Tineke
I love these pages and your poem, Kathryn. ❤❤❤
❤ That is so profound. I am speechless. Thank you so much!
Thank you for this video Kathryn and for sharing your personal experiences..I’m sure people are comforted in different ways by your ideas for working through these challenges we all seem to face. 🙏💕xx
Thank you Julie ❤️
Hi Kathryn thank you so much x Thank you for been so honest and brave xx your poem was so beautiful xx ❤
Thank you for sharing so much of yourself. I loved your poem and hope it and this journal activity has been cathartic for you and that every day brings more healing to you.
Thank You, I too wake up at stupid o clock in the morning, so many of us do. It's like a clan really. That feels nice. Your cold is very timely. Time to shed the negative dross. Head up, deep breaths, arms out stretched. Bring it on! Onwards, Onwards always with a capital O.
Yes. Thank you Joan. ♥️
Beautiful work in your journal. We're all on a journey one way or another, wonderful to get it all out on paper. I do that stream of consciousness too and my hand just keeps moving as the thoughts pour out through my arm and into my fingers. Can't read a word of it! Sending hugs and love! 💛💛💛
Thank you Jeri 😊
I love what you did with the writing and covering the words up with gesso! Brilliant! I've burned my writings before to "let it go," but this was a lovely way to let go. And that's for sharing your beautiful poem. You're a writer too!
I love that your first page represents light into darkness, while the next page will be traveling from darkness back to light... Thanks for sharing the hard parts, even when it's scary and unpleasant. Being willing to make yourself vulnerable in this space is a tremendous gift and I hope it helps others along their journey.
That's my hope too, that we can all help each other. Much love ♥️
Kathryn, you have the Women's Strength of a Thousand Suns. Thank you for you beautiful poem and the sharing you do with all your followers. It helps me stay on course. 💚💛💚 🤍🖤🤍
I've been following you for months now and am so amazed and you are such a pleasure to watch you and go through your year of transformation with you. I will definite3ly follow your journey and I love your Park Life videos, too.
After watching you and Kelly I am now collecting words. The ones you found are perfect for these pages.❤
It may very well be the hardest video you’ve nade, complex thoughts feelings and issues. And you distilled into a simple, striking, powerful layout. That’s beautiful inner work showing up on the outside.
I’m proud of your heart.
Thank you Heather ❤️
Fabulous idea, I have come to the end of a season in my life now and am needing to untangle myself. ❤ Will enjoy this a lot
Beautiful episode and poem. Much love.
Love your process for the pages writing your thoughts and washing them away. I have been a text collector for decades, a few images too. I recently decided to take those clippings and put them all together in a box rather than in various envelopes I tend to forget about.
Thank you for sharing, especially when it was really hard to do, Katherine.
Thank you Kathryn for sharing your emotions and thoughts along with your work. I was able to see the light at the end of the sadness. Big hug! ❤
Dear Kathryn, I love the idea of painting over the hard thoughts and feelings like a ritual. They remain but blurred and at least slightly softened. The cost of the pain so formidable. We do as we can. xo j 🕊
Thank you for sharing your heart felt poem. 💖 I begin my first spread in my journal today. I’ll be putting my fears down on paper….then collaging over. Then I think color is in order. 💖💖💖
Yes, colour is good. I worked on the spread for a couple more hours after editing and uploading the video this morning. A little colour crept in. I will show next week ♥️
Hello Kathryn, thank you for your video. Your poem is very moving and the page is inspirational. You talked of wanting to do more art. I learnt that I could draw through learning how to do Zentangles about 15 years ago. From that I have become quite good at drawing although I have spent a lot of time learning. I would recommend the art of Zentangle if you would like to learn to draw. It teaches so much. I hope you will get over your cold soon and will be feeling better. X
Glad to see you're on the mend from your cold. And I love this idea of writing out thoughts and feelings for transformation and healing. What a lovely and evocative journal spread. Hugs to you! 💖
You share your heart and I appreciate you ❤❤❤
Brave Kate. I can't imagine how hard this video and this page were for you to do. You express yourself so incredibly well and by example make me want to dig a bit deeper into my own soul. Thank you.💗
You are very welcome Michelle, thank you for being here ♥️
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Dear k3n, I simply want to bear witness to all you expressed, to your courage to work with what is happening / your process… and to send you love 🧡
Thank you so much for being here ❤️
Lovely people attract lovely people Back at ya.
