Crystal Meth Addict interview-Leo

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  • Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of leo, a crystal meth addict in Los Angeles.
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  • @l.l.8004
    @l.l.8004 ปีที่แล้ว +115

    A real gateway drug is trauma 😢

    • @willb.danger6573
      @willb.danger6573 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      childhood trauma causes..."you name it". all psychological phenomenon that are invisible to a scan, up and including some people that present as psychopaths in the mri machine are rooted in childhood trauma period.

    • @life_withl
      @life_withl 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Agreed…

    • @DavidLamarjr
      @DavidLamarjr 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      Yea but NOBODY what's to talk about that. This show has changed my opinion on homeless drug addiction. Sad.

    • @probiotic1
      @probiotic1 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      Yes stop blaming weed!

    • @nyxsvart368
      @nyxsvart368 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

      There's no such thing as gate way drug mate. It all goes down to will power. So weed isn't a gateway drug it's a medicine. This gateway drug bullsh*t is a mainstream media lie. So please cut the cr@p and get your facts straight. Stop parrottin what you hear in the media propaganda

  • @juliemackenzie1978
    @juliemackenzie1978 ปีที่แล้ว +173

    It’s really heartbreaking to know that most of these people’s issue & addictions started with a dysfunctional adult that caused their trauma. 💔😞 I wish Leo all the best. Thank you for sharing this video with us. 👍🇨🇦😊

    • @davechristian7543
      @davechristian7543 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      not really actually bc thats just wat we hear her bc most of it just started bc when we r teenagers we liked to party unless its different in the states which i dont think it is.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      @@davechristian7543 He was sexually abused before he was a teen and he started drinking before he was a teen.

    • @BooBoosPalace
      @BooBoosPalace 12 วันที่ผ่านมา

      ​@@davechristian7543Your comment makes no sense-??

  • @pitsmittengurrl5249
    @pitsmittengurrl5249 ปีที่แล้ว +42

    Being molested as a child is behind an incredible amount of drug addicts use and general trauma. It's a theme in the interviews Marc does. It's disturbing and disgusting how much of this sexual abuse occurs. Sad.

    • @blueballs9712
      @blueballs9712 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Because they're wimps. Being molested would be awesome, imagine having a hot woman with big tits molesting you? I'd be so happy.

    • @noahbrown4388
      @noahbrown4388 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      For real! I had no idea how pervasive childhood sexual abuse was until I got older. I feel so grateful to have had a decent childhood without that shit 😕

  • @beebee2781
    @beebee2781 ปีที่แล้ว +86

    My father was also molested at a young age (8yo). He wrestled with it also, and fell into drugs and drinking. He eventually began to heal it, by speaking about it and helping others who had also been molested as children.
    Leo, thank you so much for speaking about it. It can feel very shameful, but as you said it is never a kid's fault. Speaking about it will help other men speak out and begin to heal also.
    I hope that one day we can all come together to get much longer sentences for child rapists, as well as make victims - especially children - less afraid to speak out.
    Thank you again for speaking out. I hope, like my Dad, you one day find some peace and healing.

  • @kurdishgirl6361
    @kurdishgirl6361 ปีที่แล้ว +260

    Watching Marks interviews helps me to see and understand some people’s situations better. I can understand what he means by he doesn’t know how to be normal and that it scares him living a life without drugs. Imagine going from numbing yourself every day for the majority of your life to re-learn how to do every day-habits sober, facing the fear of having to “feel again” without the option of numbing yourself, being a new person in an old situation, dealing with the shame for the damage they caused to themselves and others while using, to have to fight for their lives everyday in ways most of the “normal” people wouldn’t understand. Don’t let the past steal your present Leo, I wish you all the best.

    • @christineculhane7109
      @christineculhane7109 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Well stated. When I became sober, I equated having to feel again to being a burn victim in the ICU. So many years of being numb and feeling nothing at all to feeling everything is an extremely raw experience.

    • @tomatobagel
      @tomatobagel ปีที่แล้ว +3

      The Kurds are a great people in a crappy neighborhood. Kudos.

    • @jah7763
      @jah7763 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Beautifully said!

    • @bigmike-
      @bigmike- ปีที่แล้ว +4

      We'd all do well to have the same compassion you do.

    • @leneo1731
      @leneo1731 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Absolutely beautiful the way you described him and his situation.
      You seem like a very emphatic person.

  • @baghodler508
    @baghodler508 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    You could see the relief and weight lifted as he finished telling you about his problems and told you who he was. A quick lil smile formed

  • @Kosackk
    @Kosackk ปีที่แล้ว +91

    If you were molested as a kid, you will most likely have a fucked up life ur whole life... thats what ive learnt listening to these people! It sucks to listen to this, if only adults could keep their hands in check, and not touch children, traumatizing them for life the world would be a better place for everyone

    • @Capt.Thrust
      @Capt.Thrust ปีที่แล้ว +29

      If you took a poll of people who use drugs or have used drugs in the past I bet that about 85% have had childhood trauma including myself.
      There are some sick people out there. People who molest kids are pure evil. They corrupt lives and that in and of itself is a special kind of evil that deserve harsh punishment.

