This song gets me everytime .... I went to rehab 2 days after my son was born , battled to turn my life around so my children would have the father I never did. drugs affect so many more people then just the user . I first herd this song at a year clean and all I could picture was this song from my children's perspective. My father wasn't around because of drugs , ive been clean for 5 years now .
@runnin_rich26 I have been sober since February 2016 and a year later my girlfriend was pregnant with our first child. 8 years of running in circles and wishing I would die and now my beautiful little girl reminds me of how glad I am the wish for death didn't come true. This song is heartbreaking and I'm glad no one has to sing it for me.
I always say that NF is, by definition, the MOST explicit artist without being explicit. What I mean is he is just pure, raw, unfiltered, in your face, brutally honest. Loving these genuine reactions man.
Everybody left him in the studio alone and he just sat and talked to her and that's what they put in the last part. He has said in more recent interviews that he has more grace and understanding for her now, and the pain that she must have been dealing with. She quit for a short time after she heard his music, but then relapsed and that's when she overdosed. That's the most common time because your tolerance goes down but if you relapse you tend to take the same dose that you did before and your body can't handle it. His wife just gave birth to their firstborn, a son named Beckham John Feuerstein (pronounced "FIRE-stine"), in August. I have a great idea for your Days of Christmas! Nate co-produces all of his beats with his best friend Tommee Profitt, who has many accolades to his name. He's done movies, commercials, video games, etc. Last year he put out what he called a Cinematic Christmas album and it is really beautiful! Here is a link to that playlist: th-cam.com/play/PL3GYT8iGZtTU5Gyzw1bvn_AXqso605myc.html
3 years ago my girlfriend since almost 7 years died from an overdose of pills. Left both me & her at the time 18 year old daughter behind. This song hit me so hard on so many levels... Love it & hate it at the same time!!
the line "I've got a picture in my room and it kills me cause I don't need a picture of my mom i need the real thing" whilst not about my mom, always gets me cause I have a picture of my dog on my desk, and after losing him I just feel lost, I grew up with just my mom who worked 80 hour weeks just to make sure I wasn't needing for anything and while I know why she did it, what I needed was her, my dog was the constant in that, moving countries 4 times, losing my friends over and over again, he was the only thing that stayed the same while my life was turbulent and after losing him, I have lost that. I'm lost in a sea of unknown situations and uncomfortable times, and the one thing I need more than ever is my rock. I know its dumb, but I just miss my dog man, he was my brother, my family, everything. and it feels like a part of me can never heal from losing him.
I bawl every time with this one...gotta give extreme respect to any artist that is willing to record their most deep, darkest pain and put it out to the world...it's why and how he is able to reach and help so many
I cry every time I hear this song because I relate to it so much. Like a lot of others do. My mom is still alive but has always been a drug addict who left us waiting, looking out the window for her our whole life. Even to this day. I’ll always have so much respect & love for NF. He’s special & different. This was such a great reaction! Thank you for being vulnerable and honest with your viewers 💛
Please listen to NF - "If you want love" I've listened to all of NF's songs and this one, by far, transported me to some of my deepest feelings. Also, goosebumps.
Omg I knew this would get me. I knew this song for a while and my sister died of overdose and my niece and nephew were in 4th and 5th grade and were going through it and she(my niece) told me this was her song and now I can't really hear it without crying. Its been about a year things are getting better but all the loss we've had in a short time gas been way too much
NF became my favorite artist really quick after starting the journey. I'm a 50yr old country boy my daughter made me listen to his music and I was instantly impressed he so relatable and I love the real music idea
Many people will recommend going on the NF Journey. These are songs from his albums that connect in some way (lyrically or visually). It’s an unfolding of his story as he lets you into his life. Most will say to do the entire Search album when you get to it. So, if you want, follow this list, and you’ll be well on your way. Songs from the Mansion album: - Intro (video) - Mansion - All I Have (video) - Wake Up (video) - Note Pad (video) Songs from the Therapy Session album: - Intro 2 (video) - Therapy Session (video) - I Just Wanna Know (video) - How Could You Leave Us (video) - Real (video) - Oh Lord - Grindin’ ft. Marty (video) Single between albums: - Warm Up (video, it’s a subtle visual and hard to see, but his arm tattoo at the end is a piece of the puzzle for the end of a later video) Songs from the Perception album: - Outro (video - yes, this is first) - Intro 3 (remember the song Mansion) - Outcast (video) - Green Lights (video) - Let You Down (video) Single between albums: - No Name (video) - Why (video) Songs from The Search album: - The Search (video) - Leave Me Alone (video) - Change - My Stress - Nate - Time (video) - Returns - When I Grow Up (video) - Only - Let Me Go - Interlude (do with Hate Myself) - Hate Myself (do with Interlude) - I Miss the Days - No Excuses - Like This - Options - Why (you would have already done this) - Thinking - Trauma The entire Search album will lead to a negative article from Rolling Stone which leads to the next single: - Paid My Dues (video) You can do Clouds the Mixtape, if you’d like. There is for sure one song that belongs on the journey (besides Paid My Dues mentioned above): - Lost (video) I hope this helps!
This song will bring anyone to theirs knees a lot of us have struggled with abandonment in the world and this song just takes someone who doesn’t know how it feels there and that’s impressive it’s an amazing song
this gives me goosebumps every time I hear it my father (may he rest in peace) when I was around 10 years old was heavy into alcohol woke me and my brothers up drunk and gave us a stern talking to. while he was talking to us in the middle of the night at some point he had grabbed his 22 Rifle and put the barrel of the gun in his mouth my brothers and I got him to take it out and it wasn't long after that incident that we were taken from him and he went somewhere to get sobered up my father had 7 years going on 8 of sobriety before he passed from sepsis after an accident he was in, in 2004 , but what happened that night has stuck with me
@@larryshair I'm ok with it now, but that was easily the scariest moment in my life thus far, plus after he sobered up he was always keeping tabs on my brothers and me when he did and didn't have custody of us (a story for another day :D ),.
