alone on valentine's day + new mantras + becoming my own woman
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- My first Valentine's Day alone in 15 years, but I'm learning new mantras and how to become my own woman. I want to be more independent, but it's not easy. Andrew came by. Is there hope for us? I'm not sure anymore. When I see him, I think so. But when he's gone, I just don't know. For now, I'm just going to focus on myself.
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"just a broken hearted bi*** vacuuming in a dress and combat boots" 😆🤣 That line was too funny!
Yeah that was great😹💟💟
Yeah, I really hope she knows how much happiness she really spreads, she's soooo funny, I love her sims 2 and 3 let's plays, I always end up laughing like a fuc*ing seal haha, I really recommend 😂
Honestly I relate to her so much ahahahab
She has the best lines. Clean the hole was everything!
I like the line I can relate
I think the biggest lesson you will learn from this is finding security within yourself and not solely from Andrew. As much as you're working on yourself, it still sounds like your every decision and every thought is centered on him. You can't truly get better if you're still laser focused on him and allowing his actions to dictate how you feel. I KNOW you can get better and learn to show yourself the kindness and love you deserve. That is the ultimate lesson here I think.
Also, you look so lovely in this video! I think "A" line dresses would be very flattering on you as well if you're wanting to wear dresses more often!
Also, if Andrew's company provides insurance, they may have something EAP or employee assistance program. This program allows 8 free therapy sessions to any therapist that accepts it. Additionally, the therapist can extend the service for more sessions as you work on different things. May be worth looking into!
I'm proud of you for not chasing him. Just because you want to blame yourself, doesn't mean it's all your fault. I'm suffering in my life right now too so I can really relate. Thank you for sharing your life with us.
Wishing you all the best, I know it can be hard to take care of yourself, but please try! Hope many good things come your way.
lol, she is definitely chasing him. Constantly talking about him, dressing up for him, sending him gifts and messages, hoping he would come and otherwise depressed. This time was supposed to be working on herself, to be better, to change, to live her own life and not depending on someone else or living for someone else ''like her first video, my life is over''.
Oh girl you’re not that simple minded surely?? You believe CINDY isn’t chasing him just because she says she not?? 😂🙄 it’s Cindy. She has no back bone or respect for herself unfortunately (because I actually like her) but can’t stand how she has no self respect in that way, and was crawling and begging, and driving 14 hours in the middle of the night cause he wanted a booty call and she was that desperate) 🙄
Are you American by any chance btw? Genuine question? I would guess that you are, or Canadian. I’m almost certain. I’d be very surprised if you were literally ANY other nationality out it that way
As someone whose anxious attachment issues ended my first relationship, I'm relating a lot to your videos right now. That saying "I do not chase love, I attract love," is a new mantra for my life in terms of relationships I want to follow.
Happy Valentine’s Day, Cindy. I spent my whole life witnessing unhealthy, abusive, and toxic relationships from my parents, grandparents, aunts and uncles, etc., so much so that I told myself to never fall in love and close down my heart. I opened mine up to this guy and we had the perfect relationship straight out of a fairy tale. He decided to do his masters degree all the way across the country in Texas and I followed him as his fiancé. He was all I had there and I was okay with that. When we got there, things changed. He was cold. He was distant. Outright mean and put me down for the past two years. After endless crying alone and driving myself crazy thinking about it all, I finally mustered up the courage to break up with him on Monday. I thought I would feel powerful and liberated, but when he told me “I haven’t liked you for two years” it destroyed me. We had so many beautiful memories together, and while I cherished them in my heart despite the struggles, none of it was real to him. It’s the lowest point I’ve ever fallen to. I used to watch your sims videos everyday, but this series of yours got recommended to me yesterday. It made me feel seen and less alone. I hate that anyone else is going through something similar, but I cherish knowing there are people who really understand the magnitude of this deep loneliness that are willing to share their feelings so openly in a way that is helping others. I wish you the best and I thank you. ❤️
It may be stormy now but it never rains foreverr💟things will get better. Hope you have a good day💟
That man deserves to go to hell! What a sociopath. I hope you’re doing all good now, I hope you find eternal peace.
Wow! When I read what he said I literally felt a stab go through my heart! I'm so sorry! It WILL get better. You'll see. 🙏
I get you. Oh, how deep it was inside my brain.
