neru(the person who made the song): And now on to the weather report with our weatherman, Rin? Rin? Rin: IT'S GONNA RAIN! neru: Thank you Rin! (quietly) why did we hire her? Rin: cLiMaTe ChAnGe!!! neru: AHHH!!! (Does anyone get the reference)
"Welcome to Neru's weather report for tomorrow, it will mostly rain, but I wholeheartedly want to die. I'm Kagamine Rin, and this is again, Neru's weather report for tomorrow, thanks for checking in."
it's quite nice to scroll through comments and see how vocaloid songs like this can reach people from all over the world. i see comments here in Japanese, in English, in Spanish, in French... someone here said they're from Vietnam. another person wrote in Korean. Neru's music is touching people all over the world!! Incredible. I hope they find a way to read the foreign comments as well. ^^ By the way, I haven't been listening to Neru much until recently, and I'm loving it so much ♡
@@cannolicorgi8913 for me i sometimes resent them because they got the better side of life, i hope they finally hit a damn wall and suffer just like i did
@@francescomane7122 if you search Neru Akita or Akita Neru in Google, you will know if Neru is a girl 😄, by the way, sorry for my grammar cause I'm not British 😅🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
The part when she's hanging out the window and basically about to kill herself but backs out every time and says "I'll just eat some cake instead" is such a mood, I-
It's like that friend you knew when you were younger but then they moved away or something but now you run into them out of nowhere and they've gotten hot
なんか……作った人を知らずにボカロ曲聴いてたら大体Neruさんだと今頃発覚しだしてきました 2020.6.23 Postscript 青春真っ只中にNeruさんの楽曲に出会えて良かったです😊 When it was young, it was good to be able to come across your music😊 2021.4.16 来るたびに自分のコメあるから何か言いたくなるww コロナ禍でもずっと聴いてました。Neruさんありがとう！ 2022.3.15 最近曲作りをはじめたんですがまだ右も左も分からない状況です笑 2023.2.2 なんかこんなに海外の人まみれだったか！？Spotifyに無いのかみたいなコメント見かけるけど「世界征服」内に入ってるよ〜ちょっとアレンジされてるから聴き比べてみてね(と日本語で言う)
how come i can still remember lyrics in both english and japanese to songs that I used to listen 3-4 yrs ago but I can't remember two definitions for a test...
If you're being serious... there's more to learning than memorization. Here in a song, there is a rhythm, a melody, kinetics - it's fun, emotional, and lays a premise for association - whereas on a test there's the stress and raw information dissociated from being relatable. Learning for the sake of learning doesn't work well, especially if your instructor is a jackass who treats expression, thinking, learning, and academics as interchangeable elements and doesn't help you balance them in ways that work well. Sure, they're interconnected, but they aren't equivalent. It just doesn't work like that. Worse still, language is kinda like mathematics: most programs teach it in the worst and least effective ways possible by just formulaically throwing a bunch of shit at you and leaving it up to you to make it stick. I apologize for my rant. Thanks to China's bioweapon experiment, the shift to online classes amidst the societal shutdown is putting me in a bad place academically (I hate academics, anyways). Plus, I've had my share of shitty professors at university - I'd love to go back in time and scream at a few of these specific persons in complete apathy of punishment measures. Bad teachers deal lifelong damage.
I don't know if it's just me.. but the way people describe "edgy" in these comments really might not be the best way to respond to someone's opinion about the song- the way I see it, edgy is a phase where you wear black, everything sucks, and you want to self isolate forever. I would know. on the other hand, mental illness/disorders effect a large portion of your life/your entire life. people have every right to talk about their mental illnesses, as it's not "edgy" to have them. sometimes it's out of our control to feel this way. when you're edgy, it's something you can escape from quick, even if it's the most damn difficult thing. with any mental illness/disorder. it eats away at you, and it becomes more and more easy to succumb to the monster. so.. it's just my dumb opinion. No hate, but maybe we shouldn't be calling people edgy when they have mental shit going on. idk... I'm just a kid.
Thank you! As someone with mild agoraphobia, depression, anxiety, stuff I've been suffering from for years now and genuinely enjoying and connecting with some stuff people immediately label as "edgy" and feeling guilty for merely enjoying something because apparently it makes me like an "eDgY tWeLvE yEaR oLd" (I'm in my late teens) it can get kinda depressing on it's own just because I feel like I'm not worthy of existing due to my interests. This is something more people need to see. Even when people say it jokingly, it gets to the point where every month or so I have to ask close friends if I'm really that intolerable, etc, and get approval before I can let go of that doubt for another month. I think it can be used as a fun phrase, but there's a point where it feels like people cross that line but no one has established a line yet so no one cares. Sorry if I rambled on a little, its kinda tough to talk about your issues to people when they immediately go 'fake' or 'edgy' the moment you confess something. As someone who literally struggles with suicidal issues, this is actually really heartwarming. Thank you.
Kira Lonely I'm really happy something I said on the internet was able to warm your heart ^^ I'm only 13, so I don't have much experience with mental illness, but I get what you're talking about! I've been diagnosed with mild schizophrenia and depression from my late dad, so I have to take meds. when I talk about it to people, I'll get called "edgy" or people go as far as to say I'm faking it. it really cuts deep, yknow. but edgy is a term that's fun to joke around with, yes! but when you're using it to label something that's very much a real thing.. then.. it's kinda the same as calling someone with a learning delay "retarded". it's not really the best thing to do. yknow?