Thank you Gloria ♥️
Thank you for sharing your story with us. We do need to work through those emotions and that quote of yours is lovely.
I love quotes (and books) written by Brené Brown.
You're a strong cookie dear Kathryn.
Keep on keeping on and remember how enormously special you are to many.
Hugs xox
Thank you Hilda ❤️
Shockingly good poem. I love the offload and obliterate technique of the white page. ❤ xx
I will now always refer to it as "offload and obliterate" going forward!
Your poem certainly resonated with me. At a young age I became heavily, emotionally invested in what I though was a bright star which burned me so badly time and time again until I gathered enough strength to pull myself away. Due to a family Trust which also involves our two sons, it still periodically burns us all to this day and I am 75 now. I do still enjoy the good things in my life, there are many, I look towards the sunshine every day.
Thank you, Kathryn.
I am so sorry you are still being burnt. Hugs seems inadequate but I hope you feel my heart. ♥️
@@k3n.clothtales I have bit by bit built a strong and independent life and can shrug it off now. You will too. I think you are helping so many people, with your channel, to heal along with you. ❤
I hope so because the thought of that helps me too ❤️
I'm hoping to work along with you again. I've made journals but never managed to work in one for more than a few days. I've been following Kelly and have several ideas and you always inspire and encourage me with your videos. Many thanks for all you do. Clare in South Africa.
Wonderful Kathryn just wonderful!🎉 so brave and so eloquent in your writing ❤ I hadn't really considered the fact that this is a truly personal project and I confess I am really curious as to what I reveal to myself as it unfolds - if that makes sense. Thank you for sharing your poem. Beautifully done. ❤ I hope you are soon fully recovered from your cold/flu. Sending you big love as always from Scotland and a woof from Oscar ❤❤❤
Thank you Margaret, love to you both ♥️
Beauty in its simplicity, and speaks of the first stage of healing, Such a brave thing...
Your poem is amazing too
Sending all good wishes to you xxx
Thank you ♥️
Thank you so much for your willingness to be so brave and to take us on the journey with you. I've always been one who abandons a journal a few pages in. I'm hoping if I build it myself I'll be motivated to fill it all up. I need to get it bound so I can keep up!
I must admit that I have never really stuck to these personal journals in the past. I dabble about here and there with writing and drawing. The only kind I stick to are the stitch journals. So I wanted to do this for the year, I think (hope) it will be helpful and I thought if we shared the journey, maybe we could encourage each other. ❤️
Obsessed with your writing on the page!
I’m a big morning pages person. There is such power in stream of consciousness writing!
Kathryn. You are a national treasure. So skilled in so many important ways. You keep my hope alive❤️
Oh Kathryn, I do hope you get over your cold very soon.
I loved your black and white page spread with its texts (though I must admit I've never feared the dark: I find it a comfort sometimes). Your poem is very powerful, and I felt it in my gut when you read it out.
I'd like very much to see any sketching and/or painting. Have always wanted to try drawing, and began a daily practice on August 30th -- pencil only, so far, though I hope eventually to try pencil/pen and water colour washes. Am loving it, and am very excited to find that -- 4 months along -- I can draw certain things quite well, learning by copying, various mini-workshops online, a variety of books, and my imagination. I'm sure you'll have a similar experience once you begin.
What I am finding now is the common thread of my fabric, paper, and drawing work, each inspired by and influencing the other.
I know it's hard and painful to have your children far away. Am so glad you all had a chance to celebrate the holidays together, and that your son took care of you for a few extra days. May you all flourish in 2025 in good health. ❤
Thank you Jill, I am looking forward to doing more drawing and painting. I have done some on and off over the years but never kept at it enough to get to the point where it satisfies me. I have been watching Michelle at thecreativecove recently, she has some good sketch tutorials step by step and I have drawn a couple of not half bad things following her. Yes it's tough for the children to be in another country but luckily they live in a city with direct, cheap flights to my local airport so in the university holidays they will be able to visit. ♥️
I didn’t see your video before I texted you😎 So glad to know you’re dry, cosy AND feeling a bit better. You share your life with such elegance and consideration, i’m sure it’s soothing and helpful to anyone who’s been in a similar situation. You show possibilities of rediscovery, strength and courage.💖❤️🥰💐🍀
Thank you Machteld ❤️
I usually can't stick to one video at a time due to my overactive brain but I decided to this time in honor of your experience. During my year of recovery [after my own separation] I walked every day for healing. Strangely, it was the worst and somehow best year of my life. Godspeed, k3n. You've got this.
