Welcome to the NHK - Worthless Human Beings
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 1 ต.ค. 2024
- Thanks so much for watching! This show meant a lot to me, I really connected to the show, and hope you connected to this video as well.
It took a lot of tries to get this past Copyright, so sorry if the ending seems lackluster, I had to cut out a large portion of the outro.
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The vulnerability you put on display here is really important, both in the sense of creating an open dialogue about the issue of depression in general and about this particular show. I think it's incredibly to important to try and respond to a show on the same level and, somewhat, in the same way that it speaks to you--which is exactly what you did here. I love that this analysis is just as much a personal expulsion of feelings that are unfortunate or are typically viewed as unfortunate as it is an analysis of the show's material. After all, that's what this whole show is to the people who love it most: a forceful pull towards self-reflection.
Fantastic work. Keep it up.
+Lowart Thank you very much again. I'll work to do better and continue posting. These sort of videos, while not as popular it seems, are much more important to me.
@@HidinginPublic you should watch this:
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It has no point, but I think it pertains to what you expressed in this vid
+Robert California
Ah, the _tyranny of should._
@@kneau "If this can be avoided, it should. If it can't then it would be better if it could be. If it happened and you're thinking back to it, try and think back further. Try not to avoid it with your mind. If any of this is possible it may be helpful. If not, it won't be."
^again, this literally means nothing but I think its funny \_(*-*)_/
Robert California I now feel especially silly due to where was I going w/ my initial remark: The tyranny of should? Sooner than later, you’ll be shoulding all over yourself.
I remember watching this anime in high school wishing that I'd never end up that way. It was part of my motivation to get my first job slinging ice cream. Now, I am and everyday I feel like a ghost haunting my home and occasionally reappearing as an apparition to those who knew me. Its a terribly feeling to realize you've failed yourself and even worse to admit that there's some comfort in that failure, reclining in a state of atrophy. Despite this self loathing, I feel habitually compelled to go on living as I do now though I know it to be a source of my depression because I'm so afraid of rejection or trying something new and having to overcome my inexperience.
Hey guy, you took the words straight out of my mind. Perfectly described what I’m going through. I hope you’re in a slight better place today than you were when you wrote this. Just know you’re not the only one who fell so hard
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Hitting close to home here man. But great video man.
+Pointing out the Obvious haha. Thank you. I appreciate it
Most relatable anime ever. Hard hitting and in your face
love hard truths.
I already feel like I can relate to the protagonist's struggles.
Being born with Autism, even though I am high functioning, I was often ostracized, pigeonholed from the rest of my age group by peers and adults alike merely due to my diagnosis. I was expected to work harder and behave more strictly than the others simply because of my label, while the rest of them got off scot-free.
Many of my social skills camps and special education classes were disorderly and dysfunctional, as many of the teachers there were unqualified, unskilled, and neglectful, as they expected us Autists (and other Neurodivergents) to figure things out on our own though we were still kids, rather than taking responsibility themselves for our development. I was conditioned to be self-conscious of my mental disorder, and overly caring about what others think of me in the name of self-improvement. I was taught that if I was disliked or mistreated, that I was doing something socially unacceptable. In a manner of speaking, I was set up to fail in my youth.
In 10th grade, I was bullied for my Autism relentlessly. They called me a retard day in and day out. They used my Autism as a scapegoat to blame me for their problems, as an excuse for them to to target me, saying that it was my Autism that started it, and gaslighted me that my Autism was making me hallucinate their abuse. Whenever I went to the adults for help, the bullies would usually say, "He doesn't know what he's talking about, he's a retard."
Whenever I did something kind, they'd punish me for it. Whenever I did something self-destructive, they'd commend me for it. Whenever I did something acceptable, they'd try to persuade me that it was socially unacceptable and so forth. Up was down, black was white, good was bad, day was night. I was questioning my sanity, my moral compass, my judgement, my mentality, and my memory.
Even when they sexually assaulted me in the showers, the adults took no measure to bring them to justice. In fact, the adults did NOTHING, no matter how much I begged and cried to them for help. Rather than taking responsibility and addressing the situation head on, they'd only ask me what I could do to improve the situation without their help. In my case, it was nothing; I could only avoid them. But since I was at a boarding school in the middle of the woods, I had nowhere else to go.
These kids were unhinged, if anything the adults were afraid of them. One of them threatened to kill me and another nearly broke my door down to steal my guitar. They even took advantage of the adults own mental illness, like when the art teacher was back from maternity leave, they use her mood swings to get her to side with them and blame me for their own problems.
But the worst thing they did, but blackmail my only friend there to betray me, just like Kaworu.
I was very suicidal that year, and wished I was never born.
To this day, I still suffer PTSD from being psychologically abused by my peers and staff alike. Even as an adult, I was still mistreated by fellow adults. I can't help but feel paranoid that some people are out to get me, as I've been stalked, doxed, and threatened to be hunted down and killed by people online who wished me grievous harm since Lockdown.
I want to watch this anime, but I am afraid of being triggered and spiraling into a relapse. Can anyone help?
You are the greatest anituber. You are the most gonzo and personal anime analyst I've ever seen. 10/10 you are so amazing
WeebTrashProductions Don't know how you found me but i'm glad you lik what i'm doing
2 years after, I still agree with this comment completely...
more gonzo than the Otaku Gonzo Journalist?
@@HidinginPublic ''Can you grow out of your vices and become a better person?''
Translation: Can you gain status through employment and a social circle by getting the significant woman in your life.
These are the ambitions of the truly failed person.
