My story:| My mom's Journey to Heaven «
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 29 ม.ค. 2016
- I'm sorry this video is so long and i know some of you may not watch the intro thing because it might seem all over the place, i probably should have planned it out a little better but i figured it was best if i just push record and start talking about my mom
The reason my mother is such an important person in my life is because she is the woman who raised me to be in independent, down to earth person that i am. it is important that i share some stories and input i have because i know there are a lot of people out there who are having to deal with the death of a loved one and i want you to know you are not alone
If you are someone who is dealing with hard times or just needs someone there that actually understands just comment below or feel free to message me, i will always reply no matter what.
It is important that you take care of the things you still have, love and cherish every weekend, every holiday, every family dinner, treat it like it might be your last because you never know when its their time.
Death is a scary and confusing thing, but i promise you are never given anything in this life that you cannot handle, its a journey with a million steps. and sometimes you have to learn most walks you will take alone
i really hope this helped at least some of you, i really appreciate all the support i have been given so far, it truly means to world to me. Its hard for me to put myself out here especially with the acne i stubble with but sometimes you have to swallow what hurts and move forward. The sun will always rise again.
My Instagram: @amellowone
If you ever need anyone to talk to
Xoxo Sara K - บันเทิง
"this was when I learned that doctors are just people, not miracle workers"- that hit me so fucking hard
something i have to accept with my dads drs right now..
The comment hit me so hard and then the reply even harder. Just thinking that explains why you were having a hard time in a new video. Sending support.
inuxki p so true but scary
inuxki p what does that mean
Arianagrande Butera boca it means doctors cannot always save a life..
She taught you how to love in 16 years. Some go through a lifetime not learning this. She is alive now more than ever.
oboyy this comment has me in tears
oboyy such a beautiful comment
oboyy this is an amazing comment and it touched me
thank you for this comment, so beautifully worded
oboyy me too😑
"My heart dropped, and I don't think it ever came back up"
mi am Love you
Eiya is this supposed to be funny ?
Eiya no she's empathizing
cloe convery wats ur problem?
This hits so close to home. I lost my mother, father and brother in 2016 within 11 months of each other. My mother was diagnosed with lung cancer and was given 3 months to live. She told me she wanted to make it to Jan 1st 2016 to rewatch Johnny Carson's tv special reruns. She made it to Jan 1st 2016 at 12:36 am. I lost the best part of my that day. my father too was diagnosed 3 months later with lung cancer. He refused treatment because he wanted to be with my mother in heaven. He shortly passed away in August. I felt like the whole world fell out from under my feet. My brother ended up overdosing in november of the same year. life is cruel and I will never understand why. God took away my whole family.
your mother would be SO INSANELY proud of you right now. trust me when i say that. she would be beyond proud. you're so inspirational + you help so many people. you're amazing. stay strong
Just balling my eyes out. I have terminal stage four cancer. Im worried about how my family will take it. I am doing memory boxes for all. I have no kids. I'm 38. I don't want to take away from the beauty of your story of your mom. Just know I am a huge fan of yours. Big hugggggg. You are inspiring so many.
God Bless you. ❤️
+Brooke Butler thank you soooo much. Big hug
I don't really know what to say except, live as long as you can! Do what you want to now. Be strong ❤❤
I don't really know what to say except, live as long as you can! Do what you want to now. Be strong ❤❤
God bless you❤️
I'm scared of loosing my parents
Esther Rebecca dont be
Estherrr Mua me too
your comment made me tear
death is so scary to me. it can happen so fast.
Oh my angel. You will become such a strong woman. Your mom watches over you every single day.
i know:(
I lost both my parents when I was 5. On November 21, 2005. They were shot and murdered. I am still struggling with this horrible loss. I can understand your pain, it's unbearable. I'm 16 now, and I'm going to turn 17 soon. It's been 11 years, almost 12. I just have to say death comes closer to other than some. For me it happened to be my everything, I lost my smile, my laugh, my happiness. I lost everything, at least that's what it seemed like. I have 2 brothers, and I love them so much. You wouldn't understand. They're all I have left from them. I try to move on but I can't. I'm still working through this struggle, I'm taking this day by day. Stay strong Sara. You're beautiful and have a lovely smile. I love to see you smile in your videos, makes me smile. I love you and just know I'm here for you. :)
I'm very sorry for your loss
***** I love you too
Hannah Loewen Thank you, means a lot.
Rosie Martinez your story makes me cry...sweet girl life can be very cruel sometimes, we have to be strong and we must go on..sometimes is very difficult i know...stay strong rosie i'm sure that your parents want to see you strong and happy...they see you every second and they will always live in your heart...but you have to find your peace and happiness. I wish you to find your smile again...You have your brothers, you can help each other to find the smile again...your parents want this for you all. stay strong and always remember that we live only once and we have to fight with all our forces to find our happiness. stay strong rosie🐞 sorry for my english...hugs beautiful girl
Rosie Martinez
my dad is dying and I'm scared. thank you for speaking
so is mine love, we are in this together
tundra tundra keep strong and I will part for you
I lost my uncle when I was 18 (my parent situation is super complicated) but he was my father, he raised me and taught me all the little important things people sometimes don't tell little kids, he was my favorite person in the world and i know it's fucking hard, be strong and always think of all the good things he has given you...
tundra tundra hey, I'm always here to talk if you need!! Stay strong! You'll get through this!! Xxx ((:
I think the only curing is to proceed your life with new family such as get married and then build your support of power at your child
It's so amazing to see other people connect with each other in the comment section.
