It’s really heartbreaking to know that most of these people’s issue & addictions started with a dysfunctional adult that caused their trauma. 💔😞 I wish Leo all the best. Thank you for sharing this video with us. 👍🇨🇦😊
not really actually bc thats just wat we hear her bc most of it just started bc when we r teenagers we liked to party unless its different in the states which i dont think it is.
Watching Marks interviews helps me to see and understand some people’s situations better. I can understand what he means by he doesn’t know how to be normal and that it scares him living a life without drugs. Imagine going from numbing yourself every day for the majority of your life to re-learn how to do every day-habits sober, facing the fear of having to “feel again” without the option of numbing yourself, being a new person in an old situation, dealing with the shame for the damage they caused to themselves and others while using, to have to fight for their lives everyday in ways most of the “normal” people wouldn’t understand. Don’t let the past steal your present Leo, I wish you all the best.
Well stated. When I became sober, I equated having to feel again to being a burn victim in the ICU. So many years of being numb and feeling nothing at all to feeling everything is an extremely raw experience.
childhood trauma causes..."you name it". all psychological phenomenon that are invisible to a scan, up and including some people that present as psychopaths in the mri machine are rooted in childhood trauma period.
There's no such thing as gate way drug mate. It all goes down to will power. So weed isn't a gateway drug it's a medicine. This gateway drug bullsh*t is a mainstream media lie. So please cut the cr@p and get your facts straight. Stop parrottin what you hear in the media propaganda
My father was also molested at a young age (8yo). He wrestled with it also, and fell into drugs and drinking. He eventually began to heal it, by speaking about it and helping others who had also been molested as children. Leo, thank you so much for speaking about it. It can feel very shameful, but as you said it is never a kid's fault. Speaking about it will help other men speak out and begin to heal also. I hope that one day we can all come together to get much longer sentences for child rapists, as well as make victims - especially children - less afraid to speak out. Thank you again for speaking out. I hope, like my Dad, you one day find some peace and healing.
Being molested as a child is behind an incredible amount of drug addicts use and general trauma. It's a theme in the interviews Marc does. It's disturbing and disgusting how much of this sexual abuse occurs. Sad.
For real! I had no idea how pervasive childhood sexual abuse was until I got older. I feel so grateful to have had a decent childhood without that shit 😕
I hope you can see that sexual abuse does not, should not define your life. Our bodies naturally respond to stimulation. It is nothing to be ashamed of. The shame belongs to the adult who exploits it in an unwitting child for their own personal sexual gratification. Addressing it as an adult will help you in recovery of your addiction to numb yourself of any thoughts that somehow you were responsible for the abuse that happened to you as a child. Wishing you a speedy recovery from your past to your waiting future, sober and loving yourself.
First minute in and boom. Sexual Abuse. Poor innocent souls that have to traverse that treacherous slippery path, may they find peace and forgiveness for themselves
He is the epitome of an addict who firmly believes that he’s using the drugs and that the drugs aren’t controlling him. It’s the vicious cycle …the “functioning” addict’s constant rationalization and thought process. I know- I have been there. Like many addicts, he’s such a solid guy with so much potential battling internal wars. Addiction- very often the fear of pain we humans don’t know what to do with. 💔
Tolerance is a bitch...using to just function and so hard to get back to baseline after quitting, many never get there. I also think one reason he's maintained this tenuous control is that he doesn't seem to be shooting.
You just don't have self control. Most people who use drugs don't get addicted, those are the real statistics. If everybody got addicted then the usage statistics would align with the addiction/overdose statistics, but that's just not the case. You just never hear about the "normal" stories because negativity thrives online and everybody wants to feel like they're above other people so they enjoy watching people in a worse place than them. The people who appear on this channel are in the MINORITY. They do not represent drug users. They represent the worst of the worst in LA.
Despite all he has been through and is still going through he is still very level headed and made so many valid points while sharing his story. You have a good heart Leo, wishing you the best.
If you were molested as a kid, you will most likely have a fucked up life ur whole life... thats what ive learnt listening to these people! It sucks to listen to this, if only adults could keep their hands in check, and not touch children, traumatizing them for life the world would be a better place for everyone
If you took a poll of people who use drugs or have used drugs in the past I bet that about 85% have had childhood trauma including myself. There are some sick people out there. People who molest kids are pure evil. They corrupt lives and that in and of itself is a special kind of evil that deserve harsh punishment.
Child molesters destroy innocence. Most people in jail were molested. Molesters are victims of molestation. Those who don't continue the abuse, by becoming abusers, are traumatized, like this man. Molesters will molest to rob the innocence of a child, just as theirs was stolen. Being a survivor myself, I'd prefer the trauma than to hurt a child in order to hide the shame, the dearh of the heart . Its shame and guilt. This man kept his heart, its why he would never molest a child.
I know I'm late to this video being posted, but Leo... YOU ARE A MAN. I'm so SO proud that you can tell your story and bring awareness to the traumas both women and men (and everyone in between) face as children. I feel like a lot of men don't speak about what happens to them out of fear they aren't "man enough". None of the trauma you experienced was because of anything you did. Thank you for sharing your story
Right. Ive always felt like I was the only person on the planet who went through that. For me, that hurt scarred me much deeper than what that chomo did, or could ever do. Well never understand that which doesnt make sense. Its not to be understood. I feel extremely grateful that I dont, because I wouldnt be able to live with myself if I could. That life experience is what my foundation was built upon. Trust no one. If your parents can turn their back on you, anyone can. Youre right, it is the bottom of the barrel of humanity. Thank you for having sympathy 💙💚 #tealribbon
My mother cought my half brother molesting my little sister. She denied it! He molested me also. I did forgive them both but it took going to therapy to come from a place of forgiveness. Alot of shame involved with being molested as a child. Thank you Mark for opening the door to the conversations & healing. Sending love & light to everyone 💔❤️🩹❤️
I have 3 relatives who are drug addicts. The husband and wife of the three spend every dime and every moment they can on drugs and alcohol. Their kids are ignored. Kids been raised by wolves. So, if this man told his mother he was molested, she would have to do something to stop it. All she wanted to do was drugs.
