“Sleep in your car while you’re driving” is the most perfectly beautiful, simple metaphor. You completely trust that person with your life even though they could end it an instant. When the relationship is ending, you’re always awake, always aware of any slight or deception, always arguing or “talking” about something, because that trust and love is gone.
“I don’t want to talk about anything.” This!!! I would choose your silence over anybody’s voice. I feel such an overwhelming amount of comfort just laying by your side in silence. Your presence alone brings me an indescribable warmth and a sense of joy I don’t feel when I’m around anybody else. I just want to be with YOU.
That’s all we can ask for such a simple but sweet feeling to have with someone. It’s so simple and feels so easy when you have it but when it fades it’s gut wrenching.
@@goldjoinery and the branches grow apart from each other going different ways, not knowing how or when they will break but the only way back to each other was the roots.
the song is so the feeling of “it’s so high, it can only go down from there” type feeling. she lists all these beautiful things and bittersweet memories after. this song is just so gorgeous and i find myself coming back to it every five seconds.
"i wanna listen to the sound of you blinking listen to your hands soothe listen to your heart beating listen to the way you move"... i know im in love with someone when i want to listen to songs like this with them.
i recently broke up with my gf, for many reasons, one of them being how we were both horribly broken people who kept hurting each other no matter how hard we tried not to. i always thought of her when i listened to this song, and although i don't regret ending it with her (for our own mental health), i miss her horribly. i wonder what could have been between us
This is how I stand longingly wishing for someone to love me the way I need to be loved without having to tell them. How I wish for someone to understand me without me saying what's going on. How I hope for someone to tell me, "I know" when I am upset about something and crying. How I just need someone to get me. But I was only able to find that in the mental hospital with other broken kids and teens. We were allowed to be broken together and it was comforting.
I find myself revisiting this song whenever I think of hurting myself, it's filled with so much love that I feel cared for while listening to it. The fog lifts a little. Thank you, Adrianne, for sharing your heart and art with us. ❤
the little noise at 2:53 and the way the background music gets a little louder 😩😩 MASTERPIECE
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Staring down the barrel of the hot sun Shining with the sheen of a shotgun Carol has a little if we need some Joe has a ride, if we wanna come Hanging your jeans with a clothes pin Skin still wet still on my skin Mango in your mouth, juice dripping Shoulder of your shirtsleeve slipping Christmas eve with your mother and sis Don't wanna fight but your mother insists Dog's white teeth slice right into my fist Drive to the ER and you put me on risk Grocery store list, now you get this Brunch, had calls and messages I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy I just wanna be a part of your family And I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay on your lap when I'm crying Circle of pine and riddle Circle of moss and fire smoke Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke Push the clutch in and I pull the choke Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking Wanna listen your to hands soothe Listen to your heart beating Listen to the way you move And I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay on your lap when I'm crying Ordering the stars in Heaven Hurling salt in the sea Dragging a new-born mountain Didn't you believe in me? You held me the whole way through When I couldn't say the words like you I was scared indigo, but I wanted to I was scared indigo, but I wanted to And I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay on your lap when I'm crying
One of the last things my ex husband said to me was that I was a failure of a woman for not bringing a child into the world with him, he is an addict and struggles with alcoholism. He was my best friend for 11 years and we were married for 3 years and in the last year of our time spent together I watched him become someone I didn’t know, my dear friend Rudy recommended this album to me not knowing how much heartache I was going through as I watched my best friend slip away right before my eyes and there was nothing I could do to fix it or change what happened. It hurts me everyday.
Staring down the barrel of the hot sun Shining with the sheen of a shotgun Carol has a little if we need some Joyous rays, we wanna come Hanging your jeans with a clothes pin Skin still wet still on my skin Mango in your mouth, juice dripping Shoulder of your shirtsleeve slipping Christmas eve with your mother and sis Don't wanna fight but your mother insists Dog’s white teeth slice right into my fist Drive to the ER and you put me on my wrist Grocery store list, now you get this Brunch, had calls and messages I don’t wanna be the owner of your fantasy I just wanna be a part of your family And I don’t wanna talk about anything I don’t wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don’t wanna talk about anyone I don’t wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you’re driving Lay on your lap whеn I’m crying Circle of pine and riddle Circlе of moss and fire smoke Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke Push the clutch in and I pull the choke Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking Wanna listen your hands soothe Listen to your heart beating Listen to the way you move And I don’t wanna talk about anything I don’t wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don’t wanna talk about anyone I don’t wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you’re driving Lay on your lap when I’m crying Ordering the stars in Heaven Hurling salt in the sea Dragging a new-born mountain Didn’t you believe in me? You held me the whole way through When I couldn’t say the words like you I was scared indigo go but I wanted to I was scared indigo go but I wanted to And I don’t wanna talk about anything I don’t wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don’t wanna talk about anyone I don’t wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you’re driving Lay on your lap when I’m crying
It's crazy that it took tiktok to make her more well known, but I'm so glad for her. She's so underrated; raw, pure emotion goes into her every song...
This song has the same feeling of how I got into a fight with my mom when we were at my aunt and uncles, and I tried to tell her what was wrong but she got mad cause she couldn't understand what I meant so I went upstairs and cried and tried to fall asleep cause it was late but I couldnt sleep through the tears. Thats when my aunt ( dads sister ) came upstairs to talk to me, we have never been super close besides the past 2 years, she listened to me without getting angry, she hugged me while I sobbed about everything wrong in my life, family stuff, my lack of friends, my poor body image, bullying from boys and so on. She told me about her teenage years but most importantly she listened to me and made me feel heard, told me she loved me and that she was proud of me while she wiped away my tears until I had none left to cry, she told me to get some rest and went back downstairs. A conversation I will never forget I am so grateful for her.
