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Pile 3: this reading made me cry, I realized I was walking on eggshells all this time thinking I'm just being cautious, but yes I need to trust myself more and that I'll be okay even if something doesn't match my expectations. To everyone who chose this pile, you are so precious and so beautiful, appreciate yourself more for your own self, for being this pure hearted even if others don't acknowledge that for you, you are amazing, let's love ourselves more💜💛
Pile 3 🦋 I’ve secretly struggled with the emotional belief that there is no place for me in society, or the world. Major feelings of unworthiness. I didn’t even realise that this belief had developed over time until I heard this. Recently, a bunch of my most traumatic childhood and adolescent experiences have all been randomly brought to my attention and it’s made me feel like complete and utter crap every time. If you’ve been going through this issue or something similar, then you’ve probably been under the impression that you must be the only person in the world feeling this way, much like myself - which is why it amazed me when she said during the reading to notice how many other people were drawn to the same pile, who are going through similar things. We’re never alone, it’s so easy to forget but true nonetheless. Stay strong 🙏💖
Oh yes, this feeling of never belonging, being alien…all my life!!! For me too many childhood issues where brought to the surface recently…I thought I had healed, but obviously it hit me hard…feeling at point zero…hard, but in the if you are at a turning point, everything is possible 🥰
Pile 4: “the only thing that’s not okay is to bully yourself shame yourself or gaslight yourself into thinking that any of your responses to what you’ve gone through is invalid or wrong” thank you Eso, i needed to hear that.
💜pile 4, here: i haven't been in a place where i feel this low in the longest time. i've worked so hard to maintain my composure and work through my journey of healing. it's felt like it all came crumbling to my feet suddenly in the past two months. from losing a job, not graduating at my projected time and having to watch so many of my college friends leave, troubles with a parent, and so many other weights... it's just been so heavy on my soul. i've felt like a failure, and at such a young age. the message this pile had for my had me breaking down in the first few minutes. as soon as i saw the moon and the pentacles come out together, i knew i would have my entire situation laid out before me and it absolutely shattered my walls. now, i've noticed that i've been crying a lot lately. four times in the last 12 hours. but it's gotten easier and more freeing every time. i know in my heart that things are going to get better. they have to, or else i'd have given up like you said the pile's felt the urge to. what little i can force myself to do in the day has made the nights easier to bear. i feel the universe calling to me so much. may not always feel i can answer its call, but i know it's there and i want so badly to see it through. you're right, eso, i absolutely needed to hear this. to my other pile 4's - i see you. it's okay to cry. it's okay to have your heart ache for better. feel your feelings. things always seem worse before they get better. know that you don't have to be alone, and like eso says, you are so loved. take your time, everything's going to be okay 💕
Pile 4 here: i usually actually tend to refrain from leaving comments (just due to internet safety and general anxiety 😅) but…i can’t just NOT leave a comment for this one. as soon as you said you wanted to give me a hug, i just…i bursted into tears. you NAILED this reading. it was spot on the whole time. i cried, i giggled a little, and i smiled, and i felt truly understood. life has been really really rough for me recently (especially involving my health and having a heart problem that doctors don’t know how to fix yet) and i’ve been exactly as you said; in a spiritual winter. i broke out my tarot deck yesterday even and just didn’t do a reading for some reason. i’m slowly working my way back into my spirituality and you’ve helped me stay in touch (even if only barely) with your channel, Eso. i truly appreciate your kind, caring nature, and how TRUTHFUL you always are. please keep doing what you’re doing. i really appreciate your videos ❤️
Came here to say the same. This is JUST what I needed to hear❤️ spot on. I am very grateful for this guidance ❤️ it gives me hope and help me to surrender more in this process. I've listened to @Esotarot before. But this is the first time I took notes! Thank you🙏❤️
I felt exactly the same way when I listened to it, when she said that there were people that made me feel unworthy I almost broke down because this is exactly what I needed to hear, not just that someone was there for me and that the universe cared and was helping me, but that they felt what I'm feeling, that they understood
we are all in this together pile 4. we all have different situations but synchronistically this random pile choice related so much to how ive been feeling too. ive been a recluse since january cuz of this "pulled the rug out from under" moment. it was like the final blow for me
pile 2: THIS WAS TOO ACCURATE. All the talk about fearing change and fearing taking control over my own life because im scared to make a mistake or fail was so true. especially just hearing about my inner child and how the only person holding me back is me was so needed. this pile made me so emotional because it resonated so much. this really was exactly what i needed to hear. I'm trying to step into my power and allow myself to grow and change more
Pile 3: This reading gave me internal shivers. I’m currently grappling with a decision I need to make where I don’t trust myself AT ALL and certainly do not trust any sort of “gut instinct”, and I can’t talk to anyone about it really. Part of this is because of horrendous things that happened in my childhood, so that part is spot on too. You are very good and very soothing in the way you speak 😊
Im just learning that holding the guard and resistance takes more energy than actually letting go and surrender. And seeing that the strategies I've been using are not working so have to try a new approach.. and trust and see what's going to change. And if my ego scares me or sabotages me I can tell it it's just a challenge for few days and after we can go back haha but in this moment of space I see when I trust , there's space for synchronicities, miracles , flow ✨ magic ✨ Lots of love to you dear , we got this ⭐🔥⭐🖖🛸💫
@@prettyfemme you might realize that you're not separate from god and that you him and universe is the same force ⭐ and yes lovely to trust back in yourself and others is a big process .. slowly slowly we open up more we learn we are safe, we learn our boundaries, we learn to express to listen to ourselves to protect ourselves and to trust ⭐ Much love to you 🌺🌿
@@LaciRae Yessss major shifts ⭐ some months ago i felt like rollercoaster up and downs ups and downs wow was intense... Now it feels more less stable and more less i keep some rememberance so i don't fall in to 3d dramas so much 😅
Pile 4 just brought me to my knees. I’ve been struggling with the realization that I have no one. I’ve walked away from “family” and an ex who only ever took from me. I’m caring for myself and prioritizing myself for the first time, but healing is hard. I just want to be hugged and held, but there’s no one - and for fucks’ sake hugging myself and using weighted blankets just don’t fucking help. I can’t stand everything online saying “love yourself.” I can’t physically hold myself when I’m falling apart. Sending gratitude to you, Eso.
Pile 4: I’ve been having a low self-esteem for a long time, and hearing that things might get better has honestly made me kind of emotional, because it’s been something I couldn’t believe for such a long time. Thank you eso. 🦋🦋🦋
This definitely made me emotional bcs it's resonates with me so well.... I have been suffering from low self-esteem from past few days....... And this reading definitely made ne fell alot more better...
Pile 2: I was immediately pulled to it and honestly, you've brought tears to my eyes because I know that literally everything that you've said is true and applies to me. I am at a huge turning point in my life and I feel like I'm so scared that I've been self-sabotaging myself, so I really needed to hear this...
Me too. I also got that pile and ever since I’ve started my journey of self improvement, my life has improved but my anxiety has somewhat lingered. I no longer get anxious about drama and such things as much but instead about my own overthinking and if it will manifest bad things into my life. It’s self contradicting because I overthink because I don’t want anything bad to happen to me but in the end it makes me more prone to bad things. Idk if this happens to u too but it’s been my life for a few months now and honestly I always need to be reminding myself of what pile 2 was saying because it’s so easy to forget.
Also pile 2 This hit so hard! & ironically im AFRAID of how accurate it was because im so hesitant about this opportunity for change. My family has started the process applying for visas to move from the U.S. to Australia and since talking to the immigrant agent I have had such extreme swings from being excited and hopeful to extreme fear and sadness and not wanting to leave the house I love so much. I came here wondering if we should back out and stay where we know we are secure and I feel like was telling me to make the move but that is so terrifying 😭
Pile 4: This morning I wanted to share something with my mom but she passed away last month. She understood me to my core. I would share my dreams and my spirituality with her.. It makes me feel so alone having no one to share those things that understand me and connect with me on that level. Thank you eso.
pile 1 here of the commitment-phobic camp. damn...this was spot on. the real-or maybe final-clincher for me was the sovereign queen maeve oracle card. i interpreted it as confirmation that i maintain sovereignty over myself regardless of my relationship status. entering into a romantic commitment does not strip me of my independence; it doesn't void my boundaries. i have agency always, and i do not need to be in control to exercise it. wow. just...thank you.
pile 3: i struggle a lot with knowing what my intuition is, but not because of anxiety alone. i’ve always been an escapist, and i’ve always thought situations/people were “destined” for me, just for them to turn out to be pretty shit. in the spiritual community, we talk a lot about pessimism and insecurity, but only how it manifests itself through one lens. i realized a lot of my insecurities manifest into forms of being overly optimistic in ways that aren’t healthy and truthfully just deny reality. i also never thought/felt like i was undeserving of love and connection because of my trauma, instead i thought the world and all those experiences didn’t deserve me. i loathed people for having fun and enjoying life because i’m so wrapped up in my internal world and inner work, and i’ve led such a serious life over the past 2+ years. however, maybe that’s really just a paradoxical thing where i think it’s because i think the world doesn’t deserve me, but subconsciously it’s the other way around.
pile 4; this just was spot on. everything makes sense, and not going to lie, it was so emotional that I cried a bit during this. I've been going through such a hard time, it's refreshing to know this is actually going to work out okay and that the universe was just telling me to slow down and to heal. thank you for giving me this message
Pile 3, it's really insane how you talked about self-sabotaging because my costar talked about it yesterday! Ive been struggling alone a lot this year, and it's been really hard for me to heal. Thank you for this reading
I've heard of parts work! Haven't got to it yet, it seems there's so much to do on our healing journey... I found emotional body healing work helpful, though. Sending you love, from another pile 3.
I am surprised I have not heard of parts work therapy before today. I am definitely going to do some research now as it seems like it would be helpful in dealing with childhood trauma. Thank you so much for your comment! 💜
Pile 1: Life in every aspect has been absolutely crazy, confusing, strange, and a struggle. It’s been this way for a couple of months now. This was completely accurate. Before i clicked on this video i was meditating and the thought popped into my head “I need to open my pandora’s box and heal.” then boom. this reading. thank you, blessed be.