Bad irresponsible parenting is the core of most mental issues imo. Very sad story what a strong person to have endured such a tough life Salute keep fighting bro 🙏💯💯💯
Mark - I was dating a man who was a drug addict for many years. We met when we were 23. Your videos helped me understand addiction and how to offer support. I became more understanding of his background and how it's affected him. Eventually his toxicity poisoned my 32 year old life, I was emotionally and physically abused. One day I woke up and it was finally the end. I have peace of mind that I did everything in my power to help him and I've got you and the persons you've interviewed to thank for that. Lots of Love - T ♡
I know where i wanna be in five years, i’m just not ready for it yet.. Is the most accurate depiction of how trauma gives us obstacles we’re not ready to overcome and it deteriorates spirit to the point where it’s admirable that no matter how hard Leo’s life was to this point, he managed to step above the wrongdoings he had to endure from other people and a big part of himself. Power to you Leo! 🔥❤️
I’ve probably watched a couple dozen videos but this one hit me differently. Really sorry for the pain Leo has suffered. I will be praying for Leo and his son.
Sounds like you had a rough start in life, I’m so sorry. Hope you get the help you need Leo. You have so much to give the world. Great interview Mark. Greetings from Miami.
You hope he gets the help he needs? Why don’t you try and help. Reach out to him, send him a couple bucks. You cared enough to comment but you don’t want to put any effort to help. Help isn’t going to appear out of thin air. Do something instead of making a comment that makes you feel better about yourself! 🤡
Don’t give up man! Like you said you can stop when you’re ready just don’t wait to long when you’re 6 ft underground. Your son and wife need you!! I’m rooting for you!! Much love!❤️
SoftWhiteUnderbelly unscripted truth of the streets of the world this channel has keep me clean and I truly appreciate it very much because you only have one life and my kids and family won't see me suffer no more in life so thank you again for the Realness we all need this BigFacts 💯🙏🇵🇷♉
Man when a person gets molested it’s so hard for the person after. People never really can understand unless they were themselves or have someone close to them who has. So sad. I hope Ivan get clean however that looks and build a better life.
Man spoke truth when he said an addict will give it up when there ready! I went to so many programs and rehabs bc that’s what others wanted me to do, and is why it didn’t work at that time. Once I wanted it I was able to stay sober, 10years.
It causes so many problems in adults. I think about my childhood friends and peers who ended up being alcoholics/drug abusers and wonder what kind of horrible traumas did they suffer from that was hidden from the rest of the world. Many of my HS friends passed away because of alcohol/drug related issues. Ugh…
i also went through similar things as a child and have struggled as an adult and not knowing what normal is and not being to 'be in society' theres something about childhood trauma that traps you there in your mind Like and it stunts your whole life These interviews make me feel a lot less alone in the struggle
Leo I'm so happy you finally freed yourself and your letting your story out instead of letting destroy u! I pray this is a fresh start at you letting yourself heal. You are an inspiration to all! 🤗 ❤️ 🙏
Leo, I pray that you read my comment. Please know that I appreciate your truthfulness and transparency. The inhumane monsters that sexually abused you are despicable and I'm so sorry that happened to you. 😥 One day, I hope God blesses you with a powerful platform to advocate for other sexually abused children because the impact would be monumental! May you find inner peace and self-love because you are worth it! ❤🙏🏼
As a Corpus Christi native it’s so sad to me when people get out of there and it’s not for the better. My childhood was far from horrible but I too had my own run with addiction and I thank God every day I’m not where I used to be. I chose to move away and do better for myself! Leo, you have so much potential and you have time to turn this around! Continued Prayers for you and your wife! 🙏
@@albertomedina4294 my apologies! I don’t always see the notifications for some reason. No plans to return as of yet but thanks for the nice gesture. Take care!
Poly drug addiction is so scary. It's not just the one drug U are stuck on. It's which one do u need the most.... I've kicked the drinking and the crack and cocaine do not serve me well at all. But the opioids grabbed me and still has a grip. I'm on a subutex maintenance drug. Most people use it to get off heroine. I've been on it for three years. It keeps me from running to the streets. I feel good about were I'm at but it's not enough for my husband. He wants me to be ready but I know I'm not and the shame of telling your kids why dad won't let you come home.
First off: GREAT JOB for choosing to get on the Sub, that's a massive accomplishment. It sounds like your husband might want to do some homework (or better yet, therapy/counseling/whatever) to learn more about the incredible benefits of your replacement therapy. "Someone I know" has been on a small and stabilizing dose for 14 years, and they have not touched an illicit drug since. A lot of folks compare MAT to diabetics and their need for insulin. If it's keeping you on the straight and narrow, then fuck the stigma. Good luck!
Your husband doesn’t understand that it’s no different then you needing insulin if Diabetic. If you need to be on it you need to be on it and he needs to get educated. He should be supportive and happy your sober and taking meds as prescribed. I’ve been on maintenance for 17 years and I will likely be till I die because that is the safest option for me. You being well is the most important thing and he should never as you to jeopardize that just because of his insecurities about it. Proud of you.
I wish you the best, Leo. You seem like a nice man who has been through a lot from early on. I think you deserve healing and recovery. I hope you and your wife get help when you are ready. Much love man.
Despite all his struggles and pain, this man is a great speaker. So direct and plain. Put in the right position he could really flourish in life. I think this very often when watching this channel. I hope the best for him and his family
What happened to his sister ? Get clean man. Get your son home. Social services is no good . You got this . Get more therapy with the right person cause it isn’t resolved yet. Speed up the process. Why wait 5 years?
You know he actually looks pretty good for 51, especially given all the drugs he's taken and the trauma. He's very personable, I reckon he's got a real chance, good luck man!
