I'M SEETHING! ON THE VERGE OF A BREAKDOWN | VLOG [tw: emotional]
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- My name is Tammy. I struggle with too many mental issues, lol, but don't we all? On this channel I document most of my struggles. TH-cam helps me to be able to vent and talk about what's going on and how I feel. I consider my channel to be a mental health recovery channel. I'm also trying to lose weight in the process. Come along and let's strive to be the best versions of ourselves!
I'm not promoting any kind of (eating) disorder, I'm just documenting my life and my struggles.
I'm very hapy to have you Little Lemons accompany me. Thank you SO much for watching my video!
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I am in the state of shock, hearing you talk about your therapy appointment. They were not professional if they were laughing at you explaining your feelings. Can you talk to someone that supervise them? Thank you for sharing your experience
There are always 2 sides to a story
@@lolabear3230 Oh stop. Jesus Christ you people don’t stop.
@@lolabear3230 why you always posting negative comments on her videos? Have seen you do it multiple times now. Are you okay? You must be miserable to be so hatefull.
@@lolabear3230 exactly. I don’t believe it’s how she’s telling it. Obese ppl never see themselves at fault for ANYTHING I’ve came to realise.
@@lolabear3230 while that is true this is always a foreign country and we must realize that things dont.go exactly as they would in the states
I love how you deal with things head on despite being nervous. You have integrity and heart.
I was thinking the same thing. Tammy you don’t know how much courage and light you have!
@@Rudaina1991 yess!
I love Stefan for always being there for you! What a good friend. I was feeling every emotion for you listening to this. I am praying for you that you get the help you need. I’m sorry you had this experience with people that you are supposed to be able to trust ❤
The therapist will continue but not on the government funding. Tammy hasn't mentioned this. As someone receiving welfare benefits from the Govt of NL, Tammy's therapy costs are between the govt and the therapist. The therapist is obviously seeing how much financial success she is having online and her ability to deal with everyday life. So...therapist must report this progress to the govt where funds get stopped.
Tammy can still receive therapy but will have to pay from her own income. And if one can buy appliances and shop regularly, she is needing to re-evaluate priorities and maybe reroute her new funds to pay for her own therapy. Govt won't.
Oh wow. I have no idea but it makes sense.
Golly gee, Tammy said she wasn't on welfare anymore. Gasp, could she have lied to us saying she makes enough from youtube to pay all her bills? 🤔
Maybe she forgot that getting off welfare disqualifies her from having a therapist. She did not factor in mental health cost (?)
Literally
You may want to reconsider allowing your cat outdoors if there are dogs in your area. While it's understandable that you feel your cat should be allowed to fight back against dogs, the fact that your cat ran to the neighbor's car meant the dog felt it was defending it's home from an intruder and that could have easily have lead to serious injury or death for your poor kitty if the dog had been more aggressive.
Yes! And then the dog will get blamed for it when really the cat shouldn't be out anyway. Irresponsible cat owners are so frustrating.
@Chloe okay if the cat "shouldn't be out" than the dog should be on a leash. So sick of irresponsible dog owners 🙄
@@Youre-Welcome Did you miss the part where Tammy acknowledged that her cat ran over and jumped inside the neighbor's car and began scratching her? Even if the dog was on a leash it could easily get to the cat if both are inside the vehicle.
Your appointment didn't go as you wanted it to go and now you're giving a tantrum? You need to learn you can't control or dictate everything. ("I got this and I want this" etc.)
I don't believe house cats should be outdoors unsupervised whatsoever...not just for the safety of other animals, but for the safety of your cat. What if they get ran over or mauled by a big dog, or some sort of wild animal injures or kills them.
Please please consider keeping your house pets in the house.
She can’t handle the truth
This whole situation with the therapist first wanting to dump you and then mistreating you is awful ! It's a disgrace ! I am so sorry you are having to go thru this ...as if you haven't already been thru enough in life. I see you Tammy and i feal you . Sending a giant hug from Italy 💜
I dumped all medical ‘professionals’ decades ago. I have chronic lyme. If I get into a car accident and a limb cut off or something, then sure. Other than that…screw them. Anyway can get a degree and most don’t give a crap about you.
I'm in my 50's and I don't understand people like you are describing. My co-workers talk to me but when I speak they start looking at their phone or actually walk away, like what I have to say doesn't matter. My motto is: if you don't support me you don't belong in my life. I refuse to let others invalidate my feelings while they express theirs. You are right it is a power trip, they like to treat you like you are stupid and they need to educate you until you say something intelligent that they have no answer to so they laugh at your words. You've hit the limit of your doctor's ability to help you, he just won't admit it.