@@citycrusher9308 No. If you have a vice to overeat the ambition would be to work out, eat better and live a longer healthier life. If you have a vice to drink, the ambition would be to not rely on clouding your judgment for happiness and find healthier ways to cope and feel happy. Vices are all sorts and your interpretation here is inaccurate. Also this video is almost 3 years old
Your worst enemy is yourself trust me.
Back in the days i was like that dude. I kept lying to my parents that i go to school so that they sent me money. But in reality im just in the apartment 24/7 watching animes and playing games all day. When i hit a certain age. I think of everything i've done. I started crying and wanna end my life. Cause i'm thinking they earned all that money through hardwork and i'm just using it like that. Money that should've went to tuition fee and allowance just went to my personal needs and we are not a rich family so that money is important. I told them everything that i kept doing and thanks to god they gave me a loving parents so they forgive me. I stopped going to school sadly but i looked for a job everywhere. Landed some jobs until i reached where i'm at now. My life is straight and i also help my parents with their payments.
Don't give up to someone out there reading this. Fight your demons and stay strong
I thought the guy was more like the girl's manic pixie dream boy actually. Not in the way he acts, but in the way he seemed to her. He's the only one that gave her motivation to live, and while he might have had some other people in his life, she had no one.
I haven't watched NHK in many years since it's such a depressing show to me, but it still sounds like it was a good one.
The novel covers this topic slightly more indepth, but it goes both ways ESPECIALLY with the ending of both the novel and the show. The manga, continuing past this ending, has similar themes to its ending but ends on different note.
That said, being reflection of the author, NHK ends ambiguously in parallel to the author's life as the novels' multiple prints have 2 afterwords. The initial positive one, similar to what this video's conclusion ends on, and a second prints' negative one lamenting how nothing has changed and author is still a failure who only gets by thanks to small accidental popularity of this series. His latest twitter messages also reflect this.
I remember watching this back when I was around 13-14. Lost my siblings and felt like a complete stranger in the world. I love this anime,but it also did affect. For better or for worse. All I wanted was to be alone,at peace and entertain myself with my games. Welcome to the NHK is one of the first few anime that I watched,at a time where I was easily swayed by whatever catched my interest. I still love the show,yet I always feel like because of my naivety and easily swayed nature I began to think the same way as other things I watched.
People gotta know the realism in this anime is mindblowing!
Think about the suicide scene,
Everyone's family members came to visit them at the place, but for sato? None. NO one came.
Yamazaki and Misaki were gone too and of course cant blame the but the realism is what most of us can relate to.
Great video, I totally relate, though I recently started working again I still go through the same feelings as before when I was a NEAT, and it's rough. Somehow watching these types of videos helps me. I've watched Welcome to the NHK twice and im watching it a third time now and it's insane how much I can relate to the characters. It really hits home.
+Kyle Woodard Thank you! I would like to eventually sort my wmotions out a bit and do a straight forward analysis of the show, because it is really rewatchable. There are so many small details and subtleties people are bound to miss on the first or even second viewing. The characters really hit home. Glad you enjoyed the video, and glad you like NHK as much as I do.
Kyle Woodard *NEET
Yes, the feelings of while being a NEET from before my now working days return often, as I'm an already introverted and quiet person myself. But with time, years now, I notice I can rise and fall a little, fluctuating with my confidence and social abilities, as different things in life happen like work changes, moving around, people moving on, and the journey of life itself steadily making its way forward.....
mixed feelings when thinking about this show.
I think this show matches with those who feel the same way which show wants us to or like the protagonist...I mean obviously I liked the show but it was a bit streched but defined one to watch and recommended
A Hikikomori is not anymore a worthless failure than anybody else with depression or social anxiety. Being a Hikikomori shut-in is a combination of social anxiety and depressions. Most shut-ins don't enjoy their social reclusion.
Welcome to the NHK is a fucking work of Literature. I say this as a trained English major. It gets into heavy, relevant, uncomfortable themes, has great parallel structure between Sato and Misaki, and doesn't offer easy answers. At the time I read it (I read the novel), I felt like a hikikomori. I'd graduated from college, but, even though I enjoyed it and it changed the way I perceive media and think about meaning, I didn't know what kind of job to get with it. I came back home and tried to find a food service job... But even that was hard. It was like, I never heard back from anyone, and I didn't have any relevant experience... I felt so discouraged that it sapped my motivation to even try. I felt like it was my fault, and yeah, it was to at least some extent. I felt like such a loser. The only person I had to talk to every day was my dad, and, even though we were very close, it wasn't enough. I did end up finding a job, although I did kind of just walk into it (same with my second job, actually). It was rough! I'm pursuing an MA now, so that's even better, but... In any case, yeah, Welcome to the NHK felt like my life at that point.
She's still a dream-girl. The writer attempted to cover this up by giving her problems of her own, but, in the end, the way she enters his life is super improbable. The show still works though because Sato is so realistic.
Considering that the author is still a hikikomori, even when he wrote this, it seemed like Misaki was his comfort character of sorts.
@@Rosalina102798 thinking about it, Satoh is also something of a comfort character or author insert, so the suspension of disbelief hovers somewhere between the two characters, creating the strength of the work
Idk, she was the most fucked up character in the anime, she was the only one really trying to solve her problems, even if it was just a trade. People are very similar in real life, you can do everything for them and they won't care, just like Sato did to Misaki, and some people offer nothing or very little, and people are willing to give their lives, just like Sato did for Hitomi.
