when i dropped out, i entered 8 months of pure isolation and depression. 100% lost and couldn’t find my place in the world. don’t know why i’m talking in the past tense because this is on going!!
It obviously has been studied by many psychologist… I mean, I think most people underappreciated the fields of psychology, which are actually out there to help people survive the modern day world. Many people think psychology is only for crazy people but it’s not of course and in my opinion, we need to fund more mental health research and provide better mental health support.
Bro, our stories are quite similar: When I was in highschool I was kind of a top student, so it was expected for me to get in a prestigious college. Well, I took the entrance exams and got admitted on what's considered the best public university of my country, so at least it was cheap and therefore I didn't need to take any loans or get a scholarship. However, I didn't really knew what I wanted to study or what I wanted to do with my life, so I went with a Computer Science major for basically the same reasons you said in the video, lol. I ended up messing it all up and dropping during my freshman year and my life became a complete nightmare, to say the least. I still wanted to do things the "normal" way, though, so I took the entrance exams once again and re-entered college, but choose a different major, but that didn't fixed anything, my notes were barely enough to not get kicked out and all my teachers were quite abusive, telling me I shouldn't have chosen that major. But the worse part and what really was my mistake, was that I was still doing it for others, for my parents, for my friends, and for that stupid necessity to save face. Needless to say, I dropped out a second time. After all that crap, I also went through the same depression as you did, wanting to "Touch a Goomba without a 1-up" myself. But one day somehow I landed a job because, well, I didn't want to feel like a useless charge for my parents, so I went and worked a bit in customer service, It gave me lots of life experience that I don't regret having and, most importantly, I was doing it for myself. So, after taking that break, I decided to go back one last time to finish that second major I started. Not doing it for anyone else, but doing it for myself, and to prove myself I can do anything as long as I fight for it. I'm still not sure if this is the right direction I should take, I still don't think I fully enjoy what I do and I think I'll never find my passion or whatever, but it doesn't matter because at the end of the day, I'm still myself and I know everything's gonna be alright. Thanks for this video, I'm sure it will help people who have gone this same way know that they're not alone.
Aw. Sending support 🤍 You should be proud of making it as far as you could! And y’know what? It’s okay to not have a passion because I don’t either tbh
we're kinda the same bro. The only difference is that now i kinda regret having changed my major from computer science to being an english teacher. Sometimes i just feel like i have betrayed myself and can never find joy in working again. i was such a hasty idiot. i miss mathematics so much...
I think you will, you just haven’t found it yet. School is the only thing you know because parents are friends only went and did that. You haven’t tried enough things or did enough as a young person to really say that’s what you want to do in life. This world is full of opportunities, if you seek it out and take risks then it will reward you in the end. Good luck on your journey my friend
You're right lol, work doesn't need to be a passion, it's just a way to get that bread, without wanting to touch that goomba for how absolutely boring and meaningless your job is
Dude same! Tried the college life kinda but it was horrible and ending up failing so much in the end. So I dropped out and started working full-Time as a cashier. Honestly working a stepping stone job was a good eye opener to the real world of working life. You could work hard and do everything by the book correctly but still get screwed in the end by the company or higher ups. It’s harsh and real up close in your face like a blast of cold air in winter. But trust me it’s going to be ok, your going to be ok ✅
Very true. All jobs are the same in that respect. That's why your life shouldn't revolve around work. You could at dropped at any moment. Work can be used as a tool to fund what you really want to do in life. This is why I don't judge people on their careers because it's just what you do to survive.
This is so nice and it is literally perfect timing, I just graduated from university and at first it seems as if I would never get here and when I imagined what it would be like if I did I thought I would be happy, but now that I am here I feel a void and I keep asking myself “now what?” , I read some of the comments and I love how everyone is somehow going through similar things but in different perspectives, let’s all just live life at our own speed and we will surely get there, wishing everyone luck ~
When you said "You can't think your way into new ways of living, you have to live your way into new ways of thinking" they were the most comforting words I've ever heard as someone who's been overthinking about every single choice to not mess up my future 😢 thank u for helping us realize that it's ok to feel in this way and what matters is to keep trying and living ❤
this made me feel so safe, im currently in highschool and really stressed about my future, i feel clueless, like ive never truly had a passion, like ive never imagined i would get to this point in life and i wish i could just get to try all the options that are given to me before choosing a career path that'll have to follow for the rest of my life and it seemed like i was the only one going through it and everyone else around me had it all figured out before i watched ur video. Thank u
If you feel like you havent figured it out yet (which is completely normal like bro youre barely and adult), it might be smart to just live at your parents for a while if thats feasible for you and just make some money for a year maybe. You can slow down a little but save up for later and still enjoy life in that year. Maybe something happens to fly your way, maybe not. But a year out of school is something that I wish I did when I freshly graduated high school.
I am a college student my story is that I am a 4+ years and for the longest time I did not know what to do. I would say if you are unsure go to community college (easier and cheaper to change degrees)
Bro how TF did you perfectly describe what I've been going through?! I'm a senior in high school with a similar story: I've always just done what people have told me to do, but soon I need to find a job I have to do for the next 50 years? It feels suffocating at times. I've told my friends and family about these thoughts, and they all said the same stuff you've said. But to have reassurance that I'm not the only person who is going/ has gone through these thoughts is amazing. Also how TF do you only have 40k subs? You deserve 500k at least! Cheers and I wish the greatest things in the future man!
I graduated high school in 2021 so I basically had no senior year experience. My best choice financially was community college so I chose that but it was just because my parents wanted me to continue schooling as I was “too intelligent” not to. I just graduated this past May and barely too as I wanted to give up so many times. I’m in a better position now as I just started an electrician apprenticeship, working with my hands and such. Yea, I wake up anxious everyday as it is hard work but it feels rewarding. Life is meaningless if you feel comfortable everyday, you need to be uncomfortable to grow.
Crazy how I almost had this exact timeline. Difference is that I didn’t graduate community college, only leaving 9 credits leftover. And I applied for an electrician apprenticeship but I wasn’t accepted. But it’s nice to hear how we all have similar thoughts to our experiences. I wish you the best of luck!
That’s what I’m going through rn now, except I’ve been studying electrical engineering and I’m just burnt out of school. So I’ve applied to a couple of trade schools for electricians. Initially I just picked the major since I was good at math, and it’s good money, but I’ve never felt so burnt out in my life from school cause of college and I’m barely passing some of my stuff now where I used to get As. Therefore I felt like being an electrician would help a better fit.
"You can't think your way into new ways of living..." is so real. As someone who ruminates a lot out of the fear of failure (and fear of being abandoned or scorned for failing), I resisted trying new things a lot. I've learned that my attitude towards failure has been setting me back. If I do things out of fear all the time, I'm not truly loving or enjoying anything. And there's a lot to be loved and enjoyed. This may seem laughable to some, but watching your video has inspired me to work on my attitude before returning to college. For the first time in a while I actually feel like I have something to work towards that isn't actually an attempt at biding my time. Now, this is just a start and my goal might change, but I'm glad to at least start somewhere. Thank you for sharing your experience!
thanks, needed this. I'm at that "lower than lowest" point right now. let go from the "dream" software engineering job. I might not be ready to believe it'll be okay just yet, but know that it's helped me gain a little bit of hope.
