I truly hope she finds the help she needs and turns her life around. She is so inteligente and self aware, such a kind soul. You deserve so much more, Becky!
Undoubtably one of the most likable and lovable people ever interviewed. What an honor to listen to you Becky, thanks for sharing yourself with us. Keep believing you are good enough and smart enough because you are. Love to you infinity ❤️
Becky, I was born and raised in Pittsburgh and still here. This is my favorite TH-cam channel and when you said you were from Pittsburgh I was like heyyyyy. I'm 28 and working on my recovery. I have a fair amount of sobriety in my 20s so far. It's definitely a struggle, but there's a really good recovery community and a lot of meetings in Pittsburgh if you ever choose to come back. Nothing better than sober friends. Regardless of where you are, you can do this if you want it. It can be difficult, but it's worth it. I can tell you have a huge heart and will be able to help a lot of people. Sending you love and hope from the 412.
She is a WISE soul! I pray her situation gets better as she has so much potential to be a positive influence in this world! 🙏🏽 Smart, intelligent, kind, and well spoken!!!
Becky as a fellow Pittsburgher I am rooting for you big time! I see the great potential in you and I want you to see it in yourself! You have had a lot of trauma and sadness in your life and I hope you can get into therapy, rehab, and some stable housing and get yourself off the streets. Best wishes to you!
Becky, SINCERELY SORRY for the loss of your partner Eric. Please don't make the mistake of putting off seeing your dad. Go, regardless of your addiction, even if only for a moment. Wishing you a life you dream about, YOUR WORTH IT! 🙏🙏❤
Yes, you really won't regret a visit. I hope you're able to go see him. I always wonder why more ppl on this channel don't go get on methadone or other maintenance drugs? Is it BC there's no medical coverage in the US?
Becky you have so much potential , I can tell you are better than this and you deserve more. Please don’t give up on yourself you are only here once , you still have time .
Everyone deserves love and respect, we are all flesh and blood our only differences are attitudes and money. I have learned a lot about myself and my thought process from watching this channel and the last few years have changed my perspective and I closed my mind and my heart during Covid, since finding this channel I’ve opened my mind and my heart again and rediscovered my humanity. I think we all need to be reminded now and again that life is worth living and there are others who deserve our compassion and recognition.
She is 1 lady who deserves help, personally I think apart from her being able to see her dad she should be giving the chance of the rehab instead of Rebecca. This lady seems to be someone who would accept help, I think she would get clean if she could get help, she is genuine and needs that help. I only wish I had money etc as I would have helped her but sadly I dont have anything
Dear Becky. First and foremost, you are a level-headed person. You are so very hard on yourself. It is easy to say "do this" "do that" - you have to see the real you. I'm not in doubt. You have a beautiful soul. Addiction can blur so many values. There is so much that one self can't see it when in the middle of it all. BUT you can! You got value ❤
Becky you are so beautiful. You are so close to being where you want to be. You are a shining light in a shitty dark world. I believe in you and I know you will get better. As a daughter of parents who died from addiction, I see you. You are worth so much in this world. Take your time but please keep going. I believe in you so much. Much love
Becky! If you see this, you are worth it! I can see your soul and you remind me so much of me. I was fortunate enough to only have a 2 year affair with the really hard drugs but I also had a really amazing support system. I think that there meetings that could help you to l the most would be CODA. I think your core issue is codependency. You said it. You help EVERYONE else before you. I struggle with that same core issue and learning about that has helped me find self love and take the self care that I need. I hope you can get the help you need.
@@alexandersupertramp7353 no. I'm a professional codependent lol. Really. I'm assessing the situation from my own time in recovery from drugs and trauma. Simply a kind hearted suggestion.
@@chrystalr4737 I don't think you actually read what I wrote. It's all good though. I couldn't care less if YOU read it anyhow. BTW, aren't you diagnosing trauma? I thought you weren't going to be able to diagnose anyone that soon.
Becky, You're so right, it truly is NEVER too late. You can do it. Even the way you said "Thanks!" at the end, so upbeat, it warmed my heart. You've got it in you! We're all rooting for you. Sending you much love and encouragement.
@@jfromtheburgh5643 gang rape is no joke. You clearly are unable to comprehend what you watch. The fact that she was bullied by her father didn't help either.
Mark the work your doing is so admirable and inspirational. You give each one of these people a voice and a safe space to tell their stories. Sometimes all a person needs is someone to listen. You can tell by how each person talks that it’s truly like a therapy session for them. Please keep up the great work! I love your channel!
Becky you have an incredible soul that shines through. You remind me so much of my best friend if she took the wrong path. Please try to get clean and you will do incredible things and save many more lives than 12. I’m rooting for you
@daboy22 Jesus, dude, just stop it. If you are everything you say you are in your other comments, surely you have better things to do than hate on everything and everyone. Or not. You seem to thrive on it; it's your drug. Addicted to hostility.
I suffer with mental health problems and I’m also disabled. My dad was my absolute rock who helped me through some really dark times. Sadly he passed away 5 yrs ago, with no warning. Since then my life is slowly going downhill again so I understand where you’re coming from
I’ve walked this. Choices brought me in - choices took me out. This only happened after I was sick of my own excuses, and was tired of acting out what I resented others for having done to me in the past. Choose to be better than what made you originally decide to give up. The alternative is a Hell before the mercy of death. Life begins with learning to love yourself. This woman can love herself when she’s ready - not before. I love her, because I love people. However, that’s not enough. The clock can be an impatient debt collector - I hope she beats it.
Mark, at the end there, when you're sending her off, I can actually hear the compassion fatigue in your voice. Take a couple weeks off and get some you time. Doing this every day has to be emotionally exhausting for you. Don't run yourself dry.
Keep counting the positives Becky 💖 Condolences for the loss of your partner 💙 can’t imagine healing amid the chaos going on around you. 💜🦋💜 Nurturing the baby you with all the love and compassion the grown up you gives others helps loads. You are loved so much 💕💖💕
Becky, I hear in your voice how badly you want to get clean. I hope you can find the resources to help you do that so you can live the life you deserve. I truly think you have such courage and strength. You can do this for you.
Honestly both my parents were awful to Me growing up about my weight … now in my 70s. I still suffer can you believe that ?! Good luck lovely girlie do hope you find some peace without drugs❤️
This woman is very articulate, smart and has dreams or positive thoughts no matter the situation and with the constant pain and bad circumstances she deserves help to give herself a positive future. If we had no drugs could you imagine the world. Ma'am please stay strong and know you have the means and education to give yourself success in life. Treatment would be beneficial for you and some physiological help.