I had a boyfriend, for years. Who was also my best friend, and I was his. We met each other when we were 12-13 in the scouting camp, wrote real letters to each other, even at that age he gave me cute romantic presents, everything went on and on, I went to university, he went to a navy academy and we were planning to marry. At the third year of our studies I had several jobs, one of them was delivering flowers. One day I had to deliver a big bouquet of flowers with a postcard to some address. I already found it and was walking to the front door, when I saw an open card inside the flowers. And it was HIS hand. It was a love letter to another girl. I had to do it, so I tried to smile, when she opened the door and signed on my paper. She was happy. As soon as she closed her door, I started walking fast, then running, and then l sat in my car, closed the doors and cried, like I never did in my whole life. I was 21. After several months he married her. It was the girl introduced by his parents, but he didn’t say no.
I’m 34, happily married. Really. But today I saw him again in my dreams.
And I understood, that I still can’t get over it. I can’t get over that feeling of loneliness and shock. To this day I can’t get why I had to be hurt like this… So yes, it’s a scar on my heart, and it aches from time to time. It’s painful, no matter what…
Just keep being insanely impressed by your strength and ability to be productive and such when you still have struggles. You’re so inspiring! 💕
Literally, I’m going through a lot of personal changes right now and watching Cindy’s vlogs lately has been so so inspiring. She is incredibly strong.
Cindy a great way I’ve made friends as an adult is taking classes, whether it be a yoga class, pottery class, etc. Just finding community with people who enjoy the same things you do. It doesn’t have to been deep intense friendships, but someone you could go grab a drink with and gives you some social time! This is also coming from someone who is an extreme introvert, it works!!!
“If he wants me, he knows where I am” love that!!! So true! Keep working on yourself Cindy! As you become more centered and start to really have that self love, all the things that are meant for you will reveal themselves. As long as you keep doing the inner work ❤️
This is exactly how my husband was. He’d nip in for some short periods of time, and gradually opened up more and more. And one day he just said that he wanted to come back. I think everything is going to work out, so many good signs, so many! A little bit of patience (I know, it’s very hard) and it’s all going to be alright. Shame I don’t live nearby to qualify for those TH-cam friends, I think we could be good friends 😂 Glad to see you’re doing so well though and working on your PIES. Amazing work. Wishing all the best
Cindy, there is always hope hon. Always.
I believe in you- and so do all of us. And I’m sure Andrew does too.
Edit: Dress is straight stunnin darling. A Queen. 👸
I think that by "hold on" he means that he still needs more time but you're on the right path and he's planning to come back when he's ready. Just give it time and I hope everything will work out at the end.
I love how the dog jumped on bed immediately after you said nobody sleep on the other side
I love your new mantra! You are doing so well with working on yourself and putting in the effort to your self. Remember with or without Andrew you are a whole and complete person who attracts love. Look at all of the people here who are supporting and loving you! I’m glad you are giving him space. Giving each other space is the best thing I’ve done in my relationship. Even though my partner needs more space than I do, I respect it. And it genuinely helps us! So proud of you Cindy!
3:07 - I love the “PIES” thing - great idea and I’d be nowhere without Jesus 🙏🏻 ❤
Yes! dressing up even if you have nowhere to go can uplift your spirits! It’s all about doing what makes you feel good
hey cindy, i'm currently going through a situation that resembles yours in a lot of ways. the difference is - i'm in andrew's shoes. i want to let you know: he's struggling a lot too and, judging by his texts, he wants this relationship to work and loves you deeply. i would guess that he(just like i am right now) is afraid and anxious that some of the unhealthy dynamics will inevitably come back and you guys will have to go through this again. it will take him some time and courage to find trust in your healing but i'm sure he'll come to it.
