You speak with so much wisdom and it honestly is so refreshing to hear.You got this and just know, people like me who watch you care about you sooo much and are rooting for you every step of the way.
p.s, it does actually NEVER get better. You have no choice but to deal with the fact it happens. You never get over it and it never gets better through time. It's like you learn to deal with it, watching a parent die is traumatic and it will never get "better through time" bullshit
LeahsBeautyUK yeah, my father passed away a year ago on january 24th. he was a pretty old father(72 this year, and i wouldve been 18) and i can also concur that it really never gets better. if anything it can get worse
*This hit me like a ton of bricks. I was going to be one of those people today. That woke up in a great mood thinking its Friday let me dress up in green for work (I work with kids) even though St. Patty's does not mean much to me, do my makeup all cute, and then go for a run after and to see Beauty and the Beast tonight. Thinking I was going to have a solid day. Well, wrong. I was woken up to the news of my grandma passing away this morning by my weeping mother. She passed away in a different country and I'm not able to go see her. Last I saw her was 9 years ago. Now this day will always mean something more. It's gut wrenching.*
You are a very very strong woman Sara, your parents raised such a beautiful soul and I thank them for that! You definitely always open up my eyes when you make videos like this and you're just such an amazing person 💕
It's so true what you said about the people who like to say 'it gets better with time'. It's the most cliche, over-used bullshit that what people who can't really relate to someone going through something awful like to throw around. But i think time not healing is partly a good thing. The pain of losing someone you love doesn't ever go away, but you learn to cope with the sting. It's like it's always sitting there in your chest, and i think if it did go away it'd mean you'd lost the beauty of the relationship you had with that person. I'm always scared of forgetting memories and the pain reminds me that all those memories are still there. The reason we can feel so much pain over losing someone is because we felt and experienced so many beautiful things with them before. That's what i try and remember when i'm feeling it right on the surface. I try and remember that the most important thing i can do now is to hang onto what that person gave me, what i had with them. When i'm missing them or something i had with them, i just remind myself how lucky i am to have got to experience those things. “Grief never ends. But it changes. It’s a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith. It is the price of love.” I hope you go out in the sun today. Sending warm energy to you Sara
Astrid Lili I agree, everything you said is perfectly put, but when people say it gets better the "better" they mean is the "cope" you mentioned, you'll heal from your wounds but they'll still leave scars that reminds you of the pain you felt, but losing someone is different from all struggles or sufferings. but as you said.
Sara--my mom died February 9th of this year from cancer. I was by her side when she passed and it will be no doubt the most difficult thing I'll ever have to do. I still can't believe she is gone. I keep telling myself she's just on vacation. She was my favorite person. I feel you on such a deep level. The pain is inexplicable. Some days I don't know how I will survive. But we are in this together. Hang in there.
dannerzlyfe I'm so sorry to hear that but she's well looked after in heaven as all angels go there. But it's amazing that you're able to talk about it so soon because it shows your willingness to heal, which means you can because it's all a matter of wanting to do something which sets you on that path. Stay strong because you can do it.
Magda Michelle sometimes. sometimes it gets better. my grandfather passed away 4 years ago this year..i think about him EVERY SINGLE DAY. but the initial pain of the night he passed, is gone. yes it gets easier, but it also weighs heavy. maybe it depends on the person. idk. i'm just rambling
I feel you. It always hurts the same. I could be completely fine and then I hear a song that reminds me of my dad and I lose it.. no matter where I'm at or who I'm with & It's been 7 years..
Magda Michelle those people that say time heals, it doesn't heal all wounds, it just changes them. It transforms how you have to deal with them. Time makes it easier to wait to cry until you get in the car. Time gives you some “good days” where you can better turn toward positive things or enjoy a good time or distract yourself with work or church activities. Time makes it easier to get dressed in the morning and put on makeup without having to re-apply the mascara three times. But time doesn’t heal it. Only can it come to your ability that you can make a change. Only you can heal the wounds. All my love to all those going through difficult times. Life has so many opportunities to give, wait and see for yourself.
Magda Michelle i do as well! Pain of loosing someone never goes away it just get easier to handle that pain with time. Sometimes you have good days and sometimes you have bad days. Its been nearly 10yrs since my gran passed away and not even 6month since my little cousin passed away and yes ive learned coping mechanisms to handle the grief but it doesnt go away! Its the worst to tell someone it going to go away so i agree with you 100%!
Dont sit there and tell yourself to "stuck it up" fuck that, you are allowed to be sad or angry or hurt. what you went through and are now going through again isn't easy, i enjoy watching your videos over any "big" fake fucking youtuber these days. i love your vibe and your positivity. Even though we've never met and i don't know you personally i still feel for you and feel hurt for you and i wish i could be there for you in real life because i hate seeing people like this. whenever you feel alone just know you have all these amazing fucking supporters including me. ❤
this comment means so much to me, you have no idea. thank you so so much. it really does mean more than the world to me to have such amazing supporters and friends like the ones i have, it blow my mind and i think you so much for that
My heart sunk when i got that notification that you responded, i never comment on any TH-camrs video this is my first time on yours because i see that you actually reply to people and you try to reply to as much as you can which i love cos it shows how much of a real ass person you are and im so fucking glad my post means something to you, no need to thank me boo boo. I always give love and it should never be thanked for, it should just be accepted x
well it means even more to know that you dont usually comment, those are the comments i love the best and usually the ones that hit my heart the most and stick with me the best. i do try and reply to everyone as much as i can, i mean its you guys who take the time to watch and comment, its messed up for a youtuber to not be friends with the people that follow them. i dont even like calling you guys subscribers or followers. you guys are my friends! i tell you guys more than i tell people i actually know lol!!i agree with you. my love should never be thanked and i make these videos out of love and i comment back with love so there is no need to thank me
kotkata my grandfather passed 4 years ago from cancer and at the time it hurt so damn much... but truly as time went on I started feeling better and I understood that he was in so much damn pain for so long now that's all over and hopefully he's at peace.
I lost my mom to lymphoma almost 3 years ago, the day after my 19th birthday. For so long I felt numb and I actually thought that something was wrong with me. Now almost 3 years later, Im almost 22 years old and while all the other peoples lives around me are spinning so fast I feel like i am at a stand still. Im graduating college in 2 months and all I can think of is all of the days that i have left without my mom- countless christmases, endless birthdays, my wedding day, the day I have my first baby and an unimagineable amount of moments that I want to pick up the phone to call her and the realization that I cant and never will be able to again. My heart hurts for you so much and what you are dealing with, and youre right- it never goes away, it never even really dulls you just learn to put your head down and put one foot in front of the other. You are strong, capable, compassionate. I am thankful that there are people like you in this world. Your mom would be proud of you, you have such a pure soul. My thoughts and love go out to you and your Dad. If you ever need a friend know that I am one. xoxo, Savannah
Oh my God, I lost my mom a month ago and that’s all I keep thinking about. About how much time I have left without her, about how I can’t imagine living sixty more years without her, how I wish I could just leave here and go where she is. I miss her so much, I miss my best friend, she was the only one walking beside me always. Now I feel so alone.