Thank you Kristine. Yes I am expecting it to take a year and walking every day helps. Worst and best, I can understand that. ❤️
I am so in tune with your poem and the statements you put on your cloth. It is so real. Hugs ❤
Love the idea of collecting words in a tin! Looks very intriguing. I often think about who will find my rantings and ravings….. often poems come out of that stream of consciousness and I don’t want to remove it or conceal it. If God accepts me as I am whom should I fear. He is the light who nourishes me bringing healing. It is so healthy to get ‘it’ out into the open but it’s not always wise to go public and yet it can help others. Thank you for being ‘real’ about issues and sharing your wonderful methods.I always find this time of year is a challenge as all bleakness seems to accumulate now so creativity warms the soul.
Yes creativity warms the soul . I wish it for all who need it. ♥️
I also often think what can I write in my journals in case something happens before I destroy them. (When ever I would do that, the scenarios could be quite sad.) BUT. NOW. The Light is our real CORE and everything else is just an illusion. ❤
Yes it would be sad. It's good to think of ways to express ourselves but not leave a potentially disturbing trace for those who follow us. ❤️
A good start for your Courage journal, I think! And lots of citrus is in order for you... Hope you're restored quickly 😊
Thank you, yes honey and lemon several times a day ❤️
I am hoping that this year's journal will give me courage.
Thank you for doing this.
My pleasure, I hope that for you too ❤️
Thank you, Kathryn. I'm so please your voice survived the video. I empathise with you and have some understanding of how you must be feeling. My husband wasn't home when I arrived after work. He had left during the day, no discussion, no information and no reason was forthcoming for ages after. He was a Vietnam Veteran and we were both coping and living with his PTSD. Now I have moved on however the way he left, the way his family treated me, and the embarrassment I felt for many years still sit just below the surface. My journal will not be as yours, and I expect you would not expect it to be. It is about my travels I have been able to do since my life changed. There is no way I could have done it still being married. Thank you for your insight and generosity.
I am so sorry you had to live through that. It hurts to be left (or made to leave) with no discussion or opportunity for any kind of closure. Then we have to find the resources within ourselves and, if we are lucky from our friends. I am glad your journal will celebrate your new life. Much love ❤️
I too have come down with a grotty cold, and woke at silly o”clock 🫤 Having a quiet day and so grateful to find this film from you, I thought that you may be sofa-bound. So admiring of both your bravery and your care for the feelings of others. Warm hugs 💚
Sorry you are poorly, I am now sofa bound, watching TV and dozing a bit. I hope you feel better soon ♥️
Thank you for your time and insight. ❤
Happy New Year, Katherine, and I hope it’s a kinder one to you. I also hope you get over your cold soon. What a wonderful idea to write down your thoughts in all their colourful splendour and then erase them so that only you know what they were. Very cathartic. It was brave of you to share your beautiful poem with us and I hope that it hasn’t invaded your privacy too much. ❤️
I gave it a lot of thought. I am still in two minds about it but I trusted my instincts. ♥️
@ Well, I loved it but have decided not to revisit it out of respect for your privacy. ❤️
Thank you Lynn ❤️
Thank you, and also for the powerful poem xx
❤new journal, new beginnings.
I am happy you feel better and that you can work on your wonderfull book,you are so courrages to do this,I hope that it will give you some comfort
Kathryn - I'm so happy to hear that you let yourself freely write in a stream-of consciousness way. After my marriage of 22 years broke apart and post-divorce, it was a daily practice of letting all of my feelings pour out on to the page by writing freely and without stopping..... just letting it flow out of me.... all of it.... that really helped me to get back on my feet. I did stream-of consciousness writing almost every day for a few years post-divorce. Best thing I did for myself.... that and going for long walks with my dog !!! I love how this week's spread turned out and thank you for sharing your poem with all of us. It certainly resonated with me and my memories...... Please continue to take good care of yourself, even though Joey is no longer there to make sure that you do. Self-care is the watch word of the year.......