@@donttalkjustplay4274 it’s a disease not a choice . Doctor put me on a strong adhd drug thank god for me I realised I was addicted and stopped but I will never ever be the same without if every day I feel weird and it’s been three years. I only stop taking it because I don’t want to do health damage. But I never ever feel like I use to before I took yvansse
I have an incredible respect for this woman. She has been through more then any person i’ve ever seen. She’s incredible and she seems like a person that has the inner strength to get through this. What an unbelievable story. I hope she recovers
You would be an amazing motivational speaker. I pray that you find the strength to accept help and love yourself as much as you clearly love others. You are an amazing person who has been through a lot. It’s hard to think you deserve help but you absolutely do. You deserve happiness.
Wow I could listen to her forever. She’s so wise and intelligent. I hope nothing but the best for her. I hope she can take her own advice and get hooked up with the right people to get her moving in the right direction out of addiction and homelessness. Also, definitely go visit your Dad!! ❤
She is totally aware of everything. It's rare that many of these addicts can clearly see thier problems in a coherent manner. I really think she would be ok if she would just give in a little more in going to get some help. She speaks well and has a good disposition. Seemingly a nice person. I really hope she just gives in and goes to rehab and succeeds. Best of luck Becky..You can do it🙏
Totally true. She s so lucid about the facts. We are not our trauma. In a point of life we need to choose and be a warrior and not to choose our trauma to defeat us.
❤❤❤I salute you living out here in PHX , I'm four years clean,I did enough in the drug world very scary and I definitely relate... Ur amazing I'll pray for u and keep u in my love and light
I have had my struggles with loving too. I found hating myself was easier with addiction, self-sabotage, and fear. But somehow I found my way out of my pit of hell and am now a nurse with a loving husband, a beautiful home, and 6 kids. By the things you are saying, you are getting there too! Keep going, keep your head up, and keep fighting! You got this!
You got that right ! I am so over how inundated fake, false, outright lies get consumed (not here) all day every day when people could see true life experiences and just maybe learn how to sympathize or relate or whatever instead of scroll in the abyss! Sorry, didn't intend to rant.
Saying a prayer for you Becky, you sound like an awesome person. I hope you can get past the addiction, I KNOW you can definitely do something good with your life. The feeling of being stuck is so hard to overcome, but you CAN do it! The hardest battle is the one with your own dam mind, but it is possible. I can tell you from experience!! You GOT THIS girlfriend. People hate to hear this but the program is a lifesaver. There are some good state run ones in PA that are only $8 a week. I used to live there and will definitely pass on any info you need. Get out of LA, there are so many amazing resources in PA. Again you GOT & CAN do this! Ps… So sorry for your loss, grief makes that stuck feeling even worse
I appreciate how when Mark asks them a question and they hear it wrong and say an answer that doesn't answer the original he lets them answer and doesn't cut them off and once they finish he'll rearrange the original question. Ex: how he's asked about her childhood but she somehow heard now instead of childhood. But you are a very talented interviewer mark ❤
Go back to your father. He clearly loves you more than he is disappointed in you. You’re kind, you’re intelligent, go back and make a plan with him and try as hard as you can to make it. Even if you fall back down, get up and don’t hate yourself. You have support, get better and become someone who helps others transition to being sober, I feel like you would absolutely rock at doing that.
You ARE worthy of love and all good things Becky. You're capable of whatever you want to accomplish as well. It's going to happen as soon as (like you said) something shifts inside and you decide to help yourself. You become the priority. Think of how many lives you could save or pull up afterwards. I believe in you and the beauty inside you shows in every word you speak. Stay strong. 💪✌️👍
Oh Becky, my love. I see myself in you. I have 13 years of recovery, I too had a terrible addiction to heroin. You can and WILL do this. Photography is my passion too. Your soo smart, we are all. I lost my only child to fentanyl poisoning. I pray you give yourself grace…WE LOVE YOU❤️🩹♥️🙏🏼🙌🏼 You can heal🙏🏼
no it doesn't because it is chosen. very very few addicts were forced to start drinking or doing drugs ... curiosity killed the cat .... sadly ... oh and don't EVER tell a cancer fighter that addiction is a disease .. don't EVER!
I believe every word Becky says in her interview. I think she’s mistaken on having learned to love herself tho. I don’t know how we learn that but she definitely deserves so much more. …I know she can get better; I hope she will. She seems wonderful. ☮️
@daboy22 You volunteer at a homeless shelter and you believe they deserve "nothing except the bed (they) made." Doesn't add up. Sadly, you're another negative keyboard warrior that has recently arrived in the comment section.
@daboy2234 this woman is hurting. You took time out of your day to add insult on top of injury? Is that your job in life or something? Maybe just do you?
Becky please go see your Dad. You don’t want him to pass without seeing him. You will regret it for the rest of your life. Please also be kind to yourself. I’m so sorry you lost Eric. He would want you to go on without him. Check into a rehab. You’ll be so glad that you did! Sending lots of love ❤️ ❤❤
You’ve got this Becky! Work on one issue at a time, overcoming addiction first would be the best start, then when clean, find somewhere to stay, a spare room or a couch, anywhere to overcome the homelessness, then contacting agencies to help you find some work.. you can do this, I believe in you. Good luck beautiful lady ❤
Look after your teeth people. Never miss a brushing no matter what - especially at night. No toothpaste? Brush anyway and swish. Use a cloth. Whatever you need to do because you do not want to have your lips falling in to your throat. You will suffer bone loss- not just tooth loss and that’s why it looks so awful. It causes disease, horrible odour, problems with proper nutrition (fresh, raw veg) and don’t drink sugar drinks. Being an addict does not have to mean poor dental hygiene. It’s more important than you think.
Her fathers a bone head for ridiculing her about her weight. A father can ruin her daughters self esteem for life in a sentence or less. Most every women has what they consider body issues. I don’t care what you think as a dad, tell them their beautiful and re assure them. What ever issues they have they don’t need you to remind them. Btw I am a dad of 3 beautiful daughters so I’m speaking from experience. Your beautiful Becky!
Parents do so much damage to their kid's relationship to food. I had severe dysmorphia due to being called fat, & eventually became anorexia. Ironic, because looking at childhood pictures, I never even was overweight to begin with. It's crazy what gets put on kids due to anyone else's issues but the kid's. One sentence, even one word can destroy for so long, even forever.
Becky, I can see & hear that the pain and grief from losing Eric is overwhelming. He must have been a wonderful man, just as you are a woman! Please get help. Please!
Hi Becky! If you see this please fight for you, fight for sobriety and therefore find some peace. You are worth it and you DESERVE IT! You have strength so turn it inward and you will prevail. Please try to be kind to yourself. Beating yourself up doesn’t help anything. Huge ❤ to you sista.
When my traumatic story was published in an online newspaper (about a totally different topic) a few years ago and the publication was flooded by people's positive comments which with my lack of self-esteem was a shock .... well those comments give me strength every single day so reading the positivity coming from people here, I really hope the same for you. I hope. you find the strength to get on the right path and make your wishes come true. Please follow the comedy dream of yours - laughter is such an amazing healer (also a way to hide pain, but please don't do that). Simply wishing you the best.