    • @fingerprint5511
      @fingerprint5511 ปีที่แล้ว

      Child molesters destroy innocence. Most people in jail were molested. Molesters are victims of molestation. Those who don't continue the abuse, by becoming abusers, are traumatized, like this man. Molesters will molest to rob the innocence of a child, just as theirs was stolen. Being a survivor myself, I'd prefer the trauma than to hurt a child in order to hide the shame, the dearh of the heart . Its shame and guilt. This man kept his heart, its why he would never molest a child.

    • @patriciomejia4100
      @patriciomejia4100 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I grew up without mother or father i guess that counts. My grandma took care of me.

    • @commentcraftsman
      @commentcraftsman ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Shit, I was mo fucken lested...a bit.

    • @kimlarso
      @kimlarso 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

      There are exceptions; If you’re ever so lucky to be gifted one good adult that’s a stand in caretaker (aunt, elderly neighbor, best friends parents)

  • @Catalinaobregon
    @Catalinaobregon ปีที่แล้ว +51

    I hope you can see that sexual abuse does not, should not define your life. Our bodies naturally respond to stimulation. It is nothing to be ashamed of. The shame belongs to the adult who exploits it in an unwitting child for their own personal sexual gratification. Addressing it as an adult will help you in recovery of your addiction to numb yourself of any thoughts that somehow you were responsible for the abuse that happened to you as a child. Wishing you a speedy recovery from your past to your waiting future, sober and loving yourself.

  • @PAPDOG1973
    @PAPDOG1973 ปีที่แล้ว +79

    What an incredibly honest man. I hope he finds happiness and stays safe.

    • @gna8an
      @gna8an ปีที่แล้ว

      Honest?? He is a thief ….

    • @threeminuteshate
      @threeminuteshate ปีที่แล้ว

      See, I just hear him saying cliches and platitudes.

    • @jimestes2563
      @jimestes2563 ปีที่แล้ว

      The sad part is, that he's only that candid because he's on drugs.

  • @handmadeiowa
    @handmadeiowa ปีที่แล้ว +129

    Early childhood sexual preditors are almost always the beginning of every addiction story. Heartbreaking

    • @beckee6282
      @beckee6282 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      That’s why I believe anyone who touches a child should be put to death

    • @kre8unity
      @kre8unity ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Agree 💯

    • @AudibleVisibIe
      @AudibleVisibIe ปีที่แล้ว +3

      "almost always" is pushing it...

    • @Ordinaloutcast
      @Ordinaloutcast ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@AudibleVisibIe no it isn't

    • @Nikki-sf6bs
      @Nikki-sf6bs ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@AudibleVisibIe No it is not. It is definitely the majority

  • @lizwaa100
    @lizwaa100 ปีที่แล้ว +35

    First minute in and boom. Sexual Abuse. Poor innocent souls that have to traverse that treacherous slippery path, may they find peace and forgiveness for themselves

  • @loosescrews8106
    @loosescrews8106 ปีที่แล้ว +32

    Despite all he has been through and is still going through he is still very level headed and made so many valid points while sharing his story. You have a good heart Leo, wishing you the best.

  • @christineculhane7109
    @christineculhane7109 ปีที่แล้ว +93

    He is the epitome of an addict who firmly believes that he’s using the drugs and that the drugs aren’t controlling him. It’s the vicious cycle …the “functioning” addict’s constant rationalization and thought process. I know- I have been there. Like many addicts, he’s such a solid guy with so much potential battling internal wars. Addiction- very often the fear of pain we humans don’t know what to do with. 💔

    • @Rochelle721
      @Rochelle721 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      💯

    • @adambrocklehurst4211
      @adambrocklehurst4211 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Absolutely.

    • @Earthylovingurl
      @Earthylovingurl ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Well said !

    • @briannadehart-colagrosso6367
      @briannadehart-colagrosso6367 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Tolerance is a bitch...using to just function and so hard to get back to baseline after quitting, many never get there. I also think one reason he's maintained this tenuous control is that he doesn't seem to be shooting.

    • @pricklycats
      @pricklycats ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You just don't have self control. Most people who use drugs don't get addicted, those are the real statistics. If everybody got addicted then the usage statistics would align with the addiction/overdose statistics, but that's just not the case. You just never hear about the "normal" stories because negativity thrives online and everybody wants to feel like they're above other people so they enjoy watching people in a worse place than them. The people who appear on this channel are in the MINORITY. They do not represent drug users. They represent the worst of the worst in LA.

  • @ieatmothersfordinner
    @ieatmothersfordinner ปีที่แล้ว +21

    what a strong soul, i wish him all the best.