This makes me feel so accepted and normal. I dropped out of my dream uni and now idk what to do with my life because I'd only ever dreamt the dream of university life and nothing else. I'm broke, lost, depressed and exhausted. My mum suggested that I should reapply but I feel as though I have failed my teenage self, who wanted to go to uni and do it all perfectly. I am too afraid to disappoint her again. I bought a camera, thinking I would start a yt channel but I just don't have the will to do anything except rot in bed and cry about my misery. I don't even feel like I want to go to college anymore (which is shocking) because I never thought I could think that. University is all I had ever known, what am I supposed to do without it? I am trying to find my passion. I tried learning new languages. I tried travelling. But nothing changes. I need a life changing moment to happen so I can get something to look forward to. Life sucks.
thank you so much for this. i felt guilty for not wanting to go to college, i felt like it wasn’t for me and i would just be miserable there. i didn’t want to jump into something i’m not confident enough about. so, i started voice acting from home and i started posting short comic dubs with my friends. i’m going to get a full-time job and do voice acting on the side instead of going to college. i might even give college a shot in a few years from now, but i’m just not ready yet. please don’t choose a path that will make others happy. choose a path that will make *you* happy.
when i dropped out in college, at first i was thinking"is this all got?" and also this scary though of not having a good future, for one year, my older siblings offered me a on job training on her friends SPED center, 2 years from now, i am not using my connections, i just got accepted from a job, right now i am a Milktea Barista Traineee, one month, i will be a employee, but i am honestly scared of my own future.
Man, I relate to this so much. :( When I dropped out, I felt almost this sense of relief and clarity for a bit. But, as time went on I started feeling more and more like I failed somehow. Like everyone was leaving me behind as they went on with their own lives. I was in this rut for a while of overthinking and laying in my bed wondering what could have been if I 'just stuck to it' (college) like everyone around me was telling me to do. But then in 2021, I was finally well enough to pick myself back up and start doing something with my life. I started my own TH-cam channel to post about things I'm passionate about and to truly be myself. Though I still have moments where I think about the past, I'm in a much better place now than I was years ago. :)
I love your videos, they always make me feel better when I'm going through a lot of things, especially now that I recently started high school in a whole completely different environment, also the grading is different and I do need to socialize more because I told that to myself, it's a kind of goal. I used to go to public schools and now I'm in a private high school so yeah, it's completely different. Also I need to have a different organization, sleep schedule, habits and I barely have time for myself or even for my language learning. There's a lot of new things and I'm getting used to it little by little but it's still difficult. So I wanted to thank you for your videos, they're really significant for me, tysm soyo💗
Man i'm so proud of you, this brought tears to my eyes. I discovered your channel a little while ago and your video are real works of art, just raw introspection and reflexion packed up in a well worded and relatable video... Thank you
I knew I wanted to drop out of university before even starting it because I didn't want to go uni in the first place and wanted to change the seemingly endless pattern of schooling to jobs in modern society. And this was the best thing I've done and I'm still very thankful I had the guts to do it. Yes I faced challenges, but honestly if I just listened to myself and not the other people who thought they knew better I would've come to financial stability faster. Learnt to trade stocks and learning to code again I realised that me going along the 'normal' path was all out of fear and a lack of confidence which I have now changed to courage and self assurance because I dropped out and went my own way. There was also the desire to help others that pushed me forward. Thank you for the video :)
I faced a similar situation, but just on the opposite end of the spectrum. I coasted by in high school as one of those smart students that only needed to listen in class and answer questions before having the material fully memorized. I didn't need to study, and I did all of my homework in class so I was idle for a majority of the school year once I was home. All of my friends (and even family) were making something of themselves. They got into internships, found jobs, and went through experiences to make themselves look better. I did the same, and I'd like to say that I'm rather talented and dedicated to art. I got accepted into my dream college as well, not a full ride because it's a private art school, but I was genuinely so happy to have made the cut... and then, just a week ago. I had to come to the difficult decision to drop out and ask to be let go since I honestly could not afford the cost of tuition. ($4.8K a month, and I'd be in about $213K in debt by the end of my 4 years). Even though my mother has a good job as a nurse, I didn't want to put her through that. And so, last weekend I finalized my decision and sent out an application to a museum to work as a security officer; since I reasoned that at least in this way, I could still be connected in the art world. It's hard, and my mother is pushing me to return back to school by this time again next year. But I'm not sure if I'm ready for that yet. It's really rough since I don't want to give up on art, I have nothing else to prove about myself BUT my art skills. But deep down I know that it just isn't a sustainable career; and I'd be suffering in the long run if I kept forcing it. I'm sure that it'll work out eventually, but it's hard. Though I know for sure that I don't want to fall down to the level where I stay locked up in my room for months on end with my future looking bleak.
I hear in museums you can be an assistant of some sort. Also you may consider looking into selling art in artist alleys on anime conventions. Plenty of vendors blog their experiences and they even have their own online stores usually in Etsy or Instagram. I’m sure you can DM some of them. They get paid 1K-4K minimum, most times more than that on their sales whenever they go to conventions across the country every other month. You just have to be your own boss when it comes to being an artist if you want to get paid well.
Wow thank you for making this incredibly vulnerable video. I’ve never felt so seen in my life. I didn’t realize that more people also went through this with high school/college affecting their mental health so extremely in the same exact way. Thank you. I feel so much less alone with my experiences.
Honestly as a comp sci student, I’ve been feeling like I’m behind on my work. For the first two years of uni, I felt like I was coasting on through life. Truly felt like Akira from Zom 100. This summer is almost over then I decide I should start learning game development and I would like to do devlogs. Hope I will actually follow through this. Thanks for this video, I really needed this!!! Keep moving forward everyone 🫡
I’m an aerospace engineering student and when I graduate next year I’m definitely going to take 6 - 12 months off from school. I want to do a masters or maybe even consider getting an entirely different degree. I always feel like I’m behind and don’t really feel super passionate about the work. For stem I think I should have actually majored in Astronomy or Astrophysics like I originally thought to but I wanted to play it safe career wise. I really like and excel in reading & writing so maybe I should have done English instead? Again the job market and my financial situation is what motivated me towards my actual choice.
Been watching for a while and I really enjoy the use of octopath music in your videos. It actually fits in so well Also dang..this message hits really hard. I dropped out thinking the same way. Took me 4 years to finally find my purpose afterwards. It was a hard and long journey but now I finally feel like I found some place I actually belong.
the timing of this is unreal. If I have to describe where Im at with reference to this video. I am literally at the start of the climb. I took a gap year, then this year I dropped out. Did a lot of soul searching in those 2 years. And rn am able to do an internship due to family relationships. And idk what it is with the environment but something just clicked. And now, Im about to sign up to a Japanese language school and eventually go to study abroad. And id probably pick up drawing and...maybe game development skills in this 1 year training arc. (hope i can do a Deku training arc, like how he did at the beginning of BNHA) it really is crazy how things could just come full circle, 5 months ago. Id never have thought Id go back to school. Let alone trying to pursue something, for myself. I feel a bit reassured after watching this. Thanks
Even tho I’m going to be a junior in high school, I can relate so much. I don’t want to be a mindless zombie, doing what I’m told, living up to expectations, and working in a job I’m not passionate about for the rest of my life. Yet that is exactly the path I’m following. I feel like I’m failing myself and I’m going to fail people that expect more of me in the future. But I don’t know what to do and I feel like I’m wasting time. I don’t look forward to school that starts next week.
I so relate to this so much. I'm currently in college and I'm doing a program that's computer-related. I'm so unhappy with the work, the professors, the student services, everything. I hate this program, and I'm almost at the end. I want to stop because I hate how the school doesn't care for us students, but why not just push forward for a little longer now that I'm close to the end? If I do stop however, I have to find another program, then I'll feel more behind. I'm the first child in the family to have gone to post-secondary, and the pressure is so real. I would have wasted all that money for nothing. Mentally, I'm already a college drop out because I'm disassociating from everything. My greatest fear is the fear of wasting my time and money. I'm looking for transferable courses to another school. I generally know what kind of programs I want to pursue. I'm also looking for a part-time job, so I can have at least something in life. I have supportive friends who want to help me out, and it's making job searching and program searching smoother. Yapping session aside, thank you for this video. It's the perfect timing for me and I feel comforted by it. Thank you Soyo
"you can't think your way into new ways of living, you have to live your way into new ways of thinking" fucking profound man. subbed. great work w this video 🤘
Hard to explain how much i apricate the support:) especially on a video I relate so much too, seriously one of your best (in my opinion). i wasn't expecting such a big plug thank yoooouuu, ill make sure to make the most of your help. 12:17 - you need to stop reading my mind O,_,O
Thanks for sharing this story, I'm a senior in highschool and I already feel really nervous. I have to start on applications but honestly I have no clue abt what to do but this video really cheered me up.
