My son died from using dust off and wippits at the age of 28. Thank you for talking about this topic. He was my only child; I died the day his body was found. At that time, we didn't even know that this was a thing, let alone something that was addictive and deadly. TMI alert: he was found in his apartment bedroom, which contained nothing but a 4-foot-tall hoarder type of situation, filled with nothing but empty cans. And a bed. So, yeah, my baby died surrounded by 4 feet of nitrous cans. I wish I had known.
Gosh I am so sorry!!!!!! I have a boy and he is my only child as well. I couldn’t imagine. I understand what you meant when you said you died when he died. My heart breaks for you. Sending you tons of prayers, positive vibes and a HUGE virtual hug 🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻
"Like a hug from God" was exactly how I described the first time I shot heroin 25 years ago. On July 16th, God willing, I will celebrate 8yrs years clean & free from the bondage of addiction & self. My hugs from God now are my nieces & nephew, plus everyday I wake up & make the choice to choose life. WE CAN & DO RECOVER FROM THE HOPELESS SLOW SUICIDE!
I'm finally clean from the heroin/fentynal/xylazine bags and Xanax. I never thought I would ever get clean Started at 19 and I'm 32 now and I never went more than 2 days without it! I never ever thought I would get clean. I'm at a year and a half! No idea how she can say it's more addictive than any other drug when never trying any other drug. I've definitely done nitrous and heroin and Xanax totally destroyed me.
I don't think people realize how hard it was for her to come forward about this. For her to get so much hate and still continue to spread awareness makes her a very strong woman. I don't know her but I'm proud of her!
I couldnt understand how people got addicted to this stuff. For me the "High" only lasted like a min or so and ide have to keep smashing the bottle. And I seen people fry there brains on this stuff. Glaxaygas need's to be shut down. People doing as a 1 off is ok is the right setting with real stuff. But its a unregulated market just like any legal stuff.
I worked for a dentist who liked to "do the gas". Dental offices at that time has tanks that held 244 cu.ft. of pure nitrous. Ultimately, he developed hand tremors, for one thing, and lost his ability to perform dentistry. It's no joke.
I swear when I was a young adult, the dentist I used to go to I was sure that he was always high on the gas. Was still a great dentist but for sure I could tell and it always did feel a little weird to somehow know that. But I still kept going to him because he had state of the art technology in his office and he was knowledgeable.
Lady, if your reading these comments, i want you to know soberity will be hard most days but its so worth it. Your life is so worth living. You owe it to yourself to remain sober.
Yes yessssss.i was hoping ud say that.its hard as he'll but so worth it..u will never know how worth something is in life til u cling to it by ur teeth..hoping u get a chance t "taste" the sweet salt of life.. worth it
i’ve been 3.5 years clean from opioids, benzos, bath salts.. anything i could get my hands on. the first two weeks are the hardest. sobriety gets easier as you go on… sometimes the urge to use again comes strong but with time you figure out how to combat it. sending her so much love and strength.
You can't get that fat from inhaling gas. She inhaled all you can eat buffets and is in denial. Saying who knows what n2o is made from is like saying who knows what water is made from.
Marketing strategy for OF to set you apart as a product and lure people in by making yourself relatable and human, creating an illusion of connection/intimacy with the audience. Would have been ballsy coming out like this on a popular platform 40 years ago. Not today when you clearly financially have a lot to benefit from it.
Sorry to hear that. People don't realize you can even die from water or oxygen overdose. Critical things that your body needs to survive. If not regulated, you're done.
That usually happens if someone does them standing up, passes out, and cracks their head on concrete... I believe you! It's not normally something that people do every day, but it causes vitamin b-12 deficiency when done daily. It also oxidizes and affects bioavailability of b-12 vitamins for at least a few days afterwards, so supplementing b-12 isn't really possible during its use. If you are talking toxicity, it's really the b-12 deficiency that can eventually cause nerve damage if done for probably a timespan of multiple years of daily use. When people do use them I always recommend that they take b-12 vitamins for at least a few days afterwards.
She’s a wierdo. I don’t know how she eats etc, what does she do for work? These people use our infrastructure, what do they contribute to it? I’ve got no time for people who don’t contribute to our infrastructure.
I work at a vape shop. This was just made illegal to sell in vape shops in my state. I have one regular customer who would come in every so often for a can, until one day he dropped over $300 on it in one day. I asked my boss if I should ever cut someone off and he said no. It’s insane.
They will just get it somewhere else. You're not changing anything, only imposing your will on a stranger. You THINK you know their story, but you don't. If you truly cared about chemicals and their effects on customers, you wouldn't morally be able to sell a single item in a vape shop.
I knew a girl so addicted she was doing it while she was driving. She wrecked her car and was trapped . While the paramedics were cutting her out ,she was trapped in a car in a ditch , and was steadily huffing the can the whole time!! Unreal
I used to do that.... it was a dark time in my life lol I got in over my head as a dealer and was too paranoid about everything and wasn't actually about that life so i had to escape somehow. Been clean from hard drugs for 4 yrs now. Free from methadone for 2+ yrs
There's a video on youtube of a lady who crashes into a pole or a wall or something, and people rush up to check on her and she's completely unaware she's crashed and is actively still doing whippets. It's crazy
I knew a young man who recently died from this very thing. He was 24 years old. He was a co-owner of a thriving business, brilliant, kind, hard working, thoughtful, and appeared to have everything a young man could want. Somehow he was introduced to this horrible addiction and it took his life. Allegedly, he only started because he was told/believed that it wasn't that dangerous and it wasn't one of those "hardcore" drugs. By the time he was found and rushed to the hospital, he was being kept alive by machines. He was an organ donor and luckily he was able to save other people's lives with his organs that were otherwise incredibly healthy. This was his legacy, but it left a hole in the town beyond what he could have even imagined. His parents had to make the decision to stop the machines which allowed his heart and lungs to stop. I cannot imagine that pain. PLEASE stop this if you are doing it. It is killing so many people and its barely on the radar as dangerous. Please stop.
I am shocked by how aware she is of how the addiction got to her, the way it controlled her, and she is fighting for her life. I am proud of her. And she has a very kind and assured spirit about her, that is at the same time fighting trauma, and I wish I could give her a hug. I pray she stays sober.
Orylan you got this. Addiction sucks, I'm 14 years clean from Heroin and I never thought I'd live past 30. You've made the most important step...you can keep doing good. You're beautiful inside & out and you deserve to be happy.
I worked with a nurse whose daughter and 4 other girls were doing this and all died in a car crash near our job. 5 kidss gone. Her mother never recovered fully from the loss
Nitrous oxide rapidly oxidizes the enzymes needed to use the b12 stored in your body, making it completely unusable and carcinogenic. This also disrupts the use of folic acid and other amino acids. It takes a long time to build up b12 stores, and a long time to use them up naturally. Destroying your b12 stores can be devastating to the entire nervous system. Even just a slight deficiency can have horrible symptoms, both physically and mentally. It can take many months of b12 treatment just to bring levels up to normal. A while back I fell into a deep depression, sleeping 15 hours a day, and had numbness and tingling in my hands and feet. I found out I was b12 deficient, because of my diet, and started taking supplements. Many many months of taking b12 has very slowly helped and I'm 100% better now. I'm so glad you are much better now too, and bringing awareness. I've never met a single nitrous oxide user who knows the risks!! Everyone thinks it's harmless. Even in a medical setting, there have been cases of extreme nervous system disruption. Thank you for sharing! You are a delightful person, please take care of your beautiful self!
Very well written. I recently read a case study of an ER admit who had symptoms of Guillain-Barre Syndrome. Upon further investigation, she had B12 deficiency from nitrous oxide . Symptoms can mimic. Final diagnosis was GBS AND nitrous oxide poisoning.
@Nqrii I see that regular use of nitrous oxide may eventually cause memory loss. Vitamin B12 depletion (long-term depletion causes brain and nerve damage). If treated early, many low B12 symptoms can be reversible. You may want to read more about this.
The fact you mentioned folic acid worries me because orylan is pregnant now, not having enough folic acid when trying to conceive and when pregnant can cause birth defects :( I hope her pregnancy goes well and the baby is born healthy
I love how these really show everyone how vulnerable and fragile everyone is. You can look anyway; and all you want is love. An escape. A break from the pain. Everyone just wants a good life and everyone sadly doesn’t get that.
@gabzas00 eh some people are forced to be raised into shitty situations and it shows you can’t comprehend that. You need to work at getting more educated about how life works in the real world with real people.
@@1FairyGothMother you can either be a survivor or a victim victims never heal, survivors do. You can have a life of meaning, that looks different for everybody, but the things that are meaningful are pretty universal. like the people you love the relationship you have with yourself. some people just live better than others they can have less and live way better some people are so poor all they have is money, at the end of the day the journey within is the most important one, and the journey is the destination.
@gabzas00 what's actually fascinating is how you can continue repeating yourself while missing the point entirely, especially if you have spent any amount of time watching the videos on this channel. Point out to me where anyone said that improving your life's circumstances takes no effort? It's actually you who is putting those words in the mouths of those you are replying to. Good for you if you've overcome some hardship in your life and are doing great, round of applause ok? Would be more impressive though if you came out of it with a shred of empathy and self-awareness and that it doesn't make you an expert on the struggles of everyone else in the world. You seem to want to argue and insert your tired bootstraps advice more than listen, but just to be clear, I don't think anyone in this comment section or even the SWU interviewees would find "saying people need to put in effort to improve their life is so controversial." However maybe reread the first comment you replied to where all they said is "everyone just wants a good life and everyone sadly doesn't get that." The rest of us are fascinated at how YOU find that controversial. Your arrogance really shows when you say, "I know trauma changes the trajectory of someone's life. I've lived it." So, what you've lived all the traumas? lol A child living in a refugee camp in Gaza who lost all their family? check. Homeless teenager living on skid row addicted to fentanyl and suffering from schizophrenia? check you know all about that too right Sure, you can always strive and keep a positive attitude to marginally improve your circumstances, and if you keep at it things can align and you can even find success or true happiness even from the worst of situations. However, just blaming people that they're "not prepared to do the work to have a good life" is so tone deaf and arrogant I just cannot take you seriously. It's fascinating and really just depressing that even with a channel like this where there are hundreds of interviews with people explaining in depth how they ended up where they are, that you can still centre yourself and your own experiences while having zero compassion and emotional intelligence.
