AmandaMuse Good for you woman be strong,was it a aka new arrival? Todays doctors are trained not educated,put a complaint to the College of Physicians,so this crap will not happen to another person.
I can't find the right words, but damn you deserve so much praise for being courageous and using your platform to bring awareness to the importance of self care after a trauma and just sharing your experience.
So much love for you Amanda! Thank you for sharing your story, you are so brave and strong. Please take care of yourself, you are worth it and you are an inspiration to so many 💜
I'm so sorry to hear about your upsetting experience with traditional medicine in the hospital, Amanda. I'm in nursing school (in Michigan) and my professors repeat time after time that we must take patients' reports of pain seriously and that we shouldn't make light of traumatic experiences they've experienced. So basically the exact opposite of how that doctor treated you. We've also been taught some integrative therapies we can provide our patients - including aromatherapy, guided imagery, etc. Just wanted to let you know that not all hope is lost on traditional med. You are so brave and so strong! Love you and your channel!
I so admire you for how you have pushed forth to care for yourself and heal from this, you are such an incredible example of a powerful woman who values herself.:) thank you for sharing yourself with us in such a sensitive time. Keep on going! You got this.💗xx
The sore throat could be from all the stress. Every time I go through a high stress situation I get a cold because your immune system is weakened. I'm glad you're getting some good care now!
Amanda I am not sure if the dr or pharmacist told you this info about ativan, but be cautious that it can be addictive. I care about you and don't want to see you develop a dependency. I am proud of you. Massage, counselling everything all very therapeutic. I'm sorry our healthcare system let you down. It let's so many people down and more people than we will ever be aware of fall through the cracks. You are a warrior. Much love from the north. :)
So thankful for your vulnerability and strength to walk through this and share it with others! Sending prayers for physical and emotional healing for you and your family! 💜
Tears when you talked about your massage and that Wonderful Woman. So so so thrilled you had her. You are completely normal and your feelings are very valid.
Amanda, I just wanted to say that you're such a strong woman and mother. I myself am a mother who has experienced some pretty terrible things myself and struggle with mental health issues. These things are natural human responses to trauma - don't ever feel guilty or bad about these things. They are not your fault. Practice self care. Love from one mother to another.
Same in the U.S. our healthcare doesn't know to help survivors of trauma in my opinion. I took a sexual assault advocate training a year ago and it sickened me what I learned about how our police officers and local hospital have treated survivors. Thinking of you. 🖤
Agreed. Our country would like to actually make being a victim of sexual assault a preexisting condition that insurances can deny you for. It's insidious.
Your amazing....you were one of the first people I found on TH-cam a couple years ago and Ive loved your videos ever since. I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry that this happened but I'm so glad that you reacted the way you did....proud of you!!!
Your massage therapist has a gift! That's amazing. And it sounds like Dean has been extremely supportive...he called the hospital and then followed up!? Round of applause for Dean for following through when you are feeling so beat down.
I don't think many people could be as brave as you are to tackle this head on from day one. I think I'd be hiding under a rock at this point if I were you. Your resilience is incredible and inspirational 💕
Im so upset about the way you were treated at the hospital and quite frankly im not surprised! Im so glad you have dean to support you but cant help but feel horrible about those who are violated and stay quiet or have no where to go to. Wish you the best and stay strong mama!!
I'm loving your new hair 💕 so happy to hear your getting all the support and help you need and showing other women/young girls to be strong and seek out the help you/they deserve. As seen not always are others able or equipped to help as much as they should (hospital). If gone unresolved could lead to a dark place. Thank you for showing me and your own beautiful daughter to be empowered!!!
Hi Amanda, I am sorry that you had to go through that, and especially that your children had to see it. As a mother, I just can't imagine how upsetting that would be to me. I just want to thank you for putting it out there, and for bringing this guy to justice and for making a statement about this. That is very brave and God knows how many women you are helping by doing that. Much love and support!
Ill never forget the day my best friend got hit by a car on our bike ride, I was in font of her and was the only cyclist seen. She wasn't torn open, but her jaw was shattered and she lost her molars and the pressure made her ears bleed from the impact of landing on her chin. Naturally, I was traumatized but traditional medicine was a failure from the second the ambulance came and didn't take her case seriously because she was conscious to the other second of making her walk herself to the ER and MRI. Trauma isn't even a consideration, especially in Toronto.
I admire you SO much for speaking up about it. It's hard, oh god I know it's hard, but you're so strong and so amazing for doing this. Thank you. Thank you so much. Sending you all my positive energy and love, and bless Dean for being such a supportive husband
This is a truly awful thing that happened and is still happening to you. Keep taking care of yourself and backing yourself!! It's incredible how self-aware and articulate you are, even after such traumatic event. You are a a very special person
Dear Amanda, thank you for sharing your sad story after the assault! 😢I'm sitting here with my baby boy watching your video. It's just sooo horrible what happened and how it's still affecting you and your family. I think it will take a long time for you to feel "normal" again, (normal - as a good word, like to feel like the world is good around you, like everything is fine). My heart is with you! 💗
I deeply admire your willingness to make your experience known in a genuine way that encourages other women to be empowered in similar situations. As a young woman who has experienced similar situations on multiple occasions I sincerely appreciate that you're speaking out about this and really delving into the process of what takes place after instances of sexual assault. Kudos to you for raising awareness and empowering other women. You go girl!