My heart just breaks listening too Leo’s story , Your so aware , and I have watching this channel long enuff to hear the root of most drug addiction starts with childhood abuse especially sexual, It’s so ridiculous , outrageous that so many kids life’s are just destroyed from these sickos perverted ways . At least Leo is one of the ones that hasn’t repeated what happened to him , I just hope his son isn’t a victim in foster care .Sad real live shit as Leo says .🫶🏻❤️I so hope u get help soon real soon & get ur son back ❤️🩹fifi
I really 100% percent believe we need to legalize drugs. The reason why is some of the most vulnerable are caught up in the drug world and are preyed upon by the predators. You legalize drugs, regulate it, tax it and you strip the underground market of its hold over the most vulnerable. Just my opinion. This is stuff I noticed while I was out there.
Not to mention allowing the mega rich/big pharma to over prescribe and manufacture the synthetic death sentences and call it medicine.....oxy and Fentynal were not made by accident.
Leo if you got away from those drugs ,you'd have a lovely future. You minded your sister and Mom so you have a kind nature! I am rooting for you Leo.⭐️
This is heartbreaking 💔 As a "girl" being molested, I know how incredibly difficult it has been, I think for a "boy" its worse....Im sorry this happened to you, I pray you can overcome this one day 💖🙏
Poor Leo, the way he explained the molestation was both heartbreaking and maddening! Makes me so freaking ANGRY! Those disgusting men taking advantage of an innocent boy (and girl). It’s Despicable! They ruined this poor mans life. Hope he gets off the drugs and lives a good life🙏🏻…..
This man was so precious to me. He just seems like a broken man that needs to know he is worth just as much as anyone. He’s had a lot of trauma and uses to feel okay. I have always had so much compassion for addicts and in the last 10 years, empathy- I am an alcoholic. I have, however, found recovery and hope. I can only hope the same for these people. I really like what you are doing with this series. Thank you for humanizing people that otherwise aren’t given a second glance on the street
He seems like a decent man.He’s been through a lot of trauma😔He seems like he would have the will to get off them if he wanted but still not there yet.I wish him the best and hope he eventually does it.
This channel gets me everytime. I too am dealing with living life sober but im struggling with it and a pat of me wants to go back to the drugs and fuck ups to cover up pain that i thought was gone. God please help me!
Please don't go back, the people in your life that you love are worth it, and especially yourself. You're worth it. It gets better, it gets easier (in my opinion) ...I used to feel the same way as you. Keep ya head up and keep fighting that awesome fight!🙏💜
He was honest, and articulate. He knows what his issue is and admits he doesn’t know how to live life sober. Best wishes to you.. I hope you stay safe.
So sad. You can hear it on his voice how hard this interview was. Seems like most drug issues stem from child hood abuse in all forms . It's heartbreaking. I can't imagine how terribly hard it is to escape this addiction
We need to crack down hard on child molesters. Way too many adults are getting away with ruining childrens lives-for life. It sickens me. Parents need to start talking to their children about pedophiles and never keeping secrets. Different family members should ask their children (at random times )if anyone has touched them. We need to change our thinking. I can’t understand why there are people in jail for weed while known (and unknown) child molesters roam the street.
I agree. However, you and your children can trust and love each other to the moon and back, teach your children to not be ashamed and speak out if someone is attempting to harm them or has harmed them, you can do everything right...but...if a predator threatens the family to the child, they won't speak up. Happened to one of my daughters at the hands of a cousin repeatedly over time, in the cousin's family home. With people in the house. If you have a relative, even if they're in their teens, and that relative wants a ton of alone time with your child and leaves everyone else out...THAT'S A HUGE RED FLAG. Now I know it. My daughter didn't speak about it until she became an adult. She suffered with it for years afraid to talk.
Oh man there is no way I can look at the drug addicted and not see the abused children of yesteryear, playing a game of torture and relief. Never be embarrassed and you can heal. What a world. It’s hard to get abused and not abuse the next person if you can have a history of abuse and never hurt and abuse anyone but yourself, that’s admirable.
I wish at schools they would teach how to deal with such traumas and problems instead of some useless subjects. If only he had a chance to cure his trauma and pain, if only there was a therapist helping this little 5 year old kid, this person might have been a very successful person in what he wanted in life. I can confidently say 99 percent of the people around me were molested or raped in some and different degrees and u know doesn't matter how they live but they struggle with it always inside and it effects on their quality of life,relationships and .... You are strong and i hope you'll find yourself ready to quit. Thanks for sharing your story.
Through these interviews the common thread seems to be crappy childhoods. When people are not ready to have children and still have them and keep them many times they seem to destroy the kids future. 😞
Leo is very right. We do not stop drugs until WE are ready. Nothing works until then. It is when we realize we are punishing ourselves for crimes commited against us that the light begins to shine.
@Gram #7 Wats up Grams. Thanks, you too my friend, have a great day. About Monk Idk, I haven’t seen her. The last time I asked about her she popped right up to say she’s good. So maybe she’s just playing the background , not commenting as much. I bet she’s good though. I bet she’s watching, making sure we all behave ourselves. 😳 lol.😂 The day just doesn’t feel the same without @Jaded Monk spreading love to ya does it?
Mr. Leo u are strong in opening up and your story is helping out someone remember that every time you feel down. every time u wake up u have a new chance to start over. Past is the past . The anxiety/edgyness when getting off ur drug makes u start thinking of negative things. If u control that anxiety/edgyness when the drug is starting to fade out of your body u will control those thoughts more and will help . time heals minute by minute hour by hour becomes a day then a week… u strong.
Mark, this video of Leo, really touched my heart. I didn't resort to drugs or alcohol but was abused from the age of two yrs. old to a teenager. It changes who you, are i just wanted to be a little girl thats all. I imagined every person i was around knew my secret and it left me feeling ashamed when in fact no one knew but two individuals. I still feel sad for that little girl that just wanted to be a little girl.Gennie from Seattle Washington. Leo i wish you Happiness. Thank you Mark
I always treat people I meet with kindness, respect and a smile, because you never know what they have gone through, or are going through currently. SWUs videos are hard proof that the world is rough for some people and I honestly think it contributes to make the world a better place, and others should do the same.