Camille Holveck agreed
It makes me feel that I'm not alone anymore
after this I went and hugged my mother and told her that I loved her
I texted my parents how much I love them, because I live across the world from them and the time difference means they will be asleep... I love them and I miss them so so much every day.
I wish I could do the same... my mom passed from cancer january 12, 2016
Kathleen Lane
I can't say that to my parents
I wish I had a special bond with my mom, I try but she just always puts me down.
I relate
Same here
Eva Nicol same
same
Eva Nicol i feel ya . Its gotten to a point where i dont even try to anymore
I'm sorry Sara I'm speechless. Keep going growing and becoming the strong woman you are
thank you very much
Sara K im so sorry for your loss girl, ive been going to the same thing with my dad last year .just remember: every tear holds a beautyfull memory..
my dad killed himself febuary 2, 2016. he had struggled with drug addiction and had been clean for five years. he was the best man i had ever known he always had a smile on his face and always had a joke. he taught me never to be angry or afraid. we went to hawaii with his girlfriends family the summer or 2016 for two weeks. a few weeks after we got back i started grade 10 around a week after i found out he started using again. that was september. i was angry and afraid. i didnt want to be around him until he got better. when he needed my help the most i pushed him away and told him to basically fuck off. febuary 2 i got pulled out of school to find out he had killed himself. im still angry at myself for the past me over a year ago. im learning how to forgive myself and him but its hard. my dad didnt die of cancer, but a different disease. im so sorry for your loss and sending you love now and always during this time
Hayley Pullman You are so strong
This makes me appreciate my mom a lot more.
I can be very mean to my mom sometimes but now i feel guilty. My mom would do everything for me. Thank you for this video you really helped me out actually. Im so sorry for your mom you deserve the best.
I came to this video after seeing the one about your father. You're such a beautiful, soft-spoken, & kind soul. I can't imagine how painful this all must be, but I'll keep you in my prayers. So much love.
Renee West what her dad had?
Im crying so hard
Me too
You my love are a beautiful person !! I'm sure your mom is proud of you for being such a brave and strong person !! ❤❤❤❤
thank you my love, that really means alot to me!
Sara I just want to thank you
When I saw this video ... I was crying like never before
And ....I still have my mom and dad but I always took them for granted and I hate myself doing this…
You even didn’t know that I exist but you changed my entered life with this video
I recognized that I should appreciate her … for rising me up, for being always by my side, for bringing me always to laugh when she saw that I am sad….
Sorry… I am writing this because I am waiting until my tear-stained red eyes goes away…. Then I will go and hug my mum and tell her how I love her
Exactly how I feel right now
Nora Nora couldn't have said it any better myself
Same...
Nora Nora same !! ❤
I wish I could give you a great big hug right now, Sweetie....I'm so sorry
dont be sorry, everything happens for a reason
+Sara K 😊
Made me realize many things.
"I was supposed to be learning how to deal with boys, not going home to an empty house."
I lost my mother when i was 10, and hearing her say this broke my heart.
one day I had this strange feeling inside for some reason that made me call my dad to see how he was doing and to make plans to spend some time together since my mother kept me from being able to see him until I had to get kicked out and forced to move out on my own at 16. he always would answer my call after 1 ring sometimes I would joke that he would just sit and wait for my call 24/7. must have called him about 100 times until I got the call. my dad died alone . I could have been there . he didn't get to say goodbye . I will never get to be walked down the Isle by him when I get married . I will never be able to change how it changed me. I witnessed this pain at 8 years old the first time when my brother was murdered by my mom's boyfriend while in was asleep in the next room. NO ONE will understand this kind of pain if they have never exerienced it. i can't understand how people are happy .that is just a quarter of my story. I'm really glad I found your channel and that there is someone out there that feels the way I do
am so sorry for your loss .
I'm so sorry..
Am really sorry
i am cry wan i her the story 😥😔
Stacy s you make me cry..
Bawled my eyes out, i can't even... My mum and I are incredibly close. We're best friends, sisters, a team. We lie on the floor together and play games, colour, watch a movie. Its been just us since I was six - and I dont even plan to move out because I just want her. My friend lost her mum, and I dont know even what to say to her. Thank you for putting it all in perspective, you have seriously opened my mind, made me realise everything that comes with death. Life did carry on for all of us, I still have my mum, so I am going to talk to my friend and ask her how its going, because this video has made me realise I havent been there for her as much as I should have.
i remember i really appreciated when my friends asked about her, what had happened, who she was. Later in life it's things like some remember her birthday and spend the day with me. But just getting to tell her story once in awhile helps.
Enna mone Aww that's so lovely. People talking about her keeps her alive in your heart I guess, not talking about her must feel like people have forgotten :( I will do this for my friend from now on.