Wow, I’m so astonished by her story. This video really got me. I have never seen someone explain addiction so unapologetically and honestly. I appreciate her so much. Thank you Mark.
i’m a deadhead and nitrous has been hot on the scene for decades amongst Grateful Dead fans.i hate how people make it a trend or treat it like a joke. it’s all a joke until you can’t feel sensation in your arms and legs. i really hope that people start to take this seriously. why are they selling it in normal smoke shops!?! it’s KILLING people, and out open in a public store.
Many shows since early ‘80s and the “lot tanks” definitely picked up big time by the end of the decade. Hippie crack. First sound you heard upon arriving…and last upon leaving. However, that was REAL nitrous…and still can be had at actual gas shops in most cities. The shit they’re selling at vape shops in those little cans ARE NOT the same thing and pose a much greater health risk than the real stuff when taken responsibly. Everything in moderation. Many fun times at private parties streaming shows and sharing the hose. 😅 I hope she stays clean off that vape store crap. Probably made in China.
@imanalien2222 Yes, hippie crack was the street name back then, ahaha. The woosh of the tank filling the balloon must be the sound you are referring to. I wish her the best as well. Hopefully, sharing her story will prevent someone from using that stuff and causing harm to their health and life.
I love n2o ngl but hate how it effected the lot and I’ve seen tanks ran off lot on SCI tour and in my riskier days used to go around lot popping ppls balloons with a chunk of citrine I used to carry around. Maybe she had too much too fast?
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to heroin. Spent my whole life fighting heroin addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Heroin addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms. Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have really helped him. mah dudes have safe trips all.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence
Was sent to the hospital last year for nitrous oxide, and Xanax , my feet were swollen , I couldn’t walk for about a month , my mind was not all there I had an altered mental status for a little over 3 weeks. Went through withdrawals like none other got combative and had to be restrained several times. Even escaped a treatment center I was at where I was running around the streets at night. Almost died throughout this whole time being in critical condition. Went through the tremors , couldn’t talk at first, couldn’t walk, cold sweats, was in fear of everything. Took me about a good half a year to come back to my normal self. Been very patient but now I could say I haven’t felt happier than I am feeling now being back to my normal self. Loving and enjoying life every moment of it and am very grateful to be alive and well and be able to tell the story and hopefully help others. It is a battle, but just be patient with yourself, and don’t be scared to ask for help, you are not alone and you well deserve a good life .
Dude this sounds exactly like my story! Both substance I was addicted to. Benzos and nitrous. Also left treatment! In a total altered mental state. Couldn’t communicate right. Tremors twitches. Fear of driving and fear of even going outside!!! Numb hands and feet. Could barely walk. Been off it 2 years sadly slipped on Benzos
I am a doctor. I have never heard of this kind of addiction. I don’t use drugs, but during the anesthesia for my cesarean section, I received some medication that gave me the sensation she describes, that 'hug.' At that moment, I felt such a great peace that I thought: if I die now, I will be happy. It is not 'normal' to feel that way. The temporary relief from pain through the use of drugs comes at a very high price. Currently, I am experiencing complications from COVID, feeling a lot of shortness of breath. I hope she recovers. It’s very difficult to be in this state. I wish everyone who is going through tough times, fighting to break free from any addiction, to be victorious. 🙏♥️
doctors are super close to those drugs. I’m not a big believer in willpower. It is advisable for people with that tendency to steer clear of temptation.
Never forget that what a person does is far more important than what they say. I struggled to believe she was genuinely happy in that first interview and now we see it.
Anyone who destroys their body like her is 💯 not happy. Even her hand tat says, “lonely.” ⭐️When you choose the actions, you choose the consequences.⭐️
I mean, I agree with you, but this middle aged woman was fooling no one with trying to say she was content or happy. Despite what people say or even if they say it with a smile on their face, the body modifications just on the face alone are indicative of deep mental disorders and a dark, negative energy. Women like this are almost always bipolar and/or schizophrenic, she's likely manic or recently came down from a borderline psychotic break right now too
My little sister died from a lighter fluid inhalation addiction. This one hit home more than most for that, all the best to staying strong on her recovery 💓
It's still not completely clear, it never will be, but it seems the addiction had become so bad she had severe cirrohsis of the liver by 20 years old and one night she inhaled too much so they think she just fell to the floor asleep and never woke up, there were cannisters everywhere in her flat and it seems the addiction had taken over her life.
We do recover ❤ god bless you mama! I'll have 6 years clean in December. My husband and I have a beautiful 17 mo old baby girl and another on the way. U got this!!!! I'm proud of you
she seems like a nice person who struggles with insecurity/self respect. she harms herself in all these different ways because at some point she was made to feel like she doesn’t deserve better. i hope she’s able to find peace one day, and i hope people in her every day life are able to see the sweet demeanor underneath her wild look. i’m sure she’s had struggles she doesn’t talk about in addition to ones shes mentioned, and i hope she’s free from them one day.
@@Dustinfightsdemons she was gorgeous before. whenever i see someone change their appearance so drastically, i wonder why. she was beautiful before but not intimidating at all like she is now. i bet she uses this look almost like armor. yeah some people might think she looks like a freak, but she also looks like someone who won’t be messed with. i saw that she’s found work as a tattoo artist/apprentice and it makes me happy she’s found a career that is accepting of her appearance while also not being based around it.
@camdecay she was a porn star even before the mods and it just seems like she never really had someone love her and treat her right. Most of the girls I know that do that line of work are searching for something they didn't or don't get. A lot of the people with these sorts of mods were really ugly before they got them and they use them to hide but she was stunningly beautiful and you can tell by listening to her that she has a good head on her shoulders and that's the reason it's so shocking to me. Have you watched her no jumper interview? It's sad
One of my favorite shows as a teenager was intervention. “I’m walking on sunshine!” episode is forever engrained in my mind. That episode Helped me to NOT pick up whip its. Shoutout intervention keeping me in check growing up!!
That was the only show we were allowed to watch in rehab I went to over 16 years ago. We had to vote on which episode or see if we could even watch it at all in case someone was feeling vulnerable or if that drug of choice would trigger them. A girl I met there did it and it was the scariest thing to see. I’ve been around many drugs but this one actually terrified me just as a bystander, there’s no way I could try it. As I watched her gone for the minute or so all I could think of was that dang intervention episode. It’s a classic for our generation I think. That and the guy crying. I’m so glad I’ve been sober since then, it’s not the same as it was back then.
Omg was that the lady who kept getting banned from computer supply stores because she would try to get over the limit of cans a day and do them in the parking lot
just to clarify, she was using a different drug than nitrous oxide in that instance, air duster cans contain either tetrafluoroethane/difluoroethane which are much more addictive and acutely toxic, particularily to the heart
She is the most up beat person I've seen on here and her personality is so positive. She finds enlightenment and good in everything. No regrets. A big motto of mine as well
She’s such a sweet woman. You can tell she is a kind and caring soul. Bless you! I hope the best and a life full of love and sobriety. Congratulations on 2 months!! That’s huge ♥️
I follow this girl on instagram and have seen her progress through getting clean, she gets a lot of shit about her looks but seems like a genuinly kind person.
@jeepathecreepa a lot lol, you can't pretend some tattoos in some places are not more off putting then others, your gunna be much more intimidated by someone with their face and eyeballs tattooed then someone with like a teddy bear tattooed on arm or something and to pretend this is not how society behaves is pretty disingenuous.
I had nitrous oxide once for a dental procedure, and I remember thinking during the procedure "You can do anything you want to me right now -- even take out all of my teeth -- just don't take away this feeling." It was wild. I've never taken drugs, and that thought, which is still so clear to me, was so strong. It was then that I realized that I probably have a very addictive personality and I'm fortunate that I never experimented with drugs. (I'm not necessarily against others taking drugs; it's not my business what others do. I just know that it's not what I personally should do given this reaction to a single dose of this drug.)
Nitrous has always given me bad nausea, probably because I have stomach problems already, so it has never been my thing, but it definitely has a way of taking away anxiety and pain. They say it only affects anxiety, but it does help me with dental pain, if only because the body and mind are connected. I have chronic pain from physical causes I have (finally) proven through imaging, etc., and worry and stress ALWAYS make my pain worse. When I did develop an addiction, it was in the course of treatment for my chronic pain. Or, rather, after my pain treatment was suddenly discontinued, because my doctor left the practice without giving me a taper or referral. I can relate to Orylan, and everyone who has self-medicated any kind of physical or mental pain, loss, or anxiety. Usually, it has been intolerable for some time, before this happens. Substance Use Disorder is a complex and serious condition. It’s not caused by being stupid and not wanting the party to stop, so I hope Orylan completely tunes out anyone who doesn’t understand. It’s cool that you can appreciate how powerful nitrous oxide can be. If one’s brain is in a state of chemical imbalance before trying it, it will be even more powerful, because it (or whatever substance) can level things out, temporarily. The more I study and learn about it, the more firmly I believe that Substance Use Disorder is no one’s fault. It’s a disorder, and it does not discriminate. I would not have guessed Orylan would be affected by it, because you can’t! It can happen to anyone. Like her, I didn’t have any trouble putting substances I had tried down, and figured I didn’t have an addictive personality…until the wrong one was introduced. Everyone’s chemistry is different, so if we try a drug that is supposed to addict people in one use and it doesn’t, and have never used alcohol compulsively or liked weed (I didn’t either), it’s too easy to believe it doesn’t affect us. It’s probably a good thing, for you, that you were able to grasp the incredible hold a substance can have on a person, in the dentist’s chair. I wish I had known methadone clinics treat pain, when my doctor moved, because the whole destructive next decade of my life would never have happened. It would save people a lot of trouble, if a pamphlet with alternative treatment and addiction resources was given out, at pain clinics, in case a patient’s care is interrupted, and/or they become addicted, rather than waiting for people to find out, in court ordered treatment…after they have lost their careers and clean legal records. That’s where I found out about Suboxone, which covers some of my pain, without developing tolerance (due to how it’s formulated) and am continually tested, which helps me stay away from other substances. I guess, for nitrous, medically assisted treatment might mean mental health care., but that applies to any substance, as 95% of patients in SUD treatment, in my local area, are also taking medication for a major mental illness. The dentist’s office would do well to give out a mental health and addiction resources pamphlet, too. As a society, we need to remove the stigma, and realize this is a disorder anyone can develop, at any time and make sure they have resources and support for their recovery!
@@sciencenotsrigma I'm so sorry that you had to go through all of this. I'm glad that you've come out on the other side with the wisdom to be able to communicate your experiences to others who it might help.
I can't help but be jealous. I had a couple obgyn procedures this year under nitrous oxide and it barely helped. It causes some dissociation, confusion, a bit of numbing, but still traumatizing. Never again.