@@steelstreqq I agree. I am goth so I enjoy darker things. Shopping at Hot Topic because they have good creepy T-shirts or being depressed and hurting yourself doesn't make you a 'faker' or 'edgy'. I'm 16, almost 17, but a lot of what I like, of what I feel inside, something that fills that emptiness and makes me feel a little more whole, it's referred to in such a way that makes my existence, my right to breathe the same air and enjoy things in peace, it makes me feel worthless. And especially when it's someone depressed, they likely already feel that way, I've gone into full depressive moods and been unable to get out of bed from reading online of all the things people say and how everything is sOO eDgY. Again, there's a point of it. To me, if you're edgy, or referred to as such, you're being called either a toxic person or a faker, and both are just heartbreaking to hear, from the ones you love, from people who stop by just to spout it out and hurt you because they can. I have ADHD, OCD, depression, anxiety, and other minor issues. I can't eat in front of people out of pure terror and humiliation due to having issues with 'pickiness' or as I would rather say, nearly throwing up from putting a tiny nibble of one of my intolerable foods in my mouth. I can't go in public without headphones to drown out people and it has to be not crowded, plus I have to not be in a bad mood. Sometimes if I woke up good, I can go into a crowded place, but that's so rare I barely consider it. Being depressed isn't fun, having fear of everything around you, an imagination so vivid you convince yourself of near delusions and have sort of internal hallucinations that you don't see but you see in your head to detailed and vivid that your body reacts the same, convincing yourself of feeling things you never want to feel, losing all trust in people from being betrayed and lied to time and time again, to the point that you barely trust yourself and you ask yourself if life is even worth living? It's exhausting, just existing. I can understand how faking it could be rude, but being told your guilty with no way to prove yourself just makes you sink deeper into your own mind and scream inside at all your flaws until your head numbs out in a foggy after-cry bliss. If I could, I wouldn't want to tear out my hair and dig my teeth into my hand so hard it bruises anytime someone raises their voice at me, or even seems aggressive online. If I could be different I would. But there's nothing I can do to change me, and being told that your being, who you are, the only thing you have that feels stable-ish, that thought that you are wrong inherently being reaffirmed with just a simple word could push someone over the edge. I do wish you the best of luck, I know schizophrenia is a really tough disorder, a lack of a stable reality, albeit somewhat easy to relate to, as I spend my days locked away in my head, I know I won't really be able to experience. I send you good luck from where I am, and thanks, as even though it may be such a simple comment to make, it can really help people feel less alone. Especially when they're like me, and can't be around new people easy without having a panic attack but can't stand to be alone with my own thoughts. So yes, thank you for your words, I'm glad it made you happy, as it did me. Sorry it's such a long reply but I wanted to get my thoughts out a little. I felt alone and confused for years because my mother convinced me to not tell people I saw shadows moving and had made monsters with such detail and fear that I was afraid to sleep for years. And telling people anyways, and feeling like I'm overreacting because 'they see shadows moving too' but knowing it must be different because being alone in my room was terrifying enough, I slept with the light on until I was like 12-13, maybe 14. I still sleep with stuffed animals, and my monsters have developed to torture my outside life and hang just out of sight to drive me crazy. (Imaginary hallucinations.) I was so hungry one night but so afraid to leave my room I literally chewed on my pillowcase and dealt through the pain because I didn't wanna get in trouble and knew I couldn't turn the kitchen light off if I went for a snack. Feeling alone is the worst feeling, and I'm just thankful people still attempt to help those who feel such empty misery.
That's a pretty fair comment. I remember being a teen and hating people around me until I worked on being more empathetic. It comes more naturally to some. It's nice to see some people aren't completely jaded :)
That's correct but in this comment section ppl that thinking this song is relatable are like 70% are just trying to seek for attention and being edgy in my opinion. I don't mean all,just 70% of them. There may be really people who is suffering of mental illness, and they're definitely not edgy,bless them. But srsly I hate to see kids that think faking mental illness, depression etc. are cool ,it should be stopped
I feel a little jealous of all those young adults that listened and related to this when they were teens but not anymore. They managed to leave their depressed teen phase behind....on the contrary here I am. A 21 year old still dealing with depression.
Even if they left their depressed teen phase behind, the fought to get rid of it , they didn't give up, so no matter what your age , keep moving forward and you'll see that your depression will become an old memory ( always hope for a brighter future ) (sorry if I sounded pretentious , it wasn't my purpose)
29 and I still want to die lol. As you get older your likes feel more and more like desperate distractions to keep you from true happiness. There isn't any real point to put it off, because as said everything loses its meaning the older you get.
This song helped me go through a childhood~preteens crippled by OCD and clinical depression. Thank you for making the life of my 6th grade self a little bit easier. It felt great to not be alone in this.
14-year-old me : This song is so relatable 16-year-old me : *Cringed* 17-year-old me : Oh shit I found this somewhat relatable again. I should be worried.
The most concerning thing about this song is how so many people even myself can relate to this... That moment when you listen to a sad vocaliod song when your sad and scroll through the comments to just be happy your not alone :)
I loved this song when i was 11, and I love this song still at 20. I hope everyone who commented a couple years ago saying it was relatable is still around. Maybe we will all make it and just have some cake and take a couple deep breaths.
I remember when I used to relate to this song...I don't anymore, as I'm in a much better place mentally and actually got into a school that values my mental health before my grades, but I actually cried remembering how much pain I used to be in. Jeez...I hope everyone going through something while listening to this song gets better.
12 years old me: idk what does this mean but i like it 14 years old me: *bro this is so relatable* 15 years old me: *B R O T H I S I S R E L A T A B L E A S H E L L* we'll be right back when i'm 16 16 years old me: guys.... nothing has changed this is still relatable OKAY GUYS 17 YEARS OLD i was doing well, hope i won't relapse 18y/o me: guys i found i have borderline personality disorder
This is for future me, just in case I come back here and TH-cam still exists. I'm not in the best mindset right now, but I hope you are in a good mindset. Have you told mom and dad yet? Are you still friends with everyone? Have you stopped cutting? I love you, stay strong. From 11 yo you.
to present and future you, i hope things really do get better. i hope you find the mindset that lets you live happily and allow yourself to stay in it, even if you have to fight through a thousand other mindsets to find it. sorry for butting it, but best of luck.