Tammy, have a good cry...don't keep it pent up. Then, go to his boss tell him you need to continue treatment with another doctor. You said he laughed at you, and was distracted when you were there for appointments. ...report him to the state board. That type of behavior is not acceptable from a medical professional. And he can get in trouble for his actions. Good luck....we are here for you!
Yes! I agree! Report that Dick! ❤
maybe you could try over eating support groups. did the head therapist give a reason why they dont want to treat you. do you think you always have a excuse for bingeing. you where brave for sorting out the neighbours problem with your cat. do you think you always go over the same probems with u therapist. i think you need specialised therapist for eating disorders.
Anger is a God given emotion - bravo for sticking up for yourself!
i can imagine how uncomfortable it was to approach an upset neighbour so kudos to you for doing it so that you can have peace. also cats are very misunderstood by those who don’t have experience with them so i can see why she freaked out. either way, i’m proud of you for protecting both your and your kitty’s boundaries😺
i think it is not freaking out. just simple understanding that not everyone likes cat. i have a severe cats alergy. if a random cat enters my car, i could end up in a hospital. not mentioning the costs and time wasted for cleaning the car. your passions might not be shared with everyone around. it is the basic understanding.
@kubuś puchatek okay but she seriously made it sound as if her friend was attacked and scratched half to death, lol.
@@kubuspuchatek2950 i was simply responding to tammy’s perception of how the woman wrote her note
@@shinystar1781 yeah, exactly. perception, nothing else. every story has two ends. i think if you decide to write a note, you have a valid reason.
@@kubuspuchatek2950 Unless the cat inadvertently sliced someone‘s jugular, a 30-second exposure to Makker isn’t going to send anyone to the hospital. 🙄
It’s a therapist job to regulate their emotions in a healthy way for their own well being… It also models effective coping skills for their clients. I am so sorry you had this experience. Your feelings are important and your struggles deserve to be recognized. That guy’s behavior is so wrong!!
I love your videos but at what point do you become independent? In life we all have challenges and we have to find ways to overcome them. You have had therapy for many years and now they think you are ready to step out and start living, please try to see the positive in this, you should not stay in therapy just in case next winter you face challenges! It’s time to thrive now, life is short, start living
I felt this way in the past, but I coped by just forcing myself to work etc. I felt like I'd find this solution if I did enough therapy and I'd lose my issues. But being diagnosed with autism made me realise that it wasn't going to change to the point of me becoming "normal" and not having struggled so I just try to make myself do as much as I can. At some point you do just have to drag yourself up and force yourself. Adult life sucks lol. Her psychologist should take it very seriously if she says she doesn't care if she dies and describes ways of dying, though b
It shows how proactive you are - good for you to know what you need and to fight for it despite ‘professionals’ getting in the way. Makes so much sense that you would want to build yourself up and improve mentally to be able to weather the storms more easily. ❤
Seeing you power through it is such an inspiration for me personally Tammy. Sometimes our superpower comes in form of not giving up. Lots of love❤️ May you find your strength.✨
That was brilliant!! We all need to remember..not giving up can be the strongest thing we can do!!
Maybe you should look into walking your cat since he wants to be outside but seems like he needs to be supervised. Him being okay near cars even if they aren't moving is a little scary.
Tammy this was NOT a boring video, thank you so much for sharing what you really go through. Thank you so much I know this message was really helpful to people who are going through the same thing! I wish you all the best 💞.
Would you consider getting a job to be able to afford therapy self pay?
The audacity!
@@ANom-jt6lj I’m crying
Tammy! The new intro is way too long lol... but i love tha cats :D
The gall of some people on YT blows my mind. I love the intro, but so what? It’s her channel, and she can make her intro as long as she wants. When you have a channel, you can do what you want. See how that works?
@@designchik did i tell her to change it? Did i say it needs to be shorter? Stop creating problems and drama where there aint any. You are the problem here rn.
As a fellow Dutchie with ASD, I relate. It's like they think preparing for a breakdown will cause the breakdown. But you don't get car insurance because you plan to crash your car. I'm very glad and proud you stood your ground; I've been watching you for three months (give or take) now, and one thing I've noticed is that you know yourself well. So for what it's worth considering our parasocial relationship, I think you did well. Good job.