I'm in the US and every time I go to an urgent care clinic and on the rare occasion an ER they automatically ask if I've been abused, domestic or otherwise - even if I'm in there for a severe allergy attack. In my state they have to ask by law so they can get help to a person immediately if needed. They ask regardless of the reason you go in for. I'm sorry for your bad experience and I hope you are able to feel better soon and get the help you deserve. I'm so glad your hubby is there for you.
It's fantastic that you're getting help in dealing with what happened, and exploring alternative healing methods such as massage and reiki, I got my level 1 reiki certification last year and am looking to do my level 2 sometime later this year so I can offer treatments to other people. If you've not had a session before, be aware that even if you don't feel any sensation whilst it's happening, it'll still be working - some people feel/see things, some don't, but the energy is still there :) It might be worth asking if your practitioner offers distance reiki too, for if you ever need a session when you can't get away from the house but can have a lay down for half an hour :) Good luck and stay strong
Amanda.. I am Canadian as well - I live in Ontario and I feel the same way about health care as you. I went into emerg when i had my first ever panic attack a few years ago. I was so scared! I did not know what was going on with my body - I legit thought I was having a heart attack. The manor in which I was treated was appalling. I was sat down by two people and interrogated. I was asked what I had take to make me feel this way.. I was asked if I have a history of drug and alcohol abuse.. I was asked if I had ever sought out any sort of anti anxiety meds before. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I WAS HAVING A PANIC ATTACK. I was not there for drugs. I was there because i legit thought i was dying. I left without seeing a doctor feeling worse than I did when i arrived. I was so saddened and felt so let down. I often wonder how many people are not taken seriously, sent home, and pass away or the condition is exacerbated due to lack of medical attention. Its sickening. If you think having universal health care is sunshine and roses ITS NOT. There are times where I would rather pay to be taken seriously.
Good for you for standing up to that lady in the hospital! That is absolutely ridiculous and BS! I love that you have put this story out there to help other women Who have dealt with similar situations. Love you for keeping it real all the time 😘
First off love the hair!!!! Second of all, you are a brave woman. Kudos to you for taking care of yourself. Not a lot of people would. Huge hugs to you.
Absolutely love your hair, you look divine. I'm so glad you are pushing forward, I was the quiet one and never told. Felt as some how it was my fault and over came peace with it after lots of prayers. God is good and without him to heal me I'm sure I would still feel the hurt.
I know the content of your video is so much more than this but, I'm loving your hair!!! So so much! You always look fabulous! Also- you are so strong. You're one of my role models and I admire your character and your beauty (inside and out :) ) Keep being amazing!!
I totally agree with what you were saying about the physician basically telling you to "get over it." I find that some individuals expect others to "be tough" in certain situations that they feel they have "overcome" by "being tough." You are so strong and you have a right to work through your emotions anyway you need to. I respect you so much for taking care of yourself when you need it.
Your hair is fabulous lady love it !! I'm a totally shocked about what happened you and how you were treated st the hospital that's terrible .i really admire you for being so strong and positive and making by sure he doesn't get away with this sickening crime. Now I understand why there are so many historical cases left unresolved because people are made to feel unsupported by the institutions that should be helping them if that makes sense . So amazing and empowering your highlighting this and will give others the strength and courage to be heard xxxx 💕💕💕much love to you girlie love your videos 😘🇮🇪
Gosh Amanda I'm so sorry. I just want to hug your neck. When you said he took multiple pictures, meaning of you??? Please follow through. He must be held accountable for his actions and his child needs to see that as well. Maybe it can break the cycle- God forbid there is one. Love to you Amanda. Praying for you too😘
Amanda, I apologize for such a shallow question on a video of this nature, but I would really like to know what eyeshadow you are wearing in the beginning and end segments? I just love it and would really like to get it. Thank you for sharing your experience in the aftermath of such a traumatizing event. I admire you for being such a source of strength for others who have experienced sexual trauma.
So proud of you love! Your doing the right thing, your such a great mother. That's crazy that the doctor acted like she didn't believe you. But you have people who do believe you, I support you. That guy is sick & I hope he gets what he deserves ! 👏🏻
This whole thing makes me cry big fat mommy tears. You're very brave. I hope this helps the people who don't have strong support systems like you said. Poor souls. Please document your reiki if you decide to do it, would love to know more about it. Thank uou
brilliant courageous vlog Amanda. this is society, take a tablet & it will be better..its awful. You are really highlighting women's issues. It's opened my eyes , however your strength & courage to stand up to yourself & indeed other victims is outstanding. Love you Amanda... keep well
God you're gorgeous❤️ I'm so sorry this happened to you. I'm usually quite shy and I never leave comments on TH-cam videos but I wanted you to know that since I've had my son, your videos are my go-to videos. I'm living in a new city with my partner and son without any friends and family, your videos have helped me through tough times of loneliness. Your my inspiration! That creep will get what he deserves. I hope to one day be as strong of a woman as you
I'm so sorry for everything you are going through, stay strong and give that guy what he deserves by going through with the legal work. I agree that the Canadian health care system is not the greatest. I just had a c-section a couple of months ago and was in quite a bit of pain and they wanted to send me home over the log weekend (when no doctors would be available) without any pain medicine and made me feel like I was some sort of drug addict for even asking. I am the complete opposite I never take so much as an adivil normally. Also did they test you for strep throat? with how sore your throat seems it might be worth checking, hope you're better soon.