Adrianne’s new album is one of the most beautiful albums i’ve ever heard in my life. it feels like a folk classic, one of those albums we will look back on in decades time as a monumental achievement in songwriting.
i listened to this song on christmas eve with my mother and sis and sorta living the song was just as cool as you could imagine . it was like 7 pm and we were in the car driving around looking at people in our neighborhoods decorations, we went home and made hot cocoa after
I literally typed the word ‘Anthing’ in my iTunes music search bar as I wanted to listen to anything. This track was first on the list. Glad I discovered it. I have listened to other Adrianne Lenker tracks since, though this one is my favourite. A sense of sincerity in the lyrics and delivery of the vocals. Clever syncopation between vocals and music too. Very good. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
i was in a mental behavioral hospital after my 3rd attempt .. after a week i just broke down and felt so hopeless in the moment but one of the techs took me to the calm down room and told me how much she appreciated me for being so kind and strong then played this song telling me it is her favorite, after that day i tried my hardest to keep going 💗 i love you SO MUCH mrs kansas.
anything could have you bawling and sobbing, anything could also have you appreciate life and it's beautiful features while listening to it on your way home on the train with the sun hitting your skin, anything could have you feel less lonely while you eat dinner alone. anything could have you think about your favorite person before sleeping. anything = masterpiece
i suppose love is a very vague concept with multiple definitions, yet it feels like it's embedded into every word and melody of this song. i keep thinking of him
0:30 it was christmas eve, i must’ve been about 7 or 8 and my parents we’re fighting, when they did this i would hide under the stairs so they’re we were, me and my older sister, frightened. my sister came out after my dad left begging my mum to stop because it was christmas, my mum quickly diverted her anger to my sister. i dont remember what happened after that but my sister left when she was 16.. i havent spoken to her in 5 years but i will always love her for protecting me.
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0:000:01 0:07 Staring down the barrel of the hot sun 熱い太陽の銃口をじっと見つめていると 0:10 Shining with the sheen of a shotgun (Shotgun) ショットガンのように艶めいて見えた 0:13 Carol has a little if we need some ちょっと吸いたいときはキャロルからもらい、 0:16 Joa has a ride if we wanna come 遊びに行きたいときはジョアに迎えに来てもらう 0:19 Hanging your jeans with a clothespin あなたのジーンズは洗濯ばさみで吊るしてある 0:22 Skin still wet, still on my skin まだ肌は濡れたまま、肌には水分が残ったまま 0:25 Mango in your mouth, juice drippin' マンゴーを食べるとあなたの口には果汁が溢れて 0:27 Shoulder of your shirt, sleeve slippin' ずれたシャツからはあなたの肩が覗いている 0:30 Christmas Eve with your mother and sis あなたのお母さんと妹と過ごしたクリスマスイブ 0:34 Don't wanna fight but your mother insists 喧嘩するつもりはなかった、でもお母さんが言うから仕方ないじゃない 0:36 Dog's white teeth slice right through my fist 犬の白い歯が私の拳を切り裂いて 0:39 Drive to the ER and they put me on risk 救急治療室へ車で運ばれ、危ない目に遭った 0:43 Grocery store list, now you get pissed 買い物リストの次にあなたの機嫌を損ねたのは 0:45 Unchecked calls and messages 不在着信と未読のメッセージ 0:47 I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy 私はあなたのファンタジーの主人になりたいんじゃない 0:50 I just wanna be a part of your family あなたの家族になりたいの 0:53 And I don't wanna talk about anything もう何も話したくない 0:56 I don't wanna talk about anything もう何も話したくない 0:59 I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again もう一度そのまぶたにキスがしたい 1:02 Wanna witness your eyes looking その目が見ているものを見たい 1:05 I don't wanna talk about anyonе もう誰の話もしたくない 1:08 I don't wanna talk about anyone もう誰の話もしたくない 1:10 I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving あなたが運転する車で眠りたい 1:14 Lay in your lap whеn I'm crying あなたの膝を枕にして泣きたい 1:17 Circle of pine and red oak 松とレッドオークに囲まれて 1:20 Circle of moss and fire smoke 苔と煙に囲まれて 1:22 Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke 天井のファンは車輪のスポークに似てる 1:25 Push the clutch and I pull the choke 私はクラッチを押し、チョークを引いた 1:28 Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking あなたが瞬きする音が聞きたい 1:14 Wanna listen to your hands soothe あなたの手が撫でる音が聞きたい 1:34 Listen to your heart beating あなたの心臓の音が聞きたい 1:37 Listen to the way you move あなたが動く音が聞きたい 1:40 And I don't wanna talk about anything もう何も話したくない 1:43 I don't wanna talk about anything もう何も話したくない 1:45 I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again もう一度そのまぶたにキスがしたい 1:48 Wanna witness your eyes looking その目が見ているものを見たい 1:51 I don't wanna talk about anyonе もう誰の話もしたくない 1:54 I don't wanna talk about anyone もう誰の話もしたくない 1:57 I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving あなたが運転する車で眠りたい 2:00 Lay in your lap whеn I'm crying あなたの膝を枕にして泣きたい 2:14 Weren't we the stars in Heaven? 私たちは天国に輝く星ではなかったのかな 2:17 Weren't we the salt in the sea? 私たちは海を漂う塩ではなかったのかな 2:20 Dragon in the new warm mountain 春が芽吹く山のドラゴンではなかったのかな 2:23 Didn't you believe in me? あなたは私を信じてくれなかったのかな 2:25 You held me the whole way through あなたはずっと私を抱きしめていたけど 2:27 But I couldn't say the words like you 私はあなたが言いそうなことを言えなかった 2:31 I was scared, Indigo, but I wanted to インディゴ、私は怖かったの、でも言いたかったよ 2:34 I was scared, Indigo, but I wanted to インディゴ、私は怖かったの、でも言いたかったよ 2:37 And I don't wanna talk about anything もう何も話したくない 2:40 I don't wanna talk about anything もう何も話したくない 2:43 I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again もう一度そのまぶたにキスがしたい 2:46 Wanna witness your eyes looking その目が見ているものを見たい 2:49 I don't wanna talk about anyonе もう誰の話もしたくない 2:51 I don't wanna talk about anyone もう誰の話もしたくない 2:54 I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving あなたが運転する車で眠りたい 2:57 Lay in your lap whеn I'm crying あなたの膝を枕にして泣きたい
The first time I listened to this song was 2 months ago on 2 tabs. I was surrounded by sunlight, and birds were chirping all around me. I haven’t been the same since.