  • @AA-ps3uv
    @AA-ps3uv ปีที่แล้ว +54

    I never get this. How is it possible that mothers dont believe their children are being molested? Sickest thing ever

    • @Rochelle721
      @Rochelle721 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Right. Ive always felt like I was the only person on the planet who went through that. For me, that hurt scarred me much deeper than what that chomo did, or could ever do. Well never understand that which doesnt make sense. Its not to be understood. I feel extremely grateful that I dont, because I wouldnt be able to live with myself if I could. That life experience is what my foundation was built upon. Trust no one. If your parents can turn their back on you, anyone can. Youre right, it is the bottom of the barrel of humanity. Thank you for having sympathy 💙💚 #tealribbon

    • @ivaloowilson3524
      @ivaloowilson3524 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      My mother cought my half brother molesting my little sister. She denied it! He molested me also. I did forgive them both but it took going to therapy to come from a place of forgiveness. Alot of shame involved with being molested as a child. Thank you Mark for opening the door to the conversations & healing. Sending love & light to everyone 💔❤️‍🩹❤️

    • @kimb6962
      @kimb6962 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      I have 3 relatives who are drug addicts. The husband and wife of the three spend every dime and every moment they can on drugs and alcohol. Their kids are ignored. Kids been raised by wolves. So, if this man told his mother he was molested, she would have to do something to stop it. All she wanted to do was drugs.

    • @josuevargas621
      @josuevargas621 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@Rochelle721 💯💪🙏

    • @Rochelle721
      @Rochelle721 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@josuevargas621 Thank you! 💪🏾

  • @benwaldenmusic
    @benwaldenmusic ปีที่แล้ว +13

    Leo is obviously capable of honesty as well as empathy. That counts for something.

  • @bigsima2k23
    @bigsima2k23 ปีที่แล้ว +64

    The childhood trauma is real 🙏🏽💜

    • @jrahn66
      @jrahn66 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      It causes so many problems in adults. I think about my childhood friends and peers who ended up being alcoholics/drug abusers and wonder what kind of horrible traumas did they suffer from that was hidden from the rest of the world. Many of my HS friends passed away because of alcohol/drug related issues. Ugh…

  • @shelbshub
    @shelbshub ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I know I'm late to this video being posted, but Leo... YOU ARE A MAN. I'm so SO proud that you can tell your story and bring awareness to the traumas both women and men (and everyone in between) face as children. I feel like a lot of men don't speak about what happens to them out of fear they aren't "man enough". None of the trauma you experienced was because of anything you did.
    Thank you for sharing your story

  • @barbaranelson4982
    @barbaranelson4982 ปีที่แล้ว +52

    It's true we should never judge someone until we know there story 😢 I hope he gets help one day 💞

    • @JaimeMesChiens
      @JaimeMesChiens ปีที่แล้ว +5

      It’s even-more true we should never judge someone else.
      Period.
      Hard Stop.

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@JaimeMesChiens True.

    • @kre8unity
      @kre8unity ปีที่แล้ว +3

      “There is only one true judge and that’s God, so chill, and let my father do HIS job.”
      -Salt N Peppa

    • @marylougeorge9890
      @marylougeorge9890 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@kre8unity 👍✝️

  • @tamsinlouw760
    @tamsinlouw760 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Mark - I was dating a man who was a drug addict for many years. We met when we were 23. Your videos helped me understand addiction and how to offer support. I became more understanding of his background and how it's affected him. Eventually his toxicity poisoned my 32 year old life, I was emotionally and physically abused. One day I woke up and it was finally the end. I have peace of mind that I did everything in my power to help him and I've got you and the persons you've interviewed to thank for that. Lots of Love - T ♡

  • @user-kf2st5rm4g
    @user-kf2st5rm4g ปีที่แล้ว +7

    These interviews definitely give me some fear of drug addiction. I’ve been clean for 3 years now. I will never do that again

  • @MFBOOM100
    @MFBOOM100 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    Bad irresponsible parenting is the core of most mental issues imo. Very sad story what a strong person to have endured such a tough life Salute keep fighting bro 🙏💯💯💯

  • @yeetcannon1693
    @yeetcannon1693 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    This man deserves happiness.

  • @analinakos
    @analinakos ปีที่แล้ว +13

    I know where i wanna be in five years, i’m just not ready for it yet.. Is the most accurate depiction of how trauma gives us obstacles we’re not ready to overcome and it deteriorates spirit to the point where it’s admirable that no matter how hard Leo’s life was to this point, he managed to step above the wrongdoings he had to endure from other people and a big part of himself. Power to you Leo! 🔥❤️

  • @ericespinoza373
    @ericespinoza373 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I’ve probably watched a couple dozen videos but this one hit me differently. Really sorry for the pain Leo has suffered. I will be praying for Leo and his son.