It's pretty bad over there. Didn't think I'd ever feel lucky to be in the sticky deep south but it's happening. Actually feeling like fall is close. Probably be over 100 next week though...
Mark these interviews are so emotional and enjoyable to watch if this makes sense .I live in the UK and had a brilliant childhood with my aunt and uncle watching some of these interviews makes me feel so lucky to have a good start in life
I know everyone cannot be given help, but I wonder if any of these brave souls are offered support after their interviews? Thank you for interviewing these amazing people!
Brother I got choked up at 15 minutes. You are a good man. You had a hard upbringing and you had no choice. Our past doesn’t dictate our entire future, and I know God loves you. Be very proud to be honest enough to tell you’re story. Be proud of yourself for carrying on with life and pushing through. It’s ok. I struggled with crystal meth for ten years and embarrassed myself being taken advantage of similar to you but at an older age and I had to realize it didn’t define me either. You’re not alone. God bless you, man. Consider taking an ADD test and get on adderall and maybe a a 10 mg Valium to help with your anxiety because the meth will kill you. Please consider other options. You can break through and have a good “normal” life. A peaceful life. Just remember everyone lives and lives at their own pace. Take care.
Leo: thank you for your utter honesty. We live in a world where the molestation of boys & young men is rampant, and it’s still a very buried reality, but a massive worldly wound. It’s men like you who are cracking open the door so that men can have the light that can heal us as a society. We can’t even begin to do that until we de-stigmatize men telling their truth. I wish for you the very peace you desire. I watch nearly all the SWU videos, but rarely comment. I wish for you freedom.
So sad how many sorry excuses there are for humans that prey on children. I hope he gets clean and gets his life on track and kid back. His kid could go through trauma being in the system. So Heartbreaking.
Good luck brother. This is a powerful interview. He speaks for million's of people in the world. To protect his son he needs to stay away, until he gets help. All addicts have one or two things they say sent them down the road to addiction ,but it's really A lot of things rolled into one. You can tell he's high as funk. ( Nobody knows)😂. Good luck sir.
Alot of people can function and appear normal on meth. If you suffer add or adhd I've seen meth calm people down. It affects everyone differently. Doctors prescribe drugs like Adderall that affect u the same as meth. He's right about making sure your hydrated eat and sleep.
It’s really heartbreaking to know that most of these people’s issue & addictions started with a dysfunctional adult that caused their trauma. 💔😞 I wish Leo all the best. Thank you for sharing this video with us. 👍🇨🇦😊
not really actually bc thats just wat we hear her bc most of it just started bc when we r teenagers we liked to party unless its different in the states which i dont think it is.
@@davechristian7543 He was sexually abused before he was a teen and he started drinking before he was a teen.
@@davechristian7543Your comment makes no sense-??
Watching Marks interviews helps me to see and understand some people’s situations better. I can understand what he means by he doesn’t know how to be normal and that it scares him living a life without drugs. Imagine going from numbing yourself every day for the majority of your life to re-learn how to do every day-habits sober, facing the fear of having to “feel again” without the option of numbing yourself, being a new person in an old situation, dealing with the shame for the damage they caused to themselves and others while using, to have to fight for their lives everyday in ways most of the “normal” people wouldn’t understand. Don’t let the past steal your present Leo, I wish you all the best.
Well stated. When I became sober, I equated having to feel again to being a burn victim in the ICU. So many years of being numb and feeling nothing at all to feeling everything is an extremely raw experience.
The Kurds are a great people in a crappy neighborhood. Kudos.
Beautifully said!
We'd all do well to have the same compassion you do.
Absolutely beautiful the way you described him and his situation.
You seem like a very emphatic person.
A real gateway drug is trauma 😢
childhood trauma causes..."you name it". all psychological phenomenon that are invisible to a scan, up and including some people that present as psychopaths in the mri machine are rooted in childhood trauma period.
Agreed…
Yea but NOBODY what's to talk about that. This show has changed my opinion on homeless drug addiction. Sad.
Yes stop blaming weed!
There's no such thing as gate way drug mate. It all goes down to will power. So weed isn't a gateway drug it's a medicine. This gateway drug bullsh*t is a mainstream media lie. So please cut the cr@p and get your facts straight. Stop parrottin what you hear in the media propaganda
My father was also molested at a young age (8yo). He wrestled with it also, and fell into drugs and drinking. He eventually began to heal it, by speaking about it and helping others who had also been molested as children.
Leo, thank you so much for speaking about it. It can feel very shameful, but as you said it is never a kid's fault. Speaking about it will help other men speak out and begin to heal also.
I hope that one day we can all come together to get much longer sentences for child rapists, as well as make victims - especially children - less afraid to speak out.
Thank you again for speaking out. I hope, like my Dad, you one day find some peace and healing.
what a beautiful comment
What an incredibly honest man. I hope he finds happiness and stays safe.
Honest?? He is a thief ….
See, I just hear him saying cliches and platitudes.
The sad part is, that he's only that candid because he's on drugs.
Being molested as a child is behind an incredible amount of drug addicts use and general trauma. It's a theme in the interviews Marc does. It's disturbing and disgusting how much of this sexual abuse occurs. Sad.
Because they're wimps. Being molested would be awesome, imagine having a hot woman with big tits molesting you? I'd be so happy.
For real! I had no idea how pervasive childhood sexual abuse was until I got older. I feel so grateful to have had a decent childhood without that shit 😕
I hope you can see that sexual abuse does not, should not define your life. Our bodies naturally respond to stimulation. It is nothing to be ashamed of. The shame belongs to the adult who exploits it in an unwitting child for their own personal sexual gratification. Addressing it as an adult will help you in recovery of your addiction to numb yourself of any thoughts that somehow you were responsible for the abuse that happened to you as a child. Wishing you a speedy recovery from your past to your waiting future, sober and loving yourself.