Pile 3.... my father passed away unexpectedly this past Friday, May 13th. Most devastating thing that has ever happened to me.... I'm currently trying to keep my childhood home of 18 years & caring for my little brother (who still lived with our father) & 5 year old son...😭😭 my whole world has been turned upside down, but trying to remain strong for my boys & keep our home ❤😭🙏 it's such a process. My soul is broken, but I'm doing EVERYTHING I possibly can. I've been trying to look more into my emotions & keep my logical brain, but everything just feels like mush 😵💫 I've been living out of a notebook with EVERYTHING written down. Relationship wise, I've been single since before my son was born. That experience was very traumatic as well. My father was my sons best friend & leading man role in his life. That i am so grateful for 😭❤🙏 Thank you for this reading ❤🙏
Pile 4 was EXACTLY what I needed to hear. I've been going through past trauma experiences mentally, and I keep bullying myself that other people push through it so why can't I? It's so bad that it's affecting my new job. But it is also helping me realize that I dont need to stay in a job that is emotionally and spiritually draining just because it pays well. Thank you so much for doing this reading!
Pile 1. I’ve been in the process of transformation/change for a while now, and I’ve been very resistant at times to where things have been crumbling before my eyes. While this reading has been confirmation (for the millionth time) of what I’ve been getting intuitively, it’s also real hard knowing that I’ve been the cause of towers crumbling in my life. 🙏🏼💖
This is my pile too and I completely understand that frustration. I was sure about my divorce and very happy afterwards, but nowadays I feel confused and lonely.. please never forget that we cannot change past, but we can always change today and plant good seeds for tomorrow 😊 sometimes your heart needs to break to see how loving it can get.. sending best wishes and prayers good soul may light be with you 🙏
Pile 4 really tore me up. This reading was so accurate like you literally answered all of my questions that flood my mind on a daily basis. It’s so exhausting. Thank you so much for the reading 🥲🫶🏽
I've never watched tarot videos before, haven't had a reading since high school. I'm a highly skeptical, but also spiritual person. When this vid popped up on my home page I almost scoffed and kept scrolling, but I stopped myself and thought "why the hell not? Maybe the universe has a message." I chose pile 4. I got to the oracle cards and "Allowance" gave me chills. The rest...had me in tears. I'll just say I needed to hear it all. Every. Last. Word. The universe is amazing and I think I'm gonna keep trusting it. Thank you, so so much.
Pile 4: I’ve struggled with depression for about 7 years. I was better but last year at the end of the year it got so bad. I’m coming out of it but I am definitely still struggling. I really resonated with the part when you spoke about actually being a really ambitious person. I used to be. I feel completely lost and I used to be so much better at Handel of things. I am trying hard. This was so helpful thank you.
hey stranger ........ you are really really strong and motivating ....... hang in there ........ we all love you and are waiting for you to come back better ......... ily...sending hugss >>>>
you are not alone. been struggling with depression for ca 13 years now. my whole adult life has been completely wasted by this. i want so much but can do very little. i also thought i was getting better last year and then it got much worse again. some days i feel hope again though. i'm certain there is for you, as well. i'm rooting for ya. idk if this is any helpful, i just wanted to comment how much i relate.
Also pile 4. You're not alone. I as well have been suffering with depression for about 10 years, and the past two years it was a little better but been teetering on a fine line as of late. I promise you it gets better. Please please don't forget to reach out for yourself even if it's just watching eso's videos. Or getting yourself your favorite fruit flavored beverage. It will get better.
Pile 4. I’ve been going through it with my significant other because I’m in this spiritual winter and he’s not. Tonight I finally let go and I’ve been crying about it all night and this reading has answered a lot of the overthinking questions that circle around my head, I really did not want to let go of him but I felt deep down it was what I was supposed to do and you saying “what’s meant for you will always come back to you” and that has made me feel 50x better because if he’s meant for me he will come back and if he’s not he just isn’t
Not gonna lie...i needed that. Cried a few tears, with that exhausting feeling in my core. Time to inhale, exhale, breath. Common PILE 2! We gonna rock that shit!
Pile 3 here, I could relate to every word. It is exactly what I needed to hear in the middle of the existential crisis I've been going through. Ty so much ♥️
Pile 2. Definitely me, myself and I is my own biggest enemy, the person who avoid and stops everything. This reading is indeed much needed. Thanks eso!!💗💓💞
Can totally relate to this , but from now we won't let it repeat for us. The next time someone offers us love we'll let it come in our lives , the next time we get an opportunity to learn something new or do something which ignites us we'll go for it no matter what, the next time we see someone who needs help we'll offer them help , be the light spread lovee and remember to take rest and care , we'll water ourselves with loveee because we deserve it! ❤️✨🕊️🌻
Pile 3: thank you so much for this reading, I cried while watching this. I remember, at about 12 or13, praying for the light inside of me to be hidden because the people around me seemed to be irritated by it. (In my light was my confidence, wit, humor, and creative expression amongst other things I'm sure) That seemed to work for a while because things got better and I could survive. Now that I'm no longer in survival mode, I realize that the whole time the only one who couldn't see my light was me. This reading was a beautiful reminder that although I am just learning to see it, my light is always shining bright and its okay to be aware of it and to love openly. The same goes for you. You are a beautiful soul who deserves to see your own beauty. I love you ❤️
Pile 3: Thank you so much. There were so many golden nuggets of wisdom in this that I'm going to watch again and write them down. To all the pile 3s - love you all 💕💕💕
Pile 4: after dealing with intense physical and emotional sickness from mold poisoning, I was gaslit by family members who built the house for us. This was a perfect reading for me... I feel like mentally I'm ready to move on, I've been wanting it so badly but I know I need to rest and heal first. My programs were telling me I needed to jump back and go back to school and I know deep down I need to give myself more time. I'm really thankful for your advice and your reading ❤
Pile 2 here, I really appreciate what you said about nihilism in this! Reminds me of a talk by Allan Watts about the choice we have in our perspective of the world/our lives. I have a Mars in Aries and I've been trying to allow that energy to come thru me more. I'm also doing extensive inner child work that relates to the release of self judgement. Thank you for such an insightful read!!! 🔥🔥🔥
Pile 4. Just in the first 5 minutes of my reading my jaw literally dropped. I really needed this. My life has been one thing after another and so much betrayal but my own mother and ex boyfriend. I moved and started my healing and I already feel so much better. My life feels like it's coming back together
Pile 2 really resonated, as i've been stuck in a analysis paralysis for what feels like a lifetime now. i'm coming out of it now and have worked on building the self worth and confidence in finding myself which has been a tremendous leap for me. but what frustrates me is that at this point in life, analysis paralysis is no longer whats stopping me from taking risks. i literally don't have any resources... i'm too broke to move or quit my unfulfilling job or go to school or make any significant change in my life that i've been craving for years. i wish the only thing stopping me at this point was action, or fear of failure, or any of that. I want change but i'm poor and exhausted and there isn't really a path for people like me who are poor enough to be stuck, but getting by just enough to not have options for help. Change is scary and hard but there isn't anything i want more right now because I really can't take much more of living like this.
I totally get what you're saying. I feel like I've also been stuck in a similar situation where I want to create change in my life but I just don't know what a viable action would be. It's like all the energy for change is there but I just don't have an appropriate outlet for it. Right now, I'm just trying to make small changes in my life. As much as I want to put all my energy into my next course of action, I also know that I have no idea what that is. So I'm just trying to do things that make sense to me now like staying healthy and reading more (because I love stories). And I guess also recognizing that this is a difficult time and that it's okay to feel uncertain about things.
You're strong enough to have realise it all uptil now , Trust me brighter days are coming , good sound sleeps , healthy satisfactions , emotional fulfilment is on its way, you're so close to the miracle that's about to happen in your life, Remember it's one step at a time and you'll rise again! ❤️👼 Sending lovee, hope and positivity your way! 🕊️🌻✨❤️✨
Pile 2 (Citrine Point): just the message I needed to hear right now! I am directly in a new path right now and the future can seem overwhelming but at same time freeing. The point of not letting mind/fears hold me back was a very clear message and really spells out what i've already known. Also the point about not seeing how much i've grown was spot on, I may not feel that I have but looking back on past paths/decisions I can see it now. Thanks so much for this reading.
I was LITERALLY just thinking “hmm, I should probably rewatch the video from Eso that I fell asleep to yesterday” (You put me right to sleep and my insomnia loves you for it) then this video popped up! Am currently listening to pile 3, hope it’ll help bring some clarity to my currently situation. Love you so much 💕
Pile 3 : it hit me so hard, my grandfather just passed and I’ve been struggling with a lot after his death and even before. I’ve been trying to understand my anxiety and intuition these past couple of days, it’s all so wonky. This really put things together for me, thank you so much! I needed to hear this, you’re amazing for this. 💕
Eso is the entire reason that I believe in tarot. Her readings are always so damm accurate. She always tells me what I need to hear in the most sympathetic ways. Pile 4 was so real. Feeling stuck in a spiritual winter right now but after this video I feel like I have all the tools within to grow or stay still for a while, whichever is best for me.
Pile 3: you’re always literally speaking to me😩 I love the longer readings. It’s so detailed and helpful bc my energy has been so… unpredictable. Thank you always for the transparency and realness everytime!!! BLESS 💙
Pile 3: Spot on. I was diagnosed with ptsd 15 years ago. Although I have done the work and feel so much better in many ways, I definitely second guess all choices. I have seen it as a necessary step to be vigilant. This reading opened my eyes.
Whew pile 2! 🔥omg I needed to hear this right now! Lol...So true about how my parents and people i surrounded myself with growing up made me feel like I couldn't (or shouldn't) have agency over my own life. It was crazy..people just being super over protective of me who were controlling..even now as an almost 50 year old woman (next year! 🙌) with all of my Many accomplishments, my dysfunctional parents STILL try to control and manipulate my life and way of thinking. We have had many catfights over the years regarding this, but I recently decided that I've been wasting my energy all these years because they aren't going to change..so I've put up major boundaries and taken some actions (distancing)that hurt to do, but its the only way I can live a normal life!
pile 2: this resonated so deeply within me. looking back to 2021 when i started my journey, i was so tightly strung and mentally unhappy. thanks for the reminder to celebrate my progress!
