The amount of guilt this guy is carrying is unbelievable. He's punishing himself for something he hasn't done. I hope he'll make to the other side. He seems very sweet. Eric you're not alone and you're stronger than you think.
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Absolutely, I agree the amount of guilt he's holding is so profound, that seems unfathomable. This is an example of what can happen to truly good / gentle souls when the are put through unimaginable trauma and why we have so many broken people in our midst. I hope he gets the help he needs soon. Life is so unfair sometimes.
Very much so....I can Feel his pain, and I hate to say it, but I agree with him it may be good his father is no longer here to cause the horror he repeatedly did to him and his sister....
Another anchor baby that's a draw on society. He came to America to exploit the country. Almost 90% of all non white immigrants come here to do that and get a hand out
Eric, you are not worthless. You have as much right to happiness as anyone else on this planet. You have the same rights and as much worth as any human. In fact, with such a difficult childhood, you are stronger than most of us to have survived it.
“It felt uncomfortable to be happy.” 💔 Thank you for your story Eric. You’re still here for a reason, or maybe 6. Those girls need you, and you deserve to be with them. Sending you love and positive energy. 🤍🕊
This is a story of true love and sacrifice. Eric, you are worthy of love and happiness. You are not only owning the sins of your father but also taking on the pain for your sister. I cried for you watching this. I wish you could see yourself through the eyes of us who watched this. Eric, you are worthy!! My deepest hope is one day you’ll allow yourself to believe that. Love to you Eric
Everyone internalizes trauma differently. He was too angelic for this, I’m not saying your father wasn’t, but some people just need to numb so they can find joy in the small things and just try feel somewhat okay in the moment,
@@gabriellerosewood7850 He did numb for a long time (before I was born), and had a breakdown when I was born due to the bringing up of old childhood memories because of my birth. He dealt with depression the rest of his life - but he found joy in helping others. He was angelic not because it was easy for him, but because it was so hard. He saw his pain as a vehicle to reach others and they felt his advice meant something because he understood deeply. I thank my lucky stars everyday that I had a father who broke the chains of family dysfunction. I got to grow up knowing I was loved. Eric seems like such a sweet hearted guy. I believe he could be an inspiration for others too one day.
My dad had the same childhood as well. My grandpa ran him over with a tractor on purpose one day and broke his ribs. That was the last straw for him and he ran away from home at 14. My dad also became a wonderful father, I couldn’t ask for a better dad. He always told us he wanted to be the complete opposite of what he had growing up and he was the best role model I could ask for 🤍 Trauma can either make or break you, keep your head up Eric. You can turn things around and be different for your upcoming generations.
I do believe that we all have a purpose, but there HAS to be a reason that this man is still with us. There is greatness within him and it will come out. Please stay the course, Eric. As hard as it seems, you are valued.
that kind of toxic messagges are the reason people feel depressed because they didn't find their "purpose". purpose is a human construct. it's okay just to live and enjoy life without anything "greater" we are "supposed to do"
@@aleksandra5746 im not a bible going person, nor am i a Religion going person; However, I do know, God didn’t put us on this earth just to exist, we have to thrive as humans, ain’t no such thing as depression.
Wow. This is the first person who has spoken so directly on how the drugs actually allow them to live. PTSD is so real, and suffering from it myself I completely understand what he means about needing the drugs to feel somewhat ok. Eric- there is hope for us I believe. We need help. We can't do it alone. I wish you the best brother. Much love.
@@ArizonaAkinTv Hey bro! It's been a rough week. The past three days it got down to around 0° out and add in windchill it was well below that. I ended up spending 3 days in a shelter. It's around 30° outside right now and it actually feels really warm after how cold it was. Crazy how that works! I'm okay tho my friend. How are you?
I really wish the best for Eric. He seems like such a genuinely kind person it’s sad to see him suffer so deeply. I hope the clinic he’s going to can help him. He does deserve happiness.
Seems like he wants all the sympathy in the world instead of working hard to change himself, everything good in life requires hard work and sacrifice, I hope he stops with the pity party and puts his work boots on, he will change and do better when he starts the process and quit fooling himself that he can't
@@chrisgramling9995 because you know him, his family and most importantly his mental state. Got it. I swear people like you ruin the mood. Since we're assuming things on here, you prob ruin the mood wherever you go in your everyday life. Keep at it
It’s crazy because 20 minutes in, watching and listening to this man, I don’t see or hear a piece of shit. I don’t see a nobody or someone worthless. I truly see a good man, a fearlessly kind heart that loves hard. Eric, your love for your sister is only something anyone would wish to have. You were a child, you were helpless. You simply need help and support. I pray it finds you because your soul is so pure. You weren’t put on this Earth simply to suffer, there is life out there for you. I pray for your healing, truly because you are a good man. You don’t have to do it alone, let your sister know how you are. Like you said, plan the work and work the plan. It takes an intelligent man to travel across countries and survive somehow. God does have a plan for you !
I don’t think he knows what a truly lovely person he is. Hes definitely suffering from ptsd , I really hope he finds peace and happiness he deserves it .
I think you’re correct. I think a really good therapist could help him tremendously. He needs to talk with someone well versed in abuse and ptsd on regular basis. It’d probably take a few years, but he has all the potential in the world.
I think that his idea of “man of the house” and basically protector of the family is what brings this guilt about not protecting his sister. You were a child man, your life has been extremely difficult but you are still here too. The only man that failed was your father! I really wish the best for you Eric. You are somebody, we all see and hear you.
I hope his sister sees this... I think with a strong family bond he can really make , he can get clean and healthy. He really does love his family and could definitely use the support. I really related to his state of mind... My mom was abusive to me as well and she left 22 years ago. I was never able to get over that abandonment and abuse... I feel uncomfortable to be happy , just like he said and got into getting high to just feel numb... Much love to everyone...I wish you well
I'm really sorry for what you went through and you do deserve all the happiness just know that and I hope your doing well right now and know that you're so strong for going through that abuse and the other things you probably went through and I'm very happy that you're still here living.