Every time you get a new hair do I think "Oh, this one's my favourite!" hah..and this one's no different! Thank you for taking us along on your journey. The 5'oclock news never covers what happens to the victims of crimes like these, it's so critical that people realize that more is 'taken' than photos/videos in these assults.
You're doing all the right things to recover! Get well soon! You are a strong person 💪🏻 and a wonderful mama! Also, I know our health system is not the greatest (worse in QC) but what I recommend is that if it's not an emergency (life threatening or unbearable pain) to go to a clinic instead. You should get better care and service there. The emergency handles the acute care and the rest is like superficial to them. Hang in there my friend! You have our support. 💕
The halton police posted a photo of a man that took pictures of a lady changing in the gym in Oakville today on the news. I wonder if there's any connection? I'm sorry this happened to you Amanda.
as a Nurse I am completely appalled by your experience at the hospital. I am so sorry Amanda. every nurse or doctor worth a damn knows that a physical or emotional trauma can cause a physical response. she should've refered you to a counselor. I do therapy due to PPDepression and Anxiety...I encourage you to try the counselor... best thing I EVER did for myself as a mom. here in the states insurance covers it I don't know about Canada but look into it. thank God for that massage therapist! hang in there hun. sending you love 💜💜💜
Im so glad you found comfort and relief with the massage therapist. Please take care of yourself and know that we're sending you blessings, tons of love and healing energy! You're an amazing woman and a wonderful role model not only for Esme but your subscribers too (even if we're older than you! Lol) Much love to you ❤️ P.S. Do try Reiki!! It's amazing! Xoxo
I really admire you (and your amazing hair). So glad you got the support you were seeking from the massage, even if the hospital was shitty to you... how horrible to hear that is how they handled it :( Big hugs. xo
I have a clicky jaw too! Does it give you weird hearing as well? So annoying sometimes. Sounds like you have had a shock in that you felt safe for yourself and your family and that has been shattered... and people and the world have disappointed you. Take it gently. You are standing up for many so it will be worth it. There are still many good things to be happy about xx
Thank you for the update. I can relate entirely to what you're going through. I had a similar experience with a Dr which just broke me at a time when I thought I could break no more. Should have gone to a massage therapist! ;) I now have Fibromyalgia. Wouldn't wish it on anyone :/ Thank you for your inspiring videos Amanda. Your channel isn't fake like some others. Love from UK xx
As a nursing student myself it is disappointing to hear about your experience at the hospital. One of the things they stress with us is that you always regard what someone is saying about how they are feeling as the truth. It is not ethically sound to make your patient feel unheard or that their feelings are unjustified. I think women in general have a tendency not to support each other and it's very sad.
Sending so many well wishes! I really admire how you're 'telling your story' of what happened in such a way that we can all learn from it and truly know how it affects a person. I had a fairly similar thing happen a couple of years ago, where walking past a guy at my uni he exposed himself, which I reported. It turns out he's been wanted by the police for doing this multiple times (in front of children on some occasions) but each time they didn't have enough evidence to know it was specifically him/to charge him. It turns out my testimony was the last bit of evidence the courts needed to put him on the sex offenders register, bar him from certain distances from schools etc. Long story short it's well worth doing what you're doing to follow this guy up, and to really hit him that this behaviour is far far from ok! Xxx
Unfortunately, the physician and system that you turned to for help was sorely lacking. As you have shown your resilience and strength in dealing with the situation, you have persevered to find the tools and aids you need to cope (massage, counseling, ativan, etc). You'll be ok amandamuse. 👍
Hi Amanda, I am so sorry that this happened to you, I hope that you can work through this. I am so glad that you are sharing this so other victims know they aren't alone. On a related note, I work with offenders after they have been convicted and I deal with them immediately after sentencing. If it is something you think that you can do, providing a Victim Impact Statement can be very beneficial and informative for the courts and everyone after. Not only with this offence but any future offences he may be convicted of. If you ever have any questions about the criminal justice system in Canada (I am in Alberta), I will be happy to answer them as best I can. All the best!
You look beautiful! Love the hair!! I love that you are such a courageous woman. Take time to take care of yourself now and know that it may take a while to move on from this. It's perfectly normal, you are such a strong woman.
and btw, I was in a locker room getting changed in a public beach once and there was this dude watching me from under the cubicle with a mirror. So I know how you feel but I just feel like we need to be careful with what we call it out of respect for people who have endured truly horrific ordeals.