You could see the relief and weight lifted as he finished telling you about his problems and told you who he was. A quick lil smile formed
First minute in and boom. Sexual Abuse. Poor innocent souls that have to traverse that treacherous slippery path, may they find peace and forgiveness for themselves
He is the epitome of an addict who firmly believes that he’s using the drugs and that the drugs aren’t controlling him. It’s the vicious cycle …the “functioning” addict’s constant rationalization and thought process. I know- I have been there. Like many addicts, he’s such a solid guy with so much potential battling internal wars. Addiction- very often the fear of pain we humans don’t know what to do with. 💔
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Absolutely.
Well said !
Tolerance is a bitch...using to just function and so hard to get back to baseline after quitting, many never get there. I also think one reason he's maintained this tenuous control is that he doesn't seem to be shooting.
You just don't have self control. Most people who use drugs don't get addicted, those are the real statistics. If everybody got addicted then the usage statistics would align with the addiction/overdose statistics, but that's just not the case. You just never hear about the "normal" stories because negativity thrives online and everybody wants to feel like they're above other people so they enjoy watching people in a worse place than them. The people who appear on this channel are in the MINORITY. They do not represent drug users. They represent the worst of the worst in LA.
Despite all he has been through and is still going through he is still very level headed and made so many valid points while sharing his story. You have a good heart Leo, wishing you the best.
If you were molested as a kid, you will most likely have a fucked up life ur whole life... thats what ive learnt listening to these people! It sucks to listen to this, if only adults could keep their hands in check, and not touch children, traumatizing them for life the world would be a better place for everyone
If you took a poll of people who use drugs or have used drugs in the past I bet that about 85% have had childhood trauma including myself.
There are some sick people out there. People who molest kids are pure evil. They corrupt lives and that in and of itself is a special kind of evil that deserve harsh punishment.
Child molesters destroy innocence. Most people in jail were molested. Molesters are victims of molestation. Those who don't continue the abuse, by becoming abusers, are traumatized, like this man. Molesters will molest to rob the innocence of a child, just as theirs was stolen. Being a survivor myself, I'd prefer the trauma than to hurt a child in order to hide the shame, the dearh of the heart . Its shame and guilt. This man kept his heart, its why he would never molest a child.
I grew up without mother or father i guess that counts. My grandma took care of me.
Shit, I was mo fucken lested...a bit.
There are exceptions; If you’re ever so lucky to be gifted one good adult that’s a stand in caretaker (aunt, elderly neighbor, best friends parents)
I know I'm late to this video being posted, but Leo... YOU ARE A MAN. I'm so SO proud that you can tell your story and bring awareness to the traumas both women and men (and everyone in between) face as children. I feel like a lot of men don't speak about what happens to them out of fear they aren't "man enough". None of the trauma you experienced was because of anything you did.
Thank you for sharing your story
Leo is obviously capable of honesty as well as empathy. That counts for something.
Early childhood sexual preditors are almost always the beginning of every addiction story. Heartbreaking
That’s why I believe anyone who touches a child should be put to death
Agree 💯
"almost always" is pushing it...
@@AudibleVisibIe no it isn't
@@AudibleVisibIe No it is not. It is definitely the majority
It's true we should never judge someone until we know there story 😢 I hope he gets help one day 💞
It’s even-more true we should never judge someone else.
Period.
Hard Stop.
@@JaimeMesChiens True.
“There is only one true judge and that’s God, so chill, and let my father do HIS job.”
-Salt N Peppa
@@kre8unity 👍✝️
These interviews definitely give me some fear of drug addiction. I’ve been clean for 3 years now. I will never do that again
I never get this. How is it possible that mothers dont believe their children are being molested? Sickest thing ever
Right. Ive always felt like I was the only person on the planet who went through that. For me, that hurt scarred me much deeper than what that chomo did, or could ever do. Well never understand that which doesnt make sense. Its not to be understood. I feel extremely grateful that I dont, because I wouldnt be able to live with myself if I could. That life experience is what my foundation was built upon. Trust no one. If your parents can turn their back on you, anyone can. Youre right, it is the bottom of the barrel of humanity. Thank you for having sympathy 💙💚 #tealribbon
My mother cought my half brother molesting my little sister. She denied it! He molested me also. I did forgive them both but it took going to therapy to come from a place of forgiveness. Alot of shame involved with being molested as a child. Thank you Mark for opening the door to the conversations & healing. Sending love & light to everyone 💔❤️🩹❤️
I have 3 relatives who are drug addicts. The husband and wife of the three spend every dime and every moment they can on drugs and alcohol. Their kids are ignored. Kids been raised by wolves. So, if this man told his mother he was molested, she would have to do something to stop it. All she wanted to do was drugs.
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@@josuevargas621 Thank you! 💪🏾
Bad irresponsible parenting is the core of most mental issues imo. Very sad story what a strong person to have endured such a tough life Salute keep fighting bro 🙏💯💯💯
Mark - I was dating a man who was a drug addict for many years. We met when we were 23. Your videos helped me understand addiction and how to offer support. I became more understanding of his background and how it's affected him. Eventually his toxicity poisoned my 32 year old life, I was emotionally and physically abused. One day I woke up and it was finally the end. I have peace of mind that I did everything in my power to help him and I've got you and the persons you've interviewed to thank for that. Lots of Love - T ♡
I know where i wanna be in five years, i’m just not ready for it yet.. Is the most accurate depiction of how trauma gives us obstacles we’re not ready to overcome and it deteriorates spirit to the point where it’s admirable that no matter how hard Leo’s life was to this point, he managed to step above the wrongdoings he had to endure from other people and a big part of himself. Power to you Leo! 🔥❤️
This dude is honestly really dope. Loved to hear his story and see that you can have functional addicts who have real-world skills.
I’ve probably watched a couple dozen videos but this one hit me differently. Really sorry for the pain Leo has suffered. I will be praying for Leo and his son.