This girl has brought something out in me that I didn’t know I had anymore. Nobody else has ever made me feel so in love. Her voice, her smile, her eyes, she is the perfect girl. Because of her, I finally know what it feels like to feel completely content and safe.
as someone who fell in love with my best friend i swear on my life i have had these exact thoughts and i thank you for using your amazing artistic ability to capture these exact thoughts for me and many others alike, you even did it better than i could ever do with your beautiful lyrical composition. Thank you.
This floored me. Such ethereal bittersweet beauty Lyrics are pure poetry. ~ Tears flow. As our love is deep, we will only grow. Much love, healing and peace to all. 💙 Blue
This song as well just reminds me of that special girl. I miss her so much, and want her to come back so badly. I want to live my life with her, and I hope she always remembers I love her a lot and forever.
this song really sounds like the feeling of loss to me but its nice that someone else knows the feeling just to know you aren't alone and that its universal
i know this is about a relationship, but this remindes me of my little cousin when i was about 6, he was newborn, and he was everything to me. "i just wanna be a part of your family" remindes me of when i wanted to be included in my dad's part of the family and i didn't feel like part of it. this song is a masterpiece, i absolutely love it, makes me sob every time and it's my most listened song in spotify
My friend is one of the most beautiful girls I have ever seen. When we were both in our early teenage years (12 or 13ish) we were sat on a branch of a willow tree as the sun set. We were talking about so many things and in that moment I fell completely in love with her. I asked her to be my girlfriend shortly after and she said yes. We went back to hers and watched cloudy with a chance of meatballs on her couch. We both fell asleep and the next morning we awoke and realised we didn't want to be together, she genuinely didn't, but I was just doubtful. We called it off and are still friends now. She's grown so much since that night, she has a boyfriend now, she lost her virginity, she's an addict now, too. But I still see her as that beautiful girl absolutely glowing in the evening sun on that branch, I'll never tell her this, but I wish we hadn't have broken up. I don't know what would have happened to us if it had progressed from a funny memory to joke about together, but I wish I could've stayed to see. I love her with all my heart and this song reminds me so much of her. Especially 'I was scared indigo, but I wanted to'. I wanted and still want to be with her more than anything, but I was scared and still am. I'll forever be too scared to tell her how I feel. I have a boyfriend too and I'm not even sure she's bi. But it sucks that we could've loved eachother so much.
as a person who lost the gratest love i had, i know it's hard, but you can still reach her, it is never too late ! life is short and some things matter more than we think and other matter way less, i would say talk to her about how you feel, she should know, and who knows maybe she feels the same
Beautiful, just sat with a person I’d always liked, never been treated so nicely so genuinely genuine. Thank you, this song had me tear up. Feeling good,
I feel like a child lost in a park, not remembering which road led to home. My first love brought the child out of me, a pathway to home I used to follow to find them in another world that the two of us would reside in and claim as our own. They haunt me like a song, hearing them in other melodies. I hope they're still laughing with such ease as they did when I was in their company. I have forgotten how their laughter sounds like. When I was walking home the other day, I was waiting at the traffic light, and just pictured them on the other side of the road, I could envision myself running toward them with glee as I sung their name feeling my soul rejuvenate itself as our proximity closed in. I hope to feel alive again, I hope my soul slowly returns its way home. And even as I move on with life, I will carry a piece of them forever, for they opened my heart to the world.
Tears just came this morning while i was listening to this while driving. Actually I was listening to my friend cover it. What a beautiful song. Now I see the comments its nice to know i'm not the only one
“I don’t wanna be the owner of your fantasy, I just wanna be apart of your family…” hits hard to much, Those beautiful words came out of HER mouth. I personally Love her songs, I’m in love with her, she sings beautifully, but honestly her voice sounds like butterflies in the night. Beautiful, this might be weird, but I am happy listening to this song. I don’t wanna talk about it, it’s so beautiful I don’t need to describe it. The feeling is only mutual.❤
Staring down the barrel of the hot sun Shining with the sheen of a shotgun (shotgun) Carol has a little if we need some Joa has a ride if we wanna come Hanging your jeans with a clothes pin Skin still wet, still on my skin Mango in your mouth, juice dripping Shoulder of your shirtsleeve slipping Christmas Eve with your mother and sis Don't wanna fight but your mother insists Dog's white teeth slice right into my fist Drive to the ER and they put me on risk Grocery store list, now you get this Unchecked calls and messages I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy I just wanna be a part of your family And I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay on your lap when I'm crying Circle of pine and red oak Circle of moss and fire smoke Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke Push the clutch and I pull the choke Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking Wanna listen to your hands soothe Listen to your heart beating Listen to the way you move But I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone Wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay in your lap when I'm crying Weren't we the stars in Heaven? Weren't we the salt in the sea? Dragon in the new warm mountain Didn't you believe in me? Yeah, you held me the whole way through When I couldn't say the words like you I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to And I don't wanna talk about anything I don't wanna talk about anything I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again Wanna witness your eyes looking I don't wanna talk about anyone I don't wanna talk about anyone I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving Lay in your lap when I'm crying (ooh)
ive always loved this song but something that drew me even closer to it was the connectivity with my best friend, the love of my life. we've been friends for almost 9 years now, we went to the same kindergarten and really clicked on the first day of grade 1 (we werent friends yet, she was sitting next to me and offered help coloring my schoolbook in, but she used the wrong shade of green. i still taunt her about that, that shade of green). I remember, only a few months back, we were playing roblox of all things together, and this song came on. i messaged her, "this song reminds me of you", mainly for the "you've held me the whole way through" lyric, because she really was always there for me, holding me up. i don't regret messaging that, at all. ever since that day she's been absolutely in love with this song, we've always connected each other to this song. I even have some lyrics as my messaging bio, for her. at hangouts, she'd say "turn anything on" and id play a random song, and it'd take multiple takes until i actually realise she means this song. little things like this means so much to me. anyway, the pure love I have for this girl is unreal. platonic obviously, but that doesn't matter. i love her so, so much. some nights id stay up writing stories about us, about other universes. just like this song, other universes is our thing, yknow?? its pretty silly stories, but that's fine, because yes even as rats, we'll always be together. id write poems with my novice level poetry skills about her smile, sometimes I'd get too embarrassed to show her though. i can write paragraphs about her, and even then i dont think half my love for her will get through. i mean, this is a pretty half assed one right now, lol. i dont expect people to see this, i dont care, this song means everything to me, to us, and I just wanna let it out. maybe, ill write to her after this. this song is always there for me as well, no matter how dark of a spot i am, like currently, it just gives me hope. this song gives me motivation and just gives me some light for the future. it genuinely makes me smile. I hope it does the same for her. i cant always be there for her, so instead hopefully this song is.