  • @truckstopbutterfly
    @truckstopbutterfly ปีที่แล้ว +13

    i also went through similar things as a child and have struggled as an adult and not knowing what normal is and not being to 'be in society' theres something about childhood trauma that traps you there in your mind Like and it stunts your whole life These interviews make me feel a lot less alone in the struggle

  • @therealkamp
    @therealkamp ปีที่แล้ว +12

    *Thank you For your Upload's, You Single Handedly Keep Me Out The TH-cam Rabbit Hole When I Can't Sleep.*

  • @PianoMatronNeeNee
    @PianoMatronNeeNee ปีที่แล้ว +34

    Sounds like you had a rough start in life, I’m so sorry. Hope you get the help you need Leo. You have so much to give the world. Great interview Mark. Greetings from Miami.

    • @ryanblanchard2508
      @ryanblanchard2508 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      You hope he gets the help he needs? Why don’t you try and help. Reach out to him, send him a couple bucks. You cared enough to comment but you don’t want to put any effort to help. Help isn’t going to appear out of thin air. Do something instead of making a comment that makes you feel better about yourself! 🤡

    • @BooBoosPalace
      @BooBoosPalace 12 วันที่ผ่านมา

      ​@@ryanblanchard2508Imbecile.

  • @seresagunst6889
    @seresagunst6889 ปีที่แล้ว +14

    Don’t give up man! Like you said you can stop when you’re ready just don’t wait to long when you’re 6 ft underground. Your son and wife need you!! I’m rooting for you!! Much love!❤️

  • @johnruvolis874
    @johnruvolis874 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Human on human can be such a horror. It's a tragic reality. I hope Leo someday works through his inner demons.

  • @marshnate1
    @marshnate1 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Leo I'm so happy you finally freed yourself and your letting your story out instead of letting destroy u! I pray this is a fresh start at you letting yourself heal. You are an inspiration to all! 🤗 ❤️ 🙏

  • @nategomes1719
    @nategomes1719 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    Man when a person gets molested it’s so hard for the person after. People never really can understand unless they were themselves or have someone close to them who has. So sad. I hope Ivan get clean however that looks and build a better life.

  • @SMuld
    @SMuld ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I'm grateful that these people share their stories, keep em coming.

  • @jeannine3750
    @jeannine3750 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Poly drug addiction is so scary. It's not just the one drug U are stuck on. It's which one do u need the most.... I've kicked the drinking and the crack and cocaine do not serve me well at all. But the opioids grabbed me and still has a grip. I'm on a subutex maintenance drug. Most people use it to get off heroine. I've been on it for three years. It keeps me from running to the streets. I feel good about were I'm at but it's not enough for my husband. He wants me to be ready but I know I'm not and the shame of telling your kids why dad won't let you come home.

    • @ktcooki276
      @ktcooki276 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Sorry.😣

    • @industrialdrummer44
      @industrialdrummer44 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      First off: GREAT JOB for choosing to get on the Sub, that's a massive accomplishment. It sounds like your husband might want to do some homework (or better yet, therapy/counseling/whatever) to learn more about the incredible benefits of your replacement therapy. "Someone I know" has been on a small and stabilizing dose for 14 years, and they have not touched an illicit drug since. A lot of folks compare MAT to diabetics and their need for insulin. If it's keeping you on the straight and narrow, then fuck the stigma.
      Good luck!

    • @nolofatsomampane1279
      @nolofatsomampane1279 ปีที่แล้ว

      ❤️

    • @terariabros8725
      @terariabros8725 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Your husband doesn’t understand that it’s no different then you needing insulin if Diabetic. If you need to be on it you need to be on it and he needs to get educated. He should be supportive and happy your sober and taking meds as prescribed. I’ve been on maintenance for 17 years and I will likely be till I die because that is the safest option for me. You being well is the most important thing and he should never as you to jeopardize that just because of his insecurities about it. Proud of you.

    • @jeannine3750
      @jeannine3750 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@terariabros8725 Thank you so much, I really needed to hear this and I agree. Support is so important. Bless you and your loved ones.

  • @tedohenderson
    @tedohenderson ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I wish you the best, Leo. You seem like a nice man who has been through a lot from early on. I think you deserve healing and recovery. I hope you and your wife get help when you are ready. Much love man.

  • @TangibleReads
    @TangibleReads ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Brutally honest. Addiction fuels everything he does. I hope he's able to overcome. It's not too late.

  • @kellyhearn9801
    @kellyhearn9801 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    This channel is a recruitment channel for AA. It's like a daily speaker's meeting but one that only focuses on the mess and not the miracle.

