How I deal with Impostor Syndrome as a Software Engineer (yes I feel it too)
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00:00 - Intro
1:38 - What is Impostor Syndrome?
4:01 - Impostor Syndrome in the Tech Industry
7:25 - Everyone has their own beginning
8:33 - Check in with somebody
10:05 - Identify your fears and make a plan
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Some ways I combat imposter syndrome:
1. Realizing everyone writes garbage code (all code is not perfect, essentially)
2. Reading more on the technology I'm working on
3. Building small projects outside of work
4. Listening to podcast and TH-camrs in the industry, such as yourself, Mayuko
I suffer from impostor syndrome to the point where it makes me want to quit. In my first job my boss just randomly assumed I know certain things a couple times (even though it was my first job and I had no experience whatsoever), which ended up in me thinking I SHOULD know these thing and not asking questions. Eventually I quit because I'd put too much pressure on myself. And another thing that's contributing to that is, no matter what project I'm working on, I always work with seniors. It is hard to constantly be the least knowledgeable in the room.
i think it's not your fault, it's the company fault , they've failed on onboarding and training their employees
Vanessa im not sure what job you had but some jobs can be like that, even if there's no experience to be had there is still a baseline of knowledge to be had. Also it's ok to ask questions even if you should know it. No such thing as a dumb question because if you ask you're only dumb for a short while whereas if you don't ask you're dumb forever. And I'm not sure of the relationship with your seniors on the projects but thats a good place to be since you can learn from them, unless they expect you to be at the same level as them. Remember they were once the least knowledgeable person in the room. If you don't know something be honest and do your best to figure it out
Right now I'm felling that way... I got a promotion in my job, and since it's not my area, I want to quit to because I feel anyone can do it better than me :(
just stop giving a shit as long as they pay you show up to work
i exeperiance the same right know, it's my first junior job and when all my friend had a months or more to learn the technologies of their compagny i had none, had to start on stuff i never used and had dead line on it for a client.
i take ten time to do what someone there could do it so fast i think about quit too, feel like they can"t manage a junior yet and i can"t be as fast as they excpect for few months minimum, specialy when they hired me as ful stack i'm going to change project with another tech i don"tknow , i work late i work on week-end to not be too slow , i used to love programming but now i just hate every day i have.
What I feel like helps me to battle impostor syndrome as a Data Scientist:
1. Writing down consistently my projects, contributions, and accomplishments.
2. Networking at work and events, and asking a lot of questions about other DSes experiences.
3. Doing pet projects I am invested in and curious about. Learning and value!
4. Mastermind groups.
5. Public speaking
Hope this helps to anyone who's feeling not sure about them right now :)
Nice list, Anastasia! Good luck to you.
Thanks. I also am in field of data science and am strongly a lot because I still dont have a job in the field.
Doing everything on this list will make you go from being an imposter to being a reference haha
This is amazing, I’m going to do this from now on. Thank you for sharing.
What are mastermind groups?
Definitely had this when I started my current job. I felt like I oversold myself at the interview and like I didn't fit in.
I always have this thought process that other people who are better than me should have this opportunity and not me. I am slowly getting better at stopping this way of thinking but some times i just cant help myself.
A good way to reframe that is that they should have the opportunity as well!
There will always be those better than you and you'll always be better than someone else, they will have more opportunities same as you will. Dont sell yourself short
Wow thank you!! My dad is a software engineer and after hearing his struggles I came across this video and think he might have imposter syndrome. He always talks about how he doesnt feel competent compared to coworkers. Im def gonna send him this video
I am struggling with this feeling right now. Ive never had such a huge learning curve and the imposter syndrome is so real that the anxiety paralyzes me. Somehow your video came up and it was everything that I needed to hear. Thank you 😊
such great timing - definitely feeling like an imposter in the tech industry rn 😭
Same.
Same here
@sagalaay well id ask why you guys are feeling that way? Is it because you're not as knowledgeable or as passionate as others around you seem to be?
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@@AADITYAAA Sell your Ginsu knives somewhere else buddy
My Boss: Can you come in my office please I need to talk to you
Me: Oh shit, they figured out I'm dumb and I'm getting fired
My Boss: We are very happy with your performance and would like to offer you a promotion
😳
This happened twice for me so far!
exactly
Holy heck, I felt this
@@jontwayn507 It's actually surprising to know that a lot of people are at the same phase as I'm. It's good to know this.