Sato was just a selfish character that doesn't try anything to get better, he just sucked everything from everyone, from his parents, Yamazaki, and Mizaki, and if people were dumb he for sure would continue in the pyramid scheme, but like Torotoro the only way to get better was stopping being a parasite and actually living the real world. Misaki already done all that, even was reading about relationships and human psychology to get better with people, but it didn't matter what she was doing, people never seemed to value what she was doing. In the end, she was just destined to be a lonely soul.
if you read the novel, satou is clearly the author self insert. the way she enters satou sure is grandiose, but not unrealistic tbh. afterall, she saw satou as lower than dog.@@dagarbos
*This show is an underaprreciated Gem.*
and so is your grammar
Hope you get big man! You deserve it. Not physically, but you know... viewer wise
Absolutely the best thing I’ve ever watched. The ending really echos my ideas and thoughts. I believe what you’re saying. In order to achieve it, we have to work for it. Whether it’s worth, love, or getting better with depression.
That's a huge compliment thanks man. I'm glad you could get behind what I was saying, and I hope all goes well for you.
this is so relatable omg, like you deserve so much more subs, your content is so good!
schizophrenic Chameleon Thank you very much. I am glad you could enjoy it
Hey men Im quarantining and ur videos make this hell less shity, ty.
I thought it was really interesting when you explained how its the hope that we crave, and it made me realize that the initial reason I loved NHK was because it gave me hope, but when I rewatched some key episodes I realized that wasn't the real reason I should have loved it, or the reason I love it now. NHK told me that even though I don't feel ok, and even if I struggle, no matter how hard things get, life wont pause for me. Life isnt going to stop just because I feel like it should, so I have to continue, because there really is no other choice.
To the Moon and it's sequel Finding Paradise go even a step further at dismantling the Manic Pixie Dream Girl trope and it's great.
Ohmygod I've just finished reading the comics, which I've done right after finishing NHK. Didn't expect such a comment, but can definitely agree !
I looked it up but I assume it's not a game. Mind giving me the author, so I can through the author's name
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@@Chug5003 They are story based video games by Freebird Games and Kan Gao.
Most of the gameplay is is just reading, walking, and a couple of puzzles.
@@RayOfTruth Thanks, I really dislike this trope so I'm always happy to see it subverted.
It's so easy to feel worthless, and to curl up and hide in the few things that feel uncomplicatedly good. Sometimes I feel like I'll never be socially happy, really, and it'd be best if I was alone for the rest of my life - but then I also know that I'll end up more depressed over time if I don't feel like I'm helping people.
These videos you make, the analysis and commentary you do.... they help. Even though they make me cry sometimes, they help.
It's hard being a young adult and a coming of age person, especially in a 21st century 1st world country.
Hang in there, all!!
Never give up on life!
Why not give up on life. Its too late to turn things around and if I do I can never catch up to others I know
@@swiggityswo9558 Exactly how I'm feeling these couple of months. Like there is just so much I missed out of high school and college life, I don't think I can catch up to my age group anymore. I have so much issues with myself that it'll just be a waste start cleaning up now. Unable to form connections, or care about people, it feels like everyone is better off without me. So in the end why even bother... is what strikes my mind every so often.
@@manishmayank4199 man, I am sorry you feel that way. I struggle with thoughts like this every day although I am 24. But I came to realize that my greatest enemy is me. finding a support group is really crucial and not giving up against those demons in my mind is a battle I go through every day. my advice is to find support and asap. talking to anyone can help alot. whether online or in real life. Hope you pass this difficult time.
@@akramalraeeini370 what if you have people you know but they don't want to listen to your problems at all
The economics metaphor is spot on. Aside to feeling like a burden to others, Misaki feels jealous of Satou because she feels trapped in her little castle, she yearns for the freedom Satou has to just do whatever he wants and be himself, while that same freedom in the eyes of Satou is worthless if you have no one to share with
This video is fantastic.
I can relate to Sato and in a funny sort of way I can relate to how you relate to him.
"A lot of the enjoyment someone get out out of the show is based on how well they can relate to the main character." This is so true.
Thank you, being able to relate to someone about the show actually makes the show that much better.
This was my life for two years straight and it was the worst period of my life.
This was also my main takeaway of the anime. You think you don't have value but that's not for you to decide. You never know what other people put value on and who knows, it might just be you. If this anime doesn't change your life, I don't know what will. A masterpiece through and through.
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Well, i would disagree to the idea that u need to be "Exclusively productive" and "A mix of different achievements" to be worth it. That is called meritocracy and does little more than isolate us from eachother. Some people fall for it and end up leaving those who love them behind for the sake of pursuing that worth. And thats not healthy either. Balance it's the only way to find happiness. The issue it's not "Proving to yourself your worth" that way.
Having a job that leaves u satisfied and gives u food it's enough, everything it's fine while u don't hurt others and thats it.
I don't know if Sato it's a failure, or if he's worthless. He feels that way and thats it, no one told him he Should. Anyone who rlly wants it can have a simple life and do whatever.
Good vid btw, cya another time!
still love this comment
Meritocracy is a good thing you chump
But what is more important people who love you now, but don't necessarily continue to do so or your own concrete achievement. There are a lot of people who can love you(In a family sense) and you can always find them but your won value that is something you need to create on your own.
@claus yssring Nope, merit isn't subjective you either have the required skills or you don't. Most of those things happen because people don't put the people with the most merit in the right positions and leave it to incompetents. If we were more meritocratic we could have peace.
@@emperorgameling5064 life isn't as simple as that mate. Incompetence doesn't create wars nor conflict, nor religious extremism, nor racism or nationalism.
Meritocracy finds it's flaws when it meets reality, humans are first and foremost emotional beings, we decide and act based on our biases, limited knowledge (think of it as like tunnel vission) and emotions, even when we reign over them (something far harder than how I think is portrayed) they creep and influence our decisions and way of thinking. You don't stop being depressed when you know you are depressed, for example.
