I've seen certain comments on this video that are probably the most beautiful and yet heart-breaking I've seen on TH-cam. I want you to know that you are truly loved and you deserve peace. I promise life will be extremely difficult at times where you simply want to give up but don't give up now. For the people that lost their loved ones, know that they always loved you, and do not forget that. The beauty of mourning is the unconditional love you had for them. The type of love you are willing to die for. The type of love to give someone the hard truth. The type of love that makes marriages thrive. The type of love that keeps you going. You may have lost them recently and the emotions you are feeling right now are normal. Allow the anger, rage, sadness, depression, or whatever takes control to flow through you so that you can process the pain. If the pain becomes too much to bear, speak up before it becomes harmful. If there is something about death that I have learned, it's a part of the process. Let death take what it has to take. It may be good or bad, but that is life. We all come and go and we will too. So live life to your fullest and fight the battles. You deserve life and you are here for a reason.
You are a soldier that helps the wounded, and the wounded are the ones that are going through the hard times of life, I salute to you. The comment you made is unforgettable. Just reading it with intro playing made me remember about a loved one I lost, a sweet loving grandpa. Good luck to everyone going through hard times, the tunnel is dark but the end of the tunnel is light
My grandma bought me my first PC and Minecraft account. My mother was very poor and always at work when I was home from school; dad wasn't in the picture. I was only able to play because of her. She always wanted the best for me. She knew I would make it far with computers. Yet, she never got to see me build my own. Brain cancer took her from my family early. RIP Sandra. She always said how relaxing C418's music was to her. How it would "put her to sleep." and would proceed to fall asleep watching me play. I hope she's listening to this with me. I appreciate everyone sharing their stories; it makes me feel less alone with these feelings this song just seems to rip right out of me and I don't know what to do with. This is my contribution.
when we were kids we played minecraft together religiously. almost two years ago he took his own life, and i couldn't touch the game without breaking down. only recently have I gone back to it, and now the music means more to me than ever.
@@huntereh08 If he was still there, he wouldve wished for you to move on, he wouldve been proud of you and happy for you. I'm sure about it. Suicide awareness is important, and youre a good example for making people aware, thank you.
@@huntereh08 I’ve only heard stories of people committing suicide and I felt so heartbroken for them like I do now, but I can’t help them cope since it’s something I have never dealt with. I hope you are doing well friend. ❤
Although I don’t associate this song with losing someone I love, I associate it with losing myself. Myself and my childhood. I wish I could go bad and cherish what I had before I grew up and became sad. I don’t want ever want to grow up because I know I’ll never be the same as I was before. I wish I could have my carelessness back so I could feel truly happy. One day I hope the pain ends and I can feel free. Until then I will hold on to what I have and cherish it till it’s no longer…
Me too... i feel like i lost myself. I lost the prodigious personality i once had, the path i had for a great future to a lazy guy with no goals or motivation. I don't know what i want for my future anymore, and i dont seek for it because there isn't a goal to seek. I have become apathetic when it comes to likes and dislikes too, i lost parts of my personality for real. The only things i like are geopolitics. This isn't even irony. I don't know about current trends, new songs, new series. Neither the football games that makes everyone crazy where I live. I'm empty and lazy. There is still time, I am young. But knowing that i was once better, less apathetic, more personality-full, more engaged and searchful for a goal to my future, is; not good. I am my worst version now and while i know i can recover it. The pain of the process is still there. And if my apathy wasn't enough, quarantine came separating people in a time already full of changes. Connections that would obliviously be lost were even more intensified. I lost friendship with everyone that once was my friend. Because paths changed.
Blissful ignorance is something we all crave when we get older, the harsh realities of life completely unknown to us when we were kids because they weren't that important at the time. Just like the person above me, friends were lost because our paths split, our goals for the future are now just a blurred picture with motivation being a rare occurrence.
I can relate. Sometimes, it gets to the point where I lose a grasp of myself so much, I start to hate myself. Nowadays, it’s all the same. I hope you’ll go far, dude
I listen to this and for just one hour I feel myself coming back to my childhood, but my innocence is gone with the rest of my past. This song also teaches me to let go of it and move on.
It's been a month and a bit since Techno's death. I've stumbled upon this video by pure luck and i can't help but think about him. It aches in my stomach to think of him. I don't think 100 lives would be enough for him to accomplish everything he wanted in his time. Sometimes the ache dissapears and re-appears right when i remember that he's gone. It's easy to forget that,, no. We won't get another video. no matter how long we wait.
This is the last thing my oldest brother told me before he went to deployment in Japan. I told him i was a little suicidal. He said "I'll be back before you know it. Don't forget that. You have me, family, and a girlfriend that will help." Its been 3 years.
I lost my grandfather at 13 last November, he meant everything to me and my family. I felt suicidal during my 14th birthday, but I remember him saying before he died “I love you, I’m always here” and I felt secure.
Back in September of last year, I lost my little brother to Covid-19 complications (be aware, he was a diabetic and seemed to have had a secondary infection at the time. Doctors suspect it was staph). He was only 19 years old and was in his sophomore year of college. He was always so full of energy and overall a joy to have around. My parents used to even call him my best friend at times, since we always enjoyed playing games with each other. He didn’t deserve the way he died. RIP, Max. I’ll never forget you.
Update: thanks for all the kind replies. Things just don’t stop getting worse it seems like. I just had a friend die after overdosing on fentanyl and cocaine a few days ago. He was my friend since 1st grade. He often played games with me and my brother. He had a bright future ahead of him, going on to be a doctor… he was on his 3rd year of college, but his depression just caused his mental state to decline rapidly. He resorted to drug abuse as a coping mechanism.
Seconds after waking up on July 1st 2022, I found out Technoblade passed away. One again this song feels appropriate. Rest in peace Technoblade. The world would not have been the same without you. It's an honor to share your name. I hope I can one day make you proud. We miss you. o7 King
Yesterday, my grandfather had a brain aneurism and died. My parents were on the way to see him when they got the news. One of my uncles ended up taking him to the hospital, and one of the others had just got to the hospital when he had died. My grandfather was a solider in the Vietnam War, an EMT, and chief of the local fire department for 45 years. Rest well, Wayne.
It's almost been 4 years to the day when I lost my partner, we did everything together, we spent every second of our lives together, side by side holding each other's hands walking into the Sunset, he may be gone, but his memories are not, I think about him every second of the day, forever remembered and honored, in my heart, Rest In Peace, gone but not forgotten
“Life is the journey we take together, you will have some errors and mess ups…but your destination will be all worth it. But this destination is only a holiday, and whether you like it or not…you must leave” Dedicated to your loss
@@ScimitarRaccoon That is a feeling I have yet to experience, and it's a feeling that scares me, that one day I will never see my best friend again (on earth anyway). May your friend rest in peace. This must be incredibly hard for you, even after so many years. God bless you, and may you live long!
I lost 3 kids 4 years ago. They were the best sisters that I've ever had & I still miss them to this day. The last time I saw them, the oldest was 10 & the two youngest were around 7-8. To this day I feel like a part of me is missing. I will never forget the hugs they gave me & how they wouldn't let go until I did. I miss their smiles, laughter, happiness & the amount of stories that they would always tell me. Something that I'll never be able to experience again. But I know that they wouldn't want me to give up. If I ever meet them again, I'll not let go of that hug first.
Only 1 Reply ??? That's real Bullshit! Really sorry for what happened to you, you deserve more hugs and mostly help, not the offense sense, but the careful sense, If this would happen to my brother also, i would lose myself and my whole life! Don't worry, until you're not feeling good we're all here for you, stay strong, love yourself and bless you, bro.
To my old friend from PlayStation 3 named SMP-75, I’m sorry I disappeared before I ever got a chance to tell you how I fully felt about you. You were always a good friend. You were always on even when your microphone was broken. I appreciate all the things you did and how you stuck around even after I trolled you with Herobrine. I know the last time we talked you unfortunately had become a Tik Tok girl but I still just want to say thank you. Thank you for all the memories. Now you’ve been offline for the past 2 years and I’ve moved to PlayStation 4 but now there’s only one last thing I have to say… Goodbye Lila. I hope your having fun wherever you are. Your old friend, crystalmarc.
We're all human. Everybody dies. Everybody loses someone. I'm not saying you don't have a right to be upset about losing someone - it's in our nature - but I am saying that you would be doing that person an injustice if you spent the rest of your days dwelling on that loss. Because while it is in our nature to mourn loss and feel hindered by it, it has also always been in our nature to move forward in the face of adversity or hardship. Even knowing that we will be gone some day, and everyone we know with us. Even knowing that anything we do in our lifetime may not be remembered or have any impact on the future. Because we're human. It's what we do. All that really matters is that when the time comes, you can look back on life and appreciate everything you've experienced, good and bad, and be grateful you were able to go on that ride.
"we never truly appreciate something until it is lost" "we didn't know we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun" "light will be out there for anyone, even if its just for a moment, it will shine for everyone" "our very solutions create problems. that's what makes life interesting." "the sun is not much to those who always see it. but is worth more than anything to those who haven't" "don't let anyone tell you how or when you should live life. everyone is different and lives differently." "a quote can change so much in a person in ways you cannot believe were possible" thank you Minecraft and Mojang for engraving your passion into the hearts of many people young and old around the world.
Last year I lost a childhood friend, he was the one that introduced me to Minecraft and I would spends hours at his house staying up late playing the game. After we graduated high school we got accepted into different colleges but what kept us united was playing this game during weekend nights and we would re live those moments. Sadly, he passed away in a tragic car accident and I only found out because his mom called me. This month for the first time in a long time I visited our world we had built together and I could feel the memories in everything we built, destroyed, mined, explored. I know he’s in a better place and I’ll never forget it
I reached the cherry blossom tree at graveyard's center and dropped to my knees. Here, I was surrounded by the memories of everyone that I'd loved and lost, whom I'd immortalized in this place. I looked over the tombstone in front of me, seeing my reflection in its polished stone. Then, I placed down a single red rose on the ground for her. "Hey there," I said finally, "it's been a while. How are you?"
