Why I Hated My First Year at CalArts 😢STORY TIME
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 1 ก.ค. 2024
- Hey everyone, just wanted to share some of the truth behind taking the next big step in life. Not everything is perfect and it's gonna be different for everyone. Let me know if you would like to see a part 2 and 3!
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If you realized there are thousands of artists better than you only when you went to college, your childhood was just incredible
@@shayennes1089 how do you know they were working on their skills less hard than you were? Sounds like a bunch of self praising
not me my life sucked
Lk6t@@anyaisma48782:35 😅
Transferred to SCAD just last year at the age of 22 coming from community college. I can tell a lot of the younger students are really struggling, and I think me being older makes a big difference. It’s amazing what a few more years of life experience will do to your mindset and social skills.
I'm 18 and I'm also thinking about going to a community college and then transferring to SCAD
@Mathis what??
Oml this is me. I’m applying for the spring of 24 at the ripe age of 21 (I will be 21 by then) and I definitely can say it’s easier to have more confidence after my two year gap
If you don’t mind me asking how did your community college experience affect your time at scad? 😄I’m interested in getting my associates degree first also then transferring over! Did you save a lot in terms of tuition doing general Ed at a community college? And did you work on your portfolio more? Also what did you major in at your community college ?
Eeeeeeh what about me being 29 and want to change orientation 🥲 I am so affraid @@inhobiswinecellar9571
I relate so much to the "omg they're all infinitely better than me" fear and not wanting to draw in front of others. Even now I still have the issue with not being able to simplify. If its not show stopping and emotional, then I'm not trying hard enough/its a bad idea. Even though numerous people do simple ideas all the time and do great, my mind can't comprehend that for myself. I can't even sketch because of it because I feel like I'm wasting time when I could be making something amazing, especially since I work very slow.
That’s crazy because it sounds a lot like how i make art haha
I’m in my first year of a small Christian college as an animation student, currently trying to look into transfer options because I am MISERABLE but also scared of going out into the real world. This is super helpful advice both for making the most out of my current situation and what to keep in mind while transferring. Thank you Michelle!!
How funny, I did animation at Regent
I'm glad this can help in any way shape or form, and really hoping you find your way out of the school if it's making you unhappy! T_T Wishing the best for you and hope my videos can continue to help!
online animation school is a good option
this comment took me by surprise, becuase I was a gaming and animation student at a small christian college, and was miserable (I ended up graduating with a design degree because I hated the program so much)
Funnily enough I’m in the exact situation…here for the same reason.
Im currently in my 2nd year of film school @ sheridan and like others in here, im utterly miserable. I wanna switch into animation but im scared of dropping out, I don’t know if school is 100% necessary and im kinda freaking out. I relate a lot to this video and The fact that u made it past ur hardships is super inspiring to me :) ty for making this vid!
So sorry to hear youre feeling that way 😔 i think if its possible to try to get into the animation program in your school that would be awesome! You should definitely try to follow what it is you truly want to do instead of over investing in something making you unhappy ☹️ wishing you the best!!
Ahh I was actually looking at Sheridan pretty seriously as a transfer option, do you not enjoy the people/culture there? Good luck to you from a fellow student freaking out!
I was in the exact same boat. My biggest regret was staying in my flm program and not switching into animation. As an outsider looking in it’s easy for me to tell you, “follow your instincts!” but I understand that sometimes it’s not that easy. As cheesy as it sounds…follow your heart. If you feel you want to do animation and that is your love and passion, then go for it! But know that you will be starting from the beginning again. Pour all of your efforts to learn as much as you can. I understand that this is unsolicited advice, but I couldn’t help it. I was in the SAME boat years ago and stayed miserable in the film program I was in. 😔
@@strawberrik Not unsolicited at all! this is kinda what i needed to hear, not gonna lie. i thought about this comment for a few days now and it honestly gave me some courage to know that you can start again and be okay, with a lot of commitment obviously. ive been thinking of a game plan for the next few months but i think im ready to go for it!! thank you so much for the advice! and i hope youre not still miserable with what youre doing!