It’s crazy to think that he sat with that instrumental on and just cried and talked to himself on the mic for like 15 mins straight. And used to listen to this song by himself on his phone in his bathroom on repeat. 😞 NF is legit one of the most powerful lyricists without profanity that I’ve ever heard. 🤞
I’ve listened to many NF reactions and it never has gotten old watching someone react to him for the first time. I thoroughly enjoyed your two reactions so far. Would love to see more!!! I definitely recommend you listen to: Mansion, NF, Lost, and so many more!
You can definitely count on it. Once we get past Christmas as I have a Christmas-themed lineup for December, we'll dive deeper into this incredible guy.
This song had SUCH a tremendous affect on me personally not only growing up with an IV Heroin addict mother & even now at 65 she's still injecting H & i hated & judged her SO harshly untillll....i got an injury which required multiple surgeries & that was when OC's where the craze; within a year & a half i myself became the 1 thing i SWORE i never would be-an IV H addict! Im now; BY THE GRACE OF GOD, Am about to he 11yrs clean but ill tell u now; DRUGS NEVER RELEASE THEIR GRIP ON U-PLEASSEEE DON'T LET EM IN!!! Thank u for ur reaction💯🙏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
I lost my mom to her body shutting down with all the pills and booze she had a lot of pain in her heart and brain but also alot of love to give and was a good person who worked everyday till the end.. It's been two years. I still think of her every day ❤
Every time I listen to this song it reminds me of my friend that passed in January 2021. He died from alcohol and had 2 boys younger than my kids. I just passed 2 years sober and when I think of picking up a drink I think of him and his boys, then my kids😔 I miss my brother and having dealt with alcohol, longer and in a higher capacity than he did, I’m GRATEFUL that I made the decison to stop. Great reaction by the way 😁
Genuine reaction... this song though... Went to bed one day about 5 years ago with TH-cam music on. Woke up and this song was playing. 1st song I had heard by NF. Listened for a bit and tears started rolling down my cheeks. My brothers and I went through the same thing. Our Mom had drug and mental issues. As an adult now I can see more of my Mom's side and I wish she had a little more help and a little more strength. I love her regardless though and I miss her everyday. As a person who grew up in the Foster care system I can tell you it's a miserable time for every kid... Just to have the feeling in the back of your mind that you're not good enough to keep your parents around and thinking there's something wrong with you is a terrible feeling. Wouldn't wish that feeling on anyone. If anybody who reads this is going through drug addiction and/or mental issues, I believe in you... You can pull through... And to any kid going through the system just remember one thing... ITS NOT YOUR FAULT.... You are loved and as you grow older you'll become stronger and meet more people around you that will love you... I miss you Mom.. RIP
This song makes me cry everytime I listen to it. My early life was horrible. Filled with drugs. My parents were major drug addicts. My dad made and sold different types of drugs and my mom would take them. Doctors have said that there is a chance my mom was taking them when she was pregnant with me. That's why many medical personnel have told me to not try any type of drug that could be addicting such as pain relievers or even drugs such as marijuana. Because of the fact that I could easily become addicted to them. I have a huge fear of taking any kind of medicine or drug because I don't want to get addicted. It's a huge fear for me. Luckily I was taken out of that situation along with my sister and was adopted. I will never try any type of drug
Wow, sounds like we have similar backgrounds. Castle and Arose drops on the 25th and 26th. I tell a story on the 26th. Check it out. Blessings to you, my friend.
NF is one of the greatest arts to take difficult topics or emotions that society ignores like mental health and well being and gives his experiences, thoughts and prayers through the lens of a man walking in faith and authenticity. His music is therapy for me as I’m a man in my mid 30’s who often feels very isolated even amongst my fellow Christians. I haven’t dealt with any drug use myself or with family but I feel NF’s lyrics and the expression of pain and sorrow in such a visceral way in his writing. Apparently, that last part he kicked everyone out of the studio and was simply crying and talking to his mom, releasing that pain out as well as some anger for sure too. I do know that he has grown from this song and doesn’t view his mom in the same way with the anger but sorrow leaves us with the choice of forgiveness or bitterness and that’s sometimes more of a messy road than we’d like to admit. I admire Nate’s honesty and relate to his blunt expressions of where he’s at in life as his music is a diary of how he feels and what he’s going through. God has used his music to speak life into people like me and others, it’s definitely encouraging to know that someone else goes through moments of life grieving or in deep sorrow, there’s often more comfort in that kind of company and it’s allowed me to really value and acknowledge my own pain as well as seeing Jesus in a way that allows me to not only share in His joys but also His sorrows. I believe it’s helped me become someone who views others with a great deal of empathy because my desire is that everyone would know that they’re not alone in what they’re going through and people love them and can direct them to a God that will heal but to get there requires being true to yourself and being authentic in whatever your life is like in the present. Sorry for my long comment, I just really appreciate and love seeing people experience NF’s music because I know how powerful it is. Your reaction was really great and I think the more you listen to his other songs, the more you’ll see the impact he has and continues to grow inside the hip hop industry that is dying for something that’s meaningful in the overarching message that industry tends to lean toward. NF is in his own lane but his convictions to be himself added with incredible production and his talents and hard work are breaking down walls to conversations and emotions that we should talk about more because we’re all human and not meant to live life alone. I’m excited to see more reactions from you channel and hello also from Orange County, I saw in your reaction to Story that you’re living around here too. God bless you and your family sir and thanks for posting a genuinely interesting reaction. This is great content.