*Thank you For your Upload's, You Single Handedly Keep Me Out The TH-cam Rabbit Hole When I Can't Sleep.*
Sounds like you had a rough start in life, I’m so sorry. Hope you get the help you need Leo. You have so much to give the world. Great interview Mark. Greetings from Miami.
You hope he gets the help he needs? Why don’t you try and help. Reach out to him, send him a couple bucks. You cared enough to comment but you don’t want to put any effort to help. Help isn’t going to appear out of thin air. Do something instead of making a comment that makes you feel better about yourself! 🤡
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Don’t give up man! Like you said you can stop when you’re ready just don’t wait to long when you’re 6 ft underground. Your son and wife need you!! I’m rooting for you!! Much love!❤️
SoftWhiteUnderbelly unscripted truth of the streets of the world this channel has keep me clean and I truly appreciate it very much because you only have one life and my kids and family won't see me suffer no more in life so thank you again for the Realness we all need this BigFacts 💯🙏🇵🇷♉
Me as well! SWU is a big part of my daily program and I feel just like you do! Congratulations on your sobriety!
Man when a person gets molested it’s so hard for the person after. People never really can understand unless they were themselves or have someone close to them who has. So sad. I hope Ivan get clean however that looks and build a better life.
That is very very true.
Man spoke truth when he said an addict will give it up when there ready! I went to so many programs and rehabs bc that’s what others wanted me to do, and is why it didn’t work at that time. Once I wanted it I was able to stay sober, 10years.
The childhood trauma is real 🙏🏽💜
It causes so many problems in adults. I think about my childhood friends and peers who ended up being alcoholics/drug abusers and wonder what kind of horrible traumas did they suffer from that was hidden from the rest of the world. Many of my HS friends passed away because of alcohol/drug related issues. Ugh…
This channel is a recruitment channel for AA. It's like a daily speaker's meeting but one that only focuses on the mess and not the miracle.
i also went through similar things as a child and have struggled as an adult and not knowing what normal is and not being to 'be in society' theres something about childhood trauma that traps you there in your mind Like and it stunts your whole life These interviews make me feel a lot less alone in the struggle
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Human on human can be such a horror. It's a tragic reality. I hope Leo someday works through his inner demons.
Leo I'm so happy you finally freed yourself and your letting your story out instead of letting destroy u! I pray this is a fresh start at you letting yourself heal. You are an inspiration to all! 🤗 ❤️ 🙏
Leo, I pray that you read my comment. Please know that I appreciate your truthfulness and transparency. The inhumane monsters that sexually abused you are despicable and I'm so sorry that happened to you. 😥 One day, I hope God blesses you with a powerful platform to advocate for other sexually abused children because the impact would be monumental! May you find inner peace and self-love because you are worth it! ❤🙏🏼
As a Corpus Christi native it’s so sad to me when people get out of there and it’s not for the better. My childhood was far from horrible but I too had my own run with addiction and I thank God every day I’m not where I used to be. I chose to move away and do better for myself! Leo, you have so much potential and you have time to turn this around! Continued Prayers for you and your wife! 🙏
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Remember the bluff
@@TB-hw1dr sure do lol
@@albertomedina4294 my apologies! I don’t always see the notifications for some reason. No plans to return as of yet but thanks for the nice gesture. Take care!
@@albertomedina4294 with all due respect, no thank you. Take care!
Poly drug addiction is so scary. It's not just the one drug U are stuck on. It's which one do u need the most.... I've kicked the drinking and the crack and cocaine do not serve me well at all. But the opioids grabbed me and still has a grip. I'm on a subutex maintenance drug. Most people use it to get off heroine. I've been on it for three years. It keeps me from running to the streets. I feel good about were I'm at but it's not enough for my husband. He wants me to be ready but I know I'm not and the shame of telling your kids why dad won't let you come home.
Sorry.😣
First off: GREAT JOB for choosing to get on the Sub, that's a massive accomplishment. It sounds like your husband might want to do some homework (or better yet, therapy/counseling/whatever) to learn more about the incredible benefits of your replacement therapy. "Someone I know" has been on a small and stabilizing dose for 14 years, and they have not touched an illicit drug since. A lot of folks compare MAT to diabetics and their need for insulin. If it's keeping you on the straight and narrow, then fuck the stigma.
Good luck!
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Your husband doesn’t understand that it’s no different then you needing insulin if Diabetic. If you need to be on it you need to be on it and he needs to get educated. He should be supportive and happy your sober and taking meds as prescribed. I’ve been on maintenance for 17 years and I will likely be till I die because that is the safest option for me. You being well is the most important thing and he should never as you to jeopardize that just because of his insecurities about it. Proud of you.
@@terariabros8725 Thank you so much, I really needed to hear this and I agree. Support is so important. Bless you and your loved ones.
Brutally honest. Addiction fuels everything he does. I hope he's able to overcome. It's not too late.
I wish you the best, Leo. You seem like a nice man who has been through a lot from early on. I think you deserve healing and recovery. I hope you and your wife get help when you are ready. Much love man.
Just wish Leo and his wife waited until they were free of drugs before they had kids. Always interesting, thanks!
Nice interview, Leo. Thank you for telling your story.
This man deserves happiness.
Despite all his struggles and pain, this man is a great speaker. So direct and plain. Put in the right position he could really flourish in life. I think this very often when watching this channel. I hope the best for him and his family
As someone who was a functioning addict this really resonated with me.
I’ve been in recovery for years.
I *thought* I was functioning.
What a great guy. He’s right, life is so hard and unfair. I hope he finds some peace ❤️
What happened to his sister ? Get clean man. Get your son home. Social services is no good . You got this . Get more therapy with the right person cause it isn’t resolved yet. Speed up the process. Why wait 5 years?
You know he actually looks pretty good for 51, especially given all the drugs he's taken and the trauma. He's very personable, I reckon he's got a real chance, good luck man!
