@@Younginnnnn08 i think its beautiful how forgiving she is… open to the dual truths that you are as wicked as you are pure, as dark as you are light. and deserve to be embraced regardless.
@@Khaosklownit makes you remember all the times it’s happened and all the times it will happen and you stop and cry into her shoulder, knowing later the salt in your tears will dry your skin out and your mother will either feel terrible and try to apologize or not care and *have* to apologize. Those months of disappointment turning into years into decades. It makes you wonder if anyone will give you a hug that will cure your aches.
Over the Dead Sea Keeping you company Thinking, I'm not afraid of you now I'm not afraid of you now Letting my eyes close Shedding my soft clothes Wind blows Wind that howls like a hound Wind that laughs like a clown Mystery of lack Stabbing stars through my back Forwards, beckon, rebound Forwards, beckon, rebound Virtual bedroom Rise like a full moon Show me pictures that hang in your house Pictures that hang in your mouth Candescent insects Crosses and fishnecks I have nothing to pray to you now Nothing to pray to you now Mystery of lack Stabbing stars through my back Forwards, beckon, rebound Forwards, beckon, rebound Pulling your face close Wanting the inmost Show me I'm not afraid of you now I'm not afraid of you now Villain and violent Infant and innocent Baby, both arms cradle you now Both arms cradle you now Mystery of lack Stabbing stars through my back Forwards, beckon, rebound Forwards, beckon, rebound Forwards, beckon, rebound
I can't stop crying to this song. It brings so much comfort to my inner child. I was heavily abused and didn't have a chance to be a kid, and because of that, I'm seen as a violent person who always gets into fights. I know it's wrong of me but it's how I grew up, it's what I only know. This song reminds that nothing of my past is my fault. "Villian and violent, infant and innocent" makes me cry every single time. I love this song so much ❤
I hope you're doing better now 💜 You have my best wishes internet stranger, I really hope you'll slowly start to get better and start thriving in life ( ◜‿◝ )
I just keep crying in the "villian and violent,infant and innocent" because since i was 5 i was brutally bullied and excluded and i was told things would get better but they didnt...now thanks to that im insecure,sucidal and i have social anxiety
You are really brave.. the fact that u endured all this you are very patient and be confident that behind the patience of suffering there is a prize and you will get it do not let bad thoughts pull you away from the fact that you are brave .
Hey if your reading this, just remember that this pain is temporary and will not last forever, and while your going through it your not alone we are all in this together doing the best we can, I'm proud of you for still being here fighting everyday, cus it's really not easy but you still strong enough to not give up, know that I care about you and I'm glad your here, your feelings are valid and I believe you'll get to a better place with time. I hope this helps, you don't have to accept my comment or like it but I just did it for the people who needs it. Remember to drink water get some rest and check on your loved ones❤️.
@paradox.archives you know, people like you stripped me from my childhood, do you fucking know how much i needed this? on the brink of absolute insanity i once even tried to come here to calm down to come back to this. Something is wrong with people. Im so fucking tired of being a puppet to everyone that i meet
This is the only song that calms my bird down. They’ve been abused in the past and I cuddle them with it and it makes them feel better when they have episodes.
i miss my dad. i was so scared of him because he was a severe alcoholic. he never hurt me. but i was scared. i didnt know he was sober until after he passed. everyone told me how often he talked about missing me, and how ready he was to keep living and start over. i miss him so much
This song hits me like a bullet in the chest. I feel like she writes music that lets you see a painful childhood in a different way, like it's possible to heal. As a grown woman, crying in my room, "villain and violent, infant and innocent," doesn't make me think of me, but of my mom who struggled with addiction during all of my childhood and finally got clean when I was in grad school (my hero❤) and how she was growing up with me, alongside me. I hope both arms cradle you too, mom.
this song reminds me of not being so afraid to grow up anymore, I’m not so afraid of the people who judged me or hurt me. peace is the answer for me right now and it’s js looking back and realizing I’m here after everything, and that’s such a beautiful thing. I hope everything is having a wonderful summer
"Baby, both arms cradle you now" From this song kind of comforts me The same way as "My baby, my baby" from I Bet On Losing Dogs Edit: Sorry if this comment May spark some anger or disappointment in some people, I'm not very good with my vocabulary, I just mix up words that sometimes, and At certain parts of speech or sentences, I don't know what words to use. Please excuse me for that part, thank you love, have a great day ❤️
not rlly, in this song shes obviously lost faith in the person who she is "cradling". it could also be a metaphor for smth else. in ibold mitski is like desperate for someone and afraid of losing more ppl but in this one shes almost stopped caring; shes at peace w/ the way things are going in the relationship, even if its badly. this song is actually ab atheism btw, but i think ab suicide when i listen to it.