  • @bellachannell777
    @bellachannell777 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    Leo, I pray that you read my comment. Please know that I appreciate your truthfulness and transparency. The inhumane monsters that sexually abused you are despicable and I'm so sorry that happened to you. 😥 One day, I hope God blesses you with a powerful platform to advocate for other sexually abused children because the impact would be monumental! May you find inner peace and self-love because you are worth it! ❤🙏🏼

  • @ledunc
    @ledunc ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Despite all his struggles and pain, this man is a great speaker. So direct and plain. Put in the right position he could really flourish in life. I think this very often when watching this channel. I hope the best for him and his family

  • @1428monsterdrink
    @1428monsterdrink ปีที่แล้ว +8

    What a great guy. He’s right, life is so hard and unfair. I hope he finds some peace ❤️

  • @fifilamoore1718
    @fifilamoore1718 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    My heart just breaks listening too Leo’s story , Your so aware , and I have watching this channel long enuff to hear the root of most drug addiction starts with childhood abuse especially sexual, It’s so ridiculous , outrageous that so many kids life’s are just destroyed from these sickos perverted ways . At least Leo is one of the ones that hasn’t repeated what happened to him , I just hope his son isn’t a victim in foster care .Sad real live shit as Leo says .🫶🏻❤️I so hope u get help soon real soon & get ur son back ❤️‍🩹fifi

  • @francesgarcia8749
    @francesgarcia8749 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    As a Corpus Christi native it’s so sad to me when people get out of there and it’s not for the better. My childhood was far from horrible but I too had my own run with addiction and I thank God every day I’m not where I used to be. I chose to move away and do better for myself! Leo, you have so much potential and you have time to turn this around! Continued Prayers for you and your wife! 🙏

    • @francesgarcia8749
      @francesgarcia8749 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@albertomedina4294 Chicago

    • @TB-hw1dr
      @TB-hw1dr ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Remember the bluff

    • @francesgarcia8749
      @francesgarcia8749 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@TB-hw1dr sure do lol

    • @francesgarcia8749
      @francesgarcia8749 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@albertomedina4294 my apologies! I don’t always see the notifications for some reason. No plans to return as of yet but thanks for the nice gesture. Take care!

    • @francesgarcia8749
      @francesgarcia8749 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@albertomedina4294 with all due respect, no thank you. Take care!

  • @beachfly8066
    @beachfly8066 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Thankyou Leo for sharing your story. I wish you the very best 💛

  • @skyking228
    @skyking228 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    Just wish Leo and his wife waited until they were free of drugs before they had kids. Always interesting, thanks!

  • @imaloserdude7227
    @imaloserdude7227 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Nice interview, Leo. Thank you for telling your story.

  • @elizabethsorensen7015
    @elizabethsorensen7015 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    As someone who was a functioning addict this really resonated with me.

    • @JaimeMesChiens
      @JaimeMesChiens ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I’ve been in recovery for years.
      I *thought* I was functioning.

  • @jenniferlosoya9742
    @jenniferlosoya9742 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This man was so precious to me. He just seems like a broken man that needs to know he is worth just as much as anyone. He’s had a lot of trauma and uses to feel okay. I have always had so much compassion for addicts and in the last 10 years, empathy- I am an alcoholic. I have, however, found recovery and hope. I can only hope the same for these people. I really like what you are doing with this series. Thank you for humanizing people that otherwise aren’t given a second glance on the street

  • @julesdrums6167
    @julesdrums6167 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    This dude is honestly really dope. Loved to hear his story and see that you can have functional addicts who have real-world skills.

  • @elliotdelgado6001
    @elliotdelgado6001 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    SoftWhiteUnderbelly unscripted truth of the streets of the world this channel has keep me clean and I truly appreciate it very much because you only have one life and my kids and family won't see me suffer no more in life so thank you again for the Realness we all need this BigFacts 💯🙏🇵🇷♉

    • @Gram72534
      @Gram72534 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      Me as well! SWU is a big part of my daily program and I feel just like you do! Congratulations on your sobriety!

  • @smokewolf8746
    @smokewolf8746 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Another amazing interview thank you Mark

  • @youtubejasonyoutubejason6962
    @youtubejasonyoutubejason6962 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Oh man there is no way I can look at the drug addicted and not see the abused children of yesteryear, playing a game of torture and relief. Never be embarrassed and you can heal. What a world. It’s hard to get abused and not abuse the next person if you can have a history of abuse and never hurt and abuse anyone but yourself, that’s admirable.

  • @drbennyboombatz9195
    @drbennyboombatz9195 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    You know he actually looks pretty good for 51, especially given all the drugs he's taken and the trauma. He's very personable, I reckon he's got a real chance, good luck man!

  • @MEL2theJ
    @MEL2theJ ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for the interview Leo and SWU

  • @noax79
    @noax79 ปีที่แล้ว +16

    Good morning everyone! Stay well 💜

    • @therealkamp
      @therealkamp ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Same To You! 💙

    • @bernadettebutler6395
      @bernadettebutler6395 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Good morning to you as well 😘

    • @Gram72534
      @Gram72534 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Good morning, from Denver! Have a great day!

    • @Jason-ot8fw
      @Jason-ot8fw ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Thank you. Good morning to you as well!