Tammy coming in to teach the roomy girls how trolling is actually done .
As a psychologist, as well as someone who depends on the healthcare system as a patient, I'm really sad to hear about what happened to you.
If a patient made it clear to me, that they still need help and they'd give me a plausible explanation as to why they need (my) help, I'd be the last person to send them away without at least providing them with any sort of alternative recommendations / solutions. Of course everyone has the right to handle things their own way, but I truly understand your disappointment. 💔
Therapy means teamwork!
That being said, I'm super glad you stood up for yourself. Self-advocacy is so important.
Exactly this, you cannot leave vulnerable people to fend for themselves out of the blue, especially when they are ASKING for help
Fees come into play with this. Tammy wants the government to keep paying for her appointments. If the said therapist sees she is doing well working online, shopping and having productive efforts, the professional would see this as not in need of continued therapy. Others who are unable to become so successful and productive as Tammy need those resources.
IF Tammy Chooses to pay for the therapy without the help of welfare she receives, then the therapist will have no problem continuing to listen.
The government is billed for Tammy. So now that stops and Tammy will need to pick up those costs or forego the government-funded help.
It is the way the government programs work. I've had many clients in the same situation.
@@lpsmurder So true!
It’s Europe and that’s the down side of free health care. If you want a good therapist you’re going to have to pay for it yourself babe
The audacity!
@@ANom-jt6lj Why, because I live in a neighboring country with similar policy and have been through the same healthcare issues myself?
@@sophiestanza nah, just trolling
@@ANom-jt6lj best be
I also live in a neighbouring country and have paid a lot of money to get help. A more expensive therapist sadly does not mean a better therapist. I had a 100euro/hour psychiatrist taking a 10minute call in front of me. He was discussing another patient and it was all very unprofessional. Personally I learned a lot from the internet when it comes down to my mental health issues. In the end you are on your own and you have to do it yourself. I think that’s what Tammy needs to realize. You have to find your own ways to manage your issues. Therapy is almost like a scam in my opinion. It is damn hard to find a good one and you will lose a lot of money in the process.
I feel like you expect the therapist to be the saviour for all your issues and that's the problem. When you have depression and bed/emotional eating you have to learn to deal with it yourself (whole food+activity) and not expect outside sources to ease your mind when you know your problems! It is like expecting a bf to support your depressive episodes when that could be every day!
I get that same feeling from her and most people in the comments, at the end of the day a therapist can only do so much but it is the responsibility of the person to put into action what they learn from their therapist and push through/deal with things themselves.
This right here! 🙌🏾💯
Yeah I just accepted that I have autism, it's not going away, but I can still do what I can, and medication helps my anxiety.
💙💚💛 I dont like seeing you upset , you have come this far dont see it as he has won it's not a competition between you there is nothing to win . Have faith in your ability to support yourself there are emergency numbers you can ring if it gets that bad . I get overwhelmed and used to see my doctor every week now when I get overwhelmed I just write the problem down and when I look back over my writing a week or so later my perceived problems seem so trivial , I dont think your therapist would let you go if there is immediate danger of life , try and get through a couple of months if you find it too difficult then write to them and say it's not working but at least give it ago you may surprise yourself you always have stephan and lemfams for support 💙💚💛
Trying to get help for mental health issues is not easy as it is, but to be treated unfairly by a professional is like a stab in the back. I know the feeling exactly.
I’m so sorry this happened to you, Tammy. I thought mental health resources were better in European countries like the Netherlands, but apparently not. I’m in Canada, and mental health therapy gets worse here every year. Is there anyone above him that you can contact? Can your doctor intervene? It’s appalling treatment, sweetie, and I’m so sorry. ❤
Keep your damn cat inside. So irresponsible
I’m highly allergic so I would be PISSED if a neighbor’s cats went into my car. The hair left behind in the car would be enough to put me in the hospital and give me a severe reaction of face swelling, hives etc. Can’t believe Tammy dgaf. So self centered and rude to not understand why some don’t want to be in contact with your freaking cats
Have you thought maybe having a job might actually help you not have to hyper focus on the negatives all the time. New here, ao unsure of your circumstances 😊
This sounds like a great idea. If 2 professionals think she cannot gain more from therapy it’s time to try something new and free up the space for someone on crisis
The audacity!
