Firstly, yes, you definitely have earned the right to be proud of yourself. Secondly, you think your videos aren't professional, well, I entirely disagree, friend! :D
depression is hard. (I speak from experience) Keep moving forward mate. On the topic of your videos, I can only speak for myself but they have helped me. Not long before I found your channel, I was slowly giving up on my personal writing, which at the time was my only release away from the turbulence I was facing in my general life. Seeing the small handful of videos you had released at the time inspired me to keep going and in doing so helped my mental health. Thanks for sharing, and thanks for your content mate :)
Your videos are awesome. When I first started playing fallen London, and sunless seas I had trouble getting into it, but when I started watching your videos I got so immersed in the two games, they are my favorite. Instead of casual play, I now roleplay my characters!
Hey Mathew, Thank you for this. Depression is one hell of a thing. And so often seen as just "weakness". I have been struggling with depression for 2 years now. The few people I used to talk with about this were all thinking that they knew better than me how I felt, and what to do to get better. That got me so mad, because all their "advices" were so wrong and off topic. I lost most of my friends mecause of this, thinking that at lest my best friends would listen to my problems. They did for a while, but since them I think they got bored. But I understand them, it must not be very nice for them to listen to the same things over and over. Thank you for reaching out. Thank you for your work. I won't tell you "I am sure it will get better at some point", bacause I hate getting this sort of setences ; but I really hope that you will be able to make it. You have all my support. Sorry for not being very supportive in my message... I don't really know what to say, just what to NOT say. But again, you really really have all my support.
You have no need to apologise for anything delicious friend. You're content is informative fun and always makes me put down whatever I'm doing to listen. Thank you for telling us about this and thanks for making these wonderful videos.
Damn I know how you feel archivist and I feel horrible not noticing this video when it came out. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety off and on since I was 14 and I’ve always been able to pull myself out of the depression thankfully but I can’t imagine what it’s like to be that close to the edge. Good luck delicious friend and I hope you can be rid of the darkness that is depression some day.
Thank you for sharing this. I can't even say how much joy you bring into my life just through your videos! I don't even know you and you make my day every time I see an upload from you so I can't imagine how important you are to those who know you. It takes a lot of courage and resolve to speak openly about mental health and even more to advocate for yourself and get help when you're in a depressive spiral so you absolutely have the right to be proud of yourself. Also, never feel ashamed for taking time off, for mental health or anything. Your well being is way more important than the archivist ever could be. I'm so glad you have a good support network around you and are taking steps to get the care you need! Nothing but love from me, I hope you continue to make good progress!
I don't really have anything deep or insightful to say. All I can really say and mean with the utmost sincerity is that I'm really glad you sought and found the help you needed. You're not only a pleasure to know, talk to and joke with, but selfishly, I have to say that if not for your lore videos, I'd probably not have touched Sunless Sea again and would not have found the understanding of the story required to enjoy it on the level I do now.
Hi Matthew! I don't think I've commented much before and I'm rather sorry for not doing so, I'll probably take a long time writing this short comment just because I will try to organize my words again and again to make it look less inconsiderate. I've discovered your channel at the end of last year and has been watching all your videos in loop!! As a fallen london player myself I absolutely love your takes on the lore of FL for they are quite comprehensive as well as unique. I've been struggling with some degrees of depression for at least two years now and has informed my parents or closed ones about it though the majority of them either has misconceptions about mental illness, treating it like cancer, or not understand why I would be depressed, saying things like just get over it or it's your fault that you are weak. Those thing greatly discouraged me from seeking help because I got the impression that I don't want to claim I am depressed when my problems are insignificant to people who truly suffers from clinical depression. So I just, stalled. Until more and more frequently the idea of not wanting to live jumped up in my head. In those moments the books I haven't read, movies I haven't watched, or places I haven't been suddenly doesn't matter so much anymore. I was no longer functional. I don't know why I'm ranting about myself at least now I dare not to take my life anymore. Just want to let you know that probably everyone has a dark place, and it's not anyone's fault or anything like that. As someone who feels the same I don't want to bullshit you with meaningless quotes such as oh always look on the positive side, it really it as you said things are not going to be better in a long time but, might as well live that long to find out. Can't stay in the Royal Bethlehem Hotel forever!
for a long time i was depressed, i suspected that i was but one day i just couldnt get out of bed. i told my grandma i cant do it and that i need to go to the doctor. she asked me about why i needed to go and i told her i think i have depression. when i got to the doctor they gave me a form to fill out and i was diagnosed with depression. im doing ok now but its still hard. i just wanted to let you know that i love your content and let you know youre not alone.
