The first time I heard this song (which was the first time I ever saw and heard OTEP), I was mere weeks away from escaping my abuser. I was a s-x sl-ve from 14 to 19. If I ever meet Otep Shamaya, I’m gonna let her know she’s what planted the seed of what fueled my courage to finally risk it all to get away. I drove 12 hours straight to California in the middle of the night. I played “Rose” by APC and scream cried and ROARED the words the whole time. I wanted to turn back so many times cuz I was scared shitless but Maynard kept singing “I ROSE, I ROARED…” That’s when my Lion Mentality (as I call it) was born. About a year later I found this song again (Blood Pigs) when I had the freedom to listen to whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I’ve been blasting OTEP regularly ever since. I am 36 almost 37 as I write this. If I didn’t have music, I wouldn’t be alive today. ART SAVES! SEVAS TRA FOREVER!
@@user-ix6vv8lo5j I turned him in and wasn’t believed by the police. I was arrested for False Report to a police officer. I was 18 when I turned him in, and I had proof that I was living there as a minor, but they still didn’t believe me. It was “some crazy story” according to them. So crazy it “couldn’t be true” they said. There’s documentaries and investigations being done about that exact BS that cops do to young women. It’s easier to charge a girl with False Report than to do an entire investigation, apparently. I truly thought I was the only one until I stumbled upon a Netflix doc about it a few months ago. That bad man STILL contacts me to this day saying he shouldn’t have let me get away and I was the best thing he’s ever had. It’s been almost 20 fkn years and he makes new FB accounts to msg me from cuz I block him every time. I have a folder saved on my hard drive with ALL the stuff he sends me and I email everything to my best friend cuz I bought gun. I will be armed with proof up to the DA’s eyeballs that he’s been stalking me ever since I escaped. I wish this man no harm because I have learned compassion is the only way we will ever progress as human beings, but I won’t let him touch me ever again. If he tries to break into my house (like he did 18 years ago), I will not ask questions. I learned the hard way that sometimes you really MUST put yourself first. Because I can’t call the cops on him ever again thanks to that False Report arrest. The DA who prosecuted me was the same DA that refused to let Daniel Villegas free (an innocent man who was wrongfully convicted of murder as a teenage boy). He was recently released (FINALLY!). The corruption runs deep in my city’s Law Enforcement, but thankfully he’s no longer our DA. That documentary is called “Victim/Suspect” on Netflix. What happened to those poor girls is EXACTLY what happened to me when I tried to get help. This is exactly why I fled the state and didn’t just go to a different town. I wanted a new life where I wasn’t seen as some liar (honesty really matters to me).
vc sabe que isso é apenas produção e não da pra comparar o vocal gritado do hardcore com esse gutural da Otep! são dois estilos completamente diferentes de gritar!
Eu estava me referindo aos grunhidos baixos, guturais, como visto no vídeo. A voz de Otep é muito mais profundo e mais agressivo sonoridade do que qualquer banda que eu já ouvi.
Quando usas as mãos como ela faz nos graves, fica muito mais grave e poderoso. É uma tecnica facil para tornar a voz mais grave. Algo "fake", mas por vezes fica bem. Mas que nem toda a gente (quase ninguem) usa. Essa comparação não tem fundamento portanto ;) Não lhe tiro o merito claro!
Funny story, Buddy of mine introduced our unit to this song I. Afghan. We got so hooked on it when we rolled into an area in force we blared this on our PA’s. Scared the s***t out of the locals and they didn’t want to fight after.
I hear the alternative influence of nu metal but this has a hardcore and death metal influence on par with Iowa-era Slipknot. Much like them at the time, this was significantly heavier than pretty much all other bands of the time that we would've called nu-metal. Definitely born of the era, but in a different tier for sure.
+Mike A back when A house party was, fighting, fucking, drugs and loud ass metal!! This rap shit killed what a party meant!.......Damn i miss being a teen :(
Just saw her in MA a week ago and the show was sick. She did this song and can still sing and then go to the growl and scream!! Incredible show at perfect small venue.
Saw this band in concert many years ago....blew my mind. Otep really surprised me with her vocals. Never knew something that small could produce that heavy deep sound....very cool.
James Baird I know that it meant something different to Otep than it did to me, but that's why the song is written the way it is, so other people could put their own interpretations to it, and relate to it.
@@jamesbaird1149 She was abused when she was a child. If you she those drawings (made by her), you can notice that they could have been made by a disturbed child for a reason like that. I saw them live at Donnington in 2002 from Spain.
Otep has been a supporter in my dark times. Im 26 and i feel like im 13 again back in dark place. Madam Shamaya if you see this. I thank you for keeping my alive. I almost took my live in front of my mother on mother's day. Between music and my woman there is nothing keeping to this world.
Otep always has meaningful lyrics with a great delivery vocally, but we have to give Moke or however you say the drummer's name a ton of credit!! He is the one that is ridiculously underrated! I haven't really heard another drummer with as many different influences in his playing making his sound so unique! Otep was telling about his influences in an interview and mentioned five or six that he tries to incorporate in his style, and still loves to try to learn more and keep exploring which is unusual since the band has been in the game a while!