Cindy, I just found your channel last night when your first video from this chapter of life was recommended to me. You are doing such an amazing job of recognizing and trying to shift your patterns. I watched a video from HealthyGamerGG (he has a great channel, btw) about borderline personality disorder recently, and he talked about how negative emotions are SO MUCH more painful for people with BPD than for neurotypical people. I was so proud to see you STAY in your house and try your very best to give Andrew the space he needs. It’s amazing that you are seeking therapy and trying to work on you. It’s going to benefit your life so much if you can hang in there. Whether the relationship with Andrew can be salvaged or not, you are building a good solid foundation for you to have self-love and security within yourself for the future. You can’t fix it overnight, but please keep going 🙏🏻
Cindy I just found your channel, I love you girl you are so very beautiful and strong kudos to you for getting yourself better get in touch with God he is the answer to all our problems trust me in vest some time with Christ our King Jesus 👑 yes ma'am get your own life with Christ 💯 and you are never Alone show Andrew just how strong you are and don't depend on Andrew for anything open your eyes all the way and don't let Andrew or anyone but show and be that Woman as an example to all the other women watching you 🦋💕 just don't get your Hopes up to high to be dropped like a cork into a lake but I don't know all the circumstances just go slow and I know the one and only who will never leave you or forsake you and it's our King Jesus Christ 💯 you are really reaching alot of people just think 🤔 about it you sweet lady God closes one door just to open another don't cuss yourself down any more love and prayers for you and Andrew what doesn't kill us only makes you stronger 💪 Women out here are very proud of you ❤️🙏
I worked from home from a long time and understand how hard it can be to meet new people, a great way is to join a class of some hobby or thing you'd like to learn, you can meet a lot of like minded people, but it can still be difficult. Maybe a hoola hoop meetup or a soap making workshop or some other art or craft, maybe something about herbalism? the first times you go it can feel a bit strange but after a while you recognise other people and might meet someone who loves these things as much as you :)
That dark berry pink is 🔥🔥 on you! Also, I love your mantra.
I volunteered at my local pet shelter for a few years and literally accidentally made 3 friends. We were always there at the same time each week, so it happened naturally. I highly recommend finding a volunteer shift as a fulfilling, low pressure way to make new connections!
That right girl! You do you and focus on yourself. Make him chase you, don't show him you need him. He needs you x be strong Hun x
what helped me feel a lot more independent was working, even just part time temporarily. i know it’s different for everyone and you’ve said before you prefer to be a home maker but it helped me make friends i probably would have normally never even met. it was so helpful especially after a breakup to just get out of the house full of memories and occupy my brain with something that wasn’t my significant other and my heart break.
Another way you can be more independent and train your social skills is dealing with calling and talking to businesses and such. I too hate to call in to make appointments and things like that (to the point where I couldn't even order food in restaurants and fast food), so I understand you don't wanting to do that, but it is a good skill for problems such as the therapist place not responding your e-mail back: You can call them to have a response directly!
That way, you are talking to people and learning how to go about solving your own problems without waiting for others. I know it sounds stupid and too small to make a difference, but trust me, it can changes lives on the long run.
Cindy, I'm going thru a breakup too! Know how hard it is!
Sending you lots of love and hope things get better for both of us!
Cindy even though you are going through it right now you are still glowing and radiating light. You are such a beautiful person. If no one has told you today I love you. You inspire me every day to keep trying to lose weight
Hi Cindy,
I somehow stumbled across your videos last week and have been following your journey. I just wanted to write as a new viewer to say that I think you seem like a very sweet, thoughtful, aware person. I truly hope that everything works out with your husband. I know that it is impossible to know what goes on in anyones relationship but I just wanted to say that I think you seem really nice and I hope you can recognize your worth and value through everything that has happened.
Take care of yourself,
Kristi
also even if you don't have your friends nearby you could always have little zoom or FaceTime nights with your friends that are far away. I moved out of state and that has been the hardest part for me but I started a small book club with a friend back home and one who lived in another state and that helped! I also got more comfortable calling my friends and we have even had nights where we paint while on video call with some wine as if we went to a little event. That could help with friendships even if far away
I haven't watched yet, but I hope despite everything you still had a decent Valentine's day with your fur babies!! You've been in my thoughts, Cindy! So glad to see you smile 🥰🧡 P.S. you look lovely!!
Girl you can do this. I love your mantra for today. Keep the positive thoughts and remember YOU MATTER and YOU ARE ENOUGH.
You are doing so well. I relate to pushing away friends also. It’s something I’m working on too. 💕
Beautiful Cindy, it’s so nice hearing you talk about self love and it’s so important!
I don’t really have many friends and I think most adults struggle to make new friends.