sara, you are the first youtuber who i've actually listened through without skipping something.... i think i've never connected to someone through my computer this way... i think you have taught many people not to take to much for granted and cherishing every second in their life... honestly, thank you
Don't suck it up! Feel all your feelings just the way they are. For me I have to scream at the top of my lungs or cry for 30 min but after I feel so much better. I just wanted to say I just lost my father on Saturday so I know what it's like to go through having a parent with cancer and losing a parent. I totally relate to what you said about admiring someone like a god. That was my dad to me. Most everything you said about your connection with your mom is how I felt about my dad. Also about being in a trance, I'm feeling that way right now. I couldn't tell if I was just in shock or something else but that explains the feeling so perfectly. I feel like we are so much alike in our mindset and feelings but I won't say pain because you have been through so much more than I have despite us being practically the same age. I admire you so much because you help me understand myself better
I wish there was some type of meet thing you can do to meet some of us in your subscribers section to understand how much support you have out here. So many good souls you could meet. but I understand it might be difficult and it's hard to trust people you've never met. We're here for you Sara
Girl, I feel you. What I do when I feel super bad or sad, I try to take good care of myself, my body. Eat healthy fresh food, food that doesn't fill you but feeds you! I hope you know what I mean. Take care.
Sara, i always felt conected to you and not just in a relatable sense. from the first time i watchex one of your talking vids everything you talk about its like your talking to me, talking me through whatever i am currently going through or articulate something i had swirling around my mind. im here for you too. sending hella good vibes from California. xoxo
i just wanted to say i'm glad i found your youtube. you have given me a different perspective of things and situations. you give me some things to think about that open my eyes. for that i thank you. your wisdom is so beautiful
your videos always make me feel so much better i hope your dad gets better soon and i just wanted to thank you for everything i have so much respect your such a wonderful and Honest person i have never met someone like you its so fucking crazy
Your way telling your story is touching me more than any book or movie. It makes me think so much about my life, love, loss, everything. By listening to you, i understood something huge that i have to work with in my life and i dont think im the only one here. Thank you, love ❤️
You're really a place for me, where I come to get back down to earth. I love your makeup tutorials with the music and all - but videos like this just make me chill the fuck down and keeps me grounded and not be disrespectful and all. Really reminds me of the values of life, and I'm pretty fucking grateful for that
this opened my eyes and made me feel terrible about how I take my parents' love and presence for granted, thank you, and I'm so sorry for you having to go through these hard times xx stay strong
Hey Sara, I've been watching all of your videos, watched them over and over again and told my loved ones to listen to your words too, because the way you think and the way you can put your thoughts into words has really opened my eyes. You are such a beautiful soul Sara! Thank you so much for sharing those very raw emotions with us, even though you live on the other side of the planet (cause I'm from Germany), you manage to create such an intimate level of communication and I wish I could sit down with a cup of tea with you and talk talk talk. Love your pureness Sara, thank you so much for sharing that! love and light from Germany
wow she is so gorgeous , her face is so gorgeous , just being in the sun . Her blemishes make her looo so natural and raw and better ? Im sorry i had too i never saw anyone look so good without make up , its art
"it gets better with time" comes from the lucky ones, who are privileged enough to have a perfect life, or for the ones who don't deal with death and heartbreak, the ones who will never understand true pain. How lucky they must be😔 luckily, you exist & I have found your channel so I know I'm not alone, I'm not the only one who thinks "better with time" is complete bullshit and that respect for your parents is impossible to find these days. Thank you for being an amazing and inspiring person whom I will always look up to & hope to be as humble one day. ❤
This video is so raw and open. It's truly beautiful. You and your videos inspire me with every upload. Thank you so much for sharing this, you are amazing.
youre voice is so soothing. im struggling with anxiety, ocd, depression and bdd. you help me realise that im not the only one struggling and everyone has an issue that theyre dealing with of some sort. thank you so much && please stick around.
Sara you have an absolutely amazing soul, you know that? Most people on the internet are known for their appearance, their drama, etc. but when I look at you I see so much more. I don't know, maybe it's just me but you're super special. I lost my dad almost 5 years ago because of cancer and about a year ago my mom basically took off with her new boyfriend and I live alone in this big old house since then (she drops by every now and then). Life is a fucking hard game to play but at the same time I feel blessed by the universe to have build up such strength ya know? People like us see things differently. We read between the lines, look a little deeper, question a little more, cherish and love a little harder. Because we have seen what can happen if we don't. So keep your head up. You are such a strong soul, to hell with everything that wants to break you.
thank you for this comment my love, just know i am always here for you and i can connect to you on very personal levels in regards to your family life. we do see things differently, i feel like i am now in a dimension i shouldnt be in... like i dont belong here.. loving things harder is something too too true, thank you again... i cannot tell you how much it means to me to have friends like you here with me
No need to thank me. I love listening to your words because you rarely meet people with a similar mind, you know? Idk it gives me comfort to know I'm not the only one seeing the world that way. I know exactly what you mean, sometimes it feels like someone put a filter over your eyes and everything looks completely different. It's nice to know I'm not the only one seeing the world in this rather "unusual" way, which is why I'll always come back to your videos. Sending you lots of love!
truth is stranger than fiction if half of these people walking this world knew even a morsel of what was really going on in this world and beyond..... the world would be a different place thats for sure, but thats the goal, thats the point, keep them hypnotized and believing lies told by ones they trust the most.
I agree. Unfortunately most people don't have their own minds nowadays, they don't think or see for themselves. They think and see the way they have been taught and that, in my opinion, is what breaks the soul. I can't understand how so many people think that's all there is. Earning money, owning a nice car, etc. Like read a book, watch a documentary, open your mind a little further. There is so much more, the universe is everywhere around us and within. It makes me sad to see that most people see the world in such a monotonous way. Sorry, I got a little lost somewhere between the topic haha
Please stay strong!! You're an amazing soul!!❤❤❤❤❤❤ And your videos help me so much and help me rethink and your makeup videos slay! The music and the books like yes!!❤❤Idk if that makes sense or if that sounds weird idek) I hate it too the "it gets better in time" But one thing I've realized personally is not being strong is being strong. being "weak" or "emotional" like a lot of people tend to think and I get told by people I know that I'm weak for being "crazy" as they say isn't strong or you're a baby or say you should suck it up etc but I've always thought even before everything went bad in my life that emotions make you human meaning you're not meant to be perfect like everyone wants to be perfect nowadays or be in control but sometimes you can't and people need to accept that but ugh I'm sorry I sound dumb but anyway I love you and I respect you!! And keep slaying!!❤❤💕💁🏻✨
This video makes me appreciate you and your channel even more than I already did, which was a ton. You're always so honest and down to earth. You're not just yelling about sponsored products into a fancy camera, you're reminding people that there are some real ones left ♡.
Posted 10 minutes ago. Over 1k views already, over 100 likes and ZEROOOOO dislikes!!!! I love our mellow family. So supportive and positive. PS: OG momma mellow IS a GOD. YOU are GOD. We are all Gods and our bodies are our temples.