8 minutes in & I know with every ounce of my soul, you are being called to help others with your experiences. Some give some take … you are a giver; and for that you special AF … I adore you ❤ “you have to believe in yourself …” quote taken from my dear sister, Becky. Ask your love in Heaven, to intervene and send you to safety & inspire others. You gave this old timer; a boost of hope.
Becky, you're doing it. You are indeed smart, just based on this you shared things folks spend lifetime learning. I mean, I get it, it took a lifetime for you but you're implementing and acknowledging it all and that is huge! The hardest aspect of every day is to keep moving even when it's so challenging and to pat yourself on the back everyday you do. Thank you for sharing ❤
Girl, we all make bad decisions sometimes. Reality is, if you hadn’t done the drugs you might have never met the love of your life. Our experiences and choices make us who we are, good or bad. You can also choose to live differently. You are worth much more than this and you have so much good life ahead of you. Go to rehab, work the program, face your demons and deal with your shit. You can find your peace and have a better life.
Becky, don't be worried about yesteryear, we can't change the last 10yaers ,nor the last 10 mins, but our future is a picture you design. Love yourself. You exsist,exist, you are worthy
It’s so hard to get clean when we’ve been stuffing our feelings down for years and years. And on top of that, because of the lifestyle we succumb to more trauma on top of anything else. So it’s very difficult to switch gears.
Becky, you are breaking my heart and my soul. You sound exactly the way I was. My whole childhood was the exact same, no issues, had everything, and I still for some ungodly reason chose at 26 years old, after having my 2 beautiful babies, not drinking, not even smoking weed, I became depressed,and jumped at the feeling of feeling nothing at all. I have now been on and off opiates for 12 or 13 years. I am now 8 months clean again off of fentynal and meth. I almost lost the love of my life this past December to a heart attack, pneumonia, and a blood infection, all because he wasn't ready yet. I'm sorry you lost the love of your life, I know it hurts. I have been with mine 11 years on and off all through our addiction. I left 2 1/2 years ago to get me, myself clean and worry about me finally. I got clean and was clean almost 15 months. My fiance wasn't ready then either. Then he finally was and we did good again for months, and then we fell, but the difference was this time was that I wanted it still. I left and he stayed on the streets again and that's when he almost died. I remember getting that call that day, to come say good bye to him. I fell to my knees and the heart wrenching feeling was too much too handle. He was in a coma, and we were told he couldn't breath on his own, and his temperature of almost 107 wouldn't come down. We stood by his bed for days, and he miraculously woke up. Since then he hasn't touched anything, he started therapy, medication for his mental health, and actually dealing with his own issues. Please get help, you are an amazing soul and remind me so much of myself. We were not made for this life. No one was or is, but you have such a BIG heart, and you can tell you don't want this life anymore. I think you just don't know where or how or why you would want to get and stay clean. Please reach out to Mark and ask him for real help, he has helped so many people. You are loved and probably very very missed by so many. Please call your dad and say hello, tell him you love him. I know I can't make you want to get clean, that is up to you, but please please please do it for yourself out of anyone in your life. I can tell you want this, I can feel you want this. If you need anyone to talk to and you happen to see this please feel free to reach out. I know I'm in Canada and your out in L.A. but I can and will be there to listen and help in anyway I possible can. ❤
Becky is a beautiful, caring human being. I hope she feels the love for her coming thru these comments and it will give her the strength to kick this thing. Blessings to Becky!
This hurts so much. Her emotions are so raw. She could do so much with her life, she is so smart and very well spoken. But whats most important she is aware. I truly hope she finds peace within herself and beats her addiction. Becky, i wish you all the best.
Thank you for you story Becky ❤️ praying you take the help that is coming your way..stay strong live love and use your beautiful heart to help others!!@
You are an amazing person and a beautiful woman please get out of this lifestyle and push yourself to do what you need to do for you! I really enjoyed watching your interview and I pray you get your kick off with the comedy career or even your photography career ❤ God Bless you! And let yourself feel these emotions and go through the process. I still struggle with my issues and your a strong woman and you will never be perfect but your telling your truth and you understand the game! Mark please help her with your resources 🙏🏼
I went 3 years without talking to my father because i was using drugs and was ashamed. we also had an argument over money i felt was owed to me (child support he didnt pay that my mother told me about) while i was struggling to make it on my own. After 3 years of zero contact and lots of drug use i got a phone call from my grandmother (My dads mom) that my father had shot himself and was no longer with us. It broke me. Get back to your father Becky. Please dont make the same mistake i did. Im 2 years clean now and everyday i wish he could have gotten the chance to see me get better. I loved my father more than life itself. I miss him dearly. You can do this Becky. Your father loves you and has been waiting for you this whole time. God bless.
Becky, you are such a sweetheart. I too am an absolute expert in self-sabotage, and I find myself wondering why I am so scared of good things. Like you, I don't understand it beyond having an awareness that I do it to myself. You sure do radiate a likeable and genuinely kind spirit. Those qualities, along with your hopeful heart and your proven ability to survive anything will serve you so well when you take the leap to get healthy. You seem to be on the precipice of something really amazing happening, if you just can let it. I sure hope you can take care of yourself as good as you take care of others. The people in your community are so lucky to have you as an advocate and protector- I hope you'll be able to receive the same grace and strength from them when you need it
Oh my goodness…5 guys? I’m so sorry honey… I’m sorry you been through some real traumatizing things in your life…sorry about losing your lover.. some people are dealt the worst cards .. give yourself the most time for acceptance.. of all the things that happened and eat it up and try to see the bright side… you have to.. or these moments will haunt your whole life… good luck on that journey, Becky.
People please don't shame addicts offer help and support. When you say that to someone enough times it's like beating a dog with a stick. You start to believe what people say about you. You have no idea how harmful that is at the same time. I'm rooting for you girl
@@hydraflora1342 You must not have read them all, along with the replies. The replies can often be really ugly. There will no doubt be more to follow in the next few hours or days.
Hi Becky..your message at the end of your interview resonated! I am very glad as a fellow ex-iv user but complete alcoholic now to hear about the necessity of self love..or at the very least self care.
Praying for you Becky. My daughter has been homeless since January and now is a full blown fentanyl addict. Her family is really scared this time. But we all know she has to want the help. I’m an opiate addict also. I have been off opiates for many many many years now. But I will always have that addiction. Hang in there Becky. Btw.. it does get wet and cold here in the winter. ❤🙏🏼
Becky has so much potential to get clean and to live her life. I hope she is able to get connected to services that will really help her, and I hope she allows herself to get the help.
Unfortunate that parents choose to humiliate & shame their daughters about their weight in an effort to control their eating. Becky probably felt inadequate and unworthy because her Dad focused on her outward appearance so much. She has a great personality & BIG humor which have helped her minimize the bullying although deep down inside her self-esteem probably suffered if her Dad's love was so conditional based on how she looked. Glad that she's now focusing on positive self-talk in order to propel herself forward instead of dragging herself down. Bravo Becky!