Cindy, I found you a few years ago now through your original pleasant view sims series when I was 19 and I instantly fell in love with you. You so clearly have the kindest and most unique soul, your feelings are infectious as when u cry, as do I and when u smile, I do too! I loved your sims content because the sims is amazing, but it was your personality that really made it special and I happily can sit and watch your lifestyle vlogs for hours now. Whether you even go back to sims 2 now I do not mind, as long as I get to see you living life and being positive I don’t care! More life to you, Cindy I hope everything turns out great for you❤️
I’m so so so proud of your progress and how your mindset has continued to thrive in this while situation. You go girl! You’re a strong independent woman who will always overcome the challenges life throws at you
Just found your channel and have seen the videos from the past week and a half. It’s amazingly how far you’ve come in a short space of time. So impressed. My husband walked out on me after a 21 year marriage and it took me a year to get to where you are. You’re inspirational. I don’t know your history but I do know that your husband still loves you. He needs space and you two have work to do but there is hope for you. Even if it doesn’t work out I hope you can see that you can take care of yourself so don’t worry. It will all work out for you.😊
Good for you. You are strong!🌸❤️
Somehow I can't help but think that this moment was much needed for both of you, so that you could both evolve and become a better "you" and couple together 💙🧡😭 I just see so much love through all this that it just warms my heart ❤️🌿 I hope you both can be back together soon too and when that time comes, that both of you have a better strength and eye for things so that you can be strong on your own but even stronger together ❤️🌿🌟 I hope that you both can work through the some of the pain that you've both been holding on, and that you both are able to move past it in a healthy manner 🌿🌟 As always, sending so much love for you and Andrew 🧡🌟💪✨ you got this Cindy!!!
Happy Valentine's Day, Cindy! I love your new mantra. I can tell that you're healing. Keep focusing on yourself and your journey. I think learning how to love ourselves is a lifelong journey. Making friends as an adult is really difficult for most people. :)
Love your new mantra, love seeing your growth! ❤
The message you got from Andrew, made me 'Awwww' out loud. You both clearly love each other deeply and both are ready to put in the necessary work, for yourselves and for your partnership. It makes me so happy as you guys are one of my fave couples in the world!
As far as reaching out to the viewers that have reached out to you, I think that's a fab idea! At least you know you will have a lot in common with them right off the bat, and you would have already conversated back and forth so it would be less overwhelming to meet.
An idea for down the track is just finding activities in your area that interest you and go try them out, obviously you will bump into some like-minded people.
You are doing so amazingly, Cindy. Keep it up, I'm fully cheering you on 📣
I choked up over your attracting vs. chasing love affirmation. That was so powerful and something I needed to hear.
I do hope that you did/will ask Andrew what HE plans on doing differently as well. I know he’s a good guy and don’t want this to sound like I’m bashing him, but he’s in a self-centric mindset right now. That’s not a terrible thing, we all need to (humbly) focus on ourselves at times. You both appear to be in the headspace that YOU are the one that has work to do, which simply isn’t true. I know we are seeing about 2% of your reality, so advanced apologies if I’m dead wrong! I never want my caring to come off as rude or invasive.
No matter what comes out of this I feel like you’re going to come out of it better as an individual. I had to teach myself to become less codependent due to mental issues and know this from experience. I’m sure you’re already noticing that it snowballs, which is amazing! You are doing a fabulous thing for yourself and I’ve never felt so proud of someone I’ve never met. #TeamCindy ❤
That dress looks great on you! Hope everything works out for you Cindy.