+Nevada Campbell This is their only song I listen to, but yeah, he sounds good. Mikey "Bug" Cox from Coal Chamber and Abe Cunningham from Deftones are underrated, too.
I Don't Know 0123456789 I agree that Bug is underrated, but I don't think that any member of the Deftones would be considered underrated! If anything, some of the members would be considered overrated because the 'tones have been put up on a pedistool and respected by all in the music world!
I Don't Know 0123456789 Also, if this is the only song you listen to of theirs, then you need to give some more songs another listen or listen to them for the first time because they have some great songs! This is a band that tries all different methods of combining instruments, mixing totally different influences in one the same beat which means nothing ever sounds the same for the most part! I suggest listening to Crooked Spoons, that is one hell of a unique song! The Lord is My Weapon is a interesting song with killer screams, and most everybody loves the beat to the song Smash the Control Machine!
Nevada Campbell I agree everyone respects Deftones, but they're far from being mainstream, so I'd still say they're underrated, because lots of people don't know they exist.
I Don't Know 0123456789 Well, i see where that statement is coming from for sure!! Where i'm from we havae never heard of half the bands that everyone else knows because all they play are the Classics! We only hear about new stuff/ bands from Sirius and youtube!
Me too. My metalhead bus driver noticed that I was goth told her about the goth music I liked. She suggested me this band specifically this song. At first I didn't like it then let the song get to me. I didn't even know that women do this. Now I love metal and wanna learn how to growl. 8 months later I actually met Otep and saw her live as my first concert.
I did a purge of songs with lyrics that were too negative a while back, but I couldn't bring myself to get rid of this one. It's too freakin' awesome. One of the first metal songs I ever heard and I still think it's amazing to this day.
Tatiana Shmailyuk: "I LOVE that dude!" Friend: "ain't a dude, that's a girl." Tatiana: **mind blown clean out her ears** Love me some Jinjer and In This Moment, but Otep's the fountainhead.
Just imagine her listening to Otep and thinking "maybe i could do that too! ". And several years later she is one of the best singers/growlers out there lol
Lyrics: Blood pig (x2) I'm sorry, I'm ugly All that I am and I can never live up I'm failing, I'm angry Afraid of the ways They pretend to be us It's fucked up, i'm different Words remain my only escape Art saves all of me, envolving And now you're walking way I'm so afraid And now you're walking away I'm so ashamed Now you're walking away [voodoo spell] My mistake was trusting you Blood pigs With creating my fate With poetry, and suffering I cannibalized every ounce of my pain I'm still afraid, everyday These greedy worms They devour my plagues I'm not your slave I'm conquering You see me rise And now you're walking away I'm not ashamed And now you're walking away I'm not afraid Now you're walking away No You can't hurt me anymore (x2) Fed from the wound from which we were bleed Vomiting filth in our soft cave heads Chewing on tissue Tendon and fat Destroying the things they do not understand Tyrant Betrayer Parasite Traitor And still you feed them And still you need them I'm sorry, I'm ugly Dangerous Can't describe it enough I'm failing, I'm angry I use my fear to empower my hate I'm fucked up, I'm different Words remain my only escape Art saves all of me, envolving And now you're walking away I'm not ashamed And now you're walking away I'm not afraid Now you're walking away (x3) [voodoo spell] My mistake was trusting you Blood pig With creating my fate With poetry and suffering I cannibalized Every ounce of my pain I'm still afraid everyday You still suckle my plagues I'm not your fucking slave, so why you walking away? Blood pig Why you walking away? (x3)
@@vxnhoy6268 found this on google, apparently she’s saying “Map mange ou sans sel” which translates to "I will eat you without salt" in Haitian Creole. It also says it’s a voodoo curse used when someone is very angry at another person.
This video, is when I fell in love with her music. Everything I was feeling, came through her words and she screams things I could not. Love her. All of her music. Sevas Tra. Truth.
I've been a fan for a few years now and otep is still in my top 2 . this music really grabs at my core . Best wishes for Otep and the creativity that accompanies them . Sincerely , J. Peretti .
One of my favorite songs period. She is so underrated, but I prefer it that way, so us true fans can keep her for ourselves. I have seen her six times throughout California in the last 5 to 7 years, and she has never dissappointed, and gives her fans all of herself at each perfomance. Long Live Otep!!
I'm so in love with the way you express yourself! I sent my husband to a men's desipleship to become a man of God! Ha ha he became extremely abusive after that and this song describes what I and many other women have gone through with an abusive lover 💔. It's perfect! Thank you
I remember the first time I heard this song it took me back to childhood and me an her can relate especially when she talks about feelings and daddy...it sad but she an yells music helped bring it to the surface long enough to face next thing I know me and my father now have the best relationship I could ask for because I understood his trauma and I forgave him...trauma can b the biggest slow killer worse than starvation and exposure to the worse outside experience just so u kno....I'll always luv my otep doll
My metalhead bus driver noticed that I was goth told her about the goth music I liked. She suggested me this band specifically this song. At first I didn't like it then let the song get to me. I didn't even know that women do this. Now I love metal and wanna learn how to growl. 8 months later I actually met Otep and saw her live as my first concert. I still love both goth/punk and metal
Shamaya herself has expressed interest in touring with Slipknot a handful of times before, so who knows? Also, saying bands can't share a tour because of their styles is ignorant, and I can name numerous examples of such opposing genres and lyrical content touring together.