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Sometimes, you just have to watch a mayuko video to be reassured. This is what I really need rn while working in the tech industry. Thank you Mayuko! : ) :)
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I've experienced this even though I'm still not in the industry. Back in 12th grade, I was doing great on programming class and when the prof grouped us in 3 and gave us a project, she's having a high expectation from me that I would carry the group and be the leader. Upon the project defense, we didn't really met her project expectation and she told me in face that she had high hopes from me. I felt so devastated that day. The disappointment of other people's view of me. From that point on, I changed my way and started laying low on not trying to stand out in the class. I've applied this way now that I'm at college and not really confident about my skills.
Happened similar with me in my 10th grade🙃
Having my former lead yell "you need to learn programing!" at me has done wonders for my imposter syndrome. Left that day (early this year) and haven't written a line of code professionally since. I think I'm done with it.
Bro, thats deep
First just recognizing imposter syndrome has helped me immensely start to deal with it. And knowing that everyone (and really, everyone) deals with it makes me not feel so bad
Me everytime at the first day in tech job. no matter how many experiences I had. this always happens and it's normal
Hey Muhamad thanks for sharing this ！
My advice for battling impostor syndrome is to challenge yourself while depending on others for support. If you dive into something that you don’t know and ask your colleagues for help when you don’t understand something, you’ll soon feel comfortable in that area. If you on the other hand avoid everything that makes you feel uncomfortable you will likely keep feeling like an impostor.
Be transparent with things you find confusing or don’t fully understand, but show that you want to learn.
You asking colleagues for help also makes it is easier for others to do the same and can help them battle their own impostor syndrome, while creating a nice ”high ceiling”-work environment.
In the beginning of 2020, I quit a job I spent 5 years on and went to be a business analyst at a fintech company. They needed someone to make specifications for the developers to build a product.
Three months in the job and I'm down with the worst impostor syndrome ever. I go talk to my colleagues and tell them I'm afraid I'll be fired because there's so much I don't know and I have no idea where to get the necessary knowledge. They smiled and told me not to worry.
Two months later I was fired.
So yeah, 2020 is fun.
@manny I'm studying now to be a software developer, also looking for jobs as a data analyst/actuary.
@@immortaljanus hang in there, better opportunities await us in the future. 💪
I feel like Mayuko would be an amazing Engineering Manager 😭
Product manager?
This whole video. I really love this energy, I just wanna hug you and be goofy with you and support you as much as I could/can
Mayuko, that framework of the comfort zone circles and impostor syndrome happening when you are "placed" in a circle not adjacent to your comfort zone resonated SO deeply with me!!!! I never thought about it that way but it makes so much sense and helps me process my impostor syndrome more
I've dealt with impostor syndrome a lot when i first began studying computer science at uni. It's very real, but I've managed to get better with it! That being said, I'll probably face it again as I still work through my curriculum. Great video!
I already tried speaking to my manager that I wasn't performing well and i feel like i might be fired. He didn't reassure me, he told me basically "then do better. You've been here for 2 years and if you don't perform higher compared to then im afraid to say maybe you should work elsewhere"
Took me some time to realize this guy was a toxic asshole and the environment i was at was a sinking ship with a high turnover rate.
A good work environment is the one you described, a bad one is the ones that expect you to work like a machine and even if you performed well they will keep adding pressure to do even better or you're a gonner.
Yeah...my manager pretty much did the same thing. I'm trying to get outta dodge.
He's not an asshole...but he doesn't have time to help me.
Thank you Mayuko for sharing your experience in this video. It's such a great timing as my impostor syndrome kicks in lately, and whenever that happens, I got sleep deprived because I'm forcing myself to do or learn something to ease my guilt for not being a better engineer.
IMO the hardest thing from having impostor syndrome is trusting yourself that you can do it. My confidence level has been decreased rapidly since I started programming at college until now that I'm a Software Engineer (it's almost 10 years already). Whenever I did a mistake, I blame myself and become very disappointed about myself. But yeah, I have to overcome it to become not only a better Software Engineer, but also a better person
To all people who is experiencing impostor syndrome, you're not alone and we can go through this 👊
TY. I love when TH-camrs talk about their struggles, because it helps us know we are not the only one experiencing the same struggle. I recently received a B.S. in Math Analytics and O.R. and am yet to have a job. Because I still don't have a job in data science and received countless interview rejections, despite my previous experience, I have been experiencing feelings of inadequacy.