I am here to tell you that you deserve every ounce of happiness there is to receive in this crazy world.....you are much stronger than you know and I pray you continue on to greatness. Much respect to you for sharing....❤💎
No other video has affected me like Eric did. The guilt that he endures is so heartbreaking. As a woman who went through a lot of trauma, I know how he feels. You can tell how sweet and caring he is. Eric, please find the strength to ease your broken heart. I know your pain… but there is so much to look forward to. Best of luck Eric!!
What a beautiful man ... trauma has stolen his happiness. He would benefit from EMDR ... it helps with PTSD. He deserves to find peace because his heart is pure
Being a trauma survivor, and having done EMDR myself, along with lifelong therapy and medications, so far, ECT therapy has been the most effective in curbing my depression. An old fashioned type of treatment that has worked wonders for me and other adults I know personally.
Eric, what an amazing brother you are. Your care and concern for your sister is so obvious and moving. You were powerless as a child to help her but at least she wasn't alone. What can anyone say to comfort the pain of that past childhood? 😭
You can see the horrendous re living of these memories in his eyes. It's messed up that we live in a world where he's feared even opening up because of others perceiving his "weakness". I see this as strength. Pure power in this dudes soul...he just needs to see it for himself.
Aw Eric 🥺 I just want to take the guilt away. He is Carrying two peoples hurt and it shows. I feel for you so deeply. I hope you can find happiness and peace.
I really hope to see an update from him and hopefully he receives intensive help. He has been through so much trauma. I see so much potential in this man.
In what way is it amazing? I've been an addict for over 10 years. I'm going to be honest.... Most of the other addicts I've talked to are intelligent, creative and just have so many stories to tell.
Mark, I've watched your channel for quite some time and there isn't one person who made me feel the pain from watching their story like Eric. Eric, please don't give up on yourself you are worthy of having a life full of happiness and being loved. Your daughters need you the world needs you. Thank you for sharing your story believe it or not but this is the first step of healing, and trust me your story will help so many others who have gone through the same thing. Que Dios Te Bendiga.
Eric, you seem like such a gentle soul. Sorry to hear about all you've been through. I hope you are able to get the help you need. You deserve good things. ❤️
Eric, if you ever read this… the reason why some of us suffer so much in this lifetime is because it’s through our brokenness that we find liberation. Your pain is a gift, don’t numb it. Let it burn your limitations down so you can build a new, more powerful you. I see the divinity in you- it’s time you see it in yourself. Holding you in my prayers, brother.
@@kellietaylor9913 I have C-PTSD & I agree it’s no gift, but you have to dissect what he’s really saying. Instead of allowing our pain to bubble over, drowning in it, feeling that all our hopes are extinguished & we are worthless… We can use that pain, those broken pieces & ugly truths as strength to turn our setbacks into major comebacks. It’s no easy task, but I’ve realized throughout my own mental health journey….that sometimes we find peace by going to war with ourselves.
Eric is incredibly high functioning for a drug addict and a history of child abuse. I have so much hope for him. He obviously needs a good therapist, and I think his life would turn around. I hope one day he finds peace.
Gosh my heart hurts for this man 😔 So many selfish and evil people in this world that take life for granted and here, we have this man just trying to figure out his worth. I’m literally in tears 😭 I wish you the very best Eric!!!
“It felt uncomfortable to be happy”, I completely resonate. I wish you the best Eric you have a pure heart. One of the most sincere interviews I’ve seen on here.
Mark.. I hope you’re happy I feel like whenever you just wanna walk away you should with no hesitation you don’t owe anyone anything I love these videos and the message/awareness it brings but I just hope you’re still happy doing them
If he ever wants to move away from there and come to Bakersfield I will give him a job and train him to groom animals. I relate to what he went through. And I see the pain he's in. But he is not a lost cause.
@@SHEDEVILWASHERE hopefully someone tells him about this..after treatment that would be a amazing next step for him. Thank you for giving him this opportunity
Eric's accent is so lilting that it's almost like sweet, mournful poetry to my ear. I agree with other commenters that it seems that you're an artistic empath. May your life's journey begin to release the pain and suffering that you endured as a child. It no longer serves any purpose other than to be like an albatross around your neck, weighing you down in hellish misery. Your life is too precious to waste dwelling in the past as you have lot's of life to live looking forward.
As a trauma therapist I can say there are so many people on this channel which have great potential to overcome their traumatic experiences. He.is one of them. I wish people knew how modern therapy like Somatic Experiencing works… Good luck!
as a therapist myself I know and believe it's really dangerous to play with those new age therapy schools that are not scientifically proven. Psychology and psychotherapy as well are, on one hand, sciences that do research.
I want to give him a hug. I had a childhood similar to his. But my life is very different. Eric I’m rooting for you. You seem like a great person. I hope you kick that habit. I used to feed off pain and that pain would drive me to want to be a better, successful person. I’m not judging. I just think you seem like a beautiful person. Don’t give up.
Eric immediately comes across as an incredibly good, sensitive person. Heartbreaking that he's carrying this burden. Wishing him support in this. Thank you for sharing.
Wow....This one went in my soul...Eric, I wish I could bram you here to Texas. You absolutely are pivotal in this life...You are MEANT to stand and love and lead. You remind me EERILY of my late husband who overdosed 3 years ago on Fent..leaving me after almost 10 years with our 2 and 4 year old son and daughter...Even how you talk about the woman you fell for...It feels like I'm heating him tell part of our story...Eric, do NOT ever give up..❤️ If you ever come to Texas, you've got open arms!!!
This interview broke my heart and made me cry. He carries so much guilt for things that were out of his control. I feel for him and his sister, no one deserves to go through that. I hope you pull through Eric, you and your girls deserve a good life.