Aww the memories, thanks to my friend Vito who went to Ozzfest the year this album came out and handed it to me and said,"Put it in and just let it play" From that day forward I have been a fan and will always be and I am still listening in 2019. Thanks Vito 🤘🎸
I think bands in this style will make a comeback. More emphasis on groove and feeling, than just the all out tech metal that's been prevalent the last decade.
I was still in high school the first time I heard Otep back in like 01'-02', I remember going to their webpage and E-mailing Evil J as I had just started playing bass at the time. He actually wrote me back! He was nice and really inspirational, cool guys and gal. Shame I never got to see them in concert.
@@meghansmith7884 Forgive me for that brutally late reply, darling. Won't happen again. 😉🤘 Yes, surviving on the other side of these Tyrants for sure, love. Hope you are surviving too. ❤🤘 #Otepladiesforever. #Shamayaisourfuckinggod
Thank you Otep for your music, I loved this album in my college days, you shaped my political views and my critic self...... I will always be a fan.....
Some people are familiars,to badass to be from this world,she one of them.too smart and intelligent,and beautiful for most.she's a rarity and a blessing to behold.
If you want brutal female vocals look up 13 Winters and Fear of God -- look up Betrayed by Fear of God. Dawn is a better vocalist with the tormented voices.
Thanks! I'll chek 'em out, but Otep Shamaya is an awesome vocalist too and they're a great band lml , there's lots of badass female singers these days, it's hard to pick one :p
Hey! It's Me! check out my friends Grigori 3 and We Are The Fallen -- 13 Winters, she can teach Otep how to growl. We Are The Fallen -- if you heard Rain Fell Within, you will love this. I grew up on the good shit from the early 1990s.
Back when I was managing a restaurant, whenever I would get especially frustrated I would play this on our speakers. Loudly. "Excuse me, can you repeat that? I don't think I can hear you."
I remember the first time I heard this...my jaw dropped at that first scream. I was like...that's a chick on vocals?!?!? I know there was probably some editing work done on the vocals in studio but it's still nuts how a girl can scream with such a low and deep vocal like this.
I remember when otep was an up and coming band. Featured on the asleep by dawn cd/dvd as a hot topic exclusive. Ghostflowers was the video featured, good times
She had had my heart from day one! This woman is amazing in several things! Music and poems plus he voice beats all the women metal singers and some men as well! Love her!!
I don't think I've seen such a massive vocal range on a metal singer. She can do all the regular high female vocals you'd expect as well as get as low on the scream as any guy. So cool.
Says the dude who probably reported my second comment to get it removed when I put his sissy ass to shame and only has himself to like his own bullshit comments. :)
Met this band at a small venue called Jester's pub in Fayetteville, NC, along with Mushroomhead and Suicide City (bar is sadly gone), and the hotel party was so fun! Getting to interact with the real humans behind this awesome music was inspiring, and also a reality check as I refuse to commit to use my talents publicly with a contract. It's a real struggle to live their way of life, so appreciate their sacrifices to bring you great music
What happened to this Otep. Have you heard their new shit? If you have, then I honestly am sorry you had to hear that shit. But THIS is the REAL Otep I love.
"House Of Secrets" was the best album for me(in terms of instrumental songwriting), but her type of screaming in the first album is completely untouchable.
I like her new album, not nearly as much as the older stuff but I still think it's good. It has a bigger sense of dread and despair where as this song has a big emphasis on anger and frustration.
I first listened to Otep back in 2011 when I was 25. Actually her music is what got me into real metal!! Since then I have seen her perform every year! If you've never seen her live you need to! She's a beast! Just saw her last week and it was awesome! He new stuff isn't as good as her old stuff but I still love her!❤❤❤- Brittany
First, I loved Otep in my early teens just because Otep. Second, I loved Otep also for inspiring Tatiana Shmailiuk to ~growl and making Jinjer what it is 💕 thank you for everything!
Billie Elilish: I'm so dark and scary...
Otep: hold my bloody pig head
Otep 1: Billy 0
Fucking lol
That’s soo true 🤣
Omg that's great. I remember being 17 and lost. Otep kept me here. She was everything to me. This meant a lot to me.
Lol🖤🔥
12 years later and her voice still gives me chills...major respect, fucking love Otep
Vocal effects pedal, bruh. You want real demonic growls... listen to my mother (before her demise anyway). I didn't call her the Beast for nothing.
Man ino u ain't disrespecting otep on here
Da infância à vida adulta 💜🎶🎸
Saaaaame
@@LumpyChoadGravyBoy666some do that to my knowlage otep never did.