I miss her too, miss her through you. But I am soooo thankful she put such a beautiful mind on this earth. I can see her in you. All her energy is within you. She's all around you.
learning about your life and watching your videos has really really opened my eyes and like made me just appreciate what i have, and i love how honest and real you keep your emotional videos, and you dont conform to anyones ideals. its so beautiful how you just pick yourself up after everything its inspirational as fuck. i really wish we were friends tbh the outlook you have on life is wild and abstract af, gurl its special. i hope youre okay and i hope you're able to get through this (ive seen your last video) Xx
I've always loved your videos, they're so beautifully put together even though it's just you talking to a camera. they always remind me of poems idk just the relaxing way you speak and everything they're so beautifully crafted. honestly I wish you all the best in life because you are such an amazing smart soul x
Sara, I honestly love you so much. Your such a strong, kind, brave and loving being. You've taught me things..so many things. All I want to say is stay strong babes! We all love you so much and will be your team for life. Love you♥️
You are honestly such an amazing person. I love the way you see things and any video you make I can sit there and watch all of it without skipping through because I love hearing your view on things and the things you have been through; you seem like such a strong person and you are totally inspiring where it makes me want to cherish the things I have and not take anything for granted. I hope everything will be alright with your father, I know it is easier said than done but stay positive and hopefully everything will be okay. ♥♥
Ahhh honestly you're the most beautiful person. Not just on the outside but your soul is so wonderful. You are so transparent and I do not mean in a harsh way I mean this in the fact you're so open and genuine and it's beautiful. Never lose the shine you have even through all the terrible things you go through. We all love and support you
i just discovered you. and i already love you, i love how real you are about everything and your voice is so calming and full of meaning. i dunno how to explain it. i love these videos were you just really dont bother to look nice you let your feelings out, youre not afraid to cry on camera, youre not afraid to just vent and i love it. youre so freaking beautiful.
Wow, this video was super helpful. My family and I are also going through a rough patch and to know that your real and not a fake-smile youtuber really helps🙏🏼❤💕
i cant tell you how many people i have been unsubscribing from due to exactly what you said, fakesmiles, i honestly think some of them arent faking, they are just like that... idk what it is but i just cant watch someone that i cannot connect to
I have a friend. Her name is Katelyn and she is very much like you. Her mom killed her little brother due to a psychotic break and her dad committed suicide a week later. She is not okay and never will be, but she is thriving. You are strong like her. You are a fucking force to be reckoned with and always believe in yourself. Please remember that no way that you wound up has to be the way that you always are. You can be sad and you can be strong and kind as fuck all at the same time. There is nothing wrong with that. Thank you for being so real. If you ever need someone to just authentically listen to you, please message me. I welcome and encourage you to do so. I am broken into pieces for many reasons as well and sometimes broken people find strength together. All the love in the world to you.
She sees you Darling. She sees you and as a mother myself, I can tell you she is proud of you. You spread so much joy and a clarity of mind that even people my age (yes, I'm old) don't often experience and you do it with no expectations. You don't preach or judge or lay trips on people. I wish more young people saw things the way you do, and I can tell you that if my daughter grows up to keep it real like you do I'll consider it a job well done and a privilege to have helped raise her right. Don't let anyone tell you not to be sad. Sometimes a girl gotta cry to remember why it's so good to laugh when she can. Feel what you feel and let it happen, it's a fuck of a lot better than sucking it all in to please other people. I'll be sending you and your pops lots of love.
i have so much respect for you. this is the first video i watched and god, i can already see that you're so so so so strong. i think it's amazing that you're able to put yourself like this on youtube. so vulnerable but so strong at the same time... im so sorry for your loss 💜😢
how I relate to your mind 💘 "Time heals" use to grind my gears as well. Until I learned that it isn't so time but your heart's states and your mind space and perception that will heal you. "We will all go, one at a time through the same gate" There is something to learn where you're at, and I can't wait till you discover it and understand why. you're in my hope thoughts.
Omg! I'm so glad you like I posted it everywhere♡ not many people can comprehend it. It's by an Islamic poet and scholar Rumi. He's very famous in anthropology. I believe the original quote goes something like this. "What is this great competition we feel then, before we go, one at a time through the same gate" it speaks of the material greed and the people that seek it, yet it all just a loan for you can't take it with you to the grave. You can only take your experiences and the blessing or destruction you left on earth.
Im so sorry for your loss, i havent gone through this but im close to losing someone, so i can only imagine how you feel.. Youre such a strong girl and you have all of us here for you as support! ❤
You're videos make my day I swear . I hope your dad gets better soon .Sending you love & a lot of warm hugs & thankyou for always being so real & honest with us ! You're such a brave woman with a beautiful soul ❤. I respect you & admire you .
i love the fact that you can tell she doesnt do this for the attention or the money . she doesnt do it as a cry for help . she does this as her way of venting , and i respect her so much .
Watching this on March, 17 2020. I’m so proud of you Miss Sara and all of your growth and all of the strength you have within you to continue on with your life even if you feel like collapsing and giving up. Even if you don’t feel like you inspire others, you inspire me. And I appreciate the love, the creations, the beauty you put on this planet. I am here for you, and I’m proud of you. You living, and creating and sharing your soul on this planet is what keeps your mothers soul alive, and I’m sure she’s shining down and watching you and is extremely proud of you💕🌹
These videos have really touched me. My mom passed away unexpectedly July 1 2016. We woke up that morning had a great day went out together and then that night she started feeling bad so we called her an ambulance and before they left our apartment complex she went into cardiac arrest and never regained consciousness. It was the hardest thing watching her lay there on life support and even harder having to be the one to take her off. I've struggled every day with regret knowing I didn't even tell her I loved her as she was taken out and missing her so much. I'm so sorry for both of your losses and I hope I can one day be strong enough to talk out loud about my struggles.
Danielle Madison same thing happened to my mom. Exactly the same thing, called the ambulance and went into cardiac arrest before getting to the hospital. It's such a sucky thing. I'm sorry for your loss
thank you babe!!! that H aint used around here but its all good:) hahha jokes aside thank you for finding my channel and choosing to watch some of my videos!
i wish we could all have a giant sleepover and just talk about life and laugh and cry together. the community sara's built on her channel is so amazing and unreal. i hope that one day we all find peace in our hearts and in our souls.
