Time to speak into the void of a 1 year old video of a TH-camr I found at 1:30 am because I wanted to know if she would talk about the shoes I wear (if you see this plz do more fashion content). I graduated very recently during last spring, like it was for a lot of people college had a lot of high highs and low lows, i sadly ended it at a low and was now back home, completely different environment from what I became used to in college. I was the most depressed I’ve ever been and worried about my career because the job market for it is really really bad rn. Then on top of that I got out of a long term relationship (that I should’ve gotten out of sooner but that’s a whole other can of worms) and I felt almost a sense of freedom again that I had lost from college and I was able to start really working on myself, I lost weight, made more of an effort to talk with friends and got a restaurant job as a waiter (that shit low key sucked and I hated it there, but my savings from college jobs was getting very low and the professional job search was still poor). Right now, I’m starting to actually see results from weight loss, I fit into a large shirt for the first time in over 3 years, it’s getting much easier to be sociable to talk to strangers and make new friends at bars, and I found a job that isn’t a waiter job (definitely still not where I want to be and it still isn’t the best pay (more than the waiter job), but it’s full time, close to my home, set schedule every week and I can leverage it in a way to get to the jobs I truly want). And in fairness I’m still scared for the future, I’m still insecure, I’m still not at my weight goal, I still get nervous talking to strangers, but I’m getting better. I’m starting to get some hope back and I’m starting to actually believe that I can get better.
For me when i watch movies or shows, i always feel bad because i could be working toward my future and now im too lazy so i still watch stuff but then feel bad later
sheesh we all been there stay strong!! where are you from? what did you study at uni? who do you look up to and admire and why? what do they do? your reading has paid off bc you’re obviously v intellectual. life is all ab nature, people, experiences, and love. so go out and meet people and get to know them and love them. spend time w animals and nature. go experiment w new things all the time and garner those experiences and knowledge. based off of your instagram your an artist. whether it’s drawing or writing you have a refreshing style that hits a lot of us in the heart. however i do thing writing is your bread n butter. keep writing and making art and keep posting it. life is suffocating so we must persevere forward. there’s no wrong way to keep moving forward, but doing nothing is always the wrong answer. not saying you’re doing nothing obv ur doing stuff creating content n stuff yk keep it up!
Hi crystal! I'm actually kinda bad too lol. I think that by being so habituated to studying and going to school, now that you suddenly stopped you're missing it. But I think that when you find the new job u want and get used to it, things will go back to normal. My point is that the big change of routine make you feel weird. Now, about what u said about turning fun things into obligation, I play guitar for over an year and I feel pretty much the same. Now that I'm actually studying it and it's not just my hobby, I feel kinda guilty when I'm not practicing it (what I'm not doing that much), and when I do, I feel bad for not being as good as I want too. Sorry about the bad English, I'm Brazilian ❤️
Ive literally watched all of your videos and now I dont know what to do with myself Also your book reads are actually FANTASTIC. This might be cheesy but, but I find that no matter whats happens, I know my beliefs and my principles will never leave me. For political and social reasons, to coexist with my local community, to help my fellow man, to maximise my small impact.
Sometimes something new and refreshing is needed! 🤗 I'm actually looking at changing my career I don't know if you like kids? But there is a lady who does nothing but art and painting with like young autistic adults. She just does lots of paintings with them in different styles of painting and it just seems so rewarding! 🧐 Maybe think about trying something new you never thought of before?
I would suggest to do more things you want. Preoccupy yourself with anything. Content, hobbies, anything you want to go do. Just try to do things you would like to enjoy whatever you feel
Wow. This was everywhere. Lol. It wasn't bad, just like you said what came to mind. Sorry if my english is terrible. I'm not articulate. Whatever you choose to do this summer I hope you enjoy it. Whether it's switching jobs or finding a new hobby. Currently I just got off work and I'm getting ready for bed. I work graveyard shifts. I don't really like working with customers. 😅 And I totally dig your vid. I would watch if you put out more content. Ooooo and congrats on you graduating!!!!
I think that at the beginning when we share what we like and look for an audience, we do it because we love what we are doing, and with the passing of time, it does have to become a task, although not in a way to enslave ourselves for likes, money or attention. I mean that we must be aware of continuing to do what we love but in a way that works for social networks, as it is in your case. Regarding your question: I'm fine. I am very happy to see you in a video, normally I only see you static in your pictures. I understood very well when you said "I don't know how to be bored", one of my patients had a similar situation. In her case, due to demands in her childhood, her father told her that she should "Study to be a socially accepted person". I am not saying that this is your case, because there are many factors that can trigger a symptom like that. I just want to say that most of the time those kinds of things have an answer in something we learned or saw years ago.
This is what happens when you grow up on the guide rails of what people think is life. You send all that time pursuing something you forget how to enjoying everyday things l. It’s not your fault, it’s what people made you believe growing up.
Late message.. but go do something out your comfort zone like volunteering with elderly or maybe take a trip unannounced and unplanned! Just some ideas
If you like drawing get a computer I got blender on my laptop and PC made that a hobby and just hangout with other people on discord making models and talking about our day
Time to speak into the void of a 1 year old video of a TH-camr I found at 1:30 am because I wanted to know if she would talk about the shoes I wear (if you see this plz do more fashion content). I graduated very recently during last spring, like it was for a lot of people college had a lot of high highs and low lows, i sadly ended it at a low and was now back home, completely different environment from what I became used to in college. I was the most depressed I’ve ever been and worried about my career because the job market for it is really really bad rn. Then on top of that I got out of a long term relationship (that I should’ve gotten out of sooner but that’s a whole other can of worms) and I felt almost a sense of freedom again that I had lost from college and I was able to start really working on myself, I lost weight, made more of an effort to talk with friends and got a restaurant job as a waiter (that shit low key sucked and I hated it there, but my savings from college jobs was getting very low and the professional job search was still poor). Right now, I’m starting to actually see results from weight loss, I fit into a large shirt for the first time in over 3 years, it’s getting much easier to be sociable to talk to strangers and make new friends at bars, and I found a job that isn’t a waiter job (definitely still not where I want to be and it still isn’t the best pay (more than the waiter job), but it’s full time, close to my home, set schedule every week and I can leverage it in a way to get to the jobs I truly want). And in fairness I’m still scared for the future, I’m still insecure, I’m still not at my weight goal, I still get nervous talking to strangers, but I’m getting better. I’m starting to get some hope back and I’m starting to actually believe that I can get better.