I was literally reading for myself when the notification popped, picked pile 4 and I wanted to thank you for the sympathetic first response to the energy! Your readings are highly appreciated! ❤️
Pile 3 this so resonated for me, I have felt over the years I close down more and more with people. I think this is mainly due to how my family have treated me. I hope all of us with this pile can start believing in ourselves and people more. Thank you for a great reading ❤
Pile 3! I just saw the epsilon card in my own deck. Wonderful confirmation. My notes: Be less hard on oneself. Trust the universe has my back. Everything is always working out for me.
pile 1:) i never comment on these even though i always watch your readings, but this one made me cry immediately. i’ve been trying so desperately to heal from my abusive relationship from only a year ago, just to keep going back to square one. it’s as though i heal & then ‘relapse’ in a sense. in the midst of this; my cat passed away on june 8th. i thought things really couldn’t get any worse. it’s like i hit rock bottom but each time i somehow find an even rockier bottom underneath. my mom said she has no hope and it’s like she’s “beating a dead horse” because i’ve barely improved, in fact, i’ve gotten worse. i already feel terrible all the time and knowing she has no hope for me justifies me having no hope for myself. i’ve had my cat since i was a little kid, maybe 5. i’ve always believed that she’s my familiar spirit. each time i’d read tarot she’d be right there next to me. each night she slept with me, right on my chest. she’s been with me through it all. i don’t think i’ll ever be as close to anyone or anything as i was to her. each time i cried or was in silent pain she’d be there, & she’d comfort me. i love her more than anything, even after she’s passed. i have the “talking with heaven” oracle & i’ve been using it to communicate with her. the cards i’ve pulled out have instantly sent me into tears. i was holding her clay pawprint & i swear, on my life, i felt a cat brush against my leg, just like she always had. i know she’s here with me, i can sense it. but it physically hurts that i have to go to sleep each night without her there with me. it feels like each time i get a little better & finally see hope, something crushing happens. it keeps getting worse, & going through each day entertaining my friends & coming home just to feel so empty & alone is heartbreaking. i’m trying so hard to keep pushing, but without my cat here, i honestly feel guilty if i continue with my life. i hate doing anything exciting knowing that when i get home, she won’t be there. i don’t want to feel happy without her here. & i’m terrified of relationships. my abuser really messed me up for life. i can’t trust anybody anymore, & the thought of a happy relationship makes me sick. i hate saying i love you & being vulnerable. i don’t want to depend on somebody ever again. & i’m afraid if i get into another relationship, it’ll be just as bad as the one i’ve been dwelling on. to comment this, i paused the video & the timestamp is 11:11!! anyway, i really hope things will get better. i know my cat is watching over me at all times. i just wish i could lay with her one last time. i hope all this pain i’ve gone through, & still am going through, will be worth it someday.
Pile 3 - screamed my name- and oh my god i needed to hear all of this. I was so anxious today and I watched this and was instantly at peace. Thank you so much 💚
I have had a really tough time lately. I saw the stacks and immediately knew that 2 would speak to me but one was louder. I watched it and it was so incredibly on point for me that I sobbed. I moved along and watched another video but kept being pulled to watch the second stack. I sobbed again. You are so incredibly blessed and I can't thank you enough for what you do. I feel like the universe spoke to me personally through you. Thank you so so much. Blessings, healing, and love to everyone watching and reading.
Pile 1 literally hit exactly how i needed it. Im in a relationship but it isnt how it used to be. Im not happy anymore. I've been unsure of what to do and i have been desperately trying to find answers. "Dont settle out of fear" this spoke to me. Whats been holding me back is fear of hurting her. I need to let the decision come to me and stop trying to look for it in otber places. Thank you !!!
@@olive7148 im glad it was validating! As someone who can relate, i really hope for the best for you!!! Remember dont let fear hold you back, you'll do great in whatever decision you make :)
Pile 3 here! That was probably the best reading I've ever had! It was so indepth and on the nose, on so many points and pearls of wisdom., and insights!! It brought me to tears too, throughout the reading! Blessings to you, and when you coughed and talked about the throat Chakra, that was so incredibly true for me! Thank you🌼💙💚💜🌞
Pile 3- Oh this hit hard. I’ve been in a dark night of the soul for the last 6 years and am absolutely skeptical of anything good. I do know that my intuition is telling me to do something that will naturally change my trajectory but fear and doubt (and lack of time) are lurking. Thank you.
Pile 1 was super clear to me, Eso! I think I cried three times during it. Not one ord was confusing to me, you channeled perfectly that awful spiritual chaos that is my energy today (after a rude but very much needed kundalini awakening in Sep 2020, as I turned 31). It's intense to bear the knowledge and wisdom of spirit, because it is a habit that becomes a talent, being able to separate ego from spirit under longer periods of time during ones life. That is difficult for someone like, who likes her shit together and in control (following that mind says that exact second). The second thing that is a damn talent, is masterrng how to combine the spiritual with the physical, and learn to manifest exactly what you know you are here for. Personally, I am having a really hard time with that, giving my spiritual knowledge physical form, and that is due to fears. My mental and emotional state are out of order, and often chaos. I have the classic wounds of self-sabotaging, self-undoing, addictions, mental disorders (Moon in 12th house). low self-esteem due to poor bod-image (Venus square Saturn and Chiron in the 1st house). My life has been an escape from it, from myself, since I was a teenager. And I still AM that person, but now I know HOW to not be her, and most importantly, I just don't want to be her anymore. I'm not happy with not understanding what the fuck is going on inside of me, in my brain and in my heart. I have no idea what (and why) is happening in, for most of the time. Because obviously, I do take quite a lot of decisions and actions, but I always find myself somewhere like "what the fuck, I should be in bed, or not doing this, not spending time on this", and just feeling I made the wrong decision. Again. I do cry like spontaneously during the day, but I'm not always sure which one of all the sad things I have, that's it about this time, or if it just self-pity (Cancer Ascendent conjunct Jupiter wohoooo). Unfortunately, I am also a Gemini Moon and Libra Venus, with Sun, Mars and Mercury in Virgo, which are are very controlling, rational and like to think that they already know what works and not. This air and earth just hates the feels, the stillness of the mind and body, all of that. You just described it so well and accurate regarding the chaos in that running mind (air), with no habit of self-reflection at all! I just hate being on my own with my thoughts and feelings, BUT I wasnt like that as a child and young teenager. It's a wound /trauma that I haven't taken time to heal, although I know exactly what it is, It's weird. At some point, I started being afraid of own my mind and inner world, it got too much, out of control. Especially now when I connect so well with spirit, since the kundalini awakening. I guess it's so vast it's just too much to handle, and that makes me not even giving it any tries. It's a weird journey. A few healers have said it's a karmic, generational wound (especially not being able to have long relationships, because I never am in contact with my sacral chakra, where the healing of self-love happens). I'm almost only in the throat or third eye, always have been, not respecting my poor Cancer-Ascendent and 3 planets in the 4th house. Rational, fast, impulsive, afraid of strong emotions, losing control, not knowing, takings risks, etc. And spirit is like "just STOP, feel and explore what you're feeling here, stand still, feel your feet, the fresh air, feel LIFE, everything will be FINE". And I'm like "nope, that's scary, what if I start feeling or thinking about something uncomfortable?", and keep walking. So yeah Eso, that was some very specific, on-point channelling you did there! Funny how you kept saying you felt it was so confusing and un-clear, and hoped anyone understood anything;:') Thanks Spirit for coming through. You know I know. I'm just finding the courage to do it.
Pile 1 and 3 (got called to 2 sort of, too) and I'm feeling exhausted. Yes, I'm feeling hesitant to take on something, though for some of them I've taken the first steps. The issue is that I feel like I keep on waiting for certain opportunities and working towards solving other issues in my life, and it's like there's just this non-ending weight coming up constantly. These past months I've been crying non-stop and just praying, also using other activities to help me. I cannot take it anymore. I'm tired, It's non-stop tower moments. Even this week, it's like all kinds of things going not according to plan even stuff like mail. In the 3D, currently at least I'm not in relationship.
Wishing you well Mari, I don't know you, but I feel your chaos-- I picked this pile too, and it really resonated with all of the turmoil going on in my life. I'm stuck in my gigantic tower moment, feeling trapped. Eager to move forward, but trying to figure out all of the ways to be able to support myself and family in my future. I'm thinking of you, sending you light, and wishing you strength and courage on your journey. As a collective we all can send out love and light to each other in support. Hang in there.
I chose Pile 3. I'm a Scorpio moon and rising. I have CPTSD and traumatic relationships, been bullied as well but I've been doing my best to heal since last year. Thank you for your love and kindness, the reading was beautiful. Sending love to you. Sending love to anyone who's hurting ❤🖤
Pile 3 resonated from beginning to end 🖤 Scorpionic aspects, 8th house Pisces moon, 4th house Pluto squaring ascendant...I have CPTSD as well. Didn't realize how f'd up I was until I buried my mother in 2020. I lost my footing and found myself in a dark hole. All of my life traumas resurfaced and engulfed me in a sinkhole of pain. I cried during this entire reading. It all hurts deeply. I recently began a new job, which has been a blessing. I work graveyard shift for 8-12 hours, sometimes up to two weeks without rest days. The work is so intense that it forces my focus and doesn't allow me any time to think about anything else. I've gradually noticed an improvement in my energy levels. I laugh. I socialize. Yet my wounds run deep. I'm glad I watched this video, and I've been scrolling through to read up on other Pile 3 comments. Feel the shared pain and heartache, but also the Love. May we learn to love and trust ourselves as unconditionally as we have loved and trusted others. 💞
Pile 3: made me cry. multiple times. I had this big work i needed to do, and i was late. And so this whole week ive been in a depressive episode, crying a bunch. And just yesterday I was crying about lacking maturity, expecting so much from myself, and feeling like i dont deserve any of the love and help i get. Ive been getting angel numbers everyday constantly the past month, and when it all went down, they kept giving me 222, 444, 666. i needed this, the universe has my back, im safe and loved and protected.
Pile 4 - I knew it was mine because of the amethyst and because of the pagan tarot, one of the decks I own and love. It all really resonated, and I needed the reminder of what to focus on and why no other clear messages are coming in right now, because it's not time. I'm feeling totally alone and scared and the world is freaking me out, but I have to focus on me, my healing, and getting my vibration where I want it to be. You're readings are truly a channel. Thank you so much. As a fun aside, the card "everything is always working out for me" is an Abraham Hicks thing, and I've been waiting to see the phrase manifest in my life (I'm doing some manifestation experiments) and this was a wonderful gift from the universe. I enjoyed that so much!
Pile 4: omg! How!? I’ve never believed this stuff, but I clicked the video out of curiosity and it nailed it. My dad left me to foster care and I’ve been exposed to extreme trauma from a young age. I thought just yesterday that I had hit rock bottom.