You can tell from the jump that she's insecure by telling what her brothers do and not what she does for a living/fun. She compares herself to her brothers, probably is all the time, & has been compared to them her whole life.
Becky is a smart genuine person who knows herself very well. I hope and pray that Becky can forgive herself and get back to her family, I also pray that her family can show her some compassion, love and forgiveness. No one sets out to be homeless or an addict, we all crave love and acceptance and sometimes that what we seek is the downfall because of the company we keep. Life is a jumble of circumstance and choices. Becky I send you love, I wish I could send you more than that but for now good vibes and love🥰
Becky you are smart enough and you can do this!!! I'm 52 and just got clean June will be 3 years and I started using at 26. It's definitely not easy but I'm telling you if I can do it so can you you. I've never done heroin but I did blues and just ate them and I'm not saying I'm any better because I'm not and right now I am in the most excruciating pain I've ever been in in my life I am numb from the knee down and it's a mixture of sciatica and peripheral neuropathy but I think it's so much more than that and it literally is consuming my every thought and all I think about is if I could just take some pain pills but I know me even if I started out as prescribed I know eventually I will pop them like candy so I'm just going through it right now but I will tell you I got off of opiates from Suboxone I was on it for six months it was the easiest withdrawal and this is my story so nobody come for me in the comments please to Becky if you're able to do that I would so suggest it because my life now wouldn't be what it is if I didn't stay clean and I know that sounds cliche but it is the truth and I am sending you nothing but love and strength❤💪 and you are so right addiction does not discriminate because I have an amazing job as an office manager at a doctor's office and that's actually where my addiction began and nobody in my family did drugs or drank and my mom always used to say to me what did I do where did I go wrong and I would tell her mom and has nothing to do with you and unfortunately she passed away and never saw me get clean. Becky you sound so much like me when you talked about being compassionate and helping others I would be the first one when I have nothing so I can totally relate to your story and I definitely have compassion in my heart for you❤
RachelRae - you with the good heart - I'm sorry for all you are going through. You tell your story exceedingly well, and I can relate to quite a lot of it. Again, sorry for your suffering. I hope things get better, sooner than later. Will be thinking of you.
@karenfryberger4260 Karen thank you for such that kind comment and I do have such a big heart and I get so many negative and mean comments on here so it's really nice to see somebody write a nice comment and it's so much easier to be kind and nice then mean and ugly and I thank the ones that say the mean things to me are probably the ones that are the exact way other people he's interviewing so again I thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️. And I will definitely keep you posted what's happening with me
@@rachelrae860 I've been subscribed to this channel for years, watching quietly from the sidelines. But as the comment section grew more and more gratuitously cruel, ignorant, bullying and just generally toxic, I finally waded in to (selectively) report and/or reply. That said, your thoughtful and kind comments caught my eye, then to have you tell part of the story behind that "good hearted woman" - it kind of hit hard. So, again, I truly wish you the best and please do keep me posted. I'm here for you, as much as that is possible on the internet.
@@karenfryberger4260 thank you again Karen so very much and if you have Facebook I will put my name on here but as soon as you get it I'm going to delete it because I did have my real name on here and I literally got stalked and they even brought my daughter into it and it was really bad so let me know if you have Facebook and then I can message you that way and I actually just left one doctor appointment and said they can do absolutely nothing for me so I am outside literally hysterically crying so yeah let me know ASAP and I will give you my full name
Becky your heart totally touched my soul. You have already, in every way, beat this, now you must allow your body to follow. You are not alone Beck, God is there with you. Don't regret, act. I lost both of my parents now and please believe me you don't want to regret. Your so incredibly insightful and loved. May the love of Jesus overwhelm you.❤
sweet Becky, you're such a good person. I hope you meet someone soon who lifts you up. Eric will never be replaced but I'm sure he would want you to meet someone who lifts you up. I totally understand the self-sabotage and trying to stop myself.
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I truly hope she finds the help she needs and turns her life around. She is so inteligente and self aware, such a kind soul. You deserve so much more, Becky!
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Undoubtably one of the most likable and lovable people ever interviewed. What an honor to listen to you Becky, thanks for sharing yourself with us. Keep believing you are good enough and smart enough because you are. Love to you infinity ❤️
Intelligent, well spoken, polite, and kind soul. Hope things get better for you soon ❤
Becky, I was born and raised in Pittsburgh and still here. This is my favorite TH-cam channel and when you said you were from Pittsburgh I was like heyyyyy. I'm 28 and working on my recovery. I have a fair amount of sobriety in my 20s so far. It's definitely a struggle, but there's a really good recovery community and a lot of meetings in Pittsburgh if you ever choose to come back. Nothing better than sober friends. Regardless of where you are, you can do this if you want it. It can be difficult, but it's worth it. I can tell you have a huge heart and will be able to help a lot of people. Sending you love and hope from the 412.
Love this message to Becky!! Recovery support is vital IMO - we are all human & can help one another - “but for the Grace of God…”
I have two weeks clean from fentanyl! I feel on top of the world.
Methadone?
@jimbofischa Why would you comment this? I had nine months clean up until a few months ago. It is not inevitable.
@@Northwest425 Yes, I'm on methadone. I was using on top of the methadone.
@@sugarsore Because he's just here to make negative remarks. That's his MO. Keep on keepin' on, Sugarsore.
@@karenfryberger4260 Thank you, Karen.
She is a WISE soul! I pray her situation gets better as she has so much potential to be a positive influence in this world! 🙏🏽 Smart, intelligent, kind, and well spoken!!!
Becky as a fellow Pittsburgher I am rooting for you big time! I see the great potential in you and I want you to see it in yourself! You have had a lot of trauma and sadness in your life and I hope you can get into therapy, rehab, and some stable housing and get yourself off the streets. Best wishes to you!
Becky, SINCERELY SORRY for the loss of your partner Eric. Please don't make the mistake of putting off seeing your dad. Go, regardless of your addiction, even if only for a moment. Wishing you a life you dream about, YOUR WORTH IT! 🙏🙏❤
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Yes, you really won't regret a visit. I hope you're able to go see him.
I always wonder why more ppl on this channel don't go get on methadone or other maintenance drugs? Is it BC there's no medical coverage in the US?
Wow. This made me tear up.
@ Becky, my heart goes out to you & go see your Daddy! ❤
Becky you have so much potential , I can tell you are better than this and you deserve more. Please don’t give up on yourself you are only here once , you still have time .
Becky can still get out of she wants to. I hope she listens to this video and takes her own advice! Stay strong girl, you got this!
This channel really helps to humanize the ones we might normally look down on. Everyone has a story worth listening to.
Everyone deserves love and respect, we are all flesh and blood our only differences are attitudes and money.
I have learned a lot about myself and my thought process from watching this channel and the last few years have changed my perspective and I closed my mind and my heart during Covid, since finding this channel I’ve opened my mind and my heart again and rediscovered my humanity.