The first time I heard this song (which was the first time I ever saw and heard OTEP), I was mere weeks away from escaping my abuser. I was a s-x sl-ve from 14 to 19. If I ever meet Otep Shamaya, I’m gonna let her know she’s what planted the seed of what fueled my courage to finally risk it all to get away. I drove 12 hours straight to California in the middle of the night. I played “Rose” by APC and scream cried and ROARED the words the whole time. I wanted to turn back so many times cuz I was scared shitless but Maynard kept singing “I ROSE, I ROARED…” That’s when my Lion Mentality (as I call it) was born. About a year later I found this song again (Blood Pigs) when I had the freedom to listen to whatever I wanted whenever I wanted. I’ve been blasting OTEP regularly ever since. I am 36 almost 37 as I write this. If I didn’t have music, I wouldn’t be alive today.
ART SAVES! SEVAS TRA FOREVER!
🤘💯🥺🥺
Now you can let go..and be at peace
forgive its the past
Sorry you had to endure such shit goes to show the power of metal also not all men are twats
I hope you had the courage to help bring that person/those people down so they couldn’t hurt anyone else
@@user-ix6vv8lo5j I turned him in and wasn’t believed by the police. I was arrested for False Report to a police officer. I was 18 when I turned him in, and I had proof that I was living there as a minor, but they still didn’t believe me. It was “some crazy story” according to them. So crazy it “couldn’t be true” they said. There’s documentaries and investigations being done about that exact BS that cops do to young women. It’s easier to charge a girl with False Report than to do an entire investigation, apparently. I truly thought I was the only one until I stumbled upon a Netflix doc about it a few months ago.
That bad man STILL contacts me to this day saying he shouldn’t have let me get away and I was the best thing he’s ever had. It’s been almost 20 fkn years and he makes new FB accounts to msg me from cuz I block him every time. I have a folder saved on my hard drive with ALL the stuff he sends me and I email everything to my best friend cuz I bought gun. I will be armed with proof up to the DA’s eyeballs that he’s been stalking me ever since I escaped. I wish this man no harm because I have learned compassion is the only way we will ever progress as human beings, but I won’t let him touch me ever again. If he tries to break into my house (like he did 18 years ago), I will not ask questions. I learned the hard way that sometimes you really MUST put yourself first. Because I can’t call the cops on him ever again thanks to that False Report arrest. The DA who prosecuted me was the same DA that refused to let Daniel Villegas free (an innocent man who was wrongfully convicted of murder as a teenage boy). He was recently released (FINALLY!). The corruption runs deep in my city’s Law Enforcement, but thankfully he’s no longer our DA.
That documentary is called “Victim/Suspect” on Netflix. What happened to those poor girls is EXACTLY what happened to me when I tried to get help. This is exactly why I fled the state and didn’t just go to a different town. I wanted a new life where I wasn’t seen as some liar (honesty really matters to me).
Haven't listened to OTEP since my angsty teen years, damn it brings back so many memories! 2022 and OTEP is still awesome
Sick dude, same here :)
No.. No theyre not.. This is still good tho
🔥🔥🔥🔥
I saw them live at Ozzfest in 2001 before their first album was released. they were on the 3rd stage. they were so badass. I was a fan after that
Same here!
Otep is so not given the credit she deserves, true artist.
"art-house nu-metal" with a political agenda! wasn't the scene then. Good music tho!
Her growls are better than 90% of all the dudes in the hardcore genre.
vc sabe que isso é apenas produção e não da pra comparar o vocal gritado do hardcore com esse gutural da Otep! são dois estilos completamente diferentes de gritar!
Eu estava me referindo aos grunhidos baixos, guturais, como visto no vídeo. A voz de Otep é muito mais profundo e mais agressivo sonoridade do que qualquer banda que eu já ouvi.
Alex Puleo a nova vocalista do Eths "rachel aspe" tambem tem um gutural potente!
Quando usas as mãos como ela faz nos graves, fica muito mais grave e poderoso. É uma tecnica facil para tornar a voz mais grave. Algo "fake", mas por vezes fica bem. Mas que nem toda a gente (quase ninguem) usa. Essa comparação não tem fundamento portanto ;)
Não lhe tiro o merito claro!
goddamn right .. mainstream metal bands are shit
She saved my life once. I was honored to meet her amd tell her ay the lost horizon in Syracuse NY
Came here for the nostalgia...
Left satisfied.
Current events reminded me of her. Love her music, but that day she busted that fans face for calling her a bitch it really ruined her for me.
@@NiaLaLa_V then you are a weak fool.
Funny story, Buddy of mine introduced our unit to this song I. Afghan. We got so hooked on it when we rolled into an area in force we blared this on our PA’s. Scared the s***t out of the locals and they didn’t want to fight after.
