For me Complex Trauma is - Mother died when I age 7...then taken and locked up from age 7, Beaten using weapons on daily basis - Tortured almost daily inflicting severe pain, like needles pushed through all finger nails under the nails, tied up, hung up for hours and hours, then beaten until unconscious, hand swollen and black and blue and purple and without any feeling in them. Raped almost everyday, by multiple people...all for 7 years...until I managed to escape because they told me I would be dead within a few months - I didn't want to die....I escaped....and I still can't bring them to justice.
What about multiple bereavement? . I lost my daughter and grandchildren in a house fire, I lost my other daughter in a violent death. My first husband committed suicide in a violent manner, etc etc.
I worked with a psychologist on my CPTSD, I spent 8 years in therapy and now and then, when the psychologist thought my mind could old on a EMDR session, I had it. 2 years after that long cure I ended up in a cult, lost a lot of money and turned upside down all my life. I would say that it wasn't an effective treatment. Now I'm living up on a mountain with a bare minimum of relationships and continuing to ask myself and the universe: Why I'm still here? Talking about my disturbed childhood didn't help at all and worsted my co-dependency attitude.
Wow, I am sad to hear that you had a therapist who didn't know how to work with you. I know this might just seem like a random person on TH-cam in the comments section, but there are therapists who know how to work with CPTSD and dissociative disorders, safely and effectively. Sometimes people with CPTSD/DDs work for ages in therapy and come out no better, or even worse, and then think it's because they are broken or defective - but it's not true, the therapist just doesn't know what they are doing. If you end up wanting to start a new healing journey, make sure they are CPTSD and dissociative disorder informed.
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For me Complex Trauma is - Mother died when I age 7...then taken and locked up from age 7, Beaten using weapons on daily basis - Tortured almost daily inflicting severe pain, like needles pushed through all finger nails under the nails, tied up, hung up for hours and hours, then beaten until unconscious, hand swollen and black and blue and purple and without any feeling in them. Raped almost everyday, by multiple people...all for 7 years...until I managed to escape because they told me I would be dead within a few months - I didn't want to die....I escaped....and I still can't bring them to justice.
What about multiple bereavement? . I lost my daughter and grandchildren in a house fire, I lost my other daughter in a violent death. My first husband committed suicide in a violent manner, etc etc.
Elizabeth, what you're describing is very sad. Good therapy, like EMDR, can be really helpful. Sending you good vibes and hope you are well.
I worked with a psychologist on my CPTSD, I spent 8 years in therapy and now and then, when the psychologist thought my mind could old on a EMDR session, I had it. 2 years after that long cure I ended up in a cult, lost a lot of money and turned upside down all my life. I would say that it wasn't an effective treatment. Now I'm living up on a mountain with a bare minimum of relationships and continuing to ask myself and the universe: Why I'm still here? Talking about my disturbed childhood didn't help at all and worsted my co-dependency attitude.
I'm so sorry all those things happened to you. I hope you find peace.
Wow, I am sad to hear that you had a therapist who didn't know how to work with you. I know this might just seem like a random person on TH-cam in the comments section, but there are therapists who know how to work with CPTSD and dissociative disorders, safely and effectively. Sometimes people with CPTSD/DDs work for ages in therapy and come out no better, or even worse, and then think it's because they are broken or defective - but it's not true, the therapist just doesn't know what they are doing. If you end up wanting to start a new healing journey, make sure they are CPTSD and dissociative disorder informed.