You are an absolute Angel for being so transparent and so sincere in sharing your story and spreading awareness to the collective. I had no idea how dangerous Nitrous was until just now.
I used to watch her channel for a bit, she made so much videos convincing her audience and herself how much she loves her family and their "love" for her .Truth always finds its way whether u like it or not,girl.
That’s where he started his photography career, back as a young dude in Chicago, going to punk shows and such. He’s always been attracted to the “underbelly” if you will
My husbands coworker was in a head on collision with a semi truck. He was on the job driving from one job to the other. When they investigated the wreck, they found dust off cans, so they determined he was probably huffing while driving and blacked out. He sadly passed away. This was the first time I heard of it. Im so glad she is here to share her story, the dangers associated with this and her struggles. She is so brave, this is not easy❤
I’ve been subbed to your account for years and I’ve always waited for the day that interview would be done on this. I’m addicted to nitrous oxide and it’s been such a struggle. I’m in recovery ( 13 days sober) but it’s been so hard to quit!
i have struggled also with 9 2kg cilindrs a day at my worst, try to take at least 2000mcg b12 a day to compensate for the inactive b12 and stay out of a wheelchair, i am clean for over half a year now and its the worst addiction to come off from, i used 3mmc as a means to stop this addiction. 3mmc is much better managable and its effects are not so destructive for your body.
@candyrockz u got this beautiful keep going loves ❤I fought a addiction for years and finally got clean and was homeless and my husband and I bought a house 2yrs ago do keep choosing to do the right thing it's not easy but worth it ❤MUCH LOVES TO EVERYONE ❤
Girl I am so proud of you. What a beautiful testimony. Not only does the most high have a hand over your while existence, not only did/are YOU over coming your addiction, you came on here to spread awareness so authentically. Baby, you are going place. I love you, you be strong and keep fighting🙌🏾
She's a stripper at one of the worst clubs in Houston not a tattoo artist. What's sad is that she's messed up her body so much that not even mid-tier clubs would hire her due to looking that way but at the same time it's now the only thing she can make money off of bc it's so extreme. Let's face it, she's not exactly running on all 4 cylinders here.
Ive watched her on many different platforms and ive grown to like and respect her. She gets alot of hate but she continues to tell her story and educate people on whipits. I appreciate her honesty and vulnerability ❤
Is this the split tongue chick on Facebook who trolls people with her little microphone??? I think it is… I’ll watch her sometimes but sometimes she trolls too hard and is annoying so I’ll have to swipe past her…
Been a clean opiate addict for 14 years and thankful everyday. 20 years of my life living in hell. Nothing but hard work,medication ,and fighting everyday is only way to make a life. Never forget where u were. Good luck
This woman is so brave to come out and share her story. It inspires others to get help and choose life. You are awesome and there are thousands of us out there who adore you! Stay safe! ❤
A guy ran into my house after taking a hit of it driving. He took a hit.. turned on my street… passed out with his foot on the gas pedal pushed to the floor and ran into my house
Her saying she can’t complain about depression and anxiety because everyone has it nowadays makes me realize how much society has failed us young people. Anxiety and depression is not a normal state of being!!! Please listen to close ones who struggle with this and don’t downplay the severity. We all have different thresholds for struggle. ♥️
The best gift she gave herself on her Birthday. Don’t listen to the weight comments people are disgusting to judge. No matter how many times it takes,to keep on with sobriety please continue to give yourself the gift of life. Thank you for sharing your story. Helped to educate me more on this substance. I have 2 teens I need to keep up with.
I think Kanye West was accused of being addicted to this!?! I'm a recovering addict. On October 17th 2024 was my 3yr clean & sober date. It feels so good being sober. Never thought in a million years I would be clean. That heart is really cool 🖤 Orylan you're one amazing person. Many blessings to you my friend ✨🤍
@@parisscott777 You know kids could buy opium in pharmacies not too long ago. This is not a new phenomenon by any standard. Drugs have always been a thing and will always be a thing. As will kids using them.
Nah, that was not a euphemism. Listen to the Exorcist Files. The occult is full of fake shit, but demons are real and opening doors to that shit is actually dangerous.
Good job on getting off that. Thank you for talking about your struggles and about being able to quit it. Hopefully this will inspire others to try and quit.
Thank goodness I don't like it. Tried it a couple times when friends had it and I just don't get it. I also dated a heroin addict and didn't get that either (didn't even see real weed until I met him) but im terrified of needles so that helped
I was following Orylan for a while and she seemed so self-possessed and healthy, I wasn’t worried about her at all, except for the usual shit that we go through, dancing in clubs and dealing with guys, online, but she has a great understanding of what that is and what it isn’t. I didn’t realize it had been so long since I visited her channel, and I had no idea she was struggling. This just goes to show that addiction can happen to anybody. I am so glad she has found recovery!
I didn’t realize it had been so long since I’ve visited her channel. I have a similar background to hers, in the industry, but my experience was more on the streets, at the beginning. She really has a good understanding of what it is and isn’t, and has what it takes to persevere. I can relate to not being concerned about becoming addicted, because I wasn’t into drugs…until I used the wrong one. I’m so glad Orylan has found recovery! There will be really strong cravings, but for me, they got fewer and farther between, starting at about 6 months, and again at 1 1/2 but it would still happen, for about 3 years. Then, it was like having a full factory reset, like the neuroscience research says. And if you have a lapse, you don’t have to start all over with the healing unless it becomes a relapse, though I’m sure it doesn’t help, but it’s not the end of the world. Having a plan for what to do and who to talk to if that happens really helps. I hope she reads some of the new scientific based information for people struggling with Substance Use Disorders…it helped me so much. Love and compassion are much more effective than shaming and stigma, so please be kind to yourself, Orylan, and lots of love from someone who has been there! ❤. You got this.
0830 she attributes the problems to "fake" nitro. You will often notice this problem with addicts of any kind. I collapsed because the joint was laced. I OD'd because the thing was spiked/tainted/contaminated/tampered with. Best thing is to kick the dangerous habit entirely.
Thank you for sharing your story! I cannot explain how important this is, especially right now. The flavor is the worst thing to have happened to this drug.
I’ve never done whippets but I’ve been hooked on pills. I’ve been clean for 12 years or so now. I quit counting. It’s always one day at a time, sometimes one minute at a time. It ruined my teeth. Before my Dad died, he begged me to let him pay for dentures. I told him that although I usually don’t have any cravings, the urge creeps in from time to time and all I have to do is look in the mirror and the urge disappears. I have 2 grandkids that I want to be around as much as possible. Stay the course young lady. You will be fine. The Good Lord has a purpose for you being here. Just keep up the great work and focus on yourself. Don’t sweat what folks say. The saying “What goes around, comes around is terribly true. Much love and prayers for your continued recovery, protection , and healing. 🤙🤙
Ive followed Orylan for a couple of years now roughly, and saw her struggle and blogging from hospital. I'm so so glad to see her back here and talking about what she went through! Get back on your shit girl you got this 🖤🖤🖤
I'm pretty sure I have seen this lady float around going viral on tik Tok about a couple years ago, and despite the comment section trying to downgrade her for how she looks, I still think she's beautiful because the way her soul portrayed what's the favorite light-hearted and passionate, kind of what you see in this very video. I'm actually very happy that she is thriving much better
I found Orylan from your very first interview with her and loved her ever since! She’s such a free spirit, unapologetically herself, and not afraid to tell it how it is. I’m so happy she lived through her addiction in order to speak on it and tell her story, to hopefully educate someone else going through something similar and spread awareness on it. Many blessings to you, Orylan, and never stop being true to yourself and using your voice! No one is perfect and for the ones that only see what we have on the outside will be surprised to know what they take with them to the afterlife. Nothing but your spirit ✨Don’t let anyone dull yours!
Orylan, I've been following you since your first interview with Mark. I also follow your instagram. I've been worried for you for several months because I haven't seen you posting IG. Please, please take care of yourself. You're my daughters age and my heart is with you. I remember your interview with your mom, and grandmother. Stay close to them, they love you so much. Keep up the good work, and thank you for telling your story and warning others of the harm this drug can do, take care, sweetie
I truly hope this beautiful person is able to flourish in their sobriety. Thank you for sharing your story. You explain addiction so well and I hope it helps others to understand what it is like. Stay strong 💕
I worked at Walmart for 9 years. People would steal duster and huff it. One night we caught a guy and we called the cops my manager wanted to press charges in hopes to help the young man better his life instead of just letting him continue. A few days later they found him dead in a car across the street (it was a car dealership). It's awful seeing people struggle and need help
Every one of these videos teaches so much and I admire the courage it takes to share these stories. I live a quiet life and I wish I could do more than sympathize.
Addiction is a bitch. Been battling it all my life. I get addicted to anything as soon as I try it. But luckily whippets or coke does nothing for me, and I do mean luckily, I beat alcohol but I can't imagine battling stronger stuff and winning. Stay sober, stay fresh. Please choose life ❤
I've watched allot of these videos but this girl has something. A drive within her that will surely make her great and successful!! You Go Guuuuuuurl!!!❤❤❤
For what it's worth [ Im a psychologist ] this young woman is suffering from a number of issues that are running untreated. Please don't judge her. - but please don't idolise her. It's a cautionary tale of self destruction , body dismorphia, suicide ideation, substance abuse and possible BPD. I sincerely hope she gets ongoing psychiatric support and thank goodness she has parental support.
@@eyezikandexploits she's probably short. everyone's body carries weight differently. there's really no need to speculate. why would she lie about that
We think of most people as the same, but there are some very fragile, thin skinned individuals that need help which includes physical, as well as mental health and kind words, and a smile goes along ways, all of that to some of these thin skinned people. The rest of us just kind of keep soldering on take the beating and move forward, it develops a thicker skin, etc., but some people are so very fragile.
I hope you stay clean. I can tell you have a warm spirits. You have the same birthday as my sister and a day after mine! I know you got this I am praying for you!❤
I've been following her a while and I am SO proud of her recovery and that she's speaking out about it now. I think she is a genuinely beautiful soul and I know she will save lives being so honest and open. Doesn't matter what anyone thinks of you girl. You keep doing you. Your soul is genuine and I am rooting you on. You're going to help so many people. Plus, I'm a fellow Aries 🤗❤ So happy you're still here with us. Keep on shining love.
This girl breaks my heart. Her selfdestruction is on another level then most of the others telling their story here. What do you think as a parent seeing your kid like this?
she is also doing only fans, tattooing her whole self, struggling with addiction (like 2 months isn't that long to be sober). She might go back to it when the depression of only fans hit and the depression of having no family (no husband or kids). Oh May God save her. She is far from okay.