It’s not even that I don’t think she deserves the help, I just know that when I have nothing but my weight and mental health to focus on, all i do is go around and around in circles. Maybe having something else outside of herself might help 🤷🏻♀️
@@kaylajane3189 Totally.
Tammy I am wondering when you have all this free time that your editing editing editing do you do anything for yourself? I know this is for yourself and they're mentally it is very very good for you to keep yourself busy but do you do anything physical? Do take walks do you do any type of light exercise.. just curious I am just getting myself back into the swing of things and since I started moving a little bit more I have lost 8 lb. I originally had been 218 and went down to 128 and then over a few years time went back up to 160 I'm back down to 140. Some depression Etc put me back up there close to 160 but now I'm 151. Can't wait to be under 150 which should be in a couple of days!
It's her job.
Tammy I am so with you on that theme. I have had such horrific experiences with psychiatrists and psychologists I now even think that pschotherapy can be severely dangerous.😪
I now only go there for my medication. I go in to robotic mode too, when there comes the displaced laughing and judging. Actually only my medication helps me. I send you love and hugs from Switzerland! I love your videos and your realness and honesty!❤️🐱❤️
I’m sorry, Tammy. Stay strong. One day at a time babe. ❤
I once asked nurses a question before the doctor came in the room and 2 out of the 3 nurses laughed in my face at the question I asked. I was so incredibly appalled and embarrassed and I never went back there again. I was 18 and by myself at the doctors for the first time.
I’m sorry you’re feeling this way 😔
I wish I could give you a big hug! You are such a sweetheart and a very strong, motivated person so please keep up the good work and you're gna be fine! 😘
Hi Tammy, here are some thoughts about the situation with your psychologist:
I would definitely suggest you take into consideration the fact that two professionals think you're capable of taking care of yourself currently and begin to believe in yourself a bit more, and also use the skills you learned during therapy. However it is extremely unprofessional of him to end your sessions like that, without giving you suggestions on what to do next nor referring you to another professional. If you still believe he spoke to you in an unprofessional and potentially dangerous way, you might want to file a complaint.
I think that access to good mental healthcare when we feel that we need it should be a basic right. I've been friends with two different people that ended up taking their own lives despite their psychologists determining that they're "just being resistant to independence." Professionals are well educated, but they CAN be wrong, and in my personal experience, good therapists are more interested in the patient's lived experience rather than their own personal opinion.
@@taylorg2320 i completely agree with you. I just felt the need to emphasize that Tammy can count on herself and that she's stronger than she thinks. Therapy sessions with a specific psychologist may come to an end earlier than a patient would wish for, but alternatives should always be given in case they're still needed. I'm sorry for your losses.
Please keep your cat safe and inside your home...people who don't like cats can be very cruel and I would hate to see Makker harmed. It seems like things were resolved but it's also not ok for your cat to go in other people's cars uninvited🤷. I think it's cute but can understand where others would not.
I'm proud of you for fighting for yourself Tammy. Hoping the best for you, keep going ❤️
Thank you! I know someone in real life, named Reaggan. It's with to g's, but still! That's so cool! 😊
I have to say I wish I had the ability to open, honest and transparent like you are Tammy. Hearing you talk is like listening to a friend, comforting and not alone in the feelings. Let it all out girl, just cry it out. I feel the same, I hold it in then get angry versus just crying and feeling it all I feel like you're an extremely self aware person and the therapists you mention sound lame so yeah hopefully there's someone else.
Do not! Spray! Your cats!
That’s why I’m so so so scared of ever getting mental health treatment. It’s hard enough to open up like that to a stranger but for them to minimize your trauma and struggles is terrifying to me
You can find a therapist that is awesome though. I have and they have helped me so much.
I'm so sorry! You are such a lovely capable person...
Ppl will always let us down in the end because everyone of us are fallen and imperfect. Therapy can only get us so far, but God can heal anything and everything. When we try to fix everything in life on our own effort, including going to psychologists, you can only get so far.
Truly God can take your pain and set you free, I know this because I've gone through some of the most horrendous situations, NDE and everyone around me letting me down. No therapist or person helped me but God found me at the lowest of lows and it was miraculous to say the least. He will help you deal with your demons and change you without hesitation....open yourself to him and ask for guidance xo
Can you request another Psych? You need someone who works with you NOT against you. Please look into this.