This past weekend (Christmas day and the 26th) i lost the owner of the server i play on. He was a good friend. poured over a decade of his time into the server. I don’t think he would’ve expected 24,000 different people to join his server but thanks to Drunk Minecraft, Vox populi is my home away from home. I wish i could thank you one last time. Thanks for everything Zombiemold. Godspeed
It’s been about 4 years since my great-grandmother passed. I miss her so much, and I wish I had the opportunity to *really* know her, not just as Grandma, but as a person. Before she moved, I knew her as the sweet old woman who scared me with her strict, no-nonsense attitude but who dearly loved her family and husband. There’s so much I wish I could have told her before she passed away in 2017 due to dementia. During the last years of her life, she suffered from this horrible disease, miles away from family and friends, slowly forgetting who she was. When I heard this song, I cried. It reminds me of her funeral. It was raining, and my mother wept as she watched one of her favorite people be lowered into the ground next to her husband, who had died nearly a decade before her. I wept with her. I love you, Grandma.
I wish you well. You may have just known hear as "Grandma" but I'm sure she was a nice person. Maybe you once had trouble with her but if she always forgives you then she was a good or for you even the best person. You only realize how important someone is until you lose that person. All this that I wrote are just my own feelings because I lost my great- grandma too. She was nice. I only realized that once I lost her. I hope your great-grandmother had a good live. That's what I wished my great-grandmother
dementia fucking sucks man. my grandma recently passed away cause of that fucking shit. most beautiful funeral ever. rest in piece grandma. stay strong brother
her birthday was today and i left this morning before work to see her. it was raining, and we both got a little wet but she was in good spirits and was glad to see me, remarked about how big ive gotten since we last saw each other. i was already tearing up on the drive there to see her but when i saw her i lost my very frail composure and wept. my mom died 9 years ago, i barely remember alot from back then due to my memory being blocked due to alot of trauma. she never got to see the real me or my intrests, she died before i had even begun to develop into my own person. after i visited her i hardly spoke nor smiled at work, something which was an incredible oddity to my coworkers and most of those who asked i just told i was fine, my friend and my manager knew about what i was going through and it was taking everything i had to not break down again. i miss her alot, and i wish she was here to see how much ive changed, to give me advice on life stuff, and to hug when shit gets tough, man she always had the best hugs. happy birthday mom. i miss you ❤️
My grandma, she was my closest friend and family. She understood me a way my parents didn’t. Until one day we visited her retirement home, she asked who I was. She completely forgot me and the things we went through. A couple months later, she passed. I know her death was going to be the most awful thing in my lifetime. But it made it ten times worse knowing she died… forgetting me.
I've been laughing for 5 hours because of memes I found in TH-cam but then suddenly, a feeling of... something that I felt before... but I couldn't remember... but only to know that it was a feeling of... loneliness... sad and guilt... good thing is raining now... I miss a lot of stuff happened in my past... I wish I could go back and feel it again....
Losing someone...losing myself? Who am I? This..era, it WAS me, when did I drift off? When did I suddenly not enjoy the things i used to, when did I start thinking piano was boring? An activity of which I poured my heart and tears into. When did I stop drawing? Like I didnt do so every chance I got. Where did that happy kid go...? What did I do to alter the path of which has lead me here today? Who knows; but one thing I know. Is that given the chance to redo it? I'd take it in less than a heart beat. Dont take yourselves for granted.
The us we used to know is not here anymore, their time is up as we've seen with our own eyes. the us we used to know, played in the ball pits, runs in the play area, climbed on the ladder of air, played out in nature. Sitting on a bench outside thinking of your old memories from the previous houses that shows something liminal. Do you remember the time when you we're on the top of the slide? When it was time to go home after the last slide? *"I Never got to say goodbye to my friend that I used to play with..."* *Edit* I've once had a cat that brought me more up in happiness. He made me be fearless of cats that I've always been afraid of. He went missing in the 2020's for 3 month's, but I was missing him. But once somebody found him, I was so surprised that I missed my cat a lot. My parents thanked them for finding him. But during the year 2021, he died due to a car accident. I got my eyes out of the computer straight away, and ran outside, crying, using foul languages, upset as upset. My family buried him in the garden, covering his body, with something to not expose it. And eventually, we placed a cat statue on his grave... (I'm not sure if I will add more edits on this comment, but maybe I will)
I don't know how to describe this piece of music, whether it's this version, or the original, but it's the very first piece of media I've ever watched or listened or played that managed to bring tears to my eyes. For so long, I never cried about anything, not even the death of my grandpa. I always thought I was an emotionless freak, but this proved me wrong. Thank you, C418. And thank you, Minecraft.
I found a video camera a couple of years ago. It was an old one, so I hooked it up to my computer to charge it and see what was on it. It was a video of my pawpaw (grandfather) who passed away in 2014, riding his tractor with my little brother in his lap. I had forgetten his voice until that moment. I got to hear his voice again, after almost 8 or 9 years (at the time). I miss him horribly.
I recently lost my friend to Alcohol poisoning. I came back from college to find him pale and dead in his bed. We shared a brief moment of friendship in those four months that his absence still lingers around and I feel sad for him and his family.
I week ago i ran away to jump off a bridge but it was raining and i got cold so i turned back. My brother saw where i was and asked me why i was so far out in the rain. I told him why. Hope thats depressing enough
The raw emotions that are able to be attached to these songs is breathtaking. Yet it's also heartbreaking knowing just what emotions have latched on. It goes to show the power music can have. Without us even knowing
Donnie wasn't a blood brother. Hell, he wasn't even my brother, but he was my older brother's best friend. He treated me like family. He showed nothing but kindness and compassion to me where the rest of my family, even where my friends didn't. I visited him near Dec. 2017. The last game we played together was Dark Souls. I remember the joy as he handed me the controller and told me to go wild. I stopped after a short time because I wanted to be with him. The next thing I new, it was his funeral. The reality didn't hit me until the casket was being carried out of the church. I completely broke down. The one man who'd shown me kindness, who'd been nothing but a sweet kid to me, was gone. Every time we go home, to the place before I moved, I visit his grave. I don't talk, I don't lay flowers, I just sit with him and watch the beach. Where ever he is, he'll be doing great. I know he will. I'll miss you forever Donnie. I'll be sure to take care of your chickens when I get the chance. Love you, bye.
I just have to say how proud I am of everyone sharing their really sad and heartbreaking stories. I know those are very hard and personal, so opening these kinds of things up to the public is great. Always know that everyone you will ever meet feels for you. Some will cry, some will stare emotionless, and some might even spit in your face. But that doesn't change what we feel deep down. Everyone understands loss. Even if someone seems like they could not give a single care about they still feel loss just like you and I. They may not express it, they may not even feel it, but they understand, and they understand that you're hurting. So if you ever feel like you are alone, you're not. Death may appear like a Farwell, but people always unite through the feeling of loss. You will always have someone to turn to. May light shine upon gloomy eyes.
It has been precisely 623 days as of September 19th 2022, since my best little buddy of all, a great old black cat named Clawd passed away due to feline pneumonia, i will always miss you old friend, i knew you my whole life, you were there in my earliest memory, sadly i was not there in your last. What really tears me up inside remembering his passing after so much time and personal development, is that i may have even heard his last call, a pained soft meow before he was found dead, it still rings clearly in my mind. He was 26, i am currently 17, he was far smaller than i was but ten times the trooper.
the track is very good, but I found out about it quite recently, a little 2 months ago. I always liked listening again and again, but literally a month later I lost my grandmother, not just my grandmother, but the best of all grandmothers, and this music always connects me with her. but after this video, I was completely convinced of this...
My family and I went to my grandpa’s funeral a couple months ago. He was buried in the same cemetery that my aunt was. It was hard going back and reliving a memory that I’d forgotten, the day that we got the news she’d passed. But I felt the worst for my cousin. It was her mom. And I know she was hurting the most because of the look she gave when coming to the cemetery. It was just full of reminisence. We all miss her as well as my grandpa, but I know it’s gonna get better. If you’ve decided to take time and read this, and if you haven’t heard it today, I just want to say that I’m so proud of you. Look at how far you’ve come. Things are going to get better.
I lost 3 family members, all to surgery complications or their own body giving in. All three I never had the chance to tell them how much I cared, because I avoided them as a result of my petty nature of wanting to be alone. And I cannot say how much it ruined me.
i hope it brings you some peace to know that energy is never destroyed and never dies. they’re still here with you, just in a different place. look for them in the trees, in the sunrises and sunsets, in song of the morning chorus. they’re here, all around
I haven't lost anybody, yet. This make me tear up. I know my grandmother is going soon. She was, I mean this WAS, a nice person. Calm, passive, always "It's fine, do what you want." She has become stubborn and angry. I've lost the person I once knew. The kind grandmother. I pray the tornado doesn't kill me.
Je sais que la vie ne t'as pas fait de cadeau et moi même je ne pourrais jamais comprendre la totalité de la souffrance que tu as endurée pendant toute ces années, tu n'es pas morte heureusement mais je te vois t'effondrer tout les jours et j'ai peur qu'un jour tu t'en ailles pour de bon. On est là pour toi, quoi qu'il arrive, ta famille c'est nous. J'espère vraiment que dans le font, quelque part, tu en as conscience. Je t'aime grande soeur.
when i was 12 a close friend of mine took his own life. i keep wondering if i had done anything different, if i had said one more kind word to him, then he wouldn't have gone through with it. it's so surreal. i still have so much love for him, even if i'm not technically grieving anymore. he was transgender, and i don't think his parents knew. that's one reason why i'm still here today: i don't want my memory of him to be gone. i don't want every living memory of him to be of someone he wasn't. so i'll keep remembering, even if it's painful. i'll always love you finn
This is the only song in 5 years that has made me cry. Not because of the loss of a loved one, but because it reminded me of good memories. I remember my very first friend. We played together, making stories together... I still can't forget his face. Regardless of where he is now, WHO he is now, I remember him clearly, and I know he's doing well. If you ever lose somebody, don't fall and cry because they're gone... Smile because they gave you so many good memories. -Retrosquire
While I haven't lost many people in my life, I feel like I have lost who I am. With all the responsibility I have, I have barely anytime to hangout with friends and others. I feel emotionless and sad that I have become more distant from others. I have had trouble making friends ever since I was a kid and when I try to make friends, it feels like they don't want to talk to me based off their language. I could be doing something wrong, but I feel confident in knowing how to talk to people. Because of these, I feel like my personality had left my soul and don't feel like a person anymore. But no one cares about my sadness and struggles outside of strangers on the internet. I just have to push through the pain before I can heal.
my Xbox friend. Buddy , I don't even know your name, but I know that you are now where you are happy. Even though it was 6 years ago, and I abandoned my console, but I remember you. I will always remember that part of you. Goodbye.