Pile 3 had me in my feels. I was spirling Monday and I got this message Tuesday and Wednesday. But I need to hear it a lot because I think you and everyone who has said it are right.
pile 1 felt like you were talking through me!’ the overthinking and backtracking and confusion over the situation. the snowballing and not trusting myself. thank you. this is what ive been looking for
Pile 3, this reading resonates so much. Due to what happened to me when I was a child and when I was preteen, I can’t trust people. I feel uncomfortable around guys. Recently, a guy started flirting with me and showed interest in me and I really like him. Due to my trauma, I always second guess myself and feel like I will be a bother to him. Instead of trusting my intuition and heart I go for what my mind and anxiety is telling me. I don’t want to screw myself over this time and I will just go for it
Pile 3 + 1 - In that order because I was attracted to 3 first. But yeah, the messages on both piles definitely resonate with me. I think I've been told many times to release control, and I'm constantly fighting the urge to know what's going to happen next or this uneasy feeling when I don't know how to maneuver when I don't have control of a situation. That was definitely a lot of messages, so thank you so much for channeling!
Pile 2: I have been considering quitting my long-term career job for a solid month, and I actually resigned today and came here for confirmation and encouragement… I definitely know that I made the right decision.
wow I've got two readings to listen to buy already starting on pile 2 has me emotional 🥺 this is exactly what I needed to hear and I was wracked with anxiety today before listening to this
Thank you so much, it's so scary how pile 2 is so accurate for me. I'm currently TERRIFIED of taking back my life and getting away from toxicity and manipulation, I'm just one step away to achieving a new life. It may take time but I'll try to stay strong and maintain my guard and my posture. It's time for change, I NEED to change and to move forward in life I will no longer stay in the shadows of other people. It's time, I think now it's the best time and I think I'm ready to proceed. Thank you so much I needed to hear this so much many blessings to you!
Pile 1, here. I know you were saying in the reading that it was confusing to channel and may be frustrating, but that confusion and frustration was the thing that was NEEDED to feel validated in my exact situation!! Everything that you said and channelled was so specific to what I'm going through right now, including the confusion and just allowing the divine to show you what is happening in due time. Thank you so much for your energy with this reading, I'm truly blown away and so grateful!
Pile 3 "You may not be able to recognize certain opportunities as blessings & you may write them off before you have the opportunity to see what they are" Spot on! I always tend to self sabotage & have fear of exploration. Thanks for making me feel appreciated, be more open & to not be hard on myself. I'm so glad I clicked on this vid, you literally explained what I'm going through right now 🙏🏼
Pile 4: Just like the others, I crumbled within the first few minutes. Last year and this year has been bad events after bad events for me, just unlucky overall. I left a great and stable job to go after another career (by influence of my ex who is in the field) and failed big time as I entered a horrible, toxic workplace. Changed it up and felt like I went back to 0. Now I am unemployed, my ex broke up with me because I was in a bad place professionally and he said he couldn't trust me - even though he encouraged me to leave my stable job. I don't blame him at all. Instead, I keep blaming myself for every single decision I have ever made since leaving high school. I never imagined I would be in this situation at 27 years old. Today I had an anxiety crisis because everything seems impossible to me. I needed this message to slow down and stop belittling myself. I feel so ashamed of myself because I have always been so successfull as a child, teenager. Expectations have always been high. And as I wrote this last part, you said to remove expectations. I feel sad because I been there for a friend when they were at rock bottom, just like I am now, but now that person is not here for me and I feel their distance. I feel dejected and so small. I will keep this reading in mind and gain more understanding of myself, take things slow and give myself time to grow. Thank you so much for this🥺💗
Pile 4 healing from a psychologically and physically abusive relationship that also involved lots of comparison and insecurity in my body and beauty to other women. I'm currently still in this relationship, although we've been open and talking about this recent and past history in our relationship. Healing it together has been very very difficult because of the trauma created instinct I've developed along the way.
i usually watch these when they pop up bc i feel like it’s a sign i need to hear the message, for the past few days i’ve been struggling a lot and really just before i opened youtube i said i need to understand what’s going on, i saw this video and clicked on it, i was immediately drawn to pile three as soon as the video started, and when you said strong scorpio energy i started crying. this really is what i need rn thank you so much
pile 2 really was for me it brought me to tears i really was in a rut, divine timing is true i don't think it could have been summed up better, you are amazing thank you for this and i hope you are feeling okay after channeling all these heavy energies, you are extremely gifted with your words ✨️
Pile 4... so spot on... feeling exhausted and hopeless, thanks for being so empathetic and compassionate to complete strangers, it's really beautiful 💜
I got pile 2. And thanks, this reading made me realize I'm scared for the future, I'm going to move on to live alone and go to college and you know it's new and scary to imagine I have to do it all myself. Thank you very much. You open my eyes and mind because all this time I just didn't want to admit that I was afraid.
Pile 1: It totally resonates with my situation... I'm daily asking myself what I want... Not being a people pleaser or a naysayer... I have such family members f**** them... They told me these kinda sentences so often...like you chose very often wrong.. now I'm meditating and quieting these voices in my head and asking me if the choices that unfold themselves to me to choose feel good and like home to me ... Something like this😵💫🌞
Pile 2, this hit home big time. I need to work on the judgment I place on me and trusting + believing in my self. I do have a hard time stepping out of my element and have been dipping my toes in. I really needed to hear this and I’ve realized a couple things listening this evening. Thank you 💜
Pile 4: I’ve been a follower of your channel for awhile now, and my goodness you’re always so kind with your energy. I have been in a frozen state for awhile and been needing healing. I’ve been a super abusive relationship for the past year and I’m just now walking away. I’m happy to just hear the Im loved and protected. It’s really hard to be in this state and what you read is what I needed. Thank you for connecting and I hope that this healing does bring me summer. Bless 🙏🏻💕💕
Pile 2: I decided to be single for the first time in 7 years. My soul wanted to live my life on my terms. There was nothing really wrong in my most current relationship but it’s like I had to know myself without the influence of someone else. Im ready to start being kinder to myself and finding confidence to make my own decisions about how i want to live my life. I have been afraid, I have been detached for a long time, following others’ lead. Ugh man everything you said hit me so close. Im always afraid I’m going to fail or look dumb or get myself into trouble.
Pile 4: everything resonates. Thank you Eso for your encouraging words. I believe in my healing and to remind myself to be kind in every phases especially this time.
PILE 2: I needed this! I work in sales and feel like I’m the best god damn salesman in my store, but recently I lost my mojo. I even brought up contemplating getting plastic surgery with my wife tonight to look like “super man” I said I know how to talk to people and win them over but NO ONE IS BUYInG so I figured it has to be ME. My wife looked at me and said the only thing stopping you from aligning with you you know you can be and how you’re feeling is you! You can’t do work from the outside IN. Hearing this from you really validated how I’ve been feeling. I’m such a perfectionist that I’ve been crippled and not able to take any action because I don’t think anything would work out since I don’t feel worthy. But this reading really helped me to align myself to get my spunk back. Thank you esotarot been following you for forever and you always have on pint readings
Pile 4: my life has come to a dramatic pause full of trauma, hatred, self reflection and above all pain. This video made me realise I am not who i truly am I’m someone I’m pretending to be. Covering the pain with laughs and giggles, tons of wiggles and massive jiggles. After this video I’ve hit a pause of what I like to call the start of my healing. Who knew such a white woman with rainbow nails could tell me what I needed to hear. Ladies u don’t need a man/woman/whatever they are U only need u.
I really needed to hear that in pile 4. It’s like you’re speaking directly towards me, and tears just can’t stop flowing. I don’t really have much people to talk to about this drought and feeling of stillness and it’s so helpful that you said those kind words that I don’t ever tell myself. I wish you were my friend wholeheartedly. I love your videos for this reason. You’re the only reader that moves me and makes me see what is needed so I can improve myself. I appreciate you so much. It really is hard to deal with all the things I have went through and still currently going through… after having so many failed relationships and being betrayed by people that “loves” me. I just can’t seem to find any hope anymore. I know maybe I should see a therapist but just having this outlet makes it all the better. Thank you so much eso ❤️
I saw this vid on my feed and I've always loved Lemurian and blue color so this pile stood out to me instantly. It was sooo relatable. Pile 3- I have received lots of other card pulls and messages from my astrology reading that I need to work on self-love and trust myself more as I deserve it. Subconsciously I might have sabotaged myself thinking deep inside that I doubt if i can really make it and if I really deserve it when good things come my way. And told that I need to reconnect with my inner child more. From my childhood, I've always been brought up in a traditional Asian family that wants me to follow the conventional path, and I was conditioned to feel since young that I am not smart enough to accomplish success. Ever since my spiritual awakening, I've started to look at things differently, be more courageous to go for what I truly feel I should be doing. I have latetly started on some shadow work which i will be focused on clearing my childhood wound and self worth issues. Thank you for the message 💗
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You posting on my birthday is the best birthday present thank you!!
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The most spot on, accurate, read I've listened to. You are the best tarot reader in my opinion.
Thank you for your time & energy. Pile 3 here. 💜🥹🫶🏽
Pile 3: this reading made me cry, I realized I was walking on eggshells all this time thinking I'm just being cautious, but yes I need to trust myself more and that I'll be okay even if something doesn't match my expectations. To everyone who chose this pile, you are so precious and so beautiful, appreciate yourself more for your own self, for being this pure hearted even if others don't acknowledge that for you, you are amazing, let's love ourselves more💜💛
It made SO much sense to me too. Sending love back to you 💛
I cried too lol
Pile 3 here too. I resonated with this so much. 🥹🫶🏽
Thank you for your words, they made me tear up!
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Pile 3 🦋 I’ve secretly struggled with the emotional belief that there is no place for me in society, or the world. Major feelings of unworthiness. I didn’t even realise that this belief had developed over time until I heard this. Recently, a bunch of my most traumatic childhood and adolescent experiences have all been randomly brought to my attention and it’s made me feel like complete and utter crap every time. If you’ve been going through this issue or something similar, then you’ve probably been under the impression that you must be the only person in the world feeling this way, much like myself - which is why it amazed me when she said during the reading to notice how many other people were drawn to the same pile, who are going through similar things. We’re never alone, it’s so easy to forget but true nonetheless. Stay strong 🙏💖
Oh yes, this feeling of never belonging, being alien…all my life!!! For me too many childhood issues where brought to the surface recently…I thought I had healed, but obviously it hit me hard…feeling at point zero…hard, but in the if you are at a turning point, everything is possible 🥰
Blessings of love!
Too many with a crappy childhood in our backs.
Relate to everything. Stuffs coming up for me, too. 💗💗
Eleanor Roosevelt said: no one can make you feel inferior unless you allow them to. Stay strong and safe during this crazy thing called life🙏
Pile 4: “the only thing that’s not okay is to bully yourself shame yourself or gaslight yourself into thinking that any of your responses to what you’ve gone through is invalid or wrong” thank you Eso, i needed to hear that.
Same here girl.