The only thing I can say is that after watching this video I feel a huge admiration and respect for Eric. I hope someone can help him so that he can defeat the demons that torment him.
I once heard someone say that the way you speak to your children becomes their inner voice. That really stuck with me and I remind myself of it often while I navigate parenthood. I also read the following quote and I think it's really important to keep this in mind: "Speak to your children as if they are the wisest, kindest, most beautiful and magical humans on earth. For what they believe is what they will become".- Brooke Hampton
My brother is suffering in active addiction with serious mental illnesses and I can't really be around him Much, because I have children. But, I love him so dearly. No matter what you're suffering from I hope you know.. that you are loved even at your deepest darkest pits of hell. Someone loves you even if they don't reach out enough... Even if they don't show it enough.
This is one of the most sincere and heartbreaking life stories I've watched on your chanel Mark.Eric if your reading the comments know that so many people are rooting for your sobriety. Don't let your father' succeed till the end. You have talent and skills why not used that as a tool to help others. God has a purpose and you know that. Get help be sober love your kids and protect them. Forgive yourself and move on. It's easier said than done but i know you can do it. Hope to see a follow up on your story but this time an inspirational one. Praying for you Eric.
I feel for this guy its unfortunate how childhood trauma can lead to bad choices in life. He looks like a good guy sending lots of blessings his way. Thank you Mark
I’m a recovering addict. I know how sexual abuse affects people. His sister Is probably the best person to intervene as eric’s guilt lies in their terrible past
His story was so touching. He really can help out so many people that went through the things just like him. I hope that he is able to recover from his past trauma .
Poor baby. I just want to give him a hug. He seems so sweet. I’m so so sorry you went through this Eric. I really hope you can pull through and find peace one day
Eric seems like such a good dude, this video just made me wanna give him a hug. Hearing his story about what he'd gone through & the emotions he was experiencing while telling really got to me. He doesn't deserve the pain/guilt he's carrying & I really hope the clinic he goes to really helps.
Eric, you explain your trauma better than you think. You were a child. I am so sorry you and your sister went through this hell with your father. You didn't deserve any of it. You were meant to meet Mark and do this interview and get your story out there. ❤️
After hearing his story and the part where his sister recoiled from his comfort and after that moment he never hugged her again... I want to give him a hug. I hope one day he sees that his past is not his fault and out of his control but he can change his future. I hope he can get cleaned up with the program and get back to doing hair. Hopefully we can get an update on him sometime this year 🙏
I’m soooo late to this video but omg this one TRULY broke my heart! Eric you are worth SO MUCH! God definitely has a bigger plan for you. Stay strong. Sending you love
Eric is one of the only stories that made me nearly cry, I feel his pain for sure, and I see he still has some light left in him. May the universe bless you Eric much love man❤️
Eric.. you gave me thoughts I've not had before, and i want to Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Right to the end, you gave amazing words of wisdom. ❤💯
I love this guy who without an ounce of self pity, describes the horrors he has been subjected to and still comes across as a sensitive, gentle and intelligent man.
Eric , if you ever see this ... you WERE created with a purpose and a destiny . You are not worthless !!! There's a reason you haven't succeeded at suicide, there IS a God that loves YOU and wants to see you happy and healed. Praying for you Eric 💙💙💙
Exactly. Children are like sponges in that they absorb their parents' declarations as if they were under hypnosis. What adults say to them takes root at a deep, deep level. It's so important to only speak blessings over them!
“Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation, like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow.” T Real 🔥
Its hard to watch and listen without feeling like a heavy weight on your heart and soul much less going through their hell. I tear up watching these kus damn man. I wish I could hug them all. Much love and respect to them all.
Eric, please repeat after me every day for the rest of your life, "You (I am) not a piece of s***. I am not just what I went through. I deserve to live a stable, positive life. I am worthy and I matter greatly". Your golden heart shines through in this interview. Know that even if you never interact with or meet anyone who comments here, we truly believe in you and your ability to turn your life around. Please do it for the sweet, innocent child you were when you witnessed and experienced the atrocious horrors of your childhood and for the strong, resilient, capable, talented, warm-souled man you clearly are today. 💗
Vamos Eric tú puedes salir de esto. Tu historia, de todas las que he visto me ha conmovido hasta las lágrimas. Por favor, busca ayuda, y estate seguro que nadie te juzga🙏 Todos te apoyamos has pasado por mucho, pero estoy segura que podrás salir de esto, estás aquí por una razón mereces ser feliz eres una gran persona
This poor man breaks my heart. I hope he can get through this and overcome the horrible memories. He seems like he could be productive. Hope he finds his way🙏🏻…. As always~ Thankyou Mark
I hope he finds peace and heals. This was tough to watch it’s almost as if everyone except himself was in denial of the things that were happening. He’s brave for admitting and acknowledging. Sending love and light.
There are no answers, brother. The “WHY?!” is what keeps us from realizing the things we’re missing out on through constantly asking that question. You will NEVER understand why he was so evil and why your mom didn’t do what she needed to because you aren’t like either of those things.
This is one of the most interesting videos on the channel by far. The story is incredible and to see him still up and have the will to live , and the sister , just wow
This is the first interview I’ve watched on here that’s invoked tears and I feel like I’ve watched them all.. Bless his heart. I hope he see’s these comments. I just wanna go find him and allow him cry the tears he needs to cry.. Jeeze. His story has struck a cord with me. Eric, you do not deserve the scars you wear. Your sister is probably “okay” because you bear the weight for her. I’m so sorry. When you said “I never touched her again after that”. I’m cannot express my empathy enough for you, brother…. You are amazing person. Don’t ever let anyone tell you different. You can overcome. It’s NEVER too late. Resources are scarce, but they are there. You just have to go find them. It’s worth the pursuit. Your body, your mind and your soul deserve it. Best wishes, Eric. I will think of you often.