I went through this and had such a major depression, it was really really bad. I did the whole never going to classes and failing or getting kicked out for it, i spent that time basically self harming myself or crying over it. I starved myself to punish muself for it. I would think of all these ways to end it. My parents paid for me and i fucked up, i cant bring it up around them with out feeling like breaking down crying. I feel like my father hates me for it and my mother even asked him if he did when she thought i wasnt listening. Hearing that conversation ruined what progress i was making in my mental health. I plan to retry again in the spring one step at a time until im able to do it fully again. I hate myself so much for it. Ill never forgive myself for it and i know ill use that to hate myself and not allow myself happiness from it. I hate it. The day I make it up to them is the day I'll allow myself to be happy and love myself. I just cant until then
I love your videos bro, this one especially. I had a very similar situation with myself that I’m still feeling the effects of, so this video really hit close to home. It’s nice to know that I wasn’t the only person going through something like this and to be reminded that there’s still light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you so much man 🙏🏾
I’m still in high school. I’ll be a senior and graduate soon. I’m always stressing about my future. Students around me already know what they want and I feel like I have no passion or interest in anything. I don’t want to be a doctor, I hate blood and I hate the thought of telling someone horrible news. And I honestly don’t want anything to do with math, so that eliminates most stem careers. I wish I could do something with art but I don’t want to be broke. I don’t want to follow a career just for the money because I’ll be miserable , but I’m also terrified of struggling in life. My dream job would honestly be working at a cute cafe with a side businesses, selling art, clothes and jewelry. I just don’t know what to do and it scares me. I don’t have much time left. We all know how fast time flies and I’ll eventually have to make a decision that will decide how I’ll live for the rest of my life.
this video was actually really inspiring and I can definitely relate to that feeling of an uncertain future. Hopefully I can figure things out like you did
I've been working at Arby's for 6 years after finishing one year of college classes. I had no idea what I wanted, how to succeed, why my head was so foggy, or how to focus/stay awake. And my classes were simple! I didn't think highly of my learning abilities. I did ok as far as finishing, but I knew it wasn't sustainable. I only managed to get this job because of several kind people helping my barely functional mind into a better situation. I've been slowly figuring out pieces of myself through internet exploration. I still don't know if I'll ever manage to move forward from here.
@dyinglight418 Still here, but it's not terrible. I just have periods where I fall back into feeling terrible, and I was speaking from there with my comment. Yes, my job isn't one that would pay well for living alone, but I don't yet, and I have to be patient with myself that I may need more time than other people to build up my life. I don't know if I'll ever drive, but I manage with family rides and buses. I'm still fluctuating in my level of adult ability. One thing I'm proud of, though, is that I have managed to go to work consistently for all this time.
Hey, this really helped me. As a senior, I’m taking more hard classes this year. And I don’t know what I want to do after I graduate high school. Thanks for making me feel less lonely. Thanks for putting these thoughts out.
Thank you for sharing your story! It was very helpful to see a new perspective, because my life so far has been the opposite. I came out of high-school with a clear plan, didn’t go to college, and I’m now jealous of my siblings who all went and are getting big degrees. Now I’m doubting the plan I originally had, and feel stupid for not going to college (Cuz I’m working as a cashier).
i also dropped out my sophomore year when covid hit, i just felt so unmotivated and depressed but got a new job worked full time and started going back to school part time and going to the gym helped push myself. Thank you for this video i don’t feel so alone anymore
Just thanks. I can't say you have cured all my problems or even one of them, but you have eased my mind a bit for sure. I'm still very young to say the least and struggle with what to do after school, what the right choice is and basically all the other stuff you mentioned. Unlike you i have quite a bit more time till im able to attend something like a college, still i'm troubled about all that stuff so thanks for kinda like i already said, easing my mind. And the thing you said with living and thinking pretty much hits some things quite on point as well tbh.
This was me when I went to college and then dropped out. It was the lowest point of my life until I came out of depression and went into trade school, now Im applying for a job. I feel relived and happy now that Im going to do something that I will enjoy
congrats! doing something you enjoy, are good at and is highly sought after beats being miserable for half of your waking hours for the next 40 years. best of luck with the job hunt :)
I'm glad you're still here. I'm still here too and I just applied to a diploma after struggling with mental health and trauma, but I'm back, I think life isn't about how worse it can get, it's about being rebirthed over and over and over again, it's about "coming back", it's about getting up again.
Same happened with me. I drop out of top most college of my country. I regretted that decision like how you described but today as you told at the end everything become sorted. I am just happy wherever I am and just exploring new things may be that lend me into the place I like or I feel like working.
u came a long way since college bro, as a subscriber im genuinely so amazed and proud of you. if ur past experiences didnt exist u probably wouldnt be sharing ur knowledge with us , im proud of u
Thanks for your videos man! This one really hit home. I have a similar story to you! I'm still struggling and going through a big character development arc so it feels good to be reminded that things are going to be okay. Thank you bro 😊
Hey bro, thanks for sharing your story. I can relate a lot to parts, especially how you felt about yourself up to the end of high school. The world is somehow vaster than our anxious overthinking can possible comprehend- that’s impossible for us to truly get when we’re at the bottom of our depressive periods, but- small changes really do make us appreciate life for what it is. 🔥 rooting for you and the future!
Wow this hits hard and it's so similar to me too.12th grade as well with me (last year of high school), I had 0 clue what on earth I even wanted to study. So my parents suggested Graphic Design because I enjoy art and I decided why not. Went into my first year of university for Graphic Design...covid happened. I got so mentally stressed out to a point I kept crying. I was struggling so bad, I stopped going onto my online classes, doing homework, assignments, you name it. 2 years later I'm back in college now studying something else but...the work is so incredibly difficult I almost cry every day and constantly feel like I'm a failure. I understand all the work and my subjects 100%, it's when i actually have to do the work and when I write the tests it's like my brain just switches off and forgets everything I've studied.
I LOVE the edit. I dropped college and started another one (I am still a bit lost but trying to find myself), which is normal. Giving up and trying again, searching and discovering new things, and finding what you love. Keep going
Thank you very much for this video. I really love your story. I graduated high school when COVID just happened. I used it as an excuse on not going to a university as a full time student, and just simply do community college part time, but the truth is that I didn't have any big plans for my future when senior year happened. So I did community college online while working for my family business with my father. I already helped out a bit when I was in high school, but this time I decided to do it full time. I did it for about four years and simply got sick of it. For at least one year I made no new friends with the world locked down. I was always around my parents. It didn't help that everyone I knew was out there enjoying college traveling to vacation spots and working jobs/internships they enjoyed. I craved to become more independent by working at a new job and make new friends around my age. So right now I am in a point where I want to make myself a better person. Starting with changing my daily habits for myself, like reading more often and working out daily. I'm getting ready to move out and fully commit and apply to a fulltime university and finish a program I can enjoy and get a good salary job out of.