I will always miss the past… but the future will always be hopeful… I refuse to let my nostalgia blind me… I will find to see everything as great as this game… if I am truly a good person, I will see things for what they are.
Listening to this while walking outside, listening to the birds chirp, brings a different level of sadness, knowing your childhood is over and you probably won't feel as happy as you did ever again
my dog died a year ago rn i have a new dog but this always brings me back to both happy and sad memories i can just remember playing minecraft with my dog by my side chilling in my base with all my friends now... ive lost contact with my old friends and my dog died every time i listen to this im brought back to that time, it was peaceful no virus no death when the worst thing that could happen is me dying in lava and losing my stuff..... good times.
These people commenting on these videos has go through it all, you have experience life. Try not too getting in detail about the life you regret, but the life you enjoy. Your time will come eventually I know is sacry, but there is nothing you can do to stop it, try spending more time with you family or yourself just be thankful of you will be seeing the sunrise again.. even if you got nothing to live for, at least living a full and a great life, accomplish something to remember you as the person you want to be even if it's a small thing, at least not the person who die a cowardly death.. keep holding on ❤
_I sat on the bridge where my friend and I used to hang out. I looked down, towards the rushing water. I don't see him anymore. I looked back up, towards the sky. "I miss you," I muttered to no one. "... We never got to play that game you always looked forward to playing... They say the greatest moments happen with friends, yeah? It's been a few years since... the incident. I'm sorry I wasn't there to say goodbye. My family and I were out of town. I could've called, but... my phone was dead. I know by now you wouldve made some smartass remark and make both of us laugh our asses off until we were crying," I look back down at the river, forcing a smile... "...I miss those days. Those days where I wasn't lonely and hurting and you were with me. Those days when everything was okay. I could wake up the next day and tell myself "Today's going to be great!"... I wish things were still like that. Where you weren't gone. And we could hang out like we normally do. But we can't. And I'm sorry. Genuinely."_
My very best friends and I would play Minecraft so much together, we definitely took it for granted. Those friends are no longer with me today but I will always love them and cherish our time together.
This just makes me a bit more sad for all that have died. I truly feel for everyone that has died. I am still here. They are not unfortunately. I love humans and humanity as a whole, and to not get to meet majority of it, is quite saddening. Not just that, but the heartbreaks as well.
I lost my grandfather a few months ago and my grandmother got Covid she doesn’t sound like she’s gonna make it with the amount of people I’ve lost in my life you eventually start emotionally shutting down like nothing matters Because when the people who had given you joy in life are gone it puts you in a place of desperation and sorrow
Lost my grandfather on 1st of November 2021, He had a stroke in the morning. 1 month and 16 days from his 87th birthday. I wasn’t able to see him because of Covid. Now everything just doesn’t feel the same, I miss him so much…
My dog passed about 3 months ago. He is a Boston Terrier and he was 8 years old. He had 3 years robbed from him from cancer. I don't know what this song does that puts me into a grieving mood, but it certainly does. I am now preparing for my second dog to pass. He's a great dane, and he doesn't have much time left. Everything seems to be happening all at once, and far too quickly. I'm also a junior in high school, which inherently means i'm depressed. My SAT scores haven't been released yet, but I know I didn't do as well as I could've. My choir concert is also coming up, and my director didn't even give me the fucking chance to do a solo, even though I tried so, so hard. My dad is also expecting me to pick a colege in about a week and a half to start planning I just want things to stop. For like a day. Bo Burnham said something that really resignated with me "If I could kill myself for like a year i would." I don't think i'm considering it. But i'm thinking about thinking about considering it, so does that mean i'm considering it? Idunno shit's weird.
I don't associate this kind of sound with losing someone (yet), but it does remind me that the world is constantly changing. Everyone and everything eventually meets its end, but that's what gives so much meaning to the journey we all walk along the way to our ends. And maybe it doesn't seem this way at first, but every end is just a new beginning. Time doesn't stand still. Instead it slowly trickles, continuously flowing. So we should always be doing our best to treasure every drop of it that we can get, as it is the only resource in the universe that one truly can never get back. The universe is but a ripple of space and time, and whether it will disappear forever one day or not, it's worth noting that in the time it exists, a beautiful story of infinitely smaller stories unfolds like a fractal. Every single action, person, down to the very atoms that we're made up of, makes a difference, no matter how small, in the grand story of everything. It's up to each person how they live out their part of the story. All I know that is that we should strive to live the best version of that story that we can. Savor every moment so that you don't regret it later on. A life, like the universe, just like this song, is a ripple in space and time. As soon as it begins, it's seemingly gone without you even noticing.
my uncle took his own life over the summer. I miss him so much. every time I see my family, I feel the loneliness amongst us knowing he's not there. that's probably why I feel uncomfortable around them nowadays. it just.. doesn't feel right anymore. I want to just run away sometimes. my grandpa also left a bit before he did, so its extra lonely at dinner. around a year and a half ago I had heard the news about him going to a mental hospital, and it was probably to keep him from taking his life back then. I have heard from my family that hes had a lot of internal struggle as well, and I guess it was just too much for him to handle over the summer. I have cousins around the same age as me (im 15 turning 16 next month), and I can't imagine the pain they have had to go through after losing their own fucking dad. nobody deserves to go through what my uncle has, and remember, there is always a solution. never take the easy way out. rest in peace
This Music Reminds Me Of My Golden Ages Where I Was Living Peace On 2012 - 2017 Where Everything Is Less Toxic And Peaceful And Where Thing Are Truly Just Made For Fun But Now People Are Non Religious, Evil, Toxic, Mindless, Helpless This Music Gives Me Pure Nostalgia C418 Is Such A Legend
i don’t like to get emotional, but this kinda opened my eyes it’s been the worst year, 2021, ive lost 3 relatives. my nanna, my grandad, and my great grandma my grandad was the first to go, he wasn’t soft with his kids, you would say he was a grumpy grandad, but he loved us all dearly, i remember watching him play video games and listening to his stories. he would download games onto my ds flash carts so i could play as many games as i wanted, i didn’t even get to say goodbye before he passed. my nanna told me lots of stories, she was struggling and went from crutches to being chair bound not even able to walk far. after my grandad passed she let herself go, died of a broken heart, it was sad to lose her not too long after my grandad. and just recently, my great grandma, thought she was gonna stay forever, she lost her son before she lost herself. i miss them all this song reminds me of them
I'm sorry to hear that man, I know it can be tough losing the people who cheered you on and took care of you all your life. It really sucks but the best thing we can really do is carry on those memories, share them with others, pass them down to your children, and never forget them. I hope you and your family are doing well and please, take care.
Dungeons and Dragons, I ran a game a while ago all the way to level 20. We had been playing these characters for 2 years. The characters had gotten close, and the players had built a fantastic relationship with the world and its people. At the end of their journey, they faced a Dark God of Chaos and Order. This God had managed to kill 4 players, leaving only the Tiefling Sorcerer. At the end of the fight, The God destroyed all of the world. Wiping the slate clean, leaving only a 15 ft circle of stone, floating in an endless Aether, with that Sorcerer on it. He stayed there for 3 days, before looking at the last item he had. An Item I gave the party at the beginning of the campaign 2 years earlier. A Single Scroll with an unknown spell. I Restrict even allowing Wish to be used, as its a very rare ability in this world, and I figured that they'd sit on the scroll for a while. Honestly I forgot he had it, but he did. A single Wish. He opened the Scroll and used the spell, and a Golden Effigy of light appeared in front of him. The Golden Effigy was me, the DM essentially. He said he wanted to reverse the destruction, so that the world, and his party could live on. However, due to the way Magic worked in this homebrew world, It would essentially erase him from existence in doing so. I told him it would be so. but he asked another wish, I told him it depends. He said he wanted to say goodbye to his friends. I put on this song, and let them have a final moment before the Tiefling Sorcerer accompanied the Golden Effigy to the Aether, and the world was restored. Lots of tears from all involved. What I'm trying to say is, Thanks for the Song man. It fit perfectly.
She gone..... I cant believe it, actually i dont want to believe it, we used to laugh and having fun each other, but god really miss her than me, atleast im already say my feelings to her and she was happy to hear, she really waiting for me to say that actually... Thats make me happy a little bit. So goodbye take care up there, im not gonna forget you and the day when i stood still.... So goodbye special friend Ily
October 28th, 2018 is when I said my last goodbye to my dad. Whenever I went over to his house I would bring my Xbox 360 and a copy of Minecraft. He would always enjoy watching me play even though he didn’t really know what was going on. I would give anything to go back in time to play Minecraft with him just once more. Appreciate the time you have with your parents cuz you never know when you’ll say your last goodbye too
This is the song you put over endless Antonyms. Love and hate. Death and life. Friends and enemy's. Sunshine and Rain. darkness and light. This song fits all of these words in my opinion, it goes to show how amazing C418 was as a musical artist.
I recently lost my uncle. I was walking to a friends' place to be picked up, because my sister had a concert since she's in the schools band. I remember getting in the car, waiting for my brother. I stepped out for a second, and his wife called my aunt. I remember my aunt asking if this was real or a dream. I simply hugged her. I walked in the house and told my brother. I didn't cry, not because I lack empathy or I'm "edgy" like that. I don't want to show others weakness; I'm the class clown that's secretly not doing well. I don't think it was okay for me not to cry. I should have. He was more of a father than my father who left me for drugs. I will miss you. Love you, Chuckie.