I got emotional when you started to talk about how you got emotional during your massage. I am sure feeling that safety, after such a traumatizing experience and then an unsupportive hospital visit, was probably more amazing than you can describe. I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. I feel an indescribable horrific feeling that this man was doing this with his child in his presence. It truly is sickening. I hope the child has other family members that can be there for him in a way that will teach him right from wrong and he may have good examples around him. I just feel saddened by the entire story. I am usually aware of my surroundings as well, especially when my daughter is with me, but now I wonder if I am aware enough. I am so happy you shared your story bc it has given me a new "fear" (I mean that in a good way) to keep me more aware in situations. Also, I am a person that has also been disappointed by traditional health care and I go more towards eastern medicine. I still see my physician annually, as well as at times of illness, but I visit my TCM practitioner much more often. Many times I use her medicines/herbs,instead of antibiotics or other western medicine, and hers always work amazingly. Sorry for such a long post! I just feel an intense sympathy for you, your family and the mans child. I wish you all the best.
I know we don't know each other but I could not be more proud of you! You stand up for what you are in need of! That nurse at the hospital should be fired! Take a Tylenol who the hell does she think she is. I do have PTSD @anxiety but it's from emotional & verbal abuse and I have been working on it for almost 15 + years. I am on anti depression meds plus anxiety meds major pain meds. My body is no longer mine. When you go through something so tramatic its amazing what your body does to tell you need help. I ignored the symptoms for yrs till my body just gave out...I was diagnosed with RA ( rheumatoid arthritis) which was brought on by stress ( it does not run in my family) @35. The pain is unbareable at times. Now 11 yrs later I'm on more medicine than anyone should be taking and have the energy of an 85 yr old person. Did not mean to go on and on just listen to your body. Take the medication when u need it. DOES NOT MEAN YOUR WEAK! I will keep u & yr family in my prayers.
Thanks for the update! So happy that guy won't get away with this! How awful of that Dr. Wtf! Anyway Love your hair! Hang in there momma! I'm taking tips from you and stress relief. I've been. Going through intense stress not the same situation but it is still helping me. Thanks for sharing! ❤❤
They won't give you anti anxiety meds in emergency rooms because it has to be supervised usually like if you were staying in a mental help facility I believe... I could be wrong? or it has to be psychiatrist prescribed.
your story really stuck with me throughout the last days and I hope youre recovering well! The CRAZY thing is that I think that similar things happen to all women (all women that I know well enough to open up about these things have told me similar stories then yours including myself)- it seems to be seen as a trivial offense to sexually asssault women and it makes me really angry.
Best of luck to you and your family throughout this process. I'm glad you're going forward with making this terrible guy pay for his crime. Not related to the topic of the video but can you please show the back of your hair? I don't recall seeing it.
I'm so so beyond sorry you had a bad experience at the hospital. I know that feeling well. I feel as though the dr's dismissive attitude towards you is unfortunately quite common. There are great resources out there, but like you said, more often than not, the "system" fails people who have suffered any kind of trauma. Thank goodness you have an amazing support system and I hope that you can work through the aftermath of this event xx
When my son was a year old w teenage boy I would say around 15 years old maybe, came up behind me while I was looking at clearance clothes and pinched my butt. I was in total shock. He smiled and winked at me when I turned around. I felt my face get all hot. I wanted to tell the worker that was near me but obviously didn't see but I just couldn't. I still to this day can't believe he had the balls to do that to me in public. I'll never understand because I could never violate someone's privacy like that. I'm very sorry to hear what you're going through. Thank u for sharing your story ❤️
Amanda just a thought you are going through so much,don't you think your kids need some sort of concealing or something as they have witnessed it.Just a thought you know your kids better.Lots of love to you and your family.
you are such a strong woman! I have so much respect for how you handled this and for putting it all on here for other people to see, awareness is a powerful thing and I hope that by talking about it other people will feel empowered to stand up and say f*** you to scum of the earth people who commit these acts. you have BEEN a victimized, you don't have to STAY the victim.
Thank you for all your amazing and supportive comments!
AmandaMuse Good for you woman be strong,was it a aka new arrival? Todays doctors are trained not educated,put a complaint to the College of Physicians,so this crap will not happen to another person.
I can't find the right words, but damn you deserve so much praise for being courageous and using your platform to bring awareness to the importance of self care after a trauma and just sharing your experience.
So much love for you Amanda! Thank you for sharing your story, you are so brave and strong. Please take care of yourself, you are worth it and you are an inspiration to so many 💜
I'm so sorry to hear about your upsetting experience with traditional medicine in the hospital, Amanda. I'm in nursing school (in Michigan) and my professors repeat time after time that we must take patients' reports of pain seriously and that we shouldn't make light of traumatic experiences they've experienced. So basically the exact opposite of how that doctor treated you. We've also been taught some integrative therapies we can provide our patients - including aromatherapy, guided imagery, etc. Just wanted to let you know that not all hope is lost on traditional med. You are so brave and so strong! Love you and your channel!
I so admire you for how you have pushed forth to care for yourself and heal from this, you are such an incredible example of a powerful woman who values herself.:) thank you for sharing yourself with us in such a sensitive time. Keep on going! You got this.💗xx
LovedHappy took the words right out of my mouth but in an even better way!
The sore throat could be from all the stress. Every time I go through a high stress situation I get a cold because your immune system is weakened. I'm glad you're getting some good care now!