This song feels like someone hugging you and telling you what happened wasn't your fault. You knew that it wasn't your fault but you still feel dirty because of what they did to you, but there is some comfort in being cradled.
this song feels like strange sense of comfort mixed with nostalgia of something you've never experienced, missing a home you never knew. and losing hope, but knowing you'll never truly give up. at the same time it makes you feel lost, it also makes you feel like you've found youself, like you found peace
this is genuinely one of the most beautiful songs i have ever heard, i don’t know if i’m overreacting but i just had such a strong reaction discovering this for the first time, i felt the chorus in the centre of my chest, i’ve never been made to feel that way by a song before.
istg i miss my sister so much and this song reminds me of her. shes in another country and shes the best big sis ever! i love her so much, im tearing up while writing this..I miss you sis ❤
This sing reminds me of my boyfriend. He's so peaceful and lighthearted yet he's deep. Hes so beautiful and kind yet he knows where his morals are. Ive been struggling with depression and just feeling stuck for a while now, but he is always there for me. Hes like nature, so calm yet so alluring. He reminds me of a stormy day with soft blowing wind in the evergreen mountains, hes so beautiful. His soul reminds me of this song, so gentle and comforting. But his hardships arent ignored either, i know he struggles. I love my wyatt more than anything, hes so beautiful and kind and i dont know what id do without him.
This feels like the wind and thinking how life could've been different how peaceful it could've been if more people were more kind "Villain and violent infant and innocent" reminds me that even the worse people were once okay and kind at some point
sometimes i physically have to pause songs like this to process my emotions. and then i cry. and then i want to jump off my roof from how heart shatteringly beautiful and imperfect they are, and then i have to close my laptop and cry some more.
We put my dog down right around the time I became addicted to this song, and this song truly helped me actually helped me get my feelings out. I still think of him when I listen to it and how much I miss him. He was such a good boy.
Her music feels like time slowing,browning leaves fluttering down onto the ground past loving headstones.A sky painted hues of a mid-day sunset,dusted wirh soft beige clouds on a cozy autumn day,like remenicing past memories of comfort and love,accepting peace and warmth into your new life,its the definition of tranquility itself 😊🧡
i love her songs, and hate them at the same time, there's just some unexplainable pain i get in my chest listening to her songs, but they're also weirdly... soothing.
This feels like when your best friend just decides to leave you and you lose all your friends and don’t get any for the foreseeable future because she ruined you
I thought I was the only one who felt this about the song, haha I was scared to verbalize that in the comments section but I'm glad I found someone who agrees😅
"Show me I'm not afraid of you now I'm not afraid of you now Villain and violent, infant and innocent Baby, both arms cradle you now Both arms cradle you now" this HURTS
I discovered a year ago i have severe depression... since that, my world fall it. Then, when i listen this song, my heart hurts a little bit... Cause at any moment this disease could bring me down even more... and thats horrible :(
this song is like a december morning drinking hot coco with ur caring, loving mother beside you as you watch movies as she cuddles you with love and comfort
My friend died cause he was stabbed to death.Everytime I listen to this song it reminds me of him.The person who killed him was violent while he was inoccent and now both arms cradle him now.Miss you my friend,maybe in another life we could grow up together🤍🕊️
Yall im so happy cuz i heard this song in an ever after high amv like 8 years ago and it was my favorite song but i didn't know where it came from or who made it until today 😁when it randomly popped into my head sadly tho the original ever after high amv has been lost to time and if you try to search it up you won't find anything so i guess its lost media now 😭😭😭 oh dang it youtube glitches and put my comment on the wrong video but this song is good too
This song reminds me of one of my old friends that would always be so nice to me I mean all my other friends would be nice but they wouldn’t treat me with so much respect like I was a real human with feelings like she did and she never judged me for my interest and even asked to learn more 😭😭😭
ive never cried so much, i miss being a kid, i miss beng innocent, i miss trusting, i miss the warm embrace, i miss i jus miss i miss what i lost what i can lose but didnt yet i miss being myself, i miss not understanding what was happening to me. i wish that never happened to mw i
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"villain and violent, infant and innocent, baby both arms cradle you now" oh man
yea chadrickbasedman6686 that one always gets me too
it’s like a knife to the heart. 😪
@@Younginnnnn08 i think its beautiful how forgiving she is… open to the dual truths that you are as wicked as you are pure, as dark as you are light. and deserve to be embraced regardless.