I love how she hardly stops singing for more than a second-the words just keep coming and overwhelming.
Did you hear a song called"Mary" with her band Big Thief? It's amazing.
@@shinybeast8946 Yeah! Very similar vocal performance.
At that point of noticing, the lyrics and singing seem like a stream of consciousness that’s so pure
i see it as being overcome with love for someone and all the feelings are washing over you as you look at them
Yes so true you explained me so perfectly
"I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy, *_I just wanna be a part of your family_* "
Right home.
❤
real
So spot on
unrelated but if thats u in ur pfp u are gorgeous
“Sleep in your car while you’re driving” is the most perfectly beautiful, simple metaphor. You completely trust that person with your life even though they could end it an instant. When the relationship is ending, you’re always awake, always aware of any slight or deception, always arguing or “talking” about something, because that trust and love is gone.
Love this. So many beautiful deep thinkers commenting on this vid. ❤️❤️❤️
fuck dude ow
💔
Could the relationship continue if love and trust is recultivated?
@@Goaterd you can always try, given it chance
“I don’t want to talk about anything.” This!!! I would choose your silence over anybody’s voice. I feel such an overwhelming amount of comfort just laying by your side in silence. Your presence alone brings me an indescribable warmth and a sense of joy I don’t feel when I’m around anybody else. I just want to be with YOU.
That’s all we can ask for such a simple but sweet feeling to have with someone. It’s so simple and feels so easy when you have it but when it fades it’s gut wrenching.
Ive been crying for the last 10 minutes, i miss him more than life but he just has no energy to rekindle us
@@AvaThomas-l2li’m so sorry, it gets better with time i promise. don’t loose hope. ❤
Ugh real, I go nonverbal a lot nd I js feel so comfortable js laying quietly next to my gf and lovingly staring at her
this song is for the girls who give glances out of the corner of their eyes hoping that someone is looking back
i see u and i’m looking! i wish i could say it more
wow.
you’re so real
i started sobbing even more when i read this
i love you yes
I’m glad that it was a universal experience to listen to this over and over and cry when you first heard it
NO BC I WAS SOBBING MY EYES OUT THE FIRST TIME I HEARD IT (i still do tbh)
you're right
i found it one day and i listened it to on repeat for the rest of the day 🫡
I love you
I am so glad I'm not the only one. It takes just seconds to bring it all back up no matter how long it's been since I last listened
"weren't we the stars in heaven?
weren't we the salt in the sea?
dragon in the new warm mountain,
didn't you believe in me?"
GOD
dragon in the new born mountain
@@bl_nk5047 haha oops this was beofre i actually looked at the lyrics
@@bl_nk5047dragon in the new warm mountain I thought?
I WAS SCARED INDIGO BUT I WANTED TO
@@bitesized4503 yes you are correct haha
They grew up together.
You start to think about the relationship of these two very different trees, standing next to each other their whole lives.
Oh... wow...
Damn. Right to my soul with that comment. 😭
I grew up with another. She split me in the middle. There it is. And there it goes.
@@goldjoinery and the branches grow apart from each other going different ways, not knowing how or when they will break but the only way back to each other was the roots.
This just feels like two souls dancing, holding each other so tightly.
Love "I wanna witness your eyes looking" and "I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy / I just wanna be a part of your family." Really good song.
I love how she cradles every single word that she sings, amazing
Ugh, I know... I LOVE it. It's not only the singing though... her WRITING is amazingly impactful... every. word. hits. home.
I had no idea how to describe it but that is exactly what she does
"I was scared indigo, but I wanted to. *i was scared indigo but i wanted too* "
That verse gutted me.
what does that mean?
@@feby2873 i think it has something to do with indigo sparke, they were in a relationship
@@feby2873 I've always thought about it as wanting to be with the girl you love but being scared to start that journey
i still cry every time i hear "i just want to be part of your family"
I’ve probably broke down to this song around 10 times
same like 45 minutes ago
Me rn lmao
This is genuinely one of the most beautiful things I’ve ever heard.
I don't know why but I tear up every time she says "I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to". Imagine someone writing this song to you
i always think about that, imagine him listening to this song or having something like this written to you
@@padenspencer god, yeah, so heartwrenching... (indigo's a lady btw, full name is indigo sparke)
Same 😭😭😭 gets me everytime
Oh my god someone would have to put me down like a dog... oh my GOD
my name is indigo, this one hits hard
the song is so the feeling of “it’s so high, it can only go down from there” type feeling. she lists all these beautiful things and bittersweet memories after. this song is just so gorgeous and i find myself coming back to it every five seconds.
Adrianne, it scares me to think your best work is yet to come.
@@sonicgrub that’s not too bad. it’s better for us :)
!!!!!!!!
you got your wish
Well we were dead wrong on that one 🙃 #CountryAlbumIsGarbage
@@nfdhje38743mmaybe Symbol but her country album sounds like an old lady dying in an Alzheimer’s ward trying to remember a Hank Williams song.
feels like a calm foggy fall afternoon. wind touching your face, and remembering the feeling of falling in love with someone for the first time
"i wanna listen to the sound of you blinking listen to your hands soothe listen to your heart beating listen to the way you move"... i know im in love with someone when i want to listen to songs like this with them.
i can't stop crying listening to this. imagining the things that could've been
We’re all right there with you Conrado
You’re not alone in that feeling...