I am so sorry that you were hurt this day. Cannot believe you were laughed at when you were there asking for pretty serious help. So sorry Tammy. So sorry. Thank you for trusting your little lemons with this trauma. There is a lot of love out here. I want to offer one idea with you. You have been doing your best managing your responsibilities. You are a friend to the disempowered and a kind and patient mother to your little ones and an energetic sister auntie. Absolutely undeserving of such BS. Take care of you, okay? And another thing………. You are so talented at crafts. Would you consider making a Voodoo image of the Doc and getting out your needles?🔫🔫💕💕
Voodoo doll.....🤭😂👍👏
I mean... if some cat would come inside my car and jump on me I would probably burst in anger. That is so irresponsible to leave any pet outside without any supervision. Not everybody is a cat person (or dog person) and to have to deal with animals getting dangerously close to you (especially without warning) is pretty bad.
You are so brave 🌺first of all for not giving up on therapy despite how hard it is. The whole process and the multiples let down from the people who are supposed to help. In this situation you have have nothing to feel bad about, but crying IS okay and it's absolutely not letting anybody win. I too struggle with crying and shame but let it go❤️❤️❤️sorry for my wonky english I wish the best for you and your family
I’m so sorry that your psychologist did this. I can’t believe how unprofessional he has been multiple times. Have you considered reporting him to a higher up or how professional governing body? He should learn that it’s unacceptable to treat patients this way. If it makes you uncomfortable or causes you stress to report him and you’d rather just move on that’s okay too.
You take care of you and remember that you have a lot of people rooting for you! ❤
💚💛 I do agree with the psychology you know your problems so it's up to you to push to change things keep visiting a psychologist who cannot change your problems he has given you the tools to overcome them but alot of it is willpower that is something he cannot provide and i believe it is as easy as if you dont want to binge then just dont do it for you it's not easy but it is the answer and if you think you know more than a psychologist who sees this everyday then there is no point in going anyway ,the problem lies in your own beliefs you believe you need help you need willpower 💛💚💙
I think your perception is correct of the situation with your psychologist and your feelings make sense and
are valid.
I know this might sound harsh, but no one owes anyone any help. It’s heartbreaking to realize but the world is so unfair and I had to also go through my depression and body and also gender dysphoria alone without any professional help. I’m so grateful for my family but no one outside my family would ever help me. And it is what it is. You have to find your own strength and that’s the hardest thing to be honest, but it’s not impossible. I wish you much luck and don’t give up ❤️
This is extremely serious Tammy. You could report the incidents? He knows all your vulnerabilities and would understand how his words & actions could impact you. Maybe a new referral if you could get one? You deserve to have the support you need. We all love you ❤
crying is a very healthy self-regulation mechanism and it doesn't mean that anybody wins. It's just your body expressing emotion. Same with anger, you are allowed to experience it and feel it. Also holy shit your therapist was so unprofessional, as an autistic person I have the same issue with therapists not taking me seriously bc I'm masking and explaining really awful things very calmly and articulately. hughs
Tammy, I am so sorry this happened to you.
This is not only unprofessional but absolutely cruel. In my opinion, this psychologist should be reported and held accountable. You deserve the best! Please take good care of yourself. Talk to someone who is in charge. ❤️
There are always 2 sides to a story
@@lolabear3230 Why are you even on this channel to repeat yourself like a parrot on every video? Is your life that unsatisfactory that it’s all you have to do in your free time?