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Thank you for this, I really needed this. Being a Software Engineer with anxiety is not cool. I wanna thank you for this, took a tear out of me. You're awesome.
Thank you for this 😭 just started a new SW job that I’ve always talked myself down on for getting lucky and not deserving it and now feeling like an imposter. Great timing and this made me feel so much better about it, thank you!!
This is still the best and I always watch it when I feel like that. Thanks for that, really appreciate it🙏🏽
This video is really relevant. Not only to tech but to so many other things in our lives. I felt this way all the time in school, like i never deserved to be there. but in hind sight you realize its just anxiety and stress! Def help calm some of my qualms! Keep these videos coming Mayuko!!
Thank you, I been dealing with this at school recently. You’re right on time 😩😩
Mayuko, this is 110% relatable.. like every word is sooo accurate! I could watch this over and over until I recover from this anxiety. Thank you so much!
I have been needing this thank you for posting this. Love the content you put out.
20 years in the software industry and still feeling that ;) Great video and channel
Thank you Mayuko! Very pragmatic advice and very helpful. It also makes it sincere that you shared your own experiences, and that you experienced (and is still experiencing) it yourself.
Just goes to show that you just didn’t Google-d it and made a video about it just because you have to. Thank you for the sincerity!
I really feel this video I should have seen like years ago ! I am facing this since years and it’s such a relief to know other people feel this too 💕
Thank you so much for talking about this. This is so important to discuss and share, because the first step in our collective overcoming of Imposter Syndrome is to recognize it and talk about it so we can see we are not alone in feeling these feelings and thinking these thoughts!
Whenever I feel lost I Always know you have a video to put me at ease 😌 thank you, Mayuko! I’m going to use this bit of advice in my monthly performance review in a few hours
I love this video.. its 2021 now almost a full year later and this video is still 100% true. It is amazing how listening to someone else talk about something can help you understand what doesn't feel right or make sense. I appreciate this video so much.
I'm not even in the software engineering or computer science world but I feel like your videos apply so broadly to all career fields, which I greatly appreciate. I'm a Mechanical Engineering student and the ideas from this video echo so loudly in what I'm dealing with right now. Thank you for making great content.
I am struggling with this feeling since I got the offer and your video is really helpful, thank you mayuko!
Another Great Video!!! Can totally relate to most of the videos :) By the way, LOVE the new Code Merch!! Thanks, Mayuko!!
I just wanna say: Thank you. I felt that someone understand me so much. More than I needed or expected.
I just love uuuuuuu so much!! This is so much needed!!! I've been feeling this way since I started my new position. It really doesn't matter what people say about what I've achieved. I still feel like...hiring me for this position is the most wrong decision the HR has ever made lol... I feel much better!!!
BTW, you need to have a podcast!! I'll listen to it 24/7!!
I used to work in tech then transitioned to work in audio engineering and this hits home rn. I love you so so much for this Mayuko. Thank you! Also I really like your video style. Please keep it coming.
Your previous video was the first time I heard about impostor syndrome. And as you said I was surprised, but also relaxed that I'm not the only one with these kind of doubts. Soo thank you for this second video too, I think it is very important to know when struggling that you are not alone:)
I really needed this video today. Thank you Mayuko!
Thank you Mayuo, I really appreciate the video. It's very informative and your advice is always constructive.
Thank you so much for making this video Mayuko!
Lots lots lots lots lots of respect from deep down heart for sharing all tech and psychological related knowledge. 🙏
ahh yesss!! It's great timing and super on point with your advices mayuko! Thanks for this!
The timing of this video is perfect! I just got promoted to Network Engineer at work and feeling some big impostor syndrome. Thanks for the tips and love the videos!
this came at the most perfect time! I’m about to start a new job and I’m literally like “how did i get here 😟” and you’re right “everyone has their own beginning!” Gonna change my mentality to this hehehe
Hope you’re having a great day Mayuko!