When i graduated I really didn’t know what to do or where to go for college. I saw a lot if not every one of my friends go to college with a career in mind. A lot of adults including my parents and managers at the time all telling me to go to college so I did out of fear I would be a bum just working. That year of college was strictly online and I’ll be honest I was not paying much attention and just showing up and doing work with notes I was taking but not understanding any of it. Just doing it to get it done. It came to a point I was just not doing good in any of my classes and I finished my first year with only 4 credits and I took 10 classes total for both semesters Fast forward i dropped out. I wasn’t ok mentally and had no sense of direction in my life for what I should do. My depression was getting worse and it wasn’t helping that every adult was telling me to go back. I didn’t wanna tell anyone about not going to college because they just say the same thing and I needed to think for myself. I have goals but idk if I need college for it. Idk how to go back and idk how to start again cus I’m afraid I might get depressed again but after working and getting a taste of life after highschool a lil I can say I have a better mindset then from now. All this to say. It’s ok just think for yourself and block out other people’s opinions because it maybe helpful but it’s YOUR life at the end of the day. Not theirs.
Hey I just bumped into this video and it really speaks to the situation that I’m currently facing. I have been put on probation this year due to me not being able to to meet my school academic requirements and for such a long time I felt like a failure as I have always had this image of myself being successful in post secondary but I feel into a deep depression which made it impossible to perform at my best. The worst thing is that I still haven’t been able to tell my parent about this due to my own shame but while watching your video I started to tear up as I realize that I have been putting a lot of pressure on myself since high school and I was always thought that I would be able to plan every single part of my life to a tea because I knew what to expect and this couldn’t be farther from the truth. This video really help me as it giving me courage to face the situation that I’m in and truly reflect on what I desire for my life Thank you for sharing
But how? The video explicitly shows that one of the main reasons he fell into depression was because he didn’t have a passion and when he got one, art, he became better for it. Yes following your passion won’t always lead to an extremely successful life but it will make you happier. If your takeaway is that you shouldn’t follow your passions your just contradicting the videos advice.
@@WitheredW hey :) he said it himself in the video " i WANTED a passion", its not something you're born with, and he became more depressed because of the expectations society set on him to "follow it" when it was never something he always had. My issue is with people who pass down unrealistic expectations with this type of advice, I want people to be more specific, "Follow your passion and all will be happy" is a fairytale
This video resonates so hard. Im in my last year of highschool and have no idea what I want to do next. It is a stresser. The saying "You can't think your way into a new life" gave me a new perspective.
Thank you for this I'm a sophomore in highschool, I know I'm still young but I'm having a hard time and afraid of the choices I will make soon and thinking that I won't make it and I'll be a faliure to my parents but this video really encorges me to keep on moving foward and that eveythings going to be okay and to just enjoy life
I just graduated high school, i’m taking a gap year and want to find myself. The feeling of not knowing what you want to do feels like it will never go away but a piece of advice my mom told me was “Don’t force yourself to do something you’re not passionate about. Follow your heart and be patient.”
I felt this but when i was like in middle school transitioning to highschool. A conflict of interest in goals with high expectations leading to a complete collapse
Wow this is so relatable to hear since im at the point where i just don't know what to do and also lack the talent to be a good college student and have been hating myself and this life of mine since highschool haha
I really love your videos - the anime, the editing and your insights. You have a way with words that just resonates so hard! Thanks so much for sharing your work 💘💘
For me i tried 3 different bachelor's and failed so fucking badly. Last year i started trate school, even though there is a stigma around it the fact that i finished my first year helped me in a way i couldnt imagine. This video really hit home cause sometimes life be feeling like LLLL to the point where you cant celebrate even your smallest w's yaknow. So now even if trate school is easier than uni, i have a schedule and time to improve.
Thank you so much for this video. I dropped out of college and I’m just looking for a reason to return, I know I want to but my heart is frozen in fear. Im at the lowest part of my life and I think this video has finally gotten the ball rolling and I’ve decided this is a sign to go back for sure this time. Wish me luck!
hey soyo, i really appreciate your videos man! more so now that you shared with us your experiences and therefore the story behind your channel, and im happy for you for getting through all of it. your content has become a big source of encouragement for me and i want to thank you for your work cause it reminded me that im not actually losing it (lol), and that through these vids, youre giving me and everyone else who is struggling in the same way a sense of comfort and somewhat a form of connection even if its just in the comments.
I feel like I really needed this video. I’m starting high school next week and am really worried about if I’ll just waste my time and not find what I want to do. Maybe it’s too early for me to worry about this but that doesn’t stop me from stressing over it. I really appreciate the message and think it helped.
I have been in that spot so future nothing you feel like you are wasting space on this earth. I think we all figure out life at our own pace. I picked up working out and running and it was no kidding look forward to everyday when i wake up. Job market is ass life is fucking hard.
Don't normally comment on videos but honestly, this video could not have come at a better time. I am currently in college myself and honestly wondering if it's even worth it to keep going. I moved to a different country to study a subject I'm only mildly interested in, and at this point I just want to get my degree and start working to help my brother graduate after me. Don't know what the future holds, and I'm honestly pretty scared about it. Your video really did give me some very much needed hope. Thanks soyo ^^
bro this is SO real that's literally my daily routine, referring to your high school days. i really thought it was just me who took those huge naps straight after school. i cant put my finger on why it is so tiring.. maybe it was because i sleep at like 2am all the time
and what ironic is that a lot of people say it best thing they ever done. But you must understand that we all have our own way and those suffering shape us if we continue them or withdraw from them
Bro I couldn’t relate more took me 5 years to figure out what I want to do, wasted those very dark years in college just to keep my parents happy but honestly I should have just left after a year now I’m just trying to figure out how to start my journey and life let’s hope it’s never too late.
Ive been through every way, every pain, and felt every depressing thoughts you did, It was when COVID started, and I dropped out of college since my parents cant afford to pay for it. so I had to live my life with depression, and almost did the unthinkable.
Im currently in sophmore year in high school and ive been watching all of your videos so far and honeslty i can relate to the high school stuff im not sure what i want to do in life because ive just been getting good grades and playing video games i think this is a very relatable video
when i dropped out, i entered 8 months of pure isolation and depression. 100% lost and couldn’t find my place in the world. don’t know why i’m talking in the past tense because this is on going!!
"Even if you are not ready for the day, it can not always be night,"
-kanye west probably
you finally became like Steve Jobs after college
Go gym, practice a basic job that'll take 4 months that you could master then apply once you've applied you've got income and work
For anxiety, just don't give a f about people since they care about themselves, just remember be professional and be calm.
ur gonna make it out bro
The academic stress of the teens and youth needs to be studied
True
It really should, things are changing all the time
It has
It obviously has been studied by many psychologist… I mean, I think most people underappreciated the fields of psychology, which are actually out there to help people survive the modern day world.
Many people think psychology is only for crazy people but it’s not of course and in my opinion, we need to fund more mental health research and provide better mental health support.
Therapy should be for free fr
Bro, our stories are quite similar:
When I was in highschool I was kind of a top student, so it was expected for me to get in a prestigious college. Well, I took the entrance exams and got admitted on what's considered the best public university of my country, so at least it was cheap and therefore I didn't need to take any loans or get a scholarship.
However, I didn't really knew what I wanted to study or what I wanted to do with my life, so I went with a Computer Science major for basically the same reasons you said in the video, lol. I ended up messing it all up and dropping during my freshman year and my life became a complete nightmare, to say the least. I still wanted to do things the "normal" way, though, so I took the entrance exams once again and re-entered college, but choose a different major, but that didn't fixed anything, my notes were barely enough to not get kicked out and all my teachers were quite abusive, telling me I shouldn't have chosen that major. But the worse part and what really was my mistake, was that I was still doing it for others, for my parents, for my friends, and for that stupid necessity to save face. Needless to say, I dropped out a second time.
After all that crap, I also went through the same depression as you did, wanting to "Touch a Goomba without a 1-up" myself. But one day somehow I landed a job because, well, I didn't want to feel like a useless charge for my parents, so I went and worked a bit in customer service, It gave me lots of life experience that I don't regret having and, most importantly, I was doing it for myself. So, after taking that break, I decided to go back one last time to finish that second major I started. Not doing it for anyone else, but doing it for myself, and to prove myself I can do anything as long as I fight for it.