I stumbled upon your video called " ... " and I subscribed to you so that I can get notified when you post more videos in hopes to see that you're going to be okay and that things will be better, even if your next post will be in a few months. I can see that you have a lot people here for you and support you. I hope you take good care of yourself, do things that are right for you, sending lots of good thoughts & love your way
I love you Sara! It's not very often that you come across a real, genuine, and chill person on TH-cam anymore. Your videos are raw emotions. I love it.. You definitely are a strong young woman. You are an admiration and even though you're younger than me I look up to you. - Sending positive vibes your way! XOXO♥️
I was so Down these days I miss my dad I miss my old world a world with no fear no worries no bad thuots now I'm just tired I'm a 21y.o but I feel like I'm a 200y.o I lost my soul with him I miss him soooo soòoooooooo much I lost him before 3 years and I'm still "copping" when I saw ur video I felt I'm not the only one u R my girl I love u 😽
You're so strong. Just know that I hope the best for you, because really, you have such a beautiful soul. You've taught me many things and I feel like I could just listen to you all day :) But just as you mentioned in the video, I also find myself missing parts of who I was before certain things happened in my life. Sometimes it still tears me apart, but am working on that and have found ways to cope. I can connect to stuff you say and thanks to you I feel less alone haha, so thank you. So much.
"Love is like a bank account. The more you put in, the more it hurts when it's not around.. Someone once said to me when my father died that i was so lucky, because when their father died they'd felt nothing at all. The reason it hurts so much is because you love someone so much. If you've been lucky to love someone so much then there is going to be pain." I just heard this quote and thought of you. It doesn't getter better, but you get stronger. You're mum will be so proud of you you don't even know it
I really fucking respect you Sara. I subscribed to you because of videos like these. You're someone on TH-cam that ALWAYS keeps it 100. You've just inspired me to start my own channel and keep it 1000% like you and upload whatever tf I want. I'm sorry that you're going through this and I sincerely, with my whole being, hope that you can hang on and that things will get "better". Please stay strong.
I have so much respect for her, to sit and video how she's realistically feeling and what she's been through is actually incredible. I hope you go far in life you have the talent, and you're such a mentally strong women all the love. Xx
I'm not a subscriber...and I'm not really sure how I got here. But you are an amazing, and old soul. I've been watching you, and crying with you. I'm so, so sorry. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you. I guess I just wanted to acknowledge you and the heaviness of what you are going through. I just wanted you to know I heard you, and I felt the depth of what you spoke. How amazing it is to have had such a kindred spirit as you had in your mom. Bless you sweetie.💕
I only started watching you a little while ago and I didn't realise what you were going through, this opened my eyes a lot and I respect you so much, you are so strong ❤️❤️
This is one of my favourite videos ever, and it's the first video I've seen of yours and I just subscribed. I lost my mum to cancer back in July of 2015, when I was 18. I'm now 20, and she's still in my heart and on my mind everyday, and she will still be in 50 years time, and I have pictures of her in my room and I breakdown because all I want to do is have a conversation with her or hold her or even hear her voice. I still have my dad, and I have four brothers, so I have a big family and we all supported each other, but it was hell to go through. I used to make videos, and then stopped in 2014 because seeing my mum battle with cancer was just too painful to focus on anything else, seeing her deteriorate from being healthy to terminal to bed ridden really tore me apart. But I think I'm going to start making them again, this video really helped. Thanks!
Hope it becomes easier for you. Can't even imagine what this must be feel like. You only realise the true value of something when it is gone. Hope we can all value and love our parents as they deserve. I can imagine you becoming a beautiful mother!
be strong Sara.i respect you,end the way you think.thank you for sharing your life with us.i don't know what the fuck i'm going to do with my life...but i hope i'l learn something from you.
I love your videos so much because you're so real and true, you don't hide what you're feeling and i find that so admirable because I find it hard to do. Thank you so much for being you and I pray that everything works out for you ♥️
I do care about you, we care about you! Sending you love and a lot of warm hugs! Take care :) and thank you for being real and honest with us! You are one of the bravest girls I know!
i can't explain how happy i am that you exist
same, i love her sm
mindwithflowers yasss, totally agree ☺️
mindwithflowers honestly same. Every time I watch one of her videos I feel so connected to what she is saying and it makes me feel so alive
Same as hell
Me too xx
I don't know why she remind me of lorde
Goddess Rih i
Goddess Rih omggg yes
Goddess Rih I thought I was the only one!
Goddess Rih she looks just like her!
Goddess Rih I was thinking the same thing too.
You might not be proud of you, but I bet anything under the sun that your mom is _mad_ proud of you..
Kate Sweatman +
You speak with so much wisdom and it honestly is so refreshing to hear.You got this and just know, people like me who watch you care about you sooo much and are rooting for you every step of the way.
i loved this comment!!! thank you so so much!
My father passed away on St. Patricks Day. It's 6 years today. I watched it happen too. I feel you Sara, you are in my thoughts.
p.s, it does actually NEVER get better. You have no choice but to deal with the fact it happens. You never get over it and it never gets better through time. It's like you learn to deal with it, watching a parent die is traumatic and it will never get "better through time" bullshit
LeahsBeautyUK yeah, my father passed away a year ago on january 24th. he was a pretty old father(72 this year, and i wouldve been 18) and i can also concur that it really never gets better. if anything it can get worse
ozi Especially when you reach a time in your life when you need their advice and opinion on things but you can't ask them. That really gets me.
LeahsBeautyUK definitely. or if there is something you know theyd be proud of. its as if you can just imagine it happening...
me too babe, you are in my thoughts as well, you know i am here for you
God I want to give you a warm tight hug, stay strong my love ❤
Selda same 💔💔💔💔
yess God uses you to show his love
Thank you babe
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Let yourself cry, you're embracing your emotions which is badass and powerful.
I love you so much omg
Yooo wtf. I watched you before trash was even a thing
Denn's Channel wtf can you not. her dad passed away and all you can think about is a fucking collab? have some respect.
Anna Campbell ANNA WOW HI
Sara K how am I just seeing this now omg
Anna Campbell
*This hit me like a ton of bricks. I was going to be one of those people today. That woke up in a great mood thinking its Friday let me dress up in green for work (I work with kids) even though St. Patty's does not mean much to me, do my makeup all cute, and then go for a run after and to see Beauty and the Beast tonight. Thinking I was going to have a solid day. Well, wrong. I was woken up to the news of my grandma passing away this morning by my weeping mother. She passed away in a different country and I'm not able to go see her. Last I saw her was 9 years ago. Now this day will always mean something more. It's gut wrenching.*
alloutofwords sorry for your loss ❤
+Hanan Y thank you so much💕
I'm here for you babe. I promise
alloutofwords I'm sorry for your loss love
We are all here sweetie. LOVE to all!😚😚😚🌼😚❤
So so fucking strong. I'll be thinking of you today. I love you
She's so REAL with her viewers. What a strong beautiful soul ❤️️❤️️
i love yall.
I genuinely want to be her friend. I literally dont have one.
We can be friends my love!!