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💜pile 4, here: i haven't been in a place where i feel this low in the longest time. i've worked so hard to maintain my composure and work through my journey of healing. it's felt like it all came crumbling to my feet suddenly in the past two months. from losing a job, not graduating at my projected time and having to watch so many of my college friends leave, troubles with a parent, and so many other weights... it's just been so heavy on my soul. i've felt like a failure, and at such a young age.
the message this pile had for my had me breaking down in the first few minutes. as soon as i saw the moon and the pentacles come out together, i knew i would have my entire situation laid out before me and it absolutely shattered my walls. now, i've noticed that i've been crying a lot lately. four times in the last 12 hours. but it's gotten easier and more freeing every time.
i know in my heart that things are going to get better. they have to, or else i'd have given up like you said the pile's felt the urge to. what little i can force myself to do in the day has made the nights easier to bear. i feel the universe calling to me so much. may not always feel i can answer its call, but i know it's there and i want so badly to see it through. you're right, eso, i absolutely needed to hear this.
to my other pile 4's - i see you. it's okay to cry. it's okay to have your heart ache for better. feel your feelings. things always seem worse before they get better. know that you don't have to be alone, and like eso says, you are so loved. take your time, everything's going to be okay 💕
#4 ❤😞 feeling for you. For us.
Pile 4 here: i usually actually tend to refrain from leaving comments (just due to internet safety and general anxiety 😅) but…i can’t just NOT leave a comment for this one. as soon as you said you wanted to give me a hug, i just…i bursted into tears. you NAILED this reading. it was spot on the whole time. i cried, i giggled a little, and i smiled, and i felt truly understood. life has been really really rough for me recently (especially involving my health and having a heart problem that doctors don’t know how to fix yet) and i’ve been exactly as you said; in a spiritual winter. i broke out my tarot deck yesterday even and just didn’t do a reading for some reason. i’m slowly working my way back into my spirituality and you’ve helped me stay in touch (even if only barely) with your channel, Eso. i truly appreciate your kind, caring nature, and how TRUTHFUL you always are. please keep doing what you’re doing. i really appreciate your videos ❤️
Blessings of love!
Came here to say the same. This is JUST what I needed to hear❤️ spot on. I am very grateful for this guidance ❤️ it gives me hope and help me to surrender more in this process. I've listened to @Esotarot
before. But this is the first time I took notes! Thank you🙏❤️
Soooo meee! Feel the same way!
I felt exactly the same way when I listened to it, when she said that there were people that made me feel unworthy I almost broke down because this is exactly what I needed to hear, not just that someone was there for me and that the universe cared and was helping me, but that they felt what I'm feeling, that they understood
we are all in this together pile 4. we all have different situations but synchronistically this random pile choice related so much to how ive been feeling too. ive been a recluse since january cuz of this "pulled the rug out from under" moment. it was like the final blow for me
Pile 3: I cried my eyes out when you said I’m deserving of things and I’m amazing. Thank you 🥺
pile 2: THIS WAS TOO ACCURATE. All the talk about fearing change and fearing taking control over my own life because im scared to make a mistake or fail was so true. especially just hearing about my inner child and how the only person holding me back is me was so needed. this pile made me so emotional because it resonated so much. this really was exactly what i needed to hear. I'm trying to step into my power and allow myself to grow and change more
Pile 3: This reading gave me internal shivers. I’m currently grappling with a decision I need to make where I don’t trust myself AT ALL and certainly do not trust any sort of “gut instinct”, and I can’t talk to anyone about it really. Part of this is because of horrendous things that happened in my childhood, so that part is spot on too. You are very good and very soothing in the way you speak 😊
Im just learning that holding the guard and resistance takes more energy than actually letting go and surrender.
And seeing that the strategies I've been using are not working so have to try a new approach.. and trust and see what's going to change. And if my ego scares me or sabotages me I can tell it it's just a challenge for few days and after we can go back haha but in this moment of space I see when I trust , there's space for synchronicities, miracles , flow ✨ magic ✨
Lots of love to you dear , we got this ⭐🔥⭐🖖🛸💫
@@joannas6684, this is all coming to me now too. i feel like it’s a collective consciousness happening.
Literally same it's hard to trust for me rn with trusting myself and others and the universe
I only trust God rn so yea.
@@prettyfemme you might realize that you're not separate from god and that you him and universe is the same force ⭐ and yes lovely to trust back in yourself and others is a big process .. slowly slowly we open up more we learn we are safe, we learn our boundaries, we learn to express to listen to ourselves to protect ourselves and to trust ⭐
Much love to you 🌺🌿
@@LaciRae Yessss major shifts ⭐ some months ago i felt like rollercoaster up and downs ups and downs wow was intense... Now it feels more less stable and more less i keep some rememberance so i don't fall in to 3d dramas so much 😅
Pile 1: just what I needed to hear, never settle for less and don’t let anyone stop you from accomplishing your dreams ❤️
Pile 3: SO SO SO SOOOO ACCURATE
I hope to find that in myself soon to get out of self-sabotage and open more to good opportunities and good things🥺
Pile 4 just brought me to my knees. I’ve been struggling with the realization that I have no one. I’ve walked away from “family” and an ex who only ever took from me. I’m caring for myself and prioritizing myself for the first time, but healing is hard. I just want to be hugged and held, but there’s no one - and for fucks’ sake hugging myself and using weighted blankets just don’t fucking help. I can’t stand everything online saying “love yourself.” I can’t physically hold myself when I’m falling apart.
Sending gratitude to you, Eso.
Pile 4:
I’ve been having a low self-esteem for a long time, and hearing that things might get better has honestly made me kind of emotional, because it’s been something I couldn’t believe for such a long time. Thank you eso. 🦋🦋🦋
This definitely made me emotional bcs it's resonates with me so well.... I have been suffering from low self-esteem from past few days....... And this reading definitely made ne fell alot more better...
Pile 2: I was immediately pulled to it and honestly, you've brought tears to my eyes because I know that literally everything that you've said is true and applies to me. I am at a huge turning point in my life and I feel like I'm so scared that I've been self-sabotaging myself, so I really needed to hear this...
Blessings of love!
Me too. I also got that pile and ever since I’ve started my journey of self improvement, my life has improved but my anxiety has somewhat lingered. I no longer get anxious about drama and such things as much but instead about my own overthinking and if it will manifest bad things into my life. It’s self contradicting because I overthink because I don’t want anything bad to happen to me but in the end it makes me more prone to bad things. Idk if this happens to u too but it’s been my life for a few months now and honestly I always need to be reminding myself of what pile 2 was saying because it’s so easy to forget.
Also pile 2
This hit so hard! & ironically im AFRAID of how accurate it was because im so hesitant about this opportunity for change. My family has started the process applying for visas to move from the U.S. to Australia and since talking to the immigrant agent I have had such extreme swings from being excited and hopeful to extreme fear and sadness and not wanting to leave the house I love so much. I came here wondering if we should back out and stay where we know we are secure and I feel like was telling me to make the move but that is so terrifying 😭
Pile 2 as well. I’ve been feeling the exact same way. Sending love!
@@Srwimbish I've been invited to move there as well. How is it?
Pile 4: This morning I wanted to share something with my mom but she passed away last month. She understood me to my core. I would share my dreams and my spirituality with her.. It makes me feel so alone having no one to share those things that understand me and connect with me on that level. Thank you eso.
Hopefully she is a better and happiness place now then this materialistic and painful reality
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So sorry for your loss. 💔 Wishing you comfort and peace.
Sending you so much love💕
pile 1 here of the commitment-phobic camp. damn...this was spot on. the real-or maybe final-clincher for me was the sovereign queen maeve oracle card. i interpreted it as confirmation that i maintain sovereignty over myself regardless of my relationship status. entering into a romantic commitment does not strip me of my independence; it doesn't void my boundaries. i have agency always, and i do not need to be in control to exercise it.
wow. just...thank you.
pile 3: i struggle a lot with knowing what my intuition is, but not because of anxiety alone. i’ve always been an escapist, and i’ve always thought situations/people were “destined” for me, just for them to turn out to be pretty shit. in the spiritual community, we talk a lot about pessimism and insecurity, but only how it manifests itself through one lens. i realized a lot of my insecurities manifest into forms of being overly optimistic in ways that aren’t healthy and truthfully just deny reality.
i also never thought/felt like i was undeserving of love and connection because of my trauma, instead i thought the world and all those experiences didn’t deserve me. i loathed people for having fun and enjoying life because i’m so wrapped up in my internal world and inner work, and i’ve led such a serious life over the past 2+ years. however, maybe that’s really just a paradoxical thing where i think it’s because i think the world doesn’t deserve me, but subconsciously it’s the other way around.
pile 4; this just was spot on. everything makes sense, and not going to lie, it was so emotional that I cried a bit during this. I've been going through such a hard time, it's refreshing to know this is actually going to work out okay and that the universe was just telling me to slow down and to heal. thank you for giving me this message
Pile 3, it's really insane how you talked about self-sabotaging because my costar talked about it yesterday! Ive been struggling alone a lot this year, and it's been really hard for me to heal. Thank you for this reading
I've heard of parts work! Haven't got to it yet, it seems there's so much to do on our healing journey... I found emotional body healing work helpful, though. Sending you love, from another pile 3.
I heard about parts work, let me know if it helps. I was curious about it
I am surprised I have not heard of parts work therapy before today. I am definitely going to do some research now as it seems like it would be helpful in dealing with childhood trauma. Thank you so much for your comment! 💜
Pile 1: Life in every aspect has been absolutely crazy, confusing, strange, and a struggle. It’s been this way for a couple of months now. This was completely accurate. Before i clicked on this video i was meditating and the thought popped into my head “I need to open my pandora’s box and heal.” then boom. this reading. thank you, blessed be.
Pile 3.... my father passed away unexpectedly this past Friday, May 13th. Most devastating thing that has ever happened to me.... I'm currently trying to keep my childhood home of 18 years & caring for my little brother (who still lived with our father) & 5 year old son...😭😭 my whole world has been turned upside down, but trying to remain strong for my boys & keep our home ❤😭🙏 it's such a process. My soul is broken, but I'm doing EVERYTHING I possibly can. I've been trying to look more into my emotions & keep my logical brain, but everything just feels like mush 😵💫 I've been living out of a notebook with EVERYTHING written down.
Relationship wise, I've been single since before my son was born. That experience was very traumatic as well. My father was my sons best friend & leading man role in his life. That i am so grateful for 😭❤🙏
Thank you for this reading ❤🙏
Pile 2- I just wanna say thank you because I swear your readings are whole therapy sessions for me. So grateful for you, the only reader I watch.