Just wanted to say, I love your channel Mayuko, always do things in such a cool way and also your wardrobe is always fire 🔥🔥
I'll be starting a SWE job at Facebook soon, and i definitely feel this way right now and I haven't even started. Thanks for this, i really needed this
Thank you Mayuko, I just started in my first software engineering job. I needed this :)
you're like a sister giving an advise to me rn. thanks sis.
Thanks a lot Mayuko, I am currently facing this syndrome and was looking for how to deal with it. I founded it video at the perfect time. Thanks for helping.😊
Thank you Mayuko..
your suggestion is really enlightening
Thanks mayuko from this video. Got everything on point regarding Impostor Syndrome. Months before I graduated in my IT degree, I already got a job in a big multinational IT company. At first, I was so hyped and pumped-up to kick-off my career but only a week passed by, I experience a huge attack of Impostor Syndrome (I didn't know the term back then, never knew it existed back then). I fear rejection that I might get fired for underperforming. I saw my workmates doing pretty good and seems like they mastered already the coding and everything in the projects that we are working. So i was like, I have no idea how I get here, I do not belong to this group of people,(especially since I got assigned to a project that I do not know the codebase architecture and the programming language). My anxiety became worst to the point that my health is affected, that I do not have the appetite to eat and I can't have a peaceful sleep because of overthinking about my situation. Then so, I quit. Honestly, when I recovered from it, I regret that I quitted because I got defeated by my thoughts and overthinking. Now that I build up myself, I am planning to go back to Software development industry. I am preparing myself more especially mentally and emotionally to overcome Impostor syndrome that severely beat me years ago. Will always go back to this video once I am encountering an attack, in which case I will prevent the old times from happening again. Sorry for the long message. Hope everyone is doing well and may we all reach our dreams and overcome Impostor Syndrome.
Hey mayuko, appreciate you for these videos that share more about imposter syndrome and tech burnouts. Self doubt in tech industry is real, and it needs to be discussed more ☺️
You touh upon topics which people are shy in saying. Your vidoes are really helpful to me
This video came just in time, we just talked about it in class today! Thanks.
holy shit this came in the right time. im a cs major and everyone is so good that i feel like everything accomplishment that i do is not enough :(
@Frederick Hall But everytime I gain something, like an accomplishment, there's this reoccuring thought of fear of them finding out that I couldn't really keep up with how skilled/smart they are. Whenever we have examinations, I often feel the obligation to really do well and even if I do, I have this thought behind my head that it was either by luck or chances. Isn't these the basic things that contribute to experiencing imposter syndrome? If not, then idk.
You have no idea how this video is perfectly timed for me.......Thank you so much
I love your videos! such interesting topics! I've had impostor syndrome my entire career and while I've been in the tech industry for 8 years now, I still have it sooooo...for all the newbies out there, even experienced folks have it so don't feel like you're only experiencing it because you're new. It's natural and you really need to be more kind to yourself to be able to live with it.
Hello my inspiration, just wanna tell u that you're inspiring me since day 1 in my engineering carreer. THANK YOU ❤️🙏🏻
i didn't know i needed this video, thank you so much ♡♡♡
Thank you for sharing this Mayuko! Love your channel
Love you Mayuko great advice.Keep up the great content
Wow this video is great; and the timing of this video with where i am in my career right now is perfect! Thank you!
Thank you, Mayuko
thank you for this video!! i'm about to start as a software engineer in a new company, the timing couldn't be better
Your videos helped me on beginning of my software engineering career back in 2018.. now going for a leveled up position..So still does❤
I'm beggining to learn code and absolutely i feel like an "impostor", but our brain is maleable and we can learn whatever we put the effort to learn, good video :)
What a great video, thank you so much for addressing this in such a clear and kind manner, as an Engineer, I can definitely relate (perhaps more than I should).
Often I feel like people in tech are put under a huge amount of pressure to deliver to unreasonable targets (whether set for profit or to satisfy a specific customer, it doesn't make much of a difference) - I do think that a more collaborative environment, perhaps even a mentorship type of relation with a colleague, might help, but these days such things are hard to find nowadays.
