The Hardest day of my life 6/16

Is there a day you cant forget? You still remember ebery detail, every smell sound, what you did an especially every feeling and emotion you had? I hope its a positive day for you but for me its June 16 and in 2016 it was mentally emotionally and eben physically the hardest and toughest day of my life by a large margin.
It's been 8 years since that day at Duke
I was in my oncologist office I knew my cancer was back but what happened in that office what was said the reaults and news I got I wasnt expecting
He explained that my cancer had metastasized l told us how it was incurable an I'd be on treatment the rest of my life. Then came the words that took my breath away, made me numb. He explained that my diagnosis gave me only a 25% five year survival rate.
My world stopped this was way worse than the first cancer diagnosis worse than anything I could of imagined. I felt my world and my 28 years of life of dreams the goals and memories come crashing down an felt gone forever. I was lost I had no hope I didnt know what to do.
Its took living and fighting through a hell very few can even begin to imagine or understand of what its took and takes for me to be here and be alive today some days absolutely suck but I am still here doing it and looking into fhe future but
June 16th 2016 will always be one of the toughest day of my life in so many ways and every 6/16 each year will be hard and complicated
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[@Nailsnailsnailsallday]

Thank you jj x

[@lukechwalek]

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[@miriamlorrayne]

Você é admirável ❤️ Gostaria de lhe dar um abraço e parabeniza-lo por ser tão resiliente e forte

[@chimi1924]

Men I have missed your vlog..you look great❤