My heart just breaks listening too Leo’s story , Your so aware , and I have watching this channel long enuff to hear the root of most drug addiction starts with childhood abuse especially sexual, It’s so ridiculous , outrageous that so many kids life’s are just destroyed from these sickos perverted ways . At least Leo is one of the ones that hasn’t repeated what happened to him , I just hope his son isn’t a victim in foster care .Sad real live shit as Leo says .🫶🏻❤️I so hope u get help soon real soon & get ur son back ❤️🩹fifi
Sending you Leo all the best mate , from Melbourne Australia I wish you all the best and peace mate. Your a brave brave man. Much love brother
Leo bless your heart. You’ve endured so much. Best to you
I really 100% percent believe we need to legalize drugs. The reason why is some of the most vulnerable are caught up in the drug world and are preyed upon by the predators. You legalize drugs, regulate it, tax it and you strip the underground market of its hold over the most vulnerable. Just my opinion. This is stuff I noticed while I was out there.
Not to mention allowing the mega rich/big pharma to over prescribe and manufacture the synthetic death sentences and call it medicine.....oxy and Fentynal were not made by accident.
Agree 100%
Au contraire NEVER wish for the legalisation
But yes to decriminalization
I don't think the police are gonna like that
Leo if you got away from those drugs ,you'd have a lovely future. You minded your sister and Mom so you have a kind nature! I am rooting for you Leo.⭐️
This is heartbreaking 💔 As a "girl" being molested, I know how incredibly difficult it has been, I think for a "boy" its worse....Im sorry this happened to you, I pray you can overcome this one day 💖🙏
I think it's 50/50.
Poor Leo, the way he explained the molestation was both heartbreaking and maddening! Makes me so freaking ANGRY! Those disgusting men taking advantage of an innocent boy (and girl). It’s Despicable! They ruined this poor mans life. Hope he gets off the drugs and lives a good life🙏🏻…..
This man was so precious to me. He just seems like a broken man that needs to know he is worth just as much as anyone. He’s had a lot of trauma and uses to feel okay. I have always had so much compassion for addicts and in the last 10 years, empathy- I am an alcoholic. I have, however, found recovery and hope. I can only hope the same for these people. I really like what you are doing with this series. Thank you for humanizing people that otherwise aren’t given a second glance on the street
He seems like a decent man.He’s been through a lot of trauma😔He seems like he would have the will to get off them if he wanted but still not there yet.I wish him the best and hope he eventually does it.
This channel gets me everytime. I too am dealing with living life sober but im struggling with it and a pat of me wants to go back to the drugs and fuck ups to cover up pain that i thought was gone. God please help me!
Don't go back to it it's not worth it!! Stay clean and sober please u can do this! Stay strong your awesome and doing a great job!! ❤️❤️
@@jessicalynn6576 Thank you ms. Lynn!
@@anselmodiaz2996 you are so very welcome! I really hope u stay clean u got this!! Praying for u!!
Please don't go back, the people in your life that you love are worth it, and especially yourself. You're worth it. It gets better, it gets easier (in my opinion)
...I used to feel the same way as you. Keep ya head up and keep fighting that awesome fight!🙏💜
@@wesleyAlan9179 Thank you mr. Wesley! It truly means something to me.
He was honest, and articulate. He knows what his issue is and admits he doesn’t know how to live life sober. Best wishes to you.. I hope you stay safe.
So sad. You can hear it on his voice how hard this interview was. Seems like most drug issues stem from child hood abuse in all forms . It's heartbreaking. I can't imagine how terribly hard it is to escape this addiction
We need to crack down hard on child molesters. Way too many adults are getting away with ruining childrens lives-for life. It sickens me. Parents need to start talking to their children about pedophiles and never keeping secrets. Different family members should ask their children (at random times )if anyone has touched them. We need to change our thinking. I can’t understand why there are people in jail for weed while known (and unknown) child molesters roam the street.
I agree. However, you and your children can trust and love each other to the moon and back, teach your children to not be ashamed and speak out if someone is attempting to harm them or has harmed them, you can do everything right...but...if a predator threatens the family to the child, they won't speak up. Happened to one of my daughters at the hands of a cousin repeatedly over time, in the cousin's family home. With people in the house. If you have a relative, even if they're in their teens, and that relative wants a ton of alone time with your child and leaves everyone else out...THAT'S A HUGE RED FLAG. Now I know it. My daughter didn't speak about it until she became an adult. She suffered with it for years afraid to talk.
Research time given to pedos vs meth users👉It’s an American fkn Tragedy
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Oh man there is no way I can look at the drug addicted and not see the abused children of yesteryear, playing a game of torture and relief. Never be embarrassed and you can heal. What a world. It’s hard to get abused and not abuse the next person if you can have a history of abuse and never hurt and abuse anyone but yourself, that’s admirable.
Thankyou Leo for sharing your story. I wish you the very best 💛
I'm grateful that these people share their stories, keep em coming.
I wish at schools they would teach how to deal with such traumas and problems instead of some useless subjects. If only he had a chance to cure his trauma and pain, if only there was a therapist helping this little 5 year old kid, this person might have been a very successful person in what he wanted in life.
I can confidently say 99 percent of the people around me were molested or raped in some and different degrees and u know doesn't matter how they live but they struggle with it always inside and it effects on their quality of life,relationships and ....
You are strong and i hope you'll find yourself ready to quit. Thanks for sharing your story.
I am so sorry this poor man had to endure some awful childhood horrors.
Good morning everyone! Stay well 💜
Same To You! 💙
Good morning to you as well 😘
Good morning, from Denver! Have a great day!
Thank you. Good morning to you as well!
Morning morning! Same to you pretty
This is heartbreaking and angering. I hope his abusers get justice in this life or the next and that God gives Leo the peace he deserves.
Through these interviews the common thread seems to be crappy childhoods. When people are not ready to have children and still have them and keep them many times they seem to destroy the kids future. 😞
His poor son deserves better. Someone needs to be clean to be an example for their kids.
Leo is very right. We do not stop drugs until WE are ready. Nothing works until then. It is when we realize we are punishing ourselves for crimes commited against us that the light begins to shine.