Pile 2: "I think you need more Aries energy in your life" -- This is literally what I have been thinking to myself lately
Pile 4 was EXACTLY what I needed to hear. I've been going through past trauma experiences mentally, and I keep bullying myself that other people push through it so why can't I? It's so bad that it's affecting my new job. But it is also helping me realize that I dont need to stay in a job that is emotionally and spiritually draining just because it pays well. Thank you so much for doing this reading!
Pile 1. I’ve been in the process of transformation/change for a while now, and I’ve been very resistant at times to where things have been crumbling before my eyes. While this reading has been confirmation (for the millionth time) of what I’ve been getting intuitively, it’s also real hard knowing that I’ve been the cause of towers crumbling in my life. 🙏🏼💖
This is my pile too and I completely understand that frustration. I was sure about my divorce and very happy afterwards, but nowadays I feel confused and lonely.. please never forget that we cannot change past, but we can always change today and plant good seeds for tomorrow 😊 sometimes your heart needs to break to see how loving it can get.. sending best wishes and prayers good soul may light be with you 🙏
@@meralmercan21 🙏🏼💖 I’m sending you prayers and blessings as well. I hope the loneliness and confusion pass for you soon. 💖💖
Pile 4 really tore me up. This reading was so accurate like you literally answered all of my questions that flood my mind on a daily basis. It’s so exhausting. Thank you so much for the reading 🥲🫶🏽
Bless you child
Pile 2: You view positivity as delusion....got me. Such a beautiful message, thanks so much!
I've never watched tarot videos before, haven't had a reading since high school. I'm a highly skeptical, but also spiritual person. When this vid popped up on my home page I almost scoffed and kept scrolling, but I stopped myself and thought "why the hell not? Maybe the universe has a message."
I chose pile 4. I got to the oracle cards and "Allowance" gave me chills. The rest...had me in tears. I'll just say I needed to hear it all. Every. Last. Word.
The universe is amazing and I think I'm gonna keep trusting it. Thank you, so so much.
Pile 4: I’ve struggled with depression for about 7 years. I was better but last year at the end of the year it got so bad. I’m coming out of it but I am definitely still struggling. I really resonated with the part when you spoke about actually being a really ambitious person. I used to be. I feel completely lost and I used to be so much better at Handel of things. I am trying hard. This was so helpful thank you.
hey stranger ........ you are really really strong and motivating ....... hang in there ........ we all love you and are waiting for you to come back better ......... ily...sending hugss >>>>
you are not alone. been struggling with depression for ca 13 years now. my whole adult life has been completely wasted by this. i want so much but can do very little. i also thought i was getting better last year and then it got much worse again. some days i feel hope again though. i'm certain there is for you, as well. i'm rooting for ya. idk if this is any helpful, i just wanted to comment how much i relate.
Also pile 4. You're not alone. I as well have been suffering with depression for about 10 years, and the past two years it was a little better but been teetering on a fine line as of late. I promise you it gets better. Please please don't forget to reach out for yourself even if it's just watching eso's videos. Or getting yourself your favorite fruit flavored beverage. It will get better.
Pile 4. I’ve been going through it with my significant other because I’m in this spiritual winter and he’s not. Tonight I finally let go and I’ve been crying about it all night and this reading has answered a lot of the overthinking questions that circle around my head, I really did not want to let go of him but I felt deep down it was what I was supposed to do and you saying “what’s meant for you will always come back to you” and that has made me feel 50x better because if he’s meant for me he will come back and if he’s not he just isn’t
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Not gonna lie...i needed that. Cried a few tears, with that exhausting feeling in my core. Time to inhale, exhale, breath.
Common PILE 2! We gonna rock that shit!
Pile 3 here, I could relate to every word. It is exactly what I needed to hear in the middle of the existential crisis I've been going through. Ty so much ♥️
Pile 2. Definitely me, myself and I is my own biggest enemy, the person who avoid and stops everything. This reading is indeed much needed. Thanks eso!!💗💓💞
Can totally relate to this , but from now we won't let it repeat for us. The next time someone offers us love we'll let it come in our lives , the next time we get an opportunity to learn something new or do something which ignites us we'll go for it no matter what, the next time we see someone who needs help we'll offer them help , be the light spread lovee and remember to take rest and care , we'll water ourselves with loveee because we deserve it! ❤️✨🕊️🌻
@@gro643 Yessssss!!!!!! You go glen coco!
Pile 3: thank you so much for this reading, I cried while watching this. I remember, at about 12 or13, praying for the light inside of me to be hidden because the people around me seemed to be irritated by it. (In my light was my confidence, wit, humor, and creative expression amongst other things I'm sure) That seemed to work for a while because things got better and I could survive. Now that I'm no longer in survival mode, I realize that the whole time the only one who couldn't see my light was me. This reading was a beautiful reminder that although I am just learning to see it, my light is always shining bright and its okay to be aware of it and to love openly. The same goes for you. You are a beautiful soul who deserves to see your own beauty. I love you ❤️
Truth!
Jealous people
Pile 3: Thank you so much. There were so many golden nuggets of wisdom in this that I'm going to watch again and write them down.
To all the pile 3s - love you all 💕💕💕
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Love ya!! 💜
Pile 4: after dealing with intense physical and emotional sickness from mold poisoning, I was gaslit by family members who built the house for us. This was a perfect reading for me... I feel like mentally I'm ready to move on, I've been wanting it so badly but I know I need to rest and heal first. My programs were telling me I needed to jump back and go back to school and I know deep down I need to give myself more time.
I'm really thankful for your advice and your reading ❤
Oh my goodness 😭😭 I hope you’re doing okay now. That is so terrible.
Pile 2 here, I really appreciate what you said about nihilism in this! Reminds me of a talk by Allan Watts about the choice we have in our perspective of the world/our lives. I have a Mars in Aries and I've been trying to allow that energy to come thru me more. I'm also doing extensive inner child work that relates to the release of self judgement. Thank you for such an insightful read!!! 🔥🔥🔥
Pile 4. Just in the first 5 minutes of my reading my jaw literally dropped. I really needed this. My life has been one thing after another and so much betrayal but my own mother and ex boyfriend. I moved and started my healing and I already feel so much better. My life feels like it's coming back together
Pile 2 really resonated, as i've been stuck in a analysis paralysis for what feels like a lifetime now. i'm coming out of it now and have worked on building the self worth and confidence in finding myself which has been a tremendous leap for me. but what frustrates me is that at this point in life, analysis paralysis is no longer whats stopping me from taking risks. i literally don't have any resources... i'm too broke to move or quit my unfulfilling job or go to school or make any significant change in my life that i've been craving for years. i wish the only thing stopping me at this point was action, or fear of failure, or any of that. I want change but i'm poor and exhausted and there isn't really a path for people like me who are poor enough to be stuck, but getting by just enough to not have options for help. Change is scary and hard but there isn't anything i want more right now because I really can't take much more of living like this.
I totally get what you're saying. I feel like I've also been stuck in a similar situation where I want to create change in my life but I just don't know what a viable action would be. It's like all the energy for change is there but I just don't have an appropriate outlet for it. Right now, I'm just trying to make small changes in my life. As much as I want to put all my energy into my next course of action, I also know that I have no idea what that is. So I'm just trying to do things that make sense to me now like staying healthy and reading more (because I love stories). And I guess also recognizing that this is a difficult time and that it's okay to feel uncertain about things.
You're strong enough to have realise it all uptil now , Trust me brighter days are coming , good sound sleeps , healthy satisfactions , emotional fulfilment is on its way, you're so close to the miracle that's about to happen in your life, Remember it's one step at a time and you'll rise again! ❤️👼 Sending lovee, hope and positivity your way! 🕊️🌻✨❤️✨
Pile 2 (Citrine Point): just the message I needed to hear right now! I am directly in a new path right now and the future can seem overwhelming but at same time freeing. The point of not letting mind/fears hold me back was a very clear message and really spells out what i've already known. Also the point about not seeing how much i've grown was spot on, I may not feel that I have but looking back on past paths/decisions I can see it now. Thanks so much for this reading.
I was LITERALLY just thinking “hmm, I should probably rewatch the video from Eso that I fell asleep to yesterday” (You put me right to sleep and my insomnia loves you for it) then this video popped up! Am currently listening to pile 3, hope it’ll help bring some clarity to my currently situation. Love you so much 💕
Funny I fall asleep so fast when I’m watching a juicy eso tarot video.
Pile 3 : it hit me so hard, my grandfather just passed and I’ve been struggling with a lot after his death and even before. I’ve been trying to understand my anxiety and intuition these past couple of days, it’s all so wonky. This really put things together for me, thank you so much! I needed to hear this, you’re amazing for this. 💕
Wow….The same has happened to me with my grandfather..sending you love🤍
@@amrvida oh thank you so much, bless your heart 💕💕
I wasn’t close to mine but he also passed so it definitely added to my pile of negativity
pile 1. I am already in tears. This is such a tough phase of my life. Hope it ends soon.
Eso is the entire reason that I believe in tarot. Her readings are always so damm accurate. She always tells me what I need to hear in the most sympathetic ways. Pile 4 was so real. Feeling stuck in a spiritual winter right now but after this video I feel like I have all the tools within to grow or stay still for a while, whichever is best for me.
Pile 3: you’re always literally speaking to me😩 I love the longer readings. It’s so detailed and helpful bc my energy has been so… unpredictable. Thank you always for the transparency and realness everytime!!! BLESS 💙
Pile 3 here. That is EXACTLY how I grew up. I keep feeling stuck, even if I'm moving. And I know blocking my blessings. Anyone else wanna connect?
Pile 3: thank you for reminding me that I'm human, and to take chances again
Pile 3: Spot on. I was diagnosed with ptsd 15 years ago. Although I have done the work and feel so much better in many ways, I definitely second guess all choices. I have seen it as a necessary step to be vigilant. This reading opened my eyes.
Whew pile 2! 🔥omg I needed to hear this right now! Lol...So true about how my parents and people i surrounded myself with growing up made me feel like I couldn't (or shouldn't) have agency over my own life. It was crazy..people just being super over protective of me who were controlling..even now as an almost 50 year old woman (next year! 🙌) with all of my Many accomplishments, my dysfunctional parents STILL try to control and manipulate my life and way of thinking. We have had many catfights over the years regarding this, but I recently decided that I've been wasting my energy all these years because they aren't going to change..so I've put up major boundaries and taken some actions (distancing)that hurt to do, but its the only way I can live a normal life!
pile 2: this resonated so deeply within me. looking back to 2021 when i started my journey, i was so tightly strung and mentally unhappy. thanks for the reminder to celebrate my progress!