Amanda I am not sure if the dr or pharmacist told you this info about ativan, but be cautious that it can be addictive. I care about you and don't want to see you develop a dependency. I am proud of you. Massage, counselling everything all very therapeutic. I'm sorry our healthcare system let you down. It let's so many people down and more people than we will ever be aware of fall through the cracks. You are a warrior. Much love from the north. :)
So thankful for your vulnerability and strength to walk through this and share it with others! Sending prayers for physical and emotional healing for you and your family! 💜
Tears when you talked about your massage and that Wonderful Woman. So so so thrilled you had her. You are completely normal and your feelings are very valid.
Amanda, I just wanted to say that you're such a strong woman and mother. I myself am a mother who has experienced some pretty terrible things myself and struggle with mental health issues. These things are natural human responses to trauma - don't ever feel guilty or bad about these things. They are not your fault. Practice self care. Love from one mother to another.
Same in the U.S. our healthcare doesn't know to help survivors of trauma in my opinion. I took a sexual assault advocate training a year ago and it sickened me what I learned about how our police officers and local hospital have treated survivors. Thinking of you. 🖤
Agreed. Our country would like to actually make being a victim of sexual assault a preexisting condition that insurances can deny you for. It's insidious.
Your amazing....you were one of the first people I found on TH-cam a couple years ago and Ive loved your videos ever since. I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry that this happened but I'm so glad that you reacted the way you did....proud of you!!!
Your massage therapist has a gift! That's amazing. And it sounds like Dean has been extremely supportive...he called the hospital and then followed up!? Round of applause for Dean for following through when you are feeling so beat down.
I don't think many people could be as brave as you are to tackle this head on from day one. I think I'd be hiding under a rock at this point if I were you. Your resilience is incredible and inspirational 💕
Im so upset about the way you were treated at the hospital and quite frankly im not surprised! Im so glad you have dean to support you but cant help but feel horrible about those who are violated and stay quiet or have no where to go to. Wish you the best and stay strong mama!!
I am so proud of you and how you handled everything! I pray that you feel better and just know you're an amazing mother and woman!! You go girl!
Oh Amanda this must be so difficult to share but it is SO IMPORTANT for others to see this. Thank you thank you❤️
I'm loving your new hair 💕 so happy to hear your getting all the support and help you need and showing other women/young girls to be strong and seek out the help you/they deserve. As seen not always are others able or equipped to help as much as they should (hospital). If gone unresolved could lead to a dark place.
Thank you for showing me and your own beautiful daughter to be empowered!!!
Hi Amanda, I am sorry that you had to go through that, and especially that your children had to see it. As a mother, I just can't imagine how upsetting that would be to me. I just want to thank you for putting it out there, and for bringing this guy to justice and for making a statement about this. That is very brave and God knows how many women you are helping by doing that. Much love and support!
Ill never forget the day my best friend got hit by a car on our bike ride, I was in font of her and was the only cyclist seen. She wasn't torn open, but her jaw was shattered and she lost her molars and the pressure made her ears bleed from the impact of landing on her chin. Naturally, I was traumatized but traditional medicine was a failure from the second the ambulance came and didn't take her case seriously because she was conscious to the other second of making her walk herself to the ER and MRI. Trauma isn't even a consideration, especially in Toronto.
I admire you SO much for speaking up about it. It's hard, oh god I know it's hard, but you're so strong and so amazing for doing this. Thank you. Thank you so much. Sending you all my positive energy and love, and bless Dean for being such a supportive husband
This is a truly awful thing that happened and is still happening to you. Keep taking care of yourself and backing yourself!! It's incredible how self-aware and articulate you are, even after such traumatic event. You are a a very special person
Dear Amanda, thank you for sharing your sad story after the assault! 😢I'm sitting here with my baby boy watching your video. It's just sooo horrible what happened and how it's still affecting you and your family. I think it will take a long time for you to feel "normal" again, (normal - as a good word, like to feel like the world is good around you, like everything is fine). My heart is with you! 💗
I deeply admire your willingness to make your experience known in a genuine way that encourages other women to be empowered in similar situations. As a young woman who has experienced similar situations on multiple occasions I sincerely appreciate that you're speaking out about this and really delving into the process of what takes place after instances of sexual assault. Kudos to you for raising awareness and empowering other women. You go girl!
+DesertDollhouse thank you 💗
I'm in the US and every time I go to an urgent care clinic and on the rare occasion an ER they automatically ask if I've been abused, domestic or otherwise - even if I'm in there for a severe allergy attack. In my state they have to ask by law so they can get help to a person immediately if needed. They ask regardless of the reason you go in for. I'm sorry for your bad experience and I hope you are able to feel better soon and get the help you deserve. I'm so glad your hubby is there for you.