Even then. Who decides meritocracy? Which criteria you take? Stalin was an iron-fisted politician which elevated the soviet union to the position of World Power and kept his position until his death (to keep it simple). Reducing it to a simplistic decision. By meritocracy. Does he deserve to keep his post? Even tough it's people suffered hunger and repression. Does he meet the criteria for meritocracy? Or is a better quality of life and freedom for it's people a better criteria?
I'll end this by saying that meritocracy is a simplistic way of simplifying (hurr durr) the complexity of the human condition (yeah I know it's vague but meh).
Disclaimer: I don't really agree with the original comment. Sounds like commie propaganda to me.
The Japan Pessimism Association! is also reaching for you Misaki !! There you've Misaki's character explanation as Takimoto himself (the original author) wants to deliver. Also be carefull about the Japan Frailty Association, because they went after Hitomi. To sum up, this is the problem of *psychological resilience:*
(wikipedia) an individual's ability to successfully adapt to life tasks in the face of social disadvantage or other highly adverse conditions.[1] Adversity and stress can come in the shape of family or relationship problems, health problems, or workplace and financial worries, among others.[2]
Resilience is the ability to bounce back from a negative experience
with "competent functioning". Resilience is not a rare ability; in
reality, it is found in the average individual and it can be learned and
developed by virtually anyone. Resilience is a process, rather than a
trait to be had. It is a process of individuation through a structured
system with gradual discovery of personal and unique abilities.[3]
Bro your video is getting shadow banned please check it. Great video btw I feel empty in good way. Lots of love to you.
what video?
@@HidinginPublic this one I was looking for NHK reviews and even with more views than other videos on the topic yours was not on that page I got here from related video recommendations of another video.
Hope it's just a fluke.
I've just finished this anime, and the sting of intimate, personal pain is still felt in my chest. I'm not a terrible case, all things considered: I have a full-time job, I'm about to self-publish a huge novel... and I live with my parents due to the economic state of my country - and I wish I didn't. Perhaps being on my own completely would force me to seek what you'd call "hope". Truth is, if you find yourself rooting for Satou and Misaki, there's a deep, personal craving behind it: you probably want to be rescued or to rescue someone who's worse off than you. All my life I've been seeking that very thing, but I just couldn't get it. I gave up on my social life a couple of years ago, after a terrible e-relationship, and I feel like I'm getting worse. 31 years of age, without my own place, without anybody to rely on or to support with all my heart. I wish someone would knock, knock, knock on my door and be the saviour we all dream of, but I know that's not going to happen. Still I can't knock on somebody's door myself, guess I'm stuck. Nothing feels real to me anymore, so I should have the will to do whatever it takes, right? But there's no will.
I'm not so arrogant as to tell you: "reach out, do it, don't end up like me". I have no right to say that. Know, however, if you're reading this and are in any way similar to me, that you're not alone in these shambles. I want you to not feel unique in your struggle, to not think that the world is against you in particular. Whatever it's worth, know that you and I are victims of circumstances, a result of what happened before. Circumstances do change... I hope they will for you.
i know this isnt a new vid, but have really been enjoying your content. I watched Welcome to the NHK when I was 14, and really connected with it. Glad to see a vid of your style on the show.
Glad you liked it man
Oh boy I definitely got a LOT of enjoyment from the show then. There isn't a single series that has ever hit closer to home for me than NHK ni Youkoso. I can relate to everything you shared in this video so much that I simply must subscribe.
this is the quality content i subscribed for. good luck on the road ahead.
+Nifty Dude haha, thank you very much. I'll work to not disappoint.
on the topic of value, look towards made in abyss' 2nd season.it's more abstract, but one of the best anime we will ever get to see.
NHK has to me one of the low key most influential psychological anime ever made. and it definitely had a great influence on me! because it deals with the inevitable fate of living, and coming to terms with major depression, in a kind, empathic and ironic kind of way. it's true, that there is no final solution other than death. but you can come to terms with those demons, make peace with them. make some friends along the way, live your life .. somhow .. slowly heal. and just keep on going
i can vividly remember many years of living with major depression, where my most dire wish, when ever i went t bod, was just not to wake up again. waking life was pain, but now i'm glad i didnt have the will to just off myself. my life isnt going splendidly at all, but it's worth the effort of not giving up.
>if YOU are struggling right now, please listen:
>many have suffered the same or far worse than you, or have been just as devastated by lesser torment
>offer them a hug, instead of a pity contest
>assure them, they are not alone, just like you aren't!
Im actually Sato, I’m 20 years old and basically a drop out from a pretty good law school. I haven’t told my parents and I’ve been using the scholarship money to barely live on. I don’t really know what to do.
How are things going now, man?
@@MeanBeanMachine5 That's what I'm wondering. Hopefully he hasn't committed suicide.
I’ve been watching TH-cam for a LONG time. I have thought many times about finally making an account so I could comment on a video. This is the video that finally pushed me to do it.
This video really touched me. You’re a great content maker. I’m really moved by how vulnerable you allowed yourself to be in this one. Keep up the great work, you’re fast becoming one of my favorite channels.
Then read Thomas ligoti book!
Hey man, you doing better yet? I really hope so man. Good luck.
This anime spoke to me at such a personal level that I'd never thought possible and so did this video. Loved your shounen manga protagonist vid too hope you grow into one of the biggest anime youtubers out there so that your excellent content reaches out to more people.
The ending of this vid almost had me in tears...
This show was hilarious. It was sad too. The way society has become. Very deep. I believe these symptoms are due to the advance of society and the introduction of tech. People no longer want others anymore or would judge people lower and not want to hang out or date losers. They would rather focus on egotistical things instead of the small ordinary people.
Thank you for this video.
Scene at 0:00 to 0:20 was like the perfect living spot for me. I'm all about that rain and cold. Summer heat messes me up.