@@livingintheforest3963 I hope women stop selling themselves especially since they are in well off countries. Imagine what they would do if they lived in my country Nigeria? People will die to come to America, but Americans are throwing their lives away. It's a great confusion going on.
I appreciate her and this channel raise awareness about this addiction. There was a point in my life that i hated everything, I used to use this gas to numb my mental pain, luckily i was not that addicted to get myself into the hospital, but i twitched a quite a lot of times and passed out without knowing. Then i knew i gotta stop, my current man has finally helped me got out of that hole and i look better than before. I thought to myself, i could have died or have medical complications if i havent met him. Addiction is real, mental health is real, so please whoever is going through any of that, please seek help fr. Whoever is going through sobriety, good for you and we're all proud of you. Yall stay safe.
She would always repeat in every video or live “I’m not on drugs” raised a red flag for me cause someone who’s not on anything won’t feel the need to repeat “I’m sober” every day…let’s not talk about the whole alien demon she claimed she was
Dude when that’s all people ask you you would 100% start every conversation with I’m clean. Not everyone has thousands of people asking them the same question over and over.
Nope! That got me too. I had to replay that part, I couldn’t believe my ears. 😂 It made more sense as to why I was confused, after she reminded us that she still to this day has never tried hard drugs. I’m not knocking her, I wish her only the best, but she has no idea. I hope that it stays that way
Totally depends on the person in my opinion.. and how the brain responds to it he substance. I did meth for 6 months straight and then maybe a year off and on. No physical withdrawals of meth besides very tired and depressed. Not being able to sleep or eat and looking terrible - add in the extreme paranoia and anxiety after a bender made it really easy for me to quit. Nitrous was just so relaxing to me that when after a day of work and helped me sleep and was sooo accessible it was hard to not buy more. Just MY experience. Some people hate nitrous and don’t understand why anyone would use it recreationally.
I'd like to bring some light to the gas she is talking about. This is a gas that is used for inhaled anesthesia (primarily in dental clinics). Most people know of it as "Laughing Gas". In a dental setting this is a great drug but is normally given with a steady rate of oxygen to prevent any complications. Daily use can be dangerous and habit forming. What they sell in these dispensaries and tobacco shops are meant for culinary use only as a propelling to make whipping cream. These brands are not safe for human use as they have not been evaluated per the FDA for use as an inhaled medical gas. This gas also depletes your vitamin B-12 and can cause paralysis. It deprives your body of oxygen, which is so dangerous and can lead to clots, strokes, embolism. You can randomly pass out while using so it's very unsafe to be sitting, standing, or driving while using. Please follow her advice and do research to reduce harm to yourself if you do use or are thinking of using these gases recreationally.
It can deprive the body of oxygen, just like another well-known gas: carbon monoxide. Both are potentially lethal. Even at lower levels, chronic exposure to either can cause damage.
Just to clarify - the nitrous didn’t fill her up and make her gain weight. She said in another interview that the nitrous makes you hungry and she was driving to various fast food places and bingeing.
@@JoyDavidson agree! Just wanted to clarify for folks that it's not the nitrous gas actually physically filling up her body but that it depleated her body of nutrients and made her extremely hungry and therefore want to eat.
Yaa I thought that was a bit weird..what's with these off brand Chinese nitrous cans she's talking about never heard of that either with the food oils and what not?(it's been a while I haven't done nitrous in about 6 to 8 years so)
The portrait is so good, Mark! I’m glad to see you are doing better, Orylan! What you went through with the whippets is so incredibly scary. Wishing you all the best with your new studio. 🖤✨
My son died from using dust off and wippits at the age of 28. Thank you for talking about this topic. He was my only child; I died the day his body was found. At that time, we didn't even know that this was a thing, let alone something that was addictive and deadly. TMI alert: he was found in his apartment bedroom, which contained nothing but a 4-foot-tall hoarder type of situation, filled with nothing but empty cans. And a bed. So, yeah, my baby died surrounded by 4 feet of nitrous cans. I wish I had known.
Gosh I am so sorry!!!!!! I have a boy and he is my only child as well. I couldn’t imagine. I understand what you meant when you said you died when he died. My heart breaks for you. Sending you tons of prayers, positive vibes and a HUGE virtual hug 🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻🫂🙏🏻
❤❤ so sorry for ur loss
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So sorry for your loss 💔
so sorry for your loss
I’m a barista I serve her coffee often. She’s always kind. I hope she gets well.
she wont; tha tattoos is a external manifestation of her own pathologically compulsive demeanor/addictive personality
Nigha stop capping no one give a fuck
Does she get whipped cream?! 🧐
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"Like a hug from God" was exactly how I described the first time I shot heroin 25 years ago. On July 16th, God willing, I will celebrate 8yrs years clean & free from the bondage of addiction & self. My hugs from God now are my nieces & nephew, plus everyday I wake up & make the choice to choose life. WE CAN & DO RECOVER FROM THE HOPELESS SLOW SUICIDE!
Wrong god
Been clean for 12 years! Heroin was the devil. So grateful I can be there for my son ❤
Congratulations on your sobriety and thank you for sharing💖
I'm finally clean from the heroin/fentynal/xylazine bags and Xanax. I never thought I would ever get clean
Started at 19 and I'm 32 now and I never went more than 2 days without it! I never ever thought I would get clean. I'm at a year and a half! No idea how she can say it's more addictive than any other drug when never trying any other drug. I've definitely done nitrous and heroin and Xanax totally destroyed me.
Wow, girl! A sincere congratulations to you! Here's to wishing you a lifetime of the peace that sobriety brings. 🥰
I don't think people realize how hard it was for her to come forward about this. For her to get so much hate and still continue to spread awareness makes her a very strong woman. I don't know her but I'm proud of her!
“It felt like a hug from God but it was really the Devil..” great explanation for SO many things in life that draw us in
for real so grateful for these stories
indulgence is a bad thing, unfortunately some of us learn the hard way
I couldnt understand how people got addicted to this stuff. For me the "High" only lasted like a min or so and ide have to keep smashing the bottle. And I seen people fry there brains on this stuff. Glaxaygas need's to be shut down. People doing as a 1 off is ok is the right setting with real stuff. But its a unregulated market just like any legal stuff.
Yup. There are 2 teams. Christ and antichrist...which master do you serve?
Absolutely a fact ~ addiction is NOT from God !!!!
I worked for a dentist who liked to "do the gas". Dental offices at that time has tanks that held 244 cu.ft. of pure nitrous. Ultimately, he developed hand tremors, for one thing, and lost his ability to perform dentistry. It's no joke.
I swear when I was a young adult, the dentist I used to go to I was sure that he was always high on the gas. Was still a great dentist but for sure I could tell and it always did feel a little weird to somehow know that. But I still kept going to him because he had state of the art technology in his office and he was knowledgeable.
That's crazy! He's gonna f somebody up!
The irony.
Exterminators back in the 50's got high on their chemicals. Crazy stuff@lisamo2598
so little shop of horrors was based off truth huh. good to know
Lady, if your reading these comments, i want you to know soberity will be hard most days but its so worth it. Your life is so worth living. You owe it to yourself to remain sober.
Your worst days sober still blow away your best days using!!
Yes yessssss.i was hoping ud say that.its hard as he'll but so worth it..u will never know how worth something is in life til u cling to it by ur teeth..hoping u get a chance t "taste" the sweet salt of life.. worth it
Ty
i’ve been 3.5 years clean from opioids, benzos, bath salts.. anything i could get my hands on. the first two weeks are the hardest. sobriety gets easier as you go on… sometimes the urge to use again comes strong but with time you figure out how to combat it. sending her so much love and strength.
You ex addicts need to get involved in politics to put some laws back in place for this. It's ridicules and uncalled for.
I love her. She’s so vulnerable and honest. Takes a lot of guts to be this way.
You can't get that fat from inhaling gas. She inhaled all you can eat buffets and is in denial. Saying who knows what n2o is made from is like saying who knows what water is made from.
Spend time around more addicts. Most can't stop talking about themselves.
@@soopsammich4533How’s the weather up there on your high horse? The whole point of an interview is to tell your story, which she did beautifully.
It literally doesn’t take any guts to be like this.
Marketing strategy for OF to set you apart as a product and lure people in by making yourself relatable and human, creating an illusion of connection/intimacy with the audience.
Would have been ballsy coming out like this on a popular platform 40 years ago. Not today when you clearly financially have a lot to benefit from it.
My sister in law died from whippets. People dont believe me when I tell them. I hope Orylan stays clean from it, shes right, its a deadly addiction.
Sorry to hear that. People don't realize you can even die from water or oxygen overdose. Critical things that your body needs to survive. If not regulated, you're done.
Totally do. this shit been around since 80s in local smoke shops.
I work in the ICU, had a 35 yo firefighter patient die from whippets too, so heartbreaking
That usually happens if someone does them standing up, passes out, and cracks their head on concrete... I believe you! It's not normally something that people do every day, but it causes vitamin b-12 deficiency when done daily. It also oxidizes and affects bioavailability of b-12 vitamins for at least a few days afterwards, so supplementing b-12 isn't really possible during its use. If you are talking toxicity, it's really the b-12 deficiency that can eventually cause nerve damage if done for probably a timespan of multiple years of daily use. When people do use them I always recommend that they take b-12 vitamins for at least a few days afterwards.
That stuff eventually fucks with the nerves by depleting one of B vitamins.
"I was depressed but who isn't tho" hit hard because I never let anyone know what thoughts course through my mind and how I feel on a daily basis.
Hang in there ❤️ you’re still here for a reason
@@Mathrss growing up is realizing you have to deal with the personal trauma you experienced as a child and young adult. Thank you for the kind words.
Same.
Hang in there. 💜
I had no idea nitrous was addictive. Thank you so much.
Not everyone’s depressed Love
She is actually very level-headed, and I love that she is advocating for how dangerous this shit is. ❤
Is that a joke?
level headed? definitely not. self aware? yeah.
Rofl, this generation can find an excuse for anything.... Level headed like a 90 degree angle...
She’s a wierdo. I don’t know how she eats etc, what does she do for work? These people use our infrastructure, what do they contribute to it? I’ve got no time for people who don’t contribute to our infrastructure.
Yeah, watch her use this as traffic for her OF. That's all people care about
Back in the early 90's a friend of mine died because of this drug. I still remember you, Paul.
I’m so sorry 😢
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I work at a vape shop. This was just made illegal to sell in vape shops in my state. I have one regular customer who would come in every so often for a can, until one day he dropped over $300 on it in one day. I asked my boss if I should ever cut someone off and he said no. It’s insane.