Here are the romaji lyrics! Atamagonashi no kijou no kuuron kubi kara shita ga kuuchuubunkai Namari de tsumugu shourai sekkei ronsou no fantajii Mimi o sumaseba koko dake no hanashi jitsu wa ano ko wa monokuro papetto Kokoro no naka de kainarasu shujin hensuu no shinfonni Aa, watashi ni nefuda tsukete Aa, jinsei mo ryuunen sun no matte sa shishagonyuu Kudaranai ne yametakute mado kara kao dashite sa Tsumaranai ne akite kite shinu yuuki mo nai desho Kudaranai ne yametakute tesuji ni chuusha sashite sa Tsumaranai ne akite kite keeki demo kutte shinkokyuu shiterunda yo Dare mo kare mo ga chuuburarinrin atama no neji ga suuhon tarinai Kusari de tsunagu ni baito jinsei yuujou no fakutorii Antena taterya koko dake no hanashi jitsu wa ano ko mo masukomi monkii Kiiroikoe de reikan shouhou sonzai no dasutori Aa, kimi mo kochira ni oide yo Aa, sou yatte nannin ayamenno sa shishagonyuu Kudaranai ne yametakute mune ni naifu atete sa Tsumaranai ne akite kite kurushimu kakugo nai desho Kudaranai ne yametakute atama made tsukatte sa Tsumaranai ne akite kite omou dake nara tada nanda yo Aa, kojiki mitai ni hatte sa Aa, sonnan ja shoumei owarandesho shishagonyuu Kudaranai ne yametakute douro ni tobidashite sa Tsumaranai ne akite kite tochuu de nigedasu desho Kudaranai ne yametakute komekami juu de utte sa Tsumaranai ne akite kite sonna mousou suru dake Datte nakitakute kurshikute dare ni mo sugarezu Kono koe wa warawarete mushisarete tsumari watashi wa tada no garakuta Ashita wa kitto ame da.
this song is fire, and vocaloid needs more songs like these. i mean, rock and heavy metal is usually rare to find in vocaloid and sometimes common in utauloid. im usually a rock person, so i would like to see more rock songs/alternative songs in vocaloid/utauloid.
I miss listening to vocaloid... I am currently on a roll with listening to vocaloid songs that I use to listen to years ago. Neru is one of my favorites producer's.
this song is officially how I have being dealing with anger, just blasting it as loud as posible on my headphones, always works, also, it's still very relatable, been hearing it since 8th grade lmao
It's kind of scary how much I can relate to this. The second they said they wanted to kill themselves but their to afraid to hit home. I always think about killing myself but I'm terrified of actually doing it. Someone once said that they weren't scared of death but what it takes to get there. I recently told myself that maybe when I'm an adult I'll do it but who knows? I still have six more years to go.
Hey. Please, talk to me, Im not very old but please. Theres still hope yet and theres those who will listen to you. My discord is オールマイト#2468 My instagram is official_catralaxx11 My twitter is Pngcatralaxx and my facebook is Julian V.
I know how old this song is, but I’ve been listening to it a lot recently. It really makes me feel a certain kind of way. I can relate to it in my own way. It’s so nice seeing so many other people who can relate to this pour their hearts out. I’m proud of you guys. Keep going :)
It's gonna blow your mind when you find out this was originally uploaded to NicoNico in 2011. Neru's just uploading his old music to TH-cam now, so this song is actually from way before 2017.
Middle school must have been rough for this to be one of my top songs 😔 Thank you Neru for giving us a way to grapple with our feelings and understand that we aren't alone.
this is a song i listened to when i was 11-12 y/o that i completely forgot about, just re-discovering it as a 16y/o now i remember how amazing it is and i can't believe i actually forgot about it 😭
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I listened to this yesterday and now it's raining. Rin's weather report was correct.
Listrn to the song everyday and it will always rain. Raku is a weather reporter.
IT'S RAINING WHEN I FIRST LISTENED TO THIS WHAT THE HECK-
It's gonna rain where I am later, so...
neru(the person who made the song): And now on to the weather report with our weatherman, Rin? Rin?
Rin: IT'S GONNA RAIN!
neru: Thank you Rin! (quietly) why did we hire her?
Rin: cLiMaTe ChAnGe!!!
neru: AHHH!!!
(Does anyone get the reference)
It's raining today. I saw this song today
"Welcome to Neru's weather report for tomorrow, it will mostly rain, but I wholeheartedly want to die. I'm Kagamine Rin, and this is again, Neru's weather report for tomorrow, thanks for checking in."
Imagine that was a real weather report. That would be interesting and concerning.
Underrated
Hi rin
this comment is gold
oh nice weather report jojobro ;w;
*remembering listening to this at 6th grade*
Biancake Marie god the memories
Saaaame 😂😂 my little 11 y/o weebo self who felt angry loved this ❤
When you're depressed and you listen to depressing songs even though you know it's not gonna make anything better.
lol #relatable
Yeah when I still have that typical form 2 syndrome
I listened to this in fourth grade for some reason
it's quite nice to scroll through comments and see how vocaloid songs like this can reach people from all over the world. i see comments here in Japanese, in English, in Spanish, in French... someone here said they're from Vietnam. another person wrote in Korean.
Neru's music is touching people all over the world!! Incredible. I hope they find a way to read the foreign comments as well. ^^
By the way, I haven't been listening to Neru much until recently, and I'm loving it so much ♡
SweetSoSweet Poland is here too!! 😂😂
From Vietnam commenting in english and japanese 😂
SweetSoSweet lol im dutch XD
India here!
Romanian here~
13 year old me: *this isn’t relatable idk what everyone else is talking about*
18 year old me: *this is so relatable*
Agreee
I related to this song at 13, even at 10 lol
brocoli same,, life isn’t going all too well for me, even at such a young age.
I always feel so happy for the people who skipped the depression phase of the teen years. Then I keep praying that I do the same.
@@cannolicorgi8913 for me i sometimes resent them because they got the better side of life, i hope they finally hit a damn wall and suffer just like i did
*for anyone that doesn't know: Neru is just uploading his older songs to TH-cam. This is not his new song.
Neru is a girl
@@kadalmerayapkiero602 Nope he's not....