reminds me of vi and powder/jinx from arcane
@@g3tjinx3dx yep I'm not ready for season 2💀
her music feels like wind
Feels like a really bad bite :(
I love their songs so so soo much
Oh my God this is the perfect way to describe it
real
Just a heads up! (Not trying to be an asshole) just letting you know they use they/them
This is one of those songs you're rewinding before it's finished.
i love this comment
@@youlove_maria thanks love!
@@ukefan9read this in a very southern accent
@@waux haha, just so happens..
yes bro
i feel like i just watched my childhood slowly walk away from me
real
oh um maybe don’t say this in front of me falls over
your literally so real
Same!
real
Somone said her music sounds like wind. I'm gonna cry.
@isleuntoherself said that
I wish I said that 😔
*gulp * they're right behind me, aren't they?
Someone said it sounds like their childhood walking away from them
mama the comment behind you
I've never had such a strong reaction to a song, I actually feel distressed at the “villain and violent, infant and innocent” part
Yeah me too
it's feels like a hug to the heart
that part and the repeating of "i'm not afraid of you now" makes me fucking bawl
This song feels like a cold hug.
Like one you get from your mother after she’s made you cry.
And it doesn’t make you feel better, but you can’t help but wonder if they ever have.
@@Khaosklown real.
@@Cry1ng0 I’m so sorry you understand stranger, one day we will get the warm hugs we deserve :(
@@Khaosklownit makes you remember all the times it’s happened and all the times it will happen and you stop and cry into her shoulder, knowing later the salt in your tears will dry your skin out and your mother will either feel terrible and try to apologize or not care and *have* to apologize. Those months of disappointment turning into years into decades. It makes you wonder if anyone will give you a hug that will cure your aches.
Over the Dead Sea
Keeping you company
Thinking, I'm not afraid of you now
I'm not afraid of you now
Letting my eyes close
Shedding my soft clothes
Wind blows
Wind that howls like a hound
Wind that laughs like a clown
Mystery of lack
Stabbing stars through my back
Forwards, beckon, rebound
Forwards, beckon, rebound
Virtual bedroom
Rise like a full moon
Show me pictures that hang in your house
Pictures that hang in your mouth
Candescent insects
Crosses and fishnecks
I have nothing to pray to you now
Nothing to pray to you now
Mystery of lack
Stabbing stars through my back
Forwards, beckon, rebound
Forwards, beckon, rebound
Pulling your face close
Wanting the inmost
Show me
I'm not afraid of you now
I'm not afraid of you now
Villain and violent
Infant and innocent
Baby, both arms cradle you now
Both arms cradle you now
Mystery of lack
Stabbing stars through my back
Forwards, beckon, rebound
Forwards, beckon, rebound
Forwards, beckon, rebound
This should be pinned
@@obiwankenobi4152 there's actually the lyrics in the description
You forgot “wow that’s cool”
I can't stop crying to this song. It brings so much comfort to my inner child. I was heavily abused and didn't have a chance to be a kid, and because of that, I'm seen as a violent person who always gets into fights. I know it's wrong of me but it's how I grew up, it's what I only know. This song reminds that nothing of my past is my fault. "Villian and violent, infant and innocent" makes me cry every single time. I love this song so much ❤
I hope you're doing better now 💜 You have my best wishes internet stranger, I really hope you'll slowly start to get better and start thriving in life ( ◜‿◝ )
I'm so happy that you were able to share this with all of us. You're so strong and you're doing such an amazing job for never giving up.❤
only in ohio💀🤣
@@jakewatkins7080 why tf did yu say that.
The fact that you know what's up is what makes you strong and wise. You made the best outta the worst.
got diagnosed with schizoeffective today. im crying like a little baby and this is the perfect lullaby
I really hope the best for you I’m praying for you!!