Thank you Mark, you're a psychiatrist to these folks. Great thing you're doing. And Eric, no te aguites carnal. Se nota que eres inteligente y con bueno corazon. Pa delante, tienes la inteligencia y fuerza para dejar las drogas y hacer lo que quieras con tu vida. Suerte.
You can tell he has such a good heart but the trauma has affected him badly. I hope he find a way to be truly happy and a way to deal with his past. Im wishing Eric happiness and love in his life ✨💫
Bro, it sounds like you were the one who held your family together. You got your mom and your sister out of those situations and they have a good life now. If it wasn't for you, your dad would of had free rein to do as he wished and you took on that burden and was strong enough to stand up for what was right. You have an amazing attitude and I hope your family reaches out and reciprocates the same love and strength you have shown them.
"She couldn't find a place to hide." "I guess you got to go through it." "Every time I use fentanyl I pray that I die." I'll be pondering this interview for awhile. Always interesting, thanks!
Eric man, time to get that guilt of your shoulders! What happened to your sister is NOT your fault, and the drug use after wards is also, not your fault. Reach out to your sister, talk to her about what your going through, get to talk to someone if you can, some free counselling if they have it. Free groups that are simular to AA, they have and you can tell your story. Just talking infront of others can be very healing, others will have there stories there. Looks like by this interview you are very articulate, and with the education you persued shows you have alot of ability and strength within. Persue the healing path. Get at those feelings, and show love to those painful feelings, if you can. You are thinking these things you saw is your fault, when it NOT, get your life back, you can do it, you can heal. The love is there for you. Bless you
This is IMHO the most important impactful channel on TH-cam that I’ve come across…. It gives people a chance to really delve into another persons life from their perspective. Which can really help develop empathy and understanding in people who otherwise wouldn’t care, or even have distain towards addiction and other taboo subjects. In a world today where I see more apathy, narcissism, hate, and misinformation, it’s truly beautiful to see a channel that allows a platform for people to freely speak, safe from bias, agendas, and righteousness. I must commend you for created such a perfect channel… well done man. I’m a recovering addict myself and I just feel that I owe you a “thanks” for providing this. so, thank you and keep up the good work ✌️
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The amount of guilt this guy is carrying is unbelievable. He's punishing himself for something he hasn't done. I hope he'll make to the other side.
He seems very sweet. Eric you're not alone and you're stronger than you think.
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Absolutely, I agree the amount of guilt he's holding is so profound, that seems unfathomable. This is an example of what can happen to truly good / gentle souls when the are put through unimaginable trauma and why we have so many broken people in our midst. I hope he gets the help he needs soon. Life is so unfair sometimes.
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Yes he is i agree, thank you for the nice feedback
I feel for this guy. He’s really sweet but so affected by such trauma…
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Very much so....I can Feel his pain, and I hate to say it, but I agree with him it may be good his father is no longer here to cause the horror he repeatedly did to him and his sister....
His story is literally jaw-dropping, this dude...he's young, everyone pray for him.
I am praying for him and his family ‼️
Another anchor baby that's a draw on society. He came to America to exploit the country. Almost 90% of all non white immigrants come here to do that and get a hand out
Typical of a white woman marrying a non white. Abuse sky rockets by 700% when a white woman marries a non white
@@Snorky_88 He's an American citizen dumb ass, they have been since 1917. 🙄 You literally just showed your racist and ignorant ass all in one comment.
@@Snorky_88 Wow. Aren't you the little racist xenophobw? And, btw, Latino/Hispanic people are considered white. Another ignorant statement.
Eric, you are not worthless.
You have as much right to happiness as anyone else on this planet.
You have the same rights and as much worth as any human.
In fact, with such a difficult childhood, you are stronger than most of us to have survived it.
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Very well said 💯💙💎💎
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Thankyou.
This guy is a fucking champion to be brave enough to share with us all his vulnerabilities!
@@spacewombat6174 Absolutely 💯!!
“It felt uncomfortable to be happy.” 💔 Thank you for your story Eric. You’re still here for a reason, or maybe 6. Those girls need you, and you deserve to be with them. Sending you love and positive energy. 🤍🕊
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This is a story of true love and sacrifice. Eric, you are worthy of love and happiness. You are not only owning the sins of your father but also taking on the pain for your sister. I cried for you watching this. I wish you could see yourself through the eyes of us who watched this.
Eric, you are worthy!! My deepest hope is one day you’ll allow yourself to believe that.
Love to you Eric
"You are not only owning the sins of your father but also taking on the pain for your sister"
that was some real insight! Nicely put
Beautifully said ❤💎
This comment was so sweetly empathetic! May God bless you and May God bless Eric n keep giving him the courage n strength to keep going
Well said ❤️
Thank you for this comment. I feel the same way & am crying for you too Eric. My heart goes out to you.
My Dad had a childhood like this. He became an inspiration to many and became a wonderful father. You can do it Eric!
Everyone internalizes trauma differently. He was too angelic for this, I’m not saying your father wasn’t, but some people just need to numb so they can find joy in the small things and just try feel somewhat okay in the moment,
@@gabriellerosewood7850 He did numb for a long time (before I was born), and had a breakdown when I was born due to the bringing up of old childhood memories because of my birth. He dealt with depression the rest of his life - but he found joy in helping others. He was angelic not because it was easy for him, but because it was so hard. He saw his pain as a vehicle to reach others and they felt his advice meant something because he understood deeply.
I thank my lucky stars everyday that I had a father who broke the chains of family dysfunction. I got to grow up knowing I was loved. Eric seems like such a sweet hearted guy. I believe he could be an inspiration for others too one day.