I'm still not sure if this is the right direction I should take, I still don't think I fully enjoy what I do and I think I'll never find my passion or whatever, but it doesn't matter because at the end of the day, I'm still myself and I know everything's gonna be alright.
Thanks for this video, I'm sure it will help people who have gone this same way know that they're not alone.
Aw. Sending support 🤍
You should be proud of making it as far as you could! And y’know what? It’s okay to not have a passion because I don’t either tbh
Truly inspiring story, and also quite similar to mine. How old were you during these past events?
we're kinda the same bro. The only difference is that now i kinda regret having changed my major from computer science to being an english teacher. Sometimes i just feel like i have betrayed myself and can never find joy in working again. i was such a hasty idiot. i miss mathematics so much...
I think you will, you just haven’t found it yet. School is the only thing you know because parents are friends only went and did that. You haven’t tried enough things or did enough as a young person to really say that’s what you want to do in life. This world is full of opportunities, if you seek it out and take risks then it will reward you in the end. Good luck on your journey my friend
You're right lol, work doesn't need to be a passion, it's just a way to get that bread, without wanting to touch that goomba for how absolutely boring and meaningless your job is
Dude same! Tried the college life kinda but it was horrible and ending up failing so much in the end. So I dropped out and started working full-Time as a cashier. Honestly working a stepping stone job was a good eye opener to the real world of working life. You could work hard and do everything by the book correctly but still get screwed in the end by the company or higher ups. It’s harsh and real up close in your face like a blast of cold air in winter. But trust me it’s going to be ok, your going to be ok ✅
Very true. All jobs are the same in that respect. That's why your life shouldn't revolve around work. You could at dropped at any moment. Work can be used as a tool to fund what you really want to do in life. This is why I don't judge people on their careers because it's just what you do to survive.
This is so nice and it is literally perfect timing, I just graduated from university and at first it seems as if I would never get here and when I imagined what it would be like if I did I thought I would be happy, but now that I am here I feel a void and I keep asking myself “now what?” , I read some of the comments and I love how everyone is somehow going through similar things but in different perspectives, let’s all just live life at our own speed and we will surely get there, wishing everyone luck ~
When you said "You can't think your way into new ways of living, you have to live your way into new ways of thinking" they were the most comforting words I've ever heard as someone who's been overthinking about every single choice to not mess up my future 😢 thank u for helping us realize that it's ok to feel in this way and what matters is to keep trying and living ❤
Honestly if you work your way up as a manager and get a manager position your good for the most part.
this made me feel so safe, im currently in highschool and really stressed about my future, i feel clueless, like ive never truly had a passion, like ive never imagined i would get to this point in life and i wish i could just get to try all the options that are given to me before choosing a career path that'll have to follow for the rest of my life and it seemed like i was the only one going through it and everyone else around me had it all figured out before i watched ur video. Thank u
Passion is a pursued INTEREST - Bob Ross :) dont worry you got this
If you feel like you havent figured it out yet (which is completely normal like bro youre barely and adult), it might be smart to just live at your parents for a while if thats feasible for you and just make some money for a year maybe. You can slow down a little but save up for later and still enjoy life in that year. Maybe something happens to fly your way, maybe not. But a year out of school is something that I wish I did when I freshly graduated high school.
I am a college student my story is that I am a 4+ years and for the longest time I did not know what to do. I would say if you are unsure go to community college (easier and cheaper to change degrees)
Me too bro
Bro how TF did you perfectly describe what I've been going through?! I'm a senior in high school with a similar story: I've always just done what people have told me to do, but soon I need to find a job I have to do for the next 50 years? It feels suffocating at times. I've told my friends and family about these thoughts, and they all said the same stuff you've said. But to have reassurance that I'm not the only person who is going/ has gone through these thoughts is amazing.
Also how TF do you only have 40k subs? You deserve 500k at least! Cheers and I wish the greatest things in the future man!
I graduated high school in 2021 so I basically had no senior year experience. My best choice financially was community college so I chose that but it was just because my parents wanted me to continue schooling as I was “too intelligent” not to. I just graduated this past May and barely too as I wanted to give up so many times. I’m in a better position now as I just started an electrician apprenticeship, working with my hands and such. Yea, I wake up anxious everyday as it is hard work but it feels rewarding. Life is meaningless if you feel comfortable everyday, you need to be uncomfortable to grow.
Love your videos btw, it brings me comfort knowing others are overcoming similar struggles just as I am.
Crazy how I almost had this exact timeline. Difference is that I didn’t graduate community college, only leaving 9 credits leftover. And I applied for an electrician apprenticeship but I wasn’t accepted. But it’s nice to hear how we all have similar thoughts to our experiences. I wish you the best of luck!
That’s what I’m going through rn now, except I’ve been studying electrical engineering and I’m just burnt out of school. So I’ve applied to a couple of trade schools for electricians. Initially I just picked the major since I was good at math, and it’s good money, but I’ve never felt so burnt out in my life from school cause of college and I’m barely passing some of my stuff now where I used to get As. Therefore I felt like being an electrician would help a better fit.
Im going through the same thing.Im a Freshman in college majoring in economics and I’m not enjoying college life.Im thinking of picking up a trade
This video couldn't even be more perfect timing! Thank you so much
"You can't think your way into new ways of living..." is so real. As someone who ruminates a lot out of the fear of failure (and fear of being abandoned or scorned for failing), I resisted trying new things a lot.
I've learned that my attitude towards failure has been setting me back. If I do things out of fear all the time, I'm not truly loving or enjoying anything. And there's a lot to be loved and enjoyed.
This may seem laughable to some, but watching your video has inspired me to work on my attitude before returning to college. For the first time in a while I actually feel like I have something to work towards that isn't actually an attempt at biding my time.
Now, this is just a start and my goal might change, but I'm glad to at least start somewhere.
Thank you for sharing your experience!
thanks, needed this. I'm at that "lower than lowest" point right now. let go from the "dream" software engineering job. I might not be ready to believe it'll be okay just yet, but know that it's helped me gain a little bit of hope.
This makes me feel so accepted and normal. I dropped out of my dream uni and now idk what to do with my life because I'd only ever dreamt the dream of university life and nothing else. I'm broke, lost, depressed and exhausted. My mum suggested that I should reapply but I feel as though I have failed my teenage self, who wanted to go to uni and do it all perfectly. I am too afraid to disappoint her again. I bought a camera, thinking I would start a yt channel but I just don't have the will to do anything except rot in bed and cry about my misery. I don't even feel like I want to go to college anymore (which is shocking) because I never thought I could think that. University is all I had ever known, what am I supposed to do without it? I am trying to find my passion. I tried learning new languages. I tried travelling. But nothing changes. I need a life changing moment to happen so I can get something to look forward to. Life sucks.
thank you so much for this. i felt guilty for not wanting to go to college, i felt like it wasn’t for me and i would just be miserable there. i didn’t want to jump into something i’m not confident enough about. so, i started voice acting from home and i started posting short comic dubs with my friends. i’m going to get a full-time job and do voice acting on the side instead of going to college. i might even give college a shot in a few years from now, but i’m just not ready yet. please don’t choose a path that will make others happy. choose a path that will make *you* happy.
when i dropped out in college, at first i was thinking"is this all got?" and also this scary though of not having a good future, for one year, my older siblings offered me a on job training on her friends SPED center, 2 years from now, i am not using my connections, i just got accepted from a job, right now i am a Milktea Barista Traineee, one month, i will be a employee, but i am honestly scared of my own future.
You got this! Fear not, for all mistakes are all experiences as time goes on.