Poppy covering Spit by Kittie brought me back to my angry teenage years so I had to come give Blood Pigs a replay. Even better than I remember 😊
Ahhhhh, nu metal. Such a good era to have grown up in
Thank God I grew back then.
death metal*
America Ponce not exactly
🤘🏼
I hear the alternative influence of nu metal but this has a hardcore and death metal influence on par with Iowa-era Slipknot. Much like them at the time, this was significantly heavier than pretty much all other bands of the time that we would've called nu-metal. Definitely born of the era, but in a different tier for sure.
She is an amazing singer, a great lyricist and, to be honest, a woman of great beauty.
I like her better when she had black hair...
Der Geist she's an sjw
I totally agree
she WAS
Not in 2020
when people say girls can't do metal vocals, i always refer them to this video
Chainsaw Gutsfuck abnormality is fucking hardcore bro
Bit lighter but Kittie have always been pretty great with a mix of clean and growly vocals.
And you prove their point
Literally no one says that, dumbass.
I usually refer them to anything by Jinjer, Arch Enemy, and Eths. Otep works as wells though.
Ah this brings the high school days back.
Yes it does
+Mike A I'm still in those days
+Mike A hahahha ur absolutely correct when smoking was cool!!!
+Mike A back when A house party was, fighting, fucking, drugs and loud ass metal!! This rap shit killed what a party meant!.......Damn i miss being a teen :(
don't call that shitty music rap what you refer to is pop or hip pop
Just saw her in MA a week ago and the show was sick. She did this song and can still sing and then go to the growl and scream!! Incredible show at perfect small venue.
She still does this live?
@@aaronh736 Absolutely. Came out on stage with the pig head on the stick and can still kill it!!
Saw this band in concert many years ago....blew my mind. Otep really surprised me with her vocals. Never knew something that small could produce that heavy deep sound....very cool.
This song meant so much to me at 16.
do you know what Blood Pig is about?
James Baird
I know that it meant something different to Otep than it did to me, but that's why the song is written the way it is, so other people could put their own interpretations to it, and relate to it.
Same, this song is really powerful.
This song got me into metal when I was 14! I was like woah the sound and heard the lyrics and was like: oh gosh I relate
@@jamesbaird1149 She was abused when she was a child. If you she those drawings (made by her), you can notice that they could have been made by a disturbed child for a reason like that. I saw them live at Donnington in 2002 from Spain.
Otep has been a supporter in my dark times. Im 26 and i feel like im 13 again back in dark place. Madam Shamaya if you see this. I thank you for keeping my alive. I almost took my live in front of my mother on mother's day. Between music and my woman there is nothing keeping to this world.
Otep always has meaningful lyrics with a great delivery vocally, but we have to give Moke or however you say the drummer's name a ton of credit!! He is the one that is ridiculously underrated! I haven't really heard another drummer with as many different influences in his playing making his sound so unique! Otep was telling about his influences in an interview and mentioned five or six that he tries to incorporate in his style, and still loves to try to learn more and keep exploring which is unusual since the band has been in the game a while!
+Nevada Campbell
This is their only song I listen to, but yeah, he sounds good. Mikey "Bug" Cox from Coal Chamber and Abe Cunningham from Deftones are underrated, too.
I Don't Know 0123456789 I agree that Bug is underrated, but I don't think that any member of the Deftones would be considered underrated! If anything, some of the members would be considered overrated because the 'tones have been put up on a pedistool and respected by all in the music world!
I Don't Know 0123456789 Also, if this is the only song you listen to of theirs, then you need to give some more songs another listen or listen to them for the first time because they have some great songs! This is a band that tries all different methods of combining instruments, mixing totally different influences in one the same beat which means nothing ever sounds the same for the most part! I suggest listening to Crooked Spoons, that is one hell of a unique song! The Lord is My Weapon is a interesting song with killer screams, and most everybody loves the beat to the song Smash the Control Machine!
Nevada Campbell I agree everyone respects Deftones, but they're far from being mainstream, so I'd still say they're underrated, because lots of people don't know they exist.
I Don't Know 0123456789 Well, i see where that statement is coming from for sure!! Where i'm from we havae never heard of half the bands that everyone else knows because all they play are the Classics! We only hear about new stuff/ bands from Sirius and youtube!
I met her at ozzfest a million years ago. Still one of my favorite memories
If you can find a woman who can growl and scream like that, marry her.
You can't marry her. She's a lesbian.
@@rbagel55 could if possible
It is probably a bad idea.
@@rbagel55 hahaha but I can!
@@rbagel55 thats even better!!!
This was the very first song I heard by them.
Me too. My metalhead bus driver noticed that I was goth told her about the goth music I liked. She suggested me this band specifically this song. At first I didn't like it then let the song get to me. I didn't even know that women do this. Now I love metal and wanna learn how to growl.
8 months later I actually met Otep and saw her live as my first concert.
it was instant love on my side. Sevas Tra was so dope
I did a purge of songs with lyrics that were too negative a while back, but I couldn't bring myself to get rid of this one. It's too freakin' awesome. One of the first metal songs I ever heard and I still think it's amazing to this day.
Yeah it's a great song.
Tatiana Shmailyuk: "I LOVE that dude!"