@@mewTripled i was not at all expecting you of all people to reply but honeslty, thank you so much! your videos plus this have been helping me gather up the courage to drop out of film. i think instead of sheridan, ill be looking at other not so expensive places, cos its like what you said in this vid, there are other alternatives that dont involve gauging my eyes out in debt out of wanting to go "the top animation program in Canada". all in all, im really grateful for your advice! keep on doin what u do cos ur awesome :D
what you said about realising you ‘wasted’ a whole year because of your inner doubts and reservations REALLY resonated with me…it’s so hard to realise this and yet have trouble breaking out of the cycle! Thank you for always being so frank and vulnerable with us, it really helps to know that other people were able to get through challenges like these
I really appreciate these videos! I definitely empathise with those feelings as well, I just turned 18 and I'm going to Uni before (hopefully) going to CalArts, and I 100% need to deal with that fear that I am currently in the process doing, and by the time I apply, I hope I get over it and get in, and I really love that you give a realistic and honest view of it, in a way, it motivates me as well so thank you so much Michelle!
Thank you so much! Glad this helps in any way, but I also hope you have a good school year!!
@@mewTripled thank you as well!!
I went to a different art school, but I wish I was able to overcome that fear myself. I spent 4 years there alone, afraid of others and afraid of putting myself out there, only to drop out with a year left because it became too much stress and was super unhealthy for me. I still learned a lot, but it made me afraid of art itself, and of failure, and I'm currently working through those things on my own so that I can learn to love art again. Of course, a lot of this had to do with just the professors and mindset of the school in general (I feel it was pretty toxic), but still. If I was able to overcome those fears my first or second year, I could probably have had a much better time and actually made new friends and built up a little support system. I'm both glad I'm not the only one who has dealt with this, and also sorry that others have felt this way too. Our feelings are valid, but I wish we didn't have to feel this way. (Also, dropping out was honestly the best decision I could have made in my situation, and I'm so much happier now. I just wanted to talk about my experience, haha)
I really feel the fear part 😭 i study animation in Japan so culture’s different which makes me feel my experience is the opposite (enjoyment first then fear comes in later). I’m a third year trying to build my portfolio to prepare for the job search in my last year.
Ahh I'm really hoping the fear will lessen over time :( But hope you are having a good time otherwise!! Wishing the best of luck for your portfolio and job search!!
@@mewTripled I know this comment’s a year old, but I’m happy to inform you that I just started my first animation job as a in between artist at a studio!! Tho technically I’m on training for at least a month lol.
Fear did lessen and once job hunting season started I was like “it is what it is”. Tho I did have a hard time, had a blast in my final year of uni :D thank you for all the advices and talks on your channel! You’re the best.
i don’t plan on going to art school but i can relate to being really scared when finally being around other artists…
in high school i took a couple advanced art classes where most of the people taking the class were art students.
i was really scared of how the other students would perceive my art so i never showed it unless it was for critiques. 😿 i regret not being more outgoing around my classmates, since i feel like a lot of them seemed like cool people.
this is legit so relatable 😭 so happy you're in a better place now, you deserve everything!!
thank you for talking about this! i was at my first year of animation school at esma last year but i had a very similar expirience to yours, i luckly made one friend there but i couldn't keep up with the subjects because the school leans very heavily on how well you do in terms of grades, and the first year is *incredibly* rough on the grades. i sadly didn't pass because of a combination of my mental health and the school not helping out much, but i want to go back there and have a more mature experience, thanks for sharing your story! also my deepest condolences for your grandfather
You explaining your first year feel is so funny to me, because it’s super relatable 😆 And I’m happy you talked about the lonely part of college too. I’m back in college, and I have a terrible time making other friends. I just refuse to put myself out there and I always make excuses. I’m happy I wasn’t the only one with this problem
Thank you so much for making this video! I've been following your channel in several other accounts ever since you uploaded "Endlessly", and this video really means a lot to me. I live in a 3rd world country but I want to be a professional illustrator one day after school is over, but stuff like finances are always a worry of mine. And I've always wanted to go to college overseas too, but I'm really scared I won't be able to fit in or learn properly, even if my english skills aren't bad. So this video really reassured me, knowing that someone as cool as you went through hardships too, and that despite it all you still reached success. Thanks so much for sharing your experiences so honestly
I'm so glad you made this video. I just finished my first year at CalArts and had mostly the same issues that you talked about. I made a group of friends outside of Character towards the beginning of the year, and I clung onto them. When our group eventually broke apart, I realized I didn't have many friends, and that most people in our program had no idea what I really was like. Instead of trying to fix that, I wallowed and got all depressed feeling like I wasn't going to make it. I've already made a promise to myself that 2nd year is going to be different, and this video definitely helped to make that change! Thank you!!