Same I don't know what I would do without my mother.
true...right now my mother is going through a hard time and i do my best to be with her and help her out, still i feel i'm not there as much as i should...i did cry as well while wtatching this video.....damnnn "Mother's are angels from God"
emmakiwi I feel you on the not wanting to move out. My parents divorced when I was 4. It's always been us. I'm 22, in a serious relationship but the day we decided to get a place, I'm going to cry. I can already tell. I'll probably try to bring her with me lol.
I know she's very proud of you. You became a beautiful and strong woman. I admire your courage. Thank you for this video. You inspire me.
appreciate your parents
You made me realize that I shouldn't take my parents for granted, thank you and I'm so sorry for your loss she's in a better place now
+Ashley Espinosa thank you and i am glad you were able to take something away from my video
"My heart dropped and it never came back." "I'm dreaming, wake up, I'm waiting, still am" man Sara I feel so sorry for you.. These small things you say in this video literally break my heart..
My best friend of 26 years just passed away from pneumonia on Nov. 6th, my daughters birthday 😔. I have never felt this kind of hollowness, and it is nothing compared to losing a parent.
My friend left behind a seven year old little girl, and while she is tough... I worry about her. The day after her mom died kids were making fun of her at school for crying . This world has such cruel people in it! I feel for you and your loss. If I feel empty and haven't been able to eat a full meal in a month , I can't imagine what you felt!
Thank you for sharing your story! I'm going to show it to izzy( my friends daughter) one day. ❤️️❤️️❤️️
What kind of evil ass kids would make fun of her daughter???
Oh sweet girl, I'm so sorry you are dealing with this. I lost my dad last year but I'm 38. I can't imagine being a teen. You are so strong and smart. Lots of special things are in store for you.
I'm so sorry you had to go through this...as a mother of 3 beautiful girls age 21 , 16, and 12 I can't imagine how they would feel if I knew I was going to have to leave them. ... I watched my father pass with bone cancer and he said to me. " I don't want any crying and no guilt. this is what it is and let's make the most of it." I was like huh? no crying? how? and I see your pain and it is so hard to watch. my kids tell me everyday. mom please stop smoking.. And my god it's so damn hard. it's a terrible addiction that killed my father so you would think I would be able to stop at a drop of a hat... but its not that easy... but I do know looking at you I never want my daughter's to feel this pain. guess I'm going to the Dr next week to try to get help quitting smoking... thank you sweetie for sharing your pain. I'm sure your mom watches over you and thinks your a beautiful young woman and is so proud of your strength.... thAnk you for sharing this.
your mom did a wonderful job raising you and always share your mom... tell the world about her.. i can tell she was a great person... she shines through you and yes some people don't see how important family is until it's too late. thank you for trying to remind us.
I know you can stop smoking, you can do it, champ!! :)
Christine L my grandmother ( my mom's mother) died of lung cancer in 2014, my mother watched her die pretty much cause the doctors didn't find out it was cancer till the day before she died... my grandmother smoked pretty much till 6 months before she died, my mom still smokes , she's been smoking since she was 16 and she's 45 now , I'm 21 and I smoke. Smoking and cigarettes are a horrible and so hard to kick . when I hear how much she coughs I get so scared , I have bronchitis for a little over a month now and I know it would go away if I stopped smoking but I can't . my mom's had it for like 3 and she still coughs so much .
nebraskacutie96 your mom is amazing ❤❤❤
Christine L, I smoked for 33 years. Last smoke was Nov 17.16 @ 4:30 PM. What helped me give up my best friend, my enemy.......was also watching a love one with cancer and I bought a vape. Today I still vape but one day soon I will be off the vape too. I can say 100% that vaping saved my life, it might save yours too.
I cried.
Me too..me too.
💔
me too sweetie.
Maria R.R me too
I just came here from the video about her dad. This is so sad.
KMirijana me too hun. it makes me sad for her. I lost my dad in 2014 to cancer. my mom is still alive though I take care of her she has lime disease 😢
KMirijana me three 😩💔
KMirijana Me Four💔
KMirijana me five ):
KMirijana same 😞
This video really opened my eyes about my mother.
Sara. You are one of the most beautiful interesting human I've ever seen. Your heart itself transcends beauty and confidence. Your Mom left us with a gift...You.
Wow! Beautiful! Parents are a blessing. The older I get the more I cling to them.
Enhance with Kimberley not all
This made me cry so hard. We're all here for u. Never give up❤❤❤❤
شبيهم اهلك ماافهم عليك
I suffer from anxiety and depression and just the thought of losing my parents makes me bawl my eyes out and I can't calm myself down. Today I had a bad day, because of something stupid that happened. I basically stayed in my room all day, sleeping. I missed a day with my parents. I don't know where I was going with this. I'm crying.
I lost my fathers also, he died in front of me too,he was healthy and happy but one night after dinner he just died, and I was 18 y old girl and it was on my finals week ,and my dad was and still means the world to me, I salut you and respect you and I truly feel your pain and your not ALONE, I'm 26 now and I promise you each year it gets better, you will get sad of course remembering her BUT you will find your peace and one day you will have a big smile instead of your tears once you remember how an amazing human being she was , Good luck beautiful on this painful yet eyes opening journey 💜🙏🏾
الله يرحمه
+Gh جزاك الله خير 💕، اللهم امين
الله يجزاك خير على مساعدتك في تحسين حالة من يمر في نفس الحاله 3>, والله يرحمه ويجمعكم كلكم في الجنه.