Thank you Susan, more creative writing is definitely an intention for the year. I was inspired after the video to work a couple more hours on the spread. And I still think there will be more before next week. ♥️
When did you learn that, Good enough is good enough"? Have you learned it? Are you continuously learning it? It's BEGINNING to sink in with me after 59 years on the planet! Thanks for sharing this - even though it was hard. Jxxx
We have been around the sun the same number of times. And I think feeling good enough is really hard to learn for many of us. We need to discover it within ourselves rather than seeking it from others I think. Hugs to you too ❤️
Hello Kathryn! We're crockie as well over here in the US. The longest cold I've ever had. I love that you gave your warning as I am a ESP but I feel like I know you as I've been following for a while. That was very kind of you...but I have a huge feeling that kindness is your aura. It seems like the kindest of people have the most challenges in life. I love the writing over sentences as it gets it all out, but nobody would read it. Lovely process. Your poem is truly deep and I can relate to it so much. Thank you for wonderful You. Sharing and expressing in various ways has always been where I draw strength from. x's lj
Thank you LJ, I would hate to upset anyone so I tried to be sensitive. I am sorry you are poorly (crockie) is a new word to me. I hope you feel better soon ♥️
@@k3n.clothtales My ESP is awful in public places as I pick up on others' feelings. Sometimes it is hard to regroup my brain and concentrate on whatever it was I was doing. Very distracting, but I am working on it and my boundaries.
I'm on delay. I'd like to follow you on this journey. Hope I'd find time to create my own journal and join you! I think it would be helpful and also enjoyable. So deep and clear your poem. Thanks for sharing with us. Your art is so important. To you and to us. It's so connected to your beautiful soul. It will never let you alone. Nor us. Hope to have written correctly. Ciao 🌿🐾
Perfectly. Grazie. ♥️
Another great page to share...you are a gem! 🤗
Sorry to hear your news. I think most of us can understand. Don't apologise for telling us stuff - we are all here for you. Hope your cold gets better soon 💙💙
Thank you so much for understanding ❤️
Excellent idea, Kathryn. Great way to start your new year. Go along slowly, enjoy your craft while you are getting well.
Thank you for your videos. Wishing you a speedy recovery ❤️🩹 💐
Kathryn you are a beautiful woman and we all love you. I can feel your pain from when my husband left me, but you know we are strong women we always make it through the hardest times…stay strong I love you ❤
Thank you Benita much love to you too ❤️
Your so clever , such a powerful tool. ❤
😊 thank you
Hello Kathryn, this is such a really good way to off load some of the thoughts in your mind, I would not have thought about doing it so thank you for sharing it with us and knowing how hard it was for you to do. I am starting my cancer journal tomorrow and this will be my first page. Take care and sending lots of love to you 😘♥️xx
I hope it is helpful Christine, much love to you ❤️
@k3n.clothtales thank you Kathryn 😘♥️xx
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I found this helpful when starting to fill a new journal:
Craftmanship and Emptiness
I’ve said before that every craftsman
searches for what’s not there
to practice his craft.
A builder looks for the rotten hole
where the roof caved in. A water carrier
picks up the empty pot. A carpenter
stops at the house with no door.
Workers rush towards some hint
of emptiness, which they then
start to fill. Their hope, though,
is for emptiness, so don’t think
you must avoid it. It contains
what you need.
The Essential Rumi
trans. Coleman Barks
Harper Collins, 1995
Beautiful words thank you ❤️
Lovely poem ❤ Yes, writing about your troubles and emotions (and swearing them into ink) is one good way of getting it out of your head, sometimes it can take many years of writing to get it all out or it can become an ongoing process as in my case as I like to jot my worries down and keep track of me forgiving myself and those around me. Do hope you recover soon from your cold. Take care❤
Thank you Cris, yes forgiving ourselves is so important. ♥️
Truly touching my filed away feelings ....brave you are and much loved ❤❤❤
Healing vibes to you, on all levels. ❤
I’m new to joining but I’ve been following!! So I went over to to join your other group!❤
Wonderful, you will be made very welcome ❤️
❤ TFS
I liked your poem.
In response to your comment about "pushing those private thoughts into the background", for me the thought came that I would rather burn the paper because I really want those hurtful thoughts to be destroyed. It's not realistic and we do have to deal with those thoughts from time to time so your idea of pushing them into the background makes sense. Forgive my babbling but thank you for making me think.😊
You are welcome, don't apologise for babbling 😊❤️
Beautiful poem ❤❤ sending you love.