    • @Mimi-bs7kn
      @Mimi-bs7kn ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Morning morning! Same to you pretty

  • @robertovelazquez919
    @robertovelazquez919 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Mr. Leo u are strong in opening up and your story is helping out someone remember that every time you feel down. every time u wake up u have a new chance to start over. Past is the past . The anxiety/edgyness when getting off ur drug makes u start thinking of negative things. If u control that anxiety/edgyness when the drug is starting to fade out of your body u will control those thoughts more and will help . time heals minute by minute hour by hour becomes a day then a week… u strong.

  • @robbryant52
    @robbryant52 ปีที่แล้ว

    Mark these interviews are so emotional and enjoyable to watch if this makes sense .I live in the UK and had a brilliant childhood with my aunt and uncle watching some of these interviews makes me feel so lucky to have a good start in life

  • @wellahartig6382
    @wellahartig6382 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Leo, you have the key 🔑 right there! I’m sorry someone hurt you, get well!🙏♥️🎈

  • @janninbarrera623
    @janninbarrera623 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I love this man! He’s amazing, hope he get better soon. 🙏🏼

  • @ceciliamsx3
    @ceciliamsx3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Good luck in your endeavors, Leo. It’s hard but you’ll get through this addiction… best wishes for you & your wife.

  • @christophersovereignshaw2325
    @christophersovereignshaw2325 ปีที่แล้ว

    Love you very much Leo. I can tell you have a good heart brother. You WILL get sober and you WILL heal.

  • @ProfessorCupcakeTV
    @ProfessorCupcakeTV ปีที่แล้ว

    Leo: thank you for your utter honesty. We live in a world where the molestation of boys & young men is rampant, and it’s still a very buried reality, but a massive worldly wound. It’s men like you who are cracking open the door so that men can have the light that can heal us as a society. We can’t even begin to do that until we de-stigmatize men telling their truth. I wish for you the very peace you desire. I watch nearly all the SWU videos, but rarely comment. I wish for you freedom.

  • @melaniecharlton7121
    @melaniecharlton7121 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    He seems like a decent man.He’s been through a lot of trauma😔He seems like he would have the will to get off them if he wanted but still not there yet.I wish him the best and hope he eventually does it.

  • @amberk4978
    @amberk4978 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    We need to crack down hard on child molesters. Way too many adults are getting away with ruining childrens lives-for life. It sickens me. Parents need to start talking to their children about pedophiles and never keeping secrets. Different family members should ask their children (at random times )if anyone has touched them. We need to change our thinking. I can’t understand why there are people in jail for weed while known (and unknown) child molesters roam the street.

    • @cynthiaconnors183
      @cynthiaconnors183 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I agree. However, you and your children can trust and love each other to the moon and back, teach your children to not be ashamed and speak out if someone is attempting to harm them or has harmed them, you can do everything right...but...if a predator threatens the family to the child, they won't speak up. Happened to one of my daughters at the hands of a cousin repeatedly over time, in the cousin's family home. With people in the house. If you have a relative, even if they're in their teens, and that relative wants a ton of alone time with your child and leaves everyone else out...THAT'S A HUGE RED FLAG. Now I know it. My daughter didn't speak about it until she became an adult. She suffered with it for years afraid to talk.

    • @kimlarso
      @kimlarso 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Research time given to pedos vs meth users👉It’s an American fkn Tragedy

  • @Gods-bad-boy
    @Gods-bad-boy ปีที่แล้ว +18

    I really 100% percent believe we need to legalize drugs. The reason why is some of the most vulnerable are caught up in the drug world and are preyed upon by the predators. You legalize drugs, regulate it, tax it and you strip the underground market of its hold over the most vulnerable. Just my opinion. This is stuff I noticed while I was out there.

    • @Hisdudeness101
      @Hisdudeness101 ปีที่แล้ว

      Not to mention allowing the mega rich/big pharma to over prescribe and manufacture the synthetic death sentences and call it medicine.....oxy and Fentynal were not made by accident.

    • @nickwark9190
      @nickwark9190 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Agree 100%

    • @AShley-un1yi
      @AShley-un1yi ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Au contraire NEVER wish for the legalisation
      But yes to decriminalization

    • @threatassessment606
      @threatassessment606 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I don't think the police are gonna like that

  • @beastyboyBlue
    @beastyboyBlue ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Leo if you got away from those drugs ,you'd have a lovely future. You minded your sister and Mom so you have a kind nature! I am rooting for you Leo.⭐️

  • @mwlera4765
    @mwlera4765 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    He was honest, and articulate. He knows what his issue is and admits he doesn’t know how to live life sober. Best wishes to you.. I hope you stay safe.

  • @gailgarcia8782
    @gailgarcia8782 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Good Morning Mark and SWU Family 🤗 Leo I pray that life get better you seem to want it for yourself, I know you can do it ! GBY 🙏🏼

  • @410Gregj
    @410Gregj ปีที่แล้ว

    Amazing guy who was dealt a bad hand. He seems to be right at the precipice of healing. I hope he gets there. Best to you Leo!