Thanks so much for keeping this real, I feel the same a lot!! I’m so glad someone else can relate
I loved this video! As someone in whos in a small artschool and struggling with a lot of insecurities about my art I always thought people at calarts didn't have to deal with insecurities because all the animations and sketchbooks I've seen were so good!
This will be my first year at design college. I am really inspired by your videos and work. Thank you so much queen!
Honestly the chances of getting employment after attending cal arts is ridiculously better than around the world. You can be the same level other places in the world but because of geography or lack financial access you don’t even have the same chances. I think partially the cost must be paying for the name. I really wanted to go to cal arts but it was too expensive snd I couldn’t apply for any scholarships. But there is always other ways! :)
What are the other ways exactly?
How come you couldn’t apply for scholarships ?
i love these videos of you being honest, im going through this right now and it made me realize it most of it really is just my anxiety holding me back from making any friends ^_^;
haven't watched all of the video yet but thank you SO much for the english captions!! 💓
Hi Michelle! This is literally my first year ay CalArts, and omg I relate so much with so many things you have been saying trough the video! I have been feeling so many similar emotions as your first year, so I am glad I am not the only one because I thought I was going crazy. Thank you for sharing your experience, I have been learning that I must heal many parts of myself in order to enjoy Calarts, thank you truly for this! It has encouraged me to keep going.
This is really helpful. I’m a first year architecture student and there’s so much I enjoy abt it but there’s also some things I hate too. Ik I’m going to get my butt kicked by this major but I’m really determined to make it all the way through
Love you videos ,thank you for making my day better 💕
My first year at an art school was very similar. And I didn't keep many friends before then. My time in college I lost friends still but I did retain a few. I think that has to do with maturing through adulthood and school with other like minds. My first year sucked and I actually felt I was very behind. Competition in school helped with a lot of my artistic insecurities. But my personal ones outweighed artistic ones so I didn't do much my first year. It got a lot better in the end. But to have more confidence to talk to others and show my work more was an important aspect to work on for myself. It's something that helps me out a lot now. That was the only thing I regret not doing as much. That and building a better portfolio while in school.
Thank you for the vid.
-Cj
Ive been feeling conflicted to go back to SCAD (Savannah College of Art and Design) because my first year (this year) was a total mess. I finally made it into a school I wanted to go first and not go to some 2 year school just to get slapped with "ohs, the family is moving"... It was hard to keep up with the classes, especially my first animation classs, the one thing I was looking forward to, yet I did NOT have much of a skill in digital art since I was more traditional...I was sooo NERVOUS and SCARED because I felt like I was drawing so horrible compared to my irl art skills. I didn't make any friends, which dismissed the point of making a Discord to join their servers to talk to them. I'm still debating to go back to the school (mainly because of the tuition) and also I'm a bit nervous to move out my home to be closer to the school, but this video made me feel a bit more relaxed now that I see that my experience is pretty normal enough compared to other artists in freshman year. So thanks for posting this. I'm so glad I voted this video idea in your poll :)
I'm considering going to SCAD for performing Arts! do you like the people environment there? I've been accepted, but I'm really torn
I love her personality and work. Wish her the best!
im a college first year, fine arts student and sometimes i do everything perfect and afraid to be left out because i feel like it is a competition that sometime i did not like what im doing and im stress out. if you ever feel like you are not good enogh just think this we have different style and all of us are great in our own way.
have fun and have a great year guys see you in art world😁
I would love to hear about your other years at school!