My dad had the same childhood as well. My grandpa ran him over with a tractor on purpose one day and broke his ribs. That was the last straw for him and he ran away from home at 14. My dad also became a wonderful father, I couldn’t ask for a better dad. He always told us he wanted to be the complete opposite of what he had growing up and he was the best role model I could ask for 🤍 Trauma can either make or break you, keep your head up Eric. You can turn things around and be different for your upcoming generations.
Please stay in touch with Eric. So much of what he said resonates. I hope he holds a lil bit of faith in his heart and keeps fighting for healing. 😊🥰🥰
I agree I would like to see a follow up. He seems to really want to change and inspire others with his story
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I do believe that we all have a purpose, but there HAS to be a reason that this man is still with us. There is greatness within him and it will come out. Please stay the course, Eric. As hard as it seems, you are valued.
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That part!!! 👆🏼👆🏼👆🏼👆🏼👆🏼
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that kind of toxic messagges are the reason people feel depressed because they didn't find their "purpose". purpose is a human construct. it's okay just to live and enjoy life without anything "greater" we are "supposed to do"
@@aleksandra5746 im not a bible going person, nor am i a Religion going person; However, I do know, God didn’t put us on this earth just to exist, we have to thrive as humans, ain’t no such thing as depression.
there’s nothing more i want than to hug this man and help him out. he has such a good heart.
Wow. This is the first person who has spoken so directly on how the drugs actually allow them to live. PTSD is so real, and suffering from it myself I completely understand what he means about needing the drugs to feel somewhat ok. Eric- there is hope for us I believe. We need help. We can't do it alone. I wish you the best brother. Much love.
Hello, You guys are so worth 💗 it
How you holding up DFG
@@ArizonaAkinTv Hey bro! It's been a rough week. The past three days it got down to around 0° out and add in windchill it was well below that. I ended up spending 3 days in a shelter. It's around 30° outside right now and it actually feels really warm after how cold it was. Crazy how that works! I'm okay tho my friend. How are you?
@@gisselmontero2304 Thank you sweet Gissel ❤️ Your words give me confidence and im grateful for them always. I hope you are doing well!
@@DetroitFettyghost ohhh lord that's crazy 🥶 be safe chiko please 🙏 😢
I really wish the best for Eric. He seems like such a genuinely kind person it’s sad to see him suffer so deeply. I hope the clinic he’s going to can help him. He does deserve happiness.
Absoulutely! His level of self-awareness will go a long way...🙏🏻
Seems like he wants all the sympathy in the world instead of working hard to change himself, everything good in life requires hard work and sacrifice, I hope he stops with the pity party and puts his work boots on, he will change and do better when he starts the process and quit fooling himself that he can't
@@chrisgramling9995 because you know him, his family and most importantly his mental state. Got it. I swear people like you ruin the mood. Since we're assuming things on here, you prob ruin the mood wherever you go in your everyday life. Keep at it
@@pambeforethestorm9784 sure thing little buddy🤣 have a good one be safe
@@chrisgramling9995 Whatever you say, dad.
It’s crazy because 20 minutes in, watching and listening to this man, I don’t see or hear a piece of shit. I don’t see a nobody or someone worthless. I truly see a good man, a fearlessly kind heart that loves hard. Eric, your love for your sister is only something anyone would wish to have. You were a child, you were helpless. You simply need help and support. I pray it finds you because your soul is so pure. You weren’t put on this Earth simply to suffer, there is life out there for you. I pray for your healing, truly because you are a good man. You don’t have to do it alone, let your sister know how you are. Like you said, plan the work and work the plan. It takes an intelligent man to travel across countries and survive somehow. God does have a plan for you !
Well said!
Well said!
Well said!
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You are the reason your sister survived. You should be very proud of yourself Eric. Bless your superhero heart.
I don’t think he knows what a truly lovely person he is. Hes definitely suffering from ptsd , I really hope he finds peace and happiness he deserves it .
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I think you’re correct. I think a really good therapist could help him tremendously. He needs to talk with someone well versed in abuse and ptsd on regular basis. It’d probably take a few years, but he has all the potential in the world.
I think that his idea of “man of the house” and basically protector of the family is what brings this guilt about not protecting his sister. You were a child man, your life has been extremely difficult but you are still here too. The only man that failed was your father! I really wish the best for you Eric. You are somebody, we all see and hear you.
I hope his sister sees this... I think with a strong family bond he can really make , he can get clean and healthy. He really does love his family and could definitely use the support.
I really related to his state of mind... My mom was abusive to me as well and she left 22 years ago. I was never able to get over that abandonment and abuse... I feel uncomfortable to be happy , just like he said and got into getting high to just feel numb...
Much love to everyone...I wish you well
I'm really sorry for what you went through and you do deserve all the happiness just know that and I hope your doing well right now and know that you're so strong for going through that abuse and the other things you probably went through and I'm very happy that you're still here living.
I am here to tell you that you deserve every ounce of happiness there is to receive in this crazy world.....you are much stronger than you know and I pray you continue on to greatness. Much respect to you for sharing....❤💎
I hope so too maybe they can go to therapy together ❤ he needs to feel loved
This dude is smart! I hope he gets out of this life and shows his full potential to the world
I agree! He seems like such a sweetheart who really finds value in family
No other video has affected me like Eric did. The guilt that he endures is so heartbreaking. As a woman who went through a lot of trauma, I know how he feels.
You can tell how sweet and caring he is.
Eric, please find the strength to ease your broken heart. I know your pain… but there is so much to look forward to.
Best of luck Eric!!
this 💯
What a beautiful man ... trauma has stolen his happiness. He would benefit from EMDR ... it helps with PTSD. He deserves to find peace because his heart is pure
I hope he makes it. I think guilt over not being to help his sister is eating him up.
@@deeriggs3319 he needs to talk to her.