What is that? Just a question
@@SadieCraven Schizoaffective disorder is a condition that combines symptoms of schizophrenia with mood disorder symptoms.
@@SadieCraven it is schizophrenia paired with a mood disorder, and for me that disorder was bipolar. schizophrenia and bipolar together sadly
@@jonathan8823 ohh thanks
2:17 I'm actually crying, wtf 🫠
Real
I just keep crying in the "villian and violent,infant and innocent" because since i was 5 i was brutally bullied and excluded and i was told things would get better but they didnt...now thanks to that im insecure,sucidal and i have social anxiety
You deserve better then this. Im sorry.
You are really brave.. the fact that u endured all this you are very patient and be confident that behind the patience of suffering there is a prize and you will get it do not let bad thoughts pull you away from the fact that you are brave .
I know how it feel, you are not alone im sorry that you are going thru
Oh my god I'm so sorry that you went through that...I hope you heal and meet the right people
I would tell you things get better but………
Hey if your reading this, just remember that this pain is temporary and will not last forever, and while your going through it your not alone we are all in this together doing the best we can, I'm proud of you for still being here fighting everyday, cus it's really not easy but you still strong enough to not give up, know that I care about you and I'm glad your here, your feelings are valid and I believe you'll get to a better place with time. I hope this helps, you don't have to accept my comment or like it but I just did it for the people who needs it. Remember to drink water get some rest and check on your loved ones❤️.
bye what is this ☠️
@paradox.archives you know, people like you stripped me from my childhood, do you fucking know how much i needed this? on the brink of absolute insanity i once even tried to come here to calm down to come back to this. Something is wrong with people. Im so fucking tired of being a puppet to everyone that i meet
@@paradox.archivesthere being nice? Was wrong with that
I cant believe how many people there are online who just wanna help you.
This is the only song that calms my bird down. They’ve been abused in the past and I cuddle them with it and it makes them feel better when they have episodes.
why..why can’t I stop crying? this song-this is a masterpiece. no other song has ever made me feel this much..life-this much emotion.
this song is so incredible. feels like a much needed hug from your mom after a fight.
i miss my mom:( (she's here we're just really awkward)
@@Ke0h298 so real 😭
Wtf
Tbh I found this song from a Arcane Vi and Jinx edit😭💔
It's beautiful.
×2
I found it from a 9-1-1 Chris and Eddie edit 🥲🥲🥲
YEAH SAME
STOP i was imagining a jinx animatic to this song 😭
bro i did too omg
“ I’m not afraid of you now “ broke my soul the first time, and every single time since.
i miss my dad. i was so scared of him because he was a severe alcoholic. he never hurt me. but i was scared.
i didnt know he was sober until after he passed. everyone told me how often he talked about missing me, and how ready he was to keep living and start over.
i miss him so much
im so sorry
"villain and violent, infant and innocent, baby both arms cradle you now" just kill me atp
that moment at 2:47 when the other guitar drops out....so beautiful
omg this is my fav part i thought it was just me
so glad someone else pointed it out, it’s my favorite part of the song
i love music so much
Having listened to the album 3 times by now, this is my favourite song and one of the best Adrianne ever wrote.
this song feels like when ur mum yells at you when your a little kid and you cant help but cry
Fr
The venting of our childhood
this song brings me back to my childhood, when things felt good. “villian and violent, infant and innocent.”
my gf told me i look like this song and that's the best complement I've ever heard i love her so much
awww omg.. That's such a cute thing to say, ima use dis on my bf ^___^
This song hits me like a bullet in the chest. I feel like she writes music that lets you see a painful childhood in a different way, like it's possible to heal.
As a grown woman, crying in my room, "villain and violent, infant and innocent," doesn't make me think of me, but of my mom who struggled with addiction during all of my childhood and finally got clean when I was in grad school (my hero❤) and how she was growing up with me, alongside me. I hope both arms cradle you too, mom.