I went ahead and decided that we're friends before you replied. I AM SO GLAD YOU DID! ❤
I can be your friend too
You are a very very strong woman Sara, your parents raised such a beautiful soul and I thank them for that! You definitely always open up my eyes when you make videos like this and you're just such an amazing person 💕
thank you so so much
You're so welcome ! And I'm so happy you read my comment , made my day ! 😁
Brittany Gundry.. You took the words right out of my mouth. She's amazing ❤
It's so true what you said about the people who like to say 'it gets better with time'. It's the most cliche, over-used bullshit that what people who can't really relate to someone going through something awful like to throw around. But i think time not healing is partly a good thing. The pain of losing someone you love doesn't ever go away, but you learn to cope with the sting. It's like it's always sitting there in your chest, and i think if it did go away it'd mean you'd lost the beauty of the relationship you had with that person. I'm always scared of forgetting memories and the pain reminds me that all those memories are still there. The reason we can feel so much pain over losing someone is because we felt and experienced so many beautiful things with them before. That's what i try and remember when i'm feeling it right on the surface. I try and remember that the most important thing i can do now is to hang onto what that person gave me, what i had with them. When i'm missing them or something i had with them, i just remind myself how lucky i am to have got to experience those things.
“Grief never ends. But it changes. It’s a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith. It is the price of love.”
I hope you go out in the sun today. Sending warm energy to you Sara
Astrid Lili well said!!
Wow, you said this so amazingly perfect. I cried reading this. All I could think about was my Mommy, 2 long months and the pain is soooo real🙁
thank you for this babe, sometimes i need you guys more than you guys need me:( ugh i wish we could all hang out and just forget about the bullshit
Astrid Lili Very sweet! She feels the warmth from these very kind words :) Very well said!
Astrid Lili I agree, everything you said is perfectly put, but when people say it gets better the "better" they mean is the "cope" you mentioned, you'll heal from your wounds but they'll still leave scars that reminds you of the pain you felt, but losing someone is different from all struggles or sufferings. but as you said.
Sara--my mom died February 9th of this year from cancer. I was by her side when she passed and it will be no doubt the most difficult thing I'll ever have to do. I still can't believe she is gone. I keep telling myself she's just on vacation. She was my favorite person. I feel you on such a deep level. The pain is inexplicable. Some days I don't know how I will survive. But we are in this together. Hang in there.
dannerzlyfe I'm so sorry to hear that but she's well looked after in heaven as all angels go there. But it's amazing that you're able to talk about it so soon because it shows your willingness to heal, which means you can because it's all a matter of wanting to do something which sets you on that path. Stay strong because you can do it.
You are strong. x
dannerzlyfe You are so strong. I lost my mother too. I hope you're doing okay.
Sorry to hear that, I always get tears in my eyes when I hear people talk about someone they loved. Stay strong ❤️
I'm so so sorry. stay strong
I hate it so much when people say it gets better with time and time heals. It actually feels worse and gets worse.
Magda Michelle sometimes. sometimes it gets better. my grandfather passed away 4 years ago this year..i think about him EVERY SINGLE DAY. but the initial pain of the night he passed, is gone. yes it gets easier, but it also weighs heavy. maybe it depends on the person. idk. i'm just rambling
I feel you. It always hurts the same. I could be completely fine and then I hear a song that reminds me of my dad and I lose it.. no matter where I'm at or who I'm with & It's been 7 years..
Magda Michelle those people that say time heals, it doesn't heal all wounds, it just changes them. It transforms how you have to deal with them. Time makes it easier to wait to cry until you get in the car. Time gives you some “good days” where you can better turn toward positive things or enjoy a good time or distract yourself with work or church activities. Time makes it easier to get dressed in the morning and put on makeup without having to re-apply the mascara three times. But time doesn’t heal it. Only can it come to your ability that you can make a change. Only you can heal the wounds. All my love to all those going through difficult times. Life has so many opportunities to give, wait and see for yourself.
time doesn't heal anything it's what you do during the time that only helps you cope.
Magda Michelle i do as well! Pain of loosing someone never goes away it just get easier to handle that pain with time. Sometimes you have good days and sometimes you have bad days. Its been nearly 10yrs since my gran passed away and not even 6month since my little cousin passed away and yes ive learned coping mechanisms to handle the grief but it doesnt go away! Its the worst to tell someone it going to go away so i agree with you 100%!
You're the most amazing soul; so strong yet beautifully raw and real. I admire you.💕
thank you so much... that really means alot to me
You have such a beautiful soul. I wish I could just give you a hug. So sorry to hear about your mom. I'll be thinking of you and your family today.
thank you very much
Sara K You are welcome gorgeous. 💜
Sara K you are a good girl♥ you have a nice fice and smile;-);-)
Sending you so many hugs.
Dont sit there and tell yourself to "stuck it up" fuck that, you are allowed to be sad or angry or hurt. what you went through and are now going through again isn't easy, i enjoy watching your videos over any "big" fake fucking youtuber these days. i love your vibe and your positivity. Even though we've never met and i don't know you personally i still feel for you and feel hurt for you and i wish i could be there for you in real life because i hate seeing people like this. whenever you feel alone just know you have all these amazing fucking supporters including me. ❤
this comment means so much to me, you have no idea. thank you so so much. it really does mean more than the world to me to have such amazing supporters and friends like the ones i have, it blow my mind and i think you so much for that
My heart sunk when i got that notification that you responded, i never comment on any TH-camrs video this is my first time on yours because i see that you actually reply to people and you try to reply to as much as you can which i love cos it shows how much of a real ass person you are and im so fucking glad my post means something to you, no need to thank me boo boo. I always give love and it should never be thanked for, it should just be accepted x
well it means even more to know that you dont usually comment, those are the comments i love the best and usually the ones that hit my heart the most and stick with me the best. i do try and reply to everyone as much as i can, i mean its you guys who take the time to watch and comment, its messed up for a youtuber to not be friends with the people that follow them. i dont even like calling you guys subscribers or followers. you guys are my friends! i tell you guys more than i tell people i actually know lol!!i agree with you. my love should never be thanked and i make these videos out of love and i comment back with love so there is no need to thank me
8 years ago, my dad died, same fucking day, same fucking cancer. i feel you, Sara 100% :(
you know im here for you boo
Sara K what's your email??
+Richard Webb what?
kotkata my grandfather passed 4 years ago from cancer and at the time it hurt so damn much... but truly as time went on I started feeling better and I understood that he was in so much damn pain for so long now that's all over and hopefully he's at peace.
kotkata same😞
i'm just crying with you
gilly8 me too, always. How can u not :(
gilly8 same
this is so raw.
just me talkin babe
Sara K you know what? in a world where people talk about stuff that doesn't matter, this is so damn refreshing.
I lost my mom to lymphoma almost 3 years ago, the day after my 19th birthday. For so long I felt numb and I actually thought that something was wrong with me. Now almost 3 years later, Im almost 22 years old and while all the other peoples lives around me are spinning so fast I feel like i am at a stand still. Im graduating college in 2 months and all I can think of is all of the days that i have left without my mom- countless christmases, endless birthdays, my wedding day, the day I have my first baby and an unimagineable amount of moments that I want to pick up the phone to call her and the realization that I cant and never will be able to again. My heart hurts for you so much and what you are dealing with, and youre right- it never goes away, it never even really dulls you just learn to put your head down and put one foot in front of the other. You are strong, capable, compassionate. I am thankful that there are people like you in this world. Your mom would be proud of you, you have such a pure soul. My thoughts and love go out to you and your Dad. If you ever need a friend know that I am one.
xoxo, Savannah
piegirl42 I'm so sorry for your loss.. you are strong
Oh my God, I lost my mom a month ago and that’s all I keep thinking about. About how much time I have left without her, about how I can’t imagine living sixty more years without her, how I wish I could just leave here and go where she is. I miss her so much, I miss my best friend, she was the only one walking beside me always. Now I feel so alone.