Man, I relate to this so much. :( When I dropped out, I felt almost this sense of relief and clarity for a bit. But, as time went on I started feeling more and more like I failed somehow. Like everyone was leaving me behind as they went on with their own lives. I was in this rut for a while of overthinking and laying in my bed wondering what could have been if I 'just stuck to it' (college) like everyone around me was telling me to do. But then in 2021, I was finally well enough to pick myself back up and start doing something with my life. I started my own TH-cam channel to post about things I'm passionate about and to truly be myself. Though I still have moments where I think about the past, I'm in a much better place now than I was years ago. :)
I love your videos, they always make me feel better when I'm going through a lot of things, especially now that I recently started high school in a whole completely different environment, also the grading is different and I do need to socialize more because I told that to myself, it's a kind of goal. I used to go to public schools and now I'm in a private high school so yeah, it's completely different. Also I need to have a different organization, sleep schedule, habits and I barely have time for myself or even for my language learning. There's a lot of new things and I'm getting used to it little by little but it's still difficult. So I wanted to thank you for your videos, they're really significant for me, tysm soyo💗
With these videos suddenly popping up in my recommended, I cant help but to think soyo is eroldstory's successor but more...chill and less chaotic XD
I can definitely see it
FRRR it reminded me of eroldstory in a good way I hope this channel grows!
Proud of you buddy. Glad you’re still here. Love you
Love you too Keon
Man i'm so proud of you, this brought tears to my eyes.
I discovered your channel a little while ago and your video are real works of art, just raw introspection and reflexion packed up in a well worded and relatable video... Thank you
I knew I wanted to drop out of university before even starting it because I didn't want to go uni in the first place and wanted to change the seemingly endless pattern of schooling to jobs in modern society. And this was the best thing I've done and I'm still very thankful I had the guts to do it. Yes I faced challenges, but honestly if I just listened to myself and not the other people who thought they knew better I would've come to financial stability faster. Learnt to trade stocks and learning to code again
I realised that me going along the 'normal' path was all out of fear and a lack of confidence which I have now changed to courage and self assurance because I dropped out and went my own way. There was also the desire to help others that pushed me forward.
Thank you for the video :)
I faced a similar situation, but just on the opposite end of the spectrum.
I coasted by in high school as one of those smart students that only needed to listen in class and answer questions before having the material fully memorized. I didn't need to study, and I did all of my homework in class so I was idle for a majority of the school year once I was home.
All of my friends (and even family) were making something of themselves. They got into internships, found jobs, and went through experiences to make themselves look better. I did the same, and I'd like to say that I'm rather talented and dedicated to art.
I got accepted into my dream college as well, not a full ride because it's a private art school, but I was genuinely so happy to have made the cut... and then, just a week ago. I had to come to the difficult decision to drop out and ask to be let go since I honestly could not afford the cost of tuition. ($4.8K a month, and I'd be in about $213K in debt by the end of my 4 years).
Even though my mother has a good job as a nurse, I didn't want to put her through that. And so, last weekend I finalized my decision and sent out an application to a museum to work as a security officer; since I reasoned that at least in this way, I could still be connected in the art world.
It's hard, and my mother is pushing me to return back to school by this time again next year. But I'm not sure if I'm ready for that yet.
It's really rough since I don't want to give up on art, I have nothing else to prove about myself BUT my art skills. But deep down I know that it just isn't a sustainable career; and I'd be suffering in the long run if I kept forcing it.
I'm sure that it'll work out eventually, but it's hard. Though I know for sure that I don't want to fall down to the level where I stay locked up in my room for months on end with my future looking bleak.
I hear in museums you can be an assistant of some sort. Also you may consider looking into selling art in artist alleys on anime conventions. Plenty of vendors blog their experiences and they even have their own online stores usually in Etsy or Instagram. I’m sure you can DM some of them. They get paid 1K-4K minimum, most times more than that on their sales whenever they go to conventions across the country every other month. You just have to be your own boss when it comes to being an artist if you want to get paid well.
Wow thank you for making this incredibly vulnerable video. I’ve never felt so seen in my life. I didn’t realize that more people also went through this with high school/college affecting their mental health so extremely in the same exact way. Thank you. I feel so much less alone with my experiences.
Honestly as a comp sci student, I’ve been feeling like I’m behind on my work.
For the first two years of uni, I felt like I was coasting on through life. Truly felt like Akira from Zom 100.
This summer is almost over then I decide I should start learning game development and I would like to do devlogs. Hope I will actually follow through this. Thanks for this video, I really needed this!!!
Keep moving forward everyone 🫡
I’m an aerospace engineering student and when I graduate next year I’m definitely going to take 6 - 12 months off from school. I want to do a masters or maybe even consider getting an entirely different degree.
I always feel like I’m behind and don’t really feel super passionate about the work. For stem I think I should have actually majored in Astronomy or Astrophysics like I originally thought to but I wanted to play it safe career wise.
I really like and excel in reading & writing so maybe I should have done English instead? Again the job market and my financial situation is what motivated me towards my actual choice.
Been watching for a while and I really enjoy the use of octopath music in your videos. It actually fits in so well
Also dang..this message hits really hard. I dropped out thinking the same way. Took me 4 years to finally find my purpose afterwards. It was a hard and long journey but now I finally feel like I found some place I actually belong.
the timing of this is unreal. If I have to describe where Im at with reference to this video. I am literally at the start of the climb. I took a gap year, then this year I dropped out. Did a lot of soul searching in those 2 years. And rn am able to do an internship due to family relationships. And idk what it is with the environment but something just clicked. And now, Im about to sign up to a Japanese language school and eventually go to study abroad. And id probably pick up drawing and...maybe game development skills in this 1 year training arc.
(hope i can do a Deku training arc, like how he did at the beginning of BNHA)
it really is crazy how things could just come full circle, 5 months ago. Id never have thought Id go back to school. Let alone trying to pursue something, for myself.
I feel a bit reassured after watching this. Thanks
this video meant a lot thanks for posting it genuinely brought tears to my eyes cause i just resonate with it so much
Even tho I’m going to be a junior in high school, I can relate so much. I don’t want to be a mindless zombie, doing what I’m told, living up to expectations, and working in a job I’m not passionate about for the rest of my life. Yet that is exactly the path I’m following. I feel like I’m failing myself and I’m going to fail people that expect more of me in the future. But I don’t know what to do and I feel like I’m wasting time. I don’t look forward to school that starts next week.
aaaaa im crying, but i really needed to hear this :,)
I so relate to this so much. I'm currently in college and I'm doing a program that's computer-related. I'm so unhappy with the work, the professors, the student services, everything. I hate this program, and I'm almost at the end. I want to stop because I hate how the school doesn't care for us students, but why not just push forward for a little longer now that I'm close to the end? If I do stop however, I have to find another program, then I'll feel more behind. I'm the first child in the family to have gone to post-secondary, and the pressure is so real. I would have wasted all that money for nothing. Mentally, I'm already a college drop out because I'm disassociating from everything. My greatest fear is the fear of wasting my time and money. I'm looking for transferable courses to another school. I generally know what kind of programs I want to pursue. I'm also looking for a part-time job, so I can have at least something in life. I have supportive friends who want to help me out, and it's making job searching and program searching smoother. Yapping session aside, thank you for this video. It's the perfect timing for me and I feel comforted by it. Thank you Soyo
Going through almost exactly the same 😢 I wish you the best
"you can't think your way into new ways of living, you have to live your way into new ways of thinking" fucking profound man. subbed. great work w this video 🤘
Hard to explain how much i apricate the support:) especially on a video I relate so much too, seriously one of your best (in my opinion). i wasn't expecting such a big plug thank yoooouuu, ill make sure to make the most of your help.
12:17 - you need to stop reading my mind O,_,O
I gotchu buddy lol
Thanks for sharing this story, I'm a senior in highschool and I already feel really nervous. I have to start on applications but honestly I have no clue abt what to do but this video really cheered me up.