I remember my friend we built things in Minecraft together I don't know what I would do without him he died 4 years ago we spent our lives together and I have been lonely since and I'm the only one lonely I have been dying losing rage quitting in Minecraft it's hard without him things didn't go well I quit Minecraft hoping I would forget Minecraft but I can't because in Minecraft there is memories of him.
I remember when I was 9 I used to play a lot Minecraft,I literally played for like 6h a day,it brought me so much joy,but after my mother's death (I was 10 when it happened),I was slowly succumbing to depression and loneliness;now I don't even play Minecraft anymore,because it doesn't bring me joy like it used to. I have accepted what happened to my mother,and I no longer cry because I miss my mother,instead I've decided to live my life for what it is, hoping that in the future,something bright will come in my life.
Listening to this music makes me imagine how i want to be remembered, sometimes it kinda hurts to think that my death wouldn't cause that big of an impact on anyone, and then i would be forgotten within days, but that's not how i want to go, i want people to leave good memories with my departure, i want people to be happy remembering me. Still I don't want people to be sad remembering me, but happy, i just want to die knowing that someone somewhere really did care for me 🥲
A friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer recently, We used to play Minecraft, roblox, etc together back when we were younger, Ever since I heard he news, I was a nervous wreck for the next day or two, im still thinking about him, sending my prayers and finding time to hang out, he is my only friend and i dont think i could go without any friends like him, If he dies, I'll probably be meeting him soon in heaven aswell.
It's been 5 years now.. My friend commited suicide when I could text her, And I still don't know why she did that... She was just perfect, the friend everyone wish to have, i'm sure about it. But she left, and I'm afraid to have a best friend, but I think i'll try to take my social life back in control, and I think she teached me a lesson, without her knowing.. So, thanks Charlie for what we did together, and what i'll be able to do next thanks to you.
Everyday that you are gone is another bit of pain added onto my soul. I miss you so fucking much. Why did this world have to take you? You didnt deserve to die. I dont think i can keep going myself..i miss you so much, aliyah...
Thought I'd share because I saw some other people doing the same. When I was 9, I woke up rolled up in my blanket, like a little sausage roll. I was quite baffled as to how tf I managed it but got up and went downstairs. I told mum about it, and my older sister came downstairs telling me that she came home late last night and saw me lying on top of the bedsheets. Tried to tuck me in and I ended up slapping her lol, so she just rolled me up. We all laughed about it. As it was the weekend, my younger siblings and I usually went over to our nanny's house to stay. A farmer later that evening was walking his dog through the mountains, and came across an odd figure wearing sunglasses, and smiling. Suspended by a rope. That was the last time I saw her. Smiling. I hope you're doing okay now Asaya. The pains gone so you can rest now. I love you.
Do you remember when you smiled? Those are the days that will soon be forgotten the days of the past shall not be forgotten but those things are inevitable right? You will soon forget it of you keep on the wrong path of your life you will become like the wrongens i want you to look in the mirror what do you see ofc your self try to think the future of your life but sometimes it does not lead you there sometimes it leades you who you are dont be on teh wrong path choose the correct one carve it make it its your choice theres no scripts in life you make your own desiscions YARE YARE DAZE (GOOD GRIEF) - a random guy from the internet AKA me
Sometimes when they are deep in dreams, I want to tell them, they are building true worlds in reality. Sometimes I want to tell them of their importance to the universe. Sometimes, when they have not made a true connection in a while, I want to help them to speak the word they fear. It reads our thoughts. Sometimes I do not care. Sometimes I wish to tell them, this world you take for truth is merely [scrambled] and [scrambled], I wish to tell them that they are [scrambled] in the [scrambled]. They see so little of reality, in their long dream. And yet they play the game. But it would be so easy to tell them... Too strong for this dream. To tell them how to live is to prevent them living. I will not tell the player how to live. The player is growing restless. I will tell the player a story. But not the truth. No. A story that contains the truth safely, in a cage of words. Not the naked truth that can burn over any distance. Give it a body, again. Yes. Player... Take a breath, now. Take another. Feel air in your lungs. Let your limbs return. Yes, move your fingers. Have a body again, under gravity, in air. Respawn in the long dream. There you are. Your body touching the universe again at every point, as though you were separate things. As though we were separate things. Who are we? Once we were called the spirit of the mountain. Father sun, mother moon. Ancestral spirits, animal spirits. Jinn. Ghosts. The green man. Then gods, demons. Angels. Poltergeists. Aliens, extraterrestrials. Leptons, quarks. The words change. We do not change. We are the universe. We are everything you think isn't you. You are looking at us now, through your skin and your eyes. And why does the universe touch your skin, and throw light on you? To see you, player. To know you. And to be known. I shall tell you a story. Once upon a time, there was a player. The player was you Sometimes it thought itself human, on the thin crust of a spinning globe of molten rock. The ball of molten rock circled a ball of blazing gas that was three hundred and thirty thousand times more massive than it. They were so far apart that light took eight minutes to cross the gap. The light was information from a star, and it could burn your skin from a hundred and fifty million kilometres away. Sometimes the player dreamed it was a miner, on the surface of a world that was flat, and infinite. The sun was a square of white. The days were short; there was much to do; and death was a temporary inconvenience. Sometimes the player dreamed it was lost in a story. Sometimes the player dreamed it was other things, in other places. Sometimes these dreams were disturbing. Sometimes very beautiful indeed. Sometimes the player woke from one dream into another, then woke from that into a third. Sometimes the player dreamed it watched words on a screen. Let's go back. The atoms of the player were scattered in the grass, in the rivers, in the air, in the ground. A woman gathered the atoms; she drank and ate and inhaled; and the woman assembled the player, in her body. And the player awoke, from the warm, dark world of its mother's body, into the long dream. And the player was a new story, never told before, written in letters of DNA. And the player was a new program, never run before, generated by a sourcecode a billion years old. And the player was a new human, never alive before, made from nothing but milk and love. You are the player. The story. The program. The human. Made from nothing but milk and love. Let's go further back. The seven billion billion billion atoms of the player's body were created, long before this game, in the heart of a star. So the player, too, is information from a star. And the player moves through a story, which is a forest of information planted by a man called Julian, on a flat, infinite world created by a man called Markus, that exists inside a small, private world created by the player, who inhabits a universe created by... Shush. Sometimes the player created a small, private world that was soft and warm and simple. Sometimes hard, and cold, and complicated. Sometimes it built a model of the universe in its head; flecks of energy, moving through vast empty spaces. Sometimes it called those flecks "electrons" and "protons". Sometimes it called them "planets" and "stars". Sometimes it believed it was in a universe that was made of energy that was made of offs and ons; zeros and ones; lines of code. Sometimes it believed it was playing a game. Sometimes it believed it was reading words on a screen. You are the player, reading words... Shush... Sometimes the player read lines of code on a screen. Decoded them into words; decoded words into meaning; decoded meaning into feelings, emotions, theories, ideas, and the player started to breathe faster and deeper and realised it was alive, it was alive, those thousand deaths had not been real, the player was alive You. You. You are alive. and sometimes the player believed the universe had spoken to it through the sunlight that came through the shuffling leaves of the summer trees and sometimes the player believed the universe had spoken to it through the light that fell from the crisp night sky of winter, where a fleck of light in the corner of the player's eye might be a star a million times as massive as the sun, boiling its planets to plasma in order to be visible for a moment to the player, walking home at the far side of the universe, suddenly smelling food, almost at the familiar door, about to dream again and sometimes the player believed the universe had spoken to it through the zeros and ones, through the electricity of the world, through the scrolling words on a screen at the end of a dream and the universe said I love you and the universe said you have played the game well and the universe said everything you need is within you and the universe said you are stronger than you know and the universe said you are the daylight and the universe said you are the night and the universe said the darkness you fight is within you and the universe said the light you seek is within you and the universe said you are not alone and the universe said you are not separate from every other thing and the universe said you are the universe tasting itself, talking to itself, reading its own code and the universe said I love you because you are love. And the game was over and the player woke up from the dream. And the player began a new dream. And the player dreamed again, dreamed better. And the player was the universe. And the player was love. You are the player. Wake up.
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I've seen certain comments on this video that are probably the most beautiful and yet heart-breaking I've seen on TH-cam. I want you to know that you are truly loved and you deserve peace. I promise life will be extremely difficult at times where you simply want to give up but don't give up now.
For the people that lost their loved ones, know that they always loved you, and do not forget that. The beauty of mourning is the unconditional love you had for them. The type of love you are willing to die for. The type of love to give someone the hard truth. The type of love that makes marriages thrive. The type of love that keeps you going. You may have lost them recently and the emotions you are feeling right now are normal. Allow the anger, rage, sadness, depression, or whatever takes control to flow through you so that you can process the pain. If the pain becomes too much to bear, speak up before it becomes harmful.
If there is something about death that I have learned, it's a part of the process. Let death take what it has to take. It may be good or bad, but that is life. We all come and go and we will too. So live life to your fullest and fight the battles. You deserve life and you are here for a reason.
Thank you. You to. have a blessing day! :)
Thanks for making this.
You are a soldier that helps the wounded, and the wounded are the ones that are going through the hard times of life, I salute to you. The comment you made is unforgettable. Just reading it with intro playing made me remember about a loved one I lost, a sweet loving grandpa. Good luck to everyone going through hard times, the tunnel is dark but the end of the tunnel is light
Thank you so much for everything.
I will never be able to find that reason.
It's the death of the kid I used to be. I miss being lighthearted and carefree.
same 😢
My grandma bought me my first PC and Minecraft account. My mother was very poor and always at work when I was home from school; dad wasn't in the picture. I was only able to play because of her. She always wanted the best for me. She knew I would make it far with computers. Yet, she never got to see me build my own. Brain cancer took her from my family early. RIP Sandra. She always said how relaxing C418's music was to her. How it would "put her to sleep." and would proceed to fall asleep watching me play. I hope she's listening to this with me. I appreciate everyone sharing their stories; it makes me feel less alone with these feelings this song just seems to rip right out of me and I don't know what to do with. This is my contribution.
when we were kids we played minecraft together religiously. almost two years ago he took his own life, and i couldn't touch the game without breaking down. only recently have I gone back to it, and now the music means more to me than ever.