@@francescomane7122 if you search Neru Akita or Akita Neru in Google, you will know if Neru is a girl 😄, by the way, sorry for my grammar cause I'm not British 😅🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
Cherry X Cherry Akita Neru is a fanloid/pitchloid not the producer Neru. Akita Neru is girl and Vocalo-P Neru is a boy
@@krityamari3454 now i know, thank you for sharing this information 🙏🏻
The part when she's hanging out the window and basically about to kill herself but backs out every time and says "I'll just eat some cake instead" is such a mood, I-
I'm this only imagine this
Me: says I'll excersise
Also me: I'll just eat cake
Me:no
Also me: eats all the cake anyway
@@Edible_edibility RELATABLE OMG-
@@ikimono7382 cake is love food is life
@@Edible_edibility heck yeah
@@ikimono7382 I'm now craving cheesecake
It's like that friend you knew when you were younger but then they moved away or something but now you run into them out of nowhere and they've gotten hot
Cute Chikorita oddly specific, can't relate, but also very true
The hell does that have to do with this song
It's an old song
Cute Chikorita lmfao true thoughh
Matcha Chikorita Watamote???
なんか……作った人を知らずにボカロ曲聴いてたら大体Neruさんだと今頃発覚しだしてきました
2020.6.23 Postscript
青春真っ只中にNeruさんの楽曲に出会えて良かったです😊
When it was young, it was good to be able to come across your music😊
2021.4.16
来るたびに自分のコメあるから何か言いたくなるww
コロナ禍でもずっと聴いてました。Neruさんありがとう！
2022.3.15
最近曲作りをはじめたんですがまだ右も左も分からない状況です笑
2023.2.2
なんかこんなに海外の人まみれだったか！？Spotifyに無いのかみたいなコメント見かけるけど「世界征服」内に入ってるよ〜ちょっとアレンジされてるから聴き比べてみてね(と日本語で言う)
すすんすす 自分もです！！
私もです笑
私もです|дﾟ)ﾁﾗｯ
わたしも
同じです…
how come i can still remember lyrics in both english and japanese to songs that I used to listen 3-4 yrs ago but I can't remember two definitions for a test...
Isabella Maria cause you dont rly wanna learn stuff for the test and you like this so your brain wants todo it hh
that's life
If you're being serious... there's more to learning than memorization. Here in a song, there is a rhythm, a melody, kinetics - it's fun, emotional, and lays a premise for association - whereas on a test there's the stress and raw information dissociated from being relatable. Learning for the sake of learning doesn't work well, especially if your instructor is a jackass who treats expression, thinking, learning, and academics as interchangeable elements and doesn't help you balance them in ways that work well. Sure, they're interconnected, but they aren't equivalent. It just doesn't work like that. Worse still, language is kinda like mathematics: most programs teach it in the worst and least effective ways possible by just formulaically throwing a bunch of shit at you and leaving it up to you to make it stick.
I apologize for my rant. Thanks to China's bioweapon experiment, the shift to online classes amidst the societal shutdown is putting me in a bad place academically (I hate academics, anyways). Plus, I've had my share of shitty professors at university - I'd love to go back in time and scream at a few of these specific persons in complete apathy of punishment measures. Bad teachers deal lifelong damage.
Repetition Baby....
Because you’re a fucking weeb. I would know-
真夜中に外に出てイヤホンで大音量で聞くのが最近の楽しみ
No, hear me out.
*Blast it in your house with speakers and annoy your neighbors*
@@omori_dweeb I don’t think they speak English
@倉戸 はい、分かり。僕でもTH-camが翻訳と含むの知るませんした｡ （にパソコン) （悪いを日本語ごめんなさい｡)
@@yuulfuji
We can understand English at all.
@@hittukimusi. 私はヒンディー語しか理解できません。
I don't know if it's just me.. but the way people describe "edgy" in these comments really might not be the best way to respond to someone's opinion about the song-
the way I see it, edgy is a phase where you wear black, everything sucks, and you want to self isolate forever. I would know. on the other hand, mental illness/disorders effect a large portion of your life/your entire life. people have every right to talk about their mental illnesses, as it's not "edgy" to have them. sometimes it's out of our control to feel this way. when you're edgy, it's something you can escape from quick, even if it's the most damn difficult thing. with any mental illness/disorder. it eats away at you, and it becomes more and more easy to succumb to the monster. so.. it's just my dumb opinion. No hate, but maybe we shouldn't be calling people edgy when they have mental shit going on. idk... I'm just a kid.
Thank you! As someone with mild agoraphobia, depression, anxiety, stuff I've been suffering from for years now and genuinely enjoying and connecting with some stuff people immediately label as "edgy" and feeling guilty for merely enjoying something because apparently it makes me like an "eDgY tWeLvE yEaR oLd" (I'm in my late teens) it can get kinda depressing on it's own just because I feel like I'm not worthy of existing due to my interests. This is something more people need to see. Even when people say it jokingly, it gets to the point where every month or so I have to ask close friends if I'm really that intolerable, etc, and get approval before I can let go of that doubt for another month. I think it can be used as a fun phrase, but there's a point where it feels like people cross that line but no one has established a line yet so no one cares. Sorry if I rambled on a little, its kinda tough to talk about your issues to people when they immediately go 'fake' or 'edgy' the moment you confess something. As someone who literally struggles with suicidal issues, this is actually really heartwarming. Thank you.
Kira Lonely I'm really happy something I said on the internet was able to warm your heart ^^
I'm only 13, so I don't have much experience with mental illness, but I get what you're talking about! I've been diagnosed with mild schizophrenia and depression from my late dad, so I have to take meds. when I talk about it to people, I'll get called "edgy" or people go as far as to say I'm faking it. it really cuts deep, yknow. but edgy is a term that's fun to joke around with, yes! but when you're using it to label something that's very much a real thing.. then.. it's kinda the same as calling someone with a learning delay "retarded". it's not really the best thing to do. yknow?