I think we all need to be reminded now and again that life is worth living and there are others who deserve our compassion and recognition.
Yes they do everyone has a backstory who are we to judge anyone
She is 1 lady who deserves help, personally I think apart from her being able to see her dad she should be giving the chance of the rehab instead of Rebecca. This lady seems to be someone who would accept help, I think she would get clean if she could get help, she is genuine and needs that help. I only wish I had money etc as I would have helped her but sadly I dont have anything
Dear Becky. First and foremost, you are a level-headed person.
You are so very hard on yourself. It is easy to say "do this" "do that" - you have to see the real you. I'm not in doubt. You have a beautiful soul. Addiction can blur so many values. There is so much that one self can't see it when in the middle of it all. BUT you can!
You got value ❤
Becky you are so beautiful. You are so close to being where you want to be. You are a shining light in a shitty dark world. I believe in you and I know you will get better. As a daughter of parents who died from addiction, I see you. You are worth so much in this world. Take your time but please keep going. I believe in you so much. Much love
Becky! If you see this, you are worth it! I can see your soul and you remind me so much of me. I was fortunate enough to only have a 2 year affair with the really hard drugs but I also had a really amazing support system.
I think that there meetings that could help you to l the most would be CODA. I think your core issue is codependency. You said it. You help EVERYONE else before you. I struggle with that same core issue and learning about that has helped me find self love and take the self care that I need.
I hope you can get the help you need.
I appreciate you but your not going to diagnose a woman by just a ten min interview with her, 2yrs or 20 yrs we all have one thing in common TRAUMA
@@chrystalr4737 Are YOU a professional councilor?
@@alexandersupertramp7353 no. I'm a professional codependent lol. Really. I'm assessing the situation from my own time in recovery from drugs and trauma. Simply a kind hearted suggestion.
@@chrystalr4737 I don't think you actually read what I wrote. It's all good though. I couldn't care less if YOU read it anyhow. BTW, aren't you diagnosing trauma? I thought you weren't going to be able to diagnose anyone that soon.
@@alexandersupertramp7353 I totally thought you were asking me if I was the professional lol. I really am a professional codependent though.
She isn't self destructive she is traumatized suffering from ptsd this a war. People need to start helping other people.
People make mistakes that sometimes cause bad situations, but we all need a chance at a good life at some point. I hope she finds peace .
Becky, You're so right, it truly is NEVER too late. You can do it. Even the way you said "Thanks!" at the end, so upbeat, it warmed my heart. You've got it in you! We're all rooting for you. Sending you much love and encouragement.
Becky has so much potential. She has already survived so much trauma.
What trauma did she deal with? Ppl are so weak nowadays.
@@jfromtheburgh5643 guess you missed the rape part
@daboy22 this is exactly the type of post you get from someone that drinks beer for breakfast.
@@jfromtheburgh5643 gang rape is no joke. You clearly are unable to comprehend what you watch. The fact that she was bullied by her father didn't help either.
@daboy22 It’s painfully obvious that you’re no psychologist.
Mark the work your doing is so admirable and inspirational. You give each one of these people a voice and a safe space to tell their stories. Sometimes all a person needs is someone to listen. You can tell by how each person talks that it’s truly like a therapy session for them. Please keep up the great work! I love your channel!
Becky you have an incredible soul that shines through. You remind me so much of my best friend if she took the wrong path. Please try to get clean and you will do incredible things and save many more lives than 12. I’m rooting for you
@daboy22 Since you have access to the internet… it would do you good to look up the definition of words before commenting.
@daboy22 Jesus, dude, just stop it. If you are everything you say you are in your other comments, surely you have better things to do than hate on everything and everyone. Or not. You seem to thrive on it; it's your drug. Addicted to hostility.
@daboy22 you and Jimbo must be real good butt buddies. Lol fools
Body shaming is a form of abuse. Don’t ever comment on someone’s weight. It’s none of your business
You are lucid, you are good. Your heart is good. Addiction is a monster, it is not you.
I suffer with mental health problems and I’m also disabled. My dad was my absolute rock who helped me through some really dark times. Sadly he passed away 5 yrs ago, with no warning. Since then my life is slowly going downhill again so I understand where you’re coming from
Im sorry for your loss ❤
I’m so sorry for your loss love❤🙏🏾
Sorry to hear Paul. There is always hope, we have to step into it.
Sending love
I’ve walked this. Choices brought me in - choices took me out. This only happened after I was sick of my own excuses, and was tired of acting out what I resented others for having done to me in the past. Choose to be better than what made you originally decide to give up. The alternative is a Hell before the mercy of death. Life begins with learning to love yourself. This woman can love herself when she’s ready - not before. I love her, because I love people. However, that’s not enough. The clock can be an impatient debt collector - I hope she beats it.
Mark, at the end there, when you're sending her off, I can actually hear the compassion fatigue in your voice. Take a couple weeks off and get some you time. Doing this every day has to be emotionally exhausting for you. Don't run yourself dry.
Keep counting the positives Becky 💖
Condolences for the loss of your partner 💙 can’t imagine healing amid the chaos going on around you. 💜🦋💜
Nurturing the baby you with all the love and compassion the grown up you gives others helps loads.
You are loved so much 💕💖💕
Becky, I hear in your voice how badly you want to get clean. I hope you can find the resources to help you do that so you can live the life you deserve. I truly think you have such courage and strength. You can do this for you.
Honestly both my parents were awful to
Me growing up about my weight … now in my 70s. I still suffer can you believe that ?! Good luck lovely girlie do hope you find some peace without drugs❤️
This woman is very articulate, smart and has dreams or positive thoughts no matter the situation and with the constant pain and bad circumstances she deserves help to give herself a positive future.
If we had no drugs could you imagine the world.
Ma'am please stay strong and know you have the means and education to give yourself success in life. Treatment would be beneficial for you and some physiological help.
Remember, no one starts life wanting to be a drug addict🌺
Right, they choose it. It was a decision. Let’s not forget that.
@@donttalkjustplay4274 it’s a disease not a choice . Doctor put me on a strong adhd drug thank god for me I realised I was addicted and stopped but I will never ever be the same without if every day I feel weird and it’s been three years. I only stop taking it because I don’t want to do health damage. But I never ever feel like I use to before I took yvansse
@@donttalkjustplay4274you almost got the point, so close
@@jaymegallo5575 no I got it, you clearly missed mine though. Not so close, I would say good try but no.
Amen ✝️ 🙏🏼
I have an incredible respect for this woman. She has been through more then any person i’ve ever seen. She’s incredible and she seems like a person that has the inner strength to get through this. What an unbelievable story. I hope she recovers
You would be an amazing motivational speaker. I pray that you find the strength to accept help and love yourself as much as you clearly love others. You are an amazing person who has been through a lot. It’s hard to think you deserve help but you absolutely do. You deserve happiness.