I didn't realize I wanted to do art/animation until after it was too late to change to it. My school didn't even offer it. It took so long to figure out what I wanted to do because I didn't even speak to a single like-minded student or teacher my entire time there.
Hows your life now?
yeah how’s life now? if you don’t mind sharing
Thank you for this video🙂💕
I’m in highschool and I’m on my first year as a Freshman, I’ve been debating my career in the future and I didn’t really know how to start at all, I want to start my own comic but my parents tell me I’m going to get stress so for now I’m doing comics for my friends to see, Thank you for making this video, it really does help me and others and I can’t wait to start my own comic and share it with more people >:)✨
Ooooo that Joshua Tree tat looking fresh!
Im in art school right now and i totally relate to that anxiety and imposter syndrome feeling of needing to be the best. I still feel it a lot (medication helped lol) but first year it was sooooop bad
Do you feel art school is worth it?
ive taken my first actual art class last week and it was sort of like a camp, i definitely felt this exact way and worrying about people judging me and not finishing on time as well(i sent my project to my home computer to finish working on it before the last day 😭). although the class was more like work time and nobody really talked i still felt really awkward and stifiled in a way ig 😭and i was really anxious to ask the teacher to help or even say something (ive struggled with this in the past in general and mostly gotten over it but it just felt like it was back all over with feeling like people were judging me AAAAAAAAA) but on the last day i did ask the teacher for help and he was screen sharing and trying to help with my audio on his computer so my animation was playing up on the screen for people to see and one person just glanced at it and didnt pay much attention, i think that really helped me with thinking that people were judging because they didint really care lol and also the teacher was friendly and made jokes and all and i was too awkward to respond but i think that the whole experience helped, even if this wasnt on the level of a whole college year lol i think that the next time i take an art class of some sort ill be less anxious, i have no idea why i made this comment i guess i just related to your experience :D
I do not want to make the stereotype, but I am Asian, and I feel the same way towards the assigned tasks. I am currently attending the 3D animation program in my local college, and I always get stressed about any projects. I did scare of working on my project at the lab and how people would react to my shit. I am not confident about myself or even my work at all ... I can’t explain. I will transfer next Fall, and I am planning for my future. Cal Arts is one of my options; however, again, I believe I lose my self-esteem in drawing and animating stuff. Watching your video, I grab my pencil and do something on my sketchbook. Insanely, I feel better. Thank you!
we used to have a dirty gag going on in room A113, nobody should actually know about it... just know, there is um... man juice on a certain part of the floor that was never cleaned up.. you can use a blacklight to see it xD
Anyone have any tips to make friends? Im not at an art school but I’m studying graphic design at a university. I’m in clubs and stuff and I approach ppl but it’s just hard to mantain connections with them.. it’s the third week of school and I feel like everyone has already established their friend groups and honestly I feel kinda left out 🙃
Great vid btw I honestly relate a little especially on the insecure part
Just keep trying to meet people...and keep going to the same clubs. That's what I did in college 😅 it worked out p well i think. Also try making friends in your major- you'll naturally start tight groups in your major while doing group projects 😅😅 I hope it helps!
I'd say just keep talking to them and helping them too.
I went to an art school that became affiliated with a university but didnt really feel any different from art college other than costing more lol
and since it was built in the 50's it had a very weird layout
I completely relate with comparing with other art students
I'm about to graduate my crappy local "business artsy school" and I don't know I would have preferred to go to calarts but I never could have for being so poor. I studied a subject I never knew anything about and I'm glad I did because i get the impression I would have been miserable if I learned my passion. 2d animation. So passion will always be my passion. My school is very expense and falling apart. I can't wait to graduate but also uncertain about the future. Also what did I study? 3d animation and modeling. My degrees says animation and game design but my teachers give me the impression they have no clue how games are made.