That’s where you take it into your own hands. You can say no, and if he doesn’t like it the boss can come work.
They will just get it somewhere else. You're not changing anything, only imposing your will on a stranger. You THINK you know their story, but you don't. If you truly cared about chemicals and their effects on customers, you wouldn't morally be able to sell a single item in a vape shop.
@@ambrr_lily I never said anything about my stance on the ability to sell it. I was just stating facts. I don’t think any substance should be illegal.
@@KendallM0219
Capitalism at its finest.
I knew a girl so addicted she was doing it while she was driving. She wrecked her car and was trapped . While the paramedics were cutting her out ,she was trapped in a car in a ditch , and was steadily huffing the can the whole time!! Unreal
Whaaaaaat?
That is actually crazy.
Wild
I used to do that.... it was a dark time in my life lol
I got in over my head as a dealer and was too paranoid about everything and wasn't actually about that life so i had to escape somehow.
Been clean from hard drugs for 4 yrs now. Free from methadone for 2+ yrs
There's a video on youtube of a lady who crashes into a pole or a wall or something, and people rush up to check on her and she's completely unaware she's crashed and is actively still doing whippets. It's crazy
Congrats@@Ch4rlz_ThA_Princ3
I knew a young man who recently died from this very thing. He was 24 years old. He was a co-owner of a thriving business, brilliant, kind, hard working, thoughtful, and appeared to have everything a young man could want. Somehow he was introduced to this horrible addiction and it took his life. Allegedly, he only started because he was told/believed that it wasn't that dangerous and it wasn't one of those "hardcore" drugs. By the time he was found and rushed to the hospital, he was being kept alive by machines. He was an organ donor and luckily he was able to save other people's lives with his organs that were otherwise incredibly healthy. This was his legacy, but it left a hole in the town beyond what he could have even imagined. His parents had to make the decision to stop the machines which allowed his heart and lungs to stop. I cannot imagine that pain. PLEASE stop this if you are doing it. It is killing so many people and its barely on the radar as dangerous. Please stop.
When you find out the truth about organ donation and "brain death" you are going to feel slightly different about what happened.
I am shocked by how aware she is of how the addiction got to her, the way it controlled her, and she is fighting for her life. I am proud of her. And she has a very kind and assured spirit about her, that is at the same time fighting trauma, and I wish I could give her a hug. I pray she stays sober.
She seems so kind and insightful. You can hear the sincerity in her words. My favorite interview on here so far!
Orylan you got this. Addiction sucks, I'm 14 years clean from Heroin and I never thought I'd live past 30. You've made the most important step...you can keep doing good. You're beautiful inside & out and you deserve to be happy.
I worked with a nurse whose daughter and 4 other girls were doing this and all died in a car crash near our job. 5 kidss gone. Her mother never recovered fully from the loss
That's a whole different level of unimaginable devastation. My heart goes out the poor mom
Yeah I bet they tried it while driving, you basically pass out for a second. You lose control, it's used in anesthesia.
Right, but think about the income taxes for the state and the jobs produced from such an event.
I knew someone who lost their life driving doing nitrous too. So sad.
I hope she gets medicated and gets well. Her mental illness is rampant.
crazy to see my cousin on here. genuinely so much love for her. really hoping for the best. love u hon. we r wishing the best for u
Nitrous oxide rapidly oxidizes the enzymes needed to use the b12 stored in your body, making it completely unusable and carcinogenic. This also disrupts the use of folic acid and other amino acids. It takes a long time to build up b12 stores, and a long time to use them up naturally. Destroying your b12 stores can be devastating to the entire nervous system. Even just a slight deficiency can have horrible symptoms, both physically and mentally. It can take many months of b12 treatment just to bring levels up to normal. A while back I fell into a deep depression, sleeping 15 hours a day, and had numbness and tingling in my hands and feet. I found out I was b12 deficient, because of my diet, and started taking supplements. Many many months of taking b12 has very slowly helped and I'm 100% better now. I'm so glad you are much better now too, and bringing awareness. I've never met a single nitrous oxide user who knows the risks!! Everyone thinks it's harmless. Even in a medical setting, there have been cases of extreme nervous system disruption. Thank you for sharing! You are a delightful person, please take care of your beautiful self!
Does doing it fry/kill braincells
Very well written. I recently read a case study of an ER admit who had symptoms of Guillain-Barre Syndrome. Upon further investigation, she had B12 deficiency from nitrous oxide . Symptoms can mimic. Final diagnosis was GBS AND nitrous oxide poisoning.
@Nqrii I see that regular use of nitrous oxide may eventually cause memory loss. Vitamin B12 depletion (long-term depletion causes brain and nerve damage).
If treated early, many low B12 symptoms can be reversible. You may want to read more about this.
The fact you mentioned folic acid worries me because orylan is pregnant now, not having enough folic acid when trying to conceive and when pregnant can cause birth defects :( I hope her pregnancy goes well and the baby is born healthy
I might be dealing with this right now too so thank you for your comment. I'm going to look into it more and supplement b12 and see how I do
I love how these really show everyone how vulnerable and fragile everyone is. You can look anyway; and all you want is love. An escape. A break from the pain. Everyone just wants a good life and everyone sadly doesn’t get that.
@gabzas00 eh some people are forced to be raised into shitty situations and it shows you can’t comprehend that. You need to work at getting more educated about how life works in the real world with real people.
@gabzas00 yet you’re a loser. I’d never talk with a poor plebe like you. I think you have the mentally disabled mentality.
@gabzas00Trauma changes a person and we are not all the same, not all capable of doing the same things.
@@1FairyGothMother you can either be a survivor or a victim victims never heal, survivors do. You can have a life of meaning, that looks different for everybody, but the things that are meaningful are pretty universal. like the people you love the relationship you have with yourself. some people just live better than others they can have less and live way better some people are so poor all they have is money, at the end of the day the journey within is the most important one, and the journey is the destination.
@gabzas00 what's actually fascinating is how you can continue repeating yourself while missing the point entirely, especially if you have spent any amount of time watching the videos on this channel. Point out to me where anyone said that improving your life's circumstances takes no effort? It's actually you who is putting those words in the mouths of those you are replying to. Good for you if you've overcome some hardship in your life and are doing great, round of applause ok? Would be more impressive though if you came out of it with a shred of empathy and self-awareness and that it doesn't make you an expert on the struggles of everyone else in the world.
You seem to want to argue and insert your tired bootstraps advice more than listen, but just to be clear, I don't think anyone in this comment section or even the SWU interviewees would find "saying people need to put in effort to improve their life is so controversial." However maybe reread the first comment you replied to where all they said is "everyone just wants a good life and everyone sadly doesn't get that." The rest of us are fascinated at how YOU find that controversial.
Your arrogance really shows when you say, "I know trauma changes the trajectory of someone's life. I've lived it." So, what you've lived all the traumas? lol A child living in a refugee camp in Gaza who lost all their family? check. Homeless teenager living on skid row addicted to fentanyl and suffering from schizophrenia? check you know all about that too right
Sure, you can always strive and keep a positive attitude to marginally improve your circumstances, and if you keep at it things can align and you can even find success or true happiness even from the worst of situations. However, just blaming people that they're "not prepared to do the work to have a good life" is so tone deaf and arrogant I just cannot take you seriously. It's fascinating and really just depressing that even with a channel like this where there are hundreds of interviews with people explaining in depth how they ended up where they are, that you can still centre yourself and your own experiences while having zero compassion and emotional intelligence.
She’s so likable. I wish her the absolute best.
Ale you fucking kidding me?
Ella es presiosa
@@GyrosHunterare you lmfao
I have found people covered in tattoos are sometimes some of the most friendly people even though they look terrifying.
Not terrified... It's just not human.
Wow, I’m so astonished by her story. This video really got me. I have never seen someone explain addiction so unapologetically and honestly. I appreciate her so much. Thank you Mark.
i’m a deadhead and nitrous has been hot on the scene for decades amongst Grateful Dead fans.i hate how people make it a trend or treat it like a joke. it’s all a joke until you can’t feel sensation in your arms and legs. i really hope that people start to take this seriously. why are they selling it in normal smoke shops!?! it’s KILLING people, and out open in a public store.
I went to a show in Boston in the early 90s, and someone fell from the 3rd story of the parking garage doing nitrous.
Many shows since early ‘80s and the “lot tanks” definitely picked up big time by the end of the decade. Hippie crack. First sound you heard upon arriving…and last upon leaving. However, that was REAL nitrous…and still can be had at actual gas shops in most cities. The shit they’re selling at vape shops in those little cans ARE NOT the same thing and pose a much greater health risk than the real stuff when taken responsibly. Everything in moderation. Many fun times at private parties streaming shows and sharing the hose. 😅 I hope she stays clean off that vape store crap. Probably made in China.
@imanalien2222 Yes, hippie crack was the street name back then, ahaha. The woosh of the tank filling the balloon must be the sound you are referring to. I wish her the best as well. Hopefully, sharing her story will prevent someone from using that stuff and causing harm to their health and life.
I love n2o ngl but hate how it effected the lot and I’ve seen tanks ran off lot on SCI tour and in my riskier days used to go around lot popping ppls balloons with a chunk of citrine I used to carry around. Maybe she had too much too fast?
@@imanalien2222even if u get the medical grade it still depletes the B12 in ur body
I started doing drugs since my teenage, got addicted to heroin. Spent my whole life fighting heroin addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Heroin addiction actually destroyed my life. Not until my wife recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 6 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Australia. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
How can i find him? Is he on Instagram
Yes he's Dr.alishrooms. Shrooms to me is a natrual healer. I know a guy who has used mushrooms in the same way and they have
really helped him. mah dudes have safe
trips all.
I wish they were readily available in my place. Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac. He's constantly talking about killing someone. He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an
obsession with violence
Was sent to the hospital last year for nitrous oxide, and Xanax , my feet were swollen , I couldn’t walk for about a month , my mind was not all there I had an altered mental status for a little over 3 weeks. Went through withdrawals like none other got combative and had to be restrained several times. Even escaped a treatment center I was at where I was running around the streets at night. Almost died throughout this whole time being in critical condition. Went through the tremors , couldn’t talk at first, couldn’t walk, cold sweats, was in fear of everything. Took me about a good half a year to come back to my normal self. Been very patient but now I could say I haven’t felt happier than I am feeling now being back to my normal self. Loving and enjoying life every moment of it and am very grateful to be alive and well and be able to tell the story and hopefully help others. It is a battle, but just be patient with yourself, and don’t be scared to ask for help, you are not alone and you well deserve a good life .