Please never unalive yourself crystal. Find a hobby and stick to it. That's always a good idea. You will be better when you keep at that hobby.
A few books and a dictionary spread out on the floor is where I’ve had some of my most fondest memories!
Congratulations on graduating!
For me when i watch movies or shows, i always feel bad because i could be working toward my future and now im too lazy so i still watch stuff but then feel bad later
Doing this rn
sheesh we all been there stay strong!!
where are you from? what did you study at uni? who do you look up to and admire and why? what do they do?
your reading has paid off bc you’re obviously v intellectual.
life is all ab nature, people, experiences, and love. so go out and meet people and get to know them and love them. spend time w animals and nature. go experiment w new things all the time and garner those experiences and knowledge.
based off of your instagram your an artist. whether it’s drawing or writing you have a refreshing style that hits a lot of us in the heart. however i do thing writing is your bread n butter. keep writing and making art and keep posting it.
life is suffocating so we must persevere forward. there’s no wrong way to keep moving forward, but doing nothing is always the wrong answer. not saying you’re doing nothing obv ur doing stuff creating content n stuff yk keep it up!
Hi crystal! I'm actually kinda bad too lol. I think that by being so habituated to studying and going to school, now that you suddenly stopped you're missing it. But I think that when you find the new job u want and get used to it, things will go back to normal. My point is that the big change of routine make you feel weird. Now, about what u said about turning fun things into obligation, I play guitar for over an year and I feel pretty much the same. Now that I'm actually studying it and it's not just my hobby, I feel kinda guilty when I'm not practicing it (what I'm not doing that much), and when I do, I feel bad for not being as good as I want too. Sorry about the bad English, I'm Brazilian ❤️
This video speaks to my SOUL😭💖
I think you should try illustrating short stories from your life. I think you would be good at it.
Ive literally watched all of your videos and now I dont know what to do with myself
Also your book reads are actually FANTASTIC. This might be cheesy but, but I find that no matter whats happens, I know my beliefs and my principles will never leave me. For political and social reasons, to coexist with my local community, to help my fellow man, to maximise my small impact.
I love hearing crystal being honest
Sometimes something new and refreshing is needed! 🤗 I'm actually looking at changing my career I don't know if you like kids? But there is a lady who does nothing but art and painting with like young autistic adults. She just does lots of paintings with them in different styles of painting and it just seems so rewarding! 🧐 Maybe think about trying something new you never thought of before?
2:35 I'm doing great and I hope you are as well :). If not, makes sure reach out to people that you love
Same it’s so hard to watch a movie or tv show i get so bored
I feel the same, its weird.
I would suggest to do more things you want. Preoccupy yourself with anything. Content, hobbies, anything you want to go do. Just try to do things you would like to enjoy whatever you feel
I feel like I’m on FaceTime,❤ love it
The B-roll at the end was cool, make more of this parasocial content please
Wow. This was everywhere. Lol. It wasn't bad, just like you said what came to mind. Sorry if my english is terrible. I'm not articulate. Whatever you choose to do this summer I hope you enjoy it. Whether it's switching jobs or finding a new hobby. Currently I just got off work and I'm getting ready for bed. I work graveyard shifts. I don't really like working with customers. 😅 And I totally dig your vid. I would watch if you put out more content. Ooooo and congrats on you graduating!!!!
I think that at the beginning when we share what we like and look for an audience, we do it because we love what we are doing, and with the passing of time, it does have to become a task, although not in a way to enslave ourselves for likes, money or attention.
I mean that we must be aware of continuing to do what we love but in a way that works for social networks, as it is in your case.
Regarding your question: I'm fine. I am very happy to see you in a video, normally I only see you static in your pictures.
I understood very well when you said "I don't know how to be bored", one of my patients had a similar situation. In her case, due to demands in her childhood, her father told her that she should "Study to be a socially accepted person".
I am not saying that this is your case, because there are many factors that can trigger a symptom like that. I just want to say that most of the time those kinds of things have an answer in something we learned or saw years ago.
Hi my name is Kieran and I’m a skateboarder from Philadelphia. I appreciate your content and the sketches you have made.
Beautiful 💖
love your content, i resonate with you, so this videos are really interesting ^^
My school year is also ending and I’m struggling what to do with myself also
you know what i love these kind of videos i'm going to do the same
This is what happens when you grow up on the guide rails of what people think is life. You send all that time pursuing something you forget how to enjoying everyday things l. It’s not your fault, it’s what people made you believe growing up.
We might have the same problem 😅
I was waiting for a new one
Michael Parenti mention
Hai crystal❤.. keep are smile bcoz your are preety..
Late message.. but go do something out your comfort zone like volunteering with elderly or maybe take a trip unannounced and unplanned! Just some ideas
More videos pls !!
Hey I don't know if you still read these comments or not, but I think you should learn an insturment. It gave me something to do when I felt lost.
More videos like this will be good
If you like drawing get a computer I got blender on my laptop and PC made that a hobby and just hangout with other people on discord making models and talking about our day
Also I joined the military
The bible?
Start a business.