+Mohammed Alzhrani اللهم امين وجزاك الله كل خير ، والله يرحمه ويرحم موتى المسلمين ويجمعنا فيهم 🌷
امين يارب.
"No one is going to stop their story to watch yours"
one of the many things you said that left a huge mark to my mind because I feel the same in my own level of knowledge and experience
all the comments of young people who have lost their parents made me cry...I would like to say to all of you to stay strong. ..I would hug all of you if i could 😢
Just makes me love you even more, thank you for reaching out with your story 😸💙👣🏞
that really means alot to me, thank you
My mother passed away almost 5 years ago, and it is so surreal to even say that. It honestly feels like it was yesterday, and it feels like my life has stood still since the day she died. She was perfectly healthy and fine, but then one second she literally just dropped dead (because of a brain hemorrhage) when she was with a friend, talking about the old days over a cup of coffee.
For my own selfish reasons, I often wish she didn't just die instantly without warning. I mean, it's good for her, to not have to suffer, but bad for me. I would give anything to get to say goodbye to her. The shock of one day waking up without my parent is so horrible I don't even wish it upon my worst enemy. I had so much to tell her, to ask her, to show her and prove to her. I was on my way into becoming an adult, that *didn't* argue with my mom every 10 seconds. We were going to talk about men, about having kids, getting married, helping me with my taxes, helping me find a job. There were a million things left undone between us and that's probably the worst feeling of it all.
I still get jealous over other people still having their moms. I also very much relate to what you said about being jealous of your older siblings, because they got to spend more time with their mom than you.
I feel you. Mine passed away in the same, sudden way.and I feel like somebody kicked my through the door, closed the door and lock it with a key on the other side There done, just it, without no explanations. Sometimes I feel like it's been yesterday, somethimes like few years ago, but it's always feeling that she went just somewhere and some day will be back. Not actuall passing away and ending the deal.
I just first want to say thank you for sharing your experience with the world. It's amazing that you did this because practically everyone has experienced the loss of a loved one, and knowing you are not alone can help so many people. I cried through this whole video because you just never know what life holds, it's scary that you don't know what tomorrow holds. You are beautiful and I hope that your life will get easier. My best friend lost her mother when she was 14 in an unbelievably traumatic way. She's now in her early 30s, and is able to live a calm and stable life now. You are so strong and if you keep pushing through, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel.
This video literally made me sob thinking of the pain your family went through. I'm 15 now and I can't imagine losing my mom next year. It just makes you realize how much we take our parents for granted as teenagers. I'll remember to tell my mom I love her more often. You never know when someone's last day is.
Natalia M I'm fifteen as well. As someone who lost my mom unexpectedly at thirteen, please let your parents know how much you love them :)
WOW! You did a beautifully on this. Your Mom would be so proud n is smiling so big down at you watching over you. I'm a mother to four wonderful children n couldn't imagine them going through what u have. Breaks my heart seeing you talk about this. Stay strong my beautiful fellow Gemini :) my birthday is June 10, 1981 :) God bless you xoxo
When I see things like this it makes me really appreciate my family and really makes me want to cherish them while they are here.
I literally cried this whole video, I love my Mum so much and you obviously did too; I am sure she would be very proud to see how much you have grown into a wonderful young woman. God bless and love you Sara for the strength you have xxx
this video has me in tears. I've never lost anyone that I'm very close with but this is making me imagine how it feels. i don't want that day to come when i need to lose my mom or dad. I'm thinking back on the way I've treated my parents my whole life and i feel TERRIBLE. this has opened my mind. thank you. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Thank you so much for making this video. I just turned 16 last month and 1 day after my birthday my mom passed away. It helps so much to know that I'm not alone and that other people have similar emotions/ feelings that I do. Thank you.
Miriam Maggie I'm very sorry for your loss
As you were remembering how long ago your mom passed away, I was looking at your facial expressions and I could detect confusion, sadness, and a yearning to know what happens next in your life (all valid emotions). Death is quite perplexing and even more mystifying is how time goes by in a pinch. Our only option as human beings is to move with change or be carried away by the ocean waves. All the best.
she was my everything and i just havent even the same since and i dont think i ever will be but your right, you must move with the change or the waves will drown you, I've been trading waters for a while now. thank you for this comment. all the best with you as well
She's with you. When loved ones die, they leave behind their spiritual footprints. Their energy manifests through our bodies and if you listen closely, your mother is right there with you, whispering words of love. You just have to surrender the belief that her presence is supposed to be felt/seen in the physical realm. I know you'll discover this soon enough. I've watched your other videos and I think you're an em-path like me :)
Ethan Adair oh i am one haha thats for sure. sometimes i dont like it but there is nothing i can do about tit. its just hard for me to wrap me head around the reason why she left when i needed her so so bad but i know it was her time and she accomplished everything she needed to being on earth, I've seen her a couple times. my be creepy, i woke up to her hugging me and a dark figure leaving my room (i assumed it was her) hahah you can call me crazy but i only speak the truth
Ethan Adair yep your the boy version of me
+Sara K such an exquisite creature like yourself?! Naw...