Dude this sounds exactly like my story! Both substance I was addicted to. Benzos and nitrous. Also left treatment! In a total altered mental state. Couldn’t communicate right. Tremors twitches. Fear of driving and fear of even going outside!!! Numb hands and feet. Could barely walk.
Been off it 2 years sadly slipped on Benzos
You guys are so inspiring. I hope more people find your strength!
Oh wow a survivor. God bless you🙏
I’m so curious.. How did y’all pay for all that hospitalization and treatment?
@@mariaweydert7505 insurance
I am a doctor. I have never heard of this kind of addiction. I don’t use drugs, but during the anesthesia for my cesarean section, I received some medication that gave me the sensation she describes, that 'hug.' At that moment, I felt such a great peace that I thought: if I die now, I will be happy. It is not 'normal' to feel that way. The temporary relief from pain through the use of drugs comes at a very high price. Currently, I am experiencing complications from COVID, feeling a lot of shortness of breath. I hope she recovers. It’s very difficult to be in this state. I wish everyone who is going through tough times, fighting to break free from any addiction, to be victorious. 🙏♥️
doctors are super close to those drugs. I’m not a big believer in willpower. It is advisable for people with that tendency to steer clear of temptation.
Never forget that what a person does is far more important than what they say.
I struggled to believe she was genuinely happy in that first interview and now we see it.
Anyone who destroys their body like her is 💯 not happy. Even her hand tat says, “lonely.”
⭐️When you choose the actions, you choose the consequences.⭐️
100%
I mean, I agree with you, but this middle aged woman was fooling no one with trying to say she was content or happy. Despite what people say or even if they say it with a smile on their face, the body modifications just on the face alone are indicative of deep mental disorders and a dark, negative energy. Women like this are almost always bipolar and/or schizophrenic, she's likely manic or recently came down from a borderline psychotic break right now too
So true. I knew something would happen.
Intentions > actions > words
I've never heard of this addiction. Thank you for the awareness Mark.
❤ is all I can say.
Ik, me neither.. tf!
My little sister died from a lighter fluid inhalation addiction. This one hit home more than most for that, all the best to staying strong on her recovery 💓
How did that happen? If u don't mind the question.
It's still not completely clear, it never will be, but it seems the addiction had become so bad she had severe cirrohsis of the liver by 20 years old and one night she inhaled too much so they think she just fell to the floor asleep and never woke up, there were cannisters everywhere in her flat and it seems the addiction had taken over her life.
@@srw2305 wow I'm sorry to hear that. Inhalants are no joke.
@@srw2305this is so sad
Lit up her Life 🔥
I loved this interaction with this human being! I too am 2 months sober 😭. Hard as hell but so worth it. Sending love 💖
We do recover ❤ god bless you mama! I'll have 6 years clean in December. My husband and I have a beautiful 17 mo old baby girl and another on the way. U got this!!!! I'm proud of you
She's very easy to talk to. I can see her quitting all substance and gaining control over her direction ❤
This comment is perfect
she seems like a nice person who struggles with insecurity/self respect. she harms herself in all these different ways because at some point she was made to feel like she doesn’t deserve better. i hope she’s able to find peace one day, and i hope people in her every day life are able to see the sweet demeanor underneath her wild look. i’m sure she’s had struggles she doesn’t talk about in addition to ones shes mentioned, and i hope she’s free from them one day.
U should watch her 1st interview with swu she had an ex that was very mentally abusive and literally hated her self
Google her before the modifications. She was so beautiful.. she wanted to be different and you're right it's from insecurities.
@@Dustinfightsdemons she was gorgeous before. whenever i see someone change their appearance so drastically, i wonder why. she was beautiful before but not intimidating at all like she is now. i bet she uses this look almost like armor. yeah some people might think she looks like a freak, but she also looks like someone who won’t be messed with. i saw that she’s found work as a tattoo artist/apprentice and it makes me happy she’s found a career that is accepting of her appearance while also not being based around it.
@camdecay she was a porn star even before the mods and it just seems like she never really had someone love her and treat her right. Most of the girls I know that do that line of work are searching for something they didn't or don't get. A lot of the people with these sorts of mods were really ugly before they got them and they use them to hide but she was stunningly beautiful and you can tell by listening to her that she has a good head on her shoulders and that's the reason it's so shocking to me. Have you watched her no jumper interview? It's sad
You're right! She struggles significantly & battles with Depression. My heart hurts for her.
One of my favorite shows as a teenager was intervention. “I’m walking on sunshine!” episode is forever engrained in my mind. That episode Helped me to NOT pick up whip its.
Shoutout intervention keeping me in check growing up!!
Same I loved that show. I still quote “Walkin on Sunshine” lady from time to time
I remember that chick was a lunatic! Her family called and had her cats taken away because they were concerned about the cats well being.
That was the only show we were allowed to watch in rehab I went to over 16 years ago. We had to vote on which episode or see if we could even watch it at all in case someone was feeling vulnerable or if that drug of choice would trigger them. A girl I met there did it and it was the scariest thing to see. I’ve been around many drugs but this one actually terrified me just as a bystander, there’s no way I could try it. As I watched her gone for the minute or so all I could think of was that dang intervention episode. It’s a classic for our generation I think. That and the guy crying. I’m so glad I’ve been sober since then, it’s not the same as it was back then.
Omg was that the lady who kept getting banned from computer supply stores because she would try to get over the limit of cans a day and do them in the parking lot
just to clarify, she was using a different drug than nitrous oxide in that instance, air duster cans contain either tetrafluoroethane/difluoroethane which are much more addictive and acutely toxic, particularily to the heart
She is the most up beat person I've seen on here and her personality is so positive. She finds enlightenment and good in everything. No regrets. A big motto of mine as well
She’s such a sweet woman. You can tell she is a kind and caring soul. Bless you! I hope the best and a life full of love and sobriety. Congratulations on 2 months!! That’s huge ♥️
I follow this girl on instagram and have seen her progress through getting clean, she gets a lot of shit about her looks but seems like a genuinly kind person.
I've always been a fan of Orylan this girl never gets break from the hate comments. She's just the nicest and yet most of her comments are mean.
Same I've been following her for a while ❤
Fr she looks like a nice person behind all those tattoos.
@@john-darrenesterhuizen9008 um....what does tattoos have to do with anything?
@jeepathecreepa a lot lol, you can't pretend some tattoos in some places are not more off putting then others, your gunna be much more intimidated by someone with their face and eyeballs tattooed then someone with like a teddy bear tattooed on arm or something and to pretend this is not how society behaves is pretty disingenuous.
I had nitrous oxide once for a dental procedure, and I remember thinking during the procedure "You can do anything you want to me right now -- even take out all of my teeth -- just don't take away this feeling." It was wild. I've never taken drugs, and that thought, which is still so clear to me, was so strong. It was then that I realized that I probably have a very addictive personality and I'm fortunate that I never experimented with drugs. (I'm not necessarily against others taking drugs; it's not my business what others do. I just know that it's not what I personally should do given this reaction to a single dose of this drug.)
I agree I chose different and I wish I had made a different decision. Now I have 4years. Sober and I feel free and forgiven. Thank you. Blessings Be.
Nitrous has always given me bad nausea, probably because I have stomach problems already, so it has never been my thing, but it definitely has a way of taking away anxiety and pain. They say it only affects anxiety, but it does help me with dental pain, if only because the body and mind are connected. I have chronic pain from physical causes I have (finally) proven through imaging, etc., and worry and stress ALWAYS make my pain worse. When I did develop an addiction, it was in the course of treatment for my chronic pain. Or, rather, after my pain treatment was suddenly discontinued, because my doctor left the practice without giving me a taper or referral. I can relate to Orylan, and everyone who has self-medicated any kind of physical or mental pain, loss, or anxiety. Usually, it has been intolerable for some time, before this happens. Substance Use Disorder is a complex and serious condition. It’s not caused by being stupid and not wanting the party to stop, so I hope Orylan completely tunes out anyone who doesn’t understand. It’s cool that you can appreciate how powerful nitrous oxide can be. If one’s brain is in a state of chemical imbalance before trying it, it will be even more powerful, because it (or whatever substance) can level things out, temporarily. The more I study and learn about it, the more firmly I believe that Substance Use Disorder is no one’s fault. It’s a disorder, and it does not discriminate. I would not have guessed Orylan would be affected by it, because you can’t! It can happen to anyone. Like her, I didn’t have any trouble putting substances I had tried down, and figured I didn’t have an addictive personality…until the wrong one was introduced. Everyone’s chemistry is different, so if we try a drug that is supposed to addict people in one use and it doesn’t, and have never used alcohol compulsively or liked weed (I didn’t either), it’s too easy to believe it doesn’t affect us. It’s probably a good thing, for you, that you were able to grasp the incredible hold a substance can have on a person, in the dentist’s chair. I wish I had known methadone clinics treat pain, when my doctor moved, because the whole destructive next decade of my life would never have happened. It would save people a lot of trouble, if a pamphlet with alternative treatment and addiction resources was given out, at pain clinics, in case a patient’s care is interrupted, and/or they become addicted, rather than waiting for people to find out, in court ordered treatment…after they have lost their careers and clean legal records. That’s where I found out about Suboxone, which covers some of my pain, without developing tolerance (due to how it’s formulated) and am continually tested, which helps me stay away from other substances. I guess, for nitrous, medically assisted treatment might mean mental health care., but that applies to any substance, as 95% of patients in SUD treatment, in my local area, are also taking medication for a major mental illness. The dentist’s office would do well to give out a mental health and addiction resources pamphlet, too. As a society, we need to remove the stigma, and realize this is a disorder anyone can develop, at any time and make sure they have resources and support for their recovery!
@@sciencenotsrigma I'm so sorry that you had to go through all of this. I'm glad that you've come out on the other side with the wisdom to be able to communicate your experiences to others who it might help.
I remember getting my wisdom teeth extracted and the feeling of pure bliss I had in that dental chair. I could definitely see how people chase that 💯
I can't help but be jealous. I had a couple obgyn procedures this year under nitrous oxide and it barely helped. It causes some dissociation, confusion, a bit of numbing, but still traumatizing. Never again.
This girl just saved me! Thank you!!!
You are an absolute Angel for being so transparent and so sincere in sharing your story and spreading awareness to the collective. I had no idea how dangerous Nitrous was until just now.
"I planned to pass away on my birthday,"
Damn, that hits the feelings.
She lies about everything for attention
Lol
She's trying to get attention and she's so overweight and has trouble breathing due to obesity.