  • @lisakrieg3076
    @lisakrieg3076 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Poor Leo, the way he explained the molestation was both heartbreaking and maddening! Makes me so freaking ANGRY! Those disgusting men taking advantage of an innocent boy (and girl). It’s Despicable! They ruined this poor mans life. Hope he gets off the drugs and lives a good life🙏🏻…..

  • @loredanadruga-iancu1632
    @loredanadruga-iancu1632 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Thank you for sharing your story!

  • @TonyaKay
    @TonyaKay 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Most sincere man right here.

  • @anakarada
    @anakarada ปีที่แล้ว

    I always treat people I meet with kindness, respect and a smile, because you never know what they have gone through, or are going through currently.
    SWUs videos are hard proof that the world is rough for some people and I honestly think it contributes to make the world a better place, and others should do the same.

  • @karenwestby-gibson758
    @karenwestby-gibson758 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    His poor son deserves better. Someone needs to be clean to be an example for their kids.

  • @wendyreynolds6086
    @wendyreynolds6086 ปีที่แล้ว

    I know everyone cannot be given help, but I wonder if any of these brave souls are offered support after their interviews? Thank you for interviewing these amazing people!

  • @tmk68
    @tmk68 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    So sad. You can hear it on his voice how hard this interview was. Seems like most drug issues stem from child hood abuse in all forms . It's heartbreaking. I can't imagine how terribly hard it is to escape this addiction

  • @anselmodiaz2996
    @anselmodiaz2996 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    This channel gets me everytime. I too am dealing with living life sober but im struggling with it and a pat of me wants to go back to the drugs and fuck ups to cover up pain that i thought was gone. God please help me!

    • @jessicalynn6576
      @jessicalynn6576 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Don't go back to it it's not worth it!! Stay clean and sober please u can do this! Stay strong your awesome and doing a great job!! ❤️❤️

    • @anselmodiaz2996
      @anselmodiaz2996 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@jessicalynn6576 Thank you ms. Lynn!

    • @jessicalynn6576
      @jessicalynn6576 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@anselmodiaz2996 you are so very welcome! I really hope u stay clean u got this!! Praying for u!!

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Please don't go back, the people in your life that you love are worth it, and especially yourself. You're worth it. It gets better, it gets easier (in my opinion)
      ...I used to feel the same way as you. Keep ya head up and keep fighting that awesome fight!🙏💜

    • @anselmodiaz2996
      @anselmodiaz2996 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@wesleyalan9179 Thank you mr. Wesley! It truly means something to me.

  • @mtnblubird4304
    @mtnblubird4304 ปีที่แล้ว

    Real human. Much love and respect.

  • @pinklemonade2097
    @pinklemonade2097 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Hope you get the help you need Leo. Good luck🙏🏽💯

  • @mryee5540
    @mryee5540 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This is heartbreaking and angering. I hope his abusers get justice in this life or the next and that God gives Leo the peace he deserves.

  • @leiilima808
    @leiilima808 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    God bless you Leo❤️

  • @rpierce7004
    @rpierce7004 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    What happened to his sister ? Get clean man. Get your son home. Social services is no good . You got this . Get more therapy with the right person cause it isn’t resolved yet. Speed up the process. Why wait 5 years?

  • @patricialandrum7366
    @patricialandrum7366 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I’m saddened by this interview and I hope by the grace of god life gets better for Leo

  • @cornpop5623
    @cornpop5623 9 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Man spoke truth when he said an addict will give it up when there ready! I went to so many programs and rehabs bc that’s what others wanted me to do, and is why it didn’t work at that time. Once I wanted it I was able to stay sober, 10years.

  • @Lynn-nr2vk
    @Lynn-nr2vk ปีที่แล้ว

    You’re an amazing man Leo. You are making a difference because there are many men that will see this. Your heart is golden.
    I am so sad to hear your story which is so prevalent in this sick society we live in.
    You’re a hero man, a real man. Life is difficult enough without the addictions.
    That little child in you needs to heal.
    God bless you for your incredible strength and just so you know if you’re reading this Leo.
    It’s hard to function on this upside down twisted place even when you have zero drug addictions.
    Our ‘society’ is not set up the way that most people would like to see.
    It does not help the less fortunate or those who have dealt with abuse, ptsd, and trauma.
    You would make a terrific counselor btw as I’m sure you already are in many ways

  • @mississippiapple1078
    @mississippiapple1078 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for sharing your story

  • @joeserrano2266
    @joeserrano2266 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Seems like a really good guy. Hope he gets better.

  • @amberlabelle5132
    @amberlabelle5132 ปีที่แล้ว

    You are amazing Leo we are all rooting for you, I hope one day I can be half as strong and brave as you are ❤ never forget your worth and how loved you are king ❤️❤️

  • @shyamlynn243
    @shyamlynn243 ปีที่แล้ว

    Sounds to me like you are closer than you think to being ready for change. Sounds to me like you are there now. Take the step Leo, it's worth it and there is no perfect time. I speak from personal experiance. Won't be easy learning to live a completely new life but it is possible and will take you to many new places. you said yourself, this life now is hard so you have nothing to loose. Take the step Leo, I wish you all the best.