Hey Kdubb, thank you so very much for your comments. I’m sorry to hear about your experience with her some questions don’t engage with you. Your thoughtful comments really resonate with me. If you ever need to talk, chat me up. I also attend Calvary chapel of Fullerton. You can look it up and it be great to meet you. Currently, I’m dealing with Covid and I’ll most likely be out of church for the next several weeks, so there’s that. Blessings to you my brother!
You have no idea how much quality are in the lyricism of rap and metal. Barely even have to dig. Pure music comes from the soul. Nothing ugly from that.
This song still gets me everytime. I’m proud to say my mother has 35 years sober, I’m only 30. So I never experienced her addiction, but as a single mother I was at ever single NA meeting. This song breaks my heart for Nate but gives me such gratitude for my mom. This easily could’ve been my life had she not had the strength to overcome.
Subbed for the NF reactions. Having intelligence behind a reaction is a breath of fresh air. Having wisdom when analyzing NF's music critical. Having both and appreciating this is someone's life in music form makes for outstanding reaction content.
You are seriously my favorite reactor. So under rated. As soon as I found your channel I have been so happy to watch your REAL emotion and response. Thank you for exposing yourself like this, it's inspiring.
Jared, thank you so much for your kind words. This has been my pleasure and totally my honor that people like you enjoy this old dude listening to music. You inspire me, to be frankly honest. Thank you brother. Blessings.
I dont believe there is a single human that can listen to this song and not get touched in some shape or form even if you life is perfectly happy and good
At the beginning of the year I hadn't heard of either Aurora or NF but they are now two artists whose songs touch me very deeply. I have never been into rap but I discovered NF after listening to Harry Mack freestyles ( very different vibes but amazing to watch). NF's music transcends the genre for me and at the same time gives me a greater appreciation of rap than I'd had before. One of the finds of the year for me.
This hits very close to home.. as a younger brother, I have watched my older brother grow up as an addict to pills. And just recently lasted year, it has gotten super bad, him having severe highs/episodes causing him to run around the house cluelessly, seizures, etc.. and just remebering the night that it was just me and him and he had an episode and I try to do my best watching him about to die.. I’m just glad we were finally able to get him to agree to go a rehab center and he’s been doing better. I’m just hoping that he can get better.
New sub here. You got through his most emotional song at the beginning which is good. The rest of his catalog is smooth sailing if you continue. He is a genius story teller! Hope you check out Mansion next.
Speaking as a grown woman..but once a hurt child, thank you to every parent that made the effort to get clean. Your babies will never have to wonder what was truly important to you. They’ll never have to question their worth. There’s so much deep trauma you took out of their story by making that effort.
17 yo here who used to be a daddy's girl until alcohol became more important when I was at the ripe age of 5. I just remember the excitement of waiting for him to get home and getting ignored and yelled at when he got another bottle. At its worst he could get physical but I got his anger issues so it was a constant two way frustration and anger.
I watched this 5 years ago and to say it was hard to watch is an understatement. My son, who was 5 then, was affected by his mother's choices so this really hit home. I sent this video to her in hopes that it may change something. It did not. She went on to have 2 daughters 1800 miles away from us whom were taken, one at 2 years old and the other at birth. She was just sentenced to 3 years prison for possession of over an ounce of meth. I just found out her new husband, the father of her 2 daughters, died from an overdose. My son is 10 and does not know anything but you can tell on occasion he's missing something. You're absolutely right, whatever we do in life it affects every person near and dear to us. I hope people that are struggling with addiction see this and take something positive away from it. God bless.
Man, I'm very happy to find your channel you do a great job. Growing up in a broken household this song gets me teary eyed every time I hear it. I'm glad you're enjoying NF's music it means a lot to a lot of us.
I had never heard of NF until today (metal head from Australia) just wanna say thank you, the tears streaming down my face are real and this song connects with me on a very raw level...NF is now on my play list...
My mom was a drug addict and still is even after my dad passed...so growing up she was really never there for me or my sisters...I love this song because I can relate to it so much
I went through this with my mom at 9 and it's killed me inside ever since. Not a day goes by where I don't think about the call I got that day. It's been 19 years and feels like it was yesterday. This song is amazing but really crushed my heart when I first heard it. Me and my brothers only have our memories of her now and sometimes that just doesn't feel like enough. I love you mom.
NF is the most real ethnic rap artist out there. He does not curse or talk down on women. I took my 12 year old son to see him live in Philly. Was just so amazing, we have so much respect for this man.
Didn't think I could ever watch this one again, but I wanted to see your reaction to NF. Beautiful as always. He's a rapper, but he can sing too. He has a beautifully sad song, "Trauma" that I thnk you would appreciate. I have a feeling you will be doing more NF reactions...at least I hope so :) "Mansion" is a great song too. Everything he does is insanely good, and rooted in his childhood.
This one really hits close to home. I am very grateful for for my mother.. she fought and won against her addictions. She's 7 years clean and i am proud of her.. thanks for reminding me to appreciate there even more.
Thank you for doing this. Its amazing to have an older point of view from something that hits so close to home. I appreciate you for helping open my eyes to what has happened in the past. This song was always in my playlists, but it never clicked until watching this. Thank you again.
It's incredible the amount of stuff I've been through and kept a strong face but this song just hits something within me every single time. I've never heard this song and not shed a tear.
No matter how much I listen to this song I still can't get through it without tears the pain through his voice gets me every time but I think it's a song everyone should hear
Take the NF journey. Someone here will have the list. It's so worth it. It's like a positive rap audio story book of sorts filled with real emotion fear,anger,hurt, jealousy etc
He said that this song came from a place of anger. He also said he wouldn’t write this song today because he has a level of grace for his mother that he didn’t have when he wrote is.