@@steelstreqq I agree. I am goth so I enjoy darker things. Shopping at Hot Topic because they have good creepy T-shirts or being depressed and hurting yourself doesn't make you a 'faker' or 'edgy'. I'm 16, almost 17, but a lot of what I like, of what I feel inside, something that fills that emptiness and makes me feel a little more whole, it's referred to in such a way that makes my existence, my right to breathe the same air and enjoy things in peace, it makes me feel worthless. And especially when it's someone depressed, they likely already feel that way, I've gone into full depressive moods and been unable to get out of bed from reading online of all the things people say and how everything is sOO eDgY. Again, there's a point of it. To me, if you're edgy, or referred to as such, you're being called either a toxic person or a faker, and both are just heartbreaking to hear, from the ones you love, from people who stop by just to spout it out and hurt you because they can. I have ADHD, OCD, depression, anxiety, and other minor issues. I can't eat in front of people out of pure terror and humiliation due to having issues with 'pickiness' or as I would rather say, nearly throwing up from putting a tiny nibble of one of my intolerable foods in my mouth. I can't go in public without headphones to drown out people and it has to be not crowded, plus I have to not be in a bad mood. Sometimes if I woke up good, I can go into a crowded place, but that's so rare I barely consider it. Being depressed isn't fun, having fear of everything around you, an imagination so vivid you convince yourself of near delusions and have sort of internal hallucinations that you don't see but you see in your head to detailed and vivid that your body reacts the same, convincing yourself of feeling things you never want to feel, losing all trust in people from being betrayed and lied to time and time again, to the point that you barely trust yourself and you ask yourself if life is even worth living? It's exhausting, just existing. I can understand how faking it could be rude, but being told your guilty with no way to prove yourself just makes you sink deeper into your own mind and scream inside at all your flaws until your head numbs out in a foggy after-cry bliss. If I could, I wouldn't want to tear out my hair and dig my teeth into my hand so hard it bruises anytime someone raises their voice at me, or even seems aggressive online. If I could be different I would. But there's nothing I can do to change me, and being told that your being, who you are, the only thing you have that feels stable-ish, that thought that you are wrong inherently being reaffirmed with just a simple word could push someone over the edge. I do wish you the best of luck, I know schizophrenia is a really tough disorder, a lack of a stable reality, albeit somewhat easy to relate to, as I spend my days locked away in my head, I know I won't really be able to experience. I send you good luck from where I am, and thanks, as even though it may be such a simple comment to make, it can really help people feel less alone. Especially when they're like me, and can't be around new people easy without having a panic attack but can't stand to be alone with my own thoughts. So yes, thank you for your words, I'm glad it made you happy, as it did me. Sorry it's such a long reply but I wanted to get my thoughts out a little. I felt alone and confused for years because my mother convinced me to not tell people I saw shadows moving and had made monsters with such detail and fear that I was afraid to sleep for years. And telling people anyways, and feeling like I'm overreacting because 'they see shadows moving too' but knowing it must be different because being alone in my room was terrifying enough, I slept with the light on until I was like 12-13, maybe 14. I still sleep with stuffed animals, and my monsters have developed to torture my outside life and hang just out of sight to drive me crazy. (Imaginary hallucinations.) I was so hungry one night but so afraid to leave my room I literally chewed on my pillowcase and dealt through the pain because I didn't wanna get in trouble and knew I couldn't turn the kitchen light off if I went for a snack. Feeling alone is the worst feeling, and I'm just thankful people still attempt to help those who feel such empty misery.
That's a pretty fair comment. I remember being a teen and hating people around me until I worked on being more empathetic. It comes more naturally to some. It's nice to see some people aren't completely jaded :)
That's correct but in this comment section ppl that thinking this song is relatable are like 70% are just trying to seek for attention and being edgy in my opinion.
I don't mean all,just 70% of them.
There may be really people who is suffering of mental illness, and they're definitely not edgy,bless them.
But srsly I hate to see kids that think faking mental illness, depression etc. are cool ,it should be stopped
I wonder if all of us who listened to this everyday would’ve been friends, lol
not all of us, since it's hard to get along with me
@@Vixemint the edGEEEE
@@ember5031 I wasn't trying to be edgy. I'm just mean ;-;
@@Vixemint then let's be friend 🤣
@@kikijihan8316 alright then
需要あるかは分かりませんが、歌詞見つからなかったので…
頭ごなしの机上の空論 首から下が空中分解
鉛で紡ぐ将来設計 論争のファンタジー
耳を澄ませばここだけの話 実はあの子はモノクロパペット
心の中で飼い慣らす主人 変数のシンフォニー
あー、ワタシに値札付けて
あー、人生も留年すんの待ってさ
四捨五入
くだらないね やめたくて
窓から顔出してさ
つまらないね あきてきて
シぬ勇気もないでしょ
くだらないね やめたくて
手首に注射挿してさ
つまらないね あきてきて
ケーキでも食って深呼吸してるんだよ
誰も彼もが宙ぶらりんりん 頭のネジが数本足りない
鎖で繋ぐ２バイト生活 友情のファクトリー
アンテナ立てりゃここだけの話 実はあの子もマスコミモンキー
黄色い声で霊感商法 存在のダストリー
あー、君もコチラにおいでよ
あー、そうやって何人アヤめんのさ
四捨五入
くだらないね やめたくて
胸にナイフ当ててさ
つまらないね あきてきて
苦しむ覚悟ないでしょ
くだらないね やめたくて
頭まで浸かってさ
つまらないね あきてきて
思うだけならタダなんだよ
あー、乞食みたいに這ってさ
あー、そんなんじゃ証明終わらんでしょ
四捨五入
くだらないね やめたくて
道路に飛び出してさ
つまらないね あきてきて
途中で逃げ出すでしょ
くだらないね やめたくて
コメカミ銃で撃ってさ
つまらないね あきてきて
そんな妄想するだけ
だって
なきたくて
くるしくて
だれにもすがれず
このこえは
わらわれて
むしされて
つまりワタシはただのガラクタ
明日はきっと雨だ
I feel a little jealous of all those young adults that listened and related to this when they were teens but not anymore. They managed to leave their depressed teen phase behind....on the contrary here I am. A 21 year old still dealing with depression.
Even if they left their depressed teen phase behind, the fought to get rid of it , they didn't give up, so no matter what your age , keep moving forward and you'll see that your depression will become an old memory ( always hope for a brighter future ) (sorry if I sounded pretentious , it wasn't my purpose)
I wish you the best of luck if it can help.