Friend: "ain't a dude, that's a girl."
Tatiana: **mind blown clean out her ears**
Love me some Jinjer and In This Moment, but Otep's the fountainhead.
Otep inspired Tatiana
Just imagine her listening to Otep and thinking "maybe i could do that too! ".
And several years later she is one of the best singers/growlers out there lol
this song is actually a bit similar to In This Moment's Big Bad Wolf in terms of tempo, rhythm, the main verses and the overall concept.
@@jamesonjunn5382 too bad this came out b4 in this moment...just a thought
You should check out kittie too
Lyrics:
Blood pig (x2)
I'm sorry, I'm ugly
All that I am and I can never live up
I'm failing, I'm angry
Afraid of the ways
They pretend to be us
It's fucked up, i'm different
Words remain my only escape
Art saves all of me, envolving
And now you're walking way
I'm so afraid
And now you're walking away
I'm so ashamed
Now you're walking away
[voodoo spell]
My mistake was trusting you
Blood pigs
With creating my fate
With poetry, and suffering
I cannibalized every ounce of my pain
I'm still afraid, everyday
These greedy worms
They devour my plagues
I'm not your slave
I'm conquering
You see me rise
And now you're walking away
I'm not ashamed
And now you're walking away
I'm not afraid
Now you're walking away
No
You can't hurt me anymore (x2)
Fed from the wound from which we were bleed
Vomiting filth in our soft cave heads
Chewing on tissue
Tendon and fat
Destroying the things they do not understand
Tyrant
Betrayer
Parasite
Traitor
And still you feed them
And still you need them
I'm sorry, I'm ugly
Dangerous
Can't describe it enough
I'm failing, I'm angry
I use my fear to empower my hate
I'm fucked up, I'm different
Words remain my only escape
Art saves all of me, envolving
And now you're walking away
I'm not ashamed
And now you're walking away
I'm not afraid
Now you're walking away (x3)
[voodoo spell]
My mistake was trusting you
Blood pig
With creating my fate
With poetry and suffering
I cannibalized
Every ounce of my pain
I'm still afraid everyday
You still suckle my plagues
I'm not your fucking slave, so why you walking away?
Blood pig
Why you walking away? (x3)
anyone know the spell she is saying?
@@vxnhoy6268 found this on google, apparently she’s saying “Map mange ou sans sel” which translates to "I will eat you without salt" in Haitian Creole. It also says it’s a voodoo curse used when someone is very angry at another person.
@@vxnhoy6268 “I will devour you without salt”
is she really cast voodoo spell?
cuz I'm in love
best otep song ever....been listening to this jam for 10 years. much love.
Saw them at Ozzfest 2001 in St. Louis Missouri and they are still Superb! Thank you Otep for not changing!
Ozzfest 2002 she's incredible
Wow, seems like i'm not the only one who sees this band as a gem. Keep rocking guys!
I just found this band today. she screams like korn, it's incredible
I'm disappointed in myself for never hearing them.
This video, is when I fell in love with her music. Everything I was feeling, came through her words and she screams things I could not. Love her. All of her music. Sevas Tra. Truth.
I've been a fan for a few years now and otep is still in my top 2 . this music really grabs at my core . Best wishes for Otep and the creativity that accompanies them . Sincerely , J. Peretti .
First time I listened to this song was when I was 12. I'm now 21 and this will forever be my favorite song by Otep!
One of my favorite songs period. She is so underrated, but I prefer it that way, so us true fans can keep her for ourselves. I have seen her six times throughout California in the last 5 to 7 years, and she has never dissappointed, and gives her fans all of herself at each perfomance. Long Live Otep!!
I discovered Otep with this song, 15 years now ! Still awesome in 2017
Its my fav Otep song personally ;)
i'm 20 years with it)
Same here. From CMJ magaizine. That first hard note Evil J played made me sit up and listen.
I'm so in love with the way you express yourself! I sent my husband to a men's desipleship to become a man of God! Ha ha he became extremely abusive after that and this song describes what I and many other women have gone through with an abusive lover 💔. It's perfect! Thank you
Wow blast from the past! I saw Otep support Drowning Pool in the UK in 2002... 21 years ago wow!
2023 and still absolutely absolutely obsessed with this song!!! 🤘🤘🤘🤘
She has a better scream in this song than most men would
I remember the first time I heard this song it took me back to childhood and me an her can relate especially when she talks about feelings and daddy...it sad but she an yells music helped bring it to the surface long enough to face next thing I know me and my father now have the best relationship I could ask for because I understood his trauma and I forgave him...trauma can b the biggest slow killer worse than starvation and exposure to the worse outside experience just so u kno....I'll always luv my otep doll
My metalhead bus driver noticed that I was goth told her about the goth music I liked. She suggested me this band specifically this song. At first I didn't like it then let the song get to me. I didn't even know that women do this. Now I love metal and wanna learn how to growl.
8 months later I actually met Otep and saw her live as my first concert. I still love both goth/punk and metal
Interesting Otep would be brought up when discussing goth music, considering this isn't goth.