Sara, you should be an actriss ❤ you just have such an old and beautiful soul. Every word you say is so touching and full of wisdom. As you say everything happens for a reason, so don't worry one day all this pain and suffering will turn into a beautiful ever lasting happy ending. And trust me it'll hit you harder than anything in your life. Just stay waiting because good things take time. Everything will be okay ❤
My mom and I have a very similar relationship, she had me at 39. I grew up just me and her. I cant imagine the feeling of losing her. A lot of times, most times she is the only one there for me and I had a rough childhood with mental illness. I was bullied and never had many friends. I needed her and still do. I am 21, and she is 61. I am a nurse and see so many people her age pass away. She is still my "mommy", losing her is my worst nightmare. I regret so much as a teenager, I was so abusive towards her and I have a VERY hard time forgiving myself. Whenever I talk to her about it she always says "I never held anything against you for it, I knew you had a rough time. You need to forgive yourself, I forgave you the same day the fights would happen. I love my mother to death. This video brings me to tears. I am SO thankful my mom is still in good health. Thinking of you.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Your mother looks so lovely and kind hearted. She is in a better place now and you will see her again one day. May the Lord comfort you and keep you. Be blessed.
I know I am a complete stranger but I have to say this-All I can say is thank you.I just found your channel and I feel like it was meant to be. Your story has made an impact on me and I thank God that you exist. You are amazing. Love you sister.
That one person who disliked this video is just plain rude or heartless. This made me cry so much. Stay strong
Just wanted to stop by this video today, to say happy Mother's Day to your mama ❤️ she raised an amazing woman ! Love you girl
thank you for this beautiful comment
My grandfather died on november 25 of this year and I feel like I can't live anymore without him. Your videos make me happy Sara. Thanks. And I'm very sorry for your loss.
Beautiful. In awe of your soul and thoughts - sending love your way
i appreciate that greatly, thank you
Thank your for posting this video, you just made me realize how much you're supposed to value parents.
I just discovered your channel today, you're amazing. I can't pin point what it is but I could listen to you talk for hours, you're intelligent, insightful and wise beyond your years and I look forward to watching all of your videos. I'm so sorry for your loss, I couldn't begin to imagine what you are going through.
Just know that you're a really good person and you being a good person is the legacy your mother left on this earth.
I'm 20 years old and my mom passed away when I was 16. She passed away August 20th, 2012. Which was 8 days before my 16th birthday (so I consider myself to be 16 when she passed away). I can honestly say that I can relate so much to your story. My mom had me when she was 39 years old and she had already had two other boys from a different dad. My mom and dad got divorced when I was 4. I was the only girl. And I was always involved in cheer and gymnastics. When my mom found out she had cancer and told me all I could think was, "She's going to get through it". It wasn't even a thought in my mind that she was going to pass away. Before I knew she was diagnosed I would always say that I didn't know what I would do if I lost my mom, I wouldn't be able to live without her. And in the summer of 2012, she came home from a doctors appointment. She was acting completely normal. My grandma, who took her to the appointment all of a sudden said "Did you tell her" and I still have the exact picture in my head of where I was standing and what I was doing when she said this. My grandma left and my mom sat me down and said she had 6 months to live. I couldn't process it. I remember going to school and thinking how it would be so different once she dies. I won't be able to text her while I'm at school asking her to pick me up so we can go get lunch. It was crazy, I went through all the thoughts of not having her to be there when I graduated and my prom etc. I also had sibling jealousy bc she was there for most of my brothers lives. She wound up passing away 2 weeks later. And ever since then my life has been completely different. Which I know you know the feeling. I still think, how did I only know that amazing human for only 16 years?? she was my light and my best friend. This video made me cry so much because I related 100 percent. Its been four years and I still can't believe shes gone. I went through depression and still am. And grief for years. Its hard losing your mom at 16. Its fucking hard and after watching this video I felt so connected to you and I have been watching your vids ever since I saw this (which I saw this a couple months ago, I just wanted to watch it again bc it holds so much emotion and connection for me) Sorry this comment is so long, I just had to share this with you because your videos really do connect to people. I feel super connected to you by watching your videos. I love when you post. We got this girl, much love
Now she's your angel. She always by your side no matter what. Really thanks Sara, you makes that I realize how important is my mom. I just have to say thank to share this incredible video and teach us this. Regards form Colombia.
I'm so sorry Sara. You're very strong. Thanks for sharing this story.
'my heart drop and i don't think it ever came back up' god
Omg when I saw you on my TH-cam, I though wow this girl is amazing. Thank you for sharing
there is no need to thank me my love
I don't know if I should be commenting on this or not, but I felt the need to.
this whole video made me cry with everything you were saying, our stories are a lot different, but the things you were saying I could relate to 100% the jealousy of other people still having their parents and them still having the chance to talk to them and they just don't spend time with them and everything.
I lost my mum when I was 15 years old on April 16 2014, she passed away due to the domestic violence of my 'dad' and I know hate is a strong word and I don't say this about anyone but I hate him with everything I have, from that day my whole life changed, I had to move, I had to do so many things, I still had to continue with schooling, DHS came into my life, I couldn't even see friends without having theirs and their parents having a police check and it's still like that right now and it's been so hard for me to cope specially with having three younger siblings, I had to take so much responsibility and mature so much in that time frame. specially because me being the oldest, my siblings come to me for everything, and I have to try and be the strong one around them and show them that I'm strong and it just puts so much pressure on the weight of my shoulders but I try so hard.