In this video you mention other schools of animation, and do you recommend any? Is it worth spending all that money, or instead you can do it yourself? Also, did you end up graduating Cal Arts?
It's funny see that your speed in your films were about your fear, when there are my same reason to don't finish mine :') (sorry, my english it's bad :cc)
Oh my god the thing about your art being the only thing that gives you value... and suddenly realising it's "not that good", those my experiences exactly
I find this so sooo soooo relatable!! I felt so insecure about my work too when I started at my university. When I first started there, I literally scouted out like who I was up against 🥲. Like I just needed to know how everyone's work was to figure out if I needed to work hard or change what I was doing 😂. I also didn't make friends with my classmates till like my 3rdish year. I totally understand how you feel!! And here I thought I was being silly for thinking in that way. 😭
*work harder
Omg i miss your videos. I stopped doing anything art related for a month lol
Aww thanks! And I'm sorry to hear you've been in a rut, hope it gets better soon! :'O
@@mewTripled I'm always like this every year idk why
This was really interesting. I graduated a year ago and my first year was definitely way rougher than sitting final exams during a pandemic. I felt very out of my depth as the school is arguably one of the best in the country and I've never really considered myself particularly academic. I'm glad I stuck with it though as my friends are amazing and I got to do so many extracurricular things that I wouldn't have done otherwise even though my grades weren't perfect. I even got to write about comics for my dissertation haha.
Home tour PLEASE its so aesthetic
Ahh thanks! Maybe one day when I clean and tidy it up a bit more!! X'D
So I did two years at cal arts in the music program and personally I think the music program is alot worse than the animation program. I got gifted a really really good scholarship there for my talent but at the end of the day they made sure to tell me that everyday and definitely made me feel different to the other kids in my program and not in a good way. They didn’t like that I performed and got lots of opportunities outside of school. I found being in competition with some of my vocal teachers because we were trying to get gigs at the same places except I would get them and my teachers wouldn’t….. I had to leave because ultimately I felt my artistry being stifled. I felt I really couldn’t be myself or try to get things outside of school. It was sad because I had an amazing scholarship but I felt not supported by a lot of my teachers. I even had teachers there telling me I shouldn’t be there and that I would do better if I left.
I'm way out of animation school and am working and all but hearing this made me feel so.....happy!? I always felt bad in a way for having the similar kinds of feelings, of course I knew there's nothing to blame myself for it but ..it just felt so...shameful to have feelings of self-pity and all that. I'm really happy to have listened to this video. Thank you ✨❤️ so much. ✨
I feel you on that roommate situation. She can go to HIS place. Doesn’t feel safe with some random dude in your space. At least your RA helped you, I woke up to him choking her and she STILL went back to him 🙄🙄🙄🙄
Is it bad if I transfer in on my third year? Cuz I’m in Community and I wanna transfer there lol I was gonna apply but I got scared some didn’t lol
That’s why I like cal arts it’s not like other colleges or art schools even
Glad to know I'm not the only one who had an uncomfortable freshman dorm experience with a roommate's bf lol.
While watching the vid
I DREW U :D
Working at the cal arts is great but there’s one thing you should do. Do a complex animation style and don’t follow the shitty cal arts style a lot of cartoon creators love these days
you ability to talk this long and hold a stream of cohesion is very impressive.
Anyone studying or going to study animation in india can yall please reply to this comment i need someone to talk to im literally so scared
hii i’m not studying *in* india, but i am an indian studying at calarts. do you still need someone to talk to?
@@diya.joseph omg hi congrats on getting into calarts. Is there any other way i can contact you other than this comment section
wow… seems really difficult when you cage yourself like that 💀
omg yeah bish everyone had a first bad year somewhere
haha yes you're right!
This sounds like trauma
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You rambled for hours before u got to the point. it sounds like someone wining...yall youtubers need to write out points instead of free style..." I felt insecure of myselft" wtf
the fact you were insecure about your SKETCHBOOK at 18 and me thinking it looks better than my art at 26...gotta catch up ig.