Shudup
Alicel2ose All I listened to was goth music but now I listen to metal too. I used to hate it
@@lydiaminx666 You'd like Lacuna Coil then if you've never heard them
Tareck Fahmi I like some songs by them. I really love abnormality
would be tight to see otep and slipknot tour together
+DigitallyDestructive would never happen...Otep is anti political (Rebellion) Metal...Slipknot compared is fantasy metal
James Baird wtf
Shamaya herself has expressed interest in touring with Slipknot a handful of times before, so who knows?
Also, saying bands can't share a tour because of their styles is ignorant, and I can name numerous examples of such opposing genres and lyrical content touring together.
OMGOSH YESSSSS
@@jamesbaird1149 ok let's not ever pretend Gematria and Psychosocial ain't political songs, yeah bro sure fantasy metal my ass
Lots of pain in this shit. Must be a real reason why it kicks so much ass.
Anyone 2024
Yesssss one of my favorite songs I will always blast 🤘🏼🤘🏼🤘🏼
Been looking for this song for ages!! Had it on one of my playlist back from my HS years!!
we are here
2022 and still sounding AWESOME!
my bus driver suggested me this band. at first I wasn't sure about this but I grew to love it
Is your bus driver otto??
@@jesusdurham2813 came here to ask the same question
For him with this song the bus becomes a space shuttle.
First time I heard this song I was blown away 2019 still blown away
Aww the memories, thanks to my friend Vito who went to Ozzfest the year this album came out and handed it to me and said,"Put it in and just let it play" From that day forward I have been a fan and will always be and I am still listening in 2019. Thanks Vito 🤘🎸
Bro!!! This song takes me all the way back to my high school years and I'm 36 now, I love you otep!😍
It's 2016 and bands like these don't even exist anymore...
mmm
Not may, its our gen, next gen music will be different, and so on...
I think bands in this style will make a comeback. More emphasis on groove and feeling, than just the all out tech metal that's been prevalent the last decade.
Nervosa" they;re savage as fuck!
i fukin wish...fuk todays music..its shit
love her voice ^_^
I saw Otep live at Donnigton in 2002 and this band was one of the reasons why I took a plane from Spain to enjoy that amazing and unforgetable event.
I was still in high school the first time I heard Otep back in like 01'-02', I remember going to their webpage and E-mailing Evil J as I had just started playing bass at the time. He actually wrote me back! He was nice and really inspirational, cool guys and gal. Shame I never got to see them in concert.
Keep rockin your bass @nordicbeast!
THIS SHOULD HAVE 400 BILLION VIEWS. One of my fav metal songs and music videos of all time.
I've been listening to this beauty for 15 years now ❤️
She is the all-time best female, no one else like her
One of the best vocalists of heavy metal history
🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘🤘
First song I ever heard by them. Best throwback ever.
#MrsOtep.
Purrrrrr...Meow
@@meghansmith7884 😉🥰
@@derp12345 Wow a yr later to response 🤣🤣 Anyhoo, hope ur coping with this adorable viruses and surviving....Purrrrrr
@@meghansmith7884 Forgive me for that brutally late reply, darling.
Won't happen again. 😉🤘
Yes, surviving on the other side of these Tyrants for sure, love.
Hope you are surviving too. ❤🤘
#Otepladiesforever.
#Shamayaisourfuckinggod
@@derp12345 Maybe u can make up for it ehhehe.Wanna hear my wish😂Post something/ with u in it heheh....Meow
She was so young here!
Yeah, she was! 23, I think! 😱🤘🤘🤘
Thank you Otep for your music, I loved this album in my college days, you shaped my political views and my critic self...... I will always be a fan.....
Some people are familiars,to badass to be from this world,she one of them.too smart and intelligent,and beautiful for most.she's a rarity and a blessing to behold.
I miss this old style otep we want evil j back
Also with Rob patterson , Mark bistany ( but to be honest i like brian wolff ) , and also karma cheema .
Now that line up will be badass !!!!!
jeff perry yea same here
Alot of new stuff shes made is just better tho
This hits harder than my drunken step father🤟
Loooool felt
that was outta pocket
😂😂😳
Hitting the feels
break his jaw
Saw this band on a tour for this album in Myrtle Beach,SC.Great show
In this moment sounds like a more chill vocalist but sounds like her in some ways ❤❤❤ remember this song from back in my young teen years.
how have i never heard this before this shit is metal
+Edward Martinez
They pretty much ban any real music on the radio!
Forgot all about this song until today. Had the verse in my head for hours until I figured out it was OTEP. Still a badass song!
This, ghostflowers, and buried alive was among my jams in hs along with morbid, sworn and such.
