Been watching so many of your videos. I used to be an area manager, now I'll be coming up to 3 years off work this Autumn. I worked myself into a total state, working 7 days a week & now suffer from severe OCD, depression & anxiety. Just taken 800mg of pregablin, which is 2 days of meds for me, stored them up - totally stupid thing to do, but I've got into the habit of doing it as its the only time I feel free of worry. Had 15mg of diazepam earlier as experiencing very strange adrenalin anxiety in my stomach, the feeling like someone is about to call you up to speak in front of a room of people. I'm on numerous other meds, it's gonna be a nightmare getting off them. So much I would like to discuss with you, like the fact I'm not taking my meds correctly, no structure to life, trying to cope with lockdown then coping with the release of lockdown & the worry of a 2nd wave. I'm writing this at 2:27am. Anyhow, seen you've got Paul Johnson Get Down in your playlist, one of my Ibiza 1999 tunes, loved it. 20 years ago, unreal, they were the good times.
Gatecrasher 4Ever Hey there, thanks for writing. I’m sorry to hear about your current predicament and sadly feel it’s not uncommon for people to overwork themselves into a mental health issue. I’m not sure which country you’re in but I’m shocked that you have access to that much diazepam!! With regards to you swapping up doses of Pregabalin, it’s obviously not advisable but you know that already. I’m guessing you don’t have a great support network which is why you’re taking these risks to manage your overwhelming feelings of anxiety, depression & ultimately desperation. I think the trouble for people like us is that we need a break from life & time to heal/recover but at the same time when we have this spare time to ourselves without the correct therapy alongside we overthink everything & spiral further downhill. I’ll wrap this up here and hope you find a little comfort in my vids knowing you are not alone. Always happy to reply if you need to vent 😊
Thanks for replying. I feel embarrassed to say I've got a great support network, my partner is amazing, she is a pharmacist so tries to keep me on the straight & narrow. She doesn't know how I store my pregablin up, she'd go mad. She keeps all my meds in a locked box as I can't be trusted with them. I'm also registered at the local mental health care hospital, so I have an occupational therapist but after nearly 3 years I'm still waiting to see a psychologist, as I wasn't in a state of mind to see them & was a suicide risk, then by the time I got to being in a position lockdown happened & all progress stopped. I had improved so much by January I was even thinking of resuming life, getting back into work this year, I was getting daily exercise, I was even being trusted with my meds. Then lockdown happened, I went totally backwards, discovered what happens if you have too much pregablin & have ended up not far off where I was 2 years ago. I'm prescribed 10mg of diazepam a day usually, but was given an extra 5mg per day just for this week, as I've been particularly bad. I'm in England like you. Daily I take 100mg Risperidone (anti-psychotic) 200mg Sertraline (SSRI anti depressant) 7mg Zopiclone (for sleeping), 10mg diazepam, 400mg pregablin & 1 omeprazole which is to stop the acid reflux from my stomach from having so many meds. After watching a few videos, I've began to realise I'm on quite high doses of everything. I've only had one of those panicky butterfly feelings in my stomach/chest today, so clearly there is a link between me saving up pregablin & not taking it, as I had it last night in a high dose & feel much better today. In fact, I'm thinking of going outside, hanging some washing out & even having a go on the jungle I've let grow wild that is our garden. My OCD has been with my since childhood & I think the anxiety has been in the background but just come to the front from work stress. I feel I sound like some crazy drug addled wacko typing this, but I realise that you know this isn't the case. I'm just a regular 41 year old guy that just pushed himself too far, that had existing mental health problems & now finds himself in this current situation. I've watched so many of your videos & even sent links to my partner & friends, as you've been able to articulate how I've been feeling better than I ever could. My comments have been quite selfish as I've only spoke about me. I do hope things improve for you, I think you are a star, you get yourself out & make yourself do things that you don't want to do. Thanks for making me feel like I'm not on my own. Due to how much personal info I've put on here, I may delete this comment once you've read it, I'm sure you understand.