You're so beautiful Sara, everything happens for a reason and you're so strong and brave! Keep your head up! 💗
thank you love
I am speaking only Arbic
My English bad
But
I love you so much ❤🕊
And sad 😭 because you cry
Zezo Ksa Yo te entendí un poco but my english doesn't so good
Zezo Ksa Actualmente estoy aprendiendo a español. Soy una hablante nativo de inglés.
sara, you are the first youtuber who i've actually listened through without skipping something.... i think i've never connected to someone through my computer this way... i think you have taught many people not to take to much for granted and cherishing every second in their life... honestly, thank you
Don't suck it up! Feel all your feelings just the way they are. For me I have to scream at the top of my lungs or cry for 30 min but after I feel so much better. I just wanted to say I just lost my father on Saturday so I know what it's like to go through having a parent with cancer and losing a parent. I totally relate to what you said about admiring someone like a god. That was my dad to me. Most everything you said about your connection with your mom is how I felt about my dad. Also about being in a trance, I'm feeling that way right now. I couldn't tell if I was just in shock or something else but that explains the feeling so perfectly. I feel like we are so much alike in our mindset and feelings but I won't say pain because you have been through so much more than I have despite us being practically the same age. I admire you so much because you help me understand myself better
I wish there was some type of meet thing you can do to meet some of us in your subscribers section to understand how much support you have out here. So many good souls you could meet. but I understand it might be difficult and it's hard to trust people you've never met. We're here for you Sara
one day i will meet you guys i promise, and it will be something amazing i can tell you that much!!!
You are opening my eyes Sara and I want to thank you for that. You make me want to do more for my mum❤
i cannot tell you how happy that makes me to hear, there is no need to thank me
Girl, I feel you.
What I do when I feel super bad or sad, I try to take good care of myself, my body. Eat healthy fresh food, food that doesn't fill you but feeds you! I hope you know what I mean.
Take care.
i fucking love that little quote you just said. "food that doesnt full you but feeds you"
Thanks! Yeah :-) Love that sentence. It's important.
x
Sara, i always felt conected to you and not just in a relatable sense. from the first time i watchex one of your talking vids everything you talk about its like your talking to me, talking me through whatever i am currently going through or articulate something i had swirling around my mind. im here for you too. sending hella good vibes from California. xoxo
i just wanted to say i'm glad i found your youtube. you have given me a different perspective of things and situations. you give me some things to think about that open my eyes. for that i thank you. your wisdom is so beautiful
that means so much to me, thank you very very much
your videos always make me feel so much better i hope your dad gets better soon and i just wanted to thank you for everything i have so much respect your such a wonderful and Honest person i have never met someone like you its so fucking crazy
thank you for this comment, there is never a need to ever thank you. thank you for being here for me....
I always end up crying watching your videos like this. You are so strong & so beautiful Sara!♡
Your way telling your story is touching me more than any book or movie. It makes me think so much about my life, love, loss, everything. By listening to you, i understood something huge that i have to work with in my life and i dont think im the only one here. Thank you, love ❤️
bless your soul for opening my eyes on so many levels
thank you for that, seriously have no idea how much your comment means to me
you're a blessing sara ✨
thank you so much ...
"I'm in a trance." My mom passed away a year ago and I have felt this way ever since.
You're really a place for me, where I come to get back down to earth. I love your makeup tutorials with the music and all - but videos like this just make me chill the fuck down and keeps me grounded and not be disrespectful and all. Really reminds me of the values of life, and I'm pretty fucking grateful for that
my dad passed away today 3 years ago. 💛
he had liver cancer... but i think someone did something to him.
Kendra Wilson I hope not. That's messed up
Kendra Wilson If someone truly did do something to him, then I hope you get justice.
I'm so sorry to hear about your dad.. I hope he gets better. 🙏🏻
this opened my eyes and made me feel terrible about how I take my parents' love and presence for granted, thank you, and I'm so sorry for you having to go through these hard times xx stay strong
Hey Sara, I've been watching all of your videos, watched them over and over again and told my loved ones to listen to your words too, because the way you think and the way you can put your thoughts into words has really opened my eyes. You are such a beautiful soul Sara! Thank you so much for sharing those very raw emotions with us, even though you live on the other side of the planet (cause I'm from Germany), you manage to create such an intimate level of communication and I wish I could sit down with a cup of tea with you and talk talk talk. Love your pureness Sara, thank you so much for sharing that!
love and light from Germany
wow she is so gorgeous , her face is so gorgeous , just being in the sun . Her blemishes make her looo so natural and raw and better ? Im sorry i had too i never saw anyone look so good without make up , its art
"it gets better with time" comes from the lucky ones, who are privileged enough to have a perfect life, or for the ones who don't deal with death and heartbreak, the ones who will never understand true pain. How lucky they must be😔 luckily, you exist & I have found your channel so I know I'm not alone, I'm not the only one who thinks "better with time" is complete bullshit and that respect for your parents is impossible to find these days. Thank you for being an amazing and inspiring person whom I will always look up to & hope to be as humble one day. ❤
This video is so raw and open. It's truly beautiful. You and your videos inspire me with every upload. Thank you so much for sharing this, you are amazing.
youre voice is so soothing. im struggling with anxiety, ocd, depression and bdd. you help me realise that im not the only one struggling and everyone has an issue that theyre dealing with of some sort. thank you so much && please stick around.
strong af. dont forget about yourself. love u man
love you too babe
Sara you have an absolutely amazing soul, you know that? Most people on the internet are known for their appearance, their drama, etc. but when I look at you I see so much more. I don't know, maybe it's just me but you're super special. I lost my dad almost 5 years ago because of cancer and about a year ago my mom basically took off with her new boyfriend and I live alone in this big old house since then (she drops by every now and then). Life is a fucking hard game to play but at the same time I feel blessed by the universe to have build up such strength ya know? People like us see things differently. We read between the lines, look a little deeper, question a little more, cherish and love a little harder. Because we have seen what can happen if we don't. So keep your head up. You are such a strong soul, to hell with everything that wants to break you.
thank you for this comment my love, just know i am always here for you and i can connect to you on very personal levels in regards to your family life. we do see things differently, i feel like i am now in a dimension i shouldnt be in... like i dont belong here.. loving things harder is something too too true, thank you again... i cannot tell you how much it means to me to have friends like you here with me
No need to thank me. I love listening to your words because you rarely meet people with a similar mind, you know? Idk it gives me comfort to know I'm not the only one seeing the world that way. I know exactly what you mean, sometimes it feels like someone put a filter over your eyes and everything looks completely different. It's nice to know I'm not the only one seeing the world in this rather "unusual" way, which is why I'll always come back to your videos. Sending you lots of love!
truth is stranger than fiction if half of these people walking this world knew even a morsel of what was really going on in this world and beyond..... the world would be a different place thats for sure, but thats the goal, thats the point, keep them hypnotized and believing lies told by ones they trust the most.