Oh god man are you okay
I had a great friend on Xbox for 2 years he was like another brother to me but this year he shot himself it sucks I know but you gotta move on 👍
@@huntereh08 If he was still there, he wouldve wished for you to move on, he wouldve been proud of you and happy for you. I'm sure about it.
Suicide awareness is important, and youre a good example for making people aware, thank you.
@@Inzpectre thank you and I'm happy to help anybody who's going through that it sucks but ounce you move on it feels better trust me
@@huntereh08 I’ve only heard stories of people committing suicide and I felt so heartbroken for them like I do now, but I can’t help them cope since it’s something I have never dealt with. I hope you are doing well friend. ❤
dude why am I absolutely weeping to this at 1 in the morning.
because its a very sad song that invokes sad thoughts
The humming of C418 in the background always brings me chills
It brings memories of when life was good tho. Right?
Although I don’t associate this song with losing someone I love, I associate it with losing myself. Myself and my childhood. I wish I could go bad and cherish what I had before I grew up and became sad. I don’t want ever want to grow up because I know I’ll never be the same as I was before. I wish I could have my carelessness back so I could feel truly happy. One day I hope the pain ends and I can feel free. Until then I will hold on to what I have and cherish it till it’s no longer…
Me too... i feel like i lost myself. I lost the prodigious personality i once had, the path i had for a great future to a lazy guy with no goals or motivation. I don't know what i want for my future anymore, and i dont seek for it because there isn't a goal to seek. I have become apathetic when it comes to likes and dislikes too, i lost parts of my personality for real. The only things i like are geopolitics. This isn't even irony. I don't know about current trends, new songs, new series. Neither the football games that makes everyone crazy where I live. I'm empty and lazy. There is still time, I am young. But knowing that i was once better, less apathetic, more personality-full, more engaged and searchful for a goal to my future, is; not good. I am my worst version now and while i know i can recover it. The pain of the process is still there. And if my apathy wasn't enough, quarantine came separating people in a time already full of changes. Connections that would obliviously be lost were even more intensified. I lost friendship with everyone that once was my friend. Because paths changed.
Blissful ignorance is something we all crave when we get older, the harsh realities of life completely unknown to us when we were kids because they weren't that important at the time. Just like the person above me, friends were lost because our paths split, our goals for the future are now just a blurred picture with motivation being a rare occurrence.
Same!
I can relate. Sometimes, it gets to the point where I lose a grasp of myself so much, I start to hate myself. Nowadays, it’s all the same. I hope you’ll go far, dude
I listen to this and for just one hour I feel myself coming back to my childhood, but my innocence is gone with the rest of my past. This song also teaches me to let go of it and move on.
I came here after hearing the news of Technoblade, we really lost a big part of thee community today.
It's been a month and a bit since Techno's death.
I've stumbled upon this video by pure luck and i can't help but think about him.
It aches in my stomach to think of him.
I don't think 100 lives would be enough for him to accomplish everything he wanted in his time.
Sometimes the ache dissapears and re-appears right when i remember that he's gone.
It's easy to forget that,, no.
We won't get another video.
no matter how long we wait.
The last thing I said to his face was, “I’ll see you tomorrow lil bro”. It’s been 3 years since he hasn’t came back home.
This is the last thing my oldest brother told me before he went to deployment in Japan. I told him i was a little suicidal. He said "I'll be back before you know it. Don't forget that. You have me, family, and a girlfriend that will help." Its been 3 years.
I lost my grandfather at 13 last November, he meant everything to me and my family.
I felt suicidal during my 14th birthday, but I remember him saying before he died “I love you, I’m always here” and I felt secure.
Back in September of last year, I lost my little brother to Covid-19 complications (be aware, he was a diabetic and seemed to have had a secondary infection at the time. Doctors suspect it was staph). He was only 19 years old and was in his sophomore year of college. He was always so full of energy and overall a joy to have around. My parents used to even call him my best friend at times, since we always enjoyed playing games with each other. He didn’t deserve the way he died. RIP, Max. I’ll never forget you.
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I am very sorry for your loss.
im so sorry man-
I'm sorry man 😔
Update: thanks for all the kind replies. Things just don’t stop getting worse it seems like. I just had a friend die after overdosing on fentanyl and cocaine a few days ago. He was my friend since 1st grade. He often played games with me and my brother. He had a bright future ahead of him, going on to be a doctor… he was on his 3rd year of college, but his depression just caused his mental state to decline rapidly. He resorted to drug abuse as a coping mechanism.
Seconds after waking up on July 1st 2022, I found out Technoblade passed away.
One again this song feels appropriate.
Rest in peace Technoblade.
The world would not have been the same without you.
It's an honor to share your name. I hope I can one day make you proud.
We miss you.
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i want to die
June 29th he died
@@SpinosaurusStudios_ for you
Yesterday, my grandfather had a brain aneurism and died. My parents were on the way to see him when they got the news. One of my uncles ended up taking him to the hospital, and one of the others had just got to the hospital when he had died. My grandfather was a solider in the Vietnam War, an EMT, and chief of the local fire department for 45 years. Rest well, Wayne.
It's almost been 4 years to the day when I lost my partner, we did everything together, we spent every second of our lives together, side by side holding each other's hands walking into the Sunset, he may be gone, but his memories are not, I think about him every second of the day, forever remembered and honored, in my heart, Rest In Peace, gone but not forgotten
We will all remember and keep him dear to our hearts. Hope you keep well!
@@stefisgamer9126 I agree, he's forever with us, never forgotten
“Life is the journey we take together, you will have some errors and mess ups…but your destination will be all worth it.
But this destination is only a holiday, and whether you like it or not…you must leave”
Dedicated to your loss
What was their name
@@ScimitarRaccoon That is a feeling I have yet to experience, and it's a feeling that scares me, that one day I will never see my best friend again (on earth anyway). May your friend rest in peace. This must be incredibly hard for you, even after so many years. God bless you, and may you live long!
I lost 3 kids 4 years ago.
They were the best sisters that I've ever had & I still miss them to this day. The last time I saw them, the oldest was 10 & the two youngest were around 7-8. To this day I feel like a part of me is missing. I will never forget the hugs they gave me & how they wouldn't let go until I did. I miss their smiles, laughter, happiness & the amount of stories that they would always tell me. Something that I'll never be able to experience again.
But I know that they wouldn't want me to give up.
If I ever meet them again, I'll not let go of that hug first.
I am so sorry for your loss. I hope you got better now. ⭐
Only 1 Reply ??? That's real Bullshit! Really sorry for what happened to you, you deserve more hugs and mostly help, not the offense sense, but the careful sense, If this would happen to my brother also, i would lose myself and my whole life! Don't worry, until you're not feeling good we're all here for you, stay strong, love yourself and bless you, bro.
To my old friend from PlayStation 3 named SMP-75, I’m sorry I disappeared before I ever got a chance to tell you how I fully felt about you. You were always a good friend. You were always on even when your microphone was broken. I appreciate all the things you did and how you stuck around even after I trolled you with Herobrine. I know the last time we talked you unfortunately had become a Tik Tok girl but I still just want to say thank you. Thank you for all the memories. Now you’ve been offline for the past 2 years and I’ve moved to PlayStation 4 but now there’s only one last thing I have to say… Goodbye Lila. I hope your having fun wherever you are. Your old friend, crystalmarc.
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I had a similar situation, but in club penguin. I hope Kool Kreme is doing well, from zxTurbo01
I cant believe he's just gone. just like that. May he rest in peace.
Technoblade never dies...
We're all human. Everybody dies. Everybody loses someone. I'm not saying you don't have a right to be upset about losing someone - it's in our nature - but I am saying that you would be doing that person an injustice if you spent the rest of your days dwelling on that loss. Because while it is in our nature to mourn loss and feel hindered by it, it has also always been in our nature to move forward in the face of adversity or hardship. Even knowing that we will be gone some day, and everyone we know with us. Even knowing that anything we do in our lifetime may not be remembered or have any impact on the future. Because we're human. It's what we do. All that really matters is that when the time comes, you can look back on life and appreciate everything you've experienced, good and bad, and be grateful you were able to go on that ride.
"we never truly appreciate something until it is lost"
"we didn't know we were making memories, we just knew we were having fun"
"light will be out there for anyone, even if its just for a moment, it will shine for everyone"
"our very solutions create problems. that's what makes life interesting."
"the sun is not much to those who always see it. but is worth more than anything to those who haven't"
"don't let anyone tell you how or when you should live life. everyone is different and lives differently."
"a quote can change so much in a person in ways you cannot believe were possible"
thank you Minecraft and Mojang for engraving your passion into the hearts of many people young and old around the world.
Last year I lost a childhood friend, he was the one that introduced me to Minecraft and I would spends hours at his house staying up late playing the game. After we graduated high school we got accepted into different colleges but what kept us united was playing this game during weekend nights and we would re live those moments. Sadly, he passed away in a tragic car accident and I only found out because his mom called me.
This month for the first time in a long time I visited our world we had built together and I could feel the memories in everything we built, destroyed, mined, explored. I know he’s in a better place and I’ll never forget it
I reached the cherry blossom tree at graveyard's center and dropped to my knees. Here, I was surrounded by the memories of everyone that I'd loved and lost, whom I'd immortalized in this place. I looked over the tombstone in front of me, seeing my reflection in its polished stone. Then, I placed down a single red rose on the ground for her.
"Hey there," I said finally, "it's been a while. How are you?"
the somebody is me. metaphorically, and literally multiple times.
This past weekend (Christmas day and the 26th) i lost the owner of the server i play on. He was a good friend. poured over a decade of his time into the server. I don’t think he would’ve expected 24,000 different people to join his server but thanks to Drunk Minecraft, Vox populi is my home away from home. I wish i could thank you one last time. Thanks for everything Zombiemold. Godspeed
It’s been about 4 years since my great-grandmother passed. I miss her so much, and I wish I had the opportunity to *really* know her, not just as Grandma, but as a person. Before she moved, I knew her as the sweet old woman who scared me with her strict, no-nonsense attitude but who dearly loved her family and husband.