Lol nah, I'm 24, heard this song first time years ago and it just becoming more and more relatable with years passed tbh
Same here but I'm 20. I'm still dealing with it, you're not alone Mikah
29 and I still want to die lol. As you get older your likes feel more and more like desperate distractions to keep you from true happiness. There isn't any real point to put it off, because as said everything loses its meaning the older you get.
This song helped me go through a childhood~preteens crippled by OCD and clinical depression. Thank you for making the life of my 6th grade self a little bit easier. It felt great to not be alone in this.
Oh heck, those suck big time. I have ocd too, didn’t know about this song though rip
im glad youre okay man :)
on an unrelated note, i know exactly where that profile picture comes from...
@@barrysteakfriessimp_real Thank you! And yes, we see each other!
Idk if you'll see this but i also have ocd and GOD this song is so relatable.... It'll get better though. Some day.
12 year old me's anthem honestly
This is so true it hurts. x_x
No kidding
This was uploaded last year..?
I opened this with thoughts "here we go, my anthem"
(Exactly anthem was in my thoughts)
Scraped Nun welp, i am 10
死にたくて逃げたくて毎日引き摺るように生きていた時、この曲がずっとそばにいてくれた
がんばれなんて、前を向けなんて、何の足しにもならない
寄り添ってくれるあなたのなんとありがたいことか
でも、もう大丈夫
…本当にありがとう
今も大好き
*life is one hell of a rollercoaster so it’s best to sit tight and enjoy the ride rather than cut it short*
コメ欄が鬼グローバル
11 year old: This song is so relatable
15 year me: This song is so relatable
:')
14-year-old me : This song is so relatable
16-year-old me : *Cringed*
17-year-old me : Oh shit I found this somewhat relatable again. I should be worried.
*Me who likes the song but can't relate very much*
I hug you all
18 in a day, still relate to this song
No character development,,,
@@rantaroamami3489 lmao, no development on my behalf as well, not like Im sad about it tho
wow this brings back so many memories... ♡
Omg so true **
-666 likes-
;)
中学生の時めっちゃ聞いてた曲！
またハマりそう
これからNeruさん少しずつ過去曲投稿してくって！！
(嬉しすぎて発狂中）
空色 本家で聴けるってやっぱり重要だよね♪( ´▽｀)
そうね！！
やったね
やったー！
やったーーー！！！！！ヤバ、嬉しすぎて死ぬーーーー！！！！
マジですか⁈
凄い嬉しい・・・‼︎
そっかもう10年前なのか
10代だからこそ書ける曲、10代だからこそ刺さる曲の真骨頂でしょ
にしても海外人気強え…
still one of the favourite songs by Neru T_T
Same here
neru doesnt tune len/rin this proper anymore...
Noutenki STYLE
この曲周りで知ってる人少ないからこれで知ってる人が増えればいいなとか思ってる
misty しもかじ
それな
この前カラオケで歌ったらボカロ好きの子に｢何それ｣って言われた…
[窒素] 蒼藍。
もうそれはボカロ好きじゃない！
(大げさ)
【Mrs. Alexandros】
いや多分そのレベルや…
たった今この動画見て知りましたｗ
脱法ロックのイメージが強すぎるってのもありますしココ最近なってボカロを聞くようになったからｗ
@@ほりしょー-k3z Neruさん脱法ロックのイメージ強いですか？笑
個人的にはロストワン筆頭にこういう「殺」とかそういったイメージが大きいです！
まぁこの曲知ってくれてよかった( ⁎ᵕᴗᵕ⁎ )❤︎
The most concerning thing about this song is how so many people even myself can relate to this...
That moment when you listen to a sad vocaliod song when your sad and scroll through the comments to just be happy your not alone :)
聴くたびに青春のぶり返しです
小さい頃お世話になりました
弱い自分が寄りかかりたい時に聞きたい曲です
THA BEST SONG IN THE UNIVERSE THE GUITARS, THE DRUMS EVERYTHING OMFGG 😭😭😭😭😭 I LOVE YOU NERU FOR CREATING THIS MASTERPIECE AND A RELATABLE SONG AAAA
この曲は当時小学生だった私が衝撃を受けた曲です
懐かしいです
上げてくださりありがとうございます！！！
Me too!
Sorry I can’t speak Japanese
これからは！！無断転載を聞かなくてすむ！！！Neruさんありがとうございます！！
(Neruさん大丈夫かな...)
ろんめ
公式からは嬉しいですよね
♯Neruさん大丈夫かな
このコメぜったいあると思ったw
まふまふとたらこが大好きな美味しいトマト
あ、思いっきり誤字ってました
#neruさん大丈夫かな
@@てる-c3j
#Neruさん大丈夫かな
NOSTALGIA! :3
I loved this song when i was 11, and I love this song still at 20. I hope everyone who commented a couple years ago saying it was relatable is still around. Maybe we will all make it and just have some cake and take a couple deep breaths.
I am alive‼️
Hallo! My first time listening this was when I'm 18 years old, now i'm back as 26 years old lady. XD
I remember when I used to relate to this song...I don't anymore, as I'm in a much better place mentally and actually got into a school that values my mental health before my grades, but I actually cried remembering how much pain I used to be in. Jeez...I hope everyone going through something while listening to this song gets better.
i’m glad you’re in a better place now and hope you’re having a good day
イラストからして好きですわ。
最初聴いた時寧ろ好きじゃなかったのに聴けば聴くほど好きになってくる(今はだいすこ)スルメ曲
Corinすこ せやなw
最初から好きでした！
YIKES I REMEMBER I USED TO LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH ON 3RD GRADE
GOD ME TOO
now im coming back bc im 13 and it's legally required for all 13 year olds to be edgy and want to kill their school
@@poopfarder lmao, well you could be right except the part about it being legal
Goddamn third grade? How old are you rn?
3rd grade? jesus christ
本当にNeruさんの曲は一つ一つ刺さってくる…
かっこよすぎる、痺れる、大好き
Neruさんの歌詞は共感できるから大好き
sad how this was relatable when i was 11 and STILL is relatable to me now that I'm almost 20. For anyone who's struggling, you can do it. Really.