I have watched and listened to that song so many times and it gets me everytime. His heartbreak. Every parent who takes drugs needs to see this song to hear the impact it has on children. I'm so glad in my drug days I didn't have children that I could have hurt.
This song gets me everytime. I had twins prematurely and they fit in my hands. I felt them take their last breath and go cold. I jumped to drugs and alcohol ONLY to be numb and in hoping that they would take my life. I overdosed 2x and I felt so ANGRY at the time. I was hit with Narcan and brought back. I had a checkup at the doctor and found out I was pregnant with my daughter. 3 months in. I told myself my twins gave me this beautiful gift and something to love for. My twins were born September 29. My survivor was born September 13th. Twins were due on Valentines Day and my son was born February 17th. It doesn’t just feel to me it was a coincidence. My girls in Heaven gave me those wonderful gifts. I will never turn to drugs again. I will NEVER let my children see me high. This hits me on another level for me.
One of my all time favorite NF songs that is just a beautiful masterpiece is Mansion. The symbolism that he uses to showcase his struggles is unrivaled.
Huge NF fan. Other than Eminem, he is the one artist that genuinely tugs my heart strings with how relatable his content is. It's like he's telling my story.
I feel him, my mom became a crack addict when I was in high-school. I remember coming home from school and one of her crack addict friends sleeping in couch at like 2pm and getting so mad I flipped the couch with him on it and told him to get out. My dad died but mom got reasonably better so I feel lucky
I'd never actually heard this song until now. I've listened to a decent amount of NF but honestly Pandora picks and chooses what is playing for me for the most part. Seeing this with the MV... Dang man. Not even gonna lie, I forgot I was watching a reaction to it. Completely forgot you were there until it paused. I was Lost in it. So deeply emotional in many ways.
This whole song is literally my childhood like a wrote it. My mom eventually overdosed in front of me as I was using with her. I tried CPR and failed. Today I’m 8 years sober and have a daughter who’s the spitting image of her. This song gets me every time. Especially the end.
I am a grown ass man and a truck driver, this song gets me tearing up just from the beginning audio, never a dry eye at the end of this song. IDC what people say, even the strongest men cry, emotions are good for the soul and show you're alive 🤟🏽
At the end of the song when he starts crying there was suppose to be another verse but he couldn’t bring himself to do it and asked everyone to leave the recording booth and poured his heart out to his mom
I brought my children up in heroin addiction for a long time but I never missed a schhol play or appointment or birthday parties I did because you're an addict you don't have to be absent. Having said that we have just lost the father of my youngest daughter to pills 😭 she's broken 💔 makes me feel horrible because we were addicts together for 14yrs but we transitioned from heroin to pills and that took him.....😭😭😭😭 so we get this song!
Wow. That has me crying through the whole thing. I never saw/heard this before now. Just cracked my chest open right here in my chair so absolutely crushingly sad. Still crying. It’s hard to type. I gotta go take a deep breath and do something for a bit. Wasn’t expecting to get smashed in the feels by a song on my lunch break.
Great reaction! “Mansion” followed by “Intro 3” by NF are absolutely amazing lyrically. They go together in order. Neither have an official video but there are lyric videos for them.
It’s such a sacred space listening to this song. This is only second time for me to be listening because it’s too painful. I’ve been a fan for a while, but it is all too real. I would love to see you react to more NF if you are willing.
Lyricists and rappers are like hot tubs and jacuzzis. All jacuzzis are hot tubs but not all hot tubs are jacuzzis. There’s something so beautiful when you find a good lyricist. Love your reactions man. ✌🏻
This song gets me everytime .... I went to rehab 2 days after my son was born , battled to turn my life around so my children would have the father I never did. drugs affect so many more people then just the user . I first herd this song at a year clean and all I could picture was this song from my children's perspective. My father wasn't around because of drugs , ive been clean for 5 years now .
So glad to hear about your 5th year!
Thank you @larryshair
I truly love you🖤
@runnin_rich26 I have been sober since February 2016 and a year later my girlfriend was pregnant with our first child. 8 years of running in circles and wishing I would die and now my beautiful little girl reminds me of how glad I am the wish for death didn't come true.
This song is heartbreaking and I'm glad no one has to sing it for me.
Congrats on staying the course on your addiction!
P.S. NF is married and became a father earlier this year ♥️♥️
I always say that NF is, by definition, the MOST explicit artist without being explicit.
What I mean is he is just pure, raw, unfiltered, in your face, brutally honest.
Loving these genuine reactions man.
The most positive thing is that he turned everything that happened to him into a song. It takes courage, strength and struggle.
You introduced NF to me. This is first time i heard this. I'm in tears.
Tough song to listen to for sure!
Everybody left him in the studio alone and he just sat and talked to her and that's what they put in the last part. He has said in more recent interviews that he has more grace and understanding for her now, and the pain that she must have been dealing with. She quit for a short time after she heard his music, but then relapsed and that's when she overdosed. That's the most common time because your tolerance goes down but if you relapse you tend to take the same dose that you did before and your body can't handle it.
His wife just gave birth to their firstborn, a son named Beckham John Feuerstein (pronounced "FIRE-stine"), in August.
I have a great idea for your Days of Christmas! Nate co-produces all of his beats with his best friend Tommee Profitt, who has many accolades to his name. He's done movies, commercials, video games, etc. Last year he put out what he called a Cinematic Christmas album and it is really beautiful! Here is a link to that playlist:
th-cam.com/play/PL3GYT8iGZtTU5Gyzw1bvn_AXqso605myc.html
3 years ago my girlfriend since almost 7 years died from an overdose of pills. Left both me & her at the time 18 year old daughter behind. This song hit me so hard on so many levels... Love it & hate it at the same time!!