She ruined herself I think she has a lot of guilt
@@FLBeautyQueen agreed, it was for attention.
Haven't even watched yet, but the portrait on this Lady is insanely striking. Good job, Mark.
An amazing portrait shot.Great interview
I used to watch her channel for a bit, she made so much videos convincing her audience and herself how much she loves her family and their "love" for her .Truth always finds its way whether u like it or not,girl.
People with borderline personality tend to have tumultuous relationships with people closest to them to put it lightly
Whats her channel name
@@pepinyostep3592it’s house her name, Orylan
Yes, it does. Like these people who are in the Maga Cult and Trump. They will see.
@@pepinyostep3592just search her name
You learn something every day. Mark went to punk rock shows in the early days.
Hey Mark, see if you can find an old punk to interview. Cheers from NZ.
🔥🔥
That’s where he started his photography career, back as a young dude in Chicago, going to punk shows and such. He’s always been attracted to the “underbelly” if you will
Check out the Merle Allin interviews
Love punk, it never dies, just gets harder to find
mark did every drug and fugged every bitch
“I thought addiction wasn’t real” 😮 it’s soooooooo REAL doll !!! Never make fun of someone suffering it will happen to you . I’ve seen it happen
Don't be stupid. Life doesn't work that way. Things don't just "happen" most of the time. She actively did this to herself...
My husbands coworker was in a head on collision with a semi truck. He was on the job driving from one job to the other. When they investigated the wreck, they found dust off cans, so they determined he was probably huffing while driving and blacked out. He sadly passed away. This was the first time I heard of it.
Im so glad she is here to share her story, the dangers associated with this and her struggles. She is so brave, this is not easy❤
I’ve been subbed to your account for years and I’ve always waited for the day that interview would be done on this. I’m addicted to nitrous oxide and it’s been such a struggle. I’m in recovery ( 13 days sober) but it’s been so hard to quit!
i have struggled also with 9 2kg cilindrs a day at my worst, try to take at least 2000mcg b12 a day to compensate for the inactive b12 and stay out of a wheelchair, i am clean for over half a year now and its the worst addiction to come off from, i used 3mmc as a means to stop this addiction. 3mmc is much better managable and its effects are not so destructive for your body.
You just want to escape reality really bad, it's not addictive lol.
congrats on the 13 days so far that's huge, hope your journey continues to go well!
You should be incredibly proud of yourself! We can & do recover!!
@candyrockz u got this beautiful keep going loves ❤I fought a addiction for years and finally got clean and was homeless and my husband and I bought a house 2yrs ago do keep choosing to do the right thing it's not easy but worth it ❤MUCH LOVES TO EVERYONE ❤
Girl I am so proud of you. What a beautiful testimony. Not only does the most high have a hand over your while existence, not only did/are YOU over coming your addiction, you came on here to spread awareness so authentically. Baby, you are going place. I love you, you be strong and keep fighting🙌🏾
People who own tattoo studios make a ton of money. It's great she has recovered and is working again.
She probably makes most of her money on OF
She's not a tattoo artist. She's a stripper. She just dated one which is why she has all of the work.
Most tattooed people should be paying for actual talk therapy instead of whatever ludicrous 'therapy' tattoos are.
She's a stripper at one of the worst clubs in Houston not a tattoo artist. What's sad is that she's messed up her body so much that not even mid-tier clubs would hire her due to looking that way but at the same time it's now the only thing she can make money off of bc it's so extreme. Let's face it, she's not exactly running on all 4 cylinders here.
Ive watched her on many different platforms and ive grown to like and respect her. She gets alot of hate but she continues to tell her story and educate people on whipits. I appreciate her honesty and vulnerability ❤
Is this the split tongue chick on Facebook who trolls people with her little microphone??? I think it is… I’ll watch her sometimes but sometimes she trolls too hard and is annoying so I’ll have to swipe past her…
Been a clean opiate addict for 14 years and thankful everyday. 20 years of my life living in hell. Nothing but hard work,medication ,and fighting everyday is only way to make a life. Never forget where u were. Good luck
This woman is so brave to come out and share her story. It inspires others to get help and choose life. You are awesome and there are thousands of us out there who adore you! Stay safe! ❤
A guy ran into my house after taking a hit of it driving. He took a hit.. turned on my street… passed out with his foot on the gas pedal pushed to the floor and ran into my house
Wow... surreal. I'm glad you were ok.... I just pray they stay out of vehicles
I’m so glad you didn’t get hurt.
Ive seen many young people doing it say their parked cars around where I live. I have to imagine they’re driving on it too. Wild
I’m glad you’re okay ❤
... drove into ...
Hi Orylan, I sense that you are a beautiful being, thank you for giving some time to bless the viewers with your experience.
Aaron Carter also passed away from huffing. God rest his soul. And thank you to this young lady for sharing awareness.
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IP2 ALWAYS WINS!! 🌚
That nigga got whacked for attempting to be a whistleblower
I heard he was going to relase a book with a lot of secrets about people in high places
@@beesafesweetheart8738interesting. I haven't heard that before. But honestly it wouldn't surprise me.
Her saying she can’t complain about depression and anxiety because everyone has it nowadays makes me realize how much society has failed us young people. Anxiety and depression is not a normal state of being!!! Please listen to close ones who struggle with this and don’t downplay the severity. We all have different thresholds for struggle. ♥️
The best gift she gave herself on her Birthday. Don’t listen to the weight comments people are disgusting to judge. No matter how many times it takes,to keep on with sobriety please continue to give yourself the gift of life. Thank you for sharing your story. Helped to educate me more on this substance. I have 2 teens I need to keep up with.
You don’t judge do you?
stop white knighting
I think the weight looks good on her
I think Kanye West was accused of being addicted to this!?!
I'm a recovering addict. On October 17th 2024 was my 3yr clean & sober date. It feels so good being sober. Never thought in a million years I would be clean. That heart is really cool 🖤
Orylan you're one amazing person.
Many blessings to you my friend ✨🤍
Orylan, I hope you get to read this. I'm glad to see you're doing better. Take good care of yourself.
this is "doing better?"
@@xreediculousxbetter than hospital yeah
The fact that this is just *available in a store* is craaaazyyyy
Alcohol? Tobacco? OTC drugs? Half the products in the cleaning isle at Walmart? Drugs have been sold in stores since the dawn of B&M stores.
The fact people are abusing nitrous oxide is crazy. What idiots
I know! And now kids are drinking small cinnamon extract bottles to get high! The things that are happening today is crazy !
@@parisscott777 You know kids could buy opium in pharmacies not too long ago. This is not a new phenomenon by any standard. Drugs have always been a thing and will always be a thing. As will kids using them.
But alcohol is alright huh?
She said this year she actually found demons and the devil. I pray for her deliverance.
I think she was talking about the whippets but yea that caught my attention too.
Nah, that was not a euphemism. Listen to the Exorcist Files. The occult is full of fake shit, but demons are real and opening doors to that shit is actually dangerous.
she look like one
What's going on with her eyes? I hope she stays sober and wish her the best.
@@sct296her eyeballs are tattooed
Love seeing you happy and sober! Keep it up!
I use to do them once in awhile in my rave days, it only last like 45 seconds and doesn’t feel that great, i cant believe people get addicted to it
Same wtf lol
It’s a child’s drug. Hence what you see here.
Agreed, I did it when I was a teen.
Maybe that was real nitrous and this isn't 🤷♀️. I just don't believe her.
Same. I'm so surprised that people are addicted! What!
Mental illness and addiction with low self-esteem unfortunately. I'm sure she's self aware. But hopefully she does better. Peace and love, right?
I don't think she is self aware... she ruined her life in less than 5 years. That's some incredible degree of ignorance.
Probably BPD or Bipolar
@@InteractiveIdea freudian slip much?
@@myredpencil I have dyslexia. I sometimes don't see the errors while staring right at them.
Right. Peace and love
Orylan i am very glad youre still here with us to tell the story of your very real and horrible addiction. Please stay strong.
Good job on getting off that. Thank you for talking about your struggles and about being able to quit it. Hopefully this will inspire others to try and quit.
My stepson is addicted to whippits, I despise the sound of that can seeing what its done to him
Your stepson should try actual drugs instead of that dumbsht.
Thank goodness I don't like it. Tried it a couple times when friends had it and I just don't get it. I also dated a heroin addict and didn't get that either (didn't even see real weed until I met him) but im terrified of needles so that helped
@@snuff2023 why would you say this to someone who's son is going through this. Weird.
My thoughts and positivity go out to you Lin. Hopefully he recovers❤️
@@snuff2023 Me, me me!
i can’t believe this is the same person, i was shocked to see her like this
I was following Orylan for a while and she seemed so self-possessed and healthy, I wasn’t worried about her at all, except for the usual shit that we go through, dancing in clubs and dealing with guys, online, but she has a great understanding of what that is and what it isn’t. I didn’t realize it had been so long since I visited her channel, and I had no idea she was struggling. This just goes to show that addiction can happen to anybody. I am so glad she has found recovery!
I didn’t realize it had been so long since I’ve visited her channel. I have a similar background to hers, in the industry, but my experience was more on the streets, at the beginning. She really has a good understanding of what it is and isn’t, and has what it takes to persevere. I can relate to not being concerned about becoming addicted, because I wasn’t into drugs…until I used the wrong one. I’m so glad Orylan has found recovery! There will be really strong cravings, but for me, they got fewer and farther between, starting at about 6 months, and again at 1 1/2 but it would still happen, for about 3 years. Then, it was like having a full factory reset, like the neuroscience research says. And if you have a lapse, you don’t have to start all over with the healing unless it becomes a relapse, though I’m sure it doesn’t help, but it’s not the end of the world. Having a plan for what to do and who to talk to if that happens really helps. I hope she reads some of the new scientific based information for people struggling with Substance Use Disorders…it helped me so much. Love and compassion are much more effective than shaming and stigma, so please be kind to yourself, Orylan, and lots of love from someone who has been there! ❤. You got this.
She was screwed up the last time you saw her she just wasn't admitting it.
Same!!!!
@@sciencenotsrigma You saw all those tattoos and body modifications on a beautiful young woman, and you weren't worried about her at all?
0830 she attributes the problems to "fake" nitro.
You will often notice this problem with addicts of any kind. I collapsed because the joint was laced. I OD'd because the thing was spiked/tainted/contaminated/tampered with.
Best thing is to kick the dangerous habit entirely.
Thank you for sharing your story! I cannot explain how important this is, especially right now. The flavor is the worst thing to have happened to this drug.