Cómo te explico que tus canciones tocan mi alma, que destrozan y curan mi viejo corazón!!! Gracias
This make me sobs like ugly sobs 2:29 it reminded me that i grew up too quickly.
it reminds me of the stupid shit i do on impulse, but also same
@Calypso-da-therian Yea i understand that but we human, we make mistakes but we try to learn from those say mistake
Her music is like a warm hug after crying for hours
this song reminds me of not being so afraid to grow up anymore, I’m not so afraid of the people who judged me or hurt me. peace is the answer for me right now and it’s js looking back and realizing I’m here after everything, and that’s such a beautiful thing. I hope everything is having a wonderful summer
This song makes me cry in a diff kinda way
2:29 best part
"Baby, both arms cradle you now" From this song kind of comforts me The same way as "My baby, my baby" from I Bet On Losing Dogs
Edit: Sorry if this comment May spark some anger or disappointment in some people, I'm not very good with my vocabulary, I just mix up words that sometimes, and At certain parts of speech or sentences, I don't know what words to use. Please excuse me for that part, thank you love, have a great day ❤️
not rlly, in this song shes obviously lost faith in the person who she is "cradling". it could also be a metaphor for smth else. in ibold mitski is like desperate for someone and afraid of losing more ppl but in this one shes almost stopped caring; shes at peace w/ the way things are going in the relationship, even if its badly. this song is actually ab atheism btw, but i think ab suicide when i listen to it.
@@lulucoree I just thought they sounded similar.
@@lulucoreeDamn 💀
MITSKI MENTIONED?!
MY TOP 2 FAV SONGS
this song feels like a warm big hug .
Real😊
This song feels like someone hugging you and telling you what happened wasn't your fault. You knew that it wasn't your fault but you still feel dirty because of what they did to you, but there is some comfort in being cradled.
It’s so peaceful but when you think of it in a deeper meaning it’s so sad
This feels like a stab to the deepest part of your heart
this song feels like strange sense of comfort mixed with nostalgia of something you've never experienced, missing a home you never knew. and losing hope, but knowing you'll never truly give up. at the same time it makes you feel lost, it also makes you feel like you've found youself, like you found peace
this is genuinely one of the most beautiful songs i have ever heard, i don’t know if i’m overreacting but i just had such a strong reaction discovering this for the first time, i felt the chorus in the centre of my chest, i’ve never been made to feel that way by a song before.
you’re so right
I can't tell what it is but this genre of music is so beautiful and peaceful
Do you know what type of genre is this?
Indie Folk, Chamber Folk!
I really am in love with this song.
istg i miss my sister so much and this song reminds me of her. shes in another country and shes the best big sis ever! i love her so much, im tearing up while writing this..I miss you sis ❤
Adrianne never fails to make me cry
This sing reminds me of my boyfriend. He's so peaceful and lighthearted yet he's deep. Hes so beautiful and kind yet he knows where his morals are. Ive been struggling with depression and just feeling stuck for a while now, but he is always there for me. Hes like nature, so calm yet so alluring. He reminds me of a stormy day with soft blowing wind in the evergreen mountains, hes so beautiful. His soul reminds me of this song, so gentle and comforting. But his hardships arent ignored either, i know he struggles. I love my wyatt more than anything, hes so beautiful and kind and i dont know what id do without him.
“Im not afraid of you now.” man.
You can see how i broke down into tears immediately in the background btw
Everybody here gets the rare vibe of this song. It reminds me of my little sister, she loves this song, and I do too.
This feels like the wind and thinking how life could've been different how peaceful it could've been if more people were more kind
"Villain and violent infant and innocent" reminds me that even the worse people were once okay and kind at some point
everytime it plays "villian and violent,infant and innocent,baby booth arms cradle u now" i feel like my youngerself is watching me now
This song is when you're mourning someone who isn't really dead
myself?
the old me 😢
STOP CUZ IM CRYING THINKING ABOUT MY BF DYING TO THIS DONG BUT HES HEALTHY AND ALIVE
sometimes i physically have to pause songs like this to process my emotions. and then i cry. and then i want to jump off my roof from how heart shatteringly beautiful and imperfect they are, and then i have to close my laptop and cry some more.
Healing tge whole summer just to break down to your lowest again as soon as summer is over...
This song is the swaying of the trees as I play with my cousins in the forest near their house. You don’t know how much you helped me with your music.
We put my dog down right around the time I became addicted to this song, and this song truly helped me actually helped me get my feelings out. I still think of him when I listen to it and how much I miss him. He was such a good boy.
beautiful scenery, both with music and lyrics!