Every NF song for the past 6 or 7 years has been its own piece of art. Phenomenal
This song hits me so hard. This is my whole life not with just one but both of my parents
I'm so sorry. I can't imagine.
the line "I've got a picture in my room and it kills me cause I don't need a picture of my mom i need the real thing" whilst not about my mom, always gets me cause I have a picture of my dog on my desk, and after losing him I just feel lost, I grew up with just my mom who worked 80 hour weeks just to make sure I wasn't needing for anything and while I know why she did it, what I needed was her, my dog was the constant in that, moving countries 4 times, losing my friends over and over again, he was the only thing that stayed the same while my life was turbulent and after losing him, I have lost that. I'm lost in a sea of unknown situations and uncomfortable times, and the one thing I need more than ever is my rock. I know its dumb, but I just miss my dog man, he was my brother, my family, everything. and it feels like a part of me can never heal from losing him.
I bawl every time with this one...gotta give extreme respect to any artist that is willing to record their most deep, darkest pain and put it out to the world...it's why and how he is able to reach and help so many
I cry every time I hear this song because I relate to it so much. Like a lot of others do. My mom is still alive but has always been a drug addict who left us waiting, looking out the window for her our whole life. Even to this day. I’ll always have so much respect & love for NF. He’s special & different. This was such a great reaction! Thank you for being vulnerable and honest with your viewers 💛
Thanks Morgan!
Please listen to NF - "If you want love"
I've listened to all of NF's songs and this one, by far, transported me to some of my deepest feelings. Also, goosebumps.
Yesss this one
Omg I knew this would get me. I knew this song for a while and my sister died of overdose and my niece and nephew were in 4th and 5th grade and were going through it and she(my niece) told me this was her song and now I can't really hear it without crying. Its been about a year things are getting better but all the loss we've had in a short time gas been way too much
I am so very sorry. This kind of comment breaks my heart. Blessings to you my dear friend.
He just had his first baby, too. As soon as they told us the news my first thought was him saying that his Mom wouldn’t be there for that. 🥺
Buckle up for the ride NF is gonna take you on. He is a lyrical genius and each song is a story of his life, feelings and thoughts.
NF became my favorite artist really quick after starting the journey. I'm a 50yr old country boy my daughter made me listen to his music and I was instantly impressed he so relatable and I love the real music idea
Many people will recommend going on the NF Journey. These are songs from his albums that connect in some way (lyrically or visually). It’s an unfolding of his story as he lets you into his life. Most will say to do the entire Search album when you get to it. So, if you want, follow this list, and you’ll be well on your way.
Songs from the Mansion album:
- Intro (video)
- Mansion
- All I Have (video)
- Wake Up (video)
- Note Pad (video)
Songs from the Therapy Session album:
- Intro 2 (video)
- Therapy Session (video)
- I Just Wanna Know (video)
- How Could You Leave Us (video)
- Real (video)
- Oh Lord
- Grindin’ ft. Marty (video)
Single between albums:
- Warm Up (video, it’s a subtle visual and hard to see, but his arm tattoo at the end is a piece of the puzzle for the end of a later video)
Songs from the Perception album:
- Outro (video - yes, this is first)
- Intro 3 (remember the song Mansion)
- Outcast (video)
- Green Lights (video)
- Let You Down (video)
Single between albums:
- No Name (video)
- Why (video)
Songs from The Search album:
- The Search (video)
- Leave Me Alone (video)
- Change
- My Stress
- Nate
- Time (video)
- Returns
- When I Grow Up (video)
- Only
- Let Me Go
- Interlude (do with Hate Myself)
- Hate Myself (do with Interlude)
- I Miss the Days
- No Excuses
- Like This
- Options
- Why (you would have already done this)
- Thinking
- Trauma
The entire Search album will lead to a negative article from Rolling Stone which leads to the next single:
- Paid My Dues (video)
You can do Clouds the Mixtape, if you’d like. There is for sure one song that belongs on the journey (besides Paid My Dues mentioned above):
- Lost (video)
I hope this helps!
This song will bring anyone to theirs knees a lot of us have struggled with abandonment in the world and this song just takes someone who doesn’t know how it feels there and that’s impressive it’s an amazing song
He is willing to share his pain to bring comfort to others.
this gives me goosebumps every time I hear it my father (may he rest in peace) when I was around 10 years old was heavy into alcohol woke me and my brothers up drunk and gave us a stern talking to. while he was talking to us in the middle of the night at some point he had grabbed his 22 Rifle and put the barrel of the gun in his mouth my brothers and I got him to take it out and it wasn't long after that incident that we were taken from him and he went somewhere to get sobered up my father had 7 years going on 8 of sobriety before he passed from sepsis after an accident he was in, in 2004 , but what happened that night has stuck with me
Oh my gosh. I'm so sorry that you had to experience something like that.
@@larryshair I'm ok with it now, but that was easily the scariest moment in my life thus far, plus after he sobered up he was always keeping tabs on my brothers and me when he did and didn't have custody of us (a story for another day :D ),.
“Oh Lord” is another good one by NF
It’s crazy to think that he sat with that instrumental on and just cried and talked to himself on the mic for like 15 mins straight. And used to listen to this song by himself on his phone in his bathroom on repeat. 😞 NF is legit one of the most powerful lyricists without profanity that I’ve ever heard. 🤞
I’ve listened to many NF reactions and it never has gotten old watching someone react to him for the first time. I thoroughly enjoyed your two reactions so far. Would love to see more!!!
I definitely recommend you listen to: Mansion, NF, Lost, and so many more!
You can definitely count on it. Once we get past Christmas as I have a Christmas-themed lineup for December, we'll dive deeper into this incredible guy.