❤
he gave up on me, what can I say?
i recently broke up with my gf, for many reasons, one of them being how we were both horribly broken people who kept hurting each other no matter how hard we tried not to. i always thought of her when i listened to this song, and although i don't regret ending it with her (for our own mental health), i miss her horribly. i wonder what could have been between us
Hope you both are doing better now
weren’t we the stars in heaven weren’t we the salt in the sea 😢 so good
歌詞の意味は全く分からないけど曲調とか歌い方とかで伝わってくるものがあるのがすごい
And even if we never see eachother again I am so glad we met at least once.
Me too
this song is how it feels to love someone so completely that you give yourself to them. whole heart, whole soul.
This is how I stand longingly wishing for someone to love me the way I need to be loved without having to tell them. How I wish for someone to understand me without me saying what's going on. How I hope for someone to tell me, "I know" when I am upset about something and crying. How I just need someone to get me. But I was only able to find that in the mental hospital with other broken kids and teens. We were allowed to be broken together and it was comforting.
stop ☹️
@@what-hq1gl huh?
@@minkyheartfila1639 your comment hit way too close to home especially with the first three sentences 😭🙏
@@what-hq1gl I'm sorry to hear that I hope you get a love like this soon
I find myself revisiting this song whenever I think of hurting myself, it's filled with so much love that I feel cared for while listening to it. The fog lifts a little. Thank you, Adrianne, for sharing your heart and art with us. ❤
the little noise at 2:53 and the way the background music gets a little louder 😩😩 MASTERPIECE
Staring down the barrel of the hot sun
Shining with the sheen of a shotgun
Carol has a little if we need some
Joe has a ride, if we wanna come
Hanging your jeans with a clothes pin
Skin still wet still on my skin
Mango in your mouth, juice dripping
Shoulder of your shirtsleeve slipping
Christmas eve with your mother and sis
Don't wanna fight but your mother insists
Dog's white teeth slice right into my fist
Drive to the ER and you put me on risk
Grocery store list, now you get this
Brunch, had calls and messages
I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy
I just wanna be a part of your family
And I don't wanna talk about anything
I don't wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
Wanna witness your eyes looking
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving
Lay on your lap when I'm crying
Circle of pine and riddle
Circle of moss and fire smoke
Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke
Push the clutch in and I pull the choke
Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking
Wanna listen your to hands soothe
Listen to your heart beating
Listen to the way you move
And I don't wanna talk about anything
I don't wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
Wanna witness your eyes looking
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving
Lay on your lap when I'm crying
Ordering the stars in Heaven
Hurling salt in the sea
Dragging a new-born mountain
Didn't you believe in me?
You held me the whole way through
When I couldn't say the words like you
I was scared indigo, but I wanted to
I was scared indigo, but I wanted to
And I don't wanna talk about anything
I don't wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
Wanna witness your eyes looking
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving
Lay on your lap when I'm crying
cam on ban
@@quangloc97 hổng có chi
I think it might be red oak instead of riddle?
Love the lyric guy in the comments 🙏
Wait whaaaaa I always thought it was “grocery store list now you get pissed, unchecked calls and messages” 😭😭
One of the last things my ex husband said to me was that I was a failure of a woman for not bringing a child into the world with him, he is an addict and struggles with alcoholism. He was my best friend for 11 years and we were married for 3 years and in the last year of our time spent together I watched him become someone I didn’t know, my dear friend Rudy recommended this album to me not knowing how much heartache I was going through as I watched my best friend slip away right before my eyes and there was nothing I could do to fix it or change what happened. It hurts me everyday.
I’m sorry,his loss u deserve better u’r really strong❤
I hope youre doing better now :(
I hope youre doing better now :(
it's not your fault that happened to him. you're not responsible to fix something he destroyed.
'christmas eve with your mother and sis, don't wanna fight but your mother insists'
wow. hits too deep
Lyrics
this song reminds me of when i was a kid and i could just run outside and have fun doing literally nothing. i wish i could still do that.
this is so beautiful. i cried first thing this morning listening to it over and over again. anyone know lyrics?
Staring down the barrel of the hot sun
Shining with the sheen of a shotgun
Carol has a little if we need some
Joyous rays, we wanna come
Hanging your jeans with a clothes pin
Skin still wet still on my skin
Mango in your mouth, juice dripping
Shoulder of your shirtsleeve slipping
Christmas eve with your mother and sis
Don't wanna fight but your mother insists
Dog’s white teeth slice right into my fist
Drive to the ER and you put me on my wrist
Grocery store list, now you get this
Brunch, had calls and messages
I don’t wanna be the owner of your fantasy
I just wanna be a part of your family
And I don’t wanna talk about anything
I don’t wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
Wanna witness your eyes looking
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you’re driving
Lay on your lap whеn I’m crying
Circle of pine and riddle
Circlе of moss and fire smoke
Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke
Push the clutch in and I pull the choke
Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking
Wanna listen your hands soothe
Listen to your heart beating
Listen to the way you move
And I don’t wanna talk about anything
I don’t wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
Wanna witness your eyes looking
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you’re driving
Lay on your lap when I’m crying
Ordering the stars in Heaven
Hurling salt in the sea
Dragging a new-born mountain
Didn’t you believe in me?
You held me the whole way through
When I couldn’t say the words like you
I was scared indigo go but I wanted to
I was scared indigo go but I wanted to
And I don’t wanna talk about anything
I don’t wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
Wanna witness your eyes looking
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I don’t wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you’re driving
Lay on your lap when I’m crying
❤️
marieke liebe you’re doing the lord’s work, but in the first stanza I think the last line is “joe has a ride if we wanna come”
@@davidcline471 oops! Thanks for the correction! I literally just copied them from genius.com lol
Maybe check the description?
It's crazy that it took tiktok to make her more well known, but I'm so glad for her. She's so underrated; raw, pure emotion goes into her every song...