@@LauraBidingCitizen wouldnt that make your life even more unsatisfactory for using your free time responding to my comments ...... * inserts palm face emoji
@@lolabear3230 yes there are. But why make a comment like that why just not scroll on if you don't want to listen to the girl. I cannot stand and don't know what is up inside people's heads that can never say anything nice or positive when they're watching and listening to these videos and every comment they make is neither negative or condescending
@@deborahlockwood9035 my comments are neither negative nor condescending how you interpret them is the problem, there are in fact 2 sides to a story and if you dont like my comments you can always just scroll on ..... I dont believe he laughed in her face the same as I dont believe all of her problems are always someone else's fault woe is me tammy feeds of sympathy can you not see that . The psychiatrist is professionally trained to deal with these situations but unfortunately tammy cant pull the wool over the eyes of a psychologist he can see straight through her this upsets tammy because she is not getting her own way and sympathy that she craves . She needs to grow up stand on her own two feet she has a roof over her head money in hand cats and a you tube job there are millions of people worse of I cant even see what her problems are apart from she does no exercise and eats in excess . And all this I get over stimulated nonsense is for people to believe she has autism or something another label she is wanting if the psychiatrist believed any of this he would have her assessed for autism and given appropriate treatment, the fact that she says she gets overstimulated driving means to me she should not be allowed to drive let alone drive along whilst vlogging looking perfectly normal and not overstimulated at all
Tammy you might want to watch The binge eating therapist (Sarah). She is awesome! Love and prayers to you! 🙏🌷🍋
You are such an inspiration!!! You always try your best and never give up! You will get there hun. Mental health is so important and so hard. Definitely request a new psych or get a new referal. You deserve it!!! I also have a therapist and a psych and am actively working hard on my mental health then will focus solely on my weight. I can't seem to be able to do both at the same time. I really enjoy following you and your beautiful kitties. You are worthy...You are loved...You matter!!!!!!💞💞
I havent been watching you long but I am so proud of the determination and plan you have set for yourself moving forward. Being an advocate for your mental health is hard, and you are doing an amazing job. You can see and feel the emotions you go through in this video and I think its an important one to share, thank you for letting yourself be vulnerable with us! 💞
I'm so sorry about what happened with your psychologist. I'm currently going through a traumatic ending with mine so I get it and it's okay to cry about it if you need to. I hope you're able to find a new psychologist who treats you the way you deserve. When you said you felt that everything he said to you was a lie, I felt that and I feel the same way about my therapist at the moment too. Sending hugs🥰
❤️ as a cat groomer I wouldn't use the spray bottle, positive reinforcement with animals is always recommended and you have a lovely relationship with your kitties, you don't want to ruin that. Just pop him back out when he tries to get in and ignore him as much as possible!
And to comment on the rest of the video, you are so self aware, you can push through, you are amazing to recognise your limitations and need for help. On the days when you can't be so strong, remember that so many of us out here care about you and are wishing you only the absolute best, we believe in you ❤️
Yes agree!😺
Agree. He won’t understand and will feel betrayed. You will risk his trust. Can you keep the windows rolled up until you drive away? Hang in there, you will get through all of this. I’m proud of you!
I understand so well what you're saying. Sending you a warm hug and lots of love and strength! 💚💚💚
Sending love to you 💜 The way you are able to talk through your emotions shows such strength and emotional maturity. Keep doing to hard work to improve 💜
Tammy I hope you realize how much we all care about you and root for you
Is this the ass...sorry, person, who tried to blame you for his disappointment that you were having an online meeting? You're well rid of him. I know what it's like to ask for help when youre scared and overhwlemed and you're denied. Take anything useful from your session and look to the future Tammy. I've experienced worse from a so-called therapist tbh, and yeah, it's effing mortifying when they're abusive. It sounds like you advocated for yourself so i'm proud of you!
I feel your pain and I have been where you are. I am under the impression that people in your country are stoic. It is alright to get angry and it is OK to cry. You need to let out these feelings you push down with food. I am 72 and it has taken me a long time to live with acceptance. There will be good days and bad days, but speak your truth girl.❤❤
It's REALLY frustrating (I see it in your comments a lot) that people keep trying to apply logic and reason to a very emotional, "lizard brain" situation. If not binging or not being depressed were as easy as "not doing it" no one would have mental or psychological struggles!
Hang in there. We love and value you. OK, gonna watch now.
I'm so, so sorry Tammy. Two people in my life have taken their lives, and both of them were determined "healthy enough for independence" by their respective psychs despite their protests to the contrary. I've had terrible experiences with psychs that I got through medical referral myself. The best psychologists are the private ones that you have to pay for, but where I live, those cost like $300 per session. I guess only the rich are allowed good mental health care lol.
What I mean to say is, don't let anyone gaslight you into thinking that you're wrong to feel horrible and angry and upset. What your psychs did was awful. You shouldn't have to feel afraid to say that the treatment is working and that you're doing well for fear that your psych will drop you, you shouldn't have to exaggerate your condition in order to receive help. Everyone should be entitled to good mental healthcare when we feel like we need it, it shouldn't have to be earned. I'm sending you so much love, I really hope that you're doing okay.
He probably gets tired of hearing you whine all the time about your binges. Same old story
If you know you are on the verge of a breakdown you are aware and you can stop yourself - throw a tantrum.
A breakdown is a very serious occurrence that leaves you unable to function and you are at risk of death. Not something to be taken lightly, casually spoken about.