Girl you have made so much progress in this short time👏👏👏! Just getting up, getting dressed, doing the dishes at this time is a victory. I'm not in the same situation as you but I am dealing with anticipatory grief with my fur baby & the stress makes me want to sit & do nothing. I have to drag myself up to do the smallest things. You've already come so far! Realizing that you need your own car to be independent, that you need relationships outside of your spouse, are investigating therapy, etc are such HUGE accomplishments. As hard as this is it may turn out to be the best thing to happen in the long term. I hope you achieve what you want with your marriage whatever that is, whether you actually find you're happier & better on your own or if you end up back together. Either way you're on your way to being so much more independent & confident & capable in yourself. You are stronger than you know
Sending all the love to you and your fur baby at this difficult time; I just had to say goodbye to my fluffy little angel a week ago; may our shared memories with them fill the hole in our hearts as we move through the grief 😭💛🐕🐈💛
@@cinnabunning thank you for the kind words & I'm so very sorry for your loss. It's one of the worst most helpless feelings & I wish we didn't know. He's fighting pheochromacytoma, terminal adrenal cancer that's invading a major artery. That was discovered during pre op testing for hyperparathyroid surgery. Because they would no longer consider operating after cancer was found that disease is now slowly fading him into dementia. Both conditions are very rare on their own... Only 1% of dogs will develop either disease & to have them at the same time is almost unheard of. The hyperparathyroid surgery recovery is so difficult for a healthy dog to go thru that the vet specialist wouldn't even consider putting him thru it after the cancer was found. And the adrenal cancer is just flat out inoperable. Trying to remove it would likely release cells that would make it spread. So we've decided to just let him be the happy goofy boy he is for as long as possible & enjoy every moment we have with him. Can see it slowly progressing so it's impossible to forget about even for a few seconds. And it wears me down in a way I didn't know was possible. Sorry for the long response. Guess I needed to vent. Thanks for letting me do that as well as for sending your kind thoughts 🙏🏻
I'm going through the worst time in my life right now, and I'm really finding these videos helpful. I hope you will finally get what you want out of life. I just enjoy watching you get stronger each day
Hugs Sophie hope things have gotten better since this post.. 💛
this was my first valentines day alone in a while too.. it definitely sucks but i'm learning to be comfortable being alone and how to support and treat myself without relying on someone else for my happiness. its very hard not having that instant comfort and safety of the person u relied on but healing and changing doesnt happen overnight. rooting for myself and anyone in a similar boat!
also the valentines day outfit and makeup looked amazing!
Love the new mantra. It is so important in romantic relationships to have your own hobbies, friends, habits etc. It can be tough to make friends as an adult (especially without an in person job). Hobby or online spaces can be helpful! I also had a fairly traumatic childhood and always felt that I was just.. idk.. unlikeable? Unrelatable? Unfriendable? But with therapy and a lot of personal work I realized that so many people feel like that- many people who are now my friends of many years! It doesn't have to be a self fulfilling prophecy. You should be proud of yourself for all of the work you have done and it's been really inspiring to see you dive in like this. Also I LOVED that lip color on you!
Honestly my local library even though its super tiny, has a lot of book, card making, old film, kinda clubs 🥰 check it out if you have one!
this is such a great idea!!
You're growing so much. I'm so proud of you for deciding to not chase after him. ❤️ You're pushing your limits so much yourself. Congrats Cindy 👏❤️✨️
Sometimes mental health clinics can take a while to get back to you for scheduling. When I was trying to get my ADD/ADHD diagnosed, by the time they contacted me back I forgot who they were lol
You are doing great! Being independent can be so liberating!
I am always a quiet watcher and i hardly ever comment on videos but I always felt myself somewhat close to you and your personality you have shown in your videos but recently i binged all your recent vlogs and i progressively felt better about you and your mental health. We are all human, i know everyone wants to seem perfect on the internet and it is so brave of you to come out and say i lost and it is my fault. Let me say it, it is not. Being mentally healthy was not an option and nobody has the ability to opt out of BPD. Not your brains fault either just because your brain wanted to create a mechanism to cope with all you've had to go through.
It is the fault of who did this to you, who made your brain go through so much stress and pressure that it had to create a mechanism to save you out of stressful situtations.
It is not Andrew's fault either just because he and you had to deal with what that mechanism had you go through. Andrew stood strong and i am sure this is just a little tiny hill you guys have to climb. Even if he gives up i and everybody watching do see the strength in you to get over this bullshit. I love how you try your hardest to make the best out of it, trying to better yourself. I have never said this to a content creator ever in my life but I love you, all of us, We love you. Stay strong. You WILL get through this.
Also love your progress on losing weight, keep going on changing yourself to a way YOU like it.(not because anybody or the beauty standarts said so!)