This song has the same feeling of how I got into a fight with my mom when we were at my aunt and uncles, and I tried to tell her what was wrong but she got mad cause she couldn't understand what I meant so I went upstairs and cried and tried to fall asleep cause it was late but I couldnt sleep through the tears. Thats when my aunt ( dads sister ) came upstairs to talk to me, we have never been super close besides the past 2 years, she listened to me without getting angry, she hugged me while I sobbed about everything wrong in my life, family stuff, my lack of friends, my poor body image, bullying from boys and so on. She told me about her teenage years but most importantly she listened to me and made me feel heard, told me she loved me and that she was proud of me while she wiped away my tears until I had none left to cry, she told me to get some rest and went back downstairs. A conversation I will never forget I am so grateful for her.
🥺🥺😭😭🫂❤️🩹❤️
She seems like a very wonderful and kind person 🤍
Adrianne’s new album is one of the most beautiful albums i’ve ever heard in my life. it feels like a folk classic, one of those albums we will look back on in decades time as a monumental achievement in songwriting.
i listened to this song on christmas eve with my mother and sis and sorta living the song was just as cool as you could imagine . it was like 7 pm and we were in the car driving around looking at people in our neighborhoods decorations, we went home and made hot cocoa after
this reminds me of perks of being a wallflower
I wish I will someday send this to someone I'll be in love with
except it's a love song after it's over. So maybe not?
are you in love yet?
It's so much more than just one thing. I love listening to it with my wife @@kimjunejohnson
So uh found that someone?
listening to this in loop for 2 days and, well, i dont ever wanna talk about anything but just keep enjoying this masterpiece
Really excellent song! It is like a garden bird flew over me to tell her feelings and disappeared......
Aw 😭 that’s such a special thought.
This is what true love sounds like
“wanna witness your eyes looking” is absolutely amazing
this is proof of lenker’s serial songwriting ability
But not the first.
I literally typed the word ‘Anthing’ in my iTunes music search bar as I wanted to listen to anything. This track was first on the list. Glad I discovered it. I have listened to other Adrianne Lenker tracks since, though this one is my favourite. A sense of sincerity in the lyrics and delivery of the vocals. Clever syncopation between vocals and music too. Very good. 👏🏼👏🏼👏🏼
This song is amazingly bittersweet. It feels like reflecting on a relationship that didn't work out even though you loved them deeply.
Crying is my superpower. I'm here to help.
This song has made me cry every day since it came out it’s so fuckin beautiful
i was in a mental behavioral hospital after my 3rd attempt .. after a week i just broke down and felt so hopeless in the moment but one of the techs took me to the calm down room and told me how much she appreciated me for being so kind and strong then played this song telling me it is her favorite, after that day i tried my hardest to keep going 💗 i love you SO MUCH mrs kansas.
my eyes started welling up immediately
Crying is my superpower. I'm here to help.😭
"Dont wanna fight but your mother insists" YEEOUUUCCHHHH
listening to this song is not enough, I need it deep inside of my soul
anything could have you bawling and sobbing, anything could also have you appreciate life and it's beautiful features while listening to it on your way home on the train with the sun hitting your skin, anything could have you feel less lonely while you eat dinner alone. anything could have you think about your favorite person before sleeping. anything = masterpiece
Her voice makes me feel something i can’t explain like it’s so good
Love the doubled vocals
ol right!!
Yea it really takes this song to another level
This song is soo wholesomeness with a beautiful childhood aesthetic 🦋💙
I've been with my partner for 4 years, and I'm getting choked up listening to this just thinking about how deeply I love him. Perfect song.
every time i listen to this song i just cry, i’ve never felt so comforted and loved by a song before
i suppose love is a very vague concept with multiple definitions, yet it feels like it's embedded into every word and melody of this song. i keep thinking of him
this is the song that made me fall in love with adrianne lenker and big thief
How dare you make me cry
0:30 it was christmas eve, i must’ve been about 7 or 8 and my parents we’re fighting, when they did this i would hide under the stairs so they’re we were, me and my older sister, frightened. my sister came out after my dad left begging my mum to stop because it was christmas, my mum quickly diverted her anger to my sister. i dont remember what happened after that but my sister left when she was 16.. i havent spoken to her in 5 years but i will always love her for protecting me.
Desculpe perguntar pq perdeu o contato com ela? Também sofri muito com brigas dos meus pais na minha infância... sinto muito queria poder abraçá-la agora ❤
Im sorry you had to go throught that especially on christmas. Hugs and well wishes from Hamburg germany to you ❤
Artist that include their lyrics deserve to have a lovely day.
"Don't wanna fight but your mother insists" that hits deep.
It hits hard when you think about that person you know you'll never be with
I was just thinking last night whilst listening to Big Thief, a new record right now would be awesome. A new record from Adrianne is just as good!