I was literally reading for myself when the notification popped, picked pile 4 and I wanted to thank you for the sympathetic first response to the energy! Your readings are highly appreciated! ❤️
Pile 3 this so resonated for me, I have felt over the years I close down more and more with people. I think this is mainly due to how my family have treated me. I hope all of us with this pile can start believing in ourselves and people more. Thank you for a great reading ❤
Pile 3!
I just saw the epsilon card in my own deck. Wonderful confirmation.
My notes:
Be less hard on oneself. Trust the universe has my back. Everything is always working out for me.
pile 1:)
i never comment on these even though i always watch your readings, but this one made me cry immediately. i’ve been trying so desperately to heal from my abusive relationship from only a year ago, just to keep going back to square one. it’s as though i heal & then ‘relapse’ in a sense. in the midst of this; my cat passed away on june 8th. i thought things really couldn’t get any worse. it’s like i hit rock bottom but each time i somehow find an even rockier bottom underneath. my mom said she has no hope and it’s like she’s “beating a dead horse” because i’ve barely improved, in fact, i’ve gotten worse. i already feel terrible all the time and knowing she has no hope for me justifies me having no hope for myself.
i’ve had my cat since i was a little kid, maybe 5. i’ve always believed that she’s my familiar spirit. each time i’d read tarot she’d be right there next to me. each night she slept with me, right on my chest. she’s been with me through it all. i don’t think i’ll ever be as close to anyone or anything as i was to her. each time i cried or was in silent pain she’d be there, & she’d comfort me. i love her more than anything, even after she’s passed. i have the “talking with heaven” oracle & i’ve been using it to communicate with her. the cards i’ve pulled out have instantly sent me into tears. i was holding her clay pawprint & i swear, on my life, i felt a cat brush against my leg, just like she always had. i know she’s here with me, i can sense it. but it physically hurts that i have to go to sleep each night without her there with me.
it feels like each time i get a little better & finally see hope, something crushing happens. it keeps getting worse, & going through each day entertaining my friends & coming home just to feel so empty & alone is heartbreaking. i’m trying so hard to keep pushing, but without my cat here, i honestly feel guilty if i continue with my life. i hate doing anything exciting knowing that when i get home, she won’t be there. i don’t want to feel happy without her here.
& i’m terrified of relationships. my abuser really messed me up for life. i can’t trust anybody anymore, & the thought of a happy relationship makes me sick. i hate saying i love you & being vulnerable. i don’t want to depend on somebody ever again. & i’m afraid if i get into another relationship, it’ll be just as bad as the one i’ve been dwelling on.
to comment this, i paused the video & the timestamp is 11:11!!
anyway, i really hope things will get better. i know my cat is watching over me at all times. i just wish i could lay with her one last time. i hope all this pain i’ve gone through, & still am going through, will be worth it someday.
Pile 3: All I can say is thank you, I really needed to hear this
Pile 4: "You're not broken"
I really needed this bc 2 days ago I told my mum I was broken. I don't know how this coincidence happened, but thank you.
Pile 3 - screamed my name- and oh my god i needed to hear all of this. I was so anxious today and I watched this and was instantly at peace. Thank you so much 💚
I have had a really tough time lately. I saw the stacks and immediately knew that 2 would speak to me but one was louder. I watched it and it was so incredibly on point for me that I sobbed. I moved along and watched another video but kept being pulled to watch the second stack. I sobbed again. You are so incredibly blessed and I can't thank you enough for what you do. I feel like the universe spoke to me personally through you. Thank you so so much. Blessings, healing, and love to everyone watching and reading.
Pile 1 literally hit exactly how i needed it. Im in a relationship but it isnt how it used to be. Im not happy anymore. I've been unsure of what to do and i have been desperately trying to find answers. "Dont settle out of fear" this spoke to me. Whats been holding me back is fear of hurting her. I need to let the decision come to me and stop trying to look for it in otber places. Thank you !!!
This was so validating to hear as a fellow pile 1! I'm in the same boat. Sending you love and clarity, you've got this!
@@olive7148 im glad it was validating! As someone who can relate, i really hope for the best for you!!! Remember dont let fear hold you back, you'll do great in whatever decision you make :)
pile 3: one of my biggest issues lately has been battling anxiety vs intuition, this was rlly eye opening
Pile 3 here!
That was probably the best reading I've ever had! It was so indepth and on the nose, on so many points and pearls of wisdom., and insights!! It brought me to tears too, throughout the reading!
Blessings to you, and when you coughed and talked about the throat Chakra, that was so incredibly true for me! Thank you🌼💙💚💜🌞
Pile 4: this hit me in the heart. It was exactly what I needed to hear. Thanks for being you.
Pile 3- Oh this hit hard. I’ve been in a dark night of the soul for the last 6 years and am absolutely skeptical of anything good. I do know that my intuition is telling me to do something that will naturally change my trajectory but fear and doubt (and lack of time) are lurking. Thank you.
Pile 1 was super clear to me, Eso! I think I cried three times during it. Not one ord was confusing to me, you channeled perfectly that awful spiritual chaos that is my energy today (after a rude but very much needed kundalini awakening in Sep 2020, as I turned 31).
It's intense to bear the knowledge and wisdom of spirit, because it is a habit that becomes a talent, being able to separate ego from spirit under longer periods of time during ones life. That is difficult for someone like, who likes her shit together and in control (following that mind says that exact second). The second thing that is a damn talent, is masterrng how to combine the spiritual with the physical, and learn to manifest exactly what you know you are here for. Personally, I am having a really hard time with that, giving my spiritual knowledge physical form, and that is due to fears. My mental and emotional state are out of order, and often chaos. I have the classic wounds of self-sabotaging, self-undoing, addictions, mental disorders (Moon in 12th house). low self-esteem due to poor bod-image (Venus square Saturn and Chiron in the 1st house).
My life has been an escape from it, from myself, since I was a teenager. And I still AM that person, but now I know HOW to not be her, and most importantly, I just don't want to be her anymore. I'm not happy with not understanding what the fuck is going on inside of me, in my brain and in my heart. I have no idea what (and why) is happening in, for most of the time. Because obviously, I do take quite a lot of decisions and actions, but I always find myself somewhere like "what the fuck, I should be in bed, or not doing this, not spending time on this", and just feeling I made the wrong decision. Again.
I do cry like spontaneously during the day, but I'm not always sure which one of all the sad things I have, that's it about this time, or if it just self-pity (Cancer Ascendent conjunct Jupiter wohoooo). Unfortunately, I am also a Gemini Moon and Libra Venus, with Sun, Mars and Mercury in Virgo, which are are very controlling, rational and like to think that they already know what works and not. This air and earth just hates the feels, the stillness of the mind and body, all of that. You just described it so well and accurate regarding the chaos in that running mind (air), with no habit of self-reflection at all! I just hate being on my own with my thoughts and feelings, BUT I wasnt like that as a child and young teenager. It's a wound /trauma that I haven't taken time to heal, although I know exactly what it is, It's weird.
At some point, I started being afraid of own my mind and inner world, it got too much, out of control. Especially now when I connect so well with spirit, since the kundalini awakening. I guess it's so vast it's just too much to handle, and that makes me not even giving it any tries. It's a weird journey. A few healers have said it's a karmic, generational wound (especially not being able to have long relationships, because I never am in contact with my sacral chakra, where the healing of self-love happens). I'm almost only in the throat or third eye, always have been, not respecting my poor Cancer-Ascendent and 3 planets in the 4th house. Rational, fast, impulsive, afraid of strong emotions, losing control, not knowing, takings risks, etc.
And spirit is like "just STOP, feel and explore what you're feeling here, stand still, feel your feet, the fresh air, feel LIFE, everything will be FINE".
And I'm like "nope, that's scary, what if I start feeling or thinking about something uncomfortable?", and keep walking.
So yeah Eso, that was some very specific, on-point channelling you did there! Funny how you kept saying you felt it was so confusing and un-clear, and hoped anyone understood anything;:')
Thanks Spirit for coming through. You know I know. I'm just finding the courage to do it.
When 2 Queens post on a single day, you know the day is blessed 🫶🏼😇
Pile 4- very spot on. I started crying. It was like a therapy session. Thank you so much ❤️
Pile 1 and 3 (got called to 2 sort of, too) and I'm feeling exhausted. Yes, I'm feeling hesitant to take on something, though for some of them I've taken the first steps. The issue is that I feel like I keep on waiting for certain opportunities and working towards solving other issues in my life, and it's like there's just this non-ending weight coming up constantly.
These past months I've been crying non-stop and just praying, also using other activities to help me. I cannot take it anymore. I'm tired, It's non-stop tower moments. Even this week, it's like all kinds of things going not according to plan even stuff like mail. In the 3D, currently at least I'm not in relationship.
Wishing you well Mari, I don't know you, but I feel your chaos-- I picked this pile too, and it really resonated with all of the turmoil going on in my life. I'm stuck in my gigantic tower moment, feeling trapped. Eager to move forward, but trying to figure out all of the ways to be able to support myself and family in my future. I'm thinking of you, sending you light, and wishing you strength and courage on your journey. As a collective we all can send out love and light to each other in support. Hang in there.
I chose Pile 3. I'm a Scorpio moon and rising. I have CPTSD and traumatic relationships, been bullied as well but I've been doing my best to heal since last year. Thank you for your love and kindness, the reading was beautiful. Sending love to you. Sending love to anyone who's hurting ❤🖤
Pile 3 resonated from beginning to end 🖤 Scorpionic aspects, 8th house Pisces moon, 4th house Pluto squaring ascendant...I have CPTSD as well. Didn't realize how f'd up I was until I buried my mother in 2020. I lost my footing and found myself in a dark hole. All of my life traumas resurfaced and engulfed me in a sinkhole of pain.
I cried during this entire reading. It all hurts deeply. I recently began a new job, which has been a blessing. I work graveyard shift for 8-12 hours, sometimes up to two weeks without rest days. The work is so intense that it forces my focus and doesn't allow me any time to think about anything else. I've gradually noticed an improvement in my energy levels. I laugh. I socialize. Yet my wounds run deep.
I'm glad I watched this video, and I've been scrolling through to read up on other Pile 3 comments. Feel the shared pain and heartache, but also the Love.