I ended up having severe anxiety to the point where I can't talk to people without freaking out, without being able to breathe properly, I can't go out without thinking someone is going to do something bad to me, my hands are constantly sweating when I'm nervous, I ended up having really bad anger issues after it happened, really bad depression, I couldn't talk to anyone, I bottle everything up to myself and then have the most hugest outbursts of anger, I've tried to deal with it over this time frame, and I'll admit it's gotten a little bit better but I still have my times where it gets out of control. but it's still so hard and it still feels like I'm in a nightmare that I just can't wake up from, it's so hard to have to have your whole complete life changed by it, it's the worst thing that has ever happened to me.
my 'dad' was always, always, always a violent person and I hate him for it, he took everything away from me, my social life, my friends, my schooling, my job, he even stole all of our belongings and most of our photo albums so I don't have very many pictures left of my mum :( I remember one time he even put petrol around our home because my mum wanted to leave him and he said basically if you leave me and I can't have any of this then neither can any of you, we had to stay away from our house for a week and have it fumigated because of him.
but most importantly he took away my mum and not only was she that but she was also my best friend.
and you never can have another mum, it irks me so badly when people treat their parents with disrespect, I wish I still had the chance to spend time with my mum or even if I could just have some time I could have spent with her before she passed.
the hardest thing for me was it was unexpected, I didn't know it was going to happen, and the fact I never got to say goodbye and all my last words and how much she truly meant to me and how much I loved her and appreciated every little thing she'd ever done for me.
I miss her so much and I'd give literally anything just to have her back, if I had one wish, I would wish for her to come back.
she was just the most beautiful, gorgeous, kind, loving and caring human being I have ever known, she inspires me, she was so strong it was unbelievable.
and realistically I lost my dad too but I lost him along time ago when all he cared and thought about was his selfish needs.
only about a month ago the courts finally decided that he had been charged guilty, but I think we have to wait an extra two months for the sentencing and I'm still deciding whether I want to go or not, I want to but I don't at the same time, I want to because i feel like I need to for my mum and I don't because I know that I will be so emotionally unstable seeing him face to face.
and with as you were saying in this video that your mum never had the chance to even see you graduate, neither did mine, I think about that all the time, about how one day when I have kids and get married, my mum and bestfriend is not going to be there for special moments like those.
it's so lovely to watch these videos and see that even though people go through different things that they can still have the same feelings about certain things and know they aren't alone.
you seem like such a nice, lovely and caring, heartfelt girl.
I would write a lot more but there's just so many personal things, but this video made me cry 100% and it was nice to actually allow myself to do that because I don't normally like to grieve because I want to be a happy person but it's okay to be sad sometimes, and the thought is constantly there but I just don't like to think about it as much as possible or I get upset and I can't stand being upset but it was nice to just think about my mum and just how amazing of a person she was, she inspired so many people and I'm surprised I'm still here to this very day, but I don't think I could have done it without my siblings and my uncle who chose to have us in his care.
I'm so sorry for your loss, and I know as well it's such a hard thing to cope with. x
One word: Survivor. You are absolutely INCREDIBLE. I Am so, so sorry that your life has had so much trauma and yet I am amazed at your story and how you are even listening to this video that is so filled with pain. All I believe is that there WILL be goodness in your life to counteract some of the pain and you WILL find your peace. Xx❤️❤️
Thank you so so much
I am so sorry you and your siblings had to go through this, especially at such a young age. May life bring you peace and happiness. Your mom would be so proud of you. You are strong and amazing, don't you ever doubt that.
Tyler Jane Warzywoda 💛💛💛💛
awe I'm so sorry I'm currently going through the same but my mom luckily made it out in 2013. you're not alone darling ❤❤
I know a fifteen year old boy named Jacob. I remember when he lost his father to cancer, it was the fourth grade. I remember people saying how much a puss he was for crying for days and days on end. He's fifteen now, and mother has been diagnosed with stage 3 Breast cancer. It always baffled me how awful and cruel people can be to a child who lost the guy who was going to teach him how to grow up to be a man. I can't even imagine how difficult it must be for him now too, to be losing his mother.
story of my life. woman who was supposed to teach me everything dies and then the man whos going to take her place is now as well. the world isnt always fair
lost my mom at 15. totally understand and xoxo. it's been two years for me. 💗
xoxo
Hey, thats sad and no child should have to go through that at such a young age but you can find solace in the fact that you are not Ted Cruz
Sara K 💕🌿🌹💕✨def see you as a friend and think of you often 💕🌹🌿🌞xoxo Bella
I hope you know we all are cheering you on and here to listen and care and want you to succeed. We are your cheerleaders and care about you
I can't even fathom. I'm so grateful for my mom every day, but this has made it even more real. Love love love to you. You are incredible, strong and brave. thank you.