I know I’m late(like, really late) but good luck, you can get through this! I wish you the best :D
通知きた瞬間飛んできました
この曲大好きです
ドラムかっこよすぎる
honestly this entire song is a mood
"there's no point in enduring the pain of living but i'm too scared to die"
At 0:46
Make Me Wanna ask my teacher:
“If I was a machine, how much is my price?”
Ofc its free for your teacher
Yea u r free but you still usefull
Your teacher is expensive and useless
@@noriinnori5845 *That is a burn of the third degree.*
@@noriinnori5845 OOF-
@@noriinnori5845 😭
@@noriinnori5845 How dare you say Kiyoteru is useless
本家がきて嬉しい！
自分が中学生のとき聞いてめっちゃ衝撃が走ったのを覚えてる！Neruさんはやっぱ最高ですすすす
12 years old me: idk what does this mean but i like it
14 years old me: *bro this is so relatable*
15 years old me: *B R O T H I S I S R E L A T A B L E A S H E L L*
we'll be right back when i'm 16
16 years old me: guys.... nothing has changed this is still relatable
OKAY GUYS 17 YEARS OLD i was doing well, hope i won't relapse
18y/o me: guys i found i have borderline personality disorder
me listening to this at 14: this is so relatable
me now at 19: wow this is nostalgic, I was edgy af back then
Im 16 and can confirm youll still feel the same
Im glad almost everyone who listened to vocaloid became a JSHK fan.
im 16 and i dont understand whats exactly relatable in this song lol
Stay tuned lol
im listening to this masterpiece months later and it still sounds perfect
病んでるとき聴くと落ち着く
本当に、いつも救われてる。
Neruさんには感謝しかない。
こういう闇を描いた曲が好き。
綺麗事で塗り固められた世の中より好きだ。
うわ！これだ！ずっと探してた曲！！！！
歌詞をちゃんと覚えてたらそれで検索できるのに
｢値札｣しか覚えてなくてそれで調べてもボカロの値段しか出てこない、、、、みたいなのずっとやってた、、、、
シぬ勇気もないまま生きてたらいつの間にか母親になってたよ
本家ｷﾀ━(ﾟ∀ﾟ)━
暇プリン キタアアアー
This is for future me, just in case I come back here and TH-cam still exists.
I'm not in the best mindset right now, but I hope you are in a good mindset. Have you told mom and dad yet? Are you still friends with everyone? Have you stopped cutting? I love you, stay strong.
From 11 yo you.
:,( i hope you get better
please stop, it isn't worth it.
to present and future you, i hope things really do get better. i hope you find the mindset that lets you live happily and allow yourself to stay in it, even if you have to fight through a thousand other mindsets to find it. sorry for butting it, but best of luck.
11 years old?!?!?!
@@verticalthings6745 I've been like "this" since 9. So yes. 11.
everyone is saying this is so relatable
while i'm here, finding out that artstyle looks a lot like mine
your artstyle must be really pretty then :,0
(i admire Sidu's art so . . )
Lmao it reminds me so much of soul eater
I did not mean to dislike the comment sorry.
Bluena WOLF same here!
Anime Fan 500 I shouldn’t be laughing so hard bruh
After so many years this song is still incredible ❤️
すごく共感できた…私の想いを代弁してくれるような歌詞に感動しました…
vivid memories of listening to this in a hotel bathroom when I was 12 lmao
決して悪い生活はしていないのに、死にたいと思ったり自分の存在意義を疑ったりする毎日で、誰かに聞いて励ましてほしいと心では思っているけど独りだから結局何もできない...
自分に非常によく当てはまる歌詞で心打たれました
Here are the romaji lyrics!
Atamagonashi no kijou no kuuron
kubi kara shita ga kuuchuubunkai
Namari de tsumugu shourai sekkei
ronsou no fantajii
Mimi o sumaseba koko dake no hanashi
jitsu wa ano ko wa monokuro papetto
Kokoro no naka de kainarasu shujin
hensuu no shinfonni
Aa, watashi ni nefuda tsukete
Aa, jinsei mo ryuunen sun no matte sa shishagonyuu
Kudaranai ne yametakute mado kara kao dashite sa
Tsumaranai ne akite kite shinu yuuki mo nai desho
Kudaranai ne yametakute tesuji ni chuusha sashite sa
Tsumaranai ne akite kite keeki demo kutte shinkokyuu shiterunda yo
Dare mo kare mo ga chuuburarinrin
atama no neji ga suuhon tarinai
Kusari de tsunagu ni baito jinsei
yuujou no fakutorii
Antena taterya koko dake no hanashi jitsu
wa ano ko mo masukomi monkii
Kiiroikoe de reikan shouhou
sonzai no dasutori
Aa, kimi mo kochira ni oide yo
Aa, sou yatte nannin ayamenno sa shishagonyuu
Kudaranai ne yametakute mune ni naifu atete sa
Tsumaranai ne akite kite kurushimu kakugo nai desho
Kudaranai ne yametakute atama made tsukatte sa
Tsumaranai ne akite kite omou dake nara tada nanda yo
Aa, kojiki mitai ni hatte sa
Aa, sonnan ja shoumei owarandesho shishagonyuu
Kudaranai ne yametakute douro ni tobidashite sa
Tsumaranai ne akite kite tochuu de nigedasu desho
Kudaranai ne yametakute komekami juu de utte sa
Tsumaranai ne akite kite sonna mousou suru dake
Datte nakitakute kurshikute dare ni mo sugarezu
Kono koe wa warawarete mushisarete tsumari watashi wa tada no garakuta
Ashita wa kitto ame da.
THANK YOU LORD FOR THIS MAN
@@angelynreyes6065 No problemo! It's what I do! (Someone thanking me rarely happens lol.)
@@Lanoixsette ^W^
Doumo arigato
Thank youuu so much
おお〜！！ついにTH-camに！大好き！！
ギターもドラムもベースもリンちゃんの調声もカッコいい！Neruさんのボカロック大好き！
this song is fire, and vocaloid needs more songs like these. i mean, rock and heavy metal is usually rare to find in vocaloid and sometimes common in utauloid. im usually a rock person, so i would like to see more rock songs/alternative songs in vocaloid/utauloid.