I hope her family sees this and ask her to come on home ❤
Her parents are good people; just like she is… please God - intervene ❤❤
Wow I could listen to her forever. She’s so wise and intelligent. I hope nothing but the best for her. I hope she can take her own advice and get hooked up with the right people to get her moving in the right direction out of addiction and homelessness. Also, definitely go visit your Dad!! ❤
Wise??
Far from it
@@nowirehangers2815 are you kidding?
@@brittneylyntalks are you delayed?
She is totally aware of everything. It's rare that many of these addicts can clearly see thier problems in a coherent manner. I really think she would be ok if she would just give in a little more in going to get some help. She speaks well and has a good disposition. Seemingly a nice person. I really hope she just gives in and goes to rehab and succeeds. Best of luck Becky..You can do it🙏
Totally true. She s so lucid about the facts. We are not our trauma. In a point of life we need to choose and be a warrior and not to choose our trauma to defeat us.
@@ViAndareKV 🙏100%....
To listen to your story was 😢 but I believe that you will get clean and sober soon. You have a story that more people need to hear.
❤❤❤I salute you living out here in PHX , I'm four years clean,I did enough in the drug world very scary and I definitely relate... Ur amazing I'll pray for u and keep u in my love and light
And I do believe she's near the end of her run.... She's tired and contemplating now I was right there at one point same story
Spiritual growth is beautiful ❤️❤️❤️
This one really touched me. I hope all your dreams come true Becky ❤
I have had my struggles with loving too. I found hating myself was easier with addiction, self-sabotage, and fear. But somehow I found my way out of my pit of hell and am now a nurse with a loving husband, a beautiful home, and 6 kids. By the things you are saying, you are getting there too! Keep going, keep your head up, and keep fighting! You got this!
In a world full of insta girls full of shit we need to listen to more of these women. Have some compassion 😢❤️
You got that right ! I am so over how inundated fake, false, outright lies get consumed (not here) all day every day when people could see true life experiences and just maybe learn how to sympathize or relate or whatever instead of scroll in the abyss! Sorry, didn't intend to rant.
@@alexandraozbourne3937 yes.
Saying a prayer for you Becky, you sound like an awesome person. I hope you can get past the addiction, I KNOW you can definitely do something good with your life. The feeling of being stuck is so hard to overcome, but you CAN do it! The hardest battle is the one with your own dam mind, but it is possible. I can tell you from experience!! You GOT THIS girlfriend. People hate to hear this but the program is a lifesaver. There are some good state run ones in PA that are only $8 a week. I used to live there and will definitely pass on any info you need. Get out of LA, there are so many amazing resources in PA. Again you GOT & CAN do this! Ps… So sorry for your loss, grief makes that stuck feeling even worse
I appreciate how when Mark asks them a question and they hear it wrong and say an answer that doesn't answer the original he lets them answer and doesn't cut them off and once they finish he'll rearrange the original question.
Ex: how he's asked about her childhood but she somehow heard now instead of childhood.
But you are a very talented interviewer mark ❤
Nothing changes unless something changes. Sober 12 years. Trust u higher power.
Go back to your father. He clearly loves you more than he is disappointed in you. You’re kind, you’re intelligent, go back and make a plan with him and try as hard as you can to make it. Even if you fall back down, get up and don’t hate yourself. You have support, get better and become someone who helps others transition to being sober, I feel like you would absolutely rock at doing that.
You ARE worthy of love and all good things Becky. You're capable of whatever you want to accomplish as well. It's going to happen as soon as (like you said) something shifts inside and you decide to help yourself. You become the priority. Think of how many lives you could save or pull up afterwards. I believe in you and the beauty inside you shows in every word you speak. Stay strong. 💪✌️👍
Oh Becky, my love. I see myself in you. I have 13 years of recovery, I too had a terrible addiction to heroin. You can and WILL do this. Photography is my passion too. Your soo smart, we are all. I lost my only child to fentanyl poisoning. I pray you give yourself grace…WE LOVE YOU❤️🩹♥️🙏🏼🙌🏼 You can heal🙏🏼
Addiction does not discriminate
no it doesn't because it is chosen. very very few addicts were forced to start drinking or doing drugs ... curiosity killed the cat .... sadly ... oh and don't EVER tell a cancer fighter that addiction is a disease .. don't EVER!
@WuNdA WuMaN you are ignorant please learn about it if you care but by your comment I know you don't but maybe I'm wrong.
Becky - thank you for sharing your experience. You are in my prayers. I hope you make it.
I believe every word Becky says in her interview. I think she’s mistaken on having learned to love herself tho. I don’t know how we learn that but she definitely deserves so much more. …I know she can get better; I hope she will. She seems wonderful. ☮️
@daboy22 you're a real prince with the ignorant comments
@daboy22 Grandiosity much? It is the number one sign of narcissistic personality disorder….
@daboy22 You volunteer at a homeless shelter and you believe they deserve "nothing except the bed (they) made."
Doesn't add up. Sadly, you're another negative keyboard warrior that has recently arrived in the comment section.
@@sup393 yeah he seems to get jollies by trolling. There's a couple people that regularly do it on this channel. Truly pathetic they are.
@daboy2234 this woman is hurting. You took time out of your day to add insult on top of injury? Is that your job in life or something? Maybe just do you?
Wishing this girl the best💜🙏
Becky please go see your Dad. You don’t want him to pass without seeing him. You will regret it for the rest of your life. Please also be kind to yourself. I’m so sorry you lost Eric. He would want you to go on without him. Check into a rehab. You’ll be so glad that you did! Sending lots of love ❤️ ❤❤
Well said Julie. I echo your words.
Thank you for the interview Becky and SWU
You’ve got this Becky! Work on one issue at a time, overcoming addiction first would be the best start, then when clean, find somewhere to stay, a spare room or a couch, anywhere to overcome the homelessness, then contacting agencies to help you find some work.. you can do this, I believe in you. Good luck beautiful lady ❤
Look after your teeth people. Never miss a brushing no matter what - especially at night. No toothpaste? Brush anyway and swish. Use a cloth. Whatever you need to do because you do not want to have your lips falling in to your throat. You will suffer bone loss- not just tooth loss and that’s why it looks so awful. It causes disease, horrible odour, problems with proper nutrition (fresh, raw veg) and don’t drink sugar drinks. Being an addict does not have to mean poor dental hygiene. It’s more important than you think.
Her fathers a bone head for ridiculing her about her weight. A father can ruin her daughters self esteem for life in a sentence or less. Most every women has what they consider body issues. I don’t care what you think as a dad, tell them their beautiful and re assure them. What ever issues they have they don’t need you to remind them. Btw I am a dad of 3 beautiful daughters so I’m speaking from experience. Your beautiful Becky!