I like the positivity and humor you're exuding in this video. I feel like the positive attitude will definitely help process your emotions. I'm happy to see you staying busy and active. Your house looks great. You're showing some strength in keeping house instead of wallowing and letting everything get dirty and cluttered up. I feel you're right about keeping clean surroundings helps bring positive energy. After my divorce I went into a deep depression, and I let my house get out of control. I should have worked at it harder like you're doing. My brother, and his girlfriend at the time, came over and organized and cleaned for me and that really did help bring me out of the depression. So, I truly believe that clean surroundings bring positive energy and dirty surrounding feed the negative energy. Thank you for sharing with us. I know it feels good to talk through situations.
however hard this is for you, and andrew, i think its good that you are getting more time for yourself to find who YOU are and finding independence. figuring out who you are without your s/o is hard, but necessary. seeing you actually doing better and trying to help yourself is very contagious. its hard to change your path or life, but you are actually doing it!!! HELLO!!!!! LOOK AT YOU! you are actually doing it! you are doing amazing!
Glad you got to see Andrew. I believe whatever happens, both of you will work things out and be happier for it. ❤
Damn we living through the same situation but your handling it way better than me so thank you for being an example for me because i did the same embarrassing things as well and have cried every day 💜
Looking incredibly stunning, Cindy! You are doing remarkably well, and I'm ever so proud of you.
You look so beautiful in your dress! And I love that you’re changing in the best ways through this tough time, you are resilient and so strong willed Cindy! Like Andrew said - hold on! You are hanging in there so well.
Also to add, I moved around a lot as a child as well. I hated getting attached to people because I didn’t think it would last. Naturally I became a recluse as an adult. What helped me the most is having one good friend to lean on a bit when times are tough. She was the exact opposite of me but understanding and patient. She introduced me to new people, new ideas, and new things I never would of thought to enjoy. She got me out of the house and I gained a lot of independence that way. I enjoyed life outside of the house more. Eventually you get in your own groove and enjoy time away from your partner and out with your friends. Over time you get in a routine where you consistently see them out of the house. So my advice would be to start slowly, and get one good friend to start out and learn to trust who knows you well enough to help break you out of your shell, in a healthy and respectful way. Slowly but surely!
There always hope and it's never too late to fix your marriage. The way you are describing him seeing you now even if it a few minutes is a really good thing. It means he's trying. you're trying. I think this is just a small hill to overcome. I believe everything will work out even if it takes time. Getting a car and getting out more would help a lot you don't have to depend on anyone, and it can help with your independence even if you don't go far. Buying your own groceries, going clothes shopping, going to the park alone. When you describe how it hard it is to make friends, I relate so much to you. I live in South Carolina, and I don't have many friends here and It's always a struggle to make friends or keep friends. I wish I can hang out with someone like you but unfortunately, I don't live in the same state as you. But if you ever need someone to talk even if it's online. I'm always here. ♥
I wish I lived close because we have so much in common! No matter what though, I'm rooting for you all the way from Maryland.
same!
Cindy, I’ve been silently watching your journey these past few videos. All I can say is, I’m so proud of you. ❤
Hey Cindy, before you look for another therapist office, maybe send the first one a reminder email or give them a call? I promise they won’t judge you, it’s their job to help you, and it will be worth it!
Hey Cindy, I started reading the realm of the elderlings series because of you and so far I really like it! I only just started the 2nd book in the farseer trilogy but i really like it so far
You look amazing! Also, don't lose hope! Everything is gonna work out just fine. I just have a feeling.
You're doing a good job Cindy! And as always, you inspire me to keep going, to keep working hard on myself and my goals.
I’m so happy that things are getting better for you and that you are working on yourself!!! I understand feeling lonely an trapped sometimes. I work from home and recently moved to another country where I don’t know anyone and all of my loved ones are in a different timezone (4hs behind). What is helping me is that I started training at a place where I go three tomes a week, and I usually see the same people every class. Organically I started remembering names and people saying hi to me and having small talk, what I can master being a different language. That helps me physically and emotionally by the exercise and socially by meeting new people and seeing them on a regular basis
I never watch daily vlogs. I must admit I started watching yours once you posted about your separation. I am so different to you. But I've been watching your videos ever since. And I mean ive been watching all your vlogs before all this aswell. I think you're a great creator. And I see that you're going to do well, whatever you decide to do. I'll be following. Your personality is what has made me subscribe and watch! Best wishes
I've got so much faith in you , that you will push through this time and come out the other end better than ever, doesn't even matter if you'll be solo or a duo. This time in your life is truly a challenge and I can see you coming out stronger,better,independent and true. Like Miley said "I can buy myself flowers" ;) , rooting for you and sending good vibes your way
Happy Valentine's Day to you 💜 ... Your progress is amazing and you are so incredibly strong!! I believe in you, horse rump!!! 🐎💨
So happy for you guys and really proud of you Cindy!