It's fantastic that you're getting help in dealing with what happened, and exploring alternative healing methods such as massage and reiki, I got my level 1 reiki certification last year and am looking to do my level 2 sometime later this year so I can offer treatments to other people. If you've not had a session before, be aware that even if you don't feel any sensation whilst it's happening, it'll still be working - some people feel/see things, some don't, but the energy is still there :) It might be worth asking if your practitioner offers distance reiki too, for if you ever need a session when you can't get away from the house but can have a lay down for half an hour :) Good luck and stay strong
Amanda.. I am Canadian as well - I live in Ontario and I feel the same way about health care as you. I went into emerg when i had my first ever panic attack a few years ago. I was so scared! I did not know what was going on with my body - I legit thought I was having a heart attack. The manor in which I was treated was appalling. I was sat down by two people and interrogated. I was asked what I had take to make me feel this way.. I was asked if I have a history of drug and alcohol abuse.. I was asked if I had ever sought out any sort of anti anxiety meds before. I DIDNT EVEN KNOW I WAS HAVING A PANIC ATTACK. I was not there for drugs. I was there because i legit thought i was dying. I left without seeing a doctor feeling worse than I did when i arrived. I was so saddened and felt so let down. I often wonder how many people are not taken seriously, sent home, and pass away or the condition is exacerbated due to lack of medical attention. Its sickening. If you think having universal health care is sunshine and roses ITS NOT. There are times where I would rather pay to be taken seriously.
PS. you are very strong and can serve as an amazing inspiration for someone who may not be as strong as you!
I think it's really great that you are speaking up and sharing your experience as well as the aftermath of the assault. You are an amazing person!
That's soo soo disappointing to hear about the doctors reaction. You're so strong. 💛
woooowww your treatment at the hospital is PISSING ME OFF !! just wow.
thank goodness for the massage therapist ^_^
Hi Amanda. So sorry for what you had to go through and thank you for sharing this. By the way, liking the new hair! Take care :)
you look gorgeous, I am so glad you found professionals to help you. You are strong, we all love you and are rooting for you here 💕
Good for you for standing up to that lady in the hospital! That is absolutely ridiculous and BS! I love that you have put this story out there to help other women Who have dealt with similar situations. Love you for keeping it real all the time 😘
I'm thankful for you. Also praying for you and your family!
You are truely amazing! What kick ass WOMAN! So glad to hear you're taking care of yourself and have great support at home.
I'm so sorry this happened to you. I'm sure counseling will be very helpful. Elaborating and processing what happened will help you heal fast. XX
First off love the hair!!!! Second of all, you are a brave woman. Kudos to you for taking care of yourself. Not a lot of people would. Huge hugs to you.
Absolutely love your hair, you look divine. I'm so glad you are pushing forward, I was the quiet one and never told. Felt as some how it was my fault and over came peace with it after lots of prayers. God is good and without him to heal me I'm sure I would still feel the hurt.
💜 much love to you Amanda. I'm so glad you can count on Dean to have your back.
I know the content of your video is so much more than this but, I'm loving your hair!!! So so much! You always look fabulous! Also- you are so strong. You're one of my role models and I admire your character and your beauty (inside and out :) ) Keep being amazing!!
These videos and your story is so important. Thank you for sharing! ❤❤❤
When you were talking about your massage experience I was brought to tears. Stay strong mama😘
That massage therapist sounds like an angel on earth.
Your seriously so amazing! I'm so grateful I can watch your videos!!💓
Sending you lots of hugs and good vibes. Thank you for updating us 😘💜
I totally agree with what you were saying about the physician basically telling you to "get over it." I find that some individuals expect others to "be tough" in certain situations that they feel they have "overcome" by "being tough." You are so strong and you have a right to work through your emotions anyway you need to. I respect you so much for taking care of yourself when you need it.
I know this video is a few months back, but seriously...all the HUGS. Ughhhj
Your hair is fabulous lady love it !! I'm a totally shocked about what happened you and how you were treated st the hospital that's terrible .i really admire you for being so strong and positive and making by sure he doesn't get away with this sickening crime. Now I understand why there are so many historical cases left unresolved because people are made to feel unsupported by the institutions that should be helping them if that makes sense . So amazing and empowering your highlighting this and will give others the strength and courage to be heard xxxx 💕💕💕much love to you girlie love your videos 😘🇮🇪
Sending you love and well wishes and hope your feeling better soon xx
Gosh Amanda I'm so sorry. I just want to hug your neck. When you said he took multiple pictures, meaning of you??? Please follow through. He must be held accountable for his actions and his child needs to see that as well. Maybe it can break the cycle- God forbid there is one. Love to you Amanda. Praying for you too😘
Amanda, I apologize for such a shallow question on a video of this nature, but I would really like to know what eyeshadow you are wearing in the beginning and end segments? I just love it and would really like to get it.
Thank you for sharing your experience in the aftermath of such a traumatizing event. I admire you for being such a source of strength for others who have experienced sexual trauma.
Thank you for sharing. You are an inspiration!
Im so proud of you. you're taking all the right steps. your story will help others. there's good here. And this man may not get another victim
So proud of you love! Your doing the right thing, your such a great mother. That's crazy that the doctor acted like she didn't believe you. But you have people who do believe you, I support you. That guy is sick & I hope he gets what he deserves ! 👏🏻
+Rosiesmommy thank you 💗
This whole thing makes me cry big fat mommy tears. You're very brave. I hope this helps the people who don't have strong support systems like you said. Poor souls. Please document your reiki if you decide to do it, would love to know more about it. Thank uou
All the love! I'm so proud of you.
brilliant courageous vlog Amanda. this is society, take a tablet & it will be better..its awful. You are really highlighting women's issues. It's opened my eyes , however your strength & courage to stand up to yourself & indeed other victims is outstanding. Love you Amanda... keep well
Sending you lots of love Amanda!