Gatecrasher 4Ever Ok before you delete this reply I want to say WELL DONE for speaking up and being honest!!!! I know how hard it is. The worry of being judged, people not understanding, people jumping to conclusions thinking you’re hooked on god knows what etc etc I’m so glad to hear you have a supportive partner but also gutted that your long awaited help has been halted by the bloody corona shite. You sound like a very clued up guy who like thousands of others has found himself in a rut due to many, MANY reasons out of your control and I pray you’re not being too hard on yourself (easier said than done if you’re anything like me.) Do what you need to do to get by, be kind to yourself (words from my therapist that I’m still trying to put into practice) and take it one day at a time. Hark at me sounding like I’ve got it all under control 🤣 Try not to compare yourself to others, try to find something that gives you joy in life no matter how small and congratulate yourself on every success despite how insignificant you may think it is. Really hope you stay in touch and give yourself credit for continuing to fight.... and here’s to hoping I can start taking my own advice lol
Blazin Redeye - Hello, I'm so sorry to hear that the pregablin does nothing to help & the situation you are in. Like Carolina in this video, I can only offer my support & say we all in it together. Since posting the above comment I've gone onto being prescribed 600mg pregablin a day, the max daily dose. However, like an idiot, I've saved those up & doubled up, having 1,200mg in one go. I wouldn't recommend doing that. You feel wonderful & floating on air & are fine but the day you don't take it you will feel utter shit. I got into the habit of doing this & every other day I felt horrific, just so one night I could forget about everything. So stupid. I got to the point yesterday where I said I can't do this anymore as I felt so bad, so have taken my meds as prescribed today. Pregablin defo has an affect on my anxiety. When I take it, I feel little anxiety but when I don't, I feel horrific. I hope you get a solution to your issue but we all know it's easier said then done. Just don't do what I've done & find you've slipped into a prescription drug habit.
Sorry to hear you feel that lifes a bit repetitive :( dont feel too guilty when you feel demotivated. Like you said in your previous video - dont let one bad day dictate the next :)
latifah guirguis Thank you for taking the time to write. I’m trying not to get myself in a rut with the monotony right now & did 2 lots of exercise today instead of just staring at my phone. Hope you’re keeping well x
Keith Charlton It’s crap isn’t it. I tell myself I have everything to be thankful for but alas I’m still dissatisfied. I think I need to pull my finger out & do more things out of the house. Do you get out much?? Are you taking your daily walk?
I don't want to be on benzos daily, but pregabalin seems like a much better choice, how did you get prescribed it? I feel like because im younger and it has recreational potential they wont prescribe it to me.
I find anxiety puts me into a catch22 situation. I get soooo bored of the repetitiveness of daily life, yet can't cope when things change. P.S. "I'm not getting shit-faced" - "I skipped lunch today because I'm a fat FUCK!" lmfaooo. Love ya Caz!!! -x-x-
Been watching so many of your videos. I used to be an area manager, now I'll be coming up to 3 years off work this Autumn. I worked myself into a total state, working 7 days a week & now suffer from severe OCD, depression & anxiety. Just taken 800mg of pregablin, which is 2 days of meds for me, stored them up - totally stupid thing to do, but I've got into the habit of doing it as its the only time I feel free of worry. Had 15mg of diazepam earlier as experiencing very strange adrenalin anxiety in my stomach, the feeling like someone is about to call you up to speak in front of a room of people. I'm on numerous other meds, it's gonna be a nightmare getting off them. So much I would like to discuss with you, like the fact I'm not taking my meds correctly, no structure to life, trying to cope with lockdown then coping with the release of lockdown & the worry of a 2nd wave. I'm writing this at 2:27am. Anyhow, seen you've got Paul Johnson Get Down in your playlist, one of my Ibiza 1999 tunes, loved it. 20 years ago, unreal, they were the good times.
Gatecrasher 4Ever Hey there, thanks for writing. I’m sorry to hear about your current predicament and sadly feel it’s not uncommon for people to overwork themselves into a mental health issue. I’m not sure which country you’re in but I’m shocked that you have access to that much diazepam!! With regards to you swapping up doses of Pregabalin, it’s obviously not advisable but you know that already. I’m guessing you don’t have a great support network which is why you’re taking these risks to manage your overwhelming feelings of anxiety, depression & ultimately desperation. I think the trouble for people like us is that we need a break from life & time to heal/recover but at the same time when we have this spare time to ourselves without the correct therapy alongside we overthink everything & spiral further downhill. I’ll wrap this up here and hope you find a little comfort in my vids knowing you are not alone. Always happy to reply if you need to vent 😊
Thanks for replying. I feel embarrassed to say I've got a great support network, my partner is amazing, she is a pharmacist so tries to keep me on the straight & narrow. She doesn't know how I store my pregablin up, she'd go mad. She keeps all my meds in a locked box as I can't be trusted with them. I'm also registered at the local mental health care hospital, so I have an occupational therapist but after nearly 3 years I'm still waiting to see a psychologist, as I wasn't in a state of mind to see them & was a suicide risk, then by the time I got to being in a position lockdown happened & all progress stopped.
I had improved so much by January I was even thinking of resuming life, getting back into work this year, I was getting daily exercise, I was even being trusted with my meds. Then lockdown happened, I went totally backwards, discovered what happens if you have too much pregablin & have ended up not far off where I was 2 years ago.
I'm prescribed 10mg of diazepam a day usually, but was given an extra 5mg per day just for this week, as I've been particularly bad. I'm in England like you. Daily I take 100mg Risperidone (anti-psychotic) 200mg Sertraline (SSRI anti depressant) 7mg Zopiclone (for sleeping), 10mg diazepam, 400mg pregablin & 1 omeprazole which is to stop the acid reflux from my stomach from having so many meds. After watching a few videos, I've began to realise I'm on quite high doses of everything.