You are so right, Cindy! I have a whole drawer of good incense and I feel it's so hard to burn them but you've inspired me to start burning more incense 💜 thank you! I agree, making friends is hard at our age, I'm 33. My wife is 23, we live in her hometown. She knows everyone, I've been here 9 months, I know no one! THEN the people we tried to have as friends hit on my wife so it's pretty impossible! I'd like to meet some happily married friends who are into witchy things but it's nearly impossible in 2023. People don't understand boundaries these days or you find someone cool, and they don't ever want to hang out! I'm an introvert but I'd like a local best friend. My other best friend is in another state. For now, parasocial relationships on the internet will have to do 🤣 I'm so glad I found a creator who believes in marriage, struggles mentally in similar ways to me, plays sims, has similar health goals, loves natural stuff..... I think it helps people to know that it's hard to meet people locally maybe but that there ARE others like you out there, even if it doesn't seem like it. I'm going to try to go to the metaphysical shop, my wife said she read there is a group associated with it! You might try contacting your local metaphysical shop. I joined a coven before I moved but there isn't one here 😪 good luck!
Proud of you Cindy, you're doing GREAT! Always cheering for you!
Congratulations on your Valentines day! You're doing an amazing job of healing and growing and I admire all the healthy coping mechanisms you've been instilling. I'm sure its super difficult, but you're coming out on top! I wish for you to get a lot of peace and happiness in life!
time to catch up on my Cindy :)
and i can relate so hard to pushing away friends and family because there is no way they could like ME, protecting myself from hurt.
Happy valentine's day Cindy!! You're glowing, i can really tell you've been working so hard on yourself! I think Andrew meant that you should hold on to your relationship, that he's working through things on his end as well. I don't think he would till you something that he knows you could misunderstand. Regardless, i think you're amazing, and you've been giving me a lot of inspiration go deal with my own stuff as well. I'm so happy i found your channel and have been able to follow your life, through both the ups and downs. I can really relate to you, and i'm wishing you the best ❤️
Happy Valentine’s Day, Cindy! You look beautiful. I’m so happy you and Andrew are making progress. ❤️
You're an amazing woman Cindy,
you got this!🎉❤
We love you Cindy, you’re doing so well, keep going girl! ❤🎉 I’ve been a fan of you and your content for years and truly want happiness for you and your loved ones
That feeling vibe you and Andrew have is still out there it just take time. My mom and dad may go through same issues but they still are in love even though they go through some arguments they learn from there mistakes
Hang in there, Cindy! It’ll all work out in the end!
I'm glad you guys are making progress. Hopeful it will all work out in the end!!
Hey Cindy, happy belated Valentine’s Day! I haven’t had a chance to watch the full video yet, but I hope your fur babies got all of your love!
You're getting there Cindy, one day at a time 💜
You look just lovely in that dress!! I hope you're doing okay! This rough patch will come to an end, you can be sure of it. I love your vlogs :) keep it up
I admire you for all the hard work you are putting into getting healthier! And I'm certain these videos help a lot of people who are struggling, me included. Thank you for putting your journey out there. I'm cheering you on!
That is so sweet of you Cindy to do that for Andrew happy Valentine's day ❤️💗❤️💗❤️💗❤️💗❤️💕
I died when you realized the burger patties were stacked together! 😄 Sometimes that usually happens when you start the air fryer and the fan gets going and the food item is not heavy enough, it will make things fly around in there. 😁
Anyway! I'm new to your channel. 1st video I caught was of Andrew leaving you and I'm hooked! #1 reason why is because I feel like I'm watching my own experience being played out on screen by you! It's scary how similar our situation has been! The break up for exactly the basic same reasons! It's so wild how you don't realize all the "wrong" you're doing in your marriage until we're forced to face it. But it's a good thing! It's a harsh but very necessary restart/refresh button we need! Now, I had to come in here to finally say something, and that is that NOW comes a hard part for you. Once you get into the mindset of "I'm doing me, I'm not begging anymore", THAT'S when they want you back! LOL! Once you're done with your pity party and put your big girl panties on, here they come, ready to get back together. 🤷♀️ Just make sure that whatever decision you take, that you're a thousand percent sure it's what YOU really want.