You are recording, you are not having a breakdown. You are under extreme stress and it can lead to a breakdown so make sure you have family and friends check on you daily - with a key to your place.
Doctors, psychologists and psychiatrists will be there to help you recover if it does happen.
If you are still eating, going to the loo etc - you are not having a breakdown.
Following this logic, if you film and are aware of your binges - they are not binges - you are overeating and in control and can stop. (Unless you are too stubborn not to)
Keep well, stay well. Keep your family close (even if they are the cause of your stress).
In Australia, what you're going through, is usually when the care provider/job seeker wants to drop you as a client and shove you onto another service because the time with them is making their numbers crunch downwards, so if they do actually send you to things like therapy, dieticians, GP they pressure them into telling you that you're fine or that you don't need to continue this or you're fine to do this on your own because they want to free up those resources due to the number crunch, they want to pretend they're helping you but after 3 months if you haven't flipped 100% into being cured from a chronic illness they drop you entirely.
Hi Tammy! Just a thought about this situation from an outsider point of view. Since you mentioned yourself that this therapy and help is from the goverment and they have a long long waiting list, you have to consider that in order to someone to get in, someone else probably have to get out. Since you applied when you were in a really bad place mentally and you said yourself you have come far since then and in much better place, you must consider that there are others on the waiting list whom are in that same bad place. Ofc you are still not where you want to be and would like to have more therapy to work on yourself, but they see that you are better and functioning and they must consider those whom are in much worse states and need this opportunity. I think that may be an underlying reason here and worth considering as a viewpoint. You might be giving away your place to someone more in need at the moment.
Just started watching but sending love and good vibes 🫂💜
Mood stabilizer?
The psych sounds too unprofessional. Get a different one.
Driving & Streaming NOT a good idea.
i feel for you, truly.
but if you are aware of your issues, why the need of focusing back & forth about the issues?
im not expecting you to find the solutions right away, but a simple change would just do you right.
you can't be doing the same exact same thing again & again, and expect different outcome.
I ll give u one advice on how to lose weight : enjoy life ,eat , exercise that’s sit you’ll see how you will drop weight , if you want to eat something eat it just eat it don’t think that if I start I’ll never stop eating it ,just eat it and move on , do the same thing tomorrow eat it and move on repeat and after months you ll notice how the binge thoughts have faded believe me but most importantly fall in love with life , then food will just be an extra thing in life , a fuel ❤
U should write a formal complaint to college and get his lisence looked at
Have you looked into atypical depression? I have that and ADHD which is a wild combination. I'm on mood stabilisers called lamotrigine and it's been life changing
Both can cause binge eating and episodes of atypical depression get worse each time often without treatment interventions
I’m so sorry you had a negative experience with your psychologist. Seeing you cry makes me want to cry. 😢 You have become like a good friend to many of us and I feel such empathy for your situation. Thank goodness Stephan was there to talk to. I admire you for advocating for yourself.. There will be a solution and you’ll be ok Tammy. Big hugs and love your way.❤❤
I believe in time you will make enough money to not only support you and your cats, but also a private therapist of your choosing, until then, there are 24 k subs, and most of us truly care about your health and well being. You have a small army that loves you.
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OMG you poor love
How horrible and a upsetting experience a person in his position of authority should know better than to treat someone like that.
Look at it as a learning experience help it make you stronger ( I know that is hard) I've been there ...
But you need to be there for yourself and thank goodness you have Stefan to talk to ❣️
Just do some self care and look after yourself x
You said you disassociated in the office and then it seemed like it happened in your car while you were talking to us. This seems like a very important thing, so I wonder if you have mentioned that to any of these professionals. Maybe they would understand if they watched that part of this video. Also, just from a few things you’ve said, and how you seem to feel after visiting the house where you grew up, I wonder if more attention needs to be paid to your childhood. That’s my gut feeling, and I hope it was OK to share that with you.
I’d report your psychologist to their superiors! Very unprofessional!
So sorry you were treated like that!
Time to find a new one!!
I love that you can talk out your frustrations here to your LemFam🌸♥️🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋🍋
Hey, misschien een idee om met de klinisch psycholoog of psychiater af te spreken hierover? Deze gast heeft echt verkeerd gehandeld en dat mag hij echt wel even weten.
Ik weet dus niet waar in NL je woont, maar in Den Bosch zit een GGZ instelling waar ik echt veel heb geleerd over mezelf op een veilige manier met veel ondersteuning. Ze zijn er specifiek voor verslaving en eetstoornissen. Het wordt meestal gewoon vergoed vanuit de verzekeraar, dus financiën zijn niet iets om je druk over te maken. Als je dichtbij woont, probeer het hier!