I cried more than you did. You are such a powerful person. I love that you had the courage to tell us your story and I want to thank you again for making me realize things that weren't so important to me until now. You helped me a lot lately and I don't think I'll ever be able to thank you for that. You are such a wise person and I love that you share this thing with us. I love that you want to change something and help us and give us some advice. You are wonderful. I want to thank your mom because without her you wouldn't be here today. I am so lucky to listen to a person like you. I hope you follow your own tips and I really hope that everything is fine, or it's going to be fine. I want you to know that even tho I do not know you, I love you for the things you say and just for the way you are. Do not ever change cause in my opinion you are a masterpiece.
You should take this video and play it in every single school in your area! It is one of the most beautiful talk I've every heard, my dear. It's so touching, moving and authentic. It's real. You are real. And you've got a message and it comes out so clearly. You spoke from the bottom of your heart. And somehow I see this video as if it is a talk only to your mum with all your love for her, and your lost and also anger. In my opinion, this video is a love letter for your mum. And it is such a wonderful one!! Please stay always like this: close to you and your feelings. And close to your mum.
you are one of the most beautiful human beings I've ever seen in my whole entire life . You change lifes by being raw amd honest . I appreciate that about you very much
Some of my friends had shamed me in the past for not going out with them as much as I do my family. Whenever I go out its almost always with my family, I say that you have all the time in the world to hang with your friends after high school but you wont have much time with your parents since you'll be so busy with your own life one day. I cherish every day I have with my family and this video is so inspirational and I'm sorry for your loss 💝 your mom would be proud knowing she raided such a beautiful kind hearted person
I clicked on this video not realising how much of an emotional roller coaster it would be for me. This video of a girl talking for only 32 minutes impacted me so much. I too lost someone this year and it sucks it really fucking sucks. You're the only person on the internet that has been most real and relatable I really admire that. Thank you so much for this I truely will forever remember this
I will go and hug my mom right now, because you made me rethink about appreciating my parents even more than I did. Thank you, Sara, you are a beautiful person! I believe everything happens for a reason and It made you stronger and wiser. Your mom is always by your side, I am sure you feel her. She is your angel and she helps you with everything. Take care, darling ❤️
I feel you on such a personal level my mom died February of 2016 (her birthday) and it still hurts and I feel jealous of all my friends because they have a mom and I have such a hard time coping it's a horrible feeling that nobody can fully sympathise unless you have felt it
Zane Warner im so sorry
Wow. I couldn't hold the tears I just had to cry. I'm always talking back to my mom with attitude and be bad to her, and sometimes I just go to my room and say to myself why do I have to be like that and I cry alone in my room cause I know I'm not supposed too be like that. One day my mom just count wake up from her bed and I just dropped to the floor and cry I was so scared, my stepdad carried her to the bathtub and but water on her I watched all that and it was painful, we went to the hospital and they told her she had that because she's been stress out lately, and I just said to myself this is all my fault. Now that I've watch this video I've realized that I should worship my mother cause she's the one that brought me to this world she's the one that cares for me. I am truly sorry for your lost, you mom was beautiful and she's in a better place just watching over you and seeing all your progress and if it wasn't for my sister that send me this video I wouldn't open my eyes. ✨
Im acc in tears but the way you told this was beautiful and even though i dont know you im so proud of you for having the courage to talk about this because I definitely could never do that. Keep on doing you boo x
This was definitely an eye opener .. Really made me think about how I treat my mother . Even though we've been on a very rough path for the past year , she's been so strong and encouraging and I feel like I haven't treated her the best that I could have .. Definitely going to hug and kiss my mom and let her know how much I appreciate all that she's done for me .
Your mother has left a beautiful and intelligent messenger and I just wanna say thank you so much for your words of wisdom . Keep your head up love . 💜
I don't think you'll ever read or see this but I subscribed to you a while ago because of your makeup vids, not knowing of course your whole life or anything. The minute I saw this video under recommended, I watched it. All I can say is that I completely can relate. I know it's different for everyone but I can somehow relate. I'm 16 years old and my mom passed away this month. December 4th, 2016. She was only 47, and I don't know yet how it happened... She went to bed and didn't wake up. My parents also divorced when I was 3 and I feel like I was almost meant to see this video today. It sounds weird but it feels better to know that there are people who have been through the same thing. Everyday it feels unreal. Christmas just passed and I opened presents that were from her, that she bought before she passed and it's crazy. Because it's so hard to understand... it feels like she's here. Alive. But she's not... I rarely comment on videos or anything but you are truly an inspiration to me. Not only for your makeup vids anymore but because of this too. Thank you so much for sharing your story. I'm positive you continue to make your mom proud everyday. And that's my goal too. Thank you so much ❤
Rylee Avila the same thing happened to my mom in October 2015. I know exactly how you feel I went to sleep that night not knowing what I'd wake up to. She passed from a brain aneurysm. The last thing I remember saying to her was goodnight mom. I'm also comforted knowing there are other people who feel the same pain. It's hard and the pain never really goes away but it does get easier to cope with in time. I'm so sorry for what you are going through.