NF is one of my favorite artists these days.
He so talented.
I watch NF preform this live at the Norva in Norfolk VA. And u could feel his pain. It was SOO palpable
This song had SUCH a tremendous affect on me personally not only growing up with an IV Heroin addict mother & even now at 65 she's still injecting H & i hated & judged her SO harshly untillll....i got an injury which required multiple surgeries & that was when OC's where the craze; within a year & a half i myself became the 1 thing i SWORE i never would be-an IV H addict! Im now; BY THE GRACE OF GOD, Am about to he 11yrs clean but ill tell u now; DRUGS NEVER RELEASE THEIR GRIP ON U-PLEASSEEE DON'T LET EM IN!!! Thank u for ur reaction💯🙏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
He touches almost everyone, his songs hit so many people. He connects with fans.
The pain gets worse the older you get.
One Of The Best Songs Ever Made, Nate Is A Special Writer And Teller, He Makes Me Cry All The Time, Do People Realise He Never Swears In His Songs?
I lost my mom to her body shutting down with all the pills and booze she had a lot of pain in her heart and brain but also alot of love to give and was a good person who worked everyday till the end.. It's been two years. I still think of her every day ❤
It's such a huge loss. I think of my dad all the time.
And to think this song never got an award....
Every time I listen to this song it reminds me of my friend that passed in January 2021. He died from alcohol and had 2 boys younger than my kids. I just passed 2 years sober and when I think of picking up a drink I think of him and his boys, then my kids😔 I miss my brother and having dealt with alcohol, longer and in a higher capacity than he did, I’m GRATEFUL that I made the decison to stop. Great reaction by the way 😁
Powerful reaction. This song gets me everytime. Thanks for jumping on the NF Journey!
Genuine reaction... this song though... Went to bed one day about 5 years ago with TH-cam music on. Woke up and this song was playing. 1st song I had heard by NF. Listened for a bit and tears started rolling down my cheeks. My brothers and I went through the same thing. Our Mom had drug and mental issues. As an adult now I can see more of my Mom's side and I wish she had a little more help and a little more strength. I love her regardless though and I miss her everyday. As a person who grew up in the Foster care system I can tell you it's a miserable time for every kid... Just to have the feeling in the back of your mind that you're not good enough to keep your parents around and thinking there's something wrong with you is a terrible feeling. Wouldn't wish that feeling on anyone. If anybody who reads this is going through drug addiction and/or mental issues, I believe in you... You can pull through... And to any kid going through the system just remember one thing... ITS NOT YOUR FAULT.... You are loved and as you grow older you'll become stronger and meet more people around you that will love you... I miss you Mom.. RIP
Lost my dad to overdose just last year he was only 49. Heroin is a horrible drug. Miss you so much Pop 😩😞
This song makes me cry everytime I listen to it. My early life was horrible. Filled with drugs. My parents were major drug addicts. My dad made and sold different types of drugs and my mom would take them. Doctors have said that there is a chance my mom was taking them when she was pregnant with me. That's why many medical personnel have told me to not try any type of drug that could be addicting such as pain relievers or even drugs such as marijuana. Because of the fact that I could easily become addicted to them. I have a huge fear of taking any kind of medicine or drug because I don't want to get addicted. It's a huge fear for me. Luckily I was taken out of that situation along with my sister and was adopted. I will never try any type of drug
Wow, sounds like we have similar backgrounds. Castle and Arose drops on the 25th and 26th. I tell a story on the 26th. Check it out. Blessings to you, my friend.
NF is one of the greatest arts to take difficult topics or emotions that society ignores like mental health and well being and gives his experiences, thoughts and prayers through the lens of a man walking in faith and authenticity. His music is therapy for me as I’m a man in my mid 30’s who often feels very isolated even amongst my fellow Christians. I haven’t dealt with any drug use myself or with family but I feel NF’s lyrics and the expression of pain and sorrow in such a visceral way in his writing. Apparently, that last part he kicked everyone out of the studio and was simply crying and talking to his mom, releasing that pain out as well as some anger for sure too. I do know that he has grown from this song and doesn’t view his mom in the same way with the anger but sorrow leaves us with the choice of forgiveness or bitterness and that’s sometimes more of a messy road than we’d like to admit. I admire Nate’s honesty and relate to his blunt expressions of where he’s at in life as his music is a diary of how he feels and what he’s going through. God has used his music to speak life into people like me and others, it’s definitely encouraging to know that someone else goes through moments of life grieving or in deep sorrow, there’s often more comfort in that kind of company and it’s allowed me to really value and acknowledge my own pain as well as seeing Jesus in a way that allows me to not only share in His joys but also His sorrows. I believe it’s helped me become someone who views others with a great deal of empathy because my desire is that everyone would know that they’re not alone in what they’re going through and people love them and can direct them to a God that will heal but to get there requires being true to yourself and being authentic in whatever your life is like in the present.
Sorry for my long comment, I just really appreciate and love seeing people experience NF’s music because I know how powerful it is. Your reaction was really great and I think the more you listen to his other songs, the more you’ll see the impact he has and continues to grow inside the hip hop industry that is dying for something that’s meaningful in the overarching message that industry tends to lean toward. NF is in his own lane but his convictions to be himself added with incredible production and his talents and hard work are breaking down walls to conversations and emotions that we should talk about more because we’re all human and not meant to live life alone.
I’m excited to see more reactions from you channel and hello also from Orange County, I saw in your reaction to Story that you’re living around here too. God bless you and your family sir and thanks for posting a genuinely interesting reaction. This is great content.