Parents do so much damage to their kid's relationship to food. I had severe dysmorphia due to being called fat, & eventually became anorexia. Ironic, because looking at childhood pictures, I never even was overweight to begin with. It's crazy what gets put on kids due to anyone else's issues but the kid's. One sentence, even one word can destroy for so long, even forever.
@Broski Snowski you've never had something bother you for years?
Becky.. fellow Pennsylvanian here.. you have so much potential. Get off the streets and get the help you need..
BE KIND. No matter what, always be kind ❤
Becky, I can see & hear that the pain and grief from losing Eric is overwhelming. He must have been a wonderful man, just as you are a woman! Please get help. Please!
Hi Becky! If you see this please fight for you, fight for sobriety and therefore find some peace. You are worth it and you DESERVE IT! You have strength so turn it inward and you will prevail. Please try to be kind to yourself. Beating yourself up doesn’t help anything. Huge ❤ to you sista.
This woman is so intelligent!! She deserves a good life ❤
When my traumatic story was published in an online newspaper (about a totally different topic) a few years ago and the publication was flooded by people's positive comments which with my lack of self-esteem was a shock .... well those comments give me strength every single day so reading the positivity coming from people here, I really hope the same for you. I hope. you find the strength to get on the right path and make your wishes come true. Please follow the comedy dream of yours - laughter is such an amazing healer (also a way to hide pain, but please don't do that). Simply wishing you the best.
8 minutes in & I know with every ounce of my soul, you are being called to help others with your experiences. Some give some take … you are a giver; and for that you special AF … I adore you ❤ “you have to believe in yourself …” quote taken from my dear sister, Becky. Ask your love in Heaven, to intervene and send you to safety & inspire others. You gave this old timer; a boost of hope.
Get back to the Burgh Gurl. Enjoy your Dad while you have him. Please get into treatment. You seen like such a good person. Wishing you the best
I hope she gets home to see her Dad & gets sober. Wishing her all the best. Thank you for sharing this video with us. 👍🇨🇦😊
Becky, you're doing it. You are indeed smart, just based on this you shared things folks spend lifetime learning. I mean, I get it, it took a lifetime for you but you're implementing and acknowledging it all and that is huge!
The hardest aspect of every day is to keep moving even when it's so challenging and to pat yourself on the back everyday you do.
Thank you for sharing ❤
Your honesty is so refreshing. You seem like someone I would like to be friends with. Thank you for sharing your heart.
Girl, we all make bad decisions sometimes. Reality is, if you hadn’t done the drugs you might have never met the love of your life. Our experiences and choices make us who we are, good or bad. You can also choose to live differently. You are worth much more than this and you have so much good life ahead of you. Go to rehab, work the program, face your demons and deal with your shit. You can find your peace and have a better life.
Becky, don't be worried about yesteryear, we can't change the last 10yaers ,nor the last 10 mins, but our future is a picture you design. Love yourself. You exsist,exist, you are worthy
It’s so hard to get clean when we’ve been stuffing our feelings down for years and years. And on top of that, because of the lifestyle we succumb to more trauma on top of anything else. So it’s very difficult to switch gears.
Becky, you are breaking my heart and my soul. You sound exactly the way I was. My whole childhood was the exact same, no issues, had everything, and I still for some ungodly reason chose at 26 years old, after having my 2 beautiful babies, not drinking, not even smoking weed, I became depressed,and jumped at the feeling of feeling nothing at all. I have now been on and off opiates for 12 or 13 years. I am now 8 months clean again off of fentynal and meth. I almost lost the love of my life this past December to a heart attack, pneumonia, and a blood infection, all because he wasn't ready yet. I'm sorry you lost the love of your life, I know it hurts. I have been with mine 11 years on and off all through our addiction. I left 2 1/2 years ago to get me, myself clean and worry about me finally. I got clean and was clean almost 15 months. My fiance wasn't ready then either. Then he finally was and we did good again for months, and then we fell, but the difference was this time was that I wanted it still. I left and he stayed on the streets again and that's when he almost died. I remember getting that call that day, to come say good bye to him. I fell to my knees and the heart wrenching feeling was too much too handle. He was in a coma, and we were told he couldn't breath on his own, and his temperature of almost 107 wouldn't come down. We stood by his bed for days, and he miraculously woke up. Since then he hasn't touched anything, he started therapy, medication for his mental health, and actually dealing with his own issues. Please get help, you are an amazing soul and remind me so much of myself. We were not made for this life. No one was or is, but you have such a BIG heart, and you can tell you don't want this life anymore. I think you just don't know where or how or why you would want to get and stay clean. Please reach out to Mark and ask him for real help, he has helped so many people. You are loved and probably very very missed by so many. Please call your dad and say hello, tell him you love him. I know I can't make you want to get clean, that is up to you, but please please please do it for yourself out of anyone in your life. I can tell you want this, I can feel you want this. If you need anyone to talk to and you happen to see this please feel free to reach out. I know I'm in Canada and your out in L.A. but I can and will be there to listen and help in anyway I possible can. ❤
♥️
you are a horrible mother and a disgusting person
Bless this women. She seems so wonderful. You deserve the world. I know you can get sober eventually and life the life you dream of
Becky is a beautiful, caring human being. I hope she feels the love for her coming thru these comments and it will give her the strength to kick this thing. Blessings to Becky!
Mark you captured a beautiful still of Becky, awesome as always.❤
This hurts so much. Her emotions are so raw. She could do so much with her life, she is so smart and very well spoken. But whats most important she is aware. I truly hope she finds peace within herself and beats her addiction. Becky, i wish you all the best.
Thank you for you story Becky ❤️ praying you take the help that is coming your way..stay strong live love and use your beautiful heart to help others!!@
😢 heartbreaking . This lady is literate / aware of her abilities but life took her on a different path . I hope she gets the help needed
You are an amazing person and a beautiful woman please get out of this lifestyle and push yourself to do what you need to do for you! I really enjoyed watching your interview and I pray you get your kick off with the comedy career or even your photography career ❤ God Bless you! And let yourself feel these emotions and go through the process. I still struggle with my issues and your a strong woman and you will never be perfect but your telling your truth and you understand the game! Mark please help her with your resources 🙏🏼
Very good interview. She’s gonna make it. 🙏🙏🙏
How self aware and full of love and compassion ❤
I went 3 years without talking to my father because i was using drugs and was ashamed. we also had an argument over money i felt was owed to me (child support he didnt pay that my mother told me about) while i was struggling to make it on my own. After 3 years of zero contact and lots of drug use i got a phone call from my grandmother (My dads mom) that my father had shot himself and was no longer with us. It broke me. Get back to your father Becky. Please dont make the same mistake i did. Im 2 years clean now and everyday i wish he could have gotten the chance to see me get better. I loved my father more than life itself. I miss him dearly. You can do this Becky. Your father loves you and has been waiting for you this whole time. God bless.