Hello Matthew. I hope all your days are better than the one before it. I'm glad you made it to hospital when you did. Thank you for sharing and not keeping all of this bottled up in your own head. You are not alone.
Really glad you're in a better place and that you looked for help. I've been there in the past and it's so hard to explain how messed up your thoughts can get. But things can and do get better and I'm grateful you've stuck around.
Hey sorry I’m commenting this so long after the video was posted, but I’m glad you got help and I’m happy that you still continue to creat one of the best lore series on the internet even with your condition
I don't know what I should say, but I feel compelled to write something, as a fan of yours and as a person who can relate to what you've been through. I'm not good at speeches, but I hope that you're much better now! You cannot possibly imagine what it would mean for me if you stopped making content. Your videos are of great quality, especially for the Fallen London community! If you stopped what you're doing, it would create a void in my (and, I'm sure, a lot of other people's) soul that could never be filled. Ok, that sounds overly dramatic, but never forget that it's true! You mean a lot for a lot of people - that is all that matters in life! Sure, as you said, maybe we're not that big a community here, but (again, as you said) it's better this way. I always thought that the root of suffering is that people cannot properly communicate what they feel to each other, and nowadays this seems more and more true... I know I might be oversimplifying here, but having someone to talk to, to tell you "I understand how you feel", can make or break a person. If you killed yourself, there would be one less interesting person in this world. And that would be a d__n shame! I remember E. Cioran said "Those who think the most about suicide are the least likely to commit it". I'm glad you didn't jump in front of a car as you said you wanted to. I am glad you are alive! We are glad you are alive! Please stay that way! The world never was and never will be perfect, and some problems can't simply disappear, but someone, somewhere, loves you! A lot of people love you! I don't know what else to say... Just, take care of yourself, alright? And thank you for everything you've done so far!
What you did is stronger than most. Don't ever give up. I don't want to have to find you there to tell you that you haven't finished. There are those who love you forever.
I've stumbled onto your content just today, and damn, it's really good. I know how you feel. Depression sucks. Mine came out in 1st year Uni too, obliterated most of my hopes and plans for second semester. I hope you're doing better now. I know it doesn't really ever go away for good, but it does get more manageable, I hope. Anyway, I hope that you find what works for you, and stay safe and healthy.
Thank you Matthew, for all your videos. I know I and probably a lot of other people here only have contact through our fondness of the Fallen London universe but you’ve still touched our lives and brought us happiness through your excellent content, and well, that’s a pretty swell to do for us so Thank You, delicious friend
Thank you for making this entire series. They really are fascinating insights into the world of Fallen London, and they have helped me at times. They are really amazing pieces that you did not have to do, but you did. So thank you. I had one question, though, and I'm sorry if this is coming out of the blue for you, but would it be ok if I reached out to you in Fallen London? I completely understand if that would be awkward or unfamiliar. So if you'd rather not, that is completely ok. I wanted to ask though.
*A Renegade Priestess approaches. You've heard the tall tales about her. They say she kissed the Numismatrix once, that she singlehandedly distributed all those "The Starveling Cat! The Starveling Cat! Knows we're in love, heels over hat!" posters that showed up in every hard-to-reach corner of the city last Exceptional Rose, that she's blood kin to a former Master whose name you can't quite remember--something to do with beeswax? You're not sure, but that sounds right--that she's best friends with a rattus faber, that she actually is a whole bunch of rattus faber in a cloak. But she's just another Londoner. The tall tales were just that, tall tales. Except the thing about her pretending to be a man to become a priest, because, well, that's hard fact. Still, you'd recognize the dove-gray shawl fringed in non-psychoactive approximations of the colors of the Neathbow anywhere. That's her calling card of sorts, and one of the few things the tall tales got right. She offers you a cup of chamomile tea.* You're so brave to share this with us. And you should know this: knowing I'm not alone in my struggles will ALWAYS help me. It's okay to not be okay. *hugs?*
Firstly, yes, you definitely have earned the right to be proud of yourself.
Secondly, you think your videos aren't professional, well, I entirely disagree, friend! :D
agreed
depression is hard. (I speak from experience) Keep moving forward mate.