Her music feels like time slowing,browning leaves fluttering down onto the ground past loving headstones.A sky painted hues of a mid-day sunset,dusted wirh soft beige clouds on a cozy autumn day,like remenicing past memories of comfort and love,accepting peace and warmth into your new life,its the definition of tranquility itself 😊🧡
i love her songs, and hate them at the same time, there's just some unexplainable pain i get in my chest listening to her songs, but they're also weirdly... soothing.
اعظم اغنيه سمعتها احس انضرب رصاصه بقلبي في كل مرة اسمعها
''baby both arms cradle you now'' oh man
This feels like when your best friend just decides to leave you and you lose all your friends and don’t get any for the foreseeable future because she ruined you
It sounds like she’s casting a spell
I thought I was the only one who felt this about the song, haha I was scared to verbalize that in the comments section but I'm glad I found someone who agrees😅
Hypnotic like a spell.
Yes
A healing spell
Idk why I still like him, and I don't know why it hurts this much
i get u
he cheated on me and i still dont have the strength to walk away knowing ill lose him forever
Oh..this one’s got a little kick to it
This song helps me sm.
"Show me I'm not afraid of you now
I'm not afraid of you now
Villain and violent, infant and innocent
Baby, both arms cradle you now
Both arms cradle you now"
this HURTS
I could listen to this song for hours, beautiful
this song makes me feel like i’m in a void in space that’s just calm, white noise
This song makes me feel weirdly calm I don't know why it's probally the way she sings or it's because it reminds me of something I don't know
Shot got me fucked up I be cryin n shit
art disturbs the comforted, and comforts the disturbed.
I discovered a year ago i have severe depression... since that, my world fall it. Then, when i listen this song, my heart hurts a little bit... Cause at any moment this disease could bring me down even more... and thats horrible :(
“im not afraid of you now“ holy shit
Thank you for doing the kind of work that you do. Congratulations on this release!
No one's here,everyone is busy crying
I don’t like thinking, when I do, I think about everything that went wrong in my life. There’s so much I wanna say but can’t.
this song is like a december morning drinking hot coco with ur caring, loving mother beside you as you watch movies as she cuddles you with love and comfort
Loving the scenery vibes!
and this is about when the tears hit
My friend died cause he was stabbed to death.Everytime I listen to this song it reminds me of him.The person who killed him was violent while he was inoccent and now both arms cradle him now.Miss you my friend,maybe in another life we could grow up together🤍🕊️
I’m sorry for your loss ❤️😢
@emori4800 thank you❤️
Thank you so much for your music! And I love the way it‘s presented! :)
the playbar showing how high the replays are in this video is really showing smth.
This song is so pretty, I'm so glad I found it
Yall im so happy cuz i heard this song in an ever after high amv like 8 years ago and it was my favorite song but i didn't know where it came from or who made it until today 😁when it randomly popped into my head sadly tho the original ever after high amv has been lost to time and if you try to search it up you won't find anything so i guess its lost media now 😭😭😭 oh dang it youtube glitches and put my comment on the wrong video but this song is good too
If anyone is wondering the song was headlock
I wish this song was a hundred years long
I love her voice
I can't take this anymore.
2:18 this verse is so me
This song reminds me of one of my old friends that would always be so nice to me I mean all my other friends would be nice but they wouldn’t treat me with so much respect like I was a real human with feelings like she did and she never judged me for my interest and even asked to learn more 😭😭😭
I can't believe I'm crying over a triangle right now
real
it feels like having back your child in your dreams.
why am i crying
Adrianna lenker has NO rights to make this shit sad cause I am NOT crying over a song in the middle of the day.
What a tender voice...
This is now going to my comfort song playlist
The gameplay "Bad Parenting"....
"Villain and violent, infant and innocent, baby both arms cradle you now"
this song actually hurts so much, and im still a kid
I lost my best friend before she even moved away. It’s a punch in the gutz
im so sorry losing someone is so hard hope he flies high
the melody of the chorus is so heart wrenching
one of the most beautiful songs i’ve ever heard.
ive never cried so much, i miss being a kid, i miss beng innocent, i miss trusting, i miss the warm embrace, i miss
i jus miss
i miss what i lost
what i can lose but didnt yet
i miss being myself, i miss not understanding what was happening to me.
i wish that never happened to mw
i