Rylee Avila ItsDais oh my god this is so sad I'm deeply sorry for your loss 😢😢😢😢😢😢 stay strong sweet girls
Rylee Avila hi I saw ur comments....and I lost my mom this past mother's day!! she passed in her sleep .I can relate to u.so it was also a hard 1 st Christmas without her...she also had pre gifts it was a sad morning.i also was with out her for Thanksgiving and her 1 st birthday....it's so hard and I'm currently crying rite now .I'm so sorry for ur loss...I want to tell u I'm going through the same thing 💖
made me cry so much, youre so strong- i really admire your endurance .. thankyou x
This is so raw and beautiful. Thank you for opening up and sharing your story. I love your videos. You're such an inspiration in life and you are so strong.
I love your videos so much. I lost my aunt back in 2012 bc of brain hemorrhage and she's the most lovely woman that I've ever had in my life. Until now I still think about her all the time and it hurts so bad...
I'm also sorry for your lost, I'm sure your mum is safe in heaven now. ❤️️❤️️
you will be a great mom I think. you had a great example to learn from. I'm sorry for your loss.
my mother and i were in a silent argument due to me being very isolated and unwilling to reach out and communicate to my family and after watching this i reached out to her and hugged her and told her how much she meant to me and how much i appreciated her endless guidance and patience. i am so, so, so privileged and i realize that. i will never ever take my mother for granted, she's the only person i have, and the only person i ever will have. i respect you so much, sara. i respect your courage and perseverance and desire to help others, your videos always serve as a reality check for me. thank you. i hope you are currently safe and secure, you truly deserve the best
i know how hard it was to lose a parent. I lost my dad on the 18 April 2012...I was only 12..my grades went down from there.. I always got A's and they went to D,E and Fs I left school 4 years later because my mom got sick and it all hit me so I left to help my mom..but thankfully she's better now...my dad was my rock my everything taught me everything....its hard but you have to think positive about everything.. Sarah you are a strong beautiful girl l.. I love you xx
Sara*
lara perry my dad passed away too.. suddenly 7 months ago 💔 i know how much it sucks 💔 im sorry for your loss
🙏🌹 Rest in peace
I'm so scared because I know one day I'll have to go through this depression you're feeling and I'm scared I won't make it through like you're currently doing. You're so strong and I admire you so much.
the world is indifferent. and in its indifference, it is unfair.
i'm not going to say i'm sorry because it just doesn't apply to the gravity of pain you have gone through/are going through. i am amazed at your strength. wish i knew how to say what i want to say
You just changed my attitude towards my mother in a 30 minute video and I thank you for that because not everyone realizes how important someone is until they're gone. I'm so sorry for your loss.
Hi Sara. I hope you get this. In February, my dad got into a car accident. He was taken to the hospital, and tests were run, and we found out he had stage 4 terminal lung cancer that had spread in a matter of a month. He died on April 27, 2016, two days before his 62nd birthday. I was 15, and felt like my best friend and my whole world had been ripped from me. I recently turned 16, and I cannot thank you enough for making me feel like I'm not the only one, and that shit like this happens to people. Thank you for telling us your story; I don't know where I would be now if I hadn't watched your video. -Maddie
Madeline Hello! I found Sara's videos today and upon seeing your comment I had this overwhelming feeling I needed to reach out because it is, of course, now April of 2017. I can't imagine your pain and I'm sending love your way over these next few days. I wish you nothing but the best and am sending all the love and light in the world into your corner. Sincerely, another Madeline
you are so strong for putting this part of your life out in the open. i needed to hear this because i love my mom so much and i havent appreciated her enough, or thanked her enough for everything. thank you for opening my eyes to the difficult parts of life and how you need to show so much love to your parents because they are there for you. just thank you
this is such a beautiful video that has so much to learn from all these people giving negative comments dont know what it feels like to loose someone, all you need and have in your life is god so pray to him, for her
thank you so so much, that really means alot to me
my story is exactly the same as yours it's like your talking about me except my dad died and i have no brothers or sisters... Me and my mom had the best realtion ship and she was my best friend she died three months ago from cancer and i developed hate for other people who have their parents alive and i feel the same. I just turned 16 and i have no one. Thank u your video helped me ❤
Stay strong .. sending you my love
bless your heart stay strong
catrina R trust me Catrina God will put the right people in your life, I know it's not the same as biological parents but sometimes he brings in others to give you the love they aren't here to give you!
+Angela Sheffield Thank u so much u don't know how much i needed that right now
+catrina you are more than welcome it's crazy because in 08 my only sister died and it was me and my mom. I still remember both days like it was yesterday but I want you to know that the amount of pain that you feel in the early stages does decrease! (I promise) I can honestly say yes when I just sit and think about them of course I cry because you can't ever "get over " something like that but my heart isn't as heavy as it use to be time definitely makes it more bearable. I talk to God all the time just praying for peace and understanding because no matter how hard you try it will never make sense to you. Gone but not forgotten, keep her legacy alive especially for your siblings because they need you🤗
This is the realest video I've ever seen.. I cried while listening to you share your story because I can't imagine ever loosing my mom. I'm your age and I would be destroyed if my mom would pass away. Or my dad. You're so strong for talking about it and I hope you go on with your life the way she would want you too. ♡
u literally made me cry..ur words are so true..u r so real..we all love u dear..ur mom has brought up you so well..she must be proud mom
I lost my grandpa the other day and was going through old pictures and I just felt so thankful that so many moments were captured. Pictures are very powerful and you don’t realize it until it’s the only you have.