There’s so much I wish I could have told her before she passed away in 2017 due to dementia. During the last years of her life, she suffered from this horrible disease, miles away from family and friends, slowly forgetting who she was.
When I heard this song, I cried. It reminds me of her funeral. It was raining, and my mother wept as she watched one of her favorite people be lowered into the ground next to her husband, who had died nearly a decade before her. I wept with her.
I love you, Grandma.
I feel for you man. I wish you the best. Stay strong.
What was her name?
I wish you well.
You may have just known hear as "Grandma" but I'm sure she was a nice person.
Maybe you once had trouble with her but if she always forgives you then she was a good or for you even the best person.
You only realize how important someone is until you lose that person.
All this that I wrote are just my own feelings because I lost my great- grandma too.
She was nice.
I only realized that once I lost her.
I hope your great-grandmother had a good live.
That's what I wished my great-grandmother
dementia fucking sucks man. my grandma recently passed away cause of that fucking shit. most beautiful funeral ever. rest in piece grandma. stay strong brother
I'm sorry
her birthday was today and i left this morning before work to see her. it was raining, and we both got a little wet but she was in good spirits and was glad to see me, remarked about how big ive gotten since we last saw each other. i was already tearing up on the drive there to see her but when i saw her i lost my very frail composure and wept. my mom died 9 years ago, i barely remember alot from back then due to my memory being blocked due to alot of trauma. she never got to see the real me or my intrests, she died before i had even begun to develop into my own person. after i visited her i hardly spoke nor smiled at work, something which was an incredible oddity to my coworkers and most of those who asked i just told i was fine, my friend and my manager knew about what i was going through and it was taking everything i had to not break down again. i miss her alot, and i wish she was here to see how much ive changed, to give me advice on life stuff, and to hug when shit gets tough, man she always had the best hugs.
happy birthday mom. i miss you ❤️
My grandma, she was my closest friend and family. She understood me a way my parents didn’t. Until one day we visited her retirement home, she asked who I was. She completely forgot me and the things we went through. A couple months later, she passed. I know her death was going to be the most awful thing in my lifetime. But it made it ten times worse knowing she died… forgetting me.
Damn, that's painful.
I've been laughing for 5 hours because of memes I found in TH-cam but then suddenly, a feeling of... something that I felt before... but I couldn't remember... but only to know that it was a feeling of... loneliness... sad and guilt... good thing is raining now... I miss a lot of stuff happened in my past... I wish I could go back and feel it again....
Distractions make everything feel fine until the silence comes
Losing someone...losing myself? Who am I? This..era, it WAS me, when did I drift off? When did I suddenly not enjoy the things i used to, when did I start thinking piano was boring? An activity of which I poured my heart and tears into. When did I stop drawing? Like I didnt do so every chance I got. Where did that happy kid go...? What did I do to alter the path of which has lead me here today? Who knows; but one thing I know. Is that given the chance to redo it? I'd take it in less than a heart beat.
Dont take yourselves for granted.
Outside of the piano statement, this painfully relatable comment also paints me in a sad light
The us we used to know is not here anymore, their time is up as we've seen with our own eyes. the us we used to know, played in the ball pits, runs in the play area, climbed on the ladder of air, played out in nature.
Sitting on a bench outside thinking of your old memories from the previous houses that shows something liminal. Do you remember the time when you we're on the top of the slide? When it was time to go home after the last slide?
*"I Never got to say goodbye to my friend that I used to play with..."*
*Edit*
I've once had a cat that brought me more up in happiness. He made me be fearless of cats that I've always been afraid of. He went missing in the 2020's for 3 month's, but I was missing him. But once somebody found him, I was so surprised that I missed my cat a lot. My parents thanked them for finding him. But during the year 2021, he died due to a car accident. I got my eyes out of the computer straight away, and ran outside, crying, using foul languages, upset as upset. My family buried him in the garden, covering his body, with something to not expose it. And eventually, we placed a cat statue on his grave...
(I'm not sure if I will add more edits on this comment, but maybe I will)
I don't know how to describe this piece of music, whether it's this version, or the original, but it's the very first piece of media I've ever watched or listened or played that managed to bring tears to my eyes. For so long, I never cried about anything, not even the death of my grandpa. I always thought I was an emotionless freak, but this proved me wrong. Thank you, C418. And thank you, Minecraft.
I found a video camera a couple of years ago. It was an old one, so I hooked it up to my computer to charge it and see what was on it. It was a video of my pawpaw (grandfather) who passed away in 2014, riding his tractor with my little brother in his lap. I had forgetten his voice until that moment. I got to hear his voice again, after almost 8 or 9 years (at the time). I miss him horribly.
I recently lost my friend to Alcohol poisoning. I came back from college to find him pale and dead in his bed. We shared a brief moment of friendship in those four months that his absence still lingers around and I feel sad for him and his family.
Rest In Peace Technoblade
I week ago i ran away to jump off a bridge but it was raining and i got cold so i turned back. My brother saw where i was and asked me why i was so far out in the rain. I told him why.
Hope thats depressing enough
Intro is very unappreciated, I'm glad to see more videos like this. keep up the good work!
In four days it’ll be the two year anniversary of my mom’s death. Two years… strange how time passes.
The raw emotions that are able to be attached to these songs is breathtaking. Yet it's also heartbreaking knowing just what emotions have latched on. It goes to show the power music can have. Without us even knowing
Donnie wasn't a blood brother. Hell, he wasn't even my brother, but he was my older brother's best friend. He treated me like family. He showed nothing but kindness and compassion to me where the rest of my family, even where my friends didn't. I visited him near Dec. 2017. The last game we played together was Dark Souls. I remember the joy as he handed me the controller and told me to go wild. I stopped after a short time because I wanted to be with him. The next thing I new, it was his funeral. The reality didn't hit me until the casket was being carried out of the church. I completely broke down. The one man who'd shown me kindness, who'd been nothing but a sweet kid to me, was gone. Every time we go home, to the place before I moved, I visit his grave. I don't talk, I don't lay flowers, I just sit with him and watch the beach. Where ever he is, he'll be doing great. I know he will. I'll miss you forever Donnie. I'll be sure to take care of your chickens when I get the chance. Love you, bye.
Let those who played not stray far away.
May those memories never become distant or astray.
In the end, it was just a block game we all played.
I just have to say how proud I am of everyone sharing their really sad and heartbreaking stories. I know those are very hard and personal, so opening these kinds of things up to the public is great.
Always know that everyone you will ever meet feels for you. Some will cry, some will stare emotionless, and some might even spit in your face. But that doesn't change what we feel deep down. Everyone understands loss. Even if someone seems like they could not give a single care about they still feel loss just like you and I. They may not express it, they may not even feel it, but they understand, and they understand that you're hurting. So if you ever feel like you are alone, you're not.
Death may appear like a Farwell, but people always unite through the feeling of loss. You will always have someone to turn to.
May light shine upon gloomy eyes.
rip Alexey Navalny
It has been precisely 623 days as of September 19th 2022, since my best little buddy of all, a great old black cat named Clawd passed away due to feline pneumonia, i will always miss you old friend, i knew you my whole life, you were there in my earliest memory, sadly i was not there in your last.
What really tears me up inside remembering his passing after so much time and personal development, is that i may have even heard his last call, a pained soft meow before he was found dead, it still rings clearly in my mind. He was 26, i am currently 17, he was far smaller than i was but ten times the trooper.
Wait. HE LIVED TO 26!2!2!2??
that cat must’ve been lucky
@@CongregationGDReal yep, he was often relaxed and well looked after.
1,190 days now
Damn. The whole childhood thing. It’s over. Isent it?
yes it is ThatAdult101
the track is very good, but I found out about it quite recently, a little 2 months ago. I always liked listening again and again, but literally a month later I lost my grandmother, not just my grandmother, but the best of all grandmothers, and this music always connects me with her. but after this video, I was completely convinced of this...
My family and I went to my grandpa’s funeral a couple months ago. He was buried in the same cemetery that my aunt was. It was hard going back and reliving a memory that I’d forgotten, the day that we got the news she’d passed.
But I felt the worst for my cousin. It was her mom. And I know she was hurting the most because of the look she gave when coming to the cemetery. It was just full of reminisence. We all miss her as well as my grandpa, but I know it’s gonna get better.
If you’ve decided to take time and read this, and if you haven’t heard it today, I just want to say that I’m so proud of you. Look at how far you’ve come.
Things are going to get better.
I lost 3 family members, all to surgery complications or their own body giving in. All three I never had the chance to tell them how much I cared, because I avoided them as a result of my petty nature of wanting to be alone. And I cannot say how much it ruined me.
i hope it brings you some peace to know that energy is never destroyed and never dies. they’re still here with you, just in a different place. look for them in the trees, in the sunrises and sunsets, in song of the morning chorus. they’re here, all around
I haven't lost anybody, yet. This make me tear up. I know my grandmother is going soon. She was, I mean this WAS, a nice person. Calm, passive, always "It's fine, do what you want." She has become stubborn and angry. I've lost the person I once knew. The kind grandmother. I pray the tornado doesn't kill me.
Je sais que la vie ne t'as pas fait de cadeau et moi même je ne pourrais jamais comprendre la totalité de la souffrance que tu as endurée pendant toute ces années, tu n'es pas morte heureusement mais je te vois t'effondrer tout les jours et j'ai peur qu'un jour tu t'en ailles pour de bon.
On est là pour toi, quoi qu'il arrive, ta famille c'est nous.
J'espère vraiment que dans le font, quelque part, tu en as conscience.
Je t'aime grande soeur.
Je commence à être assez fatigué. Tenez ma main s’il vous plaît. Envolons-nous enfin pour Mars.