I went through this and had such a major depression, it was really really bad. I did the whole never going to classes and failing or getting kicked out for it, i spent that time basically self harming myself or crying over it. I starved myself to punish muself for it. I would think of all these ways to end it. My parents paid for me and i fucked up, i cant bring it up around them with out feeling like breaking down crying. I feel like my father hates me for it and my mother even asked him if he did when she thought i wasnt listening. Hearing that conversation ruined what progress i was making in my mental health. I plan to retry again in the spring one step at a time until im able to do it fully again. I hate myself so much for it. Ill never forgive myself for it and i know ill use that to hate myself and not allow myself happiness from it. I hate it. The day I make it up to them is the day I'll allow myself to be happy and love myself. I just cant until then
I love your videos bro, this one especially. I had a very similar situation with myself that I’m still feeling the effects of, so this video really hit close to home. It’s nice to know that I wasn’t the only person going through something like this and to be reminded that there’s still light at the end of the tunnel. Thank you so much man 🙏🏾
I’m still in high school. I’ll be a senior and graduate soon. I’m always stressing about my future. Students around me already know what they want and I feel like I have no passion or interest in anything. I don’t want to be a doctor, I hate blood and I hate the thought of telling someone horrible news. And I honestly don’t want anything to do with math, so that eliminates most stem careers. I wish I could do something with art but I don’t want to be broke. I don’t want to follow a career just for the money because I’ll be miserable , but I’m also terrified of struggling in life. My dream job would honestly be working at a cute cafe with a side businesses, selling art, clothes and jewelry. I just don’t know what to do and it scares me. I don’t have much time left. We all know how fast time flies and I’ll eventually have to make a decision that will decide how I’ll live for the rest of my life.
this video was actually really inspiring and I can definitely relate to that feeling of an uncertain future. Hopefully I can figure things out like you did
I've been working at Arby's for 6 years after finishing one year of college classes.
I had no idea what I wanted,
how to succeed,
why my head was so foggy,
or how to focus/stay awake.
And my classes were simple!
I didn't think highly of my learning abilities.
I did ok as far as finishing, but I knew it wasn't sustainable.
I only managed to get this job because of several kind people helping my barely functional mind into a better situation. I've been slowly figuring out pieces of myself through internet exploration.
I still don't know if I'll ever manage to move forward from here.
How are you now bro. In a similar position.
@dyinglight418 Still here, but it's not terrible. I just have periods where I fall back into feeling terrible, and I was speaking from there with my comment.
Yes, my job isn't one that would pay well for living alone, but I don't yet, and I have to be patient with myself that I may need more time than other people to build up my life. I don't know if I'll ever drive, but I manage with family rides and buses.
I'm still fluctuating in my level of adult ability.
One thing I'm proud of, though, is that I have managed to go to work consistently for all this time.
Hey, this really helped me. As a senior, I’m taking more hard classes this year. And I don’t know what I want to do after I graduate high school. Thanks for making me feel less lonely. Thanks for putting these thoughts out.
Thank you for sharing your story! It was very helpful to see a new perspective, because my life so far has been the opposite. I came out of high-school with a clear plan, didn’t go to college, and I’m now jealous of my siblings who all went and are getting big degrees. Now I’m doubting the plan I originally had, and feel stupid for not going to college (Cuz I’m working as a cashier).
Hey don’t be hard on yourself. It’s ok. College is not for everyone.
Man, that last message you sent us off with, ‘You’re going to be okay,’ really gave me some emotion I haven’t felt in years. Thanks, man.
Yay you did it 🤍🤗
I’m happy for you and where you are
i also dropped out my sophomore year when covid hit, i just felt so unmotivated and depressed but got a new job worked full time and started going back to school part time and going to the gym helped push myself. Thank you for this video i don’t feel so alone anymore
man your videos are always my favorite
Just thanks. I can't say you have cured all my problems or even one of them, but you have eased my mind a bit for sure. I'm still very young to say the least and struggle with what to do after school, what the right choice is and basically all the other stuff you mentioned. Unlike you i have quite a bit more time till im able to attend something like a college, still i'm troubled about all that stuff so thanks for kinda like i already said, easing my mind. And the thing you said with living and thinking pretty much hits some things quite on point as well tbh.
Hits hard when things said are relatable
Hey man im kinda in the same boat as you right now in the time period of you slipping from classes, thanks for your story really helped my mental.
This was me when I went to college and then dropped out. It was the lowest point of my life until I came out of depression and went into trade school, now Im applying for a job. I feel relived and happy now that Im going to do something that I will enjoy
congrats! doing something you enjoy, are good at and is highly sought after beats being miserable for half of your waking hours for the next 40 years. best of luck with the job hunt :)
Soo early, i cant wait to see what the future holds for you
I'm glad you're still here. I'm still here too and I just applied to a diploma after struggling with mental health and trauma, but I'm back, I think life isn't about how worse it can get, it's about being rebirthed over and over and over again, it's about "coming back", it's about getting up again.
Same happened with me. I drop out of top most college of my country. I regretted that decision like how you described but today as you told at the end everything become sorted. I am just happy wherever I am and just exploring new things may be that lend me into the place I like or I feel like working.
It's scary how much i relate to this video since im going through this exactly like how you have describe it
u came a long way since college bro, as a subscriber im genuinely so amazed and proud of you. if ur past experiences didnt exist u probably wouldnt be sharing ur knowledge with us , im proud of u
That was a beautiful video, thank you.
My boy scared tf out of me for a sec when he said he was quitting TH-cam 😭😭
Thanks for your videos man! This one really hit home. I have a similar story to you! I'm still struggling and going through a big character development arc so it feels good to be reminded that things are going to be okay. Thank you bro 😊
Hey bro, thanks for sharing your story. I can relate a lot to parts, especially how you felt about yourself up to the end of high school. The world is somehow vaster than our anxious overthinking can possible comprehend- that’s impossible for us to truly get when we’re at the bottom of our depressive periods, but- small changes really do make us appreciate life for what it is. 🔥 rooting for you and the future!
Wow this hits hard and it's so similar to me too.12th grade as well with me (last year of high school), I had 0 clue what on earth I even wanted to study. So my parents suggested Graphic Design because I enjoy art and I decided why not. Went into my first year of university for Graphic Design...covid happened. I got so mentally stressed out to a point I kept crying. I was struggling so bad, I stopped going onto my online classes, doing homework, assignments, you name it.
2 years later I'm back in college now studying something else but...the work is so incredibly difficult I almost cry every day and constantly feel like I'm a failure. I understand all the work and my subjects 100%, it's when i actually have to do the work and when I write the tests it's like my brain just switches off and forgets everything I've studied.
I LOVE the edit. I dropped college and started another one (I am still a bit lost but trying to find myself), which is normal. Giving up and trying again, searching and discovering new things, and finding what you love. Keep going
This resonates so much with me. Thank you ❤
Thank you very much for this video. I really love your story.
I graduated high school when COVID just happened. I used it as an excuse on not going to a university as a full time student, and just simply do community college part time, but the truth is that I didn't have any big plans for my future when senior year happened. So I did community college online while working for my family business with my father. I already helped out a bit when I was in high school, but this time I decided to do it full time. I did it for about four years and simply got sick of it. For at least one year I made no new friends with the world locked down. I was always around my parents. It didn't help that everyone I knew was out there enjoying college traveling to vacation spots and working jobs/internships they enjoyed. I craved to become more independent by working at a new job and make new friends around my age. So right now I am in a point where I want to make myself a better person. Starting with changing my daily habits for myself, like reading more often and working out daily. I'm getting ready to move out and fully commit and apply to a fulltime university and finish a program I can enjoy and get a good salary job out of.
Yooo that’s really awesome! I’m happy for you man and I hope things continue to turn out good for you!