  • @joannamendoza2353
    @joannamendoza2353 ปีที่แล้ว

    Truly wish the best for Leo ❤️

  • @myeyeswentdeaf6213
    @myeyeswentdeaf6213 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Good Morning!👋😁from 6:25am Brooklyn NY 🇺🇸 to whatever time of day it is wherever in the world 🌎🌍 YOU🫵 are, my SWU family.

    • @Gram72534
      @Gram72534 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      What's up brother, 4:30 am in colorful Colorado! Have a great day my friend! Where's monk been? I hope she's good!

    • @cindywhedbee1713
      @cindywhedbee1713 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Here in FL it’s 0643.
      Happy to be here!

    • @myeyeswentdeaf6213
      @myeyeswentdeaf6213 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @Gram #7 Wats up Grams. Thanks, you too my friend, have a great day. About Monk Idk, I haven’t seen her. The last time I asked about her she popped right up to say she’s good. So maybe she’s just playing the background , not commenting as much. I bet she’s good though. I bet she’s watching, making sure we all behave ourselves. 😳 lol.😂 The day just doesn’t feel the same without @Jaded Monk spreading love to ya does it?

    • @Gram72534
      @Gram72534 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@myeyeswentdeaf6213 100%!lol!

  • @loredanadruga-iancu1632
    @loredanadruga-iancu1632 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    It feels good to be clean and have a clear mind at all times. Feels good not having to look over your shoulder constantly.

  • @ieattofu68
    @ieattofu68 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I am so sorry this poor man had to endure some awful childhood horrors.

  • @BazStrickland
    @BazStrickland ปีที่แล้ว

    Leo - thank you for sharing

  • @jeanetteparrish8167
    @jeanetteparrish8167 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Mark, this video of Leo, really touched my heart. I didn't resort to drugs or alcohol but was abused from the age of two yrs. old to a teenager. It changes who you, are i just wanted to be a little girl thats all. I imagined every person i was around knew my secret and it left me feeling ashamed when in fact no one knew but two individuals. I still feel sad for that little girl that just wanted to be a little girl.Gennie from Seattle Washington. Leo i wish you Happiness. Thank you Mark

  • @F30586
    @F30586 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Top of the morning to you all. Have a good one. Gonna be another scorcher here in Southern Ca. We’re literally burning up over here.

    • @rabbidcow2135
      @rabbidcow2135 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      It's pretty bad over there. Didn't think I'd ever feel lucky to be in the sticky deep south but it's happening. Actually feeling like fall is close. Probably be over 100 next week though...

    • @cindywhedbee1713
      @cindywhedbee1713 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I am in FL and it’s the usual hot but not like the surface of the 🌞…

    • @martinmummert5614
      @martinmummert5614 ปีที่แล้ว

      It's called geoengineering...climate modification/weaponization. It's done to make the climate change LIE seem real.

    • @wesleyalan9179
      @wesleyalan9179 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Good morning from West Atl Ga✌🤟🤞ya'll have a wonderful day!💜🙏

    • @maureent8653
      @maureent8653 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Good morning from PA… going to be in the rainy 60s today..

  • @PRO.224
    @PRO.224 ปีที่แล้ว

    Very switched on man for an addict. Wish him all the best and hopefully he can find peace and happiness without substances.

  • @connorhough6821
    @connorhough6821 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Brother I got choked up at 15 minutes. You are a good man. You had a hard upbringing and you had no choice. Our past doesn’t dictate our entire future, and I know God loves you. Be very proud to be honest enough to tell you’re story. Be proud of yourself for carrying on with life and pushing through. It’s ok. I struggled with crystal meth for ten years and embarrassed myself being taken advantage of similar to you but at an older age and I had to realize it didn’t define me either. You’re not alone. God bless you, man. Consider taking an ADD test and get on adderall and maybe a a 10 mg Valium to help with your anxiety because the meth will kill you. Please consider other options. You can break through and have a good “normal” life. A peaceful life. Just remember everyone lives and lives at their own pace. Take care.

  • @Redbull357
    @Redbull357 ปีที่แล้ว

    You're a good man Leo. It's never too late to change your life.

  • @kingsdrip5810
    @kingsdrip5810 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Me having a Mom that is a crystal meth addict it’s crazy how fast it can’t eat up someone life

  • @archidancecher
    @archidancecher ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I wish at schools they would teach how to deal with such traumas and problems instead of some useless subjects. If only he had a chance to cure his trauma and pain, if only there was a therapist helping this little 5 year old kid, this person might have been a very successful person in what he wanted in life.
    I can confidently say 99 percent of the people around me were molested or raped in some and different degrees and u know doesn't matter how they live but they struggle with it always inside and it effects on their quality of life,relationships and ....
    You are strong and i hope you'll find yourself ready to quit. Thanks for sharing your story.