Being a trauma survivor, and having done EMDR myself, along with lifelong therapy and medications, so far, ECT therapy has been the most effective in curbing my depression. An old fashioned type of treatment that has worked wonders for me and other adults I know personally.
Eric, what an amazing brother you are. Your care and concern for your sister is so obvious and moving. You were powerless as a child to help her but at least she wasn't alone. What can anyone say to comfort the pain of that past childhood? 😭
I wish I knew this beautiful man. I wish I could hug him.
I really hope he finds peace , love and healthy he deserves it
You can see the horrendous re living of these memories in his eyes. It's messed up that we live in a world where he's feared even opening up because of others perceiving his "weakness". I see this as strength. Pure power in this dudes soul...he just needs to see it for himself.
Aw Eric 🥺 I just want to take the guilt away. He is Carrying two peoples hurt and it shows. I feel for you so deeply. I hope you can find happiness and peace.
I really hope to see an update from him and hopefully he receives intensive help. He has been through so much trauma. I see so much potential in this man.
Amazing how intelligent this young man sounds and speaks.
Why? Intelligent people suffer more, they're more likely to become addicts.
In what way is it amazing? I've been an addict for over 10 years. I'm going to be honest.... Most of the other addicts I've talked to are intelligent, creative and just have so many stories to tell.
Mark, I've watched your channel for quite some time and there isn't one person who made me feel the pain from watching their story like Eric.
Eric, please don't give up on yourself you are worthy of having a life full of happiness and being loved. Your daughters need you the world needs you. Thank you for sharing your story believe it or not but this is the first step of healing, and trust me your story will help so many others who have gone through the same thing. Que Dios Te Bendiga.
from the Republic of Ireland , Dublin! May u find your way …. Eric u are an incredible person u deserve so much better may god walk with u brother xxx
This one and the guy from russia who's mom jumped off the bridge got me the most
Don’t ever say your nothing because you’re a drug addict you’re journey has been so hard and you are somebody love to you from UK 🇬🇧 X
Eric, you seem like such a gentle soul. Sorry to hear about all you've been through. I hope you are able to get the help you need. You deserve good things. ❤️
Eric, if you ever read this… the reason why some of us suffer so much in this lifetime is because it’s through our brokenness that we find liberation. Your pain is a gift, don’t numb it. Let it burn your limitations down so you can build a new, more powerful you. I see the divinity in you- it’s time you see it in yourself. Holding you in my prayers, brother.
Beautiful
"your pain is a gift"......profound and very well said pm.
This is powerful
Your pain is a gift...lol .spoken like someone who has no real pain..these people pain is PTSD type trama it's not a gift
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I have C-PTSD & I agree it’s no gift, but you have to dissect what he’s really saying.
Instead of allowing our pain to bubble over, drowning in it, feeling that all our hopes are extinguished & we are worthless…
We can use that pain, those broken pieces & ugly truths as strength to turn our setbacks into major comebacks.
It’s no easy task, but I’ve realized throughout my own mental health journey….that sometimes we find peace by going to war with ourselves.
Eric is incredibly high functioning for a drug addict and a history of child abuse. I have so much hope for him. He obviously needs a good therapist, and I think his life would turn around. I hope one day he finds peace.
I love how positive and uplifting this comment section is❤️ it is full of understanding and non judgmental individuals. Much love to everyone
@Emily Ward Exactly! I'm half Puerto Rican myself but born and raised in Texas, How are you doing today? This was a good interview
Gosh my heart hurts for this man 😔 So many selfish and evil people in this world that take life for granted and here, we have this man just trying to figure out his worth. I’m literally in tears 😭 I wish you the very best Eric!!!
May God bless him and take away his pain such a humble guy he deserves all the help he can get, your not alone brother!
Amen
There is so much hope for this man despite all his suffering.
“It felt uncomfortable to be happy”, I completely resonate. I wish you the best Eric you have a pure heart. One of the most sincere interviews I’ve seen on here.
Mark.. I hope you’re happy I feel like whenever you just wanna walk away you should with no hesitation you don’t owe anyone anything I love these videos and the message/awareness it brings but I just hope you’re still happy doing them
Except your kids you do owe them protection and love Jesus is Kaang
If he ever wants to move away from there and come to Bakersfield I will give him a job and train him to groom animals. I relate to what he went through. And I see the pain he's in. But he is not a lost cause.
@@SHEDEVILWASHERE hopefully someone tells him about this..after treatment that would be a amazing next step for him. Thank you for giving him this opportunity
@@SHEDEVILWASHERE great idea. That’s really awesome of you
@@SHEDEVILWASHERE you have such a big heart .. I hope this happens
Eric's accent is so lilting that it's almost like sweet, mournful poetry to my ear. I agree with other commenters that it seems that you're an artistic empath. May your life's journey begin to release the pain and suffering that you endured as a child. It no longer serves any purpose other than to be like an albatross around your neck, weighing you down in hellish misery. Your life is too precious to waste dwelling in the past as you have lot's of life to live looking forward.
As a trauma therapist I can say there are so many people on this channel which have great potential to overcome their traumatic experiences. He.is one of them. I wish people knew how modern therapy like Somatic Experiencing works… Good luck!
Thank you for the healing work you do.
Yes, bless you for doing the work.
as a therapist myself I know and believe it's really dangerous to play with those new age therapy schools that are not scientifically proven. Psychology and psychotherapy as well are, on one hand, sciences that do research.
I want to give him a hug. I had a childhood similar to his. But my life is very different. Eric I’m rooting for you. You seem like a great person. I hope you kick that habit. I used to feed off pain and that pain would drive me to want to be a better, successful person. I’m not judging. I just think you seem like a beautiful person. Don’t give up.
I hope Eric realizes that this video will absolutely help people. I'm glad he survived his harsh life as long as he has. His perspective is amazing
Gosh this guy is so extremely likable .. rooting for you
Eric immediately comes across as an incredibly good, sensitive person. Heartbreaking that he's carrying this burden. Wishing him support in this. Thank you for sharing.