On the topic of your videos, I can only speak for myself but they have helped me.
Not long before I found your channel, I was slowly giving up on my personal writing, which at the time was my only release away from the turbulence I was facing in my general life. Seeing the small handful of videos you had released at the time inspired me to keep going and in doing so helped my mental health.
Thanks for sharing, and thanks for your content mate :)
Your videos are awesome. When I first started playing fallen London, and sunless seas I had trouble getting into it, but when I started watching your videos I got so immersed in the two games, they are my favorite. Instead of casual play, I now roleplay my characters!
Hey Mathew,
Thank you for this. Depression is one hell of a thing. And so often seen as just "weakness". I have been struggling with depression for 2 years now. The few people I used to talk with about this were all thinking that they knew better than me how I felt, and what to do to get better. That got me so mad, because all their "advices" were so wrong and off topic.
I lost most of my friends mecause of this, thinking that at lest my best friends would listen to my problems. They did for a while, but since them I think they got bored. But I understand them, it must not be very nice for them to listen to the same things over and over.
Thank you for reaching out. Thank you for your work. I won't tell you "I am sure it will get better at some point", bacause I hate getting this sort of setences ; but I really hope that you will be able to make it. You have all my support.
Sorry for not being very supportive in my message... I don't really know what to say, just what to NOT say. But again, you really really have all my support.
You have no need to apologise for anything delicious friend. You're content is informative fun and always makes me put down whatever I'm doing to listen. Thank you for telling us about this and thanks for making these wonderful videos.
*hugs*
Damn I know how you feel archivist and I feel horrible not noticing this video when it came out. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety off and on since I was 14 and I’ve always been able to pull myself out of the depression thankfully but I can’t imagine what it’s like to be that close to the edge. Good luck delicious friend and I hope you can be rid of the darkness that is depression some day.
Hang on tight! I really enjoy your videos, so I'm happy things didn't go as badly as they could have. I hope you'll get better!
Thank you for sharing this. I can't even say how much joy you bring into my life just through your videos! I don't even know you and you make my day every time I see an upload from you so I can't imagine how important you are to those who know you. It takes a lot of courage and resolve to speak openly about mental health and even more to advocate for yourself and get help when you're in a depressive spiral so you absolutely have the right to be proud of yourself. Also, never feel ashamed for taking time off, for mental health or anything. Your well being is way more important than the archivist ever could be. I'm so glad you have a good support network around you and are taking steps to get the care you need! Nothing but love from me, I hope you continue to make good progress!
Thank you for sharing this.
Just dropped by to tell you I enjoy your Lore videos and they have increased my love of the game even more.
I don't really have anything deep or insightful to say. All I can really say and mean with the utmost sincerity is that I'm really glad you sought and found the help you needed. You're not only a pleasure to know, talk to and joke with, but selfishly, I have to say that if not for your lore videos, I'd probably not have touched Sunless Sea again and would not have found the understanding of the story required to enjoy it on the level I do now.
Hi Matthew! I don't think I've commented much before and I'm rather sorry for not doing so, I'll probably take a long time writing this short comment just because I will try to organize my words again and again to make it look less inconsiderate. I've discovered your channel at the end of last year and has been watching all your videos in loop!! As a fallen london player myself I absolutely love your takes on the lore of FL for they are quite comprehensive as well as unique.
I've been struggling with some degrees of depression for at least two years now and has informed my parents or closed ones about it though the majority of them either has misconceptions about mental illness, treating it like cancer, or not understand why I would be depressed, saying things like just get over it or it's your fault that you are weak. Those thing greatly discouraged me from seeking help because I got the impression that I don't want to claim I am depressed when my problems are insignificant to people who truly suffers from clinical depression. So I just, stalled. Until more and more frequently the idea of not wanting to live jumped up in my head. In those moments the books I haven't read, movies I haven't watched, or places I haven't been suddenly doesn't matter so much anymore. I was no longer functional. I don't know why I'm ranting about myself at least now I dare not to take my life anymore. Just want to let you know that probably everyone has a dark place, and it's not anyone's fault or anything like that. As someone who feels the same I don't want to bullshit you with meaningless quotes such as oh always look on the positive side, it really it as you said things are not going to be better in a long time but, might as well live that long to find out. Can't stay in the Royal Bethlehem Hotel forever!
for a long time i was depressed, i suspected that i was but one day i just couldnt get out of bed. i told my grandma i cant do it and that i need to go to the doctor. she asked me about why i needed to go and i told her i think i have depression. when i got to the doctor they gave me a form to fill out and i was diagnosed with depression. im doing ok now but its still hard. i just wanted to let you know that i love your content and let you know youre not alone.