I’ve never done whippets but I’ve been hooked on pills. I’ve been clean for 12 years or so now. I quit counting. It’s always one day at a time, sometimes one minute at a time. It ruined my teeth. Before my Dad died, he begged me to let him pay for dentures. I told him that although I usually don’t have any cravings, the urge creeps in from time to time and all I have to do is look in the mirror and the urge disappears. I have 2 grandkids that I want to be around as much as possible. Stay the course young lady. You will be fine. The Good Lord has a purpose for you being here. Just keep up the great work and focus on yourself. Don’t sweat what folks say. The saying “What goes around, comes around is terribly true. Much love and prayers for your continued recovery, protection , and healing. 🤙🤙
Ive followed Orylan for a couple of years now roughly, and saw her struggle and blogging from hospital. I'm so so glad to see her back here and talking about what she went through! Get back on your shit girl you got this 🖤🖤🖤
Wishing everyone a stress free day!!
Love from Belgrade, Serbia!
Thank you Mark, for all the work you do for us
Same to you. God bless you
Thanks from north Florida usa
Thanks from Cedar Rapids,Iowa USA. God bless you!
Thank you from Florida! Much love 💛
Wishing you all a joyous day! Much love from Alabama, USA 🥰💜🤗
I'm pretty sure I have seen this lady float around going viral on tik Tok about a couple years ago, and despite the comment section trying to downgrade her for how she looks, I still think she's beautiful because the way her soul portrayed what's the favorite light-hearted and passionate, kind of what you see in this very video. I'm actually very happy that she is thriving much better
I found Orylan from your very first interview with her and loved her ever since! She’s such a free spirit, unapologetically herself, and not afraid to tell it how it is. I’m so happy she lived through her addiction in order to speak on it and tell her story, to hopefully educate someone else going through something similar and spread awareness on it. Many blessings to you, Orylan, and never stop being true to yourself and using your voice! No one is perfect and for the ones that only see what we have on the outside will be surprised to know what they take with them to the afterlife. Nothing but your spirit ✨Don’t let anyone dull yours!
she hates herself moron.
Orylan, I've been following you since your first interview with Mark. I also follow your instagram. I've been worried for you for several months because I haven't seen you posting IG. Please, please take care of yourself. You're my daughters age and my heart is with you. I remember your interview with your mom, and grandmother. Stay close to them, they love you so much. Keep up the good work, and thank you for telling your story and warning others of the harm this drug can do, take care, sweetie
Total waste of advice.
Yes, your growth and courage to get clean will inspire so many people!
Do you follow her on TikTok? She’s been active on there n going live ❤
@@Vistacraft82Well then why don’t you enlighten us there, genius? Useless comment
@@Vistacraft82 Maybe it's wasted on you...
I truly hope this beautiful person is able to flourish in their sobriety. Thank you for sharing your story. You explain addiction so well and I hope it helps others to understand what it is like. Stay strong 💕
Im in shock with this and Isaac :/ but Wow Gracias for share ❤ this is high voltage interview ^^
I worked at Walmart for 9 years. People would steal duster and huff it. One night we caught a guy and we called the cops my manager wanted to press charges in hopes to help the young man better his life instead of just letting him continue. A few days later they found him dead in a car across the street (it was a car dealership). It's awful seeing people struggle and need help
So sad 😢 The Walmart where I live is also across the street from a car lot .
We had a guy when I worked at wal mart who would drink hand sanitizer he died in the store
That's still good that they didn't press charges.. cops don't think twice before ruining people's lives with that stuff. RIP
Every one of these videos teaches so much and I admire the courage it takes to share these stories. I live a quiet life and I wish I could do more than sympathize.
@@jantexas yes i agree totally very informative information
Addiction is a bitch. Been battling it all my life. I get addicted to anything as soon as I try it. But luckily whippets or coke does nothing for me, and I do mean luckily, I beat alcohol but I can't imagine battling stronger stuff and winning. Stay sober, stay fresh. Please choose life ❤
Same. Amen
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There's a lot of us in the shadows but addictive personality is a bitch and an illness amen
I've watched allot of these videos but this girl has something. A drive within her that will surely make her great and successful!! You Go Guuuuuuurl!!!❤❤❤
Really happy you made it out orlan. Please stay away from that stuff
For what it's worth [ Im a psychologist ] this young woman is suffering from a number of issues that are running untreated. Please don't judge her. - but please don't idolise her. It's a cautionary tale of self destruction , body dismorphia, suicide ideation, substance abuse and possible BPD. I sincerely hope she gets ongoing psychiatric support and thank goodness she has parental support.
I'd bet my house she's BPD
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Who asked you?
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Hmmm. I see. You're a psychologist and just put out your diagnosis based on a YT video. How unprofessional and nobody cares about your OPINION
It's like watching someone flush themselves down the toilet in real time. Sad.
She said she used to be 125lb now shes 180lb nah she at least 220lb
@@eyezikandexploits she's probably short. everyone's body carries weight differently. there's really no need to speculate. why would she lie about that
We think of most people as the same, but there are some very fragile, thin skinned individuals that need help which includes physical, as well as mental health and kind words, and a smile goes along ways, all of that to some of these thin skinned people. The rest of us just kind of keep soldering on take the beating and move forward, it develops a thicker skin, etc., but some people are so very fragile.
I seen her before she started getting tat's, she use to be the perfect looking girl
@@Charles-ij1owhow she looks isn’t her problem
I hope you stay clean. I can tell you have a warm spirits. You have the same birthday as my sister and a day after mine! I know you got this I am praying for you!❤
I've been following her a while and I am SO proud of her recovery and that she's speaking out about it now. I think she is a genuinely beautiful soul and I know she will save lives being so honest and open. Doesn't matter what anyone thinks of you girl. You keep doing you. Your soul is genuine and I am rooting you on. You're going to help so many people. Plus, I'm a fellow Aries 🤗❤ So happy you're still here with us. Keep on shining love.
Thank you for recording and posting this valuable educational video. Wishing you peace and prosperity in your future.
This girl breaks my heart. Her selfdestruction is on another level then most of the others telling their story here.
What do you think as a parent seeing your kid like this?
she is also doing only fans, tattooing her whole self, struggling with addiction (like 2 months isn't that long to be sober). She might go back to it when the depression of only fans hit and the depression of having no family (no husband or kids). Oh May God save her. She is far from okay.
Only fans is one of the saddest rabbit holes that so many are falling down without realizing it. It soul robbing the worst choice you could make.
@@livingintheforest3963 I hope women stop selling themselves especially since they are in well off countries. Imagine what they would do if they lived in my country Nigeria? People will die to come to America, but Americans are throwing their lives away. It's a great confusion going on.
This is important to share and takes a lot of courage. Great message for everyone.
I appreciate her and this channel raise awareness about this addiction.
There was a point in my life that i hated everything, I used to use this gas to numb my mental pain, luckily i was not that addicted to get myself into the hospital, but i twitched a quite a lot of times and passed out without knowing. Then i knew i gotta stop, my current man has finally helped me got out of that hole and i look better than before. I thought to myself, i could have died or have medical complications if i havent met him.
Addiction is real, mental health is real, so please whoever is going through any of that, please seek help fr. Whoever is going through sobriety, good for you and we're all proud of you.
Yall stay safe.
She would always repeat in every video or live “I’m not on drugs” raised a red flag for me cause someone who’s not on anything won’t feel the need to repeat “I’m sober” every day…let’s not talk about the whole alien demon she claimed she was
Dude when that’s all people ask you you would 100% start every conversation with I’m clean. Not everyone has thousands of people asking them the same question over and over.
I was wondering what was up with her coughing and hugging and some ticks she had in this video..
@@KendallM0219no you don’t. She was only saying it to make herself feel better about using.
Am i the only one bothered by her saying whipits are more addictive than meth?
No, you're not the only one. It's got to be a joke.
Nope! That got me too. I had to replay that part, I couldn’t believe my ears. 😂 It made more sense as to why I was confused, after she reminded us that she still to this day has never tried hard drugs. I’m not knocking her, I wish her only the best, but she has no idea. I hope that it stays that way
It’s because it’s all about her experience and the attention she receives.
That was insulting 😂 she literally said she hasn’t tried any other drugs
Totally depends on the person in my opinion.. and how the brain responds to it he substance. I did meth for 6 months straight and then maybe a year off and on. No physical withdrawals of meth besides very tired and depressed. Not being able to sleep or eat and looking terrible - add in the extreme paranoia and anxiety after a bender made it really easy for me to quit. Nitrous was just so relaxing to me that when after a day of work and helped me sleep and was sooo accessible it was hard to not buy more. Just MY experience. Some people hate nitrous and don’t understand why anyone would use it recreationally.
Thank you for being honest… your story will help many…❤
I'd like to bring some light to the gas she is talking about. This is a gas that is used for inhaled anesthesia (primarily in dental clinics). Most people know of it as "Laughing Gas". In a dental setting this is a great drug but is normally given with a steady rate of oxygen to prevent any complications. Daily use can be dangerous and habit forming. What they sell in these dispensaries and tobacco shops are meant for culinary use only as a propelling to make whipping cream. These brands are not safe for human use as they have not been evaluated per the FDA for use as an inhaled medical gas. This gas also depletes your vitamin B-12 and can cause paralysis. It deprives your body of oxygen, which is so dangerous and can lead to clots, strokes, embolism. You can randomly pass out while using so it's very unsafe to be sitting, standing, or driving while using. Please follow her advice and do research to reduce harm to yourself if you do use or are thinking of using these gases recreationally.
It also causes memory loss and infertility.
It can deprive the body of oxygen, just like another well-known gas: carbon monoxide. Both are potentially lethal. Even at lower levels, chronic exposure to either can cause damage.
Just to clarify - the nitrous didn’t fill her up and make her gain weight. She said in another interview that the nitrous makes you hungry and she was driving to various fast food places and bingeing.
She looks cute either way
@@JoyDavidson agree! Just wanted to clarify for folks that it's not the nitrous gas actually physically filling up her body but that it depleated her body of nutrients and made her extremely hungry and therefore want to eat.
Yaa I thought that was a bit weird..what's with these off brand Chinese nitrous cans she's talking about never heard of that either with the food oils and what not?(it's been a while I haven't done nitrous in about 6 to 8 years so)
Lmfao people thought it was “filling up her body”? What a bunch of absolute idiots
The portrait is so good, Mark!
I’m glad to see you are doing better, Orylan! What you went through with the whippets is so incredibly scary. Wishing you all the best with your new studio. 🖤✨
Thank you ❤
I couldn't help but like this woman she is so open and honest. I wish her all the best for the future.