God you're gorgeous❤️ I'm so sorry this happened to you. I'm usually quite shy and I never leave comments on TH-cam videos but I wanted you to know that since I've had my son, your videos are my go-to videos. I'm living in a new city with my partner and son without any friends and family, your videos have helped me through tough times of loneliness. Your my inspiration! That creep will get what he deserves. I hope to one day be as strong of a woman as you
I'm so sorry for everything you are going through, stay strong and give that guy what he deserves by going through with the legal work. I agree that the Canadian health care system is not the greatest. I just had a c-section a couple of months ago and was in quite a bit of pain and they wanted to send me home over the log weekend (when no doctors would be available) without any pain medicine and made me feel like I was some sort of drug addict for even asking. I am the complete opposite I never take so much as an adivil normally. Also did they test you for strep throat? with how sore your throat seems it might be worth checking, hope you're better soon.
Every time you get a new hair do I think "Oh, this one's my favourite!" hah..and this one's no different!
Thank you for taking us along on your journey. The 5'oclock news never covers what happens to the victims of crimes like these, it's so critical that people realize that more is 'taken' than photos/videos in these assults.
You're doing all the right things to recover! Get well soon! You are a strong person 💪🏻 and a wonderful mama! Also, I know our health system is not the greatest (worse in QC) but what I recommend is that if it's not an emergency (life threatening or unbearable pain) to go to a clinic instead. You should get better care and service there. The emergency handles the acute care and the rest is like superficial to them. Hang in there my friend! You have our support. 💕
The halton police posted a photo of a man that took pictures of a lady changing in the gym in Oakville today on the news. I wonder if there's any connection? I'm sorry this happened to you Amanda.
do you meditate or looked into practicing meditation?
as a Nurse I am completely appalled by your experience at the hospital. I am so sorry Amanda. every nurse or doctor worth a damn knows that a physical or emotional trauma can cause a physical response. she should've refered you to a counselor. I do therapy due to PPDepression and Anxiety...I encourage you to try the counselor... best thing I EVER did for myself as a mom. here in the states insurance covers it I don't know about Canada but look into it. thank God for that massage therapist! hang in there hun. sending you love 💜💜💜
Im so glad you found comfort and relief with the massage therapist. Please take care of yourself and know that we're sending you blessings, tons of love and healing energy! You're an amazing woman and a wonderful role model not only for Esme but your subscribers too (even if we're older than you! Lol) Much love to you ❤️
P.S. Do try Reiki!! It's amazing! Xoxo
Also LOVE your hair!
I really admire you (and your amazing hair). So glad you got the support you were seeking from the massage, even if the hospital was shitty to you... how horrible to hear that is how they handled it :( Big hugs. xo
I have a clicky jaw too! Does it give you weird hearing as well? So annoying sometimes. Sounds like you have had a shock in that you felt safe for yourself and your family and that has been shattered... and people and the world have disappointed you. Take it gently. You are standing up for many so it will be worth it. There are still many good things to be happy about xx
stay strong Amanda!!
Thank you for the update. I can relate entirely to what you're going through. I had a similar experience with a Dr which just broke me at a time when I thought I could break no more. Should have gone to a massage therapist! ;) I now have Fibromyalgia. Wouldn't wish it on anyone :/ Thank you for your inspiring videos Amanda. Your channel isn't fake like some others. Love from UK xx
Sending positive thoughts and vibes! Light and love
As a nursing student myself it is disappointing to hear about your experience at the hospital. One of the things they stress with us is that you always regard what someone is saying about how they are feeling as the truth. It is not ethically sound to make your patient feel unheard or that their feelings are unjustified. I think women in general have a tendency not to support each other and it's very sad.
Sending so many well wishes! I really admire how you're 'telling your story' of what happened in such a way that we can all learn from it and truly know how it affects a person. I had a fairly similar thing happen a couple of years ago, where walking past a guy at my uni he exposed himself, which I reported. It turns out he's been wanted by the police for doing this multiple times (in front of children on some occasions) but each time they didn't have enough evidence to know it was specifically him/to charge him. It turns out my testimony was the last bit of evidence the courts needed to put him on the sex offenders register, bar him from certain distances from schools etc. Long story short it's well worth doing what you're doing to follow this guy up, and to really hit him that this behaviour is far far from ok! Xxx
Thanks for sharing your story. I was wondering, what do you plan to do with your kid's potential trauma of that experience if anything? Thanks
Unfortunately, the physician and system that you turned to for help was sorely lacking. As you have shown your resilience and strength in dealing with the situation, you have persevered to find the tools and aids you need to cope (massage, counseling, ativan, etc). You'll be ok amandamuse. 👍
Hi Amanda,
I am so sorry that this happened to you, I hope that you can work through this. I am so glad that you are sharing this so other victims know they aren't alone. On a related note, I work with offenders after they have been convicted and I deal with them immediately after sentencing. If it is something you think that you can do, providing a Victim Impact Statement can be very beneficial and informative for the courts and everyone after. Not only with this offence but any future offences he may be convicted of. If you ever have any questions about the criminal justice system in Canada (I am in Alberta), I will be happy to answer them as best I can. All the best!
stay strong dear we love you..:*
You look beautiful! Love the hair!! I love that you are such a courageous woman. Take time to take care of yourself now and know that it may take a while to move on from this. It's perfectly normal, you are such a strong woman.
and btw, I was in a locker room getting changed in a public beach once and there was this dude watching me from under the cubicle with a mirror. So I know how you feel but I just feel like we need to be careful with what we call it out of respect for people who have endured truly horrific ordeals.