Perfect when listening to Lofi or Black metal music
I think to say that one couldnt escape depression is a very depressive statement.
And I hope it is false, I hope that one day I can walk without this vice around my heart and lungs.
I think it is false. The fact that for some people it may take more time or effort, or be an ever fighting battle is not something that impedes all hope of success. Everyone can get better if they reach out and obtain it, it just may be difficult.
You can run from it all you want. It's a vice, much like smoking. An addiction. You can actively try and fight against it by doing new things and exposing yourself to new environments, but it always is lying in wait. Depression becomes comfortable. Isolation becomes comforting. It doesn't make you happy. But it doesn't make you upset. It's numbing. The only way I've found to break out after depressive episodes is to just do and constantly move forward. You have to care about or work towards something. If you think your life is worthless for yourself, you push forward for the good of those around you. Live selflessly. By doing so, you will see your own self worth and know that you are capable of more than you ever thought. Don't allow yourself to think, don't allow yourself to fall back. People say fools never catch a cold. And that's the same with depression. Fools who don't know the meaning of impossible are the ones who push through inevitably. They never know the pain because they have the tenacity to never give up. I also believe that dwelling on it with introspection constantly is a negative. It doesn't help, it only spirals you worse.
If you eventually look at the baseball with a different mindset, you'll see that what you have is what you needed all along. You won't want the basketball.
I was depressed af when I watched this show it kind of made it worse but in the end I feel like I’ve never learned so much from any other show 10/10 for sure
This video explains the show sooo good 10/10 also
Bro, I highly recommend this book called "The Will to Meaning" by Victor E. Frankl, it's so educational, and inspirational. It discusses the topics of the freedom of will, the will to meaning, the meaning of life, logotherapy, and other really interesting and wonderful stuff. I hope you check it out and I hope it helps with any problems you got. I know for me it's slowly helping and I've only read the first chapter and a few pages
I have thanatophobia, think anti-suicidal to a fault. I fear anything risky and am too self-conscious. If I were given the choice to sacrifice everyone else in the world, just to survive, I would. I WOULD give up all of the other people around me just for one pathetic life, my own. This causes me constant disgust and hate towards myself. Then the panic of the neverending realisation of the inevitability of death presses down on me. And what sucks the most? It's happening all the time. As soon as I stop doing something, stop distracting myself, my brain jumps back to taunting me with the fact that I will die and that fact is impossible to avoid.
When I see suicidal people, I never get them. I just can't. How can one try to drag himself out of existence? This isn't hate or some sort of disgust. This is a simple inability to understand. HOW can a person just throw his own consciousness into the empty void, into nonexistence? Sometimes I try to believe in God. Heaven, Hell, the usual stuff to try to keep me from existential dread. I CAN'T. MY BRAIN JUST CAN'T PERCEIVE A POSSIBILITY WHERE ALL MY ACTIONS ARE PUT UP ON A CELESTIAL SCALE AND JUDGED BY WHO KNOWS WHAT!!!!!! All I see is void, dark, neverending, soulless void where one goes to stop being.
I don't want to stop being. Ever.
Human beings have a soul. When your body dies, the part of you that you think of as your consciousness will still live on. If you meditate for a long time without moving, or have a near death experience (NDE) it's possible to leave your body and experience something called astral projection/astral travel. That's when your soul travels through the astral plane (non-physical dimension).
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@@TruffleSeeker54 Yoyoyo just wanted to jump inhere and start with I kind of get where Mr.Gentleman Robot is coming from, but to that I´d say the biggest point missed is that suicidal people seldom see much/any worth in living at all.
But most importantly I can "astral project" and am *pretty sure there is no soul* . See I can lucid dream, with which I can "astral travel" or whatever I want, to be honest. But assuming, just because such a thing is possible with our minds, that there is anything like a soul, is a logical fallacy. The next sentence is to be taking in general, but also I have personal experience from being in a christian family while already not wanting to do anything with the church at a young age, while being told all my life I am "soulless" since I´m from a certain "totally fine" "minority", one way or another that was a rather interesting dichotomy to grow up with. No one needs to believe in a soul for their life to matter. I´ve had my fair share of going down into the rabbit holes that are ancient Sanscrit learning texts for hindu monks to the path to enlightenment and they are really convincing until I remember that they give us what we want "in our heart" while building up ideas impossible to deconstruct since they have no grounds in reality to test. Obviously anything like a God or the afterlife are currently immeasurable to us, they are neither provable nor unprovable. At least for me that means to proceed as best as you can, either way. There is so much we nearly hairless apes have still to comprehend and discover while there is so much outside of our possible influence. Live in your "circle of influence" and don´t waste your time on "the circle of concern".
Furthermore just because I may have saved you, reader x, from getting into crystal worshipping in ten years, or whatever, don´t lose your life in your dream fantasies now, okay darling?
P.S. Literally had flashbacks to flicking out suns when Misaki "was falling", a visceral dark reaction, that was so damn sad, good thing Satou teleported just in time for the dramatic save, nearly thought NHK would pull a really sad ending, but at last the NHK was welcoming.
@@AGenericFool
Think of it this way. Some people believe there is nothing beyond the physical body. But if you can travel outside of your body, then "you" are not just made up of a physical body, there is a non-physical body as well. What is the non-physical body? It is the soul, or consciousness. I would stake my life on the belief that the soul exists and that there is an afterlife.
There being a possibility of "part 2" of this fkn life that could be better or worse who tf knows, is far scarier than the infinite void where u are nothing, feel neither good nor bad, like before being born.