I've only had one of those panicky butterfly feelings in my stomach/chest today, so clearly there is a link between me saving up pregablin & not taking it, as I had it last night in a high dose & feel much better today. In fact, I'm thinking of going outside, hanging some washing out & even having a go on the jungle I've let grow wild that is our garden. My OCD has been with my since childhood & I think the anxiety has been in the background but just come to the front from work stress. I feel I sound like some crazy drug addled wacko typing this, but I realise that you know this isn't the case. I'm just a regular 41 year old guy that just pushed himself too far, that had existing mental health problems & now finds himself in this current situation. I've watched so many of your videos & even sent links to my partner & friends, as you've been able to articulate how I've been feeling better than I ever could. My comments have been quite selfish as I've only spoke about me. I do hope things improve for you, I think you are a star, you get yourself out & make yourself do things that you don't want to do. Thanks for making me feel like I'm not on my own.
Due to how much personal info I've put on here, I may delete this comment once you've read it, I'm sure you understand.
Gatecrasher 4Ever Ok before you delete this reply I want to say WELL DONE for speaking up and being honest!!!! I know how hard it is. The worry of being judged, people not understanding, people jumping to conclusions thinking you’re hooked on god knows what etc etc I’m so glad to hear you have a supportive partner but also gutted that your long awaited help has been halted by the bloody corona shite. You sound like a very clued up guy who like thousands of others has found himself in a rut due to many, MANY reasons out of your control and I pray you’re not being too hard on yourself (easier said than done if you’re anything like me.)
Do what you need to do to get by, be kind to yourself (words from my therapist that I’m still trying to put into practice) and take it one day at a time. Hark at me sounding like I’ve got it all under control 🤣 Try not to compare yourself to others, try to find something that gives you joy in life no matter how small and congratulate yourself on every success despite how insignificant you may think it is.
Really hope you stay in touch and give yourself credit for continuing to fight.... and here’s to hoping I can start taking my own advice lol
Blazin Redeye - Hello, I'm so sorry to hear that the pregablin does nothing to help & the situation you are in. Like Carolina in this video, I can only offer my support & say we all in it together. Since posting the above comment I've gone onto being prescribed 600mg pregablin a day, the max daily dose. However, like an idiot, I've saved those up & doubled up, having 1,200mg in one go. I wouldn't recommend doing that. You feel wonderful & floating on air & are fine but the day you don't take it you will feel utter shit. I got into the habit of doing this & every other day I felt horrific, just so one night I could forget about everything. So stupid. I got to the point yesterday where I said I can't do this anymore as I felt so bad, so have taken my meds as prescribed today. Pregablin defo has an affect on my anxiety. When I take it, I feel little anxiety but when I don't, I feel horrific. I hope you get a solution to your issue but we all know it's easier said then done. Just don't do what I've done & find you've slipped into a prescription drug habit.
Sorry to hear you feel that lifes a bit repetitive :( dont feel too guilty when you feel demotivated. Like you said in your previous video - dont let one bad day dictate the next :)
latifah guirguis Thank you for taking the time to write. I’m trying not to get myself in a rut with the monotony right now & did 2 lots of exercise today instead of just staring at my phone. Hope you’re keeping well x
been drinking more and more myself and im the same cant wait to sleep the only time im happy bored with life seems the same every day
Keith Charlton It’s crap isn’t it. I tell myself I have everything to be thankful for but alas I’m still dissatisfied. I think I need to pull my finger out & do more things out of the house. Do you get out much?? Are you taking your daily walk?
@@carolinabraidybird1929 not as much as i should i could do with getting out but just feel safe where i am
I don't want to be on benzos daily, but pregabalin seems like a much better choice, how did you get prescribed it? I feel like because im younger and it has recreational potential they wont prescribe it to me.
I love how in the middle of this you had to take care of the rice ,😄 Very real life! Have you tried birth control for pms symptoms? That helps me.
How long did it take for it to kick in for you? Ive been taking it for 2 weeks now and i feel nothing, is that normal?
How much do you take? Maybe you have to increase the dose, thats what happened to me.
You’re adorable 😊
I find anxiety puts me into a catch22 situation. I get soooo bored of the repetitiveness of daily life, yet can't cope when things change.
P.S. "I'm not getting shit-faced" - "I skipped lunch today because I'm a fat FUCK!" lmfaooo. Love ya Caz!!! -x-x-
What dose are you taking daily?
G B Hi. I’m on 150mg Pregabalin (half my original dose) and 37.5mg Venlafaxine. Are you on either of these meds?
@@carolinabraidybird1929 yes..300mg venlafaxine, pregabalin dose varies and tramadol.