Such a sweet soul. And he WANTS change. Sending you lots of love Eric. 🖤✨
Wow he looks very young , he said he's 39😮, damn he looks excellent. He spilled his heart out
❤He has such a gentleness ❤
19:45 in the darkest dark shines the brightest light. i wanna see you play this crazy hand out Eric ❤️
Seriously! He's gotta be here for such a Big bright purpose and I'd love to watch it unfold for him. What a special Soul
Wow....This one went in my soul...Eric, I wish I could bram you here to Texas. You absolutely are pivotal in this life...You are MEANT to stand and love and lead. You remind me EERILY of my late husband who overdosed 3 years ago on Fent..leaving me after almost 10 years with our 2 and 4 year old son and daughter...Even how you talk about the woman you fell for...It feels like I'm heating him tell part of our story...Eric, do NOT ever give up..❤️ If you ever come to Texas, you've got open arms!!!
This interview broke my heart and made me cry. He carries so much guilt for things that were out of his control. I feel for him and his sister, no one deserves to go through that. I hope you pull through Eric, you and your girls deserve a good life.
The only thing I can say is that after watching this video I feel a huge admiration and respect for Eric. I hope someone can help him so that he can defeat the demons that torment him.
I once heard someone say that the way you speak to your children becomes their inner voice. That really stuck with me and I remind myself of it often while I navigate parenthood. I also read the following quote and I think it's really important to keep this in mind:
"Speak to your children as if they are the wisest, kindest, most beautiful and magical humans on earth. For what they believe is what they will become".- Brooke Hampton
I’ve been in a program now, and it does help. I’ve never stopped craving the oxys, but along with the therapist you can get through it.
Congratulations! Keep up the great job. One day at a time. 💕
Blessings to your Sobriety
It will stop eventually tim
My brother is suffering in active addiction with serious mental illnesses and I can't really be around him Much, because I have children. But, I love him so dearly. No matter what you're suffering from I hope you know.. that you are loved even at your deepest darkest pits of hell. Someone loves you even if they don't reach out enough... Even if they don't show it enough.
This is one of the most sincere and heartbreaking life stories I've watched on your chanel Mark.Eric if your reading the comments know that so many people are rooting for your sobriety. Don't let your father' succeed till the end. You have talent and skills why not used that as a tool to help others. God has a purpose and you know that. Get help be sober love your kids and protect them. Forgive yourself and move on. It's easier said than done but i know you can do it. Hope to see a follow up on your story but this time an inspirational one. Praying for you Eric.
I feel for this guy its unfortunate how childhood trauma can lead to bad choices in life. He looks like a good guy sending lots of blessings his way. Thank you Mark
This man seems like SUCH a sweet soul...he's taken on so much pain for other peoples ills....praying for you Eric!!!
I’m a recovering addict. I know how sexual abuse affects people. His sister Is probably the best person to intervene as eric’s guilt lies in their terrible past
You're someone to me now man. So glad you shared your story. It touched me on so many levels.
His story was so touching. He really can help out so many people that went through the things just like him. I hope that he is able to recover from his past trauma .
Poor baby. I just want to give him a hug. He seems so sweet. I’m so so sorry you went through this Eric. I really hope you can pull through and find peace one day
Eric seems like such a good dude, this video just made me wanna give him a hug. Hearing his story about what he'd gone through & the emotions he was experiencing while telling really got to me. He doesn't deserve the pain/guilt he's carrying & I really hope the clinic he goes to really helps.
Eric, you explain your trauma better than you think. You were a child. I am so sorry you and your sister went through this hell with your father. You didn't deserve any of it. You were meant to meet Mark and do this interview and get your story out there. ❤️
After hearing his story and the part where his sister recoiled from his comfort and after that moment he never hugged her again... I want to give him a hug. I hope one day he sees that his past is not his fault and out of his control but he can change his future. I hope he can get cleaned up with the program and get back to doing hair. Hopefully we can get an update on him sometime this year 🙏
Please do an update on Eric. If you see this we are all rooting for you👏🏻👏🏻✨✨✨
I’m soooo late to this video but omg this one TRULY broke my heart! Eric you are worth SO MUCH! God definitely has a bigger plan for you. Stay strong. Sending you love
Eric deserves the world. I adore him from a single interview. I pray he knows his strength and learns to love himself
I would love to see an update on Eric! You are worthy of so much Eric❤️
Eric is one of the only stories that made me nearly cry, I feel his pain for sure, and I see he still has some light left in him. May the universe bless you Eric much love man❤️
Eric.. you gave me thoughts I've not had before, and i want to Thank you from the bottom of my heart. Right to the end, you gave amazing words of wisdom. ❤💯
I love this guy who without an ounce of self pity, describes the horrors he has been subjected to and still comes across as a sensitive, gentle and intelligent man.
Eric , if you ever see this ... you WERE created with a purpose and a destiny . You are not worthless !!! There's a reason you haven't succeeded at suicide, there IS a God that loves YOU and wants to see you happy and healed. Praying for you Eric 💙💙💙
Right off the bat! This is a perfect example of why we as parents, friends, teachers, etc should speak life into children. 🙏🏽amen
Exactly. Children are like sponges in that they absorb their parents' declarations as if they were under hypnosis. What adults say to them takes root at a deep, deep level. It's so important to only speak blessings over them!
🥺🥺🥺 sending you love, Eric. Thank you for sharing your story.
“Family dysfunction rolls down from generation to generation, like a fire in the woods, taking down everything in its path until one person in one generation has the courage to turn and face the flames. That person brings peace to their ancestors and spares the children that follow.” T Real 🔥
WOW. 💙
Its hard to watch and listen without feeling like a heavy weight on your heart and soul much less going through their hell. I tear up watching these kus damn man. I wish I could hug them all. Much love and respect to them all.