Hello Matthew.
I hope all your days are better than the one before it. I'm glad you made it to hospital when you did.
Thank you for sharing and not keeping all of this bottled up in your own head.
You are not alone.
This video made me cry :(. I truly hope you are gonna be okay.
Really glad you're in a better place and that you looked for help. I've been there in the past and it's so hard to explain how messed up your thoughts can get. But things can and do get better and I'm grateful you've stuck around.
Hey sorry I’m commenting this so long after the video was posted, but I’m glad you got help and I’m happy that you still continue to creat one of the best lore series on the internet even with your condition
I don't know what I should say, but I feel compelled to write something, as a fan of yours and as a person who can relate to what you've been through. I'm not good at speeches, but I hope that you're much better now! You cannot possibly imagine what it would mean for me if you stopped making content. Your videos are of great quality, especially for the Fallen London community! If you stopped what you're doing, it would create a void in my (and, I'm sure, a lot of other people's) soul that could never be filled. Ok, that sounds overly dramatic, but never forget that it's true! You mean a lot for a lot of people - that is all that matters in life! Sure, as you said, maybe we're not that big a community here, but (again, as you said) it's better this way.
I always thought that the root of suffering is that people cannot properly communicate what they feel to each other, and nowadays this seems more and more true... I know I might be oversimplifying here, but having someone to talk to, to tell you "I understand how you feel", can make or break a person.
If you killed yourself, there would be one less interesting person in this world. And that would be a d__n shame! I remember E. Cioran said "Those who think the most about suicide are the least likely to commit it". I'm glad you didn't jump in front of a car as you said you wanted to. I am glad you are alive! We are glad you are alive! Please stay that way! The world never was and never will be perfect, and some problems can't simply disappear, but someone, somewhere, loves you! A lot of people love you!
I don't know what else to say... Just, take care of yourself, alright? And thank you for everything you've done so far!
What you did is stronger than most. Don't ever give up. I don't want to have to find you there to tell you that you haven't finished.
There are those who love you forever.
I've stumbled onto your content just today, and damn, it's really good. I know how you feel. Depression sucks. Mine came out in 1st year Uni too, obliterated most of my hopes and plans for second semester. I hope you're doing better now. I know it doesn't really ever go away for good, but it does get more manageable, I hope. Anyway, I hope that you find what works for you, and stay safe and healthy.
Thank you Matthew, for all your videos. I know I and probably a lot of other people here only have contact through our fondness of the Fallen London universe but you’ve still touched our lives and brought us happiness through your excellent content, and well, that’s a pretty swell to do for us so Thank You, delicious friend
Thank you for making this entire series. They really are fascinating insights into the world of Fallen London, and they have helped me at times. They are really amazing pieces that you did not have to do, but you did. So thank you.
I had one question, though, and I'm sorry if this is coming out of the blue for you, but would it be ok if I reached out to you in Fallen London? I completely understand if that would be awkward or unfamiliar. So if you'd rather not, that is completely ok. I wanted to ask though.
*A Renegade Priestess approaches.
You've heard the tall tales about her. They say she kissed the Numismatrix once, that she singlehandedly distributed all those "The Starveling Cat! The Starveling Cat! Knows we're in love, heels over hat!" posters that showed up in every hard-to-reach corner of the city last Exceptional Rose, that she's blood kin to a former Master whose name you can't quite remember--something to do with beeswax? You're not sure, but that sounds right--that she's best friends with a rattus faber, that she actually is a whole bunch of rattus faber in a cloak. But she's just another Londoner. The tall tales were just that, tall tales. Except the thing about her pretending to be a man to become a priest, because, well, that's hard fact.
Still, you'd recognize the dove-gray shawl fringed in non-psychoactive approximations of the colors of the Neathbow anywhere. That's her calling card of sorts, and one of the few things the tall tales got right.
She offers you a cup of chamomile tea.*
You're so brave to share this with us. And you should know this: knowing I'm not alone in my struggles will ALWAYS help me. It's okay to not be okay. *hugs?*
How are you doing buddy?