@@chronos1012 Je vous souhaite le meilleur :)
when i was 12 a close friend of mine took his own life. i keep wondering if i had done anything different, if i had said one more kind word to him, then he wouldn't have gone through with it.
it's so surreal. i still have so much love for him, even if i'm not technically grieving anymore. he was transgender, and i don't think his parents knew. that's one reason why i'm still here today: i don't want my memory of him to be gone. i don't want every living memory of him to be of someone he wasn't. so i'll keep remembering, even if it's painful. i'll always love you finn
This is the only song in 5 years that has made me cry. Not because of the loss of a loved one, but because it reminded me of good memories. I remember my very first friend. We played together, making stories together... I still can't forget his face. Regardless of where he is now, WHO he is now, I remember him clearly, and I know he's doing well. If you ever lose somebody, don't fall and cry because they're gone...
Smile because they gave you so many good memories.
-Retrosquire
I feel like I need to make a comment but I don't wanna damage what has been scarred
Miss ya, Steven. I made i to uni, you know? Good stuff. I hope Kitty Heaven serving you well.
Love you, Alish.
While I haven't lost many people in my life, I feel like I have lost who I am. With all the responsibility I have, I have barely anytime to hangout with friends and others. I feel emotionless and sad that I have become more distant from others. I have had trouble making friends ever since I was a kid and when I try to make friends, it feels like they don't want to talk to me based off their language. I could be doing something wrong, but I feel confident in knowing how to talk to people. Because of these, I feel like my personality had left my soul and don't feel like a person anymore. But no one cares about my sadness and struggles outside of strangers on the internet. I just have to push through the pain before I can heal.
my Xbox friend. Buddy , I don't even know your name, but I know that you are now where you are happy. Even though it was 6 years ago, and I abandoned my console, but I remember you. I will always remember that part of you. Goodbye.
I will always miss the past… but the future will always be hopeful…
I refuse to let my nostalgia blind me…
I will find to see everything as great as this game… if I am truly a good person, I will see things for what they are.
*sad child noises*
Lost my Uncle to suicide last week so this appearing on my recommendations now hits different.
Listening to this while walking outside, listening to the birds chirp, brings a different level of sadness, knowing your childhood is over and you probably won't feel as happy as you did ever again
my dog died a year ago rn i have a new dog but this always brings me back to both happy and sad memories i can just remember playing minecraft with my dog by my side chilling in my base with all my friends now... ive lost contact with my old friends and my dog died every time i listen to this im brought back to that time, it was peaceful no virus no death when the worst thing that could happen is me dying in lava and losing my stuff..... good times.
These people commenting on these videos has go through it all, you have experience life. Try not too getting in detail about the life you regret, but the life you enjoy.
Your time will come eventually I know is sacry, but there is nothing you can do to stop it, try spending more time with you family or yourself just be thankful of you will be seeing the sunrise again..
even if you got nothing to live for, at least living a full and a great life, accomplish something to remember you as the person you want to be even if it's a small thing, at least not the person who die a cowardly death.. keep holding on ❤
I feel this. Nobody died, but I know things will never be the same as they were, and I feel this so much.
A few months ago my little sister almost died, I use this video to remind me of how lucky I am.
_I sat on the bridge where my friend and I used to hang out. I looked down, towards the rushing water. I don't see him anymore. I looked back up, towards the sky. "I miss you," I muttered to no one. "... We never got to play that game you always looked forward to playing... They say the greatest moments happen with friends, yeah? It's been a few years since... the incident. I'm sorry I wasn't there to say goodbye. My family and I were out of town. I could've called, but... my phone was dead. I know by now you wouldve made some smartass remark and make both of us laugh our asses off until we were crying," I look back down at the river, forcing a smile... "...I miss those days. Those days where I wasn't lonely and hurting and you were with me. Those days when everything was okay. I could wake up the next day and tell myself "Today's going to be great!"... I wish things were still like that. Where you weren't gone. And we could hang out like we normally do. But we can't. And I'm sorry. Genuinely."_
I miss you Max and Nana. It's not the same after you guys said goodbye
My very best friends and I would play Minecraft so much together, we definitely took it for granted. Those friends are no longer with me today but I will always love them and cherish our time together.
o7 Technoblade. I'll miss you
This just makes me a bit more sad for all that have died. I truly feel for everyone that has died. I am still here. They are not unfortunately. I love humans and humanity as a whole, and to not get to meet majority of it, is quite saddening. Not just that, but the heartbreaks as well.
I lost my grandfather a few months ago and my grandmother got Covid she doesn’t sound like she’s gonna make it with the amount of people I’ve lost in my life you eventually start emotionally shutting down like nothing matters
Because when the people who had given you joy in life are gone it puts you in a place of desperation and sorrow
Lost my grandfather on 1st of November 2021, He had a stroke in the morning. 1 month and 16 days from his 87th birthday. I wasn’t able to see him because of Covid. Now everything just doesn’t feel the same, I miss him so much…
My dog passed about 3 months ago. He is a Boston Terrier and he was 8 years old. He had 3 years robbed from him from cancer. I don't know what this song does that puts me into a grieving mood, but it certainly does.
I am now preparing for my second dog to pass. He's a great dane, and he doesn't have much time left. Everything seems to be happening all at once, and far too quickly.
I'm also a junior in high school, which inherently means i'm depressed. My SAT scores haven't been released yet, but I know I didn't do as well as I could've. My choir concert is also coming up, and my director didn't even give me the fucking chance to do a solo, even though I tried so, so hard.
My dad is also expecting me to pick a colege in about a week and a half to start planning
I just want things to stop. For like a day. Bo Burnham said something that really resignated with me "If I could kill myself for like a year i would." I don't think i'm considering it. But i'm thinking about thinking about considering it, so does that mean i'm considering it?
Idunno shit's weird.
you ok man?
I don't associate this kind of sound with losing someone (yet), but it does remind me that the world is constantly changing. Everyone and everything eventually meets its end, but that's what gives so much meaning to the journey we all walk along the way to our ends. And maybe it doesn't seem this way at first, but every end is just a new beginning. Time doesn't stand still. Instead it slowly trickles, continuously flowing. So we should always be doing our best to treasure every drop of it that we can get, as it is the only resource in the universe that one truly can never get back. The universe is but a ripple of space and time, and whether it will disappear forever one day or not, it's worth noting that in the time it exists, a beautiful story of infinitely smaller stories unfolds like a fractal. Every single action, person, down to the very atoms that we're made up of, makes a difference, no matter how small, in the grand story of everything. It's up to each person how they live out their part of the story. All I know that is that we should strive to live the best version of that story that we can. Savor every moment so that you don't regret it later on. A life, like the universe, just like this song, is a ripple in space and time. As soon as it begins, it's seemingly gone without you even noticing.
my uncle took his own life over the summer. I miss him so much. every time I see my family, I feel the loneliness amongst us knowing he's not there. that's probably why I feel uncomfortable around them nowadays. it just.. doesn't feel right anymore. I want to just run away sometimes. my grandpa also left a bit before he did, so its extra lonely at dinner. around a year and a half ago I had heard the news about him going to a mental hospital, and it was probably to keep him from taking his life back then. I have heard from my family that hes had a lot of internal struggle as well, and I guess it was just too much for him to handle over the summer. I have cousins around the same age as me (im 15 turning 16 next month), and I can't imagine the pain they have had to go through after losing their own fucking dad. nobody deserves to go through what my uncle has, and remember, there is always a solution. never take the easy way out. rest in peace
I miss my brother alot. I wish he was here to help through the problems I have in the night. I was 9 when I heard it all.
This song reminds me of how truly alone I am. Yet I get a feeling of comfort every time I hear it.
this song already makes me shed a tear because its so beautiful, you're trying to make me cry
This Music Reminds Me Of My Golden Ages Where I Was Living Peace On 2012 - 2017 Where Everything Is Less Toxic And Peaceful And Where Thing Are Truly Just Made For Fun But Now People Are
Non Religious, Evil, Toxic, Mindless, Helpless
This Music Gives Me Pure Nostalgia
C418 Is Such A Legend
i don’t like to get emotional, but this kinda opened my eyes
it’s been the worst year, 2021, ive lost 3 relatives. my nanna, my grandad, and my great grandma
my grandad was the first to go, he wasn’t soft with his kids, you would say he was a grumpy grandad, but he loved us all dearly, i remember watching him play video games and listening to his stories. he would download games onto my ds flash carts so i could play as many games as i wanted, i didn’t even get to say goodbye before he passed.
my nanna told me lots of stories, she was struggling and went from crutches to being chair bound not even able to walk far. after my grandad passed she let herself go, died of a broken heart, it was sad to lose her not too long after my grandad. and just recently, my great grandma, thought she was gonna stay forever, she lost her son before she lost herself.
i miss them all
this song reminds me of them
I'm sorry to hear that man, I know it can be tough losing the people who cheered you on and took care of you all your life. It really sucks but the best thing we can really do is carry on those memories, share them with others, pass them down to your children, and never forget them. I hope you and your family are doing well and please, take care.
Dungeons and Dragons, I ran a game a while ago all the way to level 20. We had been playing these characters for 2 years. The characters had gotten close, and the players had built a fantastic relationship with the world and its people.
At the end of their journey, they faced a Dark God of Chaos and Order. This God had managed to kill 4 players, leaving only the Tiefling Sorcerer. At the end of the fight, The God destroyed all of the world. Wiping the slate clean, leaving only a 15 ft circle of stone, floating in an endless Aether, with that Sorcerer on it. He stayed there for 3 days, before looking at the last item he had. An Item I gave the party at the beginning of the campaign 2 years earlier. A Single Scroll with an unknown spell.
I Restrict even allowing Wish to be used, as its a very rare ability in this world, and I figured that they'd sit on the scroll for a while. Honestly I forgot he had it, but he did. A single Wish.
He opened the Scroll and used the spell, and a Golden Effigy of light appeared in front of him. The Golden Effigy was me, the DM essentially. He said he wanted to reverse the destruction, so that the world, and his party could live on.
However, due to the way Magic worked in this homebrew world, It would essentially erase him from existence in doing so.
I told him it would be so. but he asked another wish, I told him it depends.
He said he wanted to say goodbye to his friends.
I put on this song, and let them have a final moment before the Tiefling Sorcerer accompanied the Golden Effigy to the Aether, and the world was restored.
Lots of tears from all involved.
What I'm trying to say is, Thanks for the Song man. It fit perfectly.