Wtf hahahah I was watching this once again and while crying the ads suddenly pop and I was surprise with the words "joke lang" hahahahah😭😆
When i graduated I really didn’t know what to do or where to go for college. I saw a lot if not every one of my friends go to college with a career in mind. A lot of adults including my parents and managers at the time all telling me to go to college so I did out of fear I would be a bum just working. That year of college was strictly online and I’ll be honest I was not paying much attention and just showing up and doing work with notes I was taking but not understanding any of it. Just doing it to get it done. It came to a point I was just not doing good in any of my classes and I finished my first year with only 4 credits and I took 10 classes total for both semesters
Fast forward i dropped out. I wasn’t ok mentally and had no sense of direction in my life for what I should do. My depression was getting worse and it wasn’t helping that every adult was telling me to go back. I didn’t wanna tell anyone about not going to college because they just say the same thing and I needed to think for myself. I have goals but idk if I need college for it. Idk how to go back and idk how to start again cus I’m afraid I might get depressed again but after working and getting a taste of life after highschool a lil I can say I have a better mindset then from now.
All this to say. It’s ok just think for yourself and block out other people’s opinions because it maybe helpful but it’s YOUR life at the end of the day. Not theirs.
MAN HES ALWAYS JUST ON TIME
Hey I just bumped into this video and it really speaks to the situation that I’m currently facing. I have been put on probation this year due to me not being able to to meet my school academic requirements and for such a long time I felt like a failure as I have always had this image of myself being successful in post secondary but I feel into a deep depression which made it impossible to perform at my best. The worst thing is that I still haven’t been able to tell my parent about this due to my own shame but while watching your video I started to tear up as I realize that I have been putting a lot of pressure on myself since high school and I was always thought that I would be able to plan every single part of my life to a tea because I knew what to expect and this couldn’t be farther from the truth. This video really help me as it giving me courage to face the situation that I’m in and truly reflect on what I desire for my life
Thank you for sharing
damn bro mario explanatation hit hard
"follow your passion" is the worst advice of all time, they dont want to help you if thats all someone says
My passion is art but I’m pursuing IT. Guess I should keep it up even though I don’t really care for it
But how? The video explicitly shows that one of the main reasons he fell into depression was because he didn’t have a passion and when he got one, art, he became better for it.
Yes following your passion won’t always lead to an extremely successful life but it will make you happier. If your takeaway is that you shouldn’t follow your passions your just contradicting the videos advice.
@@WitheredW hey :) he said it himself in the video " i WANTED a passion", its not something you're born with, and he became more depressed because of the expectations society set on him to "follow it" when it was never something he always had.
My issue is with people who pass down unrealistic expectations with this type of advice, I want people to be more specific, "Follow your passion and all will be happy" is a fairytale
@@asia1174 I wish you the best of luck in your career and please keep working on your art regardless, I came from a 3 year art block
Follow your passion ❌
Find a career you tolerate so you can do your passion
This video resonates so hard. Im in my last year of highschool and have no idea what I want to do next. It is a stresser. The saying "You can't think your way into a new life" gave me a new perspective.
i relate to this way too much and probably needed to hear that last message thanks man
Thank you for sharing your story 😭😭😭😭. Appreciate it!! I am going through a rough time right now. So thank you ❤️
Thank you for this I'm a sophomore in highschool, I know I'm still young but I'm having a hard time and afraid of the choices I will make soon and thinking that I won't make it and I'll be a faliure to my parents but this video really encorges me to keep on moving foward and that eveythings going to be okay and to just enjoy life
I just graduated high school, i’m taking a gap year and want to find myself.
The feeling of not knowing what you want to do feels like it will never go away but a piece of advice my mom told me was “Don’t force yourself to do something you’re not passionate about. Follow your heart and be patient.”
I felt this but when i was like in middle school transitioning to highschool. A conflict of interest in goals with high expectations leading to a complete collapse
You spoke to my soul with this video. I think I will keep going just a little longer. Thank you
Wow this is so relatable to hear since im at the point where i just don't know what to do and also lack the talent to be a good college student and have been hating myself and this life of mine since highschool haha
I really love your videos - the anime, the editing and your insights. You have a way with words that just resonates so hard! Thanks so much for sharing your work 💘💘
we have the same story, idk but this thing made me cry so hard..
These always come out at the perfect time I swear
This brought a tear to my eyes. I really needed hear that
I'm proud of you bro, I'm glad you figured everything out and keep growing. God loves you.
For me i tried 3 different bachelor's and failed so fucking badly. Last year i started trate school, even though there is a stigma around it the fact that i finished my first year helped me in a way i couldnt imagine. This video really hit home cause sometimes life be feeling like LLLL to the point where you cant celebrate even your smallest w's yaknow. So now even if trate school is easier than uni, i have a schedule and time to improve.
bro really says the right things at the right time. thanks for the great video
Thank you so much for this video. I dropped out of college and I’m just looking for a reason to return, I know I want to but my heart is frozen in fear. Im at the lowest part of my life and I think this video has finally gotten the ball rolling and I’ve decided this is a sign to go back for sure this time. Wish me luck!
Beautiful message I hope you keep doing what you love doing man
I couldn’t have seen this vid at a better time…thankyou
thanks this helped alot
hey soyo, i really appreciate your videos man! more so now that you shared with us your experiences and therefore the story behind your channel, and im happy for you for getting through all of it. your content has become a big source of encouragement for me and i want to thank you for your work cause it reminded me that im not actually losing it (lol), and that through these vids, youre giving me and everyone else who is struggling in the same way a sense of comfort and somewhat a form of connection even if its just in the comments.
I feel like I really needed this video. I’m starting high school next week and am really worried about if I’ll just waste my time and not find what I want to do. Maybe it’s too early for me to worry about this but that doesn’t stop me from stressing over it. I really appreciate the message and think it helped.
I have been in that spot so future nothing you feel like you are wasting space on this earth. I think we all figure out life at our own pace. I picked up working out and running and it was no kidding look forward to everyday when i wake up. Job market is ass life is fucking hard.
Don't normally comment on videos but honestly, this video could not have come at a better time. I am currently in college myself and honestly wondering if it's even worth it to keep going. I moved to a different country to study a subject I'm only mildly interested in, and at this point I just want to get my degree and start working to help my brother graduate after me. Don't know what the future holds, and I'm honestly pretty scared about it. Your video really did give me some very much needed hope. Thanks soyo ^^
I love not wanting to wake up and when I wake up I get more depressed from a good Soyo video!
I'm 31 and already wanting to rethink my college education.
It's just too stressful.
The im quitting youtube part was said and than thwre was a add my heart stopped for a second bro
rly needed this vid. Thnx 💖
bro this is SO real that's literally my daily routine, referring to your high school days. i really thought it was just me who took those huge naps straight after school. i cant put my finger on why it is so tiring.. maybe it was because i sleep at like 2am all the time
I dropped out almost a month ago. I'm having the exact same experience as you... Right now I'm just trying not no give up on life.
and what ironic is that a lot of people say it best thing they ever done. But you must understand that we all have our own way and those suffering shape us if we continue them or withdraw from them
Bro I couldn’t relate more took me 5 years to figure out what I want to do, wasted those very dark years in college just to keep my parents happy but honestly I should have just left after a year now I’m just trying to figure out how to start my journey and life let’s hope it’s never too late.
Ive been through every way, every pain, and felt every depressing thoughts you did, It was when COVID started, and I dropped out of college since my parents cant afford to pay for it. so I had to live my life with depression, and almost did the unthinkable.
I'm a senior in high school still don't know what to do in college I relate to this quite a bit
Im currently in sophmore year in high school and ive been watching all of your videos so far and honeslty i can relate to the high school stuff im not sure what i want to do in life because ive just been getting good grades and playing video games i think this is a very relatable video