Most sincere man right here.
I've been watching Soft White Underbelly for YEARS!!! NEVER JUDGED!!!! WHO AM I? ? I PRAY FOR ALL YOUR GUESTS!!!!
Good Morning!👋😁from 6:25am Brooklyn NY 🇺🇸 to whatever time of day it is wherever in the world 🌎🌍 YOU🫵 are, my SWU family.
What's up brother, 4:30 am in colorful Colorado! Have a great day my friend! Where's monk been? I hope she's good!
Here in FL it’s 0643.
Happy to be here!
@Gram #7 Wats up Grams. Thanks, you too my friend, have a great day. About Monk Idk, I haven’t seen her. The last time I asked about her she popped right up to say she’s good. So maybe she’s just playing the background , not commenting as much. I bet she’s good though. I bet she’s watching, making sure we all behave ourselves. 😳 lol.😂 The day just doesn’t feel the same without @Jaded Monk spreading love to ya does it?
@@myeyeswentdeaf6213 100%!lol!
Me having a Mom that is a crystal meth addict it’s crazy how fast it can’t eat up someone life
Mr. Leo u are strong in opening up and your story is helping out someone remember that every time you feel down. every time u wake up u have a new chance to start over. Past is the past . The anxiety/edgyness when getting off ur drug makes u start thinking of negative things. If u control that anxiety/edgyness when the drug is starting to fade out of your body u will control those thoughts more and will help . time heals minute by minute hour by hour becomes a day then a week… u strong.
Leo, you have the key 🔑 right there! I’m sorry someone hurt you, get well!🙏♥️🎈
Mark, this video of Leo, really touched my heart. I didn't resort to drugs or alcohol but was abused from the age of two yrs. old to a teenager. It changes who you, are i just wanted to be a little girl thats all. I imagined every person i was around knew my secret and it left me feeling ashamed when in fact no one knew but two individuals. I still feel sad for that little girl that just wanted to be a little girl.Gennie from Seattle Washington. Leo i wish you Happiness. Thank you Mark
Good luck in your endeavors, Leo. It’s hard but you’ll get through this addiction… best wishes for you & your wife.
I always treat people I meet with kindness, respect and a smile, because you never know what they have gone through, or are going through currently.
SWUs videos are hard proof that the world is rough for some people and I honestly think it contributes to make the world a better place, and others should do the same.
Top of the morning to you all. Have a good one. Gonna be another scorcher here in Southern Ca. We’re literally burning up over here.
It's pretty bad over there. Didn't think I'd ever feel lucky to be in the sticky deep south but it's happening. Actually feeling like fall is close. Probably be over 100 next week though...
I am in FL and it’s the usual hot but not like the surface of the 🌞…
It's called geoengineering...climate modification/weaponization. It's done to make the climate change LIE seem real.
Good morning from West Atl Ga✌🤟🤞ya'll have a wonderful day!💜🙏
Good morning from PA… going to be in the rainy 60s today..
God hear this man's cries and ALL the others on this channel and heal them! Take their pain and give them all peace.
I’m saddened by this interview and I hope by the grace of god life gets better for Leo
Mark these interviews are so emotional and enjoyable to watch if this makes sense .I live in the UK and had a brilliant childhood with my aunt and uncle watching some of these interviews makes me feel so lucky to have a good start in life
I know everyone cannot be given help, but I wonder if any of these brave souls are offered support after their interviews? Thank you for interviewing these amazing people!
Yes. They are.
Another amazing interview thank you Mark
Seems like a really good guy. Hope he gets better.
Leo is very level headed and honest with himself. I hope he can learn how to forgive himself to heal and create a better life. He deserves it.
We need to educate society on the Moral, physical, and mental effects of drug addiction! 🎉
Brother I got choked up at 15 minutes. You are a good man. You had a hard upbringing and you had no choice. Our past doesn’t dictate our entire future, and I know God loves you. Be very proud to be honest enough to tell you’re story. Be proud of yourself for carrying on with life and pushing through. It’s ok. I struggled with crystal meth for ten years and embarrassed myself being taken advantage of similar to you but at an older age and I had to realize it didn’t define me either. You’re not alone. God bless you, man. Consider taking an ADD test and get on adderall and maybe a a 10 mg Valium to help with your anxiety because the meth will kill you. Please consider other options. You can break through and have a good “normal” life. A peaceful life. Just remember everyone lives and lives at their own pace. Take care.
Some people never get a break. If you do get that break please try and grasp it with both hands 💙
Leo: thank you for your utter honesty. We live in a world where the molestation of boys & young men is rampant, and it’s still a very buried reality, but a massive worldly wound. It’s men like you who are cracking open the door so that men can have the light that can heal us as a society. We can’t even begin to do that until we de-stigmatize men telling their truth. I wish for you the very peace you desire. I watch nearly all the SWU videos, but rarely comment. I wish for you freedom.
Amazing guy who was dealt a bad hand. He seems to be right at the precipice of healing. I hope he gets there. Best to you Leo!
This video should have more views
It feels good to be clean and have a clear mind at all times. Feels good not having to look over your shoulder constantly.
Man I can hear the intense pain in his voice.
So sad how many sorry excuses there are for humans that prey on children. I hope he gets clean and gets his life on track and kid back. His kid could go through trauma being in the system. So Heartbreaking.
Thank you for the interview Leo and SWU
Good luck brother. This is a powerful interview. He speaks for million's of people in the world. To protect his son he needs to stay away, until he gets help. All addicts have one or two things they say sent them down the road to addiction ,but it's really A lot of things rolled into one. You can tell he's high as funk. ( Nobody knows)😂. Good luck sir.
Very switched on man for an addict. Wish him all the best and hopefully he can find peace and happiness without substances.
Alot of people can function and appear normal on meth. If you suffer add or adhd I've seen meth calm people down. It affects everyone differently. Doctors prescribe drugs like Adderall that affect u the same as meth. He's right about making sure your hydrated eat and sleep.