You're a cool dude for making a video like this. For some reason I started watching a bunch of videos about this particular anime. I've found a lot of interesting opinions. I'm seriously thinking about making anime content and you helped in a way. Thank you. ありがとうございます！
I'm not really into anime but that was one of the best things I've ever watched. Sato happens to be my last name as well (very common here in Japan) and I also spent some time as a neet as well after university so it was kinda relatable. The big difference is that I enjoyed being a neet and did backpacking for some time until I finished my savings and hat to go back to work.
The show really deals with serious social issues in a way that makes it easy for everyone to relate and understand, and its dark comedy is pure gold.
A saying I like to repeat is. You haven't met everyone you will love and who will love you yet.
Misaki is a manic pixie dreamgirl. The turn where she's revealed to be dying and worthless is part of the trope. Because the ultimate fantasy is that the MPD not only saves you, but you can save her and become the hero. As insightful as the show is, it still can imply for people to look for their own personal Misaki which as other's have pointed out, is exactly what the show is telling you not to do.
This was great, thank you so much for sharing. I am often amazed at how my SO could see value in me, when he's so successfull and I'm such a failure. This shed some light.
I'm glad to hear that. I hope everything works out for you :)
Dude the intro + the relatable moments are 10000% my life right now. Best video
Thanks man, glad you can relate.
Hello from the future. I hope you are doing better. Thanks for making this video, I am sure it has affected more people than have commented. Your work has value to many others. Thanks.
Thanks. I think I am, or at least am more able to deal with it. Hope you do well in your future too.
I haven't watched the anime, but it sounds like Misaki isn't in it to help people but to have power. I have been taught that abnormal power dynamics lead to unhealthy relationships. I should probably just watch the show.
I can't explain it, but your analyses mixed with your relevant, real emotions... it not only gets to me, but it invoked my urge to write creatively. I haven't seen many, if anyone, on youtube act this real on camera and still teach me something. I am sorry you feel as you do recently (or at least when this video is, as it's been a year, it seems), and I wish for you the best. But this level of realism coming from a youtuber is unique, and I feel like, despite the fact I don't know you, like I'm getting to know you. It puts there a sense of 'invisible connection'.
I also like being by myself at times. Shut myself away in my room, turn on music, and write or watch youtube or play a game, or something. But while I'm alone, and I know I've isolated myself well, I feel there's a line there that I can tug and it will give me a comfortable amount of connection to others; The internet. Having any sort of internet capable device on me, be it my phone, my laptop, or just my 2DS. Your videos invoke that same sense, where we're alone, but through your words, I feel there's an faint connection there built off of empathy. I feel your words close, and that empathy makes me feel alone, but perhaps not so lonesome.
I don't know if you ever feel the same way, or if being isolated and knowing people out there feel the same way gives you any amount of solace, but you gave me some solace with this. Thanks, and I can't wait to see more of your work. (:
I feel this. But I feel alone. Now
Disaster struck. A wildfire destroyed my house and now I might have cancer.
What now?
Dude this is awful... hope you're okay. I mean... It's hard to be "okay" in situation like this and I don't think you care if someone no-name will say "hey I have like a dozen illnesses, the only person I cared for betrayed me, I have no job but got a very hard depression and urge to kill myself every day", but...I hope you will fight it. First fight cancer, then fight for your life. House can be rebuilt, a person can not.
Take care of yourself. And seek help if there's someone you can trust.
You are my Shinji.
Get in the robot
Get the fckn Eva shinji
Really good video, you deserve many more subscribers. I was lucky to find this channel!
Keep it up, man!
+Poleit Thanks dude! Glad you enjoyed it
I have the EXACT same type of happy place. I have a loft bed with a desk underneath, and am surrounded by curtains and drapes. It feels great.
That's crazy. It's strangely comforting
You express yourself extremely well, very resonating with my own goings on, and you being able to reach out to so many out there, is definitely good karma.
Your service to us in this own special way of yours is very heart-warming... You lift us. Thank you very much.
Shit, it's about time someone calls out Misaki for not being some dream girl from the anime. See that a lot from fans despite it looking pretty obvious to me, and it's REALLY obvious in the LN and manga
I already feel like I can relate to the protagonist's struggles.
Being born with Autism, even though I am high functioning, I was often ostracized, pigeonholed from the rest of my age group by peers and adults alike merely due to my diagnosis. I was expected to work harder and behave more strictly than the others simply because of my label, while the rest of them got off scot-free.
Many of my social skills camps and special education classes were disorderly and dysfunctional, as many of the teachers there were unqualified, unskilled, and neglectful, as they expected us Autists (and other Neurodivergents) to figure things out on our own though we were still kids, rather than taking responsibility themselves for our development. I was conditioned to be self-conscious of my mental disorder, and overly caring about what others think of me in the name of self-improvement. I was taught that if I was disliked or mistreated, that I was doing something socially unacceptable. In a manner of speaking, I was set up to fail in my youth.
In 10th grade, I was bullied for my Autism relentlessly. They called me a retard day in and day out. They used my Autism as a scapegoat to blame me for their problems, as an excuse for them to to target me, saying that it was my Autism that started it, and gaslighted me that my Autism was making me hallucinate their abuse. Whenever I went to the adults for help, the bullies would usually say, "He doesn't know what he's talking about, he's a retard."
Whenever I did something kind, they'd punish me for it. Whenever I did something self-destructive, they'd commend me for it. Whenever I did something acceptable, they'd try to persuade me that it was socially unacceptable and so forth. Up was down, black was white, good was bad, day was night. I was questioning my sanity, my moral compass, my judgement, my mentality, and my memory.
Even when they sexually assaulted me in the showers, the adults took no measure to bring them to justice. In fact, the adults did NOTHING, no matter how much I begged and cried to them for help. Rather than taking responsibility and addressing the situation head on, they'd only ask me what I could do to improve the situation without their help. In my case, it was nothing; I could only avoid them. But since I was at a boarding school in the middle of the woods, I had nowhere else to go.