0:00 0:01
0:07
Staring down the barrel of the hot sun
熱い太陽の銃口をじっと見つめていると
0:10
Shining with the sheen of a shotgun (Shotgun)
ショットガンのように艶めいて見えた
0:13
Carol has a little if we need some
ちょっと吸いたいときはキャロルからもらい、
0:16
Joa has a ride if we wanna come
遊びに行きたいときはジョアに迎えに来てもらう
0:19
Hanging your jeans with a clothespin
あなたのジーンズは洗濯ばさみで吊るしてある
0:22
Skin still wet, still on my skin
まだ肌は濡れたまま、肌には水分が残ったまま
0:25
Mango in your mouth, juice drippin'
マンゴーを食べるとあなたの口には果汁が溢れて
0:27
Shoulder of your shirt, sleeve slippin'
ずれたシャツからはあなたの肩が覗いている
0:30
Christmas Eve with your mother and sis
あなたのお母さんと妹と過ごしたクリスマスイブ
0:34
Don't wanna fight but your mother insists
喧嘩するつもりはなかった、でもお母さんが言うから仕方ないじゃない
0:36
Dog's white teeth slice right through my fist
犬の白い歯が私の拳を切り裂いて
0:39
Drive to the ER and they put me on risk
救急治療室へ車で運ばれ、危ない目に遭った
0:43
Grocery store list, now you get pissed
買い物リストの次にあなたの機嫌を損ねたのは
0:45
Unchecked calls and messages
不在着信と未読のメッセージ
0:47
I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy
私はあなたのファンタジーの主人になりたいんじゃない
0:50
I just wanna be a part of your family
あなたの家族になりたいの
0:53
And I don't wanna talk about anything
もう何も話したくない
0:56
I don't wanna talk about anything
もう何も話したくない
0:59
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
もう一度そのまぶたにキスがしたい
1:02
Wanna witness your eyes looking
その目が見ているものを見たい
1:05
I don't wanna talk about anyonе
もう誰の話もしたくない
1:08
I don't wanna talk about anyone
もう誰の話もしたくない
1:10
I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving
あなたが運転する車で眠りたい
1:14
Lay in your lap whеn I'm crying
あなたの膝を枕にして泣きたい
1:17
Circle of pine and red oak
松とレッドオークに囲まれて
1:20
Circle of moss and fire smoke
苔と煙に囲まれて
1:22
Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke
天井のファンは車輪のスポークに似てる
1:25
Push the clutch and I pull the choke
私はクラッチを押し、チョークを引いた
1:28
Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking
あなたが瞬きする音が聞きたい
1:14
Wanna listen to your hands soothe
あなたの手が撫でる音が聞きたい
1:34
Listen to your heart beating
あなたの心臓の音が聞きたい
1:37
Listen to the way you move
あなたが動く音が聞きたい
1:40
And I don't wanna talk about anything
もう何も話したくない
1:43
I don't wanna talk about anything
もう何も話したくない
1:45
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
もう一度そのまぶたにキスがしたい
1:48
Wanna witness your eyes looking
その目が見ているものを見たい
1:51
I don't wanna talk about anyonе
もう誰の話もしたくない
1:54
I don't wanna talk about anyone
もう誰の話もしたくない
1:57
I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving
あなたが運転する車で眠りたい
2:00
Lay in your lap whеn I'm crying
あなたの膝を枕にして泣きたい
2:14
Weren't we the stars in Heaven?
私たちは天国に輝く星ではなかったのかな
2:17
Weren't we the salt in the sea?
私たちは海を漂う塩ではなかったのかな
2:20
Dragon in the new warm mountain
春が芽吹く山のドラゴンではなかったのかな
2:23
Didn't you believe in me?
あなたは私を信じてくれなかったのかな
2:25
You held me the whole way through
あなたはずっと私を抱きしめていたけど
2:27
But I couldn't say the words like you
私はあなたが言いそうなことを言えなかった
2:31
I was scared, Indigo, but I wanted to
インディゴ、私は怖かったの、でも言いたかったよ
2:34
I was scared, Indigo, but I wanted to
インディゴ、私は怖かったの、でも言いたかったよ
2:37
And I don't wanna talk about anything
もう何も話したくない
2:40
I don't wanna talk about anything
もう何も話したくない
2:43
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
もう一度そのまぶたにキスがしたい
2:46
Wanna witness your eyes looking
その目が見ているものを見たい
2:49
I don't wanna talk about anyonе
もう誰の話もしたくない
2:51
I don't wanna talk about anyone
もう誰の話もしたくない
2:54
I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving
あなたが運転する車で眠りたい
2:57
Lay in your lap whеn I'm crying
あなたの膝を枕にして泣きたい
The first time I listened to this song was 2 months ago on 2 tabs. I was surrounded by sunlight, and birds were chirping all around me. I haven’t been the same since.
I've just found this song and I can't stop listening to it... it's such a intimate and stabbing song
perfect words to describe
"dont wanna fight but your mother insists" is so real
hits me harder each time i listen. so so beautiful, Adrianne is a blessing!
This girl has brought something out in me that I didn’t know I had anymore. Nobody else has ever made me feel so in love. Her voice, her smile, her eyes, she is the perfect girl. Because of her, I finally know what it feels like to feel completely content and safe.
Same for me man. I’ve never known true peace until she came into my life tbh
This song just made me start sobbing my eyes out and idk why help
I watched a Brokeback Mountain edit to this song now i cant stop crying every time I hear it
YOURE ACTUALLY SO REAL FOR THAT ILY
as someone who fell in love with my best friend i swear on my life i have had these exact thoughts and i thank you for using your amazing artistic ability to capture these exact thoughts for me and many others alike, you even did it better than i could ever do with your beautiful lyrical composition. Thank you.
This song is so hauntingly serene. Looking forward to the new album!
This floored me.
Such ethereal bittersweet beauty
Lyrics are pure poetry.
~ Tears flow. As our love is deep, we will only grow.
Much love, healing and peace to all. 💙
Blue
This song as well just reminds me of that special girl. I miss her so much, and want her to come back so badly. I want to live my life with her, and I hope she always remembers I love her a lot and forever.
This music is everything..
this song really sounds like the feeling of loss to me but its nice that someone else knows the feeling just to know you aren't alone and that its universal
i know this is about a relationship, but this remindes me of my little cousin when i was about 6, he was newborn, and he was everything to me. "i just wanna be a part of your family" remindes me of when i wanted to be included in my dad's part of the family and i didn't feel like part of it. this song is a masterpiece, i absolutely love it, makes me sob every time and it's my most listened song in spotify
this song is for someone who keeps hoping that he/she will experience the quote of to be loved is to be known.
"lay in your lap when im crying" makes me cry, it reminds me of when i cried in his arms about my dad (i barely do that around anyone)
My friend is one of the most beautiful girls I have ever seen. When we were both in our early teenage years (12 or 13ish) we were sat on a branch of a willow tree as the sun set. We were talking about so many things and in that moment I fell completely in love with her. I asked her to be my girlfriend shortly after and she said yes. We went back to hers and watched cloudy with a chance of meatballs on her couch. We both fell asleep and the next morning we awoke and realised we didn't want to be together, she genuinely didn't, but I was just doubtful. We called it off and are still friends now. She's grown so much since that night, she has a boyfriend now, she lost her virginity, she's an addict now, too. But I still see her as that beautiful girl absolutely glowing in the evening sun on that branch, I'll never tell her this, but I wish we hadn't have broken up. I don't know what would have happened to us if it had progressed from a funny memory to joke about together, but I wish I could've stayed to see. I love her with all my heart and this song reminds me so much of her. Especially 'I was scared indigo, but I wanted to'. I wanted and still want to be with her more than anything, but I was scared and still am. I'll forever be too scared to tell her how I feel. I have a boyfriend too and I'm not even sure she's bi. But it sucks that we could've loved eachother so much.