She gone..... I cant believe it, actually i dont want to believe it, we used to laugh and having fun each other, but god really miss her than me, atleast im already say my feelings to her and she was happy to hear, she really waiting for me to say that actually... Thats make me happy a little bit. So goodbye take care up there, im not gonna forget you and the day when i stood still.... So goodbye special friend
Ily
October 28th, 2018 is when I said my last goodbye to my dad. Whenever I went over to his house I would bring my Xbox 360 and a copy of Minecraft. He would always enjoy watching me play even though he didn’t really know what was going on. I would give anything to go back in time to play Minecraft with him just once more. Appreciate the time you have with your parents cuz you never know when you’ll say your last goodbye too
Minecraft is life, there are so many feelings, I get angry because I can't express in words what this game makes me feel....
This is the song you put over endless Antonyms.
Love and hate.
Death and life.
Friends and enemy's.
Sunshine and Rain.
darkness and light.
This song fits all of these words in my opinion, it goes to show how amazing C418 was as a musical artist.
I recently lost my uncle. I was walking to a friends' place to be picked up, because my sister had a concert since she's in the schools band. I remember getting in the car, waiting for my brother. I stepped out for a second, and his wife called my aunt. I remember my aunt asking if this was real or a dream. I simply hugged her. I walked in the house and told my brother. I didn't cry, not because I lack empathy or I'm "edgy" like that. I don't want to show others weakness; I'm the class clown that's secretly not doing well. I don't think it was okay for me not to cry. I should have. He was more of a father than my father who left me for drugs. I will miss you. Love you, Chuckie.
the human urge to wander around the forest
I remember my friend we built things in Minecraft together I don't know what I would do without him he died 4 years ago we spent our lives together and I have been lonely since and I'm the only one lonely I have been dying losing rage quitting in Minecraft it's hard without him things didn't go well I quit Minecraft hoping I would forget Minecraft but I can't because in Minecraft there is memories of him.
I remember when I was 9 I used to play a lot Minecraft,I literally played for like 6h a day,it brought me so much joy,but after my mother's death (I was 10 when it happened),I was slowly succumbing to depression and loneliness;now I don't even play Minecraft anymore,because it doesn't bring me joy like it used to.
I have accepted what happened to my mother,and I no longer cry because I miss my mother,instead I've decided to live my life for what it is, hoping that in the future,something bright will come in my life.
Listening to this music makes me imagine how i want to be remembered, sometimes it kinda hurts to think that my death wouldn't cause that big of an impact on anyone, and then i would be forgotten within days, but that's not how i want to go, i want people to leave good memories with my departure, i want people to be happy remembering me. Still I don't want people to be sad remembering me, but happy, i just want to die knowing that someone somewhere really did care for me 🥲
A friend of mine was diagnosed with cancer recently, We used to play Minecraft, roblox, etc together back when we were younger, Ever since I heard he news, I was a nervous wreck for the next day or two, im still thinking about him, sending my prayers and finding time to hang out, he is my only friend and i dont think i could go without any friends like him, If he dies, I'll probably be meeting him soon in heaven aswell.
Memories -_-
It's been 5 years now.. My friend commited suicide when I could text her, And I still don't know why she did that... She was just perfect, the friend everyone wish to have, i'm sure about it. But she left, and I'm afraid to have a best friend, but I think i'll try to take my social life back in control, and I think she teached me a lesson, without her knowing.. So, thanks Charlie for what we did together, and what i'll be able to do next thanks to you.
im sorry for ur lost ☹
I mourn for the deaths of millions of animals. 70% of wildlife has died since 1970
Everyday that you are gone is another bit of pain added onto my soul. I miss you so fucking much. Why did this world have to take you? You didnt deserve to die. I dont think i can keep going myself..i miss you so much, aliyah...
Thought I'd share because I saw some other people doing the same.
When I was 9, I woke up rolled up in my blanket, like a little sausage roll.
I was quite baffled as to how tf I managed it but got up and went downstairs. I told mum about it, and my older sister came downstairs telling me that she came home late last night and saw me lying on top of the bedsheets. Tried to tuck me in and I ended up slapping her lol, so she just rolled me up.
We all laughed about it.
As it was the weekend, my younger siblings and I usually went over to our nanny's house to stay.
A farmer later that evening was walking his dog through the mountains, and came across an odd figure wearing sunglasses, and smiling. Suspended by a rope.
That was the last time I saw her. Smiling.
I hope you're doing okay now Asaya. The pains gone so you can rest now.
I love you.
I needed this. Thank you.
Do you remember when you smiled? Those are the days that will soon be forgotten the days of the past shall not be forgotten but those things are inevitable right? You will soon forget it of you keep on the wrong path of your life you will become like the wrongens i want you to look in the mirror what do you see ofc your self try to think the future of your life but sometimes it does not lead you there sometimes it leades you who you are dont be on teh wrong path choose the correct one carve it make it its your choice theres no scripts in life you make your own desiscions YARE YARE DAZE (GOOD GRIEF)
- a random guy from the internet AKA me
Sometimes when they are deep in dreams, I want to tell them, they are building true worlds in reality. Sometimes I want to tell them of their importance to the universe. Sometimes, when they have not made a true connection in a while, I want to help them to speak the word they fear.
It reads our thoughts.
Sometimes I do not care. Sometimes I wish to tell them, this world you take for truth is merely [scrambled] and [scrambled], I wish to tell them that they are [scrambled] in the [scrambled]. They see so little of reality, in their long dream.
And yet they play the game.
But it would be so easy to tell them...
Too strong for this dream. To tell them how to live is to prevent them living.
I will not tell the player how to live.
The player is growing restless.
I will tell the player a story.
But not the truth.
No. A story that contains the truth safely, in a cage of words. Not the naked truth that can burn over any distance.
Give it a body, again.
Yes. Player...
Take a breath, now. Take another. Feel air in your lungs. Let your limbs return. Yes, move your fingers. Have a body again, under gravity, in air. Respawn in the long dream. There you are. Your body touching the universe again at every point, as though you were separate things. As though we were separate things.
Who are we? Once we were called the spirit of the mountain. Father sun, mother moon. Ancestral spirits, animal spirits. Jinn. Ghosts. The green man. Then gods, demons. Angels. Poltergeists. Aliens, extraterrestrials. Leptons, quarks. The words change. We do not change.
We are the universe. We are everything you think isn't you. You are looking at us now, through your skin and your eyes. And why does the universe touch your skin, and throw light on you? To see you, player. To know you. And to be known. I shall tell you a story.
Once upon a time, there was a player.
The player was you
Sometimes it thought itself human, on the thin crust of a spinning globe of molten rock. The ball of molten rock circled a ball of blazing gas that was three hundred and thirty thousand times more massive than it. They were so far apart that light took eight minutes to cross the gap. The light was information from a star, and it could burn your skin from a hundred and fifty million kilometres away.
Sometimes the player dreamed it was a miner, on the surface of a world that was flat, and infinite. The sun was a square of white. The days were short; there was much to do; and death was a temporary inconvenience.
Sometimes the player dreamed it was lost in a story.
Sometimes the player dreamed it was other things, in other places. Sometimes these dreams were disturbing. Sometimes very beautiful indeed. Sometimes the player woke from one dream into another, then woke from that into a third.
Sometimes the player dreamed it watched words on a screen.
Let's go back.
The atoms of the player were scattered in the grass, in the rivers, in the air, in the ground. A woman gathered the atoms; she drank and ate and inhaled; and the woman assembled the player, in her body.
And the player awoke, from the warm, dark world of its mother's body, into the long dream.
And the player was a new story, never told before, written in letters of DNA. And the player was a new program, never run before, generated by a sourcecode a billion years old. And the player was a new human, never alive before, made from nothing but milk and love.
You are the player. The story. The program. The human. Made from nothing but milk and love.
Let's go further back.
The seven billion billion billion atoms of the player's body were created, long before this game, in the heart of a star. So the player, too, is information from a star. And the player moves through a story, which is a forest of information planted by a man called Julian, on a flat, infinite world created by a man called Markus, that exists inside a small, private world created by the player, who inhabits a universe created by...
Shush. Sometimes the player created a small, private world that was soft and warm and simple. Sometimes hard, and cold, and complicated. Sometimes it built a model of the universe in its head; flecks of energy, moving through vast empty spaces. Sometimes it called those flecks "electrons" and "protons".
Sometimes it called them "planets" and "stars".
Sometimes it believed it was in a universe that was made of energy that was made of offs and ons; zeros and ones; lines of code. Sometimes it believed it was playing a game. Sometimes it believed it was reading words on a screen.
You are the player, reading words...
Shush... Sometimes the player read lines of code on a screen. Decoded them into words; decoded words into meaning; decoded meaning into feelings, emotions, theories, ideas, and the player started to breathe faster and deeper and realised it was alive, it was alive, those thousand deaths had not been real, the player was alive
You. You. You are alive.
and sometimes the player believed the universe had spoken to it through the sunlight that came through the shuffling leaves of the summer trees
and sometimes the player believed the universe had spoken to it through the light that fell from the crisp night sky of winter, where a fleck of light in the corner of the player's eye might be a star a million times as massive as the sun, boiling its planets to plasma in order to be visible for a moment to the player, walking home at the far side of the universe, suddenly smelling food, almost at the familiar door, about to dream again
and sometimes the player believed the universe had spoken to it through the zeros and ones, through the electricity of the world, through the scrolling words on a screen at the end of a dream
and the universe said I love you
and the universe said you have played the game well
and the universe said everything you need is within you
and the universe said you are stronger than you know
and the universe said you are the daylight
and the universe said you are the night
and the universe said the darkness you fight is within you
and the universe said the light you seek is within you
and the universe said you are not alone
and the universe said you are not separate from every other thing
and the universe said you are the universe tasting itself, talking to itself, reading its own code
and the universe said I love you because you are love.
And the game was over and the player woke up from the dream. And the player began a new dream. And the player dreamed again, dreamed better. And the player was the universe. And the player was love.
You are the player.
Wake up.
holy shit this is next level sad
My life has been amazing, but it’s only just begun