Heel veel succes, you got this 😘 voor jezelf opkomen is belangrijk!!
Also, professionals are human - they can be nasty (report them) and find someone else.
He's probably sick of wasting his time with a non-compliant patient.
Big huge loving hugs ..... 🌻
Very irresponsible vloggong while driving. You really are taking a page straight out of Chantal's play book. What's next, a creepy pasta mukbang?
I think it's ok if you don't adjust the camera, check on lighting, make eye contact with the camera etc. So basically it's there and you can talk like a Bluetooth phonecall, but don't look at it or touch it
Do you ever worry that your healthcare professionals might watch your TH-cam channel? I’m sure they inquire with many patients about their work to understand how your daily life is conducted. Just wondering if that would make you uncomfortable, because you are very transparent publicly regarding your therapy. It would be like a second window for them into your daily life.
He sounds very manipulative not professional at all
Would a support group help? 🤔
Does your locale have a board of psychology? It might be worth it to let them know about this situation.
13:17 EXACTLY! That’s the exact word that was came into my mind when you were describing the therapist’s behavior. It’s insulting to the work you’re doing. If you’re invested in your therapy and concerned for your safety moving forward you may need to get a review by his superiors in regard to your recent interactions with him. I hope you’re able to speak about it, to share your perception of your experience, and advocate for better care. 🗣💪🏼
we are so fucking proud of you tammy
I think Makker will only begin to think it's not okay to jump into your car, but will continue to jump in others because they won't spray him. You suddenly spraying him with water will feel like a betrayal. That's my thoughts tho. Ultimately you know what's best for you and Makker. Perhaps your time with this doctor has run its course and I think it's time to look for a new one. I feel this doctor no longer wants to counsel you. I had a GP once who I really liked and I thought she liked me, but my last visit with her was because she said, "since you don't seem to listen to my advice I don't think you and I are right for each other" because she expected me to improve leaps and bounds by her "expert care" without considering that I am human and am able to weigh pros and cons, it's very dangerous to follow any doctors every word, but she expected me to do that. To never choose what I feel is best for me and never to question her and to never do my own research. I realized she just didn't like me. Now I have a new doctor, going on 3 years and I love her. Maybe Tammy look for a new therapist and you'll be happier for it and if not, keep searching. I think a woman might be better because we women share the same emotions and situations and circumstances. Good Luck Tammy.
Maybe this is a blessing in disguise. As you mentioned this isn't the first time you have had red flags from this organization. An interesting question to ask now is: how is this the best thing that ever happen to you? Perhaps the answer could be that this problematic therapist is no longer in your life. Or that you have the opportunity to find your own way? Or maybe it leads you to finding a wonderful therapist, even if the process takes longer than you would hope. In the meantime, I'm glad you have Stefan, your sister, and your lovely cats. Oh and lots of sweet people in the comments!
It’s ok to be so mad. That’s a normal reaction to this. He invalidated your feelings and gaslit you and he was supposed to be someone you trust and looking out for you.
I thought the whole purpose of therapists were to VALIDATE your emotions and to see past the physical presentation (seeming fine and talking normally but it’s about tough things). I knew something was off when he was talking about dumping you when you very clearly still needed help.
I express my emotions the same way you do and this made me SO grateful for my therapist who sees past that and knows things are not ok, and she even points out “you said this really sad thing, but in an upbeat tone.” I shudder if I had this guy… I would be a wreck.
I really hope you can find someone else or appeal to someone else in the system. And if at the very least, if this guy has enough complaints about him, maybe it will help someone else in the future.
Hang in there ❤ You were just dealt a big injustice 😢
Hallo Tam! Ik hou van je videos en kijk ze graag (ik zelf ook BED). Ik heb alleen een puntje dat eventueel je videos zou verbeteren en dat is je intro. Ik vind de shots van jezelf hardstikke leuk en ik hou van je katjes, maar een intro van bijna een minuut is gewoon heel lang om naar te kijken. Ik ben bang dat zeker voor nieuwe mensen dit een reden zou kunnen zijn om weg te klikken.
Nog maals, ik hou van je videos ik zeg dit alleen omdat ik denk dat dit afleidend kan zijn voor mensen die voor het eerst op je video klikken.