YES YES YES THIS
Try looking for Utsu-p or Yuyoyupe(or something like that xD) they are metal/rock producers 👌
check out maretu’s works! they’re really good and sometimes do electronica
@ Thanks
@@h0lodm0966 I will thanks
I miss listening to vocaloid...
I am currently on a roll with listening to vocaloid songs that I use to listen to years ago. Neru is one of my favorites producer's.
This was one of my first vocaloid songs I was introduced to I come every soo often I’m 24 now it’s been 10 years. 🩵
夜中にイヤホンで大音量で聞くの最高や
日本の文化ってすごいよね。
外国人にもこんなに届いてるんだもん。
5.6年前 うごメモの時代()
この曲めっちゃ流行ってたなぁ、、懐かしい、、
あの頃の感情がそのまま戻ってきてて泣きそう
this song is officially how I have being dealing with anger, just blasting it as loud as posible on my headphones, always works, also, it's still very relatable, been hearing it since 8th grade lmao
this is going straight into my top relatable playlist.
やっと！！
やっとTH-camで転載じゃないやつが聴ける！！！！
ﾌｫ━━━━ヽ(ﾟ∀ﾟ )ﾉ━━━━!!!!
Neruさんの曲って何回も聴いても飽きないから最高
Commenting this again but my life will be complete if we get this song on Spotify 💯💯
It's on Spotify but it's only available in Japan :(
@@8L00D_M00N :( this is heart breaking
この曲本当に好き
When you feel like you relate and wanna vent but also don’t wanna be called a cringy depressed middle schooler: *this is fine*
One of the best vocaloid songs
And that guitar 🥵
TRUE TRUE
IT S L A PS
This is still my 11 years old national anthem except this song is starting to get too relatable😭😭😭
Omg 😢 re-uploads of the greatest earliest
CD聴いて惚れた曲
ここからNeruさんにドハマリして
CD全部集めたのはいい思い出
24/2月現在も聴いてます！定期的にききにきてます
聴く前からやばい
FINALLY!! I AM EARLY FOR SOMETHING
Ey, same.
Maybe you're late by a few years.
Or, uh, late by several years.
Lmao
It's kind of scary how much I can relate to this. The second they said they wanted to kill themselves but their to afraid to hit home. I always think about killing myself but I'm terrified of actually doing it. Someone once said that they weren't scared of death but what it takes to get there. I recently told myself that maybe when I'm an adult I'll do it but who knows? I still have six more years to go.
hey you still hanging in there-?
Hey. Please, talk to me, Im not very old but please. Theres still hope yet and theres those who will listen to you. My discord is オールマイト#2468
My instagram is official_catralaxx11
My twitter is Pngcatralaxx
and my facebook is Julian V.
You still there Cow Crystals?
i hope you're still here :( please tell us you're ok
six years later you’ll come to your senses. hope you okay though
It has been 5 years since I found this song. Recently, I stumbled upon this masterpiece again. It's still as relatable as I remember.
NERU is the vocaloid producer whose songs really SPEAK to me
I know how old this song is, but I’ve been listening to it a lot recently. It really makes me feel a certain kind of way. I can relate to it in my own way. It’s so nice seeing so many other people who can relate to this pour their hearts out. I’m proud of you guys. Keep going :)
Bruh its 4 year old
@@idk-qc9zy It's posted on 2011 on Niconico,Neru is just reuploading his songs
For everyone that relates to this including me...
I hope you all find that one light that will illuminate the dark moments if your lives :)
still listening to this master piece
Comments:
“13 year old me related hard man”
“My anthem”
Me: This is the first time I heard this and I also wish you all the best
I stumbled upon this a n your ago and this is my fourth time listening to it and I love it because yes it really is relatable thank you
me when i was 10 kek
you have a scarlet pfp props to you ma
Your pfp is Scarlet from “I’m the grim reaper”
pomegranate seed, You have Toko in your pfp props to you.
布教するために給食の時間に流しました👍👍
いいぞぉ〜((
ナイス！
うちの学校流すやつ決まってるもんなぁ……(´・ω・`)
うちの学校毎日クラシックで萎える
うちの学校の放送室はジャニオタが占領してるからな…別に嫌いなわけではないけど３年間ジャニーズは流石に飽きるというか…
久しぶりに聴きに来たけどめちゃくちゃ懐かしい………！
初めて買ったボカロのCDにこの曲が入ってて見事にどハマりしてたな〜…
IS THIS SOME REMASTER STUFF?!? ALSO THE NOLSTAGIA GAWD
Shark BDED It's just a reupload from NND.
Haha guess so since i saw a similar one later
why am i just NOW discovering this absolute amazing masterpiece???
WHAT WAS I DOING IN 2017 THAT I DIDN´T LISTEN TO THIS ??????
It's gonna blow your mind when you find out this was originally uploaded to NicoNico in 2011. Neru's just uploading his old music to TH-cam now, so this song is actually from way before 2017.
@@lplushie4588 2011 specifically. Ths formed people's childhood. W o w.
Happy anniversary to this song!🎶🎂🩷 / この曲の記念日おめでとう！🎶🎂🩷。
Moooom Nerus being relatable again
Middle school must have been rough for this to be one of my top songs 😔
Thank you Neru for giving us a way to grapple with our feelings and understand that we aren't alone.
まって泣いた懐かしすぎ
リードギターやまじ......
*scared 'this is a mood but it shouldn't be' noise*
yeah- the only way I'm making myself less concerned about myself is projecting my issues onto fictional characters
@@qwertyuiop.lkjhgfdsa felt that
GOOD NEWS! two years later, i don't wanna die. i still have problems obviously but at least i'm not chomping at the bit to off myself
After so many years i still love this song 🎵
this is a song i listened to when i was 11-12 y/o that i completely forgot about, just re-discovering it as a 16y/o now i remember how amazing it is and i can't believe i actually forgot about it 😭