Becky, please hold on and pull out of this. Figure out what your Why is, and go for it. You can do this ❤
Becky, you are such a sweetheart. I too am an absolute expert in self-sabotage, and I find myself wondering why I am so scared of good things. Like you, I don't understand it beyond having an awareness that I do it to myself. You sure do radiate a likeable and genuinely kind spirit. Those qualities, along with your hopeful heart and your proven ability to survive anything will serve you so well when you take the leap to get healthy. You seem to be on the precipice of something really amazing happening, if you just can let it. I sure hope you can take care of yourself as good as you take care of others. The people in your community are so lucky to have you as an advocate and protector- I hope you'll be able to receive the same grace and strength from them when you need it
Oh my goodness…5 guys? I’m so sorry honey… I’m sorry you been through some real traumatizing things in your life…sorry about losing your lover.. some people are dealt the worst cards .. give yourself the most time for acceptance.. of all the things that happened and eat it up and try to see the bright side… you have to.. or these moments will haunt your whole life… good luck on that journey, Becky.
@daboy2234we found the funny guy everyone! Great joke man, you’re hilarious , must be a comedian.
Moron
@daboy22 SURE BUDDY. But in this case she was clearly not looking for that. So you’re really not that funny. Find real peace. ✌🏼
Not an addict but I so relate to her in every other way 😢
People please don't shame addicts offer help and support. When you say that to someone enough times it's like beating a dog with a stick. You start to believe what people say about you. You have no idea how harmful that is at the same time. I'm rooting for you girl
i don't see one comment shaming her.
@@hydraflora1342 You must not have read them all, along with the replies. The replies can often be really ugly. There will no doubt be more to follow in the next few hours or days.
don’t beat yourself up, addiction can be a crazy disease
Thanks for telling your story. Sending you good vibes and warm hugs
Hi Becky..your message at the end of your interview resonated! I am very glad as a fellow ex-iv user but complete alcoholic now to hear about the necessity of self love..or at the very least self care.
Keep doing what you’re doing and keep getting what your getting. I pray you hit a bottom soon.There’s help for you out there if you want it.
Praying for you Becky. My daughter has been homeless since January and now is a full blown fentanyl addict. Her family is really scared this time. But we all know she has to want the help. I’m an opiate addict also. I have been off opiates for many many many years now. But I will always have that addiction. Hang in there Becky. Btw.. it does get wet and cold here in the winter. ❤🙏🏼
Becky seems like a really nice person that's been through Hell. 😢❤ I really hope she gets help.
Becky has so much potential to get clean and to live her life. I hope she is able to get connected to services that will really help her, and I hope she allows herself to get the help.
Such a likable and smart lady. I hope things get better for you Becky.❤
Unfortunate that parents choose to humiliate & shame their daughters about their weight in an effort to control their eating. Becky probably felt inadequate and unworthy because her Dad focused on her outward appearance so much. She has a great personality & BIG humor which have helped her minimize the bullying although deep down inside her self-esteem probably suffered if her Dad's love was so conditional based on how she looked. Glad that she's now focusing on positive self-talk in order to propel herself forward instead of dragging herself down. Bravo Becky!
You can tell from the jump that she's insecure by telling what her brothers do and not what she does for a living/fun. She compares herself to her brothers, probably is all the time, & has been compared to them her whole life.
Becky is a smart genuine person who knows herself very well. I hope and pray that Becky can forgive herself and get back to her family, I also pray that her family can show her some compassion, love and forgiveness. No one sets out to be homeless or an addict, we all crave love and acceptance and sometimes that what we seek is the downfall because of the company we keep.
Life is a jumble of circumstance and choices.
Becky I send you love, I wish I could send you more than that but for now good vibes and love🥰
Becky you are smart enough and you can do this!!! I'm 52 and just got clean June will be 3 years and I started using at 26. It's definitely not easy but I'm telling you if I can do it so can you you. I've never done heroin but I did blues and just ate them and I'm not saying I'm any better because I'm not and right now I am in the most excruciating pain I've ever been in in my life I am numb from the knee down and it's a mixture of sciatica and peripheral neuropathy but I think it's so much more than that and it literally is consuming my every thought and all I think about is if I could just take some pain pills but I know me even if I started out as prescribed I know eventually I will pop them like candy so I'm just going through it right now but I will tell you I got off of opiates from Suboxone I was on it for six months it was the easiest withdrawal and this is my story so nobody come for me in the comments please to Becky if you're able to do that I would so suggest it because my life now wouldn't be what it is if I didn't stay clean and I know that sounds cliche but it is the truth and I am sending you nothing but love and strength❤💪 and you are so right addiction does not discriminate because I have an amazing job as an office manager at a doctor's office and that's actually where my addiction began and nobody in my family did drugs or drank and my mom always used to say to me what did I do where did I go wrong and I would tell her mom and has nothing to do with you and unfortunately she passed away and never saw me get clean. Becky you sound so much like me when you talked about being compassionate and helping others I would be the first one when I have nothing so I can totally relate to your story and I definitely have compassion in my heart for you❤
RachelRae - you with the good heart - I'm sorry for all you are going through. You tell your story exceedingly well, and I can relate to quite a lot of it. Again, sorry for your suffering. I hope things get better, sooner than later. Will be thinking of you.
@@jesterzj Thank you so much ❤️
@karenfryberger4260 Karen thank you for such that kind comment and I do have such a big heart and I get so many negative and mean comments on here so it's really nice to see somebody write a nice comment and it's so much easier to be kind and nice then mean and ugly and I thank the ones that say the mean things to me are probably the ones that are the exact way other people he's interviewing so again I thank you from the bottom of my heart ❤️. And I will definitely keep you posted what's happening with me
@@rachelrae860 I've been subscribed to this channel for years, watching quietly from the sidelines. But as the comment section grew more and more gratuitously cruel, ignorant, bullying and just generally toxic, I finally waded in to (selectively) report and/or reply. That said, your thoughtful and kind comments caught my eye, then to have you tell part of the story behind that "good hearted woman" - it kind of hit hard. So, again, I truly wish you the best and please do keep me posted. I'm here for you, as much as that is possible on the internet.
@@karenfryberger4260 thank you again Karen so very much and if you have Facebook I will put my name on here but as soon as you get it I'm going to delete it because I did have my real name on here and I literally got stalked and they even brought my daughter into it and it was really bad so let me know if you have Facebook and then I can message you that way and I actually just left one doctor appointment and said they can do absolutely nothing for me so I am outside literally hysterically crying so yeah let me know ASAP and I will give you my full name
Becky your heart totally touched my soul. You have already, in every way, beat this, now you must allow your body to follow. You are not alone Beck, God is there with you. Don't regret, act. I lost both of my parents now and please believe me you don't want to regret. Your so incredibly insightful and loved. May the love of Jesus overwhelm you.❤
sweet Becky, you're such a good person. I hope you meet someone soon who lifts you up. Eric will never be replaced but I'm sure he would want you to meet someone who lifts you up. I totally understand the self-sabotage and trying to stop myself.