Hey Kdubb, thank you so very much for your comments. I’m sorry to hear about your experience with her some questions don’t engage with you. Your thoughtful comments really resonate with me. If you ever need to talk, chat me up. I also attend Calvary chapel of Fullerton. You can look it up and it be great to meet you. Currently, I’m dealing with Covid and I’ll most likely be out of church for the next several weeks, so there’s that. Blessings to you my brother!
You have no idea how much quality are in the lyricism of rap and metal. Barely even have to dig. Pure music comes from the soul. Nothing ugly from that.
This song still gets me everytime. I’m proud to say my mother has 35 years sober, I’m only 30. So I never experienced her addiction, but as a single mother I was at ever single NA meeting. This song breaks my heart for Nate but gives me such gratitude for my mom. This easily could’ve been my life had she not had the strength to overcome.
Subbed for the NF reactions. Having intelligence behind a reaction is a breath of fresh air. Having wisdom when analyzing NF's music critical. Having both and appreciating this is someone's life in music form makes for outstanding reaction content.
Thanks again, JSW!! Be watching for more after we get past the Christmas content this month :)
You are seriously my favorite reactor. So under rated. As soon as I found your channel I have been so happy to watch your REAL emotion and response.
Thank you for exposing yourself like this, it's inspiring.
Jared, thank you so much for your kind words. This has been my pleasure and totally my honor that people like you enjoy this old dude listening to music. You inspire me, to be frankly honest. Thank you brother. Blessings.
This song always gets me just from hearing the pain in his voice
I dont believe there is a single human that can listen to this song and not get touched in some shape or form even if you life is perfectly happy and good
Agreed!!!
If feel like there’s a softball in my throat every time I hear this.
At the beginning of the year I hadn't heard of either Aurora or NF but they are now two artists whose songs touch me very deeply. I have never been into rap but I discovered NF after listening to Harry Mack freestyles ( very different vibes but amazing to watch). NF's music transcends the genre for me and at the same time gives me a greater appreciation of rap than I'd had before. One of the finds of the year for me.
This hits very close to home.. as a younger brother, I have watched my older brother grow up as an addict to pills. And just recently lasted year, it has gotten super bad, him having severe highs/episodes causing him to run around the house cluelessly, seizures, etc.. and just remebering the night that it was just me and him and he had an episode and I try to do my best watching him about to die.. I’m just glad we were finally able to get him to agree to go a rehab center and he’s been doing better. I’m just hoping that he can get better.
New sub here. You got through his most emotional song at the beginning which is good. The rest of his catalog is smooth sailing if you continue. He is a genius story teller! Hope you check out Mansion next.
Yea these NF fans put Larry through the ringer with these first two songs. LOL
Now he’s got to listen to therapy session to get through the 3 most intense songs
Some would claim Mansion is more emotional..
Guess it depends what type of demons you are locked up with.
Speaking as a grown woman..but once a hurt child, thank you to every parent that made the effort to get clean. Your babies will never have to wonder what was truly important to you. They’ll never have to question their worth. There’s so much deep trauma you took out of their story by making that effort.
17 yo here who used to be a daddy's girl until alcohol became more important when I was at the ripe age of 5. I just remember the excitement of waiting for him to get home and getting ignored and yelled at when he got another bottle. At its worst he could get physical but I got his anger issues so it was a constant two way frustration and anger.
I'm so sorry.
I watched this 5 years ago and to say it was hard to watch is an understatement. My son, who was 5 then, was affected by his mother's choices so this really hit home. I sent this video to her in hopes that it may change something. It did not. She went on to have 2 daughters 1800 miles away from us whom were taken, one at 2 years old and the other at birth. She was just sentenced to 3 years prison for possession of over an ounce of meth. I just found out her new husband, the father of her 2 daughters, died from an overdose. My son is 10 and does not know anything but you can tell on occasion he's missing something. You're absolutely right, whatever we do in life it affects every person near and dear to us. I hope people that are struggling with addiction see this and take something positive away from it. God bless.
I can’t even begin to imagine.
In the last part you actually here NF cry. In the studio, while recording he couldnt keep it together and they decited to put it in the song.
I’ve heard this song 100x and I cry every time.
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Amazing, heartbreaking song...NF is a Phenomenal Artist...Thank you
Man, I'm very happy to find your channel you do a great job. Growing up in a broken household this song gets me teary eyed every time I hear it. I'm glad you're enjoying NF's music it means a lot to a lot of us.
I had never heard of NF until today (metal head from Australia) just wanna say thank you, the tears streaming down my face are real and this song connects with me on a very raw level...NF is now on my play list...
You and me both, brother!
This was my childhood, but with my dad.
What a tender-hearted reaction. ♥️
My mom was a drug addict and still is even after my dad passed...so growing up she was really never there for me or my sisters...I love this song because I can relate to it so much
He does so many different things, styles and true artist!
I went through this with my mom at 9 and it's killed me inside ever since. Not a day goes by where I don't think about the call I got that day. It's been 19 years and feels like it was yesterday. This song is amazing but really crushed my heart when I first heard it. Me and my brothers only have our memories of her now and sometimes that just doesn't feel like enough. I love you mom.
NF is the most real ethnic rap artist out there. He does not curse or talk down on women. I took my 12 year old son to see him live in Philly. Was just so amazing, we have so much respect for this man.
You are truly 'real'. Appreciate you and your words.
BEAUTIFUL, "real" reaction. Thank you for this.
Another great reaction. As always. Another song of NF's to consider is If You Want Love. Great story. Great message. Stay genuine.
Didn't think I could ever watch this one again, but I wanted to see your reaction to NF. Beautiful as always. He's a rapper, but he can sing too. He has a beautifully sad song, "Trauma" that I thnk you would appreciate. I have a feeling you will be doing more NF reactions...at least I hope so :)
"Mansion" is a great song too. Everything he does is insanely good, and rooted in his childhood.