I agree. Unfortunately most people don't have their own minds nowadays, they don't think or see for themselves. They think and see the way they have been taught and that, in my opinion, is what breaks the soul. I can't understand how so many people think that's all there is. Earning money, owning a nice car, etc. Like read a book, watch a documentary, open your mind a little further. There is so much more, the universe is everywhere around us and within. It makes me sad to see that most people see the world in such a monotonous way. Sorry, I got a little lost somewhere between the topic haha
Please stay strong!! You're an amazing soul!!❤❤❤❤❤❤
And your videos help me so much and help me rethink and your makeup videos slay! The music and the books like yes!!❤❤Idk if that makes sense or if that sounds weird idek)
I hate it too the "it gets better in time"
But one thing I've realized personally is not being strong is being strong. being "weak" or "emotional" like a lot of people tend to think and I get told by people I know that I'm weak for being "crazy" as they say isn't strong or you're a baby or say you should suck it up etc but I've always thought even before everything went bad in my life that emotions make you human meaning you're not meant to be perfect like everyone wants to be perfect nowadays or be in control but sometimes you can't and people need to accept that but ugh I'm sorry I sound dumb but anyway I love you and I respect you!! And keep slaying!!❤❤💕💁🏻✨
This video makes me appreciate you and your channel even more than I already did, which was a ton. You're always so honest and down to earth. You're not just yelling about sponsored products into a fancy camera, you're reminding people that there are some real ones left ♡.
You are so strong girl, God is with you. Sending so much love x
Posted 10 minutes ago. Over 1k views already, over 100 likes and ZEROOOOO dislikes!!!! I love our mellow family. So supportive and positive. PS: OG momma mellow IS a GOD. YOU are GOD. We are all Gods and our bodies are our temples.
I miss her too, miss her through you. But I am soooo thankful she put such a beautiful mind on this earth. I can see her in you. All her energy is within you. She's all around you.
learning about your life and watching your videos has really really opened my eyes and like made me just appreciate what i have, and i love how honest and real you keep your emotional videos, and you dont conform to anyones ideals. its so beautiful how you just pick yourself up after everything its inspirational as fuck. i really wish we were friends tbh the outlook you have on life is wild and abstract af, gurl its special. i hope youre okay and i hope you're able to get through this (ive seen your last video) Xx
I've always loved your videos, they're so beautifully put together even though it's just you talking to a camera. they always remind me of poems idk just the relaxing way you speak and everything they're so beautifully crafted. honestly I wish you all the best in life because you are such an amazing smart soul x
Sara, I honestly love you so much. Your such a strong, kind, brave and loving being. You've taught me things..so many things. All I want to say is stay strong babes! We all love you so much and will be your team for life. Love you♥️
YES YES YES
sarah green yeah❤
You are honestly such an amazing person. I love the way you see things and any video you make I can sit there and watch all of it without skipping through because I love hearing your view on things and the things you have been through; you seem like such a strong person and you are totally inspiring where it makes me want to cherish the things I have and not take anything for granted. I hope everything will be alright with your father, I know it is easier said than done but stay positive and hopefully everything will be okay. ♥♥
this means so much to me, thank you... it makes me so happy to know that my videos are inspiring to you
Ahhh honestly you're the most beautiful person. Not just on the outside but your soul is so wonderful. You are so transparent and I do not mean in a harsh way I mean this in the fact you're so open and genuine and it's beautiful. Never lose the shine you have even through all the terrible things you go through. We all love and support you
i just discovered you. and i already love you, i love how real you are about everything and your voice is so calming and full of meaning. i dunno how to explain it. i love these videos were you just really dont bother to look nice you let your feelings out, youre not afraid to cry on camera, youre not afraid to just vent and i love it. youre so freaking beautiful.
thank you my love! i am so happy you came across my channel!
Wow, this video was super helpful. My family and I are also going through a rough patch and to know that your real and not a fake-smile youtuber really helps🙏🏼❤💕
i cant tell you how many people i have been unsubscribing from due to exactly what you said, fakesmiles, i honestly think some of them arent faking, they are just like that... idk what it is but i just cant watch someone that i cannot connect to
I have a friend. Her name is Katelyn and she is very much like you.
Her mom killed her little brother due to a psychotic break and her dad committed suicide a week later.
She is not okay and never will be, but she is thriving.
You are strong like her. You are a fucking force to be reckoned with and always believe in yourself. Please remember that no way that you wound up has to be the way that you always are. You can be sad and you can be strong and kind as fuck all at the same time. There is nothing wrong with that. Thank you for being so real.
If you ever need someone to just authentically listen to you, please message me. I welcome and encourage you to do so. I am broken into pieces for many reasons as well and sometimes broken people find strength together.
All the love in the world to you.
You look so pretty with no makeup. Your emotions just shine through so strong and that's more beautiful than any makeup could ever be.
thank you for being vulnerable and open with us about, everything. it helps a lot of people more than you may think.
I like what you said about love vs respect. Reminded me of the Tupac verse, "belonging felt good, but having respect, that feels even better"
She sees you Darling. She sees you and as a mother myself, I can tell you she is proud of you. You spread so much joy and a clarity of mind that even people my age (yes, I'm old) don't often experience and you do it with no expectations. You don't preach or judge or lay trips on people. I wish more young people saw things the way you do, and I can tell you that if my daughter grows up to keep it real like you do I'll consider it a job well done and a privilege to have helped raise her right. Don't let anyone tell you not to be sad. Sometimes a girl gotta cry to remember why it's so good to laugh when she can. Feel what you feel and let it happen, it's a fuck of a lot better than sucking it all in to please other people. I'll be sending you and your pops lots of love.
i think you have a lot of things to be proud of yourself for xx i really admire your positivity and i hope i can one day be as strong as you are x
i have so much respect for you. this is the first video i watched and god, i can already see that you're so so so so strong. i think it's amazing that you're able to put yourself like this on youtube. so vulnerable but so strong at the same time... im so sorry for your loss 💜😢
how I relate to your mind 💘 "Time heals" use to grind my gears as well. Until I learned that it isn't so time but your heart's states and your mind space and perception that will heal you. "We will all go, one at a time through the same gate" There is something to learn where you're at, and I can't wait till you discover it and understand why. you're in my hope thoughts.
Aya wow that quote really hit me.... thanks for making that comment... where'd you hear it from?
Omg! I'm so glad you like I posted it everywhere♡ not many people can comprehend it. It's by an Islamic poet and scholar Rumi. He's very famous in anthropology. I believe the original quote goes something like this. "What is this great competition we feel then, before we go, one at a time through the same gate" it speaks of the material greed and the people that seek it, yet it all just a loan for you can't take it with you to the grave. You can only take your experiences and the blessing or destruction you left on earth.
This video made me realize I need to respect my parents so much more. Thanks you.