❤ Thank you from my heart x
Good idea about writing illegibly and then gesso over it bc yes my sister and I were the recent recipient of hurtful words in a legal document by someone close. It felt like a stab to the gut but in death we had no rebuttal. A grief class helped process it. I did type out a response and it helped and I passworded it and don’t recall the word 😂. But it’s why I don’t journal personal thoughts bc I wouldn’t want that to happen to anyone else. So the gesso thing is good bc it is therapeutic to get it out and move on. Quotes and such I love and art and stitching ti express feelings bc of that. Sorry to “witter” and I’m sorry for the pain you have endured but I think that’s why I’ve loved this group this past year. If I can remember my password I will likely delete the document. But good to know for future journaling when I “need to get it out”. Big hugs and thanks for being true and honest. 99% of social media only showcases the happy smiling photos of life which brings me joy but alas we know it’s not the whole story.
Yes, darkness and light. ♥️ I am happy to pass on the gesso idea. I know some people write letters and burn them which is a similar thing. But it didn't feel right for me in this instance. There was something very cathartic about watching the gesso 'suck up' all the words and turn them into a lovely background to be creative on. ♥️
Sending you big hugs! You are a strong beautiful woman! Love you!
Thank you Alis ❤️❤️❤️
I am so sad to know your relationship broke down, but I do love the journal spread you created here. I would like to use the background for my own use as a statement for 2025.
You are welcome to, thank you ♥️
You know I tend to have the practical Bible quotes. I think it's how my higher power bonks me on the head from time to time. When I was in misery over a relationship before my current husband, it happened to be Easter tide. I read the passage where the 2 Marys go to the tomb, and the angel in there asks, "Why do you seek the living amongst the dead?" It was a bonk on the head to realize I was hanging out, pursuing and trying to fix a walking dead person and I wanted to live. That small question was a pivot point for me. I really related to your "black hole" that was once a sun. I knew exactly what you meant. Glad you chose life, Kathryn!
Thank you Amy. I am sorry that you had the experience that means you understand but glad you understand. If that makes sense. ♥️
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Hugs to you
Dearest Kathryn, listening to you has made my eyes leak... 11 years ago my husband left me. I thought my life was ending. Its been a difficult journey, one i never want to repeat again or wish no one to go through that pain..Everything is still so raw!.It takes much courage to over come and be ok, still i wish i had your courage and strength to just "LET GO" I will try this and write down as if i were "talking to him" then ERASE like pushing the "DELETE" button. THANK YOU FOR YOUR WISDOM, sorry for your pain... you have given me much reassurance that i can gain peace.........MUCH LOVE TO YOU, FROM ME IN IDAHO, Julie
Hello Julie, I am so sorry you had to go through that. I do hope this helps. And maybe by the end of this year we will both feel stronger ❤️
When my 19 marriage broke up I was doing a foundation course in art. I made a butterfly out of wire and textiles and also a chrysalis. The inside of the chrysalis was lined with a copy of the marriage certificate. When the divorce was finalised I took the chrysalis outside and stamped on it and put it in the bin. I kept the butterfly because that is how I felt. Free.
That sounds very powerful. Creativity can be so helpful, I am so grateful to have it in my life. ❤️
Güzel paylaşımlar için teşekkürler ❤❤❤❤❤😊
Just a thought for those who might still be reluctant to be completely open and honest with themselves while doing their stream of consciousness writing. I have done it off and on since 1995 (Julia Cameron's Morning Pages) and what I do now and have always done to be 100% absolutely sure that NO ONE will ever read what I wrote is: I write on loose sheets of lined paper and when I have written the last word on the last page, I stand up..... papers in hand ...... and head to my shredder and shred the pages immediately. There. No one can ever read my words, so I am completely safe to write whatever I want to write .... Works for me...
When my marriage ended I felt sadness, anger, fear, failure, along with a lot of other negative feelings. But there was also a feeling of relief. I remember reading a saying that said the best revenge is living well. That gave me pause, made me smile and became my mantra as I moved forward.
Yes all that resonates with me, including the relief. That's a great saying, I will remember it thank you ❤️
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“I will love the light for it shows me the way, yet I will endure the darkness for it shows me the stars.” Og Mandino
Thank you for sharing with us. It was beautiful and moving, and I hope brought at least a sliver of release for you. xo
That's a beautiful quote ❤️
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