I can tell he is truly a genuinely kind person trapped in his own thoughts. I hope wonderful things come to him
Eric, please repeat after me every day for the rest of your life, "You (I am) not a piece of s***. I am not just what I went through. I deserve to live a stable, positive life. I am worthy and I matter greatly".
Your golden heart shines through in this interview. Know that even if you never interact with or meet anyone who comments here, we truly believe in you and your ability to turn your life around.
Please do it for the sweet, innocent child you were when you witnessed and experienced the atrocious horrors of your childhood and for the strong, resilient, capable, talented, warm-souled man you clearly are today. 💗
Vamos Eric tú puedes salir de esto. Tu historia, de todas las que he visto me ha conmovido hasta las lágrimas. Por favor, busca ayuda, y estate seguro que nadie te juzga🙏 Todos te apoyamos has pasado por mucho, pero estoy segura que podrás salir de esto, estás aquí por una razón mereces ser feliz eres una gran persona
This poor man breaks my heart. I hope he can get through this and overcome the horrible memories. He seems like he could be productive. Hope he finds his way🙏🏻…. As always~ Thankyou Mark
That was a tough one. I'd love to give you a big hug Eric. Thanks for sharing this story. Stay strong and focused. May God bless you.
This guy is amazing he just doesn’t know how wonderful he is! Just listening to his story I hope he can find his way he’s full of life and love!!!
I hope he finds peace and heals. This was tough to watch it’s almost as if everyone except himself was in denial of the things that were happening. He’s brave for admitting and acknowledging. Sending love and light.
There are no answers, brother. The “WHY?!” is what keeps us from realizing the things we’re missing out on through constantly asking that question. You will NEVER understand why he was so evil and why your mom didn’t do what she needed to because you aren’t like either of those things.
This is one of the most interesting videos on the channel by far. The story is incredible and to see him still up and have the will to live , and the sister , just wow
Exactly!
This is the first interview I’ve watched on here that’s invoked tears and I feel like I’ve watched them all.. Bless his heart. I hope he see’s these comments. I just wanna go find him and allow him cry the tears he needs to cry.. Jeeze. His story has struck a cord with me.
Eric, you do not deserve the scars you wear. Your sister is probably “okay” because you bear the weight for her. I’m so sorry. When you said “I never touched her again after that”. I’m cannot express my empathy enough for you, brother…. You are amazing person. Don’t ever let anyone tell you different. You can overcome. It’s NEVER too late. Resources are scarce, but they are there. You just have to go find them. It’s worth the pursuit. Your body, your mind and your soul deserve it. Best wishes, Eric. I will think of you often.
Thank you Mark, you're a psychiatrist to these folks. Great thing you're doing. And Eric, no te aguites carnal. Se nota que eres inteligente y con bueno corazon. Pa delante, tienes la inteligencia y fuerza para dejar las drogas y hacer lo que quieras con tu vida. Suerte.
😭😭😭 I’ve never cried so much listening to an interview. This one hit me hard. I just want to hug him
You can tell he has such a good heart but the trauma has affected him badly. I hope he find a way to be truly happy and a way to deal with his past. Im wishing Eric happiness and love in his life ✨💫
I want to give Eric a big hug!!!!much love from Australia!!!!
My God. This guy never had a chance.. shame cause he seems intelligent. He’s well spoken.
Video just posted, and its 35min long.. how did you already viewed it and reviewed it? Fake coment!
@@paulp939 dude who cares lol
@@paulp939 maybe they subscribe for early content?
@@paulp939 ..haha,why you care for? Mind your own😅
Bro, it sounds like you were the one who held your family together. You got your mom and your sister out of those situations and they have a good life now. If it wasn't for you, your dad would of had free rein to do as he wished and you took on that burden and was strong enough to stand up for what was right. You have an amazing attitude and I hope your family reaches out and reciprocates the same love and strength you have shown them.
"She couldn't find a place to hide." "I guess you got to go through it." "Every time I use fentanyl I pray that I die." I'll be pondering this interview for awhile. Always interesting, thanks!
Incredibly touching and heart felt.
He’s got to be one of my top 3 favorites on this channel! Mark, please invest in this man. Mentor him!
Eric your story broke my heart. You deserve a good life. Please stay strong
I’m not big on therapy but it seems like he has the mindset that may benefit from it
Eric man, time to get that guilt of your shoulders! What happened to your sister is NOT your fault, and the drug use after wards is also, not your fault.
Reach out to your sister, talk to her about what your going through, get to talk to someone if you can, some free counselling if they have it. Free groups that are simular to AA, they have and you can tell your story. Just talking infront of others can be very healing, others will have there stories there. Looks like by this interview you are very articulate, and with the education you persued shows you have alot of ability and strength within. Persue the healing path. Get at those feelings, and show love to those painful feelings, if you can.
You are thinking these things you saw is your fault, when it NOT, get your life back, you can do it, you can heal.
The love is there for you.
Bless you
Such a sad story. I love this guy, he is such an amazing brother.
This is IMHO the most important impactful channel on TH-cam that I’ve come across….
It gives people a chance to really delve into another persons life from their perspective. Which can really help develop empathy and understanding in people who otherwise wouldn’t care, or even have distain towards addiction and other taboo subjects.
In a world today where I see more apathy, narcissism, hate, and misinformation, it’s truly beautiful to see a channel that allows a platform for people to freely speak, safe from bias, agendas, and righteousness.
I must commend you for created such a perfect channel… well done man.
I’m a recovering addict myself and I just feel that I owe you a “thanks” for providing this. so, thank you and keep up the good work ✌️
Im so sorry you went through this may god heal you,my heart goes out to you.You are a strong man.
Thanks to this platform for giving people an opportunity to tell their stories. I hope he can heal. The opening had me in tears.