Im so sorry for your loss, i havent gone through this but im close to losing someone, so i can only imagine how you feel.. Youre such a strong girl and you have all of us here for you as support! ❤
You're videos make my day I swear . I hope your dad gets better soon .Sending you love & a lot of warm hugs & thankyou for always being so real & honest with us ! You're such a brave woman with a beautiful soul ❤. I respect you & admire you .
i love the fact that you can tell she doesnt do this for the attention or the money . she doesnt do it as a cry for help . she does this as her way of venting , and i respect her so much .
i love these pure videos, such a genuinely beautiful soul ❤
Watching this on March, 17 2020. I’m so proud of you Miss Sara and all of your growth and all of the strength you have within you to continue on with your life even if you feel like collapsing and giving up. Even if you don’t feel like you inspire others, you inspire me. And I appreciate the love, the creations, the beauty you put on this planet. I am here for you, and I’m proud of you. You living, and creating and sharing your soul on this planet is what keeps your mothers soul alive, and I’m sure she’s shining down and watching you and is extremely proud of you💕🌹
These videos have really touched me. My mom passed away unexpectedly July 1 2016. We woke up that morning had a great day went out together and then that night she started feeling bad so we called her an ambulance and before they left our apartment complex she went into cardiac arrest and never regained consciousness. It was the hardest thing watching her lay there on life support and even harder having to be the one to take her off. I've struggled every day with regret knowing I didn't even tell her I loved her as she was taken out and missing her so much. I'm so sorry for both of your losses and I hope I can one day be strong enough to talk out loud about my struggles.
Danielle Madison same thing happened to my mom. Exactly the same thing, called the ambulance and went into cardiac arrest before getting to the hospital. It's such a sucky thing. I'm sorry for your loss
I cried so hard. I'm so sorry for your loss. Be strong 💛
Truly beautiful. One of my favorite videos from you , thank you.
So amazing Sarah . You are such a beautiful person . Just recently found your channel and you are just amazing . Love you ! 💖
thank you babe!!! that H aint used around here but its all good:) hahha jokes aside thank you for finding my channel and choosing to watch some of my videos!
i wish we could all have a giant sleepover and just talk about life and laugh and cry together. the community sara's built on her channel is so amazing and unreal. i hope that one day we all find peace in our hearts and in our souls.
I stumbled upon your video called " ... " and I subscribed to you so that I can get notified when you post more videos in hopes to see that you're going to be okay and that things will be better, even if your next post will be in a few months. I can see that you have a lot people here for you and support you. I hope you take good care of yourself, do things that are right for you, sending lots of good thoughts & love your way
I've been struggling lately in life and this has helped. I cried with you. I needed this. Thank you Sara.
there is never a need to thank me, you know i am always here to talk if you want to email me
I love you Sara!
It's not very often that you come across a real, genuine, and chill person on TH-cam anymore. Your videos are raw emotions. I love it.. You definitely are a strong young woman.
You are an admiration and even though you're younger than me I look up to you.
- Sending positive vibes your way!
XOXO♥️
I was so Down these days I miss my dad I miss my old world a world with no fear no worries no bad thuots
now I'm just tired I'm a 21y.o but I feel like I'm a 200y.o I lost my soul with him I miss him soooo soòoooooooo much
I lost him before 3 years and I'm still "copping" when I saw ur video I felt I'm not the only one u R my girl I love u 😽
I don't know what to say or write afer watching this video cause all I want is to hug you right now
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This made me tear up but I loved it so so much, you are an amazing human oh my haha
You're so strong. Just know that I hope the best for you, because really, you have such a beautiful soul. You've taught me many things and I feel like I could just listen to you all day :) But just as you mentioned in the video, I also find myself missing parts of who I was before certain things happened in my life. Sometimes it still tears me apart, but am working on that and have found ways to cope. I can connect to stuff you say and thanks to you I feel less alone haha, so thank you. So much.
"Love is like a bank account. The more you put in, the more it hurts when it's not around.. Someone once said to me when my father died that i was so lucky, because when their father died they'd felt nothing at all. The reason it hurts so much is because you love someone so much. If you've been lucky to love someone so much then there is going to be pain." I just heard this quote and thought of you. It doesn't getter better, but you get stronger. You're mum will be so proud of you you don't even know it
I really fucking respect you Sara. I subscribed to you because of videos like these. You're someone on TH-cam that ALWAYS keeps it 100. You've just inspired me to start my own channel and keep it 1000% like you and upload whatever tf I want. I'm sorry that you're going through this and I sincerely, with my whole being, hope that you can hang on and that things will get "better". Please stay strong.
Hang in there
I love you so much and I haven't found a TH-camr so relatable and able to talk about things without sugar coating them in a long time so thank you
I have so much respect for her, to sit and video how she's realistically feeling and what she's been through is actually incredible. I hope you go far in life you have the talent, and you're such a mentally strong women all the love. Xx
I'm not a subscriber...and I'm not really sure how I got here. But you are an amazing, and old soul. I've been watching you, and crying with you. I'm so, so sorry. I can't imagine how hard this must be for you. I guess I just wanted to acknowledge you and the heaviness of what you are going through. I just wanted you to know I heard you, and I felt the depth of what you spoke. How amazing it is to have had such a kindred spirit as you had in your mom. Bless you sweetie.💕
I only started watching you a little while ago and I didn't realise what you were going through, this opened my eyes a lot and I respect you so much, you are so strong ❤️❤️
thank you very much, i really appreciate that
This is one of my favourite videos ever, and it's the first video I've seen of yours and I just subscribed. I lost my mum to cancer back in July of 2015, when I was 18. I'm now 20, and she's still in my heart and on my mind everyday, and she will still be in 50 years time, and I have pictures of her in my room and I breakdown because all I want to do is have a conversation with her or hold her or even hear her voice. I still have my dad, and I have four brothers, so I have a big family and we all supported each other, but it was hell to go through. I used to make videos, and then stopped in 2014 because seeing my mum battle with cancer was just too painful to focus on anything else, seeing her deteriorate from being healthy to terminal to bed ridden really tore me apart. But I think I'm going to start making them again, this video really helped. Thanks!
very sorry for what you're going through.. you are soo strong and a beautiful woman!
Hope it becomes easier for you. Can't even imagine what this must be feel like. You only realise the true value of something when it is gone. Hope we can all value and love our parents as they deserve. I can imagine you becoming a beautiful mother!
thank you so much, i really appreciate that
be strong Sara.i respect you,end the way you think.thank you for sharing your life with us.i don't know what the fuck i'm going to do with my life...but i hope i'l learn something from you.
there is never a need to thank me and i hope you are learning something from me as well
I love your videos so much because you're so real and true, you don't hide what you're feeling and i find that so admirable because I find it hard to do. Thank you so much for being you and I pray that everything works out for you ♥️
I am love with your mind.
I do care about you, we care about you! Sending you love and a lot of warm hugs! Take care :) and thank you for being real and honest with us! You are one of the bravest girls I know!
thank you so much Mari
Love you Sara