May we learn to love and trust ourselves as unconditionally as we have loved and trusted others. 💞
Pile 4: I just want to say that you helped more than you can ever imagine. Thank you thank you thank you
Pile 3: made me cry. multiple times. I had this big work i needed to do, and i was late. And so this whole week ive been in a depressive episode, crying a bunch. And just yesterday I was crying about lacking maturity, expecting so much from myself, and feeling like i dont deserve any of the love and help i get. Ive been getting angel numbers everyday constantly the past month, and when it all went down, they kept giving me 222, 444, 666. i needed this, the universe has my back, im safe and loved and protected.
Pile 4 - I knew it was mine because of the amethyst and because of the pagan tarot, one of the decks I own and love.
It all really resonated, and I needed the reminder of what to focus on and why no other clear messages are coming in right now, because it's not time. I'm feeling totally alone and scared and the world is freaking me out, but I have to focus on me, my healing, and getting my vibration where I want it to be. You're readings are truly a channel. Thank you so much.
As a fun aside, the card "everything is always working out for me" is an Abraham Hicks thing, and I've been waiting to see the phrase manifest in my life (I'm doing some manifestation experiments) and this was a wonderful gift from the universe. I enjoyed that so much!
Pile 4: omg! How!? I’ve never believed this stuff, but I clicked the video out of curiosity and it nailed it. My dad left me to foster care and I’ve been exposed to extreme trauma from a young age. I thought just yesterday that I had hit rock bottom.
Pile 3 had me in my feels. I was spirling Monday and I got this message Tuesday and Wednesday. But I need to hear it a lot because I think you and everyone who has said it are right.
pile 1 felt like you were talking through me!’ the overthinking and backtracking and confusion over the situation. the snowballing and not trusting myself. thank you. this is what ive been looking for
Pile 2- literally exactly what I needed to hear right now.
Pile 3, this reading resonates so much. Due to what happened to me when I was a child and when I was preteen, I can’t trust people. I feel uncomfortable around guys. Recently, a guy started flirting with me and showed interest in me and I really like him. Due to my trauma, I always second guess myself and feel like I will be a bother to him. Instead of trusting my intuition and heart I go for what my mind and anxiety is telling me. I don’t want to screw myself over this time and I will just go for it
Pile 3 + 1 - In that order because I was attracted to 3 first. But yeah, the messages on both piles definitely resonate with me. I think I've been told many times to release control, and I'm constantly fighting the urge to know what's going to happen next or this uneasy feeling when I don't know how to maneuver when I don't have control of a situation. That was definitely a lot of messages, so thank you so much for channeling!
Thank you for your courage writing this... i chose the same piles. Yeah the road has been long... Stay strong. xo
Pile 2: I have been considering quitting my long-term career job for a solid month, and I actually resigned today and came here for confirmation and encouragement… I definitely know that I made the right decision.
wow I've got two readings to listen to buy already starting on pile 2 has me emotional 🥺 this is exactly what I needed to hear and I was wracked with anxiety today before listening to this
Thank you so much, it's so scary how pile 2 is so accurate for me. I'm currently TERRIFIED of taking back my life and getting away from toxicity and manipulation, I'm just one step away to achieving a new life. It may take time but I'll try to stay strong and maintain my guard and my posture. It's time for change, I NEED to change and to move forward in life I will no longer stay in the shadows of other people. It's time, I think now it's the best time and I think I'm ready to proceed. Thank you so much I needed to hear this so much many blessings to you!
Pile 2: holy schmokes, I feel simultaneously called out and hyped up 🫣🥹 but it was so accurate and I really needed to hear that, thank you ❤️
Pile 1, here. I know you were saying in the reading that it was confusing to channel and may be frustrating, but that confusion and frustration was the thing that was NEEDED to feel validated in my exact situation!! Everything that you said and channelled was so specific to what I'm going through right now, including the confusion and just allowing the divine to show you what is happening in due time. Thank you so much for your energy with this reading, I'm truly blown away and so grateful!
Pile 3 "You may not be able to recognize certain opportunities as blessings & you may write them off before you have the opportunity to see what they are"
Spot on! I always tend to self sabotage & have fear of exploration. Thanks for making me feel appreciated, be more open & to not be hard on myself. I'm so glad I clicked on this vid, you literally explained what I'm going through right now 🙏🏼
Pile 4: Just like the others, I crumbled within the first few minutes. Last year and this year has been bad events after bad events for me, just unlucky overall. I left a great and stable job to go after another career (by influence of my ex who is in the field) and failed big time as I entered a horrible, toxic workplace. Changed it up and felt like I went back to 0. Now I am unemployed, my ex broke up with me because I was in a bad place professionally and he said he couldn't trust me - even though he encouraged me to leave my stable job. I don't blame him at all. Instead, I keep blaming myself for every single decision I have ever made since leaving high school. I never imagined I would be in this situation at 27 years old. Today I had an anxiety crisis because everything seems impossible to me. I needed this message to slow down and stop belittling myself. I feel so ashamed of myself because I have always been so successfull as a child, teenager. Expectations have always been high. And as I wrote this last part, you said to remove expectations. I feel sad because I been there for a friend when they were at rock bottom, just like I am now, but now that person is not here for me and I feel their distance. I feel dejected and so small. I will keep this reading in mind and gain more understanding of myself, take things slow and give myself time to grow. Thank you so much for this🥺💗
Pile 4 healing from a psychologically and physically abusive relationship that also involved lots of comparison and insecurity in my body and beauty to other women. I'm currently still in this relationship, although we've been open and talking about this recent and past history in our relationship. Healing it together has been very very difficult because of the trauma created instinct I've developed along the way.
i usually watch these when they pop up bc i feel like it’s a sign i need to hear the message, for the past few days i’ve been struggling a lot and really just before i opened youtube i said i need to understand what’s going on, i saw this video and clicked on it, i was immediately drawn to pile three as soon as the video started, and when you said strong scorpio energy i started crying. this really is what i need rn thank you so much
pile 2 really was for me it brought me to tears i really was in a rut, divine timing is true i don't think it could have been summed up better, you are amazing thank you for this and i hope you are feeling okay after channeling all these heavy energies, you are extremely gifted with your words ✨️
Pile 4... so spot on... feeling exhausted and hopeless, thanks for being so empathetic and compassionate to complete strangers, it's really beautiful 💜
I got pile 2. And thanks, this reading made me realize I'm scared for the future, I'm going to move on to live alone and go to college and you know it's new and scary to imagine I have to do it all myself. Thank you very much. You open my eyes and mind because all this time I just didn't want to admit that I was afraid.
Pile 1:
It totally resonates with my situation... I'm daily asking myself what I want... Not being a people pleaser or a naysayer... I have such family members f**** them... They told me these kinda sentences so often...like you chose very often wrong.. now I'm meditating and quieting these voices in my head and asking me if the choices that unfold themselves to me to choose feel good and like home to me ...
Something like this😵💫🌞
Pile 2, this hit home big time. I need to work on the judgment I place on me and trusting + believing in my self. I do have a hard time stepping out of my element and have been dipping my toes in. I really needed to hear this and I’ve realized a couple things listening this evening. Thank you 💜
Pile 4: I’ve been a follower of your channel for awhile now, and my goodness you’re always so kind with your energy. I have been in a frozen state for awhile and been needing healing. I’ve been a super abusive relationship for the past year and I’m just now walking away. I’m happy to just hear the Im loved and protected. It’s really hard to be in this state and what you read is what I needed. Thank you for connecting and I hope that this healing does bring me summer. Bless 🙏🏻💕💕
pile 2, i’m on the verge of tears - i needed to hear this so bad. thank you for your guidance, eso 💗
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Pile 2: I decided to be single for the first time in 7 years. My soul wanted to live my life on my terms. There was nothing really wrong in my most current relationship but it’s like I had to know myself without the influence of someone else. Im ready to start being kinder to myself and finding confidence to make my own decisions about how i want to live my life. I have been afraid, I have been detached for a long time, following others’ lead. Ugh man everything you said hit me so close. Im always afraid I’m going to fail or look dumb or get myself into trouble.
I am in the same exact situation..you are not alone❤ We got this❤
Pile 4: everything resonates. Thank you Eso for your encouraging words. I believe in my healing and to remind myself to be kind in every phases especially this time.
PILE 2: I needed this! I work in sales and feel like I’m the best god damn salesman in my store, but recently I lost my mojo. I even brought up contemplating getting plastic surgery with my wife tonight to look like “super man” I said I know how to talk to people and win them over but NO ONE IS BUYInG so I figured it has to be ME. My wife looked at me and said the only thing stopping you from aligning with you you know you can be and how you’re feeling is you! You can’t do work from the outside IN. Hearing this from you really validated how I’ve been feeling. I’m such a perfectionist that I’ve been crippled and not able to take any action because I don’t think anything would work out since I don’t feel worthy. But this reading really helped me to align myself to get my spunk back. Thank you esotarot been following you for forever and you always have on pint readings
Pile #3. I will come back to listen to my pile again.
Very accurate.
Pile 4: my life has come to a dramatic pause full of trauma, hatred, self reflection and above all pain. This video made me realise I am not who i truly am I’m someone I’m pretending to be. Covering the pain with laughs and giggles, tons of wiggles and massive jiggles. After this video I’ve hit a pause of what I like to call the start of my healing. Who knew such a white woman with rainbow nails could tell me what I needed to hear. Ladies u don’t need a man/woman/whatever they are
U only need u.
I really needed to hear that in pile 4. It’s like you’re speaking directly towards me, and tears just can’t stop flowing. I don’t really have much people to talk to about this drought and feeling of stillness and it’s so helpful that you said those kind words that I don’t ever tell myself. I wish you were my friend wholeheartedly. I love your videos for this reason. You’re the only reader that moves me and makes me see what is needed so I can improve myself. I appreciate you so much. It really is hard to deal with all the things I have went through and still currently going through… after having so many failed relationships and being betrayed by people that “loves” me. I just can’t seem to find any hope anymore. I know maybe I should see a therapist but just having this outlet makes it all the better. Thank you so much eso ❤️
I saw this vid on my feed and I've always loved Lemurian and blue color so this pile stood out to me instantly. It was sooo relatable. Pile 3- I have received lots of other card pulls and messages from my astrology reading that I need to work on self-love and trust myself more as I deserve it. Subconsciously I might have sabotaged myself thinking deep inside that I doubt if i can really make it and if I really deserve it when good things come my way. And told that I need to reconnect with my inner child more. From my childhood, I've always been brought up in a traditional Asian family that wants me to follow the conventional path, and I was conditioned to feel since young that I am not smart enough to accomplish success. Ever since my spiritual awakening, I've started to look at things differently, be more courageous to go for what I truly feel I should be doing. I have latetly started on some shadow work which i will be focused on clearing my childhood wound and self worth issues. Thank you for the message 💗