Waaah, definitely needed to hear this today. Thank you soooo much
You're like a wise-tech-guru for all of us. Thanks for the tips. 🙏
Great timing and content Mayuko. As an iOS Lead in my team, I am currently experiencing impostor syndrome and anxiety after wrong decisions. Your video definitely helps 🙏🏻🌈
MAN the way she reduced the screen size felt so effective! Nice video Mayuko 👍
Loved the video. Thanks for the great advice 🙏🙂
The video that I needed. Thank you sooo much Mayuko! 😪😔
Not wanting to be seen as not knowing and dumb is what makes it worst. Being transparent is key. It takes humility to get past over this imposter syndrome. Acknowledging we don't know something and is willing to learn is power.
Thanks Mayuko! I just subscribed! It feels empowering seeing Women in the Tech! More Power! God bless!
Thank you Mayuko for the tips!!!
Totally full of positive energy and good suggestions🤩
You are good Mayuko, continue to share ur thoughts 🤗
I really need this. Thanks @Mayuko!
Great video. Loved every piece of advice. Quite relatable.
It's almost the end of the quarter and i've been kind of getting down about my life choices because I wasn't doing too good on midterms TTT this video SERIOUSLY came in good timing ahhh!!
As someone who worked as Avid Video Editor in television for several years and then switched to IT AND just as a person who has experienced imposter syndrome I feel this is pretty well put. And quite constructive with the plans to go forward. Of course there's only so much you can do as a mental health advocate who's not a mental health professional, but this is really good. Cheers!
Hi Mayuko , great video.... while you were describing imposter syndrome , it became clear that nearly anyone who knows html and css can make a website but when it comes to javascript/react/angular ... the core norms of frontside.. that a 3ft wading pool of HTML drops off to the Marianas trench; Since alot of coding is geared toward web development.. that in itself is a sort of comfy zone for many in the industry... as opposed to desktop workhorse apps and those nerds... (not minimizing anyone's role)..Then theres the reality of understanding group task work on a code base.: the whole jobspace technology of being a coder.... THATs what concerns me more than tests. . I started learning Ruby and now I've moved to learning Javascript React.. it wasnt until I knew a second language that the first made more sense... apparently real devs only use 10% of the API of any language.... People are cratering about a superfluous anxiety and fact because they dont know... not knowing even half of the language is normal.
Thanks so much for the video. i was in love with IT from an early age and I did a computer science degree. I realise now I had imposter syndrome which really held me back in striving and pushing myself due to the fear of failure. Instead I spent a lot of time at the gym and playing rugby (Australian). When I should have been progressing my skillset by solving problems with coding. I did enough to get my degree along with talking enough about coding principals to get a job offer. But it was soon realised I was was out of my depth in the job and shouldn’t have been there. I actually did get fired and left falling out of love with IT 😢. I travelled and spent a few years doing different type of work. I now have my IT career back on track and am doing well working for a large company (starts with an ‘A’ 😉). I’m not SE but my role is still very tech. The first time I watched this video I felt bad about my lack of focus. But now I think about how I can push through imposter syndrome to get promoted now. Thanks so much ❤️
Thank you Mayuko, this is insightful
Great advice MAyuko. Very reassuring
OMG this is so me right now.. New grads from non tech major and currently doing my first job as AI engineer. With startup high pace working environment and work from home situation completely breaking my confidence. I can't even go to the office and meet the teams due to covid situation (yup I haven't met my colleague in person till now). Thanks for the video! Hope your advice can help me to get through all these things.
My whole life I've been involved in tech and I always feel that I can never get enough which I love because there is always something new but also you never really feel satisfied.
I needed this today. Thanks.
Thank you 🙏🏽 I’ve been trying to figure out what was wrong with me. I was promoted to a new tech position in my company in early 2020. I’ve been mentally overwhelmed because I felt taking this opportunity may have been a mistake. I also thought maybe that taking on this new role right in the midst of the pandemic was a possible reason I was feeling this way. After listening to your video, I have no doubt I’ve been experiencing imposter syndrome. Thanks again for your words of encouragement!
This spoke to me so deeply. Even though I trust my skills to learn and adapt that I know I can do the work, you just can’t make some recruiter have that trust in you by just reading your resume. Many just want to fill a checklist.
This..
my imposter syndrome is damn near debilitating. Makes it hard to apply to jobs. It's crazy. I hate it.
needed this video today, thank you.
Love it! especially the background music