This one really hits close to home. I am very grateful for for my mother.. she fought and won against her addictions. She's 7 years clean and i am proud of her.. thanks for reminding me to appreciate there even more.
I love that you were able to show your vulnerability to this song. NF is highly underrated. He should get a Grammy for this one.♥️
Thank you for doing this. Its amazing to have an older point of view from something that hits so close to home. I appreciate you for helping open my eyes to what has happened in the past. This song was always in my playlists, but it never clicked until watching this. Thank you again.
Thanks Michael!
It's incredible the amount of stuff I've been through and kept a strong face but this song just hits something within me every single time. I've never heard this song and not shed a tear.
No matter how much I listen to this song I still can't get through it without tears the pain through his voice gets me every time but I think it's a song everyone should hear
Take the NF journey. Someone here will have the list. It's so worth it. It's like a positive rap audio story book of sorts filled with real emotion fear,anger,hurt, jealousy etc
He said that this song came from a place of anger. He also said he wouldn’t write this song today because he has a level of grace for his mother that he didn’t have when he wrote is.
This gets me everytime!
I have watched and listened to that song so many times and it gets me everytime. His heartbreak. Every parent who takes drugs needs to see this song to hear the impact it has on children. I'm so glad in my drug days I didn't have children that I could have hurt.
So moving.
NF truly has an astounding way with words, the raw emotion is just exactly that, raw
This song gets me everytime. I had twins prematurely and they fit in my hands. I felt them take their last breath and go cold. I jumped to drugs and alcohol ONLY to be numb and in hoping that they would take my life. I overdosed 2x and I felt so ANGRY at the time. I was hit with Narcan and brought back. I had a checkup at the doctor and found out I was pregnant with my daughter. 3 months in. I told myself my twins gave me this beautiful gift and something to love for. My twins were born September 29. My survivor was born September 13th. Twins were due on Valentines Day and my son was born February 17th. It doesn’t just feel to me it was a coincidence. My girls in Heaven gave me those wonderful gifts. I will never turn to drugs again. I will NEVER let my children see me high. This hits me on another level for me.
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One of my all time favorite NF songs that is just a beautiful masterpiece is Mansion. The symbolism that he uses to showcase his struggles is unrivaled.
You should definitely do "The Search" next!
Huge NF fan. Other than Eminem, he is the one artist that genuinely tugs my heart strings with how relatable his content is. It's like he's telling my story.
You are so freakin genuine in your responses. Can’t stop watching. Also very easy on the 👀 thank you for all the feels
Thanks so much!
I feel him, my mom became a crack addict when I was in high-school. I remember coming home from school and one of her crack addict friends sleeping in couch at like 2pm and getting so mad I flipped the couch with him on it and told him to get out. My dad died but mom got reasonably better so I feel lucky
Love your reactions. Not many people actually feel the words of a song anymore.
I'd never actually heard this song until now. I've listened to a decent amount of NF but honestly Pandora picks and chooses what is playing for me for the most part. Seeing this with the MV... Dang man. Not even gonna lie, I forgot I was watching a reaction to it. Completely forgot you were there until it paused. I was Lost in it. So deeply emotional in many ways.
This whole song is literally my childhood like a wrote it. My mom eventually overdosed in front of me as I was using with her. I tried CPR and failed. Today I’m 8 years sober and have a daughter who’s the spitting image of her. This song gets me every time. Especially the end.
I'm so very sorry. So glad to hear of your sobriety. Blessings to you my friend.
"The things we do, you know? It affects more than just ourselves" -larryshair @7:21
What I love about NF is the power in his voice. It‘s like he‘s directly shouting at his mom. It‘s so pure. He is amazing
I am a grown ass man and a truck driver, this song gets me tearing up just from the beginning audio, never a dry eye at the end of this song. IDC what people say, even the strongest men cry, emotions are good for the soul and show you're alive 🤟🏽
Great reaction, NF makes you feel it right in the heart.
Well-said!
At the end of the song when he starts crying there was suppose to be another verse but he couldn’t bring himself to do it and asked everyone to leave the recording booth and poured his heart out to his mom
I brought my children up in heroin addiction for a long time but I never missed a schhol play or appointment or birthday parties I did because you're an addict you don't have to be absent. Having said that we have just lost the father of my youngest daughter to pills 😭 she's broken 💔 makes me feel horrible because we were addicts together for 14yrs but we transitioned from heroin to pills and that took him.....😭😭😭😭 so we get this song!
Wow, I am so very sorry
Every word of this song cuts and allowing myself to feel it has actually helped me heal. I'm not so angry and bitter these days.
NF is so good but I can't listen to this song very often I tear up every time I hear it
Wow. That has me crying through the whole thing. I never saw/heard this before now. Just cracked my chest open right here in my chair so absolutely crushingly sad.
Still crying. It’s hard to type. I gotta go take a deep breath and do something for a bit. Wasn’t expecting to get smashed in the feels by a song on my lunch break.
Great reaction! Another great musical video from NF is “let you down” 196 million views or so.
Great reaction! “Mansion” followed by “Intro 3” by NF are absolutely amazing lyrically. They go together in order. Neither have an official video but there are lyric videos for them.
It’s such a sacred space listening to this song. This is only second time for me to be listening because it’s too painful. I’ve been a fan for a while, but it is all too real.
I would love to see you react to more NF if you are willing.
Nfrealmusic/movies! Stay blessed!
Lyricists and rappers are like hot tubs and jacuzzis. All jacuzzis are hot tubs but not all hot tubs are jacuzzis. There’s something so beautiful when you find a good lyricist. Love your reactions man. ✌🏻
Thanks again, Dave!
NF is one of the best artists ever!