So, anyway, that's all I wanted to say and I'll just be sitting here on the sidelines rooting for the best.
Oh, and it's a good thing you're not sharing all the details of what's said between you both! We don't need to know everything. 🙏✌️💛
ONE HELL OF A PASSIONATE KISS GURRRRL that made me blush 🤣
I LOVE your new mantra ! Do you Cindy ! You deserve better
I have a lot of hope for you two. you have built a strong history together. whatever happens, this will be good for you. it's like the tower card in tarot - everything falls apart and it's a catastrophe, but it had to happen so that things can be built back up right. having a car would be great. I was in a one car husband did all the driving situation in my marriage and had to get a car when we got divorced and it does have a big impact. also it will make having friends easier because you can drive and go do things with them. you have a lot of self-awareness and willingness to change and I think that puts you in a good position to create a better future.
You look so pretty with that dress ☺️
I'm so glad to see you improving! You go girl! 🥳 Also happy that you got to see Andrew and your outfit was super cute!
Also the synth music you used, the opening rift sounded like one of the Sims 2 New Wave Station songs. That was fun 😊
BRAZIL IS HERE!!
Hang in there girl! Sounds like it's getting better each day and it's so good to hear y'all deciding to try to work things out! Happy Valentine's Day 💗
I saw Cindy vacuuming wearing a dress and combat boots, so I vacuumed wearing a dress and combat boots. #meangirls ❤️
Happy Valentine's Day! You are beautiful and I always look forward to your videos. Thank you for inspiring me! I'm so proud of you and just know you are helping so many people! Sending lots of love your way ❤
I know it’s hard but giving him the space he needs is part of what makes someone independent. Being able to focus on yourself and your other relationships without your partner is important (even though it’s super difficult sometimes). Lol I’m like you and often want to be with my partner when they need space. But I find when I do give him space I am more confident in myself and he genuinely loves me more for it. You are strong! You can do this!!!
I've been alone all my life, everyone just wanted to own me all my life. Shit like this teaches you a lot honestly. I'm currently experiencing some commitment issues? Which is surprising to me considering how I used to be nothing without others around me. But at the same time it's most likely because I just simply haven't found my people yet. But it'd nice to be completely content on your own. I just miss wanting love a bit.
I’m so happy for you and all the progress you are making Cindy! Sending positive thoughts your way; you’ve got this girl ❤️
It’s good to take time! You won’t make many mistakes this way, that can be made with sharp emotions. It’s hard to believe it now, but you both need time, and slowly you’ll build a new happy union! ❤
The new dress is so cute and you look beautiful. Prioritizing your mental health and taking care of yourself really suits you! I know it's hard work, but it will always be worth it.
Your outfit is very cute! As someone who once went through a similar situation and came out of it a better person, I can say that it sounds like you’re taking small steps in the right direction!
I’m so relieved to hear about your mindset change Cindy 🙏🏼
You are truly doing amazing, I love seeing all the progress in you and it makes me so proud of you!! You are slowly but surely becoming what I like to call a bad bi**h. Independent, powerul and confident, but also kind and understandable.
Also little recommendation, Idk how you feel about rap music, but Qveen Herby is an artist that taught me a lot about self worth and love towards myself as an individual and it might give you a little boost on your journey to loving yourself and being confident in your worth as a woman and as a person. You talked about knowing how to function as an individual and co-existing and living with your partner which is exactly what she could help you with.
You also mentioned how you and Andrew would listen to podcasts together and she just so happens to have a podcast on her yt channel, so if her music doesn't sit with you, maybe her podcasts will.
Here are a couple of my favourite quotes from her to give you a preview of what she's about:
"Life can be sweet as soon as you believe you're enough" - from her Mad Qveen album
"Your very existence is art" - one of her podcasts
Ofc you don't have to take this recommendation up, it was just a suggestion, because I feel she would fit into the stage of life you are currently in.
Love you so so much ❤️❤️