music is a beautiful thing man
im crying man i hope ur alright
This hits so fkn hard. My sympathy is with you 💘
Im crying
as a person who lost the gratest love i had, i know it's hard, but you can still reach her, it is never too late ! life is short and some things matter more than we think and other matter way less, i would say talk to her about how you feel, she should know, and who knows maybe she feels the same
Beautiful, just sat with a person I’d always liked, never been treated so nicely so genuinely genuine. Thank you, this song had me tear up. Feeling good,
I feel like a child lost in a park, not remembering which road led to home. My first love brought the child out of me, a pathway to home I used to follow to find them in another world that the two of us would reside in and claim as our own. They haunt me like a song, hearing them in other melodies. I hope they're still laughing with such ease as they did when I was in their company. I have forgotten how their laughter sounds like.
When I was walking home the other day, I was waiting at the traffic light, and just pictured them on the other side of the road, I could envision myself running toward them with glee as I sung their name feeling my soul rejuvenate itself as our proximity closed in.
I hope to feel alive again, I hope my soul slowly returns its way home. And even as I move on with life, I will carry a piece of them forever, for they opened my heart to the world.
Great performance on The Late Show. This is absolutely amazing. Beautiful voice and lyrics.
This song is so beautiful that it never fails to put tears in my eyes.
I swear I've never felt this much self love and appreciation from a single song before. It makes me want to give myself a hug
Tried playing this on guitar after listening to the album last week. I couldn't finish the first time through cause I was crying reading the lyrics
Tears just came this morning while i was listening to this while driving. Actually I was listening to my friend cover it. What a beautiful song. Now I see the comments its nice to know i'm not the only one
“I don’t wanna be the owner of your fantasy, I just wanna be apart of your family…” hits hard to much, Those beautiful words came out of HER mouth. I personally Love her songs, I’m in love with her, she sings beautifully, but honestly her voice sounds like butterflies in the night. Beautiful, this might be weird, but I am happy listening to this song. I don’t wanna talk about it, it’s so beautiful I don’t need to describe it. The feeling is only mutual.❤
Staring down the barrel of the hot sun
Shining with the sheen of a shotgun (shotgun)
Carol has a little if we need some
Joa has a ride if we wanna come
Hanging your jeans with a clothes pin
Skin still wet, still on my skin
Mango in your mouth, juice dripping
Shoulder of your shirtsleeve slipping
Christmas Eve with your mother and sis
Don't wanna fight but your mother insists
Dog's white teeth slice right into my fist
Drive to the ER and they put me on risk
Grocery store list, now you get this
Unchecked calls and messages
I don't wanna be the owner of your fantasy
I just wanna be a part of your family
And I don't wanna talk about anything
I don't wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
Wanna witness your eyes looking
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving
Lay on your lap when I'm crying
Circle of pine and red oak
Circle of moss and fire smoke
Fan on the ceiling like a wheel spoke
Push the clutch and I pull the choke
Wanna listen to the sound of you blinking
Wanna listen to your hands soothe
Listen to your heart beating
Listen to the way you move
But I don't wanna talk about anything
I don't wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
Wanna witness your eyes looking
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I don't wanna talk about anyone
Wanna sleep in your car while you're driving
Lay in your lap when I'm crying
Weren't we the stars in Heaven?
Weren't we the salt in the sea?
Dragon in the new warm mountain
Didn't you believe in me?
Yeah, you held me the whole way through
When I couldn't say the words like you
I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to
I was scared, indigo, but I wanted to
And I don't wanna talk about anything
I don't wanna talk about anything
I wanna kiss, kiss your eyes again
Wanna witness your eyes looking
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I don't wanna talk about anyone
I wanna sleep in your car while you're driving
Lay in your lap when I'm crying (ooh)
“Shrill” brought me here because I was SO moved by this song at the end of the episode. But I am grateful to have discovered her now.
me too!!!
This song is so beautiful. I was actually shook when I heard it. It’s so raw and refreshing compared to what I listen to currently. 🥺💕 my heart.
Her songs never fail to make me cry
ive always loved this song but something that drew me even closer to it was the connectivity with my best friend, the love of my life. we've been friends for almost 9 years now, we went to the same kindergarten and really clicked on the first day of grade 1 (we werent friends yet, she was sitting next to me and offered help coloring my schoolbook in, but she used the wrong shade of green. i still taunt her about that, that shade of green). I remember, only a few months back, we were playing roblox of all things together, and this song came on. i messaged her, "this song reminds me of you", mainly for the "you've held me the whole way through" lyric, because she really was always there for me, holding me up. i don't regret messaging that, at all. ever since that day she's been absolutely in love with this song, we've always connected each other to this song. I even have some lyrics as my messaging bio, for her.
at hangouts, she'd say "turn anything on" and id play a random song, and it'd take multiple takes until i actually realise she means this song. little things like this means so much to me.
anyway, the pure love I have for this girl is unreal. platonic obviously, but that doesn't matter. i love her so, so much. some nights id stay up writing stories about us, about other universes. just like this song, other universes is our thing, yknow?? its pretty silly stories, but that's fine, because yes even as rats, we'll always be together. id write poems with my novice level poetry skills about her smile, sometimes I'd get too embarrassed to show her though. i can write paragraphs about her, and even then i dont think half my love for her will get through. i mean, this is a pretty half assed one right now, lol. i dont expect people to see this, i dont care, this song means everything to me, to us, and I just wanna let it out. maybe, ill write to her after this.
this song is always there for me as well, no matter how dark of a spot i am, like currently, it just gives me hope. this song gives me motivation and just gives me some light for the future. it genuinely makes me smile. I hope it does the same for her. i cant always be there for her, so instead hopefully this song is.
always such a unique and personal vibe
probably the most beautiful thing i have ever heard.