These kids were unhinged, if anything the adults were afraid of them. One of them threatened to kill me and another nearly broke my door down to steal my guitar. They even took advantage of the adults own mental illness, like when the art teacher was back from maternity leave, they use her mood swings to get her to side with them and blame me for their own problems.
But the worst thing they did, but blackmail my only friend there to betray me, just like Kaworu.
I was very suicidal that year, and wished I was never born.
To this day, I still suffer PTSD from being psychologically abused by my peers and staff alike. Even as an adult, I was still mistreated by fellow adults. I can't help but feel paranoid that some people are out to get me, as I've been stalked, doxed, and threatened to be hunted down and killed by people online who wished me grievous harm since Lockdown.
I want to watch this anime, but I am afraid of being triggered and spiraling into a relapse. Can anyone help?
I'm autistic, hikikomori and was bullied relentlessly in primary(elementary) and highschool. Highschool lasts for 6 years in the UK and I was suicidal for half of that, and I was able to watch it and I quite enjoyed it. I don't know much about PTSD though, there are themes of paranoia with the main character Satou, along with themes of suicide. Specifically, several times Satou has a paranoid panic attack where he thinks everyone is out to get him and runs home. If those are triggers for your PTSD then I'd advise against watching this anime, but otherwise go ahead! I know this is an old comment but I hope this helps.
But you must understand, there WERE people who were out to get me during High School and during Covid. I just don't want to be cyberbullied for my own paranoia panic attacks. @@reeman2.0
I dont know man, I have been serching people for most of my life, and in the and all that I got was to hurt those ho are most close to me and make than hate me, I am tired.
@Instrumentality1000 it's like no matter how hard I try is never enough, never good enough, it's hard
interesting I like that you are also philosophical like myself :D and you apply what you learn from uni I guess?
Let's collab - I can make custom music if you like
Yeah I take a lot of stuff I learn from Uni, but also just spend a lot of time studying and learning new stuff on my own. I'd need more details on your idea for a collab. Not sure how that would work.
Thanks bro THANK YOU!
"God is a bad guy". You know light novel was written by a real hikkikomori?
I just found this channel, and i love it. And i love that you examined N.H.K. I love that you examine amine, and then frame it as a video diary/journal, and how that anime relates to you. Its very relatable, and i love you for it. It makes me feel less... Alone, to an extent, if that makes sense. Thank you.
Drop out. Move to the woods. Totally serious. You don't have to take this advice just Do what's best for you. I know it helped me when I felt like you do. You don't have to keep up with other people or prove anything to anyone. Relationships don't dictate your value, you do. Go be alone, get to know and love yourself bro. You're a smart and decent dude. The world doesn't deserve people like you and it often destroys them out of spite or jealousy. You have something many will never: the ability to self reflect honestly and see the world how it is. Instead of how you would like it to be. I've been alone for two years and I'm happier than I've ever been. Exercize, journal, call your mom. Love yourself, because I love you as much as any stranger can 👍
I feel u bro, i felt that a year back when i was 13 (now 14) , I went through a lot of shit within the 14 years, too much to explain in this comment, I wanted to go away, I wanted to scream and rage, I wanted to hit something so badly at nothing, unending rage, I wanted to put a blanket around my desk but it was too much work, so i just decided to not talk to my brother and its the same to this day, I gotten better from those days of anger and rage, I hope u get better man, hope this comment reaches u, im now in highschool, I made friends and dont get bullied anymore, hope u have a nice life man
I hope things are going great for you man, I’m 17 now but I wish I had the same strength as you when I started high school, I grew with time but it takes a lot of self reflection
Man this is basically my life. Which is part of why I've been working towards joining the Air Force. I need to make progress and find friends that are on equal footing with me.
I’ve seen this video alone many times, your videos are the only ones that truly get me to self reflect and feel things. Thank you so much for doing what you do.
Let's all love lain
i know i'm late but this is fantastic work, kudos and i hope you're doing good :)
subbed :) You have a good mind my friend let's chat - if you can stand that - I relate ..
Thankya
Wow man this really made me cry and tear up. You are a great speaker man, i hope you are doing well and continue to make videos about your life and experiences. I wish you much, mcuh good luck my friend.
I love how you treat your channel as a massive journal, and each video is a carefully crafted journal entry. Love your videos man.
This anime, which I have yet to complete, is incredible. As a homebound agoraphobe/paranoid, I hate how much I relate to the protagonist. Due to several attacks against my reputation, and false claim after false claim coming my way, I have been left alone and emotionally cripple, lacking anywhere to go or anyone to tell. I have begun to experience delusions, and episodes of which I have no name. I dont know why I’m venting this into the void here lmao, What happens happens I suppose.
The anime opening your neighbor is playing is an amazing touch. You get a sub.
I've watched many of the popular sad anime (clannad and after story,plastic memories, angel beats, your lie in april,Anohana,Violet Evergarden etc) but while these shows made me sad Welcome to the nhk was the only anime that had me depressed afterwards. I actually just today finished rewatching and it's still good as I remember.
Good video, man. I found your introspective pragmatism with sparsely scattered words of optimism both soothing and soothingly inspirational, and I thank you for that feeling, no matter how fleeting it may end up turning out to be.
This is the first video of yours I've seen, and I'm subscribing, but I want to say now that I hope things are better for you now, brother.
Take care of yourself :)
There are certain undeniable facts about these characters that make it almost impossible to feel bad for them. It's the "Pretty White Kids With Problems" trope set in Japan. There is literally no reason for these characters to not be able to make their lives better/easier. They're not making up enemies, they're making up problems.