Really feels like something you see in korn self titled with the music video being trama childhood horror and true nu mentally and it’s amazing :)
She's such a bad ass powerful voice
This makes me feel old as frik dude. I seen them at ozzfest in 2002 and 2004 they where awsome.
secondswell damn you old as hell bro . Only kidding, there is only the present :)
The '04 Ozzfst had a KILLER lineup
Hung out with the band once upon a time in Salina Ks. 😆 goodness.. time flys fast
Otep is my inspiration and my salvation. She and the band a whole has saved me from the puritan threat
Timeless classic, who said that nu metal is lame? This song is sheerly brutal, puts all deathcore to shame, compares to Suicide Silence's heavyness.
If you want brutal female vocals look up 13 Winters and Fear of God -- look up Betrayed by Fear of God. Dawn is a better vocalist with the tormented voices.
Thanks! I'll chek 'em out, but Otep Shamaya is an awesome vocalist too and they're a great band lml , there's lots of badass female singers these days, it's hard to pick one :p
Hey! It's Me! check out my friends Grigori 3 and We Are The Fallen -- 13 Winters, she can teach Otep how to growl. We Are The Fallen -- if you heard Rain Fell Within, you will love this. I grew up on the good shit from the early 1990s.
Hmm no
just the best song for screaming along to after another shitty day on planet earth
Lmfao! 😂
This might be one of the best Nu metal songs ever written
Back when I was managing a restaurant, whenever I would get especially frustrated I would play this on our speakers. Loudly. "Excuse me, can you repeat that? I don't think I can hear you."
this is how I feel when I get my period lol xD
Lol I feel the same xD
Best comment I've seen about this song xDD
Im literally on the first day of my period and HAD to listen to this lol
😂
@@maddieholt383 obviously not even the worst day . Don't worry, they will get less .brutal as you age.
I remember the first time I heard this...my jaw dropped at that first scream. I was like...that's a chick on vocals?!?!? I know there was probably some editing work done on the vocals in studio but it's still nuts how a girl can scream with such a low and deep vocal like this.
I remember when otep was an up and coming band. Featured on the asleep by dawn cd/dvd as a hot topic exclusive. Ghostflowers was the video featured, good times
I saw them at OzzFest 2002 and they were one of the best acts that day.
takes me back in the day!!😁
whos still watch in 2021?
2024 still watching
2024
She had had my heart from day one! This woman is amazing in several things! Music and poems plus he voice beats all the women metal singers and some men as well! Love her!!
Dangerous can't describe it enough,love that rhyme
Can't believe that's a girl doing those vocals. Amazing!
I don't think I've seen such a massive vocal range on a metal singer. She can do all the regular high female vocals you'd expect as well as get as low on the scream as any guy. So cool.
Trug0d Lol. All this coming from someone with a name like trugod. duh. You sure are.
Trug0d yeah well i think Eluveitie suck ass from a straw and you don't see me sending hate msg on their song so fuck you!=P
Trug0d says who!?
Says the dude who probably reported my second comment to get it removed when I put his sissy ass to shame and only has himself to like his own bullshit comments. :)
I'm getting ready to see them tonight!!!! 😍 I'm REALLY hoping they'll play this....
Met this band at a small venue called Jester's pub in Fayetteville, NC, along with Mushroomhead and Suicide City (bar is sadly gone), and the hotel party was so fun! Getting to interact with the real humans behind this awesome music was inspiring, and also a reality check as I refuse to commit to use my talents publicly with a contract. It's a real struggle to live their way of life, so appreciate their sacrifices to bring you great music
Her vocals can still kick people's ass..Otep you need to revive Nu metal...Respect!!!!!!
What happened to this Otep. Have you heard their new shit? If you have, then I honestly am sorry you had to hear that shit. But THIS is the REAL Otep I love.
she cold have harmed her voice with the screams.. c: idk though.
It's you the shit
"House Of Secrets" was the best album for me(in terms of instrumental songwriting), but her type of screaming in the first album is completely untouchable.
I miss this Otep so much
I like her new album, not nearly as much as the older stuff but I still think it's good. It has a bigger sense of dread and despair where as this song has a big emphasis on anger and frustration.
I first listened to Otep back in 2011 when I was 25. Actually her music is what got me into real metal!! Since then I have seen her perform every year! If you've never seen her live you need to! She's a beast! Just saw her last week and it was awesome! He new stuff isn't as good as her old stuff but I still love her!❤❤❤- Brittany
Otep reminds me of my first love…and it’s been 13 since I last saw her 😅 I remember being mind blown when she showed me me this band 🤘
Does not sound like korn, in any way, at all. This girl is a beast. Always loved this band. It's fucked up, they're different, but I love it.
First, I loved Otep in my early teens just because Otep. Second, I loved Otep also for inspiring Tatiana Shmailiuk to ~growl and making Jinjer what it is 💕 thank you for everything!
Purrrrrr....Meow
I loved seeing this band in 2004. It was one of the best concerts I've ever seen.
My QUEEN the boss love u otep shamaya
High school days
The lord is my weapon...that song is fantastic
2024, saw them at OzzFest almost 20 years. Even better live.
She has a chino like scream
+Daniel DeMayo Deftones is my favorite band!
I never relized that but old deftones is still my favorite band all these years later. I never realized thats why i liked this
Not hardly
I still love the fuck out of this song.