I got emotional when you started to talk about how you got emotional during your massage. I am sure feeling that safety, after such a traumatizing experience and then an unsupportive hospital visit, was probably more amazing than you can describe. I am so sorry you and your family are going through this. I feel an indescribable horrific feeling that this man was doing this with his child in his presence. It truly is sickening. I hope the child has other family members that can be there for him in a way that will teach him right from wrong and he may have good examples around him. I just feel saddened by the entire story. I am usually aware of my surroundings as well, especially when my daughter is with me, but now I wonder if I am aware enough. I am so happy you shared your story bc it has given me a new "fear" (I mean that in a good way) to keep me more aware in situations. Also, I am a person that has also been disappointed by traditional health care and I go more towards eastern medicine. I still see my physician annually, as well as at times of illness, but I visit my TCM practitioner much more often. Many times I use her medicines/herbs,instead of antibiotics or other western medicine, and hers always work amazingly. Sorry for such a long post! I just feel an intense sympathy for you, your family and the mans child. I wish you all the best.
It's okay to cry! Never feel embarrassed for showing genuine emotion.
thanks 4 sharing i know its not easy lov u girl get better
I know we don't know each other but I could not be more proud of you! You stand up for what you are in need of! That nurse at the hospital should be fired! Take a Tylenol who the hell does she think she is. I do have PTSD @anxiety but it's from emotional & verbal abuse and I have been working on it for almost 15 + years. I am on anti depression meds plus anxiety meds major pain meds. My body is no longer mine. When you go through something so tramatic its amazing what your body does to tell you need help. I ignored the symptoms for yrs till my body just gave out...I was diagnosed with RA ( rheumatoid arthritis) which was brought on by stress ( it does not run in my family) @35. The pain is unbareable at times. Now 11 yrs later I'm on more medicine than anyone should be taking and have the energy of an 85 yr old person. Did not mean to go on and on just listen to your body. Take the medication when u need it. DOES NOT MEAN YOUR WEAK! I will keep u & yr family in my prayers.
Ok I need the name of your massage therapist!! Thank you for sharing your story ❤️❤️
You have all my respect! Hang on! Xx
Thanks for the update! So happy that guy won't get away with this! How awful of that Dr. Wtf! Anyway Love your hair! Hang in there momma! I'm taking tips from you and stress relief. I've been. Going through intense stress not the same situation but it is still helping me. Thanks for sharing! ❤❤
They won't give you anti anxiety meds in emergency rooms because it has to be supervised usually like if you were staying in a mental help facility I believe... I could be wrong? or it has to be psychiatrist prescribed.
Sending you lots of love and hugs........ xoxoxo
your story really stuck with me throughout the last days and I hope youre recovering well! The CRAZY thing is that I think that similar things happen to all women (all women that I know well enough to open up about these things have told me similar stories then yours including myself)- it seems to be seen as a trivial offense to sexually asssault women and it makes me really angry.
You mentioned wanting to investigate martial arts for self defense. I highly suggest Brazilian jiu jitsu. It is super effective
Best of luck to you and your family throughout this process. I'm glad you're going forward with making this terrible guy pay for his crime. Not related to the topic of the video but can you please show the back of your hair? I don't recall seeing it.
I'd be interested to know - how is your whole family dealing with this?
I'm so so beyond sorry you had a bad experience at the hospital. I know that feeling well. I feel as though the dr's dismissive attitude towards you is unfortunately quite common. There are great resources out there, but like you said, more often than not, the "system" fails people who have suffered any kind of trauma. Thank goodness you have an amazing support system and I hope that you can work through the aftermath of this event xx
You are an amazing woman
When my son was a year old w teenage boy I would say around 15 years old maybe, came up behind me while I was looking at clearance clothes and pinched my butt. I was in total shock. He smiled and winked at me when I turned around. I felt my face get all hot. I wanted to tell the worker that was near me but obviously didn't see but I just couldn't. I still to this day can't believe he had the balls to do that to me in public. I'll never understand because I could never violate someone's privacy like that. I'm very sorry to hear what you're going through. Thank u for sharing your story ❤️
Amanda just a thought you are going through so much,don't you think your kids need some sort of concealing or something as they have witnessed it.Just a thought you know your kids better.Lots of love to you and your family.
Multiple photos of you or other women too? Ugh. Thanks for documenting. ❤️
+Brooke Johnson of me 😕
Oh yuck I'm so sorry.
you are such a strong woman! I have so much respect for how you handled this and for putting it all on here for other people to see, awareness is a powerful thing and I hope that by talking about it other people will feel empowered to stand up and say f*** you to scum of the earth people who commit these acts. you have BEEN a victimized, you don't have to STAY the victim.
Awsome hair!
Will pray for you
15:15 Wait he blamed his child? that is the most lame excuse I have ever heard. What did the child do for him to assault her.