Huh?
I watched this show for the first time in a similar situation as you; that is, in a dorm room with a friend who I chose to live with...but still needed time away from. I was staying an extra few days on my own after he had already gone home for winter. I was pretty damn broke, relying on the instant ramen we had left. I was gaining weight like crazy from the stress of school. I was always a good student...but the stress was different knowing that making it into a career in my field was an insurmountable challenge. I was realizing my long term relationship was starting to fail...though it wouldn't really end for another two wasted years. I started watching NHK with my room mate...he didn't really get it. Too much of a literal thinker. I remember the night I binged it being so cold outside. I got tired of suiting up and walking outside every few hours just to smoke my the stupid menthols he had gotten me addicted to, and I was convinced there was maybe only one or two others in the entire dorm, it was so quiet. So I started chain smoking them inside the dorm like an idiot. An hour or two later security knocked on my door...and theres no way to lie yourself out of smoking inside when smoke is practically rolling out under the door into the hallway. Had to deal with all kinds of bullshit from RA's and counselors after that...felt like a real god damn conspiracy for sure.
Thank you,
didn't watch your videos for quite some time, but I missed them
I'm speechless but I love watching this particular video : D WTF is wrong with me?
Hiding-kun, this vid is how I found you years ago. Then I lost you, lost everything, lost myself. Then I found Nux and eventually, through the strange light he emits, I found you again! It's been a hell of a journey. Now I get to see your face and watch you smile and it makes me happy. Just wanted to say thanks for making me feel like I wasn't alone in my loneliness. Much love, Hiding-kun!!
Anime is such a lonely thing for an adult 42 like me. I found harder and harder to go alone, but is even harder to feel unable to help family with finances. The fantastic achievements many can see just like me, in the tip of their fingers, but almost like unable to achieve success alone most of the time. Unable to achieve huge success, but yet being such a hero, we end up loving that one that deserve us more than anyone. Love your own self. Marry yourself. But I could not break out the social shell. And barely finishing my works, I cannot seel. The sensation that is too late, comes too soon. But how wonderfull is to be alive and see another great charactere in human history that can dream with the inpossible and even touch a bit of this mistery.
Sometimes is better just cry, and let it go. But remenber that we are not alone. We may bring change when the time is ready. Great channel, hiding in public.
suicide? Why so hasty? We all end up there anyways
when you're in living very painful & suffer a lot that's kinda hopeless, then suicide becomes an option
@@NikiWonoto26 sure, but you lose the potential of a better life.
That last part of the video was very great bro. It actually gave me some hope
Thank you.
happy b day
When you say that a lot of the love for the show can be based of the relatedness of Satou. I 100% agree, this is why it's prob one of my personal all time favorite animes. I can't stop fucking up and whenever I'm down, I re-watch this when I see the end it always gives me hope to move forward doing the things I know I have to do.
thx for this video. ill try reaching out more in future.
Best of luck :)
I just discovered your channel and your videos really speak to me. They must speak to a lot of other people too but, I just want to say that you've helped me put some of my thoughts into words. I really like your content, keep going ! 🖤
I still can't get that Pururin song out of my head after so many years from watching that show. NHK really ruined my life bcus it always draws out depression even if I'm not trying to feel it.
I want to say thank you. Ever since tenth grade started my life has kind of been in a downward spiral. Ever since quarantine started I’ve been trying to reach out to people and say hi, not become isolated more than I already am. I’m still ignoring class work and I still don’t see the same bright future that I once did but I’m trying to get better
Exactly I've reached the fall ever since corona came
"View your future as optimistically ambigous"
I was hikikimori since 19, so... 8 years. No one to help me. No Misaki, no Jesus, no one else, just me, but I am too sick, too tired and too dumb to do anything with my life. No job. A bunch of chronic illnesses. Tried to do smth about this, but doctors are shit in my country. A lot of mental stuff too, suicide urges, depression, panic attacks. I tried to reach out to people, but no one cared. Never. It's like screaming at the brick wall and waiting for it to answer.
It's like I never existed at the first place. World doesn't acknowledge me. Not me nor my art. Yes, I had dreams and plans one day, but then everything was crashed into nothing and I am just a worthless human being.
I really am jealous of those who met great people in their life. Having a good family, good friends or relationships can be a life-saving sometimes. How wonderful it must be to just talk to someone who would LISTEN and SUPPORT you? Huh.
Well. What a whiny lil bitch I am, lol
Thank you for your videos. Really. They hit very close to home and feel very personal and honest. Sorry about whining.
To everyone else- seek help if you need one. I guess doctors at YOUR country are better than mine. And you probably have someone to support you too
I'll listen to you. If you're willing to talk to me about it. I won't talk to you about my struggles but I'll listen to yours. If you talk to me as if I was a stranger sitting in a park bench I'll listen to you as such. I can't promise you'll be pulled out but I can spare a little of what's on the outside, I can spare a little serotonin. But you have to be respectful and somewhat educated and accept that I might stop talking back to you if I get bored.
Why would I expose myself to ridicule and cringe on the internet? Idk, your comment was long probably and I get bored easily... It was probably that. It was probably just that.
Thanks for a good video and a good recommendation to an underrated show sir. Hope you are doing well man.
Thank you. you glorious fucking individual - Onward n' Upward
I was thinking about taking all my medication tonight and even wrote an entry in my journal to my niece when this came into my feed. I'm trying my best. I'll try not to but I don't have much.
*Gamers Rise Up*
You have a unique channel because I'm living the same life right now away from my family and daughter, most of my day I stay at home just so my girl won't suspect me of anything since we have a baby, just smoke weed all day and try to work and barely being able to talk to anyone. Even my room feels like its crushing around me.